tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.archive2010-12-28T16:50:24.119-05:00The Self Employed WriterChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comBloggertag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.layout2008-07-11T20:25:06.323-04:002010-12-28T16:50:24.119-05:00Template: The Self Employed Writer<?xml version="1.0" encoding="UTF-8" ?>
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<b:else/>
<h4 id='comment-post-message'><data:postCommentMsg/></h4>
<p><data:blogCommentMessage/></p>
<data:blogTeamBlogMessage/>
<a expr:href='data:post.commentFormIframeSrc' id='comment-editor-src'/>
<iframe allowtransparency='true' class='blogger-iframe-colorize blogger-comment-from-post' frameborder='0' height='410' id='comment-editor' name='comment-editor' src='' width='100%'/>
</b:if>
<data:post.friendConnectJs/>
<data:post.cmtfpIframe/>
<b:if cond='data:showCmtPopup'>
<div id='comment-popup' style='width:100px;height:20px;'>
<iframe allowtransparency='true' frameborder='0' id='comment-actions' name='comment-actions' scrolling='no'>
</iframe>
</div>
</b:if>
<script type='text/javascript'>
BLOG_CMT_createIframe('<data:post.appRpcRelayPath/>', '<data:post.communityId/>');
</script>
</div>
</b:includable>
<b:includable id='backlinkDeleteIcon' var='backlink'>
<span expr:class='"item-control " + data:backlink.adminClass'>
<a expr:href='data:backlink.deleteUrl' expr:title='data:top.deleteBacklinkMsg'>
<img src='//www.blogger.com/img/icon_delete13.gif'/>
</a>
</span>
</b:includable>
<b:includable id='mobile-nextprev'>
<div class='blog-pager' id='blog-pager'>
<b:if cond='data:newerPageUrl'>
<div class='mobile-link-button' id='blog-pager-newer-link'>
<a class='blog-pager-newer-link' expr:href='data:newerPageUrl' expr:id='data:widget.instanceId + "_blog-pager-newer-link"' expr:title='data:newerPageTitle'><data:newerPageTitle/></a>
</div>
</b:if>
<b:if cond='data:olderPageUrl'>
<div class='mobile-link-button' id='blog-pager-older-link'>
<a class='blog-pager-older-link' expr:href='data:olderPageUrl' expr:id='data:widget.instanceId + "_blog-pager-older-link"' expr:title='data:olderPageTitle'><data:olderPageTitle/></a>
</div>
</b:if>
<div class='mobile-link-button' id='blog-pager-home-link'>
<a class='home-link' expr:href='data:blog.homepageUrl'><data:homeMsg/></a>
</div>
<div class='mobile-desktop-link'>
<a class='home-link' expr:href='data:desktopLinkUrl'><data:desktopLinkMsg/></a>
</div>
</div>
<div class='clear'/>
</b:includable>
<b:includable id='postQuickEdit' var='post'>
<b:if cond='data:post.editUrl'>
<span expr:class='"item-control " + data:post.adminClass'>
<a expr:href='data:post.editUrl' expr:title='data:top.editPostMsg'>
<img alt='' class='icon-action' height='18' src='http://img2.blogblog.com/img/icon18_edit_allbkg.gif' width='18'/>
</a>
</span>
</b:if>
</b:includable>
<b:includable id='main' var='top'>
<b:if cond='data:top.showPlusOne'>
<script expr:src='data:top.plusOneJsUrl'/>
</b:if>
<!-- posts -->
<div class='blog-posts hfeed'>
<b:include data='top' name='status-message'/>
<data:defaultAdStart/>
<b:loop values='data:posts' var='post'>
<b:if cond='data:post.isDateStart'>
<b:if cond='data:post.isFirstPost == "false"'>
</div></div>
</b:if>
</b:if>
<b:if cond='data:post.isDateStart'>
<div class="date-outer">
</b:if>
<b:if cond='data:post.dateHeader'>
<h2 class='date-header'><span><data:post.dateHeader/></span></h2>
</b:if>
<b:if cond='data:post.isDateStart'>
<div class="date-posts">
</b:if>
<div class='post-outer'>
<b:include data='post' name='post'/>
<b:if cond='data:blog.pageType == "static_page"'>
<b:include data='post' name='comments'/>
</b:if>
<b:if cond='data:blog.pageType == "item"'>
<b:include data='post' name='comments'/>
</b:if>
</div>
<b:if cond='data:post.includeAd'>
<b:if cond='data:post.isFirstPost'>
<data:defaultAdEnd/>
<b:else/>
<data:adEnd/>
</b:if>
<div class='inline-ad'>
<data:adCode/>
</div>
<data:adStart/>
</b:if>
<b:if cond='data:post.trackLatency'>
<data:post.latencyJs/>
</b:if>
</b:loop>
<b:if cond='data:numPosts != 0'>
</div></div>
</b:if>
<data:adEnd/>
</div>
<!-- navigation -->
<b:include name='nextprev'/>
<!-- feed links -->
<b:include name='feedLinks'/>
<b:if cond='data:top.showStars'>
<script src='//www.google.com/jsapi' type='text/javascript'/>
<script type='text/javascript'>
google.load("annotations", "1", {"locale": "<data:top.languageCode/>"});
function initialize() {
google.annotations.setApplicationId(<data:top.blogspotReviews/>);
google.annotations.createAll();
google.annotations.fetch();
}
google.setOnLoadCallback(initialize);
</script>
</b:if>
</b:includable>
<b:includable id='commentDeleteIcon' var='comment'>
<span expr:class='"item-control " + data:comment.adminClass'>
<b:if cond='data:showCmtPopup'>
<div class='goog-toggle-button'>
<div class='goog-inline-block comment-action-icon'/>
</div>
<b:else/>
<a class='comment-delete' expr:href='data:comment.deleteUrl' expr:title='data:top.deleteCommentMsg'>
<img src='//www.blogger.com/img/icon_delete13.gif'/>
</a>
</b:if>
</span>
</b:includable>
<b:includable id='feedLinks'>
<b:if cond='data:blog.pageType != "item"'> <!-- Blog feed links -->
<b:if cond='data:feedLinks'>
<div class='blog-feeds'>
<b:include data='feedLinks' name='feedLinksBody'/>
</div>
</b:if>
<b:else/> <!--Post feed links -->
<div class='post-feeds'>
<b:loop values='data:posts' var='post'>
<b:if cond='data:post.allowComments'>
<b:if cond='data:post.feedLinks'>
<b:include data='post.feedLinks' name='feedLinksBody'/>
</b:if>
</b:if>
</b:loop>
</div>
</b:if>
</b:includable>
<b:includable id='mobile-index-post' var='post'>
<b:if cond='data:post.dateHeader'>
<div class='mobile-index-date'>
<div class='date-header'>
<span><data:post.dateHeader/></span>
</div>
</div>
</b:if>
<div class='mobile-post-outer'>
<div class='mobile-index-title-outer'>
<h3 class='mobile-index-title entry-title'>
<a href='javascript:void(0)'><data:post.title/></a>
</h3>
</div>
<div>
<div class='mobile-index-arrow'>
<a href='javascript:void(0)'>&rsaquo;</a>
</div>
<div class='mobile-post-contents'>
<b:if cond='data:post.thumbnailUrl'>
<div class='mobile-index-thumbnail'>
<div class='Image'>
<img expr:src='data:post.thumbnailUrl'/>
</div>
</div>
</b:if>
<div class='post-body'>
<b:if cond='data:post.snippet'><data:post.snippet/></b:if>
</div>
</div>
<div style='clear: both;'/>
</div>
<div class='mobile-index-comment'>
<b:if cond='data:blog.pageType != "item"'>
<b:if cond='data:blog.pageType != "static_page"'>
<b:if cond='data:post.allowComments'>
<b:if cond='data:post.numComments != 0'>
<a class='comment-link' expr:href='data:post.addCommentUrl' expr:onclick='data:post.addCommentOnclick'><b:if cond='data:post.numComments == 1'>1 <data:top.commentLabel/><b:else/><data:post.numComments/> <data:top.commentLabelPlural/></b:if></a>
</b:if>
</b:if>
</b:if>
</b:if>
</div>
</div>
</b:includable>
<b:includable id='feedLinksBody' var='links'>
<div class='feed-links'>
<data:feedLinksMsg/>
<b:loop values='data:links' var='f'>
<a class='feed-link' expr:href='data:f.url' expr:type='data:f.mimeType' target='_blank'><data:f.name/> (<data:f.feedType/>)</a>
</b:loop>
</div>
</b:includable>
<b:includable id='comments' var='post'>
<div class='comments' id='comments'>
<a name='comments'/>
<b:if cond='data:post.allowComments'>
<h4>
<b:if cond='data:post.numComments == 1'>
1 <data:commentLabel/>:
<b:else/>
<data:post.numComments/> <data:commentLabelPlural/>:
</b:if>
</h4>
<b:if cond='data:post.commentPagingRequired'>
<span class='paging-control-container'>
<a expr:class='data:post.oldLinkClass' expr:href='data:post.oldestLinkUrl'><data:post.oldestLinkText/></a>
 
<a expr:class='data:post.oldLinkClass' expr:href='data:post.olderLinkUrl'><data:post.olderLinkText/></a>
 
<data:post.commentRangeText/>
 
<a expr:class='data:post.newLinkClass' expr:href='data:post.newerLinkUrl'><data:post.newerLinkText/></a>
 
<a expr:class='data:post.newLinkClass' expr:href='data:post.newestLinkUrl'><data:post.newestLinkText/></a>
</span>
</b:if>
<div expr:id='data:widget.instanceId + "_comments-block-wrapper"'>
<dl expr:class='data:post.avatarIndentClass' id='comments-block'>
<b:loop values='data:post.comments' var='comment'>
<dt expr:class='"comment-author " + data:comment.authorClass' expr:id='data:comment.anchorName'>
<b:if cond='data:comment.favicon'>
<img expr:src='data:comment.favicon' height='16px' style='margin-bottom:-2px;' width='16px'/>
</b:if>
<a expr:name='data:comment.anchorName'/>
<b:if cond='data:blog.enabledCommentProfileImages'>
<data:comment.authorAvatarImage/>
</b:if>
<b:if cond='data:comment.authorUrl'>
<a expr:href='data:comment.authorUrl' rel='nofollow'><data:comment.author/></a>
<b:else/>
<data:comment.author/>
</b:if>
<data:commentPostedByMsg/>
</dt>
<dd class='comment-body' expr:id='data:widget.instanceId + data:comment.cmtBodyIdPostfix'>
<b:if cond='data:comment.isDeleted'>
<span class='deleted-comment'><data:comment.body/></span>
<b:else/>
<p>
<data:comment.body/>
</p>
</b:if>
</dd>
<dd class='comment-footer'>
<span class='comment-timestamp'>
<a expr:href='data:comment.url' title='comment permalink'>
<data:comment.timestamp/>
</a>
<b:include data='comment' name='commentDeleteIcon'/>
</span>
</dd>
</b:loop>
</dl>
</div>
<b:if cond='data:post.commentPagingRequired'>
<span class='paging-control-container'>
<a expr:class='data:post.oldLinkClass' expr:href='data:post.oldestLinkUrl'>
<data:post.oldestLinkText/>
</a>
<a expr:class='data:post.oldLinkClass' expr:href='data:post.olderLinkUrl'>
<data:post.olderLinkText/>
</a>
 
<data:post.commentRangeText/>
 
<a expr:class='data:post.newLinkClass' expr:href='data:post.newerLinkUrl'>
<data:post.newerLinkText/>
</a>
<a expr:class='data:post.newLinkClass' expr:href='data:post.newestLinkUrl'>
<data:post.newestLinkText/>
</a>
</span>
</b:if>
<p class='comment-footer'>
<b:if cond='data:post.embedCommentForm'>
<b:if cond='data:post.allowNewComments'>
<b:include data='post' name='comment-form'/>
<b:else/>
<data:post.noNewCommentsText/>
</b:if>
<b:else/>
<b:if cond='data:post.allowComments'>
<a expr:href='data:post.addCommentUrl' expr:onclick='data:post.addCommentOnclick'><data:postCommentMsg/></a>
</b:if>
</b:if>
</p>
</b:if>
<div id='backlinks-container'>
<div expr:id='data:widget.instanceId + "_backlinks-container"'>
<b:if cond='data:post.showBacklinks'>
<b:include data='post' name='backlinks'/>
</b:if>
</div>
</div>
</div>
</b:includable>
</b:widget>
<b:widget id='HTML6' locked='false' title='LinkWithin' type='HTML'>
<b:includable id='main'><data:content/></b:includable>
</b:widget>
</b:section>
<div class='cleaner'/>
</div>
<div id='templatemo_sidebar'>
<b:section class='sidebar' id='rightbar' preferred='yes'>
<b:widget id='HTML9' locked='false' title='Contact Me' type='HTML'>
<b:includable id='main'>
<!-- only display title if it's non-empty -->
<b:if cond='data:title != ""'>
<h2 class='title'><data:title/></h2>
</b:if>
<div class='widget-content'>
<data:content/>
</div>
<b:include name='quickedit'/>
</b:includable>
</b:widget>
<b:widget id='LinkList1' locked='false' title='Websites to Check Out' type='LinkList'>
<b:includable id='main'>
<b:if cond='data:title'><h2><data:title/></h2></b:if>
<div class='widget-content'>
<ul>
<b:loop values='data:links' var='link'>
<li><a expr:href='data:link.target'><data:link.name/></a></li>
</b:loop>
</ul>
<b:include name='quickedit'/>
</div>
</b:includable>
</b:widget>
<b:widget id='Profile1' locked='false' title='About Me' type='Profile'>
<b:includable id='main'>
<b:if cond='data:title != ""'>
<h2><data:title/></h2>
</b:if>
<div class='widget-content'>
<b:if cond='data:team == "true"'> <!-- team blog profile -->
<ul>
<b:loop values='data:authors' var='i'>
<li><a expr:href='data:i.userUrl'><data:i.display-name/></a></li>
</b:loop>
</ul>
<b:else/> <!-- normal blog profile -->
<b:if cond='data:photo.url != ""'>
<a expr:href='data:userUrl'><img class='profile-img' expr:alt='data:photo.alt' expr:height='data:photo.height' expr:src='data:photo.url' expr:width='data:photo.width'/></a>
</b:if>
<dl class='profile-datablock'>
<dt class='profile-data'><data:displayname/></dt>
<b:if cond='data:showlocation == "true"'>
<dd class='profile-data'><data:location/></dd>
</b:if>
<b:if cond='data:aboutme != ""'><dd class='profile-textblock'><data:aboutme/></dd></b:if>
</dl>
<a class='profile-link' expr:href='data:userUrl'><data:viewProfileMsg/></a>
</b:if>
<b:include name='quickedit'/>
</div>
</b:includable>
</b:widget>
<b:widget id='Subscribe1' locked='false' title='Subscribe To' type='Subscribe'>
<b:includable id='main'>
<b:if cond='data:isPublic'>
<div style='white-space:nowrap'>
<b:if cond='data:title != ""'>
<h2 class='title'><data:title/></h2>
</b:if>
<div class='widget-content'>
<b:loop values='data:feeds' var='feed'>
<div expr:class='"subscribe-wrapper subscribe-type-" + data:feed.type'>
<div expr:class='"subscribe expanded subscribe-type-" + data:feed.type' expr:id='"SW_READER_LIST_" + data:widgetId + data:feed.type' style='display:none;'>
<div class='top'>
<span class='inner' expr:onclick='"return(_SW_toggleReaderList(event, \"" + data:widgetId +data:feed.type + "\"));"'>
<img class='subscribe-dropdown-arrow' expr:src='data:arrowDropdownImg'/>
<img align='absmiddle' alt='' border='0' class='feed-icon' expr:src='data:feedIconImg'/>
<data:feed.title/>
</span>
<div class='feed-reader-links'>
<a class='feed-reader-link' expr:href='"http://www.google.com/ig/add?source=bstp&feedurl=" + data:feed.encodedUrl' target='_blank'>
<img expr:src='data:imagePathBase + "subscribe-google.png"'/>
</a>
<a class='feed-reader-link' expr:href='"http://www.netvibes.com/subscribe.php?url=" + data:feed.encodedUrl' target='_blank'>
<img expr:src='data:imagePathBase + "subscribe-netvibes.png"'/>
</a>
<a class='feed-reader-link' expr:href='"http://www.newsgator.com/ngs/subscriber/subext.aspx?url=" + data:feed.encodedUrl' target='_blank'>
<img expr:src='data:imagePathBase + "subscribe-newsgator.png"'/>
</a>
<a class='feed-reader-link' expr:href='"http://add.my.yahoo.com/content?url=" + data:feed.encodedUrl' target='_blank'>
<img expr:src='data:imagePathBase + "subscribe-yahoo.png"'/>
</a>
<a class='feed-reader-link' expr:href='data:feed.url' target='_blank'>
<img align='absmiddle' class='feed-icon' expr:src='data:feedIconImg'/>
Atom
</a>
</div>
</div>
<div class='bottom'/>
</div>
<div class='subscribe' expr:id='"SW_READER_LIST_CLOSED_" + data:widgetId +data:feed.type' expr:onclick='"return(_SW_toggleReaderList(event, \"" + data:widgetId +data:feed.type + "\"));"'>
<div class='top'>
<span class='inner'>
<img class='subscribe-dropdown-arrow' expr:src='data:arrowDropdownImg'/>
<span expr:onclick='"return(_SW_toggleReaderList(event, \"" + data:widgetId +data:feed.type + "\"));"'>
<img align='absmiddle' alt='' border='0' class='feed-icon' expr:src='data:feedIconImg'/>
<data:feed.title/>
</span>
</span>
</div>
<div class='bottom'/>
</div>
</div>
</b:loop>
<div style='clear:both'/>
</div>
</div>
<b:include name='quickedit'/>
</b:if>
</b:includable>
</b:widget>
<b:widget id='BlogList1' locked='false' title='My Websites' type='BlogList'>
<b:includable id='main'>
<!-- only display title if it's non-empty -->
<b:if cond='data:title != ""'>
<h2 class='title'><data:title/></h2>
</b:if>
<div class='widget-content'>
<div class='blog-list-container' expr:id='data:widget.instanceId + "_container"'>
<ul expr:id='data:widget.instanceId + "_blogs"'>
<b:loop values='data:items' var='item'>
<li expr:style='data:item.displayStyle'>
<div class='blog-icon'>
<b:if cond='data:showIcon == "true"'>
<input expr:value='data:item.blogIconUrl' type='hidden'/>
</b:if>
</div>
<div class='blog-content'>
<div class='blog-title'>
<a expr:href='data:item.blogUrl' target='_blank'>
<data:item.blogTitle/></a>
</div>
<div class='item-content'>
<b:if cond='data:showItemThumbnail == "true"'>
<b:if cond='data:item.itemThumbnail'>
<div class='item-thumbnail'>
<a expr:href='data:item.blogUrl' target='_blank'>
<img alt='' border='0' expr:height='data:item.itemThumbnail.height' expr:src='data:item.itemThumbnail.url' expr:width='data:item.itemThumbnail.width'/>
</a>
</div>
</b:if>
</b:if>
<b:if cond='data:showItemTitle == "true"'>
<span class='item-title'>
<b:if cond='data:item.itemUrl != ""'>
<a expr:href='data:item.itemUrl' target='_blank'>
<data:item.itemTitle/></a>
<b:else/>
<data:item.itemTitle/>
</b:if>
</span>
</b:if>
<b:if cond='data:showItemSnippet == "true"'>
<b:if cond='data:showItemTitle == "true"'>
-
</b:if>
<span class='item-snippet'>
<data:item.itemSnippet/>
</span>
</b:if>
<b:if cond='data:showTimePeriodSinceLastUpdate == "true"'>
<div class='item-time'>
<data:item.timePeriodSinceLastUpdate/>
</div>
</b:if>
</div>
</div>
<div style='clear: both;'/>
</li>
</b:loop>
</ul>
<b:if cond='data:numItemsToShow != 0'>
<b:if cond='data:totalItems > data:numItemsToShow'>
<div class='show-option'>
<span expr:id='data:widget.instanceId + "_show-n"' style='display: none;'>
<a href='javascript:void(0)' onclick='return false;'><data:showNText/></a>
</span>
<span expr:id='data:widget.instanceId + "_show-all"' style='margin-left: 5px;'>
<a href='javascript:void(0)' onclick='return false;'><data:showAllText/></a>
</span>
</div>
</b:if>
</b:if>
<b:include name='quickedit'/>
</div>
</div>
</b:includable>
</b:widget>
<b:widget id='Followers1' locked='false' title='Followers' type='Followers'>
<b:includable id='main'>
<b:if cond='data:title != ""'>
<b:if cond='data:codeSnippet != ""'>
<h2 class='title'><data:title/></h2>
<b:else/>
<b:if cond='data:totalFollowerCount != ""'>
<h2 class='title'><data:title/> (<data:totalFollowerCount/>)</h2>
</b:if>
</b:if>
</b:if>
<div class='widget-content'>
<div expr:id='data:widget.instanceId + "-wrapper"'>
<b:if cond='data:codeSnippet != ""'>
<div style='margin-right:2px;'>
<data:codeSnippet/>
</div>
<b:else/>
<b:if cond='data:totalFollowerCount == ""'>
<span class='item-control following-not-admin'>
<b><data:failureSnippet/></b>
</span>
<span class='item-control blog-admin'>
<b><data:adminFailureSnippet/></b>
</span>
<b:else/>
<b:if cond='data:followingLinkPresent'>
<div class='follow-this profile-link item-control following-follow-this'>
<a expr:href='"javascript:_FollowersView._openPopup(\"" + data:followUri + "\");"'>
<data:followThisMessage/>
</a>
</div>
<div class='follow-this profile-link item-control following-stop-following-this'>
<a expr:href='"javascript:_FollowersView._openPopup(\"" + data:followUri + "\");"'>
<data:stopFollowingMessage/>
</a>
</div>
</b:if>
<div class='followers-grid'>
<b:if cond='data:totalFollowerCount == 0'>
<div class='profile-link item-control following-follow-this'>
<data:emptyFollowersMessage/>
</div>
</b:if>
<!--
Relies on the js written out in navbar.gxp
-->
<b:loop values='data:followers' var='follower'>
<div class='follower'>
<a expr:href='data:follower.profileUrl' expr:title='data:follower.displayName' rel='nofollow'>
<img class='follower-img' expr:alt='data:follower.displayName' expr:height='data:follower.imageHeight' expr:onerror='"this.onerror=null;this.src=\"" + data:anonFollowerImageUrl + "\";"' expr:onload='"setAttributeOnload(this, \"src\", \"" + data:follower.imageUrl + "\")"' expr:width='data:follower.imageWidth' src='http://img1.blogblog.com/img/blank.gif'/>
</a>
</div>
</b:loop>
<div class='clear'/>
</div>
<div class='followers-canvas profile-link'>
<data:followersFooterMessage/>
<span class='item-control following-not-admin'>
<a expr:href='data:followersUri'>
<data:viewAllMessage/>
</a>
</span>
<span class='item-control blog-admin'>
<a expr:href='data:manageFollowersUri'>
<data:manageFollowersMessage/>
</a>
</span>
</div>
</b:if>
</b:if>
</div>
<b:include name='quickedit'/>
</div>
</b:includable>
</b:widget>
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Thought Provoker.<br> A place to share my life (inside & out of the home office of a freelance writer).Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.settings.BLOG_PROMOTED2008-07-11T20:25:06.323-04:002010-12-28T16:50:24.119-05:00Whether this blog can be promoted on BloggertrueChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.settings.BLOG_SEARCHABLE2008-07-11T20:25:06.323-04:002010-12-28T16:50:24.119-05:00Whether this blog should be indexed by search enginestrueChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.settings.BLOG_ADULT_CONTENT2008-07-11T20:25:06.323-04:002010-12-28T16:50:24.119-05:00Whether this blog contains adult contentfalseChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.settings.BLOG_QUICK_EDITING2008-07-11T20:25:06.323-04:002010-12-28T16:50:24.119-05:00Whether Quick Editing is enabledtrueChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.settings.BLOG_EMAIL_POST_LINKS2008-07-11T20:25:06.323-04:002010-12-28T16:50:24.119-05:00Whether to show a link for users to e-mail poststrueChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.settings.BLOG_MAX_NUM2008-07-11T20:25:06.323-04:002010-12-28T16:50:24.119-05:00Maximum number of things to show on the main page"7Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.settings.BLOG_MAX_UNIT2008-07-11T20:25:06.323-04:002010-12-28T16:50:24.119-05:00Unit of things to show 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Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.settings.BLOG_TIME_ZONE2008-07-11T20:25:06.323-04:002010-12-28T16:50:24.119-05:00The time zone for this blogAmerica/New_YorkChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.settings.BLOG_LOCALE2008-07-11T20:25:06.323-04:002010-12-28T16:50:24.119-05:00Language for this blogenChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.settings.BLOG_CONVERT_LINE_BREAKS2008-07-11T20:25:06.323-04:002010-12-28T16:50:24.119-05:00Whether to convert line breaks into <br /> tags in post editortrueChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.settings.BLOG_SHOW_TITLE2008-07-11T20:25:06.323-04:002010-12-28T16:50:24.119-05:00Whether to show the title 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Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-39787347205757091272010-12-31T08:00:00.003-05:002010-12-22T18:15:08.294-05:00Reflections of 2010<div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Reflections of the Past</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.selfemployedwriter.com/2007/02/reflections.html">Reflections 2006</a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.selfemployedwriter.com/2007/12/reflections.html">Reflections 2007</a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.selfemployedwriter.com/2008/12/reflections-2008.html">Reflections 2008</a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.selfemployedwriter.com/2009/12/reflections-2009.html">Reflections 2009</a></div><br />In looking over my past "Reflections" it seems as though they all start the same, and not much has changed. I had hoped this year might be different, but something tells me it is going to be full of many similarities.<br /><br /><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i332.photobucket.com/albums/m355/marian1378/reflections.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="266" src="http://i332.photobucket.com/albums/m355/marian1378/reflections.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: 58.5pt; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt; mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; text-indent: -.25in;"><!--[if !supportLists]--><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-weight: normal; mso-bidi-font-family: Verdana; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold; mso-fareast-font-family: Verdana;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">1)<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span></strong><!--[endif]--><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Was 2010 a good year for you?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">It was OK. I would not say it was the best year of my life, but it seems I have some highlights that I did not experience the last couple of year. <o:p></o:p></span></strong></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .75in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am still trying to move on from the past and continue to grow as a person and move forward. This is proving to be extremely difficult, but I keep trying. It is not always easy, and often I want to give up. <o:p></o:p></span></strong></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .75in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">For me, that is something to celebrate (and it seems to hold true every year). But life is constantly changing, again, that’s going to be the same from year to year as well. But, I seem to be actually living life a little better rather than waiting trying to catch up to life. </span></strong><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br />2) What was your favorite moment of the year? <o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Growing as a writer and taking the Polar Express to the North Pole<br style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> <!--[if !supportLineBreakNewLine]--><br style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> <!--[endif]--></span></b><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-weight: normal; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold;"><o:p></o:p></span></strong></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /><br />3) What was your least favorite moment of the year? <br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">All the pain; emotional, physical, and mental (seems to be a trend year after year)</span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br />4) Where were you when 2010 began?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Our house</span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /><br />5) Who were you with?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Matt<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></strong><br /><br />6) Where will you be when 2010 ends?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I think we are going to his moms for NYE. She has been gone for a month on a Australian cruise thing, so we are doing Christmas and New Years on that night. I am sure I will be asleep way before 2010 even ends.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></strong><br /><br />7) Who will you be with when 2010 ends?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Matt</span></strong><br /><br />8) Did you keep your new year’s resolution of 2010?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Yes, to take charge of my health. My back depended on me losing some weight, as well as my own physical and mental well being.</span></strong><br /><br />9) Do you have a new year’s resolution for 2011?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">See #8, it pretty much is the same.</span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br />10) Did you fall in love in 2010?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I did not. I was already loving someone.</span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /><br />11) If yes, with whom?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Everyone here pretty much knows the answer to that.</span></strong><br /><br />12) If yes, do they know?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">He should, or we have problems. </span></strong><br /><br />13) Are you still in love with them?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Still here aren’t I? </span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br />14) Do you regret it?<br /><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">At times, I regret that we moved too fast. I think it has damaged our relationship in many ways. There are a minimal of ways that is has made us stronger.<o:p></o:p></b></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br />15) Did you break up with anyone in 2010?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">No.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></strong><br /><br />16) Did you make any new friends in 2010?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Yes, a few.<o:p></o:p></span></strong></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br />17) Who are your favorite new friends?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">They are all the best.</span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /><br />18) What was your favorite month of 2010?<br /><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Don’t really have one.</b><br /><br />19) Did you travel outside of the country in 2010?<br /><b>No :( </b><br /><br />20) How many different places did you travel to in 2010?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Just cities in Michigan.</span></strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /><br />21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2010? <br /><b>I often feel like I have lost a lot of people just because we are all so out of touch. My best friend lost his wife, and even though her and I were not that close, I still feel the loss.<br /><br /></b>22) Did you miss anybody in the past year?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">YES! <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>all my friends back in OK.</span></strong><br /><br />23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2010? <br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Boondock Saints II</span></strong><br /><br />24) What was your favorite song from 2010?<br /><b>Oh I have a few: they may not be new in 2010, but they still mean something to me. Not to mention a few were on last year’s list too!<o:p></o:p></b></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Second Chance – Shinedown<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Simple Man – Shinedown<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I Dare You – Shinedown<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Not Strong Enough – Apocalypitca with Brent Smith from Shinedown<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> <!--[if !supportLineBreakNewLine]--><br style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> <!--[endif]--></span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br />25) What was your favorite album from 2010?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I don’t even know what was really officially released this year!</span></strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /><br />26) How many concerts did you see in 2010?<br /><b>A few!<o:p></o:p></b></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /><br />27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2010?<br /><b>Shinedown Acoustic in November</b><br /><br />28) Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2010? <br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Not really. </span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br />29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2010?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Only pain relievers for my back and when I hurt my shoulder.<o:p></o:p></span></strong></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br />30) How many people did you sleep with in 2010? <br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">One.</span></strong><br /><br />31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Not really. </span></strong><br /><br />32) What was the biggest lie you told in 2010?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I told myself it didn’t matter and that I did not love him anymore.</span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /><br />33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2010?<br /><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">That they did not love me anymore.</b><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br />34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2010?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">More like the other way around. </span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br />35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2010? <br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Yeah, I had my moments. </span></strong><br /><br />36) How much money did you spend in 2010?<strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"> <o:p></o:p></span></strong></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Every penny I earned. </span></strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /><br />38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2010?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Can’t say I really have one</span></strong><b><o:p></o:p></b></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br />39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2010 and change it, what would it be? <br /><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">I may have went ahead and moved out to save us both from the pain we went through.</b><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /><br />40) What are your plans for 2011? <br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">To keep writing and build up my websites and portfolios. I hope to graduate in June with my BA, and maybe go on to get my MBA in the fall. <o:p></o:p></span></strong></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Visit my friends for sure! </span></strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /><br />41) What did you do in 2010 that you'd never done before?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Train Ride </span></strong><br /><br />42) Did anyone close to you give birth?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">My best friend Ron and his wife had a baby in March. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></strong><br /><br />43) What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Peace, quiet, committment and understanding.</span></strong><br /><br />44) What date from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? <br style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> <!--[if !supportLineBreakNewLine]--><br style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> <!--[endif]--><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><o:p></o:p></b></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">November 24, the night I saw Shinedowns acoustinc concert and came up with the idea for my tattoo.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br />45) What was your biggest achievement of the year?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Working as a writer!</span></strong><br /><br />46) What was your biggest failure?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Depression creeping back up on me, never living up to my own expectations of myself, and my wicked evil self esteem issues that mess with my head. </span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /><br />47) What was the best thing you bought? <o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">My new laptop!</span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /><br />48) Whose behavior merited celebration?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Kraz. He finally got his life back on track and doing what he loves.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Matt, same thing. Finally, slowly getting his life back on track and doing what he loves.</span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><br /><br />49) Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Yikes! My own – seriously! And Matt’s. It was an up and down battle again this year.</span></strong><br /><br />50) What did you get really, really, really excited about? <br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Working as a writer, becoming a book reviewer. I love books and writing!</span></strong><br /><br />51) Compared to this time last year, are you:<br />i. happier or sadder? <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">I am about the same as I was this time last year, just for different reasons.<o:p></o:p></b></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br />ii. thinner or fatter? <b>The same as I was…but I would love to change that…</b><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">iii. richer or poorer? <strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">richer in so many ways, a little better money wise , but still poor</span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br />52) What do you wish you'd done more of?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Exercised..LOL..well you asked</span></strong><br /><br />53) What do you wish you'd done less of?<br /><b>Being depressed, blaming myself for so much, worrying about what others are going to think, living my life for others, and never putting myself first</b><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Wow, 51, 52, and 53 really have not changed over the years.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">54) How will you be spending Christmas?<br /><b>Christmas eve me, Matt and lil M will be going to my mothers. Christmas morning will be the 3 of us, then we will go to his grandmothers to do gifts with his dad and step mom. Then, we have to take lil M home to her mothers and do gifts with her older brother and sister. I plan to sleep the rest of the day.</b><br /><br />55) How many one-night stands?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">None this year.</span></strong><br /><br />56) What was your favorite TV program?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Sons of Anarchy, Rescue Me, Paranormal State, Ghost Adventures, Ghost Hunters, Psych, Fringe, Good Guys</span></strong><br /><br />57) Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">You know, I always say that hate is just a waste of my time. But, there will always be one person I seriously dislike and likely that will never change.</span></strong><br /><br />58) What was the best book you read?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I really did not get a chance to read much this year. The only thing that is standing out in my mind is the book I am reading right now, Two Tickets to the Christmas Ball. It is so cute. </span></strong><br /><br />59) What was your greatest musical discovery?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Apocalyptica. </span></strong><br /><br />60) What did you want and get?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Nothing. I am still working on getting the things I wanted this year.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /><br />61) What did you want and not get?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I want peace within me. I am working on that, still.</span></strong><br /><br />62) What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?<br /><b>Matt and I went to dinner, and I had to buy. I was not really all that happy about it.<o:p></o:p></b></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">63) What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">If Matt would have grown up a little sooner to help clean up the house, do chores, help out, and help with his own daughter more. </span></strong><br /><br />64)How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010? <br /><b>Comfortable. <br /><br /></b>65) What kept you sane?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Nothing kept me sane, I have been having insane moments on a daily basis.<o:p></o:p></span></strong></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /><br />66) Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?<br /><em><b><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-style: normal; mso-bidi-font-style: italic;">Brent Smith. Hes not a hottie, or really even that good looking. But, hes a bit southern and has a voice that sooths my soul. He has changed my world with his words.<o:p></o:p></span></b></em></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br />67) What political issue stirred you the most? <br /><b>None </b><br /><br />68) Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010.<br /><strong><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Things are never what they seem.</span></strong><br /><br /><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">69) Quote a song lyric.<o:p></o:p></b></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I just saw Haley's Comet, she waved<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Said, "Why are you always running in place?"<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Even the man in the moon disappeared<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Somewhere in the stratosphere<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Tell my mother, tell my father I've done the best I can<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">To make them realize this is my life, I hope they understand<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I'm not angry, I'm just saying<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Sometimes goodbye is a second chance<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Second Chance- Shinedown<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">70) Favorite discovered quote.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span class="snippet4"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: windowtext; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">"I'm a woman Phenomenally Phenomenal woman. That's me." ~Maya Angelou<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-78605716694125863432010-12-28T16:50:00.000-05:002010-12-28T16:50:24.128-05:00I Can’t Believe I am Afraid<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i41.photobucket.com/albums/e272/linleyj/cool3.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="http://i41.photobucket.com/albums/e272/linleyj/cool3.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal">Yes, I said it. Me. Afraid. Not only am I afraid, I am afraid of something very silly. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am afraid to move my blog. There it is.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have been on blogger for about 5 year now. I have changed blog names, moved them around, gained readers, lost readers, and grew a business. The time has come where I need to be able to market myself more. Since I am my own boss, I believe it is time to move from free hosting and services to paid hosting and services so that I have the ability to generate more revenue from SEO capabilities and ad placement. Something I can’t do with free services.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It is just like advertising. I need people to know I am a writer. I am available for some projects (more so after graduation) and that I have my own projects going.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I want to blab about this, that, and the other. I have done a lot of research the last few days.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I think I know what I am doing, but I keep procrastinating and I have no idea why.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I think it is because I am leaving something that is familiar to me. Something I know and I am comfortable with. I don’t take to kindly to change. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I like it here in Bloggerland, so I don’t know how this move is going to affect me. But I have to do what is going to be best for me in the long run. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">School starts back up for the semester here very soon, so if I am going to do it, I need to do it now and stop being so darn scared. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">*sigh*</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I guess I need to start packing. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-88582776448856904022010-12-28T13:37:00.000-05:002010-12-28T13:37:21.053-05:00Have You Ever Noticed?<div class="MsoNormal">While doing my bloghop this morning I ran across a blog <a href="http://www.generationgossip.com/">Generation Gossip: The Talk around Town </a></div><div class="MsoNormal">The post was entitled <a href="http://www.generationgossip.com/2010/11/royal-rant-marriage-question.html">Royal Rant: The Marriage Question</a>. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Apparently Oprah opened up a can of worms by having a woman appear on her show who had married a convict. His crime? Her murdered two innocent people in cold blood, execution style. My first thought is, why would someone even WANT to meet a person like that, let alone marry them. Does this woman have such terrible self-esteem that she had to find love through lonely convicts? Now, I don’t know this lady, but I seriously just can’t help but wonder what was going through her mind.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I remember when I was a Freshman in college, one of my papers was about the judicial system and those on death row. I read countless reports in order to gather my information before stating my case. In all of that information was countless reports of different prisons and what they offer inmates. Back then it seemed like people would commit crimes just so they could be thrown in jail. I mean think about it, yes I understand you are locked up, forced to follow someone elses rules and time schedule. However, you have your own room, even though small and lacking privacy. You have warm water to take a shower, a bed, roof over your head, and three square meals a day. Would you rather be homeless or in jail? Prisoners are provided shelter, clothing, food, the bare necessities as well as recreation. Many are allowed to be outside, some only an hour. Depending on the crime and level of security the person needs. Prisoners have access to free gym equipment. How many of us get a free gym membership? Not only that, many places are now offering free eduction, and not just GED education, college credits, to prisonsers who can/will/were/are rehabilited and need some training for life in the real world. How many of us get free education??</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It would seem that life in jail, at least minimum security is not so bad for some. I guess if they are going to show signs of release and they have suffered for their crime, they I understand they need to be able to cope when they get out. But, really, get married? Especially someone who is a murderer? </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">That is something that never will make sense to me no matter what position I take on it. In this day and age it is sad that homosexuals are not allowed to get married, but a murder can.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-26722690486561143922010-12-24T17:41:00.002-05:002010-12-24T17:42:37.698-05:00Looks Like eBay has Some Competition<div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TRUhSY6lGHI/AAAAAAAAAN0/Vc-GmS8JIqc/s1600/05be537fbf3cebc1c14bac83de83926d_w150_h100_cp.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TRUhSY6lGHI/AAAAAAAAAN0/Vc-GmS8JIqc/s1600/05be537fbf3cebc1c14bac83de83926d_w150_h100_cp.gif" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I should have posted this sooner. I really wanted to talk about it, but I got so caught up with the Holiday madness that I did not have much time to sit and compose this blog. Now, I guess you will have to wait until next Christmas to do some shopping on <a href="http://www.bidsauce.com/okirishchik">BidSauce</a>. Kidding of course. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It looks like eBay might have a little bit of competition. For a while now I have been hearing about these ten cent auctions, penny auction, two centers and so on. I never really bothered to check it out because they wanted a pretty good chunk of money just to buy a bid package. I just did not want to risk losing my money.<br /><br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><a href="http://www.bidsauce.com/okirishchik">BidSauce</a> actually has a pretty good guarantee. If you buy a certain bid package and do not win, you can simply email customer service or call them and let them know and they will give you another set of bids, for free. But, they will only do it once. So I decided to give it a try. I purchased 50 bids for $49.95. I sat and watched the auctions to get a feel for how it worked. It seemed like a bit of a bidding war. Not only that, when someone bids at the last minute, the timer goes back up. So, really it is just a matter of who is going to give up first.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Well, I did not get any wins on my first 50 bids. So I contacted live chat immediately. I started to think that it was a bit of a scam, figuratively, not literally. I thought that perhaps only those that purchased larger big packages and had more bids were going to be winners. The customer service rep was very nice and in a matter of seconds I had 50 more bids in my account.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I sat and waited. Then I plotted. That same day I made my first win. 97 cents for a $50 Applebee’s gift card. I tweeted my win and they gave me 2 more bids. The next day I decided to see if I could win something with the remaining bids I had. It was at that point I decided that I would close my account after this because not only do you have to buy bids, you have to pay for the amount you bid/won and you have to pay a service change ($6.89) for them to mail you the gift card. I figured at that rate I was not going to come out even. Well, I ended up winning a $100 visa card for 91 cents, plus the $6.89 cent handling charge. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><a href="http://www.bidsauce.com/okirishchik">I paid out of pocket $65.65 for $150 worth of items. I would say I did pretty good.</a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I went through the check out process and now I was going to patiently await the arrival of my cards.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">A few days later I received an email from the customer service department saying they had an error in processing my information. Not really sure what happened. I checked my credit card to make sure I was not billed. I was not. So I went through the check out process again and they gave me another 50 free bids for my troubles.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Now that’s customer service for you.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TRUhcUs1w2I/AAAAAAAAAN4/XGz4bFjtI7Q/s1600/fairplay.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TRUhcUs1w2I/AAAAAAAAAN4/XGz4bFjtI7Q/s1600/fairplay.png" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal">Now because I had such good fortune there I decided to try another one, for10cents.com I purchased the smallest package they had there for $15. So far I do not really like it and it looks like I am going to be out my $15. Oh well, lesson learned, you can’t win all the time.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-8659855749035023652010-12-24T14:15:00.000-05:002010-12-24T14:15:24.568-05:00Now it’s Complete<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TRTohv9eUDI/AAAAAAAAANw/_jC4scAJjZc/s1600/867ff1f8.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TRTohv9eUDI/AAAAAAAAANw/_jC4scAJjZc/s320/867ff1f8.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal">The tattoo was finished (I bet you were thinking all the website changes, huh?) last night. I am quite pleased with it and could not ask for anything better. Chad knew exactly what I wanted when I took my stack of photos and ideas in. (thanks Chad) For anyone interested in his work, check out his website, which I have posted in the upper right hand corner of my blogs homepage. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">For those who may have missed the original post regarding the tattoo and its meaning <a href="http://www.selfemployedwriter.com/2010/12/another-evening-with-shinedown-tattoo.html">– click here.</a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Now, for those who thought I was talking about all the web changes that were about to happen……well…that gave me a headache. LOL I DID merge my poetry blog and eBooksNook blog into this one. Having 3 blogs to keep up with just was too much for me. I will just tag/label them and they will be in the “Labels” list to the right of the blog. Well, I tell you where they are, but if I happen to find another template I like, that might just change. My erotic stories have to stay on their own blog because it is adult content and I have to mark it on Blogger as such. That is why you get an adult website warning when you click the links to go there. I need to spend some more time on that blog. I should not have deleted the first one. Lesson learned. Now I am building it all over. I just have not had time to get the stories posted. I also realized I should not be working for free and some of the more popular stories and any new stories from this day forward will have a paypal link. I thought about eBooks, but I don’t think my stories are long enough. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Today I had planned to move from being hosted on Blogger to being self hosted and using Word Press. I already have a WP blog that mirrors this blog exactly, except that is only posts part of the article with a link back to this blog. I have my own domain, so it masks the blogger address. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">My blog was recently picked up for syndication through Demand Studios blog network. I am very excited about this. Yes, I know DS is a content mill, but that mill is paying my bills while I finish school, work on my novel, build my portfolio, and build my residual sites. This recent change made me want to make the move even more. So, I ended up purchasing some hosting yesterday. I went to the company where I had my domain; they gave me a better deal than what was listed. So, I went back to company A to cancel. Had to go through all of that. Now, here I am today and even more frustrated so I then canceled the hosting with company B and said forget it!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">There is too much of a headache right before the holiday, I don’t want to mess with it right now. Blogger is not as customizable and you have to adhere to their TOS or you risk deletion. I have been here 5 years and never had a problem. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I keep reading that all of these people who really make money with their blogs are those who self host through word press. I am not sure why that is. Maybe more room for ads? I have been trying to figure that out because I have met a few Blogger users that do make money from their blogs. So, I am not sure what the situation is. I do make some money here, but not a lot. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-9850143583331757212010-12-24T08:00:00.021-05:002010-12-24T08:00:03.987-05:00A Special Christmas Eve Gift for All of YouMany years ago when we started this blogging venture, we were parked on Yahoo 360 Blogville Lane. It was there I met quite an eclectic group of writers. There was one, The Crow, who I collaberated with on a few of my Erotic Confessions and his own erotica stories. The Crow I admire. He his quick tongued and will not give up or back down. I have seen the trials and tribulations of his life, and yet he always comes out on top.<br /><br />I believe he wrote this blog in 2005, as a tribute to us on 360 who had later joined his blog group. It holds very dear to my heart as so many of my friends are mentioned. Many of these people I am still friends with, 5 years later.<br /><br />I wanted to share it with all of you as a reminder, that even though many of us only know each other in Blogland, we are still real people forming very real friendships. I am also sharing this for those of you who were around in those day as a beautiful memory of the talent we were blesses with.<br /><br />Without further ado, here is Twas the Night Before Christmas in Blogland, <a href="http://jeremycrow4life.com/">by Jeremy Crow</a>.<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">'Twas the night before Christmas, and Superdaddyman Sits</span></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">All the evils’s are sleeping, and wrapping gifts is the pits;</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">The stockings in thoughts for Superdaddyman’s a perv,</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">In my dreams the women will wear them, it’s what I deserve!</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">The evils’s were all wound up and quite lucky they ain’t dead</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">Did I mention all the stockings dancing around in this head?</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font: normal normal normal 14pt/normal Papyrus;"><span style="color: black;">Greektradgedius is whining and Imtoocutus is being great,</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">If she thinks she’s fooled Santa, it’s just a little too damn late!</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">When, out on the front my porch there arose such a clatter,</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">Oh Geeze, it looks like Neal, and he’s climbing a ladder?</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">Away to the window, to open and to holler,</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">“Hey Neal whatcha doin, and red ain’t your color!”</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">That Portly Old Elf looked down upon me with despair,</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">“I thought, I’d peek in your neighbors window, the one over there!”,</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">“But dude! She’s like 80, and her son is a cop!</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">Dressed as Santa or not, you are bound to get SHOT!”</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">“Oh thank you so much, your advice to the masses!</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">It was my fault you see the suit didn’t go with my glasses!”</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">More rapid than lightning his curse words they came,</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">For now he has fallen off the ladder and he lays there in pain</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">"Now, &^$%! And, @#$^! And, @#$% and !@*&!</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">I hope to god That isn’t the real Santa cuz then I am &^%$#@!”</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">I looked up upon the rooftop and to my great surprise!</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">There was Kayla dressed in a costume far more naughty than nice!</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">“I thought I’d show up to give you some real Christmas cheer</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">Hey look at Neal laying there, I didn’t know he was here!”</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;">So now down the street, a big old </span><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;">Lincoln</span><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"> had just flew</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">Damn it slammed on it’s brakes, and it’s backing up with a crew!</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">Now out of the car came t he passengers who knew?</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;">Looks like Queen Lori, and <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #38761d;">Chrystal</span>,</b> and yes it’s Adriana too!</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">So around to the back went the queen adjusting her tiara,</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">Then she opened the trunk, and out popped Shuai and Sancira</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">Little Shuai he looked dizzy, and his hair was a mess,</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">“These crazy women kidnapped me, and I came under duress!”</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">Sancira was fine she looked none the worse for wear</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">By the smile on her face tells you she’s just happy to be there!</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #38761d;">Chrystal walks around looking at all of us in in such delight</span></b></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #38761d;">She steps on poor Neal as she’s deciding who to bite!</span></b></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #38761d;">Her evil little mouth all drawn back to show her fangs getting wet,</span></b></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #38761d;">She looks around confused and says “Hey where the hell is Brett?”</span></b></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">I stood there confused, as I didn’t even know about you all</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">I pull out my cell phone and it’s Brett I do call.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">“You’ve reached my voicemail the re Hun, please leave me a shout!”</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">“Well I guess he is busy, so you’ll have to do without!”</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">Just then up in the sky, we all heard the loudest noise</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">“Look it’s Santa Claus and Brett! I knew he was one of his boys!”</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">“Hey guys I got called out on business, but I thought you’d understand!</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus;"><span style="color: black;">Me and Santa we go way back from when we both were in this band!”</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;">Up looked Lori, and <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #38761d;">Chrystal</span></b>, and Adriana and even Sancira</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">As the reindeer, and Santa and Brett of course came nearer</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">They threw down boxes of presents, many toys that replicated boys</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">And the girls were so delighted as most made a buzzing noise</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">The boys just looked on with a rather puzzled, and made a fuss</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;"><span> </span>“Let’s get the hell out of here, before they try to use them on US!”</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">So as the boys that were walking ran away and dragged Neal in tow</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Papyrus; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="color: black;">Happy Christmas Blogaholics Anonymous from your friend The Crow!</span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-11970499144131838582010-12-23T16:27:00.000-05:002010-12-23T16:27:57.306-05:00I’m Slimming Update<div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">When I started the <a href="http://www.shareasale.com/r.cfm?B=34746&U=465182&M=7669">WonderSlim/NewLifestyle </a>journey it was due in part that DHS had taken away my food assistance. Well, reduced it from $200 to $16. I complained and sent in papers, nothing about my living situation or income has changed. So, I have no idea why they made such a change. Anyway, I figured, well if I have to pay for groceries, I may as well by some WS food. Now I have a credit card bill of about $400. Yikes! </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Now, I can use my food benefits to make the transition into grocery store foods. (yes, I am a starving artist, poor college student, whatever you want to label me)</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Lately, I find myself bored. Seems to be a problem I have when following any plan, aside from Weight Watchers, where I can eat whatever. I have learned a lot from the weeks I have spent on WS, so honestly, I am happy and it was not a total loss.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">However, I would like to get my credit card bill taken care of and it’s too late for me to return the food. I would like to offer it to some girls in the WS forums, before I put it up on eBay. Saves them from having to bid, saves me from paying eBay fees. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I AM still going to follow the guidelines of the WS plan. I took the time to roam my local grocery store to find comparable products, at least the best they offer. Protein is not really an issue for me as hunger is not the problem, emotional eating is. I am working on that too.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have made a list of the items on WS I like and the nutritional info. I am sure the grocery store folks thought I was a mystery shopper or something. I went during the day when no one was there. And read, read, read all the labels of things. Some are pale in comparison, and some are close enough.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I also have a discount store that sells open boxed, dinged canned items for 80% off retail. I got my freezer, fridge and cupboards stocked for $100. I will be glad when I am done with school and can work more so I don’t have to deal with DHS. Although, I will always shop on a budget! I prefer the more for less method. HAHAH</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b>So, breakfast items I am going to use:</b></div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><ul><li>Skim milk</li><li>Kroger brand eggbeaters</li><li>Dozen eggs (I do egg whites; my family eats the yolks in their scrambled eggs)</li><li>All bran cereal</li><li>Fiber one cereal</li><li>Multi Grain cheerios</li><li>Fiber one pancakes (makes 3, eat 1 save 2)</li><li>Quaker oatmeal, in packets</li><li>Irish oatmeal (I have instant and slow cook)</li><li>Grits (thats the south in me)</li></ul><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, while some of these are a bit higher in calories than WS, the portions are a bit bigger too. The fiber and protein are close. Fiber fills me just like protein does so I am ok there.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">For the Pudding/Shake supplement I am going to use Jillian Michael’s brand protein powder. I think I read that on 3fatchicks. It’s easy to find and I can use my benefits on it as oppose to going to GNC.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">For lunch I found some Smart Ones, Lean Pockets, Lean Cuisines and Healthy Choice that work. Again, a few more calories, but the portions are bigger too.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The only thing I am not sure about is the protein bars. I loved Pria bars back in the day, but can't seem to find those. I thought maybe Luna would be good but they seem really high in calories. So I am not sure what to do about a bar. I am afraid to try the ones at the store. So I may just supplement with powder or skip the bar since the meals have more calories.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Dinner will be lean and green!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have been using the calorie free syrups for more variety with the shakes/puddings. Even in my coffee. YUM! And I have gotten back in the habit of having hot tea when I feel the need to snack.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Now, if only I could get my exercise motivation back so I can put forth my plan, I would be good to go! I am thinking about doing a short walk on the treadmill in the AM, using My Break Pal during the day while I am working, then after dinner do another walk, DVD or weight train. Hopefully that will kick the losses up a notch. I am going to start Monday. I am not going to mess with it over the Christmas weekend.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Oh, and I actually found something I really liked at Applebee’s. We go there ALOT and I can't get enough of their spinach dip and boneless wings. However, not diet friendly. My mom and I were out Tuesday and we went there for lunch. I tried the Dijon Chicken that was on their 550 menu. OMG! It was to die for. Who needs hot wings????? I think that is my new favorite item at Applebee’s. I was pretty excited about my find.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">All in all I am making some changes with my diet with the hopes of being able to stick to it. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-43259054396618924732010-12-23T15:30:00.000-05:002010-12-23T15:30:14.464-05:00Still Working on Blog ChangesI have finally merged my eBooksNook and Poetry in Motion blogs here to Self Employed Writer. It was getting to be too much of a hassle to keep going back and forth between blogs. I am a writer, all of my writing should be in one place. ;)<br /><br />My blog got picked up by Demand Studios, one of the companies I write content for. They have a new blog network program and I am pretty excited to be proud of that.<br /><br />With more traffic I have been thinking about switching from Blogger to WordPress. I already have a free WP blog that pretty much mirrors this blog. I would like to get in to self hosting so that I do not have to worry about blogs or posts being deleted or photo hosting leaving my photos blank. I just wonder if it is worth the expense and the headache of switching. I do like that self hosting through WP and GoDaddy allows me to have more SEO tools, as well as customization.<br /><br />I am doing a little research. It seams those on WP self hosting make a lot more revenue than those we are set up on Blogger.<br /><br />So, you have to spend money to make money I guess. Sort of like advertising. I am advertising myself.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-49707332975054906192010-12-23T12:51:00.000-05:002010-12-23T12:51:27.011-05:00Gifts for Book LoversWith Christmas only a few days away, how many of you are actually done (be honest, raise your hand) and how many of you still have to find that little something for that one person you still have no idea what to get?<br /><br />Don't make it so hard!<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"></span></span><br /><div style="color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif;">Many people think book lovers are the hardest people to buy for. They seem to love books and nothing else. You know nothing about books, other then what is nicely displayed in the local bookstore window. Never fear, plenty of items exist for any book lover on your list. So what are some gifts for people who love books?</span></div><div style="color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif;">Keep reading for a list of the top five items suitable for the book lover in your life.</span></div><div style="color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif;"><br /></span></div><div style="color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif;"><b>1. All book lovers love, well, books!</b> So the perfect gift would be another book, right? Take note of their reading list; note things like genre and author. This will ensure you are purchasing books tailored to their interests. Some wonderful book sites are <a href="http://www.amazon.com/">Amazon</a>, <a href="http://www.bn.com/">Barnes and Noble</a> , <a href="http://www.borders.com/">Borders</a> and <a href="http://www.bookcloseouts.com/">Book Closeouts</a>.</span></div><div style="color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif;"><br /></span></div><div style="color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif;"><b>2. Membership to a bookstore.</b> Stores such as <a href="http://www.barnesandnoble.com/membership/join.as">Barnes and Noble</a> offer a membership club. For $25 a year members receive 40% off all Hardcover Bestsellers, 20% off all Adult Hardcover's, and 10% off almost everything else. Other benefits include $50 in bonus coupons for new members and many emails containing even more coupons and deals just for members. The card can be used both in store and online. A perk for online users is the reduced rate for shipping.</span></div><div style="color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif;"><br /></span></div><div style="color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif;"><b>3. Bookends are the perfect gift for that book lover of any age</b>. <a href="http://www.justbookends.com/">Just Bookends</a> offers a wide variety of bookends. They offer a special category just for children that contain frogs, planes, fire trucks, animals, alphabets, and sports related. For the adult they offer everything in between from plain to simple.</span></div><div style="color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif;"><br /></span></div><div style="color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif;"><b>4. Book lights </b>are a perfect book lover's gift, especially for those who read in bed or travel a lot. Book lights are small and portable, making them easy for airplane travel. Those that read in bed will love the fact they will not bother their neighbor when staying up to read that new novel. <a href="http://www.amazon.com/b?ie=UTF8&node=1063290">Amazon.com</a> offers a wide variety of book lights sure to suit any book lover's taste.</span></div><div style="color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif;"><br /></span></div><div style="color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif;"><b>5. Audio Books.</b> Often book lovers do not have time to devote to reading a national bestseller. Perhaps the book lover on your list travels a lot, especially by car. Audio books offer a great alternative to those who need a portable way to enjoy their favorite books. Books are available on cassette tape, compact disc as well as downloadable in mp3 format. This is ideal for those with a long commute or even those who enjoy the outdoors with a walk or run. <a href="http://www.audible.com/">Audible.com</a> offers national best sellers to the classics.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; line-height: normal;"></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-61855066705775461942010-12-23T11:45:00.001-05:002010-12-24T16:15:59.402-05:00Two Tickets to the Christmas Ball<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TRN8Vg1elUI/AAAAAAAAANY/FhH4Zs2MsvY/s1600/73246320.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TRN8Vg1elUI/AAAAAAAAANY/FhH4Zs2MsvY/s320/73246320.JPG" width="208" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><b>12/22/2010 7:18pm</b></div><div class="MsoNormal">As of the writing of this blog I have made it through four chapters. My mark patiently awaits me on Chapter 5. I wish I could have read more, but I know if I would have stayed up longer to read, I would have been up all night and would not have gotten any sleep. It is bad enough I don’t sleep enough as it is, thank you insomnia.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The writer introduces us to Cora Crowder, young and single. Cora is on a quest to purchase a book for her uncle from a quaint little bookstore just outside of town on Sage Street. Simon Derrick works with Cora and the two bump into each other at the little bookstore while he is shopping for a gift. The person he is buying a book for happens to be anther co-worker whom he drew for the office party’s gift swap. What a coincidence that Cora just happened to have drawn Simons name.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It just so happens that both are given a ticket to the Wizard’s Christmas Ball. Cora, not taking it very seriously gives her ticket to Simon so that he may take his sister. Cora and Simons paths keep crossing, and a friendship is starting to develop.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">When I left off with Chapter 4 Simon and Cora were about to leave work. Cora got word her car was ready for her to pick up after her run in with the curb, and Simon was nice enough to drive her. The next morning Simon offers her a better position within the company. Cora is ecstatic, she is finally moving up in the company. Later that night, Simon and his sister venture off to Cora’s place to see her baby kittens that are only a few days old. Sandy, Simon’s sister begins discussing the family’s Christianity. It is there that the chapter leaves off. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am ending this post now. I will return tomorrow morning and update with what I was able to read tonight!</div><div class="MsoNormal">Goodnight Blogland! </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;">Thursday <o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal">12/23/2010 11:34am</div><div class="MsoNormal">It only took me a couple of hours to finish up the book. I have to say, it was a quick read and I thoroughly enjoyed every last word. I am planning on looking in to more works from this author,<a href="http://www.donitakpaul.com/"> Donita K. Paul.</a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It would seem that Sage Street is a bit magical. With the dress shop owners, candy store owners, and the bookstore owners playing matchmaker, Cora and Simon are in for the tale of their life. The way it is played out is quite charming. In a series of events, Simon and Cora continue to cross paths. Every time it happens, one realizes something more about the other. It helps that Sandy, Simon’s sister, really enjoys Cora’s company. Not to mention, Sandy is in love with Cora’s kittens. We continue to read on, as the characters unfold before our eyes. The book truly is a modern day fairytale. There are a few biblical scriptures here and there, so for those who do not care for that sort of thing, you can quickly skim over it, or just pass on the book. With fairies, wizards, ball gowns, ball dances, Christmas cheer, and a few pieces of drama thrown in for good measure, it is sure to be a hit with any reader, any age. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Another thing that really stood out for me was the dust jacket. It is simply beautiful. I know many readers do not give much thought to the covers, but there have been times when I have felt a cover could have been better or that there was a better suited cover for a particular story. This cover fits perfectly and the artist did a wonderful job of capturing what the reader would thing Sage Street to look like.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-1814799138842492722010-12-22T13:43:00.000-05:002010-12-22T13:43:23.252-05:00My Heart Breaks for Him<div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">A while back ago I mentioned in a status update about my friend Ron. Ron and I go all the way back to 1996. He was one of the first people I met when I moved from Tulsa, OK to Stillwater, OK. He worked with me and we went to college together at Oklahoma State. We quickly became the best of friends.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Ron and I did everything together. We went to parties, movies, concerts, shows, and campus events together. It was not often you did not see the two of us together. We were best friends. We talked about everything, and shared every detail of our lives with each other. When someone needed a friend in the middle of the night, we called each other. When we hit the bars together and there was no one to hook up with, we went home together.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Ron and I spent many nights together. Always safe with each other and never had to speak a word. We were not dating, we were not a couple, but we DID love each other madly. I am not sure why we never took our relationship to the next level. For the most part we were young and always dating around. At the time, neither of us wanted to settle really. He watched me move from boyfriend to boyfriend, date to date, one night stand to another. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">People did not understand my relationship with Ron, and I really did not care. I felt I was special to have this wonderful person in my life. He meant the world to me, and I would have done anything for him.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Now, I know what many of you are thinking….did we kiss? Sure, once in a while. But it was the booze kissing, not us. We kissed on the cheek as friends. In the drunken nights, we would kiss, as more than just friends. We never spoke of it. Ever. We knew there were feelings, we knew the other cared, but NEITHER of us wanted to ruin this wonderful friendship we had.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Or did we? I admit, there was a period in time after a few years had passed where I thought I was in love with Ron. What better person to spend the rest of your life with than your best friend. Wasn’t that how it was suppose to be? He was unsure. He was still trying to get over his high school sweetheart and really just wanted to “have fun” while in college. I respected that.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Well his “fun” in college caught up with him. He was placed on academic suspension. In order to graduate on time he was going to have to transfer to another school for the semester. That news struck me hard. Here it was almost Christmas and I was about to lose the one person that mattered the most to me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We decided to have one last party before everyone left for the semester. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Ron and I were at a hotel bar watching the karaoke people. Laughing, having a good time, when a bunch of his fraternity brothers showed up with a few of our other friends. We danced, we sang and we laughed all night long. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It has been years since I thought about this night. It has been even longer since I really talked about Ron. </div><div class="MsoNormal">That night, changed us. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">When the party ended we still had 3 pitchers of beer left to drink. They only way they would let us leave with it is if we took it to our room. Since the weather was getting bad, everyone had been drinking, we decided to book a room. Imagine this. 2 beds, 1 room, 1 girl and 8 guys. Sound like fun? Not hardly. The guys got extremely rowdy so Ron and I took off before we could let them kick us out. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Back at my place we went through our usual good night routine and headed off to slumberville. While laying there I heard his drunken whisper “hey” and I rolled over to look at him. We started to talk about him leaving. </div><div class="MsoNormal">Let me explain, this was the first guy I had let get close to me. I had let him in to the darkness, and he was over my wall. He saw me with my mask, and without. I wore that mask, even then. We were in our early 20s. We thought we had the world all figured out.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I was sad he was not going to be with me the following semester. Not that I really had any choice. We decided at that moment to take our relationship to the next level. He tried anyway. Things just did not work right if you catch my drift.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The next day, and every day after that life went on as usual. I don’t know if that is what changed us, or the distance. But things were never the same. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Sometime later I began dating my now ex husband and Ron had met Becky. Life continued on. We went separate directions. We hung out once in a while, called when the mood striked. Once or twice their was a midnight phone call from him. Becky worked 2<sup>nd</sup> shift and he would often go out with his friends after work. By this time everyone had graduated college and had settled in on life.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Once I asked him why he never wanted to date me, he told me, if I had looked at him the way I looked at Marcus (my ex husband) then he would have known it was real. It took me a long time to truly understand that.</div><div class="MsoNormal">We never spoke of that day. And, we have never spoken of our past together.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">On March 22, 2010 Ron and Becky welcomed their first child into the world. A son, William. Just a day after his birth Becky slipped into a coma. She never woke. A week later she passed away. My heart broke for him. I cried and I packed. I had called my mother to tell her what was going on. She told me I needed to stay home. I felt horrible. What sort of friend was I if I did not go back to OK to be there for someone who had ALWAYS been there for me?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Even though we drifted in and out of touch, we always stayed friends. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">But, I knew she was right. I should stay out of the way and let him do what he needed to do.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Since then, we have only talked through text messages and voice mail. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am terrified of the phone. Always have been. I hide it well. Some sort of anxiety I have with it. I have lost a few friends because of this. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">With him, I have no idea what to say. I am going through so much darkness and depression in my own life that I have no idea what to say to Ron. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I decided to send him a Christmas card. He needed to know I was thinking of him and baby Will. </div><div class="MsoNormal">Ron called me last night. My phone was charging while I was in the living room. When I went into my bedroom to start reading, I saw he had called. As I listened to the voicemail the tears began to roll. His voice was shaky, but he still sounded as if I had just met him all those years ago. He said he and Will are as doing as good as can be expected; things are very hard for him right now. This will be Wills 1<sup>st</sup> Christmas, and Becky is gone. It is also Ron and Becky’s anniversary soon, and that saddened him.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I get really bothered when such horrible things happen to such good people. That man had not once ounce of mean in his body. He did not deserve to lose his wife. That baby did not deserve to lose his mother.</div><div class="MsoNormal">His voicemail then went on to say that he remembered me mentioning I was getting married, how was that going? I could hear him start to shake more. Went on to say he was a lucky man and that I was a good woman.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It broke my heart. My heart breaks for him. I held my phone tight against my chest and just cried.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"> <a href="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/24339_417093175914_569555914_5577410_1908731_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/24339_417093175914_569555914_5577410_1908731_n.jpg" /></a></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 15px;">Monday March 22 @ 8:35am. 8.9 pounds, 21 in long.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 15px;">He looks just like his daddy, bald and chubby! And that is proud momma/wife Becky! Welcome to the world William Hugh!!</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 15px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 15px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 15px;"><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-46771526194103175282010-12-22T13:03:00.000-05:002010-12-22T13:03:20.661-05:00And You Call Yourself a Nurse?<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i899.photobucket.com/albums/ac192/tracy_bucket_photo/big3842265.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i899.photobucket.com/albums/ac192/tracy_bucket_photo/big3842265.jpg" /></a></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal">Forgive me for asking this, but aren’t nurses supposed to be kind and compassionate?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Well, Sunday night I was not given that treatment, and honestly, it ticked me off. I was already in the dumps and decided, per usual, to just make light of it and post something on Facebook. Anyone who really knows me and know what goes on in my brain would have gotten the idea of what I wrote.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">There was one person who really rubbed me the wrong way. There is a girl who I have known since about 5<sup>th</sup> grade. Earlier this year, through a bunch of high school friends, we friended each other on Facebook. Mind you, her and I were not best friends, nor were we really close. We lived across the street from each other, rode the same bus when we were younger, had many mutual friends, and spent very little time together. I have no idea what she is doing or has done with her life other than become a nurse.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, my comment of course was about depression and bipolar. She took it upon herself to go outside of her nursing duties to basically tell me that those who are depressed or bipolar do not know to think about what they are or what is wrong with them. When I told her I was diagnosed with it many years ago she proceeded to tell me that shrinks were a joke and it was all a marketing ploy for them to take your money. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">WHAT?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So basically you are telling me that everything that is wrong with me, all the things that happened to me to make me this way are not real and merely a figment of my imagination?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Did you really just call yourself a nurse?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">She then went on to tell me that everyone has a “bad” day and that’s just “life”.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">STFU , TYVM.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i563.photobucket.com/albums/ss77/kristina_040/Happy_Pills.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i563.photobucket.com/albums/ss77/kristina_040/Happy_Pills.gif" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Really??</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Did she just really say that?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It angered me. And then it got me to thinking about how earlier this year I did try to find some help for myself. Matt and I decided to try the new counselor at church. He basically said it was all in our heads and we needed to get over our pity parties. I was extremely angry. I know that there are religious persons who do not believe in depression or the need for medication. But, if you are going to be a counselor, and you have this girl in front of you who obviously needs help, despite the fact she is smiling (cant you see that’s her way of dealing, that is her mask?), shouldn’t you try to help her? Isn’t that what a man of God would do? </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, imagine my surprise a few weeks later when the Associate Pastor at the same church posted a Facebook message about someone he knew going through depression……</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Needless to say, I have not been back to church since July. Not that I ever was really a churchgoer. I went for Matt and lil M. I don’t consider myself religious. But, that is another blog post.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">You can find those <a href="http://www.selfemployedwriter.com/2007/09/no-religion-in-which-i-follow.html">here (2007)</a> and <a href="http://www.selfemployedwriter.com/2009/10/defining-my-religion-again-or-lack.html">here (2009).</a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I was so frustrated I did not sleep well Sunday night. Monday morning I was wide awake at 4am. Around 6am I decided to check in on the Facebook world.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I read her words again. I then decided to post a few on my own words about how anyone needed to walk in my shoes for so many years of my life and come back and visit the me today, then talk to me about what you think is real and what is not.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I just don’t understand how people can speak their words without thinking first. Especially someone who is a nurse.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I guess I will never understand people in general.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-39686432203236082022010-12-22T11:54:00.000-05:002010-12-22T11:54:03.214-05:00Making Some Changes in Blogland<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i19.photobucket.com/albums/b161/BoOkOfMe/Coole%20Bilder/BilderMitText/blogging.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="194" src="http://i19.photobucket.com/albums/b161/BoOkOfMe/Coole%20Bilder/BilderMitText/blogging.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Last night I was writing a blog post on my iPod Touch. Since it was a book review, it went on my eBooks Nook page. It got me thinking about how I did not want to write the whole post again to post on Self Employed Writer and the copy/paste on the Touch is extremely awkward and half the time does not work. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The last thing I want to do is sleep with my laptop in case the light bulb moment hits where I need to blog. It is bad enough I have to carry around notebooks for those moments when the light bulb flashes for an idea and I have to jot it down. Sadly, many come to me and I don’t write them down and I hope I remember and I never do! Maybe I need to keep a small recorder with me at all times so I can just speak my ideas when they hit. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Anyway, I am rambling again.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I was thinking about how I have quite a few separate blogs stemming from my main blog. When I first started I thought it was a great idea.<a href="http://www.selfemployedwriter.com/2010/04/my-niche.html"> Everything I read about blogging stated I needed to find a niche.</a> Well, I don’t have one, I have many. The harder I try to focus on just one subject, the more scattered my blog, ideas, and my brain become.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">There is eBooks Nook where I am posting my ebook and book reviews. When I started this blog it was with the intention that once I was done with school in June 2011 I would have more time to devote to my reading and be able to talk about the books I love. I also had the intention of doing an online book club.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So far I do not have a lot of action on that site. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I finally came to the conclusion that it is OK! I was posting the links here, on S.E.W. and doing a click through to my eBook blog. It occurred to me that I am sure there are people like me who hate having to click from site to site to site. I know, I am one of them. I hate reading through something only to be left hanging and finding out I have to click someplace else.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">For my Helium articles, it is a little bit different. I need people to click through! But, I guess I should not post a click through on S.E.W. to go to eBooks, only to make the reader go to Helium.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I had another blog, I Dare You to Tell Me, which was going to be all Shinedown. I don’t think I have enough posts related to them, as it really is all about me! So I deleted that blog.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Another idea I had was Bonus Mom 101, which was going to be a place about being the 2<sup>nd</sup> mom, bonus mom, weekend mom, step mom, or whatever you wanted to call it. After 2 years I have learned a lot and wanted to group together with other girls in my shoes. Honestly, seemed like a good idea, but I already talk about so much of that on S.E.W. that is seems silly to separate it.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Right now, it seems silly to separate anything. I have my poetry blog, for Poetry in Motion, something I started five years ago. When I would blog, I would give it that title in the subject, along with the title of the poem. It stuck. I keep my poetry separate for those who only want to read my poetry. But I also link it on S.E.W. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Then, there is the erotica. Now that, again, started five years ago, started as IrishChiks Erotic Confessions. Over the years I dropped the IC and now just call the blog Erotic Confessions. I have to keep that separate because it is adult material. Again, it is linked through S.E.W.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">My landing page is chrystalmahan.info which links all of my blogs, places I work for and some links to where my content pieces are published. I need to keep that, mostly for business purposes. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am trying to figure out a way to simplify things. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Hang in there with my while I try to figure things out and make some changes. I *think* I will be doing a lot less linking, but still keep things separate for those who only want to read one thing. Those blogs can be left out in Blogland for those to stumble on, while I just keep promoting my main site. Might make things easier for me, and for blog readers, right? I also need to find a nice blogger template for my S.E.W. that offers a bit more in regards to tweets, and sharing on other social networking sites.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I also obtained a copy of Corel Paint Shop 13 and Animation Shop. I have version 9, when it was still Jasc. So we will see how it handles for me. I used to love making my own graphics for blogs and comments. If time permits, I would like to do that again instead of searching photobucket! </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-13292073651708458002010-12-21T21:18:00.000-05:002010-12-22T11:32:27.411-05:00On Chapter 5!!<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">The book, so far is really cute and quite magical! I just started to read and I am already on Chapter Five!! I have to stop for the night. It's 11:16pm and I must get my beauty rest ;)</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">The book does have a bit of romance, but thankfully does not read like a romance novel. Not something I am in the mood for. To be honest I am not much of a fan of traditional romance novels. The characters do have a deep connection to God.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I look forward to reading more. There is just something about a brand new hardcover book with a beautiful dust jacket that makes it hard for me to stay away!</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">From Amazon:</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small; line-height: normal;"></span></span><br /><h3 class="productDescriptionSource" style="clear: both; color: #333333; font-size: 1.23em; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0.375em; margin-left: -15px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0.75em;">Product Description</h3><div class="productDescriptionWrapper" style="margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><b>Can mysterious matchmaking booksellers bring two lonely hearts together in time for Christmas?</b><br />In a sleepy, snow-covered city, Cora Crowder is busy preparing for the holiday season. Searching for a perfect gift, a fortuitous trip to Warner, Werner, and Wizbotterdad’s (a most unusual bookshop) leads to an unexpected encounter with co-worker Simon Derrick. And the surprise discovery of a ticket for a truly one-of-a-kind Christmas Ball.<br /><br />Every year, the matchmaking booksellers of the Sage Street bookshop host an enchanting, old-fashioned Christmas Ball for the romantic matches they’ve decided to bring together.<br /><br />This year, will Simon and Cora discover a perfect chemistry in their opposite personalities and shared faith? Or will the matchmakers’ best laid plans end up ruining everything this holiday?<br /><div class="emptyClear" style="clear: both; font-size: 0px; height: 0px;"></div></div><h3 class="productDescriptionSource" style="clear: both; color: #333333; font-size: 1.23em; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0.375em; margin-left: -15px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0.75em;">About the Author</h3><div class="productDescriptionWrapper" style="margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">Expertly weaving together fantasy, romance and Biblical truths, <b>Donita K. Paul</b> penned the best-selling, fan-favorite DragonKeeper Chronicles series. After retiring early from teaching, she began a second career as an award-winning author and loves serving as a mentor for new writers of all ages. And when she’s not putting pen to paper, Donita makes her home in Colorado Springs and enjoys spending time with her grandsons, cooking, beading, stamping, and knitting.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-27253670747232989242010-12-21T20:54:00.004-05:002010-12-23T12:19:25.801-05:00Christmas Came Early!!<div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">It was like Christmas for me today!</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i192.photobucket.com/albums/z316/bettyboop6896/Christmas/thb-1.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i192.photobucket.com/albums/z316/bettyboop6896/Christmas/thb-1.gif" /></a></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-size: 15px;">It was like Christmas for me today!<br /><br />I received a book in the mail entitled "Two Tickets to the Christmas Ball" by Donita K. Paul.<br /><br />I am REALLY excited about this little present. Will begin reading tonight even though I have not finished the ebook I started the other night. I would like to read this one since it is so close to Christmas. Keep your eyes open!</span></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-size: 15px;"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0307458997&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe></span></span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-6363362499345394102010-12-20T21:24:00.004-05:002010-12-23T12:21:06.037-05:00Time to Read – Almost Heaven by Chris Fabry<iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=1414319576&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">So, I have been trying to put time aside to sit and read.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Maybe that was not such a good idea so close to the holidays.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">When I made that idea up in my head, I was just about to finish up finals with school and thought I would have a few weeks before school had to start back up again, so why not try to read a little something during my short break?</div><div><br /></div><div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Good idea, but I have been so busy trying to get work done and get things ready for the holidays the last thing I do when I am done for the night is read. It makes me sad. I would go through so many books a month it was ridiculous. My ex husband would laugh at me because I would always be on the hunt for something new to read. It was like I had to feed my brain.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">When I went back to school 2 years ago all of that changed. I just don’t have time to read for fun. And those few times that I do, I end up falling asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow (I like to read in bed). I used to be able to sit and read, any time, any place. Not now. It’s too loud and busy where I live now. So, I have to carve out my own quiet time.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I found a couple of books on Amazon that looked good. Sadly, because they were free, they were not offered in any format other than<a href="http://www.amazon.com/s/?ie=UTF8&tag=freelan09-20&link_code=btl&camp=213689&creative=392969&search-alias=aps&field-keywords=kiindle" style="color: #649900; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank"> Kindle</a><img alt="" border="0" height="1" src="http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=freelan09-20&l=btl&camp=213689&creative=392969&o=1&a=" style="-webkit-box-shadow: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.0976563) 1px 1px 5px; background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: white; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; border-bottom-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-bottom-style: none !important; border-bottom-width: 1px; border-color: initial !important; border-left-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-left-style: none !important; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-right-style: none !important; border-right-width: 1px; border-top-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-top-style: none !important; border-top-width: 1px; border-width: initial !important; margin-bottom: 0px !important; margin-left: 0px !important; margin-right: 0px !important; margin-top: 0px !important; padding-bottom: 0px !important; padding-left: 0px !important; padding-right: 0px !important; padding-top: 0px !important;" width="1" />. I am not willing to buy a <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Kindle-Amazons-Original-Wireless-generation/dp/B000FI73MA?ie=UTF8&tag=freelan09-20&link_code=btl&camp=213689&creative=392969" style="color: #649900; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank">Kindle</a><img alt="" border="0" height="1" src="http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=freelan09-20&l=btl&camp=213689&creative=392969&o=1&a=B000FI73MA" style="-webkit-box-shadow: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.0976563) 1px 1px 5px; background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: white; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; border-bottom-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-bottom-style: none !important; border-bottom-width: 1px; border-color: initial !important; border-left-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-left-style: none !important; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-right-style: none !important; border-right-width: 1px; border-top-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-top-style: none !important; border-top-width: 1px; border-width: initial !important; margin-bottom: 0px !important; margin-left: 0px !important; margin-right: 0px !important; margin-top: 0px !important; padding-bottom: 0px !important; padding-left: 0px !important; padding-right: 0px !important; padding-top: 0px !important;" width="1" /> when I have a Nook, so I ended up putting the Kindle app on my laptop and iPod Touch.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I am able to read a few pages at a time before I fall asleep. Right now, it is better than nothing.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">So, the book I have started on is<a href="http://www.amazon.com/Almost-Heaven-Chris-Fabry/dp/1414319576?ie=UTF8&tag=freelan09-20&link_code=btl&camp=213689&creative=392969" style="color: #649900; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank"> </a><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Almost-Heaven-Chris-Fabry/dp/1414319576?ie=UTF8&tag=freelan09-20&link_code=btl&camp=213689&creative=392969" target="_blank">Almost Heaven by Chris Fabry</a><img alt="" border="0" height="1" src="http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=freelan09-20&l=btl&camp=213689&creative=392969&o=1&a=1414319576" style="border: none !important; margin: 0px !important; padding: 0px !important;" width="1" />. I have only made it to Chapter 2. I guess a chapter a night on an iPod Touch is not too bad, considering the size of the screen.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">PS. Not every book I read and write about will be faith based in nature. It just seems that is the books I have picked up on the last few weeks.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">From Amazon:</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Product Description<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Billy Allman is a hillbilly genius. People in Dogwood, West Virginia, say he was born with a second helping of brains and a gift for playing the mandolin but was cut short on social skills. Though he’d gladly give you the shirt off his back, they were right. Billy longs to use his life as an ode to God, a lyrical, beautiful bluegrass song played with a finely tuned heart. So with spare parts from a lifetime of collecting, he builds a radio station in his own home. People in town laugh. But Billy carries a brutal secret that keeps him from significance and purpose. Things always seem to go wrong for him.<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">However small his life seems, from a different perspective Billy’s song reaches far beyond the hills and hollers he calls home. Malachi is an angel sent to observe Billy. Though it is not his dream assignment, Malachi follows the man and begins to see the bigger picture of how each painful step Billy takes is a note added to a beautiful symphony that will forever change the lives of those who hear it.</div><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.shareasale.com/r.cfm?b=100843&u=465182&m=14766&urllink=&afftrack=" target="_blank"><img border="0" src="http://www.shareasale.com/image/banner120x6015.gif" /></a></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-13510774499991807992010-12-20T20:53:00.000-05:002010-12-20T20:53:08.052-05:00What diet? Oh, yeah....that one..<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i898.photobucket.com/albums/ac185/roseyy_doll/OsaPZCgTrpb5vvbxLfUPdYIbo1_400.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="212" src="http://i898.photobucket.com/albums/ac185/roseyy_doll/OsaPZCgTrpb5vvbxLfUPdYIbo1_400.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="MsoNormal">Well, I have nothing new to report really, other than I have pretty much fallen off the wagon. I really started with good intentions, but food is my drug. I prefer it over my medications. I am stressed and full of anxiety and I am sure my depression is kicking me inside somewhere. Holidays are not good for me anyway so I don’t know what I was thinking starting a diet so close to the holidays. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The sad thing is, I was doing really well up until we took off for the weekend to go to the UFC event. We ate out all weekend long. Although the food was good, after being on a diet for a few weeks, going back to food like that physically made me sick feeling.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">When we got home I tried to get back on the diet. I would do really good most days and then I would have an off day. And that’s pretty much how it has been. So I have not given up completely, I am just not following the <a href="http://www.shareasale.com/r.cfm?B=48673&U=465182&M=7669">Wonderslim program 100%</a>. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">After the UFC weekend it seems like we have been full of events, parties, get-togethers, dinners, and so on. So, there has been a lot of eating out, eating with others, and me not planning ahead. I got super busy with trying to finish up my semester and keep my A’s as well as overloaded with holiday work.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I know, that’s life. And we should be able to deal with what life throws at you. I am different. I have a different way of handling things than most people. When I was little and being abused, food was what made me feel better, it was my best friend, always there when I needed it. As an adult, old habits and the way I learned things, it is hard to break. So when things get tough, I head to the kitchen.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Thankfully for the most part I keep healthy snack options in the house and I do have <a href="http://www.shareasale.com/r.cfm?B=36170&U=465182&M=7669">Wonderslim</a> snacks, which has helped a great deal! </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Right now, I do not want to have a holiday gain. And I am making smarter choices than I have in the past. Once the holidays are over, it’s back on the treadmill, dusting off the dvds, restarting my Netflix subscription, and getting back on program 100%!</div><br /><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.shareasale.com/r.cfm?b=34743&u=465182&m=7669&urllink=&afftrack=" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;" target="_blank"><img border="0" src="http://www.shareasale.com/image/7669/250x250_22.gif" /></a></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-11728251203178711492010-12-18T20:51:00.000-05:002010-12-18T20:51:05.940-05:00Not Strong Enough<iframe frameborder="0" height="295" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/dKDKgj98c18?fs=1" width="480"></iframe><br /><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">Not Strong Enough lyrics</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">I’m not strong enough to stay away.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">Can't run from you</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">I just run back to you.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">Like a moth im drawn into your flame,</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">Say my name, but it's not the same.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">You look in my eyes I’m stripped of my pride.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">And my soul surrenders</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">and you bring my heart to its knees</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">And it's killin’ me when you're away,</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">i wanna leave and i wanna stay</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">I’m so confused,So hard to choose.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">Between the pleasure and the pain</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">And I know it's wrong, and I know it's right.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">Even if i try to win the fight,</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">my heart would overrule my mind</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">And I’m not strong enough to stay away</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">I'm not strong enough to stay away</div><br /><br />What can I do<br />i would die without you<br />in your presence my heart knows no shame<br />im not to blame<br />cause you bring my heart to its knees<br /><br />And it's killin’ me when you're away, <br />i wanna leave and i wanna stay<br />I’m so confused,So hard to choose.<br />Between the pleasure and the pain<br />And I know it's wrong, and I know it's right.<br />Even if i try to win the fight,<br />my heart would overrule my mind<br />And I’m not strong enough to stay away<br /><br />There's nothing I can do<br />My heart is chained to you<br />And I can't get free<br />Look what this love did to me<br /><br />And it's killin’ me when you're away, <br />i wanna leave and i wanna stay<br />I’m so confused,So hard to choose.<br />Between the pleasure and the pain<br />And I know it's wrong, and I know it's right.<br />Even if i try to win the fight, <br />my heart would overrule my mind<br />And I’m not strong enough to stay away<br /><br />not strong enough, strong enough<br />not strong enough, strong enough to stay away<br />not strong enough, strong enough <br />and im not strong enough to stay awayChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-582005457125390242010-12-18T19:15:00.002-05:002010-12-18T20:58:08.731-05:00Stuck Inside this Mind of Madness<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TQ1M7i0jrZI/AAAAAAAAANI/JpDNoBKAsp8/s1600/descent_into_madness_by_synfuleve-d2yin7k.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TQ1M7i0jrZI/AAAAAAAAANI/JpDNoBKAsp8/s320/descent_into_madness_by_synfuleve-d2yin7k.jpg" width="266" /></a></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal">Every year around this time of the year I spend some time contemplating where I am going, where I am right now, and where I have been. For whatever the reason I feel the need to reflect. I do not know if this is really healthy or not, nor do I really care. I do it anyway.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Today I was thinking to myself how I wish I could get back some of that creativity I had in 2005 when I first starting this whole writing ordeal. I think my trials and tribulations in life have literally sucked that life right out of me.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I see these old writings and I am wondering where that girl went. I was so creative, so open, and so true to me. These days I find myself having to be my own censor because there are too many people in his world who seems to want to have an opinion about what I have to say.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Pretty sure that the last time I checked there was this freedom thing we had where I COULD say exactly what I wanted. I guess people just don’t understand. What they see is on the surface, no matter how many years they know. What they don’t know is what it is like here. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have literally suffered through every type of abuse you can think of, all at the hands of dirty rotten men. Now, I seem to be living in a bipolar environment that I am sure falls into some sort of its own category. Whatever, it’s not really a mentally healthy place to be.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have had quite a few people come to me the last couple weeks tell me how much of an inspiration I have been. Who me? For what? Just these words that I write? That is pretty amazing, honestly. But, in the same breath, I feel fake. I feel like I have not been true to myself, so how am I being true to them?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">How can I give them praise and encouragement when I can’t even deal with the madness that is going on around me? Suddenly I find myself being forced to take off my mask and really search inside myself and think, how can I give advice when I can’t even follow it myself?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The last thing I want is for people to see me this way. For so long I have been that<a href="http://apoetinmotion.blogspot.com/2006/03/poetry-in-motion-little-girl-lost.html"> little girl lost</a>, confused, lonely, in a world full of darkness. All of those people that helped me get out of the darkest pits of the hell I was in are no longer with me. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I don’t like the life I am living. But I don’t know how to change it. I know I have to; the alternative scares me even more. I mean once you go there, it’s no turning back. To be on my own terrifies me. Not because I am afraid of being alone in the sense of not having a man in my life, but in the sense that I have never lived alone. I lived with my parents, then my mother while I was in college, up until I moved in with the ex husband. Once we got divorced I moved right back in with my mom, and now here with him.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Reflecting on my past, I read a blog from 2005, about this time. I was about to celebrate my 3<sup>rd</sup> wedding anniversary. We married on New Year’s Eve for those who have forgotten, or just did not know. I am reading the words I wrote. They echo in my head. All of those words were etched in my heart for so long. Those empty feelings I had then are the way I am feeling right now. I did not know why or how to fix it then, so how am I going to do that now?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Am I doomed to always deal with this madness in my head and be <a href="http://apoetinmotion.blogspot.com/2006/03/poetry-in-motion-little-girl-lost.html">the little girl lost</a>, or is there really an answer out there that I am just not seeing??</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TQ1OlWhnWpI/AAAAAAAAANM/pl7d1NNLsg4/s1600/madness_by_popohuata.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TQ1OlWhnWpI/AAAAAAAAANM/pl7d1NNLsg4/s320/madness_by_popohuata.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-9793365362491837312010-12-17T11:20:00.000-05:002010-12-17T11:20:10.543-05:00Chrome for a Cause<a href="http://www.google.com/chrome/intl/en/p/cause/#tnc">Chrome for a Cause</a><div><br /></div><div>Google Chrome has a new extension, Chrome for a Cause. Use it until December 19th and for every tab you open they will donate to the charity of your choice from the list provided.</div><div>It started 2 days ago, but I am just not hearing about it or I would have posted sooner!</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-24881880086571712832010-12-16T11:13:00.000-05:002010-12-16T11:13:25.360-05:00This Christmas Take a Moment to Say Thank You<div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.letssaythanks.com/" target="_blank"><img alt="Let's Say Thanks" border="0" src="http://www.letssaythanks.com/Portals/0/images/LST_Badge_3x3.jpg" /></a></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 14px;"><b><span style="font-size: 10pt;"><br /></span></b></span><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.letssaythanks.com/" target="_blank"></a><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 14px;"><b>XEROX IS DOING SOMETHING COOL</b></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 14px;"> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 10.65pt; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"></div><div style="text-align: center;"> </div><div style="text-align: center;">If you go to this web site, <a href="http://www.letssaythanks.com/">Let’s Say Thanks</a>, you can pick out a thank you card and Xerox will print it and it will be sent to a soldier that is currently serving in Iraq. You can't pick out who gets it, but it will go to a member of the armed services. </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"> </div><div style="text-align: center;">How AMAZING it would be if we could get everyone we know to send one!!! It is FREE and it only takes a second. </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"> </div><div style="text-align: center;">Wouldn't it be wonderful if the soldiers received a bunch of these? Whether you are for or against the war, our soldiers over there need to know we are behind them. </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"> </div><div style="text-align: center;">This takes just 10 seconds and it's a wonderful way to say thank you. Please take the time and please take the time to pass it on for others to do. We can never say enough thank you's. </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"> </div><div style="text-align: center;">Thanks for taking to time to support our military!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Also, it's never to late to send a gift basket overseas to a soldier.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><a href="http://www.shareasale.com/r.cfm?b=175680&u=465182&m=22299&urllink=&afftrack=" target="_blank"><img alt="Send Gift Basket Overseas" border="0" src="http://www.shareasale.com/image/468x60_5offcopy1.jpg" /></a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-84556298229834512372010-12-15T19:12:00.000-05:002010-12-15T19:12:36.011-05:00Break Pal : My New Fitness Friend<div class="MsoNormal">I’m a writer. I sit at my desk 8-10hrs or more a day. My home office is pretty comfortable, but the hours pass by so quickly that I often have to force myself to take a break or stop for a meal. My meal plan and exercise has fallen to the wayside ever since our UFC trip.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have these bouts where I will be on the treadmill for months, every day, with weekends off. Then, something will happen and I will not do it. Then time passes and I have to start all over again. I need consistency, and I need something easy. I still plan to enjoy my treadmill, when I actually use it, but I needed to find something to help me by being a multi-task product.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Please read the rest of the review/story on my Helium Channel!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><a href="http://www.helium.com/items/2040783" title="View my Article at Helium.com"> <img border="0" src="http://corp.helium.com/images/af/468x60_wrote.gif" /> </a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-66616882159320056922010-12-15T15:25:00.000-05:002010-12-15T15:25:14.030-05:00All Aboard! The Polar Express to the North Pole<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i588.photobucket.com/albums/ss323/Euler5853/file004666676877.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="176" src="http://i588.photobucket.com/albums/ss323/Euler5853/file004666676877.gif" width="320" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;">Sunday December 12, 2010 may very well be a day that has changed my life forever.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;">Ok, it was not that drastic. However, this day, along with other events over the weekend, may have brought back some of my Christmas spirit. Before all of you start bouncing up and down in your seats, notice I said SOME. The holidays still linger with sadness. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /><br /><span class="apple-style-span">Sunday we got up and ready, the weather started to get really bad Saturday night. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I had prayed for snow all week hoping the make the Polar Express trip to the North Pole as magical as I could. Our trip was later in the afternoon, so our trip home on the train would be in the dark. This was going to be awesome to see the snow and the way the lights sparkled.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><span class="apple-style-span"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><span class="apple-style-span"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;">We started on our journey in my SUV, Matt driving; we slid all over the place. There was no way I was going to drive, that’s too much anxiety for me. So we turned around after we got down to the next corner and got his car. He has rear wheel drive (or is it front wheel?) and even though I have an SUV, his car actually gets better traction then my Explorer. So, a 45min trip there ended up taking us about an hour and a half. It was blizzard snow.</span></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"> <o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/2096.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/2096.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><a href="http://michigansteamtrain.com/sri/">The Steam Railroad Institute is located in Owosso, MI</a>. It is there that we board the North Pole Express, otherwise known as the Polar Express. We arrive at the train station, bundled and freezing. Snow blowing, people running, excitement was in the air. Inside you give your confirmation paper and they give you your keepsake tickets. You can walk around the station where they have many model train displays. There is a bit of history scattered about as well. We had a bit of entertainment while we waited, and even had seating that looked like an old train station. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/44b3.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/44b3.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/IMG_0174.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/IMG_0174.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;">We did not have to wait long to board the train. We killed some of that time having a “family” photo done. We have photos of the 3 of us, but nothing professionally done. It turned out really nice if I do say so myself.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;">When you arrive on the train there is a nice keepsake welcome booklet in your seat. In the welcome book, on the first page it states:<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/IMG_0175.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/IMG_0175.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 18px;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;">“We are often asked about other Christmas operations that use the name of the movie and how we are different. While other operations around the country pay for the privilege and the rights to use the name Polar Express, #1225 was the ONE and ONLY steam locomotive that was used for the sound and overall image for the movie.”</span></i></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0395389496&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe>I personally had no idea. I knew the movie was actually based on the book, The Polar Express by Chris Van Allsburg. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 18px;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></i></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/IMG_0177.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/IMG_0177.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: black; font-size: medium; line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18px;">From page 4 of the welcome booklet:<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: black; font-size: medium; line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><i><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18px;">“In 2001, SRI was contacted by Warner Brothers Pictures, Inc. to assist with technical matters on a feature film that was in the works……………… staff responded by sending blueprints, video and still photos of 1225 along with coal samples and sever other railroad artifacts. What followed was a 3yr contract for the SRI to serve as technical advisors during the making of the film The Polar Express……Every sound from the locomotive, cars, and equipment was recorded and later used in The Polar Express.”<o:p></o:p></span></i></div><div><i><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18px;"><br /></span></i></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-size: 16px; line-height: 18px;">The train ride was awesome! I mean, that’s really all I can say. The conductor came around to punch our tickets when we first got on. After we started moving, a gentleman came through each car singing Christmas songs. Each car had a volunteer to talk to us, like a guide. Ours was so nice.</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i48.photobucket.com/albums/f243/Lillian_Potter/RP%20pictures/polar-1.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i48.photobucket.com/albums/f243/Lillian_Potter/RP%20pictures/polar-1.jpg" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/13166e85.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/13166e85.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We got hot cocoa (which was the best hot cocoa I ever had!), saw a group of deer (reindeer according to the kids) running alongside the train. It was so pretty and majestic with the snow falling. Once we got to the North Pole and Santa's Village, Santa came out to wave at us when we were docking the train.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;">It is here that my tale takes on a completely different turn. You see, the holidays have not been good to me over the years. I wanted so badly for that to change. I wanted to make sure that somehow this trip was special. I never knew I was going to experience what I was about to, it was not expected. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/9907f81d.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/9907f81d.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;">Lil M was SO excited. I have seen her get excited about things, and I have seen her extremely happy. But, there was something different about this. She doesn’t really get excited about the Santa’s at other places. She is really ho hum about it and gets sort of shy and doesn’t really want to go see him. We try, and sometimes she will go just to amuse us and let us take a picture. But (OMG) she was so excited, her eyes were so big. Her little body was just shaking in her boots. I just lost it. I started to cry like a big old baby.</span></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"> I don’t know what came over me, or even why. But seeing her like that…Wow. I start to tear up as I write this now.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/z138715955.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="73" src="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/z138715955.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;">I remember when I was little; Christmas was always special for me, my mom made sure of that. And even though at the time she did not know what was happening to me, this day was MY day and no one was going to take that away from me. We were 1000 miles from our family, so most of the time we were on our own. A few years an aunt and uncle lived in OK, too. As I got older sometimes the neighborhood kids would come over so we could play with our toys. But, I was very much alone inside of my head. Christmas morning I could escape for a brief moment in time.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;">I was about 9 when I found, honestly by accident, the “From Santa” packages. I was crushed. Somehow, Christmas did not change too much.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"></span></span><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /><br /><span class="apple-style-span">The past few years Christmas time just has not been good to me. And I guess that moment just got the best of me. I was so happy for her and I felt so good that I could do this for us. Words can't even express it.</span><span class="apple-converted-space"> It was if at that moment I was seeing myself in her, that excitement I had when I came running down the stairs Christmas morning, that excitement in my eyes. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><span class="apple-converted-space"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><span class="apple-converted-space"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;">Sadly I was highly embarrassed for anyone to see me cry. I can’t imagine what those people were saying. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;">Lil M asked me why I was crying and all I could say in between sobs was “I am SO happy!”<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;">I have questioned this relationship. Wondering if I am strong enough to be a bonus mom to lil M and whether I can handle Matt and all his faults. Questioned whether I can really let my guard down and just finally be me. Is this right for me? Right for us? Where do we go from here and what do we do? While I have been searching for the answers, looking at houses, and yet still trying to work things out, apparently there is love there. This day has changed me, in more ways than one. </span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i420.photobucket.com/albums/pp285/lauriemlls41/santa2.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="http://i420.photobucket.com/albums/pp285/lauriemlls41/santa2.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"></span></span><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> <!--[if !supportLineBreakNewLine]--><br style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> <!--[endif]--><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;">Santa’s workshop had carnival type food, games, rides, magic shows and some craft vendors. It was really neat. Matt and I had these Italian sausages with onions and peppers that were homemade and just to die for.</span></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"> We followed that up with a cinnamon and sugar sprinkled elephant ear (there were no funnel cakes BOO!).</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"></span></span><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /><br /><span class="apple-style-span"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><span class="apple-style-span"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><span class="apple-style-span"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><span class="apple-style-span"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><span class="apple-style-span"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><span class="apple-style-span">I have some videos posted on my <a href="http://www.youtube.com/okirishchik">YouTube Channel : OkIrishChik</a></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><span class="apple-style-span"><a href="http://www.youtube.com/okirishchik"></a></span><br /><br /><span class="apple-style-span">I guess maybe my Christmas spirit has returned.</span><span class="apple-converted-space"> Maybe she will stay this time. Maybe I am finally mourning those I have lost, moving forward, and looking forward to making new memories.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><span class="apple-converted-space"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><span class="apple-converted-space"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><span class="apple-converted-space"><br /></span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/IMG_0171.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/IMG_0171.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><span class="apple-converted-space"></span><br /><br /><span class="apple-style-span">When we were leaving, Santa was leaving his chair and lil M spotted him and asked if she could go give him a hug. I said “certainly”. Matt was having a bulb made with our names on it so I walked over there with her and she told Santa she loved him and I started to cry like a big ole baby again.</span><span class="apple-converted-space"> <o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><span class="apple-converted-space"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><span class="apple-converted-space"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;">Oh good grief.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"></span></span><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /><br />They gave our boarding signal and back on the train we went. Once seating and starting to move, the conductor came back around to punch our tickets again. We had bells in our seats, and yes, the 3 of us could hear ours. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/IMG_0173.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/IMG_0173.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;">Every car has a “special” bell and that child gets a gift package from the gift shop. The little boy next to us was the winner and lil M was so bummed. I thought she was going to cry when she realized she was not the “special” one. Sadly, we are working with her to not be a sore loser and play fairly. She tends to get mad, quits, makes up her own rules, and/or pouts. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;">I did not want this to be a bad ending, so I had Matt act as if he was going potty while she was staring out the window at the lights. I told him to grab a couple packets of the Christmas and train stickers they had in the gift shop. He came back and acted like he did not know he was sitting on them the whole time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-size: 16px; line-height: 18px;">I told lil M that when she was hugging Santa good-bye his magic left her a special present.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-size: 16px; line-height: 18px;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-size: 16px; line-height: 18px;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-size: 16px; line-height: 18px;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;">She then proceeded to wave it in front of that lil boy. *DOH* I had to giggle a bit, but Matt had to tell her to stop. *oye* Poor girl.</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i172.photobucket.com/albums/w30/letsgocampingnow/NorthPoleSnowman.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i172.photobucket.com/albums/w30/letsgocampingnow/NorthPoleSnowman.jpg" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /><br /><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;">Magically we left the North Pole and arrived safely back in Owosso. We then had to leave there; drive all the way to Fenton to drop lil M off at her home and then drive back to Birch Run. Good thing Matt has been driving in this mess all his life. We would have never of made it if I was driving.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /><span class="apple-style-span"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><span class="apple-style-span"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><span class="apple-style-span"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><span class="apple-style-span"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><span class="apple-style-span"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-size: 16px; line-height: 18px;"><span class="apple-style-span">So much fun to see all the other kids (baby sister, sis, and brother), her mom, her mom’s husband and his brother, as well as Grandma (not to be confused with Grammie, Matts mom). Always a houseful over there and a headache waiting to happen. One minute there and you can understand why lil M has some of the personality characteristics that she does. Her mom did say thank you for taking her, so that was nice of her. She seemed genuinely excited for lil M.</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-size: 16px; line-height: 18px;"><span class="apple-converted-space"> Sis was feeding me cookies. Baby sis was trying to get me to play dollies with her. Lil M just wanted me to see her room!</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><span class="apple-converted-space"></span><br /><br />The train is rather expensive considering the price of things these days, Adult tickets are $70 and Kids are $40. And for us, it was worth every penny. They also have a new Cocoa Class section, the car is highly decorated, the cocoa is unlimited and they get cookies and a mug to keep. That is $85 and $55. I was going to do that since this was our first time going, but tickets were all sold out.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/IMG_0176.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/IMG_0176.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;">I did <span class="apple-style-span">I buy us all souvenirs. I really wanted to remember this day. I got Matt and I coffee mugs, got him a Railroads of Michigan history book (go figure). Lil M and I got matching fuzzy kitties. Cinders is the stray that has made himself at home in the train station. The proceeds from his stuffed animal go towards his care as well as funding for the train. I plan to use mine as a Christmas decoration for memories. I got lil M a train set, and Matt a bigger train. No train for me. LOL. </span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/IMG_0180.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/IMG_0180.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><span class="apple-style-span"><br /></span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/IMG_0178.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/IMG_0178.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/IMG_0179.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/IMG_0179.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/155572_10150111269115915_569555914_7961879_6073108_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/155572_10150111269115915_569555914_7961879_6073108_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/69550_10150111269155915_569555914_7961880_4290905_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/69550_10150111269155915_569555914_7961880_4290905_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/IMG_0181.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/IMG_0181.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><span class="apple-style-span"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><span class="apple-style-span"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;">So, all my hard work and dedication to my writing has paid off. Without the stress, backache, finger aches, headaches, and dedication I would not have been able to take my little “family” on this trip. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;">Matt says he would like to go again next year. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/PolarExpress.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/PolarExpress.jpg" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;">Next year I am wearing my PJs and snow boots like others did </span><span style="color: #222222; font-family: Wingdings; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-char-type: symbol; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;"><span style="mso-char-type: symbol; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;">J</span></span><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #222222; font-family: Wingdings; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-char-type: symbol; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;"><span style="mso-char-type: symbol; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;"><br /></span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-47552869146763329932010-12-14T18:38:00.003-05:002010-12-15T18:24:14.907-05:00Regaining Christmas Spirit that was Lost....<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i841.photobucket.com/albums/zz337/rainbowella42/Christmas/holly/12905731773P4mr5.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="243" src="http://i841.photobucket.com/albums/zz337/rainbowella42/Christmas/holly/12905731773P4mr5.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal">As we grow older, somewhere along the way, our Christmas spirit is not what it used to be. We stop believing in Santa, only pretending for the sake of the children around us. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Or, if you are like me, so many terrible things happen around the holidays you just give up on Christmas altogether. It is not so much being a Grinch, or Scrooge, but just that the holidays bring me so much sadness.<br /><br /><br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Christmas got to be a smaller and smaller production as the years went on. Holidays just started to seem too Hallmark and I just did not want to deal with them. I had read this book, and it changed my view on Christmas on so many different levels. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i47.photobucket.com/albums/f170/Claw8604/SkippingChristmas.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i47.photobucket.com/albums/f170/Claw8604/SkippingChristmas.jpg" width="207" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">When I was married, the ex and I did not have a large family. We made pretty decent money and bought the things we wanted. After being together for 10 years it sort of got to the point where Christmas became a gift from each of us, nothing more and I really did not bother with decorations. Then, winter of 2005 when my Grandfather became ill, we did not celebrate Christmas at all. He passed away in January 2006. The year ended with the death of Lonnie, in December.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><div class="MsoNormal">Christmas of 2007 was my first one back in Michigan. I had no money, so no real means to purchase gifts. I had no friends, so the only person I got something for was my mother and the guy I was dating at the time. There was really no holiday cheer for me. I did it because I felt I had to. I pretty much spent Christmas in my room. It was then I had to make my peace with Terry as well as mourn my loss of Elonna. The holidays were once again not too kind to me.<br /><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1029.photobucket.com/albums/y352/cherylkcseether/abstract_fantasy_300x225_58749_-_grinch_grinch.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="http://i1029.photobucket.com/albums/y352/cherylkcseether/abstract_fantasy_300x225_58749_-_grinch_grinch.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Christmas 2008, I had known Matt for 3 months, little M even less than that. Because of my Bah Humbug attitude I really tried to hide from all the holiday/family related activities. It no longer interested me and gave me more anxiety than happiness. Although I did get a few things for Matt and little M, I pretty much kept to myself.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Christmas 2009, by this time I had been living with Matt and (shes here on weekends) lil M for 9 months. I had a lot of anxiety about Christmas. Such a big production that made me want to crawl in to bed and just not deal with it. I spent so many nights crying myself to sleep, unable to find the words to begin to even try to explain to anyone how I was feeling. Somehow I managed to get through the holidays, mask on, hiding my insides from the world. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Matt and I spent Christmas Eve and Christmas morning alone. It was a very weird experience to actually have Christmas again. I did dig out all of my decorations and the 3 of us had a family decorating day. Lil M thought that was the best thing ever.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Christmas shopping was a nightmare. Matt just wanted to buy more and more for everyone, yet it was my money that was being spent. It was hard on me. I had to work double the hours and then he would get upset when I had no time for him, or begged him to help me around the house. I started to feel that same feeling; people do not understand the real meaning of Christmas. It’s not about the amount of money spent, or the gifts.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"> Anyway, Christmas morning Matt and I opened our gifts. I think we both knew pretty much what we were getting. It was fun, but still, I felt weird. As if something was missing. The Christmas spirit wasn’t there. Matt and I went to his moms for breakfast. Then her, I, him, his dad and step mom exchanged gifts. We later picked lil M up, she opened her gifts, and went to my mom’s to open her gifts. Once lil M went to bed that night, I brought a few of the “From Santa” packages out of our hiding space so we could experience a Christmas like morning with her. We told her that Santa made a special trip just for her since he knew she was at her moms the night before. She thought that was the neatest thing.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Over the course of the year I watched those toys get tossed aside. Broken. Abused. Not very well taken care of. I wondered why her parents never taught her to take care of her things. How she should cherish those gifts that others give her. She is a bit aggressive with her toys and I am not sure where she gets that from.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I decided that this year would be different. I was only going to pick out toys I KNEW she would play with. A few bigger things rather than a ton of little things. Things she would appreciate and things that would last. I made a list (yes, I checked it twice) and last week cleaned out her room of all the toys that she was too old for, too big for, and things that were broken or neglected. I packed the good things away neatly in the basement. There was such a huge difference in her room. I organized and separated. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">When she arrived this past Friday for her weekend, she was amazed at the amount of space she now had in her room. We had a talk. Santa wanted her to keep better care of her toys, which she needed to put things back where they belonged instead of just throwing them in the toy box where they get broken. She had to prove to Santa that she was going to keep her room clean and her toys in order or he was not going to bring her the things she asked for on Christmas. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i49.photobucket.com/albums/f260/herts24/santa.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i49.photobucket.com/albums/f260/herts24/santa.jpg" /></a></div>So, Friday night we sat down and made our Dear Santa letters, colored some Christmas pictures and placed them in our mailbox. She did not arrive at the house until 9pm since Matt had to work late. We watched Christmas movies while we colored. Poor kid did not want to go to bed. She just does not get to spend enough time with her daddy. He was suppose to go to a sleep over boy’s party, and did not.<br /><br /><br /><br />When lil M went to bed, she snuggled with him, and in the morning she said “Daddy I am glad you stayed home with us.” Then she went on to say how much she loved us and that she thought we were meant to be together and she wants us to be together forever.<br /><br /><br /><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i41.photobucket.com/albums/e266/nessa6085/love%20icons/together_forever1.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i41.photobucket.com/albums/e266/nessa6085/love%20icons/together_forever1.jpg" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Sometimes kids just know how to pull your heart in the right direction.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Saturday we went and saw Tangled. OMG that movie was so awesome!! I loved it. Disney did a very good job with the Rapunzel story. I was a bit worried at first.<br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i324.photobucket.com/albums/k337/crewgirl2007/Not%20Mine/Movies/Disney/Princesses/tangled012.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i324.photobucket.com/albums/k337/crewgirl2007/Not%20Mine/Movies/Disney/Princesses/tangled012.png" /></a><a href="http://i204.photobucket.com/albums/bb22/TeRrIBLe_OnE_2007/Tangled.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i204.photobucket.com/albums/bb22/TeRrIBLe_OnE_2007/Tangled.jpg" /></a></div>On the way home we checked our mail, and there was a letter to lil M from Santa!! (of course, I printed this off the PC since these days it does not seem any town gives you a letter from Santa anymore).<br /><br /><br /><br /> We went home and made sugar cookies with lil M’s dough factory that she got last year for Christmas. They looked cute going in the oven, but became a jumbled mess when they cooked. Oh well, still tasted good. <o:p></o:p><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/f61640c2.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Holidays/2010%20December/Dec%2010-12%20Polar%20Express%20Weekend/f61640c2.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Saturday night we toured the Christmas lights. Had some dinner and called it an early night. Lil M was out by 9.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i640.photobucket.com/albums/uu122/musefan00/christmaslights02.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="http://i640.photobucket.com/albums/uu122/musefan00/christmaslights02.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am feeling a little different these last few days. Perhaps my Christmas spirit is slowly starting to return? Although a family friend and a great-aunt just passed away, it still seems to be poking around inside of me. I began to pray for snow…..we are going to be leaving for the North Pole soon.<br /><br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i588.photobucket.com/albums/ss323/Euler5853/file004666676877.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="176" src="http://i588.photobucket.com/albums/ss323/Euler5853/file004666676877.gif" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Sunday began our journey on the Polar Express for our trip to the North Pole, and that folks, is tomorrows story!</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-8094409020236871562010-12-14T15:57:00.000-05:002010-12-14T15:57:17.383-05:00Which Christmas Trees are Better: Fake or real?<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1134.photobucket.com/albums/m620/patco6/Pats%20Pix/Christmas%20Beauties/christmas_tree.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="http://i1134.photobucket.com/albums/m620/patco6/Pats%20Pix/Christmas%20Beauties/christmas_tree.gif" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal">When I was younger I would have told you that real Christmas trees are better. Nothing beats the smell of the pine tree filling the house through the holiday.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">To read what I picked please click my Helium Channel</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><br /><br /><a href="http://www.helium.com/items/2039737" title="View my Article at Helium.com"> <img border="0" src="http://corp.helium.com/images/af/468x60_wrote.gif" /> </a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-56359041894360920142010-12-14T15:26:00.001-05:002010-12-23T12:22:32.625-05:00Mortuary Confidential: Undertakers Spill the Dirt by Todd Harra<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0806531797&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I can’t quite imagine the child that thought to their self hmmmmm “I want to be a mortician when I grow up!” It makes me wonder what sort of childhood they hand. It would seem that those who have a father in the business end up taking over the family business. I can see how they get in to it, but what about those that aren’t connected by any family member?</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Please read the rest of the review on my Helium Channel! </span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /><a href="http://www.helium.com/items/2039712" style="color: #649900; text-decoration: none;" title="View my Article at Helium.com"><img border="0" src="http://corp.helium.com/images/af/468x60_wrote.gif" style="-webkit-box-shadow: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.0976563) 1px 1px 5px; background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: white; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; border-bottom-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 1px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 1px; border-top-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 1px; border-width: initial; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 5px; padding-right: 5px; padding-top: 5px; position: relative;" /></a></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-60047557152826895102010-12-14T13:20:00.001-05:002010-12-14T13:21:02.058-05:00yesMy Blog(s) DisclosureThis policy is valid from 14 December 2010<br /><br /><br /> This blog is a personal blog written and edited by me. 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This content will always be identified.<br /><br /><br />To get your own policy, go to http://www.disclosurepolicy.orgChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-76518806291868811692010-12-10T18:34:00.001-05:002010-12-10T21:20:19.690-05:00Another Evening with Shinedown: The Tattoo Version<div class="MsoNormal"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TQLf0mChMQI/AAAAAAAAANA/soJX9HgVwgs/s1600/79b25867.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TQLf0mChMQI/AAAAAAAAANA/soJX9HgVwgs/s320/79b25867.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TQLf1ZVArAI/AAAAAAAAANE/riX11nS52uw/s1600/86ddc7cf.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TQLf1ZVArAI/AAAAAAAAANE/riX11nS52uw/s320/86ddc7cf.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>In theory, I have spent yet another day with Shinedown. This time, there was no concert, no flashy light, and no screaming fans. Instead, it was me blaring the radio as I drove to the tattoo shop.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TQK476T5q9I/AAAAAAAAAM8/AoVwLy7V04Q/s1600/1.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TQK476T5q9I/AAAAAAAAAM8/AoVwLy7V04Q/s320/1.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have never been nervous about a tattoo. Never gotten a tattoo this size or with such a significance. Sure, all of my tattoos mean something, mostly my heritage since most of them are Irish related. I do have a tattoo that a friend helped me put together as a memorial for my grandfather, who at that time had passed a few months prior to having the tat done. It says Irish Angel in Gaelic. It became even more special to me later that year because that friend who helped me design it passed away. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">On the back of my left leg I have a tribal looking tattoo that was inspired by Terry (someone of great value in my life at that time) and even had a ~T~ put into the tat. Sadly, some months later he too passed away. Tattoos on my birthday, tattoos on St. Patrick’s Day, whatever the day, there was always a reason for it.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This time, there is no special day but rather a special time in my life. Many of you know all the trials and tribulations life has thrown at me the last few years. Somehow, I have managed to fight my way through all of that. Even though I am still a work in process, I can see that there is some sort of a light at the end of the tunnel. Graduation is close. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I remember a time in my life when I was extremely depressed. No amount of love, understanding and medication could help me. As far as I knew, my life was over as I lay in bed, day after day. I never want to return to that person. Depression is a struggle with the anxiety and panic which I must live with every day. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Somehow I found an outlet in Shinedown. So many words have such a profound meaning for me. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I had been thinking about a new tattoo for quite some time. Originally I was going to get the Elonna tribute tattoo, a painting that she had purchased for me before she passed away. Due to finances I just was not able to get it done. These days I am in a bit better of a place and wanted to really do something that would signify “where I am going, where I have been” (for anyone who has been to a Shinedown show, you know this is something Brent says before a song –do you know the song???). </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">A few weeks ago Matt and I attended the acoustic tour of Shinedown. Brent sang all of my favorite songs, and there were a few times a tear came to my eye. Seeing my life a few years ago, what I had been through, where I have been and where I am going now. Bit by bit like pieces of a puzzle my story had started to unfold. Before I knew it, the tattoo had appeared before my eyes. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I began to tell Matt about it, and he looked at me with a quizzical look on his face as if to way “What the f*ck?” because I just had so much going on. But, he knew just the person to call. If anyone would see my vision it would be the guy that did some of his artwork.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I printed off all the pics, took all my ideas and my own crappy drawing and had a meeting with Chad at Electric Chair Tattoo in Clio, MI (inkyshomepage.com). He too had that look when I started to talk. Or maybe it was just because I was so excited, yet nervous at the same time, I was stumbling over my words.</div><div class="MsoNormal">A week later I was sitting in his chair. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">One session down, three hours later.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Getting there had been a long road. A road that I wish I did not have to travel, but it retrospect, glad I did. </div><div class="MsoNormal">I have a long way to go to get where I want to be in life but I have no question or doubt that I will get there.</div><div class="MsoNormal">So here is a little rundown of what is going on with this piece of art.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TQK4htU6I3I/AAAAAAAAAMs/xtW0NHaBZbI/s1600/5.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TQK4htU6I3I/AAAAAAAAAMs/xtW0NHaBZbI/s320/5.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i>1. M.C. Escher – he is the artist I had in mind with my craziness. Google him and you will understand!</i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i><br /></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i><br /></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i>2. Haley’s Comet – she was not done in this session but she belongs in the verse “ I just saw Haley’s Comet she waved, said why you always running in place” from the song Second Chance</i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i><br /></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i><br /></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i>3. Man in the Moon – the man in the moon follows Haley’s Comet in the song, and as you can see, he is up on my shoulder. His verse is “even the man in the moon disappears, somewhere in the stratosphere” from the song Second Chance.</i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i><br /></i></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TQK4moAa3gI/AAAAAAAAAMw/pXwg1v701Bg/s1600/4.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TQK4moAa3gI/AAAAAAAAAMw/pXwg1v701Bg/s320/4.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TQK4qgdYY3I/AAAAAAAAAM0/GftzECpPNkk/s1600/6.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TQK4qgdYY3I/AAAAAAAAAM0/GftzECpPNkk/s320/6.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i><br /></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i><br /></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i>4. Believe – this one, as far as placement, is pretty obvious. Believe originally came from the Staind song Believe. As time went on life shifted and although that was the focal point of another tattoo I wanted to get, it went with the meaning of this one as well. The line from the Shinedown song is “The only thing I still believe in is you” from the song If You Only Knew</i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i><br /></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i><br /></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i>5. 4:03am – this is the time that is placed under the man in the moon. The verse is “It’s 4:03am and I can’t sleep without you next to me, I toss and turn like the sea” from the song If You Only Knew</i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i><br /></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i><br /></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i>6. Lightning bolts – this is another part that is not finished, but the bolt of lightning comes from the verse “Wrap me in a bolt of lightning, send me on my way still smiling” from the song Call Me</i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i><br /></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i><br /></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i>7. The Fly – this one to any Shinedown fan is pretty self explanatory. The verse “Long live that day that I decided to fly from the inside” from the song Fly from the Inside.</i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i><br /></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i><br /></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i>8. The Shindown symbol – this part is not done. The symbol will be placed in the fly’s rear end. That’s why he is not all filled in. Shinedowns music has helped me through many personal and trying times these last few years. I believe without their words (it doesn’t help Brent has that southern voice that I miss so much after leaving OK) I would have fallen into a dark depression.</i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i><br /></i></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TQK4wVsndkI/AAAAAAAAAM4/EDXXQmg-Sqw/s1600/3.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TQK4wVsndkI/AAAAAAAAAM4/EDXXQmg-Sqw/s320/3.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i><br /></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i><br /></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i><br /></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i>9. Praying Hands – this part will go on my left shoulder, with more shading. It is also not done. This piece was influenced by a Lynyrd Skynyrd’s song Simple Man, which Shinedown redid. The line is “don’t forget that there is someone up above.”</i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i><br /></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i><br /></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i>10. Shooting Star – from the verse “Cause their all witness to a shooting star” from the song Energy.</i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i><br /></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i><br /></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i>11. Using my entire chest as the canvas – from the verse “Paint me a canvas so I become what you could never be” from the song I Dare You</i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p><br /></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, there you have it. So many songs to choose from and I had to narrow it down and create a masterpiece. Well, I didn’t create it, Chad did. I just came up with the idea.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-6177713070073529112010-12-10T18:00:00.002-05:002010-12-23T12:24:47.887-05:00Chazown: A Different Way to See Your Life by Craig Groeschel<div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=1601423136&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Wow, 2006. Here it is four years later and I am just now reviewing this book. I recently joined a book blogging committee and one of the books listed to review was Chazown. I have held on to this book all this time with the thought that someday I would finish my Chazown. I have read the entire book, however I have not finished it. Meaning, I have not finished the require applications.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I might be a little biased about Craig Groeschel. I was a member of his church, LifeChurch, the Stillwater, OK campus for many years. I even volunteered with their Life Kids ministry. LifeChurch is an amazing establishment and it has changed the way many view church. Craig was so excited about the release of his first book. We were able to purchase at discount rates, and LifeGroups formed to study the book together as a team. There was also a website chazown.com where you could journal and use the extra tools to help find your personal Chazown.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">We are not here to talk about Craig, I know this. So I am going to do my best to not talk about him on a personal level, but rather speak about the book.<span> </span>But, I did have to check the website again today to see if my information was still available. The website is completely different and sadly I am no longer registered.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The one thing I love about this book is how the author actually takes the time to talk to you as if he was sitting right next to you, telling you a story. It makes the read much more enjoyable. Chazown is the Hebrew word for Vision. And this book is about finding your vision or God’s vision for you.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The book is broken down in to five parts, with each part having three to six sections. <span> </span>The sections are fairly short and very easy to read. At the end are simple thoughts, tasks and questions to help guide you on your vision quest.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The first task was to write your own epitaph. I remember how I felt four years ago trying to sit down and write this, to sit and think about one’s own death is not really how I would expect to start a book. I can’t remember how mine went then, now if I was to write one it would be completely different.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I made it midway through Part 3. I am not sure why I never finished, I just remember being stuck and frustrated. I had a lot going on with life and I was trying to make some personal changes. <span> </span>I think maybe the book put me on the bath to making some of the decisions I had been holding off on, which sent me on a new path on life. I did not realize this at the time.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TQKqt-RvNcI/AAAAAAAAAMo/Ew5Gg1oXQnc/s1600/54004291.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; color: #649900; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em; text-decoration: none;"><img border="0" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TQKqt-RvNcI/AAAAAAAAAMo/Ew5Gg1oXQnc/s1600/54004291.JPG" style="-webkit-box-shadow: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.0976563) 1px 1px 5px; background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: white; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; border-bottom-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 1px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 1px; border-top-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 1px; border-width: initial; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 5px; padding-right: 5px; padding-top: 5px; position: relative;" /></a>I took a step to make some changes in life and even those some of those steps I am still working on (I am a work in process) I did take a chance on following my dreams of becoming a professional writer. Even though I do not have a bestselling novel published, I am writing for a living and taking the steps necessary to move forward with this career. I am also about to graduate with my BA in the next semester with plans to go on to graduate school.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Now, in life, I am in a place where I should give this book another look. There is also a Limited Edition CD in the back of the book that I never opened.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Do I recommend it to others? Yes, I do! Especially to those who are searching for guidance or direction.</div><div><br /></div></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-637223204738606702010-12-10T10:49:00.001-05:002010-12-23T12:27:27.464-05:00Winter Garden by Kristin Hannah<div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px; text-align: center;">Read in ebook format on my Nook.<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TQJKgARZC0I/AAAAAAAAAMk/A1X-HRln_w4/s1600/51456987.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="color: #649900; margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em; text-decoration: none;"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TQJKgARZC0I/AAAAAAAAAMk/A1X-HRln_w4/s1600/51456987.JPG" style="-webkit-box-shadow: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.0976563) 1px 1px 5px; background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: white; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; border-bottom-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 1px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 1px; border-top-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 1px; border-width: initial; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 5px; padding-right: 5px; padding-top: 5px; position: relative;" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">On September 15, 2010 I started reading this book, according to Barnes and Nobles “What I’m <iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=B0045JK6C4&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe>Reading Now” section of my account. I do not remember where or when I actually received this book. Honestly, I believe it was a gift. Gift or not, life has been so busy for me it seems like an eternity before I was actually able to sit down and enjoy the book. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">To read the rest of the review:</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.helium.com/items/2036381" style="color: #649900; text-decoration: none;" title="View my Article at Helium.com"><img border="0" src="http://corp.helium.com/images/af/120x60_wrote.gif" style="-webkit-box-shadow: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.0976563) 1px 1px 5px; background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: white; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; border-bottom-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 1px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 1px; border-top-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 1px; border-width: initial; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 5px; padding-right: 5px; padding-top: 5px; position: relative;" /></a></div></div></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-40681717227551160092010-12-07T21:43:00.002-05:002010-12-07T21:43:13.491-05:00Why I Write<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i987.photobucket.com/albums/ae351/verskey/write.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="241" src="http://i987.photobucket.com/albums/ae351/verskey/write.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">Why I Write (again)</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">On September 21, 2008 I posted a blog entitled: <a href="http://www.selfemployedwriter.com/2008/09/this-is-why-i-write.html">This is Why I Write</a></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">Here it is 2 years later and I find that not only myself, but others are being asked that same question. While doing my usual bloghopping Blogville, USA, I hopped on a blog in the UK. WOW! I am a long way from home! The blog <a href="http://wealie.co.uk/">Wealie’s World</a> had a post entitled : <a href="http://wealie.co.uk/my-art/why-write/#comment-92">Why Write</a> , that made me feel right at home.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">I wonder if others are asked, “why are you a teacher?” or “why are you a therapist?” in the same manner that us writers are asked “why DO you write?”</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">There have been times when someone has asked me that question and I have been rather snippy, saying “well why do you do (insert their profession here)?” I guess it would be the same, sort of. Many people choose their field because they love it, or it was always something they wanted to do. Others just sort of fell in to it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">Me? I have always loved words. I love creating them, good or bad. I like my dark poetry and I like sharing my words with the world. At times it is scary. But, when someone out of the blue sends you an email thanking you for your post, well…</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">That is why I write.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">Last week I received an email from a person whom I have never met, nor did I even know she was reading my blogs. This person was kind enough to take time out of her day to drop me a note thanking me for being such an inspiration.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">Me?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">What?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">I know my blogs, especially those back some years, tell of my life and how I became the person I am today. But she wanted to thank me for writing. It is nice that something so simple can make someone’s day.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">I took the time to reply. I am glad I did. She wrote me back with such wonderful words!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">I can’t believe my freelance career and writing has inspired someone else. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">There is strength in numbers and if my words help anyone, well that it itself is worth it all.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-79472851389299988942010-12-07T20:37:00.003-05:002010-12-23T12:32:41.375-05:00What Would You Do With $20 from CSN Stores? Tell me and you could win!<div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 18px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;"></span></span></span><br /><h3 class="post-title entry-title" style="font: normal normal normal 24px/normal Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0.75em; position: relative;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">What Would You Do With $20 from CSN Stores? Tell me and you could win!</span></h3><div class="post-header" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 1.6; margin-bottom: 1.5em; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><div class="post-header-line-1"></div></div><div class="post-body entry-content" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 1.4; position: relative; width: 520px;"><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Hello Blogland! I have a wonderful giveaway for you this month.<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: -webkit-auto;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18px;">We all need a little something to carry our books in, right? Whether it is textbooks, books we read for pleasure, our e-readers or if you're like me you need a bag just for all your gadgets (laptop, Nook, iPod Touch, personal cell phone, business cell phone, all their chargers, and flash drives just to name a few things). </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18px;">Perhaps you will use your $20 gift card (given in the form of a promotional code) for a few <a href="http://www.luggage.com/Messenger-Bags-C53104.html" style="color: #649900; text-decoration: none;">leather messenger bags</a> to give as gifts for the Holidays</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">, or maybe you need a new laptop messenger bag for yourself. </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">How about a little something for the home? They have that, too. Kids? With 200+ store I bet you will find something for even the funkiest of children. Or, you could just pamper yourself. You work hard, you deserve it!</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">With CSN Stores the sky’s the limit. They offer over 200+ shops for your one-stop shopping spree!<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Most of you know I like things a little crazy and funky. Here is one I just love:</span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"></span></span></span></div><div class="productheader" style="float: left; font-size: 12px; line-height: 14px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 540px;"><h2 style="color: #233477; font-size: 17px; font-weight: bold; font: normal normal bold 12px/normal Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; 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font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">SKU #: KRA1003</span></span></div></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><br /></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><a href="http://www.luggage.com/KaraB-407-902-KRA1003.html" style="color: #649900; text-decoration: none;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TP7fWeqJl4I/AAAAAAAAAMQ/AsNqNzqB-H0/s320/Laptop%252BMessenger%252BTote%252Bin%252BBlue%252BSwirl%25281%2529.jpg" style="-webkit-box-shadow: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.0976563) 1px 1px 5px; 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font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">or this awesome leather messenger/laptop bag from Ed Hardy!</span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"></span></span></div><div class="productheader" style="float: left; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 14px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; 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text-align: center;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.luggage.com/Ed-Hardy-UTTEC12SAMTGRG-Gray-Black-EDH1026.html" style="color: #649900; text-decoration: none;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TQAT7zS-gqI/AAAAAAAAAMg/O00I-2NGkJQ/s320/Ed-Hardy-Sammy-Tiger-Laptop-Messenger-Bag-in-Gray-Black.jpg" style="-webkit-box-shadow: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.0976563) 1px 1px 5px; background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: white; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; border-bottom-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 1px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 1px; border-top-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); 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text-decoration: none;"><span style="color: #35c45e;">CSN Stores</span></a><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 12.5pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 12.5pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><b><span style="color: #6b6b6b; font-size: 12pt;">EXTRA ENTRIES:</span></b><span style="color: #6b6b6b; font-size: 12pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 12.5pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #6b6b6b; font-size: 12pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">* Become a follower of my blog or comment if you already are (1 entry)<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 12.5pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #6b6b6b; font-size: 12pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">* Become a fan of CSN on <a href="http://www.facebook.com/csnstores" style="color: #649900; 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margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #6b6b6b; font-size: 12pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">That’s 7 chances to win!<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 12.5pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 12.5pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><b><span style="color: #6b6b6b; font-size: 12pt;">Giveaway ends December 31, 2010 </span></b><span style="color: #6b6b6b; font-size: 12pt;">at 11:59EST.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 12.5pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #6b6b6b; font-size: 12pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> Be sure to leave a valid email address otherwise I won't be able to contact you if you win. </span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 12.5pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #6b6b6b; font-size: 12pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">No contact = No win!</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 12.5pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #6b6b6b; font-size: 12pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> Winner will be chosen via a random number generator. </span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 12.5pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #6b6b6b; font-size: 12pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> If the winner does not contact me within 48 hours, a new winner will be chosen. </span></span><br /><span style="color: #6b6b6b; font-size: 12pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span><br /><span style="color: #6b6b6b; font-size: 12pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span><br /><span style="color: #6b6b6b; font-size: 12pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Have Fun and</span></span><br /><span style="color: #6b6b6b; font-size: 12pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 12.5pt; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #6b6b6b; font-size: 12pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> Good Luck!</span></span><br /><span style="color: #6b6b6b; font-size: 12pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span><br /><span style="color: #6b6b6b; font-size: 12pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Please Note: This was originally posted on Dec 7 on my eBooksNook blog. I am in the process of merging my blogs in to one, and this particular blog is in the deletion process. I have copy/pasted the 2 people who have already entered. They are in the comments section. Just an FYI.</span></span></div></span></div></div><div style="text-align: center;"></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-43987337632762768272010-12-05T12:20:00.000-05:002010-12-05T12:20:22.421-05:00Upon Deaf Ears<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i5.photobucket.com/albums/y154/Purple_darkness/Saz/ear.bmp" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i5.photobucket.com/albums/y154/Purple_darkness/Saz/ear.bmp" /></a></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal">I don’t know why life has to be so hard. Why we are forced to make so many decisions. People around me are so predictable. I hate being an <a href="http://empathic.net/empathic.html">empathic</a>. I hate that I observe people almost to the point of being OCD. I am intrigued by people. A blessing and both a curse. While I like to “study” (for lack of a better word) a person, I also end up feeding off of them. Again, not really sure how to explain that to anyone.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"> The thoughts and feelings they have become mine. Not on purpose. That is just part of being an <a href="http://empathic.net/empathic.html">empathic</a>. It is hard carrying this around. It is hard enough living my own life, but when you have the weight of the others around you on your shoulders and in your every thought. When someone is sad, you become sad too. When they are ill or having some other sort of problem, that all becomes yours too. You don’t ask for this, it just happens. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Here I am in life, trying to live my days as best as I can and I am so bogged down with the issues of others I tend to become last on the list. I put others first, my constant need to take care of them. When they don’t put me first, it only makes things worse. I have tried to change this, tried to change the way my life process works, but I can’t do it. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">When Elonna was sick, I took on her pain. When Lonnie was dying in the hospital bed, I felt it. I felt the shot that killed him half way around the world. I feel for Joey and Sean every day. People that are closest to<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>me I tend to feel more. I knew the exact minute that Terry was murdered because I felt it. I felt him. And I did not know until after that I was right when his lawyer contacted me. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Weird to you? I am sure. I can understand that. I only wish someone around me could understand. It is tiring. Everything that Matt does affects me and I have tried to explain it to him. I just don’t think he listens. I have tried to get him to help me. Again, not listening.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I don’t know how to get my words upon deaf ears.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I need to let out this madness in my head.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i416.photobucket.com/albums/pp243/nightdarknessflyer/Darkness-1.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i416.photobucket.com/albums/pp243/nightdarknessflyer/Darkness-1.jpg" width="231" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-25599808492226179462010-12-04T12:06:00.000-05:002010-12-04T12:06:13.240-05:00What Am I Doing Here?What am I doing here? I have been trying to figure that out since the day I step foot across the threshold. If I knew the answer, I might be able to get my feet to move in another direction.<br /><br /><br /><div class="MsoNormal">Things are not what that appear. I have tried, and failed, to figure out this jumbled mess in my head. I feel very alone and extremely stuck in this situation.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have reached a point where working from home is starting to piss me off. Not because I don’t love my job, but because he can’t seem to get it through his head that after two years I HAVE to be left alone or my work does not get done. Same thing with school, I have to be left alone in order to get it done. I have yelled, cried, begged and pleaded with him to give me some space. I have so much homework that’s due on the weekends, I have to cram it in two days since they don’t tell us what it is until Thursday. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have tried to take time on the weekends to do homework, even work, and it is not possible. He does not have the ability to take care of the household and keep her entertained while I work. I have to check in with school every day for participation points.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Today, while he is being lazy in bed with the dogs, she is running around like a mad child, and here I am trying to do my daily check in before my mother, his step mom and his dad get here to start Christmas activities. Today we are baking cookies and making candy. Tomorrow we are putting up the tree.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Honestly, I don’t even care about the tree. I have not been a fan of Christmas for a very long time for various reasons.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Last night, before he left to go pick her up I explained to him he was going to have to play with her after dinner so I can finish up my homework and get a few minor work things done.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am behind because of him. Because he begged and pleaded with me earlier in the week to spend some time together. He knows the consequences, but yet he STILL does not give me my space to get things done. But yet, he is the first one to want to spend my money.