Facing My Demons. Facing My Reality.
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Bless you, Chrystal, for having the courage to share your personal journey. I will pray that your pain will lessen and you will be able to reach your weight goal.
Hope to see you over at my blog – http://marthaorlando.blogspot.com
Blessings to you!
I can say this from experience, abusing yourself, doesn't work. Honesty is important. You can't lie about the fact your pants don't fit because they shrunk. You really didn't see the extra fat, etc. However, becoming disgusted and self abusive is not self-motivating it just makes you more depressed and harder to motivate.
You have some tough challenges and you are going to have to find a way to be kind to yourself, not let yourself slide further, but be kind as you find exercises that work with your physical challenges. Accept that it is harder to lose the weight as you get older and now add more health challenges you didn't have when you were younger. Self abuse will not help. Focus on solutions that will work. Otherwise you are just looking to sabatoge any chance you have of success.
Oh I am so identifying with this, I have the same issue with weight and with pain. Different causes but the same anyway. I am trying to keep my heart from stopping, you would think that would be incentive enough, I have grandchildren to take cre of yet I am so tired. I am years older than you. I pray you can find peace and release. Jan
Thank you Martha for your prayers. I really do appreciate them!
My husband is 4 years younger than me and hes on medications to control his blood pressure, heart, and other things. Heart disease runs in his family. We are trying to get him healthy too, but he is so stubborn. I had hoped to have a child of my own someday, its hard enough to keep up with his 7 yr old in the body I am in. I have let my weight get in the way of so many things in life. I will keep you in my prayers Jan.
I am seriously trying not to beat myself up. I have always been my own worst enemy. I emotionally eat and have issues with food that stem from my childhood abuse. I know that. I have tried to get treatment for it. I am sure I need treatment again. I have food issue. It is not my only issue. The pain is an issue. So, sometimes even when I am motivated, its hard to get going. I just keep trying. I have been trying since I started the Nutrisystem blogger program last year, and still nothing. That scale is not moving. Its just hard to stay positive when you are frustrated because it seems like your hard work was for nothing. But I just can't give up. Not now. Not this time. I can't stay in this body any longer. I will keep trying. And I will try harder to focus on the days I do good things.
I guess you have to ask yourself what the motivation for the pictures is to decide if you are doing it to have an honest evaluation of where you are and facing the truth, which we all need to do. It is so easy to avoid the truth or if you are doing it as a means of self abuse. Only you know, but it comes across as more abusive than a reality check.
Reality seems to be an admission that what you are trying isn't working and the weight is still there. You've done that by switching weight programs and acknowleding what you are doing isn't working. You can't accept that and give up or it can kill you. However, the goal has to be finding another solution, not abusing yourself because you it isn't working. That just leads to more failure.
Frustration is going to be part of the journey. The older and more physically challenged we get the harder it is to lose weight. The more frightening it gets because the weight can lead to even more physical challenges which of course leads to more weight issues and more limited options for exercise and diet. You can't lie to yourself or make excuses that allow the behaviors to continue, but my experience is abusing myself just makes it harder to achieve any success.
You deserve better.
I am admitting the truth. My choices led me here. I can blame the depression, PTSD, anxiety, disk disease or the arthritis. Or I can face facts that yes, these things are wrong with me, but I still made the choice to not exercise and eat what I did. I can't do that anymore. I can't hide behind these illnesses and use them as excuses. Now I am on a mission to find a formula that works for me whether its using the points system or tracking calories. I have to track what goes in and the exercise. I do this to keep myself accountable. I just keep telling myself – I did it once, I can do it again.