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So instead of playing with his daughter and spending time with her while she is here, he falls asleep. What a dad he is. These types of things happen more often than not. And then he gets angry because I am angry. If I hear one more sorry come out of his mouth I am going to scream.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I spent my morning making everyone breakfast. None of us like our items cooked the same. So I pretty much have to cook 3 separate breakfasts. Do I complain? No. But he will be the first to complain when I ask him to clean the kitchen up. Only seems fair to me. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">He doesn’t want me mad, but he sure does push my buttons. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">We have company coming over, I ask him to vacuum. I take a shower, and still not done. Mind you, one of the people coming over is allergic to cats so we desperately need to suck up as much of the cat hair as we can so she can stay longer. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Apparently watching cartoons and making an even bigger mess in the living room is more important.</div><div class="MsoNormal">So here I am trying to get them moving and trying to get myself ready.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Story of my life seems to happen every weekend. Quite frankly, I am sick to death of it. I should not have to be the only responsible one in this house. I am tired from having it all on my shoulders.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I find myself in a constant state of anger and disappointment. I want this relationship to work out, but I just don’t think it is going to. I keep making excuses to stay. No one wants to live alone. But I think it has just gotten to that point it is not repairable. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">He has broken me one too many times. I don’t even want to try anymore. So, for everyone around me I put on a happy face and act like it is OK. I have been here before, and eventually I packed up a U-Haul and moved 1000 miles away. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Maybe a 1500 mile move is in my future. Rooming with one of my great friends in Dallas sounds really good right about now.</div><br /><br /><object height="385" width="640"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/aX-g2U9Dxok?fs=1&hl=en_US"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/aX-g2U9Dxok?fs=1&hl=en_US" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="640" height="385"></embed></object><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Trebuchet MS', Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;">Staring at my reflection I'm becoming numb<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />I barely recognize this thing that I've become<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" /><br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />All alone, in the dark, feel the beating of my heart<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" /><br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />I'm fading inside, lately; I can not seem to find my self again<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />I'm fading inside, lately; I can not find myself.<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" /><br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />Buried beneath the surface, pounding in my brain<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />A desperate need for something I can not escape<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" /><br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />All alone, in the dark, feel the beating of my heart<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" /><br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />I'm fading inside, lately; I can not seem to find my self again<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />I'm fading inside, lately; I can not find myself.<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" /><br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />What is wrong here, I don't belong here<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />Save me from myself.......<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" /><br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />All alone, in the dark<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" /><br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />I'm fading inside, lately; I can not seem to find my self again<br style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" />I'm fading inside, lately; I can not find myself......myself.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Trebuchet MS', Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Trebuchet MS', Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-19188277619489684182010-12-03T16:03:00.000-05:002010-12-03T16:03:23.399-05:00Poetry In Motion:The Druids Thought the Mistletoe<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i225.photobucket.com/albums/dd82/vrdragon12/druids.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i225.photobucket.com/albums/dd82/vrdragon12/druids.jpg" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;">This piece is not my own work. Having a Celtic background I find beauty in things relating to the history of the Celts, Pagans and Druids.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://apoetinmotion.blogspot.com/2010/12/druids-thought-mistletoe.html"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #274e13;">Please follow my Poetry In Motion Blog and click here for The Druids Thought the Mistletoe.</span></span></a></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-35303999336927629412010-12-02T22:33:00.002-05:002010-12-23T12:36:50.667-05:00Writer’s Retreat By Judy Reeves<iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=1577315006&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe><br /><br /><br /><div class="MsoNormal">Today I was thinking about a writer’s retreat. I had planned to do this quite some time ago and just kept putting it off. Yesterday late afternoon it started to snow. It kept snowing until early evening today. What a way to start December. It is a cruel reminder that winter is here. Now Christmas is just around the corner. It seems like just yesterday we were taking down the tree from the last Christmas, now here we are ready to put it back up again.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This got me to thinking about the gifts I received last year. My mother (who works at a book store in the mall) gave me a boxed book set called “The Writer’s Retreat Kit: A Guide for Creative Exploration & Personal Expression” By Judy Reeves.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><a href="http://www.blogger.com/goog_1244083722"><br /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;">She also got me two boxed book sets on knitting and they come with projects and materials. I tried to knit last year. I made one hat. It hurt my fingers so bad that one hat took me months to make. Those two knitting books are still sitting on the shelf. Maybe if I did not type/write so much my fingers might be a little more co- operable. <span> </span>Maybe I just need to practice more. I would love to knit, and get back in to sewing. Until I finish school, I just don’t have time for those things. Sadly, I don’t even have time to read a good book. A book that is not 1000 pages of textbook material.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;">You see, we finally got my office set up today. I had been using a very old Dell desktop, which was here in BFs house already when I moved in. I left mine with my mom so she could have a PC at her house. This Dell was getting bogged down, even after I did an upgrade. I could not do school papers and run multiple programs for work without it lagging. It would lock up enough to cause me to want to throw it out the window. It makes me sad. The PC is good, but not for someone like me who has to have a lot of programs running. Last year I had bought a Mini. I could not afford a laptop so a Dell Mini was a little more affordable and would allow me to work outside of my home office if I needed to.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;">That was my reasoning for the Mini. So, here I am with a brand new Mini, by Christmas it was a mere 4 months old, and a Writer’s Retreat Kit ready to spread my wings and fly.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;">Sad thing is I never flew.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;">I got caught in this trap. I did not want to leave during the week because BF was dealing with his own personal issues which resulted in a lot of lazy time, doing nothing, and not being helpful around the house. I felt I could not trust him to take care of the dogs and the house while I was going and I was going to come back to a giant mess.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;">In the past, the few times I left for a day was a disaster when I can home.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;">I guess I just felt it was easier to stay home and just take care of things myself.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;">In time I started to build up anxiety on top of my already existing anxiety disorder and I was becoming stressed about it.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;">I wanted to be able to leave. And I wanted to know things would be OK.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;">BF in the beginning was not very attentive to his daughter. We met when he was new to the single dad world, and had relied on his mother for a lot of help in the few months that lapsed before we met. That lasted until I moved it. When I was around on the weekends she would not brush her teeth, takes baths, he would not comb her hair, she would wear dirty clothes. It just was not a good thing. His house was dirty, nasty to the point I had to come in and clean it.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;">These are the things I have to go on. Past events. How could I think about leaving him alone for a weekend with her here? Her and the dogs? And now we have a cat on top of that. He can’t do it all when I am here how can I expect anything if I am gone?</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;">So, the anxiety built and the retreat never happened.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;">Black Friday rolled around and I saw a great deal on a laptop. I had to think about it, and ended up purchasing it right on the deadline. I was able to get a huge monitor, new desk and bookcase on Black Friday as well. This was to be a start of a new beginning. Larger monitor so I can see. Better computer so I can actually work. Bigger desk for school and work and bookshelves for all my books. Yes, I was excited. So, the Mini went up on eBay, the desktop will lurk for a while.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;">And now here I am, sitting at my new desk, starting at my extremely large screen with this Writers Retreat box set in front of me. Snow is on the ground. Is it too late? As the BF earned enough trust to leave him alone so I can go? And when could I?</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;">It makes me sad that here I am a year later, still holding on to the hope that things will change, myself included.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47; font-size: x-large;">Until that moment in time comes, I will hang on to this box set and continue to hang on to the dream that someday I will be strong and venture out into the world on my own, for my own little retreat.</span></div></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-58283879374211082622010-12-01T01:00:00.000-05:002010-12-01T01:00:06.900-05:00I'm a A Prior Fat Girl, Too....But I am Back...and Writing for My Life<div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Once again I find myself roaming around blogville, hoping to find some sort of inspiration to find my words. It’s not that I don’t have any words; it is more that I just don’t know what to say. These days it seems like everyone has a blog that is a niche, but I have many. My niche is basically LIFE! The life of a freelance writer and all of the things I go through, including weight loss. Sitting at a desk all day does not help the process that’s for sure! </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I found a post this morning though a Facebook post from a page I “liked” (I also follow the blog) called: <a href="http://writeforyourlife.net/">Write for Your Life</a>. Today’s post was titled <a href="http://www.facebook.com/notes/write-for-your-life/start-searching-if-you-want-to-find-your-writing-voice/10150095046339314">“Start searching if you want to find your writing voice.”</a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have been searching! I used to have a voice. Maybe I still do and I just lost it for a few years. Or, maybe it has been here all along and I just ignored it. We HAVE to have a voice in the writer’s world. Not just for blogging. My voice is a little southern, witty, and pretty sarcastic at times. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Most have a niche as well. I have no niche. That is, unless you count life as a niche.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"> I am: A full time writer, full time college student, pet shop owner (Cain, Casey, Ziggy, crabs and fish), cookbook collector, diet junkie, lifetime weight watcher, recipe queen, accountant, chef, housekeeper, weekend nanny, personal assistant, professional organizer, shopkeeper, budget wedding planner, survivor, fighter , freebie lover, bookworm , empathetic, tax preparer, bookkeeper, banker, biller, budget friendly, sometimes “green”, MMA fan, Ireland dreamer, music listener, crafter, and writer.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"> But most of all I am a thinker. With this entire list how could I pick just one?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, now perhaps you will understand why I am having such a hard time finding my new voice. My old voice would just write about whatever she wanted. Maybe, that voice is good enough. The voice of life. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Currently, this voice has been talking a lot about weight loss. I have been following another blog for quite some time, <a href="http://www.priorfatgirl.com/">Prior Fat Girl</a>. Yes, I was a prior fat girl. Lost the weight, gained it back. Now I am a current fat girl. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The post from yesterday: <a href="http://www.priorfatgirl.com/2010/11/4332.html">Fat Chance</a>, really struck a chord with me. Not sure why. I think because I am one of the lucky so-called fat girls who has always been able to find a man who loves her no matter what her size. In high school I dropped a ton of weight thanks in part to NutiSytem and the other thanks goes to my mother for paying for it. Before that I was always the "fat friend" and never really had any boys like me.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"> After high school came college, and some pounds were added on. I was not super heavy, but I was a bit thicker than many of my classmates. Did not make one bit of difference in my dating life. I met my ex husband in college. He preferred curvy women, when we split 10 years later and I started dating again, I found one man after another that enjoyed a woman with some meat on her bones. For the past 2 years I have been in a relationship with a man who does not really want me to lose weight. He loves me just the way that I am. He is by no means fat; he works out a few times a week, a few hours a day, training MMA. He is tall, and he is solid. He would break any smaller girl. Sometimes he even breaks me without meaning to. And even though I am on a quest to drop some weight, for me and my health, he 100% supports me.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">When I did start dating again, I made it a point to put in my dating profile that I was plus size and if anyone had a problem with that, they could click the back button and go visit someone else. You would be surprised at how many smart, funny, and attractive guys are out there who just want a real woman for herself, no matter what the scale says.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p> A man is attracted to a woman who have a positive self image!! </o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-26419542310914902852010-11-30T19:40:00.000-05:002010-11-30T19:40:04.602-05:00Tomorrow is World AIDS Day (RED)<h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" data-ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span class="UIStory_Message">TURN THE WORLD (RED) FOR WORLD AIDS DAY, DEC 1.<br /><br /><a href="http://f.joinred.com/nJJ" rel="nofollow" style="color: #3b5998; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank">http://f.joinred.com/nJJ</a></span></h3><h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" data-ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span class="UIStory_Message"><a href="http://f.joinred.com/nJJ" rel="nofollow" style="color: #3b5998; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank"></a><br />Last year nearly 1/2 million babies were born with HIV. By 2015, that number could be zero. Change your profile picture to a (2015)RED image and help turn Facebook, and the world, (RED) for World AIDS Day. </span></h3><h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" data-ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></h3><h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" data-ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span class="UIStory_Message"><a href="http://f.joinred.com/nJJ" rel="nofollow" style="color: #3b5998; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank">http://f.joinred.com/nJJ</a></span></h3><div><br /></div><div>I have been a member of the Project (RED) campaign for quite some time. It really does only take something so small to make something so big. Just a small bit of help can keep the medicine going. I may not be able to do or give a lot, but I know with the support of Bono and his band U2 and millions of people world wide, we can make a difference. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-29965774332686348802010-11-30T15:18:00.001-05:002010-11-30T15:23:04.457-05:00Breaking in to the Blogosphere : Weight Loss Friendly<div class="MsoNormal">I am really starting to break back into the blogosphere. When I was really active on Yahoo 360 I would read and post like a madwoman. Oh, the fun times in blogland.I would like to get back in to that. I miss writing, I miss sharing, I miss reading, but most of all I miss the connection I made with others.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I think perhaps when I started to have so many deaths around me during that time, friends who also blogged along side of me, blogging just was not the same. It held too many painful memories. I need to put those memories inside my heart, heal, and move forward. It is what they would have wanted. They loved my writing and would want me to continue. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have been reading some blogs on blogger for quite some time now, but I do not post comments. I guess I never really thought there was still a bloggers world out there. After the multitude of changes over at MySpace it almost seemed as if my blogging life was over. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">As you can see, it is not. I am fighting-kicking and screaming-for my blogging to continue as I am finding some new inspiration these days. Not only am I now writing for a living (something I would have never thought of doing when I first started blogging 6 years ago) I am almost done with school which gives me more time to create my words. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have been extremely inspired as of late by a blog called <a href="http://thefatchickweigh.blogspot.com/">Kreating Kristen</a>. Kristen is on a weight loss journey just like me. I find her posts inspiring and the similarities likely help with my understanding of what she is going through. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">In a recent post <a href="http://thefatchickweigh.blogspot.com/2010/11/holiday-food-disaster.html">“Holiday Food Disaster” </a>could have been transcribed through my own fingertips this week. As you may have read some posts back, I started using New Lifestyle and <a href="http://www.shareasale.com/r.cfm?B=34746&U=465182&M=7669">Wonderslim</a> products to help get my weight loss back on track. I could not go back to Weight Watchers (lifetime member) as they are just too far away for me to drive and I am not a huge fan of the online program. So, I found Sparkpeople and later changed to My Fitness Pal, which I just love. It’s so simple. But my life is hectic and busy (full time student and full time freelance writer) so I needed some help. I did not have time to prepare three meals a day, much less think about them. I did not want to do Nutrisystem (again) or Jenny Craig because they are a little out of my budget and I wanted to be able to eat one meal with my family, at the very least. I find this plan to be very simple. In the first 2 weeks I lost 5 pounds and that’s with no exercise.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Ever since the late summers shoulder injury that is just now 100% healed (despite the once in a while numbing of my fingers) I could not exercise and now that I can, I just can’t seem to get back on the treadmill. I made a post in September about the problem, by then I had been dealing with it for quite some time.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.selfemployedwriter.com/2010/09/just-update.html">(Just an Update- Why All the Pain?)</a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"> I was doing a Couch to 5k program, and that ended with the injury. Makes me angry at myself. I see other people exercising and I wonder what happened to my motivation!?!?!?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Kristen, like me has a war with her inner fat chick. The chick that takes over and tells you life is easier without cooking, eat fast food. The chick that tells you, it’s ok to have one more. The chick that says, “Who needs exercise? It’s just a waste of time.” My fat chick has been visiting for about two weeks now. Once my shoulder was healed to the point of no pain while walking, I hopped right on the treadmill. I was extremely frustrated that my running was not up to par. All the work I had put in, gone. My inner fat chick says “eh, who cares. You don’t need to exercise. You need the time free to work.” There are not enough hours in my day right now, so, my healthy chick listens. I “could” be working, but I “should” be exercising. Taking the time for myself because I am worth it.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">And that is what I have to keep telling myself. I am worth it and I deserve to make time. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Food has been a whole other issue. I have been eating out a lot, more for convenience. Ever since our weekend away for the UFC fights in Auburn Hills, I have been craving bad foods even though they make me feel like crap and I wake up in the AM with what I call a food hangover. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, here I am, once again, trying to kick fat girl in the ass and get back on program and back on the treadmill!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i297.photobucket.com/albums/mm219/emilylovescharles/b41c8c9f.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i297.photobucket.com/albums/mm219/emilylovescharles/b41c8c9f.jpg" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"> POW!</span></b></div><o:p></o:p><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">Take that inner fat chick!</span></b></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-54700609546371175202010-11-30T00:00:00.001-05:002010-11-30T00:00:13.046-05:0011:58 PM - I Should Be Sleeping<div xmlns='http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml'>I should be sleeping. So many things running around in my head and so many blog posts to get caught up on. I spent time with the BF today so I will be playing catch up tomorrow. Hopefully get some of these new posts done.<br/><br/><br/>Until then....<br/><br/>Good-night<br/><span id='BB_SIGN_BEGIN'><img alt='BlogBooster-The most productive way for mobile blogging. BlogBooster is a multi-service blog editor for iPhone, Android, WebOs and your desktop' src='http://theblogbooster.com/pixel.gif' style='border:none;'/></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-29441724358972244852010-11-29T13:11:00.031-05:002010-11-30T13:39:37.482-05:00Ahhhh…Mexican Food : You Will Break My Diet Every time!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Warning:</b> Although I am trying to lose weight and eat healthy, this may not constitute as a healthy, weight friendly blog. I am human, and I love my Mexican food. Diet or not.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Ever since I have moved to Michigan I have been trying to location a Mexican restaurant that reminded me of <a href="http://www.yelp.com/biz/el-tapatio-authentic-mexican-food-stillwater">El Tapito back in Stillwater</a>. You have no idea how much I miss that place. When I first got here I ventured to a place close to home in Bridgeport, MI called <a href="http://www.el-gallito.com/index.html">El-Gallito</a> and decided to try a burrito, I learned the hard way the huge difference between Southern style Mexican food vs. Northern style. Not to be confused with Tex-Mex, this is a whole other style. I have noticed that up here the sauces are very different and burritos are served wet, with a gravy sauce. My mother laughed; oh she forgot to tell me she says. Uh huh. Likely story. Needless to say, I was not impressed with gravy on my burrito. I did however fall in love with the guacamole, one of my all time favorite foods. The only thing I did not like was the price for such a small serving. I continued to eat there as there was not any place close (within a 30 minute drive) that did not include a drive through (Taco Bell). And, yanno, why is there not a Taco Bueno up here? Do you know how often I crave a Muchacos??? Ugh. Ok, getting off track here. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Shortly after I got here, I was able to go venture back into tax season at H&R Block. There I met a girl named Kelly who took me to a place in Saginaw, MI called <a href="http://www.blogger.com/goog_273666903">Los Cuatro </a><a href="http://www.loscuatroamigosinc.com/Home.php">Amigo</a>s. That place was really good and almost like home, but a bit pricey. Sorry, but I am used to getting a lot of food for less than $10 a platter. I guess MI prices are a bit different too.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">There is another place in Saginaw that I can never remember the name of. The people that own it went to school with my mother, at least members of the family did. And when I lived in MI when I was 18, I worked with a girl whose family ran it. I think my mom went to school with her mother. That would make sense. They have a lunchtime all you can eat buffet. OH! Mexican buffet. In the three years I have been back in MI, I think I have been there 4 times. Cheap and good. But it’s too far away. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, you can imagine my surprise when <a href="http://www.mlive.com/business/mid-michigan/index.ssf/2010/06/el_fuego_real_mexican_kitchen.html">El Fuego opened up in Frankenmuth, M</a>I which takes me all of 10 minutes to drive to. I placed my first order. They had just opened so we had great conversations with the manager, who let us sample a few menu items. Their guacamole rocked my socks. They put some cayenne pepper in it to kick it up a notch (starting to feel like Emeril now BAM!). The food was so good. We have been back quite a few times. It is the closest thing to home I have found. I told the owner that, and he understood exactly what I was talking about!! Yah, someone understands! </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Now, right up the street from us is a quaint little diner which you may recognize if you ever see it. Watch the Drew Barrymore movie<a href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1172233/"> “Whip It”</a> and you will see. That movie was filmed here in Birch Run, MI and Flint. The restaurant featured in that movie is right down the road from me. Very cool, huh? It is no longer the Oink Joint, which featured the giant pink pig, but in July it turned into a Mexican place.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It took me until two weeks ago to actually stop in and give it a try. I was nervous. I felt like I was cheating on El Fuego. What would they think if they saw me and the BF there?? For shame! But, they had buy one get one tacos on the window. It was time to stop. I am now in love with this place. On my first visit I of course ordered guacamole. OH HEAVEN! We also get chips and salsa. We mix the mild with the super hot and add a bit of salt. OMG, I could drink vats of this! I was amazed that they had taquitos on the menu. Most placed don’t offer these wonderful little goodies. Might be a blessing in disguise, as I don’t really need to be eating them, and thankfully don’t often. I decided to give them a try since it had been so long. I also ordered on cheese enchilada, one of my favorite things. I was simply amazed. Simple, good, and the manager Justin was great company. BF ordered tacos and a steak burrito. He seemed happy enough, which is good. It can be disturbing when the BF doesn’t like the food we have eaten.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Tis%20Herself/Blog%20photos/702ff62d.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Tis%20Herself/Blog%20photos/702ff62d.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">A couple of days later we were back again. This time we ordered cheese fries as an appetizer, and they came out with STEAK on them! WOOT! And they were very good fries. I got the 1 taco, 1 burrito platter (I should add does not come with gravy) and they come with rice and beans. Yummy beans, not all dry and I am not a huge rice fan, I usually give it to BF. I actually ate some of it!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have a feeling this place will be seeing a lot of us. At least we hope it stays open long enough for us to enjoy it. Business is rather slow for them right now.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, that was my shameless plug.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GJIr-k24qbk">Enjoy the video of me about to eat. (click)</a></span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><b><br /></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">The photo of BF.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Tis%20Herself/Blog%20photos/3f19a58f.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Tis%20Herself/Blog%20photos/3f19a58f.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">And our crazy faces photos. Sure enough to make someone laugh, or scream.<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Tis%20Herself/Blog%20photos/b36afb8d.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Tis%20Herself/Blog%20photos/b36afb8d.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Tis%20Herself/Blog%20photos/75a42e1d.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i1036.photobucket.com/albums/a448/irishchikinmi/Tis%20Herself/Blog%20photos/75a42e1d.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-11122614140643340302010-11-28T21:02:00.000-05:002010-11-28T21:02:01.408-05:00Elevator Pitches ??? What ???<iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0470616342&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe>So, I just started reading this ebook called "31 Days to Build a Better Blog" by problogger.com guru Darren Rowse. I also have the other book: "Secrets for Blogging Your Way to a 6-Figure Income".<br /><br />I have not gotten very far with the 31 Days. Why is that? I am stuck on the middle of Day 1 and trying to create an elevator pitch.<br /><br />An elevator for my blog, this should be interesting.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-26485322487027592602010-11-28T20:40:00.002-05:002010-11-28T20:53:12.285-05:00Another Evening with Shinedown<iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=B0045DO92I&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe><br /><div class="MsoNormal">I can’t believe it has taken me half the week to be able to sit down and write this post. I was so excited about it that I wanted to write it as soon as I got home, but it was Wednesday night (the night before Thanksgiving) and I got home so late that I just could not bring myself to do it. Thursday was a holiday and I just did not have time to compose a blog post, and Friday I was trying to catch up on homework and some articles. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Saturday I did a little bit of work, and hung out with the BF. We watched the Expendables, went to the mall to brave some shopping, then to the new Mexican place I mentioned a few posts back (I plan to write a separate post about this place) and then we came home to watch the Jim Carrey A Christmas Carol. That was the strangest version of the movie I have ever seen. But, that’s not what I really want to write about.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TPMFH2DsWHI/AAAAAAAAAMA/J0lT2f8WN6k/s1600/STRP-IP_26237_1.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="294" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TPMFH2DsWHI/AAAAAAAAAMA/J0lT2f8WN6k/s320/STRP-IP_26237_1.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">What I really want to write about is my night with Shinedown. I have forgotten how many times I have seen them now. I think this is 6, in the last 2 years. And this is hands down the best I have ever seen them. Brent’s voice was top notch and he sounded well rested. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">We had nosebleed seats. I kid you not we were 1 row away from being the last row. I should have opted for the next price range of tickets. I only paid $20 for them, and they were well worth it. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The show was awesome. I forgot to bring my camera which has zoom and video features so I had to use my new iPod Touch which has a cam and vid on it. The video is far away and hard to see who is who, but the audio is wonderful. And I guess that’s all we need, right? To hear Brent’s angelic voice. I mean, that’s all I need! </div><div class="MsoNormal"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TPMFORAG_qI/AAAAAAAAAME/5kXJ0bcokMc/s1600/BrentSmith-Shinedown.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TPMFORAG_qI/AAAAAAAAAME/5kXJ0bcokMc/s1600/BrentSmith-Shinedown.jpg" /></a></div><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Click here to see the videos: <a href="http://www.youtube.com/okirishchik"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">OKIRISHCHIKS YOU TUBE </span></b></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I warn you, you can hear me sing (badly), scream (happily) and gripe. You see, we sat at the end of the row. BF and I were the last 2 seats on our end. In the middle were 6 people, all together. Meaning, they all came together. 3 couples. Well, they wanted to drink, and pee and drink, and pee some more. I had lost count of how many times BF and I had to get up to let them out. After 20 my legs and back were starting to hurt, I was missing a lot of the show, and I was starting to get cranky. They must have heard me griping to BF because they started to go to the row behind us to get out! </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i>Dear people,</i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i>When in a closed setting, please keep your drinking to a minimum so you do not have to pee so much. Please be <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px;">COURTEOUS</span> of those around you.</i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i>Thank you.</i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i><br /></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TPMFSWwSfoI/AAAAAAAAAMI/ZZCjxfrMIRk/s1600/SPX-031988.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TPMFSWwSfoI/AAAAAAAAAMI/ZZCjxfrMIRk/s320/SPX-031988.jpg" width="223" /></a></div><i><br /></i></div><div class="MsoNormal">Despite being an acoustic show, they were still pretty well plugged in. Instead of electric guitars they were playing acoustics. They did many of the crowd favorites; 45, Fly from the Inside, Devour, Call Me, I Dare You, and even my personal favorite Simple Man, which quite literally brought a tear to my eye. <br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I firmly believe their music has helped me through some of the hardest times of my life these last 3 years and has kept me from falling into that black hole of depression I once lived in. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am forever grateful for Brent and his band to have given us all such a gift.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">In between each song Brent has always taken the time to say hello, reach out to his audience as best as any musician could. He will tell a story, share his world. In this particular tour, “Anything and Everything” Brent goes behind the scenes to tell us the “hows” and “whys” of a particular song. He lets you in his life, and opens up his world. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Some of my favorite lines from the songs:</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">I Dare You</b> - <span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">Even in madness, I know you still believe</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Trade Yourself In</b> - <span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">You see me and you know I am not the same can’t pretend just to fake a smile<o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span><br /><span style="line-height: 115%;"><b>If You Only Knew </b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 8pt;">- </span></span></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: xx-small;">It's 4:03 and I can't sleep</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: xx-small;">Without you next to me I</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: xx-small;">Toss and turn like the sea</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: xx-small;">If I drown tonight, bring me</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: xx-small;">Back to life</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: xx-small;">Breathe your breath in me</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: xx-small;">The only thing that I still believe</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: xx-small;">In is you, if you only knew</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: xx-small;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: xx-small;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Shed Some Light</b> –</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">I ’m falling apart again I can’t find a way to make amends I’m looking in both directions but it’s make believe its all pretend so<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">Shed some light on me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">And old me up in disbelief<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">And shed some light on me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">And tell me something that I’ll believe in<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Second Chance (the whole song)<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">My eyes are open wide<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">By the way I made it through the day<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">I watch the world outside <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">By the way I’m leaving out today<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">I just saw Hayley’s comet she waved<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">Said “why you always running in place?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">Even the man in the moon disappeared<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">Somewhere in the stratosphere”<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">Tell my mother, tell my father<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">I’ve done the best I can<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">To make them realize<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">This is my life<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">I hope they understand<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">I’m not angry, I’m just saying<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">Sometimes goodbye is a second chance<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">Please don’t try one tear for me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">I’m not afraid of what I have to say<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">This is my one and only voice<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">So listen close, it’s only for today<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">Here is my chance<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">This is my chance<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Breaking Inside: <o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">I don’t wanna live<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">To waste another day<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">Underneath the shadows <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">Of mistakes I’ve made<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">Cuz I feel like I’m breaking inside<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">I don’t wanna fall<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">And say I lost it all<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">Cuz maybe there’s a part of me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">That hit the wall<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">Leaving pieces of me behind<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">And I feel like I’m breaking inside<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Call Me:<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">Wrap me in a bolt of lightning<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">Send me on my way still smiling<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">Maybe that’s the way I should go<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">Straight into the mouth of the unknown<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">I’ve said it so many times<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">I would change my ways <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">No, nevermind<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">God knows I’ve tried<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Fly From the Inside<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">I am focused on what I am after <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">The key to the next open chapter<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">Cause I found a way to steal the sun from the sky<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;">Long live that day that I decided to fly from the inside<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 8pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">There is more. I think their might very well be something from every Shinedown song that I apply to some portion of my life. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have been thinking about a new tattoo for quite some time, and even though I have wanted the photo that Elonna got for me for quite some time now, I am thinking perhaps something else is in order. I have wanted “Believe” for a while. I believe in many things. I believe life will get better. I have to believe. There is a Staind song that is “Believe” that the BF and really feel applies to us. There is also a Shindown lyric “I still believe” which I love. After the concert I had one of those ephifany moments where I just knew what I wanted to do to the “Believe.” I wanted something different, not like everyone else’s. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">SOOOO</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am thinking a shooting star, Haley’s comet, the man in the moon, believe, and the Shinedown symbol all painted in a pretty picture. I think it’s going to be great. Bits and pieces of all these things that mean something to me in my life right now. That’s what tattoos are, a map of life, your journey, where you have been, where you will be. A canvas of art. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Until next time.....</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-18139442257866275072010-11-23T20:09:00.000-05:002010-11-23T20:09:09.366-05:00Free! List of Home Business Deductions for Schedule C<div style="text-align: center;">Original post from Business Support Group Blog</div><div style="text-align: center;">Free! List of Home Business Deductions for Schedule C</div><div style="text-align: center;">By Chrystal Mahan</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div>One of the many advantages to having your own home based business is the deductions you can claim for Schedule C. You will want to keep extremely accurate records of all money coming in and going out for your home business.<br /><br />1.<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>Advertising (includes: billboards, newspaper, online, business cards)<br />2.<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>Bank Fees on Business Accounts<br />3.<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>Vehicle Expense<br />4.<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>Cost of Goods Sold<br />5.<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>Depreciation on Office Equipment<br />6.<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>Commissions and Fees<br />7.<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>Dues for Trade Associations<br />8.<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>Dues for Trade Publications<br />9.<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>Employee Benefits – for those with employees<br />10.<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>Contractor Payments – for those that hire contractors<br />11.<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>Insurance<br />12.<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>Office Expenses<br />13.<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>Office Supplies<br />14.<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>Interest<br />15.<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>Any Legal and Professional Services<br />16.<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>Meals and Entertainment<br />17.<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>Rent or Lease Expense<br />18.<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>Materials<br />19.<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>Repairs and Maintenance<br />20.<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>Pension or Profit-Sharing Plans – for self or employees<br />21.<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>Travel Expense – related to business<br />22.<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>Utilities (for home office portion)<br />23.<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>Cell Phone (only business portion)<br />24.<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>Internet (only business use portion)<br />25.<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>Some Education Tuition<br /><br /><br />As you can see the list is quite extensive. Keeping track of your expenses will make things easier for you or your accountant at tax time. One of the best things you can do for yourself and your business is to set up and file system. You will need one file for things such as vehicle, utilities, bank statements, advertisement, etc. Once your bill or invoice comes in, you can place it in the appropriate folder. Any purchases you make keep the receipt and place it in the appropriate file as well. Even with the best accounting or bookkeeping software it is best to have a hard copy for documentation.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-42233658575885754122010-11-22T17:39:00.000-05:002010-11-22T17:39:27.899-05:00UFC 123: Girls Point : The UFC and Me - Part 5: Dear .........<div class="MsoNormal">Dear ……..</div><div class="MsoNormal">Monday November 22, 2010</div><div class="MsoNormal">Rated R for adult language.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Dear kid who sat next to me,<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Hats off to you for being such a good side pal. You were nice, courteous and I loved that you were teaching your dad MMA rules as the fights went on. My hat goes off to you. Keep going forward. You will make it. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Dear dude at the end of my isle,<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal">Thank you for handling my money and beer when the beer man came past. My cup would have remained empty if not for<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>you.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Dear real fighters, <o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal">Yes you. No, not you wanna be I had a bar room brawl, but yes you, pro fighter, make your opponent bleed. We like blood. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p><br /></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Dear Joe Rogan, <o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal">People in the audience want to hear you. People at home should not hog you. Please share.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Dear people watching the pay per view, <o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal">Please share Joe Rogan.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p><br /></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Dear Dana White, <o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal">Please come back to Detroit. Please share Joe Rogan with the live audience and not just the viewers at home. And thank you for taking time out for the fans. Thumbs up on all the jumbo trons. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Dear one million and one douchebags,<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Find a new hobby before one of the real fighters hear you talking your stupid shit and pop you in the mouth.</div><div class="MsoNormal">You have been warned. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-13917619288494190772010-11-22T17:06:00.001-05:002010-11-22T17:08:32.854-05:00UFC 123: Girls Point : The UFC and Me - Part 4: Dear Total Douchebag<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOrnTUPbrII/AAAAAAAAALw/nyhAxORBVMQ/s1600/douchebag.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="256" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOrnTUPbrII/AAAAAAAAALw/nyhAxORBVMQ/s320/douchebag.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">Dear Total Douchebag</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">Monday November 22, 2010</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">Rated R for adult language.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">I have been to many fights; this however was my first UFC, and likely my last. Maybe. We shall see.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"> I prefer watching it on pay per view. Live is a mess, you can’t hear Joe Rogan except when he goes in to the ring to congratulate the fighters. I find much humor in some of his commentary, plus the guy actually knows what he is talking about. Watching it live there is a huge amount of dead air where we are forced to create our own commentary.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">Or, for someone like me, you tend to people watch and listen to the words of others.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">Dear Joe Blow behind me, please keep your mouth shut when you don’t know what the hell you are talking about.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"> <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Joe Blow to Joe Girl:</b> Yanno Dana White fired Rampage so he ran off to make a movie, which flopped so he went running back to Dana for his job back. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Joe Girl:</b> Really??</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Me:</b> WTF? Look on my face. Really? Are you a fan or a jump on the bandwagon I am only here to look cool for my friends/girl when in reality I bought this t-shirt at Spencer’s, my hair gel at Dollar General , I spray tan twice a week, and I really look like tool, but I am trying to prove to the world I am not really a douche. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOro9xgGrBI/AAAAAAAAAL0/Vp70-CbeskE/s1600/douchebaggus-maximus-douchebag-stupid-myspace-demotivational-poster-1234404744.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="276" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOro9xgGrBI/AAAAAAAAAL0/Vp70-CbeskE/s320/douchebaggus-maximus-douchebag-stupid-myspace-demotivational-poster-1234404744.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><o:p><br /></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">*cough cough* I can smell a falsie a mile away. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">A REAL fan would know Dana DID NOT fire Rampage. Yanno? Dana has a pretty tight contract with his guys. Rampage was a perfect fit for Mr. T. and therefore went into “retirement” so that he could make his movie. Which I might add did not flop and made him upwards of $10 million. Not too shabby if you ask me. Once he was done, he entered back in to the UFC and went on with his MMA career. Didn’t Tito, Shamrock, Couture, Liddell and a handful of others “retire?” </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">I think it is something about testosterone and alcohol that make grown men act like total douchebags. All knowing, all powerful, and they are right, the fighter they like is the best; that is until their fighter loses. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">Then all of the sudden that guy sucks and he is off to liking someone else in a blink.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">Wow. What a fan. Jump on the bandwagon again why don’t you. True fans stick by the person they are a fan of through highs and lows, just like a favorite sports team.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">Will someone please remind Mr. Tool Douchebag how that works. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOrpKb8Z80I/AAAAAAAAAL4/ysZCLDY6dIk/s1600/dbbingoboard_v1.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOrpKb8Z80I/AAAAAAAAAL4/ysZCLDY6dIk/s320/dbbingoboard_v1.jpg" width="262" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">I know there are legitimate fans out there. The ones who live, sleep, eat, shit, breath MMA. They have their favorite fighters and they stick by them. They don’t care how many UFC, Tapout or MMA shirts they have in their closet. Hell, they may not even have any at all. Up until last night I did not own a single one, aside from an ex’s mentors training camp (who by the way happens to be Dan Severn. True MMA fans will know who that is) and an IFL try out fight shirt that the same ex got for me. I sleep in them. No one sees them, and I don’t care. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">I felt I deserved a nice souvenir from the first ever show in Detroit. So, I bought one. I don’t put gel in my hair, and I can recite you a list of fighters and their stats. A poser I can assure you I am not. Nothing false about me. I am 100% pure MMA addicted, douchebag hater, blood loving, and pain inflicting, female.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOrpZ7gmeqI/AAAAAAAAAL8/caDfg2DmQbU/s1600/Girlfight-michelle-rodriguez-609344_1024_768.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOrpZ7gmeqI/AAAAAAAAAL8/caDfg2DmQbU/s320/Girlfight-michelle-rodriguez-609344_1024_768.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-2776052544948610682010-11-22T16:49:00.000-05:002010-11-22T16:49:13.500-05:00UFC 123: Girls Point : The UFC and Me - Part 3: Palace of Auburn Hills<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOrkjM_KTXI/AAAAAAAAALk/gqVgAS_VyHw/s1600/I+Love+Cage+Fighters+Girls+Shirt+Pink.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOrkjM_KTXI/AAAAAAAAALk/gqVgAS_VyHw/s320/I+Love+Cage+Fighters+Girls+Shirt+Pink.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="MsoNormal">The Palace of Auburn Hills</div><div class="MsoNormal">Monday November 22, 2010</div><div class="MsoNormal">Rated R for adult language.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">We all know by now the UFC 123 made its debut in Detroit at the Palace of Auburn Hills and yours truly sat there proudly. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There were six of us all in a row. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Did you know that Michigan has one of the highest unemployment rates in the US? I guess that makes us pretty poor. Either Dana or the ticker promoters had a kind idea to reduce the prices of tickets. I am not sure what they were supposed to be, I guess about $1000 for the back part of the floor. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I guess ours should have been about $500 or so. Wow, we got such a bargain. We were a section away from nose bleeds and we paid $97 per ticket. Ouch. Made quite a dent to the wallet. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p><br /></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">First UFC event in Michigan, first UFC event for me, I felt it was worth it. You never know if they are going to come back. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p><br /></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">We got to see quite a few fights before the pre-fight pay per view show started. The seats were not filled, so I wondered if Michigan was in such a bad state with the economy that even with reduced prices people could not afford to come. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p><br /></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">As time went on a few more seats started to fill. By the time the pay per view started and we were live on air, just about every seat was full. At one point Bruce announced that it was sold out.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p><br /></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">Wow! Sold out!! That is awesome. Hopefully Dana will see that and make it a point to come back to Michigan. We might be unemployed and our economy might not be what it is compared to some states, but obviously we found a way to save our money and purchase some UFC tickets. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I really don’t have too much to say in regards to the fights. I am pretty sure I mentioned that in the previous blogs. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I do have a few things, just random, and really quick.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">An Irish guy fought an English guy and lost. Anyone else see some irony in that?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">BJ Penn and Matt Hughes 3 – I only got one word – Mahalo.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Sorry country boy.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOrlIOFfGDI/AAAAAAAAALo/pDDc9ncDBMg/s1600/rampage-jackson.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOrlIOFfGDI/AAAAAAAAALo/pDDc9ncDBMg/s320/rampage-jackson.jpg" width="213" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Rampage and Machida – I have only 2 words “Dog Pound!”</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOrlMnrT0II/AAAAAAAAALs/yHdEApcp_UQ/s1600/wenn1450153.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOrlMnrT0II/AAAAAAAAALs/yHdEApcp_UQ/s320/wenn1450153.jpg" width="213" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-7189412829194813012010-11-22T16:34:00.000-05:002010-11-22T16:34:08.422-05:00UFC 123: Girls Point : The UFC and Me - Part 2: Yeah, So??<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOrhYlXfwNI/AAAAAAAAALg/xx02HMVUQM8/s1600/155kk786.bmp" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="256" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOrhYlXfwNI/AAAAAAAAALg/xx02HMVUQM8/s320/155kk786.bmp" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">Yeah, so?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">Monday November 22, 2010</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">Rated R for adult language.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Now you have a bit of knowledge about me. I am not a bandwagon junkie. I have sent my dues in to Dana White and his UFC Empire every time I order a pay per view. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Every time I go to a fight show, amateur or pro I am giving money to someone, and that someone could be pushing along the next UFC star. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have seen fighters go up, and in the blink of an eye, fall right back into the dirt. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, I am clearly, not one of those girls.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am however, a girl who is going to speak her mind. So, if I piss you off, too bad. That’s what the comment section is for. If you are going to whine and bitch because my opinion or thoughts don’t match yours, I really don’t care. We were not all created to be exactly the same. What a waste of the human race if we were. Everyone is entitled to their own thoughts and ideas. I am not going to lose any sleep over someone who thinks differently than I do. Unless, you are just a blatant idiot and it shows. In that case, you are warned, I will call your ass out on it. I am not running around with some pink bow in my hair with matching frilly underwear hoping to make peace.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is not the nightly news.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">As a matter of fact, this really isn’t even going to be a news article. Who needs another one of those? During every UFC fight my Twitter blows up, so and so says this, that and the other. Oh, this link to this article is great; follow that link.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>OH MY GAWD it’s like the Twitter yellow fucking brick road to oz. All of the articles are the same cookie cutter chewed up and spit out spin off of another article. The internet is full of these. People out to make a few dollars off of a post of someone else’s work. Article spinners us freelancers call them. </div><div class="MsoNormal">What? You don’t have enough imagination or grammar skills to compose your own article? Maybe you should find something else to do with your time.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Don’t get me wrong, there are a few legitimate sports writers out there who actually report the good stuff, but these people who spin the article, rewrite it and call it theirs is horseshit. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Really, get a real job.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-5726156949769408882010-11-22T16:21:00.000-05:002010-11-22T16:21:33.727-05:00UFC 123: Girls Point : The UFC and Me - Part 1:About Me<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOrdpU5vV-I/AAAAAAAAALc/g7tMiyF_O5o/s1600/five1.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="192" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOrdpU5vV-I/AAAAAAAAALc/g7tMiyF_O5o/s320/five1.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">Monday November 22, 2010</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">Rated R for adult language.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"></div><div class="MsoNormal">Hey, that title rhymes. Was not intentional, trust me. The last thing I want to do now is come across as being so cliché that no one is going to take the time to listen to me. This is not going to be one of <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">those </i>articles. You know the ones I am talking about. Someone who jumped on the UFC bandwagon just because it is “hip, chick, popular, cool, trendy, in-the-now” or any other word you want to insert there. This also is not going to be another one of those types of newsworthy sports related articles written by *some* girl. Oh, I have heard every males point of view regarding female sports announcers. I could care less. If a girl grew up in Nebraska or Texas and lives, eats, sleeps, shits football then she should be allowed to write, announce, or talk about it just as much as a man should. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I assure you, I might be a girl, but I have something more important to say than <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">those </i>girls anyway. Most of the girls you see at an MMA event only like the UFC because the guy they like/love/dating/married to/or are just simply trying to impress are in to it. And chances are many of those guys are in to it because it’s what’s cool right now, and what testosterone filled man isn’t going to want to watch even more testosterone beat the shit out of each other for pure enjoyment, and like it.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">A bit about me, I am 35 years old and have been in and out of the fight scene since I was, oh let’s see, in Jr. High? I am not so sure you could count junior high whip asses a fight, but certainly street fighting is how a lot of pro fighters get a taste for the thrill. I think, for me personally, it’s in my DNA. Here is where I become cliché. I am Irish. Isn’t that what everyone in the world thinks Irish people do is drink and fight? I have always enjoyed watching a good ass whipping.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I remember in high school I had a friend who went to another school; we would skip classes quite often and take the transit downtown. Quite often, mostly on Fridays we were able to find a group of guys standing outside a venue, looking all tough and scraggly. It was then we learned about what I will just call a tough man competition. It has been so long ago, I could not really tell you the real name, what the rules were, or how it even came to be. All I remember is guys signed up to beat the shit out of each other and they had them almost every weekend.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>On Friday nights I would pretend to spend the night with someone and sneak off to watch these fights. The bloodier they got, the more I cheered them on.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It should be no surprise that as I got older I became interested in boxing, kickboxing, martial arts, tough man competitions, wresting, and so on. Although not much blood was shed with many of those, it was still a good ass whooping.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I remember the early years of Pride, WEC, TapOut, UFC, and the various others that came and went. I remember the picketers trying to tell congress this should not be allowed in state while the rest of the world immediately flipped up that middle finger. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">We wanted it.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"> We liked it and we got it.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-71504018524737563602010-11-22T16:16:00.003-05:002010-12-23T12:39:54.980-05:00The Accidental Exorcist by Joshua Graham - The Review<div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 9pt;"><span style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 18pt;"><a href="http://ebooksnook.blogspot.com/2010/11/accidental-exorcist-by-joshua-graham.html" style="color: #e3ff00; text-decoration: underline;"><span style="color: #649900;"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=B0047DW9OG&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe>The Accidental Exorcist by Joshua Graham</span></a><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">My apologies for taking so long to finish up the review. If you have been reading along you will see that I got caught up with the weekend plans of going out of town for the UFC 123.<br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Here is a synopsis of the book from Barnes and Noble.com :</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="apple-style-span"><i><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 8.5pt; line-height: 12px;">When forensic psychiatrist Abigail Lee meets a baby-killing mother who has been declared criminally insane and acquitted, she discovers something lurking beneath the surface. Something far deeper and more insidious than mere psychopathy. But can she come to terms with her own struggle with science and faith in time to confront it?</span></i></span><i><o:p></o:p></i></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Did you know that this book is actually listed in the Christian Fiction section? I had no idea when I first downloaded it. As of November 16, 2010 it reached #7 in the ebook downloads on bn.com</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">The book is a mere 31 pages and it literally took me an hour to read. I am not really sure how to even begin discussing this book. For anyone who does not like the subject of evil, exorcist, or the devil may not want to purchase this book. Although it is listed in the Christian section, there really is not a lot (in my opinion) in regards to religion other than a piece of scripture here and there and of course the plot of good vs. evil.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"> Because the book is so short, I am not going to go in to detail about it. It was a good read, you already know the subject, I will leave it up to you as to whether you choose to read it or not.<br /><br />You can also read a revised review on my Helium Channel.<br /><br /><br /></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><a href="http://www.helium.com/items/2039565" style="color: #649900; text-decoration: none;" title="View my Article at Helium.com"><img border="0" src="http://corp.helium.com/images/af/468x60_wrote.gif" style="-webkit-box-shadow: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.0976563) 1px 1px 5px; background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: white; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; border-bottom-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 1px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 1px; border-top-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 1px; border-width: initial; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 5px; padding-right: 5px; padding-top: 5px; position: relative;" /></a></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-11219566225979178382010-11-22T14:25:00.000-05:002010-11-22T14:25:59.182-05:00UFC 123: Girls Point : The UFC and Me - Introduction<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOrC8MQB6PI/AAAAAAAAALU/IKoKuA8Re00/s1600/ufc-123-poster.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOrC8MQB6PI/AAAAAAAAALU/IKoKuA8Re00/s320/ufc-123-poster.jpg" width="242" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="MsoNormal">Monday November 22, 2010</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I started working on this blog last night after I got back from the weekend trip. I was tired, and I rambled. I rambled on so long it ended up being three typed pages. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I decided not to publish it, instead I am going to rewrite it today and post it in installments. I wanted to talk about more than just the fights. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">With the fights, there is not much left to say that someone else has not already, so instead of just reporting the news like all the sports journalists out there did, I am going to just talk about some basics and give my little bits of sarcasm and such that I am so good at. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Hopefully breaking it in to smaller chunks will make it much easier to read and follow along with.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I have also uploaded some fight videos to my YouTube and you are more than welcome to watch them here:</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><a href="http://www.youtube.com/okirishchik"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"> OKIRISHCHIK’S YouTube</span></b></span></a></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-27392330886624377452010-11-20T12:21:00.001-05:002010-11-20T12:27:18.094-05:00The Crown Plaza Hotel in Auburn Hills, MI (UFC 123 Weekend)<a href="http://www.cpauburnhills.com/"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47;">Crown Plaza</span> </a>in Auburn Hills, MI has to be the best hotel I have ever stayed at. (click Crown Plaza to see a slide show of where I am).<br /><br />I have stayed in quite a few hotels in my life. Some really, really gross and some have just been, well, a typical hotel.<br /><br />I am quite pleased with the Crown Plaza. It has the highest ratings and it was actually cheaper than the other hotels in the area. We are on the 8th floor. I have never even stayed at a hotel that even had an 8th floor. Only two floor hotels. The thing that really gets me are the little things. This room was cheaper for us thanks to a AAA discount so in reality it is a little more than the ones around us. This fancy room cost us the same as the Bay Resort in Tawas, which you would *think* would be much more prone to small details. But they are not. Cups are plastic, coffee is plain.<br /><br />Not here. We get real coffee cups, not those plastic ones that are wrapped in even more plastic. They even gave us travel coffee cups with lids. The coffee is not off brand like most places, instead we are being treated to Wolfgang Puck's brand of coffee which he actually grows on his own land.<br /><br />The bed is a nice plush king size bed with a feather bed topper and plenty of crisp clean sheets. Often, a single room has a queen bed. I know this because Matt and I tend to merge to the middle of the bed and there is not much room on either side of us. There are some hotels that offer single rooms with a king bed, but not too many. Most rooms are standard queen beds, either a single or double.<br /><br />I liked the bed, don't get me wrong. Its awesome to sit and relax in. I am actually writing this blog post from the comforts of this bed. I feel like I am being pampered, spoiled. And with the way life has been lately, I deserve to feel this way.<br /><br />Places that pay attention to small details get bonus points in my book. I am huge on customer satisfaction. Must of been all those years I had to work in retail.<br /><br />We have a flat screen TV. Right now I am watching Man on Fire. Last night I watched Avatar. I don't get to watch much TV at home, so this is a pure luxury. No dogs to take out to potty, no worries of work or homework. Even though technically I am working. Here I am posting a blog as well as working on my novel here. Quite and peaceful, not to mention relaxing is a good atmosphere for writing.<br /><br />The hotel bar, O'Malley's was your friendly, Irish Pub. We had a good time. Our waiter was awesome and the Guinness was on TAP! BONUS!! The food was pretty good too.<br /><br />Breakfast this morning was bacon and eggs for me, steak and eggs for Matt. Nothing too fancy, but again they pay attention to detail. Doilies on your plates, orange juice in wine glasses, pots of coffee, jelly, and peanut butter. I have never been anywhere that offered peanut butter packets! Everything just looks so pretty.<br /><br />I know, I am weird. But again, these small things can make all the difference in the world.<br /><br />The water glasses that every room has along with the water bucket are not typical either. The tray and bucket remind me of something that you would see in the den of someone with a lot of money, surrounded by walls of books. Brandy and whiskey bottles surrounding the glasses. These glasses are not plastic, which is what I have always had, like the coffee cups. Instead, they are glass and actually quite pretty. And there it all sits on top of the in room refrigerator. Very cool.<br /><br />I know there is more, but that is all I can really think of right now.<br /><br />The bed, as comfy as it is was not all that fun to sleep in. I had forgotten my pillow at home. I have a special pillow that supports my neck. Helps with all my spinal problems. These pillows, nice and fluffy and plush, and I love them, but my body does not. I woke with a bad headache, stiff neck, my hip had popped out of place where my disk problems are. So I am thinking a trip to the hot tub is in order before I do much of anything else. Not that I have much of a plan for today, except to chill. Tonight is going to be a long, and fun night, but I need to save what little energy I have on that.<br /><br />You see, I did not sleep very well. Although we tried to go to sleep around Midnight, at 3am I was still awake. Every time Matt would move, even just the slightest, the bed would bounce. A little after 3 I was pretty frustrated and he ended up sleeping on the floor. Surprisingly he actually slept pretty good. I did not, I just could not sleep or get comfortable. It was almost 10am before we got up and around. I guess I did sleep a little, Matt said I was snoring. I know I dozed, but I know I did not stay asleep.<br /><br />Friday we did not leave until about 11:30a or so. We stopped for some lunch at Joes Crab Shack, which was yummy per usual. We did some shopping at Old Navy, even though I did not find anything, Matt found a cute little winter hat. We checked into the hotel and hung around until dinner time. Matt forgot , his swim suit so he had to go to Wal Mart to get one while I stayed in the room to finish watching Avatar. We hung out in the Irish Pub, O'Malley's located inside our hotel, for a few hours. Good food, good drinks, and great service.<br /><br />Well, the battery is about to die on my laptop. The cord is around here, but I am thinking I would like to hit the hot tub before I do any more.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-58247635288358904072010-11-19T22:00:00.000-05:002010-11-19T22:00:28.088-05:00YouTube - At O'Malleys<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4O9yp0u9Evg">YouTube - At O'Malleys</a><div><br /></div><div>Having food, drinks, Guinness and dessert at the O'Malley's pub inside our hotel. Good times.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-1747994033742410772010-11-19T21:58:00.000-05:002010-11-19T21:58:28.077-05:00YouTube - Checking out hotel<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FDzJU85dNrw">YouTube - Checking out hotel</a><div><br /></div><div>Video of Matt hugging the window a little too much LOL</div><div>Checking out our fancy hotel, The Crown Plaza.</div><div>I don't want to get out of this bed, where I am typing this from.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-84533881642476765392010-11-19T21:57:00.000-05:002010-11-19T21:57:16.238-05:00YouTube - Joes Crab Shack<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=03lOY0yQHTA">YouTube - Joes Crab Shack</a><div><br /></div><div>Here is a little video of Matt and I eating at Joes Crab Shack checking out my new iPod Touch and the video option!</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-91283434268048607332010-11-19T11:57:00.000-05:002010-11-19T11:57:36.303-05:00Wonderslim/New Lifestyle Thanksgiving Day Recipes<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #2a2a2a; font-family: Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 17px;"></span><br /><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" class="ecxBlockMargin" id="ecxcontent_LETTER.BLOCK3" style="line-height: 17px;"><tbody style="line-height: 17px;"><tr style="line-height: 17px;"><td align="left" bgcolor="#D74A0F" colspan="1" rowspan="1" style="background-color: #d74a0f; color: #f5eabe; font-family: 'Times New Roman', Times, serif; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 24px;" valign="top"><span style="color: #f5eabe; font-family: 'Times New Roman', Times, serif; font-size: medium; line-height: normal;">Hearty Holiday Oatmeal</span></td></tr><tr style="line-height: 17px;"><td align="left" colspan="1" rowspan="1" style="color: #643718; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; line-height: 17px;" valign="top"><span style="color: #643718; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small; line-height: normal;"><img align="right" alt="NLDOatmeal" border="0" height="216" hspace="5" src="http://ih.constantcontact.com/fs018/1100515977323/img/60.jpg" style="line-height: 17px;" vspace="5" width="151" />- 1pkt Apple n' Cinn. Oatmeal.<div style="line-height: 17px;">- 1 Crispy Cinn. Bar</div><br style="line-height: 17px;" /><div style="line-height: 17px;">Dice the Oatmeal Cinnamon Raisin Bar and prepare the oatmeal according to package instructions. After cooking, stir in the diced bar and serve warm. </div><br style="line-height: 17px;" /><div style="line-height: 17px;">Makes 2 Servings:</div><br style="line-height: 17px;" /><div style="line-height: 17px;"><u style="line-height: 17px;">Nutrition Per Serving:</u><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;"><div style="line-height: 17px;">Calories: 140</div><div style="line-height: 17px;">Protein: 12g</div><div style="line-height: 17px;">Carb: 20g</div><div style="line-height: 17px;">Fat: 3g</div></strong></div></span></td></tr></tbody></table><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" class="ecxBlockMargin" id="ecxcontent_LETTER.BLOCK7" style="line-height: 17px;"><tbody style="line-height: 17px;"><tr style="line-height: 17px;"><td align="left" bgcolor="#D74A0F" colspan="1" rowspan="1" style="background-color: #d74a0f; color: #f5eabe; font-family: 'Times New Roman', Times, serif; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 24px;" valign="top"><span style="color: #f5eabe; font-family: 'Times New Roman', Times, serif; font-size: medium; line-height: normal;">Holiday Mushroom Stuffing</span></td></tr><tr style="line-height: 17px;"><td align="left" colspan="1" rowspan="1" style="color: #643718; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; line-height: 17px;" valign="top"><span style="color: #643718; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small; line-height: normal;"><img align="right" alt="ChickenStuffing" border="0" height="240" hspace="10" src="http://ih.constantcontact.com/fs018/1100515977323/img/61.jpg" style="line-height: 17px;" vspace="5" width="168" />- 1pkt Chicken Soup<div style="line-height: 17px;">- 2 Tbls Celery</div>- 2 Tbls Chopped Onion<div style="line-height: 17px;">- 1 tsp Onion Flakes</div><div style="line-height: 17px;">- 1/8 tsp Galic Powder</div>- 1/4 task poultry seasoning<br style="line-height: 17px;" />- 1/3 cup chopped mushroom<div style="line-height: 17px;">- 5 Tbls Water</div><br style="line-height: 17px;" /><div style="line-height: 17px;">Combine celery, onion, onion flakes, garlic powder, mushrooms, and 1 teaspoon of water in a small bowl. Cover and Micowave on high (100%) for 1 minute. In a seperate bowl, combine chicken soup mix and poultry seasoning, stir in hot water. Combine selery mixture and stir to blend.</div><br style="line-height: 17px;" /><div style="line-height: 17px;">Makes 1 Serving:</div><br style="line-height: 17px;" /><div style="line-height: 17px;"><u style="line-height: 17px;">Nutrition Per Serving:</u></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Calories: 134</strong></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Protein: 15g</strong></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Carbs: 19g<div style="line-height: 17px;">Fat: 1g</div></strong></div></span></td></tr></tbody></table><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" class="ecxBlockMargin" id="ecxcontent_LETTER.BLOCK8" style="line-height: 17px;"><tbody style="line-height: 17px;"><tr style="line-height: 17px;"><td align="left" bgcolor="#D74A0F" colspan="1" rowspan="1" style="background-color: #d74a0f; color: #f5eabe; font-family: 'Times New Roman', Times, serif; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 24px;" valign="top"><span style="color: #f5eabe; font-family: 'Times New Roman', Times, serif; font-size: medium; line-height: normal;">Creamy Chicken Gravy</span></td></tr><tr style="line-height: 17px;"><td align="left" colspan="1" rowspan="1" style="color: #643718; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; line-height: 17px;" valign="top"><span style="color: #643718; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small; line-height: normal;"><img align="right" alt="NLDGravy" border="0" height="181" hspace="10" src="http://ih.constantcontact.com/fs018/1100515977323/img/62.jpg" style="line-height: 17px;" vspace="5" width="181" />- 1pkt Chicken Soup<div style="line-height: 17px;">- 6oz Water</div><div style="line-height: 17px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">- 1/8 tsp Gravy Master<br style="line-height: 17px;" /><br style="line-height: 17px;" />Add boiling water to soup mix. Add Gravy Master and stir until dissolved.</div><div style="line-height: 17px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><br style="line-height: 17px;" />Makes 3 Servings:</div><br style="line-height: 17px;" /><div style="line-height: 17px;"><u style="line-height: 17px;">Nutrition Per Serving:</u></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Calories: 35</strong></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Protein: 4g</strong></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Carbs: 2g</strong></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Fat: 0.5g</strong></div></span></td></tr></tbody></table><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" class="ecxBlockMargin" id="ecxcontent_LETTER.BLOCK9" style="line-height: 17px;"><tbody style="line-height: 17px;"><tr style="line-height: 17px;"><td bgcolor="#D74A0F" colspan="1" rowspan="1" style="background-color: #d74a0f; color: #f5eabe; font-family: 'Times New Roman', Times, serif; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 24px;" valign="top"><span style="color: #f5eabe; font-family: 'Times New Roman', Times, serif; font-size: medium; line-height: normal;">Turkey Fricassee</span></td></tr><tr style="line-height: 17px;"><td colspan="1" rowspan="1" style="color: #643718; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; line-height: 17px;" valign="top"><span style="color: #643718; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small; line-height: normal;"><div style="line-height: 17px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><img align="right" alt="NLDTurkey" border="0" height="113" hspace="10" src="http://ih.constantcontact.com/fs018/1100515977323/img/63.jpg" style="line-height: 17px;" vspace="5" width="194" />- Roast Turkey (4oz)</div><div style="line-height: 17px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="line-height: 17px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">Roast turkey is one of the best sources of protein you can eat. In fact, turkey is why Thanksgiving is one of the healthiest holidays of the year. Roast and enjoy!</div><div style="line-height: 17px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="line-height: 17px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">Makes 1 Serving:</div><br style="line-height: 17px;" /><div style="line-height: 17px;"><u style="line-height: 17px;">Nutrition Per Serving:</u></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Calories: 216</strong></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Protein: 15g</strong></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Fat: 3.5g</strong></div></span></td></tr></tbody></table><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" class="ecxBlockMargin" id="ecxcontent_LETTER.BLOCK11" style="line-height: 17px;"><tbody style="line-height: 17px;"><tr style="line-height: 17px;"><td bgcolor="#D74A0F" colspan="1" rowspan="1" style="background-color: #d74a0f; color: #f5eabe; font-family: 'Times New Roman', Times, serif; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 24px;" valign="top"><span style="color: #f5eabe; font-family: 'Times New Roman', Times, serif; font-size: medium; line-height: normal;">Chocolate Crunch Dessert</span></td></tr><tr style="line-height: 17px;"><td colspan="1" rowspan="1" style="color: #643718; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; line-height: 17px;" valign="top"><span style="color: #643718; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small; line-height: normal;"><img align="right" alt="book2" border="0" height="112" hspace="10" src="http://farm1.static.flickr.com/173/381163107_9efea43539.jpg?v=0" style="line-height: 17px;" vspace="5" width="150" />- 1pkt Double Choc. Puddding<div style="line-height: 17px;">- 1pkt Cinn. Crunch Cereal</div><div style="line-height: 17px;">- 1/4 Cup Water</div><br style="line-height: 17px;" />Prepare pudding according to package directions. In a dessert dish, make alternative layers of pudding and cereal. Serve. <br style="line-height: 17px;" />Make 2 Servings: <br style="line-height: 17px;" /><div style="line-height: 17px;"><u style="line-height: 17px;">Nutrition Per Serving:</u></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Calories: 85</strong></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Protein: 10g</strong></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Carbs: 10.5g</strong></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Fat: 0.5g</strong></div></span></td></tr></tbody></table><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" class="ecxBlockMargin" id="ecxcontent_LETTER.BLOCK12" style="line-height: 17px;"><tbody style="line-height: 17px;"><tr style="line-height: 17px;"><td bgcolor="#D74A0F" colspan="1" rowspan="1" style="background-color: #d74a0f; color: #f5eabe; font-family: 'Times New Roman', Times, serif; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 24px;" valign="top"><span style="color: #f5eabe; font-family: 'Times New Roman', Times, serif; font-size: medium; line-height: normal;">Fudgesicle </span></td></tr><tr style="line-height: 17px;"><td colspan="1" rowspan="1" style="color: #643718; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; line-height: 17px;" valign="top"><span style="color: #643718; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small; line-height: normal;"><img align="right" alt="book2" border="0" height="112" hspace="10" src="http://farm1.static.flickr.com/145/340048079_3fa7d818fd.jpg?v=0" style="line-height: 17px;" vspace="5" width="150" />- 1pkt Chocolate Pudding/Shake<div style="line-height: 17px;">- 4oz water</div><br style="line-height: 17px;" /><div style="line-height: 17px;">Combine ingredients in a bowl with wire whisk until smooth. Spoon into popsicle containers. Freeze until solid. </div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><em style="font-style: italic; line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;"> </strong></em></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><em style="font-style: italic; line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Warning.....Don't let the kids see you eating these or they will want them too! </strong></em></div><br style="line-height: 17px;" /><div style="line-height: 17px;">Makes 2 Servings:</div><br style="line-height: 17px;" /><div style="line-height: 17px;"><u style="line-height: 17px;">Nutrition Per Serving:</u></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Calories: 40</strong></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Protein: 6g</strong></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Carbs: 5g</strong></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Fat: 0g</strong></div></span></td></tr></tbody></table><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" class="ecxBlockMargin" id="ecxcontent_LETTER.BLOCK13" style="line-height: 17px;"><tbody style="line-height: 17px;"><tr style="line-height: 17px;"><td bgcolor="#D74A0F" colspan="1" rowspan="1" style="background-color: #d74a0f; color: #f5eabe; font-family: 'Times New Roman', Times, serif; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 24px;" valign="top"><span style="color: #f5eabe; font-family: 'Times New Roman', Times, serif; font-size: medium; line-height: normal;">Better Then Pumpkin Pie</span></td></tr><tr style="line-height: 17px;"><td colspan="1" rowspan="1" style="color: #643718; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; line-height: 17px;" valign="top"><span style="color: #643718; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small; line-height: normal;"><div style="line-height: 17px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><img align="right" alt="IcedCinnamon" border="0" height="147" hspace="10" src="http://ih.constantcontact.com/fs018/1100515977323/img/49.jpg" style="line-height: 17px;" vspace="5" width="153" />- 1pkt Iced Cinnamon Squares</div><div style="line-height: 17px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="line-height: 17px;">We don't mean to brag, but we are going to. The Iced Cinnamon Squares taste better then any Thanksgiving pumpkin pie. In fact, open a box, heat them in the microwave for 30 seconds and put them on the table. We guarantee that they'll be more popular (and twice as healthy) as any of the pies being served.</div><br style="line-height: 17px;" /><div style="line-height: 17px;">Makes 1 Serving:</div><br style="line-height: 17px;" /><div style="line-height: 17px;"><u style="line-height: 17px;">Nutrition Per Serving:</u></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Calories: 160</strong></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Protein: 15g</strong></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Carbs: 18g</strong></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Fat: 5g</strong></div></span></td></tr></tbody></table><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" class="ecxBlockMargin" id="ecxcontent_LETTER.BLOCK18" style="line-height: 17px;"><tbody style="line-height: 17px;"><tr style="line-height: 17px;"><td bgcolor="#D74A0F" colspan="1" rowspan="1" style="background-color: #d74a0f; color: #f5eabe; font-family: 'Times New Roman', Times, serif; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 24px;" valign="top"><span style="color: #f5eabe; font-family: 'Times New Roman', Times, serif; font-size: medium; line-height: normal;">Brandy Cocoa</span></td></tr><tr style="line-height: 17px;"><td colspan="1" rowspan="1" style="color: #643718; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; line-height: 17px;" valign="top"><span style="color: #643718; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small; line-height: normal;"><img align="right" alt="book2" border="0" height="99" hspace="10" src="http://farm2.static.flickr.com/1102/1354377177_59de6d163f.jpg?v=0" style="line-height: 17px;" vspace="5" width="150" />- 1pkt Creamy Hot Cocoa<div style="line-height: 17px;">- 1/4 tsp Brandy Extract</div><div style="line-height: 17px;">- 8 oz Boiling Water</div><div style="line-height: 17px;"> </div><div style="line-height: 17px;">Combine hot cocoa and water in a mug and mix until smooth. Add brandy extract, stir and serve.</div><br style="line-height: 17px;" />Makes 1 Serving:<div style="line-height: 17px;"> </div><u style="line-height: 17px;">Nutrition Per Serving:</u><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Calories: 74</strong></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Protein: 12g</strong></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Carbs: 8g</strong></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Fat: 0.5g</strong></div></span></td></tr></tbody></table><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" class="ecxBlockMargin" id="ecxcontent_LETTER.BLOCK20" style="line-height: 17px;"><tbody style="line-height: 17px;"><tr style="line-height: 17px;"><td bgcolor="#D74A0F" colspan="1" rowspan="1" style="background-color: #d74a0f; color: #f5eabe; font-family: 'Times New Roman', Times, serif; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 24px;" valign="top"><span style="color: #f5eabe; font-family: 'Times New Roman', Times, serif; font-size: medium; line-height: normal;">Black Forest Cocoa</span></td></tr><tr style="line-height: 17px;"><td colspan="1" rowspan="1" style="color: #643718; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; line-height: 17px;" valign="top"><span style="color: #643718; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small; line-height: normal;"><img align="right" alt="book2" border="0" height="112" hspace="10" src="http://farm1.static.flickr.com/117/262403986_1581955b43.jpg?v=0" style="line-height: 17px;" vspace="5" width="150" />- 1pkt Creamy Hot Cocoa<div style="line-height: 17px;">- 3/4 Cup Boiling Water</div><div style="line-height: 17px;">- 1 tsp Cherry Extract</div><div style="line-height: 17px;"> </div><div style="line-height: 17px;">Combine hot cocoa and water in mug and mix until smooth. Add Cherry extract, stir and serve.</div><br style="line-height: 17px;" />Makes 1 Serving:<div style="line-height: 17px;"> </div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><u style="line-height: 17px;">Nutrition Per Serving:</u></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Calories: 74</strong></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Protein: 12g</strong></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Carbs: 8g</strong></div><div style="line-height: 17px;"><strong style="font-weight: bold; line-height: 17px;">Fat: 0.5g</strong></div></span></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-59084557157720336552010-11-19T11:53:00.000-05:002010-11-19T11:53:50.902-05:00UFC 123I am getting ready to head out for the weekend. I decided that even though we only live about 45 minutes away from The Palace of Auburn Hills, we are going to spend the entire weekend down there. The dogs are with mom and Maddy will be with grammie. We should be home Sunday early enough to spend a little time with her.<br /><br />The UFC 123 is coming to Michigan. Normally we watch these fights on Pay Per View. Being an MMA fan its almost a dream to actually see it live. This is the 1st time they have come to Michigan. Won't be my first mma fight I have gone to, but it is the first <a href="http://www.ufc.com/event/UFC123/">UFC</a> one. I am really excited. Should be a lot of fun. Dan, Becky, Q and Nicci will be meeting us tomorrow night for the actual fight. We will be meeting up with them since we all sit in the same row. Today is the autograph session and later today is the weigh ins. Should be a fun filled adventurous weekend. *crosses fingers* At least I hope so.<br /><br />Last night we had a pretty bad fight, so we are trying to play nice today.<br /><br />So, I likely won't be blogging this weekend, but Monday I am going to get started on getting some things together and reading up on some blog websites like problogger.com. I would like to see residual income like some of those professional bloggers get. And with this blog and the 4 others that are linked to it, I should be able to really get my own writing off the ground instead of writing for all these other people where my work makes them more money then it does myself.<br /><br />So, see you guys later!Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-36434971473270725772010-11-18T20:34:00.000-05:002010-11-18T20:34:39.357-05:00Kindle Publishing for Blogs<a href="https://kindlepublishing.amazon.com/gp/vendor/members/kindlepubs/common/landing-page?originatingURI=/gp/vendor/members/kindlepubs/blogs">Kindle Publishing for Blogs</a><div><br /></div><div>Did you know, Amazons Kindle has a "publish your blog" program? What a nifty ebook feature.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-57429031458865532812010-11-18T18:02:00.001-05:002010-11-18T18:13:02.397-05:00Still in the Game<div class="MsoNormal"></div><div class="MsoNormal">I know I have not posted anything about my diet lately. I have just been so busy working on getting all my blogs and the links in order that I just keep going on the program and did not take the time to post any reviews of what I had been eating.<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It has been busy with all the events going on, along with school and work. I will *try* be more diligent about writing. I need to. I enjoy it. I just need to write it in my schedule to make sure I do it! <br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Sunday I went shopping with my mother and my aunt. I was gone pretty much all day. Matt had taken Maddy over to his moms around 3pm. It was her birthday and they were having a birthday dinner for her. I got home around 6pm.<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I was happy when I walked in to not see a pile of doggy piddle on the floor. It does not happen often, but it does happen.<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">In my kitchen sits two giant boxes crammed with the New Lifestyle and Wonderslim boxes of food. I had spent some time Friday sorting and making one box to keep up in the kitchen and the rest of the food was going to be stored in the basement. I had been keeping these boxes on top of the dog cages, but they had been on the floor for a few days and the dogs did not even seem to care.<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Well, Sunday they cared.<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I found the wrapper for 4 Wonderslim protein bars, 2 packages of BBQ Snack Bites and 1 Sour Cream and Onion Snack Bite. However, there were still 10 more bars unaccounted for. I did not have these things boxed; they were single, on top of everything else.<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">My dogs helped themselves. I was worried because they have chocolate in them. But, they seemed to be OK. Just a little gas Monday and now they are fine and my box is now back on top of the dog cages. I don’t have a lot of room in my kitchen as it is, so I have no idea where I am going to start storing my foods. I might have to take everything out of the boxes and just put a week’s worth of packets in the drawer at a time.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I have not lost any weight since my last weigh in. To be expected since we have been having all of these parties and such. I have done much better than I have in the past, so that is a plus. Making better habits and changing old ones. So, I have some non scale victories. <br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It would help if I would get myself back on the treadmill. I think it has been about a month now. And I was so good at it. <br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This weekend is going to be a challenge. We are going down to Auburn Hills for the weekend. Saturday night is the UFC show at The Palace and we decided to make a weekend thing out of it. I am going to have to stick to the salads and baked fish or something. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Today I found myself up against the wall. I reached that dreaded "boredom" with the food. Don't know why, I love everything and I have just about every product New Lifestyle has. I am going to have to place another order with Diet Direct for some different products from their other lines aside from Wonderslim so I can have some variety. Maybe supplement with some Lean Cuisines meals or something.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.shareasale.com/r.cfm?b=48308&u=465182&m=7669&urllink=&afftrack=" target="_blank"><img border="0" src="http://www.shareasale.com/image/7669/dd_250x250-2.jpg" /></a></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-69716839892381245222010-11-18T12:40:00.002-05:002010-12-23T12:41:06.888-05:00The Accidental Exorcist by Joshua Graham<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=B0047DW9OG&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe>So I was going through some Nook books on BN.com when I came across their new PubIt section. These are books that have been self published through Barnes and Noble. Featured in the Horror category was this little gem for 99cents. I loaded up my bargain, got cozy on the bed and began to read.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">The first line: "I had to do it. They were my babies." - Joshua Graham</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Welcome to the world of state forensic Psychatrist Abigail Lee.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">The book had great reviews, so I shall return to this post when I am done reading to give an update.</span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-91083088261739739172010-11-16T12:43:00.000-05:002010-11-16T12:43:06.162-05:00Gifts for Soliders<a href="http://www.shareasale.com/r.cfm?b=204327&u=465182&m=22299&urllink=&afftrack=" target="_blank"><img alt="Christmas Gift Baskets- International Delivery" border="0" src="http://www.shareasale.com/image/22299/234x60.jpg" /></a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-92013980578934029252010-11-16T12:38:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:42:26.177-05:00Wonderslim - Pumpkin Spice Pudding/Shake<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOLBYa_tZJI/AAAAAAAAAKw/PoF--qdcKKY/s1600/WS101_chocolatecream.4.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="249" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOLBYa_tZJI/AAAAAAAAAKw/PoF--qdcKKY/s320/WS101_chocolatecream.4.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span class="apple-style-span"><b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US;">Yummy Pumpkin</span></b></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span class="apple-style-span"><b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US;"></span></b></span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US;"><b><br /></b> <span class="apple-style-span"><a href="http://www.shareasale.com/r.cfm?B=77037&U=465182&M=7669">1 packet Vanilla Pudding/Shake</a></span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US;"><span class="apple-style-span"></span><br /><span class="apple-style-span">1 dash of Pumpkin Pie Spice</span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US;"><span class="apple-style-span"></span><br /><span class="apple-style-span">1 dash of Nutmeg</span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US;"><span class="apple-style-span"></span><br /><span class="apple-style-span">4oz water</span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US;"><span class="apple-style-span"></span><br /><span class="apple-style-span">I just put everything in a shaker cup, shook, and I used cold water from the fridge. It set in a little over a second!</span><br style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> <!--[if !supportLineBreakNewLine]--><br style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> <!--[endif]--></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-89238050449931612852010-11-16T12:36:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:42:26.181-05:00Wonderslim - Tuna Vegetable Creamy Alfredo<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOLA40pKUhI/AAAAAAAAAKs/h4c1EZkhSsE/s1600/WS112.1.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="249" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOLA40pKUhI/AAAAAAAAAKs/h4c1EZkhSsE/s320/WS112.1.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span class="apple-style-span"><b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US;">Tuna Vegetable Creamy Alfredo</span></b></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US;"> </span></b></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span class="apple-converted-space"><b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US;"></span></b></span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US;"><b><br /></b> <span class="apple-style-span"><a href="http://www.shareasale.com/r.cfm?B=34695&U=465182&M=7669">2 packets Wonderslim Creamy Alfredo</a></span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US;"><span class="apple-style-span"></span><br /><span class="apple-style-span">1 small packet of California Style Vegetable (cauliflower, broccoli, etc)</span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US;"><span class="apple-style-span"></span><br /><span class="apple-style-span">1 small pouch of Bumblebee Tuna</span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US;"><span class="apple-style-span"></span><br /><span class="apple-style-span">Cook the Alfredo on the stove top, when the noodles are just about done, add the vegetables.</span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US;"><span class="apple-style-span">Cook on low until vegi's are tender. Add tuna.</span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US;"><span class="apple-style-span"></span><br /><span class="apple-style-span">Divide in 2 and save the other for the next day.</span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US;"><span class="apple-style-span"></span><br /><span class="apple-style-span">This actually turned out pretty good. I added a little pepper for taste.</span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-44253685254204876492010-11-16T12:31:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:42:26.186-05:00WonderSlim - Pumpkin Cheesecake<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i37.photobucket.com/albums/e94/Fesenberg5000/Audrey/FOOD/pumpkin-cheesecake.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i37.photobucket.com/albums/e94/Fesenberg5000/Audrey/FOOD/pumpkin-cheesecake.jpg" /></a></div><br /><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span class="apple-style-span"><b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Pumpkin Cheesecake</span></b></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 14px;"><a href="http://www.blogger.com/goog_1472754291"><br /></a></span></div><span class="apple-style-span"><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 14px;"><a href="http://www.shareasale.com/r.cfm?B=34695&U=465182&M=7669">1 packet Wonderslim Cheesecake</a></span></div></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><span class="apple-style-span"><br /></span></span></div><span class="apple-style-span"><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 14px;">Pumpkin pie spice to flavor</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 14px;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 14px;">Nutmeg (optional)</span></div></span><br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 14px;"><br /></span></div><span class="apple-style-span"><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 14px;">mix with 2 oz water and let set according to directions</span></div><span style="color: black;"></span></span><br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 14px;"><br /></span></div><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US;"><div style="text-align: center;">I use the shaker cups that came with the program.</div><span class="apple-style-span"></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-13057010909476587852010-11-16T12:28:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:42:26.191-05:00WonderSlim - Strawberry Cheesecake<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOK-xjCqE8I/AAAAAAAAAKo/TnsDdP-XFEs/s1600/WS119.1.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="249" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOK-xjCqE8I/AAAAAAAAAKo/TnsDdP-XFEs/s320/WS119.1.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span class="apple-style-span"><b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US;">Strawberry Cheesecake</span></b></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span class="apple-style-span"><b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US;"></span></b></span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US;"><b><br /></b> <span class="apple-style-span"><a href="http://www.shareasale.com/r.cfm?B=34695&U=465182&M=7669">1 packet Wonderslim Cheesecake</a></span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US;"><span class="apple-style-span"></span><br /><span class="apple-style-span">mix with 2 oz water and let set according to directions</span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US;"><span class="apple-style-span"></span><br /><span class="apple-style-span">I use the shaker cups that came with the program.</span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US;"><span class="apple-style-span"></span><br /><span class="apple-style-span">Add 1 tiny drizzle of sugar free Hershey strawberry syrup</span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US;"><span class="apple-style-span"></span><br /><span class="apple-style-span">Yum!</span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-33391576590167134442010-11-16T12:24:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:42:26.195-05:00Wonderslim Recipe - Chunky Chili<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.shareasale.com/r.cfm?B=36172&U=465182&M=7669"><img border="0" height="249" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TOK9eW0E6xI/AAAAAAAAAKk/aGNxoMMYwzM/s320/WS123.1.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">I cooked the <a href="http://www.shareasale.com/r.cfm?B=36172&U=465182&M=7669">Chili</a> in a saucepan on the stove. While it was cooking I chopped up a tomato into small diced pieces and tossed them in a bowl.</span></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"> </span></span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /><br /><span class="apple-style-span">Then, I diced up some white onion and put that in the bowl.</span><span class="apple-converted-space"> </span><br /><br /><span class="apple-style-span">Then, literally, took a pinch of shredded cheddar cheese and put that on top. Poured the <a href="http://www.shareasale.com/r.cfm?B=36172&U=465182&M=7669">chili </a>on top of it all and mixed it all up.</span><span class="apple-converted-space"> </span><br /><br /><span class="apple-style-span">Oh, it was so yummy! I like my chili very chunky so this was great. When I ate the chili alone a few weeks ago, was not all that impressed. Good, but this is so much better!</span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-42497118446004708972010-11-16T12:05:00.002-05:002010-11-16T12:06:20.546-05:00Sharing Your Words With The World<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i564.photobucket.com/albums/ss81/wiido/sdd.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i564.photobucket.com/albums/ss81/wiido/sdd.jpg" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="MsoNormal">Blogging for me is easy, because I enjoy sharing my words. I have been writing in diaries and journals for as long as I can remember. There was one, my first one that I ripped up and shredded, fearful someone was going to find out my secrets. It must have been before I was about 9, because I have that one, and every single one I have written since then. These journals fill about 3 or 4 boxes that are safely tucked away at my mother’s house. <br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I used to go through those journals, rereading my words of the past. Now they seem to be a distant memory. I still have a diary, but in 2005 I started blogging online. Blogging gave me a way to showcase my writings as well as give me a voice to share my life. In doing so I made an excessive amount of friends. <br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Even though my hand written journal has taken the back burner, my blogging has not. It was a little slow the last few years but I think I have finally found my voice and motivation again.<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I choose to share my life, my words, because I know that somewhere out there someone has gone through or is currently going through the same things that I have. This is a common bond which can bring people together and form a friendship. The way I see it, a person can never have too many friends. <br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am inspired by others. I know the amount of talent that is out there to be shared. I, like many, have endured a lot through life experiences. These experience I have written about it all my journals, both on and offline. </div><div class="MsoNormal">Sharing your life online to the public is very scary. I debated about reloading five years worth of blogs in to one. So many memories of my past I was not ready to revisit. It left me open and vulnerable.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /> It does not matter how many people out there understand what I am going through, or how many support me for there will always be those that want to be a critic. These critics will read a passage, maybe some poetry or even a story and want to pick apart my words. Then, they will post on their own blog some sort of rebuttal and make a mockery of the words. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Sharing can be hard. It could also turn around and bite you in the rear end. I am not really sharing anything here that people in my life have not already heard. <br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Whether you are a blogger or just a reader, remember this when you are in Blogland, no matter how kind, how popular, how pretty, or how talented – putting yourself out there for the world to see takes courage and one should be applauded for that. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-66738840810629255132010-11-11T19:28:00.001-05:002010-11-11T19:30:00.029-05:00What’s Up With Chrys? November Volume 1<div class="MsoNormal">What’s Up With Chrys? November Volume 1</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">11/11/10<br /><br />First off, this is my blog and it is my freedom and my right to say whatever I want.<br /><br />Ok, continue.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I guess I need to get the ball rolling on another blog. The cat is sitting on my lap, refusing to move. Apparently dark time is momma time as well as time for the dogs to go to bed. It’s the same routine every night. So I am going to rush through this because he is really in my way!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have been awake since about 5am today. I kept waking up at odd hours of the night and when I tried to go back to sleep this last time I could not. So I just lay in bed until 7am when it was time to get the trash to the corner and the dogs outside for the first potty break of the day. Thankfully, Matt got up to help. He has been setting the alarm clock to get up in the mornings. After over a year of us fighting about it, why now? Why now after all this time are you trying to prove to me that you can or that you will change? And how long is this going to last? It never lasted before, why should I believe this time is going to be any different.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I find myself at a crossroads, yet again. It is not a very happy place to be and I just do not know what to do any more. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">When things are good, we make a great team. But, lately things have not been so good. I am in so much turmoil and emotional pain that I pretty much cry myself to sleep every night.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Now I wonder, I can’t even remember, some of the good times because they are so far and few in-between anymore.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It is hard for me to just pick up and move, for so many reasons. Many being financial. If I do leave, I just want to get out on my own. I don’t want to live with anyone else. I just want to be my own person, free to take care of myself and not worry about everyone else. Work when I want, study when I need, turn my homework in on time. Oh, that would be so nice. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Right now, life is hard. This is not what I signed up for. I just want to be happy, and really, I don’t think that I am. Sometimes I seem that way, or I might feel that way, but it never seems to last. Always short lived and that makes me sad.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have been building my writing business and I bust my tail end doing the best that I can with that. I work more than 40 hours a week sometimes. I am in school full time. My days are spread thin. I have to get the cat fed in the AM, take the dogs out (he is now starting to share the AM, but still forgets the day time), I cook all of my own meals and often dinner for us both, and weekends I do the cooking, cleaning up, and so on. I start Maddy bath, give it over to Matt and then he just makes her cry and I have to finish it. I never get to rest during the week, or even on the weekends. I literally work in some way, shape, or form daily. I don’t get a break and no one is taking care of me. But there I am, helping Matt because he is only working 12-18 hours a week. Just handing over money like it is growing on trees. I do and pay more than my fair share. But, I should not have to. There is no reason why he can’t spend more time doing these household and fatherly things since he has more free time on his hands.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Why do I have to be the one stressed to the limits daily?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, here I am, a 12 hour work day. And where is he? Out shopping with his mommy. Been gone for hours now. He had all these things that yesterday he promised he would do today, that isn’t getting done. And by the time he gets home he will have to head straight over to jujitsu.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">He wants to act like I am the bad guy. Oh I am so mean. Whatever. I am mean because I ask for and deserve help? The problem is his mother babies him so he never has to do anything and that carries over into this house. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I kid you not, if child services saw this house before I moved in, there would have been NO way they would have allowed Maddy here on the weekends. Not to mention he did not bath her or comb her hair. That was done by his mom and did not start here until after I moved in. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">He needs to be the responsible one. She belongs to him. I think he needs to grow up, man up, whatever up.</div><div class="MsoNormal">My job and my school are just as important as everyone else’s out there in the world. I should be treated with the same respect. If I have to work, end of story. If I have to study, end of story. I should not get a guilt trip about a child I did not give birth to. Working from home changes nothing. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">And don’t get me started on his mom. We can’t go through anything as adults without her holding his hand. She is nosy. Calls 4-5 times a day. Always nitpicking at him over stupid shit. She is bossy. Overbearing. Every time I am around them they fight. And she wonders why I don’t come around. He does not tell her what’s going on here. He has everyone believing he is the perfect man and does everything right. He does not want to admit that he is part of the problem. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">He is the first one to take my money, the first one to always want to go do things, and those all cost money. Which I pay for. But yet if I get a headache or just don’t want to go, or, even ask for help, I am the bad guy.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I am always tired. Always stressed. I work hard. I give all that I earn. And yet I am the bad guy?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">There is something wrong with this picture. And I am really angry about it.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I don’t believe he is going to change. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I wish I had a lot of money so I could just pick a place, pack it up, and go.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-90413974641718269792010-11-04T12:10:00.001-04:002010-11-17T14:42:26.200-05:00It's a LOSS!<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Just wanted to pop in and let you guys know, after 2 weeks on program, I am down 5 pounds!! I guess last weeks T.O.M. resulted in some water retention, per usual. I am going to get back on the exercise bandwagon next week.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-71274225165067028002010-11-03T18:55:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:42:26.205-05:00Wonder Slim Cheat Sheet<div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Breakfast:</span></b></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"> <o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">1 Pudding, Shake or Smoothie</span></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"> </span></span><span class="apple-style-span"><b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">AND</span></b></span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /><span class="apple-style-span">1 Hotcake, Cereal or Oatmeal</span><span class="apple-converted-space"> </span><span class="apple-style-span"><b>AND</b></span><br /><span class="apple-style-span">1 Optional</span><span class="apple-converted-space"> </span><span class="apple-style-span"><b>or</b></span><span class="apple-converted-space"> </span><span class="apple-style-span">1 Dairy (this is syrup for your pancakes or milk for your cereal.</span><br /><br /><span class="apple-style-span"><b>AM Snack:</b></span><span class="apple-converted-space"> <o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">1 Pudding, Shake or Smoothie</span></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"> </span></span><span class="apple-style-span"><b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">AND</span></b></span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /><span class="apple-style-span">1 Fruit</span><br /><br /><span class="apple-style-span"><b>Lunch:</b></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><b> <o:p></o:p></b></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">1 Lite Entrée</span></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"> </span></span><span class="apple-style-span"><b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">or</span></b></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"> </span></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Soup</span></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"> </span></span><span class="apple-style-span"><b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">AND</span></b></span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /><span class="apple-style-span">1 Snack Bar</span><br /><br /><span class="apple-style-span"><b>PM Snack:</b></span><span class="apple-converted-space"> <o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">1 Pudding, Shake</span></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"> </span></span><span class="apple-style-span"><b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">or</span></b></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"> </span></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Smoothie</span></span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /><br /><br /><span class="apple-style-span"><b>Dinner:</b></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><b> <o:p></o:p></b></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">1 Protein (4oz lean)</span></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"> </span></span><span class="apple-style-span"><b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">AND</span></b></span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /><span class="apple-style-span">2 Vegetables (1 cup each, and there is a lot to choose from!)</span><span class="apple-converted-space"> </span><span class="apple-style-span"><b>AND</b></span><br /><span class="apple-style-span">1 Starch (hello potato!)</span><span class="apple-converted-space"> </span><span class="apple-style-span"><b>AND</b></span><br /><span class="apple-style-span">1 Optional ( you can choose to use or not)</span><br /><br /><span class="apple-style-span"><b>Dessert:</b></span><span class="apple-converted-space"> <o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">1 Chocolate Cake, Cheesecake, Pudding, Hot Drink</span></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"> </span></span><span class="apple-style-span"><b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">or</span></b></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"> </span></b></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Fruit Drink (program food, of course)</span></span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /><br /><span class="apple-style-span"><b>1000-1200 Total Calories<o:p></o:p></b></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">For the Wonderslim ALL Supplements<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Breakfast</span></b></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"> = WS smoothie or pudding shake <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">AND</b> WS pancakes <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">OR</b> oatmeal <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">OR</b> crispy bar</span></span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /><br /><span class="apple-style-span"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Lunch</b> = WS entree <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">AND </b>WS protein bar</span><br /><br /><span class="apple-style-span"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Snack </b>= WS snack <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">AND </b>WS pudding shake</span><br /><br /><span class="apple-style-span"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Dinner</b> = WS entree <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">AND </b>WS pudding shake</span><br /><br /><span class="apple-style-span"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Snack</b> = WS dessert<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">1000-1200 Total Calories<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Food Selection and Shopping Guide Cheat Sheet (Wonderslim) w/Medifast references.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><o:p><br /></o:p></span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Fruit<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">1 fruit serving is 60 cals or less. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="border-bottom: solid windowtext 1.0pt; border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid windowtext .75pt; mso-element: para-border-div; padding: 0in 0in 1.0pt 0in;"> <div class="MsoNormal" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid windowtext .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 1.0pt 0in; padding: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Apple, small (4oz), Applesauce (1/2c), Apricots, fresh(5oz), Banana, small (4oz), Blackberries (3/4c), Cherries or Grapes(3oz), Grapefruit (1/2), Melon (1c), Orange, small(6oz), Peach, med.(4oz), Pear, small (4oz), Pineapple (3/4c), Plum, 2 small (5oz), Prunes, dried (3), Raspberries (1c), Strawberries (1 1/4c), Tangerine (8oz)<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid windowtext .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 1.0pt 0in; padding: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></div></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Dairy/Milk</span></b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"> (ONLY the Wonderslim Plan Allows This. Not New Lifestyle or Medifast)<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">1 serving is 50 cals or less.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="border-bottom: solid windowtext 1.0pt; border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid windowtext .75pt; mso-element: para-border-div; padding: 0in 0in 1.0pt 0in;"> <div class="MsoNormal" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid windowtext .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 1.0pt 0in; padding: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">4oz skim milk, 4oz yogurt – nonfat fruit flavor, 3oz plain yogurt-fat free<o:p></o:p></span></div></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><o:p><br /></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Vegetables</span></b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"> <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">One serving is 1c raw or 1/2c cooked, 25 calories or less<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">TWO</span><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"> <span style="color: black;">Servings Allowed (Medifast allows for 3 servings, New Lifestysle is 2 servings, but does not allow peas, potatoes, carrots, corn or beets)<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div style="border-bottom: solid windowtext 1.0pt; border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid windowtext .75pt; mso-element: para-border-div; padding: 0in 0in 1.0pt 0in;"> <div class="MsoNormal" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid windowtext .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 1.0pt 0in; padding: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Asparagus, Beans, Beets, Broccoli, Brussels Sprouts, Cabbage, Carrots, Cauliflower, Celery, Cucumber, Eggplant, Greens, Lettuce, Mushrooms, Okra, Onions, Pea Pods, Peppers, Radishes, Scallions, Spinach, Sprouts, Summer Squash, Tomato, Turnips, Watercress and Zucchini.<o:p></o:p></span></div></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Starch<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">1 serving is 80 cals or less. (ONLY Wonderslim Allows This.)<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="border-bottom: solid windowtext 1.0pt; border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid windowtext .75pt; mso-element: para-border-div; padding: 0in 0in 1.0pt 0in;"> <div class="MsoNormal" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid windowtext .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 1.0pt 0in; padding: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">1/2c whole grain cereal (1/2c), Diet Bread (2slices), Whole Wheat Bread (1slice), ½ Bagel (1oz), ½ English Muffin, 1 Low Fat Waffle, ½ Pita Bread (6in), Roll (1oz), ½ oz Low Fat Crackers,<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>3/4oz Pretzeles, Air Popped Popcorn (3cups), Rice Cakes (2) 4in diameter, Pasta-cooked(1/3c), Brown Rice-cooked (1/3c), Corn or Peas, frozen (1/2c), Potato or Yam –small (3oz) baked or mashed.<o:p></o:p></span></div></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Protein <o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">1 serving is 140 cals or less and less than 5g of fat (about 4oz, for Medifast users the limit is 7oz for very lean)<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #00b050; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Very Lean<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">4oz Turkey (white meat no skin), 4oz Chicken (white meat skin), 4oz Fish(cod flounder, trout, halibut, tuna in water), 4oz Shellfish (clams scallops crab lobster shrimp), 4oz cheese (fat free), 8oz Cottage Cheese (fat free or 1% nonfat lowfat), 8oz Egg Substitute (egg beaters), 8 Egg Whites (or 8oz liquid egg whites)<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #00b050; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Lean<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">1 serving is 170 calories or less and less than 9 grams of fat (Medifast allows 6oz)<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">3oz Beef (sirloin flank steak tenderloin roast or round), 3oz Veal (chop or roast), 3oz Pork (center chop tenderloin or lean ham), 3oz Seafood ( salmon or catfish), 3oz Cheese (low fat less than 3g fat per oz), 3oz Deli Meat (low fat or less than 3g fat per oz), 3 Eggs (medium and there is a limit of 3 eggs per week)<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #00b050; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Not So Lean <o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="border-bottom: solid windowtext 1.0pt; border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid windowtext .75pt; mso-element: para-border-div; padding: 0in 0in 1.0pt 0in;"> <div class="MsoNormal" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid windowtext .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 1.0pt 0in; padding: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Less than 5oz of the not so lean item.<o:p></o:p></span></div></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Optional<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">1 serving is less than 20 cals per.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="border-bottom: solid windowtext 1.0pt; border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid windowtext .75pt; mso-element: para-border-div; padding: 0in 0in 1.0pt 0in;"> <div class="MsoNormal" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid windowtext .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 1.0pt 0in; padding: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Nonfat Cream Cheese (1tbsp), Nonfat Margarine (4tbsp), Reduced Fat Margarine (1tsp), Nonfat Sour Cream (1tbsp), Nonfat Salad Dressing (2tbsp), Salsa (1/2c), Taco Sauce (1tbsp), Catsup (1tbsp), Sugar Free Syrup (2tbsp), Low Sugar Jelly or Jam (2tsp), Artificial Sweetener (1 packet)<o:p></o:p></span></div></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Beverages<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Non Caloric!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="border-bottom: solid windowtext 1.0pt; border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid windowtext .75pt; mso-element: para-border-div; padding: 0in 0in 1.0pt 0in;"> <div class="MsoNormal" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid windowtext .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 1.0pt 0in; padding: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Spring Water (with or without flavor or carbonation), Bouillon (low sodium), Sugar Free Drink Mixes, Club Soda, Diet Soda, Black Coffee, Tea, Herbal Tea<o:p></o:p></span></div></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Healthy Fats<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">This is in the Medifast materials. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="border-bottom: solid windowtext 1.0pt; border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid windowtext .75pt; mso-element: para-border-div; padding: 0in 0in 1.0pt 0in;"> <div class="MsoNormal" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid windowtext .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 1.0pt 0in; padding: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">1tsp olive oil or 5-10 olives<o:p></o:p></span></div></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Condiments<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">This is in the Medifast materials.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">No more than 3 a day.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">1/2tsp herbs, spices, catsup, BBQ sauce, cocktail sauce<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">1tbsp mustard, salsa, soy sauce, fresh herbs, lemon or lime juice, balsamic vinegar, soymilk, chopped onion<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">2tbsp sugar free syrup<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">1 packet Splenda<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="border-bottom: solid windowtext 1.0pt; border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid windowtext .75pt; mso-element: para-border-div; padding: 0in 0in 1.0pt 0in;"> <div class="MsoNormal" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid windowtext .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 1.0pt 0in; padding: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">3tbsp Hot Sauce, red/white/cider vinegar<o:p></o:p></span></div></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Medifast Also Allows:<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Optional Snacks:<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">3 celery stalks<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">2 fruit sugar free popsicle<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">1/2c sugar free jello<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">3p sugar free gum or mints<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">2 dill pickle spears <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">One per day.<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-18888870122935179452010-11-03T13:39:00.001-04:002010-11-03T13:42:46.983-04:00Moving On<object height="385" width="480"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/k1bxlDAjGCo?fs=1&hl=en_US"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/k1bxlDAjGCo?fs=1&hl=en_US" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="480" height="385"></embed></object><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #c27ba0;">I'm movin' on</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #c27ba0;"><br /></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #c27ba0;">At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #c27ba0;"><br /></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #c27ba0;">And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #c27ba0;"><br /></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #c27ba0;">There comes a time in everyone's life</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #c27ba0;"><br /></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #c27ba0;">When all you can see are the years passing by</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #c27ba0;"><br /></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #c27ba0;">And I have made up my mind that those days are gone</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #c27ba0;">~ Rascal Flatts</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #c27ba0;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #c27ba0;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #c27ba0;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #c27ba0;"></span></span><br /><div style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #c27ba0;"><span id="internal-source-marker_0.4308040337637067" style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">You know, I thought we had finally reached a point where things were going to work out. A point where we had come to a mutual understanding. We had talked about and planned a future. In a matter of minutes, that was all shattered as I was once again asked about something that I have already explained more times than I can remember. I don't think the parties involved are just ever going to get it. </span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #c27ba0;"><span id="internal-source-marker_0.4308040337637067" style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #c27ba0;"><span id="internal-source-marker_0.4308040337637067" style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Just like every semester my classes always have an assignment due on Saturdays. Sometimes, even Sundays. And this semester looks to be no different. I can see my classes, just not the actual assignments. Because I am so close to graduation and in senior classes the work load is higher than it ever has been.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">For those that don’t know, I attend college online through a local in state college. It is an accelerated program and each session last 6 weeks and each semester has 2 sessions. I usually take 4 classes in a semester, 2 each session. We end up covering 3-4 chapters a WEEK! I have to post to the online forums 5 out of 7 days. The week starts on a Thursday, and I have no idea why, but homework is plentiful.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> Just like every semester I have to bust my ass on Thursday when the school week starts to get all the study/reading (2 classes means about 6 chapters) on top of working and maybe starting the weekend assignment if I have time. Fridays are the same, I bust my ass getting work done so I can start on the homework Sometime I have homework on Fridays. I HAVE to get Saturdays done by Friday night because there is NO way their will be time to work on it on Saturday and get it done before the deadline. I have too many work related deadlines during the week to try and shift my schedule around. Having Maddy on the weekends prevents any work or homework getting done. I have tried and it always turns into a nightmare.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Not only is there work and school, I have a writer enrichment program for the next two months for Demand Studios. It was a huge opportunity for me to be picked, I am not going to screw that up. I have lost a lot of clients because of this living situation and Matt being home so often during the week. I can't do that anymore.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">So long as I am in school I will </span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">NOT </span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">be able to watch Madison if/when he works Friday nights and likely not on weekends either. It is not fair to me when I have my own work and school. Its not fair that just because its all online that I am the one who gets pushed. </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">There are a couple of choices. Matt can prearrange it with Angie that any Friday night he has to work she just stays with her mom that night and we go get her Saturday morning. And prearrange any weekend things that might come up. It should first go between the two of them since they are the parents.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">OR</span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> - Matt can have his mom watch her and we'll get her Saturday morn since it will be after 11p by the time he gets home. And they can work out weekends if need be.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Before I moved in Matt was working 2 jobs. He has a weekend job and she was more than happy to help then. She always wants to take Maddy so why is this any different now? Just because I live here does not mean I am at their disposal. I have work as well. Everyone is so willing to work with him around his school, at least they were. So how come my school and work don’t seem to be as important?d</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">My mother is not an option. She works daily, often 9-10 hours a day. It is not fair that I ask her to watch Maddy on her time to rest. More than likely, since shes in retail, she is working the same as Matt so its a mute point.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Everyone needs to understand that if Matt is working Friday NIGHT that generally means he will be home during the day. And since he only working 2-3 days a week, that means I have to work even harder when he is gone to make up for when he is here because my income and productivity drop to 1/4 of what it is when he is gone all day. I have tried everything to combat this.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I have deadlines that I HAVE to meet as well as weekly quotas. Just because I work from home and my classes are online does not mean I have the freedom to do what I want. I still have to treat it as if I was going in to the office every day and driving to campus every day. It is a huge misconception that working from home is easy. It is not, by any means. You have to be productive and you have to be willing to work hard to get things done. You can’t procrastinate. You are your own boss and motivator. I have had to change my schedule around so many time in the last year, I have lost count. Why always me?? What is the fairness in that???</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">IF</span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">- neither of these options is workable for Matt, then it is his responsibility as her father to find and likely pay a weekend babysitter.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Another option</span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> is to change his availability at work to </span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: italic; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">MW</span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> open to ?, </span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: italic; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">F</span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> open to 5, and </span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: italic; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">TuThur</span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> open to 5. No Friday nights, Saturdays or Sundays. Legally they cannot fire him if he tells them "I have my daughter ONLY on the weekends" and </span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">do not </span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">have a babysitter. If they do, he could sue them for job discrimination for having a child because he has other available hours to work. And they have other people that can work weekends. I know quite a few people who have won this type of case when they took it to the labor board. </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">So, he does have options and things he can do. He just need to figure it out. I am tired of being the dump on person. Just like he has a work and school life, so do I. He’s her father so its his responsibility to work things out. I was in school when we met, so hecknew this coming in to the relationship. I do everything I can to make sure him and Maddy are provided for, that the bills get paid, the animals are taken care of and that we have money for other things, and I always put myself last. Not only to I have to pay for my things and our things, I have to make up for what you are lacking with less hours at work.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I can't do that anymore. I can't let my career and my school suffer. I have to take care of me since no one else will. Matt gets to take off here and there on weekends to be with his friends and airsoft. Not once since I moved in here have I gone out alone on the weekends. It's not fair.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">If he continues to not understand and try to work it out on his own, and this type of thing continues to happen, then I have no choice but to move out so that he has no choice but to deal with it. He has to stop pushing his stuff on me. I can't take on any more responsibilities right now. I have enough of my own.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I'm tired of having to feel like I always have to move out in order for him to understand whats going on but I fret that is what I am going to have to do. I have run into a brick wall with apartments because of the dogs. So, I have found a few houses that interest me and have contacted the agent as well as filled out some mortgage applications. </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I do not want to be kept around here for the wrong reasons and its starting to feel that way.</span></span></div><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-70982428074820942412010-11-02T20:56:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:42:26.209-05:00Weight UpdateI am so far behind on a Wonderslim/ New Lifestyle update. I have some products to talk about and a few things I had been through the last week. I am not half way in to my 2nd week. I did NOT lose anything my first week. I was rather discouraged but I also know it was my T.O.M. so I could have been retaining water and I had taken some time off the treadmill because of that damn shoulder injury. Now that is healed, I completed my first week, and nooooooooooooooooow I need to get back in the groove of using my treadmill again. I had started the couch to 5k program and was doing pretty good, and now I am going to have to start over :(<br /><br />I have spent so much time revamping my other blogs and getting this one updated with ALL my blog posts since I started the blog world. I have not taken the time to update the other things that are going on!<br /><br />I will try to take some time in the next day or so to update the Food Journal and Reviews!Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-52249065501078107402010-11-02T12:42:00.004-04:002010-12-23T12:43:44.211-05:00So many ebooks, so little time<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I have been downloading a lot of ebooks these last few weeks. Sad thing is- I don't have much time to read them right now. I think I have enough books to keep me going until I am 60.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I was thinking about starting an online book club. I could use this blog for it. That might motivate me to actually take some time out of my day to read for fun, but with school and work it is hard to say when I would actually have TIME for this!</span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-46075472418998144222010-11-01T16:39:00.003-04:002010-11-01T16:46:21.164-04:00Oh, the Guilt!<div class="MsoNormal">Oh, the Guilt!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Digging up past blogs is giving me the need to blog again. Perhaps I have finally found my voice. Problem is, I am not going to be posting my blogs in a million different places so I won’t get feedback and comments on them like I used to. I am going to have to take the time to boost my blog ratings, but that will come later. I have a lot on my plate right now.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This is sort of a continuation of this morning’s blog.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Well we will see how long my talk to Matt last as well as his talks to his mom. I just do not want to be pushed around anymore. I don't wait to be made to feel guilty and cave in. They made their bed; they should lay in it, not me.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I pretty much told Matt it was on the wire as far as his making choice. Not so much that I am asking him to pick me over those two kids, but he has to choose whether he wants to stay with me knowing there is a chance I may never accept those kids as his, or even close to how I accept Maddy. That is what he needs to understand. I do like Cielo, she’s a great kid, however, not my responsibility. I think, if Matt would have helped me more in the beginning of our relationship instead of pushing me to do it and take care of Maddy so much I might not be so angry and hesitant or hurt about it and maybe might be more willing to have Cielo and maybe someday Ashton come out.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I just think the two of them (matt and his mom) are stubborn and slow to learn. Neither likes to deal with reality. The main problem with Sue is, last year when Matt’s half sister Katie came out she stayed with Sue. She also brought her 2 kids (she has 3, one lives with his dad.) Anyway, when Sue and Dean got married, Katie pretty much stayed with her mom, as well as Meredith. According to what I have been told, Sue was not very nice about them coming out on weekends and such. In time their mom moved back to Arizona and Katie went with her. By this time Meredith was in high school here and wanted to stay so she moved in with Sue and Dean and kid brother Matt. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Sue has talked about some very terrible issues her and Meredith had. Matt has talked about how they would fight and how when Katie would come for the summer it was hard at times. There is one story about how Sue pulled Meredith by her hair across the room because she called her a bitch. Since then she has “found God” again. I guess.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"> Anyway, when Katie was here she said something to Sue about how she was not very nice to her when she was little but she was glad they were friends now. Well of course she would say that ending since Sue paid for her to fly out here for her trip AND let her and the kids stay at her house. She pretty much paid for everything. And the cat was let out of the bad, I am not supposed to know this but Dean was pissed about it. Not only that, Sue was giving Katie money to live off of while she went to nursing school and looked for another job. I guess he does not feel like it’s her place to take care of his daughter. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, basically you would think Katie is using her. I don’t want to think that, Katie seems nice enough, but on the outside looking in, it could appear that way. Anyway, Sue felt guilty about being mean to the girls and now I think psychologically that guilt is what is feeding her to try to run the show in terms of Maddy and trying to be perfect as well as take on the other two. She feels its Gods work for her to take care of those kids now. Ugh, whatever. All she is doing is smothering us, smothering Maddy, refusing to let her son grow up, and being taken advantage of. Sometimes I feel bad for her. Other times I feel she deserves it.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p><br /></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">I think she also has detachment issues. I know she wanted more kids, but she and Dean had so many problems and they hid it from Matt and stayed together for him. Of course these are just stories I have heard and puzzle pieces put together. They split as soon as he graduated. It's a little weird how she hangs out with him and Deb ALL the time. My mom thinks Sue is still in love with Dean and that’s why she became friends with Deb, so she could still be a part of his life. I also know for a fact she is not the only one who thinks this.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It’s a messed up world I seem to have gotten involved in.<br /><br /><b>And once again I have to say:</b><br /><br />Now, before everyone starts bashing me, let me explain something to you. My own father abused me for the first 12 years of my life. I did not tell my mother until I was 16. They/we tried to be a family again. They ended up divorced by the time I was 19. When I was 26 I found out I was adopted by him and my biological father was floating around in Michigan somewhere. At the time I was still living in Oklahoma. I eventually found my biological father, however after 2-3 months of letters he decided he could not tell his secret and for me to never contact him again. I have had to live with this all this time. There are days when I want to meet my father, for him to just give me a chance. For me to spill the beans and just get it over with. I have a half brother and sister, only a few years younger than I. Now that I am back in MI I have thought many times about reaching out to them, feeling as if they have a right to know.<br /><br />So, I DO understand the feelings involved regarding Matt with Ashton and Cielo. So do not for one minute think I DO NOT put myself in his shoes and think of his or their feelings regarding this matter. But, I have been burned by Matt and his ways so it makes me extremely hesitant about brining other peoples children into our relationship. Especially when these kids really need to bond with their new step dad, Aaron. He deserves that.<br /><br /><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-21735056314789066922010-11-01T16:33:00.000-04:002010-11-01T16:33:10.087-04:00Cast of Characters and Timeline<div class="MsoNormal">I have come to realize that many of you are new to my world and may not even know who the heck I am venting about. So, here is a cast of characters of the people in my life. Not just those I am venting about, but everyone in general. This is basically a list regarding those I share with Matt. I will make another list of other people as needed.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Donna </b>– my mother</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I moved to Michigan July 2007.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Marcus</b> – my ex husband, divorced November 2007.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Mike(aka Kraz)</b> – a guy I dated from September 2007 to about July 2009, now my ex but also one of my best friends here in MI.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Matt</b> – my boyfriend or fiancé, whatever you want to call him. September 2009 to present.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Madison </b>– Matt and Angie’s Biological daughter, age 5.5.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Ashton</b>- Maddy’s half brother, Angie’s biological son, Matt’s ex step son, age 10.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Cielo</b> – Maddy’s half sister, Angie’s biological daughter, Matt’s ex step daughter, age 9.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Ava</b>- Maddy’s half sister, Angie and Aaron’s biological daughter, age 2 Born August of 2008.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Angie</b>- all 4 kids biological mother, Matt’s ex wife. Matt met her when Ashton was a little over a year old and Cielo was only a matter of month. They dated a few years, got married in 2004, got pregnant and Maddy was born in 2005. Matt moved out in 2007. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Me</b>- Matt’s new interest. We met in September of 2008, he had just moved back in to his house and Angie & Aaron had moved into another house. I moved in March of 2009. His divorce was final November 2009. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Aaron</b> – Matt’s friend, had baby with Angie will she was still married; now they are married as of April 2010</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Sue</b> – Matt’s mother</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Dean </b>– Matt’s father</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Deb</b> – Matt’s step mother</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Meredith </b>– Matt’s half sister, Dean’s daughter. Married, 2 kids, lives in AZ.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Katie</b>- Matt’s half sister, Dean’s daughter. Divorced, 3 kids, lives in AZ.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Dan & Becky w/Aidan, Nicci & Q w/ Lilly, Tim & gf Jessica w/Noel, Mario, and Chris</b> are Matt’s friends from high school and/or airsoft. There are others, but these are the main ones.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-39299753468550850242010-11-01T14:49:00.003-04:002010-11-01T16:45:05.936-04:00Just Venting<div class="MsoNormal">Just Venting</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">What a great way to start November, with a giant vent. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The weekend turned in to a giant fight fest with Matt. The whole Cielo thing (just like I said it would) got way out of control. His mom started to plan all this stuff on Friday, which pretty much resulted in Matt having to go get Cielo himself. We try to get that planned with Angie, so they were going to meet, get Cielo and go to Friends of the Court to get papers signed in order for Matt to stop paying child support since she’s not getting that money anyway. Since she gets disability money, not only for herself, but the kids as well as full state benefits for all of them, she has more than Matt. So his money goes in to a state fund and his child does not see it. So Angie, for whatever she has up her sleeve reason, thought she could say they share equal parenting time and he won’t have to pay child support. This, since his mom has Maddy quite often during the week, seems fair. Well, once again, for the 2<sup>nd</sup> or 3<sup>rd</sup> week in a row it fell through, and now she is saying she will have her lawyer draw up the papers. Uh huh. I smell a rat now. So, Matt and his mom get in to it, she ends up waiting around to get Cielo and then is calling every 5 minutes to make sure Matt is going to be there in time because she has to be at so and so’s house by 5pm. Great, since at 4:30p she was still in Flint. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"> I got so pissed and pretty much said I was sick (which I was, headache, sinus but I stretched it a bit) and I was not going to deal with it. His step mom and Dad did not want to deal with it either; they went to Canada for the weekend. I knew they would bail out as soon as they knew Cielo was going to be coming to the family pumpkin patch. Sad, since we have all gone together for the last two years. But, can’t say I blame them.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, Friday night Matt took the girls to the high school football game and I told him not to come home. I don’t want the pressure, the noise, or hell to even deal with it in general. It’s been ruined in my eyes. Not to mention I was not even told about the football game. So, he can just stay at his mom, who was apparently out on a date and was so bitchy about making sure we picked them up in time. I can’t stand her more and more. She’s such a hypocrite and her son acts just like her. When we ask her to watch Maddy, we are bad and when we don’t give her Maddy we are bad. It’s never right with her.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So Saturday rolls around and once again, woke up for the 4th day with a sinus headache. Took some pills and lay back down. Ended up calling him since it was almost 11am and my phone has yet to ring. Of course I am still angry, so I was like fuck it. I really don't care what they think anymore. I am tired of being pushed. So, I told him he was on his own. So he, the girls and his mom went to the patch alone. Good for them. Of course he wants’ to make me feel guilty by posting pictures on his facebook of the girls at the patch and how one was missing and I was missed. I get tired of the guilt trips too.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This whole thing with Cielo is so fucked up no matter how you look at it. I understand Matt raised her from the time she was a few months old until she was 6. She is now 9 and he has not been her dad for 3 years. Now, all of the sudden he decides he misses her and wants to be her dad again. The poor kid is already confused and now it’s’ making Maddy confused. Apparently she was being a little brat and she got in trouble. Matt spanked her and put her in a corner, to which she started yelling for grammy and she went to step in and Matt stopped her. Again, another reason why she annoys us. It’s HIS damn kid. And she is starting to piss me off even more every week. She needs to put her reality glasses on and get the point that this is HIS daughter and not hers.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, he comes home Saturday night and we talk. He tells me all the stuff that happened and how he and his mom got in to it. Oh goodie, that’s always fun. I keep telling him he needs to act like a damn man, a father and stop bowing down to his mother. It’s up to him to make the changes. She needs to know that WE make the plans, NOT her and she will get Maddy when we say so. If it’s not convenient for her then that’s just too bad. Then I guess she doesn't get her that weekend. It’s ridiculous she feels she is entitled to have Maddy as much as she does. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">You know, I have been around A LOT of people who have kids and are divorced or the father is just not in the picture for whatever reason. I have NEVER in my 35 years of life met a family like Matt and his mom. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I told Matt if we have kids, she can forget it. I am NOT going to allow her to run my life and claim control of my child. She will get a hard dose of reality from me. I would love to stick it to her now, but since Maddy is not mine, it’s not really my place. And oddly enough, each and every one of Matt’s friends and even Angie warned me about his mom. She is overbearing, dominate, and nosey. It is sad to think I would break up with him because his mom is such a mess that she can’t let her son grow up and live his own life.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So now, Matt wants me to start talking to his mom so that maybe she will start getting the point about making plans without telling us and inviting other children. Oh great. That just makes her go crying to Deb. Which, since she ruined that friendship, I am not worried about it anymore. I have gotten to the point where I just don’t care anymore. I have become pretty numb to all of them.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Now, I DO understand Cielo and Matt and likely Ashton too all miss each other. Please don’t think I am heartless, cold and without feelings. I would be sad too. However, I am a realist and I see things for what they are. But, it is no longer Matt's place or my responsibility to take on these kids. I should not have to work twice as hard when I get so little help from Matt as is it. I tried to tell him this but it did not sink in.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Saturday night we put it all aside, I took some Benadryl and Tylenol 3 and we headed over to Dan and Becky's annual Halloween party (pics on facebook) and it was a lot of fun.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"> Sunday I actually got to sleep in, but had no desire to go to church (again). So Matt went to his moms and took the girls. Then I have no idea what they did. Apparently Angie came to get them around 4 because she decided she wanted them this year for Halloween. No big deal to me, we had Maddy last year. Of course Matt got mad because plans got changed at the last minute. So, I pointed that out to him. OK he can get mad, but when it happens to me and I get mad he says I am out of control and need to settle down. WTF? A bit hypocritical don't you think?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I guess Maddy got in trouble again and now he sees that with this weekend and the previous weekend Maddy behavior with Cielo around is NOT good. Hmmm and he wonders why I don't want to deal with it.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, here I am in bed, trying to get rid of my headache, yet again. Thinking OK, Matt and I can spend Halloween together in bed watching stupid old scary movies. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The phone rings just as I am about to pass out and he’s calling so I can talk to Maddy. WTF? Are you kidding me? Did I not tell you this morning I had a headache? Did you not see how much pain I was in when you left? All curled up in the bed still half asleep? Surrounded by pill bottles? Could you not just tell her I am sick and sleeping instead of calling me and making me hear noise while my head hurts? Do you even stop to think? And one thing led to another and we are back into the whole Ashton and Cielo drama, to which I hung up on him twice. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I should not and I will not be responsible for anyone else's kids. Matt really ruined that for me when I first moved in. Even ANGIE told Matt that if she were me she would not take on Ashton and Cielo. So what does that say when the kid’s own mother would not do it either?? And everyone I have talked to feel the same way. Even his own father and step mother don't care to deal with those kids! And Deb has told me more than once she has tried to talk to Sue about bringing those kids around.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"> I have no problem with them coming out ONCE in a while, but not every weekend and certainly not every other weekend. We don't even have a place for them to sleep and personally I think Cielo is too old to be sleeping with Maddy. And neither him, nor his mom are going to push me into doing anything. She wants Cielo, she keeps her. And it’s on Matt to talk to her and explain to her why. And now his dumb ass is allowing her to call him Dad again which is confusing to Maddy and her. She should not be calling him Dad anymore. If she is not comfortable calling Aaron dad, then the only person she should be calling dad is her biological father. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Matt needed a dose of reality and I gave it to him. He was pissed, but I was like dude you have GOT to get out of la-la land. Welcome to the real world. You knew going in to the relationship they were not your kids and if something ever happened with you and their mother you run the risk of losing them. You did not raise them until they were teens or even adults. You made the choice to leave their mother and she came to you more than once to work things out.</div><div class="MsoNormal"> I tell you what if we have kids and my child goes without because he feels some damn guilt and obligation due to those two I will rip out his testicles and throw them in the trash!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I feel him and his mom are playing with fire and opening Pandora's Box. They should have just left well enough alone. Whatever guilt they feel they need to get over and I think both of them need to go to counseling. And yet he has the nerve to ask me what the big deal is about her coming to stay or about her calling him dad. Really. You really want to get in to this.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Oh honey, we went up one side and down the other.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">And then, he has the nerve to come home and act like NOTHING is wrong.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Whatever. I sat in the bedroom and watched a movie, he came in and we really didn't speak for a while. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Then, it just all went away, per usual. I just decided to make the best of it and have fun. When we have fun, it’s when I realize how much and why I do love him. But I tell you what, when we fight, its hell. And I have a feeling this child mess is not over. Not by a long shot.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">And I told him, I may never accept those two the way I accept Maddy and he’s just going to have to live with that. I am not trying to keep him from them, but he needs to understand they are no longer his kids. Not his responsibility and he should not be giving them false hope or the wrong idea. Nor, should he be standing in the way of Aaron bonding with them they way they should be bonded. I mean it’s been THREE years already!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, I went off my diet. Trying to get back on track. Actually had a GNC shake for breakfast. Trying to finish the can off as I hate to waste anything. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Honestly, I don't know what to do. I am really confused about my life right now and stress does not help for good eating! LOL</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I think if Matt and I did not fight so much about all this baggage he has I might be more inclined to think about my future and the new memories. He is such a good guy, he really is, but his baggage is what brings us down (mom, kids, ex). But I try to keep pushing forward hoping everyone is just going to have an aha moment and all will work itself out. Seems like Angie is going through hers right now, she really has not been too much of a problem lately.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">But, in the end I question whether or not this is the life for me. I question whether I am strong enough to continue, or whether I even want to continue.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Stay or go. Love or be alone. Get married, not. Have a baby, not. Too many hard choices. <br /><br />Now, before everyone starts bashing me, let me explain something to you. My own father abused me for the first 12 years of my life. I did not tell my mother until I was 16. They/we tried to be a family again. They ended up divorced by the time I was 19. When I was 26 I found out I was adopted by him and my biological father was floating around in Michigan somewhere. At the time I was still living in Oklahoma. I eventually found my biological father, however after 2-3 months of letters he decided he could not tell his secret and for me to never contact him again. I have had to live with this all this time. There are days when I want to meet my father, for him to just give me a chance. For me to spill the beans and just get it over with. I have a half brother and sister, only a few years younger than I. Now that I am back in MI I have thought many times about reaching out to them, feeling as if they have a right to know.<br /><br />So, I DO understand the feelings involved regarding Matt with Ashton and Cielo. So do not for one minute think I DO NOT put myself in his shoes and think of his or their feelings regarding this matter. But, I have been burned by Matt and his ways so it makes me extremely hesitant about brining other peoples children into our relationship. Especially when these kids really need to bond with their new step dad, Aaron. He deserves that. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-57945262305215619172010-10-31T15:45:00.000-04:002010-10-31T15:45:09.694-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge - 33 - Thank You<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i588.photobucket.com/albums/ss323/Euler5853/Thanks/thankyouautumn.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="317" src="http://i588.photobucket.com/albums/ss323/Euler5853/Thanks/thankyouautumn.gif" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Today’s Challenge:<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Write a blog post to your readers and thank them for reading your blog!</span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Thank you to everyone who stopped by my blog during the 30 day challenge. I hope you found my blog to be entertaining and I hope you will continue to drop by now and then.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">I appreciate each and every one of you.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">I have a new blog project in the works so I would like to invite you to add me to your blog roll so you can have the first look at the new pages!<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-33832628269580335082010-10-31T15:40:00.000-04:002010-10-31T15:40:14.240-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge - 32 - Three Guilty Pleasures<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i334.photobucket.com/albums/m408/blossom61photos/Coffee/ththstarbucksaddict.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i334.photobucket.com/albums/m408/blossom61photos/Coffee/ththstarbucksaddict.jpg" /></a></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Today’s Challenge:<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Three guilty pleasures you couldn't live without.</span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><b>1. My Nook.</b><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">I was completely against an e-reader for the longest time. I love books. The look, the feel, the smell, and the whole process of going to the book store or library and picking out the perfect one. In 2007 I moved to a pretty small town which was a pretty remote area. The dinky library was not enough for me and the closest book store was at least a 30 minute drive. My reading suffered a great deal. The only books I read were those that were passed down to me from friends and family. I started to feel out of the loop. In July 2010 I decided to ask for an e-reader for my birthday. I loved that I could just download a book and go or I could use the wifi and pick a book right off the store website. I have found it to be extremely useful these last few months and now I can’t imagine life without my Barnes and Noble Nook.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><b>2. My iPod Touch</b><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">I used to have the old iPod, click wheel style, limited edition U2 model. I loved it and we went everywhere together. It was my number one weight loss tool as I used it when I went running or walking. After my divorce in 2007 I was in desperate need for money. This was the last thing my ex husband purchased for me before we divorced. I kept it because it was my favorite band and important to me. But I had to let it go. For Christmas last year I received an iPod Touch as a gift. I use it not only for music on the treadmill, but games and work as well. I carry it around with me everywhere and has become my go-to tool for many tasks I do throughout my day.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><b>3. Coffee.</b><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Where would life be without the wonderful aroma of fresh ground coffee beans perking in the coffee pot? </span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-84307808361380563772010-10-31T15:30:00.000-04:002010-10-31T15:30:36.017-04:00Not the Life for Me<div class="MsoNormal">Not the Life for Me</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This is not the life I had planned for myself. And lately I have been thinking a lot about the past. I think a lot of that is because I have been digging up past writing and such trying to get everything together. Mostly my poetry because I would like to get it printed.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I think a lot of my emotions right now are because Matt and I just aren’t right. I know on the surface most of the time things look fine and we don’t really discuss too many of our problems. But, there is an entire vault full of problems that never seem to get dealt with.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Not my fault. Matt is not one to deal with things. He just wants to pretend there is no such thing as reality and he can just go from day to day and not think about any of the things that should be dealt with. All that does is cause the files in the vault to stack higher and higher until they all come tumbling down. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">When I started to date after my divorce, I was very particular about dating people with kids. Honestly, I did not want to deal with baby mama drama or even daddy drama for that matter. Also, it is very hard to date a guy with kids because 99% of the time they are weekend dads which pretty much interferes with dating and building a real relationship. I did date a few guys with kids. Most of them were older kids and their was not much drama with the mom. One of them only saw their kid when it was mutual between him and the mother to set up a day. So this was not a every weekend dad. Then here comes Matt. When he met his ex wife Angie she already had two kids. One was a little over a year old (Ashton) and the girl was just a few months old (Cielo). They dated for a few years and got married in 2004. Madison was conceived on their wedding night and was born January 2005. Matt left Angie in 2007. They had not been getting along for quite some time so he moved in with his mother. Apparently, she as having an affair with Aaron before Matt even moved out. She became pregnant and in August of 2008 Ava was born. I met Matt in September. His divorce was not even final until November of 2008. Now, mind you, he has not been a dad to Ashton and Cielo for three years now. Only Maddy comes on the weekends. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Aaron is now their father figure. He and Angie got married earlier this year. Ashton has no idea who his real dad is and Cielo’s real dad is in Iowa somewhere and has nothing really to do with her aside from a few phone calls here and there. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Within the last few months Matt’s mom (who is a huge problem in our relationship) has been taking the liberty upon herself to bring Cielo out with Maddy and not really bothering to discuss it with us. And that started to cause some problems.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I made it very clear to Matt I was not really interested in dating someone with kids. At the time Angie was withholding Maddy from Matt so she was not even around. He made it clear to me the other kids would not be a problem, but obviously I would at some point have to get to know Maddy. I liked Matt enough to give it a shot. He lived close by so it was easier for us to spend time together during the week and Maddy was young enough that it would be a little easier to deal with than an older kid with a chip on its<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>shoulder. Maddy and I got along just fine and hit it off on our first “date.”</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Now, something many don’t know about, when Matt and I first met he was going through some police issues because Angie alleged that Ashton and Cielo were molested by Matt. So that was tough for me to have to deal with, given my own past issues with fathers. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have a lot of issues with these older two children. Matt hasn’t been their dad for the last three years and that family has moved on. So, why now all of the sudden does him and his mom want to disrupt that over some stupid guilt they have? Sue has this guilt about when she first met Matt’s dad Dean, he already had two girls. Katie and Meredith. Well apparently she was not very nice to them and now she feels guilty about it. So she’s trying to solve that guilt by making sure Ashton and Cielo don’t grow up all messed up. Well if they do, it’s going to be because their mom has 4 kids all with different dads, not because Matt and Angie got a divorce. And I don’t know what Matt’s guilt is about, I am starting to think its guilt over leaving their mom, even though he assures me it was rough for a long time and he was looking for a way out. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am not so cold and heartless that I don’t understand Matt loved those kids as if they were his own. But the reality is, when you take on someone else’s kids, that’s the risk you take. His job as a father is over and those reins have now been handed to Aaron.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I feel now all him and his mom are doing is standing in the way of those kids bonding correctly with Aaron’s family and confusing them, as well as Maddy even more.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I do not feel I should be obligated to take care of Angie’s other children when they are not Matt’s. And SHE does not even think I should. She even told Matt the other day that if she were me she would not open her door to the kids that were not his. So what does THAT tell you if their own mother is going to say that? So if she can put herself in my shoes and understand how awkward it is, then why can’t Matt??</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have put myself in his shoes and I realize it’s hard to have kids you love taken away from you. But it’s been three years now. It is time to move on. It’s just life. As shitty as it is.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">But we do not see eye to eye on this issue. I am not against Cielo coming out once in a while to be with her sister, but it’s not going to be every weekend. Our house really isn’t set up for any kids other than Maddy anyway. I have even offered to go get all the kids in Fenton and take them to dinner some night. Apparently that’s not enough for Matt.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, we are at a crossroads. As if the fighting over him being lazy and not helping around the house like he should isn’t enough problems, now here is this. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am not comfortable playing weekend “mom” to any more kids. Certainly not kids that are not his. I should not be pushed in to it either.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">We are at a crossroads and I think right now, for me personally it is now just reached a point that it is best I just move out. I am not going to deal with this crap every weekend. I am tired of crying. Tired of fighting and tired of no one taking care of me or understanding me when I need it.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This relationship is so far out of control I don’t think there is anything I can do to save it anymore. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-57004296401557398012010-10-29T12:03:00.000-04:002010-10-29T12:23:01.742-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge - 31 - Nook Book Club<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1017.photobucket.com/albums/af291/syakirin_ferrari/Book_Club_logo1.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="221" src="http://i1017.photobucket.com/albums/af291/syakirin_ferrari/Book_Club_logo1.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Today’s Challenge:<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><div class="MsoNormal">A club you belong to or would like to belong to and why!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The only clubs I belong to currently are writing clubs, if you want to call them that. I belong to these clubs because they help me as a writer. If I had more free time I would be more inclined to maybe join a book club or something reading/writing related as those are really my only hobbies/interests. I do like to do crafts, but I do not have one set thing I like to do. For example I know many women who have scrapbooking clubs. I am not really in to scrapbooking or any other one craft enough to join a specific club for it. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I think it would be great to join a book club. Have the meeting at someone’s house, or mine, or perhaps a nice little coffee shop. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We could decide as a group what to read and discuss it weekly. I think it would be a lot of fun to meet some new people, especially those with the same literary tastes as my own.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I also think it would be a lot of fun to start a Nook Book Club for those who have a Barnes and Noble Nook. I have one and simply adore it. I have a few friends who have them as well. It would be a good starting point for a club. With a Nook I think it would be fun to make it an online group so we could gather from all over! </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-3746318998114472952010-10-28T21:07:00.001-04:002010-10-28T21:07:50.681-04:00Digging Up the Past<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Sad/lifeishard.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Sad/lifeishard.jpg" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Sad/av-black-tears-ani.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Sad/av-black-tears-ani.gif" /></a></div><br /><br /><br /><div class="MsoNormal">Digging Up the Past</div><div class="MsoNormal">Thursday October 28, 2010</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have spent the last few days going over old blogs from Yahoo 360 that is now Yahoo Pulse. I never did anything with those blogs for the longest time. Many of them had been deleted for various reasons. Mostly because my friends were being censored, having blogs deleted, and eventually many of them left. Most of us followed to MySpace where I blogged for a while. I had a Blogger, deleted it, and brought it back. So, there is this huge gap of time missing because of the lack of Yahoo 360 and Myspace Posts. I felt I was ready to relive the past and star getting those up. Many of my creative works, stories, and poems are in all of that so it was important to me to get it all up in one spot. Makes it much easier to be creative, to get your voice back, find another blog group and following as well as a place to showcase my words.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I thought I was ready. You would think after years of space away from it I would be OK with it.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I guess not. I have been feeling sort of sad the last few days. Reliving my grandparents dying, friends come and go, the dissolve of my marriage, my 1000 mile trek across the states, the murder of Lonnie, the feud with Sean, the loss of Elonna to that bitch cancer, the love and then the murder of my wonderful Terry and all the trials and tribulations Michigan held for me in the short time I have been here.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So much pain and sadness.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Matt and I decided to stop at Halo burger after visiting my mom. I know, not good diet food, but sometimes (especially me) you just have to eat what you want otherwise you will continue to find something to eat in the cabinets. I was talking to him about these things and how I just think that maybe I never really took the time to heal properly. We started to talk about my ex husband and some other things, and I just started to cry. Looked at him and said “we have to go, yep let’s go now!”</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">On the way home I just let it flow. I feel like it’s my entire fault. Lonnie would still be alive if I would not have been griping to Sean about him. How Elonna would still be here if I would have taken her to the doctor myself sooner. How Terry might actually be here with me had I would not have dragged my ass and left Marcus sooner. All of these deaths I seem to blame myself for and hold so much guilt.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I don’t know how to get over it. All I know is I have a giant case of the sad’s. I miss them all so much. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The task of getting all the Yahoo 360 blogs moved is over. Now, I am working on all the old MySpace stuff. It’s hard. It is constantly choking me up and I have to push back the tears. The other day I was bawling about Lonnie, last night over Terry, today over all the blame and guilt. I still have a ways to go for the MySpace move to be complete. Then, I have a few random ones on Facebook to move over and then a few on my USB flash drive that need posted as well. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It will be nice to have all of my writing in one place. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Blogger has this nifty print option, which is one of the reasons I decided to put everything together. I have journals of my entire life, up until I started blogging. My journals fell to the wayside. I still journal now and then, but nothing like I used to. I also want the poetry and stories printed so I can use them as works for possible publication. So, I do have reasons as to why I have to dig up the past.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I guess, in a way, a bit of me is happy, I am also aware of the good times I had and how far I have come in the last few years. I came to Michigan with nothing. Now, I am almost done with school. I have made my own business doing what I love – writing! </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Matt and I, we fight. We have a lot of problems. More so, he has a lot of problems, a lot of baggage. And that’s hard for me to deal with. I try. But I question it a lot. Right now, he’s all I got so I just try to make the best of it. I love him, but most of you know how I feel about love.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-30148660782731827122010-10-28T11:49:00.002-04:002010-10-28T11:52:12.429-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge - 30 - Tony's I-75 Birch Run, MI<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.travelpod.com/cache/city_maps/Birch_Run.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://www.travelpod.com/cache/city_maps/Birch_Run.gif" width="320" /></a></div><br /><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Today’s Challenge:<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; line-height: 115%;">Write about the best thing about your town.</span><br style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> <br style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; line-height: 115%;">I live in a very small town in Michigan, called Birch Run. Birch Run is famous for its Outlet Mall and Tony’s restaurant, which is known Nationwide. Tony’s is best known for its BLT where you literally get a pound of bacon to yourself. When you order eggs and bacon, you get a whole pound of bacon on its own plate. Their omelets use anywhere from six to a dozen eggs. Hash browns fill the plate and a banana sundae is about 2 gallons of ice cream. It is NOT a diet friendly stop, but it certainly is worth the calorie overload. When I was younger, living in Oklahoma my parents and I would travel up here to Michigan every summer to visit family. It was tradition for my grandmother to take us here. Once a year was enough for me. Now that I live here I don’t think about it much. I have been back in Michigan for a little over three years now and I think I have been to Tony’s maybe five times. Birch Run is a pretty quiet little town. There really is not much here. Where I live I am a few miles from Frankenmuth which is a quaint little German town. They always have something fun going on there over the weekends. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; line-height: 115%;">I found this video on YouTube, I have no idea who the people are, but at least you can get an idea of the amount of bacon they like to share with you!</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></span></div><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/6u6zw6RyzjQ?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/6u6zw6RyzjQ?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />This one is of a girl eating a turkey sandwich, again enough to feed a family of four!<br /><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/KtEzRTBRC_c?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/KtEzRTBRC_c?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />And this video is more like a commercial, showing many of the menu items.<br /><br /><object height="340" width="560"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/oswFTZPBZl8?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/oswFTZPBZl8?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="560" height="340"></embed></object>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-11983737586888031682010-10-27T21:35:00.001-04:002010-10-27T21:35:20.835-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge - 29 - News Story<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i997.photobucket.com/albums/af96/christinability/books/f4a569fa.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="227" src="http://i997.photobucket.com/albums/af96/christinability/books/f4a569fa.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Today’s Challenge:<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Take a few minutes to surf a news website and then blog about your take on one of the news articles.</span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I despise the news. Honest. If that makes me a bad American, then so be it. I don’t have time to watch TV and when I do, it’s going to be something that entertains me, helps me to unwind from my day. Watching the news only makes me anxious, angry, and/or bored. It seems only 5 minutes is good and the rest is bad and chocked full of boring commercials. No thanks. I will pass.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Online news articles are no different. If I can’t watch them in front of me, I am sure to not have a good time trying to read them. Sometimes I will see something that interests me on the Yahoo page when I go to check my mail. I will click and give a quick scan. I just don’t have time for news reading in between school and work. When I do have time for leisure reading, I want it to be something entertaining. I don’t want to read about who is getting a divorce in Hollywood, how many people were shot, how angry another country is, or any type of celebrity gossip. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I just don’t have time for it in my life. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-2650849105478012162010-10-27T21:06:00.001-04:002010-10-27T21:06:11.646-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge - 28 - Hello Love<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Love%20Things%20-%20Misc%20Pics/22.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="307" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Love%20Things%20-%20Misc%20Pics/22.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Today’s Challenge:<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">What moment from childhood do you remember where you overcame a fear or accomplished a dream? Blog about it. Or blog about a challenge you've faced as an adult and how you got through it.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Because of some not-so-good things that happened to me as a child, many of my childhood memories are forgotten. The things I do remember I was always a scared little girl, for the longest time. I have a fear of love, being hurt so many times in life. I have seen many that I love die in a very short period of time. I question love. Wonder if it is the right thing or I am just going to get hurt again. I don’t want to be that scared little girl anymore. I want to love openly and not worry about the things that I worry about. I have been in a relationship for two years now and I am still scared to death. Literally every day I think I should move out, to save myself from the pain later in life. So many things I am still trying to live through.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-7175194154069175542010-10-26T19:24:00.004-04:002010-10-26T19:37:14.762-04:00Yahoo 360 Import CompleteThe importing of what was left of the Yahoo 360 blogs is complete. I had forgotten that I deleted a LOT of them when others were getting deleting for (so they say) violating the Yahoo 360 T.O.S. I still have most of those blogs saved and will import those either later tonight or tomorrow. I am now going to start on the MySpace blog. All the other blogs I have started over the years have been deleted either by me, or the website company (Ning, ie blogs, Cherry Tap, Multiply, Hi5 and more). Most of the content was the same as my other blogs anyway. I might have a few oddballs on Facebook.<br /><br />I have also been thinking about posting the blogs from Terry, Sean and Lonnie's blogs as many of the correlated with my blogs and since they are no longer with us (with the exception of Sean and Joey) readers can not go to their blogs to read. Besides, it would take to much work to read here, then go to MySpace to read theirs.Also, perhaps a handful of Joey and Elonna's as well. Many of them will help make sense to so many of mine.<br /><br />Once I finish MySpace, Facebook and those on storage this Blogger blog will be complete with all of my writings. This is going to help me get my blogging voice back.<br /><br />Now everyone can know the whole story of me.<br /><br />Then I can continue forward with this blog and begin rebuilding my Erotic Confessions blog. The time is now for me to start being myself again. I miss that girl. I miss that girl with so many words.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-30161856308515933052010-10-26T13:29:00.000-04:002010-10-26T13:29:09.388-04:00Past Blogs - Learn Something NewA while back ago I made a post regarding my old Yahoo 360 blogs, that I had imported to my MySpace, which shortly after got deleted. I did make a new MySpace. All of this was in 2005. Yahoo 360 is now no longer but those blogs are still on my profile on their new Yahoo Pulse.<br /><br />I did start putting those blogs here on this Blogger. I had them all on Blogger at one time as I did Yahoo along side Blogger since Blogger was safe and the Yahoo 350 police had the habit of deleting your posts whenever they felt like it. But keeping up with MySpace, Yahoo and Blogger got to be too much for me at that time in my life.<br /><br />Now, I see that Blogger is a very useful tool and with all this website integration that is available now I can post once and share to all my other blogs and social network sites.<br /><br />Since I would really like to have all of my blogs in one place I really want to move those old blogs here.<br /><br />I debated about this for a while, thought it might confuse the new readers (what few) I have.<br /><br />Well, no need to worry now! Silly me, after years on this site I am just now learning (DUH!) that I can post date these blogs so they fall within the correct timeline and dates of when they were originally posted.<br /><br />WOOHOOO! That will make this blog look much nicer and less cluttered with old posts being new posts.<br /><br />Yes, I know, I am a dork and shame on my for not knowing that trick. And if I knew it in the past, I must have forgotten how to do it!Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-78147924467480182752010-10-25T22:23:00.000-04:002010-10-25T22:23:53.840-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge 27- Hodge Podge of a Blog(aka My Blog Needs Help)When I first started my blog I had some ideas of where I wanted it to go so I set up about 6 other Blogger blogs to keep my ideas separate. But, that has not happened. They sit blank. Instead I have used my Self Employed Writer for everything except my erotica, which has its own blog and I have not really touched it since Terry died. I think I had gotten a little burnt out after the whole ordeal with Sean and the passing of Lonnie. I tried to keep it up for Terry, eventually deleting the blog. I tried to make a comeback with my works as so many people enjoyed them, but I just could not bring myself to work on it. I tried. Someday I would like to move forward with that blog as well.<br /><br />Anyway, my blog is really about the life of a self employed writer, me. It is a catch all of all the things I have to go through to be a freelance writer, including working at a desk, being sedentary, gaining weight and now losing it. I also talk about the things that interest me as well as products that help me along the way. I might rant or rave about a company or client I work for and a time or two I write a review about books I have read. I even use it as a business tool to showcase my writing. These are all the things that make up ME! So, I have not turned my blog into a one niche only for this reason. The niche is my life.<br /><br />I am still trying to figure out a way to make my blog better. I have signed up for blog challenges and paid to post sites. It's just not doing what I would like it to do.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-55673101806165528712010-10-25T22:07:00.001-04:002010-10-25T22:12:08.454-04:00My First Victory. Thank You Hungry Howie's.For me this is a victory. I was sitting here thinking about dinner time, how nothing was thawed out and unsure of what I wanted to eat. I had wrote earlier that I was going to have some sausage for dinner so it did not go to waste. I really wanted a huge salad and I did not have anything left to really make a salad with.<br /><br />I live out in the country and nothing really delivers to me. Then I thought about Hungry Howie's. I got on their website (OMG you can order online) and had My Fitness Pal open in the other tab to check on calories, I ordered a large garden salad. It was HUGE. Matt and I shared it. His with ranch and I put my own fat free ranch on it. Thankfully they do not come with dressing on them. I then ordered us each a Junior pizza. Smaller than a small. Looking at it, a half is equivalent to a piece of pizza from a large. So, I consumed 2 large pieces of pizza with one Junior, which was cut into 4 small pieces. I got the veggie and it was so yummy. Original crust so I did not add more calories. His was cajun crust with meat plus. It looked gross to me. I don't like all that meat anyway. I did taste a bit of the crust, it was pretty good, but not something I would order. I was happy with my meal and I just proved to myself I do not have to eat what everyone else is eating.<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TMY4yobSIhI/AAAAAAAAAJs/9u45qjqfMvY/s1600/vegi.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TMY4yobSIhI/AAAAAAAAAJs/9u45qjqfMvY/s1600/vegi.jpg" /></a></div><br />Thank you Hungry Howie's for having such large salads and giving us the option to order a tiny, healthy pizza!!<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TMY48KxFiTI/AAAAAAAAAJw/yctOxiIfwJU/s1600/large+garden.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TMY48KxFiTI/AAAAAAAAAJw/yctOxiIfwJU/s1600/large+garden.jpg" /></a></div><br /><br />A small victory for me. I can eat out and still be under my calorie goals for the day if I do it right.<br /><br />I did have the <b>BBQ Flavor Snacks</b> which are just like last nights <b>Sour Cream and Onion</b>. They had a nice kick to them. It still makes me laugh how they look like cheerios. I like them.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-74760263777752709512010-10-25T14:06:00.000-04:002010-10-25T14:06:32.741-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge - 26 - What Do You Collect?<div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Today’s Challenge:<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Do you collect something? Write about it and why you started collecting.</span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TMXHG_Ab_sI/AAAAAAAAAJo/1EMogMmKNCU/s1600/2007irishdance.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TMXHG_Ab_sI/AAAAAAAAAJo/1EMogMmKNCU/s320/2007irishdance.jpg" width="213" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">When I was younger my grandmother gave me my first porcelain doll that played music. I think I was about 8 or 9. I collected these dolls until I was 32. I guess when you are a little girl all you really want to do is sit in your room and play with your dollies, whether it be playing Barbie’s or playing house. I had to grow up rather quickly due to events in my life and I think I hung on to that childlike quality of having an appreciation for dolls. These days, many of those dolls are packed away in the attic. I just don’t have the room or a place to display them. I do have to admit, often I miss looking at my pretty dolls. Even though I did not play with them, I did cherish them by keeping them save in a protective case. Every doll tells a story about a place I visited or an event in my life. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">At one point in my life I collected dolphins, which last about 4 years. I can’t say I really collect anything right now, except eBooks for my Nook.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-22082840624463706192010-10-25T13:55:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:42:26.214-05:00Slim Down MondaySince I did not get back to my blog yesterday to finish talking about what foods I ate and give a quick review, I will do that now before I move on to today.<br /><br />I am still pretty excited at how yummy breakfast was with the Iced Cinnamon Pastry. YUMMY! I had to tell everyone about it. After breakfast came the mid-morning snack, only it was closer to lunch time since I had such a late start to my day. It was the meal replacement Chocolate Cream Pudding/Shake. For lunch I skipped eating the bar because I just was not very hungry. I did try the <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 12px;"><strong><a href="http://www.shareasale.com/r.cfm?B=34695&U=465182&M=7669">WonderSlim Diet Creamy Alfredo Pasta</a></strong></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 12px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">and I was very happy with it. I was sorry when I saw the bottom of my bowl. What I liked about this was that it was creamy, but did not have that overly heavy Alfredo sauce feeling. I know some people like it, thats what eating Alfredo is all about. Honestly, I did not miss it. Instead the sauce had a very, very, slight "cooked in chicken stock" flavor to it with a really nice, smooth, mild, creamy Alfredo sauce. I am very pleased with this. However, for 3 packets in a box for $9.99 (although you might be able to substitute in your weekly/monthly kits) I wonder if buying a frozen entrée from the supermarket by Weight Watchers, Lean Cuisine or Healthy Choice would be suitable while still keeping portions in check. I know the cost would be a bit cheaper for some plain Alfredo dinner. When I was on Weight Watchers I ate a lot of the WW endorsed Smart Ones meals. I can usually find these on sale for $2. These days you can find the WW points listed on many supermarket items. </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Back to the Wonderslim! Someone had mentioned using the Alfredo packet to make a tuna casserole, using a little less water and added some tune for a protein punch! Salt , pepper and hot sauce (if you like it). You can also add some seasoned breadcrumbs sprayed with cooking spray and baked for that homemade tuna casserole feeling. </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Another idea was to add some broccoli and some grilled chicken to make Chicken Alfredo. More options include peas, mushrooms and chives. I might have to try some of these options even though I felt it was great plain!</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">For those that do not really know my background, when I was in highschool 20 years ago my mother took me to NutriSystem. In those days you had to actually go to the center for your food and weight in, just like Jenny Craig. I loved the food. I had tried it again later in life when it first launched online and was not really happy with anything I purchased other than the pizza. It did not seem to change much. About 3 years ago I gave it another try. Again, I was highly disappointed. I just could not choke down the food. It had a weird taste and texture. I see now they have frozen and fresh options, but the price is ridiculous. I can shop at the supermarket cheaper than a month on NS costs. </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Because of that experience I was extremely hesitant to try the companies that carry these foods such as Diet Direct for Wonderslim and New Lifestyle for their label. But so far I am in love with these foods. I can't begin to tell you how happy I am with the way they taste. It is good to know that their is a cheaper, better tasting option out there. I don't really have the money to throw away and even though I can still shop cheaper at the grocery store, right now I need help with portion control and losing weight. I feel my health is worth every penny.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Ok...ONWARD!</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Last nights dinner was a bit of a repeat with the other half of my chicken breast from the previous night, a very tiny baked potato, some butter spray, salt, pepper and 2 small tomatoes. </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">My night time snack was <b><a href="http://www.shareasale.com/r.cfm?B=38715&U=465182&M=7669">Sour Cream and Onion Snack Bites</a></b>. These little gems reminded me of cheerios. Round, light, airy and just enough of the sour cream and onion flavor, with crunch, to make you get over the chip craving. I could not get over how many their were in a package. I was watching a movie thinking "I am still snacking on these?" It was great.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">That was the end of my eating Sunday. According to My Fitness Pal I was about 400 under my calorie goal for them and the system gave me a warning. I can't force myself to eat when I am just not hungry!!</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Today was a late morning getting up, but I ate breakfast at a decent hour, about 9:30am. Today it was 4oz skim milk with<b> Berries N Chocolate Crunch Cereal.</b> When I first dumped it in the bowl I looked at it and said out loud "Thats all I get??" Matt laughed at me. I had gotten so used to just filling my bowl, I thought there was no way this little bit was going to fill me up. I was right. However, you do eat it along with a meal replacement shake/pudding, which I had chocolate again. That was enough, added some green tea and I was good until lunch time, missing my morning snack. </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">The cereal had some chocolate pieces, flakes, and some strawberry squares that made my milk turn pink just like it did when I ate certain cereals as a kid. It had good flavor. I am not much of a cereal eater for breakfast. I prefer to start my day with eggs or oats. I tend to keep cereal around for an evening snack to curb my addiction to ice cream.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">I did not have a morning snack. I moved right on to lunch where I tried the<b> Crispy Fudge and Graham</b> bar and I have to admit, so far, that is my favorite bar. I think it was meant to be a protein meal and not a lunch time snack bar. Oh well, live and learn and boy was it yummy. If you ever had a Pria bar or maybe a Luna Bar that is what it makes me think of. I paired it with the <b>Zesty Vegetable Chili with Beans</b>. So far, so good. It tastes a lot better than it looks I can tell you that much. It did overflow in the bowl in the microwave so I had a mess to clean up. I am nibbling on it now.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">One thing I have always done is eat REALLY fast. I am trying to break my habit and enjoy my food a bit more. </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">I am not sure what dinner will be. I still have some of that Chicken Sausage from the other nights dinner in the fridge. I hate for things to go to waste so I am likely going to make that with some vegetables of some sort. Maybe green beans and a potato. I have a handful of potatoes that are really close to getting that wilted look. So I need to eat them up!</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Thats all for now! Enjoy your day.</span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-90583012195663559552010-10-25T12:44:00.000-04:002010-12-23T12:45:58.695-05:00Gotta Love the Nook<i>This is an original post from my eBooks Nook blog. It is in the process of being merged with this blog as I am finding it too hard to keep up with multiple blogs.</i><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I can't believe it has taken me this long to get this blog started. I have had my Nook since my birthday in July and I had every intention of talking about it as well as the books I find and read.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><img alt="" border="2" src="http://lh4.ggpht.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TMVuIe9hyzI/AAAAAAAAAJc/_S57HRfHT9k/s288/My%20Uploaded%20Photos.jpg" style="-webkit-box-shadow: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.0976563) 1px 1px 5px; background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: white; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; border-bottom-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 1px; border-left-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 1px; border-top-color: rgb(238, 238, 238); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 1px; color: #222222; cursor: pointer; float: left; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; height: 300px; line-height: 21px; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 5px; padding-right: 5px; padding-top: 5px; width: 400px;" /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I can only dream of having an office or study like this some day.</span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-12114103485324150432010-10-25T08:54:00.001-04:002010-10-25T08:59:43.907-04:00Trying an AppSo here I am this morning with a terrible headache and the last thing I want to do is get the laptop, much less go into my office and sit at the desktop. I have tried other blog apps when I first got my Touch and was not impressed. I got to thinking that maybe something new and better came along. So far I like this one I am using now, but it does not allow me the option to add videos or photos. The one I did find that allowed me to do that was lacking one important thing- the ability to write a new post. It seems it only allows you to post the video and photos to existing posts. I guess I could keep them both since they are free. I tried one I had used in the past hoping it got better since earlier this year, but it had not. It seems it did not want to even update posts from the last time I used it until now. Oh well, no loss. At least I have something to use when I am away from my computers. Seems my Touch is always close by.<br/><br/><br/><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="http://lh4.ggpht.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TMV_MMzyhNI/AAAAAAAAAJk/QgsWOHROBZQ/s288/My%20Uploaded%20Photos.jpg" border="2" alt="" />Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-65229946308017263592010-10-24T14:18:00.002-04:002010-10-24T14:18:54.264-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge - 25 - OrganizationsIt is going to be short and sweet today.<br /><br /><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Today’s Challenge:<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">What causes do you care about?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Pick one and blog about it.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have two main cause topics, Cancer and Animal Welfare. The groups/organizations I donate and try to help with are things relating to Breast Cancer Awareness, American Cancer Society, PETA, ASPCA, and USHS. </div><div class="MsoNormal">I watched Cancer take too many people I know and love. </div><div class="MsoNormal">As for the animals, I feel someone needs to speak for those that can’t speak for themselves. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-67374959184877876372010-10-24T11:57:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:42:26.219-05:00Sunday's Wonderslim RecoveryI am having a late start to my Sunday. We did not get home from the UFC party last until a little after 1am this morning and it took me until after 3am to fall asleep. So, here it is almost noon EST and I have not gotten much done.<br /><br />I had a glass of water, some hot black tea and a <b>New Lifestyle Iced Cinnamon Breakfast Square.</b><br /><b><br /></b><br /><br />Do you like toaster strudels or pop tarts?<br /><br />I have had them, but wasn't a big eater of them.<br /><br />New Lifestyle offered a Iced Cinnamon breakfast square. Warm in in micro for 20 seconds, pair with some hot tea and its just like a coffee house breakfast. Yum! Just like a toaster strudel as far as taste, look, feel, and icing. But the consistency of a pop tart. This is something I will buy again!<br /><br />I will try to pop in later if I eat something different. I am going to do my best to journal , write reviews and chart my success and struggles. This is not only going to help me on my journey, but get me back into the blogging mode.<br /><br /><b>I wonder, should I post some pictures of my meals too?</b>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-46306574989670758982010-10-24T11:33:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:42:26.224-05:00Party DietingSo, I had completed my meal plan on Saturday just perfect. I was so proud of myself for being able to start before the weekend. Going in to this I KNEW I would have days where I would eat out, or eat at other people's houses. My goal for that was just to have better control on my portions.<br /><br />When I drink, I eat. For the most part I have times where I lose track of both.<br /><br />For last nights UFC event we went to our friends house. I had 4 glasses of wine. 2 Apple, 2 Grape. Under normal circumstances I will drink liquor or beer until I have lost count. So, on one hand I was upset with myself for even drinking, but on the other hand proud because I was able to limit myself. After that I drank water.<br /><br />I had planned on taking a bag of 98% FF popcorn to pop and snack on. In trying to get lil one ready to go to her grandmothers, I left the house without it. By the time I got to my 3rd drink I had 2 pieces of cheese pizza with green olives and some cheese dip and chips. I could have eaten more, but I did not. I really tried hard not to much ALL night.<br /><br />So, even though I went over my calories yesterday, I feel I did decent.<br /><br />Today I am back on program, although having a late start.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-79651390606744733302010-10-23T16:16:00.000-04:002010-10-23T16:16:28.046-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge - 24 - Are You Scared?<div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Today’s Challenge: <o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal">Go leave a comment on an interesting blog post then write a post on your blog about why you picked the blog post you did to comment on and link to it.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><a href="http://killerhobbies.blogspot.com/"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"><b>Killer Hobbies</b></span></a> is a blog that is on my Google reader and a blog I am following through blogger. The writer, Betty Hechtman, had told a little story regarding reading books and letting her imagination getting the best of her. She then asked if anyone else had a similar problem or story. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This is my reply:</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I love watching shows like Ghost Hunters, Ghost Adventures, and Paranormal State. Paranormal Activity, the movie I know, it is not real but it still makes me think. The other night I decided to use my Barnes and Noble gift card to use on my Nook and purchase Ryan Buell's book Paranormal State. My imagination got the best of me and the two nights it took me to read it I became very aware of the noises and shadows around me. LOL, Needless to say, I did not sleep much.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I picked this particular blog because the newest post caught my attention since my recent experience when reading my new Nook book. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-71010904023935508142010-10-23T16:00:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:42:26.228-05:00"Wondersliming" the WeekendI thought it was going to be a bad choice to start a weight loss program before the weekend. It was not hard until about an hour ago when I saw the bag of chips left over from Thursday nights Mexican meal out. I really want some Nachos from those chips, but their is nothing about corn chips and cheese on my meal plan. Well, some fat free cheese, but no option for chips. So, I decided to come in here to write. I have walked into the kitchen and looked at those chips more times than I care to admit. I am actually about ready to just throw them away. No one else in this house really needs them.<br /><br />My fiancé is training MMA for a fight in January so its not like he really needs them and his daughter could do without eating them as well.<br /><br />We always have a family breakfast on the weekend. It is something I started to do to help his daughter feel like me, her and her dad are a family. I usually make pancakes or bacon and eggs. My pancakes are usually Heart Healthy Bisquick. Bacon is center cut or turkey bacon so it has less calories. They get full eggs, I have been sticking to the egg white and we use sugar free syrup.<br /><br />Today she wanted pancakes so her and dad made them today and they made some sausage patties. I decided to have the <b>BariWise Golden Pancakes from Diet Direct</b>. I really enjoyed these. They made 3 little ones, which were a little thick for me. I think maybe next time I will try a tad bit more water. I used sugar free syrup as stated on the meal plan. I also had a <b>New Lifestyle Berry Yogurt Smoothie</b> which was absolutely wonderful.<br /><br />A few hours later I made a<b> New Lifestyle Hot Drink, Cappuccino</b>. It was actually pretty good. I was a a little worried as I am very picky about my coffees. To bad this did not have real coffee in it! I also had a 1/2 cup of homemade sugar free cinnamon applesauce.<br /><br />For lunch they made Chef Boy R D Spaghetti and Meatballs (yuck) and some crackers. I decided to try the <b>New Lifestyle Cheesesteak Pasta. </b>I had to add a bit of pepper, other than that it was pretty decent. I do not know if I would order another box. It had a nice flavor, but the meat texture was a bit off for me.<br /><br />For the afternoon snack I made the <b>Wonderslim Chocolate Cake</b>. I had to make some brownies to take to a party I am going to tonight. Lil one and dad love them some brownies. I usually make the Betty Crocker Low Fat ones but was in a hurry. The store I was at did not have them so I just grabbed some box. It actually grossed me out to see the 1/2c of oil and eggs go in to the batter. I have never been a fan of brownie and cake mixes that require oil.<br /><br />I am not too sure what I am doing for dinner. Going to get started on that in about an hour. I know I am making them baked "fried" chicken with shake n bake. She loves legs and he likes the thighs. When he is not looking I peal the skin of. hahah, so I have a chicken breast thawing out for myself. Not sure what I am going to eat with in. Maybe some salad as I have my last batch of garden tomatoes to eat up.<br /><br />Later tonight is a UFC party and I am going to do my best to limit my snacks and eating. I am bringing my homemade wine as well as 99 calorie beer (the 55 calorie tastes too funky) and I am only taking a few so I have a limit. I am not sure what food will be there.<br /><br />This is life. Their are going to be parties and food situations. I believe we can eat all things in moderation. Thats something I learned in Weight Watchers that I always remembered. Of course I stopped practicing that or I would not have gained the weight back.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-78295814117265908132010-10-22T11:57:00.000-04:002010-10-22T11:57:32.015-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge 23 - Bookworm<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TMG0XBjWaJI/AAAAAAAAAIw/aR33pB0MjWQ/s1600/readingicon.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TMG0XBjWaJI/AAAAAAAAAIw/aR33pB0MjWQ/s1600/readingicon.jpg" /></a></div><div style="background-color: transparent; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span id="internal-source-marker_0.9207026499789208" style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Today’s Challenge:</span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Write about your favorite hobby.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">My favorite hobby is reading. Their is nothing better to me than cuddling up in bed with a nice warm blanket, a hot cup of tea and a good book. Now that I have a Nook I have book overload, but I am in school and do not have a lot of free time to read for fun. Not much you can say about reading a book!</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-41690385913855362152010-10-22T11:44:00.001-04:002010-10-22T11:48:24.833-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge 22 - Erie Calling<div style="background-color: transparent; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span id="internal-source-marker_0.7633428475819528" style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Today’s Challenge: </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">If you had one day free to spend any way you wanted, how would you spend it? </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TMGyKvKolFI/AAAAAAAAAIo/JpbxSiL2ibE/s1600/lonnie1.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TMGyKvKolFI/AAAAAAAAAIo/JpbxSiL2ibE/s1600/lonnie1.jpg" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TMGyQeKN40I/AAAAAAAAAIs/PGJWJt2pEMM/s1600/thiwillrememeryou.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TMGyQeKN40I/AAAAAAAAAIs/PGJWJt2pEMM/s1600/thiwillrememeryou.gif" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">To anyone that knows me, they are going to know the answer to this one. You see, I had a really great friend pass away a few years ago. Although I have always had a dream to travel to Ireland, once he passed away that dream became something I HAVE to do. My great friend happens to be buried in a cemetery in Dublin, Ireland. It is extremely important to me to pay my final respects to a great friend.</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-69616219411741274932010-10-22T09:32:00.006-04:002010-11-17T14:42:26.233-05:00Day 1 - New Lifestyle / Wonderslim Plan<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TMIP2qGnxpI/AAAAAAAAAI0/MFvHDJvjuEI/s1600/logo.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="73" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TMIP2qGnxpI/AAAAAAAAAI0/MFvHDJvjuEI/s320/logo.gif" width="320" /></a></div><b>9AM</b><br /><br />I am trying to hold myself accountable so I am hoping to try to do reviews of the new food as well as post my meals for the day. It will help me and perhaps help someone else in the blogsaphere.<br /><br />I will add to the blog through the day. I am calculating calories with<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #cc0000;"> </span><a href="http://www.myfitnesspal.com/"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #cc0000;">My Fitness Pal</span></a><br /><br /><b>Breakfast: </b><br />4oz Breakstone's Snack Size Fat Free Cottage Cheese<br />New Lifestyle <a href="http://www.shareasale.com/r.cfm?B=77037&U=465182&M=7669">Mocha Cream Pudding</a><br />New Lifestyle Vegetable Cheese Omelet<br />1 Cup Brewed Coffee<br />1tbsp Sugar Free Hazelnut Creamer<br />1tbsp Splenda<br />2tsp Benefiber<br /><u>24 oz Water</u><br /><b>309 Total Calories for Breakfast</b><br /><br />In following the <a href="http://www.shareasale.com/r.cfm?B=36168&U=465182&M=7669"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Wonderslim plan</span></a>, for breakfast you are allowed a dairy that should be less than 50 calories and they do not calculate the 35 extra calories for the coffee cream or the 15 calories for the Benefiber. The snack size cottage cheese has 70 calories, so that is 20 over.<br /><br />New Lifestyle and <a href="http://www.shareasale.com/r.cfm?B=34749&U=465182&M=7669"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Wonderslim</span></a> are exactly the same. They are made by the same manufacturer but sent to different companies with their own labels. New Lifestyle offered me a better coupon, but <a href="http://www.shareasale.com/r.cfm?B=34749&U=465182&M=7669"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Wonderslim</span></a> at <a href="http://www.shareasale.com/r.cfm?B=36167&U=465182&M=7669"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Diet Direct</span></a> has great sales and better selection. I will likely use them more often in the future. New Lifestyle does offer incentives that the other website does not. It is all a matter of preference to what you do and do not need. For me it was a matter of saving money!<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><img border="0" height="46" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TMIQTK-7LUI/AAAAAAAAAJA/P2rl1njE7lw/s320/wonderslim_weightplans_topheader.png" width="320" /></div><br /><br />I am going to have to tweak it as I go but their are just SOME things that I am willing to suck up the extra calories for the small things I just can't go without.<br /><br />The <b><a href="http://www.blogger.com/goog_934728075"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Mocha Cream </span></a></b><a href="http://www.shareasale.com/r.cfm?B=77037&U=465182&M=7669"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"><b>pudding/shake</b></span></a> I have reviewed already. So far this is one of my favorite flavors. I prefer the pudding to shakes. I would rather have the sensation of eating over drinking. There is just enough of a mocha flavor to make it a nice breakfast treat to go along with the morning coffee.<br /><br />The <b>Vegetable Cheese Omelet</b> was cooked by the stove top method. Seems to me the microwave method might make them a bit rubbery and it just sounded weird to cook eggs there. Just mix with water and it takes less than a minute to prepare. They do have a weird consistency, a little thicker than a scrambled egg. These cheese and vegi's are a bit weird. Overall, it is not terrible, but not like a real scrambled egg. Personally they are doable. I would not say they are going to be my favorite thing. But I can eat them. Maybe next time I will try a dash of hot sauce. I am almost positive that would make them yummy. Or I should have added some salt and pepper. I am eating them as I type this, so one thing I have learned: DO NOT let them get cold!!!!<br /><br /><br /><b>11:20AM</b><br /><br />I just received another coupon for NL for $20 off so I ordered two more boxes of product. This time I got Chicken Soup and Vegetable Bean Soup for some more variation.<br /><br />Diet Direct sent me an email for 15% off anything in their candy section. As good as this sounds I decided to pass. If its not in the house, I don't eat it!<br /><br />Now it's snack time.<br /><br />New Lifestyle Chocolate Chip with Marshmallows Pudding<br /><u>1/2 cup homemade applesauce</u><br /><b>130 Total Calories</b><br /><b><br /></b><br />The <b>Chocolate Chip with Marshmallows Pudding</b> was pretty good. I think I added too much water because it was a little runny. The chocolate chips were nice but the marshmallows were a little weird when you bit down on them. Not enough to bother me. Overall I would buy this again.<br /><b><br /></b><br /><b>1PM Lunch Time</b><br /><b>Wonderslim Cheesy Mac -</b> I am really weird about "fake" cheese and I was praying that this was going to be edible as I did not want one of my favorite foods to be gross. I took one bite and fell in love. Good thing I bought two boxes! This is not super cheesy like Kraft, but it is not gross like off brand. I felt it had good flavor and you get a really good portion. It takes a whole 4 minutes to nuke in the microwave. I put it in a pretty bowl (maybe I will take a pic next time) and it made me really feel like I was eating "real" mac and cheese. YUM!<br /><br /><b>New Lifestyle Peanut Butter Crisp Bar - </b>this was given to me as a sample, and good thing. I could not taste any sort of peanut butter flavor, it was not a "crsip" bar like you would expect and the chocolate was really light. It was not totally yucky but I would not purchase them. Just was not enough flavor to satisfy me.<br /><br /><b>370 Total Calories</b><br /><b><br /></b><br />Because I will be eating the same things throughout my journey, I will not be posting reviews all the time. I use My Fitness Pal to keep track of my food. Trying to keep track in two places is extremely time consuming so I am going to have to find a way to fast track it!!<br /><br />About 3pm I had <b>New Lifestyle Cheesecake</b>. 2oz water, mix and presto, instant cheesecake. It was delightful. Just enough of a cheesecake taste to make it wonderful. It was really think and might be better with a few strawberry slices or maybe some blueberries or fat free cool whip.<br /><br /><b>6:19PM</b><br /><br />I just finished my dinner and I have to say it was a lot easier to figure out than I originally thought. This meal is what they call Lean and Green so their are no commercial products involved. In preparation, I found it very similar to my past Weight Watcher dinners.<br /><br />2oz Hillshire Farms Smoked Chicken Sausage<br />4oz Baked Potato<br />I Can't Believe It's Not Butter<br />Salt, Pepper<br />Molly McButter Cheese Flavored Sprinkles<br /><u>1 1/2 cup Spinach</u><br /><b>303 Total Calories</b><br /><b><br /></b><br /><b><br /></b><br />For tonights snack/dessert I will be having New Lifestyle Cinna-Crunch N' Chocolate. They look like little cinnamon rolls, but crunchy.<br /><br />My total calories for the day will be: <b>1382</b><br />Thats 182 more than what Wonderslim would like (1200), but My Fitness Pal likes for me to stay under 1680, so today I am under my goal. YAH!<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TMIQI2cotWI/AAAAAAAAAI8/bBM06sf7lLQ/s1600/wonderslim_weightplans_food.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="149" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TMIQI2cotWI/AAAAAAAAAI8/bBM06sf7lLQ/s320/wonderslim_weightplans_food.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-41137934980137297152010-10-20T12:48:00.000-04:002010-10-20T12:48:03.183-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge 21 - Reality<div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Today’s Challenge:</b> Review a TV show or movie you've seen recently.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It is rare that I watch TV shows at the time slot that they are on. I have my DVR set to record a numerous amount of television shows. Some are just for me. Others for my finance and some are for both of us. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Right now I am stuck on reality shows, mostly weight loss shows such as Thintervention and The Biggest Loser. I had also watched Losing It in the past. Right now these shows are important to me because I am on my own journey to a healthier lifestyle and when I see others going through the same struggles that I go through and they are able to make it, that tends to give me a boost of confidence and motivation. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-40189746437062668302010-10-19T09:27:00.000-04:002010-10-19T09:27:59.626-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge 20 - Magazines<b>Today's Challenge</b>: <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Write about a great article you read in a recent magazine.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Today's post is going to be rather short. Sadly, it has been quite a while since I have read any magazines. I do have a few subscriptions, but the last few months have piled up. Once school starts for the semester I have very little free time to read. I try to read while I am walking on the treadmill, but not even that seems to make a dent in my ever growing pile of magazines. So, there they sit, in the wicker basket, waiting until I can get time to dust them off and read them over before the head to the recycle bin. I should at least read the November issues that I have now, before November gets here! </span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-64935192429391652832010-10-18T10:38:00.000-04:002010-10-18T10:38:12.423-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge - 19 - My First Time (on the Internet)<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TLxbw0UZ0II/AAAAAAAAAIk/43k07rUHiSw/s1600/internet.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TLxbw0UZ0II/AAAAAAAAAIk/43k07rUHiSw/s320/internet.jpg" width="315" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Today’s Challenge:</b> <span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Do you remember the first time you accessed the internet? Why did you go online? Blog about that, or about an early internet memory.</span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">My first taste of the internet was at Oklahoma State University my Freshman year. We had a computer lab where we could go for research if we had papers to write, and we were allowed to visit other places on the internet. This was around 1994, long before filters were placed on certain websites. I had set up my Hotmail address, which I still have and use for a catchall. I learned about IRC and met some pretty interesting people through that. About a month later I was over a friend’s house who had internet access, she showed me a live chat, I got on, started to talk, hit refresh, talk some more. I think I started about 7 at night and went until 4 am. Long after he and her boyfriend went to bed. I was so awestruck but this tool that allowed me to talk to people all over the world. </span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-73756541802309847642010-10-18T10:27:00.000-04:002010-10-18T10:27:11.409-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge - 18 - Blogs of Three<div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Today’s Challenge:</b> Pick three of your favorite blogs to read and share them with your blog readers.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><a href="http://www.thriftygrl.com/"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">ThriftyGrl :</span></b></a><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"> </span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal">Her blog is chocked full of steals, deals and freebies. Something new daily! What more could a girl ask for?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><a href="http://jeremycrow4life.com/"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"><b>The Crows Nest :</b></span></a><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"><b> </b></span></div><div class="MsoNormal">The Crow’s Nest is a catch all for the blog collection of Jeremy Crow.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have known Jeremy since 2005. We met each other through the now closed, Yahoo 360 Blogging community. We are both erotica writers and have done a few collaborations. His writing ability is remarkable and I still cannot figure out why he is not published! </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><a href="http://everythingisbetterwithcheese.blogspot.com/"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Everything is Better with Cheese : </span></b></a></div><div class="MsoNormal">I do not remember how I came across this blog but I am sure glad I did. As the title states, life is much better with cheese. Meal plans and recipes are given to the reader. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-9319236707095695492010-10-18T09:59:00.002-04:002010-10-18T09:59:29.642-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge - 17 - A Dud<div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Today’s Challenge:</b> Choose a product you've purchased and share your feedback about it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If you purchased it from an online business (like at Etsy or Hyena Cart shop) be sure to link to the seller -- they'll appreciate it!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Is it sad that I do not really have a product to review? I don’t buy “things” outside of what we “need” these days.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The only thing I can think of to write a review about would be the weight loss products I recently purchased, but I have already reviewed the items that I have tried. I have to laugh at myself, this blog is going to be a dud. I am ok with that. haha</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-13256904297118683432010-10-16T14:05:00.000-04:002010-10-16T14:05:17.187-04:00Reviews : So Far....I will be reviewing them here as I try them as well as on my website. I have WS and NL products coming in, which are the same thing just different brands, but the same manufacturer makes them.<br /><br />So far I have tried:<br /><br /><b><a href="http://www.dietdirect.com/wonderslim-weight-loss-diet-puddingshakes.html"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Mocha Cream Pudding/Shake</span></a></b>. I use 1/2 c water and whisked it for a minute. I thought this was really yummy and I am quite pleased with it. It is not quite a coffee mocha, but it does have a nice light mocha flavor.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.dietdirect.com/wonderslim-weight-loss-diet-puddingshakes.html"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Chocolate Cream Pudding/Shak</span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"><b>e</b></span></a><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">.</span> I make puddings as I like the "eat" instead of "drink". I used 1/2 c water, again whisked. It only takes a minute to set, and I use cold water out of the fridge. It is nice and creamy. I like that the sugar content is low in these so that it is no so sweet.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.dietdirect.com/wonderslim-weight-loss-diet-puddingshakes.html"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"><b>Vanilla Cream Pudding/Shake</b></span></a>. Made the same. It was sort of bland as vanilla so I sprinkled in some pumpkin pie spice season and some nutmeg. It make it really yummy.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.dietdirect.com/wonderslim-weight-loss-diet-puddingshakes.html"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"><b>Strawberry Cream Pudding/Shake</b></span>.</a> Was not a fan. I am not big on strawberry flavored things anyway, just fresh berries. This reminded me of the strawberry milk mixed we had as a kid. It was not awful, I could eat it, but it had a weird aftertaste. This is not one I will order again, although it might be OK as a base for a smoothie if you blend it with some berries.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.dietdirect.com/wonderslim-protein-diet-bars.html"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"><b>Caramel Brownie Nut Bar.</b></span></a> I was quite happy with this. I was afraid that it was going to be overly sweet like a Slim Fast bar, but it wasn't. The bar was somewhat of a heavy consistency, but the chocolate was nice and creamy. No weird aftertaste, but I did have to have a sip of milk before I guzzled some water. They do make you thirsty. The texture is just heavy but not dry like some bars.<br /><br />So far thats all I have tried from my Sample Pack.<br /><br />So far I am pleased with the pudding/shakes.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-1947226680508142992010-10-15T11:40:00.000-04:002010-10-15T11:40:11.337-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge 16 - Quote Me<div style="background-color: transparent; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span id="internal-source-marker_0.36443095887079835" style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><b>Today’s Challenge</b></span><span id="internal-source-marker_0.36443095887079835" style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">: </span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Do you have a favorite quote? Share it and why you like it.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">My favorite quote is: “No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.” - Eleanor Roosevelt</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">It has been years since I first heard this quote, but it has always stuck with me. I have a habit of taking things that people say personally and worrying too much about what others think. It consumes way to much of my time and thought process. Often I have to slow down and remember, I am the one in control of my feelings and emotions, not others.</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-15581398647845326832010-10-15T11:10:00.001-04:002010-11-17T14:42:26.237-05:00Taking the Plunge, Placing My OrdersSo, I sat down to figure out what the cheapest route would be for me. New Lifestyle gave me a $35 off $200 coupon, and you get free shipping with $200 orders. So, I had to order $235, less the coupon to make it $200 to get the free shipping. Good thing because shipping was over $25. I decided to order the two week plan and customized it to the things I wanted and knew I would eat, especially those things that are similar to what I cook for my family. The 2 week plan was $150. I then ordered 7 extra boxes (49 meals) to bring my total up. With the discounts, free shipping I got a two week plan (12 boxes meals, 2 boxes snacks , 7 in each box) and 7 extra boxes (49 meals) for exactly $203.<br /><br />I ordered:<br /><br /><table style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 0px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 0px; border-collapse: collapse; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 13px; text-align: justify;"><tbody><tr><td style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 400px;" valign="top"><b>2 Week Women´s Progra</b>m - which includes the basic eggs, pastas, cereals, chocolate bars, mocha pudding, cheesecake pudding.</td><td align="center" style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" valign="top"><br /></td><td align="right" style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" valign="top"><br /></td><td align="right" style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px;" valign="top"><br /></td></tr><tr><td style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 400px;" valign="top"><b>BBQ Snack Bites</b></td><td align="center" style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" valign="top"><br /></td><td align="right" style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" valign="top"><br /></td><td align="right" style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px;" valign="top"><br /></td></tr><tr><td style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 400px;" valign="top"><b>Butter Toffee Bar</b></td><td align="center" style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" valign="top"></td><td align="right" style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" valign="top"><b><br /></b></td><td align="right" style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px;" valign="top"><b><br /></b></td></tr><tr><td style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 400px;" valign="top"><b>Chocolate Cinna-Crunch Snack</b></td><td align="center" style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" valign="top"></td><td align="right" style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" valign="top"><b><br /></b></td><td align="right" style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px;" valign="top"><b><br /></b></td></tr><tr><td style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 400px;" valign="top"><b>Crispy Fudge and Graham Cracker Bar</b></td><td align="center" style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" valign="top"><b><br /></b></td><td align="right" style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" valign="top"><b><br /></b></td><td align="right" style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px;" valign="top"><b><br /></b></td></tr><tr><td style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 400px;" valign="top"><b>Iced Cinnamon Square</b></td><td align="center" style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" valign="top"><b><br /></b></td><td align="right" style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" valign="top"><b><br /></b></td><td align="right" style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px;" valign="top"><b><br /></b></td></tr><tr><td style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 400px;" valign="top"><b>Milk Chocolate Crunchies</b></td><td align="center" style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" valign="top"><br /></td><td align="right" style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" valign="top"><br /></td><td align="right" style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px;" valign="top"><br /></td></tr><tr><td style="padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 400px;" valign="top"><b>Sour Cream and Onion Snack Bites<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;">I then used the other coupon I had to order 2 extra boxes of food. It was $2o off any amount. I did have to pay shipping on this, but it still allowed me to get two extra boxes for $20.16. I ordered another Hot Cappuccino and Vegi Cheese Omelet.<br /><br /><b>So, I got a total of $223.16</b> = with</span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: separate; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;"> discounts, free shipping I got a two week plan (12 boxes meals, 2 boxes snacks , 7 in each box) and 9 extra boxes ( 63meals). So thats what, 23 boxes? (12 meals + 2 snacks + 9 extras = 23. Making 23 X 7 in each = 161 total meals. $223.16/23 boxes = roughly makes it $9.70 a box.<br /><br />I really wanted to take advantage of the coupons. Personally I think I did pretty good.<br /><br />I really want to use NL as they offer a lot of perks and incentives that DD/WS does not, like a free personal coach for a year by phone or email. This reminds me of a Jenny Craig type thing. With their home program you have a phone session. I also like that they offer Healthy Living Plan which is weekly lessons to help you retrain and relearn and offer support. Free membership to their discussion board, weight loss charts and graphs, Commitment bracelet, rewards on the website and in the mail when you lose weight. I think this is great as Weight Watchers does this and it is a great reminder and incentive for your weight loss journey. They also have a buddy program and journal. I know some people could care less about these things, but these small things really help keep me motivated. Once you get to goal, you get a 6 week Matience plan and lessons. I think this is all great for the money.<br /><br />Then, I went to DD and took advantage of the cake discounts, pancakes discounts, pastas that NL does not have, and honey mustard dressing to take out to eat with me. I had just enough for free shipping and free sample pack. Free is always good! So I got <b>10 MORE boxes of goodies for $79.92.</b> I love that I can pay with PayPal. So now I have from the <a href="http://www.shareasale.com/r.cfm?B=34746&U=465182&M=7669"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Wonderslim</span></a> Line:<br /><br /><b>2 Golden Delicious Pancakes<br />2 Cheesecakes<br />2 Chocolate Cakes<br />1 Creamy Alfredo<br />2 Mac n Cheese<br />1 Fat Free Honey Mustard</b><br /></span></td></tr></tbody></table><br />I am very excited about it. I feel like I got a pretty good deal. I had planned to do the 4 week since it is cheaper per box with the bulk discount, but I felt if I could not handle it after two weeks then I would not be stuck with a bunch of extra food. Two weeks seems like a good trial period, plus I still have over half of my sample pack to use. I believe using NL but following the WS plan, which allows me more regular food, I can make all of this food last me a month. I know I will have days where I will be eating out, or eating over families, but I am prepared to make smarter choices, and they are all going to know that I am trying to lose weight. I am pretty sure they will all understand and support me.<br /><br />The only thing I am not looking forward to is Thanksgiving and Christmas. I just know I will have to do my best.<br /><br />I am not the best about exercise. I don't like gyms, and I don't really like to workout. I DO like walking so my treadmill is my best friend. I do like a few exercise DVDs I have too like yoga and Walk Away the Pounds.<br /><br />I realize I may not have got the best deals, but with free samples, free shippings, $20 off, $35 off, 15% off , I am happy with my purchases.<br /><br />Now, I sit and wait until it all arrives.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-2225613445781762802010-10-14T15:44:00.000-04:002010-10-14T15:44:01.468-04:00The New Lifestyle Diet - Day 1 - Mid Day Check InWS/DD = Wonderslim sold on DietDirect.com<br />MF= Medifast<br />LS = New Lifestyle Diet<br /><br />I don't know how anyone does it, but my first day did not go so well. It was a drastic cut from the 1600 calorie plan I follow with the other programs. I felt myself starting to get dizzy and light headed so I added a boiled to my morning snack. Just 30min ago I could not take any more, I ended up eating a sandwich and some Progresso 1 point soup.<br /><br />I wonder if it is easier when you have the eggs, hot cakes, and pastas instead of all pudding/shakes. I was thinking having these other items might help trick my mind.<br /><br />So today I had:<br /><br />1 Mocha pudding for breakfast<br />1 Vanilla pudding with a sprinkle of pumpkin spice for a snack, with a boiled egg<br />1 Strawberry pudding and a meal bar for lunch<br />1 Can (2points) Progresso Light Pot Roast<br />1 Onion bagel w/ fat free cream cheese and 5 deli thin slices (50 cals) of ham<br /><br />and the day is not over, its only 3pm here.<br /><br />I think I am going to have to go back and spend some time reading over the posts on 3fat chicks and the liquiddietdiscusson to see how others handle it and/or follow a plan.<br /><br />By looking at the WS outline on their website you get a few extra items. For example the LS plan is only 1080 calories. WS is 1000-1200.<br /><br />1200 is much more doable for me than 1080. It makes me dizzy and such.<br /><br />LS has only 1 breakfast pudding/shake where WS is 1 breakfast pudding/shake AND hotcakes/oatmeal/cereal AND 1 optional/1 dairy.<br /><br />For Dinner you get lean meat, 2 vegi, 1 optional and 1 starch. On LS, there is no starch. You get lean mean and 2 cups vegis and they give you a list to choose from.<br /><br />I bet just eating those couple of extra things makes all the difference! I don't want to give up so easily, but I can tell you right now, I can't make it on all puddings and only 1080 calories. Thats not even enough for me have energy to exercise! And with NL their is no fruit or potatoes?!?!? What?? I think I will be making a list of things to order and place it tomorrow, that way I have some time to prep my fridge for its arrival.<br /><br />Lets compare the plans, shall we?<br /><br /><br />Wonder Slim sold through <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"><a href="http://www.dietdirect.com/wonderslim-womens-diet-plan.aspx">Diet Direct.com</a> </span><br /><b>Breakfast:</b> 1 Pudding, Shake or Smoothie<br /> 1 Hotcake, Cereal or Oatmeal<br /> 1 Optional or 1 Dairy<br /><b>AM Snack:</b> 1 Pudding, Shake or Smoothie<br /> 1 Fruit<br /><b>Lunch</b>: 1 Lite Entrée or Soup<br /> 1 Snack Bar<br /><b>PM Snack: </b>1 Pudding, Shake or Smoothie<br /><b>Dinner: </b>1 Protein (4oz lean)<br /> 2 Vegetables (1 cup each, and there is a lot to choose from!)<br /> 1 Starch (hello potato!)<br /> 1 Optional <br /><b>Dessert: </b> 1 Chocolate Cake, Cheesecake, Pudding, Hot Drink or Fruit Drink (program food, of course)<br />1000-1200 Total Calories<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"><a href="http://newlifestylediet.com/womensnutrition.aspx">The New Lifestyle Plan</a></span><br /><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><b>Breakfast:</b> 1 Pudding/Shake, Soup or Hot Drink</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><b>AM Snack:</b> 1 Pudding/Shake, Soup or Hot Drink</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><b>Lunch</b>: 1 Pudding/Shake, Soup or Hot Drink</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"> 1 Meal Bar</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><b>PM Snack: </b>1 Pudding/Shake, Soup or Hot Drink</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><b>Dinner: </b>1 Protein (8oz lean)</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"> 2 Vegetables (limited list)</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><b>Dessert: </b> 1 Pudding/Shake, Soup </div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"> 1 Hot Drink</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">1080 Total Calories</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">So, with NL you get MORE protein at dinner but you are NOT allowed Corn, Beets, Peas, Carrots, Rice, Bread or Potatoes. There is also NO mention of any fruit Diary items are part of your 8oz dinner. To me that almost seems a bit unhealthy. On WS/DD you are allowed these things as a fruit option, starch, and you even get a few things as optional. So, even though NL is cheaper ($230 for a month with a coupon), once I order the extra things from WS/DD ($9.99 a box for the cereals, hotcakes, chocolate cake, fruit drinks) it will cost more, so in the long run, might be better to just use WS/DD for $30 more, as their month is $260.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">Honestly, I wish I did not need the help and could just go to the grocery store, and presto! instant meals, but I feel so overwhelmed with life right now. </div><div> </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-82138334549165133352010-10-14T10:22:00.003-04:002010-11-17T14:42:26.242-05:00New LifeStyle - Day 1The sample pack did take a while to get here, but it was OK. I have been counting calories for the year, and still have all my old weight watcher stuff, so I have been able to combine that with myfitnesspal. It has taken me a year to lose 15 pounds and thats just not fast enough for me. I have come to the conclusion I just do not have the time, or the patience, right now in my life to plan 3 meals a day, cook them, and try to prepare things both me and my family can make. I have done NutriSystem in the past, but it just did not appeal to me, neither did the price. I did not want to eat ALL of their food. I like that these plans allow you to eat one meal, which I can have with my family.<br /><br />I did start reading some of the book. It is refreshing to have someone talk about what it is like being overweight, some things many people do not want to talk about.<br /><br />I looked in to MediFast first since their are magazine advertisements all over, and they want $299.50 for their 4 week program. Sometimes the magazines have a $35 coupon. Separate boxes are over $15<br /><br />I then debated about WonderSlim for a LONG time. I like that DD offer more than just WS on their website which makes for great variety. I think I will be using them for hot cakes and other flavor drinks or snacks. New Lifestyle is still pretty new and they do not have all of those products in. So now, WS is $260 for a month for me. Free shipping and the bulk discount. The single products are $8.50 to $9.99 each.<br /><br />New LifeStyle offers some perks such as weight loss incentives, star pins. A free coach, website tools and message forums where their are a lot of people on the plan. I really like that I have a personal coach, it is small things like that which make me happy as I am huge on customer service. A little goes along way. The only thing I don't like is that they don't have all the products WS has. They also charge $12.50 per single box. But, I can get their 4 week program for $273, free shipping and I have a $35 coupon which they have been sending me every month. That makes it $238 for a month. That made their month a little less than $30 cheaper. Being a poor college student and freelance writer (LOL) I need to save any amount of money I can. So, even though they do not have hotcakes and as much as a variety as DD/WS it was worth it to save the extra money, and they do have a nice variety.<br /><br />Right now, today is my first day of Day1 of the sample pack. So far, I have just had breakfast - Mocha Pudding/shake - which I made into pudding. I loved that you only had to give it a quick whisk and it was done, and it was YUMMY!<br /><br />I am worried that I am not going to be able to stick to the plan. But, I know I have to do this, I have to get the weight off. I also love that NL offers a 6 week Maintenance program when you reach goal. I need to lose about 50 pounds to get to a healthy manageable weight for me.<br /><br />It is going to be hard because my family depends on me for meals, now it is going to have to become a group thing and not just me. Also, me and my fiancé tend to surround our events with food, so that is going to be hard too. I had to talk to him about this so he did not hinder my efforts. Hopefully he will help me and not try to entice me with food! My mom was terrible about that growing up.<br /><div><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-19740201243907349082010-10-14T09:55:00.002-04:002010-10-14T09:55:58.725-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge 15 - Life in General<div style="background-color: transparent; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span id="internal-source-marker_0.8553002269472927" style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><b>Today’s Challenge</b></span><span id="internal-source-marker_0.8553002269472927" style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">: Just write!</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">It has always been hard for me to come up with topics to write about. There is always so much going on in my life at any given moment, but who wants to read about that boring stuff? I am not sure their are too many people out their who want to listen to me go on and on about the headaches being in college causes me, or the same old same old of my freelance writing gigs. Not only that, the ups and downs of my relationship and life in general. I tend to stick to general topics that everyone might be able to relate to. I tend to write a lot about random things because this is just my life as a freelancer. Having a desk job all these years, depression, and back problems has caused a weight gain. I have been trying to get healthy again and it has been a struggle. Because I know many out there struggle too I feel a sense of community when we can all share our experiences. I just want to talk about life and all the things in it.</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-13177392487533152932010-10-14T09:30:00.000-04:002010-10-14T09:30:13.594-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge 14 - Books Galore<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px;"></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><div style="background-color: transparent; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span id="internal-source-marker_0.3534447643905878" style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><b>Today’s Challenge</b></span><span id="internal-source-marker_0.3534447643905878" style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">: </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">What books have you read recently? Blog about one or two and link to their Amazon pages.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Right now I have about three books in the process of being read. </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=B00434T8KW&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe>1. On my Nook I have been reading a fun little book called Wicked Appetite by Janet Evanovich. I am enjoying the quirky tale of cupcake baker Lizzy and her tales of mischief and magic. </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><div style="background-color: transparent; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><div style="background-color: transparent; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><div style="background-color: transparent; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><div style="background-color: transparent; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><div style="background-color: transparent; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><div style="background-color: transparent; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><div style="background-color: transparent; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><div style="background-color: transparent; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><div style="background-color: transparent; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><div style="background-color: transparent; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><div style="background-color: transparent; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><div style="background-color: transparent; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><div style="background-color: transparent; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=1594864667&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe>2. Recently I was mailed a copy of Food Cures by Joy Bauer. I love Joy. She has such a great personality and gives a fresh twist on eating healthy with grocery store food. Unlike these other health writers who expect you to find items that only exist at far away health food stores. I have been flipping through the pages and read a few parts, but plan to sit down and really read it.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><div style="background-color: transparent; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><div style="background-color: transparent; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><div style="background-color: transparent; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><div style="background-color: transparent; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><div style="background-color: transparent; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><div style="background-color: transparent; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">3. The last book I have started to read is<a href="http://www.amazon.com/Creating-Your-Lifestyle-Hamilton-Erridge/dp/B00429EWXQ?ie=UTF8&tag=freelan09-20&link_code=btl&camp=213689&creative=392969" target="_blank"> <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;">Creating Your New Lifestyle by Hamilton C. Erridge.</span></a><img alt="" border="0" height="1" src="http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=freelan09-20&l=btl&camp=213689&creative=392969&o=1&a=B00429EWXQ" style="border: none !important; margin: 0px !important; padding: 0px !important;" width="1" /> I received a copy of this book, for free, with a packet of weight loss materials I had ordered. The New Lifestyle Diet has a sample package available for you to try their products, right now they are including a copy of the founders book. I have only read the first few pages and it is nice to see a author write about those things an overweight person has to deal with, but never wants to talk about.</span></div></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-87564893332397252652010-10-12T16:05:00.000-04:002010-10-12T16:05:32.317-04:00The Ultimate Blog Challenge - 13- My Jenna<div style="background-color: transparent; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TLS_duav0TI/AAAAAAAAAIc/NyiqAoyGQic/s1600/besties.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="301" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TLS_duav0TI/AAAAAAAAAIc/NyiqAoyGQic/s320/besties.jpg" width="320" /></a><span id="internal-source-marker_0.8958455750253052" style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><b>Today’s Challenge:</b></span><span id="internal-source-marker_0.8958455750253052" style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Pick a friend or family member and write a blog post about the quality you most admire in them.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 13pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">One of my closest, yet far away, friends is my Jenna. Her and I met shortly after I arrived in Stillwater, OK for a job relocation. She instantly took me in and showed me around the town. From that first day we have managed to build a friendship that has taken us here, there, and everywhere. The one thing I admire most about her is her ability to overcome everything that comes at her and her ability to love those, even with their faults. She is never judgemental or selfish. That is a quality I admire the most, and for that I will always love her and she will always be a part of me. Our lives have taken us in different directions, but when we are together it is as if no time has ever passed between us.</span></div><div style="background-color: transparent; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-15325076979044330372010-10-12T15:52:00.001-04:002010-11-17T14:42:26.246-05:00(My) The New LifeStyle Diet<a href="http://www.amazon.com/Creating-Your-Lifestyle-Hamilton-Erridge/dp/B00429EWXQ?ie=UTF8&tag=freelan09-20&link_code=btl&camp=213689&creative=392969" target="_blank">Creating Your New Lifestyle</a><img alt="" border="0" height="1" src="http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=freelan09-20&l=btl&camp=213689&creative=392969&o=1&a=B00429EWXQ" style="border: none !important; margin: 0px !important; padding: 0px !important;" width="1" /><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">I just wanted to pop in and let you guys know that I ordered the <a href="http://www.newlifestylediet.com/">New Lifestyle Diet</a> sample pack. It was $20. In it you get:</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">1 shaker cup</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">1 $20 coupon for your next order</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Personal Weight Loss Coach</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">1 Handbook</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">1 Book called Creating Your New LifeStyle (also available on Amazon)</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">1 Caramel Brownie Nut Bar</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">1 Peanut Butter Crisp Bar</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">3 Mocha Cream Pudding/Shake</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">3 Chocolate Cream Pudding/Shake</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">2 Strawberry Cream Pudding/Shake</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">2 Vanilla Cream Pudding/Shake</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">1 creamy hot chocolate</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">1 creamy mint hot chocolate</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">I thought this was a great presentation for the discovery of a new product. They email me coupons all the time, which make them cheaper for me than the popular MediFast or Wonder Slim. I like that NLD has a forum for users, an interactive website to record weight and such at and you get a coach. I like these little perks. I also like that when you order, it gives you a menu and you can pick your items yourself unlike DD where you have to call to make changes. I find this bothersome.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Just wanted to share this because it is going to be a huge lifestyle change for me. I will be eating 5-7 mini meals a day and 1 (what they call) lean and green meal. That fit my life better than other weight loss programs which require you to eat only their food. Plus this one is more economical. I figured I would try the samples to see how it tastes, if good I will order it for a month and see how it goes. I need to reprogram my thought process for portion control and such. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Will let you know how the next 2 days go for me!! I am pretty confident I will be ordering the month package before the day is over. I am ready to go for it!! No more being scared. It is time to get this weight off once and for all.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, geneva, lucida, 'lucida grande', arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">I also like the fact the program mails you rewards as you lose weight. Weight Watchers did that when I used their program. It's the small things that make a different with a company and their customer service!</span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-88058557117368592002010-10-11T13:24:00.000-04:002010-10-11T13:24:39.982-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge - 12- It's a ShayTard world!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TLNIEHWl__I/AAAAAAAAAIU/SA7RFHRImd4/s1600/default.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TLNIEHWl__I/AAAAAAAAAIU/SA7RFHRImd4/s1600/default.jpg" /></a></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal">Today’s Challenge: Share one of your favorite YouTube videos and your thoughts about it.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I don’t really have one favorite YouTube video as I am not on their very much. When I am, I tend to look for videos to songs I like. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Over the years I have followed a few people who produced videos that made me laugh, but those people tend to come and go. Shay Carl is not one of those. Shay Carl has the ShayTard channel, along with his children, who also follow the Tard name (babytard, princesstard) and his wife, as well as their dog. Shay has been filming videos for a few years now and it was not until last year when he put himself on the 1 video a day challenge that he really started to form a following. Basically Shay films his life (radio DJ) of work, play, and being a dad. <a href="http://www.youtube.com/user/SHAYTARDS"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Not really much to say about it, you will just have to watch it to understand. </span></a></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-80142209676837557842010-10-11T13:13:00.000-04:002010-10-11T13:13:37.635-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge - 11- Relaxing? Who Me?<iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=1400599997&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><b>Today’s Challenge:</b><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">What do you do to relax and unwind?</span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Are you serious? This topic should be null and void for me. I NEVER, well not really never, but RARELY get a chance to relax and unwind. My days start as early as 6 am and I go until 9-11pm depending on just how worn out I really am. During the week I am working on school stuff, reading text, writing papers, doing homework. After that, I have even more to write because I have clients and deadlines to tend to. Having my brain in active overdrive all hours of the day is very tiring. I don’t think people realize just how exhausting being a student and worker really is. As for relaxing on the weekends? That is not going to happen with my boyfriend’s 5 year old daughter. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">On that rare chance I do get to relax and unwind, I do absolutely nothing. I like to lay in my bed and just sit in silence. Other times I read a book, or read a book on my Nook. That is usually when I am on break from school. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-21932610535110582322010-10-11T13:04:00.001-04:002010-10-11T13:05:59.136-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge - 10- Purses, Wallets and Bags, OH MY!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TLNCyDMtLWI/AAAAAAAAAIQ/iDMlPoh5FNA/s1600/il_570xN.182060618.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="239" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TLNCyDMtLWI/AAAAAAAAAIQ/iDMlPoh5FNA/s320/il_570xN.182060618.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><b>Today’s Challenge:</b> <span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt; line-height: 115%;">Go window shopping at Etsy.com or Amazon.com and pick out something to blog about. Might be something you dream of owning, or something you'd love to give as a gift, or even something crazy you didn't know existed.</span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I love Etsy.com because I have a friend who knits and she has put some of her projects on there to sell. I do have to admit that I have not really visited the website to see what else it has to offer. I am a HUGE fan of purses, although my addiction has somehow faded in the last three years. I can still appreciate a nice bag. I decided to take a little time browsing the handbag section to see what the etsy artists can deliver. I am always looking for things that are not carbon copies of something else. Meaning, I don’t want to walk in to a place and see eight others that have the exact same bag, shoes, and glasses and so on as me. Etsy seems to fulfill that need. I only had time to glance at a few pages, and this little gem stuck with me.<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"> </span><a href="http://www.etsy.com/listing/58593270/small-pleated-shoulder-bag-and-organizer?ref=v1_other_1"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Bags By Laura has been added to my favorites list!</span></a> I love the colors as well as the organization. The price is even very reasonable. Looking at this site has made me want to dust off my sewing machine…well, only if I had time! </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-32510682839059991822010-10-08T13:51:00.000-04:002010-10-08T13:51:51.718-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge 9 - The Way Life Goes<div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Today’s Blog Challenge: <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></b><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Blog about whatever's on your mind today. With the thousands of thoughts that go through our heads, I'm sure you've got one or two rattling around in there that's worth sharing? Did something brighten your day today? Or do you need to rant about something?</span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It seems the topic that has been weighing heavily on my mind is my future. More importantly, my future with Matthew.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There is a lot of love between me and Matt, but I often question whether love is really enough, whether it is the strong hold glue that is going to keep us together for the long haul.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am going to vent, and it is likely going to be a long one.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">We were supposed to get married this month.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Oddly enough, I do believe today was the day we had planned. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We have talked about rescheduling for another time next year. The idea of it sounds great, but the actual thought of doing it really makes me say “no way!” and if I am saying that in my mind then I certainly do not need to be getting married.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">To put it bluntly, Matt is lazy. For the last two years I have busted my rear end going to school and working. When I moved in here I was instantly pushed into being a weekend mom. Matt had no direction with being a single father, and he certainly needed some help. Maddy had some adjustment problems as well as Matthew. In time, it became to be that the entire world was on my shoulders. While Matt sat around playing video games, I was working, going to school, cleaning the house and taking care of all the chores and cooking as well as taking care of him and Maddy, not to mention the dogs and now a cat, fish and crabs. In time, the longer it went on, the more resentful I became. It seemed he had no desire to even find a job, and when he finally got one, he gets 3 days a week. It is hard for me to do homework, study, and work while he is here so my own income is not what it should be. I am stressed and I just do not see a way to work it all out. I try to work around his schedule, but it does not always work out to the best. I can’t really do anything on the weekends, even though I have school assignments due every Saturday, which means I have to double up on school during the week.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Due to all the stress, the resentment started to build. He wanted my attention, I pushed him away. Maddy wanted me to give her a bath, I made Matt do it. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">If I don’t work, we don’t have extra money for household items or to be able to go out on the weekends. </div><div class="MsoNormal">I feel unappreciated, underpaid, overworked, and just flat out angry.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I admit it, I am angry at the world and the only reason I am not screaming right now is because I am finally back on my anti-anxiety and antidepressants. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The holidays are upon us and I already dread it. There is so much pressure from Matt and his mom to always do these things, and there are just not enough hours in my day to get everything done. On thanksgiving they are lucky I can even g o to one place, I have school, I am in the accelerated program. I DO NOT get days off for holidays. Never mind me trying to go to more than one place on Turkey day. It is not going to happen. Christmas? Why should I have to go to 4 different places just to make everyone else happy? <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>All I can think about is my assignment that is due the next day and how I really should be studying or working. I loathe the holidays with a passion and have never been very fond of the Hallmark days. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I just cannot get Matt and his mom to understand me and my life. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t feel she should be the one dictating his life. It seems as though every weekend there is always some sort of drama, and honestly, I am about to crack. I can feel it. Last weekend was a huge ordeal and I am forced to think that this is going to go on every weekend for the next 15 years. Is this really the life that I want?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, Matt and I fight. We scream, and it all boils down to the same thing. I resent him for making me do everything around here, which makes me so run down and tired that I just don’t care if I ever leave the house. All I can think about is sleeping or what I have to do next.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">In time, I feel like I am going to be a weekend mom to his ex step kids as well. I understand that he helped his ex to raise her kids. But, the reality of that is, you divorced their mom, you are no longer their step dad. She remarried, so now they have a new dad. This is something that Matt and his mom have a hard time with. The oldest son is at the age (10) where he just hates everyone, so he has no desire to come out here. But, Maddy older sister has been staying with Matt’s mom once in a while, which is becoming more and more. The bad thing is, she doesn’t bother to tell Matt that she is coming, which is causing problems for us. I don’t want to be mean to Maddy’s sister, and I don’t mind if she stays once in a while, but it is certainly not going to be an every weekend thing. Honestly, I don’t want it at all. I don’t trust the ex one bit. It is a recipe for disaster that I am sure is going to bite me in the ass in the long run. I k now Matt misses her, and she misses him, and I am not totally heartless, but it bothers me that I am going to be the one doing all the work of taking care of the girls all weekend. Yes, there is that resentment again.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Due to this, I don’t feel this is a relationship made in heaven. There are just too many factors that are altering my thoughts. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I often feel stuck. I could always move back home, but that is not something I really want to do. I have looked in to getting a place of my own, but it has been difficult with the dogs. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">We did tell Maddy a few weeks ago that I was likely going to move out and, according to Matt, she was beside herself. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I can’t let Madison be the reason why I am staying. That is no better than parents who stay together for the sake of the kids. Kids see right through that. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So here I am, up against brick wall, bashing my head trying to figure out what is wrong or right. I can’t think about marrying him, or even starting a family with him because all of this other stuff is clouding my mind.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I wish I knew the next step.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-41808338527392166572010-10-07T15:08:00.002-04:002010-10-07T15:08:55.693-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge - 8- The Zigmaster<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TK4arqBBUpI/AAAAAAAAAIM/9oFrJmWVH2A/s1600/use.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TK4arqBBUpI/AAAAAAAAAIM/9oFrJmWVH2A/s320/use.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><b><i><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-bidi-font-size: 11.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Today’s Blog Challenge</span></i></b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Think of something cute, funny or interesting that your kid, neighbor, family member or friend has recently done and share it.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">There is always something cute, funny, or interesting going on around here, especially if you love animals. I work from home, and a cat and two dogs join me on my daily commute to work. The five steps to the office. The cat is only a few months old, so I guess technically he is still a kitten.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The dogs and him have been slow to get to know each other, however the cat knows no fear.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He will dart around the house, spring loaded, as if there are no other creatures roaming the floors. He will sit on top of the fish take, high out of reach of the dogs, just looking down. I wonder how long it will take him before he figures out how to get the fish, or, when he grows so big he can no longer perch on the fish tank out of the dogs reach. It is quite comical when Cain will come over and Ziggy is on my lap. Ziggy will give Cain a little pat and then lick his head as if to say Hello. When Casey comes over, the story is different. She gets batted at, claws out, and often, her ear bitten. She just looks at the cat like WHAT? What did I do?? If only the world could see the facial expressions of the Boxers that I get to see every day, especially now that a cat has been introduced to the family. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-56812815262970676972010-10-06T12:55:00.000-04:002010-10-06T12:55:56.404-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge -7- I wanna be a Toys R Us kid!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TKyp_QCs0DI/AAAAAAAAAII/D2nBzSAjS9Q/s1600/toys_r_us.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="201" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TKyp_QCs0DI/AAAAAAAAAII/D2nBzSAjS9Q/s320/toys_r_us.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Today’s Blog Challenge:</span></b></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"> What was your first job?</span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">My first job was opening up a brand new Toys R Us store. It was fall of my sophomore year, I had just shed 80 pounds and my parents got me a 1976 black Camaro with an Edlebrock racing engine as my first car (mind you, I graduated high school in 1993). I remember saving my lunch money in order to have money to put gas in the tank. That car was such a gas hog, but I LOVED it. To this day I was I never had to get rid of it. When I interviewed for the TRU job the weather was just starting to get chilly. I wore my best dress anyway. It being my first job, I was unsure of what I was supposed to do or say. I just answered his questions and got a call back about a week later. The building was there, but the inside of the store was empty. It was our job to put up the shelves and racks to get that store opened in time for the holidays. I worked as much as I could. I would get home from school, run home, grab a bite to eat and head out to work for a few hours. Most of the time I would have to be to work at 5 and I would go home about 9 or 10pm. One of the perks of the job, my long time crush and his best friend also got hired on. Since we already knew each other, we had instant break time friends. We would sit in the break room, talking about the cheesy job. I didn’t care; it was money in my pocket. There were a few times where I took my crush home when his ride did not show. The more time I spent with him, the more I asked myself why I even liked him. Underneath that cute face was nothing that interested me. We had nothing in common, he was nice enough, and so friendship came easy. In time he ended up getting fired and his friend quit shortly after. I spent the holidays alone at the TRU store. It made me sad. After a while they wanted me to run register on top of roaming the floors to help customers. I guess my personality was only going to get me so far. I was deathly afraid of the register, and I have no idea why. They were starting to cut down hours and lay people off. They wanted me to stay, which is why I had to pull double duty. I did not want it, and right after Christmas I was let go. I still think about that job every so often. I still have my paycheck stubs attached to my tax return. I still remember my crush and the times we had. </span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-84081891828038156812010-10-05T15:11:00.000-04:002010-10-05T15:11:26.620-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge -6- East Tawas<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TKt4K6oJozI/AAAAAAAAAIE/b56wuiw2_N4/s1600/31111_1478966539967_1407887874_1281.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="239" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TKt4K6oJozI/AAAAAAAAAIE/b56wuiw2_N4/s320/31111_1478966539967_1407887874_1281.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><b>Today’s Blog Idea:</b> Where do you like to vacation and why?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It has been so long since I have taken a real, weeklong vacation that I have forgotten what it is like. While growing up in Oklahoma, family vacations meant drive up north to Michigan every summer and Christmas break if we could. Now that I live in Michigan, working full time and a full time student, I just do not have the time to take very many days off. The one place I like to go just to get away for a couple of days is East Tawas. It is a small, cute, little beach town about an hours’ drive away. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The Tawas Bay resort sits right on the beach and water with the downtown area right across the street. The ice cream shop my grandmother would take us to, and the dock we would walk after still stands. Every time I go back, I think about my grandmother. It is tradition to head across the street for ice cream at the shop, fudge at another shop, and pizza for dinner. Then, at night, we head to the old town movie theater for 50 cent popcorn and a flick, followed by some night time music in the streets. We love this local shop, we can talk to the owners for hours about Celtic relics and swords. After a couple of days, you have seen it all, and you can feel ready to go home. The photo is a picture I took at the Tawas State Park. I loved it so much, I used it as my theme when redoing the bathroom. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-76066450348720072062010-10-05T14:59:00.000-04:002010-10-05T14:59:08.770-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge - 5- Scenery<div class="MsoNormal">Today’s blog challenge: Find an interesting photo and write about it.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TKt1Xe6HNWI/AAAAAAAAAIA/nT7mA2_V2Uk/s1600/IMG_1209.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TKt1Xe6HNWI/AAAAAAAAAIA/nT7mA2_V2Uk/s320/IMG_1209.jpg" width="213" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><!--[if gte vml 1]><v:shapetype id="_x0000_t75" coordsize="21600,21600" o:spt="75" o:preferrelative="t" path="m@4@5l@4@11@9@11@9@5xe" filled="f" stroked="f"> <v:stroke joinstyle="miter"/> <v:formulas> <v:f eqn="if lineDrawn pixelLineWidth 0"/> <v:f eqn="sum @0 1 0"/> <v:f eqn="sum 0 0 @1"/> <v:f eqn="prod @2 1 2"/> <v:f eqn="prod @3 21600 pixelWidth"/> <v:f eqn="prod @3 21600 pixelHeight"/> <v:f eqn="sum @0 0 1"/> <v:f eqn="prod @6 1 2"/> <v:f eqn="prod @7 21600 pixelWidth"/> <v:f eqn="sum @8 21600 0"/> <v:f eqn="prod @7 21600 pixelHeight"/> <v:f eqn="sum @10 21600 0"/> </v:formulas> <v:path o:extrusionok="f" gradientshapeok="t" o:connecttype="rect"/> <o:lock v:ext="edit" aspectratio="t"/> </v:shapetype><v:shape id="_x0000_s1026" type="#_x0000_t75" style='position:absolute; margin-left:64.5pt;margin-top:111.8pt;width:165.75pt;height:244.5pt;z-index:251658240; mso-position-horizontal:absolute;mso-position-horizontal-relative:text; mso-position-vertical:absolute;mso-position-vertical-relative:text; mso-width-relative:page;mso-height-relative:page'> <v:imagedata src="file:///C:\DOCUME~1\ADMINI~1\LOCALS~1\Temp\msohtmlclip1\01\clip_image001.jpg" o:title="IMG_1209"/> <w:wrap type="square"/> </v:shape><![endif]--></div><div class="MsoNormal"><!--[if gte vml 1]><v:shapetype id="_x0000_t75" coordsize="21600,21600" o:spt="75" o:preferrelative="t" path="m@4@5l@4@11@9@11@9@5xe" filled="f" stroked="f"> <v:stroke joinstyle="miter"/> <v:formulas> <v:f eqn="if lineDrawn pixelLineWidth 0"/> <v:f eqn="sum @0 1 0"/> <v:f eqn="sum 0 0 @1"/> <v:f eqn="prod @2 1 2"/> <v:f eqn="prod @3 21600 pixelWidth"/> <v:f eqn="prod @3 21600 pixelHeight"/> <v:f eqn="sum @0 0 1"/> <v:f eqn="prod @6 1 2"/> <v:f eqn="prod @7 21600 pixelWidth"/> <v:f eqn="sum @8 21600 0"/> <v:f eqn="prod @7 21600 pixelHeight"/> <v:f eqn="sum @10 21600 0"/> </v:formulas> <v:path o:extrusionok="f" gradientshapeok="t" o:connecttype="rect"/> <o:lock v:ext="edit" aspectratio="t"/> </v:shapetype><v:shape id="_x0000_s1026" type="#_x0000_t75" style='position:absolute; margin-left:0;margin-top:.15pt;width:165.75pt;height:244.5pt;z-index:251660288; mso-position-horizontal:absolute;mso-position-horizontal-relative:text; mso-position-vertical:absolute;mso-position-vertical-relative:text; mso-width-relative:page;mso-height-relative:page'> <v:imagedata src="file:///C:\DOCUME~1\ADMINI~1\LOCALS~1\Temp\msohtmlclip1\01\clip_image001.jpg" o:title="IMG_1209"/> <w:wrap type="square"/> </v:shape><![endif]-->Could you imagine living in a house, located at the very top of a cliff? With the waves crashing on either side of the dam boats would not be able to travel to the cliff in order to bring its residents supplies. In the distant view we can see how calm the water is, one might think there is a boat dock which we cannot see. I visualize this as an amazing writers retreat. Take a long, brisk walk across the top of the damn. Look at the ocean; listen to its wave’s crash against the rocks. Write about it. Write about the solitude and the silence. The weather looks a bit overcast, perhaps it is chilly. What are your thoughts?</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-52945578388379936622010-10-03T16:17:00.000-04:002010-10-03T16:17:35.469-04:00Ultimate Blog Challenge 4 - Waiting<div class="MsoNormal">The Pocket Muse by Monica Wood</div><div class="MsoNormal">What is the longest time you ever waited for someone or something? Why did you wait?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The longest I ever waiting for someone was my ex boyfriend. Here I was, 1000 miles from everything I had ever known, thrown into a world where I was forced to let others see me, let others get to know me. One of the first people I had started to date was QT Patootie. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I do not know why I was so attracted to him. He was not my usual type, but he certainly made me smile and laugh. Our first date was simple enough, but yet I never laughed so hard. When we were together, we were good. When we were apart, we were not so good. There would be times when I would not hear from him for days. After a few months things really started to come unraveled. One night, we spoke on the phone and made plans to meet up the next day. He never called. He did not call me for 9 days. That is the longest I ever waited for someone, and I vow to never do it again.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=1582973229&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-18107517045309786082010-10-01T18:21:00.000-04:002010-10-01T18:21:31.525-04:00The Ultimate Blog Challenge - #3 of 30 - Joy Ride<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal">Like I stated in post #2 (just in case you are not reading in order) weekends are really hard for me to post. Living with my fiancés has its challenges, but on the weekend his little one lives with us and I like to give her all of my attention since we only have her for 2 days. I am doing Saturday and Sunday’s post early. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, here is post #3 of 30</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The Pocket Muse by Monica Wood</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Write about a long, fraught ride in a car.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">*I honestly had no idea what fraught was, I had to look it up. According to m-w.com<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>it means 1) full of or accompanied by something specified —used with with <a danger="" fraught="" href="" situation="" with=""> and 2) causing or characterized by emotional distress or tension : uneasy </a><a fraught="" href="" relationship=""></a></div><a fraught="" href="" relationship=""><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, there you go. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Now all I have is the movie Joy Ride playing in my head. I might have to think about this one over the weekend and come back to edit it Sunday night. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am going to have to get creative because I don’t really have a personal story to relate to this. </div></a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-60336201899505967032010-10-01T18:05:00.000-04:002010-10-01T18:05:44.613-04:00The Ultimate Blog Challenge - #2 of 30 - The Key<div class="MsoNormal">Weekends are really hard for me to post. Living with my fiancés has its challenges, but on the weekend his little one lives with us and I like to give her all of my attention since we only have her for 2 days. I am doing Saturday and Sunday’s post early. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, here is post #2 of 30</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The Pocket Muse By Monica Wood</div><div class="MsoNormal">Rescue a stray key from that junk drawer in the kitchen. Put it on the desk next to your computer. Try to remember or imagine what this key once unlocked. Start writing.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">“My key is still so shiny.” I think to myself. So shiny it is just like the day I brought it home. Nice snow white in color. The first thing I was able to buy for myself after the divorce. It was mine. All mine. And I bought it myself. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The 2003 Grand Am was nothing special. It drove fast, and I drove it far. I cried when I had to let it go. But that car led me on the path I am on today.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Things were not going so good for me in 2007. I had just lost both my grandparents, one of my best friends was murdered accidently by another friend, another best friend was battling cancer, my favorite cat had died, and I left my husband. We were together for 10 years and to this day I am still trying to figure out why? I loved him. Had love for him. But I fell out of love. We were just different people. I wanted him to be happy and find the love he deserved. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I packed up my life and left the only home I ever knew in Oklahoma. Said good-bye to all my friends, who had become my family. I traveled 1000 miles with the belongings I entered into the marriage with and my two Boxer dogs. I left the cars, the house, and many other things behind. I tried to make it easy on him.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Starting life over in MI was not fun. Work in my field was scarce. It did not help I lived in the country and was not too keen on a 30 minute commute. Within the first 6 months of being a MI resident, I went on countless interviews while battling a relapse in my depression. Life as I knew it was over and this was it for me. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I had lost my best friend to cancer. A man I had grown to care for and love was gunned down. How could I handle so much death? I felt so alone. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">By January 2008 I was able to get a part time job working for a chain company I had worked for in the past. It was only a seasonal job. I then landed at a place I like to call HELL. I cried every morning about how I did not want to go to work. I was so miserable there. I would cry every night when I got home. But I needed the money. Life was a literal hell. I worked for a man who was a pompous ass. Excuse my language. He would literally run down the hallway after people screaming the F word if something did not go his way. It was too much stress. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When he tried to push me in to something I was never trained to do, I walked out. My panic attacks were happening too much and the anxiety was just too much for me to handle.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">During this time I was using other people’s cars. About a month before I quit I was able to save up enough money for a down payment on my own car. The first thing I bought for myself after the divorce. It was mine. I did not have to share it with anyone. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">My own car was the start of something new. The start of a new beginning. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Eventually I had fallen off the job path again. One temp job after another and when the last one finally ended and I could not find work, I eventually lost my car too because I could not afford the payments. I was sad to see it go. This car had become such a part of me. A part of a learning and growing experience.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Losing that car motivated me to find a job I would love with a passion. What is my passion? Writing. Pure and simple. So now, here I am. Holding this shiny key in my hand, remembering how that car felt when I drove it. I how independent I felt buying it. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I toss the key back into the jar. I have since bought a new car, paid in cash, in full. And started the live of a writer. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It is not such a bad life after all. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-57934127447683092052010-10-01T17:38:00.000-04:002010-10-01T17:38:36.009-04:00The Ultimate Blog Challenge - #1 of 30<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px;"><br /></span></span> <br /><div class="MsoNormal">I tend to write about a lot of things. My blog is basically a place for me to talk about my life as a self employed writer. I talk about places I work for, the sort of work I like, and even share my struggles. On occasion I share some of my creative works. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Recently I started talking about my weight loss, or at least my desire to lose weight. Having a desk job and working long hours can sure take its toll on you. But I find myself not really able to keep up with posting. So, I decided for the month of October to take a 30 day blog challenge.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">For the next 30 days I will be posting 30 blogs. Pretty much 1 a day, unless something comes up, then there will be an extra one or two posts in a day. Because I am not sure what to write about, I decided to use the book The Pocket Muse by Monica Wood. Within its pages are hundreds of ideas to get a story, or in this case, a blog going. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=1582973229&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, for the next 30 days, let the creativity flow!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The Ultimate Blog Challenge</div><div class="MsoNormal"><a href="http://ultimateblogchallenge.com/">http://ultimateblogchallenge.com</a> </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-76114512627507108792010-09-17T16:26:00.002-04:002010-11-15T21:52:28.563-05:00Just an Update (Why all the Pain??)<div style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"><img src="http://www.medical-look.com/diseases_images/pain-relief1.jpg" /></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Yes, I know.....<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I feel terrible that I can't write anything. Not because I don't want to, but because trying to write/type anything for any length of time causes me terrible pain. Not to mention sitting up at the desk or even trying to get comfortable with the laptop is impossible. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">You guys have been so wonderful with your replies to all my status posts, tweets and mini blogs. Thank you. Sadly, I have not been able to even really explain WHAT is going on. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I have not been able to write for about a month now. As many of you know I suffer from sciatica due to Degenerative Disc Disease. My L4 and L5 are in pretty bad shape, so I have been trying to lose weight and strengthen my back to deal with the pain. I have that better controlled now, but I am supposed to be careful with my spine as any wrong movement could be painful. Leave it to me to somehow (yes, I know how, but I am not telling!!) cause an impact in my spine, at the neck and shoulder level which not only inflamed the muscles, pinched the nerves as well.</span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> Because of this, for the last few weeks I have been unable to type for long periods of time. My left arm hurts all the time and my left hand goes numb. Pain shoots down it 24/7. <o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">It’s going to take weeks to fully recover.</span></span></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I have been to the chiro and I am due for another round. That helped to get that spine aligned. Over time the muscle swelling has decreased, but the pain had not. A week ago I went to MedExpress for drugs, then to my primary doc to consult and get more drugs. It has been a back and forth battle since it is hard to NOT use my left arm. I seem to keep flaring it up. I spent a few days literally chilling out in bed, hoping that would help. All that did was put me WAY behind in work. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I am looking in to voice to text programs like Dragon Naturally Speaking to help me write my things for work. <o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-converted-space"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">For now, I just keep trying to push forward. It really is all I can do. </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-51768806244750585872010-09-03T20:27:00.000-04:002010-09-03T20:27:55.157-04:00RepostingI have a lot of blogs that were from the original Yahoo 360 that got moved over to the new Yahoo Profile. 360 started long before my blogger days so I am going to repost some of them here.<br /><br />My original MySpace was hacked and deleted in 2005. I have tried to rebuild, but I think these blogs were lost from there as well. Because of this I have decided to repost the blogs on that site too.<br /><br />This might help a lot of you who are new to my blogs get caught up on my life from the last few years. Some of the newer blogs will defiantly make more sense.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-83848013209384918782010-09-03T20:24:00.000-04:002010-09-03T20:24:39.663-04:00Words, Thoughts, Feelings - Bah Humbug!<div class="MsoNormal">Lonnie’s birthday has come and gone and I made no remark in regards to it. I once though celebrating helped me to heal. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This time it is just a painful memory. I want to remember the good times we had. The good times we all had for that matter. Now, as I embark on a weight loss journey with U2 as the prize, it has all become very real to me that I will never have a group of friends like those I lost. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>U2 was something we often shared, and knowing they are not here to share this with me breaks my heart.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Often, I feel myself just counting down the days until I can be with them again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Elonna, Lonnie, Terry….the world seemed complete with them. They were taken away from me too soon. Way too soon. With them, the world was not so big and scary and I did not feel so alone. Sean has buried himself in life, trying to forget the past. Joey is around when he can be. I do hang on to that small inkling of hope that someday Joey and I will get to share that pint, after everything. I look forward to that day when he is free to roam, I can cross the big pond, and we can visit Lonnie’s grave, together. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sometimes that thought is the only thing that keeps me going in life. Steven, the adopted member of the Pirate Gang, it has been so long we spoke, but I have a feeling all is well in his world. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The way I see it, I don’t really have much else. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>At the rate Matt and I are going, we aren’t likely to ever get married. There are just too many “issues” at hand and quite frankly I am too old and too tired to deal with it anymore.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am not getting any younger, so, me having kids is pretty much a mute point as well. I guess I have come to accept that as well. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Most of you who have known me for any length of time know how hard love is for me. I always seem to find myself with either not enough, or smack dab in the middle of a love triangle.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>All I want is for it to just all shrivel up and go away. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have been thinking the world is cruel. There are things about me (anxiety, panic, depression, PTSD) that just can’t be changed. I have tried. Sometimes, you just can’t kill the disease no matter what you do. I think, at this point, it would be better for everyone if I embarked on the rest of life’s journey alone. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The world is big, the world is scary and I am not a fan of moving forward alone, I just see no other choice. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-15224388759857153542010-09-02T13:26:00.004-04:002010-11-17T13:21:33.410-05:00Chunk by Chunk<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;">Reposting from My Fitness Pal, this is not my work.</span><br /><span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;">If you are ever feeling overwhelmed, stop and mentally break your problem into manageable chunks. Think through the steps to take in order to get through the problem, put the steps in order and concentrate only on one step at a time.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;">Let's say you feel totally out of control and want to get back on track. Everything seems to be working against you. You can't exercise, your eating is out of control and you are just plain tired. There are days when you feel that way, and you just want to give up even trying.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;">Start with today and identify what you can do before lunch to manage the problem. Maybe it is walking the stairs one or two extra times. Maybe it is not going to the vending machine on your break. Maybe it is having a salad with Newman's diet Italian dressing at lunch instead of that Big Mac. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;">Don't yet worry about the afternoon and the evening. Start concentrating on little successes to deal with those big problems, and you will find that the big problem gets smaller and smaller, chunk by chunk.<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-77823278921397979952010-08-31T15:59:00.003-04:002010-11-17T13:27:17.825-05:00About The Apps I Use<div class="MsoNormal">I have been getting asked a lot about the iPhone/Touch apps that I use so I thought it would be useful for me to compile a list for everyone.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">In the beginning I started with Sparkpeople.com. They have an app to keep track of your weight and calories as well as a separate app for recipes. I found these extremely helpful when I first started this journey and it was initially the reason why I wanted a Touch for Christmas instead of a regular iPod. Both apps are free.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Currently I use<span style="color: red;"> MyFitnessPal</span> to track my activity and calories. This app is free and also syncs with the website, just as SP does. I find MFP to be much simpler, easier to use and has a cleaner interface.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red;">iWatchr</span> is 99 cents, with a 99 cent upgrade package. I purchased this program last week to keep track of my WW Points. I was having issues with the WW website syncing between my desktop, laptop and Touch so I felt it was not worth the money to spent $20 a month when it was not doing what I wanted it to do. Using iWatchr with MFP gives me a few extra steps, but for $2 it is well worth the price. It does take a bit to get used to, but so far I like it quite well.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red;">Dotti </span>is known to those is the WW world as DWLZ, or dottiesweightlosszone. She has been a standby website of mine since I started WW in 2002. Her site lists all the point values for just about every food item as well as restaurants. Her app is fairly new, and for $2.99 could stand to use a bit more work. I really like that the points are listed for the places I like to eat out at. So, for me, since canceling my WW membership it was worth the couple of dollars. The website claims there will be upgrades and the app is new.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red;">iTracker </span>is also 99 cents and is an app I just downloaded yesterday. After reading reviews I wanted to see if it was better to use than iWatcher. They both do the same thing, counts points. But the both do something different as well. iTracker keeps track of water, fruits/vegi where as iWatchr does not. I have not played with iTracker enough yet to really give it a good review. Between iWatchr and iTracker it really depends on what all you want to keep track of and how you like the looks of the program.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This morning I spent another 99 cents and downloaded an app called <span style="color: red;">Get Running</span> which is a couch to 25k program. I have not used it yet, however it had great reviews and it looks really fun.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red;">Eat What?</span> Is another free program that will give you the nutritional value for the grocery store and for eating out. This is a great program for checking the nutritional value before you make your grocery list or go out to eat. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Those are really the only apps I use right now. I have looked at other apps for websites such as Calorie Count and for a free program, its pretty good. I just prefer MFP. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-60285983101535571862010-08-26T11:58:00.000-04:002010-08-26T11:58:28.804-04:00A New Outlook Thanks to U2<div class="MsoNormal">Yesterday I was able to get tickets to the U2 show next June here in MI. I am SO excited as I have never been able to see them. None of my friends in OK were really fans, and of course Marcus would not go. Even so, they never came to OK so we had to go to Dallas and the one time I tried to get tickets, it sold out within the hour. Bono fell and broke his back so they had to cancel a lot of shows. To make up for it they rescheduled and added some dates for next year. They are coming to Lansing, which is about 45min away from me. I had two tickets and went to check out - $550! WHAT?? So I pouted and one of my U2 twitter pals said hey, they have cheap ones, click this and this to get them. So I did, and was able to get crap tickets for $75. I don't care, I just want to go. So, now I have a new goal to lose 50lbs by June 2011. :)</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have no idea why I feel the need to get to goal by that date, I just need a goal date and that seemed like a good choice. What a better way to celebrate getting to goal! </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have decided to go back to what I know, what is familiar, and what has worked for me. I have spent way too much time these last few months looking for that helpful tool that will help me. Cookbooks, weight loss programs, diet foods, and new exercise tools. I need to stop looking. The answer really is right in front of my face. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I bought a home gym to go along with the bikes, roller skates/blades, walking shoes, exercise videos, hand weight, bands, straps, and balls. Oh, and let’s not forget my treadmill. I have plenty here to work off the weight.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am going back to Weight Watchers. Yes, I am. I am doing it today. As soon as I post this I am entering my credit card information into the website. I am doing this for ME and no one else. My health is worth the $20 a month. I was worth it in the past, I am worth it now.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am a Lifetime member. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am PROUD of that. Not so proud that I let the weight came back.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Lifetime means, I have to work the program for my entire life. Or at least be aware of my food for my life. Sounds scary, but really it is not. What is scary to me is trying to add up calories in and calories out every day. I realize that Weight Watchers is the same thing, just another way of counting calories in and calories out. I am not dumb. I am however investing my health in a program that I know works for me. We are all different; we all have different ways of dealing with things. I get that My Fitness Pal (MFP) and Spark People (SP) are free (who doesn’t love free, right?) and I love them both for different reasons. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I think because they are free they are not motivating me to get my rear in gear, literally. I seem to just shrug it off, “Oh I went over my calories today” or “oh, I didn’t exercise today” and I just continue on. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I started to get serious about my weight in January, although it has been an up and down, constant trying, since the weight started to come back on. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This year I have lost about 17lbs total. And I keep gaining and losing those same pounds. I can’t keep doing that. I have already wasted half the year now. If I would have done what I was supposed to do, I would be at my goal weight by now.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Being a Lifetime member has its perks. One of them being you get to attend meetings for the rest of your life, for free! We like free, right? Problem is I am over my goal weight by more than 5lbs. Because of this, I would have to pay the weekly meeting fee and even though it is discounted for Lifetime members, it is still cheaper for me to do Weight Watchers Online. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">You could say I am back on my Weight Watcher bender. I LOVE (didn’t I mention that?) SP and MFP, but I think because they are free, I am just very, “eh, oh well about it” (think I mentioned that, too). MFP does not have a lot of action going on in the forums (compared to other sites), especially people sharing recipes and stuff like that (at least the kind I need). I seem to find a lot of people I have nothing in common with. SP has a lot of WW groups and forums so it is a good place to be, but there is not a lot there of what I need. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I need help trying to figure out how to cook for a family and I know there has to be a way! And MFP is not helping me with that. Neither was SP. I need some motivation and I think WW will help. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Actually, I know it will since I am paying for it. Plus, all my old information is still stored on the website, so that will be helpful to see my stuff from years past (I used eTools for meeting members). </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I just hate the thought of having to pay for it!! (What can I say, I am poor and I am cheap!) And I think that is my problem. But when I open my cupboards it is hard for me to put things together based on calories, in the past I would just write points on all my boxes and cans so when I opened the cupboard I could add quickly to make a meal. I think that is what I am going to do this time. <o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It the past it was easy, all I had to do was cook for myself. My ex husband worked 2<sup>nd</sup> and 3<sup>rd</sup> shift for most of our relationship, and he was a health freak so when we did eat together it was not hard to whip something up. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Now, I have a Matt and a Madison (on the weekends) and we do eat a lot of meal together. I need the help and the motivation to get us all on the healthy path.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, I made a deal with Matt. He allows me to spend $20 a month less on groceries and put that towards a WW online membership. I lose 50lbs by June 2011, we go see U2 happy and healthy and I will buy us a flat panel TV for the living room. He HAS to help me and he has to sort of follow along too. He has to eat what I make, walk with me, work out with me, and help me budget/prepare meals. <o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I told him we needed to go to the store and get a large poster board and make a weigh in chart as well as post goals on it. WW has a 10% mark and you get a magnet or something, then so many pounds after that you got charms and stuff. We would get stars for every 5lbs that went on a bookmark. I kept all of that, and it was a good motivational tool. Since I am doing it online I won’t have that, but online is easier for me since I have the iPod Touch the online program has a free app. I already get the WW magazine and I have a lot of ebook WW Cookbooks that I can load on to my Nook. I knew I saved all this stuff for a reason! LOL <o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">We make this board, weigh in every week and chart the loss or gain. Glue pics of the rewards and stuff. Somehow get Maddy involved too so she doesn't feel so left out. <o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">They have a 3 month initial payment of $65 after the 1st week free trial. So, I figure I would give it the 3 months and see. With the recipe builder and such I think I can make it work for a family. The forums are much more active, there are more people there that I have things in common with. <o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So that is my plan. I am still going to log in to MFP because I don't plan to pay for WW forever. This way my losses and such will also be logged in to MFP for future reference. Once I stop paying for WW I lose a lot of the journals, recipes, and such. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There is very little available on the site for free.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I just think if I pay for it now I would be more inclined to use it and the weight will come off quicker. And since it worked so well for me in the past, seems like the logical choice instead of trying to figure out if this or that will work for me. And I think in 3 months I might get the hang of cooking on a budget and learning to cook for a family instead of myself, and then I can go back to doing the program on my own and using MFP. </div><div class="MsoNormal">I do think once I am closer to my goal I would go back to the meetings and have that interaction again to keep me motivated as a Lifetimer. <o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I also signed us up for a 5K walk that our chiro is doing to raise money for the parks here in town. It is at the end of September. I can walk 3 miles no problem, but I am still going to "train" for it. Going to sign us up for a AIDS charity walk that is in October as well. We can just pull Maddy in her wagon. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I could keep talking about this forever, but my reality is that I need to get to work and make money off my words. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=B003ELOQD4&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe></div><div class="MsoNormal">Will blog more later. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-59507862759883867982010-08-23T11:03:00.003-04:002010-11-17T13:52:47.225-05:00I’m in a Food Coma….<div class="MsoNormal">Please send help.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Sending out an S.O.S.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Today I am going to try *cross fingers* to detox from carb and sugar overload.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I have discovered that remodeling a bathroom causes stress. </div><div class="MsoNormal">Remodeling a bathroom causes me to not be able to work as I should.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Oh, the joys of working from home.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Stress causes me to eat.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Eating causes me to feel gross.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Today, I feel gross.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Today is another day of bathroom remodel.</div><div class="MsoNormal">It is taking a lot longer than it should have.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Captain A.D.D. can’t seem to stay away.</div><div class="MsoNormal">It is so much easier to eat junky. Junky food is cheaper too. </div><div class="MsoNormal">Anyone else notice that besides me?</div><div class="MsoNormal">No time to blog.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Must work.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Must focus on not stressing.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Damn that bathroom remodel!</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-8541694371468322262010-08-12T08:48:00.000-04:002010-08-12T08:48:59.697-04:00Chinese Buffet Horror<div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Yesterday was not a good day. I meant well. It started well. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">My home gym still lays in pieces on the basement floor. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Matt and my mom spent yesterday ripping the walls down in our bathroom for the great remodel of 2010. Mom brought pulled pork over for lunch. It was good and that was going to be my one meal of the day. I logged it in to myfitnesspal.com and with the two ears of fresh out of the garden corn on the cob; I still had a nice amount of calories left for a snack and my Total Lean shake. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">After my mom left Matt and I ventured to Kroger to pick up a few items they had on sale. We actually did really well. I had my whopping $16 of food benefits. I bought everything on sale and even used coupons. We have about 7 bags of groceries and I paid $26 out of pocket. We had a few non-food items like bleach and laundry soap. I was pretty excited about it. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Before we hit Kroger we decided to stop at the Panda King Chinese Buffet. Normally when I go eat there I stick to a small amount of rice, have some chicken and some sort of vegetable whether it be mushrooms or green beans, and some salad as well as baked fish and sushi. For whatever reason all of the stress of not being able to work much yesterday made me want to feed my emotions and I picked one of every fried item they had. It has been so long since I had anything fried like that. There were only 4 things, but those 4 things made me feel horrible all night. Not just the guilt of eating them, but my body did not like me eating them, not one bit. It has been that way since 2001 when I had my gallbladder surgery and then a few years after that the intestinal one. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I felt awful all night last night. Let this be a lesson learned. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Today I am hoping for a better day. Waiting on my mom to go do some more budget shopping and look for a few things for the bathroom while Matt and his uncle do a bit of work on it. Once I get home it will be back to work. Oh joy.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p> I think tonight I am going to spend a little more time looking at this book I have on my <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Barnes-Noble-NOOK-reader-3G/dp/1400599997?ie=UTF8&tag=freelan09-20&link_code=btl&camp=213689&creative=392969" target="_blank">Nook</a><img alt="" border="0" height="1" src="http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=freelan09-20&l=btl&camp=213689&creative=392969&o=1&a=1400599997" style="border: none !important; margin: 0px !important; padding: 0px !important;" width="1" />:</o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=B003156AVO&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">I also just recently downloaded The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo. One of these days I will get around to reading it. <iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0307454541&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-15101308262705579672010-08-11T13:29:00.000-04:002010-08-11T13:29:09.763-04:00Oh Taco Bell, Why Do You Taunt Me?<div style="background-color: transparent; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span id="internal-source-marker_0.9198092091828585" style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Hello, my name is Chrystal and I am a Mexican Food Addict. </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I have been trying to be very serious about moving more and eating less. For the last few days I have been following the GNC Total Lean weight loss plan. It is the typical “replace two meals with two shakes a day” and have a couple of snacks and a lean meal. </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">It has been hard, I won’t lie. I love food and I love to eat. Not only that, I really enjoy cooking even though sometimes it is just a chore. I find it rather relaxing most of the time. At the same time, I like having the meals all planned out for me. It helps me obsess less about food and I don’t have to think so much about what to eat. I have also learned that their are some alternatives I can eat that have the same amount of calories as the shakes, but honestly, the shakes are easier. They don’t leave me feeling like I am starving in an hour, like most meal replacement shakes do. I have done Slim Fast many, many times in the past. I find myself constantly snacking on something because I feel like I am starving within 30 mins of drinking the shake. The snack bars have a few flavors that I really like, and the meal bars are ok. For some reason I find them way too sweet for me to eat these days so I had to find another plan that I could try. I figure it does not hurt to try, and I have nothing to lose but a few pounds. Today is Day 3. The first week seems to be the hardest. And they say it takes 21 days to keep a habit. We shall see. I have no desire to drink my meals forever. I just need a little help in the weight department right now and this plan is decently affordable. </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I know it won’t last, liquid diets work for some, but not for me. I get bored quickly, even with 6 flavors to choose from and hundreds of options to spruce them up. </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">So, last night Matt comes home from work. He brings me 2 Taco Bell Meximelts. My favorite, and they were not fresco style. Oh well. I happily ate them. It was as if he read my mind as I was craving Taco Bell a few hours prior to his arrival. Trying to watch what I eat, I would not have asked for them. After I ate them I started to beat myself up. Why would he bring those to me when he knows I am dieting??? Ugh. And why did I just not save them for lunch today and incorporate them in to the days meal plan.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I will tell you why. I am addicted to Mexican food and I have never been able to say NO to it. I can say no to a lot of things, but never Mexican food. Especially anything with avocados. I am a sucker for the creamy blended goodness of guacamole. I honestly think I would die if I did not eat one avocado a week. </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">So my quest continues for the ultimate scale reduction. </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I have not been reading any weight loss or nutrition related books. I had a few novels to finish up so I could pass them along to my mom. I also got the lovely<a href="http://www.amazon.com/Barnes-Noble-NOOK-reader-3G/dp/1400599997?ie=UTF8&tag=freelan09-20&link_code=btl&camp=213689&creative=392969" target="_blank"> Nook </a><img alt="" border="0" height="1" src="http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=freelan09-20&l=btl&camp=213689&creative=392969&o=1&a=1400599997" style="border: none !important; margin: 0px !important; padding: 0px !important;" width="1" />for my birthday that I have not really read anything on since I am still in paperback land. I have a low calorie, low fat nutrition book loaded on to it and I plan to post anything useful on it.</span></div><div style="background-color: transparent; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;"></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial; font-size: medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; white-space: pre-wrap;"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=B003156AVO&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe></span></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">This week will also begin the frugal grocery shopping. I have coupons and sales flyer's ready to go. There is also a really cool place in Bay City that sells food super cheap so I am planning a trip there to stock up on some can and boxed items. I believe there is a bread outlet on the way there. I know I can shop cheap, question is, can I feed Matt cheap? LOL</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-68164495381477034632010-08-06T18:43:00.000-04:002010-08-06T18:43:05.256-04:00My Week with Mahalo Half Guide Training<div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Now, to some that have worked with Mahalo this might seem a little silly and trivial, but for those of us who have no experience with the website and/or their writing styles it is a little bit more important.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">I applied for a Guide, was told no thank you since I had no Mahalo experience. A few days later I was asked if I would like to work for Mahalo as a half guide and if I did, here were some weeks to pick from for training.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">I picked my week for training, which was this week. It was a paid hourly wage ($7.50) for 5 hours a day. For me, that is WAY less (yes I know, not proper grammar and I really don't care right now) than I generally average in an hour.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Our training was supposed to go a little something like this:</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Monday: How to Write a Mahalo General Topic Page</span></span></span></span><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br style="outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial;" /></span></span> <span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Tuesday: How to Write a Mahalo General Topic Page</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br style="outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial;" /></span></span> <span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Wednesday: How to Write a Mahalo How to Page</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br style="outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial;" /></span></span> <span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Thursday: How to Perform a Complete Update</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br style="outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial;" /></span></span> <span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Friday: How to Answer Questions Effectively</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Well, it went NOTHING like that.<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">First, I assumed since I had sent in a writing sample and was picked for training after sending in that sample that the job was mine and I was going through a training process to learn the ropes of the Mahalo site. It was not until a few days in to the training we were made aware of the process. This is not the case. You are given grades for your work and then they pick who they want to bring on based on this. They are having 3 other sessions for training and will pick from those as well. Not everyone gets hired.<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Having suffered through the week, I am positive Mahalo and I are not a good fit. I was so irritated for so many reasons. This is my personal experience and my little vent. Of course, as with all other writing places it is different for everyone. Having said that, I expected quite a bit from training.<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">You have to log into a training chat every day, and stay logged in. I think of training as a way to teach us. Not send us off on a wild goose chase, which is exactly what happened.<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><b><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Monday</span></span></span></b></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> we were sent an email. In that email contained a 5 page print out. Basic guidelines of Mahalo. And when I say basic, I mean very basic. I write for Demand Studios and private clients. I am used to step by step detailed instructions being laid out right in front of you. Even Break Studios, TextBroker and Experts 123 gives you more details in their instructions. <o:p></o:p></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Monday I was able to write TWO of their given topic pages. I had to read the handout she sent and when that did not help me I had to search the site. I found little information. I know I was not the only one having problems. And she seemed almost irritated and made comments about how we should be able to figure this out. Trying to figure out their website and all of these little extras they want was a total nightmare and it literally gave me a headache. I am a fairly good writer, it should not have taken me so long to write something so simple, but it is hard when you are playing the guessing game. We are given a handful or topics to choose from. None of them interest me, none of them are things I really know about. As we all know, trying to force ourselves to write about something we have no desire to is like pulling teeth. It was not an enjoyable experience for me.<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><b><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Tuesday </span></span></span></b></span><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">I was ready to start a new day. I just figured Monday was a case of the first day blues, trying to work out the kinks to a new program and system. It happens. However today the teacher had an accident and was laid up in bed with a back ache. So instead of working on more Topic pages we had to do the Question and Anwers that were scheduled for Friday. These are a lot like DS Tips. You find a question and answer it in 100 words plus a video. These were on Mahalo sister sites. We had to do 10 of them. I had these done in about an hour or so. So my training was done for the day. We were told not to work on yesterday’s items. So I just went over my questions to make sure the answers were really good. I wanted to get paid for my day. <o:p></o:p></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: black; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Wednesday </span></span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">ended up being a giant gripe fest about how we should be able to get these things done in X amount of time and how all these mistakes were being made and blah blah. It was really starting to turn me off at this point. All I kept thinking was if we had better instructions it might help. The trainer even mentioned she did tell the higher ups that we really needed training materials (videos) to help us. Sadly, they will not have those for our training session. I made all the corrections she asked me to from Monday. They still were not good enough for her. I felt like I was now dealing with the nightmare CE at DS that everyone complains about. I can handle rewrites. I can handle constructive criticism. But I cannot handle telling me something is wrong when there is no rules stating what is or is not acceptable and you are left to figure it out for yourself. First there was to be no list, needed facts only. I got facts and that was now to be a list. Confused? Yes, me too. I was ready to throw in the towel at this point. And then I really started to do the math in my head. The time it has taken me to write these two simple articles was ridiculous. So, I spent more time on the Mahalo site looking for help and answers. Anything that would help me with my damn subject (Jewelry Supplies and Jewelry Making Supplies) and help me move it along. I was so frustrated with myself at this point.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Thursday </span></span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">ended up being exactly like yesterday! I kid you not. Again, not good enough, complete rewrite only this time I swear she wanted me to do exactly what I had done Monday that had to be corrected. When I tried to call her out on this all she did was give me a link to the Mahalo How to Guide on writing for the company. I just kept saying to myself, one more day. One more day. So, I made the corrections, noted them on our Google Doc sheet, which I kept a copy of for myself in case she was makig changes and trying to say she did not ask for this and that if I decided to take her up with corporate. She was totally contradicting herself on a day to day basis and it made me wonder if she knew what she was talking about. I know some of the other girls were having a lot of problems as well, the guys in the training were not as vocal. I took my two titles and rewrote them again, as directed, for two brand new articles.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Friday</span></span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> I was oh so happy to see an email from the trainer asking me where I was yesterday and how I would not be paid! WTF? You have got to be kidding me. Ok, so I said hello first thing in chat when we started and spent the entire time focusing on my articles and my Mahalo pages. I would check the chat and all it was were others asking for help. I had no questions and nothing to say. At 5 I logged my work and ended my day like she said to do. Apparently because I did not say goodnight I was in the wrong and apparently not working for the day. I almost did not go through training today. I was so pi**ed off that I decided it was not worth it. All the rewrites, so little guidance. I have never had to rewrite so much, ever!</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Then, I finished my same two pages up yet again today. Same requests, same changes. I had to send an email to the trainer noting my work for Thursday. I mean she graded my evaluation how in the world can she say that I was not working. Today we were sent lose on a How to page. Should be easy enough, since I write them on DS. </span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Mahalo is MUCH more technical and they want a lot more stuff added to their pages. I only had 30 minutes left of my day, so I did not get much of mine done. Again, only a handful of titles to choose from and when I asked her about how we get titles she said they do not have 1000s to choose from like DS does. I feel it is going to be more like TB where you have titles to pick from, but nothing really interests you but you do it anyway because you have to. </span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">You know, I really wanted this to work out. I thought it would be a fun egg to have. I think they want/expect too much for way too little. So today, I did the math.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">MAHALO</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Half Guide $500 a month</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">$125 a week</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">HAVE TO write per week:</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">12 pages</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Do 6 updates</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Write 5 answers to questions</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">DEMAND STUDIOS</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">$420-$720 a month (based on what Mahalo wanted us to do per week, one can certainly make more)</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">$105-$195 per week</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">CAN write per week (this is comparable to their topics and how to)</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">12 articles $7.50 OR $15 = $90 - $180</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Rewrites included if you get them</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">5 Tips (comparable to their Q&A) $3each = $15</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">So, for me DS is better. I can also do titles with them for more money. So, I will just stick with them.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Mahalo might be a good fit for someone else, but personally I can make more with my private clients, magazines and demand. </span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">We should know next week whether we are hired or not. I am guessing by the amount of rewriting I was asked for, I will not be picked. And, I am ok with that.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-42501459792393757292010-08-04T19:38:00.000-04:002010-08-04T19:38:54.877-04:00Becoming a Foodie on a BudgetMy blog is going to take on a new theme. I will always been the Self Employed Writer. It is what pays my bills after all, and now, it will be paying for my groceries as well.<br /><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have never been too proud to ask for help when I needed it and the day I moved to Michigan, I needed it. No job, no unemployment, I needed something. My income has never exceeded the single person limit for benefits. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">For whatever reason my benefits were reduced from $200 a month to a measly $16 a month. I don’t know why and I am not sure I even want to hear the reason. My income has not changed since my last evaluation six months ago.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">What IS going to change is how, and what I eat. I have been talking for some time now about using my blog to journal my journey of weight loss on a budget. $200 was a budget when healthy food items cost twice as much as its fatty counterpart. Now, who is going to be able to budget $16 a month? Not me. But I am going to have to get creative on meals. Especially when trying to feed Matt and Madison.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">While I continue to save for a video camera so I can vlog as well, I will be filling up these pages with ideas on how to eat healthy on an extreme budget. At least I am going to try. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The first thing I am going to have to spend some time doing is getting organized. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I need a meal plan.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I need a budget.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I need a food price list.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Coupons, eh…</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I need low cost healthy meal recipes.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">But, right now…I need dinner.<br /><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0764554034&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-76834258238024846472010-08-03T21:29:00.000-04:002010-11-15T21:31:06.471-05:00For My Cousin and Her Husband<div class="MsoNormal">For My Cousin and Her Husband</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">We have all heard the phrase “Life is too short” over and over again. I know you have also heard the one where things can change “in the blink of an eye.” </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This past weekend, both proved to be true.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">16 weeks in she began to miscarry and Conner Ryan King was still born. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">My heart goes out to her.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-17275323109773874672010-07-29T11:58:00.002-04:002010-07-29T11:58:48.510-04:00GNC Total Lean Vanilla Bean Shake<div class="MsoNormal">I have done my time with Slim Fast. I have been using the product off and on since I was in High School. Mind you, I am now 35 years old, so that tells you how long SF has been in the picture. The only thing I still like from them is the ready to drink Cappuccino Delight shake in a can. I put them in the freezer for a few minutes and have one for breakfast. I also like one of the snack bars because it reminds me of a Butterfinger, but the name escapes me at the moment. I can’t follow the actual Slim Fast plan. I always feel like I am starving. Even when they came out with the Optima formula. Not only that, everything is SO sweet I can’t even stand to eat the bars. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am however in need of a simple plan to shed some weight. What I am not though is someone who can drink their calories. I need that psychological aspect of eating. Putting the food in my mouth and chewing. Because of this I have never really been able to stick to the liquid diet of replacing two meals a day with two shakes a day. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">With all of these new formulas out now days they have less sugar, more protein and more fiber giving<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>you that full feeling and keeping you full much longer. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Maybe, just maybe I can try that.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Years ago when the GNC line first came out, I gave it a try. The chocolate shake was thin and tasted like watered down chocolate milk. I was hungry within the hour. I never bought another canister. The other day I was in our local GNC getting some herbal supplements to help with my illnesses and noticed they had single serve packets on sale for 99cents. When I asked the girl if she had something to control my appetite while working on my weight loss, she suggested the shakes. They have no stimulants which is good because I am very sensitive to medications and supplements. She stated she had a shake every morning for breakfast. It was easy and she will still losing weight, was not hungry, still had a lot of energy. We talked for a bit and found we had a lot in common with our weight, love of food, depression and anxiety. Talking to her was godsend. She was so helpful. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I decided to try the Swiss Chocolate and Vanilla Bean. I had the Vanilla Bean yesterday for lunch, about 1:30p and I did not get hungry until 6ish. I was too lazy to use a blender. I used skim milk instead of water. As soon as I tore the package open I could tell it was going to at least taste good by the smell. It smelled just like cake batter. I put 8oz skim milk in a cup and stirred the powder in to it with a fork. Then I continued to stir with the fork until the powder was dissolved. It dissolved very well and I did not have any clumps. It was nice and thick. To trick my brain I used a spoon to “drink” it like soup and took my time. It was yummy and I plan to buy more. The girl at GNC said she purchased some of the sugar free flavored coffee syrups to add some flavors to the shakes for variety. I know the shakes themselves come in 3 or 4 flavors. She purchased orange to add to the vanilla to make an orange cream. Sounded yummy!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Today or tomorrow I plan to try the Swiss Chocolate. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-60702173424765217872010-07-29T11:37:00.004-04:002010-07-29T11:38:30.758-04:00The Boring Book Blog Post<div class="MsoNormal">Boring!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Freedom-Addiction-Successful-Busting-Approach/dp/1899398465?ie=UTF8&tag=freelan09-20&link_code=btl&camp=213689&creative=392969" target="_blank">Freedom from Addiction: The Secret behind Successful Addiction Busting (Human Givens Approach)</a><img alt="" border="0" height="1" src="http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=freelan09-20&l=btl&camp=213689&creative=392969&o=1&a=1899398465" style="border: none !important; margin: 0px !important; padding: 0px !important;" width="1" /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have never been so bored trying to read a book in my entire life. Not even a darn college textbook was this bad! I was really hoping for something fresh to pick my brain, but all my brain got was one giant ache. I was excited to load this on my Nook last night, clicking through page by page as I watched a DVR of America’s Got Talent. First thing this morning, I deleted it off my Nook. *two thumbs down*</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">*yawns*</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Not very motivated today for a blog post. Not really sure what to write about.<br /><br /><br /><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=1400599997&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-2066886998028465872010-07-28T13:31:00.001-04:002010-07-28T13:32:51.118-04:00And now we are ready for Chapter 3. Or, are we?<div class="MsoNormal">And now we are ready for Chapter 3. Or, are we?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It has taken me some time to write these reviews because although I CAN admit that I binge, overeat and/or have an addiction to food, what I CANNOT sit here and do is believe that Kay Sheppard’s book and perhaps the overall 12-Step OA program is the “plan” or way for me. It works for many, and that is great. I think OA and any of the 12 Step programs are wonderful for those who need that type of recovery program.</div><div class="MsoNormal">In the same breath, we are all different in our needs, wants, and desires. And this really is not it for me. I will give more explanation in a minute. Right now, I want to talk about Chapter 3 and move forward with <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Food-Addiction-Knows-Revised-Expanded/dp/155874276X?ie=UTF8&tag=freelan09-20&link_code=btl&camp=213689&creative=392969" target="_blank">Food Addiction: The Body Knows.</a><img alt="" border="0" height="1" src="http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=freelan09-20&l=btl&camp=213689&creative=392969&o=1&a=155874276X" style="border: none !important; margin: 0px !important; padding: 0px !important;" width="1" /> </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">In Chapter 3</b>: The Progression of Food Addiction we discover the possibility that refined carbohydrates, since introduced to us at a very early age put us right in the path of destruction. Apparently these carbs are one giant trigger. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Stage One of Food Addiction: Early Signs<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal">Preoccupation with Food</div><div class="MsoNormal">Sneaking Food</div><div class="MsoNormal">Stealing Food and Money</div><div class="MsoNormal">Discomfort in No Food Situations</div><div class="MsoNormal">Keeping Secrets</div><div class="MsoNormal">Concern about Weight</div><div class="MsoNormal">Self-Loathing</div><div class="MsoNormal">Eating After Others Stop</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Stage Two<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal">Loss of Control and Attempts to Control</div><div class="MsoNormal">Self- Deception and the Deception of Others</div><div class="MsoNormal">Making Excuses</div><div class="MsoNormal">Lethargy, Irritability and Depression </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">The Final Stages<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal">Efforts to Control Binging Fail Repeatedly</div><div class="MsoNormal">Loss of Interest in Family, Friends, and other Pursuits</div><div class="MsoNormal">Work and Family Problems</div><div class="MsoNormal">Emotional, Physical, Moral and Mental Deterioration</div><div class="MsoNormal">Neglect of Good Nutrition</div><div class="MsoNormal">Food is the Main Source of Security</div><div class="MsoNormal">Panic: Obsession and Compulsion Take Over </div><div class="MsoNormal">Complete Defeat</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">No one wants to admit they are a food addict, especially me. I have found myself going through many of these stages, many of these actions. Enough is enough. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Chapter 4</b>: The Primitive Brain-Seat of Addiction is merely a scientific breakdown of the chemicals in our brain and why food addicts crave the foods that they do.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Here is my problem; I do not crave just one type of food. As a matter of fact, I don’t really crave anything. I just start to eat something, anything, and it can turn into a binge. I don’t binge because of the food; I binge because of the emotion I was feeling before I even started to eat something. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Chapter 5</b>: The Addictive Foods is a chapter that focuses on food. Highly refined carbohydrates, wheat and flour products are all highly addictive in nature.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Chapter 6</b>: Consequences of Food Addiction is pretty self explanatory. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Chapter 7</b>: Methods that Fail is a basic discussion as to why diets don’t work for a food addict. The last thing a food addict needs is to be told what they can and cannot eat, right? Making a food addict feel deprived is only going to make them want it more, resulting in another binge. Diet make the food addict obsess about food. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This brings me to my whole rant about <b>Chapter 8</b>: A Lifetime Eating Plan.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This is why I have a serious problem with this book, in her eating plan which she recommends to all OA members (and many I know do follow) is restrictive. There is a long list of foods to keep out of your house. </div><ol start="1" style="margin-top: 0in;" type="1"><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1;">Abstain from ALL forms of flour.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1;">Eliminate ALL high-fat foods.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1;">Avoid ALL forms of chocolate.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1;">No alcoholic beverages.</li></ol><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .5in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .5in;">She claims she is not a 12 step program, but she does recommend them, highly. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .5in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .5in;">Now then, the things a food addict CAN eat are very plain and extremely simple. However, she makes sure you understand that EVERYTHING has to be planned, measured, and written down. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .5in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .5in;">So, not only are we being restricted to the foods we can eat, we have to plan, write down, talk about, measure, and follow this so called non-diet, diet plan??</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .5in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .5in;"><span style="color: red;">Can you now understand why this book and program is NOT for me?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .5in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .5in;">I will NOT being following the advice in this book. I am also opting out of OA. Does the description of a food addict fit me? Yes, absolutely. Am I ready to go to the extremes with abstinence the way Ms. Sheppard recommends? No way! No one can be prepared for this type of extreme eating. It would completely take over my life, and I don’t need that. All this program does is simply (and quite literally) replacing on addiction for another. There is that constant worry of whether there is sugar or flour in something. Constantly wondering can I eat this? NO? Well, what about this? Or that? All this does is create more craziness and obsession. I have tried to do this once, when I did OA the first time back in 2005. All that did was lead me to guilt, endless frustration, and just wanting to be normal with my food. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .5in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .5in;">Currently I am working to find peace with food, ALL FOOD! I will not allow any person or program brainwash me in to thinking foods are bad, or good, or some clean or dirty. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .5in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .5in;">Like I said, some people might need this, and, it might just work for them. I am not one of them. I prefer to make peace with my past, my food, and live a normal, healthy life. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .5in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .5in;">I got a Nook eBook reader for my birthday last week. I downloaded a sample <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">of Freedom from Addiction: The Chopra Center Method for Overcoming Destructive Habits, by Deepak Chopra.</i> I read it and have to say, it is more of a match for me that Food Addiction was. It is geared towards those who do not fit with the Key Sheppard or the OA 12 Step Method. I am a huge fan of natural healing and think this book is going to be an insightful read. I plan to add the entire book to my Nook right after I finish reading <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Freedom-Addiction-Successful-Busting-Approach/dp/1899398465?ie=UTF8&tag=freelan09-20&link_code=btl&camp=213689&creative=392969" target="_blank">Freedom from Addiction: The Secret behind Successful Addiction Busting by Joe Griffin and Ivan Tyrell.</a><img alt="" border="0" height="1" src="http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=freelan09-20&l=btl&camp=213689&creative=392969&o=1&a=1899398465" style="border: none !important; margin: 0px !important; padding: 0px !important;" width="1" /></i> What can I say? It was a freebie. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p><br /></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .5in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .5in;"><o:p><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0757305784&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-1246294628209170822010-07-26T17:32:00.000-04:002010-07-26T17:32:05.522-04:00My Apologies<h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" data-ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span class="UIStory_Message">I'm sorry I am sick. I am sorry I am one with the illness. I am sorry that it is not my fault. And yet, somehow I am sorry it ruins YOUR life.</span></h3>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-53062480379113638382010-07-26T12:35:00.003-04:002010-07-26T12:37:16.762-04:00The Circle of My Life<div style="background-color: transparent; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial; font-size: medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial; font-size: medium;"><div style="background-color: transparent; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; white-space: normal;"><span id="internal-source-marker_0.8492500148713589" style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">The Circle of My Life</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I can’t work when Matt is here. I try. I fail. It takes me 3X as long for 1/3 of the pay.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I need money to pay bills and do things.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">No money, no things.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Have to make up for those days which means giving up on fun things just so I can have the house to myself to work. </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Giving up on fun things is always surrounded by a huge guilt trip. </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">What about me? Why is it always about you?</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I don't work hard enough or make enough money. I am not giving enough things. I am not doing enough. </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I should be able to do it all. Work, school, all the housework, take care of Matt and Madison.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Who is taking care of me? I sure don’t have time.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I try, and I get overwhelmed, run down and tired. I fall apart. I seek food for comfort.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">He want’s more, more , more!</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Why can’t they be happy with what they have?</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I eat to mask these emotions. </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I gain more weight.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Too much focus on what I don’t do or don’t give and no blessings or appreciation for what I DO!</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I remember the mean things people said to me over and over. Horrible. I want to hide all over again.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I turn back to my one friend, food.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I exercise, but its not enough. I feel its pointless. I am worthless and never going to get past this.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I am not good enough, I should not be in this relationship. It is too hard. He is never going to understand. I will never get the space I need to work, to make money, to buy things, to do things, to have free time. </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I am misunderstood. I am overworked and under appreciated. I am pushed more than I should be.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I eat more, for comfort.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I hide. I don’t go places. I stay home. Safe and comfortable. Free from harm.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">More guilt. More food. More mental breakdown and more hiding.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">If I just lose the weight again, maybe it will all just go away.</span></div></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-45901999578717627072010-07-26T11:06:00.000-04:002010-07-26T11:06:05.901-04:00Memories<div style="background-color: transparent; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><span id="internal-source-marker_0.024482022039592266" style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">It is funny how one small thing can open up a whole door to things forgotten. My mother was over the other day helping Matt with our bathroom remodel. I had taken a break from working to cook dinner. Mom and I were in the kitchen chatting. I honestly do not remember what we were talking about exactly, but I had told her about how certain people in my family used to tease and make fun of me for being the fat kid. I had forgotten about most of it. Bringing up that subject opened the door for all of these memories to come flooding back. Mean and nasty things were said to me. Things that no child should ever hear. It was bad enough I was trying to hide what was going on with me in my home life (those dad issues), it was bad enough I was trying to hide the fact food was my medication (although the weight certainly showed something), it was bad enough kids at school teased me relentlessly, I should not be hearing these things from my own family as well. </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I lived in OK for 30 years. When I was younger we would take our family vacation, every summer, every year, for the 1000 mile drive to MI to visit family. I remember hiding from a lot of my family. The only person I really wanted to be around was my grandmother. She protected me. She always told me not to listen to them and no matter what, always thought I was beautiful.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I felt bad for my mom the other day, she had no idea. At the time I only remembered one certain person and all their mean comments. As the days have gone on, others have come to surface.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I am having one of those light bulb moments. This, along with the dad shit, is why I have never felt comfortable around my family. I always feel like the outsider. I feel like I have nothing in common and afraid to even try for the fact someone might say something mean again. It has been unclear to me, until now, why I never felt comfortable in my own skin. </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">It is hard growing up being the fat kid everyone made fun of. I can still hear many of those childhood comments today. Now that I have gained all of the lost weight back, and then some, all of those thoughts come back to me. </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I am a prisoner in my own body. I eat to cure the pain, which only makes things worse. The only place I feel safe from the mean comments and peoples stares is at home. </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">This has to be what causes some of my panic attacks! Starting at such an early age, being faced with all that nastiness. I have pushed it all inside to try to forget about it, but it is still there in my subconscious pushing at those panic buttons. </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Friday night we had a birthday dinner for myself, I had such a bad panic attack that as I was cutting tomato's for the salad, I began to feel hot, flushed, my site started to fade to black and I lost my balance. I thought I was going to pass out. I grabbed the tomato so tight I squished it, and I had the knife in the other hand praying to God not to let me fall. If I fell, I would have stabbed myself. All I could think about was “I can’t let Madison see me like this!” God please help me.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I didn’t tell Matt about it until Saturday.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">And now, here I am at 35 years of age and slowly starting to connect all the dots. The dots of why. </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Matt doesn’t understand why I like to stay home, stay hidden. I have tried to explain it to him, and all he can say is to him I am beautiful and no one else matters. That may be the case, but what I think matters. And what I see in the mirror, I do not like. I do not like it when people look at me. I fear they are whispering and laughing about me. Talking about me and my weight. Saying mean and nasty things, just like those around me have always done.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">He also does not understand that these thoughts and feelings I have are not going to go away over night. Quite often I think he is just better off without me.</span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Somehow I have to regain control over my life. Somehow I have to win. </span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span><br /><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span> </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-6194425892583377942010-07-20T18:58:00.001-04:002010-07-20T18:59:36.845-04:00Let’s Dive In: Chapter Two – Recognizing the Disease<div class="MsoNormal">Let’s Dive In: Chapter Two – Recognizing the Disease</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have to admit, I thought I had food addiction all figured out. You become addicted to food much in the same manner an alcoholic does alcohol or a drug addict to the drug of their choice. Food becomes the drug of your choice. What I really question is do all food addicts overeat? Do they binge? Do they all go hand-in-hand? </div><div class="MsoNormal">Let’s dive into the DSM-III-R list of eating problems (American Psychiatric Association)</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Rapid Binge/Purge:</b> recurrent episodes if binge eating (rapid consumption of a large amount of food in a discrete time period.) </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">On page 14 Kay points out that “large amounts of food” vary from person to person. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Inconspicuous Eating<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><br /></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Secret Eating:</b> eating in isolation</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Rapid Eating:</b> the food is gobbled down quickly, with little to know chewing.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Fear of Loss of Control:</b> there is a feeling of lack of control over eating behavior during the binge. It is here that Kay states the binger who has lost control, or has a feeling of no control in regards to quitting the binge; the eater has crossed the line into addiction. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Purging, Fasting, Exercise:</b> laxative, extreme exercise or vomiting are used as a means to prevent weight gain. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Frequent Binging:</b> an average of two binge eating episodes a week for at least three month.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Over-concern with Body Shape and Weight<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Self-Diagnoses Checklist</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">These are the questions in Kay’s book and these are my answers:</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><ol start="1" style="margin-top: 0in;" type="1"><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level1 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Has anyone ever told you that you have a problem with food?<o:p></o:p></b></li></ol><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l11 level1 lfo2; text-indent: -.25in;">A.<span style="font: normal normal normal 7pt/normal 'Times New Roman';"> </span>No, my psychiatrist told me I had an addiction to laxatives, never an issue with food. Odd now that I think about it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l11 level1 lfo2; text-indent: -.25in;"><br /></div><ol start="2" style="margin-top: 0in;" type="1"><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level1 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Do you think food is a problem for you?<o:p></o:p></b></li></ol><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l4 level1 lfo3; text-indent: -.25in;">A.<span style="font: normal normal normal 7pt/normal 'Times New Roman';"> </span>I don’t think it’s the food. I think it’s my mental disorders. Food is the drug that stabilizes the chemicals in my brain when medication is unavailable.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l4 level1 lfo3; text-indent: -.25in;"><br /></div><ol start="3" style="margin-top: 0in;" type="1"><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level1 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Do you eat large amount of high calorie food in a short period of time?<o:p></o:p></b></li></ol><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l7 level1 lfo4; text-indent: -.25in;">A.<span style="font: normal normal normal 7pt/normal 'Times New Roman';"> </span>I have. I have done so when I was in a hurry, trying to overcome a mood swing and I have even done this on low calorie foods like carrots and celery.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l7 level1 lfo4; text-indent: -.25in;"><br /></div><ol start="4" style="margin-top: 0in;" type="1"><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level1 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Do you eat to overcome shyness?<o:p></o:p></b></li></ol><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l1 level1 lfo5; text-indent: -.25in;">A.<span style="font: normal normal normal 7pt/normal 'Times New Roman';"> </span>No, I am not shy. I have anxiety disorders, but I am not shy.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l1 level1 lfo5; text-indent: -.25in;"><br /></div><ol start="5" style="margin-top: 0in;" type="1"><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level1 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Do you eat when you are disappointed, tense, or anxious?<o:p></o:p></b></li></ol><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l6 level1 lfo6; text-indent: -.25in;">A.<span style="font: normal normal normal 7pt/normal 'Times New Roman';"> </span>Yes.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l6 level1 lfo6; text-indent: -.25in;"><br /></div><ol start="6" style="margin-top: 0in;" type="1"><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level1 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Can you stop eating without a struggle after one or two sweets?<o:p></o:p></b></li></ol><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l8 level1 lfo7; text-indent: -.25in;">A.<span style="font: normal normal normal 7pt/normal 'Times New Roman';"> </span>I can. This question is almost like a trick question. I can eat a piece of candy and be fine. I can eat a brownie and walk away. Some days, I can’t.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l8 level1 lfo7; text-indent: -.25in;"><br /></div><ol start="7" style="margin-top: 0in;" type="1"><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level1 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Has your eating ever interfered with a any part of your life?<o:p></o:p></b></li></ol><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l13 level1 lfo8; text-indent: -.25in;">A.<span style="font: normal normal normal 7pt/normal 'Times New Roman';"> </span>Yes.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l13 level1 lfo8; text-indent: -.25in;"><br /></div><ol start="8" style="margin-top: 0in;" type="1"><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level1 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Has being overweight ever affected any part of your life?<o:p></o:p></b></li></ol><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l14 level1 lfo9; text-indent: -.25in;">A.<span style="font: normal normal normal 7pt/normal 'Times New Roman';"> </span>Yes. Now I am wondering why this question is put in here when we are talking about food. We are overweight because we eat too much and move too less. It does not make me like food more or less.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l14 level1 lfo9; text-indent: -.25in;"><br /></div><ol start="9" style="margin-top: 0in;" type="1"><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level1 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Do you weigh yourself once or twice (or more) a day?<o:p></o:p></b></li></ol><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l0 level1 lfo10; text-indent: -.25in;">A.<span style="font: normal normal normal 7pt/normal 'Times New Roman';"> </span>No.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l0 level1 lfo10; text-indent: -.25in;"><br /></div><ol start="10" style="margin-top: 0in;" type="1"><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level1 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Do you eat more than you plan to eat? <o:p></o:p></b></li></ol><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l3 level1 lfo11; text-indent: -.25in;">A.<span style="font: normal normal normal 7pt/normal 'Times New Roman';"> </span>Not really. I plan my meals during the day and because I am currently counting calories I am pretty good about staying within my calorie range. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l3 level1 lfo11; text-indent: -.25in;"><br /></div><ol start="11" style="margin-top: 0in;" type="1"><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level1 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Have you hidden food so that you would have it just for yourself?<o:p></o:p></b></li></ol><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l2 level1 lfo12; text-indent: -.25in;">A.<span style="font: normal normal normal 7pt/normal 'Times New Roman';"> </span>Yes. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l2 level1 lfo12; text-indent: -.25in;"><br /></div><ol start="12" style="margin-top: 0in;" type="1"><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level1 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Have you felt angry when someone ate food you saved for yourself?<o:p></o:p></b></li></ol><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l5 level1 lfo13; text-indent: -.25in;">A.<span style="font: normal normal normal 7pt/normal 'Times New Roman';"> </span>Not until I moved in with Matt. And because he eats so much, I get angry when he eats my share too, not saving any for me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l5 level1 lfo13; text-indent: -.25in;"><br /></div><ol start="13" style="margin-top: 0in;" type="1"><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level1 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Do you worry that you can’t control how much you eat?<o:p></o:p></b></li></ol><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l10 level1 lfo14; text-indent: -.25in;">A.<span style="font: normal normal normal 7pt/normal 'Times New Roman';"> </span>I do now.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l10 level1 lfo14; text-indent: -.25in;"><br /></div><ol start="14" style="margin-top: 0in;" type="1"><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level1 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Have you felt frantic about your size, shape, or weight?<o:p></o:p></b></li></ol><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l12 level1 lfo15; text-indent: -.25in;">A.<span style="font: normal normal normal 7pt/normal 'Times New Roman';"> </span>Ever since I put the weight back on, yes.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .75in; mso-list: l12 level1 lfo15; text-indent: -.25in;"><br /></div><ol start="15" style="margin-top: 0in;" type="1"><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level1 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">How many of these methods of weight loss have you tried in the past?<o:p></o:p></b></li><ol start="1" style="margin-top: 0in;" type="a"><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level2 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Self-induced vomiting?</b> I have tried, but can’t get myself to throw up.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level2 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Laxatives?</b> I was addicted to laxatives, just ask my shrink. I went to Weight Watchers, and I was more obsessed over stepping on the scale with a gain. I could eat a carrot and still drink the stuff as I was so worried I was going to gain.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level2 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Diuretics?</b> I pee enough as it is, I don’t need them.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level2 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Fasting?</b> I like food too much.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level2 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Compulsive Exercise?</b> I hate to exercise as it is.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level2 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Amphetamines?</b> Not since the speed frenzy days of high school</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level2 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Cocaine?</b> Never.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level2 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Over the counter diet pills, gum, and/or caramels?</b> Yes.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level2 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Sorbitol?</b> No.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level2 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Chewing and spitting food.</b> Again, I like food too much.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level2 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Acupuncture, Acupressure?</b> No.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level2 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Hypnosis?</b> No.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level2 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Urine Shots?</b> No.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level2 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Special food, drinks and supplements?</b> No.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level2 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Weight loss programs?</b> Yes</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level2 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">How many?</b> 4 or so</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level2 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">How often?</b> Seems all my life.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level2 lfo1;"><br /></li></ol><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level1 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Have you ever felt so ashamed of the amount you eat that you hide your eating?</b> Yes, I have.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level1 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Have you ever been so upset about the way that you eat that you wished that you would die?</b> No. No matter how bad I have ever been I have never thought I wanted to die. I have however, thought that others around me would be better off if they did not have to deal with me.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level1 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Do you overeat more than twice a week?</b> Sometimes.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level1 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Do you invent plans in order to be alone to eat?</b> No. Never really need to</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list: l9 level1 lfo1;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Do you seek out companions who eat the way you do?</b> No.</li></ol><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Ok, so there you go. Me, in a nut-shell.<br /><br />And I do not feel any closer to understanding myself.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Next up, Chapter Three – The Progression of Food Addiction.<br /><br /><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=155874276X&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-89436173434021062622010-07-20T17:52:00.002-04:002010-07-20T17:52:20.539-04:00Chew on This: Something More<div class="MsoNormal">Chew on This: Something More</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red;">My friend Jenna has been in my life since I moved to Stillwater back in 95. On one hand it seems just like yesterday. On the other hand, it really does feel as if it has been 15 long years. So much has changed and life has taken us in different directions. We have been there through some of the worst, and some of the best. And even though we are miles apart it seems as if we still have so much in common. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red;">For whatever technical issue the internet tends to provide us she was unable to comment on my actual blog post and made the gesture to share it with me through Facebook. It really made me think about things from another point-of-view and I wanted to share that here. I have edited some very personal information that I am sure she would like for me to not share. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">In bold is my original post, in italics is her reply. I have made my own notes in red. <br /></span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /><span class="apple-style-span"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">According to Sheppard, food addiction is – the compulsive pursuit of a mood change by engaging repeatedly in episodes of binge eating despite adverse consequences (Sheppard, pg3).</b></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"> </b></span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><br /></b><br /><span class="apple-style-span"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Ok, Ms. Sheppard, but there are other addictions to food besides binge eating. I can be addicted to food and not binge eat. What if I eat 5-7 small meals a day. I am still eating all the time and like food, but look, no binge.<o:p></o:p></i></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">I have often wondered this myself. I feel very torn down the middle of this subject. There are times when I go out to eat and feel like I have to be a member of the “clean plate club” and some would view that as overeating. I just like the food, it tastes good and I hate the thought of not only wasting food, but money as well. Now, I am trying to make the sound decision to order appetizers instead of meals, or asking for a to-go box in order to enjoy my meal again, the next day, eating half at a time. My food choices are (more often than not) based on my moods. Sometimes I graze all day. I have to admit I am a but puzzled by the whole food addiction thing. However, having said that, I know (for me personally) when I get extremely emotional I feel the need to do something. Sometimes I start to clean. I have to keep my hands moving, and other times I feel the need to eat. There are times when I can easily stop, and there have been times when I get so deep in to it that I just can’t. The food gives me a high. I get high, I crash and I burn. So, is it really the food I am addicted to since it just about any food I can eat, or is it the chemicals in my food? Could it just be the actions that I am addicted to? Does that make sense to anyone? How do you know it’s actually the food itself and not the emotions, thoughts or feelings surrounding the binge?</span><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></i><span style="color: #333333; font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /><span class="apple-style-span"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Those consequences? Food addiction is chronic, progressive and ultimately fatal (Sheppard, pg 3).</b></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"> </b></span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><br /></b><br /><span class="apple-style-span"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Duh! but do we really need the dramatic effect. Any addiction can be fatal because anything not done in moderation can hurt you and ultimately kill you.</i></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"> </i></span><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><br /></i><br /><span class="apple-style-span"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">"instead they have a metabolic, biochemical imbalance which can cause the symptoms of food addiction."</b></span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><br /></b><br /><span class="apple-style-span"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">It couldn’t possibly be, I xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx because I have never seen it as anything other than something that hurts me. It can't possibly be that my food addiction is less now because God has healed many of those hurts or is healing them and for the first time. Maybe if she realized there is freedom from food addiction besides obsessing over it by tracking everything you do with it? I can finally see myself the way God does, and that helps more than her book or diet plan will. I can see myself as beautiful and desirable because He says I am.</i></span><span class="apple-converted-space"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"> <o:p></o:p></i></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /><span class="apple-style-span">I don't need her perfectionist nature or critical spirit to define my identity. My identity is in Christ so all the old stuff including my food addiction has passed away and because I believe what Jesus says about me, all things are new!</span><br /><br /><span class="apple-style-span">That is all I have to say for now, but I could say so much more!</span><br /><br /><span class="apple-style-span">Love ya,</span><br /><span class="apple-style-span">Jenna<o:p></o:p></span></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">That’s my Jenna! We have both struggle with food and body issues. Why do we need a book, another diet plan that claims to not be a diet plan, a way of life that tells us what we can or can’t eat? Why can’t someone just say, “you know what, bad things happened to you at such a young age you did not learn the proper way to deal. You dealt the only way you knew how. You ate. Your body became big. You hid. Bad people stayed away. You were safe. In the process the relationship with food was the love of your life.”<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="apple-style-span"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Or something like that.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-80989642283948896472010-07-17T10:49:00.000-04:002010-07-17T10:49:07.603-04:00I can admit: I like food.<div class="MsoNormal">I can admit: I like food. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am going to pick apart this book. It is not going to make some people happy. It may not make anyone happy. I was given the freedom to say what I want and therefore, I am going to do just that. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I stated in a past blog that I had picked up a copy of Kay Sheppard’s book: “Food Addiction: The Body Knows” as a recommendation from someone who goes to Overeaters Anonymous groups meetings.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The book itself is relatively short at a mere 176 pages including references and such. It did not take me long to read, I finished it in three days. I would read a bit on the treadmill and some before I went to bed. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The book is pretty short, but I have some things I want to say. Some things I have learned about myself as well. I don’t want to make the blog posts extremely long so I plan to do one or two chapters at a time. Out of respect for authors, I will not be posting entire chapters. That would just be silly. I just have some things I want to point out and comment on! </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red;">Chapter One: <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What is Food Addiction?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal">Do you know what food addiction is? I thought I knew. I thought it was just a replacement for another addiction such as alcohol or drugs. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">According to Sheppard, food addiction is – <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">the compulsive pursuit of a mood change by engaging repeatedly in episodes of binge eating despite adverse consequences (Sheppard, pg3).</i> </div><div class="MsoNormal"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><br /></i></div><div class="MsoNormal">Those consequences?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Food addiction is chronic, progressive and ultimately fatal (Sheppard, pg 3).</i> </div><div class="MsoNormal"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><br /></i></div><div class="MsoNormal">DEATH!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Yes, you read correctly. Those with a food addiction are really killing themselves. </div><div class="MsoNormal">Great. That makes me feel so much better. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">She goes on to say food addicts are not weak-willed (thank goodness for that!) or immoral, the do not have a bad habit or a behavioral problem (Say what??) instead they have a metabolic, biochemical imbalance which can cause the symptoms of food addiction.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">(insert sarcasm here)</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Really. Is that all?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Ok, sarcasm over. Honestly, I figured that much. It is funny how when I was on my anti-depressants my relationship with food became a little better. The binges were not as bad, the laxative addiction went away. However, I still had a habit to eat too much (aka – overeating). </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, does food addiction cause you to overeat? Would it cause you to binge as well? Eating disorders, binging, purging by whatever means, overeating, food addiction – OH MY! I feel so confused and overwhelmed by all of this.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I just want to run right to Jenny Craig and have her tell me exactly what to eat and when. Don’t leave it up to me, don’t make me decide. Just tell me, and I will do it. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">According to Kay, food addicts also suffer from obsession. Preoccupation with food is shown by constantly thinking about <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">buying, preparing, and eating food (Sheppard, pg3)</i>. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">You telling me that I am not normal? I have to admit, I think about what I am going to make for lunch and dinner. I have to figure it out to take it out of the freezer. I have a set time I try to eat every day. I try to stick to a routine as it is easier to work around. I have to think about what time Matt is going to be home from work so that I know what time I should start dinner. I have to know when Maddy is going to be with us so I know what to make for her. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I did not realize this made me obsessive. Obsessive might be someone who thinks about food 24/7. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I actually allow other thoughts to enter my brain. So maybe I am not so obsessive after all. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">(again with the sarcasm here) Riiiiiiiight.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am pointing this out because later in the book Kay seems to contradict herself in talking about how once you follow her food plan (although OA stresses they are not a diet group) you must plan you meals, make your meal, measure your meals, follow the food plan, call your sponsor, and report all your meals to your sponsor. To me, that seems a bit obsessive in nature as well. One might argue that you are just replacing one obsessive behavior with another.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">We’ll talk more about that when we get to that chapter. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Have you ever enjoyed something you were eating so much that you lost control and were unable to stop eating after ONE bite? If so, that is compulsion. One bite? <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Really?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If you want to be skinny as well, there is a slimness obsession on top of the compulsion. Oh, what a partnership that makes. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Honestly, I am not trying to make light of the situation, but I am not sure if I can agree with the one bite thing. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Maybe the person did not WANT to stop. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Maybe I am in denial. Don’t know how that could be since I have already admitted what I go through.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I want to be thinner. I want to be able to shop and find clothes that fit me. Plus size clothes cost more, which is so unfair! I get the fact that there is more material, but come on! A few dollars more is one thing, but I have been to stores that charge $15 more for the exact same item in a 1X compared to an XL.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal">In the last paragraph of Chapter 1 Kay states <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">“Do you think your body is who you are? Food addicts become so focused on body weight, body size and shape that we begin to forget that we are the sum total of our body, mind and spirit (Sheppard, pg 12). “<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><br /></b></div><div class="MsoNormal">I know I am overweight. I have rolls I don’t like. My arms continue to wave for 5 minutes after I have told someone goodbye. Clothes don’t fit. It feeds my depression. My depression needs medication. I eat. I feel better for a while. Then, I feel guilty. This feeds my depression. It’s a terrible circle. I don’t look at my body in mirrors. I don’t really enjoy shopping anymore. Right now, I do feel like my body is a reflection of myself. I know I am a good person, but who is going to take the time to see that when they can’t get around what my outside looks like?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I’ll leave you with that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red;">Next up- Chapter Two: Recognizing the Disease<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Reference:</div><div class="MsoNormal">Food Addiction: The Body Knows</div><div class="MsoNormal">1993. Kay Sheppard</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-52091035683354866872010-07-16T18:01:00.000-04:002010-07-16T18:01:18.916-04:00Why is this happening?<div class="MsoNormal">My trigger is not food, my trigger is my emotions. However, I use food as medication to feed my emotions. One step to abstinence it to remove emotions and events that cause me to overeat. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have learned that is easier said than done. It is going to take a long time for me to win this battle. </div><div class="MsoNormal">Living with Matt is one giant trigger. There are things about him that remind me of my dad. It is trigger central around here at any given moment. Not his fault, I realize that, but try to tell my brain that. Sights, sounds, smells. They are all triggers for me. It is because of this there has been a relapse in my remission of mental health. All these triggers make me want to eat. Food is my medication.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have cried. I have screamed out in anger. I have tried going back on medications.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Because there has been a relapse in my mental health, that means a relapse in all aspects of it. So, now there is the relapse in my eating disorder as well. Obviously since food is my medication of choice.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">And I sit here wondering, why? Why me? Why does this have to happen now? <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>All I want out of life is to be free from all of these diseases. I want to be healthy inside my brain and inside my body. I am so overwhelmed I just want to cry. The more I try to talk to Matt, the more he seems to run away. I don’t have many friends and I have not been very good at reaching out to anyone anyway. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am trying to cure myself of something I am not even sure there is a cure for. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Looking back, there once was a time I was in remission. I was! I know I was! I went through Weight Watchers. I lost the weight. And I gained an addiction to laxatives in the process. Brilliant! I went through therapy. I went on medication. I gained weight back. Awesome! And I have continued to gain and lose. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Matt’s friends know; he eats a lot! I try my best to cook healthy things. But once I close up kitchen for the night, we watch some TV and I head off in to the bedroom to relax, unwind and read he goes right back into the kitchen to eat some more. It is hard having eating problems and living with someone who overeats pretty much on a daily basis. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I spend my days obsessing over food. What to buy. What to eat. What to prepare for us, and Maddy on the weekends. Are they going to like it? How many calories are in that? Then I think about the mess I am going to have to clean up. How long is that going to take? Somehow, I have to clear my brain and work in between all of this obsessiveness. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Why can’t someone else do this?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I know you are asking yourself the same thing I have asked myself many times. Why do you live with someone that causes you so much pain? That answer is pretty easy. It is not his fault. It is not his fault I grew up the way that I did. It is not his fault that I have these problems. Is he insensitive? Sometimes. And sometimes he causes me more problems. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But that is another blog post. I have thought about moving out. Made plans to move out. Every time I think about it I am crippled with fear. How do I know putting myself in another environment is going to be any better?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">In an honest effort to try and get a grip on my problems I started to read a book called Food Addiction: The Body Knows by Kay Sheppard. The book was written in 1989 and revised in 1993. It is a bit outdated and could probably stand to be updated again, but there is quite a bit of useful information within its pages. I have been reading it while I walk on the treadmill. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">There is so much in that book that is yelling at me, it is scary. Rather than make this blog post longer than it already is, I am going to break it up into smaller sections. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It might help you understand me and someone else that is going through this and it helps me by journaling. Even if it is in public, I am a writer after all. </div><div class="MsoNormal">One of the first things I had to do is remove myself from triggers, and remove the triggers from my environment. Not only do I have to remove the triggers, but I have to remove the bad foods out of the house. Not fun, and not easy.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">A few blog posts back I had made the announcement that I was going to have to do this. I made the call that there would be times I would not be able to eat with you. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">For too long I have worried about others, taken care of others, and neglected myself. Matthew is selfish enough; I can’t be surrounded by any more selfish people. So, if my steps to recovery do not fit into your plan of life, then perhaps you need to be rethink being in my life. Right now I need friends who are willing to understand and if not, take the time to understand. Friends who are willing to come down to my level and hang out with me in an environment that is safe. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Is that you? If so, then, THANK YOU!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">If that is not you, then, I am sorry to see you go. I understand. But this has to be about me now. I have to take care of me. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-66578152984138131382010-07-13T13:07:00.001-04:002010-11-17T13:09:16.761-05:00A Small Step Forward<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">We had Madison Saturday night and I kept her on Sunday while Matt went off to work. For those of you who know what we go through, you know this is a big deal. I love to teach her things that my mother taught me, and one of those things is baking.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"> I have done a very good job over the years of replacing sugar with Splenda, oil with applesauce and things like that (thank you Weight Watchers for teaching me that).<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">Matt and I had bought a Betty Crocker Low Fat Brownie about 2 months ago. It had been a while since Maddy and I baked so I thought it would be OK. Of course, she licked up half the batter. LOL. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">We made it as healthy as you can make a brownie mix. I added a bit of Benefiber, used Splenda and applesauce. It turned out pretty good. While the brownie was cooking we also made some banana bread, replacing the same ingredients. It turned out really yummy as well. Although I have to say, she fell asleep shortly after! Too much fun makes for a tired five year old.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"><br /></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDydNSAwpVI/AAAAAAAAAHs/qHvHMt0Uwik/s1600/34338_454136080914_569555914_6525300_174695_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDydNSAwpVI/AAAAAAAAAHs/qHvHMt0Uwik/s320/34338_454136080914_569555914_6525300_174695_n.jpg" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">I have not binged on it. I am thankful for that. I enjoyed one piece on Sunday, one yesterday and one today. Same with the bread. A small slice with breakfast. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">Well, today, it was too strong. Calling at me. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"><b>EAT ME! You know you want me. EAT ME!</b> (does your food talk to you???)<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">I tossed that banana bread in the trash. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">I cut out one piece of brownie so Matt could enjoy another piece when he gets home from work, and I took my own piece. I ate it. And I ate it quickly. I felt that feeling return, I proceeded to eat another, and I stuck my fork in the pan, ate a bite, and said NO! I threw the rest in the trash.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">DIE BROWNIE! DIE!</span></span><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">I feel so much better. Of course I feel guilty that I had to throw it away. We are on food benefits and just cannot afford to toss out food, but I can't have it in my house. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"><b>NO! NO! NO!</b><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">So, I requested a small cup cake pan for my birthday. One that only holds 4 cupcakes. I will make smaller batches, cook 4 for our treat that day, and freeze the rest of the batter for the next weekend she comes. That way, it’s not in the house, she still gets the joy of baking and we can all enjoy a taste.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">Lesson learned.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">At this moment, I was almost powerless over food, but I WON!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">Thanks for letting me share.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-8240189666041955122010-07-13T10:09:00.001-04:002010-11-17T13:59:19.622-05:00Restaurant chain reviews: Applebees - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1890119-weight-watchers-applebees">Restaurant chain reviews: Applebees - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a><br /><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;">Applebee's has always been one of my all-time favorite restaurants. I am a lifetime member of Weight Watchers so I am always looking for <a class="iAs" classname="iAs" href="http://www.helium.com/items/1890119-weight-watchers-applebees#" itxtdid="22748814" style="background-color: transparent !important; border-bottom-color: rgb(0, 100, 0) !important; border-bottom-style: solid !important; border-bottom-width: 0.075em !important; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; bottom: auto; color: rgb(0, 100, 0) !important; display: inline; float: none; font-family: inherit !important; font-size: 14px; font-weight: normal !important; left: auto; line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 1px !important; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; position: static !important; right: auto; text-align: left; text-decoration: underline !important; top: auto;" target="_blank">healthy</a> alternatives. </span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-21582086307837507262010-07-07T16:37:00.002-04:002010-12-23T07:37:28.528-05:002010 American Cancer Society Hair Donation<div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><a href="http://www.selfemployedwriter.com/2008/04/american-cancer-society-got-10-inches.html">2008 Donation</a></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><a href="http://www.selfemployedwriter.com/2009/10/american-cancer-society-haircut.html">2009 Donation</a></span></div><br /><br /><br /><br />This is the 3rd year in a row I have donated my hair to the Pantene Great Lengths/ American Cancer Society campaign. It takes 6 pony tails to make one wig for those who have lost their hair to cancer.<br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDTk_xjEOlI/AAAAAAAAAHM/7jDBmqOLwV0/s1600/DSCI0132.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDTk_xjEOlI/AAAAAAAAAHM/7jDBmqOLwV0/s320/DSCI0132.JPG" /></a><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDTlC8f5kWI/AAAAAAAAAHU/CJiNL08TuCc/s1600/DSCI0134.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDTlC8f5kWI/AAAAAAAAAHU/CJiNL08TuCc/s320/DSCI0134.JPG" /></a><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDTlF0QtRnI/AAAAAAAAAHc/TNgXxwsR_34/s1600/DSCI0136.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDTlF0QtRnI/AAAAAAAAAHc/TNgXxwsR_34/s320/DSCI0136.JPG" /></a><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDTlIsruS4I/AAAAAAAAAHk/RscFQ-Vxq3I/s1600/DSCI0138.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDTlIsruS4I/AAAAAAAAAHk/RscFQ-Vxq3I/s320/DSCI0138.JPG" /></a></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-34192734411898338112010-07-07T16:33:00.000-04:002010-07-07T16:33:23.674-04:00Shake N Bake Chicken Thigh (no skin)<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px;">7/6 Lunch - Green beans, peaches, 1/2c cajun chicken rice, and 1 chicken thigh, no skin, with shake n bake.</span><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDTjP9n3R1I/AAAAAAAAAHE/iW03Cn94fb8/s1600/DSCI0129.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDTjP9n3R1I/AAAAAAAAAHE/iW03Cn94fb8/s320/DSCI0129.JPG" /></a></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px;"><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-78137705808897927032010-07-06T09:46:00.000-04:002010-07-06T09:46:18.280-04:00I Keep Trying<div class="MsoNormal">July 6, 2010 7am</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Yesterday did not go as well as planned. It was not a total wash either. I knew what I was going to make for each meal (Lunch and Dinner) but I was trying to eat a bit healthier. I should learn to just eat what I want (in moderation) instead of trying to derail the craving with something else. All it does is make me crave the food more making it harder to resist.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">MyFitnessPal has my calories set at 1700 calories per day to lose 1/lb per week. Some days I am under, some days right on target, and some days I go over. Some days I exercise, some days I don’t. It just depends on the day. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Matt was home yesterday morning, he did not have to go to work until 2:30p. I had thawed out a nice steak for us to have for lunch. I broiled the steak, some seasoning, lemon juice and Worcestershire sauce. Beautiful steak, with hardly any fat, which I don’t eat anyway. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I broiled it in the oven in a cast iron skillet. Matt decided to tend to the potatoes (sliced, out of a can) and the green beans (French style, no salt added, out of a can). Seems pretty healthy, right? Well, Matt being Matt loves to add his spices. Which is fine, however I am trying to watch my salt-intake.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Not a big deal. We have light margarine and are almost out of butter spray. I was not able to watch how much light margarine Matt was putting in the green beans and potatoes. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I felt bad as I know he was just trying to help. He served up my plate. It was so pretty. On my plate were lots and lots of green beans (1c), some slices of potato with cayenne pepper (1/2c), and a few small bites of steak (roughly about 3oz). Because the light margarine is 1tbsp = 50 calorie and I know he was putting it in by the spoonfuls, I sort of had to guess what my nice healthy meal turned in to. It did put me over my count for lunch. I tend to eat more later in the day, so I try to save my calories for those times. I try to limit breakfast and lunch to 400 cals. or less. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It was yummy and I was very appreciative that he was helping. He did help clean the oven while I cleaned out the refrigerator. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I figured I would just try to get by on a really light dinner and make some air popped popcorn to snack on.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Dinner time rolls around. We have not done our grocery shopping yet. Because we are on food benefits we have to wait until our monthly allowance comes. I started to search for something low in calories. I did have chicken legs and thighs thawing since I had originally planned to make those for dinner. I decided to go ahead and make them as planned so Matt could have dinner when he got home from work and I could make myself a plate to have ready for lunch today.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I found a can of Healthy Selections from Campbell’s. The minestrone soup had 160 calories for the whole can. I thought a grilled cheese (light bread, ff cheese) would be good with it but I opted for peaches instead. </div><div class="MsoNormal">I prepared the chicken with some Meijer brand shake and bake. It was baking away in the oven, making the entire house smell like KFC Fried Chicken (I kid you not!) and I just kept thinking, “I should have just at the chicken!” I did take the skin off the thigh that I had planned to eat for lunch today. Taking the skin off saves SO many calories. I also prepared some Cajun Chicken rice. I set aside 1/2c for today (160cals). The house smelled wonderful.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I ate my peaches, which were very sweet and yummy. Went to eat my soup and could not eat anything after the first bite. GROSS! Tell me again why I just did not eat the chicken? So what if I was a few calories over for my day. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I resorted to a Lipton Cup of Soup-Chicken Noodle (60cals). It was good, but was not really what I wanted. I was trying so hard to stay within my calories.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I was so angry that my soup tasted like crap I immediately went into the kitchen, got 2 slices of Kraft Fat Free cheese singles, 3 slices of Meijer brand light bread and the light margarine and made myself a double grilled cheese. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Fine. I ate it. I am over the whole nasty soup ordeal, time to move on. I went back to work to keep myself busy. I started to get tired. I started to get weak.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I got myself a little plate, grabbed a chicken leg (about 184 cals) that had some shake and bake coating (30 cals) and ¼ cup of Cajun chicken rice. I enjoyed every bite of it. I am not a huge fan of chicken legs. Many years ago I became semi-vegetarian. I only ate chicken breast, cheese, fish, and eggs. I had a bad experience with a chicken leg and that pretty much ruined it for me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Madison and Matt love chicken legs and thighs. I have tried so many recipes, which they all love, but I have not been able to get past the leg ordeal <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>(Hot chicken wings are different; we will talk about that another time). I don’t know why I picked a leg last night, I guess because it was the smallest piece of chicken on the tray. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">For the first time in a long time I actually slowed down and enjoyed every bite. The chicken was nice and crispy (I will be removing skin in the future) and I have a new respect for baked “friend” chicken legs. </div><div class="MsoNormal">So, despite the fact I was about 150 cals over my total yesterday, something good came out of it. I was able to stop a binge. I was able to recognize some behavior. And, I was able to respect the chicken leg again. </div><div class="MsoNormal">I meant to take a photo, but forgot. I will take one of today’s lunch and post it later.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am not sure what the day has in store for me today, but I am ready. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-8086820647264408482010-07-05T07:02:00.000-04:002010-07-05T07:02:47.990-04:00I survived the weekend, binge free!<div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Just a short check-in this morning to welcome you (and me) to Monday morning (7am). <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>As I write this I am enjoying my breakfast of 2 pineapple slices, 1c skim milk and 1 fiber one bar. One this has been posted I will be heading downstairs to visit my BFF, the treadmill. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Friday, Saturday and Sunday I survived each day/night binge free. I attended 4 (I think) online OA meetings. I ordered the 12 Steps of OA book and Food Addiction: The Body Knows: Revised & Expanded Edit 1993 by Kay Shepherd. She comes highly recommended in the OA world. </div><div class="MsoNormal">FYI – Higher Power can be any God/HP that you believe in. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDG7p5HcTSI/AAAAAAAAAG8/uqx5pTZB1uA/s1600/logo.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDG7p5HcTSI/AAAAAAAAAG8/uqx5pTZB1uA/s320/logo.gif" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I pretty much have completed <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><u>Step 1: We admitted we were powerless over food — that our lives had become unmanageable.<o:p></o:p></u></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><u>Step 2: Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity. <o:p></o:p></u></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I put in to acceptance over the weekend. I was not able to make it to church yesterday (New Convenant www.cliochurch.com) but thankfully my old church back in OK (LifeChucrch) has church online(www.lifechurch.tv). It was just what a needed. The topic was "You are good enough" and it really spoke to me. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">After that, I followed through with <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><u>Step 3: Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.<o:p></o:p></u></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Last night I began <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><u>Step 4: Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.</u></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">as well as 5-7</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><u>Step 5: Admitted to God, to ourselves and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.<o:p></o:p></u></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><u>Step 6: Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.<o:p></o:p></u></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><u>Step 7: Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.<o:p></o:p></u></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So this is where I am starting today:</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><u>Step 8: Made a list of all persons we had harmed and became willing to make amends to them all.<o:p></o:p></u></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am finding it difficult to know who I hurt, aside from my ex-husband. I hid it from everyone else. I hurt myself. And right now, it could be hurting Matt. I have gotten really good in my life at putting on a mask and pretending everything is alright so no one worries about me. This step might be harder than it sounds. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0960989862&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe></div><div class="MsoNormal"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=155874276X&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-66840215220213715842010-07-04T14:18:00.001-04:002010-07-04T14:21:10.676-04:00Homemade Buffalo Style Baked Chicken Salad<div class="MsoNormal">In my quest to make restaurant style favorites at home, this is one of my many attempts, but the first in my new journey.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">First, I used 5 pieces of diced buffalo style chicken that was leftover from our Homemade Applebee’s Style Boneless Buffalo Wings.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Applebee’s Style Boneless Buffalo Wings<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal">4- 6 chicken breasts</div><div class="MsoNormal">Light margarine</div><div class="MsoNormal">Red Hot (or your favorite hot sauce)</div><div class="MsoNormal">1 packet of hot and spicy shake N bake</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Cut up the chicken into cubes. Each breast should yield about 6 pieces. Take the chicken pieces and put them in the bag with the shake n bake mixture. Shake, and bake according to the box instructions. While they are cooking, in a skillet mix 1 cup hot sauce with ¼ c of light margarine. You can adjust this according to your own tastes and depending on how wet or dry you like your wings. Melt the butter and mix with the hot sauce. Once the chicken pieces are done baking put them in the skillet to coat them with the sauce. That’s all there is to it. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This was the first time I made this, and I did not get it from a recipe book so you can modify it to your tastes.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">We had quite a bit leftover so I put them in a Ziploc freezer bag and put in the freezer for another time.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Now , let’s get on to the salad.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Homemade Buffalo Style Baked Chicken Salad<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><br /></b></div><div class="MsoNormal">5pcs of diced buffalo style baked chicken</div><div class="MsoNormal">2 cups shredded lettuce</div><div class="MsoNormal">1 boiled egg, sliced or diced</div><div class="MsoNormal">1/3 c 2% Reduced Fat Shredded Cheese</div><div class="MsoNormal">8 black olives, sliced</div><div class="MsoNormal">2 TBSP Fat Free Ranch dressing</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDDQZ0AJxBI/AAAAAAAAAGs/fL6Lhk6k0Iw/s1600/DSCI0127.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDDQZ0AJxBI/AAAAAAAAAGs/fL6Lhk6k0Iw/s320/DSCI0127.JPG" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDDQfpNiGcI/AAAAAAAAAG0/7XhZygBngIY/s1600/DSCI0128.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDDQfpNiGcI/AAAAAAAAAG0/7XhZygBngIY/s320/DSCI0128.JPG" /></a><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-84637709267381684692010-07-04T13:56:00.000-04:002010-07-04T13:56:38.581-04:00The Beginning of a New Me<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px;"><br /></span></span> <br /><div class="MsoNormal">The other day I declared it to be a new day, the new day of the rest of my life.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have ditched all of the weight loss programs lurking in my house. Bye-bye TOPS, see ya later Weight Watchers. It’s going to be alright Special K and Slim Fast. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">In the last three days I have attended five Overeater’s Anonymous meetings, online. I take a break from writing, log in, read/listen and share. I have already made some friendly connections and soon I will start looking for a sponsor. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Just like Alcoholics’ Anonymous members have a sponsor to help them stay on track and not go back to drinking, OA members have sponsors to help keep them from overeating/binging which helps them to break the food addiction. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am doing this journey publicly because I need to. I want to. If my words can reach out to someone and help them in some way with their own journey, then that is my purpose in life. God gave me the gift of words for a reason. This could be my reason. To share my world, share my life, and help or touch someone along the way.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am only human, I am real. I am going to fall and I am going to make mistakes. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Despite that hard road I am about to follow, I will mend. I will heal. I will begin to feel comfortable in my own skin.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">These photos I want to share are just some photos of my home gym. You do not need a lot of money to get moving. I do not have any money to spare. I am not going to let that stop me from regaining my health, mentally and physically.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Things I will be using along the way:</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Pedometer.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Treadmill (MY BFF).</div><div class="MsoNormal">Exercise Ball (also serves as my desk chair on occasion).</div><div class="MsoNormal">Ab Lounge (also serves as my inversion table for my back problems).</div><div class="MsoNormal">Old TV to help pass the time on the treadmill.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Good pair of shoes.</div><div class="MsoNormal">iPod Touch for games and music , again to pass treadmill time.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Various exercise videos.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Wii and various games.</div><div class="MsoNormal">2 Dogs </div><div class="MsoNormal">Yoga Mat.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Hand weights.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Various resistance bands.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have to eat on a budge. I will be blogging about some low cost, low calorie foods. I am going to prove to myself that I can do this. I do not need to spend a lot of money to do so. I can achieve anything with what God has already given me. That is my goal. This is my mantra, if I can do it, so can you.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I don’t have a video camera so digital photos will have to do for now.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">If<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>you follow my blog, I will return the favor. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDDKjXnPq0I/AAAAAAAAAGE/q2yQB9fkQIU/s1600/DSCI0119.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDDKjXnPq0I/AAAAAAAAAGE/q2yQB9fkQIU/s320/DSCI0119.JPG" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDDKpFV-_2I/AAAAAAAAAGM/nR2YiXZtJ5U/s1600/DSCI0123.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDDKpFV-_2I/AAAAAAAAAGM/nR2YiXZtJ5U/s320/DSCI0123.JPG" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDDKv8AOBsI/AAAAAAAAAGU/ObeNeREf-8s/s1600/DSCI0124.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDDKv8AOBsI/AAAAAAAAAGU/ObeNeREf-8s/s320/DSCI0124.JPG" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><o:p>Me on the treadmill today!</o:p></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDDK14ouReI/AAAAAAAAAGc/QoXw5MrnrFE/s1600/DSCI0125.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDDK14ouReI/AAAAAAAAAGc/QoXw5MrnrFE/s320/DSCI0125.JPG" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><o:p><br /></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><o:p>Yeap, I look rough in the morning!</o:p></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDDK6-T6BjI/AAAAAAAAAGk/7feVX7g9x24/s1600/DSCI0126.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDDK6-T6BjI/AAAAAAAAAGk/7feVX7g9x24/s320/DSCI0126.JPG" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><o:p><br /></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><o:p>But at least I am doing it!!</o:p></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-26294074080244924222010-07-04T13:21:00.000-04:002010-07-04T13:21:57.769-04:00The Doll Restoration Project<div class="MsoNormal">Many (oh so many) years ago I got on this kick to restore old cabbage patch kids. I had so much fun and I ended up donating over 100 to the children’s burn unit and the Children’s Medical Center and various other originations. Many went to children who lost all their toys in that year’s tornado's.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Packed away at my mom’s is an entire scrapbook full of the Cabbage Patch Kids I restored. I will have to get that book and scan some of the photo's in as well as add to it!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">While trying to think of a hobby I could do to keep myself busy at night when I do not want to work and am caught up with school, I thought of reading! I simply adore immersing myself into a great novel, and that works. However, after I have been reading/writing online all day for work, sometimes it is hard for me to read. I try to save that for the last few hours before I go to bed. So, I need something to do after work ends and before rest/read time starts.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Becky, bless her heart tried to teach me knitting. I made it through my first hat. My hands hurt way too bad for that after typing all day. Next on our list is tatting. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">There has to be something else. And then it hit me after looking at a doll I had given to Madison from my own collection. I had a cabbage patch look-a-like that was in desperate need of restoration that I had never gotten around to.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">And so, the doll restoration begins.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">She is getting new hair. She originally had brown hair in pony tail that had been cut off so short no rubber band would hold it together. She is now going to be blonde. I think I rescued her from Goodwill many years ago. She has traveled all the way from Oklahoma. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I plan to document my journey. I also have an American Girl look-a-like doll that I purchased for a few dollars that is going to get restored as well. She will make her debut later.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This will keep me busy and I will be less likely to use my hands to pick up food. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Wingdings; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-char-type: symbol; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;"><span style="mso-char-type: symbol; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Wingdings;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Wingdings; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-char-type: symbol; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;"><span style="mso-char-type: symbol; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDDCc-EZMKI/AAAAAAAAAFU/OWfiBSOA-ng/s1600/DSCI0111.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDDCc-EZMKI/AAAAAAAAAFU/OWfiBSOA-ng/s320/DSCI0111.jpg" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDDCe-KbnXI/AAAAAAAAAFc/HtdgU_d7xiQ/s1600/DSCI0112.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDDCe-KbnXI/AAAAAAAAAFc/HtdgU_d7xiQ/s320/DSCI0112.jpg" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDDCg2uU4TI/AAAAAAAAAFk/DqGxef57pGU/s1600/DSCI0113.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDDCg2uU4TI/AAAAAAAAAFk/DqGxef57pGU/s320/DSCI0113.jpg" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDDCnSDNV3I/AAAAAAAAAFs/Eptft2diYZo/s1600/DSCI0122.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDDCnSDNV3I/AAAAAAAAAFs/Eptft2diYZo/s320/DSCI0122.JPG" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDDCtFQIe_I/AAAAAAAAAF0/tYz2vgJKh2Q/s1600/DSCI0120.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDDCtFQIe_I/AAAAAAAAAF0/tYz2vgJKh2Q/s320/DSCI0120.JPG" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDDCxWIc_4I/AAAAAAAAAF8/UmrMriOpe6A/s1600/DSCI0121.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TDDCxWIc_4I/AAAAAAAAAF8/UmrMriOpe6A/s320/DSCI0121.JPG" /></a></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-67806171095329584652010-07-03T21:42:00.000-04:002010-11-15T21:44:02.422-05:00The Great Weight Debate<div class="MsoNormal">The Great Weight Debate </div><div class="MsoNormal">The great debate has been all in my head. Filling my head more and more every day until I finally just crashed. Yes, I can admit I am overweight. Yes, I can admit I have lost it twice. Yes, I can admit I fell off the wagon and gained it all back, and then some. No, I refuse to admit I am lazy.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Depression is strong, but I refuse to let it tie me to the bed again. So I push myself, daily. I force myself out of bed, telling myself “the dogs need me” and forward I go. I keep my nose stuck in my textbooks, online classes to finish my degree, or my writing career.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I keep busy because I HAVE to, not because I want to. Oh, how I would love to lounge around in bed all day. I do have a laptop; I could if I wanted to. But then I do not feel very productive.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Being depressive I find it hard to live with, take care of, and love myself. If I cannot do this, then who is going to do it for me?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have never hid my emotions and for the last five years my life has been an open book to many of you. I have nothing to hide. I am embarrassed, but at the same time I know it’s not my fault.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Yes, NutriSystem worked once. Yes, Weight Watchers worked for a long time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Calorie counting works, this works- that works. The problem is not me following any program. I can follow a program. The problem is I have an addiction. My addiction, my drug of choice is not alcohol (despite being Irish lol). My drug is food. Food was my best friend growing up. Most of you know my troubles as a child, the things that happened to me. So there is no need for me to repeat it. But those bad things affected my outlook on food. I ate for all of the wrong reasons.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I can remember so many times the abuse would happen, after I would run to the kitchen, hoping to find something to save me. I always did. I ate to feed my emotions. Subconsciously, I ate to keep people away. At least that is what my therapist told me many years later.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I can also remember being 7 or 8 and making HUGE (talking salad bowl size) bowls of macaroni and cheese. I would stand there with that huge bowl and spoon and eat it all. I would take huge spoons of peanut butter and mix it in a bowl with gobs of jelly, and just eat it. Bread never even crossed my mind.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I have always been bigger than everyone else. That is nothing new.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>By high school my mother had enough, and we welcomed NutriSystem. It worked. I got skinny, and I got a life. Then came college, the parties, the boys, and the best friends a girl could ever have (I love you guys and miss you so much). I was at a pretty comfortable stage in my life. I was having so much fun living in the present; I had no time to think about the past.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Don’t get me wrong, I still struggled with my weight and self esteem. And that followed me right into marriage, which eventually landed me in a psychiatrist’s office. I learned a lot in the years that followed. I went on Weight Watchers, I went to weekly meetings, I walked the dogs, I ran, and I was active. Life was ok.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Did I mention I was also medicated? Or, perhaps did I ever mention I became so obsessed with staying thin, I went the opposite direction and instead of just overeating and dealing, I overate/binged and since I could not get myself to throw up, I became addicted to laxatives?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Once I went off the medication, things fell apart. My marriage, my life, my eating. I gained weight, I stopped running, and I realized I have a food addiction.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">In 2005 I attended online Overeaters Anonymous meetings. I really began to see all the underlying problems. With depression, panic attacks, anxiety disorders, post traumatic stress and an eating disorder it’s no wonder why I always turn to food for comfort.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This not something TOPS, Weight Watchers, Calorie Counting, The Best Life Diet, or any other program is going to help me with. This is something I have to find help for elsewhere.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Hello, my name is Chrystal, and I am addicted to food. I overeat/binge. I seek comfort in food, it is my drug. I have an addiction. I am visiting Overeaters Anonymous again. I am tossing aside all my other weight loss materials. Dieting is not the problem, food is.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Laxatives are not kept in my house for this reason. Alcohol is not kept in my house because it only provides me with more ammo to eat.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This is an addiction I cannot hide anymore. My body, my health, my self-esteem, my life, and my relationships depend on it.</div><div class="MsoNormal">So, why am I telling you this? Because most of you have watched me struggle for so long that now I feel some sense of relief knowing OA might just be the answer I have been looking for. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am also telling you this so you can understand some of the things that go on in my brain. I also want you to know that if we go out to eat, we may have to share. If I come to your house for a dinner party, I may not eat. Or I will eat very little. Does not mean I do not like your food, it only means I am trying to control my addiction. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I need you to watch me; I need you to help me. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">My mental health is a mess. Medications are in order, Dr. visits are needed and thankfully I know where to go this time. Yes, I was on meds, but the ones the doc put me on made me agitated, angry and suicidal. For those of you who missed that, will tell you about it later. I had to wait for all of that to clear my system before I could be put back on the one that works for me, the one I was on while still in OK.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Life, it is a battle. Mine, is a battlefield.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">If I could just have everyone’s support rather than pity, it would mean a great deal.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Journaling is part of recovery. I will be writing much more. Here, blog, video diary, things like that. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have a lot going on around me, but until I can accept and love myself, how can I expect anyone else to love and accept me?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Please, take my hand and walk this journey with me. Please, do not walk away. I need all the friendship and support I can get right now.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">~Chrys~</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Step 1. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We admitted that we were powerless over food - that our lives had become unmanageable.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-21118746533052787792010-07-03T21:11:00.001-04:002010-07-03T21:11:40.550-04:00It's time to move on..Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-11796149879308217332010-07-03T21:06:00.002-04:002010-07-03T21:06:41.759-04:00Wonderful Quote<h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" data-ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span class="UIStory_Message">"Food is Wonderful! In fact, food is my best friend, but lately I'm aware that my friend is hurting me, making me uncomfortable, sabotaging my goals, causing me grief and guilt, possibly destroying my life. Today I made a decision-it's time to get a new friend."<br />-Linda Spangle</span></h3><div><span class="UIStory_Message"><br /></span></div><div><span class="UIStory_Message"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=1401603734&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe></span></div><div><span class="UIStory_Message"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0895261456&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-44833708359343200112010-07-03T15:30:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:23:47.665-05:00The Great Weight Debate<div class="MsoNormal">The Great Weight Debate </div><div class="MsoNormal">The great debate has been all in my head. Filling my head more and more every day until I finally just crashed. Yes, I can admit I am overweight. Yes, I can admit I have lost it twice. Yes, I can admit I fell off the wagon and gained it all back, and then some. No, I refuse to admit I am lazy.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Depression is strong, but I refuse to let it tie me to the bed again. So I push myself, daily. I force myself out of bed, telling myself “the dogs need me” and forward I go. I keep my nose stuck in my textbooks, online classes to finish my degree, or my writing career.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I keep busy because I HAVE to, not because I want to. Oh, how I would love to lounge around in bed all day. I do have a laptop; I could if I wanted to. But then I do not feel very productive.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Being depressive I find it hard to live with, take care of, and love myself. If I cannot do this, then who is going to do it for me?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have never hid my emotions and for the last five years my life has been an open book to many of you. I have nothing to hide. I am embarrassed, but at the same time I know it’s not my fault.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Yes, NutriSystem worked once. Yes, Weight Watchers worked for a long time. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Calorie counting works, this works- that works. The problem is not me following any program. I can follow a program. The problem is I have an addiction. My addiction, my drug of choice is not alcohol (despite being Irish lol). My drug is food. Food was my best friend growing up. Most of you know my troubles as a child, the things that happened to me. So there is no need for me to repeat it. But those bad things affected my outlook on food. I ate for all of the wrong reasons.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I can remember so many times the abuse would happen, after I would run to the kitchen, hoping to find something to save me. I always did. I ate to feed my emotions. Subconsciously, I ate to keep people away. At least that is what my therapist told me many years later.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I can also remember being 7 or 8 and making HUGE (talking salad bowl size) bowls of macaroni and cheese. I would stand there with that huge bowl and spoon and eat it all. I would take huge spoons of peanut butter and mix it in a bowl with gobs of jelly, and just eat it. Bread never even crossed my mind.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I have always been bigger than everyone else. That is nothing new. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>By high school my mother had enough, and we welcomed NutriSystem. It worked. I got skinny, and I got a life. Then came college, the parties, the boys, and the best friends a girl could ever have (I love you guys and miss you so much). I was at a pretty comfortable stage in my life. I was having so much fun living in the present; I had no time to think about the past.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Don’t get me wrong, I still struggled with my weight and self esteem. And that followed me right into marriage, which eventually landed me in a psychiatrist’s office. I learned a lot in the years that followed. I went on Weight Watchers, I went to weekly meetings, I walked the dogs, I ran, and I was active. Life was ok. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Did I mention I was also medicated? Or, perhaps did I ever mention I became so obsessed with staying thin, I went the opposite direction and instead of just overeating and dealing, I overate/binged and since I could not get myself to throw up, I became addicted to laxatives?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Once I went off the medication, things fell apart. My marriage, my life, my eating. I gained weight, I stopped running, and I realized I have a food addiction.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">In 2005 I attended online Overeaters Anonymous meetings. I really began to see all the underlying problems. With depression, panic attacks, anxiety disorders, post traumatic stress and an eating disorder it’s no wonder why I always turn to food for comfort.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This not something TOPS, Weight Watchers, Calorie Counting, The Best Life Diet, or any other program is going to help me with. This is something I have to find help for elsewhere.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Hello, my name is Chrystal, and I am addicted to food. I overeat/binge. I seek comfort in food, it is my drug. I have an addiction. I am visiting Overeaters Anonymous again. I am tossing aside all my other weight loss materials. Dieting is not the problem, food is.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Laxatives are not kept in my house for this reason. Alcohol is not kept in my house because it only provides me with more ammo to eat.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This is an addiction I cannot hide anymore. My body, my health, <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>my self-esteem, my life, and my relationships depend on it.</div><div class="MsoNormal">So, why am I telling you this? Because most of you have watched me struggle for so long that now I feel some sense of relief knowing OA might just be the answer I have been looking for. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am also telling you this so you can understand some of the things that go on in my brain. I also want you to know that if we go out to eat, we may have to share. If I come to your house for a dinner party, I may not eat. Or I will eat very little. Does not mean I do not like your food, it only means I am trying to control my addiction. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I need you to watch me; I need you to help me. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">My mental health is a mess. Medications are in order, Dr. visits are needed and thankfully I know where to go this time. Yes, I was on meds, but the ones the doc put me on made me agitated, angry and suicidal. For those of you who missed that, will tell you about it later. I had to wait for all of that to clear my system before I could be put back on the one that works for me, the one I was on while still in OK.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Life, it is a battle. Mine, is a battlefield.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">If I could just have everyone’s support rather than pity, it would mean a great deal.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Journaling is part of recovery. I will be writing much more. Here, blog, video diary, things like that. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have a lot going on around me, but until I can accept and love myself, how can I expect anyone else to love and accept me?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Please, take my hand and walk this journey with me. Please, do not walk away. I need all the friendship and support I can get right now.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">~Chrys~</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Step 1. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We admitted that we were powerless over food - that our lives had become unmanageable.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0960989862&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-86898944827409704902010-07-03T13:37:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:23:47.670-05:00Mixed Berry Crumble<span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">4 points per serving /</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Prep: 7 Min</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Cook: 40 min</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Serves 8</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">2 cups blueberries</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">2 cups raspberries</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">3/4 cup all-purpose flour</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">2/3 cup unpacked light brown sugar</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">1/4 lb butter (1 stick), melted</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Preheat oven to 350 degrees (F)</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Place berries in a medium bowl. In another medium bowl, combine flour</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">and sugar. Remove 3 tablespoons of flour mixture and gently toss with</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">berries. Place berries in an 8-inch square pan.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">To make topping, add melted butter to remaining flour mixture; combine</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">well. Crumble little bits of topping over berries. Bake until berries just</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">start to bubble, about 35 to 40 minutes. Cut into 8 pieces; serve warm or</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">at room temperature. Yields 1 piece per serving.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Again, I used strawberry (2 cups) and blackberries (2 cups). Everything</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">else I did exactly as the recipe stated.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-53635086271473468032010-07-03T13:28:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:23:47.676-05:00Pizza-bellas<span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Pizza-bellas</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">PER SERVING (1 pizza-bella, 1/2 of recipe): 118 calories, 4.75g fat, 487mg</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">sodium, 7.5g carbs, 1.75g fiber, 3g sugars, 11.5g protein -- POINTS® value</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">2*</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">A mushroom dressed up like a pizza? It's so beautiful, it brings tears to</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">our eyes...</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Ingredients:</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">2 large portabella mushrooms</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">2 sticks light string cheese</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">1/4 cup canned crushed tomatoes</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">1/2 tsp. chopped garlic</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Dash Italian seasoning</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">8 slices turkey pepperoni (like the kind by Hormel), chopped</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">2 tbsp. canned sliced black olives</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Directions:</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Preheat oven to 400 degrees.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Remove mushroom stems, chop, and set aside. Place mushroom caps on a baking</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">sheet sprayed with nonstick spray. Bake in the oven for 8 minutes.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Meanwhile, break each stick of string cheese into thirds and place in a food</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">processor or blender -- blend at high speed until cheese takes on a shredded</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">or grated consistency. (Or just tear string cheese into pieces and roughly</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">chop.) Set aside.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Remove sheet from the oven but leave oven on. Blot excess liquid from</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">mushroom caps and set aside.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">In a small bowl, combine crushed tomatoes, garlic, and Italian seasoning.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Mix well and equally distribute between mushroom caps; spread until smooth</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">and even. Sprinkle shredded/grated cheese over the saucy layer on each cap.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Top with chopped mushroom stems, pepperoni, and olives.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Bake in the oven for 8 - 10 minutes, until cheese has melted. Eat as soon as</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">you can without burning your mouth!</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">MAKES 2 SERVINGS</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">HG Alternative! Don't like olives? Not into turkey pepperoni? Don't use 'em!</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Each standard saucy 'n cheesy mushroom "pizza" has 89 calories and 2.75g fat</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">(POINTS® value 2*), so feel free to pick your own toppings and add their</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">stats to those numbers.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">www.hungrygirl.com</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0312556179&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-90876293700633492392010-07-03T13:23:00.002-04:002010-11-17T14:23:47.681-05:00Lowfat Turtle Custard Cake<span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Lowfat Turtle Custard Cake</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">source: unknown</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">a.. 2 (14 ounce) cans fat free sweetened condensed milk</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">b.. egg substitute equivalent to 5 eggs</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">c.. ½ cup skim milk</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">d.. ½ cup sugar</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">e.. ¼ cup unsweetened cocoa powder</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">f.. ¼ cup nonfat chocolate syrup</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">In a small saucepan, place 1 can of condensed milk, label removed, and cover with water. Boil for 4 hours in the can, replacing any water that evaporates out.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> This must be done often so as not to create a dangerous situation. When the 4 hours are up, let cool to room temperature before opening the can to reveal a rich caramel sauce. While the caramel is boiling, preheat oven to 350 degrees F. </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Spray an 8-inch nonstick round cake pan with vegetable oil spray. Cut a circle of parchment paper to fit the bottom of the pan.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> In a large bowl, whisk together 1 can condensed milk, egg substitute, milk, sugar, cocoa and chocolate syrup. Pour into prepared pan.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> Place the pan in the middle of a larger baking pan and fill baking pan with 1 inch of water. Bake for 40-45 minutes or until a toothpick inserted in the center of cake comes out clean. </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Remove cake pan from water and let cool on a wire rack for 10 minutes. Carefully invert onto a plate and remove paper. Let cool for 15 minutes. </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Top the cake with drizzles of the fat-free caramel sauce, nonfat whipped topping and pecan halves or pieces to create this wonderful Turtle Custard Cake.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-74850847194278371522010-07-03T13:20:00.001-04:002010-11-17T14:23:47.686-05:00Fat-Free Hummus<span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">a splash of fat-free chicken or veggie broth</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">1 drained 14oz can of chickpeas (garbanzo beans)</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">2 Tbs. lemon juice</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">2 cloves garlic</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">sprinkle of paprika</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">salt and pepper to taste..</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">First... add all ingredients except the paprika in the tall cup...and I guess for those who don't have one use a blender..</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Next... twist on cross blade and blend until smooth..</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Then...salt and pepper to taste and sprinkle with paprika..</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Hummus is best served cold with warm triangles of pita bread..</span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-24212863743166565962010-07-03T13:05:00.001-04:002010-11-17T14:23:47.692-05:00Chocolate Strawberry Ice Pop<span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">From: Prevention</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Think of these as frozen chocolate-covered strawberries on a</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">stick--just as decadent but longer lasting. These pops are</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">full of flavonoids and other health-promoting nutrients--a</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">triple-whammy's worth from strawberries, chocolate, and soy.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">You can find molds at most kitchenware stores.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Serves: 6</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Prep: 10 min</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Cook: 4 hr 0 min</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Total: 4 hr 10 min</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">1 cup thinly sliced fresh strawberries</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">1/2 cup premium semisweet chocolate chips</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">1 1/2 cup</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">chocolate soymilk</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">1. Fill 6 ice pop molds evenly with strawberries, then chocolate</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">chips, then soymilk. (Note: There should be about 1/2" of space</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">at the top of each mold to allow for expansion during freezing.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Adjust soymilk accordingly.) Insert handles/sticks into molds.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">2. Freeze at least 4 hours.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Serves: 6</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Nutrition per Serving:</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">150.5 Calories, 6.3g Fat, 3.3g Saturated Fat, 0mg Cholesterol,</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">19mg Sodium, 21.2g Carbs, 0.6g Dietary Fiber, 6.1g Total Sugar,</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">2.8g Protein</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-37935467465202784872010-06-30T10:03:00.002-04:002010-11-17T13:56:06.731-05:00And People Wonder Why I Just Can't "give away" My Dogs<div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><img src="http://sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-ash1/hs507.ash1/29951_440807385914_569555914_6164063_7183816_n.jpg" /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Ok, before everyone jumps my case and asks me "Why are you getting rid of Cain and Casey?" The answer is "I AM NOT!" I have had Cain since he was 6 months old, and I rescued Casey when she was less than 5 months old.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Cain was purchased by a friend of mine through a registered AKC breeder. Him and some friends rented a house who later said - NO DOGS. Cain went to live with my mom and our two dogs. Lady and Big Girl. Big Girl is now 13 years old, and still living with my mom, although her days are numbered. Interesting fact, Cains daddy name is Zeus. Anyway, Casey I got from the Stillwater Humane Society. They found her on the side of the road, left for dead. It was obvious someone dumped her in the woods to fend for her life. It is also likely that she spend quite a few months out there before the summer heat kicked in, making it harder for her to find food and water. I can remember how she looked the day I picked her up. Fly strikes all over her skin. Nothing but a bag of bones. No nutrition, making her brittle. She shows no signs of this today, other than her teeth never grew in completely. Now, why would I take on these dogs, loving them as if they were my children only to get rid of them? If I was going to do that why didn't I just leave them with my ex-husband?</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Life is hard with two dogs. They have to go outside every few hours for exercise and potty breaks. Since we do not have a fenced in yard, I can't just leave them out there. They have to have water all day and they get fed twice a day.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Now, as most of you know Matt and I have been having some problems and I have contemplated moving out. My wonderful cousin and her husband have offered more than once to take the dogs if I needed to find them a new home. That is comforting to me.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">A friend of mine once said I needed to just get rid of the dogs. With them in tow I was never going to be able to find a place to rent.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">That friend was wrong, I have found places to rent, they just cost more.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Matt has offered to keep the dogs here. I would rather they stay with me. </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">When I first moved to Michigan and had such a hard time finding work, I could not afford to keep them. I went through the Michigan Rescue for Boxers and they found them a new family. I thought it would be perfect. The boxer they had just passed away. They did not understand Cain and Casey knew no other parents but me. I was their momma. The only other person they had spent the night with was my mom, and a friend of my ex-husbands that was their babysitter when we would travel up here to MI. Cain and Casey were scared and confused and these people had no patience. They called me the next morning and asked me to come get the dogs because they went potty on their floor and cried all night, they had no patience for that. Obviously the husband had no patience. I called the rescue and told them what happened and they apologized for not doing a better job of screen applicants.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Well I should say so!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Not only was I traumatized, so were Cain and Casey. I just do not think I could put them through that again.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">So, if things do not work out with me and Matt, me and the dogs will be a packaged deal, or they will stay with someone they already know and trust.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Please read the following article, it will change your view on a lot of things.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><img src="http://sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc3/hs421.snc3/24339_414868930914_569555914_5528097_7302035_n.jpg" /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">LETTER FROM A SHELTER MANAGER: "I think our society needs a huge "Wake-up" call. ...As a shelter manager, I am going to share a little insight with you all...a view from the inside if you will. First off, all of you people who have ever surrendered a pet to a shelter or humane society should be made to work in the "back" of an animal shelter for just one day. Maybe if you saw the life drain from a few sad, lost, confused eyes, you would stop flagging the ads on craigslist and help these animals find homes. That puppy you just bought will most likely end up in my shelter when it's not a cute little puppy anymore. Just so you know there's a 90% chance that dog will never walk out of the shelter it’s dumped at? Purebred or not! About 25% of all of the dogs that are "owner surrenders" or "strays", that come into a shelter are purebred dogs.</span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br />The most common excuses: "We are moving and we can't take our dog (or cat)." Really? Where are you moving too that doesn't allow pets? Or they say "The dog got bigger than we thought it would". How big did you think a German Shepherd would get? "We don't have time for her". Really? I work a 10-12 hour day and still have time for my 6 dogs! "She's tearing up our yard". How about making her a part of your family? They always tell me "We just don't want to have to stress about finding a place for her we know she'll get adopted, she's a good dog".<br /><br />Odds are your pet won't get adopted & how stressful do you think being in a shelter is? Well, let me tell you, your pet has 72 hours to find a new family from the moment you drop it off. Sometimes a little longer if the shelter isn't full and your dog manages to stay completely healthy. If it sniffles, it dies. Your pet will be confined to a small run/kennel in a room with other barking or crying animals. It will have to relieve itself where it eats and sleeps. It will be depressed and it will cry constantly for the family that abandoned it. If your pet is lucky, I will have enough volunteers in that day to take him/her for a walk. If I don't, your pet won't get any attention besides having a bowl of food slid under the kennel door and the waste sprayed out of its pen with a high-powered hose. If your dog is big, black or any of the "Bully" breeds (pit bull, rottie, mastiff, etc) it was pretty much dead when you walked it through the front door. Those dogs just don't get adopted. It doesn't matter how 'sweet' or 'well behaved' they are.<br /><br />If your dog doesn't get adopted within its 72 hours and the shelter is full, it will be destroyed. If the shelter isn't full and your dog is good enough, and of a desirable enough breed it may get a stay of execution, but not for long . Most dogs get very kennel protective after about a week and are destroyed for showing aggression. Even the sweetest dogs will turn in this environment. If your pet makes it over all of those hurdles chances are it will get kennel cough or an upper respiratory infection and will be destroyed because the shelter gets paid a fee to euthanize each animal and making money is better than spending money to take this animal to the vet.<br /><br />Here's a little euthanasia 101 for those of you that have never witnessed a perfectly healthy, scared animal being "put-down". First, your pet will be taken from its kennel on a leash. They always look like they think they are going for a walk happy, wagging their tails. Until they get to "The Room", every one of them freaks out and puts on the brakes when we get to the door. It must smell like death or they can feel the sad souls that are left in there, it's strange, but it happens with every one of them. Your dog or cat will be restrained, held down by 1 or 2 shelter workers depending on the size and how freaked out they are. Then a shelter worker who we call a euthanasia tech (not a vet) find a vein in the front leg and inject a lethal dose of the "pink stuff". Hopefully your pet doesn't panic from being restrained and jerk. I've seen the needles tear out of a leg and been covered with the resulting blood and been deafened by the yelps and screams. They all don't just "go to sleep", sometimes they spasm for a while, gasp for air and defecate on themselves. You see shelters are trying to make money to pay employee pay checks and don’t forget the board of directors needs to be paid too, so we don’t spend our funds to tranquilize the animal before injecting them with the lethal drug, we just put the burning lethal drug in the vein and let them suffer until dead. If it were not a “making money issue” and we had to have a licensed vet do this procedure, the animal would be sedated or tranquilized and then euthanized, but to do this procedure correctly would cost more money so we do not follow what is right for the animal, we just follow what is the fastest way we can make a dollar. Shelters do not have to have a vet perform their euthanasia’s so even if it takes our employee 50 pokes with a needle and 3 hours to get the vein that is what we do. Making money is the issue here not loosing money.<br /><br />When it all ends, your pets corpse will be stacked like firewood in a large freezer in the back with all of the other animals that were killed waiting to be picked up like garbage. What happens next? Cremated? Taken to the dump? Rendered into pet food? Or used for the schools to dissect and experiment on? You'll never know and it probably won't even cross your mind. It was just an animal and you can always buy another one, right!<br /><br />I hope that those of you who still have a beating heart and have read this are bawling your eyes out and can't get the pictures out of your head, I deal with this everyday. I hate my job, I hate that it exists & I hate that it will always be there unless you people make some changes and start educating the public. Do research, do your homework, and know exactly what you are getting into before getting a pet. These shelters and humane societies exist because people just do not care about animals anymore. Animals were not intended to be disposable but somehow that is what they are these days. Animal shelters are an easy way out when you get tired of your dog (or cat), and breeders are the ones blamed for this. Animal shelters and rescue organizations are making a hefty profit by keeping this misconception going.<br /><br />Between 9 and 11 MILLION animals die every year in shelters and only you - as a pet owner can stop it. I just hope I maybe changed one persons mind about taking their dog to a shelter, a humane society, or buying a dog without researching.<br /><br />For those of you that care--- please repost this to at least one other craiglist in another city/state. Let's see if we can get this all around the US and have an impact.<br /><br />PROMISE A FUTURE - and DON'T FAIL THEM! PETS ARE FOR A LIFETIME!!!<br /><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-19641926802750789182010-06-28T21:08:00.001-04:002010-11-17T14:00:26.875-05:00A Girl Can Dream Right?<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TClHYXS5IRI/AAAAAAAAAFM/m8VLjzz5iGY/s1600/4343.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/TClHYXS5IRI/AAAAAAAAAFM/m8VLjzz5iGY/s320/4343.jpg" /></a></div>The shores of Ireland - If only I could make this dream real. <span class="more">..</span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-62119667655817603012010-06-26T15:23:00.002-04:002010-11-17T14:04:05.409-05:00So embarrassed! American Literature and Plagiarism, seriously?<div style="background-color: white; color: black; counter-reset: __goog_page__ 0; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 10pt; line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 6px; margin-left: 6px; margin-right: 6px; margin-top: 6px; min-height: 1100px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">American Literature and Plagiarism, seriously?<br /><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">For those of you who do not know, I attend Baker College. I am finishing my degree online. I hate winter weather and I hate driving in it even more. There are no colleges close enough to me, so that was a huge factor when trying to decide where to go to school. I initially wanted to finish my BA in Accounting since I started it so long ago at Oklahoma State. Now, I want to finish my Liberal Arts degree that I later transferred to and started at the University of Oklahoma Online. Baker did not offer that. Since I was working at H&R Block after I got here to MI it seemed like a good choice to finish up my Accounting degree. I quickly became bored of it, school and work. As the years went by, so did the job market here in MI. I ended up creating a career for myself doing my hobby, something that I love - Writing. This led me to change my degree at Baker to a BA in General Studies with majors in Accounting and General Business so that I was able to take more general classes and less accounting classes. </div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">I have been filling those spots with more English and Writing related classes.</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">The online college system at Baker runs in regular tradition semesters since they do have on-campus programs. For those of us in the online world instead of taking 4 classes in a 12-16 week semester, we take 2 classes in a 6 week session to be full time. So, every 6 weeks we take classes. This is my first summer break since I went back to school. I decided I needed a break. I have about 8-10 more classes to go, depending on what I take and how many credits they are. I am enrolled for fall.</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">However, I am looking at the possibility of being kicked out of Baker and losing my financial aid.</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">Why?</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">For plagarism.</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">Yes, you heard me right.</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">This last session I took American Literature 1. I have taken Lit classes in the past and have found them to be extremely interesting and fun. This class however started off with a bad taste in my mouth due to it taking a huge historical perspective. Blah. I am NOT a fan of History and if I wanted to take it I would have been a History major. Being the good student that I am, decided to take on the challenge and push through it. </div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">I struggled and it sucked. The writing was not the problem, it was the amount of reading that was crammed into 6 weeks that I had a hard time keeping up with as I was so terrible bored with it. I really felt like I was in a history class based on writers. In the past classes have been about reading works of art and critiquing them. </div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=B002IKKINE&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe>For my final paper, worth 1/3 of my grade I had to write about Americanism and how it is seen in Willa Cather's novel My Antonia. Easy enough, the novel was good and I got great reviews on the rough draft I had turned in the week before. What was missing what the direct quotations as proof from the novel. I always write my papers first, then find the information in the book/text to cite. We also had a textbook that had some of Cathers other works that I used. </div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">My reference list contained these two books as well as various internet sites.</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">I got a email today from my professor saying she could not give me ANY credit for the paper due to plagiarism. That means I have flunked the class. So now I will either be out of school due to loss of financial aid, or for the college kicking me out. </div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">I DO plan to go down to the school in Flint and talk to my Dean. However, its hard as my professor doesn't live in the state of Michigan. Oh the joys of online college. </div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">Anyone who knows me knows I would NOT plagarize.</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">If anything I may have accidentally forgot to cite a reference that had something similar to what I wrote in my paper, but it was not intentional.</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">Doesn't she know writing is my life, my career? I know what it feels like to have your work stolen and its pointless for me to do it when I am fully capable I writing my own stuff! </div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">Not only that, I cannot help the fact that this novel is assigned to millions of college students yearly, of course there are going to be similarities when we all have to write on the same book!</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">THIS IS EXTREMELY EMBARASSING FOR ME! I debated about even mentioning it at all, but it has me extremely p@ssed off and it pretty much has ruined my whole day. It is messing with my head, making me question my ability as a writer.</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">Funny thing, she not once mentioned to me that my paper was plagiarized when I submitted the rough draft. As a matter of fact the only thing she had bad to say was that my quotations were missing, which I added before I turned in the final.</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">So now instead of enjoying my little summer break, I will be fighting through it wondering what is going to happen in regards to my career and educational status.<br /><br /></div></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-33098030493062918112010-06-15T13:59:00.000-04:002010-06-15T13:59:12.506-04:00The Best Life<iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=B002PJ4I52&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe><br />I know this book is a few years old. I bought it, read it, followed Oprah on all her journeys and about six months ago someone close to me gave me another copy of the book. Good thing, mine was long gone. In those months it has been in my possession I picked it up and started, or re-read it more times than I care to remember. Shame on me, I know. These last few weeks I have been looking for something a bit more structured for me. I do not want to pay for Weight Watchers (lifetimer over goal) or another year of TOPS (I never go to meetings) as I prefer the online support since it suits my busy life much better. I love that the Best Life incorporates so many of the foods I love and that they are readily available to me at my local market. I also am a huge fan of Slim Fast since it is super easy, and sometimes I just need a break from cooking. Another plus about SF is I can put a meal bar in my purse to save me when we have our "family" outings to McD or BK for the kids playground feature. She plays, he eats whatever, and I am good with a diet pop and my meal bar.<br /><br /> I am bound and determined to find something that works for me, that is free, and I can use my food benefits on! Don't forget, I am the starving artist(writer)/college student!!!!<br /><br /><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=B001PPWSHW&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe>Not to mention, the powders are awesome for making summer time smoothies!<br /><br />So, for those of you who like SF and a lot of the foods you already have at home have the Best Life label ( I was shocked at how many I had), the book might be good for you to pick up. There is a lot of useful meal plans and recipes! The internet is a great tool for finding a ton of free information as well. Might be just want I need to kick start my program again.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-36974111749839700792010-06-14T11:22:00.000-04:002010-06-14T11:22:35.032-04:00My Julie and Julia Moment<div class="MsoNormal"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=B002RSDW80&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe>My Julie and Julia Moment</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">We all have them, those aha moments that make you wonder “Why am I not doing that???” I am a little behind on the J&J wagon as I just saw this movie about a month ago. Yes people, I am behind in the time and even slower at putting together a blog. I write for a living, and school is just one constant writing project, the last thing I want to really do in what little free time I have is write more. Not really, that last part was just a bad attempt at my typical sarcasm. Truth is, I LOVE to write and I love to share and tell stories. The problem is I am just too busy to really sit down and pound the keyboard for a wonderful, fun-filled blog post.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have tried to put together a J&J blog, but really had no idea where to take it. I told Matt long before I watched the movie that we needed to invest in a decent, nothing too fancy, digital camera so we could be like Shaytards and youtube our every move. However, Shaytard is pretty funny, I am not. I can however write, and I can cook. I love to do both. So what can I do? I want to blog and to vlog, I want to be part of this fun world too! Who would watch me? I am sure no one, but it sure as heck would be fun. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, I decide after watching countless hours in the middle of the night while faced with insomnia – cooking shows- and realizing that those of us who live in smaller towns with limited access to fresh markets, corner markets, and big fancy grocery stores – needed a show that was better suited for us normal folks. Nothing fancy, nothing out of the ordinary, but with all the fun ooey gooy goodness of any recipe out there. So, that has been in the back of my brain for the last couple of months. Once I saw Julie and Julia that idea pushed from the back of my brain in the dusty idea corner to the front of my brain where it keeps nagging at me day after day.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Step <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>1.</b> I need to buy a video camera.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Ok, so I am looking. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">While clicking through my countless emails I noticed a blog where a blogger is doing her version of J&J by making the entire book of recipes vegetarian! Good for her. Today I found a blog that just finished. The blogger did her version of J&J by making all of the recipes from “The Best Life Diet” by Bob Greene. I found myself clicking through, one after another. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=B003JC18CA&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe>One reason for my obsession? FOOD! Well, that and most of you know I am trying to get my weight back down. Last year Deb (Matt’s step mom) gave me the book. I love it. There is so much truth to it. This morning I dusted it off as I want to incorporate some of the meal plans and recipes in to my weight loss menu. I was searching around the internet for more recipes and message boards on this diet and that is what let me to the blog, which reminded me of the J&J movie and related blogs. Perhaps it is a sign? It could be a sign for my weight loss journey, a sign for a video blog idea and a sign for my regular blog, who knows. But I do know it sure sounds like a lot of fun to cook and write; my two favorite things. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Step 2 - ?</b> I already have a blog, <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>got a youtube account, I have a million cook books that are for healthy living, I already live on a budget for food and I already have a personal blog. I got it all. I have the workings of a comical, budget friendly, healthy cooking show for normal people. Now, I just need to get a camera and a theme to start. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-76583044349541029502010-06-11T21:13:00.001-04:002010-06-11T21:14:11.380-04:00Welcome to Tawas : The Story<div class="MsoNormal"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=B0024ZA87E&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe>Welcome to Tawas </div><div class="MsoNormal">The Story</div><div class="MsoNormal">June 11, 2010</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have a dream and I have had this dream for as long as I could remember. When my friends would talk about whom they are going to marry, where they are going to live and who their neighbors would be, I always talked about how I did not need a man or a child to make me happy. All I needed was a house on stilts, built in the sand with the beach as my backyard. I had plans to go to Miami University to study Marine Biology. I am a fish in water and all I ever wanted to do was swim with the dolphins as well as have a job that allowed me to be outside. I love being outside (however well all know that with Oklahoma summers that is next to impossible). Even more so, I love being in the water. I want to jump in to it -feet first, dive- head first, slam in to it -butt first; however my method, I want in it. I want it warm, and I never want to come out. I want the sun to penetrate every strand of my hair causing it to turn its funky Irish shade of dark red. I want…I want, I want. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Seems to be perhaps I want a lot these days. When I go to Florida, I never want to leave. When I would visit the Texas lakes, I never wanted to come home. When the ex-spouse and I would take Cain and Casey to the lake across the street from our house, it was an all day event. There are never enough words to describe how I feel when I am surrounded by water.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Life, it has not been so pleasant since I landed in Michigan. It has been hard. Long gone are the easy, laid-back, carefree days of living in Stillwater. Instead, I am faced with an uphill battle on a daily basis, and honestly, I have had enough.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Despite the fact I lived in Oklahoma, when we made our yearly treks up here to the great white north, the trip was never complete without a trip to Tawas. I can remember my grandmother always telling us if we could finish our ice cream cone by the time we reached the end of the dock, we could have another. I know I never did, by the time you got halfway there you were so sick of that honest to goodness overly sweet treat, or you were tired of it melting all over you that you ended up throwing it in the trashcan. I have so many wonderful memories of Tawas and visiting my family in Oscoda. Nothing makes me happier than being surrounded by the people and the things I love, with a body of water.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Last year for my birthday I made a request to go to Tawas for two days. We stayed one night and being up there on the beach, surrounded by all those things that made me happy, made me realize two things. Dreams never die and this is the life I have to have.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Problem is, at that point I wondered how I would get there. I am pretty good at squashing my own dreams, telling myself it will never happen. I will pick apart everything that is wrong with the situation and make myself believe it so that I never have to think about my dreams again. They are after all, just dreams.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">How could anyone say no to a nice house with the beach as your backyard? I doubt I am ever going to be able to live in Florida. The thought is nice and I do have family there, the downfall is that the cost of living is a great deal higher than it is here. I would love to be able to stick my toes in the sand year round, but I would be willing to compromise for Michigan summers (see, I know what a compromise is). </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I sat on the beach, looking across the water. This is my moment, the moment where that great American (or perhaps worldwide best seller) novel starts to stir. There is money waiting for me in Tawas. I thrive off the sun, the sand, the beach, the water, the quaint little town. This is my Zen, my Om. This is where a writer needs to write. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I had so many ideas swirling around in my head for things that I could write. I took no notes. I was on vacation after all. And now I have a bit of resentment for not bringing a notebook down to the beach with me. </div><div class="MsoNormal">During one of our walks in town we stuck our head in the little book shop. There was an entire section devoted to Michigan writers and even a section on Michigan writers who wrote stories based in Tawas. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=B0033GN2IK&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe></div><div class="MsoNormal"> I am not sure of where I am going yet, but I do know where I have been and I know I do not want to go back there. And while I am trying to figure that out, I will continue to tap away on the keyboard with the hopes of turning out that national best seller. As for life, I am going to continue to stand my ground and walk on my own two feet to see where they lead me. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">PS - I do know that there is a nice little writer community there!<iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=1933272066&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-12391460426613976352010-06-08T13:09:00.001-04:002010-06-08T13:09:37.929-04:00My first magazine article was accepted and getting ready to be published. My editor as well as the owner of the mag. are extremely pleased!Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-45627613068130503752010-06-05T16:58:00.001-04:002010-06-05T16:58:03.972-04:00I think the magazine article is finally finished. Me and the dogs are just kickin' it now. Wonder what I should make for dinner....Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-45130253256045719362010-06-04T19:18:00.001-04:002010-06-04T19:18:54.564-04:00Just tweaked my magazine article for the final edit. About to have some dinner, then back to finish up some work.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-14453938210854845202010-06-04T13:35:00.001-04:002010-06-04T13:35:04.435-04:00About to start on homework, then tweak the magazine article a bit.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-60802427298859345812010-06-03T20:14:00.001-04:002010-06-03T20:14:00.312-04:00Just finished my rough draft of my 1st magazine article. It goes quick when you write about things you are passionate about!Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-31644793537549610882010-06-03T13:06:00.001-04:002010-11-17T14:06:22.071-05:00100 Hacks to Help you Become a Better Writer<a href="http://www.onlinedegree.net/100-hacks-to-help-you-become-a-better-writer/">http://www.onlinedegree.net/100-hacks-to-help-you-become-a-better-writer/</a><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Real writing, no matter its form or intended audience, honestly reflects the passions and ideologies of the author. Any nuggets of advice that flit about on the internet, in books and newspapers and magazines, through conferences and</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><a href="http://www.onlinedegree.net/" style="color: #666699; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank">classrooms</a></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">only help tighten technicalities. Students or aspiring professionals wanting to galvanize their writing abilities should certainly explore the follow hacks in order to gain a much broader knowledge of the craft’s mechanical elements. They cannot teach creativity or lessen its subjectivity, however.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">By: </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16px;">Anna Miller, blogged by me (Chrystal Mahan) at her request. </span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-29087984960997054432010-06-02T18:18:00.001-04:002010-06-02T18:18:56.028-04:00All my hard work has paid off. I just landed my FIRST MAGAZINE deal! And it Christian based. Woot!Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-86941279955502971652010-06-02T11:56:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:09:23.633-05:00How to save money on computer software - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1849938-save-money-on-computer-software">How to save money on computer software - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; color: rgb(51, 51, 51); line-height: 21px; ">It is very easy to save money on computer <a class="iAs" classname="iAs" href="http://www.helium.com/items/1849938-save-money-on-computer-software#" target="_blank" itxtdid="22187691" style="padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 1px !important; padding-left: 0px; margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; float: none; left: auto; right: auto; top: auto; bottom: auto; border-top-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-bottom-style: solid !important; border-left-style: none; border-width: initial; border-color: initial; background-color: transparent !important; line-height: normal; text-align: left; position: static !important; display: inline; font-family: inherit !important; color: rgb(0, 100, 0) !important; text-decoration: underline !important; font-weight: normal !important; font-size: 14px; border-bottom-color: rgb(0, 100, 0) !important; border-bottom-width: 0.075em !important; ">software</a> if you just know what you want and where to look for it. Just about every popular brand name software program has a freeware equivalent program. It may not be brand name, but it looks the same, works the same, but it sure does not cost the same.</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-80838904072812951702010-06-02T11:45:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:09:23.639-05:00The meaning of dying with dignity - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1849927-right-to-die-with-dignity">The meaning of dying with dignity - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; color: rgb(51, 51, 51); line-height: 21px; ">What would you do if you were faced with a terminally ill situation? If it were a loved one it could be true that your thoughts were differ from those thoughts on your own. That is said because it is human nature to be a bit selfish and want to hold on to those that we love and hold dear to us. Watching someone die is not glamorous, and it is nothing like they show on television. It is wicked, and it is cruel. A patient is given so much morphine just to be content; it would make a well person high for a month. Having watched both of my grandparents and my best friend all die slow painful deaths, all within a two year span changed my views on feelings regarding the right to die. I have always believed it is a persons right to choose, but it becomes a different story when the person may not be of able mind to choose. Over time I had written two published articles regarding the choice, one entitled “The Right to Die: Shouldn’t It Be My Choice?” and the other “Should Doctor-Assisted Suicides Be Legalized for the Terminally Ill?” For the purpose of this paper, both will be elaborated on, and I will also go on to discuss other aspects of being able to make this decision. Shouldn’t I be able to choose my own right to die, or to live? However, it should also be discussed what happens if one is not able to make that choice and whether either decision is an ethical one.</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-31024159092045187192010-05-28T13:08:00.001-04:002010-11-17T14:11:28.602-05:00Now Playing: At the Movies<iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=B003DTEFW4&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe><br /><div class="MsoNormal">Now Playing: At the Movies</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Anyone who has ever been to a movie with me knows I absolutely HATE talkers. I am not talking about those who try to whisper here and there regarding what they just saw, I am talking about those that do not use an inside voice and want to talk about everything unrelated to the movie they can possibly think of. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have one thing to say, save your money and stay home. You are only ruining the movie for the rest of us, and chances are someone like me is going to call you out in front of the entire theater and embarrass you’re a@#. Seriously. If you cannot refrain from talking then the movie theater is not a place for you. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">There is however a exception to this rule. Allow me to explain. I have this friend, and we have gone to see a few movies together. We tend to have a drink (for those who do not know, Birch Run movie theater has a BAR, YES! A bar inside the theater, allowing you to enjoy a beverage of your choice while watching a movie) and we tend to speak out about the movie and laugh hysterically. To some we would seem annoying, and if I was in a packed theater with someone such as myself, I would call them out. Point blank, no questions asked. However, this changes when 1) you are the only two in the theater or 2) there are no more people in the theater than you have fingers on one hand AND 3) they are laughing and talking just as much as you and your co-hart. Translation: It is OK to have a good time in the theater if there is not a large amount of people and those people that are there are having the same good time you are. This can become even more fun when you make “friends” with those who are also enjoying a beverage of their choice.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It is NOT ok to speak out loud during a movie where there are a ton of people packed in like sardines trying to listen and enjoy a much more serious movie.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Just you wait, I have examples for you. You are going to love this.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">About two weeks ago above said mentioned friend, me, and another friend had girls night, which includes dinner and a movie. The movie of choice was Date Night. In the theater you have the three of us and two other couples. For those that need math help, that’s four people, for seven total. That movie was stupid funny and we laughed all the way through it. We made comments, we laughed some more. Best part? The others laughed with us and provided their own commentary to the movie as well.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This is when it is OK.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Every time Matt and I go to see a movie, it has more than seven people in it. We also tend to see a bit more serious movies, so not a complete two hours of laughing. Matt will get angry about the talkers, but it is usually me that speaks up about it. I have done this at midnight showings, daytime movies, nighttime movies, and sadly (or maybe not) at kids movie (I am sorry, but parents this is not a free pass to let your children run amuck, scream, yell, run, throw things). Not one movie has gone by where we did not have some talker drama. Honestly, I am tired of spending $11-$15 to get in to the movie, another $15 on goodies just to have some loud mouth ruin it for me. I should have just stayed home, downloaded something, made my own popcorn and called it good. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Yesterday I witnessed something I have never seen before.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Matt and I went to see the 4 o’clock showing of Robin Hood. I was a little bit hesitant about seeing such a long movie at that time, knowing someone is bound to be a chatter box and ruin it for me. Always happens without fail. We see that there are maybe 10 people in the theater total. Not too. We pick our seats, which happened to be in the middle of a single guy the row in front of us, and an older couple behind us and over a few seats. A few rows behind them there was another couple. The others were scattered about. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Matt and I arrived right when the commercials were over and the previews started. We did see a few commercials as well as heard quite the chatter box behind us. I tried not to focus on it, but it did not look promising. Previews started, which are much louder than commercials. Well, she got louder too. So, leave it to me to say something about people using their inside voice. I wanted to get loud, but Matt told me it was just the previews, not the movie. Here we sit through all those minutes of previews, and there she sat continuing to tell some guy all her gossip. There was no whispering. I knew more about that girl than I cared to ever know about a stranger. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The movie starts, I am getting excited. She doesn’t even stop to blink. Really?? Could your conversation not have waiting until the movie was over? Matt, under his breath does his infamous “shuuuut upppp” and although she did not hear him, the guy in front of us did and apparently he was equally annoyed.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">And do you know what he did? Instead of turning around and telling them to shut up like I do, or something equally rude and sarcastic to get my point across (the days of asking nicely are over, it does not work) he gets up out of his seat walks up to where they are and says “will you shut up, you are ruining my movie” to which she started to talk to him. Or at least she tried. He was having none of that and went right back down to his row and his chair. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">No big deal. He said what he needed to say and went on with life. Good for him. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This girl was not going to let things die. About five minutes later she comes walking down to his row, and starts talking to him while she is standing in the isle, he is in his seat, and we are right behind him.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Seriously? Some man just told you to be quiet and you are going to come down and try to talk to him about it? All he kept saying was for her to go away and stop talking.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">By this point I am annoyed as well as Matt, so he steps in saying that’s enough from the both of them as now they are both ruining the movie for not just us, but everyone else.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Never have I seen someone confront someone else in a movie theater like that. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I had to laugh.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">As a matter of fact, I am still laughing. I had to share that with you.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Moral of the story: Please DO NOT talk in a movie theater, especially around me ;).</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-90332020549190082662010-05-21T11:28:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:09:23.644-05:00Where to store your digital pictures - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1839394-photo-storage-online">Where to store your digital pictures - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; color: rgb(51, 51, 51); line-height: 21px; ">Every website owner needs stock photos to use, but once you find them where do you store them for use?</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-24767180213192547942010-05-21T11:09:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:09:23.649-05:00About web site content - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1839378-free-website-content">About web site content - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; color: rgb(51, 51, 51); line-height: 21px; ">Sometimes writing content is the easy part. Sometime one suffers from writers block or one just can not find that perfect photo to go with the written content. In today’s Free Resource <a class="iAs" classname="iAs" href="http://www.helium.com/items/1839378-free-website-content#" target="_blank" itxtdid="20160912" style="padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 1px !important; padding-left: 0px; margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; float: none; left: auto; right: auto; top: auto; bottom: auto; border-top-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-bottom-style: solid !important; border-left-style: none; border-width: initial; border-color: initial; background-color: transparent !important; line-height: normal; text-align: left; position: static !important; display: inline; font-family: inherit !important; color: rgb(0, 100, 0) !important; text-decoration: underline !important; font-weight: normal !important; font-size: 14px; border-bottom-color: rgb(0, 100, 0) !important; border-bottom-width: 0.075em !important; ">blog</a> we are going to take a look at a few places you can find good quality content, for free! You no longer have to worry about finding that perfect content for your website. Best of all, you aren't going to break the bank!</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-8622185071795467642010-05-18T15:26:00.002-04:002010-11-17T14:15:16.353-05:00"All you have to do is write one true sentence. Write the truest sentence that you know."<br />—Ernest HemingwayChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-69229046465183113592010-05-14T15:16:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:09:23.654-05:00Website reviews: Myfitnesspal.com - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1833120-myfitnesspal-nutritional-website">Website reviews: Myfitnesspal.com - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-33769917029262445302010-05-14T14:45:00.001-04:002010-11-17T14:16:09.603-05:00How to get email alerts<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1833093-get-email-alerts-reminders">How to get email alerts - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-13186262950932451782010-05-03T12:56:00.002-04:002010-11-17T14:17:03.166-05:00One man's creativity is another's brain damage.<br />- Roland FischerChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-8901121271694138692010-04-30T14:07:00.001-04:002010-12-23T12:47:52.023-05:00The Spark by Chris Downie<iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=1401926452&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I finished reading The Spark book. I was so excited to get it, counting down the days for my Amazon gift certificate. Once that arrived I patiently checked my mailbox daily for the book to arrive. I literally did a happy dance in my kitchen when it did.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I gave up on those weight loss miracles a long time ago. In high school I went on NutriSystem and lost over eighty pounds. Back then, NS actually had a center for you to go in, just like Jenny Craig.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Weight Watchers was a program that worked for me when I reached my mid -twenties. I know many just teach themselves how to cheat the system, basically learning how to still eat junk food for low points. Yes, I still have a few of those recipes, but I learned so much more than that. I learned that I liked and actually enjoyed fruits and vegetables over red meat. That is the girl I am trying to get back to, and I am doing a pretty good job so far.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I have been a member of SparkPeople since the early days. Free, then paid, then back to being free again. Having said that, I have seen it all and learned it all in regards to the website and all it has to offer. I know how things work, I know great recipes, I use my SparkPage and blog, and I even chat on the forums and groups. I have witness thousands of success stories; I have tried the meal plans, and read the Fast Break. Now, here I am in my mid-thirties.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Before I ordered the book, I read every review I could find. I asked questions. Since just about everyone had something great to say about it so I made the choice to buy it.<span> </span>I am not one to fall for gimmicks. I know you need to eat less and move more.<span> </span>What I did not want was another book telling me what to eat, keeping me from the foods I loved. What I did not want was another book telling me I have to do their exercises and only their exercises in order to make my body look like a super model. I am a real woman with real curves and logical expectations. I also did not want a get thin quick book. The SparkPeople website bragged that this book was a great inspiration and tool for people who were already on the SparkPeople site and using the tools offered. Because of this, I decided to give it a go.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I dove right in to it, reading chapters, taking notes. I just kept thinking to myself any minute now something “new” and refreshing is going to happen.<span> </span>Any minute now I am going to have my “aha” moment and everything was just going to click.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Page after page, chapter after chapter, there was nothing in it for me. I have heard it all and seen it all when it comes to knowing what you are supposed to do and not do.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I am bummed.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I feel like my Amazon gift certificate would have been better spent on a recipe book like Hungry Girl.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Here is why; every bit of the book I already knew and I am going to bet most people out there are going to know. Perhaps you found something new in it (or are going to), but I did not. I tried following the chapters, making the goals and the lists. I had already done that before. I know what they are, what I am trying to do. I know what I need to do to get there. The last thing I needed to do was make another list.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">The book itself is not bad by any means, but I think it is a bit misleading to try to push it towards those who have been on SparkPeople for quite some time. It is clearly meant to get new people to try out SparkPeople and all it has to offer.<span> </span>Which is not a bad thing. I just do not think it should have been pushed towards those already on the site.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I feel like SparkPeople is starting to become a popular commercial diet plan. The website itself is starting to become another social media networking site.<span> </span>I think it has overload now. I find myself spending way too much time on the site. Not because I want to be, but because it just takes a long time to do simple tasks like find things in forums or groups, as well as log the food. As much as I love the site and the iPhone app, I have been using MyFitnessPal website and app much more. Clean, simple, and has just what I need and nothing I don't. I will stay with SparkPeople for the resources and the friendships.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I would recommend the book to someone who wants to learn calorie counting and does not know where to start. But I would not recommend it to those who have been around the block a time or two.</div><div><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-13847438133514045632010-04-29T19:55:00.000-04:002010-04-29T19:55:54.793-04:00The Spark - Final Book Review<iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=1401926452&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe><br /><div class="MsoNormal">I wish I had something good to say, but right now I don’t. Not that what I have to say is bad, but it just makes me unhappy and a bit disappointed. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I finished reading The Spark book. I was so excited to get it, counting down the days for my Amazon gift certificate. Once that arrived I patiently checked my mailbox daily for the book to arrive. I literally did a happy dance in my kitchen when it did.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I gave up on those weight loss miracles a long time ago. Weight Watchers was a program that worked for me. I know many just teach themselves how to cheat the system, basically learning how to still eat junk food for low points. Yes, I still have a few of those recipes, but I learned so much more than that. I learned that I liked, and actually enjoyed fruits and vegetables over red meat. That is the girl I am trying to get back to, and I am doing a pretty good job so far.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have been a member of SparkPeople since the early days. Free, then paid, then back to being free again. Having said that, I have seen it all and learned it all in regards to the website and all it has to offer. I know how things work, I know great recipes, I use my sparkpage and blog, and I even chat on the forums and groups. I have witness thousands of success stories; I have tried the meal plans, and read the Fast Break. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Before I ordered the book, I read every review I could find. I asked questions. Since just about everyone had something great to say about it so I made the choice to buy it. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am not one to fall for gimmicks. I know you need to eat less and move more. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What I did not want was another book telling me what to eat, keeping me from the foods I loved. What I did not want was another book telling me I have to do their exercises and only their exercises in order to make my body look like a super model. I am a real woman with real curves and logical expectations. I also did not want a get thin quick book. The SparkPeople website bragged that this book was a great inspiration and tool for people who were already on the SparkPeople site and using the tools offered. Because of this, I decided to give it a go.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I dove right in to it, reading chapters, taking notes. I just kept thinking to myself any minute now something “new” and refreshing is going to happen. Page after page, chapter after chapter, there was nothing in it for me. I have heard it all and seen it all when it comes to knowing what you are supposed to do and not do. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am bummed.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I feel like my Amazon gift certificate would have been better spent on a recipe book like Hungry Girl. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Here is why; every bit of the book I already knew. Perhaps you found something new in it (or are going to), but I did not. I tried following the chapters, making the goals and the lists. I had already done that before. I know what they are, what I am trying to do. I know what I need to do to get there. The last thing I needed to do was make another list.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The book itself is not bad by any means, but I think it is a bit misleading to try to push it towards those who have been on SP for quite some time. It is clearly meant to get new people to try out SparkPeople and all it has to offer. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I feel like SparkPeople is starting to become a popular commercial diet plan. The website itself is starting to become another social media networking site. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I think it has overload now. I find myself spending way too much time on the site. Not because I want to be, but because it just takes a long time to do simple tasks like find things in forums or groups, as well as log the food. As much as I love the site and the iPhone app, I have been using MyFitnessPal website and app much more. Clean, simple, and has just what I need and nothing I don’t. I will stay with SparkPeople for the resources and the friendships. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I would recommend the book to someone who wants to learn calorie counting and does not know where to start. But I would not recommend it to those who have been around the block a time or two. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-57550053700651641042010-04-24T12:06:00.002-04:002010-11-17T14:17:47.156-05:00Too many people miss the silver lining because they're expecting gold. - Maurice SetterChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-72508546653515400732010-04-22T15:11:00.000-04:002010-04-22T15:11:05.508-04:00Weight Watcher 101: The Spark, book notes<iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=1401926452&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The Spark book</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am a little behind in my blog notes for the book, so here we go.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b>Chapter 2</b></div><div class="MsoNormal">Goals</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Long-term:</div><div class="MsoNormal">Have a strong family.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Build a better relationship with my soon to be mother in law.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Obtain higher paying writing contracts.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Purchase a new house.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Less stress and drama in my life.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Overcome my anxiety by learning how to better manage it.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Be healthy and fit.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Control my binge eating better.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Action steps:</div><div class="MsoNormal">Save money.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Invest money.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Start to put money in retirement account again.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Exercise 3 to 5 times a week.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Eat out less.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Eat less meat.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Eat more fresh food.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b>Chapter 3</b></div><div class="MsoNormal">Fitness</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Find alternatives when eating out. Baked, grilled, not friend. Vegi’s not pasta or rice for a side.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Do you consider Weight Watchers to be a fad diet?</div><div class="MsoNormal">Start taking measurements, just because the scale does not move does not mean other things aren’t happening.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Need to get increased and better sleep.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Less stress.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b>Chapter 4</b></div><div class="MsoNormal">Fire</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Things to work on:<br />Accountability (for food. You bite, you write)</div><div class="MsoNormal">Faith</div><div class="MsoNormal">Patience</div><div class="MsoNormal">Commitment (do not give up just because the scale does not move)</div><div class="MsoNormal">Courage (to try new things)</div><div class="MsoNormal">Flexibility (exercise does not always have to be in the AM, or first thing)</div><div class="MsoNormal">Enthusiasm (I am getting healthy!)</div><div class="MsoNormal">Joyfulness (I am happy to be alive!)</div><div class="MsoNormal">Optimism (I will lose the weight!)</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Slow and steady wins the race.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">pg 56, the spiral.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Affirmations:</div><div class="MsoNormal">I am a survivor.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I am on a healthy path that will change my life.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-40434550641546943602010-04-21T13:07:00.001-04:002010-04-21T13:09:06.165-04:00Weight Watcher 101: Hungry Girl & Shirataki Noodles<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px;"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0312556187&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><div><div class="MsoNormal">I have always been a fan of Hungry Girl, and I can remember the very early days of Lisa Lillien and her HG newsletter. I was a follower of WW at the time and her emails were packed with tidbits of WW related information. The she had hundreds of followers and a limited website, now she has hundreds of thousands of followers and a few books up her sleeve. For quite some time she has raved about this low cal (20) shirataki noodles, which are basically tofu. I lived in Oklahoma at the time and could not track these down. Once I moved to Michigan, I had forgotten about these little gems. Now, here I am, still in Michigan, almost three years later and have finally found my ‘spark’ to get my health back on track. I got reacquainted with Hungry Girl and become more of a consistent user of SparkPeople. <br /><br /><br /><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=1401926452&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Last week while checking out the produce, organic, and soy section of a newer market in town (I got tired of driving to the cheaper market 20 minutes away) I looked in the middle of all the blocks of tofu and there to my amazement were these little bags of noodles ($2.50 a bag!). I was pretty excited but I have to tell you, I had NO idea what to do with them. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">One week later, I finally decided to try them.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Reading the package directions one will see that it tells you to rinse and par boil to get rid of the “authentic” smell. Whatever the heck that is. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I opened the package (oh! That is what that smell is! Ew, sort of fishy, and fish doesn’t bother me, but this was weird), drained; put them in a pot of water with a chicken bullion cube hoping they would retain some of that flavor. One thing about tofu, there is no flavor. Cubed or noodle, it is pretty plain. I let them boil for a few minutes and drained them again. Thinking about how much I like elbow macaroni with a bit of spray butter, salt, pepper, and a sprinkle of cheddar cheese, I thought that would be the way to go.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I was not in the mood for stir fry, and the sun is shining too nicely for me to want soup.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I made the wrong choice. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I put one bight in my mouth, chewed, swallowed, and got a faint fishy smell. It made me a bit funny feeling so I just chucked it all in the trash.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Perhaps it was not a good day for buttered noodles after all.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I do not want to give up on these almost calorie free gems, but I cannot afford to throw away $2.50 on another package with the hopes another recipe will be better. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I will have to think about this one for a while. I am pretty happy with 2 ounces of spaghetti with a can of spinach and a can of diced tomatoes for a nice pasta meal. Tofu noodles may not be the way to go.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-51676315482037183532010-04-19T10:01:00.001-04:002010-04-19T10:01:33.282-04:00Testing out ping.fm to update my status on all websites at once, gives me something to do while on treadmill.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-28025438834890166232010-04-15T16:27:00.004-04:002010-12-14T20:22:23.827-05:00My Niche<div class="MsoNormal"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i192.photobucket.com/albums/z275/lolorocker/write.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i192.photobucket.com/albums/z275/lolorocker/write.jpg" /></a></div>My niche is what?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It has been stated that every blog needs a niche in order to grow and survive. We all want followers, we aim for comments, but I just want readers. I want someone who is actually going to want to read my words and give me proper feedback. I want someone who will share their words with me.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">For me to pick one topic to write about daily is impossible. I have a lot going on in my life, many interests, and a bottomless pile of ideas. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">My niche would be: LIFE</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am:</div><div class="MsoNormal">A full time writer</div><div class="MsoNormal">Full time college student</div><div class="MsoNormal">Pet shop owner</div><div class="MsoNormal">Cookbook collector</div><div class="MsoNormal">Diet junkie</div><div class="MsoNormal">Lifetime weight watcher</div><div class="MsoNormal">Recipe queen</div><div class="MsoNormal">Chef</div><div class="MsoNormal">Housekeeper</div><div class="MsoNormal">Weekend nanny</div><div class="MsoNormal">Personal assistant</div><div class="MsoNormal">Professional organizer</div><div class="MsoNormal">Shopkeeper</div><div class="MsoNormal">Wedding planner</div><div class="MsoNormal">Survivor</div><div class="MsoNormal">Fighter</div><div class="MsoNormal">Freebie lover</div><div class="MsoNormal">Bookworm</div><div class="MsoNormal">Empathetic</div><div class="MsoNormal">Bookkeeper</div><div class="MsoNormal">Banker</div><div class="MsoNormal">Biller</div><div class="MsoNormal">Budget friendly</div><div class="MsoNormal">“Green”</div><div class="MsoNormal">MMA Fan</div><div class="MsoNormal">Ireland Dreamer</div><div class="MsoNormal">Music listener</div><div class="MsoNormal">Crafter</div><div class="MsoNormal">Writer</div><div class="MsoNormal">But most of all, I am a thinker.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">With all of these, how could I pick just one?</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-67201767587389148472010-04-15T14:29:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:09:23.664-05:00Accounting: Options for your small business - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1805492-bookkeeping-for-free">Accounting: Options for your small business - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-80821155814522864012010-04-15T13:32:00.001-04:002010-11-17T14:22:05.947-05:00(Poetry In Motion) Creative Writing 101: Two Poems, Rough DraftThis week our assignment was to write two poems, and submit the rough draft.<br />Here are mine:<br /><br /><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Consumption<o:p></o:p></i></div><div class="MsoNormal">I hate you<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">This anger consumes me<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">I hate you<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">Want to be rid of you<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">I hate you<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">GO!<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">Go away!<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">I hate you<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">It was you that went astray<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">I hate you<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">HATE!<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">But, despite all that<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">Deep down<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">I still love you.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p> (C)C.M.</o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p><br /></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p><br /></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p><br /></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Lost<o:p></o:p></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am so LOST<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"> Can not find my way<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"> Can you help me<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"> HELP ME PLEASE<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I need out<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"> ~OUT~<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"> out from these grips<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"> controlling grips<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"> grips you have on me<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Can you just not see<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"> Just wont leave<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"> Leave me<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"> Let me out.</div><div class="MsoNormal">(C) C.M.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-15021778980407372932010-04-14T22:35:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:09:23.668-05:00Online event and party planning - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1804951-online-party-rooms">Online event and party planning - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-31615478292256524472010-04-14T22:31:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:09:23.673-05:00Get faxes in your home and office without paying for the machine - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1804932-free-faxes-and-voicemails">Get faxes in your home and office without paying for the machine - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-65465852727912749352010-04-09T17:48:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:09:23.678-05:00Free software for business functions - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1799539-free-office-software">Free software for business functions - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-8082904001280786532010-04-08T20:36:00.001-04:002010-04-08T20:36:40.441-04:00Read, Rate - Get Paid!<a href="http://www.readbud.com/?ref=4119128"><img alt="readbud - get paid to read and rate articles" border="0" src="http://www.readbud.com/images/728_90_banner.jpg" /></a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-10029844907888263292010-04-02T19:57:00.001-04:002010-04-02T19:57:33.127-04:00iPod Touch App TestI downloaded this free app for my Touch so I could update my blog with all my useless thoughts when I am away from my desktop and too lazy to deal with the laptop! So here is my first test post. Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-58238357669086246632010-04-02T15:31:00.000-04:002010-04-02T15:31:11.599-04:00Creative Writing Journal: April 2, 2010<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px;"><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">In <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">The Writers Journey: Mythic Structure for Writers</i> by Christopher Vogler, we are introduced to a concept called “Hero’s Journey” where it is an observation that all stories follow these set principles of story telling.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">Vogler states that all stories consist of common structural elements. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">Here is that list; I am posting it here as this will be the basis for much of my writing in this class.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="fnt0"><span style="color: black; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">Hero’s Journey<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="fnt0"><span style="color: black; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">1. Heros are introduced in the ORDINARY WORLD, where<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="fnt0"><span style="color: black; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">2. they receive the CALL TO ADVENTURE.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="fnt0"><span style="color: black; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">3. They are RELUCTANT at first or REFUSE THE CALL, but<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="fnt0"><span style="color: black; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">4. are encouraged by a MENTOR to<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="fnt0"><span style="color: black; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">5. CROSS THE FIRST THRESHOLD and enter the Special World, where<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="fnt0"><span style="color: black; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">6. they encounter TESTS, ALLIES, AND ENIMIES.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="fnt0"><span style="color: black; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">7. They APPROACH THE INMOST CAVE, crossing a second threshold<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="fnt0"><span style="color: black; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">8. where they endure the ORDEAL.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="fnt0"><span style="color: black; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">9. They take possession of their REWARD and<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="fnt0"><span style="color: black; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">10. are pursued on THE ROAD BACK to the Ordinary World.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="fnt0"><span style="color: black; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">11. They cross the third threshold, experience a RESURRECTION, and are transformed by the experience.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="fnt0"><span style="color: black; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">12. They RETURN WITH THE ELIXER, a boon or treasure to benefit the Ordinary World. </span></span><span style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">Reference<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 115%; margin-bottom: 10.0pt; text-indent: .5in;"><span style="color: black; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">Vogler, Christopher. (2008). <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">The Writer’s Journey: Mythic Structure for Writers </i>(3<sup>rd</sup> Ed). Studio City, California: Michael Wise Productions. <o:p></o:p></span></div></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-70513487735239554872010-04-02T15:21:00.001-04:002010-04-02T15:21:27.633-04:00Creative Writing 101: April 2, 2010<div class="MsoNormal">I am taking a creative writing class this term, and one of the three books has suggested that we writers do what we do best, and that is write. For those who do not already keep a journal (I do!) should start. And we should start writing down whatever we feel like. This journal does not have to be about the day’s events, it can be about any sort of thought or idea that might flood your brain. It can be quotes you like, story ideas, something you saw outside of your home, anything.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I used to be very good about keeping a journal. I wrote every day in one until 2005. Since the introduction to blogging, I have not been very good about keeping a handwritten journal.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Matthew was nice enough to buy me a very nice green leather one for Christmas, which I have been trying very hard to get back in the habit of writing in it.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Since I am back in school, my daily blogging is no longer. As time goes on, I hope to be able to write for a living (even more so than I am now), blog consistently, and finish up school. That is the plan for the year. During this time I am also on a lifestyle change journey. I do not wish to call it a diet, as they do not last. I am doing it on my own, without the help of Weight Watchers or NutriSystem, as I have done in the past. I am now a member of TOPS for the meetings, which I have not gone to (shame on me!). It really has been me, my determination, the treadmill, and sparkpeople.com. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I want to start blogging again. I want to start sharing my journey in life. I want to use this as my creative writing outlet for class, separate from the personal journal, which currently seems to just be used as a venting machine.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Sharing with everyone not only helps hone my writing craft, but it keeps me accountable for my creative writing class, and my lifestyle change.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-27155077088906717202010-04-02T12:47:00.002-04:002010-11-17T14:20:37.474-05:00Olivia Update<div>Olivia was sent home yesterday, her surgery was Tuesday night. The Doctor thinks she would get more sleep and it would be quieter at home.The hospital was overloaded, they didn't have enough beds and it's a holiday weekend. </div><div><br /></div><div>She is in more pain this time because they had to go through scar tissue and she is really mad at everybody but that's okay ,she has every right to be mad.</div><div><br /></div><div>If anyone would like to send Olivia a card (she loves them) PM me and I will give you her address.</div><div><br /></div><div>Also, Matt and I thought it would be good to try to do the benefit concert for her this year that we were not able to get done last year. Matt would return to Downseed for the shows, so him and Nate are going to work on that, with Billy as well. Hopefully at Hamilton St Pub in Saginaw and Machine Shop in Flint. </div><div><br /></div><div>The tumor was larger this time, growing much faster. They had to lift the cerebellum to get as much of it as they could. Only time will tell whether she is going to have to go through chem/radiation again, as well as how much damage was done. She will need a lot of love, a lot of rest!</div><div><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-8852650026328797872010-03-24T18:16:00.002-04:002010-11-17T14:20:37.479-05:00Olivia's Prayer Chain<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px;"></span><br /><div style="clear: none; line-height: 14px; padding-bottom: 10px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">For those of you who do not know the story:<br /><br />My cousin Tim's oldest daughter Olivia just turned 6 this past Monday. On her 4th birthday she spent the day in surgery removing tumors around her brain and spine. They removed what they could, chemo and radiation took care of the rest. Last year, for her 5th birthday, and 1 year in remission, the Make a Wish Foundation sent my family to Disney world. Olivia and her sister Ava were such cute princesses and what a great thing for Olivia to be able to experience. It was a long road to recovery for Olivia, as one can only imagine what it does when the brain is operated on.<br /><br />Fast forward. Olivia's tumors have grown back, and my mother says they are growing very fast this time, hence the surgery on Monday. However, she had a fever and was sent home. Now rescheduled for next Tuesday.<br /><br />My mother has some wonderful neighbors, and Anne started this prayer chain.<br /><br />It started Sunday the 21st of March and will continue until the end of April.<br /><br />My mother gave me a copy and I am sending it to all of you.I hope you will help.Send to everyone you know and ask them to say the prayer, even if you only say it once, I will be grateful.<br /><br />Thanks to all!<br /><br />God we pray for Olivia Maxine Morse, God hear our prayers.<br />God we ask that you guide the hands of the surgeon who will operate on Olivia,God hear our prayers.<br />God we ask that all of the tumor be removed, God hear our prayers.<br />God we ask that Olivia will recover swiftly and completely, God hear our prayers.<br />God we ask that her parents and sister stay strong during this difficult time, God hear our prayers.<br />We Thank you God for all that you do, Amen.</div><div class="photo photo_none" style="clear: both; line-height: 14px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><div class="photo_img" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; clear: none; line-height: 14px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a href="http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=4486654&op=1&view=all&subj=383650033887&aid=-1&auser=0&oid=383650033887&id=569555914" style="color: #3b5998; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;"><img class=" " onload="var img = this; onloadRegister(function() { adjustImage(img); });" src="http://photos-h.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc3/hs021.snc3/10835_202119350914_569555914_4486654_2834339_n.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; display: block; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; width: 460px;" /></a></div><div class="caption" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; clear: none; color: #666666; font-size: 11px; line-height: 12px; padding-bottom: 10px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 2px; text-align: left;">My little peepers, Ava, Madison and Olivia</div></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-24666961357303503842010-03-16T12:35:00.001-04:002010-11-17T14:21:05.906-05:00Wedding Invite<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: small;"></span><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: small;"></span><br /><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;">HEAR YE! HEAR YE!</span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;">Lady Chrystal Tina Mahan</span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;">and</span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;">Sir Matthew Cameron McConnell</span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;">request the honour of thy presence </span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;">at their marriage</span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;">on Saturday, the second of October</span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;">in the year of our Lord Two thousand and ten.</span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;">The ceremony will begin at</span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;">four o’clock in the afternoon at </span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;">Curwood Castle.</span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;">Celtic/Renaissance style attire is recommended</span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;">but not required.</span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;">Feasting and merriment will follow the ceremony </span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;">at six o'clock in the eve,</span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;">Sacred Heart Church.</span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;">Please respond by May 1, 2010</span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;">M______________________________</span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;">Number of People Attending ____</span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;">_______ accepts ______ regrets</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-74133643740198054752010-03-05T08:58:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:26:01.359-05:00The Wedding - An UpdateThings are slowly in the works. Monday we drove to Owosso to meet with Diane who is basically a wedding planner of sorts. We are getting the dresses and kilts from her for the wedding party. She is also doing the set up and the take down of the wedding. She is also available to do our reception (if we have one) as well since we really would like the king and queen thrones along with the round table. She has given us a really good deal on her service and the rentals, so we are not going to complain too much. <br /><br />We had planned on stopping at the castle to get our date booked and paid for; however after spending over three hours at Diane’s house, we missed the castle. So we will have to go back again. We are going to take Maddy with us and go Saturday. She will have fun with that, as she loves to go on outings. On the way home my Explorer started to have issues and I had to take it to the shop. $200 later, it is fine.<br /> <br />Matt and I are just hoping everything will work out for us. We are not sure how many people we can invite to the wedding, and we are still unsure of the reception details. I guess we just have to go one day at a time and pray for the best. Everything always seems to have a way of working itself out just the way we want it. Since this is a 2nd wedding for both of us, some of these details just do not matter. <br /><br />We have (well mostly me) decided that the other set of rings I originally wanted has been nagging at me in the back of my mind. The set did not come with an engagement ring, which is why we did not choose it at first. However, I have my grandmothers that I would love to just take to have cleaned and use it. Our rings we originally got are sterling silver, however they are CZ. That is fine by me as I am really not a materialistic person, so those things do not matter to me at all. But the ring itself is really big and bulky. Not to mention all 3 rings will have to be sized, which will cost just as much as I paid for them. So, we have decided to go ahead and get the other set of rings we really wanted in the first place since they are much more our personality (the Celtic knot work with the Claddagh), and I will either send this set back where I got them, or just resell them myself. Either way, we will have Celtic rings. Lesson learned; always go with your first choice. <br /><br />Funny story: And this is in no way meant to be mean. Sue (Matt’s mom) saw my ring for the first time last week. She thought it was very pretty, inspected it and then said “Be sure to take it off before you shower.” At first I did not think much of it, and I thought it was odd. Perhaps she thought it would fall off and go down the drain. But then I thought I bet she thinks its just fake costume jewelry and it will start to peel?? When we were at Diane’s she called Matt. She was someplace and saw a $1000 wedding set on clearance for $199 and they were real gold and so many carat diamonds. He had her on speaker phone. I giggled. Nice of her to let us know, but now I really feel like she thinks our rings are fake. LOL! Anyway, I have had my grandmother’s engagement ring for a while now and it is just begging to be worn! It’s beautiful and I am excited to be able to bring it back to life again. I loved my grandmother very much, she taught me so much in life even though we lived thousands miles apart. It is nice to have a piece of her with me all the time.<br /><br />I posted a picture of the rings. I can’t wait to get them. I also posted some more pictures on some cake ideas, which I know is going to take me forever to decide on. <br /><br />I did post a picture of myself in the emerald green dress. The black overlay will be replaced by navy blue; the weird crown she stuck on my head won’t be there. My hair will not look like a curly mess! The green and blue plaid sash will be replaced by Matt’s family tartan. Also, thanks to sparkpeople.com I am slowly coming down in weight. I had planned to lose 60 pounds by October 2011, but since it has been pushed to this year, I would like to lose it all in the next 8 months, but I know that is not going to happen. I would be happy with at least 40. As most of you know, this is not about my wedding, but more about my back and my health. The wedding just became the motivator, and after seeing myself in this photo….well lets just say I don’t really care to look at it.<br /><br />As we work out the details, I will keep you posted. And for those of you who live so far away, I will post as many blogs and photos as I can!!Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-53449513380185201932010-02-25T21:27:00.000-05:002010-11-15T21:28:33.020-05:00Poetry In Motion: Darkness<div class="MsoNormal">Darkness</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I carry darkness inside </div><div class="MsoNormal">something I always try to hide</div><div class="MsoNormal">although I don’t know why</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">‘Tis a beautiful thing,</div><div class="MsoNormal">you see</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Provides me with warmth and comfort</div><div class="MsoNormal">shelters me from the storms</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">No need for alarm</div><div class="MsoNormal">I means me no harm</div><div class="MsoNormal">I welcome it with open arms</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It engulfs me</div><div class="MsoNormal">swells my heart</div><div class="MsoNormal">some time so overbearing</div><div class="MsoNormal">I fall apart</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">screaming, please</div><div class="MsoNormal">why must you pain me so?</div><div class="MsoNormal">(C)C.M.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-3769588318005804962010-02-24T21:45:00.000-05:002010-11-15T21:47:01.217-05:00The Wedding ~ Celtic Style<div class="MsoNormal">The Wedding </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Nothing is set in stone, but we are planning for a Fall Wedding in 2011. Hopefully around the first weekend of October. The place will be Curwood Castle in Owosso, Michigan.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">All of you in Oklahoma have that long to save some money, charter a plane, a bus, get the group discount, whatever you got to do to get here !!! LOL<br /><br />This is how we have planned, so far. Dean (the king, matt dad) will walk out with the sword, followed by the bagpipes playing Scotland the Brave. Matt (soon to be king) will come out next. Once he gets up to his dad he will kneel as the couples in the wedding will start to line up. The first ones in the line will carry the Scotland flag for the boys’ side and the flag of Ireland for the girls’ side. <br /><br />My cousin Chrissy and her husband Kevin will be last in line. Chrissy will be walking Casey, and Kevin will walk Cain. For those that don’t know, those are my Boxer dogs. Well they are ours now. The dogs are going to have sashes made of Matt's family tartan (same as kilts) as a symbol of being brought into his family (since they were mine to start with).<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">(The boys will all be in kilts, the girls will have Renaissance style dresses. It is a traditional Celtic wedding after all.)<br /><br />Once the girls and boys are all in place, Matt will rise, and his dad will basically "knight" him (for lack of a better term) and he will then take his place at the alter. This will then make him King<br /><br />The person who is going to marry us is our pastor at our church. He is about the same age as us and SUPER excited to get to wear a kilt. LOL<br /><br />Ok, once the boys are girls are all lined up, the bags will stop playing and switch to Irish Eyes are Smiling. Deb (Matt’s step mom) will then walk in front (she’s Irish so that worked out well) sort of paving the way for me. Behind her will be Madison (throwing shamrocks of course, and she is Matt's Princess) and then behind her, will be me. <br /><br />I think Matt is having his dad make some sort of a speech. <br /><br />Wedding takes place.<br /><br />One tradition we are thinking of doing is the tying of the wrists, it’s a Celtic thing.<br /><br />We are thinking about having the reception at Albee Township all, since that is where all my family things seem to end up, and its easy for everyone to get to since most of them all live around these parts.<br /><br />There will be a dinner reception with a DJ, then, an after party for adults only after about 8, with drinking and Matt wants an Irish Punk Band...This of course is all subject to change.<br /><br />So that's about all we have going now....<br /><br style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> <!--[if !supportLineBreakNewLine]--><br style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> <!--[endif]--><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-87611883773959156242010-02-24T21:44:00.000-05:002010-11-15T21:45:28.583-05:00The Proposal<div class="MsoNormal">The Proposal</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I find it is easy to write about things (I mean, I am a writer after all) then it is for me to pick up the phone and call you all individually. As most of you know, I am not a huge fan of talking on the phone anyway. Text me all day long, that’s fine. But I have never been very good about picking up the phone and calling someone. I think it is from all those years of having to answer the phone at work. It tends to take the fun out of it. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Besides, I am not going to pass up a good opportunity to write about something.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">As I mentioned in the last blog, The Engagement, Matt and I had picked out rings together. So I knew at some point, I was going to get a ring. Every day I had asked him if they had come yet, and “no” was the answer I had always gotten. Last Friday night Matt took Madison over to his moms to spend the night. I was in bed, watching TV when he came home. He came over and kneeled beside me, and just sort of rested there for a minute. I honestly thought nothing of it, until my little light bulb went off. He started to speak at the exact moment I said “You got the rings!” *doh* that pretty much killed the moment. *sigh* So, he asked me to marry him. I of course said “YES!” </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Saturday night after Matt came home from Airsoft and his mom dropped Madison off, he took my ring and showed it to Madison. She was all excited (they were sitting on the bed with me) and they both turned around, her face was all smiles and her eyes were huge, as they both said “will you marry us?” and she threw herself on me for the biggest hug ever. I said “oh if I have to” she started to laugh and told me I did. I gave her and Matt a hug and said I would spend the rest of my life with them. It was so cute.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I did not get some big fancy proposal, no fireworks, no candles, no romantic dinner, no party, nothing of that sort. But when I did get was a proposal that was special to us all.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Next Up: The Wedding</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-7258355468180413542010-02-24T21:12:00.000-05:002010-11-15T21:26:41.848-05:00Poetry In Motion: Agony<div class="MsoNormal">Agony</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have a new muse</div><div class="MsoNormal">don’t you know</div><div class="MsoNormal">listen to me rattle</div><div class="MsoNormal">or is that ebb & flow</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">That old familiar feeling</div><div class="MsoNormal">has perched outside my door</div><div class="MsoNormal">leaving me bound & twisted</div><div class="MsoNormal">agony on the floor</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Why have you come back to me</div><div class="MsoNormal">I ask over and over again</div><div class="MsoNormal">Were all the other times not enough for you</div><div class="MsoNormal">All I get is a twisted grin</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">That feeling</div><div class="MsoNormal">I have seen too many times before</div><div class="MsoNormal">I just want to run</div><div class="MsoNormal">Run so fast, right out that door</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Please stop coming for me</div><div class="MsoNormal">Just let me live my life</div><div class="MsoNormal">I don’t want any more worries</div><div class="MsoNormal">or all the constant strife</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">In my ear is chanting</div><div class="MsoNormal">Run. Run free my girl</div><div class="MsoNormal">You will never be allowed</div><div class="MsoNormal">to live in a normal world</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It is your destiny</div><div class="MsoNormal">Can’t you see</div><div class="MsoNormal">Confusion, despair</div><div class="MsoNormal">agony.</div><div class="MsoNormal">(C)C.M.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-59608961158550335032010-02-23T13:51:00.002-05:002010-11-17T14:26:01.364-05:00The EngagementYes, it is true. I am getting married. <br /><br />I mentioned a week or so ago that I had some news to tell you soon….we had picked out our rings that day. So, I knew ..but I also knew he wanted to actually propose. Me, the one who does not like surprised begged that he not do it while we were out in public someplace. I had hoped he would listen. That was all I needed was to have a panic attack while my boyfriend proposed to me. <br /><br />As some of you may know, Matt and I are not without problems. Many couples face hiccups in their relationships, and it seems Matt and I had to face all of ours at once. There were more times than I care to remember that I began to pack my stuff and make arrangement to move out. But something always held me back. I really started to search inside myself, and think about all of the reasons why I was staying, as well as why it was I wanted to leave.<br /><br />To often, in the past, I have ran away. During the worst of it all, night after night of countless fighting and tears, that ex BF that you all so love to hate (he actually ended up being one of my best friends here) decided that enough was enough and tried to get me to leave Matt and come back to him. And, when things hit rock bottom, there was a moment (oh, so brief moment) where I felt Matt and I were not going to work out and perhaps the ex deserved a second chance. I had seen him grow so much in the last year and maybe, it was better for a us both. <br /><br />While I started to soul search, I remembered a book we had gotten for Christmas from his Dad and his wife Deb. It was called The Love Dare. A 40 day book for couples. Although it took us a month to actually sit down and do it, I have to say it truly has been a relationship saver. Shortly after we started the book I had found the movie Fireproof, which the book was based off of. I watched it, and it changed my life. When Matt got home that day, I made him watch it. It was then he decided that HE was the one that needed to change, and he is now doing the book on his own.<br /><br />For too long I felt that I was doing everything for him and getting nothing in return. When I moved in I instantly became a mother, a maid, a chef, and a drycleaner. I did this while Matt slept in late and sat around on the computer, watched TV or played video games. It was not until this book did he start to get serious about finding a job, being productive and helpful, as well as finding the strength within himself to realize that losing a job is not the end of the world, nor is it a reflection of your true self. What is? It is how you handle yourself when you are faced with these life challenges.<br /><br />We are now confident that our relationship has finally broke free from the mean and hurtful sayings, broke free from the lack of communication and compromise. We are now confident we have the tools necessary to be able to move forward, handle all of life’s obstacles, and spend the rest of our life together.<br /><br />The road has been hard. I wanted to give up. I had been tempted by the fruit of another, and for the first time in my life, I resisted. <br /><br />It was then I knew, I was truly in love with this man and no one or nothing else mattered.<br /><br />He is still working on the book, and I find myself journaling again. The realization is, life is not always easy. It has been a long road for me, but finally, I am seeing some peace with it. Matt is kind, he is loving, and he is extremely caring. Not only that, but I get a Madison out of the whole deal. Seeing her smile when I teach her how to cook things, well, there is nothing more beautiful that that. We may only be a weekend family, but they are my family, and I plan to love them for the rest of my life.<br /><br />So, there you have it. How we went from almost breaking up and moving out, to finding our way back to why we fell in love in the first place.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-40378006887725359612010-02-10T21:43:00.001-05:002010-11-17T14:27:36.115-05:00Freelance WritingBefore You Start to Write for Demand Studios (or any other company for that matter!)<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1738751-freelance-writing-demand-studios">Freelance writing for Demand Studios - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-71878437700530915432010-02-05T18:52:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:09:23.683-05:00Avoiding underemploymentHow not to waste your talent - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1733297-underemployment">Avoiding underemployment: How not to waste your talent - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-18356399429032036962010-02-05T13:54:00.001-05:002010-11-17T14:28:54.745-05:00Medication Costs Too High?There is Help.<a href="http://www.examiner.com/examiner/x-29389-Detroit-Depression-Examiner~y2010m2d5-Medication-Costs-Too-High-There-is-Help">Medication Costs Too High? There is Help.</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-71756994083885505892010-02-05T12:48:00.001-05:002010-12-23T12:49:13.911-05:00Places to Find Free Content Online<div style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px; text-align: center;">From Business Support Group Blog</div><div style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px; text-align: center;">Free Resource Friday </div><div style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px; text-align: center;">Places to Find Free Content Online</div><div style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px; text-align: center;">By Chrystal Mahan</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Sometimes writing content is the easy part. Sometime one suffers from writers block or one just can not find that perfect photo to go with the written content. In today's Free Resource blog we are going to take a look at a few places you can find good quality content, for free!</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><a href="http://morguefile.com/" style="color: #649900; text-decoration: none;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47;">Morgue File</span></b></a></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"> not exactly the most pleasant name, and for the record it is not a site devoted to things that you would find in a morgue. Rather, it is a collection of photos placed on the site by users for one to use, royalty free. You can search for an image by keyword, or just browse. Clicking the photo you like will allow you to download it, as well as provide you with a link. All they ask is when using the photo that you please site the link.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><a href="http://photorogue.com/" style="color: #649900; text-decoration: none;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47;">Photo Rouge</span></b></a></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"> puts a new twist on the royalty free photo option. Can't find what you are looking for? Stop by the Rouge and place your request. They also offer a gallery for you to browse, just in case they already have what you seek. Volunteers fill the request, and it is all free of charge.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Are you searching for some</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><b>eBooks?</b></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">There are plenty of free eBooks on the net, however going from site to site can be quite time consuming.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><a href="http://www.techsupportalert.com/content/50-places-free-books-online.htm)" style="color: #649900; text-decoration: none;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47;"><b>Gizmo's Freeware</b></span></a></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"> offers a list of 250 plus places to find free eBooks. The books are legal for download. It's your one stop shop, and sure to have something you are looking for.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><a href="http://www.articlesbase.com/" style="color: #649900; text-decoration: none;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47;"><b>Article Base</b></span></a></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"> is a website directory which offers free articles and content for use on websites, such as blogs. The website offers over 1.5 million articles to choose from. The site also offers writers the chance to submit their own work for recognition and syndication. Sign up and use of the site is free. Categories include: Advertising, Business, Careers, Computers, Finance, Law, Marketing, and just about anything Health, Home and Hobby related.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><a href="http://www.articlecity.com/" style="color: #649900; text-decoration: none;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47;">Article City</span></b></a></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"> is another website devoted to free content. Even the best writers and bloggers get a case of writers block. With sites like Article City, your website does not have to go empty on a blocked day. Article City offers a plethora of articles for reprint. The site is simple and not full of fancy fluff so users will have an easy time moving around. The only obstacle one might face are the advertisements, but for free content, we are not going to complain about a few ads, they are what pays for the website after all.</span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-50149216440390627012010-02-05T11:40:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:30:37.166-05:00Suicide and Depression PreventionTo Write Love on Her Arms and IMAlive<br /><a href="http://www.examiner.com/examiner/x-29389-Detroit-Depression-Examiner~y2010m2d5-Suicide-and-Depression-Prevention-To-Write-Love-on-Her-Arms-and-IMAlive">Suicide and Depression Prevention: To Write Love on Her Arms and IMAlive</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-81423504268454548172010-02-05T09:15:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:30:37.170-05:00Miley Cyrus shows Joaquin Phoenix and Liv Tyler how to vote for TWLOHA and Suicide Prevention.<a href="http://www.examiner.com/examiner/x-29389-Detroit-Depression-Examiner~y2010m2d5-Miley-Cyrus-shows-Joaquin-Phoenix-and-Liv-Tyler-how-to-vote-for-TWLOHA-and-Suicide-Prevention">Miley Cyrus shows Joaquin Phoenix and Liv Tyler how to vote for TWLOHA and Suicide Prevention.</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-516464985592501662010-02-05T08:54:00.001-05:002010-11-17T14:32:18.320-05:00Christmas Videos are Finally Up!Me, Matt, Maddy, his mom Sue, his dad Dean and wife Deb as well as my mom Donna, celebrated many days worth of Christmas!<br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/user/Voiceoftheseed">YouTube - Voiceoftheseed's Channel</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-38327901626933580772010-01-27T20:09:00.000-05:002010-11-23T20:11:26.208-05:00You Can Work From Home<div style="text-align: center;">Posted at Business Resource Group</div><div style="text-align: center;">Moms(and anyone else) Can Work from Home</div><div style="text-align: center;">By Chrystal Mahan</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Commuting costs and daycare make it hard for any mom to decide whether working outside the home is really worth it. Working from home can reduce the cost of commuting as well as the cost of child care if you can work around your child, or just place them in care a few hours a day instead of all day.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Here are a few ideas for you to consider.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>1. Homemade Goods, Gift Baskets & Crafts</b></div><div style="text-align: center;">This is a good started business for anyone who sews, crochets, or knits. Etsy.com is the perfect place for homemade goods such as these. If candles, soap, or gift jars are more your style, ebay.com as well as craigslist.com are a perfect started point. If you like food baskets or candy bouquets, putting advertisements in your local paper can be the perfect starting point. One thing to remember, business cards, flyers and word of mouth will always get your business up and running. </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>2. Bookkeeping</b></div><div style="text-align: center;">If you are savvy with numbers and exceptional in math, then a at home bookkeeping service is a great business for you. Many smaller companies do not want to do the work themselves and are willing to outsource with independent companies. </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>3. Virtual Assistant</b></div><div style="text-align: center;">If you have office or administrative assistant experience then you could benefit from working at home as a virtual assistant. There are many websites with clients looking to hire a VA, Vip Desk, eLance, Guru, Live Works, and oDesk are the best places to start. Most will require a quiet space, high speed internet, fax and separate telephone line.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>4. Graphic and Web Design</b></div><div style="text-align: center;">Web businesses are constantly growing and so is the need for graphic designers and web designers. You do not need a college education, but it is helpful. Many certification programs are available and can assist you as well. What one really needs is a stocked portfolio and clients. Again, freelance sites such as oDesk and Guru are full of opportunities in this field.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b>5. Medical Transcription, Biller, or Coder</b></div><div style="text-align: center;">All of these medical opportunities can be based at home, so long as the employer is willing to allow it, and you have the right equipment. Most will want educational training as well as some experience. Freelance sites are the best places to get a start if you have the education and certification but need a bit more experience.</div><div><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-55859505469073177202010-01-14T14:20:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:09:23.689-05:00Dogs: Cleaning urine stains and odors<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1711340-pet-smells-stains">Dogs: Cleaning urine stains and os - by Chrystal Mahan - Heliumdors - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-68088612117836914982010-01-12T16:08:00.003-05:002010-11-17T14:34:19.638-05:00The Spark (and you can help me win!)As you may know, I am an active member of the popular healthy-living website, SparkPeople.com. In an effort to help SparkPeople live out their mission of helping millions of people reach their goals and live healthier lives, I have joined a contest they're holding called "The Spark Free Chapter Challenge." If you have one minute to spare, I could use your help, because I REALLY want to win!<br /><br />So here's the deal with the challenge…<br /><br />Chris Downie, SparkPeople's CEO and founder, recently published a book called "The Spark" that offers a proven new approach to improving your health, transforming your life and reaching your goals (for example, real people have lost over 10 million pounds using their free online program)!<br /><br />People like me who are helping them "Spread The Spark" through The Spark Free Chapter Challenge are encouraging our friends and family to download a FREE chapter of "The Spark" book. And for every person I can encourage to download the chapter, I will get an additional chance to win a $500 weekend getaway and other prizes, as well as something they offer called "SparkPoints," which also help motivate me to reach my goals.<br /><br />All you have to do to help is download a free chapter from The Spark book. Nothing else. To do so, simply go to http://book.sparkpeople.com/book.asp?u=okirishchik and click the button to download your free chapter.<br /><br />If you would be willing to help me with this, I would truly appreciate it, and I also think you will enjoy reading this free chapter from "The Spark". I know I did!<br /><br />Thank you for your time. I really appreciate it.<br /><br />~Chrys~Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-73745332452560725812010-01-07T16:36:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:30:37.175-05:00Is Depression Heredity or Learned?<a href="http://www.examiner.com/examiner/x-29389-Detroit-Depression-Examiner~y2010m1d7-Is-Depression-Heredity-or-Learned">Is Depression Heredity or Learned?</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-24959617370507685382010-01-01T10:04:00.002-05:002010-11-17T14:37:05.884-05:00How I Long for Sleep.Oh, how I long for some sleep. Dreams. To awaken refreshed and ready to start my day.<br /><br />For those that are asking - No, I still have not been able to get any sleep. I have tried all of the things you all have mentioned in the past, with no luck. There are things that I have also tried now, that just are not working. Problem is this is getting worse. I have come to the sad conclusion that perhaps they only way I am going to get back to a good nights sleep (whatever that is as I have struggled often with bouts of insomnia) is too not sleep with Matt. Sad as that sounds, perhaps us living together is no longer in the stars. Who wants to give up a relationship because of sleep problems??? <br /><br />Not me. But this lack of sleep is affecting my entire life. I worked so hard with this job that I have and I am finally making something of my life and the fact that I can not get a decent amount of sleep night after night is starting to cause me problems. Not only that, but it is causing problems in my relationship(s) as well. Lack of sleep makes me tired and much more sensitive (panic) to my surroundings. I always feel like I am on edge (anxiety), and I cry (perhaps I am bipolar?) at the damnedest things. We fight way too much (too tired = lack of patience), and it just is not a good situation any more. I really do not know what to do, but this is not how I wanted to start the New Year. Having said that, this is beyond my control. <br /><br />Right now, I have to put myself first and stop taking care of others before me. I need to stop doing everything. I need help. I need to be the one being taken care of. Problem is no one is going to do that but me. So if that means I have to move out, then so be it. I have to think about my health and all this lack of sleep is doing is making things worse; mentally, physically, and emotionally. I just see my little world spiraling out of control.<br /><br />The hardest part is, people <b>do not</b> understand. I constantly feel sick (depressed, migraines, upset stomach), which is making me stress out, which causes my back/sciatica to flair up. It is hard to be around people and fake my way through happiness when I am nothing but miserable inside. I feel like I could fall asleep at the drop of a hat, constantly groggy. But the fact is I can not sleep. And when I do finally fall asleep, I am always, somehow, being woke up. So there I lay for hours and hours. I just can not do this any more. I am tried of telling people I just “cant” do this or do that. Knowing if I even tried I would get irritated and grumpy. I feel it is just safer for me to stay home, and for others to stay away. <br /><br />One of my New Years resolutions was to take some time to start blogging again. It is after all, how I really got my start in internet writing. Only difference is, now I am getting paid for it. Because I work so much, the last thing on my mind has been to blog. Between work and school, who has time for leisure writing? But I was going to make it a point to start. At least try. And this was not how I wanted my first blog post of the year to go. <br /><br />But, this is my life right now. Perhaps I am thinking irrational because even I can not comprehend just how tired, worn out and run down I really am. It makes my anxiety disorder/ level at an all time high. It gives me more panic attacks. It really is ruining my life.<br /><br />So there you have it. Perhaps this will make sense to some of you as far as why some certain things have happened, or maybe not happened depending on the situation. And for that I am very sorry. But please understand just how difficult this is for me. <br /><br />This isn’t about whether I love Matt or not. You all know the answer to that question. I love him with all that I have to love someone with. Do I want to give up? Absolutely not and I am willing to keep trying. But I do not think there is anything else left for me to try.<br /><br />Whatever happens, just know that I appreciate those who do understand and have been there for me.<br /><br />~Chrys~<br /><br />P.S. I have a feeling someone is going to mentin seperate rooms and/or seperate beds rather then seperate houses. And that is something I think we may have to look in to. As I see it, there would be no future for Matt and I if we were to live in seperate houses. We have talked about marriage and kids someday, so how would that happen if we can not even sleep in the same bed/live together? At the advice of his step-mom we have talked about getting 2 twin beds for the master bedroom, and as she stated "push them together when you need to get yours!" LOL which still makes me giggle. I know there are a lot of people out there who love their significant others and for whatever reason do not sleep in the same bed. It is just hard to admit that I might have to be one of those people. <br /><br />Have I always had this problem? No. I have been able to sleep in the same bed with others. Problem here is I am a VERY light sleeper. I sleep with earplugs in because Matt snores from time to time, the dogs snore, and random noises will wake me. In the past, earplugs have always been enough. I have suffered with insomnia for about 10 years now. I have tried all medications and nothing really works. When insomnia strikes, I just deal with it and let it run its course. <br /><br />This however, is not insomnia. This is just not being able to get any sleep. Matt is a hard sleeper. He has restless legs and moves around a lot. He is a big boy and not very graceful when he does move. Often I am kicked with flying legs or hit with flying arms. I have a wall of pillows between us because of this, but then I get pushed, practially off the bed. I sleep on top of the covers with my own blanket. If I do not, he steals them all. <br /><br />So, as you can see, we have tried various things. We are just not in a finincial posistion where we can buy new beds, or even a good matress (which could help) for the bed we have now. <br /><br />When you think about it, if I can not afford a new bed set, then how am I suppose to be able to afford to live on my own?Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-15150138936970823002009-12-30T20:58:00.003-05:002010-12-22T17:39:21.667-05:00Reflections 2009<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: 58.5pt; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt; mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; text-indent: -.25in;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-weight: normal;">1)<span style="font: normal normal normal 7pt/normal 'Times New Roman';"> </span></span></strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Was 2009 a good year for you?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">It had some ups and downs, but in the end I am finally starting to pick up the last of the pieces that needed put back together. <o:p></o:p></span></strong></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .75in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> I had to overcome many things, and I did. At least I am trying to. I am trying to move on from the past and continue to grow as a person and move forward. It is not always easy, and often I want to give up. <o:p></o:p></span></strong></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .75in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">For me, that is something to celebrate. But life is constantly changing. No longer standing still and waiting for me to catch up. </span></strong><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />2) What was your favorite moment of the year? <o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Becoming a published and paid write was at the top of the list. I am not famous, and I am not on the NY Time National Best Sellers List, but I am doing what I love and that is all that matters.<br style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> <br style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> </span></b><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-weight: normal;"><o:p></o:p></span></strong></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /><br />3) What was your least favorite moment of the year? <br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">All the pain; emotional, physical, and mental </span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />4) Where were you when 2009 began?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Matt’s house (before I moved in)</span></strong><br /><br />5) Who were you with?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Matt </span></strong><br /><br />6) Where will you be when 2009 ends?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I will be where ever he is. </span></strong><br /><br />7) Who will you be with when 2009 ends?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Matt</span></strong><br /><br />8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2009?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I didn’t make any. I know I won’t keep them, so I didn’t bother.</span></strong><br /><br />9) Do you have a new year’s resolution for 2010?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Yes, to take charge of my health. My back depends on me losing some weight, as well as my own physical and mental well being.</span></strong><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />10) Did you fall in love in 2009?<br /><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">I did.</b><br /><br />11) If yes, with whom?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Everyone here pretty much knows the answer to that.</span></strong><br /><br />12) If yes, do they know?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Of course he knows, for he loves me just the same. </span></strong><br /><br />13) Are you still in love with them?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Absolutely, and looking forward to a lifetime of it if we can make it through the obstacles. </span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />14) Do you regret it?<br /><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">At times, I regret that we moved too fast. But nothing I can do about it now, so I try not to dwell on it too much.<br /></b><br />15) Did you break up with anyone in 2009?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I broke a friendship. </span></strong><br /><br />16) Did you make any new friends in 2009?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I sure as heck did. LOTS of them! *blows a kiss to you all*</span></strong><br /><br />17) Who are your favorite new friends?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">ALL of them.... how can I pick just one?</span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /><br />18) What was your favorite month of 2009?<br /><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">July</b><br /><br />19) Did you travel outside of the country in 2009?<br /><b>No :( </b><br /><br />20) How many different places did you travel to in 2009?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Michigan ….what a bore</span></strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /><br />21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2009? <br /><b>I often feel like I have lost a lot of people, no so much to another world, but more so just because we are all so out of touch.<br /><br /></b>22) Did you miss anybody in the past year?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">YES! all my friends and loved ones back in OK.</span></strong><br /><br />23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2009? <br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I saw so many wonderful movies this year.</span></strong><br /><br />24) What was your favorite song from 2009?<br /><b>Oh I have a few: they may not be new in 2009, but they still mean something to me. <o:p></o:p></b></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Second Chance – Shinedown<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Simple Man – Shinedown<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Believe – Staind<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Celtic Pride – The Mahones<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Haunted – Shane McGowan and Sinead O’Connor<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Ok and really this list could go on and on and on, but there is a reason why I have an attachment to these songs this year. <o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> <br style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> </span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />25) What was your favorite album from 2009?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Can’t say I really have a fave from the releases this year.</span></strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /><br />26) How many concerts did you see in 2009?<br /><b>A LOT!<o:p></o:p></b></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /><br />27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2009?<br /><b>Shinedown</b><br /><br />28) Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2009? <br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">No more then usual… Guinness anyone??</span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2009?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Only pain relievers for my back.</span></strong><br />30) How many people did you sleep with in 2009? <br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">One.</span></strong><br /><br />31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Not really. </span></strong><br /><br />32) What was the biggest lie you told in 2009?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">No need to.</span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /><br />33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2009?<br /><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Didn’t.</b><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2009?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">More like the other way around. </span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2009? <br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Yeah, I had my moments. </span></strong><br /><br />36) How much money did you spend in 2009?<strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> <o:p></o:p></span></strong></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Every penny I earned. </span></strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /><br />38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2009?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Oh! Let’s see........ Just call me Grace LOLOL</span></strong><b><o:p></o:p></b></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2009 and change it, what would it be? <br /><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">I would not have moved in with Matt when I did.</b><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /><br />40) What are your plans for 2010? <br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">To just keep plugging away at life one day at a time.<o:p></o:p></span></strong></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Visit my friends for sure! </span></strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /><br />41) What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Can’t think of anything. </span></strong><br /><br />42) Did anyone close to you give birth?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">My good friend Steve and his wife Tara welcome TWINS! Matt’s friends Q and Nicci welcomed baby girl Lilly. </span></strong><br /><br />43) What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2008?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Respect and understanding.</span></strong><br /><br />44) What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? <br style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> <br style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><o:p></o:p></b></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Pass.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />45) What was your biggest achievement of the year?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Working as a writer!</span></strong><br /><br />46) What was your biggest failure?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Depression creeping back up on me, never living up to my own expectations of myself, and my wicked evil self esteem issues that mess with my head. </span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /><br />47) What was the best thing you bought? <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">MY OWN CAR!!</b><br /><br />48) Whose behavior merited celebration?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Let me get back to you on that one.</span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /><br /><br />49) Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Yikes! My own – seriously! And Matt’s.</span></strong><br /><br />50) What did you get really, really, really excited about? <br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Having a job again. Living through another semester of school.</span></strong><br /><br />51) Compared to this time last year, are you:<br />i. happier or sadder? <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">I am about the same as I was this time last year, just for different reasons.<o:p></o:p></b></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />ii. thinner or fatter? <b>The same as I was…but I would love to change that…</b><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">iii. richer or poorer? <strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">richer in so many ways, a little better money wise , but still poor</span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />52) What do you wish you'd done more of?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Exercised..LOL..well you asked</span></strong><br /><br />53) What do you wish you'd done less of?<br /><b>Being depressed, blaming myself for so much, worrying about what others are going to think, living my life for others, and never putting myself first</b><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">54) How will you be spending Christmas?<br /><b>Christmas has already passed and I spent it with Matt and his family.</b><br /><br />55) How many one-night stands?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">didn’t I already shed some light on this?</span></strong><br /><br />56) What was your favorite TV program?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Sons of Anarchy, Man vs. Food, anything ghost and paranormal related.</span></strong><br /><br />57) Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">You know, I always say that hate is just a waste of my time. But, there will always be one person I seriously dislike and likely that will never change.</span></strong><br /><br />58) What was the best book you read?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Oh gosh, I read so many I don’t really know where to start. But my fave is Needful Things by Stephen King; I read it just about every year. </span></strong><br /><br />59) What was your greatest musical discovery?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Nothing really new this year.</span></strong><br /><br />60) What did you want and get?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I wanted someone to love me just as I am, and accept me and all my faults. Someone to understand me, and give a little sympathy when needed. </span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /><br />61) What did you want and not get?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I want peace within me. I am working on that.</span></strong><br /><br />62) What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?<br /><b>Matt and I went to Tawas.<o:p></o:p></b></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">63) What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I really have no way of knowing. Cause if these things did not happen that I went through this year, whose to say something else would not have. </span></strong><br /><br />64)How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009? <br /><b>I’m just me. I don’t follow trends. I like what I like. Comfort. Cool. Calm. Dressed up or down, I am pretty simple. <br /><br /></b>65) What kept you sane?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Nothing kept me sane, I have been having insane moments on a daily basis.<o:p></o:p></span></strong></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /><br />66) Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?<br /><em><b><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-style: normal;">Gerald Butler. Scottish yum.<o:p></o:p></span></b></em></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />67) What political issue stirred you the most? <br /><b>None </b><br /><br />68) Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009.<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Things are never what they seem.</span></strong><br /><br />69) Quote a song lyric.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: 'Courier New';">Believe in me<br />I know you've waited for so long<br />Believe in me<br />Sometimes the weak become the strong<br />Believe in me<br />This life is not always what it seems<br />Believe in me<br />Cause I was made for chasing dreams</span></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">70) Favorite discovered quote.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span class="snippet4"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: windowtext; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">"I'm a woman Phenomenally Phenomenal woman. That's me." ~Maya Angelou<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-20296309313828954792009-12-28T12:04:00.004-05:002009-12-28T12:07:31.294-05:00The House Removals Company (UK Based)Brought to you by your friends at <a href="http://www.blogsvertise.com/"> Blogsvertise.</a><br /><br /><br /><a href="http://www.thehouseremovalscompany.co.uk/"> The House Removals Company </a>is a website geared at connecting the mover with a removing company in the UK. Save time and money with comparisons. The website is quick, easy to navigate, and easy to use. No hassle and no long forms to fill out.<br /><br />Get quotes fast from local removal companies. 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HRC specialized in matching you to a company which assists in all your needs.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-71913805701275964002009-12-26T20:35:00.001-05:002010-11-15T20:42:54.717-05:00Christmas List of Presents<div class="MsoNormal">Christmas List 2009</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i12.photobucket.com/albums/a243/xhannahbethx/strasmaxmastree4.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="http://i12.photobucket.com/albums/a243/xhannahbethx/strasmaxmastree4.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Matt <o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal">Black Pea Coat</div><div class="MsoNormal">Black Hat, Scarf, Mittens</div><div class="MsoNormal">Black Converse (matching Madison’s)</div><div class="MsoNormal">iPod Touch</div><div class="MsoNormal">Digital Photo Key Chain</div><div class="MsoNormal">Digital Photo Frame</div><div class="MsoNormal">3 Bottles Bath and Body Works Warm Vanilla Sugar Shower Gel</div><div class="MsoNormal">2 Bath and Body Works Vanilla Candles</div><div class="MsoNormal">Green leather journal</div><div class="MsoNormal">Bible cover</div><div class="MsoNormal">Boxed Irish Music CD set </div><div class="MsoNormal">Sticky pad for my car that keeps cell phone and iPod in place</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Madison, Cielo and Ashton (these are Matt’s step kids)<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal">The girls made me a key chain for my new car, it has pretty beads and a Celtic knot with a cameo and mirror. Super cute, they did a good job. </div><div class="MsoNormal">Ink Stamps, small paw for Casey and big paw for Cain.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Small box for keychain with the letter C on it.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Sue (Matt’s Mom)<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal">Digital Camera (mine was so old it was lacking zoom, and matt’s got stolen when our house was broke in to over the summer)</div><div class="MsoNormal">Memory Card</div><div class="MsoNormal">Green candle set (for next years Irish Christmas)</div><div class="MsoNormal">Shamrock tree ornament (for the Irish Christmas tree)</div><div class="MsoNormal">Gold Bracelet</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Deb (Matt’s Step Mom)<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal">Dan Brown – The Lost Symbol, hardcover</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Deb and Dean (Matt’s Dad)<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal">Fire Proof, leather bound book for couples and how strengthen their relationship</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">My Mom<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal">Calligraphy book, ink and pens</div><div class="MsoNormal">2 Knitting Books and supplies</div><div class="MsoNormal">2 huge photo (coffee table style) books on Ireland</div><div class="MsoNormal">Writers Retreat boxed book set</div><div class="MsoNormal">Pen and Pencil Set</div><div class="MsoNormal">50s style napkin holder and matching salt/pepper shakers</div><div class="MsoNormal">Griddle for stove (for both of us)</div><div class="MsoNormal">New measuring cups (for both of us)</div><div class="MsoNormal">Electronic Dictionary that is so thin it is a bookmark too!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-46223905970283632332009-12-25T20:34:00.000-05:002010-11-15T18:08:14.573-05:00Hey You Guys<div class="blogContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.2; text-align: left;">Original Post Date: 12/25/2005</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><img src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/2474.jpg?mgg7zHoCepa4e2pd" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"></span><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"></span></span></span></span></span><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">Hey guys....pool and chat was awesome! It was so much fun, not to mention how cool it was to actually hear you guys. Definatly have to do voice chat again.</span></span></span></span></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">Brett, honey I love ya, but I think you say ya'll more then me and Elonna put together do!</span></span></span></span></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">Jeremy..hmmm ...what can I say. I am still holding a grudge on the Irish bashing. I am gonna get you when you least expect it. You better watch your back!! mmuuuaaahhh</span></span></span></span></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">Elonna girl....my irish lovin' sista...what can I say, it made Christmas that much better didnt it?</span></span></span></span></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">~hugs~</span></span></span></span></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">And to all the rest of you - hope we can gather again sometime soon!</span></span></span></span></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">It has been an awesome year, and my world is that much better with you guys in it. Oh, and even though you werent there with us in person, you were in spirit, and that includes you two - Joey & Sean !</span></span></span></span></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #666666; 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YES!! LOL<br /><br />This blog is cute!! LOVE the Monkeys!!</div></div></li></ul></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: small;"></span></span></span></div></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-69728017998877547152009-12-21T15:46:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:30:37.180-05:00Was Britney Murphy severely depressed?What a sad, sad, thing to happen.<br /><a href="http://www.examiner.com/examiner/x-29389-Detroit-Depression-Examiner~y2009m12d21-Was-Britney-Murphy-severely-depressed">Was Britney Murphy severely depressed?</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-11059746233825695152009-12-21T11:28:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:30:37.184-05:00What Can Cause Depression?"Is it all in your head?"<br /><a href="http://www.examiner.com/examiner/x-29389-Detroit-Depression-Examiner~y2009m12d21-What-Can-Cause-Depression">What Can Cause Depression?</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-85594248592928665392009-12-18T09:11:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:30:37.189-05:00Depression and the Swine FluDepression sufferers do not have to hide.<br /><a href="http://www.examiner.com/examiner/x-29389-Detroit-Depression-Examiner~y2009m12d18-Depression-and-the-Swine-Flu">Depression and the Swine Flu</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-57937476853635047292009-12-16T13:20:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:40:17.296-05:00Freelance Writing - Moral of the StoryI began this Freelance career earlier this year after having many job issues. It may not have been a good idea for me to move 1000 miles to the middle of nowhere to a state with the highest unemployment rate. But I did. For 2 years I did temp jobs, going from one to the next. Not liking any of them. Finally I had enough and began my quest to work from home. I lived in a small town, and taking the 30 minute to 1 hour long commute to a decent paying job just did not sound like a lot of fun to me. I had some ups and downs, as you saw from previous posts. Bad times, good time. Things I am not proud of. But, I wanted to share that experience so if others are out there, doubting that they can make it in the writing world, I am here to tell you, that you can. I may not be a million dollar novelist, and I many not always get to write what I want, but I have gotten myself out of corporate America and doing something that I love to do. Life has to go on, and I have to make the best of it.<br /><br />Good luck to those seeking the way on their own journey.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-52233911041301352092009-12-16T13:16:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:40:17.301-05:00On 12/7/2009 I Gave This UpdateI just wanted to update:<br /><br />I was able to pay cash for a car ($2000) for a Ford Explorer. Pretty red. And it was a great moment for me. I still have a long way to go with getting out of debt, as I am now saving to pay a lawyer for bankruptcy (thank goodness for income tax time) to start over.<br /><br />I have been able to buy all new things to decorate our house with for Christmas. This is my 2nd Christmas with BF and lil one, but it is my first living in the same house. I wanted lil one to have the best Christmas she can have (she is having 4 of them, lucky girl!) as well as giving back to those that have given to me the last couple years in helping me get back on my feet after my divorce. I have spent at LEAST $1000 on Christmas decorations and presents for BF, lil one, his mom, my mom, his dad and step mom, and one of my best friends.<br /><br />Good things can happen, if you do not give up!<br />If a procrastinator like me can make it work, so can you!Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-14332118403067602882009-12-16T13:15:00.002-05:002010-11-17T14:40:17.306-05:00On 11/25/2009 I Gave an Update to My Freelance StoryI have saved up enough money to pay cash for a decent car. Going to go look at some today. Like I said, I am no where near out of the woods yet. I can not file for Bankruptcy until next year because I already filed some years ago do to medical expenses that my insurance did not pay for. It sucks because I was just now getting my credit back on track, only to lose my job, then my car and all my credit accounts were closed and being sent to collections. It sucks, I wont lie. And it adds to my depression, but at least I know that with time it will "all be over soon" so to speak and I can continue on the path I am going.<br /><br />We just can not continue to share a car. BF is gone all day at school and now he is looking for a job since his unemployment is about to run out. Since we have his daughter on the weekends, if he has to work I do not want to be here without a car. For one, we might want to go someplace and for two, I would hate to be stranded if something happened to her or the dogs and we needed to go to the Dr/Vet.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-46761968342742310552009-12-16T13:13:00.002-05:002010-11-17T14:40:17.311-05:00On 11/20/2009 I Shared My Story on Freelancing to Fellow WritersI am not generally one to brag, but I set my own personal goal some time ago. I wanted to prove to myself that I could sit down and write all day and make just as much money doing it as if I was to go back out into corporate America (mind you I have never been paid more then $12hr.). I have some days I do not do well, and some days I go over. In the end it has averaged out. This last week has been the best week ever. (amazing what you can do when you stop playing on Facebook so much LOL) Mind you I am not rich by any means.<br /><br />I had my car repossessed a few months ago and I have been out of work since Nov. 2008. I do get unemployment, but it is not much because I did not work much, I only lived in MI since 2007 and did not get my first job until Jan 2008. Unemployment will eventually run out, but by the time I got it, I had already gotten behind on bills and the car was just too much. I have been saving my money because I am so far behind I may have to file Bankruptcy.<br /><br />I tried phone work, West, LiveOps and I technically still work for West, just do not have a line. I do not really care for phone work.<br /><br />I even did adult texting, which is how I found this forum when looking for more at home work. I no longer do it, but it did give me a lot of stories to write.<br /><br />Having said all that, I have a better outlook. I have been very depressed (http://www.workplacelikehome.com/forum/showthread.php?t=231935) and having a hard time dealing with that. I have been putting money away and I am very close to having enough money to pay cash for a car. I did purchase one with the help of my mom, who I am paying back. But BF car blew a head gasket and its not worth repairing. So he has taken over the car. And that is OK, he needs it more then me. He goes to school. My school and work is online.<br /><br />I don't mean to babble, but I wanted to share my story. I am not out of the woods and I have a long way to go to get back on my feet. And I still have a long way to go as far as writing and income.<br /><br />I wanted to let other writers know, especially those who are just starting out, to hang in there. When I first started I was only seeing $20 here, $50 there. Rev share was a whopping 50 cents. But I stuck with it. And the money is there now.<br /><br />I just wanted to share that with you guys. When a reject or rewrite gets you down, don't take it personal. It is the name of the game. I wanted to quit with my first one, but I am glad I did not.<br /><br />Good luck to you all.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-34202440561510078122009-12-16T12:47:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:30:37.194-05:00Physical Pains of DepressionDepression is not just emotional, it is physical as well.<br /><a href="http://www.examiner.com/examiner/x-29389-Detroit-Depression-Examiner~y2009m12d16-Physical-Pains-of-Depression">Physical Pains of Depression</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-525559609551896292009-12-15T17:33:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:42:26.250-05:00Holiday 101: Today's Feel Good MomentIt will cost you nothing to do something good, and feel good in the process.<br /><a href="http://www.examiner.com/examiner/x-29389-Detroit-Depression-Examiner~y2009m12d15-Holiday-101-Todays-Feel-Good-Moment">Holiday 101: Today's Feel Good Moment</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-79908614000651749382009-12-07T18:18:00.000-05:002009-12-07T18:18:51.245-05:00Top artistic schools in the Southwest - by Chrystal Mahan - HeliumA sample I had to write for one of my clients, per a given topic. Once written and submitted for review I placed my work on my Helium site.<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1675390-art-schools">Top artistic schools in the Southwest - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-20380671318950206962009-12-03T14:41:00.002-05:002010-11-17T14:43:21.524-05:00T.O.P.S.As a writer we are faced with many challenges, and my weight happens to be one of my biggest ones. Sitting down at a desk all day, as we all know, does not help. So, I have started a new journey, another tale to tell if you will.<br /><br />November 25,2009<br />Yesterday I decided to join TOPS with my boyfriends step mom. They have a meeting at my church. I really enjoyed it and it seems like they have a lot of fun. I think I will be more accountable for my actions when I have face to face meetings and scale visits instead of just trying to do it on my own. I know many think I am crazy for starting just before the holidays, but with my back situation and overall health it was do or die time. I knew if I waited I would just keep putting it off. Thankfully she will be around on the holidays so we can hold each other accountable. :)Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-53004530297128543592009-12-03T11:46:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:30:37.198-05:00Lifting Depression: Holiday Christmas Letter from Jesus<a href="http://www.examiner.com/examiner/x-29389-Detroit-Depression-Examiner~y2009m12d3-Lifting-Depression-Holiday-Christmas-Letter-from-Jesus#">Lifting Depression: Holiday Christmas Letter from Jesus</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-53846512301490813892009-11-21T17:11:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:30:37.202-05:00What NOT to say to someone who is depressed<a href="http://www.examiner.com/examiner/x-29389-Detroit-Depression-Examiner~y2009m11d21-What-NOT-to-say-to-someone-who-is-depressed">What NOT to say to someone who is depressed</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-34691187710067982482009-11-21T16:41:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:30:37.207-05:00Today is national survivors of suicide day<a href="http://www.examiner.com/examiner/x-29389-Detroit-Depression-Examiner~y2009m11d21-Today-is-national-survivors-of-suicide-day">Today is national survivors of suicide day</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-23332626504861935412009-11-19T16:42:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:30:37.212-05:00Depression 101: Where can I go for help?<a href="http://www.examiner.com/x-29389-Detroit-Depression-Examiner~y2009m11d19-Depression-101-Where-can-I-go-for-help">Depression 101: Where can I go for help?</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-42862013555376832762009-11-17T21:01:00.004-05:002010-11-15T21:02:36.478-05:00Trying to Get Help<div class="MsoNormal">Trying to get help 11 17 2009</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Here is a little bit about my situation:</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />I have been living here in MI for two years, I moved here after my divorce from OK. My family is all here, that is why the choice.<br /><br />Once the divorce was final, I lost my insurance. No insurance, not able to pay for medication.<br /><br />I saw a psychiatrist for about 5 years, was in remission and my GP took over to prescribe my medication.<br /><br />I went off my medication two years ago cold turkey.<br /><br />In those two years I have had some temp, odd jobs. But nothing I could stay at because my depression, stress, anxiety and panic attacks had come back. I have managed to get by.<br /><br />Now, I am a freelance writer and do make some money from that. I am a full time student and I was able to collect some unemployment.<br /><br />I have relapsed, and I feel worse then I ever have.<br /><br />I called the community city health center and they can not accept me because I am not suicidal. I have tried free clinics and such only to run into a brick wall. The problem basically is I can not afford treatments or medication or DR visits. I am trying to make enough money to cover these expenses. I know there is free stuff available, but it seems only if I am suicidal or I voluntarily check myself in to a 3 day treatment program.<br /><br />I do not consider myself a religious person. I only started going to church about 5 years ago, and then took a 2 year break when I moved here. I just started going back a few months ago with my BF(who I live with). The church got a new counselor, who used to be a psychologist. We decided to make an appt. with him, hoping he would be able to help my BF understand my depression, eating disorders, anxiety, stress, PTSD, and panic attacks.<br /><br />This was not the case.<br /><br />Instead, he berated us for living together. Yes, I am aware of what the Bible says about people living together and having sex before marriage. But at the same time, the Bible does say and I was taught in church that we will be forgiven for all our sins, all we have to do is pray and ask. Which, I do. Again, mind you, I am not a religious person by any means. I started to go to church to find some inner peace as part of my own treatment to deal with some of the mess I live with.<br /><br />Then, after he was done with his lecture, he asked me what I had to be depressed about. I told him. He said it was in the past, get over it. He told me that I and my BF were just having a pity party for ourselves and we needed to get over it. He then proceeded to tell me that all these disorders where in my head, medication was a farce and God would heal me.<br /><br />Ok, now before anyone gets on me about this, again let me say, I am not religious. But I know how those that are can be about issues like this. I know many Christians do not believe in medications for the mind.<br /><br />But shouldn't he at least of asked me for more information about my docs and issues and medication before he just gave me that answer?<br /><br />Even after I told him the medication helped me to focus and concentrate, and basically not feel like crap, he still would not recommend any other places for me to go to seek help, aside from the church and God.<br /><br />I was hoping he would be a little more open minded and helpful. I walked away feeling very bitter, upset and misunderstood.<br /><br />Now, I am at the brick wall again, unsure of where to go next.<br /><br />Thank you for letting me share and vent.<br /><br />Chrys</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-4465698666285219382009-11-17T10:01:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:30:37.217-05:00Keeping holiday depression at baySome easy tips to help cope with the Holidays.<br /><a href="http://www.examiner.com/x-29389-Detroit-Depression-Examiner~y2009m11d17-Keeping-holiday-depression-at-bay">Keeping holiday depression at bay</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-24522354704820895112009-11-11T16:43:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:30:37.222-05:00A glimpse into male depression vs. female<a href="http://www.examiner.com/examiner/x-29389-Detroit-Depression-Examiner~y2009m11d11-A-glimpse-into-male-depression-vs-female">A glimpse into male depression vs. female</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-89767155591685936002009-11-10T10:29:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:30:37.226-05:00Girl’s sports eases depression boy’s linked to bad behaviorWhy do they always seem to link depression to girls.<br /><a href="http://www.examiner.com/x-29389-Detroit-Depression-Examiner~y2009m11d10-Girls-sports-eases-depression-boys-linked-to-bad-behavior">Girl’s sports eases depression boy’s linked to bad behavior</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-51001416380358672182009-11-09T14:41:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:30:37.230-05:00Exercising to ease depressionJust a little a day keeps the blues away.<a href="http://www.examiner.com/x-29389-Detroit-Depression-Examiner~y2009m11d9-Exercising-to-ease-depression">Exercising to ease depression</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-50670658173205765742009-11-07T22:41:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:30:37.235-05:00How to know if you're depressed<a href="http://www.examiner.com/x-29389-Detroit-Depression-Examiner~y2009m11d6-How-to-Know-if-Youre-Depressed">How to know if you're depressed</a><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"></span>How many times have you overheard in conversation, “I am so sad, I must be depressed”? With statements like these is it hard to get past the stereo type that Depression is a Mental Illness. People who are depressed are sick. The first step in getting help is knowing if you are just sad, have the blues or are really depressed.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-38724253537456619782009-11-05T12:49:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:45:48.493-05:00History of Saint Patricks Day - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1640650-st-patricks-day">History of Saint Patricks Day - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-1700884155967633932009-11-03T10:10:00.001-05:002010-12-23T13:41:43.416-05:00Gideons Trumpet, by Anthony Lewis<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1638206-gideons-trumpet-anthony-lewis">Book reviews: Gideons Trumpet, by Anthony Lewis - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a><br /><br />Is it really controversial?Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-50384038691814721902009-11-02T14:50:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:45:48.504-05:00Wildlife population control: Money wasted or good cause? - by Chrystal Mahan - HeliumWhat are your thoughts?<br /><a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1637194-wildlife-population-control">Wildlife population control: Money wasted or good cause? - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-44319327894612158002009-11-02T14:49:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:45:48.508-05:00Women in the Face of War - by Chrystal Mahan - HeliumWomen have made a mark in the face of war, paving the way for combat fighters today.<br /><a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1637122-women-of-war">Women in the Face of War - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-70533865820808654252009-11-01T19:16:00.000-05:002010-11-17T14:47:22.508-05:00'Twas the Night Before NaNo - C. A. Dubois'Twas the Night Before NaNo - C. A. Dubois<br /><br />'Twas the night before NaNo, when all through the house<br />Not a keyboard was typing, not a click of a mouse.<br />The stickers were hung by the writer with care,<br />In Hopes that a Novel, soon would be there.<br /><br />The Editors were nestled, all snug in their beds,<br />While visions of red pens, danced in their heads.<br />with Chris Baty in his viking hat and I in my shirt,<br />All the wrimo's world wide, sat waiting to work.<br /><br />When out on the lawn, there arose such a clatter,<br />I sprang from my writing spot, to see what was the matter.<br />Away to the window, I flew like a flash,<br />Tore open the window, threw up the sash.<br /><br />The moon was big, with a very bright glow<br />and it looked like a screen that had something to show.<br />When, what to my wondering eyes should appear,<br />But a story and eight characters.<br /><br />With a little plot arc ,so lively and round,<br />I knew in a moment, "My Novel - I've found!"<br />More rapid then eagles the chapters they came<br />and the story whistled and shouted and called things by name,<br /><br />"Now characters, Now plot arcs, now storylines and more,<br />"On conflict, On turmoil, On plot twists galore.<br />To the top of the plot line, to November's 50 K<br />Now write away, write away, write away today."<br /><br />As dead words before the wild month fly,<br />When they meet with a Muse and mount to the sky<br />So up to my desk top these coursers, they flew<br />with a slew full of ideas, and my muse too.<br /><br />And then in a twinkling I heard on my desk<br />The smattering of words, taking one last rest.<br />As I drew in my hand and was turning around<br />Appeared, did my muse, in one single bound.<br /><br />It was dressed in all words, from it's head to it's foot<br />and it's clothes were all with erasure gook.<br />It's bundle of stories were flung on it's back<br />And it looked like Chris Baty - What's up with that?<br /><br />It's eyes how they shimmered, It's dimples how scary,<br />It's cheeks were all blustery, it's smile so merry.<br />It's droll little mouth was drawn up like an "oh"<br />And not a beard on it's chin, that'd be freaky, ya know?<br /><br />The stump of a pencil it held tight in it's teeth,<br />And punctuation encircled it it's head like a wreath.<br />It had a bright face and a round cuppa coffee<br />That shook when it laughed, without ever sloshing.<br /><br />He was awkward and lumpy, a right crazy old elf<br />And I laughed when I saw it, inspite of myself.<br />A wink of Its eye and a twist of Its head,<br />Soon gave me to know I had nothing to dread.<br /><br />It spoke not a word, but went straight to my desk<br />And he looked at my blank page then said, "Surely you Jest"<br />Laying its fingers aside of my keys, He winked at me once,<br />And slid inward with ease.<br /><br />It sprang on my screen, to the words It gave whistle<br />and away they all flew to him, like the down of a thistle<br />But I heard It exclaim, err it faded into the night<br />"Happy NaNo to all, tonight you shall write!"Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-56544082056828934782009-10-28T15:38:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:45:48.513-05:00Tips for avoiding divorce - by Chrystal Mahan - HeliumNo one ever said it was easy to stay married.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1625201-marriage-tips-avoiding-divorce-marriage-help">Tips for avoiding divorce - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-80098425587419663422009-10-27T20:49:00.003-04:002010-11-15T20:50:08.013-05:00Dear Diary<div class="MsoNormal">Dear Diary October 27, 2009</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Ok, lets see if I can throw this all out there.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am having a relapse and I know it. I have been dealing with it since I moved here. The divorce, deaths, the move, all of that is playing a part in it.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Living with Matt has triggered much as well. Then manic episodes are in full force and they are worse then they have ever been.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I cry, I scream, I yell. I put my fist into the wall; I kick the walls, whatever. I keep razor blades out of eyesight for fear of cutting. I have thrown things, although not in a while. I break dishes.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Matt has terrible anger issues. So we tend to not help each other at all.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am NOT that girl, and I stopped being that girl a LONG time ago. But, like I said, my moods are worse then ever.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Ok, so Saturday I got us (me, matt, maddy) all up for breakfast together. By this time I had already showered and gotten ready. After breakfast Matt went to my moms to work on tearing up the floor in the back room. And I mean carpet, padding, and all the wood under that, it had become so rotten there was no telling when someone was going to fall through. His friend Mario picked him up. I had Maddy. His mom "could not" be bothered with her. Matt said his Airsoft did not start till 4, so she was not taking Maddy any time before that. So, I got her in the bath and dressed. I took her to the movies to see Snookly the Pumpkin. My friend Tanya and her daughter met us there and then we went to Applebees for some lunch. It was pretty fun. Maddy had a good time. And she and I had a very nice bonding time together. We came home and she and I lay in the big bed with some TV and color books. I was hoping she would fall asleep. I could tell she wanted to. But I think she was having too much fun. We don't get to have girl time. About 3:30 Matt calls to tell me Mario left him alone at 12:30 and his friend Tim that was to show about 1:30 never did. So I loaded up Maddy and drove to Moms to get him. On the way there I just started to cry as soon as I hit Burt rd. I was thinking about grandparents and how I was on the way to "their" house even though it is moms now. How I missed them. I shed some light tears, no one saw me. Matt was finishing up so Maddy and I walked to the cemetery so she could "meet" my grandparents. She saw the shamrocks on their headstone and made a comment about how it matched my necklace. I told her it was so I would always be able to find them if I was lost. She smiled. She told me she wished she could have met them. I agreed. We talked a bit. All day she kept (b4 the cemetary even) talking about how the top of my necklace was for me and the back was for her. Weird how kids say stuff and you really don't think about it until later.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Anyway, we tell Matt how much fun we had as soon as we get in the car. He is happy. Maddy is telling her stories. It was cute. We dropped her off at his moms and head home. His mom was being weird, and he started to get bossy so it was good we did not have to stay.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Once we got to our house his Airsoft friends were waiting and I literally got pushed aside. He didn't bother to help with the dogs. Typical. Again, he is thinking of himself and Airsoft. It’s like a daily occurrence.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">We had talked about what time he was going to be home. Early was all I got. He mentioned it would be around 9 or so because everyone would start getting tired and need to go home for whatever reason. I figured more like 11:30 since that is usually when he gets home unless it is an event super far away.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I met a couple of the airsoft widows LOL for dinner at Applebees (2 times in one day) and then we went to see Paranormal Activity. I got home and waited for Matt.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">As soon as I walked in the door, it was 5 after 10. My mom calls and she does not even say hello. She’s started with what the fuck is going on? And she is fuck this and fuck that and blah blah blah cursed me for 20min over her damn floor. Instead of being thankful that someone is fixing her floor for free and that I paid for most of it because I owe her money still for the car, she is bitching at me because she cannot get back there and how is she suppose to take to a bath with no<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>hot water tank hooked up. I told her to just come over here in the morning. Well my bathroom I guess is not good enough for her so she just said she would go to aunt sues. I told mom Matt did not have any help past 12:30 and that he is trying to do his best alone. There is a lot to do. No matter what I tried to say to her, she did not want to hear it.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So that pretty much set me off.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I tried to call Matt from 10:30 until 1AM. He never answered his phone.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">He got home at 1:30. I tried to not be mad. I heard some excuse as to why his phone was not on, then why he could not use someone else's. Why he was home so late. I told him what mom did, and then he goes off on me. Then he walks way, does not want to talk and goes to maddy room. This happens a lot, him walking away, never wanted to talk, he’s tired, he’s this, and he doesn't have time. Like a dumb ass I follow him. Well he won't let me in. I keep trying to push the door in; he is pushing to shut it. Finally he gets pissed off and slams it open and it puts a hole in maddy's wall. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Great. Something else to deal with.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I hate this house. I want to move out. It is all tied to him and his marriage and HER.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I want to buy a new house. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Anyway, I start crying and screaming and he’s falling asleep. Again, been there, done that. It is now about 3am.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Me and the dogs go in the bedroom to my bed and I was up till 5am.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Sunday, I woke up at 7am to take the dogs out. I hear him get up a little after 8 and he comes in. I don't speak and just act like I am sleeping. About 9 I get up to make myself some tea. My head is pounding, I can’t stop crying. He jumps in the shower at 9:20 and I just lost it. I was crying so hard I could not breathe. He comes in after the shower and I am shaking and dry heaving trying to get air. I cried so hard my eyeballs were going to pop out. We are talking about my illness. Of course, here his mom calls 10:15 wants to know why he’s not there to get maddy when we told her 10:30. So he leaves. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I literally stay in bed and cry all day. He takes maddy to my mom’s so he can work on floor, then to his moms so they can have dinner and take her home. He comes home a little after 8. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I tried to talk. He asks me if I am feeling better. WTF. I cannot take a nap, lay in bed all day, take 2 aspirin and POOF it just goes away. It is frustrating because despite the fact he has anger issues which he was medicated for, he does not really have a clear understanding of mental illnesses. I am trying to get him to understand, but it is just not clicking. I try to explain how I feel, how I feel inside my head, how my thought process works.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Yesterday I worked from 7 until 8 last night. He got home from class at 3 we had dinner together then he took off to moms. I went right back to writing. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Why do I have to be the only one worried about the car situation and trying to do something about it? And even if I can get help, how am I supposed to get there when he always has the car? It is just a viscous circle. I eat because I am depressed. I hurt because of the same. I am depressed because I am fat. And it just goes round and round. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I can't get him to understand that, yes I realize there are people worse than me. But it is still depressing to me. That there are surface factors such as day to day life stress, but there are underlying factors as well stemming from the past.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, he gets home from moms, showers, and makes food and then about 9 want to watch a movie. A movie that is going to keep me up past 11. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Sleep is another issue. I do not get enough of it. I don’t sleep well to begin with. Then he expects me to stay up all night with him, and yet I am the one getting up in the AM and don’t really go back to sleep like he does on those days he helps with the dogs. So he has no idea about sleep deprivation.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Just when you think we are ok, I realize he forgot my milk. Yes, it is just milk. But I needed that milk. Stupid shit I have to deal with.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This AM he heads out the door for class, I look up at him, about to say something and he apparently does not like my look and goes off on me. Glaring at him, he says. Not off to a good start he mumbles. Then when I try to explain to him I was not glaring, I was just about to say something, and he tells me I need to change my face. He walks out the door and I scream, well maybe I will just ask God to give me a new one!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I ended up calling him while he was driving to school and told him he HAS to be more open and understanding, he HAS to be here for me, he HAS to help me and he HAS to stop with the snotty ass comments. It is about ME now and not about him. He can either accept it and help me or let me move on.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I know if I could find a place to get some help, he could go. And that person could explain to him, just like we had to do with Marcus. Yeah it sucks to admit your woman is broken, but fucking be a man and own up to it. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I told him if it was too much for him I would go, I would understand.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">No matter what we go through, the end result is he just does not want me to go.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">But I cannot continue to live in an environment where I am not understood.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Anyway, I have gone on and on. I need to get some work done. I hope this gives you some insight to what I have been dealing with. I know it’s a little hard to follow.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-71526356704782269812009-10-27T16:57:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:45:48.518-05:00How to choose a Caribbean charter yacht - by Chrystal Mahan - HeliumA beautiful place for a sunny getaway!<br /><a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1631351-choosing-a-caribbean-charter-yacht-to-visit-the-virgin-islands">How to choose a Caribbean charter yacht - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-79204441751337399932009-10-21T18:57:00.011-04:002010-11-23T19:42:15.602-05:00What are the disadvantages of working from home?<div class="MsoNormal">I have said it before and I will say it again, working from home is <b>NOT</b> all it is cracked up to be. You should weight the pros and cons before deciding whether you would like to work from home. Be sure to list all your advantages, and disadvantages. For most, this will be different from person to person. Some people can work with a little bit of background noise, others can not. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have written another Helium title: <a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1448657-organizing-work-from-home">How to make sure you actually work when you work from home</a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">And be sure to check out all the work at home titles Helium has to offer for many views and opinions.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Here are some disadvantages that have surfaced recently for me.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b>1. People think that just because you work from home you can do whatever you want.</b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">WRONG!</div><div class="MsoNormal">We have bills to pay just like everyone else; therefore we need to work just like everyone else. Our income is generally based on the amount of work we do.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b>2. You are home, so you must not be doing anything so I can just stop by.</b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">WRONG!</div><div class="MsoNormal">Our homes are our offices; therefore just like any other place of business you must respect our space during office hours and find something else to do.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b>3. You have freedom.</b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Yes and No.</div><div class="MsoNormal">We have the freedom to work when we want, however as a freelancer who has to deal with deadlines, we do have to get our work done on time just like any other job. Not only that, there are days when<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>we put in twice as many hours in one day then the average worker.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b>4. As a freelancer we have no boss.</b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Many of us that work from home are freelancers of some sort. We tend to be our own bosses. We make the rules and our own schedules. We choose to work regular business hours, but many put in 10-12 hours on any given day.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b>5. Since you are home you can also take out the dogs (if you have them), clean the house, do the laundry, watch the children, and cook the meals (or any other household chore).</b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">WRONG!</div><div class="MsoNormal">Many work from home people will agree, we simply can not do these things while we are working. We might be able to multi task from time to time, but this is not the norm.<br style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> <!--[if !supportLineBreakNewLine]--><br style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> <!--[endif]--></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b>6. I must have a lot of time to spend on Facebook, MySpace and Twitter (or any other social networking site.</b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">WRONG!</div><div class="MsoNormal">When working from home, we are usually in business for ourselves. Social networking is an alternative to not only say a quick hello, but also to promote ourselves. We are also allowed breaks, so it is ok if we stop to play a game once in a while. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b>7. If the phone rings, we have to answer it.</b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">WRONG!</div><div class="MsoNormal">If we do not answer, we are BUSY. You do not have to call us every five minutes. We will talk to you when we have time. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If you have people in your life that just do not understand the work from home lifestyle, it is best to just let the phone go directly to voicemail. Will caller ID so readily available, you will know who is calling.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b>8. Distractions are a part of life.</b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">WRONG! </div><div class="MsoNormal">They are just some figment of your imagination. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Ok, that is not really true. Distractions are there for everyone. We all have them, some different then others.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Once you find out what distracts you, work to get that out of your office area.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b>9. You do not have to work weekends.</b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">WRONG!</div><div class="MsoNormal">Many of us have to work when ever we are needed. Example for freelance writers would be: Newspapers are published 7 days a week, right? </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b>10. You get a lot of ME time</b>.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">WHAT???</div><div class="MsoNormal">Me time?? What is that???</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">When you work from home, a lot of your time is spent thinking about working from home.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Working from home can be very rewarding. But, it is not for everyone.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-23151723821596429982009-10-20T10:22:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:45:48.522-05:00Who is most responsible for the creation of the humanities? - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1622554-changes-in-humanities-michelangelo">Who is most responsible for the creation of the humanities? - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-6882985986710539232009-10-18T13:29:00.003-04:002010-11-17T14:48:20.824-05:00Poetry In Motion: Just Some Words, They Sort of RhymeOctober 18, 2009<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">(Note: this is not a poem. If it rhymes it is purely accidental.)<br />I feel the four walls closing in.<br />The heater has a slow hum in the background.<br />The dogs lie restless on the bed, and here I sit. Alone.<br />There is never enough time in the day, to say all that I need to say.<br />The darkness rears its ugly head and I do not care.<br />I have my arms out, stretched open wide.<br />I have always embraced the darkness. No stranger to this place.<br />It is there I am welcomed and understood.<br />If only you could get inside my head and see, what it is really like to be me.<br />Maybe then you would really understand.<br />The darkness is the only friend I have.<br />Listens to my words when I speak.<br />That will never happen, this I see.<br />We are completely different, you and me.<br />Many people can make things work.<br />This requires compromise, communication, and attention.<br />None of this is here.<br />I smile on the outside, so others don’t ask.<br />Inside I am dying from wearing this mask.</span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-74404117101434297522009-10-17T20:55:00.002-04:002010-11-15T20:57:33.612-05:00For Matthew<div class="MsoNormal">Letter to Matthew</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Happy Sweetest Day.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I had hoped you might realize that it was today, but then again, nothing takes the place of Airsoft when it’s etched in your mind for the day.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Then, I decided I was going to come here to say good-bye.</div><div class="MsoNormal">But all that did was make me cry.</div><div class="MsoNormal">All I want is to love you, but yet it seems to be an impossible task. </div><div class="MsoNormal">To truly love someone. Anyone.</div><div class="MsoNormal">It is hard to love someone with everything you have when they are not there for you.</div><div class="MsoNormal">And I am constantly reminded of that.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I give you everything I have to give you, every little part of me. I am always there when you need me.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I feel, you do not reciprocate.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Please read the rest with an honest, open heart and mind.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">You do not communicate well with your mom, with Angie, or anyone else for that matter unless it is airsoft related then you can speak and be spoken to.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So why would I ever start to think I would be any different? When it comes to the rest of us, you only hear what you want to hear. You pick and choose parts and you miss the whole thing entirely. And when you make plans and it starts to fall apart (i.e. your mom cant watch Madison so you can go airsoft like at the bday party) then you get upset, mad and angry. So why is it that I am not allowed to have those same emotions when I make plans and they get wrecked?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">If I type it, there is no room for error. It is all right here in front of you.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">You do not want to listen to me when I speak. You have told me time and time again you would much rather play on the computer then do anything when you are not playing airsoft. I told you Monday then perhaps I should just start emailing you. This way, you do not have to listen to me speak and you can be on the computer. It’s a win-win situation. Maybe it is for the best anyway. I am better at writing then I am speaking.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I found out my friends dad passed away yesterday. I found out about 10 minutes before you cam home. All I had wished for was that you were there for me to share that with you. By the time you got home I was so angry you were home so late and it was apparent that you have not been listening to me in regards to the shower curtain, your time coming home, and Madison.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Already in emotional turmoil I became bitter and angry. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">You DID tell me you would be home when Madison fell asleep. You DID tell me you would not be home late because you had to get up at 5am. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">You and I are never going to see eye to eye on Airsoft. I tried to compromise with you. But that compromise repeatedly gets broken. I am tired of watching you cry and feel guilty because you don’t spend that time with Madison. I am tired of you weighing in on all this guilt because you miss her and you have to prove to yourself that the time you do spend with her is quality time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Relationships are supposed to be about compromise and working things out. But funny thing is Airsoft is right back where it started from despite the fact you told me repeatedly it would change. And I have a feeling next year is going to be another battle. Everything has some said importance to you. But what about the things that are important to me? </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I find myself drifting farther and father away from you and this family life you want us to have because every time I try, I get pushed away.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I will always be somewhat in reserve because I never know when something is going to change. I do not want to get all excited about something, only to be shot down. It has just happened too many times.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I made a commitment to you, which falls to Madison. But, I do not feel the same commitment from you. Your commitment lies with BJJ, Airsoft, and Madison.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is like I am thrown in to the mix to be there when you are not doing these other things. You come to me with things, ask me things, but yet you always do what you want, despite what I say. So I often wonder why I even bother.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Church was starting to be such a good thing. I was really enjoying spending that time with you. Bonding with you. I was really starting to cherish that. And we were doing so much better. Now, it’s been taken away from me. All you want to do is play music. I know you miss the band. I knew it the day you said you quit. As time went on you started to say I was the reason you quit. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This really is about you and how you miss playing. It is no longer about us, sharing church. I then started to feel the pressure. Which is why I talked to Phil. But, the truth is, I don’t want to be there for 3 hours and I am going to bet Madison is not going to want to either. I don’t want that rush around every Sunday morning to make sure we all make it on time. It is now starting to feel like a chore. More like work and less about finding my way with God, less about sharing something beautiful with you. Something that was actually bringing us closer together, helping us to be strong and work through our things. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Something that was calm and peaceful to me, even if for an hour or so, has now turned into something opposite of that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Maybe it is best you continue forward since you love it so much.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Me, not so much. I will find my own way.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I pulled myself away this week for a reason. I told you that on Monday that I had to take some time. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Like I said I am sorry it had to happen the week Meredith is here. It was not planned out on purpose. But, it is long overdue. Too often I put you first. Making sure the house is cleaned and picked up when you get home. Making sure you have clean clothes, especially underwear. To make sure food is on the table, waiting for you when you get home from school. Packing a lunch for you, and just generally making sure you are taken care of. Sadly, you have not noticed I have loosened up on the whole cleaning thing, despite your promise to adhere to a Mon, Wed, schedule for certain things. I ask you to do things because they need to be done, and quite frankly, I do it so often that at that particular moment in time, I just do not want to bother with it. I see no reason why you can not take a turn. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I need to take care of me. I need to find my direction in life. I need to make some money. I am going to have to file bankruptcy and that is going to cost money. I need to be able to study for school and for real estate. I need to be able to write. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I need all these things, and the bottom line is I have to start putting myself first because no one else is. No one is taken care of me, so I have to do it.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I need you to listen to me when I speak. Every time you go to an airsoft event you are gone until 11ish. I assumed this one would be no different. You even told me you would be home very late. We talked about Madison and this weekend for two weeks. I asked you every day to make sure everything was still a go. We talked all week about her spending the weekend with your mom. I made plans to work, to take advantage of that time. See my family. And get some much needed rest. Then, at the last minute things get sprung on me. And this happens all the time. I am fully aware that Madison is your daughter, that you love her, you miss her, you cry over her. I am made aware of this on a daily basis. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I can only dream that some day you would love me like that, show me that sort of attention.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It will never be. I also know “Blood is thicker then water.”</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">But I will not allow you to make me feel guilty about anything any more. I am entitled to have my time. I am entitled to make plans based on your schedule and be able to stick to them despite your changes. I always put your needs before my own. And I always schedule my life around yours.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am entitled to a lot of things. I give you everything, the least you can do is give me a break when I ask for it. If things would have just stayed as planned, we would not even have this discussion. If you would have just talked to your mom like I repeatedly asked you to, we would not be having this issue.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Your mom wants her all the time, then when she gets her she changes her mind. You say she needs time with grammie, needs time with Meredith and the girls, now you are changing your mind. I made the plans that I made for a reason. I made them based on your words and our discussions. Making me change my plans is not fair to me. It is not my fault you do not communicate. I communicated to you all week about it.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Writing is MY dream. It is ALL I want to do. And I am willing to make sacrifices to achieve my dream. I know I have a long way to go to get where I want to be. This real estate thing, this isn’t my dream. I am doing it because it’s what others want me to do. What others think is good for me. And you know, I thought, just maybe it would be a good thing for us to do together. We could study, work, make some money and spend time together. Maybe it’s a last ditch effort for us both. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Because you are not here a lot I have had to find support elsewhere. I have sought out others in similar situations as I am.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Bio Moms, Step Moms, Adoptive Moms,<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Child Free “Moms” – all who share in the fact we are all in different situations and yet, all face parenting time on the weekends.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My situation seems to be a lot more different then most, but at least I have found a place where I can go to ask questions and perhaps get advice.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The bio moms are quick to remind me that I am not a mother because I did not birth the child. Not only that, I do not have any children of my own. The step moms are quick to remind me that you and I are not married. The adoptive moms are there to let me know Madison has a mom and therefore I do not fall into the adoption moms. However, I am biologically child free, yes thank you for reminding me of that. And that despite the true definition of a mom, I am not one. I am told the child is not my responsibility, that she is solely yours. I am told all these things, which makes me feel like everything I am doing in regards to you and Madison is wrong. And yet, I thought it was the right thing to do. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, where exactly do I fit in? And what am I suppose to be doing?</div><div class="MsoNormal">Problem with those questions, I don’t think either of us knows the answer to them.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">You think I am not happy. With you, I am happy. I am happy being here with you. It is the situation we are in that frustrates me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I stay because I feel like this is something worth holding on to. That all this shit we go through only makes us stronger. At the same time, I have always taken the easy way out of things. I never bother to stick around to write my own final chapter and I am trying very hard to see this one through until the end. But I need a little help on your end. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I need you to communicate and listen. Bottom line. The cleaning, it boils down to your listening. Madison, same thing. Your mom, the same. Angie, likewise. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Maybe you should check your Facebook once in a while too, just a thought.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">If it is easier for you to communicate this way, then feel free to continue.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">All I know is I do love you and I am sorry.</div><div class="MsoNormal">But at the same time, I am changing.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Sorry this was so long, I just really needed to get things off my chest. You need to know how I feel.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-32809984832931879032009-10-15T15:40:00.001-04:002010-11-17T14:48:58.277-05:00What is Degenerative Disc Disease? And why am I writing about it?Well a few years ago I found out I had it. Began treatments, but since my divorce and moving to Michigan it has gotten worse. Not only that, I have not been exercising, put on more weight and I throw around a 4 year old on the weekends.<br /><br />None of these are helpful and add to it the life stress and it was bound to “break.” This is not the first time this has happened since living in Michigan. Earlier this year before moving in with Matt, and another time after moving here in 2007 I was literally laid up in bed for a week because the pain was so severe , I was unable to move around. I had to crawl to the potty.<br /><br />In all the time I have been here I have been unable to go to the chiropractor. That has changed. About three weeks ago I was stepping out of the shower and just stepped wrong. I did not slip or fall so it really does not make sense to me, but I could feel it go through my spine the moment I stepped down on the cold floor. After that, I was walking crooked , leaning to my left, sliding me feet to walk,and it got worse as the days went on. Soon I was walking around hunched about like the Hunchback of Notre Dame. <br /><br />I could not stand up straight, walk around, and even going potty was an issue. After a week Matt had enough and called the chiropractor here in town which we found out was very reasonable for cash paying patients. <br /><br />I have gone to see her about 5 times now. I can walk straight now, but there is still a very dull pain in my lower back/hip area on my right side.<br /><br />For those of you new to my world, my DDD was diagnosed in my 4th and 5th Lumbar in the Fall of 2006.<br /><br />This is an excerpt from the blog I wrote in Oct of 2006:<br /><i>I have DDD. Degenerative Disk Disease. My bottom two disk/vertebrae are practically on top of each other. No space that should be there. He said it was not good for someone my age. And it is in a progressive stage. To make things worse, my right leg is shorter so my hips are crooked which is why all my pain is on my right side. So, we talked about all my treatments. Basically we are opting to do what we can without having to have any type of spinal surgery.</i><br /><br /><br />The good thing, I did all my treatments as directed until I moved here. Bad thing, I went two years with no treatment and only made myself go backwards and make things worse. The treatments I am getting now are a little different. They are not as aggressive. I am also going to be doing treatments with an exercise ball to strengthen my core as well as use a ball to sit on at my desk so I am forced to sit correctly.<br /><br />She was able to get my records from my old chiropractor so at least I know she knows what is going on. I feel like I am in good hands. I know she has helped quite a few people.<br /><br />Sadly, despite treatments I am still in a lot of pain. She said it would take up to 6 months for me to notice improvement due to my damage.<br /><br />All I know is I have to lose weight get strong and feel better because I do not want to have to go in for spinal fusion surgery. That alone is hard because just about any type of movement hurts me right now.<br /><br />It sucks. I am uncomfortable, unable to sleep (worse then ever!), in constant pain and sucks not being able to really play with Madison and the dogs. Matt has to be super careful with me now too.<br /><br />Not a life I like to live one bit.<br /><br />My blogs have slacked because of this. I sit only to write when I am getting paid. And I have to take a lot of breaks and sit with a heating pad. No fun!!<br /><br />I am hoping, and praying the pain goes away and the numbness goes away that often shoots down my legs.<br />We shall see.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-87114773121350381572009-10-13T20:04:00.001-04:002010-11-17T14:51:25.633-05:00My Working from Home VentI have said it before and I will say it again, working from home is NOT all it is cracked up to be.<br /><br />1. People think that just because you work from home you can do whatever you want.<br /><br />WRONG!<br />I have bills to pay just like everyone else; therefore I need to work just like everyone else. My income is based on the amount of work I turn in.<br /><br /><br />2. You are home, so you must not be doing anything so I can just stop by.<br /><br />WRONG!<br />My home is my office; therefore just like any other place of business you must respect me and my space during my office hours and find something else to do.<br /><br />3. You have freedom.<br /><br />Yes and No.<br />I have the freedom to work when I want, however as a writer who has to deal with deadlines, I do have to get my work done on time just like any other job. Not only that, there are days when I put in twice as many hours in one day then the average worker.<br /><br />4. As a freelance writer I have no boss.<br /><br />I am my own boss. I make the rules and my own schedule. I choose to work regular business hours unless I have a deadline or am on the writing rampage. Then I tend to put in 8-12 hours.<br /><br />5. Since you are home you can also take out the dogs, clean the house, do the laundry and cook the meals.<br /><br />WRONG!<br />I am a work from home freelance writer who is in charge of her own business. I am NOT Superwoman. I do not have eight arms. I have to work and make money. I do not have time during the day to be your chef, babysitter, maid and dry cleaners. If I am in my office working and it needs done, do it yourself. I am sure you are not doing anything anyway.<br /><br />6. I must have a lot of time to spend on Facebook, MySpace and Twitter.<br /><br />WRONG!<br />I use my time wisely. Most of you know I do not sleep well and I am up at the crack of dawn. I write all day, and just like any other job, I require a break. While on break I tend to visit these sites. My writing is also linked to these sites, it is all about networking. Not to mention often these sites give me ideas for things to write.<br /><br />7. If the phone rings, I have to answer it.<br /><br />WRONG!<br /><br />If I do not answer, I am BUSY. You do not have to call me every five minutes. I will talk to you when I have time.<br /><br />8. Distractions are a part of life.<br /><br />WRONG! <br />They are just some figment of your imagination. <br /><br />Ok, that is not really true. Distractions are there for everyone. We all have them, some different then others. Mine is a rather large, 30 year old. <br /><br />9. You do not have to work weekends.<br /><br />WRONG!<br />I have to work when ever I am needed if I am going to make it during hard times as a freelance writer. Newspapers are published 7 days a week, right? Ok then. However with a 4 year old, 30 year old and two dogs running around it is rather impossible to work.<br /><br />10. You get a lot of ME time.<br /><br />WHAT???<br />Me time?? What is that???<br /><br />A lot of people think it is great that I am writing these days. I would have to agree. I have so much potential to make great money, however because it seems that I have to play house so often that I am not allowed to take care of me and do the things that I need to do. I have my own bills to pay. I have my own needs and wants. Writing is my dream and it gets crapped on every day. I am sick of it. I am tired of putting everyone else’s needs before my own. I can not do it anymore, and I can no do it all by myself. If people can not start respecting me, my dream and my own needs then I am going to have to make some serious changes in my life. Writing is my job and it should be respected as such even though I do not have to leave my house to go to work. <br /><br />I need my time, I need my space and I need to be allowed to follow my dream with out sacrificing who I am. I have to vent. These are my words, this is my voice. I can no longer put others before me. I can no longer put off what I should be doing today until tomorrow. I can no longer be pushed into taking time off to do things with others when I have to make money. I already lost my car; I can not lose my self worth too.<br /><br />I can no longer try to force you to understand that I WORK from HOME. I am done wasting my time and energy trying to explain it. Instead, the word “NO” will be a regular in my vocabulary. I will not give up my dream because you are lazy, selfish, and not understanding. I no longer care what you think of me.<br /><br />If you see a sign that says “Do Not Disturb” please do exactly what it says and leave me be.<br /><br />The End.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-5288092459068288502009-10-13T14:16:00.001-04:002009-10-13T14:16:59.162-04:00Do you copywrite?<a href='http://www.myfreecopyright.com/registered_mcn/WF1CB_TB2P3_NJ6XY' title='MyFreeCopyright.com Registered & Protected' ><img src='http://storage.myfreecopyright.com/mfc_protected.png' alt='MyFreeCopyright.com Registered & Protected' title='MyFreeCopyright.com Registered & Protected' width='145px' height='38px' border='0'/></a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-63266882001322535632009-10-13T13:03:00.000-04:002010-12-23T13:09:19.710-05:00Vampire, Interrupted by Lynsay Sands<div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="yshortcuts"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0061229776&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe>I freely admit as a writer I tend to be much less critical of others work then my own. I get lost in others words losing hours of my day. When I picked up Vampire, Interrupted a few weeks ago I had never heard of Lynsay Sands or the Argeneau series. And here I thought I was a </span>connoisseur<span class="yshortcuts"> of all things vampire. Guess I was wrong.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Vampire, Interrupted is book nine out of a twelve book series. This bit of information was known to me after I had already purchased and read the book. Do not let that stop you from reading it yourself. The author gives you just enough background information to keep you informed and the story line gives you all the new juice for a novel that could stand all on its own. Now that I have read it I want to devour more and have plans to read all of the others in the series just as soon as I can get my hands on them and find the time.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Marguerite Argeneau is seven hundred years old and just discovering herself.<span> </span>She has been freed from her abusive life mate and has embarked on a new adventure and a new career. Marguerite is training to be a private investigator, helping to find an immortals mother.<span> </span>Seems like an easy enough job for any private investigator to handle, even an immortal until she finds herself waking up to a silver sword and a cloaked being.<span> </span>Searching for a long lost mother might be more then what she bargained for. Should she stop, or keep looking?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">The immortals father, Julius Notte wished to protect Marguerite, if only she would let him. While he is trying to protect her, he is also trying to win her heart as he knows she is his life mate. Marguerite has a different story. She was with her life mate before he was beheaded. So how could Julius be hers? Let’s not forget an immortal can have more then one life mate in their time. Sands gives us an interesting twist on Marguerites life mate situation.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Julius wonders, being as old as he is and having had such a long period without a life mate if he can still woo with the best of them. Starting over again is never easy and leaved him feeling a little out of touch.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">The books has many plot changes, turns and twists making it a must read mystery combined with all the immortal dialect a vampire enthusiast could want. <span> </span>There is murder, mystery, thrills, and vampires, OH MY!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Despite the fact this is a vampire series, the books also read a bit like a Harlequin romance.<span> </span>There is romance, there is wooing and there is a little bit of adult business going on. This vampire series is not recommended for teens.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">This is defiantly one of those books that if you spill too much of the story, it tends to spoil the end. If you are vampire fan, romance or not, this is a must read, especially on a chilly night.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-53825365065600735762009-10-13T12:54:00.000-04:002010-12-23T12:54:12.735-05:00The Accidental Vampire by Lynsay Sands<iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0061229687&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="yshortcuts">I freely admit as a writer I tend to be much less critical of others work then my own. I get lost in others words losing hours of my day. When I picked up The Accidental Vampire a few weeks ago I had never heard of Lynsay Sands or the Argeneau series. And here I thought I was a </span>connoisseur<span class="yshortcuts"> of all things vampire. Guess I was wrong.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">The Accidental Vampire is book seven out of a twelve book series. This bit of information was known to me after I had already purchased and read the book. Do not let that stop you from reading it yourself. The author gives you just enough background information to keep you informed and the story line gives you all the new juice for a novel that could stand all on its own. Now that I have read it I want to devour more and have plans to read all of the others in the series just as soon as I can get my hands on them and find the time. I read this book after I read Vampire, Interrupted which I have also written a review on.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Elvi Black lost her family in a horrible accident five years ago while vacationing in Mexico. To make things worse much of the time spent there she does not remember. What she does remember is turning into a vampire. Whoever turned Elvi was not kind enough to stick around, dubbing her the accidental vampire. With no one to teach her Elvi had to learn the ways on her own through movies and books. Elvi sleeps in a coffin, doesn’t go out in sunlight, stays away from garlic, and the local townspeople let her feed off their blood through annual blood drives. Elvi is a strange occurrence to many. How many towns do you know have a resident vampire?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Elvi has let it be known she is a vampire and does not hide it from others. In the immortal world one is not to draw attention to oneself, it is a law which she is breaking.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Victor Argeneau has been sent by the council to investigate the outspoken vampire. Victor Argeneau wants to know whether she is indeed a real immortal or just a wannabe seeking a gothic lifestyle partner.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Little does he know he is about to meet his life mate.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">The books has many plot changes, turns and twists making it a must read mystery combined with all the immortal dialect a vampire enthusiast could want. There is attempted murder, blood, mystery, thrills, and vampires, OH MY! All thrown about with a bit of humor.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Despite the fact this is a vampire series, the books also read a bit like a Harlequin romance. There is romance, there is wooing and there is a little bit of adult business going on. This vampire series is not recommended for teens.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">This is defiantly one of those books that if you spill too much of the story, it tends to spoil the end. If you are vampire fan, romance or not, this is a must read, especially on a chilly night.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-69344075335572053172009-10-13T09:46:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:45:48.527-05:00Roles and the battle of the sexes - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1614869-sex-roles-men-women-battle-of-the-sexes">Roles and the battle of the sexes - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-56780301613128301402009-10-13T09:39:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:45:48.532-05:00Is physician-assisted euthanasia a patients right? - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1614861-euthanasia-suicide-doctor-assisted-life-death">Is physician-assisted euthanasia a patients right? - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-69825316068707114582009-10-13T09:32:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:45:48.536-05:00Early germ theory of disease: Contributions of Leeuwenhoek, Semmelweiss and Snow - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1614817-germ-theory-disease-paradigm-shifts-kuhn-pasteur-koch-leeuwenhoek">Early germ theory of disease: Contributions of Leeuwenhoek, Semmelweiss and Snow - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-43177928146342277102009-10-13T09:31:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:45:48.541-05:00Does big business unduly influence government? - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1614851-domhoff-rules-america-big-business-government">Does big business unduly influence government? - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-8671402399168594322009-10-13T08:49:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:45:48.546-05:00How communications have advanced - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1614790-gutenberg-printing-press-communcations-change-paradigm-shifts">How communications have advanced - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-77081373355147885322009-10-12T21:04:00.002-04:002010-11-15T21:04:48.987-05:00(A Rant) Working from Home<div class="MsoNormal">I have said it before and I will say it again, working from home is NOT all it is cracked up to be.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">1. People think that just because you work from home you can do whatever you want.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">WRONG!</div><div class="MsoNormal">I have bills to pay just like everyone else; therefore I need to work just like everyone else. My income is based on the amount of work I turn in.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">2. You are home, so you must not be doing anything so I can just stop by.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">WRONG!</div><div class="MsoNormal">My home is my office; therefore just like any other place of business you must respect me and my space during my office hours and find something else to do.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">3. You have freedom.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Yes and No.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I have the freedom to work when I want, however as a writer who has to deal with deadlines, I do have to get my work done on time just like any other job. Not only that, there are days when I put in twice as many hours in one day then the average worker.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">4. As a freelance writer I have no boss.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am my own boss. I make the rules and my own schedule. I choose to work regular business hours unless I have a deadline or am on the writing rampage. Then I tend to put in 8-12 hours.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">5. Since you are home you can also take out the dogs, clean the house, do the laundry and cook the meals.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">WRONG!<br />I am a work from home freelance writer who is in charge of her own business. I am NOT Superwoman. I do not have eight arms. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have to work and make money. I do not have time during the day to be your chef, babysitter, maid and dry cleaners. If I am in my office working and it needs done, do it yourself. I am sure you are not doing anything anyway.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">6. I must have a lot of time to spend on Facebook, MySpace and Twitter.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">WRONG!</div><div class="MsoNormal">I use my time wisely. Most of you know I do not sleep well and I am up at the crack of dawn. I write all day, and just like any other job, I require a break. While on break I tend to visit these sites. My writing is also linked to these sites, it is all about networking. Not to mention often these sites give me ideas for things to write.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">7. If the phone rings, I have to answer it.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">WRONG!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">If I do not answer, I am BUSY. You do not have to call me every five minutes. I will talk to you when I have time.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">8. Distractions are a part of life.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">WRONG! </div><div class="MsoNormal">They are just some figment of your imagination. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Ok, that is not really true. Distractions are there for everyone. We all have them, some different then others.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Mine is a rather large, 30 year old. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">9. You do not have to work weekends.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">WRONG!</div><div class="MsoNormal">I have to work when ever I am needed if I am going to make it during hard times as a freelance writer. Newspapers are published 7 days a week, right? Ok then.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>However with a 4 year old, 30 year old and two dogs running around it is rather impossible to work.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">10.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You get a lot of ME time.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">WHAT???</div><div class="MsoNormal">Me time?? What is that???</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">A lot of people think it is great that I am writing these days. I would have to agree. I have so much potential to make great money, however because it seems that I have to play house so often that I am not allowed to take care of me and do the things that I need to do. I have my own bills to pay. I have my own needs and wants. Writing is my dream and it gets crapped on every day. I am sick of it. I am tired of putting everyone else’s needs before my own. I can not do it anymore, and I can no do it all by myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If people can not start respecting me, my dream and my own needs then I am going to have to make some serious changes in my life. Writing is my job and it should be respected as such even though I do not have to leave my house to go to work. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I need my time, I need my space and I need to be allowed to follow my dream with out sacrificing who I am. I have to vent. These are my words, this is my voice. I can no longer put others before me. I can no longer put off what I should be doing today until tomorrow. I can no longer be pushed into taking time off to do things with others when I have to make money. I already lost my car; I can not lose my self worth too.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I can no longer try to force you to understand that I WORK from HOME.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am done wasting my time and energy trying to explain it. Instead, the word “NO” will be a regular in my vocabulary. I will not give up my dream because you are lazy, selfish, and not understanding. I no longer care what you think of me.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">If you see a sign that says “Do Not Disturb” please do exactly what it says and leave me be.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The End.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-13550397627332883652009-10-12T19:24:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:45:48.551-05:00What is child sexual abuse? - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1614232-childhood-sexual-abuse-sexual-abuse-molestation-child-molestation">What is child sexual abuse? - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-43935790240286391952009-10-12T19:23:00.001-04:002010-11-17T14:45:48.555-05:00The future of love and marriage in the United States - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1614258-marriage-future-inequality">The future of love and marriage in the United States - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-34131376177314505332009-10-12T19:23:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:45:48.560-05:00What is poverty? - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1614264-povert">What is poverty? - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-24627177761327439342009-10-12T19:22:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:45:48.565-05:00Differences between men and women explored - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1614267-men-and-woman-differences-gender-roles-men-woman-women">Differences between men and women explored - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-68675332784272609262009-10-12T19:20:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:45:48.569-05:00Bible study: Creation, the origin story in Genesis - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1614281-bible-genesis">Bible study: Creation, the origin story in Genesis - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-22672893689342753222009-10-09T19:17:00.003-04:002009-10-09T19:21:45.303-04:00American Cancer Society Haircut Donation ~ Breast Cancer Awareness Month<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">Losing someone to cancer is never fun. Last March I donated 15 inches of my hair to the Pantene Great Lengths/ American Cancer Society ponytail drive. It takes 3 tails to make one wig. This year I donated about 10 inches in honor of Breast Cancer Awareness Month. Here are some after pics. You can see my before over there >>>>> in the about me section.<br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">When it is not curly it just about touches my rear end! Curly is is just past my mid back.<br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/Ss_EPNWGzKI/AAAAAAAAAD0/h-pg4dHBVr8/s1600-h/3.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/Ss_EPNWGzKI/AAAAAAAAAD0/h-pg4dHBVr8/s320/3.jpg" /></a><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">All gone! Nice thinned out pretty layers.<br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/Ss_EWMacfaI/AAAAAAAAAD8/JFkFsRWM7_M/s1600-h/2.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/Ss_EWMacfaI/AAAAAAAAAD8/JFkFsRWM7_M/s320/2.jpg" /></a><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">The new me! It has been a LONG time since my hair has been this short and I am LOVING it!! <br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-28883991546270642002009-10-02T20:50:00.001-04:002010-11-15T20:52:13.468-05:00Defining my religion (again), or lack there of.<div class="MsoNormal">Defining my religion, or lack there of.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have talked about it numerous times and now that I am going to church again, I feel the need to yet again clarify my actions.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I follow no religious path. I never have.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have never been in to the whole organized religion. I always felt if their was a Higher Power such as God or Jesus then he/she would not care where or when I honored such Higher Power. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">My mother was born and raised Catholic. Irish Catholic to boot. The dad that raised me was born and raised Baptist, or something, although I am not sure he personally ever practiced. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I was never forced to go to church. When I would visit my family over summer breaks I would attend with my grandmother if she was going. As a child/teen I think I attended church maybe five times. It was so far and few in between that I can not even remember. My mother always believed I should make my own decisions and learn from the accordingly. She was not going to push religion or the church on me. Growing up, not many of the friends I kept went to church, so therefore, neither did I.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It wasn’t until about 2005 when I was introduced to a girl named Mandy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Mandy, like many of us had a story to tell. Here she was, a single mom making the best life she could for her and her daughter. Beautiful and full of life, Madisyn soon became my best little friend. Upon hearing Mandy’s story I became intrigued in the church world. My marriage on the rocks, I felt this was a last resort to find what was missing in life and perhaps work things out. You see, when Mandy was pregnant with Madisyn her doctors told her she was going to be born with downs syndrome. Not wanting to give up on a child she had never met, but had already fallen in love with, she found a church. Livechurch.tv. I listened to her tale, making new friends, following the path she had fallen off of, praying and even more praying. After many moths of this Mandy went back to her doctor for a check up and much to her surprise, a miracle happened. Madisyn was no longer going to be born with downs syndrome. Now I know many are thinking, well maybe there was a mix up in the medical records. That is possible; however Mandy went to three separate doctors for alternative opinions. A miracle? Could be. The power of prayer? Very well so.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">At the age of 3 ½<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Madisyn was about to have her dedication ceremony for the church. She had invited me and my then husband, and we went. At this time Madisyn and I were pals. I would go to Mandy’s house once a week to watch her while Mandy went to group bible study. We always had a good time and I looked forward to our weekly visits.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>She would tell me about school and all the things a three year old could imagine to tell you. She would play games with me, dance with me and curl up on the couch and watch movies with me. It was a no-brainer that I would attend her dedication.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Her dedication was the beginning of my journey with LifeChurch.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The topic that day was adultery. Those of you who have been around all this time, you know my marriage had these issues. So, that day, it was like God was calling us home. I literally poured my heart into LifeChurch. I made new friends, I attended weekly, I joined LifeGroups, I gave, I went to Missions, I volunteered, I fed the homeless, I built houses, I tithed, and I even learned how to pray. Best thing, I learned to accept myself and my past. I learned the power of forgiveness. It was then I forgave my dad for being a child molester, my mother for lying to me my whole life and my father for not wanting me, not once, but twice. I made a lot of peace. I was even given the opportunity to teach toddlers, 3-4 year olds. That alone was worth</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I struggled with God. In high school English the Bible was taught to us as a work of fiction. This was long before church and God was taken out of high school. Noah’s Ark was just a story, a man, a boat and some animals. There was nothing religious about it. In Science we talked about monkeys and cave men. College science was even more evolution, as we had to do almost a whole semester on the study of the Galalopos islands and how all those creatures evolved over time.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Who do you believe? In my world, it does not really matter. The truth is, I believe a little bit of both.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I believe everyone wants to have something to believe in. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And if you choose to believe in God or if you choose to believe in Gods/Goddesses’ or something else, then just believe. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Me, I believe in many things. And that is ok. I am comfortable in my own skin. I have piercings, I have tattoos, and I like Vampires. I think boys and girls are equally as beautiful. We are who we are and no one should have to explain that. Gay, Straight, BiSexual, we love who we love. And I believe that there is something out there worth believing in.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I like church because it makes me feel good. I take what I can from it and apply it to my life as best as I can. I like church because I feel some peace.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I like church because it is positive in my life. I just feel good about myself, my relationship and my world. Maybe that in itself is a sign.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Matt and I have been going to church, bringing Maddy along with us. New Covenent is located in Clio and even though I have only been a couple of time, they have more then made me feel welcome. I feel a calling to help with the kids. Matt wants to do music and help in the audio department. Our relationship has found some peace and it is brining us closer together. When you see positive things going on all around you and you are surrounded by all these wonderful positive people, you want to be there. You want to share your life with people who share in your thoughts and ideas.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">My knowledge of the Bible is poor. I have not been to church since leaving OK. I feel lost and a bit out of place. And that is okay. I want to read. I want to learn. I want to believe in something stronger then myself. I want to believe that everything terrible that happened to me in my life did not happen in vain, but rather to put me on a path to share my story and help others along the way. I have a voice. These are my words. I have a story to tell. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-82744551442074517332009-10-02T15:57:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:45:48.574-05:00How to get a credit card fee waived - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1604020-waive-credit-card-fees-credit-card-late-fees-credit-care-over-the-limit-fees">How to get a credit card fee waived - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-9208428175532139812009-09-15T20:16:00.002-04:002009-09-15T20:18:25.395-04:00Natural Medicine Talk <a href="http://www.natmedtalk.com">(http://www.natmedtalk.com)</a> or NatMedTalk is a new health forum geared towards those that want to treat illnesses the natural way instead of by manmade medicines. Whether you consider yourself holistic, herbal, all natural, alternative or homeopathic you are sure to find a vast of knowledge here. By providing a very modest amount of information one can easily register with the site to post and read forum messages. Whatever your passion, share and learn from other likeminded souls. There is always something new to be learned every day. Find out what works for one, read about what did not work for someone or some other ailment, perhaps you hold the key for success! Registration is free and honestly only takes a minute! Discuss health, illness, insurance, mental health, cancer and more.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-73970847890372972372009-09-15T18:43:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:45:48.579-05:00How to sew a kilt - by Chrystal Mahan - HeliumYou know you want one!<br /><a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1587383-sewing-a-kilt-irish-kilt-scottish-kilt">How to sew a kilt - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-90330260630584547452009-09-15T13:32:00.003-04:002010-11-17T14:52:54.754-05:00Checking in – starting week 3 of weight watchers at homeMy WI this week I was up a pound (Making my net loss 5 pounds), but I knew that was going to happen. I fell off the wagon. However, it was not bad as it had been in the past. I am a recovering binger. I was never able to purge by normal means, so I became addicted to laxatives, this happened when I was on WW the first time, which is why I have to do things at my own pace this time. I do not keep those types on medicines in my house for this reason. One night after a fight with Matt I began to fidget like I was going to go on a binge. I paced, I opened and close the fridge and I made some French bread pizza and had ONE instead of BOTH and I drank only ONE bud light instead of a Guinness (for me this is a small NSV).<br /><br />Not perfect but at least I was able to get it under control before too much damage was done. That was Saturday night. Sunday I went to breakfast with a friend, and did not order WW friendly. I was so full I did not eat anything until late and which point I ended up eating the other pizza. Yesterday I did really well until Matt and I decided to make up and have a date night. We went to Applebee’s because they have a WW friendly menu. However, I just ate what I wanted. We went to the movies after, and I was able to pass on the popcorn (NSV for me!) I have also been preparing more home cooked meals that are healthy for me, Matt and Madison. I am feeling very good about this.<br /><br />I have recorded everything I ate in my journal for WW, but I was not good about placing it online @ sparkpeople.com<br /><br />Lastly, I wanted to share a couple of (new to me) finds for those of you on WW and just trying to eat right. <br /><br />I generally eat a smart ones or healthy choice for lunch, but I like to try new things, so I went on a hunt ;)<br /><br />Campbell’s Select has revamped their lineup. I found many that were about 3 points per serving or 6 for the whole can and found light and low fat that went 0 to 2pt per serving or 1 to 4 per can. <br /><br />Today I am trying 98% Fat Free Clam Chowder, 2pts per serving and 2 servings in a can, so about 4pt. That is good for chowder. Most I see are high in points.<br /><br />The Light Southwestern Style Vegetable is 0pt per serving, or 1pt for the whole can. If you like Mexican southwestern flavor food, then you will love this. YUMMY!<br /><br />My next find was Lenders 100 Calorie Bagels. With so many companies jumping on the 100 calorie size bandwagon and costing us twice as much as out counterpart I was impressed by this little gem. When I was on WW the first time, the smallest bagels were bites and too small. The normal bagels were too high in points so I would have to cut them in half. That was not much fun to me. These 100 calorie ones are only 2 points and it’s nice to trick your mind into thinking you get to eat the WHOLE thing.<br /><br />Cream cheese as we know is also high in points. I have tried the fat free kinds only to be felt like I was missing out on something. No matter what I did to it, it had a funny taste so I would try different flavors and brands of light. Even those are generally a little more points then I want to spend so I gave up bagels for a while. Hard for me because my fave treat at the coffee shop was an everything bagel with ham and cream cheese. I spotted the new Weight Watcher Cream Cheese in 1 point packages, you get 8, for a few cents more than Philadelphia Cream Cheese so I thought I would give it a go and I got some very thin sliced ham that is not even a point for a couple pieces. I happily at my bagel this AM with a banana and it really made me smile. Silly I know, but it was nice to enjoy. The WW brand cream cheese is awesome! It does not have that weird aftertaste that I have noticed with other brands. It is light, not FF. And it goes on nice and creamy. It more then covered my bagel and it kept me full until about 11 and I ate about 7:30, so I had a special K bar.<br /><br />Ok, off to test the Clam Chowder.<br /><br />Congrats to all the losers, NSV, and even the non losers because you are treating your body better! We ALL win!<br /><br />Chrys<br /><br />PS – another new find for me are the Laughing Cow cheese wedges. I have tried the French Onion and the Garlic & Herb. I divide one wedge (1 pt) in half and spread each half on two (1 pt) Wasa rye crisps for a nice snack. I LOVE cheese and would just slice and eat a chunk when ever. So it is nice to find something to give me that cheese taste without a lot of points.<br /><br />Update: the 98% FF Clam Chowder was….yuck …Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-8255724004174200052009-09-10T08:27:00.001-04:002009-09-10T08:27:10.219-04:00Daily Horoscopes on Your Twitter Account | Twittascope.com<a href="http://twittascope.com/twittascope/?sign=4&day=Today">Daily Horoscopes on Your Twitter Account | Twittascope.com</a><br /><br />Shared via <a href="http://addthis.com">AddThis</a><br />It's challenging for you to keep a secret today, even if you know that it's the smartest thing to do. It's not that you want to stir up difficult feelings or betray anyone's confidence; it's just that you don't want to hold back if you feel close to someone. Keep in mind that an improper disclosure won't make a relationship any better and in the long run could jeopardize what you already have established.<br />Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-90906828580419607672009-09-07T13:39:00.001-04:002010-12-23T13:33:44.199-05:00Where the Heart Is by Billie Letts<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1579261-where-the-heart-is"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0446672211&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe>Book reviews: Where the Heart Is, by Billie Letts - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">You would never know just what was going on in your Wal-Mart. Living in Oklahoma for 90% of my life; I can truly understand the warm heartedness shown in this book. It is nice to see a wonderful author from Oklahoma finally get recognized!!</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">I also have to tell you, if you have not seen the movie, see it. The movie is also great. And while you are reading the book all the characters will seem so real. </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">This is truly a book for all ages.</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">Novalee is a seventeen year old girl who is seven months pregnant and heading to California with her boyfriend, </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Willie Jack Pickens</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">. Both of them are in search of a better life and the American dream. Funny thing is, they never make it. You see Novalee being pregnant has to pee and so </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Willie Jack</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">pull into a local Wal-Mart in </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Sequoyah, Oklahoma</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">. <span> </span>Novalee figures while she is there, she should get some slippers she does have ten dollars to her name after all. Willie Jack takes off and leaves her. Best part of the story, Novalee doesn't leave the Wal-Mart until she goes into labor. The words are humorous, describing Novalee living in the Wal-Mart, you can actually visualize the scene the author is trying to portray and you are left with no choice but to giggle a bit to yourself in the process. I found my thoughts wandering, wondering what I would do if I was locked inside a Wal-Mart with no place to go. Would I find the value in life the way that Novalee did. </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">You just have to read this book. It is so fast paced you won't want to put it down. It will make you laugh, and make you cry. <span> </span>The book is full of tales of love and friendship. Novalee will make you look at life with a whole new definition and purpose. You will see a strong girl, which just won't give up no matter what devastation she must endure. You will put that in your memory bank allowing you to pull it out when the time is right. Even though Novalee is a fictional character, there are many who will be able to relate. Being left high and dry while pregnant happens more often than it should and the author found a humorous way to tell a tale. In the end Novalee comes out better than she was before and better off. Willie Jack leaving was the best thing that could have happened to her and her baby. She was able to find friendship, love and a family.</span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-48705614955825505282009-09-06T16:45:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:47:22.533-05:00Product reviews: Slim Fast Optima snack bars - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1578408-slim-fast-snack-bars">Product reviews: Slim Fast Optima snack bars - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-27781009985610651452009-09-06T15:46:00.002-04:002010-12-23T13:35:13.332-05:00Vinegar Hill by A. Manette Ansay<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1578337-vinegar-hill-a-manette-ansay-oprah-book-club"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0060897848&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe>Book Review: Vinegar Hill, by A. Manette Ansay - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a><br /><br /><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I read Vinegar Hill sometime in 2000 as a recommendation from Oprah’s Book Club. At the time I belonged to a few of my own book clubs and one had a recommendation for this book. Although it was voted against, I decided to take the liberty upon myself to give it a read.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">At the time of reading I was not married, nor did I have children. At the time of writing this review, I have since been married and divorced, but still no children. Aside from the boyfriends four year old that lives with us on the weekend.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I tell you this because how a person related to a story will generally tell you how the review of the story will go.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">At that time I had no idea what it was like to have that "trapped" feeling or the "in-laws from hell". But I did know that those book feelings are very real. Every day families are faced with so many of these problems. Not to mention how many people have those skeletons hanging in the closets. </span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">I admit this was not one of Oprah's best picks. But the story is short, and to the point. You are able to get it read in one night. I didn't hate it, and since it was hard for me to relate to, I didn't much like it either. But, it was very well written and it left me with so many emotions. It left me thinking “Man, what if that was me and my family someday?"<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">Funny thing is, thinking about that “trapped” feeling now, and towards the end of my marriage I certainly felt it. As for the “in-laws from hell” well I never had those feelings. My in-laws were wonderful people and I miss them a great deal. Now that I live with my true love, I do have those in-law feelings and we are not even married. At times it makes me laugh how you can read something and it still sticks with you all these years later.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /><span class="rkr">If you are looking for a nice relaxing, sitting outside in the shade, sipping on lemonade summer novel, then this would be a good pick. If you are looking for a nice relaxing, curl up on the couch with a blanket and a cup of hot tea cold weather novel, then this would be a good pick. The story is great and it does not bog you down with a lot of detail. Words are well written, short and to the point. You almost start to feel the characters. Most of you will be able to relate, and feel it even better than I did when I read it for the first time.</span><br /><br /><br /><span class="rkr">Ellen Grier and her husband, James has moved back to the town they grew up in. </span>James<span class="rkr"> has lost his job, and can only afford to move them and the 2 kids back to Vinegar Hill (</span>Holly's Field, Wisconsin)<span class="rkr"> into his parent’s house until he is able to get onto his feet. So many things happen while they are there. Ellen is not liked by her in-laws Fritz and Mary-Margaret. To make matters worse, James’s parents do not like each other. When James does find a job, it takes him away for weeks at a time leaving Ellen to deal with his abusive parents. This is a story of that tale. After reading, the title will seem so clear.</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-29928677505109546952009-09-06T15:46:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:47:22.548-05:00Anita Shreve: Recommended reads - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1578317-the-pilots-wife-anita-shreve-oprah-book-club">Anita Shreve: Recommended reads - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-10819670591939807192009-09-06T15:44:00.003-04:002010-12-23T13:26:32.299-05:00Fight Club by Chuck Palahniuk<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1578262-fight-club-edward-norton-brad-pitt-helena-bonham-carter"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0393327345&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe>Movie reviews: Fight Club - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Movie based on a book.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Rule Number One; you cannot talk about fight club. So, over 500 million of us have broken the number one rule.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"> </span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">But you know what they say, "Some rules where just meant to be broken."<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">Generally I like to read the book before I see the movie. Books always offer more of the story then the movie does. When you are forced to take a novel and shrink it down to a two hour movie, generally bits and pieces get lost in the mix. With this movie I did not do that, and to this day I have not read the book. I have no intention of doing so. The movie is forever etched in my mind just the way it is. This once I do not need those extra bits and pieces.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"></span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">I really enjoy violence. There is no need for it, I know.<span> </span>Not in today's society. But there is some sort of instant gratification I get watching another person beat up another human being and seeing someone bleed. I personally am not a fighter, truth be told I would if I could. I am too old to try now, so I will just let someone else do it.<span> </span>I have dated MMA fighters and trainers in the past. Fighting is nothing new to me. Could be why I am much more immune to it than others. In my house, we live, sleep, breathe mixed martial arts and we seek out films that showcase any sort of fighting style.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">So, the reason I picked this movie should be obvious, but it is not. <span> </span>You see I rented this movie the day it was released. In those days I was not going to the theater much and there was not much online content for watching movies the way it is now. I was getting this movie for one reason. One name. And no, it is not Brad Pitt. Oh, I know I am so un-American to be a woman and not have a thing for Brad Pitt. Shame on me. Don’t get me wrong Brad Pit is an exceptional actor who models every character he has ever played and played them well. But for this movie I wanted to see it because of Edward Norton. He's not the all around good-looking actor (although he does seem to be like a fine wine and get better with age) but, he is good at what he does. I just wanted to see his performance in this movie. I have always watched Edward Norton movies with an open mind. Early in his career his roles went unnoticed due to being out shined by the movies leading character. Many of the movies were of low grade and not well known. Not a single role disappointed me; the movie itself may have but not Edwards performance. He has the ability to take a role and make it his own.</span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">I watched this movie, and was taken away by it. It can be summed up in one word. Violent. Not recommended for someone with a low pain tolerance, because you will be able to feel the pain running through your bones as you watch, see, and hear the sound of flesh ripping and bones cracking. It is not recommended for kids.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">Another great addition to the movie is </span><span class="binding">Helena Bonham Carter. She always provides us with a stellar role and I love how she can be so beautiful, yet so dark, quirky, and mysterious in so many roles.</span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">All actors deliver a wonderful performance. Brads role seems to be something out of 12 Monkeys. I can sum that movie up in one word: Weird. </span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">Watch this movie, and in the end, you will be surprised. Just remember: you are not suppose to talk about it.</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-62883607753578784972009-09-06T15:44:00.002-04:002010-12-23T13:23:13.242-05:00The Perfect Storm by Sebastian Junger<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1578212-the-perfect-storm-fishing-boats"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0393337014&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe>Book reviews: The Perfect Storm, by Sebastian Junger - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">Have a tissue handy. You will need it for this book. I picked this book from a book club flyer. It had a very brief description. A pretty basic paragraph stating that a woman loses her son, only to have him appear years later. It sounded interesting. This was long before the movie, and long before Oprah had decided to add it to her book club list. Lucky for me, I read the book before I watched the movie. Don't get me wrong, the movie is really good, but it is only a slight comparison to the book. I highly recommend reading this book. You will begin reading and get hooked before the third chapter, and before you know it you've gone through a box of tissues. Never judge a book by its cover, or its title.</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">The Deep End of the Ocean begins in June of 1985 with our husband and wife Beth and Pat. Beth is trying to make arrangements for her fifteen year high school reunion. She wants to take the three children Ben, Vincent and Kerry to Chicago for this reunion. Pat thinks this is the extreme, but he will keep this to himself. He is looking forward to having forty-eight hours to himself, to do as he pleases.</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">Beth arrives at the hotel to check in, with all three children in tow. She becomes overwhelmed with excitement when she begins to run in to old friends. Just within the first chapter, the author has sucked you in. You the reader can begin to imagine the chaos going around all the excitement from the reunion as if you were there yourself. There are bellboys all over getting and bringing in bags. There are people running around trying to figure out where they are to go. <span> </span>There are old classmates screaming with excitement at the site of seeing old friends. Beth is getting frustrated, and has yet to check in. She then asks Vincent to please watch Ben while she goes to the counter to check in. He doesn't really want to, and you are already under the impression he wanted to just stay home with dad. Beth is gone ten minutes at the max. When she returns Vincent is standing alone. He never even noticed Ben's departure.</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">The next chapter jumps right in to tracking Ben. And for pages and pages, we have no luck. Hours go by. Days go by turning into months, then years. Vincent begins to get pushed aside. And as he gets older, he can't seem to keep himself out of trouble. He spends his entire life thinking it was his fault Ben was lost. Pat blames only Beth, and the marriage begins to take a turn for the worst. Beth, tries to go on with life, and only blames herself. She must also live with the fact that everyone deep down blames her as well. </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">Life has gone on, without Ben. The hope is still there, but it has been ten years. Statistically kids are not found, dead or alive, after a few years. Beth has poured herself into her photography, just to deal with life. She has developed a wonderful eye. This is a key element in the finding of Ben. </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">One day, out of nowhere, this boy shows up and wants to cut the grass. You know she sees something in the boy’s eyes. You can feel exactly what she is feeling. Is it possible? Is this Ben? She tells the kid to come back, and she begins asking where he came from. He's not so new in town, and lives right down the road. He comes back to mow the lawn and she is sneaking pictures of him, comparing him. She contacts the law...and off they go.</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">We learn the boy from down the street is her missing son, Ben. How can we all deal with the fact that he was right under our noses all along? To know how this all came about- you have to read the book. In real life, this is a million to one chance of ever happening. That is one crucial point to keep you interested. Ben comes home. Ten years later. Says good-bye to the life he knew, and hello to one he does not. Everything happens so fast, no one can catch up.</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">The remainder of the book tries to catch up. It details everyone's life now that Ben is back. Life has changed and is turned upside down, just as it was ten years ago when he vanished. </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">You have to read the book for the rest!! A definite page turner.</span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-78500004703712744472009-09-06T15:42:00.001-04:002010-12-23T13:17:33.761-05:00Stop the Insanity by Susan Powter<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1578174-susan-powter-stop-the-insanity-diet-weight-loss"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=1451607563&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe>Book reviews: Stop the Insanity, by Susan Powter - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a><br /><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">In 1995 my Uncle and his new wife Susan (Ironic huh?) came from Michigan down here to Oklahoma visit me as well as my mother. I have always struggled with my weight; my family has seen the battle even from a 1000 mile distance. After losing 85 pounds as a teenager on NutriSystem, I found approaching my 20's it was harder to get rid of some of the weight I had re-gained. In 1995 Susan gave me this book to read. I read it, and loved it. I found it hard to put down as I read and reread each page absorbing all the information that was there. Here was this woman, who understood what it was like to be over 200 pounds. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I myself had been there as a teen. She had so much honesty and truth, that I just had to try it. I found the book motivational and inspirational. So I began to follow the plan, used her exercise videos and lost 20 pounds. The book since went back to Michigan, and I have since, here in the year 2009, gained back those 20 pounds and then some. But that is another story.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">One day, I was out and about, went to a used book store. And there, for $1 was my old friend, Susan Powter. So, I bought it, and now I am back on the plan, moving, eating, breathing, and just feeling so much better about life. It has been a wonderful motivational tool to help me move forward on the Weight Watcher plan and WANT to take control of my health.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Today, this book is a little outdated, but she is a wonderful motivational tool. Susan now has her own website susanpowteronline.com. where she is still motivating women to take care of their bodies and lose weight.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">The book starts a little slow giving background in to Susan's personal life. Chapter one starts off with a picture of Susan at about 160lbs or so, oddly the picture resembles a Marilyn Monroe bathing suit scene. In these pages she talks about how after giving birth she gained a considerable amount of weight. Her highest weight recorded at 260lbs. Susan was with a man that was abusive and inattentive. She broke down and realized she needed to take care of herself. She got out of that marriage, stopped feeling sorry for herself, moved on from the past to emerge better than ever. Susan is loud and she is in your face. With her there is no excuse, no whining and no one is going to feel sorry for you. Welcome to Susan's boot camp. The plan is nothing new: eat less fat, eat more good stuff, find balance and exercise more. But her method of attack is a bit more real. No sugar coating going on here. You have the choice, do it or don't. But no whining if you don't.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><b>From the Publisher</b><br />Take control of your life and stop the insanity! You've seen Susan Powter on the <i>Home Show</i> and on her <i>Stop the Insanity</i> infomercial, explaining health and wellness to millions of viewers. Taken from the "insanity" she experienced with the diet and fitness industries, Susan's step-by-step motivational book, now read by Susan herself on audio tape, will empower women everywhere to take control of their lives. In <i>Stop the Insanity!</i>, Susan tells you how you can get lean, strong, and healthy without starvation and deprivation. Her practical, proven program designed for women of all ages, weights, and fitness levels can change the way you look and feel just like it did for Susan. Funny, poignant and powerful, <i>Stop the Insanity!</i> is more than Susan's encouraging success story of how she went from fat to fit-- and stayed there. It is a message of hope for women everywhere. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-4256891358800963042009-09-06T12:23:00.001-04:002010-12-23T13:30:16.240-05:00Double Jeopardy by Bob Hill<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1578124-double-jeopardy-ashley-judd"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0380721929&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe>Movie review: Double Jeopardy - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Movie review based on the book.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">I am not really an Ashley Judd fan. She is cute and she is quirky and she is one of those women who get better with age. It seems like she has a great personality, but not one movie I have ever watched her in left me breathless. Sorry folks, she is just Ashley. Nothing more, nothing less. Her behind the scenes work gives me more pleasure then here theatrical performances.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><span> </span>I am not a big Tommy Lee Jones fan, either. I get the fact he has been around forever and has done countless movies, however I cannot remember a single one. That should tell you something. Again he is one that does not leave a lasting impression in my mind.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">Let it be known that I did not choose this movie. I didn't go to the theaters. Nor would I have picked it when it was my turn at the video</span> <span class="rkr">store. My then boyfriend and rented this movie in 2000. It has been on television a few times since then and in passing the clicker pauses on this movie. I am not sure while, likely because there is nothing else on and when I am writing I like to have a little something on for noise to block out the city traffic outside my living room window. </span><br /><br /><br /><span class="rkr">I remember standing at the video store looking at all the new movie releases. I had seen the previews for thus movie, and that was all I needed to decide I was not really interested in it. The title of the movie explains it all it two words. Double</span> <span class="rkr">Jeopardy. A person cannot be put on trial for the same crime twice. Enough said. We</span> <span class="rkr">already know the whole plot of the story. I gave it the benefit of the doubt as I do love crime, murder, mystery type movies and was willing to give it a shot.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"></span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">So, its movie night, and this is what has been popped into the VCR. Funny, thinking back to my technology household now versus how it used to be VCR tapes almost seem so obsolete.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><span> </span>I do have to admit it wasn't all</span> <span class="rkr">too bad. It was not as much torture as I thought it would be. But I felt like it was a CBS made for TV movie. I kept waiting for commercials. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"></span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">It is picture perfect. A rich, well known family. Wife (Ashley Judd), husband and son. There is a boating accident. Nothing new there, how many movies have we seen over the years where there is a boating accident? Husband</span> <span class="rkr">has set up his own killing to make it look like his wife killed him. Again, nothing really new here. <span> </span>Wife goes to prison.</span><br /><br /><span class="rkr"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">Wife spends the entire time in prison being angry and searching for revenge. Isn’t that the basis for all prison scenes? It always goes one of two ways. Either they learn from their mistake become saved and go on to do right or they spend the time angry and finding a way to get revenge.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">She does get her revenge. Putting all the pieces together, learning the truth and taking care of that truth. I won’t go in to much more detail in case there are those out there who still have not seen the movie. I do not want to spoil it for you.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /><span class="rkr">The title pretty much gives it away for you. That's pretty much the whole movie. If you saw the previews, you saw the</span> <span class="rkr">movie. If you never saw the previews I would almost bet a place like youtube.com has bits and pieces on there. Enough for you to form an opinion on the flick.</span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">I say, don't waste your time paying for it. If it comes on pay stations or cable, then maybe</span><br /><span class="rkr">give it a view.</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-60472539399399951742009-09-05T17:40:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:45:48.787-05:00Fast track to losing weight: Finding the quickest way to shed pounds - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1577556-lose-weight-fast-detox-diet-juice-fast">Fast track to losing weight: Finding the quickest way to shed pounds - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-25135946396519883552009-09-05T17:18:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:45:48.792-05:00Online surveys: Pinecone Research.com - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1577537-pinecone-research-online-survey">Online surveys: Pinecone Research.com - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-71458232993357661862009-09-05T16:29:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:45:48.797-05:00Evaluating the nutrisystem program - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1577511-nutrisystem">Evaluating the nutrisystem program - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-44717779076242848962009-09-05T13:26:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:45:48.802-05:00Freebies online and what you can find - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1523399-freebies-free-samples-free-site-free-websites-free-stuff">Freebies online and what you can find - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-56004490127391022912009-09-05T13:25:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:45:48.807-05:00Best music to accompany Christmas festivities - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1567029-free-online-christmas-music-free-christmas-festivities-mp3-midi">Best music to accompany Christmas festivities - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-41389746172775251492009-09-05T13:23:00.001-04:002010-12-23T13:11:14.968-05:00Weight Watchers Magazine<a href="http://www.helium.com/knowledge/272218-weight-watchers-magazine"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=B002PXVYXC&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe>Magazine reviews: Weight Watchers - Diet Programs - Helium</a><br /><br /><br /><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">Many, many years ago, well Ok maybe not THAT many years ago, but I would say about 3-4 years ago I had a free subscription to Weight Watchers magazine. I was not on the program then, nor did I really know much about it other than it was some sort of a "diet" that people followed. I did enjoy the magazine. There were some good tips, general articles not related to food, and some nice recipes. But, I was in my early 20's at that time, and those types of things did not hold my interest for long. At that time I was more into fashion, love, advice, things like that. My magazine collection included things like People, Glamour, Cosmo, and Marie Claire. My subscription ran out and I never gave it much thought. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"></span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">Flash forward to 2002. I am not in my late 20's. Ok 27 to be exact. Earlier this year my employer brought in the Weight Watchers at Work Program. At first I was a little skeptical about it. But, I had surgery a few months prior to that which left me with a huge weight gain. The employer offered a health benefit meant for gym memberships, but allowed us this one time to use it on WW if we decided to join their at work. That was all the incentive I needed. Joined for less than half price was a great motivational tool. I went to my first meeting, and I was so excited. I was going to make this work for me if it was the last thing I ever did. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"></span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">I came home that night, hungry for more information. I had to get more. Where was I going to get it? I looked on eBay. Boy, there was a TON of stuff. Then, there it was, right there in front of me. My old friend had called out to me. The first line: Weight Watchers Magazine 3 year subscription. I began to remember my days flipping through the older issues. Boy had those pages changed. So, I bid. I waited. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"></span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">Few days later, I was informed I had WON!! I got this magazine for less than $7!!!!!! How could you go wrong with that? Time went by, and no magazine. I thought for sure I had just had my first dealings with a scam artist. But, a few days later, there it was. I picked it up, feeling its nice glossy cover. I read that issue at LEAST 6 times. Hungry for all of that new information that would help push me along. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"></span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">Now, I can't wait for each issue to arrive. It has been about 6 months since I joined Weight Watchers. Although the work program is over, I still enjoy traditional weekly meetings. I have lost 39 pounds, and if it were not for the support, tips, and motivation I get from the magazine, I may have given up a long time ago. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"></span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">I feel that the magazine SHOULD be published every month as we only get it every other. This magazine is not for someone who is looking for fashion, beauty, or other "female" type articles. There is usually less than 2 pages on that type of information. The articles are more based on health, weight, and the issues that can arise as a result of these things. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /><span class="rkr">It is possible for someone who is not on Weight Watchers to enjoy the magazine. The tips for weight loss, articles on member losses, and recipes provide lots of inspiration and motivation. Recipes provide healthy nutrition for your body. However, I feel that a person not on Weight Watchers may find all the articles and advertisements a little boring, as it ALL relates to WW and their products. Few other products are mentioned, and if they are there is sure to be a related POINT value printed on it. There are POINT values and related material throughout the entire magazine. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /><span class="rkr">For someone who is on Weight Watchers, you have to get the magazine. Whether you are like me, and searched out a good bargain on eBay, or you buy it directly from the Weight Watchers web site, this magazine supplements your meetings. When you need a new recipe, it is there. If you are going through some physical or mental pain with exercise and weight loss, it is there. Motivation, Inspiration, Tips, Tricks, it is all there too!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><b>UPDATE: 2009</b><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">As I look back on many things in life, one thing I regret the most – letting the weight creep back on until it became a huge problem. We all know life gets in the way and we face challenges. I am now back on the Weight Watchers program for guidance and support.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">Going back on the program for me means I need my trusty friend. I will be searching for the best deal on the magazine so that I am able to have that trusted friend back by my side.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">Weight Watchers magazine is very easy to read. The layout is pretty much the same as any other magazine; although I am sure things have changed since I have read an issue. Every month there are success stories from other members and often times there is a one for extreme motivation from a meeting leader. Every issue also included MANY great recipes, motivational stories, relationship advice (although not a lot like other woman's magazines), advice on how to dress while losing weight, and generally a personal story from members. The only drawback to the magazine was the advertisements. There are a lot of them and 90% of them are Weight Watcher product related. I guess that is to be expected, but it would be nice if the magazine had more substance and less advertising.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><o:p><br /></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><o:p>UPDATE 2010</o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><o:p>I still have a subscription and it's going strong. I love the tips and recipes as I follow along with WW and the Points as I have done in the past, but I am using Wonderslim products as a tool to retrain my portion and nutritional value.</o:p></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-11169683930021195282009-09-05T13:20:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:45:48.816-05:00Product reviews: Avon Cracked Heal relief cream - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1577309-avon-cracked-heal-relief-cream">Product reviews: Avon Cracked Heal relief cream - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-60332985633542616522009-09-05T13:16:00.001-04:002010-12-23T13:16:19.505-05:00Making Peace With Your Past, The Six Essential Steps to Enjoying a Great Future, by Harold Bloomfield M.D.<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1577313-making-peace-with-your-past"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0060933143&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe>Book reviews: Making Peace With Your Past, The Six Essential Steps to Enjoying a Great Future, by Harold Bloomfield M.D. - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a><br /><br /><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">If there is ANYTHING at all in your past that you are still mad about, holding on to, or grieving over then this book is for you. There is so much in life that has happened to me as a result of things that happened to me as a child. And I hold a grudge. At the time of reading this book I could not afford modern therapy, so I read lots of self-help books. I have, for the most part, come to terms with the things that I had no control over and cannot change. With this book, I learned so much more then what friends, family or the internet could ever provide me. </span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">I highly recommend this book to ANYONE of any age that is dealing with something from their past that causes problems today, in everyday life. </span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">As a child, I was molested by my father. That ended when I was about twelve. When I was in high school, I spent all four years dating a boy that was verbally abusive, and had a problem with anger. He would get in my face and yell. Although he never hit me, he would hit the wall behind me. These things have scared me. Tore at my insides and messed with my mind. When I reached college, I learned how easy it was to fall into the trap of too many parties, and being woke up in the morning at a place you did not know by a person you did not remember. I knew I had to stop the cycle. </span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">During that time, I fell in love with a wonderful man. This man was kind, patient, understanding, sincere, and very polite. I was very scared. No one had ever treated me so good. There would be times when I would try to cause drama, because it was such a simple life. I was not used to anything like that. I became angry for no reason. I knew if this relationship was going to turn into marriage, I was going to have to get some sort of help, to come to terms with things. I blamed myself for the things in my life. That self blame would spill into my relationship. </span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">When you don't have insurance, and you don't have a lot of money, there is not a real option for someone like me in this town in which I lived. I tried the library, bookstores, thrift stores, etc in search for that self help book that would just jump out at me and change my life. For years I was on this search.</span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">While on my search it came out that I was adopted. My father, the molester, was not my biological father. Just when I felt life could not get any worse for me, I found this book. Long ago I came to terms with what my father had done. It was done to him. I cannot forget, but I can forgive. Life is too short for anger. But, once I found out he was not my real father, a lot of anger came back. Not only for him but for my mother as well.</span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">This book has lots of great advice. It was god send for me to happen upon it the way that I did. There are writing exercises. The same exercises therapy patients pay for in sessions. This book has helped me in so many ways. Ways that words cannot describe. </span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">If you are struggling with anything in your life, anger, resentment, scared, distrust, etc then I encourage you to get this book. This book is not something you can sit and read in a night. I did that. But then I had to go back, and really READ it, do the exercises, think about it. It could change your life.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">Since finding the book I did seek out therapy and was on medication for quite some time. Despite the talk therapy, the book helped me break barriers that my medication and psychiatrist could not. The book will not change you overnight and you will have to dig deep inside of yourself for the answer. But it will work, and it can happen if you just let it.</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-62442766125721912602009-08-25T20:14:00.003-04:002010-11-17T14:55:47.047-05:00A Six Word Story - Part 1While seeking some inspiration for some topics to write about and submit to some various companies, I can across this page: <br /><br />http://blog.worderella.com/2008/11/a-six-word-story/ <br />and it gave me a little inspiration to see if I could come up with some 6 word stories. <br /><br />Here is a popular and well-known writing exercise… Hemingway was once given a challenge to write an entire story in only six words. <br /><br />His answer:<br /><br />For sale: baby shoes, never worn.<br /><br />Apparently, he thought it was his greatest literary work ever. It speaks to the audience, and pulls them in. We know the ending to the story, and can surmise how it began. Most importantly, we care.<br /><br />There are many writers who practice this sort of flash fiction through their Twitter accounts, where each update can only be 140 characters long. Can you tell a story in a sentence? What is your six word story? Do you even count these micro-narratives as stories?Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-10709286164875458282009-08-18T18:00:00.001-04:002010-11-17T14:57:18.088-05:00Standing At the PlateAugust 18, 2009<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"></span><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I’m standing at the plate ready to take the first swing.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Everyone reaches a point in their life when they question who they are and what they are about. Not only that, they question all of the things that surround them. I have reached that point in my life MANY times. I still sit like I am today and think about each and every event in my life that has led me to where I am today. Whether my choices were right or wrong does not matter. Nothing I can do to change them now. I can change today and maybe I can change tomorrow, but I cannot change my past.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Right now, I do not like my life. I have no direction and now idea what I want to do besides write. Unless I get a bestselling novel published (meaning I would have to actually write one based on all the ideas stored in my head) this avenue is not going to pay the bills. I do not have much choice in the matter right now. Without my degree I can’t get the jobs I am qualified for due to the job market here being so tight. Unemployment is at an all time high and we are highest rated in the states. Employers want someone with a degree and pay them minimum wage because they know they can. Those who are not worried about degrees will not hire me because I am over qualified and figure I will be bored and just quit any way. Maybe they are right, but they should at least give me a chance before they make the choice for me.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I struggle with unemployment, I struggle with DHS and many times it just does not seem as if the struggle is worth it.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">This is not how I imagined life would be when I left everything I cared about 1000 miles behind to start life over.<br /><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I have been spending my days trying to figure out life. I make changes only to have them backfire in my face. I go three steps forward only to get knocked two steps back.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">There is too much drama around me. I like my life quiet and simple. I don’t like to make plans (they never work out anyway); I would rather just come and go as I please. But I can’t. Every move I make, every breath I take is monitored some way or another.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Life these days is pretty dysfunctional.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Crossroads.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Standing at another crossroads. Facing each day with new questions about the direction I should be going. I am standing at home plate. Looking across the field. Ready to take that first swing.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Comment from Yahoo:</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"></span></div><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_GMCJ4DT6HENPXR5WN2DWG4B4AA" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Christina King</a> commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">08/19/2009 06:00 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">We all go through this... At least its normal. But... What you do with your life is YOUR call.... You need to take a good inventory of your life and see what works and what don't. My best to you in your inventory.... its hard to do and hard to face the reality of some of it and to be quite honest being honest with yourSELF is sometimes the hardest part of it all.... It can be life altering, it was for me. Hugs....</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-36919243765448251722009-08-14T22:31:00.002-04:002010-11-17T14:58:39.852-05:00And So We Meet AgainAnd so we meet again. It has been far too long since I have written a blog and it has been a while since I have written anything for work. I seem to have found myself in this hole again. You know that hole, well on the outside bad on the inside. This is a typical “things are not what they appear”. In my life I have gotten really good at putting on appearances. Actually, I should have a degree in it since I have been practicing it my whole life.<br /><br />Generally I am very open about my world. Always have been. Here lately I find myself hiding in my shell really unsure of what I should share. I have so many in my world these days that may not understand why I write and blog. And because of this I would not want them to get the wrong idea about things. I spend my days walking on eggshells and holding in my words.<br /><br />I find that rather amusing because I was never one to care what others think. Truth is I still don’t. However I don’t want people to take it out on someone else. So, I just let it go hoping it will all pass anyway.<br /><br />This is not me and how I usually behave. Writing is my life and I choose to share it. <br /><br />I am tired of being pushed aside and being talked down.<br /><br />I am tired of never being good enough.<br /><br />I am tired of being uncomfortable in my own skin.<br /><br />I am tired of always feeling alone.<br /><br />I am tired of being last on the list.<br /><br />And quite frankly I am tired of being tired.<br /><br />Life has had its ups and downs. I find myself searching for the answers and even a way out.<br /><br />I get stressed, I eat. I seek food out for comfort.<br /><br />Earlier this week Matt and I went to Detroit to celebrate being together one year. <br /><br />The irony in that is we were also celebrating his divorce being final.<br /><br />In such a hurry to pack, we forgot our bathing suits. Not wanting to miss out on the awesome indoor pool and hot tub we decided to try our luck across the street at Meijer. Shopping is no fun for me anymore. In the last 2 years I can count how many times I have gone shopping on one hand (I can hear you Shan and Stace). My weight keeps creeping up so shopping becomes more of a nightmare instead of something fun I used to share with my friends. <br /><br />Honestly I tried to get out of it. Matt was not having any of that. I found 2 suits in my size and went and cried in the fitting room. I had no choice but to look at myself. It has been months since I have looked at my whole body in the mirror. And there I was nothing left to the imagination.<br /><br />Matt, loves me just the way that I am. I am ok with that. But he is not as supportive as I would like him to be. I need help and I have asked him, but I just do not think he really understands. I on the other hand am embarrassed that I let myself get this fat and I am disgusted with myself that I cannot get my life back on track. Once upon a time weight loss was so easy for me. Weight Watchers was my life. These days I really do not have the money to dish out on weight loss programs so I am trying to come up with a plan that I can work on for myself.<br /><br />I saw my bestie while we were in Detroit. It had been a good many years since we saw each other and a few years since we had spoken due to a fallen out we had (funny, due to a blog I wrote) and I was seriously thinking about canceling because I was so ashamed of how I looked.<br /><br />I did not even want to go to my own family reunion last month because I just did not want to hear the whispers about my weight. <br /><br />I feel lost, like I really do not know what to do anymore.<br /><br />I know I need to, but am finding it so hard. I blame all the stressors in my life. I try to make a schedule and stick to it, only to have something thrown at me. <br /><br />I am tired of being pushed around. I am tired of having this voice and no one around me listens.<br /><br />Now it is time to take care of me. To live life for me. To find my path in life and start walking it.<br /><br />If someone does not like how I am taking care of me, then they probably do not need to be in my life anyway.<br /><br />No longer will I put up appearances and act as if everything is alright.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-36506928973146493452009-07-27T09:06:00.001-04:002010-11-17T15:00:09.273-05:00Finally..An Update - What's Up with Chrys? The Birthday Edition(and then some)Finally have some time to write, well not really I should be upstairs working on the kitchen but I need a nice break this morning before I start. I have not written in some time so I wanted to give an update on what has been going on the last few days.<br /><br />Monday July 20 – for those of you who do not know, my mom had a terrible infection in her gums that was making her very ill and worse yet, making her teeth brittle. Because she had moved up here some years ago to take care of her parents until they passed, she was not working an unable to take care of herself. Most of you know the whole ordeal so I won’t go rattling on about it. Long story short, she got the rest of her teeth yanked out and all the infection sucked and scraped out. She has been given temporary dentures, which do not fit her small face, so you know me; I have to pick on her. My mom is a tough lady. Where I would have laid my ass in bed all week, this woman went right back to work the next day. <br /><br />Tuesday July 21 – Matt and I headed to Tawas to celebrate my birthday. This was also a mini vacation for the both of us to get away and reconnect with each other. Many think because Matt and I work from home that we spend a lot of time together. Sure, we see each other, but we do not spend quality time together. And with jujitsu, air soft, at the time the band, and Madison, we really do not get a lot of time to be alone and have a date night. So, we traveled up north and shut off the cell phones and left the laptops behind. And it was great. As soon as we got there (11am) we made use of the huge Jacuzzi. Not that everyone wants to get in my private life (or maybe some of you do ;) ) Matt and I are pretty big people and we have never been able to take a bubble bath together as we just can not fit in the bath tub that is currently in this house. (the bathroom remodel is next on the list) After we hung out in our room Jacuzzi for a while we took a walk across the street through downtown. We visited all the shops and spent quite a bit of time in this neat little shop that had a ton of knives. I even bought myself a Celtic one. We then had pizza at the famous G’s pizzeria and then next door for Marion’s homemade waffle cones. Cone in hand we walked the dock. It was so nice to just walk around outside and enjoy the sun and each other. We hung around town for a while and then back to the room. Later that night we walked back in to town to watch a movie at an old town theater, Family Theater and saw Harry Potter. Now as you know there is always some adventure that awaits Matt and I and it was only a matter of time before something was about to happen. <br /><br />This theater is SMALL compared to those built today. And the rows are all even with each other, meaning you have to sit behind someone short to see well. It was not completely packed and against the back wall was a church pew, meant for those with small children who might have to leave the theater. A couple of teens sat behind us, with their entire row of friend behind them. Next to the teens is an older lady , I assume she was the grandma as next to her was a couple in their early 20s, but after thinking about it perhaps they were 17 or 18 and the older brother or sister of the teen couple on the other side of the grandma. Anyway, the baby started to cry so the mom took her out. The two teens started to talk to a guy in the row behind them. I hate people to talk consistently in a theater, and it is even worse in a theater like this where it is hard to hear anyway because the sound system is rather old and outdated. So I turned around and asked them if they planned to talk through the whole movie because I did not pay to listen to them and they are ruining the movie could they please shut up. And I turned back around. Well the grandma did not like her people being scolding to so she got right up between Matt and I and screamed in our ears “we have a baby back here” and to which Matt replies “you don’t bring a baby to a movie theater!” They pretty much kept to themselves the rest of the movie. When they didn’t I would turn around and give them a dirty look.<br /><br />Anyway, after the movie we hung around a bit as there was a band playing in the street. Getting sort of tired so we went back to the hotel and went swimming and hit the hot tub. We ordered some food and drinks and sat poolside. A little after 11, spending twelve hours on the town I was ready to call it a night. So we headed back to the room, flipped through the whole 10 channels we had and fell asleep.<br /><br />Wednesday July 22 –Happy Birthday to me! We got up pretty early and headed down the Mulligan’s Irish Pub for the famous 99 cent breakfast. Which I got, and Matt ended up with the $4.95 one. But the amount of food you get was great for the price. We talked to the owner a bit and then scooted on out of there. We walked the town again, and then headed over the beach and walked it for a while. The car was packed and our room was set to be cleaned. We were to be checked out by 11. For $30 we could of extended checkout to 6pm but we had already done all there was to do there and did everything we wanted to do. The weather was starting to get rainy so we opted to just head out. We hit the Tawas Museum, which was pretty interesting. I learned more then I ever wanted to know about that little water front town. We ate a fish lunch at Bills Tabernacle, which was really good, and then the hotel was nice enough to let us use the pool area again before we left. We got home about 4 and the first thing we did was lay down and take a nap. We slept for a couple hours. Matt wanted to take me out since it was my birthday, but we had done so much the last two days all I wanted to do was stay home. So, we had a movie marathon in bed and watched three movies. All in all it was a great birthday and even better for us to get away. The pics of the trip are posted.<br /><br />Thursday July 23 – today was my grandmother’s birthday. So my mom and I were hoping her spirit would follow us and make us lucky. We headed to Standish to gamble. We won, we lost, we won, we lost, we won and I should have walked away when I was up, but I wanted to play more. I went home with $6 left of my original money and we were their about 8 hours. We stopped at the cheese houses in Pinconning and ate dinner at some place my mom and grandparents used to always eat at, I think it was called Purcell’s. The food was really good. <br /><br />Friday July 24 – I had planned to work and get caught up on some things, but Matt and I ended up going and buying his cousins car. We had made the choice that it would be best for me to get out from under my car. I owe $9000 on it, but its only worth $5000. This is sad because it’s a great car. But living with Matt, being a student and trying to scrape by on a writers salary I just can not afford the car payment and insurance. So we thought it best to buy this car. It is hard for me to let my car go. That was the first thing I was able to buy for myself after my divorce, not to mention it’s pretty. We got this car really cheap and it needs some things done to it. It has been in Matt’s family all this time and very well taken care of so he is pretty confident we will get good use out of it. So we had to get a battery and get it over to the tire center to replace a tire. Next comes 3 more tires, mirrors replaced and some other items taken care of. It’s making me feel a little uneasy, being in limbo with two cars right now and trying to transfer stuff over and dealing with my car. But in the end, it will all be worth it as I am tired of stressing about bills and my car stuff.<br /><br />Saturday July 25 – My family reunion. (once I get the rest of the pics I will post them)Took Matt and Madison and Maddy played and played and played. She won 2nd place in a game for the kids, got loaded up with toys and candy. By the end of the day she was a giant mud ball. I won $250, so now the parts for the car can be paid for. YEAH! Matt took Madison over to his moms and tossed her in the pool. She was spending the night. Matt came home and we left for the movies at 9:30. We were going to go to Hamilton to see Know Lyfe but Alfonzo called and said they were not going to be doing the show. So Matt and I headed to see The Ugly Truth. And again, I can not tell you enough about our adventures. Once again I had to yell at people behind me to be quiet. High school kids. One kept whining about having to be home at 12:30 and the other giving a play by play of the entire movie. I had asked them if they planned on talking to through the whole movie. He gave me a smirk and I told him I saw nothing amusing about this. He either whispers quietly so we can’t hear or I will go get management to escort them out then they will be sure to be home by 12:30. At one point he kept asking the others “oh did you hear that?” “NO” was the reply and he would repeat it. I said, “of course they can’t hear what was said because you wont be quiet long enough for any of us to hear.”<br /><br />I hate people. Seriously. Giant theater, tons of empty seats and you have to park right behind me. Let me give you some advice, if you are a talker and you see me in a theater, do not park your ass anywhere near me or I will speak to you.<br /><br />We got home at 11:30 pm. Matt walked in and was griping about how he turned the light all the way off. You see, we have a motion light in our kitchen. When we left the house, it was on. I had Matt put the dogs in their cages since it was close enough to their bed time. Normally we let them roam the house while we are gone. Matt got the light on and he’s talking about how he did not remember turning the light all the way off. I chimed in telling him he could not have because it was on when we pulled out of the drive way.<br /><br />Our house sits in the middle of a cornfield on 2 acres. We have one neighbor, but he is on the other side of an acre or two of corn. We live on busy highway that one direction takes us to Birch Run town and the other in to Frankenmuth. It’s dark as there are no street lights.<br /><br />Once Matt got the kitchen light on I walked into the bedroom and my little closet door was opened, my jewelry cabinet opened, my underwear scattered all over the bed. There is a shower in our bedroom (a little old lady lived their years ago and was unable to get around. This shower goes to the small bath) and the doors were open, all the dressers had been opened, the front door was open, Madison’s little princess table was knocked out of the way, things had been gone through. <br /><br />Matt’s cell phone, laptop, and ipod touch were all right in the kitchen. They were left behind. The cop was on their way when I looked under my bed and saw my fireproof safe was gone. In my little lockbox are all my papers for life. Marriage, divorce, birth, adoption, court things. Even my passport. Those things are hard as hell to replace not to mention he amount of time and money it takes to get new certified copies. Not only that my extra checks, saving account information, old coins and stamps were in there. <br /><br />As soon as the cop showed up, we told him what we knew was missing just from observation. <br /><br />When you open the lid to my jewelry cabinet right on top are real diamond earrings, gold diamond and ruby rings, emerald rings, on the sides carry necklaces of gold, ruby, emerald and diamond. None of that was taken. However, they did take my class ring. How retarded is that? If you are going to steal to pawn why not take the things that are going to make you real money. It makes no sense.<br /><br />They took a dildo. Yeah, I am not ashamed that I have adult toys. And how gross is that to take a dildo someone else has used. What are you going to do with it??? Whatever.<br /><br />So, they climbed in through the office window. Even shut and locked the window behind them. Boot prints were on the desk, the stepped on my laptop, and on to the floor. Picked up Matt’s backpack carried it in to the living room and sat it on top of the dog cages. Nothing was taken out of it. We assume the person checked out Cain and Casey to see if they were a threat. Well not in their cage and if they were out, Casey might have barked, growled and scared him, but I am not so sure Cain would. Never know. Anyway, they went back to Madison’s room, and must have walked right back out then in to our room where they checked everything. After that they headed downstairs, opened the doors down there and left them open, lights on. <br /><br />The cop got a call that my lockbox was 2 miles up the road. A man found it in his driveway. Another cop brought it over and mentioned that the guy has a 16yr old living next door that is quite the trouble maker. I got my box back, with all my papers. My money was still in it, but my stamps and coins were gone. One of each fell out, so at least I have those. <br /><br />Missing stamps from the 1800 to present. Missing coins from France, Canada, Ireland and Spain 1800 to present. Sort of pisses me off as my grandmother gave those to me.<br /><br />I hate stupid people. <br /><br />So all in all, stamps, coins, class ring and a dildo were stolen. Police think something spooked them and so they took the box because generally people keep the most valuable things in a lock box. I am surprise they got the thing open. So much for being unbreakable. I will be taken those papers to the bank and putting them in a safety deposit box! I have learned my lesson.<br /><br />Funny, all those years I lived in Tulsa (or any other place) nothing ever happened to me. Small town…it does.<br /><br />Anyway, our cop is on vacation this week and matt has left for camp so next week we get to go in for fingerprinting and they dusted our house and got prints of the boot prints in the house and outside in the mud. <br /><br />They think they might try to come back since they know we have some valuable stuff here. But no so sure they would try it if someone is home. The police are convinced it was some kids.<br /><br />Guess we will just have to wait and see.<br /><br />Wasn’t much fun trying to sleep alone, even though I had the dogs. I had my knife and baseball bat with me. Had my car alarm ready to go in case I needed to scare them. <br /><br />Anyway, we did not get much sleep Saturday night and then yesterday I spend all day coating the orange walls with primer. Took the handles off the cabinets and scrubbed year’s worth of crap off them because they are getting painted so they match the look of the new kitchen. It took 3 coats of primer so I was only able o get a little bit painted. But it already looks better without that orange. <br /><br />Going to finish the kitchen today and then go on to the adjoining red orange bathroom, and entry way. Once that’s done will do the cabinet handles and then I also have some stuff to redo the counter tops. After that I am going to touch up the main hallways and if I can find the paint, the bad spots in the living room. <br /><br />And, going to get some plastic bins to organize some of Matt’s things. He has tools and stuff scattered all over and we have been talking about putting them all in one place together. As it is stuff is in the garage, barn, basement and kitchen so you can never find anything.<br /><br />Matt is going to come home and wonder what happened to his house! LOL…just kidding, he knows what’s going on. <br /><br />Now then…who wants to come over and help? Better yet, can someone come over and mow the lawn for me???? Heheh<br /><br />Anyway, thanks guys for checking in on me. We are fine, the dogs are fine. A little rattled, but thankful they did not take more or do any damage. <br /><br />We will be looking in to alarm systems and such when he gets back from church camp.<br /><br />Fun times…<br /><br />So that in a nutshell is “What’s up with Chrys? – Birthday Edition”Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-41078629108668533772009-07-14T18:04:00.014-04:002010-11-23T18:57:39.260-05:00Tips for Overcoming Writers Block<a href="http://www.shareasale.com/r.cfm?b=100847&u=465182&m=14766&urllink=&afftrack=" target="_blank"><img border="0" src="http://www.shareasale.com/image/bannerside120-240-ill.gif" /></a>Tips for Overcoming Writers Block<br /><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Every writer has been there. No matter what your age or what genre you classify your writing as, their will be (if not already) a day when nothing comes to mind. It is every writers dreadful nightmare and it goes a little something like this:</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">blink........blink......blink.......blink<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">Shut up darn it<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">blink..blink............blink.......<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">Would you stop already, I know what I am going to say. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">At least I know what I want to say. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">blink..blink............blink.......blink.......<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">What the heck is going on with my cursor?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">Just tormenting me with its blinky blinkity blink.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Leave me alone. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">What? What's that you're telling me?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">I need to write? Well, what in the world do you think I am trying to do here? Stop tormenting me. Stop talking to me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">blink......blink......blink.......<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">STOP IT!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">Ok, I can not be the only writer in the world who has war with the blank page and their cursor. Blink. I am going to just keep blinking at you until you write something.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Easy enough to get it to stop blinking, right? So, then why am I having such a hard time of it lately? Usually I am so full of words. But not lately. What happened to me? Writers block? Why? Is writers block for real or merely a figment of our imagination? I know it's not because I don't have anything going on in life to write about. I got tons of stuff I could be writing about. Easy enough then. But, why can't I find my words? It is my words that are lost. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">I am sending out S.W.A.T. (cue music.....duh na na.........nanananana)<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">Ok, maybe you did not have a conversation with your computer as I did when faced with a blanks screen, but what can you do when the words just do not want to flow?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">One of the things I have learned over the years is to just get up and walk away. Sometimes you spend too much time staring at the same piece and you just need to take a break from it. It is always good to let your mind rest and reset itself. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">If you are staring at a blank screen, talk a walk. Grab a pen, bring a notebook, and just walk. Take notes about what you see. Jot down all the ideas that start to formulate in your mind. Many times all it takes is a simple thought to get the creative juices flowing.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">Carry a notebook or handheld device with you at all times. Every time an idea crosses your mind, write it down. Stockpile these for when you need them. When writers block hits pull these out to get your mind unblocked.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">Websites such as writing-world.com and writinghood.com offer many tips and ideas for writers. When I start to get discouraged and need a little pick-me up I head on over to one of these websites for some insight. Writing World has a writer's block section and the articles have been detrimental in solving writers block. Writinghood offers many tips and articles on how to be a better writer. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">Don't let writers block get you down. It is a common occurrence and it is unavoidable. Make the most of a block. Enjoying a nice dose of sunshine it usually just what I need to get the words flowing.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-81812568592856233102009-07-08T12:18:00.001-04:002010-11-17T15:00:50.911-05:00MySpace.com Blogs - Downseed MySpace Blog<a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=31601497&blogId=499146966">MySpace.com Blogs - Downseed MySpace Blog</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-55048864167093212032009-07-07T17:45:00.003-04:002010-11-23T17:46:19.000-05:00Poetry In Motion: Helium Star<div class="MsoNormal">I worked so hard to gain you star</div><div class="MsoNormal">There you were</div><div class="MsoNormal">Flashing bright</div><div class="MsoNormal">Neon yellow and blue light</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Now you are gone</div><div class="MsoNormal">Taken away</div><div class="MsoNormal">All that hard work</div><div class="MsoNormal">Gone today</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I looked all over</div><div class="MsoNormal">High and low</div><div class="MsoNormal">Where oh where</div><div class="MsoNormal">Did you go?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">My helium star</div><div class="MsoNormal">Wont you come home</div><div class="MsoNormal">I will give you love</div><div class="MsoNormal">And freedom to roam</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Together</div><div class="MsoNormal">We can search</div><div class="MsoNormal">This topic or that</div><div class="MsoNormal">Perhaps </div><div class="MsoNormal">Even start one from scratch</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I will leave the door open</div><div class="MsoNormal">With hopes you’ll find you way</div><div class="MsoNormal">And there on my page</div><div class="MsoNormal">Your shine will stay.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-43972712635739705992009-07-07T13:22:00.001-04:002010-11-17T15:02:08.236-05:00Testimonies: My journey into darkness - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1508836-gone-darkness-no-way-to-reach-me-thoughts">Testimonies: My journey into darkness - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-22226078040757223602009-07-07T13:01:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:45:48.838-05:00Would you take a pay cut to save a coworkers job? - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1507887-job-sacrifice-morals-ethics-pay-cut">Would you take a pay cut to save a coworkers job? - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-61047122816632920712009-07-07T11:25:00.000-04:002009-07-07T11:25:05.139-04:00Chrystal Mahan | eHow.com<a href="http://www.ehow.com/members/ds_caca5416-4882-481d-b245-83bf1d6afadf.html">Chrystal Mahan | eHow.com</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-43243678013258972862009-07-06T14:55:00.000-04:002010-11-17T14:45:48.847-05:00Relationships: Compromise or change - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium<a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1507824-compromise-relationship-relationship-compromise">Relationships: Compromise or change - by Chrystal Mahan - Helium</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-22018951221875249402009-07-05T20:27:00.002-04:002010-11-17T15:03:19.250-05:00Another Evening with Shinedown and StaindAnother evening with Shinedown and Staind.<br /><br /><br />This is my 4th time seeing Shindown in 2 years, my 3rd in a year. My second time in a year seeing Staind. Chevelle and Hailstorm were the opening acts. I felt bad that so many people missed HailStorm. Many people do not appreciate a good rocker chick when they hear one. I bet that girl could not have been 90lbs, but she wailed like she was the fat lady singing her final song. Chevelle was not in rare form. I don’t mind their songs, but I was not blown away by them. Shinedown, well in my eyes they could do no wrong. But I have to say, I am glad Brent finally started to change his speeches in between the songs because they were starting to all sound the same. Staind, well Aaron Lewis did his thing and he sounded better then ever. The last show was in the middle of winter and he had canceled the previous two shows prior to ours because he had no voice. He made our show in Detroit. When he talked you could tell he was sick. He even looked sick. But, it did not show much in his voice. Last night, he wailed. He is one of those performers that are even better live.<br /><br />As usual when Matt and I go out there is always some sort of story as to what happened, and this night did not let us down.<br /><br />Before I forget, I am working on the pics…what few I took. This concert was at an outdoor amphitheater, DTE Energy …..Otherwise known as Pine Knob. I bought lawn tickets because they were only $12 as opposed to the $30 and $40 pavilion seats. It was great to be able to see the entire stage and watch everyone, but it did not make for great pics even with the zoom Matt has on his camera. So, if you want to see Shinedown up close, check out the pics I took from the Machine Shop….reach out and touch someone ….<br /><br />Ok, back to my story.<br /><br />As it seems, when you accept lawn tickets you also accept the fact you will be sitting on your own blanket, unless you are lucky enough to find small chairs. The website and ticket information said 26 inch height maximum. Fine. Should not have much problem with that. So we finally settle on some nice little chairs. They can be carried easily, even include a zip front pocket with plates and utensils, and a cooler for drinks. At $20 a piece, we thought it would be a good investment. We could take them to other concerts, the zoo, camping, parks, etc. <br /><br />We get to the event center easy enough. Started to load up when a parking lot attendant drove by. Matt decided to say hello, and ask him if our chairs were ok. We had seen people with bigger and smaller chairs walking towards the entry, and mind you NO ONE was walking BACK with chairs.<br /><br />We walked what seemed like five miles just to get to the entrance. So here we are blanket, two chairs, cell phones, cameras and what ever else we could cram in to our pockets. We stand in line, waiting…and waiting…finally get patted down, searched , unroll the blanket to make sure we are not hiding anything, and then she checks all the pockets of the chairs. We are about ready to pass through when her supervisor stops her and makes he measure our chairs. A whopping 18 inches folks! She sits there and tried to tell us they can not be over SIX inches. DOES MY FAT ASS LOOK LIKE IT IS GOING TO FIT IN A MIDGET CHAIR 6 INCHES OFF THE GROUND??<br /><br />I bitched. I told her the website said 26 and pointed out all these other chairs coming in.<br /><br />Words came out of my mouth I generally don’t blurt out in public like that. No matter how much I tried to argue with her, that woman was not going to let us in with these chairs.<br /><br />She says, “You don’t have to stand back in line, drop your chairs and just come right to the front of the line.”<br /><br />Fuck her. And fuck this place. Unfortunately for her, I know how to work the customer service system having to be tortured in it for so many years.<br /><br />So, we turn around, and walk the trek back to the car. Glaring at all these people carrying their chairs towards the entrance. Even warning some of them that they might not be able to go in with them. Comparing their chairs against ours. <br /><br />It made me so angry; I really did not want to go back.<br /><br />Oh yes…that is really how angry I was.<br /><br />But wait….it gets even better.<br /><br />We go drop our chairs, walk back, and go right to the front of the line where we were then told to go back to the line. I spit out my words faster then you could take a breath. I was NOT going to stand in line again when these people do not have their shit together. And I proceeded to tell her, we had already been in line thank you very much. And off we went.<br /><br />Wait for it…..wait…..it is coming….<br /><br />As soon as you walk in the entry gates… they are there in all their pretty green glory.<br />Chairs.<br />Mother fucking, yes I have a potty mouth, deal with it…chairs.<br />Chairs bigger then ours.... that the DTE Energy Music Theater rents.<br />$5 per chair plus a $5 deposit.<br /><br />They had a beer bottle sitting in the cup holder.<br /><br />Idea.<br /><br />You got to love Matt when he gets a smart idea. (LOL)<br /><br />He sat that beer bottle on the ground, placing it next to the chair. I then took a picture of that chair for comparison.<br /><br />So, you make us take our chairs back. We watch all these people brining in chairs the same size, if not bigger, but you make US take ours back and then you throw it in our face by teasing us with these chairs for RENT?? Are you kidding me? The buck stops here.<br /><br />We did NOT rent those chairs.<br /><br />So, let me tell you DTE (aka Pine Knob) is awesome. <br />But I have a few more things to get off my chest. <br /><br />We got searched. Metal detector. Purses checked. Pockets empty. Bags checked. All that I was watching.<br /><br />Matt and I picked a pretty good place. Right in front of a mud bog so no one would sit in front of us.<br /><br />However, we ended up in the land of the losers.<br /><br />First off, to my right we had the Pot clan. 20 of them, half of them all related somehow. They blazed at LEAST 11 joints, as Matt and I giggled and counted. <br /><br />In front of us we had this Daughtry wanna be trying to look cool to his 40 year old buddy (he was in his early 20) and his girl. In the first 20 minutes of his arrival he downed 4 Jack Daniels on the rocks. Let’s just say he was not pleasant to sit behind. At one point his ass would not sit down , so I yelled, he tried to cop an attitude, called him an Asshole who had to ruin shit for everyone else…2 seconds later his ass copped a squat and he pretty much stayed their the rest of the night. Funny, someone stood in front of him and he got pissed…uh huh…<br /><br />Now then, to my right were people. And they were pleasant enough. But behind us were the Drunk and Disorderly Crew. Two girls stumbling all over the place and I just knew one of their asses was going to fall on me. And they had this friend with them that thought he was the lead singer to every band and he would jump around and get in peoples faces he did not even know and sing to them, and land on their blankets and dance around and shit.<br /><br />I just do not understand why people can not control themselves at public events. I get that you can drink there, and its fun. I had one, but at $8 a pop, one was enough. I sipped and I enjoyed. If their is a way, alcohol should be limited. I would be fine if it was not served at all. If people can not control themselves, then it should not be. <br /><br />And another thing, where were the damn fireworks?? Who has a 4th of July show with no fireworks??<br /><br />Aside from all the entertainment…I had a great time and the bands rocked. I will see Staind and Shinedown as many times as my bank account will allow.<br /><br />As for the chair incident, I have the names and addresses to all the places I plan on submitting my complaint to. I will keep you posted. I doubt anything will come of it, nor do I really care…but my voice will be heard, you can count on that.<br /><br />Ok…off to get the pics ready to post.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-6429931165396964402009-06-30T14:16:00.002-04:002010-11-05T14:17:43.985-04:002006: As I Sit Here All AloneOriginally Written in 2006<br /><br /><br /><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">As I sit here all alone.............I wonder how did I end up this way?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Did I take the wrong path in life?...............Or maybe just a wrong turn. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Whichever. I wonder if I will ever find my way back. Is there a way back?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">You see this smile on my face. You see I am bright and full of life, your sunshine. Makes me look as if everything is ok. The truth is...its fake!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I am not happy, here in this place that I am. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I have tried to sort it out. Lord, how I have tried. But all I got accomplished was an even bigger mess in my head. Will the answer become clear? What is it that I am supposed to do? I don’t know what to do or say, to make my pain go away. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I am so confused, so torn. In this case, I don’t think the truth will set me free. Just let me be. Let me be me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Every day it’s the same old story. I have to get out of this situation that I am in. I just keep digging, and pushing myself deeper...deep within.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Why does this have to be real? Could this not be something I only imagined? Why can’t it be just a dream? <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Why not then, all those years ago? Why now? <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I hate that it seems you are in control. Hate. It drives me mad. <st1:country-region w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Mad.</st1:place></st1:country-region> <st1:country-region w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Mad.</st1:place></st1:country-region> <st1:country-region w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Mad.</st1:place></st1:country-region> I hate that I have this need for you. This want. This desire. For my soul. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I hate the way life throws you a curveball and then leaves you standing left on the plate. You stare out into the open field wondering should you run for home plate or stay where you are. Which is the best option? Will I be pushed out or will I stand solid?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">These thoughts they rattle around in my head like marbles in a jar. I here them clanking against my skull, clank..clank..clank..like the marbles hitting the glass. Can others here this jumbled cornucopia or am I all alone here?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">The dust has not settled yet…I am still standing here. Waiting…hoping…as no one wants to hate. Hate is such a strong word with minimal meaning to so many. Why does one even bother hating? Do you not feel it is a waste of time? So why are we even programmed with that emotion?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">All these questions rattle around in my head like marbles in a glass jar. I wish one of those marbles could speak. Show me the way to smiles. More smiles I say. Less hatred and anger. Maybe a marble will fall out and I can throw it towards home plate. Give me some direction. Marbles could be the new tea leaf. Someone, read my leaves, tell me my future. Don’t keep me going like this.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">(revised June 30, 2009)<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-9053789946784648142009-06-30T14:06:00.002-04:002010-11-17T15:04:26.449-05:00Yeah for Garage Sales!In an honest effort to make some changes I decided instead of buying things we don't need and searching for clothes that do not fit we would buy things that would help our lifestyle. Matt and I love to take Madison to garage sales on Saturday mornings. We save our change all week long so that she has "monies" for purchases. She gets to pick the things she wants and count out her money to buy. It helps her learn about money and purchases and she has a lot of fun with it. Lately we have been buying her a lot of clothes. Since she is only with us on the weekends most of her belongings are at her mothers. We try to limit her toys as her room is overflowing! <br /><br />I really wanted to find a working VCR so that I can use my walk away the pounds, taebo, richard simmons (dont laugh!), pilates and yoga videos again. They were very helpful years ago when I was on this weight loss journey. I have a couple on DVD and some downloaded to my computer, but I do not like those as well, aside from Jillian Michaels 30 day Shred, which makes me feel like a weakling. LOL!<br /><br />A VCR was not to be found, however Matt and I found 2 practically brand new bikes. The owners bought them, stored them in a shed because the husbands parents gave them their old ones which were much better. They have a little rust and flat tires, but nothing that can not easily be fixed.<br /><br />I am very excited about these bikes as we were able to get them both for $35! A bargain! <br /><br />We love bargains.<br /><br />Sadly, it’s been raining every day since we got them. Poop.<br /><br />On another note, I have been tracking my food intake for the last 3 days on sparkpeople.com. It is hard for me to get used to as I am used to tracking points in a journal with my Weight Watchers stuff. Since that is easier for me, I still have 99% of the stuff memorized, I might go back to doing it the “old fashioned” way. I know WW has changed a lot in the last few years as they always update their program. It worked for me just fine back then; it should work just as good for me now. <br /><br />*fingers crossed*<br /><br />I will still stay on sparkpeople.com because the site is just awesome and I can still enter my food there as well. This will help me stay accountable. I am just not used to counting calories and fat and finding it a little overwhelming when planning meals and such. Hopefully it will get easier with time.<br /><br />Got some work to do, just wanted to post a quick update.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-66802786604833694812009-06-25T11:53:00.002-04:002010-11-17T15:05:42.524-05:00I have to do it this timeI Have to do it this Time<br /><br />.. ..<br /><br />I have to. There is no way around it.<br /><br />.. ..<br /><br />My weight has always been a battle for me.<br /><br />.. ..<br /><br />Those who went to high school with me saw this. I started Junior High and High School as, for lack of a better word, a fattie. Towards the end of my freshman year I went on NutriSystem (yes it has been around that long!) and would go to the center every week to be weighed, have counseling and get my new food for the week. I really enjoyed the food and took great pride in achieving my goals and feeling better about myself. I got down to an all time low of about 120-125. For me, this was gross on my larger frame and I settled around 150. By college I was up to 175 and did the whole phen-fen diet to drop back down to 150. I stayed in between 160-170 for a while then moved on up to 180. I was still a size 14 so I was ok with that. I was very active and healthy. After college I got an office job and my weight slowly crept up over the 200 mark. My office did the Weight Watchers at work program and once that was over (as it is only 6 weeks) I continued to go to meetings at the college. In two years I lost over 80 lbs, made life time member and was running upwards of 10 miles a day. Then, back problems hit and the running came to a halt and it was back to exercise videos and walking on the treadmill. Shannon and I tried a few times to motivate each other and use Sparkpeople.com. I had signed up many years ago when it was free the first time, I quit when it started to make people pay. Now, it is free again.<br /><br />.. ..<br /><br />But, life started to get in the way. Deaths, divorce, moving, depression, job changes, and just life in general was enough to make any person’s stress level go off the deep end. I could go on and on. I tried NutriSystem again and just could not stomach the food (gross) and so over the last few years I have tried a diet and failed. Knowing I needed to go back to Weight Watchers was upsetting because I just can not afford to go back to meetings. Even though I am a lifetime member I am still over my goal weight and would have to pay to go back. I still have my materials, but the thought of having to count points again really makes me want to vomit.<br /><br />.. ..<br /><br />I think back, WW and the whole points system controlled me life. I was addicted to laxatives for a long time and had bouts of bulimia.<br /><br />.. ..<br /><br />Food has been my drug of choice. When I was younger I ate to hide the pain of what my dad did to me. I ate to keep people away. I ate to cure boredom. I ate for all the wrong reasons. I have most of that under control. I won’t lie; there are times when I still binge.<br /><br />.. ..<br /><br />I want to control my food now; I no longer want it to control me.<br /><br />.. ..<br /><br />Yesterday I had to go to the doctor. It has been a year since my last visit. My blood pressure was good, so that made me feel better as it has been really high for so long. However, my weight….all time high. I can no longer ignore the fact that my clothes are getting a little snug. My cardio sucks; my back hurts all the time and I don’t sleep well. My doctor told me I have got to lose some weight.<br /><br />.. ..<br /><br />Today I am back on sparkpeople.com. I have a small spiral to jot down my food intake in case I am not near the PC to record my foods. I have a book with all the nutritional values in it so that I can carry that around with me. In time I might convert back to Weight Watchers, but not at the moment. I have cleaned up my treadmill and it is ready to go. (Now if only I was!) My VCR is dead and sadly all my exercise videos are on VHS, so I will be looking for some exercise videos online until I can get a new one or just buy some DVDs. (but I love my videos! Hahah)<br /><br />.. ..<br /><br />This blog is really hard to write. I share pretty much all of my life (although I have been slacking lately) and talking about my weight is embarrassing.<br /><br />.. ..<br /><br />It is time for me to make some changes. I can not keep going at the rate I am going. I need to be strong and healthy. For me, myself and I. The rest is just a bonus.<br /><br />.. ..<br /><br />I have a feeling I will be blogging more as I find it does really help to talk about these things.<br /><br />.. ..<br /><br />Maybe some of you will have some tips and motivation to share along the way.<br /><br />.. ..<br /><br />~Chrys~Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-20344630733714253842009-06-25T09:46:00.002-04:002010-10-26T13:37:17.357-04:00Good Yahoo<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">I see half of my blogs from 360 did not make it over here, go figure. It says my last blog was 32 months ago..hahah...good old yahoo.</span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-17834667211679969002009-06-09T16:18:00.001-04:002010-11-17T15:06:31.200-05:00Good-Bye 360We all knew it was a matter of time, we all saw it coming even in the early days. But yet we continued to move along and make the best of things.<br /><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">Now it is official. As of July 13, 2009 Yahoo 360 , otherwise known as 360 Blogville will finally be closing its doors after 4 years and everyone is requested to move over to the new Yahoo Profile. You can blog and comment, which is sort of a Twitter type thing. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am upset to see 360 go for a couple of reasons. I am a very sentimental person and there are quite a few emotional attachments involved in letting something such as this go. Odd, that something like this could cause me such emotion; but there you have it. Saying goodbye to 360 is making me very emo.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">Four years ago we all embarked on this journey. I have met some wonderful people on 360 that are still in my life today. Others have come and gone, but they have left their footprints in my life. I have watched people get married, others divorce (me included), and some people battled cancer and WON! , other did not (R.I.P. Elonna), I saw children being brought in to this world, and regretfully I saw others leave it. I have seen murder (R.I.P. Terry) but I gained a brother (Joey) so even though we all complained about all of 360s faults, without it I would not have met all the people that I did, and quite possibly I would not have found my voice.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">360 gave us all a platform to be our self, whether that was our true self or we acted out this persona of this person we really wanted to be. We shared stories. We shared in the laughter and the tears. We learned that in this big huge world we did not have to be alone. I learned that despite my past I can and will be a better person. Some of us struggled and we were there, holding each other’s hands. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">360 made a huge impact on my writing. I was able to openly share my work as others did. We made comments, offered suggestions and we grew from it. I have seen some amazing talent over the last few years and it has been a honor to cross paths with all of you!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">Over time many of us got fed up with 360 and all its faults so we ventured into new territory. Myspace, Facebook, Blogger, Twitter, TagWorld, Multiply, etc. And there we met more people and a network began.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">As I say goodbye to 360 and all the memories it holds, I look forward to keeping my voice and sharing more stories, laughter, tears, trials and tribulations of life. Looking forward to new memories.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-35041383272143525912009-05-28T19:42:00.000-04:002010-11-23T19:48:01.217-05:00Working from Home<div class="MsoNormal">Ranked #5 out of 55 as of 5/28/2009</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><a href="http://www.helium.com/items/1448657-organizing-work-from-home">Working from Home</a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Ahh the glamour.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Hanging around in your pajamas all day while you sit comfortable at your desk eating snickers and cheese-its while chatting with your friends in IM. You smell your freshly brewed coffee and realize that you really have no boss standing over you, breathing down your neck.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The career we all dream of. No one to watch over us, no cubicle mates gossiping about whom they saw last night and to whom they were out with, and no one making google eyes at the water cooler.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Here you are, feet propped up, staring blankly at the computer screen wondering just where you should start with the day’s projects. The next thing you know you look at that little clock down in the right hand corner and its noon.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">NOON!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Before you know it, 4 hours have passed and you have done nothing.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Freedom!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">That is why everyone wants to work from home, isn’t it? To be free to work and do as you please.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">But, sometimes this new found freedom can be a tad bit overwhelming.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It is important that you set a daily goal list. In this daily goal list I recommend not only writing down what you would LIKE to get done, but what HAS to be done.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Cross things off as you go along. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Make a routine. Start work at the same time every day. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Spend some time clearing out your email accounts.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Get rid of all your spam. Items that do not pertain to your work day should be set aside until later. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I find what works best for me is to reward myself once I have completed a task. Then I take a small break and reply to a few personal emails. This way, work has been done, I feel better and I am no overloaded with tons of emails at the end of the work day.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Another trick that works well for me is having my IM set to “busy:working “that way, if someone personal tries to IM me and I give them a “Hey I am working, talk later” message I do not feel so bad for being short. I have work to do as I am sure they do as well.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Not only are you the employee you are the boss and you have to act like one. All the responsibilities lie on your shoulders and you can no pass along jobs to someone else. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Working from home is almost like book camp, you have to be tough and buckle down.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Don’t get me wrong, it does have its advantages. You don’t have to commute, you can work in your PJ’s, no one is going to care if you wake up with a huge zit on your head, it is ok to be a few minutes late and no one will be staring at you if you walk in all red eyed from the night before. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">If I have any words of advice for those about to walk into the world of working from home it would be “Buckle up soldier, you have a lot of work to do!”</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-44692905944500679222009-05-21T12:06:00.001-04:002010-11-17T15:07:33.719-05:00Happy Birthday<div class="MsoNormal">Happy Birthday to That Man of Mine</div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><div class="MsoNormal">Today, Matthew turns the big 3-0!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vczE5My5waG90b2J1Y2tldC5jb20vYWxidW1zL3oxMTkvdG12YW5kdXNlbi8="><img border="0" src="http://th193.photobucket.com/albums/z119/tmvandusen/th_30.gif" title="tmvandusen" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><div class="MsoNormal">The end of the 20’s, but the beginning of the 30’s, speaking from experience, isn’t so bad!</div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><div class="MsoNormal">We fight like cats and dogs.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vczE5My5waG90b2J1Y2tldC5jb20vYWxidW1zL3oxMTkvdG12YW5kdXNlbi8="><br /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal">We are the same, but yet so different.</div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><div class="MsoNormal">He is the ying to my yang.</div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><div class="MsoNormal">He is a big pain in my butt….</div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><div class="MsoNormal">But I love him anyway.</div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><div class="MsoNormal">As I sit here thinking about all the stuff we have been through , I have to honestly say that so far this has been the hardest relationship I have ever had to live through.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><div class="MsoNormal">Times get tough. We have a lot of separate issues that have joined together to form a communal list of even more issues.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><div class="MsoNormal">But I know, deep down, I love him. And at this point in life, I can not imagine my life without him.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><div class="MsoNormal">Even if he does give me a rash.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />Even if he is stinky gross boy sometimes.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><div class="MsoNormal">Even when he sings off key.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><div class="MsoNormal">But mostly when he makes me smile.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><div class="MsoNormal">Matt,</div><div class="MsoNormal">Happy Birthday.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I love you.</div><div class="MsoNormal">And I look forward to spending many more with you.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><div class="MsoNormal">PS. You can start planning my birthday now (you only have 2 months). I want Shinedown tickets and a new tattoo J</div><div class="MsoNormal"></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-6265824017501859572009-05-03T13:01:00.002-04:002010-11-17T15:08:18.518-05:00Remembering Elonna ~Happy Birthday<div align="center"><a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vczU2LnBob3RvYnVja2V0LmNvbS9hbGJ1bXMvZzE5Ny90aGVva2lyaXNoY2hpay9NeSUyMFBhbHMvRWxvbm5hLz9hY3Rpb249dmlldyZhbXA7Y3VycmVudD0xMTYxMDE4NzQ0X2wuanBn" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/Elonna/1161018744_l.jpg" /></a><br />May 3, 1977 - Sept 23, 2007<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Remembering Elonna</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><div class="MsoNormal">We should all know the song and dance…Birthday, remember her life. The day of her passing, I still remember her life. I do not know how long I will do this. I guess it just makes me feel better to be able to share with all of you her days. Knowing many of you knew her, we can all take a minute to remember together. I know a day will come when I let the day pass me by, I will think about it always, but maybe a blog will pass me by. Until that time, here I am. Remembering. Her smile. Her warmth. How she never judged you or ever made you feel like anything you did was worthless or a mistake. It was an honor being her friend and I will forever cherish the time I spent with her. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><div class="MsoNormal">To quote Elonna…”Now pass me the rum, it’s my birthday!”</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vcGhvdG9idWNrZXQuY29tL2ltYWdlcy9jYXB0YWluJTIwbW9yZ2Fu" target="_blank"><img alt="captain morgan Pictures, Images and Photos" border="0" src="http://i224.photobucket.com/albums/dd261/spencer91806/captain_morgan.jpg" /></a></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-15132166597249025982009-05-01T15:27:00.000-04:002009-05-01T15:31:09.844-04:00Weegy is My FriendLink<br /><br />http//www.weegy.com?r=0D5346CB<br /><br /><br />Weegy.com is a community-based expert system that belongs to all of us. Got a question? Go to <i>weegy.com</i>. Have a problem? Go to <i>weegy.com</i>. Weegy will usually have the answer (or <i>an</i> answer, at least). She will possibly become the most respected authority in the world on all subjects…and she is getting smarter every day…Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-83258440453535972822009-04-28T13:45:00.001-04:002010-11-17T15:09:07.815-05:00Everyone Is Invited!<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/SfdFvIR4O-I/AAAAAAAAACk/rGrv1G693Kg/s1600-h/i.cfc.jpeg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5329805359994911714" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/SfdFvIR4O-I/AAAAAAAAACk/rGrv1G693Kg/s200/i.cfc.jpeg" style="cursor: pointer; display: block; height: 100px; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; width: 200px;" /></a><br />Saturday May 23, 2009<br /><br />Come help us celebrate Matt's 30th Birthday :)<br /><br />Grilling starts around 1pm, bonfire at dusk, and all you UFC fans, we will be hosting the fight.<br /><br />Hopefully a keg will be provided, but please BYOB. Hamburgers and hotdogs, perhaps some steaks will decorate the grill. Matt has requested no gifts, but instead, how about a side dish and munchies? Perhaps s'mores for the bonfire???<br /><br />Would love to see you ALL there!!Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-82238873229790315932009-04-27T13:09:00.002-04:002010-11-17T15:09:48.157-05:00Do You Wonder?Do you wonder sometimes why you even bother getting out of bed? I do. Quite often. For those of you who know my past, try not to be alarmed. I have way too much on my plate to slide back to that life. But some days I just want history to repeat itself so I can hibernate for 6 months. Staying in bed is just fine with me.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-1256344913094789142009-04-19T10:26:00.000-04:002009-04-19T10:27:04.844-04:00Twitter....Tweet....http://twitter.com/OkIrishChikChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-58378265266407110722009-04-13T14:49:00.001-04:002010-11-17T15:10:40.096-05:00Fighting a Losing Battle<span style="font-size: 13.5pt;"><img src="http://i681.photobucket.com/albums/vv171/etienne92/icons/scream.png" /></span><br />..................<br /><div style="text-align: center;"><style><!--.r{}@font-face{font-family:"Cambria Math";panose-1:2 4 5 3 5 4 6 3 2 4;mso-font-charset:0;mso-generic-font-family:roman;mso-font-pitch:variable;mso-font-signature:-1610611985 1107304683 0 0 159 0;}@font-face{font-family:Calibri;panose-1:2 15 5 2 2 2 4 3 2 4;mso-font-charset:0;mso-generic-font-family:swiss;mso-font-pitch:variable;mso-font-signature:-1610611985 1073750139 0 0 159 0;}.r{}p.MsoNormal, li.MsoNormal, div.MsoNormal{mso-style-unhide:no;mso-style-qformat:yes;mso-style-parent:"";margin-top:0in;margin-right:0in;margin-bottom:10.0pt;margin-left:0in;line-height:115%;mso-pagination:widow-orphan;font-size:11.0pt;font-family:"Calibri","sans-serif";mso-fareast-font-family:Calibri;mso-bidi-font-family:"Times New Roman";}.MsoChpDefault{mso-style-type:export-only;mso-default-props:yes;font-size:10.0pt;mso-ansi-font-size:10.0pt;mso-bidi-font-size:10.0pt;mso-ascii-font-family:Calibri;mso-fareast-font-family:Calibri;mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri;}@page Section1{size:8.5in 11.0in;margin:1.0in 1.0in 1.0in 1.0in;mso-header-margin:.5in;mso-footer-margin:.5in;mso-paper-source:0;}div.Section1{page:Section1;}--></style>..<br /><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;"><span style="font-size: 13.5pt;">Fighting a<br />Losing Battle....</span><br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;"><span style="font-size: 13.5pt;">.. ..</span><br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;"><i><span style="font-size: 13.5pt;">Sometimes in life you have to realize when you are fighting a losing<br />battle and just bow out gracefully.....</span></i><br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I thought of that quote the other night as I silently<br />retreated to the bedroom after another night that ended in tears, generally the<br />ending to another disaster.<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">We say things, we do things. We scream, we rant, and we<br />rave. We get nowhere.<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">At what point do you say enough is enough and walk away<br />gracefully? How many times can you say “I will try” and yet nothing changes. It<br />is always constant and always the same. Do you start to believe “it will get<br />better?” and honestly think it will?<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Once again I feel like I am in the middle of a battlefield.<br />It’s a place I know only too well. The difference is I am not sure this is a<br />battle I want to fight anymore.<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So that leaves me once again (yeah I know, repetitive)<br />questioning love in all its grand glory.<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Love is NOT supposed to be hard. It is suppose to be easy<br />(Right??? Can’t someone help me out here?).<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am physically and mentally beat down and exhausted.<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I honestly do not even know what to say at this point.<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I try to keep moving forward. I want more then anything for<br />this situation to work. But I do not know how .<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I know 99.9% of you want us to work things out, get past our<br />troubles and look forward to that beautiful future we have planned together.<br />Awesome. Do you have a road map for us on how to get there? As for the other<br />0.1% of you, you know who you are. Just waiting for me to walk away so you can<br />prance at a moments notice. Sorry to disappoint you, but that wont be<br />happening. Matt loves me heart and soul. And I am madly in love with him. That<br />is something I do not take lightly. However these roadblocks are putting feelings<br />inside our souls that we do not really want to be dealing with.<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">And for those of you sitting there, biting your nails<br />thinking to yourself “Oh my God I can not believe she is saying this stuff!”<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">WHO CARES!<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">These are my words. This is my voice. It is my life.</div></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-52433819059482851572009-04-12T10:05:00.000-04:002009-04-12T10:39:22.951-04:00In the Middle of a Breakdown........<p class="MsoNormal">I keep saying I am going to get back to blogging, but I don’t and there is a reason for that. A reason that really is not fair to most of you. I have started to hide my life. I have painted a pretty picture and I guess I want to keep it that way. I pick and choose my words carefully as to<br />not let too much be known.<br /><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal"><span style=""> </span>I don’t do this for myself, but mostly for Matt. Over the past few months my MySpace and Facebook have become flooded with his friends and family. Which, I think it great. It<br />has become a great tool for us to interact with each other. But it also gives<br />them a false sense of who I really am. And because I don’t want to be judged, I<br />have held back my writing.<br /><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal">In real life and on paper I have always been vocal. I say what I want and what I feel.<span style=""> </span>I do not<br />sugar coat things. If something bothers me, I am going to tell you. If I don’t like something, I will let you know.<span style=""> </span>But I find myself biting my tongue.<br /><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal">Not any more. I can not hold things in. It is not who I am.</p><p class="MsoNormal"><br />I guess you could say writing is sort of like therapy for me.<br /><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal">Let me explain…..<br /><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal">I am a writer. It’s what I do. I write for me and for you.<br />You being, all my friends and family that is so far away from me.<span style=""> </span>You being who ever else lands upon my page and wants to read it. Many of you have been here for the long haul. Some of us<br />going on 5 years in the blogging world, some of you guys - we have been friends<br />pretty much my whole life, others, not so much. And that is ok, you are here<br />now. Sharing everything life has to offer.<br /><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal">We paint a pretty picture. Matt and I met at a really down point in our lives. Michigan has not been good to me and it has been one roller coaster hill after another. <span style=""> </span>He’s got his<br />own stuff going on. And we didn’t exactly wait for the dust to settle before moving<br />in together. On the surface, things are good. But right now there are just a<br />lot of things going on with us separately and together. <span style=""> </span>Matt doesn’t write about it and I haven’t been talking about it. So it’s like this dark circle that’s hanging over my head on<br />a daily basis.<br /><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal">What to do, what to say. Pick and choose my words carefully.<br /><br /><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal">I’m in the middle of a personal breakdown. I feel like I am<br />fighting a losing battle and I have no idea what to do about it anymore.<br /><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal">I will get in to all of that later. Maybe tomorrow’s blog.<br /><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal">Right now, I just want to wish you all a Happy Easter. <span style=""> </span>You, yes you! And you…and you.<br /><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal">I would like to tell you I have this great and fabulous day planned. But I do not. Matt will be going with his mom to her family. I will not be participating. My family is going off in different directions. Most of you know I am not a holiday person anyway so it really is not a big deal to me.<br />Most people do not celebrate the true meaning of Easter, and that’s fine. Those that do, good! Keep on doing that. Those that don’t and prefer the more Hallmark aspect of it, good for you as well. Do what works for you. I did not grow up with family around me so we did not make a big deal out of holidays. I have no thoughts/ideas/feelings about it one way or another. I am not religious so that part of it holds no bearings on me.<br /><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal">It’s nothing personal.<br /><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal">If you want a bit of History for the day, google “Easter<br />Rising 1916.” Those are the things I think about. Those are things that matter<br />to me.</p><p style="text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/irish/78c8a699.jpg" /></p><p style="text-align: center;" class="MsoNormal">..................<style><br/><!--<br/> .r{}<br/> @font-face<br/> {font-family:"Cambria Math";<br/> panose-1:2 4 5 3 5 4 6 3 2 4;<br/> mso-font-charset:0;<br/> mso-generic-font-family:roman;<br/> mso-font-pitch:variable;<br/> mso-font-signature:-1610611985 1107304683 0 0 159 0;}<br/>@font-face<br/> {font-family:Calibri;<br/> panose-1:2 15 5 2 2 2 4 3 2 4;<br/> mso-font-charset:0;<br/> mso-generic-font-family:swiss;<br/> mso-font-pitch:variable;<br/> mso-font-signature:-1610611985 1073750139 0 0 159 0;}<br/> .r{}<br/> p.MsoNormal, li.MsoNormal, div.MsoNormal<br/> {mso-style-unhide:no;<br/> mso-style-qformat:yes;<br/> mso-style-parent:"";<br/> margin-top:0in;<br/> margin-right:0in;<br/> margin-bottom:10.0pt;<br/> margin-left:0in;<br/> line-height:115%;<br/> mso-pagination:widow-orphan;<br/> font-size:11.0pt;<br/> font-family:"Calibri","sans-serif";<br/> mso-fareast-font-family:Calibri;<br/> mso-bidi-font-family:"Times New Roman";}<br/>.MsoChpDefault<br/> {mso-style-type:export-only;<br/> mso-default-props:yes;<br/> font-size:10.0pt;<br/> mso-ansi-font-size:10.0pt;<br/> mso-bidi-font-size:10.0pt;<br/> mso-ascii-font-family:Calibri;<br/> mso-fareast-font-family:Calibri;<br/> mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri;}<br/>@page Section1<br/> {size:8.5in 11.0in;<br/> margin:1.0in 1.0in 1.0in 1.0in;<br/> mso-header-margin:.5in;<br/> mso-footer-margin:.5in;<br/> mso-paper-source:0;}<br/>div.Section1<br/> {page:Section1;}<br/>--><br/></style>..<br /><br /></p><p style="text-align: left;" class="MsoNormal">What is a big deal to me is my school. And I feel that some people just can not understand what it is like so I am going to take a minute to explain it. I do go to a REAL college. I just do not travel to campus and sit in a classroom for hours a day. I have been there and done that. My classes<br />are all online. And they run in 6 weeks sessions instead of the traditional 16 week semesters. So , not only do I have to force myself to read and study on my own, giving myself “class time” like I was actually sitting in class, I have to do HOMEWORK EVERY DAY! I have papers to write, problems to work on, essays questions to deal with as well as daily participation in a virtual class room. I do NOT have time to constantly run around and do things (not that I really have the money to do so anyway, which is a whole other blog).</p><div style="text-align: left;"><br />This has become a problem in my life. It has become hard for people around me to grasp this concept. </div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />If I shut you out, it’s not because I don’t want to talk or hang out it is because I CAN’T!</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />So, I CAN’T participate in Easter shenanigans as much as I would like to.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />I quit college once for someone, I am not about to do it again.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />And every time I get guilted into doing something when I should be studying, my homework pays the price. </div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />I can’t let this happen. I did not make the Deans List for running around playing. I made the Deans List by working hard and being committed to my education. I am trying to do something with my life.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /><br /></div><p style="text-align: left;" class="MsoNormal">I am sorry if that bothers some of you, but this is how my life has to be. I am not the smartest person in the world, I have to work at it, and I have to work hard. That means giving up some things in my life.</p><div style="text-align: left;"><br />It’s nothing personal, but it is how my life has to be right now.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /><br /></div><p style="text-align: left;" class="MsoNormal">So while my nose is buried deep in the books…maybe taking some time to work on my website…..I hope you guys are doing what ever it is you love to do. Whether it’s spending the day with family, heading off to church, eating like its Thanksgiving, working, or just taking a special day for you, just enjoy it. And do it because YOU WANT TO!</p><div style="text-align: left;"><br />Until next time………</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /><br /></div>You know where to find me.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-77974551791429025012009-04-01T08:45:00.001-04:002010-11-17T15:11:33.420-05:00The Truth About Being IrishThis was written by a friend of mine...<br /><br />Ah 'The Luck of the Irish.' Has a crueler phrase ever been coined? The sad truth is, the Irish are about as unlucky as a race can be while, you know, still being white.<br /><br /><br />While we may all be a little Irish on Saint Patrick's day, after this little history lesson you'll be grateful you no longer have to be Irish once your liver has filtered the green food dye out of your system (and if you actually are Irish, well, fuck it! )<br /><br />#6.<br />The Damned Vikings<br /><br />Historically the best protection a civilization can have against invasion is to be located on an island. Just look at Japan. Until being occupied by America following World War II (USA! USA!) it had never been successfully invaded (although you could argue the high density of ninjas in the country had something to do with it).<br /><br />At any rate Ireland is an island, they should have had it made, right?<br /><br />But what if around the 8th century a civilization living not far from Ireland were to develop a culture based on seafaring warfare, piracy and sporty horned helmets? Oh shit ... ... here come the Vikings.<br /><br />The Vikings' modus operandi was to attack exclusively from the sea, pillage, rape and burn then sail off while trading hearty high fives and congratulatory butt slaps. In other words Ireland being an island nation, something traditionally of great advantage, ended up being a first-night-sober-after-an-alcoholic-binge sized nightmare.<br /><br />Today we have a fairly harmless image of Vikings (due to the poor research that goes into Hagar the Horrible) but trust us when we tell you that the real Vikings were grade-A dicks.<br /><br />They were basically the bullies of the middle ages, and like that poor red-headed kid that spent most of middle school stuffed in his locker, the Irish were the Vikings' favorite targets and spent over 200 years being metaphorically swirlied~<br /><br />#5.<br />The Ginger Problem<br /><br /><br />Speaking of red hair ...<br /><br />In the Middle Ages, red hair was thought to mean you were a witch, werewolf or a vampire, so apparently there was a time in history other than our own where the sight of David Caruso would have been considered the ultimate horror. For other stretches in history, red hair was believed to mean one was surely a whore or had a wicked awful temper (later research has shown only around 60% of redheads are angry whores).<br /><br />And even if you didn't fall victim to the superstitious associations with the world's rarest hair color, you certainly wouldn't enjoy some of the crappier consequences of having low levels of dark pigmentation. Like burning to a blistered, bubbly crisp when spending 15 minutes in the sun. Or ending a day at the beach with ungodly spots all over your face and ears and back and shoulders.<br /><br />And if Al Gore knows what he's talking about at all, most of the world's redheads should be constructing a vast underground bunker for themselves as we speak, if they know what's good for them.<br /><br />Of course this would only sort of suck if these creatures, most vulnerable to the rays of our otherwise life-giving sun, weren't also the most sensitive to pain. Seriously.<br />By the way, which country has the world's highest concentration of redheads? Oh right, Scotland~<br /><br />We suppose it has a better ring to it than 'God hates Irish people' but as far as appropriate national slogans go, 'The luck of the Irish' isn't far behind 'The easy and high paying jobs of the Mexicans~<br /><br />#4.<br />The Damned Tudors<br /><br />Folks really seem to love the Tudors, the English dynasty that ruled England from 1485 to 1603 and included monarchs like King Henry VIII and Elizabeth I. You seemingly can't swing Anne Boleyn's decapitated head without hitting a new TV show or movie starring either Henry VIII or Elizabeth, most of which focus on what Henry's penis happened to be doing while he was king or how Elizabeth made it in a man's world baby. But what was arguably the Tudor's favorite pastime is almost always overlooked.<br />What was that you ask? Why brutally suppressing Ireland and trying to wipe out Irish culture of course!<br /><br />Yes, once again Lady Luck had pissed in the Irish's stew. The Tudor line came to power when Henry VII defeated Richard III in the War of the Roses (a war that was a lot longer, more bitter and bloody than it's fruity name implies) and true to form the Irish had supported the losing side. Whoops.<br /><br />From that point on the Tudors saw Ireland as a possible threat and a geographically vulnerable location. So they spent the next 100-years or so violently beating on the Irish like Moe on Curly.<br /><br />Elizabeth in particular, contrary to the heroic soft-lit portrayal of her you see in the two 'Elizabeth' movies, was one supreme bitch when it came to Irish. While trying to subdue Ireland, Elizabeth ordered the English to use scorched-earth tactics, burning the land and slaughtering man, woman and child. This caused widespead famine and countless thousands died from starvation alone.<br /><br />She also set up plantations across Ireland populated with Protestant English settlers, the idea being that these would be the seeds from which English Protestantism would spring forth and overtake traditional Irish Catholic culture.<br /><br />What could go wrong with that? ~<br /><br /><br />#3.<br />The Life and Ridiculous Death of Wolfe Tone<br /><br /><br />Wolfe Tone (1763 - 1798), besides being the proud owner of one of the most kick-ass names ever to grace a history book, was an Irish-born lawyer and the father of the Irish Republican independence movement. Some have even called him the Irish George Washington. Of course, since this is the Irish George Washington we're talking about, he didn't valiantly lead his forces to victory, founding an independent nation that would go on to become the most powerful in the world. Instead, Wolfe Tone stayed true to his roots and was repeatedly kneed in the testicles by ol' Lady Luck.<br /><br />Irish Washington co-founded the Society of United Irishmen, whose goal was to get the Catholic and Protestant factions of Irish society to unite their powers Marvel Team-up style to defeat their Dr. Doom-esque English overlords. Unfortunately for the fate of a free Ireland, Wolfe decided to ally himself with ... the French.<br /><br />Thus, they formed a true dream-team combining the rotten luck of the Irish with the military incompetence of the French. When Tone launched an invasion from France to free Ireland from the English, the luck of the Irish kicked in immediately, sending gales and fog to meet the French fleet whose ships of course all promptly sunk or turned sail and ran away.<br /><br />Tone and the French made a few more attempts to invade Ireland with a similar lack of success until finally Wolfe Tone was taken prisoner when the English captured his ship. Tone's captors didn't even recognize him and he most likely would have gotten away if Lady Luck hadn't, in a last ditch effort, managed to deliver a flying dropkick to his nuts yet again. By sheer shit luck, while stepping off the prison boat he happened to be witnessed by a lawyer he had faced off against several times back when he was practicing law, who still held a grudge and ratted him out.<br /><br />Tone was charged with treason and sentenced to death. All Tone requested was that he be given what he considered a more honorable death -- firing squad instead of hanging. The English, presumably just to be pricks, insisted that hanging was the only way to go. So Tone, in a ballsy but perhaps strategically ill-considered move, countered by cutting his own throat.<br /><br />English plans to get the last laugh by dressing Tone's corpse in women's clothes and shooting it out of a cannon were fortunately called off when they couldn't find a gown in his size~<br /><br /><br /><br />#2.<br />The Freaking Potato Famine<br /><br /><br />Even by their standards the Irish were going through a bit of a rough patch in the mid-1800s. The people were dirt poor and almost all Irish land was owned by Englishmen (most of whom would never even set foot on Ireland lest their boots be sullied by inferior non-English soil). The English made sure the best land was used to graze cattle for British consumption, and only the leftover scraps were left to grow food for the apparently somewhat unimportant purpose of actually feeding the Irish.<br /><br />But wait, not all is lost! Enter the potato, that most manly of vegetables. It can be grown nearly anywhere in large quantities, is full of energy and nutrients and is pretty freakin' tasty baked with a nice cheese sauce, bacon bits and chives. So to sum up, through a unique and twisted set of circumstances the survival of the Irish people was entirely dependent on these edible roots. What could possibly go wrong? What, haven't you been paying attention so far? This is Ireland we're talking about here.<br /><br />Not only did the potato crop completely fail, but it failed for seven straight years, from 1845 to 1851. Before the famine Ireland had a population of around 8 million. After the famine it was less than 6 million (half of the 2 million died, the other half wisely got the hell out of Ireland).<br /><br />To this day Ireland's population has still not come close to regaining the number of people they had back in 1847~<br /><br />#1.<br />The Easter 'Rising'<br /><br />Americans have nothing to brag about when it comes to the American Revolution. It's likely we would have lost if France didn't bankrupt and starve themselves to help us out (in order to spite England. What, you thought French pettiness was something new?) But the Irish, no doubt due to their impetuous and rash nature, didn't really plan this particular revolution very well.<br /><br />The plan was to take over Dublin from Great Britain. It was the week of Easter in 1916 and English were busy with some 'World War I' business or something, so perhaps we can only assume the Irish rebels imagined they would be too war-weary to bother with a few freckle-faced malcontents. On paper it sounds like not a bad plan.<br /><br />What the Irish hadn't counted on was that the English are never too war-weary to put them back in their proper place. Stomping down the Irish is as well-loved a British pastime as watercress sandwiches over a ripping game of croquet.<br /><br />The rebels didn't have enough men, a breakdown in law and order led to widespread looting, and, yeah, the British sent in the troops. Lots of troops. Like 16,000 of them to fight off the 1,200 or so Irish renegades.<br /><br />The Irish did what they had already done in the Irish Rebellion of 1641, Irish Rebellion of 1798, United Irish Rebellions, The Nine Years War, Desmond Rebellions and a half dozen more we've no doubt missed, snatching defeat from the jaws of victory. The American Revolution might not have been perfect, but at least we only had to do it once.<br /><br /><br /><br />So, is it all doom and gloom for the Irish? Actually no, it's not. The Irish would eventually gain their independence and in the last decade the Irish 'Celtic Tiger' economy has been booming, with quality of life in Ireland among the best in the world.<br /><br />So next Saint Patrick's day raise a pint to Emerald Island and enjoy it while it lasts, because given the Irish people's unerring ability to get bitch-slapped by fate just as things are looking their brightest, it's probably only a matter of time before Godzilla rises from the ocean to devour the island whole~Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-32978457317238063142009-03-31T15:26:00.001-04:002010-11-17T15:21:28.040-05:00Working Things OutToo many blogs, too little time.<br /><br />I am a copy/paste sort of girl. 360, Blogger, Facebook and Myspace.<br /><br />*yawn*<br /><br />I have reached the point where I do not want to do it anymore.<br /><br />So, blogger is set up to feed into 360 and Facebook.<br /><br />And when I imported into Facebook it did ALL of my blogs that were already on blogger....UGH...so I had to take the time to delete the duplicates. Not fun.<br /><br />Anyway, I am hoping to get better about my writing again. It has fallen to the wayside and I don't like that. I have to write so much for school that I just do not do much writing for fun these days, but I feel better when I write, so I am going to try to get better about it.<br /><br />Got some work to do...will blog more later.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-89166143063488553112009-03-26T11:30:00.002-04:002010-11-17T15:22:36.976-05:00What's Up With Chrys? - March EditionWhat’s Up with Chrys? - March<br /><br />So March came and (just about) went with a bang.<br /><br />Many things going on in my little world and it seems like there are not enough hours in the day anymore.<br />As most of you know I started in February a job with Alpine Access and my client was Sprint. For reasons I care not to get in to, things did not work out after the first two weeks of training.<br /><br />I have been pinching pennies and trying to find something else. I am currently in the process of putting a lot of eggs into my basket because I do not want to fall on my ass anymore.<br /><br />The job market is terrible! I have sent out more job applications then I care to think about. I am either overqualified or they won’t hire me for my field because I am not done with my degree.<br /><br />I am still pushing myself along in school. It sucks and I pretty much hate it but I know I need to finish it. Even if nothing ever comes from it, at least I know I finally finished the darn thing. And that’s really what I set out to do.<br /><br />You have all seen the pics by now, so you know St. Patrick’s Day went VERY well. Nate’s family owns Blue Lakes Tour Busses (shameless plug for them LOL) and for those of you who do not know, Nate is in the band with Matt. Anyway, he was able to get us the Limo Bus ($20 bucks each person) so we did not have to worry about who was going to drive us. The bus picked us up in front of Matt’s house and away we went. The pics pretty much tell the story. We went driving around, party on the bus, The Hills bar ( I think was in Shields) the liquor store, and then off to Hamilton St. Pub in Saginaw. Irish Car Bombs and Green Beer…..need I say more?<br /><br />Couple weeks ago I packed my belongings and moved in with Matt. Maybe that was not the smartest thing to do when so much is going on in our lives separately, but it was something he really wanted and quite frankly, I was tired of driving back and forth all the time. Of course, that was not the sole reason for me moving in with him. LOL! Last week we moved Cain and Casey in and they are adjusting quite nicely. Madison spent her first weekend with them last weekend and it was so funny watching the 3 “kids.” I don’t think the 3 of them ever slept so well! Matt and I have had a few bumps along the way, but I guess that is to be expected. Our relationship is still very new and we have a lot of things to learn still.<br /><br />I was just invited back to work for a company called LiveOps. Couple years ago, right after gramps died I had applied to work for them. Went through training and all that but my depression was making me very ill. I did not work for a few days and they cancelled my account. They are welcoming me back so I am very thankful for the opportunity to come back. The company is similar to Alpine, but with LiveOps I am an independent contractor where with Alpine I was an employee with a set schedule. With LiveOps I get to make my own schedule and work when I want. They both have their pro and cons. But working from home doing something easy while I use my brain (LOL) for school is the way to go for me. I already have all the home office equipment, may as well put it to use. I also have a couple of freelance side projects I am working on.<br /><br />Busy , busy. Which I need to be. Keeps me from going insane.<br /><br />Matt and I are also working on our own business, so keep your eyes and ears open for that. I will be posting more as the time comes.<br /><br />Also, Matts doing a video diary for his band, Downseed. The more personal stuff will go on his personal account, and the band stuff on the band site.<br /><br />Here are the links<br /><br />Myspace.com/downseed<br /><br />Downseed.com<br /><br />Youtube.com/downseed<br /><br />Youtube.com/voiceoftheseed<br /><br />Voiceoftheseed.blogspot.com<br /><br />Downseed.blogspot.com<br /><br />You can also follow along here on my accounts as I will try my best to show them here as well, after all I will be in them! LOL<br /><br /><br />So I think that’s it for now. I have got some paperwork to get finished and stick my nose in the books.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-39285930959288150742009-03-24T11:35:00.001-04:002010-11-17T15:23:17.005-05:00Poetry In Motion: Earth ShakesEarth Shake<br />I feel the earth shaking under my feet<br />No, I am not about to bust out into a song.<br />Cracks.<br />Everywhere I look<br />There are cracks.<br />Stepping over them is impossible<br />And there are not means of filling them in<br />I explain the situation<br />But no one seems to care<br />All alone here<br />Trying to find a way to get around these cracks<br />Go this way<br />The cracks are smaller<br />Closer together<br />No good<br />Stepping over one, means touching another<br />Fall<br />Falling<br />Further and further away<br />Deep into the depths of the earth<br />The earth that has shaken<br />Walls tumbling<br />Voices screaming<br />The earth still shakes, under my feet.<br />3/19/09<br />© C.T.M.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-90300684808749891302009-03-06T13:11:00.001-05:002009-03-06T13:11:53.293-05:00Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?<div class="postbody"> <p style="text-align: center;"><img src="http://api.ning.com/files/ukvFkOjijVbUvEbwJLxz*zXzTuIF--ZN3By9ZKrHIADSSDARV2RB8cPCV6xWVy2KPi4vRhJ3fxNmazWA6qj5PMZn*gQaG5K1/CarrottEggCoffee.jpg" alt="" width="130" height="164" /></p><br />My thanks to someone who forwarded this to me many months ago........<br /><br />A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up, she was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose..<br /><br />Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil; without saying a word.<br /><br />In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl.<br /><br />Turning to her daughter, she asked, ' Tell me what you see.'<br />'Carrots, eggs, and coffee,' she replied.<br /><br />Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft.<br /><br />The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it.. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard-boiled egg.<br /><br />Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma.<br /><br />The daughter then asked, 'What does it mean, mother?'<br /><br />Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently.<br /><br />The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak.<br />The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened.<br />The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.<br /><br />'Which are you?' she asked her daughter. 'When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?'<br /><br />Think of this: <b>Which am I?</b><br />*Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?<br /><br />*Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart?<br /><br />*Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain.. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you.<br /><br />When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest do you elevate yourself to another level?<br />How do you handle adversity?<br /><br /><b>Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?</b> </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-89225432311157139312009-03-04T22:29:00.001-05:002010-11-17T15:24:22.167-05:00Celebrating....<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/Sa9IcHPySPI/AAAAAAAAACQ/UtVsTTNK-cs/s1600-h/030409144247_01.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5309542133511899378" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/Sa9IcHPySPI/AAAAAAAAACQ/UtVsTTNK-cs/s200/030409144247_01.jpg" style="cursor: pointer; display: block; height: 200px; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; width: 150px;" /></a><br /><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/Sa9IcM-Z73I/AAAAAAAAACI/bIiv98V1Ir8/s1600-h/030409141511_01.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5309542135049613170" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/Sa9IcM-Z73I/AAAAAAAAACI/bIiv98V1Ir8/s200/030409141511_01.jpg" style="cursor: pointer; display: block; height: 200px; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; width: 150px;" /></a><br /><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/Sa9Ib9OkNRI/AAAAAAAAACA/YjpfRg1e03U/s1600-h/0304091417a.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5309542130822427922" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/Sa9Ib9OkNRI/AAAAAAAAACA/YjpfRg1e03U/s200/0304091417a.jpg" style="cursor: pointer; display: block; height: 150px; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; width: 200px;" /></a><br /><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/Sa9IbXINezI/AAAAAAAAAB4/OGPBwJLYZ78/s1600-h/0304091417.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5309542120595225394" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/Sa9IbXINezI/AAAAAAAAAB4/OGPBwJLYZ78/s200/0304091417.jpg" style="cursor: pointer; display: block; height: 150px; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; width: 200px;" /></a><br />Celebrating 6 months at Joe's Crab Shack :) Good times.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-24139902946778226142009-03-04T11:27:00.002-05:002010-11-17T15:25:14.579-05:006 Months Ago Today6 Months ago to the day this wonderful, beautiful man walked in to my life and forever changed my world.<br /><br />Technically it was a few days before that he came into my life, but today marks the day we first met in person.<br /><br />I remember it like it was yesterday. A few emails were exchanged and then the first phone call, we barely had two words in before Matt suggested we meet at Applebee’s for a couple of drinks.<br /><br />I hemmed and hawed about it. I did not even know this man and yet here I was debating about running across town for a drink.<br /><br />In the past I had talked to them a while before meeting them. And, I will admit I was scared. Mike and I had just parted ways and I was still emotionally wrecked, but at the same time I knew I could not let opportunity pass me by.<br /><br />So, I went. Matt had told me he was going to stop by his dad’s and that if I got there before he did, to just wait for him at the bar.<br /><br />I figured I had time to spare so I called Julie on my drive. I was nervous but so excited at the same time. Julie gave me the pep talk I needed, and when I walked into Applebee’s, there he was. My heart fluttered and this huge smile spread across my face. He smiled and I told Julie “Girl I gotta go!” She laughed and she knew all was well.<br /><br />We walked to our table, all the while I am doing the mental check list.<br /><br />Smile, check. Eyes that sparkle, check. Cute butt, check. (Oh yes guys, we do this!) Oh, and let’s not forget the tattoo’s. Oh I am a sucker for a bald dude and tattoos. Yummy.<br /><br />We talked; he ate a salad and a pop. I choked down a Killian’s. NO GUINNESS! What a disgrace they don’t serve it. And I was trying to look all Irish and cool, what can I say? (and I am sure Matt’s laughing right about now)<br /><br />From that day forward my world has changed.<br /><br />Yeah we bump heads. We are both pretty head strong and Irish to boot. But we laugh about it later. He is perfect for me in every way. He is strong, doesn’t tolerate my bullshit, caring, loving, a great dad, giving and genuine. He gives me everything I could ever ask for. He loves me just as I am.<br /><br />Madison is my little buddy. When she tells me she loves me and you look across the way and see the way Matt looks at us, I know deep inside this is right where I belong.<br /><br />My family thinks he’s great and his feel’s the same about me. They welcomed me with open arms.<br /><br />Matt and I met at a darker hour in our lives. Both going through so much. But now we know we don’t have to face those things alone anymore.<br /><br />He is my strength when I need guidance; he has been my shoulder to cry on. I have always been convinced that people meet and cross paths for a reason. I know my reason is clear.<br /><br />So as we move forward and handle all of life’s obstacles together, we walk the path of this journey side by side I know not only have I found my best friend but I have also found that one that completes me in every way. He is my missing piece to the puzzle of life. I have some peace at last.<br /><br />~Chrys~<br /><br />PS- I know to some it may seem silly we are celebrating 6 months of dating….but for us, with the way our lives have been, it is monumental and something worth celebrating. We call it love.<br /><br /><br /><br />Matthew,<br />I know times are hard and we have so many things in life to figure out. At least we have each other and do not have to face those things alone. You are strong in your way and I am strong in mine. You are the ying to my yang. Together we can beat the rough spots and overcome all these challenges life is throwing our way. I love you and Maddy more and more with every day that passes. I love how you make me smile; your strong hugs and warm embrace always there to greet me. I love how every time I see you I still get butterflies. These things so small, yet mean so much. I could not ask for someone better or more perfect for me. You are everything I could have ever asked for in someone. I love you for everything you are inside and out. Everything today and everything that you are tomorrow.<br /><br />Today, Tomorrow, our Lifetime.<br /><br /><br /><div class="photo photo_left"><div class="photo_img"><a href="http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=2250921&op=1&view=all&subj=55649198887&aid=-1&oid=55649198887&id=569555914"><img alt="" src="http://photos-b.ak.fbcdn.net/photos-ak-snc1/v1805/39/23/569555914/a569555914_2250921_4487.jpg" /></a></div><div class="caption">Me and Matt</div></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-65165359261559158402009-03-02T10:47:00.000-05:002010-11-17T15:27:25.695-05:00What's Up With Chrys? - The Corner EditionI FEEL Backed In To a Corner<br /><br />We all know the job market is not at its best. We all know how the economy is these days.<br /><br />And most of you know just how much of a roller coaster life in Michigan has been for me.<br /><br />I do not want to be on this roller coaster anymore. Right now I feel like I have wasted the two years (close enough) that I have been here. When I first moved here I did so without much direction. I went back to college, and I also took classes to get my Real Estate Appraisal License, which I did. I was going to work with/for/help my aunt. However, Olivia is her granddaughter and many plans fell to the wayside. I had planned to get in to Real Estate. Selling. Appraisals. Mortgages. Whatever I could take classes on and do, I wanted to do it. My aunt has been involved in real estate for around 20 or so years now and my mom had her own real estate business when I was growing up. So this is nothing new to me. It is something I have always been interested in. But, like I said, it all fell to the wayside. Eventually I let my appraisal license lapse.<br /><br />So, I have tried to find my place in this world. I keep charging full speed ahead hoping one day the time and investment will pay off. I question it often – should I change my major? Is this really what I want to do with my life? I have been in the accounting world for so long now it’s my comfort zone. So I continue forward.<br /><br />Is the grass greener on the other side? Is there something out there I would be better suited for?<br />Bills have to be paid. We all know in order to have the things we need to survive, a roof over our heads, food, water, electricity we must have a means to pay for these things. And in order to pay for these things one must have transportation to get to a job that is going to provide money. Yet including another bill.<br /><br />Where I life, jobs are very scarce and the ones that are available are at least a 30 minute commute. Not painful, but not ideal.<br /><br />I have taken a few jobs here just for the sake of having a job. Not because I really wanted it, but because it was resting on my shoulders that those things needed to be paid for and taken care of. So I took them, not wanting to disappoint anyone. I was miserable. (aside from HR Block) I was treated poorly, forced to do unethical business practiced by a company (I got out quick!) I have been screamed at, cursed at and backed in to a corner. I have been used, lied to, stepped on and looked down upon. I have been made to feel because I am not done with my degree and that I am a girl that I will not amount to much more then I am in life.<br /><br />I am better than that. And I am smarter than that. And I refuse to feel this way anymore.<br /><br />I will no longer take a job because I feel I HAVE to, but I will take it because I WANT to.<br /><br />For my family and friends that I have let down, disappointed and now look like a loser to, I am sorry. However this is my life, we are not perfect. We make mistake, we live and we learn. I am sorry I have let you down, but I cannot deal with these sorts of conditions.<br /><br />I am now taking matters into my own hands. If there is not a job out there suited for me, then I must create one for myself.<br /><br />I have some other prospects on the horizon. I am trying to work out a deal with becoming a personal assistant for someone; the hours are limited as well as the pay. But add it to some other things I am looking in to, and then it could very well be worth my time. I am also looking into getting back to freelance writing. Some money is better than no money and sometimes the little things in life can add up.<br /><br />My mother and my aunt are starting a cleaning service business and somehow in the last few days I have become the little helper. So here I am setting up emails, making flyers, playing with business cards and searching competitor’s sites for information and ideas. (Oh joy!) I am not a fan of cleaning, but I will do it to help my mom. However, I prefer to run the office part of it while my aunt continues on her real estate path and my mom can manage the cleaners.<br /><br />Speaking of real estate paths, I am going to go back on mine. My aunt is over booked and needs help. So I am going to help with what I can, I am sure my mom will too, to get her caught up and make some cash! Cash is always a plus. And once some of that cash comes in I plan to get my appraisal license reinstated. Matt and I both want to take the real estate class/exam and do that. He is going to continue on his path of finishing his respiratory therapist degree and real estate will just be something to do on the side. Somewhere down the line rental investments will be in the works.<br /><br />I know many of you think the housing market is in a bad place, but the truth of that is, it really is not. People are still moving. Changing jobs, going to school, etc and are all in need of homes. Foreclosed homes are now pennies on the dollar and many homes are now offered by the HUD program making it more affordable for those who could not buy a house, be able to.<br /><br />This is the path I should have continued on when I landed here. But things happen in life. We grow, we learn, we move forward and we get stronger.<br /><br />I may very well fall on my face and I might just lose everything I have gotten for myself since I left it all behind in the divorce. But at least I am trying to do my best and be the best that I can be.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-83376977539689475572009-02-25T20:47:00.001-05:002010-11-17T15:26:14.518-05:00What Are Friends For? Downseed ReviewI want to thank my friend Tim for his wonderful post about Matt's band Downeed....and as you know it my girlfriend-ly duty to Spread The Seed!!!!<br /><br />So, read, comment, enjoy :)<br /><br /><br /><a href="http://simplemanentertainment.blogspot.com/2009/02/downseed-next-wave-of-rock.html#comment-form" onmousedown="'UntrustedLink.bootstrap($(this)," target="_blank" rel="nofollow"><span>http://simplemanentertainm</span><wbr><span class="word_break"></span><span>ent.blogspot.com/2009/02/d</span><wbr><span class="word_break"></span><span>ownseed-next-wave-of-rock.</span><wbr><span class="word_break"></span>html#comment-form</a><br /><br /><br /><br />Welcome back my friends to the third official installment of Simple Man Entertainment. I know that this blog has been very erratic with postings, but as I have a lot of irons in the fire I really don’t want to waste your time or mine with mediocre material. As a result I spend a lot of time watching, reading, and listening to all sorts of material in an effort to find the real gold nuggets in entertainment out there in order serve you up the best in any genre I recommend for you to sample.<br /><br /><br />With that being said I think I may have found something within the genre of music. Now I will tell you that these guys are not major headliners…..yet, but they have the talent and ability to be so, and the bands name is Downseed. Before I go any further I would like to thank a friend of mine Chrystal Mahan very much for bringing these guy’s to my attention.<br /><br /><br />The band Downseed was originally formed in 2000, and promptly took its place at the forefront of melodic heavy rock. The original lineup toured all over the country as well as being featured on radio shows, websites, and appearances in interviews. However after such a short period of time the band went on hiatus in 2001 to recover from the heavy toll all of that placed on them and ultimately split up.<br /><br /><br />However in 2005 they reformed the band with all new members except for original member and front man Matt McConnell. They also kept the tunes the original members performed on their roster, but looked to make new music more in keeping with the times that the group chose to re-forge themselves within.<br /><br /><br />Since the time of Downseeds reformation they have undergone several changes in the lineup of its members. The 05 incarnation consisted of Matt McConnell on vocals, Nate Cupp on guitars and vocals, Billy Davidson on drums, Phil Murray on bass, Brian fork on guitars, and Jack Carpenter on samples and keyboards. These guys were the new foundation for a hard hitting in your face sound that I think is off the chain.<br /><br /><br />However the current line up, which has changed to include Mike Green in place of Brian fork. In 08 Phil Murray would leave for personal reasons to be replaced by William Szcezpanik on bass and Billy Davidson left the same year being replaced by Dan Cribbins on drums. Jack Carpenter was replaced by Eean Lee on Keys. Mike Green would also leave and his axe duties picked up by Matt giving us the bands current lineup.<br /><br /><br />I will say this I listen to all kinds of music and I listen to hard rock and metal in particular, and these guys are some of the heaviest dudes I have heard come along in quite a while. I think these guys also have the potential to go all the way to the top with their current lineup as long as they avoid the pitfalls that seem to plague so many great, talented, young bands. I really look forward to seeing them in the national spotlight, and very soon I hope.<br /><br /><br />I am putting some links to the bands website, MySpace, and YouTube page on here as well as one of their videos. I hope you all enjoy them as much as I have.<br />Have an awesome week and I will be back again soon CIAO4NOW!!!!!<br /><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/note_redirect.php?note_id=54127513887&h=8c94392021d7cfa26b34ea6d6fc1d3cc&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.myspace.com%2Fdownseed" target="_blank" title="http://www.myspace.com/downseed">http://www. myspace. com/downseed</a><br /><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/note_redirect.php?note_id=54127513887&h=8085e1863b760917e3228f62a318eb16&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.msplinks.com%2FMDFodHRwOi8vd3d3LnlvdXR1YmUuY29tL2Rvd25zZWVk" target="_blank" title="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vd3d3LnlvdXR1YmUuY29tL2Rvd25zZWVk">http://www. youtube. com/downseed</a><br /><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/note_redirect.php?note_id=54127513887&h=a0f20dc436501f4977e194999581937a&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.msplinks.com%2FMDFodHRwOi8vd3d3LmRvd25zZWVkLmNvbS8%3D" target="_blank" title="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vd3d3LmRvd25zZWVkLmNvbS8=">http://www. downseed. com/</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-17134886196875015692009-02-13T22:54:00.002-05:002010-11-17T15:28:27.128-05:00My Valentine<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/SZZA_EA5NyI/AAAAAAAAABw/y7Ife08OfkU/s1600-h/m_862e2030e1c349649b50533192d31931.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5302497063428765474" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/SZZA_EA5NyI/AAAAAAAAABw/y7Ife08OfkU/s320/m_862e2030e1c349649b50533192d31931.jpg" style="cursor: pointer; display: block; height: 127px; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; width: 170px;" /></a><br />My Valentine<br /><br />Ok, I know the last blog was sort of a downer. But in all fairness, we just have a lot going on and sometimes I need to vent because it gets hard to deal with. Does not mean I want to leave him or that I am going to.<br /><br />So in honor of Valentines (gag me, puke. Some things I will never change on) I wanted to make this a little more positive.<br /><br />I am still not a fan of Valentines. It has become too much of a Hallmark Holiday. I do not think we need a day to tell the ones we love that we love them. As the great man, from a great state (Garth Brooks and Oklahoma) “Tell that someone that you love, just what you are thinking of if tomorrow never comes”<br /><br />And I plan to do just that.<br /><br />I love him. (Matt)<br /><br />And I love you guys (all my family and friends)<br /><br />For my friends, you have been my saving grace…especially these last couple years! Thank you.<br /><br />For Matt, you have marched right into my life and tore down every wall I had. I am scared to death to let you in completely, but yet I don’t seem to be pushing you back out. You have become my everything. My best friend. I am empty without you, I hate being apart. When I see you I smile and feel the butterflies deep in the pit of my stomach. I look forward to all those days we will be spending together. I know times are a little shaky right now with everything going on, and sometimes I want to run away and hide, but that is how I have always been. For you I am trying to change that, you just have to deal with me for now. You complete me in a way I could never describe, for I feel things I have never felt before. I know in a world where things seem less than perfect, that you are the perfect one for me. I love you. Happy Valentine’s Day. And I look forward to a lifetime of them with you (and Maddy,too! Oh…and let’s not forget my dogs Cain and Casey! One big happy family LOL.)Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-8686502342373112462009-02-13T09:31:00.002-05:002010-11-17T15:29:20.661-05:00Optimistic...who me?Optimistic…who me?<br /><br />I know I have not been very good lately about updating my blogs, posting stories, poetry or just writing in general. It is not due to writers block, but rather I just don’t take the time to do it. Life has gotten very crazy for me and it seems the longer I go without writing, the harder it is to get started.<br /><br />School is still going strong. Some days it kicks me in the ass.<br /><br />I started a new job this week and have been in training which is really overloading my brain. For those of you who don’t know I got contracted through a company to work for a cell phone company in the Finance Department. I get to train from home and work from home. It pays just as much as the other jobs I have had, but with benefits after 90 days and I do not have to pay for gas to commute. Which is a huge thing here because all the good jobs are a 30 minute drive from where I live. So learning rules, regulations, software programs and such has been overwhelming and my brain does not shut off at night.<br /><br />Matt and I are going through a lot, together and separately. Both of our lives have taken a 360 and it has shaken us. Job changes, school, schedules, life in general.<br /><br />And the divorce still is not settled. Just when you get a step forward, you go five steps backwards.<br />So I sit here, and I wait. I wait for that moment when life is going to change and just when I think it has gotten to that point, something takes it all away.<br /><br />Matt wants me to move in. I keep dragging my feet as I am sure you can all understand why. I want the papers signed, sealed and delivered. I do not want her using me as leverage to keep his daughter away from him. She already tried to do that (not because of me) and it was heartbreaking to watch. There are also some things I need to work out for myself before I run head first into a living situation. And there are things we need to work on as a couple.<br /><br />I am so full of frustration and anxiety that I don’t know what direction to go in. I don’t know what day it is anymore. I burry my nose in text books in the hopes that time will just pass me by. I don’t seek answers anymore because they never seem to help.<br /><br />It’s hard to emotionally take. I have been waiting a long time for this divorce. And he has been waiting even longer. There is a long story there which I care not to get in to. It is hard to be with someone when you don’t fully feel like they belong to you. I know at this point the marriage is dissolved and was for a while before I even came along. And to some, marriage is just a piece of paper. But for me, it’s more than that. It is hard to put in to words, but I just do not feel like we are complete. He does not fully belong to me because he is legally bound to someone else.<br /><br />I want to run, that is what everything in me says. Run, Chrystal. Get away from the emotional drama that is draining you. Making you angry. Making you want to throw things across the room and then cry.<br />This is NOT me. This is not the person I am. But yet, somehow over the last few months, the person I have become.<br /><br />Everyone tells me how happy they are to see Matt so happy. Great. I am glad I make him that happy. How strong I must be for him.<br /><br />I paint a pretty picture.<br /><br />Strong on the outside, breaking up to tiny little pieces on the inside.<br /><br />I think I have finally hit my breaking point.<br /><br />I need time to think.<br /><br />I have to get away, but I have no place to go. No place to run and hide.<br /><br />And really, what good is that going to do anyway?<br /><br />Everyone keeps saying to hang in there, that it will get better. Things will change.<br /><br />BUT WHEN?<br /><br />When am I going to smile again? When am I going to stop crying?<br /><br />Love is not supposed to hurt.<br /><br />And I hurt.<br /><br />I wanted to write a happy blog , this being Valentines weekend and all. But it does not appear that is going to be the case, for this last week has been the worst week Matt and I have ever been through. I know everyone kept telling us it is going to get worse before it gets better. And then they keep saying it will get better. I am not very optimistic these days. I want to see the sunshine and rainbows but right now my head is buried in the clouds.<br /><br />All I see are grey skies, clouds and rainy days.<br /><br />So here I go again, waiting for the world to change.<br /><br />So, I will end with this. Despite this emotional drama we are going through right now, despite the fact I am emotionally drained and want to run and hide, I won’t. Like I said in a previous blog, I love Matt and he is what I want. Madison and I have become great little friends. I know times are rough right now, and I know things will change. I have no patience and I want them to change now. I love this man completely and I am excited about the life we have together ahead of us. It is just getting from point A to point B that is hard.<br /><br />But no one said life was easy, now did they?<br /><br />Sometimes I just need to vent, to write out my frustrations and such. It makes me feel better.<br />So that is what I am doing...it is my blog after all. LOL!Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-48897568778569468082009-02-10T08:48:00.001-05:002010-11-17T15:30:06.193-05:00Pod Me ThisWhen I am bored and can not sleep I find totally random and useless things to do, hence all the random blogs....I promise to get back to the regularly scheduled blog program soon :)<br /><br /><br />I'll post the answers in a few days, and I only did 15 instead of 30<br /><br />(ganked from Brett then infamous We-Pod)<br /><br />The Rules:<br />Step 1: Put your music player on shuffle<br />Step 2: Post the first line from the first 30 songs that play (no matter how embarrassing)<br />Step 3: Strike through the song when someone guesses the artist and song title correctly<br />Step 4: Looking them up on Google or another search engine is CHEATING!<br />Step 5: If nobody gets the song right, then you may post further hints.<br />Step 6. Make your own list<br /><br />1. Secrets told in the pictures on your skin, Hours fade into days that never end<br /><br />2. And I wanna believe you, When you tell me that it'll be ok<br /><br />3. From lashes to ashes And from lust to dust In your sweetest torment<br />I'm lost<br /><br />4. Who am I to save you, To try and tame you<br /><br />5. I'm not looking for someone to talk to, I've got my friend, I'm more than O.K.<br />I've got more than a girl could wish for<br /><br />6. I try real folling, Realise, Sixteen are you still<br />I'd try to come back if I could<br /><br />7. You can reach, But you can't grab it, You can hold it, control it,<br />No, you can't bag it<br /><br />8. Come As you are. As you were. As I want you to be.<br /><br />9. Woke up depressed, I left for work, You have a good day<br /><br />10. Reverend, reverend, Is this a conspiracy? Crucified for no sins<br /><br />11. I've been waiting here for so long, Trying to find another place where I belong<br /><br />12. I'll be coming home Just to be alone<br /><br />13. Something is about to give I can feel it coming<br /><br />14. We'll do it all Everything On our own We don't need Anything<br /><br />15. The way you're bathed in light Reminds me of that nightChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-80049835552876192302009-01-26T20:17:00.001-05:002010-11-17T15:30:55.957-05:00Just Call Me GraceSo, we all know I am sort of a klutz. I admit it.<br /><br />I spent the night at Matt’s last night and had to get up to go potty. His house is in complete darkness. I come back from the bathroom, walk in the bedroom door, turn to the left towards the bed. Decided I was chilly and was going to lean down to get my sweater off the floor. Instead of getting my sweater I ended up running into Madison’s step stool and stubbed my toe. I guess I lost my feel for where I was in the darkness because as soon as I reached down to get my sweater, my face went head first into the dresser. The corner of the dresser slammed right into my mouth. I landed on the floor. It jolted me, scared me more the anything. Matt was lying in bed and was not sure what had happened, he thought I just ran into the dresser. He had no idea it was my head. So I am in the fetal position on the floor, I explain what happened, my mouth is throbbing, next thing I know, blood starts gushing out between my fingers and my mouth is full of blood. I stand up and make a mad dash for the bathroom and spit a ton of blood into the sink. And there I sat with a washrag on my gums to get it to stop bleeding. My gum was hanging off, I swore up and down my tooth was going to fall out! LOL. I had a small cut by my other tooth and my inside upper lip was cut. It did not feel good at all.<br /><br />Once I got the bleeding to stop I took some Tylenol PM and knocked my ass out about 3am.<br /><br />This morning it was swollen and bruised pretty purple. Now it’s just throbbing and the swelling has gone down some and the purple has subsided. Now it just looks gross. You can see where the dresser corner gashed it.<br /><br />Lovely.<br /><br />I have not been able to eat anything because I cannot bite into or chew as it is my front tooth and upper gum. I had some Starbucks coffee, a banana that I had to break into pieces, I tried to eat noodles Matt made but all it did was stress me out. So I had some yogurt and I was just now able to slurp down some soup.<br /><br />I am trying to keep it clean, as I do not want it to get infected.<br /><br />Maybe tomorrow I will post a pic! LOL<br /><br />Just call me Grace!<br /><br />hahahahahaChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-6848575356880319062009-01-25T14:46:00.001-05:002010-11-17T15:27:25.701-05:00Whats Up With Chrys? - Part 2 - Jobs<p> <img src="http://i88.photobucket.com/albums/k170/rchurchward/Mich.jpg" /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />..<br /><br /></p><p>So we are all well aware by now that my employment history<br />in this state has been a huge ordeal. Such a mess, that is gets its own blog!<br />LMAO.<br /><br /></p><p>So, I move to MI thinking things are going to be easy going,<br />only to find out that is not so true. Not only did I pick MI over FL because I<br />have my mom here, I picked the colder state with the highest unemployment rate!<br /><br /><br /></p><p>Life has been such a battle up here.<br /><br /></p><p>I did a couple of months with a company called West, for Christmas.<br />I was contracted with V*rgin M@bile (companies do not like you to say who their<br />clients are so we ops have to change them, but I am sure you can figure it out)<br />to add minutes to phones as well as program them. It was pretty easy work. But<br />once the holidays were over I was let go since it was seasonal.<br /><br /></p><p>Then I got into Real Estate Appraisals, but at this time<br />there was not much work for me to do.<br /><br /></p><p>After that I landed with H&R Block. Thankfully I had family<br />friends give me some pull, along with the fact I had worked there in OK. Once<br />the tax season was over I landed at Hells Place. I got that job because the HR<br />manager is friends with my family.<span style=""> </span>Not<br />much good came out of that job. I did manage to make some friends and make some<br />money to buy my own car. But being in a place where you are constantly stuck in<br />the middle of drama and bosses who like to scream curse words at each other can<br />wreak havoc on your mental stability! So I got out of there when the offer was<br />made for me to move in with the ex and a job was in line.<br /><br /></p><p>We ALL know how that turned out so I am not going to rehash<br />it here.<br /><br /></p><p>Then I landed that lovely text job. If you read the blogs,<br />you know just how lovely it is.<br /><br /></p><p>Shortly after I landed the paper job, I left the text job<br />behind. I did not play in paper, more so I was the office bitch. LOL! However,<br />again I found myself with a bi-polar boss and after 1 month we mutually agreed<br />things were not working out for us.<br /><br /></p><p>Through all of this I have managed to keep a 4.0 in school,<br />so I guess not all of this time has been a total waste.<br /><br /></p><p>Texting did offer me my old job, working a new service, so I<br />am back. However I am finding myself not really caring enough to put forth the<br />effort needed to meet my min. quota.<br /><br /></p><p>Oh well, live goes on.<br /><br /></p><p>On Febuary 9<sup>th</sup> I begin training for Spr!nt<br />(again, can’t tell who clients are, but I am sure you can figure it out.) I<br />applied with a company called Alpine Access that is a customer service call<br />center based out of Colorado. <span style=""> </span>I have no<br />commute. No dress code. That pretty much sold me right there. That was one<br />thing I liked about West. However AA offers benefits. West did call me back for<br />the Valentine season and I said no thanks(only took them a year to call me back,<br />and they wanted me to work a flower company line…yeeshh…). Anyway, I am going<br />to be working in the finance department for Spr!nt.<span style=""> </span>Pretty excited about this. My resume, despite<br />what you are seeing written here, is pretty clean. Since I have done the real<br />estate stuff for as long as I have lived here, that pretty much sums up my work<br />history in MI!<span style=""> </span>(shame on me, I know..but<br />really, who cares.)<br /><br /></p><p>Anyway, I think the job is a good fit for me while I finish<br />my accounting degree. I am contracted for a year and by that time I should just<br />about be done with school and at that time will evaluate life and where I want<br />to be.<br /><br /></p>As time goes on…I will blog more about the job and such<br />later. Just wanted to give you all a heads up on life and how things are going.<br />I know I have kept you out of the loop for a while.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-38692511900719953632009-01-25T13:24:00.000-05:002010-11-17T15:27:25.708-05:00Whats Up With Chrys? - Relationships<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/SXyvlUys-aI/AAAAAAAAABg/f2b8eBjLaEU/s1600-h/th_emooo.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 160px; height: 128px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/SXyvlUys-aI/AAAAAAAAABg/f2b8eBjLaEU/s320/th_emooo.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5295300317652253090" border="0" /></a><br />“I'll be your dream, I'll be your wish, I'll be your<br />fantasy. I'll be your hope, I'll be your love - be everything that you need. I<br />love you more with every breath truly, madly, deeply do.... I will be strong, I<br />will be faithful 'cause I'm counting on a new beginning, a reason for living, a<br />deeper meaning."<br /><br />Savage Garden....<br /><br />Life has certainly been crazy these<br />last few months. I should have taken the<br />time to write, but Matt’s soon to be ex was a myspace friend and I just was at<br />this point where she did not need to know about my life. So how could I write<br />and keep her at bay? I started to make a few blogs only viewable by those on my<br />preferred list, but that got to be a pain in the ass to add everyone to.....<br /><br />Doesn’t really matter now. We are<br />knee deep in the divorce and it has gotten really ugly so really we were left<br />with no choice but to delete and block her from both of our myspace/favebook pages.....<br /><br />Out of respect for Matt I am not<br />going to throw his private life details out there. But for those of you who did<br />not know, yeah, he’s not divorced yet.....<br /><br />And I can see you all rolling your<br />eyes at me now. (Especially you Julie…LMAO)....<br /><br />I did not tell but a few people when<br />Matt and I first started to date what the details of our life were. I had<br />wanted to just keep it all to myself. I really did not think it was that<br />important, but I also thought that the divorce would be done and over with and<br />we would be at the end of the story by now.....<br /><br />That is not the case obviously. Almost 5 months into our relationship and the<br />papers are just now getting started. And literally in a matter of moments our<br />lives have been turned upside down.....<br /><br />Daily I question myself on this<br />situation and now that things are way off in left field with Matt trying for<br />full custody of his daughter, I find myself questioning this relationship even<br />more.....<br /><br />Sure, I have fallen in love with<br />Matt. We are all well aware of this by now. But am I strong enough for the<br />drama and every bit of baggage that Matt has?....<br /><br />I worry, I wonder, I cry, I lay awake<br />at night looking at the flaws in my ceiling having conversations in my head.<br />Waiting for the answer. ....<br /><br />You all know I am a runner. I run<br />when things get tough. I have tried to run so many times it is absolutely crazy.<br />I don’t want to run anymore. I don’t want to be that girl anymore.....<br /><br />What I want, quite simply is Matt.<br />And if that means I get Madison too, then so be it. ....<br /><br />Am I prepared for all that brings to<br />my table?....<br /><br />No, not really. I am not going to sit<br />here and lie to you.....<br /><br />But, I am not in this by myself. Matt<br />will walk beside me, just as I will him.....<br /><br />We are stronger together then we are<br />alone.....<br /><br />I worry in the end my heart will get<br />broken. But at the same time I see the love he has for me, how he has already<br />fought for me. So when it comes right down to it, I just have to learn to trust<br />again. To trust him as well as myself. ....<br /><br />Thanks to past relationships that has<br />not been the easiest thing for me. But I am learning. ....<br /><br />The road ahead is shaky and unsteady.<br />There are going to be more pot holes and bumps then I know how to deal with.<br />However, I am willing to fill them in as I walk the path and learn as I teeter<br />along. ....<br /><br />And as much as I despise drama, I<br />could not ask for a better man in my life then Matt. So, it evens things out. ....<div class="photo photo_left"><div class="photo_img"><a href="http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=2486456&op=1&view=all&subj=47158798887&aid=-1&oid=47158798887&id=569555914"><img src="http://photos-a.ak.fbcdn.net/photos-ak-snc1/v2113/39/23/569555914/a569555914_2486456_3098.jpg" alt="" /></a></div></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-47251323259675507562009-01-20T22:59:00.001-05:002010-11-17T15:31:46.407-05:00Negative Vibes<span style="line-height: 1.5;">(not my words)</span><br /><span style="line-height: 1.5;"><br /></span><br /><span style="line-height: 1.5;">Sometimes we get a negative vibe from the moment we enter a situation. We don't know why. We can't pinpoint a reason. We don't have any facts. And nothing bad has actually happened. Yet. Still, our "spidey senses" are tingling.<br /><br />What do we do with those negative vibes? Has our subconcious mind picked up on something our conscious mind hasn't processed yet? Or is our overly-suspicious mind working overtime again?<br /><br />A reasonable person might approach the situation with a little more caution. Gather the facts, analyze them, and draw a conclusion. If something looks hinky, then remain cautious. But if everything looks OK, stand down from yellow alert.<br /><br />But what do we actually do?<br /><br />In my experience, when a woman says "it's woman's intuition," or a guy says he has a "gut feeling," it usually that they've already made up their mind.<br /><br />That's not intuition. We're not using it to help sort out the truth. We don't need any facts because we already "know" the truth. We assume that what we;re feeling [i]is[/i] the truth.<br /><br />And then we wonder why we can't be happy. </span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-50573765172945102112009-01-09T13:38:00.002-05:002010-11-15T18:17:20.542-05:00Texting StoriesFor those of you who were following along with the texting stories I have news for you. First, I still have a pile of unfinished work that perhaps writers block will unblock and allow me to finish, and Second the company I was working for invited me back to work a new service they have in Beta. So I decided to pick it up as a part time gig for some extra cash. Got to pay those Christmas bills after all!<br /><br />School just started back up for me today and as we all know now, its TAX Season!Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-40785287331896601512009-01-01T20:59:00.001-05:002010-11-15T21:00:40.719-05:00The Seed - Volume 2<div class="MsoNormal">The Seed Vol2</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><a href="http://www.seaoftranquility.org/reviews.php?op=showcontent&id=7153">http://www.seaoftranquility.org/reviews.php?op=showcontent&id=7153</a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">If you have missed it, follow that link and check out what Scott Ward from Sea of Tranquility had to say about The Revolution CD. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-90878534764979997732008-12-31T18:18:00.003-05:002010-12-22T17:36:24.372-05:00Reflections 2008<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .75in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt; mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; text-indent: -.25in;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-weight: normal;">1)<span style="font: normal normal normal 7pt/normal 'Times New Roman';"> </span></span></strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Was 2008 a good year for you?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">It was a serious roller coaster ride. Just as the past 2 years have been. It had many up and downs. Death. Depression. Heartache. I lost Terry. Mike broke my heart. I lost my job(s). But, on the flip side, I grew, I lived, and I learned. I gained Matt and Madison and the rest of Matt’s family. For that I am blessed.<o:p></o:p></span></strong></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .75in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> I had to overcome many things, and I did. At least I am trying to. I am trying to move on from the past and continue to grow as a person and move forward.<o:p></o:p></span></strong></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .75in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">For me, that is something to celebrate. But life is constantly changing. No longer standing still and waiting for me to catch up. I am still working on getting my life back in order. Starting over with nothing sure is not easy, but at least I am trying. I hope 2009 slows down a little bit and returns some sense of normalcy, but thinking about what I know now, it just might continue on for a while longer…..</span></strong><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />2) What was your favorite moment of the year? <br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Finally getting over Mike and being able to really be friends. Making amends with Sean. Meeting Sybil Starr is up there on the list. She defiantly has brought me many smiles this year. Getting back in touch with my best friend from college, Jennifer. And meeting Matt. He came in my life when I really needed that special something. He taught me that there is still that strong woman inside of me. He taught me it’s OK to continue on the path to being me. He made me dig deep inside myself and show him parts of me I don’t share with just anyone. He has taught me that I am only human, and we make mistakes but those mistakes are not reflection of my true self.<o:p></o:p></span></strong></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">And let’s not forget SHINEDOWN!!!!<o:p></o:p></span></strong></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">THREE TIMES BABY!!! WOOT!<o:p></o:p></span></strong></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /><br />3) What was your least favorite moment of the year? <br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">the heartbreak </span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />4) Where were you when 2008 began?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">At Gracies</span></strong><br /><br />5) Who were you with?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">My family….Mike stood me up *sighs* </span></strong><br /><br />6) Where will you be when 2008 ends?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I will be where ever he is…. </span></strong><br /><br />7) Who will you be with when 2008 ends?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Matt</span></strong><br /><br />8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2008?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I didn’t make any. I know I won’t keep them, so I didn’t bother.</span></strong><br /><br />9) Do you have a new year’s resolution for 2009?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Yes, to take charge of my health. My ass is getting too chunky these days. And get my ass to Ireland once and for all (my resolution every year LOL!). </span></strong><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />10) Did you fall in love in 2008?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Yes, I do believe I have. *smiles* </span></strong><br /><br />11) If yes, with whom?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Everyone here pretty much knows the answer to that.</span></strong><br /><br />12) If yes, do they know?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Of course he knows, for he loves me just the same. </span></strong><br /><br />13) Are you still in love with them?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Absolutely, and looking forward to a lifetime of it. </span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />14) Do you regret it?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Not at all. And never will.</span></strong><br /><br />15) Did you break up with anyone in 2008?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Yes. Mike and I took a giant split </span></strong><br /><br />16) Did you make any new friends in 2008?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I sure as heck did. LOTS of them! *blows a kiss to you all*</span></strong><br /><br />17) Who are your favorite new friends?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">ALL of them.... how can I pick just one?</span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /><br />18) What was your favorite month of 2008?<br /><b>December, as that was the best Shinedown concert that I got to share with Matt. ;) </b><br /><br />19) Did you travel outside of the country in 2008?<br /><b>No :( ..... But I should have, and now wish I did. </b><br /><br />20) How many different places did you travel to in 2008?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Michigan ….what a bore</span></strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /><br />21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2008? <br /><b>Officially , Terry… <br /><br /></b>22) Did you miss anybody in the past year?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">YES! all my friends and loved ones back in OK.</span></strong><br /><br />23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2008? <br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I saw so many wonderful movies this year.</span></strong><br /><br />24) What was your favorite song from 2008?<br /><b>Oh I have a few: they may not be new in 2008, but they meant something to me in 2008. <o:p></o:p></b></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Second Chance – Shinedown<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Simple Man – Shinedown<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Believe – Staind<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Celtic Pride – The Mahones<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Haunted – Shane McGowan and Sinead O’Connor<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Over You – Daughtry<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Better In Time – Leona Lewis<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Ok and really this list could go on and on and on, but there is a reason why I have an attachment to these songs this year. <o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> <br style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> </span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />25) What was your favorite album from 2008?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">The Sound of Madness - Shinedown</span></strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /><br />26) How many concerts did you see in 2008?<br /><b>A LOT!<o:p></o:p></b></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /><br />27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2008?<br /><b>Shinedown</b><br /><br />28) Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2008? <br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Just my fair share… Guinness anyone??</span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2008?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Only those prescribed, and since moving to MI, I only take my meds to help me sleep (damn insomnia) I have kicked the habit of the anxiety and depression medications. </span></strong><br /><br />30) How many people did you sleep with in 2008? <br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Since I spent half the year with Mike and the other half with Matt, lets do the math.</span></strong><br /><br />31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Would have to be, putting mike and mine personal bullshit out there like I did. I know I am very open with my life. And I know this is my corner of the blogland and I do have the freedom of speech. I was mad, hurt, angry and confused. I did not take the time to think about anyone else. It was not fair for me to put that out there like that. Some people are private and I should have respected that. However, that does not excuse his behavior. </span></strong><br /><br />32) What was the biggest lie you told in 2008?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">~SIGHS~ Yeah, I did…I told a lie. A small little white lie and I am not about to get in to it here.</span></strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> <br /><br />33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2008?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">The entire year I spent with Mike was a LIE!!! How’s that for starters??</span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2008?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Well there is this girl I used to work with, Stacy. Mean spirited girl at work, but pretty fun to hang out with afterwards. Her and I drifted after we both quit that hell place. I tried to remain friends. She got bitter about some things and we drifted again. I can’t deal with anger and negativity in my life. I tried to be a friend, invited her to a show and she stood me up. I have pretty much ignored her for 2 months now. She has texted me a few times, and I put off texting her back. But, I give in and do days later. Only to not hear from her again for weeks on end. I don’t think I am treating her any more badly then she treats me, but I don’t exactly like my behavior. </span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2008? <br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Yeah, I had my moments. And I am working on getting over all that as well. (*cough* Stacy, *cough* Mike *cough* )</span></strong><br /><br />36) How much money did you spend in 2008?<strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> I am sure way more then I should. </span></strong><br /><br />38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2008?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Oh! Let’s see........ Just call me Grace LOLOL</span></strong><b><o:p></o:p></b></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2008 and change it, what would it be? <br /><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">If I change anything then I would not be where I am today, and despite some things in life I have Matt now, and that’s a blessing all on it’s own.</b><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /><br />40) What are your plans for 2009? <br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">To just keep plugging away at life one day at a time.<o:p></o:p></span></strong></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Visit my friends for sure! And just slow down and see where life takes me. </span></strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /><br />41) What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">hmmmm. </span></strong><br /><br />42) Did anyone close to you give birth?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">My good friends Wally and Bren welcome a beautiful baby boy. </span></strong><br /><br />43) What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">More time to write. And maybe actually do something with it this year. More MONEY!!</span></strong><br /><br />44) What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? <br style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> <br style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> <o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">September – meeting Matt</span></strong><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />45) What was your biggest achievement of the year?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">hmmmm…I am not so sure I feel like I achieved much of anything other than survive another year.</span></strong><br /><br />46) What was your biggest failure?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">depression creeping back up on me, never living up to my own expectations of myself, dealing with shit jobs, and my wicked evil self esteem issues that mess with my head. </span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /><br />47) What was the best thing you bought? <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">MY OWN CAR!!</b><br /><br />48) Whose behavior merited celebration?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Let me get back to you on that one.</span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /><br /><br />49) Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Yikes! My own – seriously!</span></strong><br /><br />50) What did you get really, really, really excited about? <br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Having a job again, and again. LOL. Living through another semester of school, passing my Tax classes, MEETING MATT! Seeing SHINEDOWN and STAIND!</span></strong><br /><br />51) Compared to this time last year, are you:<br />i. happier or sadder? <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">I am about the same as I was this time last year, just for different reasons.<o:p></o:p></b></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />ii. thinner or fatter? <b>The same as I was…but I would love to change that…</b><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">iii. richer or poorer? <strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">richer in so many ways, poorer money wise </span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />52) What do you wish you'd done more of?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Exercised..LOL..well you asked</span></strong><br /><br />53) What do you wish you'd done less of?<br /><b>Being depressed, blaming myself for so much, worrying about what others are going to think</b><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">54) How will you be spending Christmas?<br /><b>I don’t know, I really just want to lie in bed all day and wish it away. (see that has been my answer every year. But Christmas has already passed and I spent it with Matt)</b><br /><br />55) How many one-night stands?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">didn’t I already shed some light on this?</span></strong><br /><br />56) What was your favorite TV program?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">UFC, The Ultimate Fighter, Prison Break, Lost</span></strong><br /><br />57) Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">You know, I always say that hate is just a waste of my time. But, sadly, there is someone that has burned me and I just really am still pissed off as all hell about it, so yeah, some hatred is running through my Irish blood right now. (this answer is still the same as last year, and it is still the same person, how sad. *sighs*)</span></strong><br /><br />58) What was the best book you read?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Oh gosh, I read so many I don’t really know where to start. But my fave is Needful Things by Stephen King; I read it just about every year. Somehow I got hooked on the Twilight Series.</span></strong><br /><br />59) What was your greatest musical discovery?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Nothing really new this year…unless you want to count Downseed (LMAO) I know..I know… I think Sore Eyes are a great bunch of guys. Umm..who else. Know Lyfe!</span></strong><br /><br />60) What did you want and get?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I wanted someone to love me just as I am, and I believe I have finally found that. </span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /><br />61) What did you want and not get?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I want peace within me. I am working on that.</span></strong><br /><br />62) What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?<br /><b>I got stood up on my birthday , thanks to Mike. This would be about the time the break up happened.<o:p></o:p></b></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">63) What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I really have no way of knowing. Cause if these things did not happen that I went through this year, whose to say something else would not have. </span></strong><br /><br />64)How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008? <br /><b>I’m just me. I don’t follow trends. I like what I like. Comfort. Cool. Calm. Dressed up or down, I am pretty simple. <br /><br /></b>65) What kept you sane?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Oh lord, I don’t think I was sane much this year. But my friends did a pretty good job of not letting me go off the deep end. Especially Shannon, Jules and Jeran. They were there to sound off when I needed them too.<o:p></o:p></span></strong></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /><br />66) Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?<br /><em><b><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-style: normal;">Colin of COURSE!!! And Cillian Murphy! Wentworth Miller and Dominic Purcell of Prison Break ..Oh and lets not forget them UFC men LOLOL</span></b></em><br /><br />67) What political issue stirred you the most? <br /><b>All the shite in Ireland. </b><br /><br />68) Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008.<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Life is too short for petty shit. Tell everyone just what is on your mind because tomorrow may be too late. That forever is a lie.</span></strong><br /><br />69) Quote a song lyric.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: 'Courier New';">Believe in me<br />I know you've waited for so long<br />Believe in me<br />Sometimes the weak become the strong<br />Believe in me<br />This life is not always what it seems<br />Believe in me<br />Cause I was made for chasing dreams</span></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br />70) Favorite discovered quote.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><span class="snippet4"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: windowtext; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">"I'm a woman Phenomenally Phenomenal woman. That's me." ~Maya Angelou<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-83285630052650927002008-12-30T20:45:00.001-05:002010-11-17T15:32:41.599-05:00My Own Spiritual Journey- “Things I Should Have Said”My Own Spiritual Journey- “Things I Should Have Said”<br /><br />I was reading my friend Chris’s blog the other day and it gave me an idea for my own blog. I wanted to get the Scrooge and 2 Wise Men & a Lady out of the way first.<br /><br />I have known Chris since we were in the 5th grade. However, we really did not start hanging out until High School. We tried to stay in touch over the years but things happen. Recently, thanks to myspace we have found each other again.<br /><br /><br />Chris and I have a mutual friend named Stephanie. Silly, loud, goofy, red headed Stephanie. I have talked about her in blogs past. I think I still have pics of her and I here on my page. I used to go visit her in Arkansas for my birthday, and we got tatted together.<br /><br /><br />Anyway, I have lost touch with her since I have moved to Michigan. I know your friends are supposed to stand beside you through thick and through thin, and we sure have. But my moving to Michigan sent me into an inner turmoil. I shut myself off from a lot of my friends. Things up here have been very hard for me and I did not want them to see me struggle. Every day it has been the same story and I just have nothing new to say. I knew moving up here could cause some emotional turmoil for reason I have never really discussed. But those of you who have been in my world over these last few years I am sure can put two and two together.<br /><br /><br />So over the years some of my friends have slipped through my fingers. The ones still close to me, know me, understand me, and are still there for me. Waiting for that text, that phone call. But with Steph, it just got to be so much. She was always so proud of me, and I just don’t think she was happy I left Marcus. I felt like I disappointed her and let her down.<br /><br /><br />As the days went by I just let it go. Some days I would say to myself, I really need to write Steph but I would never get around to it.<br /><br /><br />And then I read Chris’s blog. It made me realize that life is too short and sometimes doing the things we need to do will still show that person we are the strong one.<br /><br /><br />Chris mentioned writing some letters to make amends with something in his life and I thought, maybe it’s time for me to do the same. Starting with Steph. I even asked him if we should “hold each other’s hands” and write her together.<br /><br /><br />If I have learned anything this last year or so it is that life has no guarantee.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-62435541181965372632008-12-23T15:02:00.002-05:002010-11-17T15:33:47.502-05:002 Wise Men and a LadyTwo Wise Men and a Lady.<br /><br />I know, I know, it is suppose to be about THREE wise men but for the sake of my story, there are not 3 of.<br /><br />Over the years you have all heard me rattle on about how I am not really a fan of the holidays. Today I was trying to figure out exactly when this started to happen. Or more like when I really started to feel this way. Once upon a time I could not wait to help my mom decorate the tree. Year after year. I would literally start shopping for Christmas in the summer so that I could get awesome stuff for the best prices and that way everyone got more presents. I loved to give, and I loved to see everyone smile. But somewhere along the way I have lost that Christmas spirit. I know the beginning of it was the death of my grandfather. But I think I was border line starting to dislike Christmas before that. I just think his death a few years ago was the breaking point. And things have just gotten worse since then.<br /><br />Also, over the years you have watched me write blogs to those I have loved and lost. A blog on their birthday to remember the good times and a blog on the passing to honor them.<br /><br />The last few months I have let a couple of those blogs pass me by. I feel guilty about that. I missed Terry’s birthday, which was shortly after Thanksgiving and I missed Lonnie’s passing, which was Dec. 6th.<br /><br />I did not write those blogs because I wanted to hide from some people just how sad I really was. I can no longer hide that now. With Christmas just around the corner, I can no longer fake my way through a chipper cheery holiday.<br /><br />I miss my grandparents more than anything. But I miss 3 of my friends just as much. Elonna, Terry and Lonnie. My 2 wise men and a lady.<br /><br />Losing them means I lost a part of myself.<br /><br />Right now I am facing an inner battle. How can I expect someone to love me or I love them when I cannot even love myself? I do not feel worthy of love right now because I am just not whole.<br /><br />If only I had convinced Elonna to go to the Doctor sooner. If only I had been able to get to Terry sooner and keep him safe, if only I had not opened my mouth to Sean about Lonnie.<br /><br />If only…<br /><br />Perhaps they could, maybe, possibly, be with us here today.<br /><br />My brother would have his blushing bride and his best mate, I would have my Pirate gang back as well as a part of my soul.<br /><br />And I would not feel so wayward, lost, and lonely without them.<br /><br />I am trying to figure out how to make myself whole again….until that time I can only ask for patience, forgiveness and understanding from those around me.<br /><br />The time is now for me to heal…..Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-88229353878209771322008-12-21T16:26:00.003-05:002010-11-15T16:46:39.883-05:00My Christmas Carol<div class="MsoNormal">My Christmas Carol (AKA Scrooge)</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I carry a darkness deep inside. Some I always keep to myself and try to hide. I have thought about it, and honestly I don’t know why.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Keep it to myself that is.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">‘Tis a beautiful thing you see. At least it is to me. Provides me with warmth and comfort. Shelters me from the storms. No need for alarm, so don’t you worry. I know it means me no harm. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">For this darkness I welcome with open arms. It engulfs me and swells my heart. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Right now I have some lightness, but it’s so overbearing I feel it is going to burst. I fall……down on my knees.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This time, I fall apart. Screaming. “Please???!!!”</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Why all this pain?? Why must you pain me so?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have said it before and I will say it again, I am not a fan of Christmas.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I was once. But these last few years, not so much.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have written about this before so it should not come as a huge shock to most of you. To the rest of you, Sorry, I really don’t know what to tell you. I could sit here and tell my tale again, but what’s the point? Will anyone really understand?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I mean it is pretty simple really; abuse, death, destruction, memories.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Pretty much sums it up.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Christmas hurts and it’s very painful.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Rather than deal with the holiday and pretend to be happy when I am not, it is easier for me to just bow out gracefully and skip it as I have done in years past. Treating it as if it were just another day. Letting everyone do their own thing.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Right now I am feeling very smothered. I want to run away and hide.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have a lot of things going on in life right now that I have kept hidden from the world and will continue to wear the mask for a very long time. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">And as much as I am trying to skip Christmas, I am also being thrown into a Christmas loving world.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">How am I supposed to pretend to like Christmas? </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Pretending is the only way I am going to get through it. No one is going to understand that someone just doesn’t like Christmas.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But people tend to realize I am not myself when I am pretending. Or masked as I like to call it. I am the owner of many masks. But this one, people generally mistake my withdrawn quiet state for one of, well for lack of a better word, being a snob or a bitch.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">And is it really fair to those I am around? Being all sad and depressed, hurting on the inside holding back the tears, when on the outside I am laughing, smiling and giving joy? </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It’s all so fake. I try to be real. But my heart hurts so much this time of year. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I would rather stay home.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I will tell you Merry Christmas or Happy Holiday and I will mean it. I do wish you all a wonderful Holiday Season. But, that doesn’t mean I personally have to like the Holiday.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">As I sit back and watch this Holiday unfold, trying to stay at the sidelines but constantly being pushed to the 50 yard line, then running to the goal line, I see that people really don’t understand the true meaning of Christmas. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Whether you believe in God or Goddesses or even a Higher Power.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Whether you believe in Santa or not. The true spirit of Christmas isn’t about “you” or “me” or “us” or even “I” and “we.”</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It has become all “about me” (not me personally) all about the gift lists, whose getting what, how much are you spending, who is going to outdo who this year, whose going to be the lucky family to be blessed with our presence. Who has the best clothes, the best gossip, who is the black sheep this year? Who did what, to who, where and when?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Eh, who cares about all of that...why can't you just love them and be thankful for what you have????????????</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Fuck it. Better to not get involved and deal with that on top of my own inner turmoil. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I want to stay home.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I tried to “do” Christmas things this year, hoping it would help and it really didn’t change the way I felt inside. I thought maybe if I tried, it would. But it didn’t. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have spent the last couple hours drowning in tears because I just cannot understand why I have to be this way. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">But I am who I am, and I feel what I feel. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Right now I don’t feel like it’s a “want” to skip Christmas, but rather I “need” to skip it for my own well being.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I just wish I could make people understand that, but it’s impossible.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Trust me, I have tried.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It’s not that I don’t want to have Christmas, more like I shouldn’t.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It’s just so hard to explain.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So as the day’s press on one by one, I try my best to move along with them. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">And maybe one day I will get it all figured out.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-70904645928816985312008-12-19T16:00:00.002-05:002010-11-17T15:35:48.896-05:00Always an Adventure….my night with Shinedown<div class="image-wrapper"> <a href="http://blog.360.yahoo.com/blog/slideshow.html?p=3322&id=SNOJK9w7brW90jKDrUBP8Dm." id="m3322"><img alt="magnify" border="0" height="12" src="http://l.yimg.com/us.yimg.com/i/nt/ic/ut/bsc/srch12_1.gif" width="12" /></a> </div><div class="content-wrapper">Always an Adventure….my night with Shinedown<br /><br />As I sit here pounding away at the keyboard and downloading last nights pics, I should be thinking about how much fun I had, but instead I am sitting here gazing out the window worried that my old house is not going to be able to whether the winter storm that has blasted the northern tundra in which I live.<br /><br />In case you have not noticed I just loaded a BUNCH of new pics. More to the Holiday Hellride album where you can see more pics with Santa, Me and of course Matt and the band. Also, a new album of Shinedown pics. The originals and then the cropped versions. I got as close as I could, we were so packed in there. I could have been one of those people who shove their way through the crowd, but I am not that person. I was fine where I was. <br /><br />When Matt and I go out, there is ALWAYS an adventure. Something a little out of the ordinary always seems to happen to make for a good story. For Holiday Hellride, I guess whole ordeal with the van getting stuck and we had to walk a few blocks to eat. For Staind it was the traffic and shopping carts, for Shinedown a few weeks ago we flew 90 miles an hour and barely got there in time to see them. An adventure. Well this time we were blessed to have a douche bag who could not have weighed more than 120 soaking wet drunk as a pissed off skunk standing in front of us. He wasn’t one of those cool drunks; he was the one being an asshole thinking he looks cool. Come on, we ALL know that type. Making comments thinking he’s funny and shit. <br />Well you know me and my mouth. It was in full swing. I don’t know if he even heard half of what I was saying. And I do not really care.<br /><br />We get to the Machine Shop, make our rounds and say our hellos. Matt and his bands have been playing there for years so he pretty much knows absolutely everyone we cross paths with. Kevin and Craig, the brothers who own the shop are just awesome people. Sometimes in life you meet those people that think because of who they are or where they work that everyone else is beneath them, or that they are just generally better than everyone else. Not these guys. They are very humble and down to earth. Very cool, and they have been nothing but cool to me. So, kudos to them. I hope they always stay grounded and not let popularity go to their heads. <br /><br />The first band to play was a band out of Tennessee called Sore Eyes. The singer has an amazing voice (<a href="http://www.myspace.com/">www.myspace.com</a> / wearesoreeyes) and he was giving it all he had. First time at the Machine Shop, opening for such a band as Shinedown, can be a little overwhelming. Matt and I enjoyed them. The douche bag in front of us was a heckler. He kept booing, screaming and carrying on, making exit gestures with his hands and even going so far as flipping these guys off. Now I know you cannot please everyone in the music world. That’s life. I get it. You don’t have to like them. But seriously, have enough respect for the Machine Shop and these dudes on stage to at least comment to your friend, or say nothing at all. The whole shop doesn’t need to know how you feel and that band certainly doesn’t need it. Until you have walked a mile in their shoes, SHUT THE FUCK UP.<br /><br />So you know me, making my smart comments. Hoping he would hear me. Matt telling me to stop. He’s no fun. I know, I don’t want to disrespect Craig and Kevin and the Shop, but damn this dude was pissing me off! At one point I screamed, hey buddy why don’t you get up there and sing for us, show us what you got! Not once did that guy ever turn around and say anything. But he was annoying all those around him.<br />Next band was Marashino. They were not bad, but not great either. Again, the douche bag wanted to be a heckler. Marashino was a little bit edgier then Sore Eyes who was much more Southern and raw and in your face, where as Marashino was a little darker. Not Cradle of Filth type dark. Just a darker rock. Anyway, the drummer was super cool to watch. He did a lot of drumming with one hand and he had these wicked cool eyes that just mind fucked you if you stared to long. He would just make these faces, turn his head, his eyes would just glaze over and he would never blink. Or they would roll…it was creepy , but cool. And really that’s all I have to say about them. About this point Matt had let Jeff on staff know that this dude was being a jerk so people started to keep an eye on him.<br /><br />Out of nowhere this dude falls on his ASS! I don’t think I have ever laughed so hard in my life. No one touched him, he just fell. His head right at my feet. Oh how I wanted to stomp him. Yeesh. I just looked down at him, laughed and said “that’s what you get” everyone around him was laughing. He looked like a total tool. <br />So we stand, waiting for Shinedown. Matt’s legs are bothering him so he squats down. Looking like there is a huge empty space right in the center, about 4 girls started to swarm in our direction from the side lines. The first one stopped dead when she saw there was actually someone there. I laughed and shook my head. And then all these damn people walking in front of me or behind me just pushing their way through. The group of guys behind us and the girl beside me were getting pissed. It was like our little row was the crossing for the bar and bathrooms. And these people did not even say excuse me. They just pushed and shoved. Rude. So I pushed and shoved back. And some people I told them I was not moving. Sorry. Yeah, I know what a bitch I am, but you can only take so much. One girl walked through so many times I finally just had to tell her saying excuse me would go a long way. <br /><br />Something about me, I am not afraid to speak whatever rolls off my tongue. In case you did not know that already. But, most of you do. <br /><br />I just hate RUDE people. Point blank. There is no reason for it. It does not make you stronger or weaker however you look at it. It does not make you look better in anyone’s eyes. So, if you are one of those people, stop being so damn rude and I promise you, things will go much better in your life.<br /><br />Ahhhh….finding my inner OM….<br /><br />Ommmmmm<br />Ommmmm<br />OK.<br />SHINEDOWN!!!<br /><br />Finally those boys appear on stage and 600 people packed into the Machine Shop elbow to elbow, asses to asses, started to scream and raise horns and just rock the fuck out. (boy I am cursing a lot in this blog) It was sweaty, sticky, uncomfortable, and HOT. But it was worth every back pain, every neck twitch, and every toe cramp just to hear Brent’s voice one more time. We were close enough that when Brent opens his mouth to belt out his high notes you could see clear into the back of his throat. Yeah, gross, I know. Sweat flew off the stage on to the crowd. It was a great time and an amazing experience. Brent has the voice of an angel. He has given me strength and carried me through some troubling times. Shinedown’s music has been my anti-depressant. <br /><br />I screamed, I hooted, I hollered, I jumped and rocked out. I sang at the top of my lungs. For a brief moment I forgot all about everything that depresses me and makes me sad right now.<br /><br />Craig was more than willing to take us back to meet Brent once he came out, but he just was not coming out. “That’s OK” I said. I had a good time, so that didn’t really matter much to me. The guys have to live their lives too and sometimes they are just too tired and don’t want to come out where the party is, especially if they are trying to stay away from booze. (which I might add, I was not drinking) We did spend a while talking to Sore Eyes, and they are a great group of (southern) guys.<br /><br />So, a big thank you to Matt for a wonderful Christmas present.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-13515286223926250252008-12-15T22:16:00.001-05:002010-11-17T15:37:25.539-05:00Holiday Hellride - My Weekend Update<div class="MsoNormal">See, I told you guys I was going to try to get better about blogging. LOL!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have spent the day doing band things. Sorting through 200 plus pictures and talking to contacts all day makes for some good entertainment. It also makes your eyes go a little loopy. So, between 2 cameras we have 189 pics. I still have our camera to load up. I left the cord at Matt's house so I could not play in my own pics today. *sad face* and I am pretty sure we have some that are sure to get a few laughs out of you. Anyone who has been around me when I am in charge of picture taking knows just how this turns out.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I just have to say – I don't *love* doing Matt's band stuff. But I do *enjoy* helping him out. There is a difference. He *loves* it. Get what I mean? I am not so wrapped up in it that I don't realize I have my own life to live. Because trust me, I do. I do my own things quite often. I like my "me" time and will never let go of that. Right now I have more free time then I usually do. Helping Matt's gives me something to do. Not only that, it can be fun. And he is grateful for my help. It takes some of the chore off his shoulders. When you work 2 jobs and have kids(s) on top of managing a band, you can take all the help you can get. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Now, having said that – I do *love* meeting new people and being social. (and pics, right???) Making new friends and getting to know people first hand is what makes the world go round. Some people can be weird and rightfully a pain in the ass (right Karyn? LOL) but most people are honest, real, and quite frankly, a lot of effing fun to hang out with. So I really enjoy going to shows because anyone that *really* knows me and my personality will know I love talking to people. Not to mention it allows me to enjoy a pint or two.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">And I am having a lot of fucking fun.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So what's the harm in that?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So those of you worried that I am all wrapped up in Matt's shit – don't be. It's fine.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Ok…are we done with that now????</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Good.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Moving on.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So Saturday was the big Christmas event at the Hamilton St. Pub. The Revolution Music Label presented Holiday Hellride with Silverspork, Publik Parking and special guest 4Warned. Downseed was the headliner. This was the first show since Mike left a few weeks ago, it was Billy's last show, and Will's grandmother had just recently passed. So, it was an emotional night for sure. But, Matt knew we had people coming to check things out. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Per usual, when Matt and I go out it always turns in to an adventure, and this night did not let us down. The show did not start until 9pm. I left my house at 3:30pm because Matt had a call to see a patient, so we had to load up and head in to town early. VERY EARLY. We got in to town, he dealt with his patient and we decided to get dinner. I opted to eat at the pub since we had to go there anyway. Well, we both forgot that the Pub doesn't have an open kitchen on the weekends. Bummer. Here is the adventure to my story. Matt parked the van in the back (as usual) since it holds all the equipment. Only this time it had snowed and the van got stuck. We could not leave the Pub. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, we had to walk down the street to this little train caboose turned eatery called The Junction. It was freezing cold. I was NOT wearing appropriate shoes. I mean, hell, how was I supposed to know I was going to have to walk in knee high snow drifts to get there. The sidewalks were shoveled, but once you crossed a street you had to waddle thru the drifts to get back on the sidewalk. Did I mention I was freezing cold??? Good thing the Junction had good food. So even though we were pissy the food turned out to be really good. So we now have someplace new to add to our places to eat. See, an adventure. After eating we headed back to the Pub for some fun. So, on with my bar tab! </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I had drinks, made some friends, met some cool ass people, watched some bands, talked to more people, posed for crazy ass pics, drank some more, oh and drank some more. LOL. Had fun with some crazy ass drunks , typical night. Got to sit on Santa's lap. LMAO! Ever see a Santa with a Mohawk? You will when you check out my pics.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Anyway, one of the couples, Scott and Deb were there. They took some great pics and are some great people to chat with. Deb made the rocker necklace that Nate is wearing in all the pics. Scott also writes for Sea of Tranquility and he wrote a great review of the guys that I wanted to share with all of you. It makes me smile when people think good things about Matt and his band. They guys are just a great group. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Downseed was the last band to play. We left the pub just about 2am and headed home to Birch Run. Stopped at this great little truck stop type restaurant called The Exit. 2:30 in the morning and we are just feeding our faces like we have not eaten in a week. By the time we got home and went to bed it was after 4am.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Sunday was spent with his friend Chris who checked out my car (we thought we needed new brakes, but didn't) So now I get to think of something new to ask for as a Christmas present since I don't need brakes. LOL. I tend to really ask for things that I need. Anyway, Chris is a lot of fun and Matt and I took him to Olive Garden for spending time on my car. I used to like OG back in OK. But I was not impressed with the OG here in MI. Or maybe it was because our waitress was just weird. After dinner we did a little shopping then the three of us went to the movies. Saw the new Punisher movie. It was great! Had a good time.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, what did you do this weekend??? I will be blog hopping to catch up. I had to spend all day trying to catch up since I got nothing done over the weekend!! </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Oh well….living the rock star life! LMAO!!</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;"><span new="" roman="" serif="" style="font-size: 12pt;" times=""><a href="mailto:wolfman309@yahoo.com"><span style="color: blue;"></span></a><br /></span></div><span style="font-size: 130%;"><i><b>Downseed, Revolution, The</b></i></span><br /><br /><blockquote><div align="justify"><img align="right" alt="" border="1" hspace="10" src="http://www.seaoftranquility.org/images/reviews/D/downseedrevolution.jpg" vspace="2" width="150" /></div>Spread the seed. With the explosion of metal all over this planet, sometimes you find what you are looking for right in your own backyard. Spread the seed. When I first heard this band, it was in a live setting, the sound was terrible and the band itself had some inner turmoil going. Two members were leaving the band and this was their last night. Still, as I listened to them, there was something in the music that hit home! Spread the seed. There was something between founder/lead singer Matt and guitarist/vocalist Nate that prickled those hairs on the back of your neck. Matt with his clean vocals and Nate with his hellish screams and searing guitar work simply put….ROCKED!! Spread the seed.<br />With their release of the EP, The Revolution, the band has firmly established themselves as a band with what it takes to propel themselves well beyond the confines of Michigan. This is their 3rd release and after last year's; The Masquerade, the band shows the ability to create great metal music time and time again. Spread the seed.<br />Pounding you with a thrashing guitar intro, "Consumed By Lies" welcomes you to the mayhem. The cool thing about them is the bedlam created is offset by the almost soothing vocals of Matt. While Nate is removing the outer layer of skin with his screaming, Matt plays dermatologist with his. Not only does this make for a sonic treat, it also gets the message across loud and clear, with Nate's vocals being the exclamation point! Spread the seed.<br />Musical diversity is a signature of this band. You will find influences from many a genre as with the song "A Sign Of Things To Come". With its funky bass line right out of Motown, this adds a cool ying to the metal yang that the rest of the band creates on this tune. This is one of the discs highlights. Well, one of the six on this six song EP. Spread the seed.<br />There is no doubt that the metalhead in you will find a new group to follow. Also, there is little doubt that the thinking portion of the brain not rattled by the thrashing you are receiving will have a work out with the messages that the band is putting out. As Matt told me, "The band is about overcoming adversity". That's the message and that's exactly what they convey. This is most evident in the very dynamic song "Slavery Inc". You can hear the passion about the message in the vocals. You might think that Nate is chained and being beaten with his demonic screams on this one! <br />The band does lighten it up too. There is a hidden track on the disc that was done as a joke and it suddenly became a hit among those that enjoy a little cannabis now and then. "Smoke Your Weed" was done as a joke where they were doing their best Green Day imitation. Then High Times magazine found it and now they are getting recognition in a most unlikely way. This song is very funny and a riot of a party tune but as Matt told me, they are not a druggie band by a long shot and this was meant to be a joke. I have to admit, it is an infectious song! But don't judge them by this song at all. There is much more to the band than this!<br />I could go on and on about the merits of the band but the best thing you could do is just pick up a copy and find out for yourself. This is one of those discs that's a must have for your collection. I think you'll find that it won't stray far from the player and you will also be telling everyone you know about this new band. In other words, you will be helping to…Spread the seed!!!<br />Track listing:<br /><br />1. Consumed By Lies <br />2. A Sign Of Things To Come <br />3. Blinded <br />4. Slavery Inc. <br />5. Sunburn <br />6. Smoke Your Weed (Hidden Track) </blockquote><b>Added:</b> December 15th 2008<br /><b>Reviewer:</b> <a href="mailto:wolfman309@yahoo.com">Scott Ward</a><br /><b>Score:</b> <img alt="" src="http://www.seaoftranquility.org/images/star_whole.gif" /><img alt="" src="http://www.seaoftranquility.org/images/star_whole.gif" /><img alt="" src="http://www.seaoftranquility.org/images/star_whole.gif" /><img alt="" src="http://www.seaoftranquility.org/images/star_whole.gif" /><br /><b>Related Link:</b> <a href="http://www.myspace.com/downseed" target="new">Band's Myspace Page</a><br /><b>Hits:</b> 13Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-16368595677231634602008-12-11T21:43:00.000-05:002010-10-26T21:48:24.284-04:00On the Way to See Staind, State of Shock opens.Traffic!! (yes we are speeding just a bit)<br /><br /><object style="height: 390px; width: 640px"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/WXInEtlzjWA?version=3"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowScriptAccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/WXInEtlzjWA?version=3" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" allowScriptAccess="always" width="640" height="390"></object><br /><br /><br />What is with all the shopping carts on the road??<br /><br /><object style="height: 390px; width: 640px"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/D1M3IxRR_0U?version=3"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowScriptAccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/D1M3IxRR_0U?version=3" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" allowScriptAccess="always" width="640" height="390"></object><br /><br />And still more carts!<br /><br /><object style="height: 390px; width: 640px"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/PGCx2jW66fY?version=3"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowScriptAccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/PGCx2jW66fY?version=3" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" allowScriptAccess="always" width="640" height="390"></object><br />Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-1870176400588783522008-12-11T12:13:00.002-05:002010-11-17T15:38:32.035-05:00My Night with Staind !!<a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/SUFKOckw4jI/AAAAAAAAABA/ndkMTYstWRE/s1600-h/staind.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5278581850303947314" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/SUFKOckw4jI/AAAAAAAAABA/ndkMTYstWRE/s320/staind.jpg" style="cursor: pointer; display: block; height: 174px; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; width: 320px;" /></a><br />Staind!<br /><br />So, Matt and I traveled down to Detroit last night to see Papa Roach, Seether and Staind. Monday Aaron Lewis cancelled their Canada show so there was talk on whether or not our show would be canceled as well due to him having Bronchitis. Not a nice thing for a singer (or anyone for that matter) to have.<br /><br /><br /><br />Anyway, after fighting TONS of traffic, forgetting cash for parking and having to hunt down an ATM in the middle of downtown Detroit, dealing with shit parking, making new friends in the elevator ( I swear we met Lance Bass, only he died his hair brown!), standing in line for weapons check (Girls to the right , boys to the left, please!!!), waiting for our tickets to be scanned, standing in a mile long line for the bathroom, running into Matt’s friends, we finally found a place on the floor. We got floor tickets, no seats. Standing room only in our little section. There were a few small tables located around the bar and such, but since we had to find traffic and road construction those were all filled by the time we got there. It was at the Fillmore. Nice and cozy place. Nice bar ;)<br /><br /><br />I was a little disappointed that Papa Roach and Seether opted to not play this night of the tour. I was really looking forward to Seether. We did get to enjoy a newer band called State of Shock. It was the first time for either of us to hear them and let me tell you, although they are a little poppy commercial, they are actually pretty good and put on a great show. Not to mention the bass player is a chick and she was rocking that shit!! *smiles* I love seeing rocker chicks!!!!<br /><br /><br /><br />We opted to not push our way to the very front of the stage. We had a nice spot with one of his friends and his girlfriend and it was nice to not be squished around so many people. We were on the floor and pretty close to the stage, and I was happy. Matt was happy as he loved Staind/ Aaron Lewis. One of his idols and he got to hang out with his friend that he has not seen in some time. He had no idea they were there, he just happened to spot us when we were walking in. So that was cool for him. If Matt smiles, I smile.<br /><br /><br /><br />Let me just say, Aaron Lewis ROCKED THE HOUSE! I think maybe his voice cracked two times the whole show. He played all my favorite songs. A lot of older stuff, which was AWESOME!!! Only played a couple of songs from the new album. They did Believe which almost brought me to tears. Until you see Aaron live and hear that voice, you just have not lived! He can bring goose bumps even to the hardest of rockers flesh.<br /><br /><br />It was a great night, we had a good time. We always have some sort of an adventure when we go out!<br /><br /><br />I took some pics on my phone that did not turn out, but I took them just as a memento for myself that I was there. I posted them in my pics. I took some short vids too that will be on my youtube. I have this great phone that sometimes takes good pics and vids, and sometimes not….oh well…its good enough for me to keep the memory.<br /><br /><br /><br />So this Saturday Matt’s band (Downseed) is playing a show for their record label. It will be in Saginaw at the Hamilton Street Pub if anyone wants to come rock with us. It will be a good time for sure, its titled Holiday Hellride and Silverspork (awesome guys!) , 4Warned and Publik Parking will be playing as well.<br /><br /><br />Next Thursday we are going to see SHINEDOWN (again) at the Machine Shop ( I love that place!) I am so excited and can’t wait!!!!<br /><br /><br /><br />After that, (aside from the holiday) we are going to be laying low (until January) and looks like Matt has a show on the 10<sup>th </sup>& 30<sup>th</sup> (in Detroit) and so far the only concert we have planned is Slipknot at the end of the month.<br /><br /><br />Concerts anyway….there is a UFC PPV on Dec 27<sup>th</sup> with a awesome fight card, so we might have to have a fight party event!<br /><br /><br />As for the other things in life…..taking each day as it comes, and just making the best of it.<br /><br /><br /><br />The best thing is now I have someone caring and understanding enough to be there for me and help me every step of the way. He has been a huge rock for me to lean on, and that’s really the best gift a girl could ask for.<br /><br /><br />I hope all of you are doing well and I look forward to catching up with you guys!<br /><br /><br />Oh, one last thing….for all my locals…Dropkick Murphys.....March 3 in Detroit…<br /><br /><br />Are you down????<br /><br /><br />My Irish / Celtic Family…<br /><br /><br />I said…ARE YOU DOWN??? Get at me…lets talk…lets plan…Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-72487473514934702122008-12-05T19:16:00.001-05:002010-11-17T15:38:56.767-05:00Poetry in Motion ~ My MuseMy Muse<br /><br />I have a new muse<br />Don’t you know?<br />Listen to me rattle<br />Or is that eb and flow?<br /><br />That old familiar feeling<br />Has perched outside my door<br />Leaving me bound and twised<br />Agony on the floor.<br /><br />Why have you come back to me?<br />I ask over and over again.<br />Were all the other times not enough for you?<br />All I get is a twisted grin.<br /><br />That feeling<br />I have felt too many times before<br />I just want run<br />Run fast, right out that door.<br /><br />Please stop coming for me<br />Just let me live my life.<br />I don’t want any more worries<br />Or all this constant strife.<br /><br />In my ear is your chanting<br />Run. Run free my girl.<br />You will never be allowed<br />To live in a normal world.<br /><br />It’s your destiny<br />Can’t you see?<br />Confusion. Despair.<br />Agony.<br /><br />Words by ~Irish~<br />© C.M. 12/5/08Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-68410453948480502202008-11-30T19:47:00.002-05:002010-11-17T15:39:27.317-05:00Busy Girl!!!<div class="blogContent">I know my blogs have slacked. No poetry, no "My Life as a Text Chat Op" haven't had "Irish Chiks Erotic Confessions" in ages.... I think I posted a "What's up with Chrys?" not too long ago.<br /><br />I don't know guys...I just have writers block to be honest with you. At least when it comes to this stuff.<br /><br />At any rate I am doing just fine. I am making some much needed changes in life and just taking things one day at a time.<br /><br />I have been helping Matt a lot with his band stuff so I want to pass along to you guys the newsletter I have written. That will help you to see what my a*s has been up to!<br /><br /><br />Downseed News The Seed – Vol. 1 <br /><br />We are going to get much better around here about sending out regular updates to our fans. We know we have been slacking as of late, but that is all about to change. <br /><br />We have tons of new things floating in our direction that we are super excited about and want to share with you, our Seed fans. So please subscribe to the blog to stay updated on all the news and happenings. In case you missed the last Bulletin – here is a recap:<br /><br />News from the Downseed Camp <br /><br />Hey everyone, Just wanted to touch base with all you guys. I see we have added a few friends since our page got hacked a while ago. We're not back up to our old total yet, but I'm assured that we will supersede that by tons.<br /><br />I just wanted to let everyone know that we're in the process of getting a new drummer, a third guitar player, and quite possibly a new sampler/keys guy that will round out the Downseed crew at 6 members.<br /><br />We also welcome our new myspace manager Chrystal to the Team. She is a great asset to our camp and will make our myspace great. We're undergoing these crazy transitions, but we'll be coming out new and revamped with our new members. And we will get back to our old ways of rocking.<br /><br />that is all matt and the seed<br /><br />And in case you missed the last blog here is a recap: <br /><br /><br />Check out this week's BrutalCast Show that we are featured on. Below is a link for rebroadcast/ downlink.<br /><br />Again, thank you, to all our fans and Metal Cast / ZSentient for the airplay and support! <br /><br /><br /><a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vd3d3LmVzbmlwcy5jb20vZG9jLzIxNDBmNDdlLWM5MmUtNDhmZS05NDQxLTM1YzkxYmQ0NDU4Ni96c2VudGllbnRicnV0YWxjYXN0MTEyODA4">http://www. esnips. com/doc/2140f47e-c92e-48fe-9441-35c91bd44586/zsentientbrutalcast112808</a> </div><br /><center> <a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vd3d3Lm15c3BhY2UuY29tL3pzZW50aWVudA=="> <img alt="Zsentient MetalCast Radio" border="0" height="75" src="http://www.fileden.com/files/2006/12/28/565807/flashbanner.gif" width="450" /> <br /><i>Listen on Myspace or Download...</i></a><br /><br /><a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vd3d3Lm15c3BhY2UuY29tL3pzZW50aWVudA=="> </a> </center>Like we stated in the last Bulletin and as most of you have heard we are losing our drummer Billy and our guitarist Mike. Although we hate to lose 2 important members of The Seed Family, we wish them nothing but love and support as they start a new journey in life. We all know the talent these two possess and know they will achieve their goals and go far in life.<br /><br />So, where does that leave Downseed? Not to worry, we already have a line up in the works. This will in NO way affect ANY of the scheduled dates we have for up and coming shows!<br /><br />Downseed WILL have a "re-birth" in the coming months, so be on the look out for that! We are in the process of booking shows in the Grand Rapids and Detroit areas so keep an eye out for us there!<br /><br /><br />Also, we have gotten picked up by a few internet radio stations (with many more in the works) and as soon as those are set in stone we will pass along the links and such so that our faithful fans can check us out and give thanks to the stations that are helping to "spread the seed."<br /><br /><br />Let's see….more….more…more <br /><br /><br />Some other things in the works, once "re-birth" has happened we are looking to get picked up by Jägermeister (www. Jägermeister.com) as well as Rock Star energy drinks (www.rockstar69.com).<br /><br /><br />This is where YOU the fans will come in to play. We need pictures and lots of them. So, hang out with us after the shows and let us get a shit load of pictures!<br /><br /><br />We have been listed in the Skratch Magazine the official magazine for the Warped Tour (www.skratchmagazine.com ) just another way to "spread the seed." So a big thanks to them.<br /><br /><br />For those of you with a Facebook account, look for a Downseed group to appear there VERY soon!! We will need your help in getting the word out around the Facebook community!!!!<br /><br /><br />And for our YouTube fans, not to worry. We have a lot of new footage from recent shows that will be posted very soon. <br /><br /><br />All age shows….YOU the fans keep asking …. So WE are going to provide…keep your eyes and ears open for that. Watch for us on itunes we are SUPER stoked about this and the minute it is available you all will be the FIRST to know!<br /><br />We would like to thank Scott at Sea of Tranquility (www.seaoftranquility.org or mysapce.com/wolfman309) for coming out to the show at The Machine Shop on November 22. We had a great time meeting and hanging out with you. Thanks for helping to "spread the seed!" Keep your eyes open fans for the review Scott did on the show. Also a big thanks to him for the photos he provided.<br /><br />Friends….. we are slowly adding new friends to the Downseed site. After our page was hacked some time ago we lost our Seedlings…but …with a little luck we will find them all again, or they will find us! Hmmmmm….what else…. Oh yes…SHOWS!<br /><br />December 13, 2008 is the Revolution Music Label Show (www.therevolutionmusic.com) w/ Publik Parking at the Hamilton St. Pub in Saginaw.<br /><br />January 30, 2008 is the 89X show w/Publik Parking at the Ritz in Detroit. <br /><br /><br />We are looking to do a benefit show in early spring…if you are a band and want to jump on board, then please drop us a line. <br /><br /><br />We have so many things in the works right now….. Just keep an eye on these blogs…. And keep "spreading the seed." <br /><br />That is all. <br />********************************************<br /><br />So anyway, I am pusing the band LOL! And using my wit and writing to the best of my ability.<br /><br />I promise you guys I will get some writing done...or someone might just have to come and spank me...<br /><br />Oh wait..I will like that ...<br /><br />So just spank me and be done with it!!<br /><br />x0x0x<br />ChrysChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-61599624151219764782008-11-30T18:32:00.005-05:002010-11-15T18:34:18.854-05:00The Seed - Volume 1<div class="MsoNormal">Downseed News</div><div class="MsoNormal">The Seed – Vol. 1<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">We are going to get much better around here about sending out regular updates to our fans. We know we have been slacking as of late, but that is all about to change. We have tons of new things floating in our direction that we are super excited about and want to share with you, our Seed fans. So please subscribe to the blog to stay updated on all the news and happenings. <br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">In case you missed the last Bulletin – here is a recap:<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-size: 10pt; line-height: 115%;">News from the Downseed Camp <o:p></o:p></span></i><br /><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-size: 10pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"> </i><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-size: 10pt; line-height: 115%;">Hey everyone, <br /><br />Just wanted to touch base with all you guys. I see we have added a few friends since our page got hacked a while ago. We're not back up to our old total yet, but I’m assured that we will supersede that by tons.<span style="display: none;"><br /></span><br /><br />I just wanted to let everyone know that we're in the process of getting a new drummer, a third guitar player, and quite possibly a new sampler/keys guy that will round out the Downseed crew at 6 members.<span style="display: none;"><br /></span><br /><br />We also welcome our new myspace manager Chrystal to the Team. She is a great asset to our camp and will make our myspace great.<span style="display: none;"><br /></span><br /><br />We're undergoing these crazy transitions, but we'll be coming out new and revamped with our new members. And we will get back to our old ways of rocking.<span style="display: none;"><br /></span><br /><br />that is all<br /><br />matt and the seed</span><o:p></o:p></i><br /><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-size: 10pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal">And in case you missed the last blog here is a recap:</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Check out this week's BrutalCast Show that we are featured on. Below is a link for rebroadcast/ downlink. Again, thank you, to all our fans and Metal Cast / ZSentient for the airplay and support!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vd3d3LmVzbmlwcy5jb20vZG9jLzIxNDBmNDdlLWM5MmUtNDhmZS05NDQxLTM1YzkxYmQ0NDU4Ni96c2VudGllbnRicnV0YWxjYXN0MTEyODA4">http://www. esnips. com/doc/2140f47e-c92e-48fe-9441-35c91bd44586/zsentientbrutalcast112808</a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"></div><br /><center><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vd3d3Lm15c3BhY2UuY29tL3pzZW50aWVudA=="></a></div><a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vd3d3Lm15c3BhY2UuY29tL3pzZW50aWVudA=="> <div class="MsoNormal"><img alt="Zsentient MetalCast Radio" border="0" height="75" src="http://www.fileden.com/files/2006/12/28/565807/flashbanner.gif" width="450" /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /><i>Listen on Myspace or Download... </i></div></a><div class="MsoNormal"><a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vd3d3Lm15c3BhY2UuY29tL3pzZW50aWVudA=="></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"></div></center><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Like we stated in the last Bulletin and as most of you have heard we are losing our drummer Billy and our guitarist Mike. Although we hate to lose 2 important members of The Seed Family, we wish them nothing but love and support as they start a new journey in life. We all know the talent these two possess and know they will achieve their goals and go far in life. <br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, where does that leave Downseed? Not to worry, we already have a line up in the works. This will in NO way affect ANY of the scheduled dates we have for up and coming shows! <br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Downseed WILL have a “re-birth” in the coming months, so be on the look out for that!<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">We are in the process of booking shows in the Grand Rapids and Detroit areas so keep an eye out for us there! </div><div class="MsoNormal">Also, we have gotten picked up by a few internet radio stations (with many more in the works) and as soon as those are set in stone we will pass along the links and such so that our faithful fans can check us out and give thanks to the stations that are helping to “spread the seed.”<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Let’s see….more….more…more<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Some other things in the works, once “re-birth” has happened we are looking to get picked up by <em><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;">Jägermeister </span></em><em><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-style: normal;">(www.</span></em><em><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"> </span></em><em><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-style: normal;">Jägermeister.com</span></em><em><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;">)</span></em> as well as Rock Star energy drinks (www.rockstar69.com). This is where YOU the fans will come in to play. We need pictures and lots of them. So, hang out with us after the shows and let us get a shit load of pictures! <br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">We have been listed in the Skratch Magazine the official magazine for the Warped Tour (www.skratchmagazine.com ) just another way to “spread the seed.” So a big thanks to them. <br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">For those of you with a Facebook account, look for a Downseed group to appear there VERY soon!! We will need your help in getting the word out around the Facebook community!!!!<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">And for our YouTube fans, not to worry. We have a lot of new footage from recent shows that will be posted very soon.<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">All age shows….YOU the fans keep asking …. So WE are going to provide…keep your eyes and ears open for that.<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Watch for us on itunes <span style="font-family: Wingdings;">J</span> we are SUPER stoked about this and the minute it is available you all will be the FIRST to know!<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">We would like to thank Scott at Sea of Tranquility (<a href="http://www.seaoftranquility.org/">www.seaoftranquility.org</a> or mysapce.com/wolfman309) for coming out to the show at The Machine Shop on November 22. We had a great time meeting and hanging out with you. Thanks for helping to “spread the seed!” Keep your eyes open fans for the review Scott did on the show. Also a big thanks to him for providing us with a ton of pics from the show. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Friends….. we are slowly adding new friends to the Downseed site. After our page was hacked some time ago we lost our Seedlings…but …with a little luck we will find them all again, or they will find us!<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Hmmmmm….what else….<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Oh yes…SHOWS!<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">December 13, 2008 is the Revolution Music Label Show (<a href="http://www.therevolutionmusic.com/">www.therevolutionmusic.com</a>) w/ Publik Parking at the Hamilton St. Pub in Saginaw.<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">January 30, 2008 is the 89X show w/Publik Parking at the Ritz in Detroit. <br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">We are looking to do a benefit show in early spring…if you are a band and want to jump on board, then please drop us a line. <br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">We have so many things in the works right now…..<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Just keep an eye on these blogs….<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">And keep “spreading the seed.”<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">That is all.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-32250479666321594332008-11-23T13:57:00.002-05:002010-11-17T15:40:40.683-05:00Second Chances<div class="blogSubject"><a href="http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.viewCategory&FriendID=152385547&BlogCategoryID=12"><br /></a> </div><div class="blogContent"><object allownetworking="internal" allowscriptaccess="never" data="http://www.youtube.com/v/3san7zRappY&hl=en&fs=1&rel=0&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00&border=1" height="349" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="425"> <param name="allowScriptAccess" value="never"><param name="allowNetworking" value="internal"></object></div><div class="blogContent">Second Chances<br /><br />Many times we are given second chances in life and do not even realize it.<br /><br />I have realized mine. My past defines me even though I do not want it to. What happened to me for 12 years was not my fault. I realize that now. I had no control over it. Nor do I have any control over the things that happen now.<br /><br />In a 16 month or so time span I lost both my grandparents, three of my closest friends, went through a divorce and moved 1000 miles away from the only life I had ever known.<br /><br />These are the things which make me stronger and make me the person I am today.<br /><br />This last year in MI has been one giant struggle. And just when I was about to get life figured out and settled in the right direction, I had that rug pulled out from under me and fell flat on my ass.<br /><br />I sat there for quite a while. I did not want to get up and dust myself off. I just wanted to sit. I questioned so many things in life.<br /><br />Where am I going? What am I doing? How am I going to make these changes?<br /><br />Sometimes in life you have to say goodbye. And when you do, you are given another chance.<br /><br />Music. My heart and soul. Words that inspire me. Someone else's words to help me through.<br /><br />And this is where Shinedown comes in. I have known of this band since they first came out. Liked them enough, but this last year these words inspired. They pushed. They got into my bloodstream and poured into my heart and soul. I heard these words over and over. They were my anti-depressant. So when I was at their concert Friday night it was a very emotional moment. I felt alive. I felt like me again. And I was very glad to have been able to share this moment with Matt.<br /><br />Hearing these words that inspired me to keep moving forward was enough to help me make yet another very hard decision.<br /><br />I took a job that I knew even though it had potential to be a good match for me, was not something I was all that interested in. That potential died. And the job is not a good match at all. For me or for them. And that's fine. That's just how life is sometimes. So after 3 weeks I think I am going to say goodbye and just deal with whatever life throws at me. Like I said, moving to MI has been a huge challenge. School is still here as well as HR Block (I HOPE! LOL) but the new job is a no go. I know times are tough and perhaps finding another job more suited for me is going to be a challenge. But it's a risk I have to take. There is a lot going on with this job that really, I don't care to get in to. Let's just say it's not a good fit and leave it at that.<br /><br />I am going to move forward, and continue with my next chance.<br /><br />Life is all about making choices and taking chances.<br /><br />I have some things in the works that I will be sharing with you guys soon enough.<br />But the main point I wanted to make was, when life knocks you down, don't be afraid to get back up.<br /><br />I was.<br /><br />And I was afraid to ask for help.<br /><br />I know now that I can not do it alone. No matter how independent I want to be, sometimes there are just things not even I am strong enough to handle alone.<br /><br /><br />"Sometimes good-bye is a second chance" ~ Shinedown<br /><br />In life, in jobs and in love, I have been given my second chance and I am blessed and loved more and more with every passing day.<br /><br />I had to say goodbye to some things, as we all have had to in life. I have been given a second chance. I see that clearly now. My eyes wide open.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-56984063811832628422008-11-22T14:15:00.001-05:002010-11-17T15:41:20.981-05:00Shinedown Rocks My World<a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/SShakMHQkVI/AAAAAAAAAAw/Z8R6pvC9yE4/s1600-h/avengedsevenfold.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5271562941610627410" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/SShakMHQkVI/AAAAAAAAAAw/Z8R6pvC9yE4/s320/avengedsevenfold.jpg" style="cursor: pointer; display: block; height: 247px; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; width: 214px;" /></a>Shinedown Rocks my World…..<br /><br />Last night was the Shinedown concert and I tell you what, we made it there literally flying by the seat of our pants. The original show was Buckcherry opening for Avenged Sevenfold. But at the last minute Saving Abel and their headliner Shinedown picked up the show. FOUR bands, one night. So what kind of idiot decides to open doors at 5pm and start the show at 6 when they know darn good and well at least 50% of the people or more or going to have to travel and do not get out of work until 5????<br /><br />Matt and I both got off work early. We still had to gas up the car, grab a bite to eat and make the 90 plus mile commute down the interstate.<br /><br />I kid you not when we literally flew over 80, close to 100 at times just to get there in time for Shinedown.<br /><br />How we made it, I do not know.<br /><br />I was scared for my LIFE!<br /><br />We missed Saving Abel, got there, got to our seats and Shinedown came on at least 10 minutes later.<br /><br />By the Grace of GOD! We did it.<br /><br />And it was WORTH every freak out I had on the drive down thinking we were gonna either get pulled over or crash.<br /><br />How’s that for being optimistic?? HAHAHA<br /><br />Anyway, we had nosebleed seats so I didn’t even bother taking pics. Just a few to say, hey I was there! But I had the best time ever!<br /><br />Shinedown is going to be at the Machine Shop next month….and you can sure bet your sugar britches my sweet ass will be there!<br /><br />Buckcherry was entertaining to watch. I only know a few of their songs. And Avenged Sevenfold rocked the house.<br /><br />MI just got a couple of Sonics here. I have not been able to eat at once since leaving the great state of OK. So that’s where we went to eat, got to show Matt a piece of southern style fast food! Did you know the first Sonic was in Shawnee, OK? And the 2nd in my hometown of Stillwater??? Not to mention its still there! Just a bit of useless knowledge to stick in your fact base! Hahahahahah<br /><br />http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sonic_Drive-In<br /><br />Anyway, it was nice to be able to share a bit of my hometown with him.<br /><br />I hope everyone is having a great weekend. I am off and running, Matt’s show is at the Machine Shop tonight.<br /><br />I will try to play catch up with all of you tomorrow!<br /><br />Hugs and Kisses<br />ChrysChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-57729989591642372522008-11-16T12:43:00.002-05:002010-11-17T15:42:24.305-05:00Checking In<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/SSBc4WnWpXI/AAAAAAAAAAo/pWGvALoi1wc/s1600-h/matt.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5269313687236552050" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_9eS6OAgCyGc/SSBc4WnWpXI/AAAAAAAAAAo/pWGvALoi1wc/s320/matt.jpg" style="cursor: pointer; display: block; height: 240px; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; width: 320px;" /></a><br />I know it has been a long while since I have really blogged. I have so much going on that I have not had time to sit down and pound away at the keyboard. And when I do, I have so much to say that I do not even know where to start!<br /><br />The new job is going good. It makes my head spin as their is so much to learn, but its a good thing. I am very hard on myself so when something gets messed up I tend to forget that I am still very new and take it too personal. I need to work on that. But everyone is very nice and I really like it there. The good thing is I do not really have any complaints. So that's good.<br /><br />I passed finals with flying colors and made the Deans list this semester. On a short break, but classes will start again very soon.<br /><br />I made it through my HR Block CE's as well, and passed that headache...which was not easy. I think I have another class in December right before I go back to work for them. There is an office close to where I work now, so I put in a request to transfer there to work a few eves in the week and a few hours on the weekend. But, I am not sure if I am going to, so we will just have to see about that.<br /><br />Matt and I are doing awesome and pretty much spend all our free time together. We have hit some minor bumps in the road but we are able to fill them up and move away from them rather quickly. He is wonderful, his daughter is wonderful and I am blessed to have them in my life.<br /><br />Life is moving along at what everyone seems to say - rock star pace...LOL...<br /><br />We just had a show Friday night at Hamilton St Pub. Halloween was great, but this one was even better. Born, Downseed, Silverspork, Neighborhood Muscle and Know Lyfe. All a bunch of great guys to meet and jam with. I had a great time. So thanks to everyone for such a great night.<br /><br />Next weekend Matt and I are going to be in Ypsilanti to see Saving Abel, SHINEDOWN (wooohoo), Buckcherry and Avenged Sevenfold. I am sure this is going to be a rockin night for us! Then Saturday night we will be at the Machine Shop as his band Downseed is doing a benefit show there.<br /><br />December 10th Matt and I will be heading to Detroit to check out Staind! I want so close that Aaron Lewis sweats on me! LOL and then I think Matt has another show on the 13th but I am not sure on that.<br /><br />Busy busy.....<br /><br />The weather is cold and getting crappy....that doesn't make me very happy...<br /><br />I hope you all are doing great and would love to catch up with all of you!!!<br /><br />xoxo<br />~Chrys~Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-86876315160203448192008-11-04T20:15:00.001-05:002010-11-17T15:43:22.889-05:00Thankful for HimI have come to the conclusion that I am thankful for many things in my life even though times got pretty rough there for a while I know they could have been much worse. Of course those that really know will understand when I say “story of my life” but I am not going to get in to all of that now.<br /><br />The last couple of weeks have been an emotional roller coaster that I have not really shared with anyone. It has just been me fighting my own inner demons.<br /><br />I am starting a brand new job(my 2nd week) and I am in a brand new (2 months today) relationship and it just has been nagging at me, causing me to question a lot of feelings and emotions I am having. I guess the job jitters is a normal thing when you are about to embark on a new adventure. But what about the relationship jitters?<br /><br />My marriage ended, abruptly. And my last relationship ended ugly. It is making me way too leery in my current relationship. I am cautious and I question everything in my head. I am trying to let things just be. But when I do that I feel like I have no control and everything is moving ahead at light speed and I can not catch up.<br /><br />I am scared, and I can admit that.<br /><br />But I am also thankful.<br /><br />I am thankful that Mike and I are over. Looking back over the year I see so many things that should not have happened that did and too many things that should have happened that didn’t. Anyone who knows Mike will tell you how great of a guy he is. And he really is. Inside. Once you are allowed past his wall and you stop seeing Kraz and you actually get to see Mike for what he really is, you will see that good hearted person that is hiding inside. Our relationship was one giant roller coaster that I am glad to be off. I miss him, I won’t lie. It is HIM that I miss and not so much our relationship. That is why I am thankful that after our ugly breakup we were able to salvage some kind words in the middle of the ugly and build on that. I can honestly say I am glad we are still friends. Who knows how long our friendship will last as he goes his direction in life and I go mine. Who knows if our paths will ever cross again. But all I know is with this friendship I was able to put the last few pieces of the puzzle together and slowly begin to peal off the band-aids I had to put on the heart he shattered. My heart is mending, and thanks to him I have loved, I have laughed, I have lived and I have moved on. He has made me stronger then I ever was.<br /><br />I guess I can also thank Mike for leaving me because if that did not happen I would not have met Matt.<br />My life is blessed more and more every day by Matt and his presence. I fumble with my words a lot when I am around him and I just do not think he realizes just how special he is to me. I know my wall is up and I know it has not been an easy task for him to try and move some bricks in that wall. He has been so patient, kind and so understanding. I often wonder what I did to deserve this. I know I am a good person, but I have been handed a strange deck of cards in my life.<br /><br />Maybe Cupid feels like crap for missing his mark so many months ago that he is trying to make up for it now. If so, it seems like he may have finally got it right. At least I am hoping so.<br /><br />Mike and Matt both found me during the low points of my life. Mike after my divorce and cross country moves, and Matt after Mikes “cold feet” saga. I don’t think I was ready to date. But they both took a chance on me and my past baggage and in their own ways they picked me up and helped me to heal. Neither were a rebound, I had what I call the “in-betweeners” for that.<br /><br />Matt met me at the lowest point. It was easy for me to explain things to Mike. I had just divorced and moved across the country. It was easy to say I was starting life over, looking for a new job and such. It was much harder to explain things to Matt. Here I was only a year after my divorce and move and back in the same situation I was in. I felt lost, confused, taken for a ride and just like the worlds biggest loser. Matt could have easily said I had too much baggage and left me behind after that first date.<br />But he didn’t.<br /><br />Instead he took me by the hand and followed along beside me. When I was down and out, he made me see the light. I stood by me as I followed along that path to find a new job. When I fell down, he picked me back up.<br /><br />My words will never be able to tell you or even him just how much that has meant to me.<br /><br />Matt isn’t perfect, he comes with his own suitcase full of personal baggage. And it is something that rattles my brain daily. The constant wondering… am I doing the right thing?<br /><br />Are WE as a couple following along the right path?<br /><br />Having a job now does not answer all of my life’s problems, but it is a good start on being able to take care of some of those problems.<br /><br />I am not sure what my future holds, but I do hope that Matt will continue to walk along that path beside me, holding my hand because it is a long road ahead that I do not want to travel alone.<br /><br />They say everything happens for a reason, I am glad HE Is my reason.<br /><br />~xoxox~Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-73575713976597594002008-11-02T17:06:00.002-05:002010-11-17T15:44:21.208-05:00A Ranty RantI wanted today’s blog to be about the fun I had Friday night. I have not been much of one for Halloween, but I had a lot of fun Friday night with Matt. His band played and they all dressed up as the Blue Man group, except for Will. I called the act The Blue Man Group with special guest Satan. You will have to go see the couple of pics I have posted for that to make sense.<br /><br />I just need to vent today.<br /><br />I am sitting here today getting very pissed because I had made it clear to EVERYONE around me that this was my last week of this round of classes which means FINALS and more importantly a FINAL PAPER that is due in a matter of hours. Now that I am back to work, I do not have all the time in the world to sit and research stuff for my papers. I sit at a pc all day at work, the last thing I want to do is spend more time sitting at my pc logging in hours to write a paper. Papers are never fun anyway. And this one is no exception.<br /><br />For whatever the reason my cousin decided rather then drive his dad down to the airport on the day that he is suppose to leave, he would drop his dad off here to let my mother take him to the airport. That means he’s here all day today, tonight, tomorrow, tomorrow night and Tuesday morning.<br /><br />I already spent time with him when he first got in to town.<br /><br />I have lived in OK my whole life; I am used to not spending time with family. It’s not a big deal to me. If I see them, great. If I don’t, I am not going to cry about it. I can not help that this is how I am. I never had family around me growing up, so I guess I just do not see the big deal if I can not spend time with family because I have other things to do.<br /><br />I made it very clear to my mother that I was not going to be social today. I had used up all my social points Friday night and Saturday doing the Halloween thing and spending time with Matt. I do not want to spend Monday night doing homework because I want to go with Matt to see his daughter. I have my schedule and priorities in order. I am sorry if family members want to try to switch things around at the last minute, but I do not function like that.<br /><br />So, now I am grumpy. What usually takes me a couple of hours have taken me ALL day and I am STILL NOT DONE! This uncle and my mother have sat in this house all day literally screaming at each other. I am convinced at this point that they are both going deaf and neither wants to admit it. What sucks for me is that my room is right off the living room. I get NO peace and quiet. I stuck my head out for dinner and was griped at for being anti-social. Well so sad too bad, I told you I had homework to do and that was that. However they both felt the need to sit there and speak to me like I was a child.<br /><br />Sorry, but my grades and schoolwork are more important then being social. END OF STORY.<br /><br />And to make matters worse, my other uncle and aunt have just shown up. Now, let’s think about this for a moment. My mom and uncle both know I am in here trying to get a paper done. And not just any paper but a HUGE final paper. If my mother was any kind of a mother she would have been nice enough to offer to run my uncle up the damn road to my other family member’s house and hang out there. Give me some peace and quiet before I go out of my freaking mind.<br /><br />And all that does is make me angry. It just makes me want to run farther and farther away from this dreadful place. Every time I turn around, since the day I have moved here there has been some sort of crap going on that just pisses me off. It’s like people around here do not ever take others in to consideration.<br /><br />But yet I am the bad guy right now because I am not being social.<br /><br />I can not be angry, I need to look at something else that will make me happy.<br /><br />No time for that…..<br /><br />I have to finish this paper…..<br /><br />Can’t wait to move out of here….<br /><br />Anyone have some industrial strength earplugs I can borrow, mine are not working and the ipod doesn’t go loud enough to drown out them loud mouths without busting my eardrums….<br /><br />Matt offered to let me use his house , should have took him up on that offer…..Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-69594208461645014512008-10-27T21:39:00.000-04:002010-10-26T21:43:07.936-04:00Joes Crab ShackOh how I miss Joes Crab Shack in Bricktown OKC. So, Imagine how happy I was to take a 30 minute drive with Matt to have a crab boil pot!! YUM! Right after the waiter put a bib on me, Matt felt the need to do a little video. So, for all of my friends back home in Oklahoma, this one is for you!<br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/-s-7tZtY-5g?fs=1&hl=en_US"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/-s-7tZtY-5g?fs=1&hl=en_US" width="425" height="344" allowScriptAccess="never" allowFullScreen="true" wmode="transparent" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed></object>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-87194894351504975042008-10-27T06:46:00.002-04:002010-11-17T15:45:00.071-05:00For the RecordMy heart still hurts, but that doesn't mean I am not capable of loving someone else. The ex and I are friends and that is all we will ever be. He has someone else, I have someone wonderful who I am falling in love with as every day new passes. You all know people heal differently and I am sorry it seems to be taking me some time to heal. But really guys it has only been a few months. But just know....I will NOT go back to him, so for those of you who are thinking that....put that out of your mind right now.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-38223671295239093902008-10-26T19:27:00.001-04:002010-11-17T15:51:02.051-05:00Memories Remain<div class="MsoNormal">That old familiar voice haunts me. The harder I try to be strong I am forced to come to terms with the fact this is the one thing that brings me to my knees. The very essence of my soul has been sucked dry and spit out never to invade my body again. I wonder how to describe how it feels to be soulless. To walk through life every day merely just surviving and never really understanding what it is like to "just-live" because for me it has always been to "just-survive"</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I want to rid myself of those memories. I try. I try to make new ones. And it works, for a moment. Until I am left alone with my thoughts.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Me and my thoughts. Alone. As we have all learned by now that is never a good idea. My mind wanders into the dark, deep, black abyss and I wonder how I will dig myself out this time. How will the smile grace my face as If no one can tell that mask is on?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Every turn and twist there is a shadow that follows me. I've grown tired of it. No longer wanting him to be there. Wanting to rid every last trace of him and our history out of my mind. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I long for a blank memory. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I close my eyes and just breathe.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">And once those memories are gone, the phone lights up. And there he is. Flashing, the phone singing his tune. I tell myself over and over again I will not answer. I can not. My words will fail me again. A phone call here, text messages there, perhaps even an email hiding in the middle of all my pointless ramblings. Always a hello. Always a laugh and always an I miss you.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Those words I longed to hear so many months ago sting my bandaged heart. Missing me is like pouring salt on an open wound. It stings, it burns and it rips through your veins like poison. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I want to know he misses me. As he should. It's his entire fault the way things have ended up. He is to blame. As his life went on, I was left alone and broken. I was the one left putting the pieces all back together. And now, here I am, with some inch of happiness and my heart put together by a box of band-aids and he wants to say it. Say those words that ring in my ears. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I don't care I say to myself. I have moved on. My feet have moved forward. My life on a path to better days ahead and much happiness. I am blessed more now then I have ever been in a relationship. I am adored, I am loved and I am cared for. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">But his words still sting. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Will that sting go away if a pour a bottle of calamine lotion over the wound?</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-54981586823662168562008-10-26T19:16:00.001-04:002010-11-17T15:51:53.402-05:00This Way and ThatOriginally posted : 10/08/08<br /><br />I am being pulled to my limits. It seems I am not doing a damn thing, but yet I am feeling stretched out. My skin hurts, every bone in my body hurts and I am tired all the time. I am moving every which direction, that way, this way and back in the other direction. I can not complete a thought much less sit down and try to compose a proper blog entry. I dont know how I got so wrapped up in everything - but somehow I did. Life is moving ahead full speed and its not slowing down for me to catch up. I am trying, oh how I have tried. But I missed that step and fell flat on my ass. *ouch that hurt* <br /><br />I just have so much on my mind. So much doubt, worries, and crap about life in general that its just so full. So full that really nothing wants to make sense to me right now.<br /><br />I just keep riding along, hoping that everything will just settle and fall in to place like a box of cereal does when it sits on a shelf.<br /><br />Of course, one has to sit long enough for that to happen.<br />*sighs*Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-7524200002949657982008-10-16T16:52:00.001-04:002010-11-17T15:52:15.943-05:00A New JobI don't have much time, so this is just a quickie!<br /><br />I finally got a new job! So the last of the "no move to Lansing" disaster can be put back together.<br /><br />Its a good job at a good company very close to my house, which is a plus. Especially when you live in the boonies! LMAO! Oh well, at least I get to live here for free so I try not to complain too much.<br /><br />So, I have this new job which I start on the 27th, college classes, HR Block fall continuing education credit classes and the text job. Then in January I acutally go back to work for HR Block. FUN!<br /><br />The thing is - for those of you who have been under the radar- I also have a wonderful dude in my life. And building a relationship takes time too.<br /><br />I have a lot on my plate. So, the text job is going to take a hiatus for a while. At least until after tax season.<br /><br />But, no worries. I still have a lot of story ideas that will hopefully keep you all laughing and held over until then.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-59625995844208758252008-10-10T14:17:00.001-04:002010-11-15T17:35:40.707-05:00My Life as a Text Chat Operator – Cherry Chapstick<a href="http://i307.photobucket.com/albums/nn295/Julie2008_08/kat%20von%20d/makeup7.jpg"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://i307.photobucket.com/albums/nn295/Julie2008_08/kat%20von%20d/makeup7.jpg" style="cursor: hand; display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; width: 320px;" /></a> My Life as a Text Chat Operator – Cherry Chapstick<br /><br />Some might think I have a lip gloss fetish. It seems like every time I am out and about I pick up lipstick, lip gloss or chapstick. I have tubes in my car, in my purse (4 to count), in my dresser drawer, on the desk, in the bathroom, in my make up bag (7 and counting) and various other locations that I might need them at will. I have colors, clears, flavors, sticks, wands, and jars. It might just very well be one of the very few things I am girly about.<br /><br /><br />What to read the rest of the Cherry Chapstick story? You know you want to!<br /><br /><a href="http://My%20Life%20as%20a%20Text%20Chat%20Operator%20%E2%80%93%20Cherry%20Chapstick%20%20Some%20might%20think%20I%20have%20a%20lip%20gloss%20fetish.%20It%20seems%20like%20every%20time%20I%20am%20out%20and%20about%20I%20pick%20up%20lipstick,%20lip%20gloss%20or%20chapstick.%20I%20have%20tubes%20in%20my%20car,%20in%20my%20purse%20(4%20to%20count),%20in%20my%20dresser%20drawer,%20on%20the%20desk,%20in%20the%20bathroom,%20in%20my%20make%20up%20bag%20(7%20and%20counting)%20and%20various%20other%20locations%20that%20I%20might%20need%20them%20at%20will.%20I%20have%20colors,%20clears,%20flavors,%20sticks,%20wands,%20and%20jars.%20It%20might%20just%20very%20well%20be%20one%20of%20the%20very%20few%20things%20I%20am%20girly%20about.%20%20So,%20when%20I%20crossed%20paths%20with%20this%20particular%20gentleman,%20I%20could%20easily%20relate%20to%20his%20appreciation%20for%20a%20nice%20tube%20of%20lip%20gloss%20with%20a%20nice%20applicator%20wand.%20However,%20the%20difference%20is%20he%20gets%20some%20sort%20of%20sexual%20gratification%20from%20it%20and%20I%20do%20not.%20All%20I%20get%20are%20nice%20pretty%20kissable%20lips.%20%20I%20think%20it%E2%80%99s%20cute%20that%20this%20man%20gets%20so%20turned%20on%20by%20this%20tube%20of%20lip%20gloss.%20He%20wants%20you%20to%20describe%20the%20sound%20to%20him,%20which%20he%20calls%20squelching.%20That%20sound%20the%20wand%20makes%20when%20you%20pull%20it%20out%20and%20put%20it%20back%20in%20to%20the%20tube.%20%20This%20particular%20sound%20will%20turn%20this%20man%20on%20and%20he%20is%20ready%20to%20go!%20He%20wants%20to%20watch%20you%20put%20the%20lip%20gloss%20on.%20Of%20course%20you%20have%20to%20describe%20this%20to%20him%20paying%20close%20attention%20to%20the%20smallest%20details.%20%20I%20know%20some%20of%20the%20ops%20think%20it%E2%80%99s%20odd.%20How%20he%20can%20get%20off%20on%20something%20he%20plays%20no%20part%20in.%20%20He%20will%20drill%20us%20ops%20with%20this%20question%20-%20%E2%80%9Chow%20much%20lip%20gloss%20did%20you%20use%20today/?%E2%80%9D%20Hmmm%E2%80%A6%20like%20he%20thinks%20we%20could%20possibly%20be%20a%20lip%20gloss%20addict?%20%20I%20guess%20anything%20is%20possible.%20%20Please%20pass%20me%20the%20cherry%20chapstick%E2%80%A6..%20%20*smiles*"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #990000;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">Click here, to go to my Erotic Confessions Blog. (ADULTS ONLY)</span></span></b></a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-76118174646519754882008-10-09T21:36:00.000-04:002010-10-26T21:39:33.254-04:00QT PieHere is a little video of Matt, who is the lead singer of Downseed. I don't think he knew I was video taping him with my phone ;) So, for all of my friends back home in Oklahoma that I miss so much, this is for you!<br /><br /><object style="background-image:url(http://i3.ytimg.com/vi/FzI5vIbIsUc/hqdefault.jpg)" width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/FzI5vIbIsUc?fs=1&hl=en_US"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/FzI5vIbIsUc?fs=1&hl=en_US" width="425" height="344" allowScriptAccess="never" allowFullScreen="true" wmode="transparent" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed></object>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-31969915250550977802008-10-08T16:43:00.002-04:002010-11-17T15:52:41.161-05:00This Way and ThatThis Way and That<br /><br />I am being pulled to my limits. It seems I am not doing a damn thing, but yet I am feeling stretched out. My skin hurts, every bone in my body hurts and I am tired all the time. I am moving every which direction, that way, this way and back in the other direction. I can not complete a thought much less sit down and try to compose a proper blog entry. I dont know how I got so wrapped up in everything - but somehow I did. Life is moving ahead full speed and its not slowing down for me to catch up. I am trying, oh how I have tried. But I missed that step and fell flat on my ass. *ouch that hurt*<br /><br />I just have so much on my mind. So much doubt, worries, and crap about life in general that its just so full. So full that really nothing wants to make sense to me right now.<br /><br />I just keep riding along, hoping that everything will just settle and fall in to place like a box of cereal does when it sits on a shelf.<br /><br />Of course, one has to sit long enough for that to happen.<br /><br />*sighs*Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-3893257073259072132008-10-06T15:10:00.001-04:002010-11-15T17:45:11.555-05:00My Life as a Text Chat Op - Who Moved My Cheese?My Life as a Text Chat Operator – Who Moved My Cheese?<br /><br />Here is another one that “caught my eye”<br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1097.photobucket.com/albums/g357/Chupacabra_Sandwich/swiss-cheese11.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i1097.photobucket.com/albums/g357/Chupacabra_Sandwich/swiss-cheese11.jpg" width="293" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/2008/10/my-life-as-text-chat-op-who-moved-my.html"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #783f04;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">Enter here to read the rest of "Who Moved My Cheese" on my Erotic Confessions Blog. (ADULTS ONLY!)</span></span></b></a></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-78646440340080140922008-10-05T16:17:00.002-04:002010-11-15T16:20:23.807-05:00Dear Diary<div class="MsoNormal">Dear Diary<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>10/5/08</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I had told myself I was going to get better at this Diary thing. I had been talking to Shannon quiet a bit lately and she suggested I actually get back to a hand written journal. She also told me that maybe it would help me be able to talk to Matt easier because I have been having a hard time talking about some things. Maybe we could write back and forth to each other, the things we are afraid to otherwise say or just not sure the way or words to say it. When I had talked about it, he thought it was a good idea and he was willing to do it. But I have yet to even go there.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This week was just a crazy week. Matt and I are sharing so much time together. So many emotions and feelings running between us.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Lately I have found myself really testing him. Seeing just how far I can go with my emotions. And just when I think I want to run away, I find myself wanting to call him and run right back into his arms. I have spent a lot of time thinking about him and us. Wondering if it is real what I am feeling or if it is just filling a void. Sometimes I am so afraid that maybe I am not really over Mike and that Matt is just here to fill a void. But I think these days that’s just my mind going in to overdrive. I have been so disgusted with Mike as of late. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Matt was over here making dinner the other night and Mike called. I was in my room so I figured I would just go ahead and answer it. Mike got all weird. So I just let him go. Well then he texted me and was saying shit about how he could not think about me with some other man in my room. It was just all this ridiculous shit. So I was texting him back and I told him I loved him but we had obviously moved on and my life really wasn’t his business. So his ass ended up calling me in the middle of the night just to see if Matt was still here. Mike was just so pissy. I did not want to answer it, but Matt knew it was him because of the ringtone. I was just so upset over the whole thing. I did talk to Mike the next day and told him I was sorry I got pissy but he has no right to talk to me like that any more. We are not together. And so he is telling me all this shit about how he would like for us to work things out and that he basically doesn’t want me with someone else. I was like, dude why does this bother you now, it never bothered you before when we were dating. And he’s all in to this whole not wanting to share thing basically. I was like whatever, you got Tammy and all your other woman and he says to me “This isn’t about me, we are talking about you.” I just went off on him. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It is just a mess. Its like I don’t want to really be with him, but I can’t stand the thought of him not being in my life somehow. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So whatever. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Yesterday was one month of Matt and I being together. He also had a show at the Machine Shop. I was really nervous about it, but I went. I had really wanted Stacy to go with me, but she stood me up. I almost backed out on Matt, but it was such a big night for him and I know he wanted me to be there. So, I went. And I am glad I did.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">He put on an awesome show. I was so captivated by him all night. Especially when he was on stage. I just kept thinking to myself how lucky I am to have such a wonderful man and how he is exactly what I am looking for. Watching him, how he shines was just the most awesome feeling in the world. I have met his mom and step sister. His mom wants to hang out more so that’s a good thing. His dad and step mom are dying to meet me. So I keep thinking to myself, go for it girl. Give it all I have to give. Stop dealing with Kraz and all his bullshit because he is never going to change. Let him and Tammy be with each other, the losers are meant to be. I have someone wonderful who treats me like a princess. I just have to walk away. Back away. Not let him try to control me anymore, and I think I have been doing a great job. I called him out on so much shit the last time we talked. He’s not going to ruin shit for me. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Anyway, when I am with Matt, I am at such peace and such a comfort level. It’s just awesome. I am so amazed by him and often wonder if I am just dreaming. We have so much in common, but the things we don’t are just trivial and don’t really matter. I honestly believe he is perfect for me on so many levels. And we just have this deep emotional attachment.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There are things that worry me, like the fact he is technically still married. Or the whole daughter issue. I mean, what if she doesn’t like me? Then is the relationship doomed? I try not to think about it too much. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Last night, after the show and we got back to his place, we were lying in bed just talking and he was telling me how he has fallen in love with me and how this all happened so fast but everything just feels so right for him. Then he told me he loved me. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">At first, I got scared. I had just told Kraz this wasn’t love. That we were just hanging out. And then for a split second I was like, nah, he’s just in lust. But it all just seemed so clear to me. And I knew deep down I felt the same. How I think about him, think about our future. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So now here we are, in love. And it just feels so good. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I just got off the phone with him a little while ago; I had to stop writing this to talk. And he was telling me how he sees our future and how someday I would move in with him and I could take care of the house and such and he would not even care if I had a job. He would take care of me. Awwww.. how damn sweet is that.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I am not sure how that would make me feel really, I hated that feeling with Marcus… but I will cross that bridge when it happens. Right now I HAVE to find a job because I have to make some money to pay my bills.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Speaking of which, I better go get some texting done to cover that car payment!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-76152856864832652712008-10-02T16:37:00.001-04:002010-12-23T13:55:57.568-05:00Poetry In Motion - Fly FreeYou are my sunshine<br />on cloudy days<br />you are the light<br />when the skies are grey<br />so tell me<br />why do I want to run away?<br /><br />In the sky<br />I see those birds fly<br />freedom they have<br />to roam free<br />and I think to myself<br />why not me?<br /><br />© C.M. 9/2008<br /><div></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-61017630914512170962008-09-30T16:23:00.001-04:002010-11-17T15:54:16.376-05:00Blah Blah BlahI’ve started and stopped roughly two thousand poems in the past ten minutes.<br /><br />Nothing is happening easily. Nothing in my head makes sense anymore. I feel like my skin wants to come off. Everything feels tight and I desperately want to burst. I want to not be here. But yet I am not sure I know where I want to be anymore.<br /><br />Alone. I think too much. I worry too much. I feel like I’m dying(on the inside)… too much.<br /><br />Crying, crying. I don't know anything at the moment. Other than I hurt. Everywhere. I hurt inside, outside, even upside down. I hurt in the air that surrounds me. I hurt in my imagination, in the words I’m typing, in the colors that I’m thinking of. I want the pain to stop. I don't want to know what this is. I just wish there was anything, anyone.<br /><br />I wish I didn't have to be strong all the time. I wish that I could just fall apart and nobody would cover me in clichés… Here, have a band-aid. I know I’m stronger than this, but I don't want to be. For once. For once, I want someone to want to take care of me. For once, I want to be fought for. For once. For once. For once. I want to be exactly where I am, who I am, what I am, and not feel badly about it.<br /><br />For once I want to be everything. For once I want to get upset and cry and not feel like my head is going to explode. Not feel like I’m putting people out for needing them. But I don't ever need them. Why is it such an imposition? I want to stop crying…<br /><br /><br />But maybe I want to cry forever. I want to be held so tightly that I can't breathe anymore. I don't want anyone to tell me that life isn't fair. I don't want you, yes *you,* you know who you are, to see me like this. Where the hell did you come from anyway?<br /><br /><br />How can I be so unlike anybody else and you still make me feel just like everyone else because I never thought there would be someone so much like me? you answer my questions before I ask them, tell me what I’m thinking before I even let on that I’m thinking anything, tell me what I’m going to say and do next. I have no privacy. It both makes me ecstatically happy and terrifies me. Why? Why does everything have to make no sense?<br /><br /><br />Why can't I ever be enough? Why can't I stop crying?<br /><br /><br />Why anything. Why nothing. Why everything. When. Questions that aren't really questions. I have no beautiful words for you. You know them all anyway.<br /><br />I can't be this girl. I can't be this girl. I can't be this fucking girl. I wanted to be so much more than the ridiculous person I am. Why do I fucking care so much. Why am I so unlike myself? What can I do what should I do what I want to do?<br /><br /><br />And the beat goes on… blah blah blahChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-71059012926662684802008-09-26T14:19:00.001-04:002010-11-17T15:55:26.150-05:00Whats Up With Chrys? - Running AwayRunning Away<br /><br />I am a runner. I have always been known to run from my problems and never face them. So able to go stone cold and just act as if nothing was going on around me. Unable to show emotion, or even feel for that matter. Able to go numb at the drop of a hat. I know this started at a very early age. Having to turn off my feelings and not dealing with those things that were going on around me, or to me. You tend to become another person. Almost like a split personality.<br /><br />Going numb, that’s almost what it seems like. There is two of me. The wonderful, bubbly, outgoing Chrys that loves life and loves the world. But there is another side of me that hides away. When this part of me shows her ugly face I am forced to put on a mask so that no one can see this stone cold person I have become. I become hard to deal with. I say things I don’t mean. I don’t let people get too close. I don’t deal and then I just run away.<br /><br />I don’t want to be that girl anymore. That runner. And it’s been quite the challenge.<br /><br />Running away landed me in Michigan.<br /><br />Although I am grateful for the time I have spent here, being able to be around my family, making the few friends that I have, had the experiences that I have, I often wonder what life would have been like if I would have just stayed in OK and dealt with my problems instead of running away.<br /><br />I try not to. But I do.<br /><br />And I am feeling myself wanting to run. I want to run; I want to pack my car with whatever I can cram in it and just drive. No place in mind to be honest, I would love to see my friends, but I do not know that I am interested in moving back to OK. I just do not know what I want right now to be honest.<br /><br />I feel lost, confused, smothered and just in a funk.<br /><br />I want to get better. I want life to get better.<br /><br />I have no idea where to start. No idea how to even go about changing.<br /><br />I have been seeing this wonderful guy for a few weeks now. We have been hanging out pretty much every day since out first date. Did I mention he is wonderful? He does everything someone is supposed to do in a relationship and that freaks me the fuck out! I am so used to dating these douch bags that say one thing and do another that I don’t even know what to think about this. I have spent so many days analyzing this situation that I have put myself in turmoil. I am nitpicking. Looking at things that should not matter in order to find a way out. I wan to run and hide.<br /><br />Why you ask?<br /><br />Because after the divorce and the whole ordeal with Mike over the summer, that I am just so afraid of letting someone else in. Letting someone over that wall and getting close to me. I just about got all the pieces of my broken heart put back together, I am in no mood to have it all shattered again. It’s hard for me to trust. But yet I see no red flags here. That should put me at ease, but it doesn’t. I feel it’s too good to be true, and sometimes when it’s too good to be true, then that means that it is. But maybe not this time. Maybe, just maybe I have finally found that one person that is going to prove me wrong that they are not all the same.<br /><br />And I am terrified.<br /><br />This makes me want to run.<br /><br />How am I going to keep myself from running?<br /><br />On the anniversary of Elonna’s passing I had told Matt it was her day. I wanted to warn him in case I was not in the best of moods. I am always so upbeat and happy, even when life is throwing me lemons. But I just knew that this day may prove to be a force outside of my control. And it was. I was at Matt’s house and we were watching a movie. I don’t even remember what happened but I do remember his words that came flying out of his mouth. “What’s wrong with you today?” <br /><br />UGH. Needless to say I just looked at him and shortly after I got my things and left. At that moment I should have opened up to him and talked to him about my friendship with Elonna. Explained to him how much I loved her and how I have this empty void in my life. Surely he would understand as he had lost his friend not that long ago. But instead I made the choice to just leave.<br /><br /><br />I will NOT sit here and cry in front of him. I will NOT allow him to get close to me, to let that wall down and let him in. I drove home. On the way home the tears started to fall and without even batting an eyelash I called Mike. I needed someone to understand. Someone that understood me to tell me why I wanted to fly. I honestly did not expect him to answer his phone. He never answered it when we were together, why would he now? But he did. And I cried like he had never heard me cry before. “Mike, what’s wrong with me, why do I want to run away so bad now?” <br /><br /><br />He knew. He understood, him and I are much alike when it comes to the flight or fight response. For he too wants to just run away. Despite our past, he is an amazing friend who I will always cherish. He offered a shoulder and gave some sound advice. I called Matt, hoping to go back over there and explain myself. But he did not answer. So I just drove. I had no place in mind. Just went where the moonlight led me. I had to think about so many things. What is it that’s making me feel this way? Are Matt and I just moving to fast? Is it because I have so many other worries in life? What could it be?<br /><br /><br />I wish I had the answer. Here I am a few days later and I am still trying to figure out why I want to run away.<br /><br /><br />This one is on me. I know running away is not the answer. One of these days I have to stop running.<br /><br /><br />And now, as I write this Matt calls. Hearing his voice is all I need to gather my thoughts, and keep my feet firmly planted right here.<br /><br /><br />I do not know when or if that running/flying feeling is going to go away. I can not even seem to figure out what’s really the root of it.<br /><br /><br />I just know that I have to STOP running.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-18078341299933411572008-09-23T18:26:00.002-04:002010-11-15T18:27:24.762-05:00Remembering Elonna<div class="MsoNormal">Remembering Elonna</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It was one year ago today I was cruelly forced to say goodbye to one of my best friends.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I remember that day like it was only yesterday. How her sister-in-law and now my friend Liz had to tell me the sad news. I cried like my whole world had ended.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Just the year before we had lost one of our best friends, we saw our circle of friends go through so much turmoil and now we were losing her. And I was losing a part of myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Not many people really understand just how big of an impact Elonna had on my life. She was there with me at my all time low, my all time darkest hour and no matter her own bullshit, she was always there. I could always count on her. She gave me so much strength when she hardly had any of her own. She was the most selfless person I had ever met. When it became my turn to be there for her, I gave her ALL I had to give. When it became her darkest hour, there I was. When her diagnoses of cancer came, there I was. I wrote her every day. I sent her pictures. I bought her flowers and had them delivered to her house, and even when I moved a 1000 miles away from her, she knew my presence was still there. Not a day did not go by that she did not know I was thinking of her. And not a day went by that I did not tell her how much she meant to me and how much I loved her. I do feel bad for moving away when I did. But I know she understood me and knew the reasons why I had to fly. If anyone in this world understood just how messed up my life had become, it was her. And if anyone understood that this woman was still left inside of me, she did. And I never even had to explain it. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">If you have a friend like this in your life now, tell them every day how much they mean to you in some way. Do not take them for granted because you never know when they may have to go.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I think about all the fun times we had. How we should have bought stock in all the bottles of Rum we shared. LOL. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">We had our share of bad times, too. But those don’t need to be remembered. I just sit and laugh about them now. How serious we were about things that seem so trivial now.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I thought I would be ok, I thought I could get through this without shedding a tear. I thought I was stronger now then I used to be. But as I sit here typing this the tears start to flow and I can not seem to compose a thought.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So many of you here knew Elonna…. So I thought maybe we could remember her today and what she brought to our lives. Maybe you could share something in the comments section with me. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I miss you my sistagurl…..xoxox…I will see you again someday.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-82220347217931572632008-09-21T13:30:00.002-04:002010-11-17T15:56:11.489-05:00This is Why I Write......Too often people comment on how open and upfront about my life I can be in my blogs. I never really saw a problem with it. I am who I am, so why hide? I am sure people are going through the same things I am. Some people just do not want to talk about it. Thats fine. I do. I want to talk. I want to write. I want my friends and family to know these are the things I have to deal with.<br /><br />Last month on the ex birthday I posted a blog entitled "Missed Connection" as a response to craigslist.com Missed Connections. I posted that blog in that section. I got some emails, I got some backlash, I made a great friend.<br /><br />I wanted to share one of the most recent emails....<br /><br />This is why I write, this is why I am so open.....<br /><br /><br /><br />Hello Missed Connection,<br /><br />I happened to see your letter while poking around on this site. Without knowing it, you have probably eloquently put into words what many have felt in their hearts, and could not find the words for. Many times events happen in our lives that we never fully understand, and for which we never get an explanation. And it leaves a hole, however large or small, that aches and gnaws at us for the rest of our life. These are the things that make us strong, and who we are to become. Don't let it make you callous. I am sure you will live through all of this, and most likely be a changed person because of it. I hope you will use your experience as a building block rather than a stumbling block. I am sure your life will hold many more adventures to come. Hopefully most will be happy in nature. I am nobody of importance in the grand scheme of things, but I thought it was worth my time to prop you up a bit. If you ever want to chat, I am at: <a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vdXMubWM4MTEubWFpbC55YWhvby5jb20vbWMvY29tcG9zZT90bz1nb2xkZW5femlwcGVyQHlhaG9vLmNvbQ==" rel="nofollow" target="_blank" ymailto="mailto:golden_zipper@yahoo.com"> EDITED @yahoo.com</a><br /><br />ZipChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-66909903839702332692008-09-18T18:41:00.003-04:002010-11-15T18:42:50.479-05:00What’s Up With Chrys? -When One Door Closes<div class="MsoNormal">What’s Up with Chrys? – “When one door closes…….”</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">When one door closes, another opens. I never really paid much attention to that quote until recently. Today I had to put it on my status mood message with my own twist – when one door closes another opens and even though that door is not completely closed the open door leaves me breathless.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This summer has been a test of my true strength. This summer seems worse then my last. Even though last summer I not only said goodbye to my grandmother, but my then husband, the life I had for over 20 years and all my friends. I managed to live through that. As the months followed the divorce was final, I started to make new friends, adjust to a new life 1000’s of miles away and meet Mike. Getting over Mike this year, by far had to be the hardest thing. Harder then losing Lonnie, Elonna, Terry, my grandparents, getting over the ex husband, or any other relationship I had ever been in. Honestly, I do not know why this is. I have tried to analyze it, come to terms with it. But I just can not figure it out. What the fuck makes him so much more special then anyone else?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">As the weeks went on, he apologized and we started to talk and come to terms with things. Few weeks after that we had formed a friendship of sorts.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Of course he had mentioned us talking about “us” again and that made me want to run away. I miss him, but I treasure his friendship more. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I could never trust him again to form a relationship. But I find myself still thinking about the shoulda’s, woulda’s, and coulda’s. I guess that’s just a natural part of the healing process. And in time, will fade. We don’t talk much and haven’t spent any time together. And maybe that’s for the best.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">He is the door that was once closed and is not still a little open.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Some time ago I felt I was ready to move on. So I started to date again. Had some fun times. Then I met Matt. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Silence.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Matt leaves me at a loss for words. He is the door that leaved me breathless.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Since that first Hello I find myself wanting to know more about it. In the short time we have known each other we have spent quite a bit of time together. I am at peace around him. A comfort I don’t often find with too many. And best of all, I can just be myself. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Right now I do not have much to offer someone. A warm smile, a friendly hug. I am still trying to mend a broken heart. Picking up the last of the pieces to be mended. I am in class 3 nights a week taking my continuing education credits for H&R Block. This is something I have to do yearly in order to keep my certifications.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My college semester starts next week, I have the texting job and hopefully VERY soon I am going to have a real day job. I have so many things going on around me that I need to take care of that I really just do not have a lot of time for anything else. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">And that’s OK with him. Between his day job, his weekend job and the band he doesn’t have much time either.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He also has a daughter. But we spend what time together we can. He only lives a few minutes away, so that’s been a huge help between us. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I do not know what the future holds, but all I know is one day at a time, one step at a time I am slowly getting back on my feet and heading in the right direction.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So…now you have an idea as to why my blogs have been slacking the last week or so. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am smiling a lot more these days….. lots of things going on, making new friends, parties to look forward to, coming out of hermit mode to hang with old friends….and just life in general.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-2217602222516648322008-09-13T15:52:00.001-04:002010-11-15T17:27:30.770-05:00My Life as a Text Chat Operator – The RulesMy Life as a Text Chat Operator – The Rules<br /><br />WARNING: This blog is rather LONG so if you don’t have much time, you might have to come back to it. It also takes a few personal turns, which most of you should be used to by now, but if you don’t want to know anything about me, maybe this isn’t a blog for you to read. Just giving you a heads up (no pun intended) LOL!<br /><br /><a href="http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/2008/09/my-life-as-text-chat-operator-rules.html"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;"><b>Click here to read the rest of "The Rules" on my Erotic Confessions Blog. (ADULTS ONLY!)</b></span></a><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i12.photobucket.com/albums/a222/rubr-duky-ur-the-1/CUTE%20and%20FUNNY/rules.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i12.photobucket.com/albums/a222/rubr-duky-ur-the-1/CUTE%20and%20FUNNY/rules.png" /></a></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-55143179398589152042008-09-08T16:04:00.001-04:002010-11-15T17:40:18.507-05:00My Life as a Text Chat Operator – “Locks of Love”Ok, I had to admit this is not a story about my job. But it goes right along with it so I wanted to include it. Since starting this job, I have taken notice and have over thought many things I would otherwise not even think twice about.<br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i227.photobucket.com/albums/dd83/kae186h0286331/Decorated%20images/sweethair.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i227.photobucket.com/albums/dd83/kae186h0286331/Decorated%20images/sweethair.jpg" width="248" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/2008/09/my-life-as-text-chat-operator-locks-of.html"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47;">Enter here to read the rest of "Locks of Love" on my Erotic Confessions Blog. (ADULTS ONLY!!)</span></b></a></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-14027335490220516522008-09-06T11:30:00.001-04:002010-11-15T17:32:49.628-05:00My Life as a Text Chat Operator – About MeMy Life as a Text Chat Operator – About Me<br /><br />I have been getting a lot of questions sent to me so I felt it best that I explain not only the concept of how the text chat works (see previous blogs) but shine some light on a few things that people don’t really know about me. Not to say that NO ONE knows these things about me, and certainly not everyone knows everything.<br /><br /><a href="http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/2008/09/my-life-as-text-chat-operator-about-me.html"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">To read the rest of "About Me" please visit my Erotic Confessions Blog. (ADULTS ONLY!)</span></b></a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-63382303086834675762008-09-06T10:49:00.001-04:002010-11-15T17:30:26.485-05:00My Life as a Text Chat Operator – Let Me ExplainMy Life as a Text Chat Operator – Let Me Explain<br /><br />Let me take a minute to explain how this works. I know I mentioned it in passing with my first blog of this series, but I know not everyone read it or they were to busy laughing at the vrooooom vrooooom baby vrooooom vroooom.<br /><br />Either way, let me see if I can explain how this works a little better.<br /><br /><a href="http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/2008/09/my-life-as-text-chat-operator-let-me.html"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;"><b>To read the rest of "Let Me Explain" please click to read it on my Erotic Confessions Blog. (ADULTS ONLY!)</b></span></a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-35583592807472013122008-09-05T20:07:00.001-04:002010-11-15T16:51:36.559-05:00My Life as a Text Chap Operator –“excuse me, where’s the bathroom?”My Life as a Text Chap Operator –“excuse me, where’s the bathroom?”<br /><br />I warn you, this one might gross a few of you out. I am not sure there is a much humor in this one. Unless you are like me and find humor in most anything. <br /><br /><a href="http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/2008/09/my-life-as-text-chap-operator-excuse-me.html"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">To read the story go to my Erotic Confessions Blog by Clicking Here (ADULTS ONLY!)</span></span></a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-60388690495727790132008-09-01T16:33:00.000-04:002008-09-01T16:34:34.510-04:00I really need YOUR help!!!My girl Jen and her Aunt Sarah are trying to help me out. And because of this...I need ALL of you to help as well.<br /><br />Most of you know my life/work/school sitchy. And you know all about my outgoing personality (right???), so this is something I know I can be good at and know I would love doing and be a part of.<br /><br />Please keep reading for an awesome message from Jen....<br /><br />**************************************<br />I am trying to help my new recruit Chrystal purchase her kit...she is having a bit of a problem coming up with the money but knows what a great opportunity being a Pure Romance consultant is. So all of you that know and love Pure Romance knows how exciting of a time this is for her. If you all could lend a helping hand by purchasing your items online to help aid her in purchasing her kit to start in this amazing business, not only would I be grateful but I am sure she would be ecstatic!! You all know and love these products ladies, now your order is not only affording you to recieve your great Pure Romance products but also helping a new consultant get started. Please show your support by ordering online at: <a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vc2FyYWhhcGlnaWFuLnB1cmVyb21hbmNlLmNvbQ==">http://sarahapigian.pureromance.com</a> (you will have to type this into your browser, myspace disables the link) ALL your orders will be totaled toward the purchase of her new starter kit. Thanks Again!! Good Luck Chrystal!! I know you will do Great!<br /><br /><br />************************************<br /><br />In a world (michigan) where I feel very much alone its a wonderful feeling to know someone understands me, my life ordeal and is willing to go out of the way to lend a helping hand.<br /><br />And who wouldn't? I am wonderful after all! LOL!<br /><br />So let me say a thank you to Jen and her Aunt Sarah for helping me to try and find a path and a way out as well as lending me a hand in friendship.<br /><br />And a thank you to all of you who are already on the website ordering your hearts out!<br /><br />xoxox<br />ChrysChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-71096061675376654012008-08-29T16:47:00.004-04:002010-11-15T16:55:48.078-05:00My Life as a Text Chap Operator –Tony<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">This actually makes me really sad. But at the same time all I can think to myself is that this man is certainly old enough to know better. But he is 63 so maybe he is a little behind in technology times and does not really understand how these things work.</div><div><br /></div><div><a href="http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/2008/08/my-life-as-text-chap-operator-tony.html"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47;">To read the rest of the story, click here to go to my Erotic Confessions Blog. (ADULTS ONLY)</span></span></a></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-14228959144623078742008-08-28T14:07:00.001-04:002010-11-15T17:21:55.456-05:00My Life as a Text Chat Op - SmokingMy Life as a Text Chat Operator – Smoking<br /><br />Smoking is not my thing. It never has been. I have never smoked a ciggie in my life. Nor do I plan to ever.<br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.blogger.com/goog_1451811658"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Enter Here: Erotic Confessions to read "Smoking"</span></a></div><a href="http://www.blogger.com/goog_1451811658"><br /></a><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><a href="http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/2008/08/my-life-as-text-chat-operator-smoking.html"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i1116.photobucket.com/albums/k574/__Absolutely__/SmokingWoman.jpg" width="270" /></a></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-4314138967038759112008-08-24T19:43:00.001-04:002010-11-03T22:34:03.236-04:00Cupid Missed My ConnectionMy Missed Connection<br /><br />I don’t know how, or what happened but I found myself amidst the 1000 of Best of Craigslist post. I do not know what rock I have been hiding under lately. I knew you could post personal ads along with things for sale and stuff. But I guess I never really noticed how much of a pop culture phenomenon it had become. For instance, there is a section where you can search for a person/place/thing that you lost a connection with and would like to reconnect with. Some people took things a step farther. And it gave me a bit of inspiration. I have been trying to mend a broken heart. And honestly, I think I am doing very well given the circumstances surrounding the ordeal. However, sometimes I just feel better if I write. If I just get things of my chest. So, the following piece is going to be my submission into the world of CL.<br /><br /><br />It only seems appropriate that I write and post this on his birthday, because he will never know what wonderful things I had planned for us today. He broke us. He broke me.<br /><br /><br />I missed my connection, or perhaps the reality is he missed the connection. Was it a love connection? Or did Cupid really fuck up and shoot his little arrow in the wrong direction.<br /><br />I met this wonderful guy from Lansing. He would not be that hard to find really, I am sure he’s dated half the town by now since he’s lived in that area practically all his life. I’ve spent a year of my life on this man. A year, a whole fucking year of thinking one day we are going to be happy together, one day we will have bright beautiful future together, and then one day, quite literally with a blink of an eye it was all taken away from me.<br /><br /><br />I wonder, have you seen this guy that has broken my heart into a million little pieces and broken all my dreams of this future for us we had planned. I could tell you the street he lives on, the Ya-Yas he loves to visit, the bank he banks at, the cars he drives, where he trains at or even who with. I could even tell you what he looks like. How he likes to ride his skateboard (he’s 34 today) and pretend he’s a teenager on his bike jumping curbs. But will it even matter? Will he even begin to understand what is broken? Or will he even care.<br /><br /><br />No, I doubt it. So why should I even bother.<br /><br /><br />I just moved to MI myself last year. A southern belle I am. Landed here after a divorce since this is where my family is all located. I thought coming “home” would be the best thing for me. I met this guy only a few short weeks after my arrival. My divorce was not even final, but he did not care. And honestly neither did I. His job required him to travel a lot. So in the beginning we spent more hours on the phone then actually spending together. He dated, I dated, and it was no big deal. We hit a lot of obstacles on our path, but somehow we always managed to find a way around them.<br /><br />Many nights I lay in bed wondering what am I doing with this guy, there is no future here. Months and months went by. And then something happened, something wonderful, we started to spend more time together. A lot more time. I stopped seeing this oversized smart ass fighter guy and actually started to see the real man inside. And I stopped being the stubborn Irish girl and let him in. We laughed, we shared stories and we started to plan a life together. The dating phase was over and the relationship phase had begun.<br /><br />But one girl just would not go away. I questioned him. I knew they had dated before, but he kept denying it. Then the time came for me to quit my job (I live in another city) and move in with him. Only the day I was to move in, he ran to her. Texted me that he got cold feet. I went and picked up my stuff only for him to tell me he just needed time, that he didn’t want to break up. But as he took his “time” I am jobless and staying with my mom. Then this girl contacts me. I tell her just like it is. Find out more then one could ever want to know. And in then end, he leaves me.<br /><br /><br />He’s called me a few times since then. Apologizing. I won’t call him. I just can’t. He wants to leave us “open” because “he just doesn’t know what the future holds” Well I do, and our future has been broken. I could never trust him again, and why would I want to when she makes it known to me that they are spending lots of time together now and how great her future looks.<br /><br /><br />I know you are all sitting here wondering, well why the fuck do you miss a rat bastard like that?<br /><br /><br />Honestly, I can not answer that.<br /><br /><br />I miss his smile, his roaring belly laugh. I miss how we were when we were together. I miss how he made me feel, how he made me laugh. How he looked at me. I felt more complete with him then any person I had ever been with. And now I am here picking up all these shattered pieces, wondering what the fuck went wrong? Where do I go from here?<br /><br /><br />But most of all, I wonder will I find that connection that makes me feel complete again?<br /><br /><br />So if you see cupid, or my missed connection, please give them a big FUCK YOU for me.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_773900">:(<br />I understand sis, because my second husband turned out to be a lying, cheating, hard-core junkie criminal mutherfucker, and yet I still have missed him and parts of our life together from time to time. You can't help it, but eventually you miss him less and it hurts less when it happens. Face it sis, right now you are in mourning for what you have lost, and that always takes awhile to work through. ~hugs~<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Sunday, August 24, 2008 - 8:01 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=427151367#" id="addReplyLnk_773900" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=427151367&commentID=773900" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; 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border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">★Sybil Starr★</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/117/s_ce21eb000e92423a88b1f159a924437e.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Sybil Starr</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_773903">great writing as always. .very heart felt and real. .. like you<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">★Sybil Starr★</a> on Sunday, August 24, 2008 - 8:03 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=427151367#" id="addReplyLnk_773903" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 50px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=279267635" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Art in DC</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=279267635" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/48/s_36b4b7e10bcb49fdafea9305e4a12710.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Art Reid</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_782559">Cupid is a prick... I think he is on the quota system myself, paid by the hook up, no matter what the results.<br />All I can say is I found my perfect mate when I gave up and stopped looking and decided to be a hermit and she had too and we met sort of by accident.<br />I still have those longings for those ex's too but I just realized thatyes there was "something" enough to make me be with them in the first place and yet it wasn't enough to keep it going.<br />After time it does go away or at least down in volume.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=279267635" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Art in DC</a>on Sunday, September 07, 2008 - 11:39 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=427151367#" id="addReplyLnk_782559" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=427151367&commentID=782559" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=279267635" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-19251342444140705292008-08-21T19:01:00.002-04:002010-11-15T17:08:10.354-05:00My Life as a Text Chat Operator - Men & Dating<a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vczU5LnBob3RvYnVja2V0LmNvbS9hbGJ1bXMvZzMxNi9pcmlzaGNoaWtpbm9rL0Z1bm55JTIwU3R1ZmYvbWFsZSUyMGJhc2gvP2FjdGlvbj12aWV3JmN1cnJlbnQ9bWVuLTExLmpwZw==" target="_blank"></a><a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vczU5LnBob3RvYnVja2V0LmNvbS9hbGJ1bXMvZzMxNi9pcmlzaGNoaWtpbm9rL0Z1bm55JTIwU3R1ZmYvbWFsZSUyMGJhc2gvP2FjdGlvbj12aWV3JmN1cnJlbnQ9dHNoaXJ0LWl0c25vdHBtc2l0c3lvdS5naWY=" target="_blank"></a><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Calibri; line-height: 13px;">As I am sitting here trying to think about what story I want to tell I have come to the realization the last few days that some men are really just pigs.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Calibri; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_426316028" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">This by no way is meant to be directed at any particular man. Just a general observation about the men I have had to deal with lately.</span></div><div style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><span style="font-family: Calibri;"><a href="http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/2008/08/my-life-as-text-chat-operator-men.html"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">To read the rest of "Men and Dating" please click here to go to my Erotic Confessions Blog. (ADULTS ONLY!)</span></span></a></span></div></div><a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vczU5LnBob3RvYnVja2V0LmNvbS9hbGJ1bXMvZzMxNi9pcmlzaGNoaWtpbm9rL0Z1bm55JTIwU3R1ZmYvbWFsZSUyMGJhc2gvP2FjdGlvbj12aWV3JmN1cnJlbnQ9TWVuLTEyLmdpZg==" target="_blank"></a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-50406584344954631502008-08-18T15:27:00.002-04:002010-11-15T16:58:02.361-05:00My Life as a Text Chat Operator - "Handstand's Anyone?"Today's story is going to be rather short as there really is not much to it, however it does make me laugh so I just had to share it.<br /><br /><a href="http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/2008/08/my-life-as-text-chat-operator.html"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47;">To read the rest of the story, click here to go to my Erotic Confessions Blog (ADULTS ONLY!!)</span></span></a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-6020866705916973442008-08-15T19:58:00.002-04:002010-11-15T17:00:54.914-05:00My Life As A Text Chat Op -2 "the feet"<a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vczU5LnBob3RvYnVja2V0LmNvbS9hbGJ1bXMvZzMxNi9pcmlzaGNoaWtpbm9rL01JU0MvP2FjdGlvbj12aWV3JmN1cnJlbnQ9MjQuanBn" target="_blank"></a><br /><br />My Life as a Text Chat Operator – "the feet"<br /><br />So I said I had some stories, so let me share another one with you. I am not sure what I should title this one, as the last one with the vroom vroom sure did stick! But this one, I don't know.<br /><br />Have you seen that episode of Friend where Phoebe sings "Smelly Cats" well that's what I keep humming in my head. Only..its smelly feet.<br /><br /><a href="http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/2008/08/my-life-as-text-chat-op-2-feet.html"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">To read the rest of "The Feet" please click here to go to my Erotic Confessions Blog. (ADULTS ONLY!)</span></span></a><br /><a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vczU5LnBob3RvYnVja2V0LmNvbS9hbGJ1bXMvZzMxNi9pcmlzaGNoaWtpbm9rL01JU0MvP2FjdGlvbj12aWV3JmN1cnJlbnQ9UGlua1BvbGlzaEdJRi5naWY=" target="_blank"></a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-51023497583894276322008-08-15T16:15:00.001-04:002010-11-15T16:17:00.911-05:00What's Up with Chrys? Or Dear Diary?<div class="MsoNormal">Dear Diary<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>8/15/08</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have so much to say that I just hope I can get it all down on paper, well word paper anyway before it all leaves my mind.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">In light of recent events Mike and I have fallen apart. I don’t believe him and I no longer trust him.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We broke up, and then a few days ago he apologized. And then today we spent hours on the phone just talking about everything. It was hard and it was hurtful but at least I got some answers. Maybe they were not all the answers I wanted.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">He still tells me that when we were committed that him and Tammy were just friends, that he was pulling away from her.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That she even asked him what was wrong because he was pulling away. He admitted it was his fault and that he should have just came out and told her he was in a relationship with me instead of telling her that I was moving in for work and such. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I don’t buy that because he drove her car to the funeral (which he says was a bad judgment call) and took her to his bros wedding. I haven’t asked him about the wedding<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>yet.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Some things leave me with more questions then answers. But it ended with how he still wants me in his life and us hang out and such, but he needs to get his shit together. How he would like for us to start talking again and just go from here. He understood it would be hard for me to trust him and there would be no expectations on either part.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I told him I could not wait for him.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I don’t know. I don’t know that I can deal with it anymore. As soon as we broke he went running back to Tammy and she seems to think everything is fine with them. And she’s still contacting me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Which he’s pretty upset about.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Well the whole damn thing upsets me. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Anyway, I have a lot on my mind and I don’t even know where to start or put it in to words. So this will have to do for now.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-61662542077431937082008-08-13T14:27:00.004-04:002010-11-15T17:05:14.912-05:00My Life As A Text Chat Operator - How it Works & Tonka TrucksFor those of you, who missed my blog the other day, let me explain how this works.<br /><br />A person sees the advertisement on the TV, in magazines, in newspapers etc. There is a number for him to text in if he wants to talk to that particular person. So they text in on their phones. I am logged in on the company website online. I don't have to talk to anyone. Just reply by writing back. I use the program online, hit submit and it goes back to the customer's phone.<br /><br /><a href="http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/2008/08/my-life-as-text-chat-operator-how-it.html"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #4c1130;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">To read the rest of "How it Works and Tonka Trucks" click here to go to my Erotic Confessions Blog. (ADULTS ONLY!!)</span></span></a><br /><a href="http://media.photobucket.com/image/toy%20truck/jaffa69/90d93a1344a81bed8c0f5a6371b32a35-b3.gif?o=15" target="_blank"></a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-40226801327002846852008-08-11T15:54:00.001-04:002010-11-03T22:44:40.786-04:00What’s Up With Chrys?- The Summer Breakup EditionWhat’s Up With Chrys? – The Summer Breakup Edition<br /><br /><br />So, it’s been a while since I have posted a What’s Up blog series. And of course, we should all know the reason to that by now. Because Mr. Wonderful who turned out to not be so wonderful after all had a real problem with me being so open about my life in a forum for so many people to read about. Did not matter how much I tried to explain to him that my words were my passion, my voice and that I had so many friends and family here. He told me most people keep a Diary and its private. Well duh, I have one of those too.<br /><br />I’m a writer – IT’S WHAT I DO!<br /><br />Anyway, doesn’t matter, after a year of dealing with the lies, the let downs, the no calls, the no shows it finally got to a point where the relationship broke.<br />I could sit here and really just spill all the damn details and put it ALL out there. But honestly, I don’t want to. I want to put this last year behind me and welcome the future with open arms.<br /><br />But what happened? You are asking me. As you can tell I did not end up moving in with him. I quit my job; we planned the move, looked at some apts. and decided for me to just move in with him. I had a job all lined up 2 miles from his place. Well he got cold feet. Those cold feet turned out to be another woman. A woman he swore up and down was only a “friend” There were others too. So much for that commitment.<br /><br />So that’s it. Relationship over. I do not have time in my life for someone like that. I wasted too much time on him as it was thinking he would change, that once the “dating” stage was over and that we were moving in together, it would all stop. Guess I was the one paying the pied piper in this little tale.<br />But you know what, yeah I cried. Yeah I screamed, but then he did me WRONG and started to threaten me. Are you f-ing kidding me? So anger set in. And now, I could care less. He is someone else’s problem to deal with now.<br /><br />Sometimes people say things when they are angry. And I certainly said my things. But the sad part is, I am not a mean person and no matter how wrong he did me I would never, ever purposely hurt him. And he if all people should have known this. Apparently not, so I get threatened.<br /><br />Games. It was all games. And it’s not worth the effort to put anymore details out there, nor is he worth my words anymore. My words and my voice are too precious to me.<br /><br />I should have listened to all his friends as I met them along the way. I should have listened to my friends over the year. But I just wanted in my heart for everything to be OK.<br /><br />So, here I am. Back home. One year later after moving to MI from the divorce, I am starting life all over again. Looking for a job yet again and working on changing things in life.<br /><br />There are new people in my world. But I am just getting my feet wet and taking things very slow. Meeting people. Making friends and just seeing where things go. One thing I do know, I will never paid the pied piper again.<br /><br />Enough about all that.<br /><br />Now, a while back ago I picked up a side job. Something fun to do in between school and my day job. It doesn’t pay a lot of money, but its fun. Now, it’s the only money I got coming in so I am making the best of it.<br /><br />I am a text chat operator. And let me tell you, have I some tales to tell you. But that will be another blog. This is how it works. They see the ad on the TV, in the newspaper, in a magazine, etc. They text in using their phone wanting to talk to this person they see. I log in to the company website online and the text comes in. I answer using the website pretending to be this person and it hits their phone back. Some it just basic conversation, and some is flirty and some is very adult.<br /><br />Now, those of you who know me, you know all about my Erotic Confessions series, so this should come to no surprise to you that I am getting paid to text dirty with people.<br /><br />Ok, you can ALL shake your heads and laugh now.<br /><br />It makes for good entertainment and let me tell you, I have some good material for some new stories!<br /><br />So hang tight peoples…as my world starts to change, as I hit the pavement trying to land a new job, as I start to meet new people again and hang out with people that have been in my life for quite some time, I am sure the blogs will start coming out of the woodworks again.<br /><br />Stay tuned for “My Life as a Text Chat Operator”<br /><br /><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=398524803" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tod</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=398524803" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/137/s_1ab21130b7904cf2b1a6ad3af55457c1.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Tod Gambino</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_763826">So YOU are the one I have been texting!!!! Girl...you are GOOD!<br /><br />;-)<br /><br /><br />BTW....good blog :) Keep plugging away :)<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=398524803" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tod</a> on Monday, August 11, 2008 - 4:54 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=423237952#" id="addReplyLnk_763826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=423237952&commentID=763826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=398524803" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><label id="NewDiv_763826"></label></span><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_763839">Hmm, my g/f needs a job. How did you get that one? She would be great at it!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Monday, August 11, 2008 - 5:17 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=423237952#" id="addReplyLnk_763839" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=423237952&commentID=763839" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><label id="NewDiv_763839"></label></span><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">fairreegrl</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/22/s_26331e8169ff4a24a978b1eb2b944eaf.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_763841">Now that does sound almost like a dream job..lol. As for him.. not even worth commenting. But I am very happy to see you are still moving forward.. you carry so much strength inside. Never doubt it.. ~warm hugs~<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">fairreegrl</a> on Monday, August 11, 2008 - 5:31 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=423237952#" id="addReplyLnk_763841" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=423237952&commentID=763841" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><label id="NewDiv_763841"></label></span><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_763865">{{{{HUGS}}}} Just keep moving forward...thats all you can do! Sounds like an "interesting" job...have fun with it!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Monday, August 11, 2008 - 6:35 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=423237952#" id="addReplyLnk_763865" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=423237952&commentID=763865" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><label id="NewDiv_763865"></label></span><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Brian Kinney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_764764">Damn it...you desrve better...<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a> on Wednesday, August 13, 2008 - 2:26 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=423237952#" id="addReplyLnk_764764" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=423237952&commentID=764764" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-15137219535256289182008-08-10T21:21:00.002-04:002010-11-03T22:46:38.717-04:00I Know You All Want To Know<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Sunday, August 10, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />I know everyone wants to know whats going on. Especially since my blogging has lacked. I will tell you. We will talk about it. Just give me some time to sort it all out. Be ready. Blog is coming.<br /><br />And for those of you worried about me - DONT BE!<br /><br />What's done is done and can not be undone.<br /><br />And I don't want it to be.<br /><br />I am going to be JUST FINE!<br /><br /><br /><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=149528092" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">◣ωәәΖíә◢</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=149528092" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/102/s_6616d5b108cc451d9cb40a2486a19610.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_764122">:]<br /><br /><br />You WILL<br />Be just fine....<br /><br />You're one TOUGH cookie...<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=149528092" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">◣ωәәΖíә◢</a>on Tuesday, August 12, 2008 - 2:22 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-51219792689359345932008-08-08T18:41:00.002-04:002010-11-17T15:58:13.994-05:00Poetry In Motion: It Was All FakePeople are not always what they seem.<br />A hard lesson learned these last few weeks.<br />Or maybe I have known all along and wanted to believe in all that was good and picked to have a blind eye instead.<br />I have been here before, and had hoped to never be here again.<br />Letting go and moving on.<br />It's the only option I see.<br />Things can not be repaired.<br />There is just no way.<br />Forward I must go<br />And try to live day after day.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-53959706422573060142008-08-07T17:57:00.000-04:002010-11-15T17:57:59.262-05:00People Are Not Always What They Seem<div class="MsoNormal">People are not always what they seem. </div><div class="MsoNormal">A hard lesson learned these last few weeks.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Or maybe I have known all along and wanted to believe in all that was good and picked to have a blind eye instead.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I have been here before, and had hoped to never be here again.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Letting go and moving on.</div><div class="MsoNormal">It’s the only option I see.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Things can not be repaired. </div><div class="MsoNormal">There is just no way.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Forward I must go</div><div class="MsoNormal">And try to live day after day.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-87471796546574942272008-08-05T21:29:00.008-04:002010-11-03T22:26:51.972-04:00I want....<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Tuesday, August 05, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I want......</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span> </span>Someone who will call me when they say they will call.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Someone who wants to call!</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Someone who will hang out with me with they say they want to.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Someone who actually wants to spend time with me!</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Someone who actually wants to be in a real relationship when they say they want commitment.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Someone who will always keep an open line of communication and not run away and shut themselves off when things get tough.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Someone to be my partner in everything.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Someone who means everything they say.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Someone who will be my best friend.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Someone who will stand beside me through the good times and the bad times.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I want, because I feel its nothing less then what I deserve.</span></div><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px;"><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">"Axel" Shepherd</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/65/s_ea9948575f0ed8f36b4e20b0524f7c73.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Robert Shepherd</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_759948">Me too! lol, hang in there! I know what you mean!! It's gotta be there somewhere!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">"Axel" Shepherd</a> on Tuesday, August 05, 2008 - 2:05 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=421377640#" id="addReplyLnk_759948" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=421377640&commentID=759948" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_759948"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=149528092" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">◣ωәәΖíә◢</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=149528092" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/102/s_6616d5b108cc451d9cb40a2486a19610.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_761098"><img src="http://i24.photobucket.com/albums/c4/lad6471/animations%20by%20weezie/327.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=149528092" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">◣ωәәΖíә◢</a> on Thursday, August 07, 2008 - 3:18 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-32127923298942205922008-08-05T18:21:00.000-04:002010-11-15T18:25:41.864-05:00Relationships Are Like Glass<div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Georgia","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together. ~Author Unknown</span><span style="color: red; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">I just can’t walk away from you. I can not turn my back and let you go. Maybe I should. Maybe it’s what you want. It’s what you need. What I need. Who knows? But, the reality is...I meant to go, and there you were stopping me. Why? Why did you stop me? <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Telling me everything was going to be ok. Kissing me the way you do as if nothing had changed.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">You said you were afraid that’s what I was coming over to say. That I was letting go. You didn’t want to give up on us. You said that, looked me right in the eyes more then once and said that.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">But you have shown me nothing in terms of you wanting to hang on, aside from your words.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">I have always said actions speak louder then words. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">And your silence…. It leaves me worried….wondering…thinking…sad….confused….<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">How many times do we have to go through this? <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">I thought our roller coaster was over….that we had sailed our ship and it was smooth sailing from here on out.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">You need to do this, need to take care of that. WE need to slow down.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Your life goes on, meanwhile I am left here trying to pick up pieces and rebuild again.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">I don't want closer. I don't want better. </span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">I only want you</span></b><span style="color: red; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Words I have told you over and over.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">I knew this would happen...I just knew it....I wanted to save us from this .....and now, here we are....I trusted you damn it, I gave you my all.....I wasn’t suppose to fall in love…it wasn’t suppose to happen to me…..I didn’t want to let you in....but you came in.....I put my walls up and you came over them....climbed right on over…and then just tore them down….... maybe I have no one to blame but myself. I should have known better to let you in. All the signs were there. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Even your own friends warned me. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Fairy tales are just that, tales…..I honestly believed, we could have what we shared, cherish it, just enjoy it for what it was, the rest of our life. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Never asking for anything more then what it was. Nothing more then what we had. That was the reality. We each knew the other had a different life. Reality. At times it hit us in the face. But we knew. We tried to make things better. Tried to plan a little life together. And it was working. We were working. The relationship bloomed and became nothing short of wonderful.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But you took that all away from me. In a single breath, a single moment, that was gone.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Trust, gone. Hope, gone. Love, broken. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">At first, I was sad. My heart just bleeds. I bleed for you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Here I am, deep in a pool of it. Crimson red. I cry a tear. Then more tears following. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Drip Drop, Drip Drop…falling in that pool of blood…..mixing…emotions entwined…entangled….my heart now mangled. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">I should hide. I shouldn’t let you see. Not suppose to let you see.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Suppose to be strong. Always strong. Never let them see you cry. Crying only makes them know how weak you are.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That’s what I keep getting told. But, I can’t help it. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">I used to be so strong.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">You asked me not to go. To keep us together. You asked me for time. But what about me? Where is my time? Who is going to help me?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">I feel you pulling away again. I feel you leaving my heart. You need to go I am sure and do what’s best for you. I don't want you to. Never want you to. But, can’t you see? I care about you. I want to help you. I want to be there for you. I want to be – us.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">All this confusion. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>How long is it going to take us to find that balance in life? Part of me is running away, part of me is pushing you away, and the other part is hanging on to that last little thread. I am selfish when it comes to<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>you after all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">CONFUSED! I am so fucking confused I am not clear. What do I do? What direction should I take?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">NUMB! I feel numb. I feel empty. Alone.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>They hear what I am saying…but do they really get me? Does anyone really understand? I am a prisoner in my own mind. In my own life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Behind these walls in which I built. These walls in which you just tore right down, and now, I am left to build them back up again.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">CAN YOU HEAR ME? Calling out to you? <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">I want to make things better for you, easy for you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I do not want you to know I am hurting. I want <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>to hide that from you. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I want to smile and go forward. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">But what is the price I am going to pay?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Time, you asked me for time. But how long am I suppose to wait?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">I may be hurting, but I understand.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I may be angry, but that’s just my own fault. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">I just need to talk to you. We need to sit down and just get everything out in the open. Not just bits and pieces and fragments of our thoughts, but all of it.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">I know a time or two we thought about giving up, I am glad that we never did. Glad you never let me go. I am thankful for the time I have shared with you. For every day with you was a special gift. Every word from you, embedded in my mind forever to be cherished.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">So much inside of you I have seen. The real you. I just wish you would not shut me out now. I miss you.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">So much still there between us…..but, so many things have changed.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">All I want is to hang on to that last little bit of thread, that last little bit of hope that someday we will work through all this. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">But the other part of me is so afraid that I am going to be left here, alone, hanging on by myself to nothing at all.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Silence…all I am getting from you right now is silence….<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-19565426993880526882008-08-04T13:30:00.002-04:002010-11-05T13:31:44.074-04:00Poetry In Motion: Lost<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #00ccff; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Lost<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #00ccff; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I am so LOST<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #00ccff; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Can not find my way<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #00ccff; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>Can you help me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #00ccff; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 3;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>HELP ME PLEASE<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #00ccff; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I need out<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #00ccff; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>~OUT~<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #00ccff; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>out from these grips<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #00ccff; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>controlling grips<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #00ccff; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 3;"> </span>grips you have on me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #00ccff; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Can you just not see<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #00ccff; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Just wont leave<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #00ccff; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>Leave me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #00ccff; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 3;"> </span>Let me out<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #00ccff; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">© C.H. 2005<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-65171770834780902472008-07-31T10:36:00.003-04:002010-11-03T22:28:31.362-04:00The Dad<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, July 31, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_419910497" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 12pt;">I know I have not talked much lately and their is reason for that. Just a lot of things going on right now that I really just have to keep to myself.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 12pt;">But right now, I need to vent. I am confused about how I should be feeling. Well, that goes for a lot of things in life these days, but right now I am talking about my so-called Dad. Yes, that one. That one that you all pretty much know the story about so really I care not to rehash it.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 12pt;">I get up this AM and my mother informs me that my cousin Tim (Olivia's Dad) called her and said he saw on the news that my dad was in an accident. One person dead, one person in critical care.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 12pt;">I do not know how to feel. I go numb. My dogs need food. I have to shower. So in the shower my mind flashes 12 years of my life. Then it flashes a huge fall out in his driveway last year after I landed in MI.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 12pt;">Honestly, their was a part of me that wished he was the one who was dead. And I feel like shit for saying that, but I can not help it. This man ruined me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 12pt;">His sister gave me a bday card. She left it a few days before my bday on my porch. I wasnt home. However that card came at a really bad time, a time that started the downfall of some other things in life.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 12pt;">So I kept it to myself. I did not share. But my aunt had said my grandmother and father both missed me very much and that she had hoped I could make peace with my father and be a part of the family again.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 12pt;">As soon as that shower stops, that same aunt calls. I hear my mother telling her that she will tell me, that its up to me and such.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 12pt;">My mother tells me hes in the hospital and its up to me whether I want to go see him or not.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 12pt;">Then she finds the article online. Different then the story the news is running.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 12pt;">*******************************************<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><b><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 12pt;">SAGINAW COUNTY, Mich. --</span></b><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 12pt;">A Montrose man is dead following a two-vehicle crash on M-13 near the Sheridan Road intersection in Albee Township on Wednesday.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 12pt;">State police said 49-year-old David Lloyd Carey died when his Chevrolet S-10 pickup truck collided head-on with a vehicle that was attempting to make a left turn from the southbound lane of M-13. Carey was pronounced dead at the scene.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 12pt;">Police said the other driver, 51-year-old Larry Richard Schramm was transported to Covenant and is expected to recover from his injuries.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 12pt;">The crash remains under investigation, but police said speed an alcohol are not factors in this crash.<o:p></o:p></span></div>..TR><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 12pt;">************************************************<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 12pt;">So, here I sit. Wondering what I should do. I dont really want to go to the hospital. It has been a year since I have seen this man. A man who ruined my life and years later I found out was not even my biological father! I know my going to the hospital will make me look like the bigger person. That I should maybe say "get well soon" that maybe a part of me would like to make peace with everything and move forward in life. But right now, my feet are failing me and I can not seem to move forward.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 12pt;">I thought about writing a letter. I can certainly pour it all out in my words. I had to do it once to him before when I was in therapy years ago. I could certainly tell him everything I need to get off my chest.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 12pt;">But is that a new Chapter I want to write? A can of worms I want to open.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 12pt;">I just do not know. It so hard to think about with everything else I am facing right now.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 12pt;">I wish I had a magic wand to make everything all better.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 12pt;">I know I had said I was not going to get into much personal things anymore, but I have so many family and friends here that know my life and what happened, and I had just hoped maybe you guys could offer some guidance.</span></div></div><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_757697">There are so many unknowns and kind of knowns for me here, but I think that you should do what is right for YOU...if that means going to the hospital and saying "I'm glad your going to be ok, but I don't want to have a relationship with you." then do that. If you just can't seem to make yourself go, then don't. And don't feel bad about that. Don't do it for someone else if it is going to cause you unnecessary stress. {{{{HUGS}}}} Good luck with your decision!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Thursday, July 31, 2008 - 6:51 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=419910497#" id="addReplyLnk_757697" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=419910497&commentID=757697" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_757697"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81620621" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Mick</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81620621" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/128/s_6af76b3e3ddc45398b3fa4740e0a2daa.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Mickey Finn</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_757747">Try to make peace. If you don't make the effort, you'll regret it. If the attempt does not go well, at least you will have the peace of mind knowing you tried.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81620621" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Mick</a> on Thursday, July 31, 2008 - 8:54 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=419910497#" id="addReplyLnk_757747" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=419910497&commentID=757747" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=81620621" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=149528092" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">◣ωәәΖíә◢</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=149528092" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/102/s_6616d5b108cc451d9cb40a2486a19610.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_757864"><img src="http://i24.photobucket.com/albums/c4/lad6471/parts2/ecz_as_spring_begins_.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /><br />xxx<br />Thinking you you.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=149528092" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">◣ωәәΖíә◢</a> on Friday, August 01, 2008 - 1:06 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=419910497#" id="addReplyLnk_757864" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">fairreegrl</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/22/s_26331e8169ff4a24a978b1eb2b944eaf.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_757931">I don't know Chrys.. Do you feel like some kind of closure is missing for you? Or do you feel the need to see him "just one more time?" Etc.. if You need this then by all means ..go. But don't do it out of a minor guilt cuz he is in a hospital.. I let my daddy go, He is still around but doesn't even know I had Aidan.. my choice there and Aidan is now 4.<br />Go with your heart (not mind)<br />Much love and our thoughts are with you.. ~Hugs~<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">fairreegrl</a>on Friday, August 01, 2008 - 8:15 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=419910497#" id="addReplyLnk_757931" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=419910497&commentID=757931" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_757931"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/137/s_fa51ecd3152c45d5ba5f2315e578e351.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Joey Vagance</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_758028">Well ya know me sis. I would let the bastard rot.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a> on Friday, August 01, 2008 - 1:10 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=419910497#" id="addReplyLnk_758028" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=419910497&commentID=758028" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_758028"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_758398">I agree with the majority....he is not your blood...sooo.....don't do it out of guilt! If you do this...do it because YOU want to.<br /><br />He has had nothing to offer you over the past year. Yeah...maybe he would come see you if the tables were turned.....but you also didn't ruin 12 years of his life.<br /><br /><br />Do what is right for CHRYS! I have tried to call you several times lately...but I guess I can kinda see why you may not have answered...<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a>on Saturday, August 02, 2008 - 8:27 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=419910497#" id="addReplyLnk_758398" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=419910497&commentID=758398" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-13750065012482628082008-07-26T22:28:00.000-04:002008-07-26T22:29:29.388-04:00MaybeMaybe...we meet the wrong people before meeting the right one so that, when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.<br /><br />Maybe...when the door of happiness closes, another opens; but, often times, we look so long at the closed door that we don't even see the new one which has been opened for us.<br /><br />Maybe...it is true that we don't know what we have got until we lose it, but it is also true that we don't know what we have been missing until it arrives.<br /><br />Maybe...the happiest of people don't necessarily have the best ofeverything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.<br /><br />Maybe...you should dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you dream of and want to do.<br /><br />Maybe...there are moments in life when you miss someone -- a parent, a spouse, a friend, a child -- so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real.<br /><br />Maybe...the best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.<br /><br />Maybe...you should always try to put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel that something could hurt you, it probably will hurt the other person, too.<br /><br />Maybe...you should do something nice for someone every single day, even if it is simply to leave them alone.<br /><br />Maybe...giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love you back. Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart; but, if it doesn't, be content that it grew in yours.<br /><br />Maybe...you shouldn't go for looks; they can deceive; Don't go forwealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile, because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.<br /><br />Maybe...you could send this message to those people who mean something to you, to those who have touched your life either positively or not, to those who can and do make you smile when you really need it, to those who make you see the brighter side of things when you are really down, and to all those whom you want to know that you appreciate them...Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-59320741240856553812008-07-24T21:13:00.002-04:002010-11-03T22:30:10.102-04:00Distance, Again<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, July 24, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />Sometimes in life, things happen. We don't know why, but they just do. Something smacks us upside the head and our entire world just changes. I got smacked. And honestly, I care to not talk about it. But I posted this blog a few days ago, and now it seems to mean more to me then ever. So I am reposting it for myself. Because as I find some direction, I have to keep telling myself something...... Distance will not kill me.<br /><br />I want to tell all my friends that I love you and you mean the world to me, no matter how far apart we are.<br /><br />And thank you...<br />***************************************<br /><div class="blogContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;">Distance is not the end of the world in a relationship.<br /><br />Distance cannot, and will not hurt a bond between two people that is based on mutual respect, trust, commitment, and love.<br /><br />Although you may feel like you are losing faith in your relationship at times, hold fast and trust your heart!<br /><br />I, like you, truly believe that love & relationships are what make your life special, and that ones built on love & understanding are always worth preserving, regardless of the miles that may separate two people.</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_755166">I hope everything is okay with you, sis. I know about distance all too well, and how stressful it can be. I am always here for you if you need to talk...love ya.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Saturday, July 26, 2008 - 1:14 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=417881233#" id="addReplyLnk_755166" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=417881233&commentID=755166" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_755166"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_758392">Somehow I missed this the first time...but I LOVE IT!<br /><br />It rings so true to several relationships I have right now....not just with Joey but with family and friends that live far away. It is hard keeping up/in touch...but that is what has to happen to keep that bond.<br /><br />Thanks for sharing!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Saturday, August 02, 2008 - 8:04 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><br /><span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-15590908925435448502008-07-23T16:08:00.001-04:002010-11-15T16:15:14.706-05:00Dear Diary<div class="MsoNormal">Dear Diary</div><div class="MsoNormal">July 23, 2008</div><div class="MsoNormal">This is the email I sent my girls updating them on all the shit that has went down with Mike and I the last few days.</div><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Just wanted to update you, I know things were fine when we talked last with Mike and I. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I spent the whole weekend with him. Saturday he went to my family reunion, then we went and saw the new batman movie, then we went out to Lansing to meet all his friends for the fights show on TV. I had such a good time and met his best friends and his best high school friend, Jill. She’s kind of a homely girl, but so nice and he enjoyed that we got along.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Sunday, (me him and Jill) went to eat lunch. He left his keys in the apt and so he and I went to the mall and Jill met the apt manager (Tammy, that woman that causes probs on myspace and such) to get in his apt to get his keys. So we swing back by to get them and we drive to my house. The plan was to get his van since he had left it there, load up some of my stuff and get things going. Monday I was gonna get over to some staffing places and then Tues we would hang and so my birthday. Well on the way to my house Sunday, after him and Jill talking about the whole Tammy thing like I was not even there did not settle well with me. I know mike was just trying to not cause conflict because he doesn’t want to piss me or Tammy off. Tammy lets him slide with being late on his rent and shit, if he pisses her off, she’s likely to turn on him. And she wasn’t really happy to hear I was moving in. Oh well. Fuck her; I have had enough of her shit anyway. So anyway, we are driving back to my place and he’s all like, Chrys talk to me what’s wrong. You look like you have so much to say. You didn’t even want to hold my hand while we were walking around the mall. Talk to me.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">So I just let it all out. I told him the deal with Tammy is getting on my nerves. The fact you and Jill just sat there and talked about me like I was not even sitting there really made me want to crawl under the table and hide. It was hurtful to me. And then I told him, here we are trying to plan our life together and I wonder, is she going to be a constant thorn in my side? Am I going to always have to walk on eggshells for the time we are living in this apt? <o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">And he’s talking and trying to tell me over and over there is nothing and never was nothing with Tammy. He said they have had a few lunches, dinners, etc but nothing more then friends. I know she likes him. And i know she wants more. My thing is , he knows that too and he uses that for favors, like ceiling fans in his apt he doest have to pay for, he gets to park in the covered parking and that’s $35 extra, doesn’t pay, he gets another parking spot free for his other van and only 1 parking for 1bdrm apt people. SO I was going to have to park in the visitors parking. (wtf, right?) And he gets to pay his rent whenever he feels like it. She will cover for him.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Fine, whatever. So he’s using her and she wants more. That’s his fault that she’s causing us problems. Not mine. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">So we go on and on and I let out about well we are suppose to be in a committed relationship, this myspace shit, this secret phone calls and text, and dirty texts and over excessive flirting with people have to stop. It’s not fair to me, your playboy days have to come to an end or this is not going to work. I do not want to be in an open relationship anymore. They are too hurtful and cause too much pain. I thought I had made that clear and I thought this is what you wanted. Me. Not anyone else, but me.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Then he gets into all this about how sorry he is. He’s telling me all about the dirty texts (he never questioned me on knowing or if I was on his phone) and how the girls live so far away and that’s all it is. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Well it has to stop. Bottom line. He agreed. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">There is more, but you get the general idea. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">So we get to my house and we start talking about our relationship and how he’s just scared. He’s scared of letting me down, letting himself down and just is afraid of being broken hearted again. I was like, that’s just life and those are the chances you have to take sometimes. You and I we are good when we are together, we see that. We just have to be willing to take that chance. Its scary for me too. For many of the same reasons he is scared.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Well then it started to storm and it was getting really late and I knew he needed to sleep. He was like babe, we are OK. I am gonna go home, grab a nap and get to work. You finish up your laundry, get your stuff packed and come over in the morn. We will get you a key made and we will do this, it will all be ok. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Monday gets here. I call. No word. I wait. Wait. Wait some more. Finally here from him about 3pm and he’s telling me he just got up. I told him I called some places and had some apt set up for interviews at the staffing agencies. He gets a call. Lets me go and never calls me back. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I tried to text him, and he replied he wasn’t home, out running errands would call me later.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br />He didn’t.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I tried calling and texting him all night while he was at work.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">So here it is Tuesday, my bday. I am thinking well, are we gonna go out or what.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">No word. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I am flipping out by this point. I literally spent all day in bed crying. I had talked to Shannon for about an hour telling her everything and once I got off the phone with her I went into hysterical fit on my bed. Just crying , so my mom comes busting in all pissed off as hell screaming and carrying on, fuck this and fuck that and fuck him and all that did was piss me off even more.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">So Tues night, late I finally get a text from him. I am getting cold feet. I am a piece of shit and I am so sorry but I just do not know what to say!<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">So I call him. No answer. He texts me saying he was on the phone. I call again. And he answers and I am like PLEASE just talk to me.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">He’s like you know I went home Sunday night and I just kept thinking about things and kept telling myself its going to be ok. We are both scared and we are going to do this together. But I just got so nervous. Then Monday he got all caught up in some serious child support problems and basically they made him feel like a piece of shit that was worthless and never going to amount to anything. So that got him all clouded in the brain. So Tues he was busting ass trying to find some job leads and he just kept thinking about things.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I am like you couldn’t fucking call me and tell me what’s going on?? <o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I was so upset and so pissed. And hurting. He ruined my bday. HE DID! And I let him.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">So I am sitting here talking to him about all the stuff with the interviews and moving and life and just crying and we are trying to figure things out and just not able to come up with any answers. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">We got off the phone.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I sent him a text @ 4am today with the hopes I could come over and get my stuff that was left there over the weekend.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">He calls me with this - my place is your place, call me when you are ready to come over, we'll get your stuff together, we will talk more about this and we will figure something out.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">So I sleep a few more hours.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">And let me tell you I know this is a lot to take in, but this is the SHORT version. There is so much we talked about and said. I just am in such a daze that I cant really think of it all.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">These last few days have been such a roller coaster and I am so run down. I feel like I could sleep for days.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I have been on the phone with Shannon and Jules for so long that my brain hurts; I mean...those girls can talk!! And it’s been every day I have cried to them.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">So, I get to his house, he jumps in the shower cause I just woke him up. I am sitting there twiddling my thumbs thinking to myself, what am I going to say, what’s he going to say, what’s gonna happen? <o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">He starts with small talk, whats the weather like outside and blah blah. I am thinking, yikes, this isn’t gonna go well. So he sits down across from me and just stares at me and I see his eyes water. (they did this in the car Sunday night, this is not a normal thing at all for this man)<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">NO<br />I cant bare that no more. This is not a man who cries. I doubt he ever has to be honest with you. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">So I am like, Mike, talk to me. Tell me what’s going on inside your head. I am here. Let’s get this all out. And he’s just shaking his head telling me he just doesn’t know what to say or what to do.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">He finally starts to spill shit. We get it all out there. Our relationship, how it started, what it is now, how it just went from 0 to 60 in 2 seconds. He just felt overwhelmed and now that the child support people are after him because they don’t think he’s applying himself good enough with the job he has and basically made him feel like worthless piece of shit because even tho he is working he’s not making the amount of money he used to so therefore his payments have been less. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">He wants me to move in. He wants us to be together. But right now he needs to get his shit together and take care of himself.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I can respect that. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Our time to live together is just not now. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">He told me he thought I was going to give him the ultimatum that we do this or I leave.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">No, I told him. I don’t want to throw our relationship away.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br />I mean, yeah we have been kicking it for almost a year now, but within the last 2 months is when we really started to get serious. SO yeah, we did go full speed ahead without really thinking. It just seemed like a good thing to do. And it is, just not right now.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">So, I am back at my place, and just trying to put things back together and motivate myself to get back out there and find another job. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">He told me he worried so much I was going to leave him and that wasn’t what he wanted. He just wants to get his shit together because, for one he just needs to, and for two I deserve to have someone secure and stable. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">He is right.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">How can I argue that?<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I am sad. I had looked forward to moving in with him and squashing this distance between us, as well as being back in the city. I miss living in the city. And not having to commute 50 million miles to work and shit.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">You know, I feel like I am living that saying - if you love something set it free if it comes back it was meant to be and if it doesn’t it wasn’t yours to begin with, or some crap like that.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Even though I am not setting him free, I just feel like I am giving him his space to get his life together. So he can be a better person for himself and once he’s happier with himself, then he can be better for me. He told me he’s not had anyone in his life (he’s pretty much just been single and dating for last 4 years) who wanted to be with him or love him, everyone has tried to change him. Its hard for him to get used to having someone who WANTS to be there with him and for him. He wants to be better for himself, for me, for his son. And that’s a big thing. He said I make him feel like a better man, that he wants to stop living life just getting by and actually do something with it. I guess I make him want to be a better person is what he was trying to get at. That makes me feel good, that I have that impression on him. That he wants to do better so that WE can be better. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I am trying to be optimistic, but I don’t know if it is working to well.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I have my doubts. Sometimes this distance kills us. But I guess you just have to do what you have to do in life.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Because the truth is, my heart just won’t let him go. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br />He asked me for some time to get his life straight. He has to do what he has to do.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">So, I guess that’s about it. I didn’t stay but a few hours. His dad was waiting on him to come over. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Part of me is OK, but a part of me is sad too. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I guess I just live life as we have been and hope for the best and that things will work themselves out in the end.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I don’t know honey, I just don’t know. All I know is I have to get my life together too. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">So maybe in the end, this is the best thing for both of us right now. And maybe, our time is later.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Ok..There is my babble update.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Sorry it was so long and sorry for all the typos. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Now you are pretty well up to speed on what’s going on.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-48073900411324632642008-07-20T07:10:00.001-04:002010-11-17T15:59:15.417-05:00Poetry In Motion: You Found MeYou found me<br />When I did not want to be found.<br />I wasn’t looking<br />Didn’t want anyone around.<br />You picked me up<br />You dusted me off<br />When I had fallen to the ground.<br />I came here,<br />Running away to hide<br />But you saw a glimmer<br />Of that girl buried deep inside.<br />You didn’t give up on me<br />Even if I was blinded and could not see.<br />There you were<br />Day after day<br />Always there to guide me<br />Holding my hand along to way.<br />You found me.<br />You poked at me<br />And prodded some more<br />Little by little you changed me<br />And I wanted more.<br />Time after time,<br />Day after day<br />You found the real me hidden deep inside.<br />I want to keep this girl around, this me<br />I want her here to stay.<br />No longer wanting her to run and hide.<br />I see a new life<br />With wide open eyes.<br />Baby, I am glad –<br />You found me.<br />C.M. 7-13-08<br /><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_753099">I can soooooooooooo relate to this, sis! I call Rye my "Spidey" because she managed to scale my walls!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Tuesday, July 22, 2008 - 12:28 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=416626620#" id="addReplyLnk_753099" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=416626620&commentID=753099" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><label id="NewDiv_753099"></label></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_758393">This is cool! I love it.....I know about being found when it was totally unexpected...hahaha!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a>on Saturday, August 02, 2008 - 8:06 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-26145648953073396762008-07-14T16:39:00.000-04:002008-07-14T16:41:13.517-04:00IntegrityAgain, not one of mine but something I found and wanted to keep, as well as pass along.<br />Enjoy,<br />~Irish~<br />****************************************<br />"If you have integrity, nothing else matters. If you don't have integrity, nothing else matters." -Alan Simpson-<br />+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+<br /><br />Integrity<br /><br />Practice integrity with those things that don't really matter. And your integrity will shine brightly in the things that matter most.<br /><br /><br />Integrity, by very definition, cannot be turned on and off. True integrity is indivisible. To be able to act with integrity in any area of life, You must live with integrity at all times, In all situations. Otherwise, you are merely attempting to imitate integrity, And that is an exercise in futility. Practice integrity even when you're sure that no one else will ever know.<br /><br /><br />That will build in you a true, living integrity that does not need to be announced.<br /><br /><br />Be quick to forgive and slow to offend. For integrity has no use at all for holding grudges.<br /><br />Live each moment with integrity, and make it who you always are.<br /><br />For a real, living integrity can take you places you otherwise could never go.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-14228292381873478802008-07-13T14:26:00.002-04:002010-11-17T16:00:04.140-05:00Blogging Isn’t Much Fun Anymore (Why I have Cold Feet)This is the original blog I posted on MySpace, sort of explains the "Cold Feet" a little more.<br />****************<br /><br />Blogging Isn't Much Fun Anymore<br /><br />I have come to realize that blogging just really is not much fun anymore.<br /><br />I can remember years ago when we all first started. 360 Boulevard. That is where so many of us met up. We shared stories we wrote. We share poetry we had written. Our words were critiqued. It was a way for so many of us to share our writing. Then we got to know each other as friends. We became family. Our blogs then turned a little more personal. Letting our friends know what was going on in life. Seeking shelter, solitude and advice from others. We formed a bond. We were a unit. It was nothing for me to turn out story after story and get 1000 hits and over 50 comments.<br /><br />I can remember days when The Crow and Irish would collaborate on stuff and it was like an online flurry to flock and read chapter after chapter. That was when it was fun.<br /><br />But then 360 started to have its issues. One by one people started to go elsewhere and many of us landed on MySpace.<br /><br />I still have my 360 page. Sometimes I just copy a post that I had on MySpace. But no one comments or really visits since 90% of my friends are on MySpace. Just a random few who left MySpace and like to just stick to 360.<br /><br />Ahhhh good ole MySpace. The blogging continued. AS time went on more and more real live friends arrived. People I knew from work, in life, my family, people I went to high school with, people I went to college with, people I met through other friends, people I partied with, and people I worked with. Oh great. A free forum for me to talk to all my friends instead of dealing with a cell phone/long distance phone bill.<br /><br />MySpace provided a great place for me to let everyone know what's up in life without having to spend all day on the phone.<br /><br />I met more and more like minded people as time went on. I have made some awesome online friends.<br /><br />I have seen people lose their homes and start all over, I have seen car accident, motorcycle accidents, charity events, kids being born, people getting married, peoples kids graduation, I have seen people get sick with cancer and beat it, unfortunately I have seen some not beat it, I have lost friends to murder, I have made friends, I have shared hopes and dreams of seeing Ireland, I have met people in Ireland, I gained a brother, I have seen relationships end and I have seen so many begin. I have watched people fight; I have been dragged into the middle always trying to be the peacekeeper. I have seen in all over the years.<br /><br />I remember once Elonna and I used to talk about how we were going to write scripts out of some of the things that went on – we were bound and determined to have a national best seller on our hands!<br /><br />These friendships are what keep me on MySpace. Real life and online. Friends are what make the world go round. A person can never have too many friends.<br /><br />Once I moved to MI away from all my friends in OK it became a wonderful tool for me to easily keep in touch with all of them. I let them know what's up in life and they let me know. Trust me when I say, this has saved all of us on cell phone bills. Even those of us on unlimited plans – MySpace is just so much easier! Especially when it seems like everyone is on different cell phone carriers.<br /><br />But the blogging just is not the same. I know I have had a few people tell me my stories and poems have helped them in so many ways. To just know someone else has gone through what they have gone through in life. Knowing they are not alone. These are the reason I chose to share the things I do. Long gone are the days where comments and hits are coming in by the dozens. And that's OK. I realize people have life going on. We all have roamed off in other directions. Stopped blogging, stopped commenting…for whatever the reason.<br /><br />I have hit a crossroads in my life. Where does one draw the line about what is personal/private and should not be shared and what should be? I mean, I want to continue to let my friends know how things are in life. But at the same time maybe I should just send a private message through email instead of blogging. My blog is set to private, but many of us know even that's not a guarantee to keep outsiders off. My page is private as well. So even with a double block, there are some of us out there who still know the old MySpace back door secrets to getting it.<br /><br />I have to come to some sort of a compromise. Not just for myself, but for dude. MySpace has caused us some problems and I don't want that anymore. I care about him and our relationship enough to respect him and his opinions. I am willing to compromise.<br /><br />I had thought about leaving MySpace altogether. But I just have too many real life friends and family here to do that. I have thought about many different things.<br /><br />But in the end, for right now I think super duper personal blogging with halt. I think my jokes and and silly posts are fine. I am debating on my poetry. I think general Hi, how are you? I am ok blogs are ok. But I think the personal stuff will just come to a halt.<br /><br />So, if you don't see a post for a while, it's not because I have left. It's just that blogging isn't what it used to be for me anymore.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-5824343840883691902008-07-13T14:21:00.000-04:002008-07-13T14:24:08.052-04:00Fail ForwardThis isn't one of my writings, but I happened to stumble across it when looking through my CherryTap/Fubar Stash stuff. I wanted to see if I had anything I wanted to keep before I deleted that account. This was certainly something I felt worth passing along.<br />**************************************************************<br />Fail Forward<br /><br />The next time you find yourself envying what successful people have achieved, recognize that they have probably gone through many negative experiences you cannot see on the surface.<br /><br />An old jokes like this: Never ask whats in a hot dog while you're eating one. The idea is that if you did know what's in it, you'd never want to eat one again.<br /><br />A lot of failure goes into success.If you really want to achieve your dreams I mean really achieve them, not just daydream or talk about them you've got to get out there and fail. Fail early, fail often, but always fail forward. Turn your mistakes into stepping-stones for success.<br /><br />TAKE A RISK AND BE WILLING TO FAIL FORWARD TODAY.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-56929409334875483702008-07-13T14:20:00.000-04:002008-07-13T14:21:32.196-04:00DistanceDistance is not the end of the world in a relationship.<br /><br />Distance cannot, and will not hurt a bond between two people that is based on mutual respect, trust, commitment, and love. Although you may feel like you are losing faith in your relationship at times, hold fast and trust your heart!<br /><br />I, like you, truly believe that love & relationships are what make your life special, and that ones built on love & understanding are always worth preserving, regardless of the miles that may separate two people.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-56083970338377319682008-07-12T13:47:00.001-04:002010-11-17T16:00:59.646-05:00Cold FeetSo, I am sitting here - setting up these blog feeds.<br /><br />I was going to sync with some blogs folks here in MI. Couple of guys set up their own blog site. Which I thought was really cool. But the had a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">TOS</span> that stated nothing pornographic. Well that <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">didn't</span> seal the deal with me since Erotic Confessions would break that <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">TOS</span> in a heartbeat.<br /><br />Now I am thinking to myself again, I really need to stop doing that. Should I have this blog fed into the BA Group? Should I feed it to <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">Facebook</span>?<br /><br />Do I even want to venture out of the box again?<br /><br />I have to ask myself these questions because recently (for those of you who don't know) I've stopped "dating" and become "in a relationship" with my dude. Which is great. But my dude is NOT an online person AT ALL! He only has a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">MySpace</span> to promote himself and his friends because they are <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">MMA</span> Trainer/Fighters and Sports Management Companies. He is much, much, MUCH more private then me and we have had to come to some compromise over my blogging.<br /><br />As he puts it, having his personal business out there for all the world to see is just weird to him.<br /><br />I can understand that.<br /><br />So as I put this blog together I go off thinking to myself, what can I write about? Is he going to think all this stuff I write about is personal? Where do you draw the line?<br /><br />All I know, is I love to write. He tells me to buy a diary and keep it private. Duh, I have those. I have so much I keep private.<br /><br />I don't know, but my cold feet just might very well turn in to writers block if I am not careful.<br /><br />~Irish~Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-62809822392326010872008-07-12T13:04:00.000-04:002008-07-12T13:12:43.251-04:00Here We Go (again)This is just going to be a generic "Hello" post for now. Just to say hello. *waves*<br /><br /><br />Most of you already know me from other random blogging sites. Lets see, their is <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">myspace</span> (which I will be keeping) the original 360 most of us all met on (which has pretty much died out) Then we had Cherry Tap now known as <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Fubar</span> (<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">wtf</span>?? who came up with that??) Oh there was Hi5, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">Bebo</span>, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">TagWorld</span>, and some other randoms that have been deleted. Oh and let us not forget I also have <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">Facebook</span> which I will be feeding this blog in to at some point in time.<br /><br />Like I said, if you were connected to me at any of these other sites you already know who I am.<br /><br />Others of you will be new to my world. Will have to give The Crow a heads up for pulling me out of the rut and making me see that the talent is there ( I hope it is anyway) and that I need to dust myself off and get that writing going again.<br /><br />So, here I am. I hope you will pull up a chair and stick around for a while.<br /><br />Because I have so many real life friends on <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">MySpace</span>, it will stay. The blogging there will be different then it will be here. The 360 is just there because a few people fell off the <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">MySpace</span> radar and so I copy/paste a blog or two there just to keep them posted on life.<br /><br />Blogger and <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">Facebook</span> will all tie together (eventually) and even though their are some people on <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">Facebook</span> who know me in real life, they are about to see the "real" writing I can do.<br /><br /><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">Uber</span> personal stuff will be left behind. Names will be changed and characters of life will emerge.<br /><br />Useless Ramblings, Poetry In Motion and Erotic Confessions will return.<br /><br />Now then, let me find my bottle of motivation and I will be on my merry little way.<br /><br />I might <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">repost</span> some old material just to get the juices (no pun intended there!) flowing!<br /><br />~Irish~Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-54633483138213842532008-07-09T19:17:00.009-04:002010-11-03T22:14:42.569-04:00Blogging Isn’t Much Fun Anymore<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, July 09, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I have come to realize that blogging just really is not much fun anymore.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I can remember years ago when we all first started. 360 Boulevard.<span> </span>That is where so many of us met up. We shared stories we wrote. We share poetry we had written. Our words were critiqued. It was a way for so many of us to share our writing. Then we got to know each other as friends. We became family.<span> </span>Our blogs then turned a little more personal. Letting our friends know what was going on in life. Seeking shelter, solitude and advice from others. We formed a bond. We were a unit. It was nothing for me to turn out story after story and get 1000 hits and over 50 comments.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I can remember days when The Crow and Irish would collaborate on stuff and it was like an online flurry to flock and read chapter after chapter. That was when it was fun.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span> </span>But then 360 started to have its issues. One by one people started to go elsewhere and many of us landed on MySpace.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I still have my 360 page. Sometimes I just copy a post that I had on MySpace. But no one comments or really visits since 90% of my friends are on MySpace. Just a random few who left MySpace and like to just stick to 360.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Ahhhh good ole MySpace. The blogging continued. AS time went on more and more real live friends arrived. People I knew from work, in life, my family, people I went to high school with, people I went to college with, people I met through other friends, people I partied with, and people I worked with. Oh great. A free forum for me to talk to all my friends instead of dealing with a cell phone/long distance phone bill.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">MySpace provided a great place for me to let everyone know what's up in life without having to spend all day on the phone.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I met more and more like minded people as time went on. I have made some awesome online friends.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I have seen people lose their homes and start all over, I have seen car accident, motorcycle accidents, charity events, kids being born, people getting married, peoples kids graduation,<span> </span>I have seen people get sick with cancer and beat it, unfortunately I have seen some not beat it, I have lost friends to murder, I have made friends, I have shared hopes and dreams of seeing Ireland, I have met people in Ireland, I gained a brother, I have seen relationships end and I have seen so many begin. I have watched people fight; I have been dragged into the middle always trying to be the peacekeeper. I have seen in all over the years.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I remember once Elonna and I used to talk about how we were going to write scripts out of some of the things that went on – we were bound and determined to have a national best seller on our hands!</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">These friendships are what keep me on MySpace. Real life and online.<span> </span>Friends are what make the world go round. A person can never have too many friends.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Once I moved to MI away from all my friends in OK it became a wonderful tool for me to easily keep in touch with all of them. I let them know what's up in life and they let me know. Trust me when I say, this has saved all of us on cell phone bills. Even those of us on unlimited plans – MySpace is just so much easier! Especially when it seems like everyone is on different cell phone carriers.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">But the blogging just is not the same. I know I have had a few people tell me my stories and poems have helped them in so many ways. To just know someone else has gone through what they have gone through in life. Knowing they are not alone. These are the reason I chose to share the things I do. Long gone are the days where comments and hits are coming in by the dozens.<span> </span>And that's OK. I realize people have life going on. We all have roamed off in other directions. Stopped blogging, stopped commenting…for whatever the reason.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I have hit a crossroads in my life. Where does one draw the line about what is personal/private and should not be shared and what should be?<span> </span>I mean, I want to continue to let my friends know how things are in life. But at the same time maybe I should just send a private message through email instead of blogging. My blog is set to private, but many of us know even that's not a guarantee to keep outsiders off. My page is private as well. So even with a double block, there are some of us out there who still know the old MySpace back door secrets to getting it.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I have to come to some sort of a compromise. Not just for myself, but for dude.<span> </span>MySpace has caused us some problems and I don't want that anymore. I care about him and our relationship enough to respect him and his opinions. I am willing to compromise.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I had thought about leaving MySpace altogether. But I just have too many real life friends and family here to do that. I have thought about many different things.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">But in the end, for right now I think super duper personal blogging with halt. I think my jokes and and silly posts are fine.<span> </span>I am debating on my poetry. I think general Hi, how are you? I am ok blogs are ok. But I think the personal stuff will just come to a halt.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">So, if you don't see a post for a while, it's not because I have left. It's just that blogging isn't what it used to be for me anymore.</span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_747342">I know I am totally OK with the personal emails in getting updates!!!<br /><br />Just as long as I know what is going on...lol<br /><br />Glad everything is falling into place for ya!!<br /><br />~Hugs~<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Saturday, July 12, 2008 - 6:21 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=413343262#" id="addReplyLnk_747342" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=413343262&commentID=747342" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px;"><span></span></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-89862444154603731062008-07-08T21:54:00.003-04:002010-11-03T22:17:25.775-04:00Thanks Daizybug- you goofy girl<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Tuesday, July 08, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />Have I ever told you guys how blessed I am to have such wonderful friends???<br /><br />Well, I have great friends!<br /><br />My goofy Shannon decided to give me a new ringtone. So yesterday she zips it to me and I got a huge smile over it. Everytime I call Shan, this is what people are going to hear!!!! hahahaha<br /><br />So then I had to add it to my phone. It doesnt much apply to her, but I set it as her ringtone anyway *sticks tongue out at her* (because I can)<br /><br />I then had to zap the video on over to my girl Jens page cause , well its right up her alley! LOL.<br /><br />Anyway - give it a listen, it will all become clear to you and then you have have a smile too!<br /><br /><br /><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/llmGx2WHeww?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/llmGx2WHeww?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">This was never the way I planned</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Not my intention</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I got so brave, drink in hand</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Lost my discretion</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It's not what, I'm used to</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Just wanna try you on</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I'm curious for you</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Caught my attention</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I kissed a girl and I liked it</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">The taste of her cherry chapstick</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I kissed a girl just to try it</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I hope my boyfriend don't mind it</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It felt so wrong</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It felt so right</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Don't mean I'm in love tonight</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I kissed a girl and I liked it</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I liked it</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">No, I don't even know your name</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It doesn't matter</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Your my experimental game</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Just human nature</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It's not what, good girls do</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Not how they should behave</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">My head gets so confused</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Hard to obey</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I kissed a girl and I liked it</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">The taste of her cherry chapstick</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I kissed a girl just to try it</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I hope my boyfriend don't mind it</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It felt so wrong</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It felt so right</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Don't mean I'm in love tonight</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I kissed a girl and I liked it</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I liked it</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Us girls we are so magical</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Soft skin, red lips, so kissable</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Hard to resist so touchable</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Too good to deny it</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Ain't no big deal, it's innocent</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I kissed a girl and I liked it</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">The taste of her cherry chapstick</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I kissed a girl just to try it</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I hope my boyfriend don't mind it</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It felt so wrong</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It felt so right</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Don't mean I'm in love tonight</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I kissed a girl and I liked it</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I liked it</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_745345">Someone at work played this the other day! Did you know she used to be a Christian singer??<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Wednesday, July 09, 2008 - 6:48 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=413166778#" id="addReplyLnk_745345" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=413166778&commentID=745345" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><label id="NewDiv_745345"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_747337">I LOVE this song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is soooo catchy and addictive! hehehe<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Saturday, July 12, 2008 - 6:15 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=413166778#" id="addReplyLnk_747337" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=413166778&commentID=747337" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-3683223471041425662008-07-08T21:48:00.003-04:002010-11-03T22:18:39.741-04:00Changes<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Tuesday, July 08, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">So I am sitting here trying to beat boredom. Knowing I need to make a change. But too tired to even care right now. Just trying to figure out the best plan of action. Or maybe I am just procrastinating. Who knows. All I know is my myspace is going to go through some changes.<br /><br /><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></span><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_745346">Yeah, it sure is...it's almost acting like 360! LOL!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Wednesday, July 09, 2008 - 6:49 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-85974374281064791342008-07-08T16:05:00.004-04:002010-11-15T16:08:03.325-05:00Dear Diary: Part 2<div class="MsoNormal">Dear Diary</div><div class="MsoNormal">Part 2</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I guess I need to rehash what went down today. Don’t really want to. Too tired really. But if I don’t, then I will never get it done. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Yesterday I talk to Mike. Well back up, Sunday I had talked to Mike. We had been trying to make plans to hang and per usual, things did not pan out. Which is ok cause we have been spending a lot of time together lately since I quit my job and am looking for work down in Lansing. We just found out we got this apt we been wanting. So now it’s just a matter of time before we get our asses moved in. I just hope he doesn’t drag his ass on getting his paycheck stub and deposit money over to her. Anyway let me get back on topic. So Sunday we had tried to make plans for him to come out after his route. He calls me Monday am to tell me a friend of the family passed away 4<sup>th</sup> of July. So his parents and such were going to be heading down to Ohio to go. He had asked me to go, but I needed to be at the doc office today to get signed up for free health care. Anyway I did not hear from him all day so I just assumed he was riding along with his dad. I get a call about 3am today, he didn’t go. Told me all the stuff he got in to. And he’s on his way to Ohio now. We talked and talked. He told me how much he missed me and we just had an awesome conversation. Which we usually do. I had sent him some naughty vids of me the other day which he thought was just cool as hell.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have to admit, my trust has been hard. You see the leasing manager Tammy, on his myspace has been leaving status messages in regards to hanging out with him and such. I have tried to talk to him about it and he always got cold and angry about it. I tried to let it go, but it just really ate at me. Seems every time we could not hang out, she had some message about her honey and blah blah.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Well yesterday I had put the pic back up of me and him. I was missing him and that pic makes me happy. Who cares right? We are a couple, so what’s the big deal. So I go to leave him some funny comments, hoping he will come home to a laugh after the funeral and on her page I see that message about how I don’t know about the past 12 months. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So I texted mike to call me when he had a chance. He was on his way to the burial, funeral session was almost over. I told him about it. He got so pissed off and he was just so mean and hurtful. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have no idea what to think anymore. I want to believe him. Want to always trust him, but it’s so hard. He has told me so much about her. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Anyway, we talked again a few hours ago. He says he chewed her ass out. Told her time and time again they were just friends he did not want a relationship with her. She told him she liked him. And he’s like trying to tell her what kind of shit are you trying to pull putting that on your myspace? And she tried to tell him I started it by putting that pic of us up. WTF kind of shit is that?? This woman is 40yrs old. Act like it. So he’s telling me all this stuff and its just in my brain. Swirling around. Pondering. Wondering. And now he wants to get rid of h is myspace. I don’t want him to. I like having him on my page. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Part of me feels played. The other part of me tries to put all the pieces together and form some solid history that I can trust. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I want nothing more then to build my life with this guy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I am trying to just put it behind me and move on. </div><div class="MsoNormal">Hopefully things will get better. Anyway, there is more, but I am too tired. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-18671877394548320642008-07-08T15:56:00.000-04:002010-11-15T16:05:26.126-05:00Dear Diary<div class="MsoNormal">Dear Diary </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">#1</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 9.0pt; line-height: 115%;">So here I am, all happy, we got our apt and blah blah, then I come to leave you comments and see this<br /><br />Tamtam doesn't think SHE knows about us for the past 12 months<br />Mood: Frustrated<br /><br /><br />What the hell is going on???<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 9.0pt; line-height: 115%;">#2<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 9.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Subject: <o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 9.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Words I Can't Speak<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in;"><b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 9.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Body: <o:p></o:p></span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 4.5pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 9.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Sometimes I can write better then I can talk. So I am just going to spill my heart here because I don't want to call and bother you and not sure when you are going to talk to me.<br /><br />I said I trusted you - I meant that.<br />I gave you my heart - because I think you deserve to have it.<br />I told you I loved you - I meant that too.<br />I said I wanted to build this future with you - I meant that with every inch of me. <br /><br />Everything I have ever said about us - meant every word of it.<br /><br />I have seen you grow so much as a person over the last few months. Our relationship has bloomed and everything is so wonderful.<br /><br />I dont love half heartedly. I love with all of me. I don't feel or say things I don't mean. I hope you realize that by now.<br /><br />I said I was sorry - and I am. I can not take back any words or action so all I can do is tell you - "I'm Sorry."<br /><br />I want more then anything to forget this and continue forward to our future. To build on that life we been talking about, that we dream of. That I know we can have.<br /><br />I was not trying to cause drama like you might think. I believe in you and in us and all that we can be together. I came to you because I was hurt. Seeing those words stung. I should always be able to come to you when I am hurting, or for anything for that matter. Hurting because here is this man that I care about, simply love and adore and here is this person who doesn’t want me to. Who is trying to bring hurt. <br /><br />I did not mean to make you mad baby. That is the last thing I wanted to do today. All I wanted was to be there for you today in your time of need as you grieve for the loss of your friend. <br /><br />I dont want you to be mad at me. I just wanted to talk to you because I was hurt. I needed to find comfort in you. Her words hurt and I can not help how they made me feel. <br /><br />When I asked what was going on, that was not me accusing you of anything. I have listened to everything you have ever told me about her. That was me asking out loud, like thinking out loud what is up with her. Please understand that. I was thinking why is she doing this? If she is your friend, they why can't she be happy for you. Isn’t that how friends are suppose to be? <br /><br />I know this could not come at a worse time for you. And for that I just feel terrible about. I wish I could take it all back and make it all go away. <br /><br />I love you Mike, and I just want to continue to move forward. <br /><br />I have thought about leaving myspace altogether. But I have too many real life friends and family here to delete it. So instead, I am just going to delete all the blogs, all the personal stuff and revamp it. I would like to use it to promote our business. The store, website and such. <br /><br />I wanted to apply for that loan today, but there were a couple more things I wanted to talk to you about before I did. <br /><br />Just know I love you and you are in my heart. Know that I want to continue forward.<br /><br />xoxoxxo<br /><br />PS - I am ready to start packing! *hearts and smiles* <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-30064977587692039882008-07-03T13:50:00.002-04:002010-11-03T22:20:17.844-04:00On this day - One Year Ago ~Stay Strong<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, July 03, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_411554068" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">One year ago today I had to say good-bye to my beloved grandmother.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Funny how after all this time I can see her just like it was yesterday. That memory forever in my mind. But yet there are so many things I can not recall. Strange how your mind holds on to certain events and yet chooses to let others go. <span> </span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I had originally planned to start writing about all these great memories I had of my grandmother. But right now I am too selfish to share them. Instead, I keep thinking about how the events after her funeral pretty much changed my life forever.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I knew driving back to OK that this would be my last "trip" back home.<span> </span>I went back to work, gave my 2 weeks, let Marcus know I was leaving and by the end of July I was here in Michigan with my family and leaving behind everything and everyone I had ever known.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Sometimes I feel if I knew it was going to be as hard as it was I may have just stayed in OK.<span> </span>There have been times when I just wanted to pack my things and run back to what was comfortable, familiar, safe. Back to my friends who loved me and missed me.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">But I could not.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">For too many years I have run from things. And this was the year I had to tell myself NOT to run away.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">There is something here worth holding on to. There is someone here worth building a life with.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">So as I think about my grandma today and how much I miss her, I also think about all those life lessons she taught me.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Sometimes letting go and letting someone else in will be the best investment in life you can make.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Running away will solve nothing. We all know this to be true. So instead of running away, this time I choose to run towards life.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">My grandparents always told me I was strong. And for once I am choosing to believe them.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I look to my past as memories, lessons learned. I look to my future with bright sunshine eyes.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I will stay strong, I will continue to move forward and build that life together which we both want. And I will forever her e my grandmother say – " I love you Chrystal, you stay strong."</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-32901199015746664992008-07-02T18:36:00.004-04:002010-11-15T18:38:23.806-05:00What is this TRUST in which you speak of?<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">What is this TRUST in which you speak of?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">I thought I had things figured out. I thought I had let feelings go. I thought everything inside of me was signaling FULL SPEED AHEAD & ALL SYSTEMS GO.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">I thought wrong. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Trust is not coming to me so easily. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></div><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Trust lies at the heart of a strong relationship. I think my relationship is stronger now then it ever was. I try very hard every day to not think about the past. To not let the actions of others in the past portray my outlook on my present life and future.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">When my trust is lost I feel betrayed, angry and taken for granted. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">But what is trust? <o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">For me trust is when we take as fact some belief we have, for which there is only partial evidence. For that very reason there is an element of uncertainty and risk involved. Whoever we are trusting may not always live up to the faith we are putting in them. That is just a fact of life.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">I talk of "placing my trust" in someone, which shows that it involves an action rather than just my feelings.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">But I also see trust as something that must be earned. I may trust other adults according to how much I know of their character, attitudes and behavior. I will only give a person so much trust; the rest will come with time. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Another way I see trust is as something that is inspired in someone when they are trusted. You place the trust, let go, and believe they will rise to the faith put in them. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">When trusting I must be fully aware of the weakness of human nature and ready to forgive when someone lets me down. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">This is where all the feelings and emotions start to come in. Going from one level of trust to another. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">From this I can see that I am capable of having different ideas of what it means to trust. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">My ability to trust may be affected by my upbringing and past experiences too. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">It is very easy within a relationship to assume we view trust in the same way as our partner, but assumptions can be misleading and lead to disappointment and hurt when things go wrong.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">We all long for someone who has chosen us, who respects, honors and cares for us, someone with whom we can be real, who accepts us for who we are and will stand by us through anything.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">I am hoping as I move forward and make these changes in life with dude that this is what I have found. That the trust I have given him, the trust I have put in to him will not falter and let me down. I hope that as we make these plans together in life that he is the one who will respect me, honor me, care for me when I need it, be my rock when I always need him, he is always real with me, honest with me, and will stand by me through thick and thin. Every day I look for that positive ray of sunshine and think to myself – “I hope he is not the one who is going to abuse my trust, one to lie to me, cheat on me, and treat me poorly.” <o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">As I honestly do not think I can pull through another relationship like that.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">I see all the changes we have made together over the last 10 months. We have both grown in so many ways, together and separately. I see all the good that is between us now and that’s what I hold on to. That’s what I hold close to my heart and hope that trust will prevail and that I CAN give him that.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">There are several steps towards learning to trust again. It usually helps to acknowledge your own feelings and the reality of the hurt. The first step forward is forgiveness, choosing not to hold what has happened.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">I have to learn that despite my past and his – that it is just that. In the past. I have to forgive those that have done me wrong and let go. I have to forgive his past mistakes and understand that we are heading towards our future.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">But why is this so hard to do????<o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">The second step is to begin the rebuilding process, with both of us choosing to live in honesty and openness with each other. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">I think we are well on our way with that. But sometimes I see something, or hear something that just makes me go…HUH? Are you kidding me???? And I question it. I bug about it. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">This is going to involve some adjustment to the picture I have of our life together and some adjustment to my own behavior as well as his. <o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Finally I need to allow the time that is necessary to adjust to what is happening, to allow the new approach to life to bed down and become part of our lives together.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">After all we are two separate people who led two separate lives now a couple starting a life together.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">So maybe in the end, trust is just going to work itself out and come in time when it’s ready. At least I have been able to give him a little, so he’s got something to work with.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span><br /><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-33211908462598805582008-06-28T14:47:00.002-04:002010-11-03T21:39:51.906-04:00Ride for Olivia<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Saturday, June 28, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />Today is the day. After months of planning , months of surgery and treatments ... we are finally upon the day where we are going to Ride for Olivia.<br /><br />As many of you know Olivia is my cousins oldest daughter who had a brain tumor/cancer surgery back in march and another one just a few weeks ago.<br /><br />Today we are having a charity motorcycle ride to raise money to help cover the costs the insurance will not pay for.<br /><br />It looks like rain and clouds , but I know with the dude, my family and friends - there is sure to be lots of sunshine.<br /><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/137/s_fa51ecd3152c45d5ba5f2315e578e351.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span><div class="blogRealName" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">Joey Vagance</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"> </span><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_740087">Have fun sis n makes heaps o money.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a>on Sunday, June 29, 2008 - 10:25 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-80243230891667951322008-06-27T21:30:00.002-04:002010-11-03T21:41:26.694-04:00HAPPPPPPPPYYY!!!!!!!!<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, June 27, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />Life is all about changes, and I have certainly have had my fair share. I am on yet another path, another change. A huge one. But a wonderful one. And all I can say is.....<br /><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">So despite the stresses of finding a new place to live and looking for a new job - I am not doing it alone. I have dude with me every step of the way.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><br /><br /><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/137/s_fa51ecd3152c45d5ba5f2315e578e351.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Joey Vagance</div><br /> <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_740088">So glad to see ya happy darlin.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a>on Sunday, June 29, 2008 - 10:25 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-79957608093223951572008-06-24T19:52:00.002-04:002010-11-03T21:46:16.313-04:00I QUIT!!!!!!<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Tuesday, June 24, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">First let me say I am typing this on my phone so excuse all the boo boo that could occur. Now to the matter at hand. I quit. Oh yes I did. QUIT!! Left that damn toxic workplace behind. Too much I care not to get in to here. I am finding my inner peace and moving on to bigger and better things.<br /></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_737889">Damn girl....what a day!! haha<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Tuesday, June 24, 2008 - 11:25 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=408909049#" id="addReplyLnk_737889" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=408909049&commentID=737889" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_737889"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">★Sybil Starr★</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/117/s_ce21eb000e92423a88b1f159a924437e.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Sybil Starr</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_738079">WHOA!!! congrats. . so you got a new job?<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">★Sybil Starr★</a> on Wednesday, June 25, 2008 - 12:53 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=408909049#" id="addReplyLnk_738079" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=408909049&commentID=738079" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=358645704" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_738079"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_739255">Congrats sis. Sometimes you have to do what's best for YOU in order to keep your sanity! And inner peace is MUCH more important than a paycheck.<br />Better life awaits you with Dude and new apartment, job that you will love when you find it, and happiness at last. On to the best part of your life, which starts NOW!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Friday, June 27, 2008 - 1:00 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=408909049#" id="addReplyLnk_739255" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=408909049&commentID=739255" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_739255"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=104635717" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Myca Jean</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=104635717" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/113/s_23c1c577101a4357bf4fc2b123e15346.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Myca Jean Long</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_739443">Congrats!! It reminds me of the song 'take this job and shove it!' love ya girl!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=104635717" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Myca Jean</a>on Friday, June 27, 2008 - 6:53 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=408909049#" id="addReplyLnk_739443" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=408909049&commentID=739443" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=104635717" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-80627698500329792692008-06-23T10:48:00.000-04:002010-11-03T21:48:17.370-04:00Detoxing<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Monday, June 23, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_408431598" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am detoxing my life in more ways then one today. I woke up this morning with a new sense of self<span> </span>worth. I was reminded over the weekend of the girl I was, the girl I am and the girl I am going to become. This person I have reached during the interim is not who I really am and I no longer what to be this way. No longer am I going to allow the negativity and drama of others to bring me down and ruin what I have accomplished so far in life and what I am going to accomplish in the future.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Some people do not realize just how negative they are. All I can say is if you are unhappy with your life and your job, then do something about it. Stop making the rest of the world listen to your bullshit.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">If you read my last blog, you know pretty much where this is coming from. I have a co-worker who is just plain miserable. Miserable with her life and miserable with her job. And she will let you know it, on a daily basis. I have tried and tried to turn a deaf ear and try to make things as pleasant as possible. I tried to become a friend to her because it was obvious to me she needed one. Not to mention she is back here in the accounting department with me, so I have to spend 9hrs a day with her. I tried to make the best of an ugly situation. I went out with her after work, sharing a few drinks on numerous occasions. It made things much easier to deal with when I started to see their was actually a good person inside of her. However, couple of weeks ago that all came to a screeching halt when she purposely betrayed my friendship one night at the bar after I had left. Ever since then I have been trying to limit my time with her. Back to putting up the brick wall and not letting her get over it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">As most of you know there is a guy who works here that is friends with my family. Well this person and this girl have whatever in the hell that they have going on. It's like high school drama that I am constantly getting dragged into the middle of whenever shit falls down. And I am constantly being forced to try and pick sides. Not going to happen. And this drives the both of them crazy.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">If the day is quiet, she will purposely look for something to stir the pot with. So now, I am the bad person, the bad friend because I do not want to listen to her anymore.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am moving on with my life. Moving away, getting a new job, and building a life with dude. This makes her crazy. I am changing the situation I am in while she remains miserable and idle. Is this my fault? No. But somehow today it has become my fault. Whatever, I have no time to let this get to me anymore.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">She said to me the other day, why do the guys at the bar like you and how is it you have a boyfriend and I don't?? WTF I don't need that kind of bullshit in life. Nor those kind of friends.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, I am detoxing my life from all the negativity and holding on to that sunshine that flows on my path.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">My time here is limited and I am just going to make the best of it …. Grin and bare it if you will.</div></div><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_736917">Yay for you! Life is too short to be around negative people! Why do the guys at the bar like YOU and why do YOU have a boyfriend and she doesn't?? The answer is OBVIOUS...you have a sunshiny personality, have a lot to give and then there is the fact that you are gorgeous! What does SHE have to offer? The care takers of the world usually end up getting hurt, but the alternative is letting the others change who we are. That just doesn't work out too well. So good for you! {{{{HUGS}}}} Love ya...you know I do!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Monday, June 23, 2008 - 11:57 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=408431598#" id="addReplyLnk_736917" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=408431598&commentID=736917" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_737247">Oohhh my.........."F" all these back-stabbing Biotches that we work with!!<br /><br />Girl...I feel ya on this one......soooooooooooo feel ya!<br /><br />Move on with YOU....leave them with mud on their faces!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Monday, June 23, 2008 - 10:01 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=408431598#" id="addReplyLnk_737247" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_407613442" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Sometimes I am truly amazed at the behavior of some people. I often sit here wondering –"what did I ever do in life to deserve this?"</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">That answer is always clear to me. NOTHING!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am a good person with a good heart and a good soul. I am not a mean, evil, vindictive person, nor do I purposely bring hatred or harm to others.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, when people enter my life that end up being this way, it just leaves me wanting to run as far away as possible.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I try my best to always be a good person. I know I have my heart on my sleeve. It is always how I have been and just really can not help it.<span> </span>I try to see the good in everything and every person. Including this particular person.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Only right at this moment I can not run. I am stuck and I do not like it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And I am convinced that perhaps the good in this person will never be true and honest because this person likes being mean and hateful and the ramifications it brings.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So instead my only choice is basically to suck it up and grin and bare it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And hope the drama doesn't keep catching up with me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Not an easy task.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">It is running me down and ruining the person I am. I am tired constantly, I can not sleep, I am so stressed out, my internal issues are back and in full force again (could or could not be stress related again), I come home every day and just lie in bed and cry. It's all I can do anymore. My brain runs in 50 million directions wondering how I ever let myself fall in to this trap of letting another human being dictate how I feel.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">What is worse, I KNOW I am stronger then that. But I think I have just reached this point in my life where I have had to fight for so long that I have no strength left.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have had to hit the pause button on life too many times just in the last couple of weeks. Turning myself off to the life going on around me. It may not be a good thing to do, but for right now it is the only way I can cope.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am slowly cutting my ties. But yet feeling badly about it. But I just can not let another person treat me like shit because they think it makes them feel better about themselves with the hopes they will look<span> </span>better in others eyes.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">*SIGHS*</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">For those of you wondering if I am talking about my dude, you can rest assured everything is fine and dandy there. He has been my saving grace through all of this and our future shines so bright. I am looking forward to that day I can put all this behind and we can laugh about it together.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Until then I just have to keep looking ahead.</div></div><div class="blogContentInfo" style="clear: left; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 10px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div class="cmtcell" style="float: left; margin-right: 7px;"></div></div><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/137/s_fa51ecd3152c45d5ba5f2315e578e351.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Joey Vagance</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_735702">Ahhh sis I am so sorry yer goin thru this shite. ~holds ya in me arms for a brotherly hug with teddy in between us~<br /><a href="http://s26.photobucket.com/albums/c130/joey_v/?action=view&current=cute-teddy-bear.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c130/joey_v/cute-teddy-bear.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; 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font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_735762">Never for 1 moment did I think it was the "dude"! I have an idea, but it doesn't matter that much...ANYONE hurting my girl is looking for trouble!! LOL! {{{{HUGS}}}} Don't ever let anyone change who you are!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Friday, June 20, 2008 - 6:43 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=407613442#" id="addReplyLnk_735762" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=407613442&commentID=735762" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_735762"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=261687472" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tim</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=261687472" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/84/s_1d58997801cd4975a1415f8831a6dbc1.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Timothy Dougherty</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_735787">Nothing takes the taste out of peanut butter quite like unrequited love.<br />Charles M. Schulz, Charlie Brown in "Peanuts"<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=261687472" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tim</a> on Friday, June 20, 2008 - 7:49 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=407613442#" id="addReplyLnk_735787" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=407613442&commentID=735787" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=261687472" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_735787"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_735898">Sorry to hear this as well! But girl I have been there.....had to cut those ties and push forward before.....it is hard at first, but for the best I have found. No room for "toxic friends" I say...for what it is worth...lol<br /><br />~hugs~<br /> </div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-16757694686441607832008-06-15T12:25:00.007-04:002010-11-17T16:02:17.191-05:00Another Father's Day Passes<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Sunday, June 15, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">First – to all the great dads out there - Happy Fathers Day and this likely will NOT be a blog for you.</span></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I am feeling rather blah today and I knew I would. Dude and I had this conversation the other day about how this day was just not going to be a good day for me. I tried to explain why. I mean, he knows about the dad and father history. He said to me "You are such a strong woman why do you let this stuff get to you?"</span></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I don't "LET" it. It just does. I can not help what happened to me in the past. And I try like hell to be a better person and not let it get to me and quite frankly I think I have done a very good job of that. However, Fathers day just does not settle well with me.</span></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Then I tell him he just doesn't understand because for one he has a dad, a step dad and he is a dad. </span></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Maybe that was not the right thing to say. I feel bad about it now. But it's the truth. How can anyone possibly understand how I feel unless these things have happened to them as well?</span></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I know dude means well. He is pretty awesome like that. But now I wonder, does he really mean that. Does he really look at me with the past that I have and think – wow she's amazing to have gone through the thing she has gone through and that makes her such a strong woman today. Or does he look at me through love blinded eyes and say that because the truth is I am damaged and he really just does not know what to say, as often many in my past have done.</span></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Anyway……</span></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">First of all I don't think you need a day to tell the great dads how wonderful they are. They should be told that often. Second, it's so over the top that it's just another way for Hallmark to pull money out of people. And lastly, until you have walked a mile in my shoes you will just not "get it".</span></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Fathers are supposed to be good to their daughters. Mine were not. I was abandoned not once, but twice by my biological father and my dad tortured me for 12 years. Did I mention that I now live in the same state as these 2 loser??? Once the next city over , the other just around the corner and up the street a ways???? GRRRRRRRRRRRR</span></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">My grandfather is no longer with me.</span></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">At least I no longer have to go to my ex-in-laws and put on a happy face trying to save grace for their father's day celebration.</span></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">So, excuse me if this day just doesn't settle well with me.</span></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I am strong. I am a survivor, but that does not mean I am not without feelings or thoughts. And sometimes I can't control certain emotions and such.</span></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Today would be one of those days.</span></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">But I march forward, as this survivor has always done.</span></div><br /><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/pmNbC89yhWY?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/pmNbC89yhWY?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br /><br /><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_406020339" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><strong>"Daughters"<br /></strong>I know a girl<br />She puts the color inside of my world<br />But she's just like a maze<br />Where all of the walls all continually change<br />And I've done all I can<br />To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands<br />Now I'm starting to see<br />Maybe it's got nothing to do with me<br /><br />Fathers, be good to your daughters<br />Daughters will love like you do<br />Girls become lovers who turn into mothers<br />So mothers, be good to your daughters too<br /><br />Oh, you see that skin?<br />It's the same she's been standing in<br />Since the day she saw him walking away<br />Now she's left<br />Cleaning up the mess he made<br /><br />So fathers, be good to your daughters<br />Daughters will love like you do<br />Girls become lovers who turn into mothers<br />So mothers, be good to your daughters too<br /><br />Boys, you can break<br />You'll find out how much they can take<br />Boys will be strong<br />And boys soldier on<br />But boys would be gone without the warmth from<br />A womans good, good heart<br /><br />On behalf of every man<br />Looking out for every girl<br />You are the god and the weight of her world<br /><br />So fathers, be good to your daughters<br />Daughters will love like you do<br />Girls become lovers who turn into mothers<br />So mothers, be good to your daughters too<i>[x3]</i></span></span></div><div class="blogContentInfo" style="clear: left; 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font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_733092">Your feelings about Father's day are exactly the same as what I feel about Mother's Day. I buy her a card but nothing else and I spend an hour looking for any card that doesn't say "I love you, Mom". Cause I don't. I understand completely.<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=278813745" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"></a>on Sunday, June 15, 2008 - 1:39 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=406020339#" id="addReplyLnk_733092" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=406020339&commentID=733092" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=278813745" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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text-align: center; width: 153px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=187305004" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Briana</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=187305004" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_e91edbca46753fefdb2eb8ee43c300d5.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Briana Murphy</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_733093">I can totally relate my friend - the way you feel about this day is the same I do. I did the breakfast thing early this a.m. with my father-in-law, and got it out of the way. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely adore my father-in-law, but I had other things on my mind about this shitty day. I hoping my father, where ever he is - is enjoying this day with his "other" family. You take care my friend, and if you ever need to talk, let me know. Do something today that makes YOU happy........xo<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=187305004" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Briana</a> on Sunday, June 15, 2008 - 1:44 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=406020339#" id="addReplyLnk_733093" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=406020339&commentID=733093" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=187305004" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_733093"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 153px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_733098">My father and I went through hell and back and became very close, very attached to each other-- then he passed away 2 years ago (ironically 2 days after Father's Day) and my life has never been the same. Nor will it ever be, and Father's Day sucks now!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Sunday, June 15, 2008 - 1:56 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=406020339#" id="addReplyLnk_733098" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=406020339&commentID=733098" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_733098"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 153px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_733143">While my childhood was completely different from yours, I understand your right to hate this day! And yes, I agree that all great fathers should be celebrated everyday and not just once a year! The same with mothers. I am blessed to have 2 wonderful parents and wonderful in laws. My father in law passed away 1 1/2 years ago, so it's just my dad now...1200 miles away but often on my mind! My daughter in laws father was never there for her and abandoned her when she was young, but today they are spending the day with him because he has just a few months to live. I hope she gets what she needs from this but I am afraid she is just going to feel abandoned again when he dies. Don will be there for her because he is a great dad and a great father in law! Have a good day in spite of the "holiday" and celebrate YOU! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Sunday, June 15, 2008 - 3:54 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=406020339#" id="addReplyLnk_733143" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=406020339&commentID=733143" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; 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font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/128/s_6af76b3e3ddc45398b3fa4740e0a2daa.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Mickey Finn</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_733190">It is a shame, how good fathers are screwed over by the systen, and society in general.<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81620621" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Mick</a> on Sunday, June 15, 2008 - 6:19 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=406020339#" id="addReplyLnk_733190" style="color: #003399; 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If course you have, we are only human after all. We live in such a fast paced society that we are trained to want something, need something and then expect to get it right then and there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>However, there are just some things in life that this process just does not work for. Love and trust are huge examples. Trust me on this one. I have tried every avenue to make these things happen faster with no luck. It is not that I am not capable of these things. I just think I have shut myself off for so long that maybe the problem is not that I can’t, maybe it’s just that I wont. Even better yet, that I no longer know how.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal">Dude and I are on this path. We started out on a very rocky uneven unpaved road. As time went on we kept walking. We hit a few road blocks and moved around them. We hit a few dead ends but found a new path. Now this path seems long. Despite that there is a rainbow at the end of this walk. I see it. He sees it. I have no patience. I want this rainbow and I want it now. It is frustrating to see the things we want, the life we want to have, knowing we can and will get there someday but that we have to go through all these trials and tribulations of life to get there. </div><div class="MsoNormal">I know there are some out there that do not want Dude and I to be on this path. And that’s OK. Everyone is entitled to their own opinions about things. But the ordeal with that is this is me, my life and my heart. It is going to do what it wants to and what seems right despite all the mud. It is for me to make the choice. And it will either work or it won’t. Nothing in life comes with a guarantee. People can change. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And only time is going to tell if we were meant to be. I know how I feel about him. I know how I see our relationship. I see everything else going on around us. I am not blind, nor dumb. Quite simply I adore him. We all know this by now. And what we have together is awesome. Everything else is trivial at this point and will get worked through as time marches on. Life stops for no one; I learned this lesson long ago. I refuse to sit back and watch life pass me by.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am walking this path with him. We are taking this journey together.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I have watched this movie – PS I Love You more times in the last month then I care to admit.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Mostly cause I just have a thing for all things Irish (duh!) but because it’s just a great story. And the soundtrack is even better.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There is song on there called More Time. That’s what’s playing in this blog. The message is clear. Things are just going to take time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>As long as that time is spent walking that path with him, then everything else in life will just fall right in to place.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">More Time by needtobreath</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 8.5pt; line-height: 115%;">promised you the world again<br />Everything within my hands<br />All the riches one could dream<br />They will come from me<br /><br />I hoped that you could understand<br />That this is not what I had planned<br />Please don’t worry now<br />It will turn around<br /><br />Cause I need more time<br />Just a few more months and we’ll be fine<br />So say what’s on your mind<br />Cause I can’t figure out just what’s inside<br /><br />I hoped that you could understand<br />That this is not what I had planned<br />Please don’t worry now<br />It will turn around<br /><br />Cause I need more time<br />Just a few more months and we’ll be fine<br />So say what’s on your mind<br />Cause I can’t figure out just what’s inside<br />So say alright<br />Cause I know we can make it if we try<br />Cause I need more time<br />Just a few more months and we’ll be fine<br /><br />We’re off to new lands<br />So hold on to my hands<br />It’s gonna be alright<br />It’s a whole lot brighter<br />So stand by the fire<br />It’s gonna be alright<br />Yeah, the road gets harder<br />But it’s not much farther<br />It’s gonna be alright<br />You know that it ain’t easy<br />Please believe me<br />It’s gonna be alright<br /><br />Please don’t worry now<br />It will turn around<br /><br />Cause I need more time<br />Just a few more months and we’ll be fine<br />So say what’s on your mind<br />Cause I can’t figure out just what’s inside<br />So say alright<br />Cause I know we can make it if we try<br />Cause I need more time<br />Just a few more months and we’ll be fine</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-38088334324182725552008-06-03T19:12:00.005-04:002010-11-03T22:04:05.691-04:00Repaired<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Tuesday, June 03, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><br /><br />Sometimes I feel like I'm dreaming my way through life<br />and I set myself apart from the reality it takes to survive<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />I don't know if its love or the shadows I'm reaching for<br />but every time I tell myself I can't take this anymore<br /><br /><br />Something lifts me, and my destiny is in a perfect view<br />though it seems I wait on the edge of a dream, I can feel my<br />future with you<br /><br /><br />With such constant emotion, and this never ending will<br />I can face every broken hope, and know I'd love you still<br /><br /><br />I've faced a lot of changes and I've accepted every one<br />Had my share of heartache from so much sacrificial love<br /><br /><br />I've watched my dreams just shatter, leaving me to question why<br />is it too much for a broken woman to ask if she's given wings to fly<br /><br />And I've waited for something to make me feel that its alright<br />though my faith seemed to vanish all along those lonely nights<br /><br /><br />I never knew in time that love would come and take me by the hand<br />after all that's gone so wrong in my life, I still had a chance<br /><br /><br />and then came you...........<br /><br />now everything that was once broken , with words so softly spoken<br /><br />are slowly being mended and repaired, no longer frightened, no longer scared<br /><br />I see a future - right there I see....something so wonderful, right in front of me.<br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; 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font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_725401">good stuff<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">★Sybil Starr★</a> on Tuesday, June 03, 2008 - 8:31 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=402344861#" id="addReplyLnk_725401" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=160786995" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Richie RaMpB</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=160786995" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/104/s_e2f23ab47e684a59950ba456573d1bdd.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Richie Baldi</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_725573">You gave love a life, a personality! Wow!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=160786995" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Richie RaMpB</a> on Wednesday, June 04, 2008 - 12:37 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-77524526916579891512008-05-30T06:38:00.005-04:002010-11-03T22:07:02.108-04:00Patience......Just For Him<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, May 30, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_400867655" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;">Patience.<br /><br />I have ZERO!<br /><br />I used to. But these days I am just so worn down on waiting for life to change. I guess maybe it would not be so bad if I was not stuck in certain situations that I am in.<br /><br />I want HIM and I want him NOW!!<br /><br />LOL.<br /><br />I have been hearing this song on the internet radio at work a lot this week. I guess I just need to slow down and invest in a bottle of patience. I see the future, its so bright. Its just frustrating trying to get there. Trying to get on that path in life.<br /><br />Anyway...cutie patootie and I are going to be just fine.<br /><br />I will find patience...one way or another...</div><br /><br /><br /><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/twDsyH_7iw8?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/twDsyH_7iw8?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">1..2...1,2,3,4)</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Shed a tear 'cause I'm missing you</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I'm still alright to smile</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Girl, I think about you every day now</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Was a time when I wasn't sure</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">But you set my mind at ease</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">There is no doubt you're in my heart now</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Said woman take it slow</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It'll work itself out fine</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">All we need is just a little patience</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Said sugar make it slow</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And we'll come together fine</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">All we need is just a little patience</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">(inhale) Patience...</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Ooh, oh, yeah</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Sit here on the stairs</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">'Cause I'd rather be alone</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">If I can't have you right now, I'll wait dear</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Sometimes, I get so tense</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">But I can't speed up the time</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">But you know, love, there's one more thing to consider</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Said woman take it slow</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Things will be just fine</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">You and I'll just use a little patience</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Said sugar take the time</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">'Cause the lights are shining bright</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">You and I've got what it takes to make it</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">We won't fake it, Oh never break it</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">'Cause I can't take it</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">...little patience, mm yeah, ooh yeah,</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Need a little patience, yeah</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Just a little patience, yeah</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Some more pati... (ence, yeah)</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I've been walking these streets at night</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Just trying to get it right (Need some patience, yeah)</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It's hard to see with so many around</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">You know I don't like being stuck in a crowd (Could use some patience, yeah)</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And the streets don't change but maybe the name</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I ain't got time for the game</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">'Cause I need you (Patience, yeah)</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Yeah, yeah well I need you</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Oh, I need you (Take some patience)</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Whoa, I need you (Just a little patience is all we need)</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Ooh, this ti- me....</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_723125">OMGODDESS that is one of me and Rye's songs. Figures!!!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Friday, May 30, 2008 - 10:52 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=400867655#" id="addReplyLnk_723125" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=400867655&commentID=723125" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/137/s_fa51ecd3152c45d5ba5f2315e578e351.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Joey Vagance</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_724051">Patience is somethin I have definitely learned to have in this life.<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a> on Sunday, June 01, 2008 - 1:24 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=400867655#" id="addReplyLnk_724051" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; 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font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_400594767" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div align="center"><img src="http://i260.photobucket.com/albums/ii18/23whiskers/scream.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div>I need to vent for a spell. I have kept a lot bottled up and I am afraid that if I do not let it go I am going to do something I will end up regretting.<br /><br /><br />First thing - my job. I DO like my job. So don't get me wrong there. Its a decent job and the people (some of them) are alright. Their are a few that drive me crazy. But we are all going to have those at any job we have. We can't all get along. Although I generally get along with everyone, that doesn't mean I have to like them or really like dealing with them. But the thing is the company is starting to fall apart. Well not starting - it has been for some time now. Trying to dig them self out - but not doing a very good job. The owners just don't want to open eyes and see things for what they really are. I guess they just think it is all going to wash away on its own. *rolls eyes* So, today - this week - is the worst ever. We are out of money and I just cut over $90,000 worth of payroll checks and we still have another $50,000 or so in direct deposit that need to be pushed through today and we have been pretty much told to wait.<br /><br /><br />WTF!<br /><br />WAIT??<br /><br />No!! I HAVE to be paid. Seriously. As I am sure everyone else needs to as well. This sucks.<br /><br />And the gas prices. Are you kidding me??? With a 30minute drive to work it is almost to the point that I can not even afford to go to work anymore.<br /><br />Kind of ironic isn't it???<br /><br />It has been almost a year since I parted my ways. As I look at my life today I see I have changed. I mean, I am still Chrys - but their is a part of me that really isn't me at all anymore. I do not know if that's good or bad. People think I am blind to some things. But I am not. My eyes are wide open. I just choose to not deal with things anymore. Certain things that is. No point really.<br /><br /><br />I want so much out of life. I had hoped that during my year here I would have found me and would have made it and gotten on my feet. Picking myself up, dusting myself off and pushing forward.<br /><br /><br />And I guess I am doing that, just not at the pace that I had liked.<br /><br />I have become privy to certain events about my ex. Certain things I would have rather of not known about. And this has left me feeling a lot of hurt. More hurt then I ever thought I could feel. Hurt that is slowly boiling into anger.<br /><br />When I was talking to my dude the other night and sort of mentioned this - I became rather choked and realized I just could not even talk about it. And he's someone I can talk to about anything. I began to feel weak. And that was a feeling I did not like. So I pretty much just said I could not talk about it and he told me not to worry - better days ahead. Sunshine and smiles....thats what my dude is to me.<br /><br /><br />And he's right. So then that takes me on a whole new path that gets me frustrated. I have a wonderful man in my life now. Everything happens for a reason and if not for those reasons I would not be with him today. But even that is not without it's problems. The distance. That's a huge ordeal with us right now. Neither one of us really in a position to change that right now. And that makes things even more frustrating. We are trying to make changes. Trying to find our path together in life, but every time we think we have found that path life ends up dicking us around.<br /><br /><br />Life. I have that stuck feeling again. And we all know what happens when I start to feel stuck. I run.<br /><br />But what good is running going to do for me?<br /><br />Nothing.<br /><br />Not like I really have any place to run to.<br /><br />I mean, I know all my peeps back in OK want me to come home. But thats really not an option.<br /><br />So here I am stuck, wanting to run with no place to run to.<br /><br />All I want is for me and dude to find our path and get on it.<br /><br />Patience.<br /><br />I have none.<br /><br />I want out of the situation I am in with home life and work.<br /><br />I want in the situation with my dude.<br /><br />Why does it have to be so hard to get what I want?</div><br /><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_722722">Oh man, can I relate! We had issues with getting paid on time when I worked in the Tucson office of my agency. I mean, every f-ing payday it was "are we getting paid? and when?" SO I switched to the Casa Grande office full-time, and my pay is always on time now. BUT it's a 70 mile drive each way, and as you mentioned, gas prices are RIDICULOUS! Yes, I get mileage checks but it does not cover all my gas anymore, much less wear. tear, and maintenance on the car...<br />Then on to the long-distance romance. *sigh, grrr* Rye lives 235 miles away...about 3.5 hours... and so we see each other about one weekend a month --if we are lucky. It is so frustrating, more than once I have wanted to just give up. Now she is moving here in a month, and I am worried about my space! Afraid of being too close...blah blah!<br />Anyway, I get the whole I want it all, I want it now feeling! {{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Thursday, May 29, 2008 - 4:38 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=400594767#" id="addReplyLnk_722722" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=400594767&commentID=722722" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><label id="NewDiv_722722"></label></span><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 50px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=279267635" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Art in DC</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=279267635" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/48/s_36b4b7e10bcb49fdafea9305e4a12710.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Art Reid</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_722795">I know your pain, I still looking for work after my last job stopped paying me. There's nothing as draining as working for a company in the decline.<br />I hope things get better, I really do,<br />Best of luck<br />Art<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=279267635" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Art in DC</a>on Thursday, May 29, 2008 - 6:59 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-72499137762526456862008-05-29T06:24:00.000-04:002010-11-03T21:03:59.433-04:00Please Stand By<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, May 29, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Love%20Things%20-%20Misc%20Pics/0248170605_by_AmAndArInI.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center">Oh, god<br />Why did I say that<br />Why<br />When will I ever learn<br />to just<br />keep my mouth<br />shut<br /><br />This awkward feeling between<br />hush and possible rejection<br />Between breathing and<br />suffocation<br />Anticipation<br />Desperation<br />Expectation<br />Hopefulness<br />It all comes to a head...<br />Here and now<br />in the shadow of my exposure<br /><br />In the midst of this<br />stifling quiet<br />The little specs of<br />yellow<br />in your eyes are<br />burning me<br />Like the magnified sun<br />of a seemingly innocent childhood<br />experiment with an ant hill and a piece of glass<br />but, the though was launched<br />its sink or swim<br />do or die<br />somebody please kill me...<br />Before these knots in my stomach turn me inside out<br /><br />This, this,<br />This, transference of power...<br />This, leap from the safety of<br />my self contained<br />hid-a-way<br />whose walls<br />only yesterday<br />were thought to be<br />impenetrable<br />Now to be standing here engulfed by<br />this uncomfortable<br />loss of poise<br />At the mercy of<br />another soul<br />searching for the end of loneliness<br />Is it my sanctuary<br />you seek<br />my heart where you will find<br />comfort<br />or does it cease today<br />because i spoke out of turn<br />Put my body naked<br />in the middle of a<br />most desolate tract<br />Stand unprotected in<br />the sandstorm of your<br />silence<br /><br />Say something,<br />anything... </div><div align="center">C.M</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-9187480474208156812008-05-26T15:05:00.004-04:002010-11-03T21:22:10.012-04:00Never Quit<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px;"><b>Monday, May 26, 2008 </b></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px;"><b><br /></b></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></b></span></span><br /><h1 style="font-size: 22px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b>Never quit</b></span></h1><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b><br /></b></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b>The only way to lose is to quit. As long as you continue to make the effort, you have not lost.</b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></b></span></span><br /><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></b><br /><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><b>Everyone experiences setbacks. However, those who achieve the most experience the most setbacks because they persist as long as it takes to reach each goal.</b></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><b><br /></b></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><b>Does it ever seem that you are blocked in every direction? That's the time to get creative, become more flexible, and open yourself to the possibilities that are most certainly there.</b></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><b><br /></b></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><b>Sometimes when you get stuck in a rut, the rut can suddenly and unexpectedly run out. What a great opportunity that can be for you to climb out of that rut, look around, and see all the valuable things you've been missing.</b></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><b><br /></b></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><b>Never quit. Use each setback, each disappointment, and each success, as a cue to push on ahead with more determination than ever before.</b></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><b><br /></b></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><b>Never quit, and you will create the life you choose.</b></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><b><br /></b></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><b>-- Ralph Marston</b></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><b>**************************</b></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><b><br /></b></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><b><br /></b></div><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">How does that saying go? Winners never quit and Quitters never win? Or what is that other one about the road you are battling always seems uphill?</span></span></b><br /><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></b><br /><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Don't Quit When things go wrong, as they sometimes will, When the road you're trudging seems all uphill...</span></span></b><br /><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></b><br /><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Yeah, thats the one..LOL</span></span></b><br /><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></b><br /><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">So...I have been trying to keep focused on the big picture.</span></span></b><br /><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></b><br /><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Forward...moving forward. Don't go back.</span></span></b><br /><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></b><br /><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">I just keep asking myself over and over...WHEN? When will everything fall in to place? When is life going to stop being in the "starting over" phase and on to the next?</span></span></b><br /><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></b><br /><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">I'll never have an answer. So I just keep trolling forward.</span></span></b><br /><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></b><br /><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></b><br /><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span></span></b><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_720989">This is a really good one! We all have to remember this one at times...<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Monday, May 26, 2008 - 3:28 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=399435365#" id="addReplyLnk_720989" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=399435365&commentID=720989" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><label id="NewDiv_720989"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_721001">Just keep putting one foot in front of the other! Some times it feels like every time I try to get on my feet, life kicks them out from under me...I've been there, but it does get better, at least for me it has. {{{{HUGS}}}} one lesson at a time!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Monday, May 26, 2008 - 3:58 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=399435365#" id="addReplyLnk_721001" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=399435365&commentID=721001" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_721001"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_721065">I hear you sis! Just keep going forward, because quitting is not an option, even though that bridge looks mighty tempting at times!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Monday, May 26, 2008 - 6:03 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /></span></span></b><br /><b> <br /></b>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-71934713053022065712008-05-23T06:44:00.002-04:002010-11-03T21:28:37.450-04:00Just A Little Something<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, May 23, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />You know..even when I am going through my own BS in life I can still manage to be happy-go-lucky. Even at my worst I can still find laughter in life.<br />One thing I will never do is purposly turn my back on friends when I am going through my bouts. Our lives may not cross as they should sometimes(thats just life), but that does not mean I am not here for you. I will always do the best that I can.<br /><br />I am still here. Still willing to lend that shoulder - no matter whats going on in my own life.<br />I AM HERE FOR YOU!!!!<br />*****************************************<br />Count On Me - Default<br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;">I know that life ain't always good to you.<br />I've seen exactly what it's put you through<br />Thrown you around and turned you upside down and so you<br />You got to thinking there was no way out<br />You started sinking and it pulled you down<br />It may be tough you've to get back up<br />Because you know that life ain't over yet<br />I'm here for you so don't forget<br />You can count on me<br />Cause' I will carry you till you<br />carry on<br /><br />Anytime you need someone<br />Somebody strong to lean on<br />Well you can count on me<br />To hold you till the healing is done<br />And every time you fall apart<br />Well you can hide here in my arms<br />And you can count on me<br />To hold you till that feeling is gone<br /><br />I wonder why nobody's waiting on you<br />I'd like to be the one to pull you through your darkest times<br />I'd love to be the light that finds you<br />I see a silver lining on your cloud<br />I'll pick you up whenever you fall down<br />Just take my hand and I will help you stand<br /><br />Because you know that life ain't over yet<br />I'm here for you so don't forget<br />You can count on me<br />Cause' I will carry you till you carry on<br />Anytime you need someone<br />Somebody strong to lean on<br />Well you can count on me to hold you till the healing is done<br />And every time you fall apart you can hide here in my arms<br />And you can count on me to hold you till that feeling is<br />Gone so you can live today<br />Seems so long to yesterday<br />Keep on counting on me to carry you till you carry on<br />Carry on<br /><br />You know that life ain't over yet<br />I'm here for you so don't forget<br />You can count on me cause I will carry you till you carry on<br /><br />Anytime you need someone<br />Somebody strong to lean on<br />Well you can count on me to hold you till that healing is done<br />And every time you fall apart<br />You can hide here in my arms<br />And you can count on me to hold you till that feeling is gone<br />Remember life ain't over yet<br />I'm here for you so don't forget<br />That you can count on me to hold you till that feeling is gone<br />Remember life ain't over yet<br />I'm here for you so don't forget<br />That you can count on me to hold you till that feeling is gone</span><br /><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">★Sybil Starr★</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/117/s_ce21eb000e92423a88b1f159a924437e.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Sybil Starr</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_719394">you are a good friend Chyrs. . and you deserve the same thing back. .<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">★Sybil Starr★</a> on Friday, May 23, 2008 - 7:48 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=398056375#" id="addReplyLnk_719394" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_719514">{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}<br />Great point, sis. I know you are there! I'm always here for you too!</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-30242195967788965132008-05-22T15:24:00.000-04:002010-11-03T21:30:24.831-04:00Think...I gotta goooooooooo<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, May 22, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;">Wish I could talk</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;">Wish I could find my words</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;">Thoughts</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;">Ideas</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;">Jumbled around inside of me</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;">It's a complete mess</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;">maybe my own insecurities...</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;">On my face is a smile</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;">that mask I have to wear</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;">Maybe I am just gone for a little while</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;">who knows how long</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;">or really even where</span><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_719007">I am having the shits of a day...week...month...year...myself sis. I am really relating to this blog. Me and my secretary at work joke about jumping off a bridge together when times get rough. Care to see if we can get a group rate????<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Thursday, May 22, 2008 - 3:58 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=397738198#" id="addReplyLnk_719007" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=397738198&commentID=719007" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_719128">{{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Thursday, May 22, 2008 - 6:35 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=397738198#" id="addReplyLnk_719128" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=397738198&commentID=719128" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_397212745" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div align="left"><br /></div><div align="left">Shattered, tattered<br />bleeding an bruised<br />Lost and broken<br />visibly confused<br />Left feeling cold alone<br />and used.<br />unfairly Judged<br />unfairly Accused.<br />Deranged and Vile<br />feeling abused.<br />I sit on my swing with my head in my hands.<br />No one can help me now ive entered my own land.<br />Personality one.<br />Filled with toxins.<br />Personality two<br />Someone u thought you knew.<br />Personality three<br />Someone who always agrees.<br />Weak Minded<br />Yearning to be strong.<br />This fights been going on for far too long.</div></div><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">★Sybil Starr★</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/117/s_ce21eb000e92423a88b1f159a924437e.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Sybil Starr</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_718385">love it</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">★Sybil Starr★</a> on Wednesday, May 21, 2008 - 11:06 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=397212745#" id="addReplyLnk_718385" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 50px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=279267635" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Art in DC</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=279267635" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/48/s_36b4b7e10bcb49fdafea9305e4a12710.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Art Reid</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_718577">Very powerful.Painful sharp and to the point.<br />Thanks<br />Art</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=279267635" style="color: #003399; 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height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_718577"></label><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_718609">Dark...but very awesome!</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Wednesday, May 21, 2008 - 6:32 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=397212745#" id="addReplyLnk_718609" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=397212745&commentID=718609" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_718695">Whoa....wonder what's going on in that head of yours!!</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Wednesday, May 21, 2008 - 9:12 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=397212745#" id="addReplyLnk_718695" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />I know its been a while since I have done a "whats up with me" blog. Truth is, I am feeling very lost when it comes to my writing these days and I am not really sure why. I have a lot of stuff going on in my head but I just can not seem to commit it to paper , or to a word document for that matter.<br /><br />I am stressed. I am frustrated and I have a lot going on. But yet I feel like I am doing nothing at all. I feel like I am a puppet on a string being pulled along by another and not really feeling anything.<br /><br />I thought my wall was gone. Or at least a few bricks had been removed and there was a big enough space for someone to fit through.<br /><br />It is possible.<br /><br />However I am finding certain things hard to do.<br /><br />Trust.<br /><br />Ugh.<br /><br />Thats not really what I wanted to talk about anyway so rather then get me all twisted about that I am going to move on to something else.<br /><br />Work.<br /><br />Life in general.<br /><br />I am racking up those student loans as we speak. Still plugging away at school. Debating about whether I want to take a summer break or not. I am afraid if I do that in the fall I will not want to go back. But I just do not want to quit this time. I really want to see it through to the end. Even if the road gets a little bumpy.<br />I went on a eating out for lunch going out drinking after work binge being stuck on pop for energy. Breaking myself of that. I want to join a gym but just really do not have the time/patience/money to do such so I have been downloading a lot of work out videos on my pc to do here at home and just trying to get motivated. Once you get stuck in a rut, its hard to break out. The treadmill has gotten really dusty and I guess its time to kick the dog off of it and put my ass back on it.<br /><br />Funny sight to see, my dog Casey sleeping on the treadmill.<br /><br />Still working. For now. The place is ok and I like the job alright, but the company isnt making money and its a struggle to pay its 1000 employees a week. And then their is a girl I work with who is just freaking miserable all the time and fights with this guy there who happens to be friends with my family. So the two of them constantly drag me in the middle and its making me miserable. I want to quit. Today is the first time since I have been there I have thought about turning in my resignation for reasons other then moving with my dude. (and thats a whole other issues we arent going to get in to!)<br /><br />Trying to figure out a path in life with my dude. Seeing if there is a future there and whats going to happen.(ok so I went there a little LOL)<br /><br />Also, been in touch with quite a few people lately about starting my own fetish website with pics, my stories that I write, maybe in time some movies I will produce. A friend of mine told me about a website she uses so I have been looking in to that. Just seeing whats out there. Obviously this wont been something I will get into a great deal until I get out of this house and in to another place. But at least for now I can start getting my feet wet with it.<br /><br />Olivia is having good days. So thats a good thing. But they had to take her in last week for a blood transfusion. Thats not a good thing. But she seems to have taken it well. So thats a good thing. Its just been a back and forth battle. Poor baby.<br /><br />We are doing a charity motorcycle run for her on June 28th. Those of you in the area that are interested hit me up for details. Be great to have you ride along with us!<br /><br />Ok, thats enough for now - as much as I hate to - I need to get ready for work.<br />~Chrys~Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-21301852762741775892008-05-16T10:19:00.004-04:002010-11-03T21:38:12.123-04:00Homesick<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, May 16, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />have come to the conclusion I am homesick.<br /><br />I miss the weather, I miss the waters , I miss the people, places and things that I know.<br />But most of all , I miss my friends.<br /><br />Friends who love me. Cherish me. Accept me as-is. Friends who are not mean or cruel or try to do shady things.<br />Ever since I have moved here it seems I have met nothing but evil vindictive people. (ok, not EVERYONE!!)<br />The walls are up higher then ever and people wonder why on the outside I am so tough to get around.<br /><br />Well people - stop being so damn MEAN !!<br /><br />I just want to go home. I want to feel the sunshine on my face, the grass between my toes. I want to hug my friends and never have to miss them again.<br /><br />My Daizybug turns the big 3-0 tomorrow and it is breaking my heart to no ends that I will not be there to celebrate with her. We had talked about this day in the past. How I can now officially call her "old" (LOL!) But..I am missing out...my best friend Wally and his beautiful wife Bren are having their 1st baby....I watched this relationship from the begining and it is so AWESOME...and he texted me the other day to tell me they were having a BOY!! And as excited as I am I am sad I am not there to actually watch them as a couple go through these things....<br /><br />Guess I am just in a funk....I miss my peeps....but I wouldn't leave cutie patootie behind.....<br /><br />So for now...just try to keep smiling and think about the things I do have...<br /><br />They are still very much a part of my life....even if 1000 miles seperate us.....<br /><br />I MISS YOU GUYS!!!!<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=229418339" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♥♥ STACEY ♥♥</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=229418339" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/123/s_f2df0f5cb5404683ab6449a9185324cf.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Stacey G.</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_715444">I miss you like crazy. No one to rumage through stores, lunches, walks, etc....<br />It SUCKS!!! But I enjoyed our time and think you should come back , soon. At least to visit. You know he can come too. We can break him in and put him through the blender to see if he can hang.....lol<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=229418339" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♥♥ STACEY ♥♥</a> on Friday, May 16, 2008 - 1:00 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=395099562#" id="addReplyLnk_715444" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=395099562&commentID=715444" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=229418339" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Brian Kinney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_715628">Poor baby...I am sorry your feeling homesick. ~~~hugs you...<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a> on Friday, May 16, 2008 - 5:30 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=395099562#" id="addReplyLnk_715628" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/33/s_8cc4d4280cc84300b0d4fc01a64e5803.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Tabitha Stone</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_717171">My dear poor child, I know how that feels.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a>on Monday, May 19, 2008 - 3:13 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-31503335463135645302008-05-13T20:46:00.005-04:002010-11-01T21:03:11.829-04:00Love Myself<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Tuesday, May 13, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: medium;"></span></span></span><br /><div align="center"><span style="font-size: medium;">To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance.</span></div><i><span style="font-size: medium;"><div align="center">—Oscar Wilde</div></span></i><span style="font-size: x-large;"><div align="center"><br /></div></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><div align="justify">Love yourself. Love the things that make you you.Your values and talents and memories.Your clothes, your nose, your woes. If you love yourself, you can jump into your life from a springboard of self-confidence. If you love yourself, you can say what you want to say, go where you want to go.</div><div align="justify"><br /></div>The world can be a tough place, and some of the billions of people out there will try to knock you down. Don't join them. Do things that make you proud, then take pride in what you do. And in who you are.<br />This is me learning to love myself as-is even though I am a constant work in progress. This is me learning to be comfortable in my own skin and be proud of who and what I am.<br /><br />If I can't love myself, how can I expect anyone else to love me?<br />~Chrys~</span><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">★Sybil Starr★</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/117/s_ce21eb000e92423a88b1f159a924437e.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Sybil Starr</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_715307">yeah, love yourself. . I do that everyday. .. LOL. . wait, wait. . do hands count as love? LOL<br />Just kidding. . . I know I have been reeling lately, I have realized that I have shut down all the sweetness inside of me. . . the nectar of me is now inaccessible. . . I figure it is my survival instincts kicking in as my heart heals. . and now I question everything I think and feel. . "Could I really trust someone enough to love again?" "Do I really want to be in a relationship?" "Can relationships actually work?" OH, I love me all day long and all day strong. . but that doesn't mean I am going to let anyone else get close enough to do so with me. . . not yet anyway. . not until I see the beauty of the stars again and the peace of the sunrise and the laughter in my babies eyes. . not until I am healed and whole again. . . or as close as we can get in this life. . . you know what they say about broken people, right? "Broken people are dangerous; they know they will survive." I guess I still need more time. .<br /><br />I love you girl. . you are worthy of the world. . I hope you get out there and get you a big bite of it, SOON!!!<br />xoxoxxoxoxox<br />me<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">★Sybil Starr★</a>on Friday, May 16, 2008 - 10:33 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=393915511#" id="addReplyLnk_715307" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=393915511&commentID=715307" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=358645704" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_715307"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 50px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=279267635" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Art in DC</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=279267635" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/48/s_36b4b7e10bcb49fdafea9305e4a12710.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Art Reid</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_718364">I struggle with this one myself. It's hard to do sometimes even though there's no choice.<br />It's a good struggle.<br />Art<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=279267635" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Art in DC</a>on Wednesday, May 21, 2008 - 10:13 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=393915511#" id="addReplyLnk_718364" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=393915511&commentID=718364" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=279267635" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-54435359390436090142008-05-08T18:57:00.002-04:002010-11-01T21:05:12.288-04:00My Own Person<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, May 08, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="blogSubject" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-weight: bold; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 10px;"><br /><b>Category:</b>Romance and Relationships</div><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_391865183" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div align="center"><a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vczU5LnBob3RvYnVja2V0LmNvbS9hbGJ1bXMvZzMxNi9pcmlzaGNoaWtpbm9rL0Z1bm55JTIwU3R1ZmYvP2FjdGlvbj12aWV3JmN1cnJlbnQ9Z2FtZW92ZXIuanBn" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Funny%20Stuff/gameover.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">"I didn't even see the purpose of marriage. Now I see the goodness in having a partner. But I don't belong to anybody; I belong to the world."<span> </span>~Erykah Badu</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I was listening to the radio on the way to work the other morning and the DJ was talking about Erykah Badu and her new article coming up in a magazine. They were talking about this quote as well as some other things she had said and I had a little light bulb moment and you all know how that it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Marriage isn't for everyone. Many of us see that now. I know some people are very content and happy with it. That's great. It worked for you and that's perfect. I am not knocking marriage. I am not some bitter woman who is dead set against it. It just did not work for me. The marriage I was in was not built on the things a marriage should be built on. I just felt like it was a piece of paper that basically signified a name change and that we were a couple. Big whoop. It made me feel like a piece of property. Like I belonged to someone. That someone had to always know my whereabouts and happenings in life. We are suppose to WANT to share that, not feel like we are FORCED to share that, and after a while that's what marriage felt like. A giant FORCE.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">If I could change the quote and make it my own it would go more like this –</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">" For me I did not see the purpose of the marriage. It became something we thought we SHOULD do next instead of what we WANTED to do. Now I see the goodness in having a best friend, a partner. But I don't belong to anybody; I belong to myself."</div><div align="center"><br /></div></div><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 50px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=279267635" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Art in DC</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=279267635" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/48/s_36b4b7e10bcb49fdafea9305e4a12710.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Art Reid</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_711218">That sounded like my first marraige too...wasn't that what we were supposed to do?<br />Two years of pure hell except she was the control freak and I worked myself to death and hated going home and dreaded wondering exactly when the complaining blaming and everything else would start after I came trough the door.<br />I learned my lesson. I'm in my second and last marrage now, when I met Dawn, my wife it was like it wasn't even a question...This was what it's all about and has been ever since.<br />I also know plenty of happy people who have gone through thier lives single too.<br />Good post,<br />Art<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=279267635" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Art in DC</a> on Friday, May 09, 2008 - 5:45 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=391865183#" id="addReplyLnk_711218" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=391865183&commentID=711218" style="color: #003399; 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font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_711495">Ooooooooo...........I sooooooooo agree with your "changed" quote!!!!!<br /><br />Love it!!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a>on Friday, May 09, 2008 - 7:15 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=391865183#" id="addReplyLnk_711495" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; 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As you know, Don and I will be celebrating our 25th anniversary this year. Obviously, it worked for us! My first marriage lasted 2 years only because I was too damn stubborn to admit I made a mistake! LOL! But that was a very long time ago (obviously!) and I agree that marriage is not for everyone. I had an uncle that could live with someone for years and things were great...until they got married! Then they would fight, he would cheat and the marriage would be over quickly, LOL! His last wife...they lived together for over 20 years before they got married...they were barely speaking when he passed away 2 years ago! So do what is right for YOU, and forget the rest! You should never have to lose yourself when you blend your life with another person's. {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Saturday, May 10, 2008 - 8:39 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-14932784679862458572008-05-08T03:21:00.002-04:002010-11-01T21:06:53.795-04:00Damaged Thinking<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, May 08, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am damaged. Well not me personally, but my heart is. I guess parts of it always have been.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I know I talked the other day about trust. And learning to trust someone again. And that L word. Learning to (dare I even say it) give someone that again as well. I thought it would be easy. I thought wrong. It has not been easy. I mean I am a very loving person and I have a huge heart with lots of love to give to the right person. My friends know this because I love them to pieces and I have no problems with telling them so. I care. And sometimes I care too much. I give. And sometimes I give too much. And many times in the end I have gotten hurt. But when it comes to a serious relationship – my giving meter goes off the rector scale then my care meter follows suite. As for L , well there is a lot there. A lot to give, but it is a scary thing.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I realize many of you know the stories. We have been friends a good many of years. The rest of you, family, just know.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I really don't want to get into the grave details anymore. Point is I have suffered a lot of abuse at the hands of men in my life. Sexual, physical, mental, verbal etc. Cheated on. Lied to. Used. Abused and just all out mistreated.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And don't get me started on the women that have been in my life.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">No wonder I have such a bitch wall build around me.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Who can I trust these days?</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Me. I can trust me.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Point is I have let a lot from my past go.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I refused a long time ago to accept that things were my fault and be that girl. I am a survivor and I will continue to always be so.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Over the years I have loved and lost a lot of people because they have hurt me in some way. The ones I did finally let in and trust 100% I lost due to very sudden deaths. Life is cruel. And yet I continue on. I have always tried to keep these things behind me. To always look at life with sunshine and rainbows. To always seek out the positive.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But as you have heard me mention these last few blogs I am having issues with finding that girl who sees that.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I want to be that strong girl again but I do not want to have to shut people off to do so. I want to be able to trust and love. Especially him. He should not be penalized today for the actions of others in my past.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But his own actions have left me feeling….how can I put this…..uncertain.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But I feel damaged. Made of scars. I feel I am not whole, but rather broken into a million pieces. I am frantically picking up these pieces that are scattered all over the place trying to put myself back together as I continue to build this relationship with him.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I constantly live in a state of fear that at any moment he is just not going to accept these parts of me. That I am far too damaged for him to want to deal. Or that he is always going to have his door open and at a moments notice I am going to be left behind while he moves on to the next best thing.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I often wonder is the saying true – once a player, always a player? Or can people really change. Can someone in open relationships ever truly commit and be just with one person? I wonder…….</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I think I am only going to find these answers deep within myself.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">★Sybil Starr★</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/117/s_ce21eb000e92423a88b1f159a924437e.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Sybil Starr</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_710695">kisses sweetie. . . lots of kisses. . . .<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">★Sybil Starr★</a> on Thursday, May 08, 2008 - 9:05 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=391356051#" id="addReplyLnk_710695" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=391356051&commentID=710695" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=358645704" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_710695"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=82330424" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Magical Thinking</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=82330424" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/23/s_96a667ab6ed425fc38de4ce2f9bb0e29.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_711337">I believe that when the heart breaks and mends itself, the scar tissue actually increases the <myspace>size</myspace> of the heart. So only in breaking does it expand.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=82330424" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Magical Thinking</a> on Friday, May 09, 2008 - 1:22 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=391356051#" id="addReplyLnk_711337" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=391356051&commentID=711337" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=82330424" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_711337"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_711492">No matter the outcome...your true friends are here to help you pick up the pieces...if need be.....just remember not to shut us out.<br /><br />WE ALL ARE STRONG SURVIVORS!!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Friday, May 09, 2008 - 7:12 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-78631722768222712772008-05-06T06:17:00.003-04:002010-11-01T21:09:19.530-04:00~IrishChik~ Meets Sybil Starr - Part 2<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Tuesday, May 06, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vczU5LnBob3RvYnVja2V0LmNvbS9hbGJ1bXMvZzMxNi9pcmlzaGNoaWtpbm9rL0ZyaWVuZHMvP2FjdGlvbj12aWV3JmN1cnJlbnQ9QV9GUklFTkQuanBn" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Friends/A_FRIEND.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">~IrishChik~ Meets Sybil Starr – Part 2</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">*yawns*</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Wow! What a day yesterday! As soon as I post this blog I will be posting pictures as well. There will be more coming as we get the ones off her cam and phone. The ones being posted are off my phone and cam. We wanted to take more, but we were having so much fun we just didn't take the time to do so!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So .. yeah, had a BLAST yesterday.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">We started off with Guinness and Nacho's (my guess in honor of Cinco de Mayo LOL!) and talked, and talked and I am sure we gave the pub an earful with our constant chatter and giggles. Our waiter had a good time, she made him blush which was pretty funny.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">We walked, we shopped, and we shared ice lattes on the terrace.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Good time's people…..good times.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">It was really nice to meet someone who shares a lot of the same views on life, same interest and is just as open about things as I am.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have made friends up here but I have learned along the way that some people just are not as open as I. So there are things about me and my life that I tend to not share. Not that I am not proud of who I am, but more so the fact I do not want to be stereotyped or judged. I get enough of that with the tats and piercing.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">With her – everything was cool because she is the same.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Very cool.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I know life is going to take us in different directions but I have a feeling her and I will be friends for many moons to come.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">My face hurts from all the smiling and giggles!!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok..gotta got get ready for work and back to the daily routine of life…fun fun…</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ybil Starr★</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/117/s_ce21eb000e92423a88b1f159a924437e.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Sybil Starr</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_709383">BEST DAY EVER!!!! lol<br />you were/are a breath of fresh air. . so you. . and so beautiful. . . the honor and fun was all mine!!<br /><br />"THIS AMAZON PRINCESS WILL NOT BOW TO ANY MAN!!!!"<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">★Sybil Starr★</a> on Tuesday, May 06, 2008 - 6:55 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=390629690#" id="addReplyLnk_709383" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=390629690&commentID=709383" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=358645704" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_709383"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_709426">I am sooooo glad you found a like-minded soul up there, sis! This is great news, and also glad you got to celebrate Cinco de Mayo in<myspace>style</myspace>!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Tuesday, May 06, 2008 - 9:55 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=390629690#" id="addReplyLnk_709426" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=390629690&commentID=709426" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_709426"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_711484">Woot Woot! Glad you had fun!<br /> </div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-4919808170386793702008-05-05T08:28:00.000-04:002010-11-01T21:12:53.143-04:00~IrishChik~ Meets Sybil Starr<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Monday, May 05, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/5%205%202008/IrishChikMeetsSybilStarr006.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="237" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/5%205%202008/IrishChikMeetsSybilStarr006.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The long overdue event day has finally arrived.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Superstar on myspace (don't roll your eyes at me; you know it to be true!)<span> </span>~ IrishChik ~ extreme blogger, word writer, quoter, thought provoker, will finally meet super woman Sybil Starr fighter chick extraordinaire.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, now if that didn't make you laugh your ass off – I don't know what will!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But seriously I am taking the day off today to go meet (real name have been left out to protect the innocent, or is that not so innocent *winks*) Sybil.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">We have been trying for MONTHS to get a date together where we can just hang out. But with my boring and typical work schedule on top of my crazy pain in my ass school schedule it just could never meet up with her hectic travel schedule for her job. And yes, she really is a fighter chick. (<a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vd3d3Lm15c3BhY2UuY29tL3N5Ymlsc3RhcnI=" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">www.myspace.com/sybilstarr</a>) Feel free to stop by and say hello.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">We've been talking, we've been planning and now the day is finally here. And I am really excited. I actually met her through cutie patootie. She and I eventually linked up here on myspace but it took a while for either of us to say hello. And once we did, we became quite the chatter boxes.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Did someone say – PARTY???</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Don't worry, I am taking the camera. *wink*</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">We shall have good food, couple of drinks, who knows. Good times and lots of smiles and laughter, which I can promise.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I shall report back tomorrow or sometime …</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Enjoy your Monday…I know I will!</div><br /><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_708866">That is great, sis! Have a blast!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Monday, May 05, 2008 - 9:35 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><br /><br /><span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-10201722069474307122008-05-04T15:08:00.002-04:002010-11-01T21:14:47.999-04:00A Positive….Even At a Distance…<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Sunday, May 04, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_389934950" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am trying my best to stay positive.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Key word – trying.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Some days it is difficult, even for happy – go –lucky- all smiles – me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Cutie patootie and I really don't get to spend a lot of time together. Different schedules and the distance tends to really put us in a bind sometimes. So when I thought we would be hanging out for a little while today, I was really looking forward to it. It had been a while since we had spent some time together and we were about due.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">When I got the call this morning something had happened and it was going<span> </span>to be taken care of, naturally I was crushed. It always seems like it is something.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">*sighs*</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I just want to spend time with him….</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But he is safe and right now that's all that matters, given the circumstances.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Anyway, I could really sit here and dwell on this. Let it boil and stew. Walk up one path and right back down the other. Being sad about it is not going to help anything. What happened can not be helped so it's not his fault we could not hang out today.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Instead I am going to tell myself, for every day that passes that is one day closer to having the life together that we want. And we will have our time together then.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">He keeps telling me I need to just hang in there and be patient..I keep asking, can I buy that in a bottle???</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Besides, we have a date this Friday as we have tickets to the WWE !!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center"><a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vczI1NC5waG90b2J1Y2tldC5jb20vYWxidW1zL2hoMTAyL2x1bmFidWc1MTMvP2FjdGlvbj12aWV3JmN1cnJlbnQ9UGF0aWVuY2UuanBn" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Patience" border="0" src="http://i254.photobucket.com/albums/hh102/lunabug513/Patience.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div></div><br /><br /><span>Read more:<a href="http://www.myspace.com/theoriginalirishchik/blog?page=24#ixzz145EHScVv" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">http://www.myspace.com/theoriginalirishchik/blog?page=24#ixzz145EHScVv</a></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-77073372893115937652008-05-03T10:32:00.002-04:002010-11-01T21:16:18.376-04:00<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Saturday, May 03, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_389514358" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div align="center"><a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vczU2LnBob3RvYnVja2V0LmNvbS9hbGJ1bXMvZzE5Ny90aGVva2lyaXNoY2hpay9Ib2xpZGF5cy9CaXJ0aGRheS8/YWN0aW9uPXZpZXcmY3VycmVudD1CaXJ0aGRheV9HaXJsX2J5X1RpbnlQaWxvdC5qcGc=" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Holidays/Birthday/Birthday_Girl_by_TinyPilot.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Today is Elonna's 31<sup>st</sup><span> </span>birthday.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I can remember a few years ago when we would joke about her turning 30. Sadly she spent her 30<sup>th</sup>birthday battling cancer and seeking treatment. We did not get to do that big 3-0 party we had talked about.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Now, today as another birthday rolls around, I vow I will not shed a tear. Everyone here today knows how much I miss her. Everyone knows how much I love her and will always treasure her friendship.<span> </span>I feel good that I never let a day go by that I did not tell Elonna what a good person she was to be, how much her friendship meant to me and how much I loved her. I feel good knowing while she was battling her cancer and I was going through my divorce I still managed to keep in touch with her. I know how much my cards and letters, flowers and such meant to her. I feel good knowing she left this world knowing her sista loved her dearly.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">That is why I will not cry. I have mourned my loss many moons over. Today rather then cry I will celebrate. I will celebrate the good times we had. I will celebrate that she is no longer in a world that filled her with pain. But she is now at peace.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">She is one of my guardian angels. I know her and Lonnie are having a good time hanging out together.<span> </span>My sistagurl and the goomba….I know they are having quite a few laughs over me these days….and I know they are happy for me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I often wonder what life would be like if she was still here. If any of our Pirate Gang was for that matter…. but these are thoughts I can not dwell on. Everything happens in life for a reason. We continue on. We learn. We stop to listen. We grow and we move on.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So as I sit here, thinking back over the years of our friendship - I will celebrate her life just as she would have wanted me to.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Tearless.</div><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vczU2LnBob3RvYnVja2V0LmNvbS9hbGJ1bXMvZzE5Ny90aGVva2lyaXNoY2hpay9Ib2xpZGF5cy9CaXJ0aGRheS8/YWN0aW9uPXZpZXcmY3VycmVudD1waXJhdGVjYWtlLmpwZw==" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Holidays/Birthday/piratecake.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div></div><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_707864">Wonderful blog...she was a wonderful lady. Wonderful cake for that matter! However, is it okay if I end up shedding a tear? *sigh*<br /><a href="http://s32.photobucket.com/albums/d34/sapphire_tyger/birthday/?action=view&current=MagicalBirthday.gif" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i32.photobucket.com/albums/d34/sapphire_tyger/birthday/MagicalBirthday.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Saturday, May 03, 2008 - 11:19 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=389514358#" id="addReplyLnk_707864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=389514358&commentID=707864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_707864"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_707896">What a wonderful tribute! I know you miss her and have many wonderful memories! Happy Birthday Elonna!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Saturday, May 03, 2008 - 12:14 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=389514358#" id="addReplyLnk_707896" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=389514358&commentID=707896" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81620621" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Mick</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81620621" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/128/s_6af76b3e3ddc45398b3fa4740e0a2daa.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Mickey Finn</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_708758">Happy Birthday Elonna.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81620621" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Mick</a> on Sunday, May 04, 2008 - 11:19 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=389514358#" id="addReplyLnk_708758" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=389514358&commentID=708758" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />So, when trying to put together a positive blog (for lets see now.....3 days???) I have come to the conclusion it is harder then I thought it was. I have too many things clouding my mind right now that it is hard to dig happy sunshine and rainbows back out.<br /><br />But - here is my first attempt.<br /><br />School.<br /><br />Let me first say - I hate it. I hate that it takes up so much time.<br /><br />But - there is a positive in all that.<br /><br />I know IT WILL be worth it in the end. To finally be able to say I DID IT. Well, I say that after every class these days. And my grades have been very good. ( I know..I am smarter then I give myself credit for.) So there is my positive. It is a pain in my ass , but it feels good when grades come in, another class is done, it is on to the next, and I know someday there will be an end to it (unless I just keep going) and I will be a better person because of it and more opportunities will stem from my hard work.<br /><br />Patience. I need some. I wonder if I can buy it in a bottle...anyone know???? LOL.<br /><br /><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">★Sybil Starr★</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/117/s_ce21eb000e92423a88b1f159a924437e.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Sybil Starr</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_706689">LOL. . . too funny. . . what about a happy rant? Like. . . I would love to see you wake up today and know that this is a new chance. . today is your day, the best day. . . the best day ever, because you get a new chance. . this is your chance to keep positive and have the best day ever. . .and if you can do that you can do anything, because a positive attitude never gives up under pressure, a positive attitude finds the good, finds the way to make what others call "impossible" possible. . this isn't magic. . it is just the one thing in the world we truly have control over. . our thoughts and attitudes. . . you are in a transition, a cocoon, and when you emerge from all of this, you will be the most stunning butterfly that has the wings to get where she is meant to go. . . I know I am a total cheese ball when it comes to this stuff, but when all else has failed, my prayers and my attitude has gotten me through. . .<br /><br />kisses<br />me<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">★Sybil Starr★</a> on Thursday, May 01, 2008 - 8:01 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=388654746#" id="addReplyLnk_706689" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=388654746&commentID=706689" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=358645704" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_707430">I have been having trouble being positive too, sis, I know what you mean. {{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Friday, May 02, 2008 - 2:41 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=388654746#" id="addReplyLnk_707430" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=388654746&commentID=707430" style="color: #003399; 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Yesterday especially. While I was at work I landed on Erica’s myspace page. I keep telling myself I am just going to stay off Mike and hers page. All it does is cause me grief and heartache. Sad, I should not have to stay off his page. But the fact it still says Single and looking to network and date breaks my heart. And let’s not even get in to the whole dating site thing. Anyway, she’s been leaving her comments and he’s been approving them. Meanwhile I decide to go ahead and leave one and he doesn’t approve it. So what’s the freaking point? I am so frustrated. I decided to leave him one tonight just to see if he lets it go through. Being Mr. Private and all, heaven forbid if anyone thinks he’s got someone in his life. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Anyway, went to her page and noticed she put Mike back in her top friends list. Why can’t she just keep barking up her ex’s page and leave Mike alone? I will never understand people who do that shit. Anyway, she wrote a blog about her top friends and here is what she put about Mike.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">15. Mike ~<br />Well I thought that you were a nice guy, until you stood me up repeatedly. Then I got really frustrated with you and gave up on trying to be your friend. However you still amazingly manage to have bad timing. I hope that your job interview goes well, and thanks for going to dinner with me the other night, it was nice to see you. <o:p></o:p></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So let’s go through all this shall we? He has not time to answer his phone or call me. He has no time to hang out with me, but he’s got time for her. Its ok for her to blog about things but I can’t??? At what point was he going to tell me? And what the fuck is that shit all about? So I am seeing red. I stewed on it. Then I am like in my boss’s office crying over it. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">At lunch I call Mike, no answer. Try again at break, no answer. So I texted him. And pretty much just let him have it. Oh so then he calls. Whatever I don’t have time to talk to you break is over. Course he’s pist. So I call him after work, course no answer. So then he calls me back. He told me he had no intention of telling me because he did not think it was a big deal. He made me a promise he would never keep things from me, he would never do anything to make me suspicious of him and what not. And he pulls this shit. And then he tells me he did not break a promise. I am like what the fuck ever. I don’t care if you guys are friends. But tell me about shit like this don’t make me have to find out from someone else because it does not look good. Pretty much everyone I have talked to about it thinks she’s doing this shit on purpose to try to get to me. Maybe break us up. But the fact remains I can not trust him and just do not know what to do about it. So he tells me she was in town with some friends, called him up and he stopped by, had a water and left. So he says. Her little blurb says more to me. And what’s this shit about his timing?? And what about the job interview????</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am really having a hard time dealing with all this. He’s all telling me I need to have some fucking patience as far as our situation is concerned. I have had nothing but patience since day one, so excuse me if it is starting to run a little thin after dealing with all his bullshit. All I want is for us to figure shit out and get our thing going, whatever the hell it may be. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Ok, I have to go do homework. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-63258735886260006622008-04-28T19:44:00.002-04:002010-11-01T21:20:18.883-04:00Learning to Trust and Love again....Killing the Negativity<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Monday, April 28, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_387236404" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I realize I have been pretty negative lately. Not good for me and not really like me. No matter what life has ever thrown me I have always been pretty good about keep my head above water and seeing the good. These last few weeks I have lost that girl. Sad thing is, I did not even realize it. Me has been lost again. Lost in that bottomless dark pit of stink that I have fallen in to a time or two. And yesterday I found myself there. Quite literally all day. I shut myself off from the world. I was feeling very hurt.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Feelings of being lied to, used, mistreated and people just out right being mean for no reason. Instead of my usual "FUCK YOU" I let it get to me. I seem to be a lot more sensitive to mindless bullshit lately. Again, not like me. I have always been a girl who speaks her mind and gives off a big "Who gives a shit" and moves on. But not lately. With all this stuff going on in my life I let it pile on top of it and just let it all boil.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Oh that lovely witches brew.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Double, double toil and trouble;<br /> Fire burn, and caldron bubble.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ewwwww and this brought stench to my humble abode. I did not like it one bit.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I began to text and call some friends, knowing I needed to enlist in the help of others to dig myself out.<span> </span>(Sorry Myca I didn't get to your call…I was chatting away…promise to call you soon! Love you girly miss you so much!)</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I fell asleep shortly after that but kept waking in the night with random thoughts and just some ill feelings.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Then came the chat this early AM with cutie patootie. I can't fake happiness with him. It doesn't work. I can bullshit quite a few people but he just is not one of them.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Yes, me. Full of negativity. Not able to see the good right now.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I don't want to be that girl. I want ME back.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So…I am searching for her.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And in that process I have realized there are some underlying issues.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have to learn to trust someone and love someone all over again.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I thought it was going to be an easy thing. Just *poof* and it all was going to be fine.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Nope. I was VERY wrong on that.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">That is a scary thing.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I know it is never fair to blame or compare someone to events that have happened in your past. But, it also does make one very leery. And it has made me very very afraid to give him my heart. To give him my trust. But at the level we are now, I have no choice. I have to give it to him. He deserves to have it. It is not his fault for anything anyone has done to me. Just as it is not my fault for anything any girl has ever done to him.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span> </span>It is all on me to learn how to give that to someone again. It's up to me to be the adult that I am and trust him. To give him my trust. To give him all of me and my heart. No longer should he get bits and pieces of it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">That my friends is going to take time.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br />I only hope he is patient enough with me and understanding to know he has some and that there is more to come in time.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So while I am working on the trust bit, I am going to be working on finding that positive girl again. So be prepared to read some pretty random blogs because I think the way to finding her is to start finding the things that ARE positive in life and looking at the good things I do have (him *smiles*) and the things I am going to have.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Stepping stones…..(his terms) One step at a time…..</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">*hearts*</div></div><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 75px;"><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=333528849" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://x.myspacecdn.com/images/no_pic.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_704081">Hey Chrystal!!!!<br /><br />Boy that's some DEEP stuff right there!!! We have all been there before, but please follow your heart! You try to protect it with an iron case under lock, but that special somebody is gonna unlock your defenses and you know it! LOL! Just give it time....you guys can work it out! Call me....918-636-0362! I'm knee deep in a case of Rolling Rock! LOL!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=333528849" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"></a>on Monday, April 28, 2008 - 9:41 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=387236404#" id="addReplyLnk_704081" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=387236404&commentID=704081" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=333528849" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_704081"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=261687472" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tim</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=261687472" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/84/s_1d58997801cd4975a1415f8831a6dbc1.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Timothy Dougherty</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_704086">Trusting your individual uniqueness challenges you to lay yourself open.<br />I believe in trusting men, not only once but twice - in giving a failure another chance.<br />I never comment on a woman's rear end. Never use the words "large" or "<myspace>size</myspace>" with "rear end." Never. I Avoid the area altogether.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=261687472" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tim</a> on Monday, April 28, 2008 - 9:55 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=387236404#" id="addReplyLnk_704086" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=387236404&commentID=704086" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=261687472" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_704086"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=104635717" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Myca Jean</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=104635717" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/113/s_23c1c577101a4357bf4fc2b123e15346.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Myca Jean Long</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_705285">I can so relate!!! You want to be in love again, to feel care free and like there's nothing that can hold you back... and it seems like one yearns to feel that passion and have one's head in the preverbial clouds again... but when it comes to that point, of truly letting go, all doubts, fears, and worries.... and completely trust someone again... however, the reality of fantasy actually coming true, stops you dead in your tracks...<br /><br />And one feels lost again... between wants, needs, and fears... is it worth it? Will I ever be happy if I don't risk everything? Is he the 'One'? Will I regret running away from yet another relationship?<br /><br />All I can say is that I love you girl, and I am always here for you no matter what hole we fall into, or what kind of havoc we cause...<br /><br />Love ya!<br /><br />Myca Jean<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=104635717" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Myca Jean</a>on Tuesday, April 29, 2008 - 4:08 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-36983529844549204072008-04-27T16:23:00.001-04:002010-11-15T16:23:38.236-05:00Dear Diary<div class="MsoNormal">Dear Diary<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><st1:date day="27" month="4" w:st="on" year="2008">April 27, 2008</st1:date></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I never did finish the last entry from the other day. Guess that’s OK. Life just keeps going as it will anyway.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Trust. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">There is that word again.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I hate it and it hates me. I will never have it. End of story.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, Erica and her bf Denny break up some weeks ago. I knew it was only a matter of time before she came barking up Mikes tree again. Now all of the sudden she has put him back in her top friends list and he’s approving all her comments but hardly ever does mine. He wants to try to tell me its cause he’s private or they are too mushy or whatever. Well I have tried to talk to him about Erica. How I feel she’s up to no good. Putting a comment of her own lips on his page. He tells me he didn’t know they were hers when he accepted the comment until she called him to ask how he liked them. Yeah, how’s that suppose to make me feel. Since she has come back he’s a lot shorter with me. Doesn’t have time to talk to me. Won’t call me or text me back. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This is how it all started. Monday I chanced my mood status to say rockin’ and had a good weekend with da’man. I put the pic of me and mike up just for a few hours. I had written this very special blog about the weekend. Not once did anything mention love or the there abouts. Apparently Erica went and nosed over to my page and called him and busted his job. She was picking on him for throwing up love because when she and Denny were together she had her page all decked out with “I love my bf” pics. And he made fun of her for it. Well then she tells him she read my blog. Whatever. I am still trying to figure this out as all my shit is set to private.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have been trying to explain this to him all week. But then he tells me Tammy read it too and she was all – oh someone’s in love with you , to which he replies “isn’t everyone?” so I don’t know. She said she read it too. But I KNOW they didn’t. Know way they could. They just had to of read my headline and saw that pic. Oh, Tammy is the leasing agent at his apt.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Anyway he calls me at work Monday to ask me if I wrote a blog about the weekend and blah blah. So I am like yeah but it’s not bad. And that’s when he tells me about the whole Erica thing. So then he goes and reads the blog. Of course when he gets off the phone with me he says he will call me back and doesn’t. I get home from work and I have a myspace mail from him talking about how he appreciates my words but doesn’t want his relationship out there in the headlines and how it wierded him out.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">When he talked to me about Tammy he said it just made him feel weird that people knew his business.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Of course me, being the emotionally scarred person I am, all these red flags are just like…yeah whatever, you just don’t want people to know you have<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>girl because you just want to be a player still.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I will never get past that.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I can’t deal with the fact he still has his dating site up. I can’t deal with the fact his myspace still says single and dating. I can’t deal with the fact he has time to talk to Erica and not me. I cant deal with the fact I am pretty sure he went and told her ever thought, feeling and emotion I had because she has since put a new pic on his page about you don’t like be, call bullshit or something and on her page it says I don’t care if I offended you. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Ouch. All I want to do is cry. And part of me just wants to run away from him.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Honestly, right now, I do not feel this relationship is going to last now. </div><div class="MsoNormal">All week he’s been distant. Not really wanting to talk to me. We haven’t gotten anywhere on the moving in together thing. Now I am wishing I would have never of told anyone at work, but I wanted to make sure I was doing the right thing. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Anyway, I am sort of at a crossroads right now. Feeling like no matter what path I choose I am going to get a broken heart. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I wrote him a message at myspace, more or less replying to what he had written to me and just trying to get him to understand where I was coming from. And we haven’t really talked since then. I tried to talk to him yesterday, that lasted like 5 mins and he was off and running, saying he had to go eat and would call me right back. Liar. He never did. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I figured this was going to happen. Some girl shows him attention again and I get stuck on the back burner. Even though he tells me he wants to be with me, wants us to be, yes we are in a committed relationship and blah blah. But then why do I keep getting pushed aside?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">And why can’t she go bother some other guy. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, I am able to get in her photobucket. I see these fuck me and sex comments. Just waiting for her to put them on his page. I feel a war coming on.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">One time he more or less said yeah they had dated or whatever. I could tell something was going on by the comments she would leave him. But then I remember him saying she was gross and there was never anything with them. So whatever. She is pretty nasty. But I am pretty sure there is something going on there. She is suddenly single and they are best friends again. Figure that out.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Another thing that is bothering me, a while back ago we had this talk about long distance relationships. I tried to tell him every single one of them has turned out rotten. I give and try and always give up. I told him I did not want to be that person. And nor did I want him to give up. He swore to me that he would not be that guy. That he would not give up on me. Well when I was with him over the weekend, last weekend he said to me – I am so glad to you got a car because I was beginning to wonder if we were going to make it or not. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">WHAT?? I was just sitting there in shock. I can understand it was hard for him to always have to come here. But now I have the car and I see him no more then I used to. I had hoped we would hang out again but I guess after spending all weekend with me and now he wants nothing to do with me it seems. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I just don’t know what to do here anymore. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Calling him does no good, he never answers. Texting him does no good he doesn’t text back. I should just leave him alone. I guess I really have no choice in that matter anyway. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-46297573867084699402008-04-25T20:34:00.005-04:002010-11-01T20:34:29.933-04:00Waiting for this life to change .............<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, April 25, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div style="font-weight: normal;">ometimes I really hate my drive in to work. I feel like I could be using that extra time to lay in bed and just be lazy. But then I have mornings like today when I am just driving along and for whatever reason I get these ideas running in my head and I have to take the time to reflect.</div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal;">Ahhhhh reflecting....these are the days when I miss my sistagurl Elonna. How she was my looking glass when I needed to reflect. She always brought me such clarity.</div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal;">These days I seem to be looking at that glass all on my own. And that's OK. These are things I should be dealing with on my own anyway. No outside influences. But sometimes it is still nice to have that person be your sounding board.</div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal;">Yesterday Shannon was my sounding board....and even though we are far apart I feel our friendship getting stronger and stronger. ( I Love You! Thank you for listening)</div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal;">Life is about to change. Big changes. And the thing is - I just don't know WHEN...or perhaps where for that matter.</div><div style="font-weight: normal;">I want this change NOW. And its starting to wear me down.</div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal;">So as I skip the Cat and Mouse song because all it does is remind me of Lonnie's death and back to Elonna's it brings me to this track....could not of hit at a better moment....</div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal;">So as I troll along in life - one day at a time..I have to remind myself this is NOT ALWAYS how it is going to be....just stepping stones...</div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><b>The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Waiting lyrics</b><br /><b><br /></b><br /><div style="font-weight: normal;">Feeling sorrow<br />for all the things you had to steal and borrow.<br />Bring back the days we had before tomorrow<br />relapse and then collapse into yourself once more.<br /><br />Waiting for this life to change seems like it's taking me forever<br />and I can't hold on. This light is breaking into the day<br />This life is going to change seems like it's taking me forever<br />And I can't hold on. This light is breaking into the day<br /><br />Void I can't fill.<br />The doctor tells me to relax and stand still<br />Prescribes me a new pill to quell my anger.<br />Wish I could make her pull herself up off the floor<br /><br />Waiting for this life to change seems like it's taking me forever<br />and I can't hold on. This light is breaking into the day<br />This life is going to change seems like it's taking me forever<br />And I can't hold on. This light is breaking into the day<br />Again, into the day, again<br /><br />Waiting for this life to change seems like it's taking me forever<br />and I can't hold on. This light is breaking into the day<br />This life is going to change seems like it's taking me forever<br />And I can't hold on. This light is breaking into the day<br /><br />Take time to contemplate who you are and where you want to go.<br />[x2]</div><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; font-weight: normal;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_702169">As usual, I can relate to what you are saying here, sis. I drive an hour to work each day and an hour back. Sometimes I just want to hurry up and get there! But there are times when I appreciate the drive and the time to think, to contemplate.<br />I am pretty happy, but there is more I want from my life, career, relationship-- and more is coming, it will just take time (and hard work). Often I get the "want it all and want it now!" blues myself.<br />Also relate to missing those who have passed on. Grrrrrrrrr it's so frustrating at times!<br />Well sis, keep on driving forward. It's all we can do!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Friday, April 25, 2008 - 12:43 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=384951744#" id="addReplyLnk_702169" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=384951744&commentID=702169" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_702622">{{{{HUGS}}}} Have a wonderful weekend!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Saturday, April 26, 2008 - 8:54 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=384951744#" id="addReplyLnk_702622" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=104635717" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Myca Jean</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=104635717" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/113/s_23c1c577101a4357bf4fc2b123e15346.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Myca Jean Long</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_702770">Just remember that God has perfect timing.... and maybe he's working on some things so that your transition will be smooth and perfect, instead of rough sailing. Not to mention, that sometimes, things are worth the wait.<br /><br />Kisses & Hugs!<br /><br />Myca Jean<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=104635717" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Myca Jean</a>on Saturday, April 26, 2008 - 3:28 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><br /><span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-71608694784934709172008-04-24T06:27:00.006-04:002010-11-01T20:37:15.196-04:00Dear Blogland<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, April 24, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />Dear Blogland,<br /><br /><br />What I should do is say good-bye.<br /><br />It has been a long and good ride. Maybe it's time to move on.<br /><br />But that would only be in vain.<br /><br />What started as a way to showcase my writing, to practice my writing, to share it, turned into a way to stay in touch with the "Pirate Gang" , then turned into friends, family, school buddies, work buddies, etc. Basically turned in to life....<br /><br />So what I am going to do is maybe say - see you later.<br /><br />Right now my writing (poetry & stories) has taken a back burner because I have to write so many papers for class and I just have not taken much time to put forth effort to write much.<br /><br />I take that back, I write, I just don't take much time to blog it.<br /><br />What I need to be spending time on is putting it together for publication.<br /><br />Instead, I took another path. Since I have been so busy my communication with friends and family has lacked as well. Sorry. So I would try to play catch up with blogs.<br /><br />That's fine and dandy.<br /><br />However, there is one part of my life I won't be so open about. I do have respect that some people are much more private then I. I have always known this and thought I was doing pretty good keeping those words at bay.<br /><br /> But, I had a happy - feel good moment over the weekend that I wanted to share with a select few of you and although he appreicated my words, was weirded out by it being out there for all to see. And thats ok. Blogland isnt for everyone and I know a lot of people are like that.<br /><br />So you can rest assured I am not going away completly, just much more selective about what I share.<br /><br />Wishing you all well.<br /><br /><br /><br />~Chrys~<br /><br /><br /><span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_701591">I know what you mean, sis. My sweetie is pretty private too, so my blogs tend to be about what's going on with me and not a lot about her and/or our (wonderful) relationship. But I know you and I will stay in touch, so it's all good!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Thursday, April 24, 2008 - 3:55 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=384385085#" id="addReplyLnk_701591" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=384385085&commentID=701591" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_701591"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_701595">I am so glad someone understands!!! *hugs* my sis!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Thursday, April 24, 2008 - 4:01 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=384385085#" id="addReplyLnk_701595" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=384385085&commentID=701595" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-75074531135946618042008-04-22T15:46:00.002-04:002010-11-15T15:50:46.933-05:00As He Sleeps<div class="MsoNormal">Sometimes in life you have one of those moments when things just become so clear. Even though it seems I have more questions about life lately then I can seem to find the answer for I have come to terms with some things. I did not realize this until this weekend. What I realized is that I think I have finally moved on in life. For the longest time I felt like I was carrying around some extra weight and that it was just bogging me down. There is still a part of me that is watching this heart of mine. I am still picking up pieces and trying to pull it all back together while in the middle of working on this wonderful relationship with Mike. Trust me when I say it has not been easy. The mending of the heart has not been easy. I am finding it harder and harder to trust people these days. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">But, I am learning. I am trying. And right now I feel like he is lucky to get what bits and parts he does get. There have been times on this ride when I just wanted to shut myself off completely. There have been times when I thought I should walk away. But every time I felt that way something always pulled me back. Something. Whatever that something is, it is stronger then both he and I because I know there were times when he wanted to give up too. But now here we are - this place in life. Really not sure what we are doing at this point. Just knowing we want to be together and trying to find our path in life. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It is actually sort of frustrating, not really knowing from one day to the next what's going on. Feeling like we are being pulled this way and that. Take this job. Move here. Take that job. Move there. Which way? What path?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">But I saw some peace over the weekend. Or maybe I should say I found some peace. After being awake for about 24 hours hanging and working with him I took a nap. I say nap because I was so over tired that my body would not shut down and I was wide awake after only a few short hours. I lay there in the dark listening to his breath. Feeling his warm skin against mine. Just lying there – motionless. The hint of the red glimmer of light from the alarm clock beside me. I just lay there watching him sleep. The peace came over me. I am ok. I am going to be ok. I am so comfortable around him. This is what it is suppose to feel like. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I keep looking. Watching how his lips curl in his sleep. My breath matching his. Thinking to myself – this is exactly where I want to be. This is exactly where I should be. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have always been a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. He and I have both had some trials when it comes to past relationships. So maybe it was meant to be for us to cross paths when we did. For whatever reason prompted him to leave that first message and say hello – I am glad he did.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have found someone that matches me wit for wit. Sarcasm for sarcasm.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Humor for side splitting laughs. Although I have to admit he is MUCH funnier then I am. I have found someone that accepts me and all my quirks and moods. The reality is he doesn't put up with it! LOL. We are very much alike. Even our moody tempers. This can prove to be a disaster at the wrong moment. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Something else I have also learned. But the old me would have just stewed on it and let it fester and boil up more. But these days I want no anger. I have let anger go. I just want to nip it in the butt and move on. So that is exactly what I am doing. I want to keep this man. I don't want to push him away as I have so often done in the past. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">He makes me want to be a better person. He brings out the best in me. He brings out much in me that I had kept hidden for so long. And that in my eyes just makes him an amazing man. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So as I close my eyes hoping for slumber – there is no ipod – there are no earplugs – I curl up beside him hoping to not wake him, I drift off knowing there is peace inside me. Only time is going to tell what our future holds but if it is anything like I imagine it to be …. Well … life is going to be good. <span style="font-family: Wingdings; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-char-type: symbol; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;"><span style="mso-char-type: symbol; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;">J</span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-9232727173851368672008-04-18T09:19:00.019-04:002010-11-01T20:42:19.013-04:00Self-Reflection<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, April 18, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Self-Reflection</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Sometimes in life you just have to stop and smell the roses. Or in my case take a long hard look in the mirror.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">I have become somewhat tight lipped about a lot of things going on in my life as of late. Only giving bits and pieces here and there. And it has been for good reason. For one I am so busy with work and school and I just have so much going on that I really can not keep up with it all blog wise these days. I have to do so much writing for school that my blogging as taken a back turn. It is also because that certain special someone is a lot more private about things then I certainly am, and so I try to have some respect for him and not throw all our life out there. Hence the bits and pieces. But you can all rest assured that when the changes are made in life that are coming, you will know.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">For now, I wanted to self reflect on that Ashamed blog. It tore many of you up just as it tore me up having to let those emotions out. But now there is a whole new twist on the situation and as I sit here thinking about it, reflecting on those turns – I have to admit it leaves a very ill taste in my mouth.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">I had planned on talking about that turn. But the truth is right now I just do not feel it is worth my time.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">What I do feel is worth my time right now is to give a shout out to my girl back in OK, Shannon.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">For those of who who did not read the comments left on the other blog, here is what Shan had to say. And she has two profiles…cause she is special like that.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><b>As </b></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><b>Shannon:</b><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">Honey, any man is lucky to have you. If I were one, I would hang you from a flag pole for all the world to see! You are fantastic the way you are. I love you for who you are. And honestly, I think you look better now than in any of the "Skinny" pics I have seen.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><b>As Daisybug:</b><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">I love you just the way you are. You are hot and fun and well, shit, everything. Don't be ashamed of who you are. Just because you don't recognize the girl in the mirror, doesn't mean you have lost your way. People are meant to change and people come in to our lives to help shape us and change us. You are still there. I still see my Chrys. But now, I see a happy and glowing Chrys. I don't see the pale and fading Chrys I saw when you were here. Go with it love. Even if it changes again, you are not gone. You are becoming new and improved.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">And her words hit me right dead center in the heart. As I sit here thinking it was a friend who said something to me to spark that Ashamed blog. And now finding out some things in regards to that, makes me wonder. Why do I even bother letting people in my life? I felt I could trust this person because of the company they kept. But I have learned some things that are making me feel otherwise. And now I have to reflect yet again on how to even handle this situation. But that is a whole other topic.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">What I have realized is how <st1:place w:st="on">Shannon's </st1:place>words made me feel and really reminded me of the person I am.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">When I first met Shannon I never in a million years thought we would be as good as friends as we are now. Even with the thousands of miles between us and lack of daily contact like we once had, she is a part of my life and always will be.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">I used to think to myself here is this small town girl, she is going to judge me and working with her is going to be miserable. And maybe for a while she did. But this girl has seen me through the worst year of my life. She met me right after gramps died and I was just picking myself back up from that fall. She was there when I found out Lonnie died. She was there when my grandma died. She watched a part of me die every day staying in the marriage. And now, she is watching me come back to life.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">I often wonder how life would be if I did not take the chance and </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: small;">let her in.</span></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">If I had done that, I would have missed out on one of the best friends in my life.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">I have friends around me that have known me since 5<sup>th</sup>grade, but they don't know me like<st1:place w:st="on">Shannon</st1:place>knows me. She just gets it. I don't have to explain things. She just knows. Sometimes I think she knows me better then myself.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">So, Shan, cause I know you are reading this….thank you for opening up your mind and your world and accepti</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: small;">ng me just as I am. Thank you for always being there and still being there. But most of all, thank you for loving me. I love you.</span></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">And that is why I let people in.</span></span></div><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; font-weight: normal;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_697118">You forgot to mention how wise she is! LOL! Her words about changing and growing could not be more true. Anyone that makes you feel bad about who you are may not be worth your time. If they can't see the beauty that even comes through the computer, something isn't right. And I am not just talking about the outer beauty...That smile outshines any flaw you might have (I say might because I don't see any!) but the eyes and the words reflect the inner beauty. There are a few of you I have met on here that bring out my maternal instincts, LOL! {{{{HUGS}}}} I am so glad you and Shannon gave each other the chance to form this friendship!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Saturday, April 19, 2008 - 9:39 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=381321577#" id="addReplyLnk_697118" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=381321577&commentID=697118" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small; font-weight: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px;"><label id="NewDiv_697118"></label></span></span><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; font-weight: normal;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_697189">Girl! Not sure who made you write that Ashamed blog......and I did read it. Can't remember if I commented...BUT<br /><br />There are plenty of people who love you just the way you are!!!<br /><br />We have become tight too and I glad we finally made contact after just passing each other in the virtual world.<br /><br />Don't let others drag you down girl...."Shake them haters off!" HAHAHAHAHAHA<br /><br /><br />WOOT WOOT!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Saturday, April 19, 2008 - 12:43 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-81459129979490920922008-04-16T07:04:00.005-04:002010-11-17T16:04:59.138-05:00Poetry In Motion: Ashamed<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, April 16, 2008</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vczU2LnBob3RvYnVja2V0LmNvbS9hbGJ1bXMvZzE5Ny90aGVva2lyaXNoY2hpay9EYXJrbmVzcyUyMEZhbGxzLz9hY3Rpb249dmlldyZhbXA7Y3VycmVudD1Bcy5qcGc=" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/As.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ashamed</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Why are you ashamed of me?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">What have I done?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Why can you not talk about me?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">What's wrong with me?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Look at me when I am talking to you-</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Do you hear me?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Are you listening?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">What is it about me that makes you want to hide?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Hide me away like some old ragged stuffed animal you used to play with as a kid and now just discard into some old ratty box.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Is it because of the way I look?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The way I act?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The sound of my voice?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Pleasantly plump, heavy, chunky, larger, plus size or just out right fat, what ever you call it, it's all the same.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Do you think I don't look in the mirror day after day and say to myself "Chrys, what have you done?"</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Despite my size, I am not an ugly girl. I am beautiful inside and out and should not be hidden away like I am nothing.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I thought I was something.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Now I am beginning to wonder.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Is that really all I am worth to you?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Something to hide away and drag out whenever the need suits you.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Agony and Pain.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">That's all I feel right now.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Mass confusion.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">As if every day already isn't a struggle for me, now this.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I wake up this morning, looking in the mirror and I realize I no longer recognize the girl looking back at me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Where have I gone?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">What have I done?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And why are you so ashamed?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">C.M.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=261687472" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tim</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=261687472" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/84/s_1d58997801cd4975a1415f8831a6dbc1.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Timothy Dougherty</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_694093">Ashamed of the many frailties they feel within, all men endeavour to hide themselves, their ugly nakedness, from each other, and wrapping up the true motives of their hearts in the specious cloak of sociableness, and their concern for the public good, they are in hopes of concealing their filthy appetites and the deformity of their desires.<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=261687472" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tim</a> on Wednesday, April 16, 2008 - 12:49 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=379961576#" id="addReplyLnk_694093" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_694970">{{{{HUGS}}}} I love you...you know I do!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Wednesday, April 16, 2008 - 6:20 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-15667616972546189202008-04-14T21:05:00.007-04:002010-11-01T20:49:26.660-04:00You cut me open.....Bleeding Love.....<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Monday, April 14, 2008</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">You cut me open and I keep bleeding your love……keep bleeding your love…</span></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span> <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;">It does not matter what choice I make, I am not going to make everyone happy. And that's just the way life is. I can not worry about that. What I have to worry about is what is going to make ME happy. What is going to make Mike happy? That's what is on my plate. Us rocking the world. Not what my friends think, not what my family thinks. Not that I don't love all of you, but this is my life. My choice to make. What I want is him. What I want is a happy and better life for him and for me. For us together. What is wrong with that????</span></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span> <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;">I understand people care and they just want what's best for me. That's awesome and I appreciate that. But I think maybe this time only I know what's best for me. And if I don't, the truth is I am about to find out.</span></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Where ever he goes, I go. End of story.</span></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span> <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;">I can hear the nay sayers now….but Chrys….this or that…….and the truth is I know exactly what you are thinking and know just what it is you want to spill out of your mouth. Trust me; I have already thought it over myself.</span></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span> <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;">Doesn't matter. What matters is what my heart tells me. And it tells me to just be with him. No matter how, no matter where. Make it work. Because we are good together and good to each other. If I stay here, I will miss him, my heart will break and I will always wonder - what if?? If I go, it could very well be the best thing to ever happen in my life. Life is all about choices and chances. This much I know. If their is anything I have learned in the last year, it is that. So - I am off and running.</span></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span> <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;">And that is fully when I intend to do. Be with him. For the first time in my life there is a inner peace when it comes to him.....I hear it....I feel it....and I welcome it with open arms.</span></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span> <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;">And these lyrics pretty much say it all:</span></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></o:p></span></span></div><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px;"><br /></span></span><br /><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><strong>"Bleeding Love"<br /></strong>Closed off from love<br />I didn't need the pain<br />Once or twice was enough<br />And it was all in vain<br />Time starts to pass<br />Before you know it you're frozen<br /><br />But something happened<br />For the very first time with you<br />My heart melts into the ground<br />Found something true<br />And everyone's looking round<br />Thinking I'm going crazy<br /><br />But I don't care what they say<br />I'm in love with you<br />They try to pull me away<br />But they don't know the truth<br />My heart's crippled by the vein<br />That I keep on closing<br />You cut me open and I<br /><br />Keep bleeding<br />Keep, keep bleeding love<br />I keep bleeding<br />I keep, keep bleeding love<br />Keep bleeding<br />Keep, keep bleeding love<br />You cut me open<br /><br />Trying hard not to hear<br />But they talk so loud<br />Their piercing sounds fill my ears<br />Try to fill me with doubt<br />Yet I know that the goal<br />Is to keep me from falling<br /><br />But nothing's greater<br />Than the rush that comes with your embrace<br />And in this world of loneliness<br />I see your face<br />Yet everyone around me<br />Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe<br /><br />But I don't care what they say<br />I'm in love with you<br />They try to pull me away<br />But they don't know the truth<br />My heart's crippled by the vein<br />That I keep on closing<br />You cut me open and I<br /><br />Keep bleeding<br />Keep, keep bleeding love<br />I keep bleeding<br />I keep, keep bleeding love<br />Keep bleeding<br />Keep, keep bleeding love<br />You cut me open<br /><br />And it's draining all of me<br />Oh they find it hard to believe<br />I'll be wearing these scars<br />For everyone to see<br /><br />I don't care what they say<br />I'm in love with you<br />They try to pull me away<br />But they don't know the truth<br />My heart's crippled by the vein<br />That I keep on closing<br />You cut me open and I<br /><br />Keep bleeding<br />Keep, keep bleeding love<br />I keep bleeding<br />I keep, keep bleeding love<br />Keep bleeding<br />Keep, keep bleeding love<br />You cut me open and I<br /><br />Keep bleeding<br />Keep, keep bleeding love<br />I keep bleeding<br />I keep, keep bleeding love<br />Keep bleeding<br />Keep, keep bleeding love<br />You cut me open and I<br />Keep bleeding<br />Keep, keep bleeding love</span></span><br /><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></span><br /><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_692377">Like I said before, do whats right for YOU! I am happy for you if you are happy! Follow your heart! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Monday, April 14, 2008 - 10:08 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=378904259#" id="addReplyLnk_692377" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=378904259&commentID=692377" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><label id="NewDiv_692377"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_692500">We all have to walk our own paths in live...make our own choices...right, wrong or indifferent.<br /><br />It is all YOURS to make honey...go for it!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Monday, April 14, 2008 - 10:57 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-63670994094842640122008-04-13T09:02:00.008-04:002010-11-01T20:52:44.305-04:00American Cancer Society got 10 inches from ME!!!<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Sunday, April 13, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">So, many of you know this story. Why I started to grow out my hair. What started as a bet that I could not go more then a few months without cutting or doing something to my hair turned in to something a little more serious. I wanted to grow out my hair to donate it to the American Cancer Society. They use it to make wigs for cancer patients who have lost their hair.<br /><br /><o:p></o:p><br />Well, in the process of growing it out my own life went through a lot of changes. And somehow my hair became a security blanket for me. Weird to try to explain. But it was. It became such a part of me that I found it hard to want to let it go.<br /><br /><o:p></o:p><br />The longer it got, the harder it got for me to manage. Anyone who has been blessed to be around me in the morning when I am trying to get ready knows how much of a pain it is. Whether I straighten it or leave it curly, it takes a good amount of time and patience to deal with.<br /><br /><o:p></o:p><br />I was slowly loosing my patience. Not to mention my hair is just so thick and heavy that the length was just getting to be a huge pain in my ass to deal with.<br /><br /><o:p></o:p><br />So, as my mom was talking the other day about Olivia losing her hair, it dawned on me. *light bulb moment*<br /><br />I am finally going to do this. I am going to let go. Granted she's not going to get MY hair, and likely will not even get a wig since she is only 4. But, I just knew it was time.<br /><br />So yesterday I hacked off a 10 inch pony tail. Placed it in a bag and off it will be sent. Then I had my hair colored to freshen it up a bit and off went at least another 2 inches.<br /><br />So when all was said and done…off was TWELVE inches.<br /><br />I posted pics in my pic section.<br /><br />Despite how hard it was for me to let go…. it made me feel good to know I was doing my part to help.<br /><br />Now, for those of you who are going to whine about how short I cut off my hair…<br /><br />this I say to you:<br /><br />1. It is only hair and it will grow back<br /><br />2. It was for a good cause<br /><br />3. It WILL grow back!<br /><br />4. I am still cute damn it!<br /><br />5. It makes things so much easier for me in the morning!!!<br /><br />6. It WILL grow back…hehehe…..<br /><br /><o:p> So go check out the pics in the pic section on myspace!!!</o:p><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_688828">Good for you!!<br /><br />It IS for a GREAT cause...and it WILL grow back! My sis did 13 inches one time to Locks of Love for the same purpose.<br /><br />Good Job girl...warm fuzzy feelings!<br /><br />Good Karma will make it's way back your way for your good deeds...indeed I do believe!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Sunday, April 13, 2008 - 12:18 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377879036#" id="addReplyLnk_688828" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377879036&commentID=688828" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_688828"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_688868">Thanks girl! It was a long time coming...just so hard for me to let go of.<br />I certainly hope Karma makes it way back to me soon...I sure could use a good dose of it right about now.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Sunday, April 13, 2008 - 12:33 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377879036#" id="addReplyLnk_688868" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377879036&commentID=688868" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_688868"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_688869">I certainly do my best babygirl!!! Have I told you latley how much I miss you?!?!?!??!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Sunday, April 13, 2008 - 12:34 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377879036#" id="addReplyLnk_688869" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377879036&commentID=688869" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_688869"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_689027">I pretty much had to recite the same things when I cut mine. Now that I am used to it, I really like it. After taking off all the weight, it was time for a new look anyway! And like you said...it WILL grow back!!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Sunday, April 13, 2008 - 1:40 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377879036#" id="addReplyLnk_689027" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377879036&commentID=689027" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_689034">I went backwards...now its time to work on the weight part...again...:)<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a> on Sunday, April 13, 2008 - 1:43 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377879036#" id="addReplyLnk_689034" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; 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font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_690865">awwww my sweet bri...thank you<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Monday, April 14, 2008 - 6:15 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377879036#" id="addReplyLnk_690865" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377879036&commentID=690865" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_689762">Hmm I am sure I left a comment, but it seems to have disappeared! Ok what did I say? I think i said something about not having the patience to let my hair grow long enough to donate it...and something about Olivia...I guess I missed the part about her getting chemo. I thought her biopsy's came back negative. I look at my Cameron and think about someone his age undergoing something like that and I can't imagine the strength it would take! {{{{HUGS}}}} to you and Olivia!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Sunday, April 13, 2008 - 8:42 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377879036#" id="addReplyLnk_689762" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377879036&commentID=689762" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_689762"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_690870">I don't know where my patience came from to be honest. But the last time I got it cut was right before I moved here to MI. And it had grown a lot in that time. As for Olivia, there was a part of the tumor that came back positive for something. I just am so confused about all of that so I have not posted anything latley. Love ya momma!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Monday, April 14, 2008 - 6:17 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377879036#" id="addReplyLnk_690870" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377879036&commentID=690870" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">★Sybil Starr★</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/117/s_ce21eb000e92423a88b1f159a924437e.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Sybil Starr</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_691239">Just in case no one has said it yet, you are awesome!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=358645704" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">★Sybil Starr★</a> on Monday, April 14, 2008 - 10:30 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377879036#" id="addReplyLnk_691239" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377879036&commentID=691239" style="color: #003399; 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font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_691480">awwww....xoxox...so are you sybs!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a> on Monday, April 14, 2008 - 1:13 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377879036#" id="addReplyLnk_691480" style="color: #003399; 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And thank you for doing it!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a>on Monday, April 14, 2008 - 2:36 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377879036#" id="addReplyLnk_691545" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377879036&commentID=691545" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-38352040929141950292008-04-11T19:28:00.005-04:002010-11-01T20:54:42.246-04:00The smell of .....Freedom and Bullshit<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, April 11, 2008</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />First, the good note. The smell of freedom is slowly rising in the air. I bought a car. :) One step to be moving in the right direction. If that wasnt a long over due needed thing!<br /><br />Second, the why I am pissed off note. The smell of bullshit is in the air. Its thick, heavy and just plain skank. It doesn't make me very happy at all.<br /><br />The more I try to stay away from it the more it surrounds me.<br /><br />Bullshit.<br /><br />I smell it a mile away.<br /><br />And quite frankly sick to death of it.<br /><br />Putrid and I want to vomit.<br /><br />I will not tolerate it any more.<br /><br />I am tired of being lied to, used, stepped on, made to feel like I am not important, and just out right treated like crap. I don't deserve it and do not appreciate it.<br /><br />End of story.<br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=17618717" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Póg mo Éireannach thóin!</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=17618717" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/130/s_93887a7364c04ec0a5c5e59b3e2272eb.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Flectere si nequeo Acheronta movebo</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_685216">Let it be told lass~<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=17618717" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Póg mo Éireannach thóin!</a> on Friday, April 11, 2008 - 8:22 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377031152#" id="addReplyLnk_685216" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377031152&commentID=685216" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=17618717" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_685216"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 75px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=278813745" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"></a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=278813745" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://x.myspacecdn.com/images/no_pic.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_685242">I know exactly what you mean!! Say it loud.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=278813745" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"></a>on Friday, April 11, 2008 - 8:51 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377031152#" id="addReplyLnk_685242" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377031152&commentID=685242" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=278813745" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_685242"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_685288">{{{{HUGS}}}} (no bullshit!)<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Friday, April 11, 2008 - 9:30 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377031152#" id="addReplyLnk_685288" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377031152&commentID=685288" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_685288"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_685342">YAY!!! on the car........hmmmmm on the Bullshit.......sounds like a story!!<br /><br />And ooooo do we have some catching up to do!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a>on Friday, April 11, 2008 - 10:52 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377031152#" id="addReplyLnk_685342" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=377031152&commentID=685342" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_685342"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_685472">Yay on the car! As for the other thing--<br />~hands sis an industrial<myspace>size</myspace>d shovel~<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Saturday, April 12, 2008 - 1:55 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-26178391312483272152008-04-06T15:05:00.007-04:002010-11-01T20:57:09.429-04:00Banging My Head Against A Brick Wall<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Sunday, April 06, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am lost and I don’t like it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Hitting my head against a brick wall – over and over again.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Doesn’t even matter the damage it will cause.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am just to the point where I don’t even care anymore.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am tired of feeling like I am stuck up against this wall.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">This ugly road to no where.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Sitting here in life trying to better myself and just feeling like I am constantly hitting a dead end.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">No where to run. No where to hide.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Honestly, just no place to go.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Frustrated I just see myself spinning out of control.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">One way ticket out of here.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Home.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Far far away.<span> </span>Back to that familiar place and familiar faces.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Sunshine on my face.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">People who care unlike the selfish cards I seem to be surrounded by as of late.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I want out, but I see no way.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Like a prisoner in my own world.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Trapped inside my own little bubble.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">This is not the life I imagined for myself on that summer July day when I left what life I had ever known behind.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Nope. Not at all. And I am beginning to think I will never see that life.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Trapped and dead inside.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Too much swirls in my brain.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The only thing I hear over and over –</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I don’t want to be here….but I do want to be with him.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">FYI - I actually wrote this about 4 days ago. So some feelings have changed. But I still have a lot on my plate to get in the direction I need to be going.</div><br /><br /><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_680114">Awww poor baby! I wish I could snap my fingers and make it all good for you! You and cutie patootie, in OK with great jobs and good friends! Scratch that...you and cutie patootie in IRELAND with great jobs and good friends! LOL! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Sunday, April 06, 2008 - 4:47 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-87575329731861218742008-04-03T19:16:00.002-04:002010-11-01T20:58:47.107-04:00It’s Been Hard To Say Lately.....<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, April 03, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Sometimes I find it hard to say what I mean. Or just hard to say anything at all. I know this comes as a shock to so many of you, but it’s the honest truth. I have been feeling at a loss for words lately. I feel so overwhelmed. Consumed. Over powered.<span> </span>I have these feelings inside of me I am not sure what to do with.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Feelings I had long forgotten.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">When my feet landed on MI soil the LAST thing I was looking for was a solid relationship. I had just gotten out of one and just wanted to hang lose for a while. That news didn’t please a couple the people I had dated. Oh well, can’t please everyone. Then I met him. Instantly drawn, instant connection, instant everything. Everything just went off and running. It’s been amazing since day one. We connected on so many levels. But it took a long time for my guards to come down and it took a long time for me to just finally say, OK Enough! And let things be. Even now, it’s hard for me to deal with sometimes. It took a long time for us to get to this point that we are at right now. We both have been jaded in the past. Both not really looking for what we found. I certainly was not expecting to find someone like him. Certainly not expecting to have feelings for someone much less really be in a relationship with someone. Yet, here I am. Here we are.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">It’s weird when you stop thinking only of yourself and all the sudden you find yourself saying "we" instead of "I". There seems to be a lot of that going on between us lately. It really makes one stop and take a step back and look at the whole picture. I tend to look at the whole 7 months we have been together and maybe that’s not the best of ideas. We had such a rocky start. More like jet turbulence. And I often look back wondering why I did not leave. Everything was red flagged from the beginning. But I was just so hung up on that connection we had that I just did not want to give up on that. What little fight I had left in me thought he was worth fighting for.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span> </span>These days we are much better and in a much better place.<span> </span>Sort of. I mean he’s absolutely wonderful but there is so much on our plates right now. Separately and together. Different cities, the miles, the distance, different lives, different jobs…just everything.<span> </span>And now that we are where we want to be with the relationship, all this other stuff is just putting a wedge between us. We want to be together. We want to spend more time together. WE<span> </span>WANT….. But sadly, life doesn’t always give us what we want. So we just frustrated sometimes.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Because of these feelings and thoughts I am finding it hard sometimes to spit things out to him. Choosing my words carefully. Not really sure why, for this is something I can not really seem to wrap my head around and understand. I have not ever been one to choose words but rather have always been that person to speak what’s on my mind.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I think maybe it’s because I do not want him to feel my frustrations in life. I don’t want him to have to carry the burden of what I am going through in life on top of his own trials. It’s like I feel the need to protect him somehow so he can do what he needs to do in his life. I do not want him to worry about me or the things I got going on here. And the last thing I want him thinking is that I am having 2<sup>nd</sup>thought about this relationship because that is no where near where I am going with this. If anything I want him in my life more and more with each passing day.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">However I do wear my heart on my sleeve and I am pretty sure my feelings show and that maybe I don’t have to say anything at all.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-36042506383601481652008-03-30T19:17:00.005-04:002010-11-01T21:00:29.673-04:00I Don’t Want to Run Anymore.<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Sunday, March 30, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I Don’t Want to Run Anymore.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">There, I said it. I want to make a change. I don’t want to run away anymore.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I want to keep my feet firmly planted on solid ground. I want to hit this head on. I don’t want to be scared and turn around and run quickly away as I have done so many times in the past.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">When times in relationships get tough I tend to break. I tend to just throw my hands in the air and run away. Especially long distance ones. But this time, it’s different. I am keeping focus on what we DO have instead of what we DON’T have. But it is proving to be more difficult then I thought. This person has been in my life for quite some time now, and we have had our share of struggles. But no one said things in life were easy, right? But for once I just want something in life TO BE EASY! Is that really too much to ask for these days? I have never had an easy life. I just wish for once something could become a little easier to deal with.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I find myself in this relationship full of more questions then answers. I worry. I can’t help it. I want more then anything for this relationship to work and I AM very willing to put forth the needed effort.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">For the first time in a LONG time I am not only thinking about myself but including someone else in my life as well. So many thoughts, feelings, and emotions that have been living dormant inside of me for so long that I am not even sure what to do with these feelings to be honest with you. It is somewhat overwhelming. But I welcome it. Just as I welcome having him in my life 100%. I no longer want to just give him bits and pieces of me but rather all of me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I realize – when he’s gone I miss him. I know we have been over this before. It is no longer this; oh I will see him in a week or so – no big deal. But now it’s this, Oh hell, I really miss his crazy ass. And I am not sure what to do with those feelings. Missing someone like that.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I’ve never been one of those girls that HAS to have someone in their life. Much less someone clinging to them. Never been one of those girls who felt like they had to spend every waking minute together.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am still not that girl. However, I feel different somehow. I want to see him. I want to spend time with him. I just want to be with him.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And with the different lives, schedules and distance, sometimes it just is not possible.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I just feel stuck in life. Not in the relationship mind you, but rather just this situation I am still facing in life. It has been such a hurdle to get over and sometimes I feel like I am never going to be able to jump over that mark and get to the other side.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I guess only time is going to get me over that hurdle.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Some things in life are worth fighting for, and I feel Him – We- Us – are something worth fighting for.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Me and Him…against … or shall I say, taking on the world.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So I shall take his hand and take this walk with him.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">*And to you – if you are here reading this, cause I never know when you are gonna pop on by….just know – you will ALWAYS have my 100% full support on anything that you choose to do.*</div><br /><br /><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_674030">Ok, so I don't know if this is an option, but since you feel so connected to him , can you look for a job in his town? Can you pick up and move, yet again, to be closer to him? I am not saying to move IN together, but just be in the same town so you can see each other more often! Just a thought! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Sunday, March 30, 2008 - 9:13 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-44132297395374996352008-03-28T06:14:00.000-04:002010-11-01T17:56:09.975-04:00These Words In Which I Write<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, March 28, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />These words in which I write - who would have ever thought they would touch people in the way that they do.<br />Recently, I was made aware of someone who felt my feelings , who had walked my path, my words brought lightness in, my words made a smile, my words brought inspiration.<br /><br />Who would have thought.<br /><br />These words in which I write.<br /><br />I know I never did.<br /><br />This is not the first time someone has come to me and told me such things. But, every time is like the first time.<br />I know their are people in my life who are not as open as I. They do not understand how I can be so open about things.<br /><br />Let me let you in on a little secret.<br /><br />I am not as open as many of you think I am. I choose to share only what I want. Thats the beauty of my words. I can choose how little or how much. I do pick my words very carefully.<br /><br />If someone smiles from my words.... then thats the beauty of my words right there. A smile. That is one of lifes most treasured gifts.<br /><br />At least for me it is.<br />~smiles~<br /><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_672178">You always make me smile! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Friday, March 28, 2008 - 6:56 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-75546602768314568862008-03-25T21:48:00.003-04:002010-11-01T17:58:20.578-04:00.....Realize......<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Tuesday, March 25, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />Sometimes things happen when you least expect them to.<br /><br />Sometimes feelings and emotions come pouring out when you don’t expect them to.<br /><br />And it hits you. Like a ton of bricks. Like a huge freight train rolling.<br /><br />Then you are left wondering...confused and just overwhelmed with these emotions.<br /><br />Life.<br /><br />Life is happening right before my very eyes.<br /><br />I think it was put on hold for a while as I was getting myself back together. Now the puzzle is being worked on. As one more piece gets put in place - the pieces turn from 100 to 500 and I wonder, will I ever be done?<br /><br />No. Life is constantly changing, evolving. Never idle. Never still.<br /><br />Now that I am putting pieces back together, getting life back in order, I am idle no more. But rather moving forward at a very fast pace.<br /><br />It once scared me. Even though I am now overwhelmed, I welcome it. Its comforting.<br /><br />The last few days I have really felt alone. I am surrounded by all these people, but yet I feel as if I have no one in my life. I feel empty. Or shall I say, I felt empty. I guess I was just getting homesick and missing my friends. Or maybe its just because everyone is going every which direction these days, especially the family closest to Olivia.<br /><br />Or maybe sitting in a hospital for hours on end can just play with your mind.<br /><br />Today I realized....there is someone. Thoughts. Feelings. Emotions. Things I pushed inside for so long. Tucked away in a little corner behind that door in my mind and heart. I locked the door and threw away the key.<br /><br />Somehow, someway that key has been found.<br /><br />I could grab the master key and lock it again. Keep that door locked.<br /><br />I realize..... I dont want to.<br /><br />Its time to let someone else in.<br /><br />I realize...... its ok.<br /><br />I realize.... I am not alone.<br /><br />I realize.... we are what we are......<br /><br /><br /><br /><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_670732">Life seems to just zip on by, the older we get! Some days I wish I could slow it down and enjoy more time with my little ones! I can't believe that in just 1 year and 3 months I will be FIFTY! That does not seem possible.<br />Anyway, even when we seem to be idle, we are moving forward...changing and growing and becoming.<br />I hope things continue to go well for Olivia and the tumors that are left can be shrunk down to nothing!<br />Have a great day! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a>on Wednesday, March 26, 2008 - 7:02 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-79971435664393602892008-03-21T06:17:00.004-04:002010-11-01T18:00:07.225-04:00Bringing Out The Light<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, March 21, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/With%20Wings/green-18.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /><br /><br />I am the strong one. I am the positive one. I am the one they will all lean on today. I am the one who will offer a shoulder, a hug and my smile.<br /><br />That will be me today as I head down to the hospital. Today Oliva will have her surgery to remove the tumor on her brain/spinal cord and the rest of them on her spine. It is going to be a long surgery and my family needs me.<br /><br /> They need me to be the one who is strong. They know this of me, they count on me for this.<br /><br />Sitting here with the sun rising in the sky , I see prism rainbows begin to dance on my ceiling and feel happy and confident that despite the events, my day will have a good start.<br /><br />I always try to find light somewhere in my world. Even with so many life challenges, there is always a ray of sunshine either outside or in my heart. When I think of this, how much love is within my heart I feel most at peace regardless of what kind of things I have had to go through in life.<br /><br />When challenges appear in our lives, we must remember that it’s not the end of the world. This is something I always have to tell myself. I will get through this. I will prevail. We have an option of how we look at what is happening around us.<br /><br />I have learned to ask myself "What do you want of me, and how can I help?" Never give up hope that things will get better. I trust myself to know, things will get better.<br /><br />Sometimes their is a straight road ahead, and then we hit hills, valleys, and roads with no guardrails. When the path gets rough, we must remember we can make a difference by saying daily affirmations, empowering others, and never giving up on our dreams for a peaceful world. Sometimes it may seam we are on an island and bear the burden of our world on our shoulders - alone. But do not forget we are all connected to one another. Some way. Some how.<br /><br />We can lift our spirits and make the day brighter for ourselves and those people who surround us.<br />Find that peaceful , special place in your heart as I have and start your day by being happy instead of waiting for happiness to fine you.<br /><br />Much Love,<br />Chrys<br /><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_666599">Very insightful. I always try to look for the lesson when things are rough...and also 1 positive thing (I usually find more!). I will pray that things go well for Olivia. I will also pray for continued strength for you and your family. Please keep me/us updated on her condition. {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Friday, March 21, 2008 - 7:28 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=368885324#" id="addReplyLnk_666599" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=368885324&commentID=666599" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_666599"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=261687472" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tim</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=261687472" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/84/s_1d58997801cd4975a1415f8831a6dbc1.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Timothy Dougherty</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_666887">hello Chrys,<br /><br />I enjoyed this interpretive literary composition of your feelings, it is you.<br />I always like to think , Love is like God you can't find God , God finds you so spend your time loving you for now . Some people are here to give and some just take or try to add up what they can get from you to what they are willing to give to you. When people can learn that we are not just thing's and more than a part of their life, things will change, we only pass time .<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=261687472" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tim</a> on Friday, March 21, 2008 - 12:57 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=368885324#" id="addReplyLnk_666887" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=368885324&commentID=666887" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=261687472" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_666887"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_668729">After reading your last blogs and feeling your pain and frustration (I can't imagine being in a serious emotional conversation with someone who has to "put you on hold" in order to talk to someone else) I am so happy to see a "walking in the light" blog from you! Remember that you create your own universe and that your thoughts and feelings are what make your world. YOU do it-- it is not done TO you!<br />Love you sis, and keep walking in the light. It's beautiful here! ;)<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Sunday, March 23, 2008 - 1:06 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=368885324#" id="addReplyLnk_668729" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=368885324&commentID=668729" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-19613577916329738472008-03-19T21:02:00.000-04:002010-11-01T18:03:23.618-04:00I HATE This Wicked World<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, March 19, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">This Wicked World</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Sometimes in life things are thrown at me that I just do not want to deal with. Or for a better choice of words just really can’t deal with.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I like to think of myself as a strong woman. I have been through a lot of shit in my 32 years of life. I often joke that I am a walking talk show episode ( or FIVE!) and the truth is – it’s not funny. But that is how I choose to deal with the things that have happened to me. It is how I get by in life. I have to smile. I have to laugh. Because you know what? I am still alive and things could certainly be much worse.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Right now I am facing some ill feelings that I just do not want to have. Life has thrown a huge ordeal my way and I do not know really how to handle it. Maybe I am just not sure HOW to handle it. SCARED to handle it. There are just some things in life I do not deal with very well. Things like death, destruction, and terminal illnesses – those types of things. And I know we all have our own way of dealing with them. But, since the ordeal of my childhood I tend to push myself inside , tuck myself away and not deal. Not talk about it. Not feel. And just shut myself off. Physically and emotionally. I can’t help it. It’s all I know. Right now all I want to do is crawl into my bed and not ever leave it. Just tuck myself away. But I think about those 6 months after gramps died and I have to have a war with myself to not ever go back there. I think about how I just lost Elonna not all that long ago. How every day is a struggle. Not being able to share my life with her. Tell her all the things I am going through. Just that friendship, that bond that we had. It makes me sad. But I push forward. At least I try to. Right now, I am on the edge. I feel myself being pulled. I am going to fall down. I just know it. I am not strong enough to handle something else right now.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">A couple of hours ago I just got news that my cousin/his wife and their oldest daughter who is 4 are being life flighted down to the other side of the state. She was complaining the last few days her head hurt. So my cuz wife took her in for a check up today. What they found was not good. A brain tumor. As soon as they landed she was going to be rushed in for surgery. I don’t really have any details as my mother went into hysterics and pretty much shut me out and was off and running. She is over their house now spending the night with their other daughter who is 3. My mom is close to these girls. She has helped with them since they were born. They are more like grandkids to her.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">All this does is make me think how wicked this world really is. It makes me question so many things. But most of all, just really puts me in a funk and makes me just not want to be a part of it.<span> </span>I think about those I lost<span> </span>recently, my grandparents, Lonnie, Elonna and Terry. And I often wonder what my world would be like if they were still here in it. Then my mind flips and I wonder – is it better where they are? A world free from hurt, pain, frustrations, anger and destruction?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am so often reminded of who I am and what I have been through. I can’t decide if this is something I should be proud of or not.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">It’s obvious I need someone to talk to, right? So I tried. I tried to talk, choking back the tears. Not wanting this person to hear me cry. To feel my frustration. But it didn’t matter because in a matter of minutes I was being pushed aside for another phone call with the option that this someone would call back. Right. At that moment, I needed you to be my friend. And you made me feel like shit for even calling and bothering you.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So this has me upset. My friends are my most cherished prize in life. I would bend over backwards and do anything I could for any one of them and they know that. And if it were any of them calling me with something they needed to talk about – the rest of the world can wait until I am done.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I would never push my friends aside at a time when they needed my shoulder. Ever.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I don’t want to hide inside and for once I tried to reach out and that’s what happens.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">This world just sucks and I don’t think I want to be in it. May as well just stay hidden, its much safer that way.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">*ugh*</div><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 67px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/143/s_294e8995c07b45a792dbde894b7d3ad3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_662810">Allow yourself to cry...get those frustrations out. I'll work up a spell for the baby....hang tight Sister - we're here for you.<br />XOXO<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a>on Wednesday, March 19, 2008 - 10:27 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=368409454#" id="addReplyLnk_662810" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=368409454&commentID=662810" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_662810"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_666727">Awww......you know you can always call me!! We end up talking for an hour minimum...lol.....and you know I could get you out of that funk and make you laugh!!<br /><br />I hope you get to feeling better! This seems to be going around...<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a>on Friday, March 21, 2008 - 10:37 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=368409454#" id="addReplyLnk_666727" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=368409454&commentID=666727" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-49533461299759460842008-03-17T07:02:00.002-04:002010-11-01T18:09:10.307-04:00Through the Looking Glass<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Monday, March 17, 2008</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />One should never say to me "you should blog that" because that damn lightbulb will go off and I will be running with scissors. LOL. Not really. But still, word to the wise, never say that to me.<br /><br />So, here is your blog...smartass. :) ~xoxo~<br /><br />Ok, the reality is this really is only going to make sense to 2 people. Besides me that is. One being the person who shared the ideas and thoughful uses on the per said glass and one who actually partook on the activities with above said mentioned glass.<br /><br />Confused yet? Good. That is my job today, to confuse you all.<br /><br />Glass. What the fuck she talking about? I mean it is Paddy day, right? Shot glass?? HUH?<br /><br />LMAO!<br /><br />I am only writing this to be a smart ass to him. Cause I can be.<br /><br />It makes us laugh. Its what we do best.<br /><br />Errrrrr..ummm...well almost what we do best. *winks*<br /><br />So, I shall quote him<br /><br />"Harry Potter and His Magic Wand"<br /><br /> Yeah, you could say that.....so I say....thanks. :)<br /><br />(THANKS????? wtf, did I just say thanks?? Are you serious? I have got to be kidding. Who the hell says thanks after some shit like that??? Ugh...*rolls eyes at self* huh...well..I guess I am speechless to some degree...sooooooo I am just gonna leave it at that.)<br /><br />I will happily sing - ""You got the magic touch ..it makes me glow so much....it casts a spell...and rings a bell....."" and be on my way to work....<br /><br />kisses and hugs and all that other mushy stuff!<br /><br />~C~<br /><br /><br /><br />UPDATE 3/18/08 : So, when the original idea came about for this blog my mind was swimming with catch phrases and ideas to write about. But once I got up yesterday morning and tried to really write it - I had slept all the ideas away. Go figure. And thats what my dumb ass gets for not writing it down when it was being laughed about. I played around with some other titles too. Oh well. When one is just trying to be a smart ass I guess it does not really matter that this by far is not one of my best written blogs.<br /><br />However, it was THE best night and thats ALL that matters.<br /><br />Now, wrap your head around that one and see if you can figure out the riddle to the blog. Above said mentioned glass.<br /><br />Ready.<br /><br />Set.<br /><br />Go!Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-67775372346152349082008-03-15T16:16:00.000-04:002010-11-01T18:11:19.020-04:00~Words Like Poison~<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Saturday, March 15, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vczU5LnBob3RvYnVja2V0LmNvbS9hbGJ1bXMvZzMxNi9pcmlzaGNoaWtpbm9rL0Jsb29keS8/YWN0aW9uPXZpZXcmYW1wO2N1cnJlbnQ9eHhQYXBlcmZsb3dlcnN4eC5qcGc=" style="color: #003399; 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margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Why must you constantly</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span> </span>spew your negativity?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">One day….and the next</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span> </span>over and over… so perplexed.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I decided long ago</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span> </span>to better myself and grow.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Why can’t you just be proud?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span> </span>As I stand alone on this new ground.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Instead all I hear are lies</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span> </span>too many questions.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Who, what, where, when</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span> </span>and why’s.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Why must you always</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span> </span>rain on my parade?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Never my sunshine</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span> </span>instead always the shade.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I could sit here and ask myself all night</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span> </span>why do you make it all feel wrong?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And that I can never</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span> </span>do right?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Do you blame me</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span> </span>deep down inside</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">for the past</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span> </span>and the pain you carry around and hide?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Why can’t you open your eyes</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span> </span>and see</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">what you are doing</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span> </span>to me?!?!?!?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">~Words by Irish~</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"> *sighs*</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">© <st1:date day="15" month="3" year="2008">3/15/08</st1:date> C.M.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_659979">{{{{HUGS}}}} I am proud of you. {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Saturday, March 15, 2008 - 5:55 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=367127169#" id="addReplyLnk_659979" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=367127169&commentID=659979" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_659979"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_659988">aww i love u momma!!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Saturday, March 15, 2008 - 6:17 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=367127169#" id="addReplyLnk_659988" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=367127169&commentID=659988" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_659994">awww Shan, if only it were that easy! As this was actually written towards the MOM!<br />If you can believe that. Which I am sure you can at this point in our friendship.<br />Miss you ,love you bunches.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Saturday, March 15, 2008 - 6:42 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=367127169#" id="addReplyLnk_659994" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=367127169&commentID=659994" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 75px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=341832406" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Notary </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=341832406" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://x.myspacecdn.com/images/no_pic.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_659995">This sounded like words that could be written towards a parent...it is ashamed it has to be like that...but as a "pleaser" myself....I feel ya girl!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=341832406" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Notary </a>on Saturday, March 15, 2008 - 6:44 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=367127169#" id="addReplyLnk_659995" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=367127169&commentID=659995" style="color: #003399; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81620621" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Mick</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81620621" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/128/s_6af76b3e3ddc45398b3fa4740e0a2daa.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Mickey Finn</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_660084">Nice... although I'm not one for poetry (it's kid of gay), this one is really heart felt. Good job.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81620621" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Mick</a> on Saturday, March 15, 2008 - 9:36 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=367127169#" id="addReplyLnk_660084" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=367127169&commentID=660084" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=81620621" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_660084"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81620621" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Mick</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81620621" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/128/s_6af76b3e3ddc45398b3fa4740e0a2daa.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Mickey Finn</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_660086">I meant that it's "it's kind of gay", not "kid of gay". WTF!!!!! I got to cut back on my alcohol consumption.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81620621" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Mick</a> on Saturday, March 15, 2008 - 9:38 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=367127169#" id="addReplyLnk_660086" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=367127169&commentID=660086" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=81620621" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-17082981605745764852008-03-13T07:11:00.002-04:002010-11-01T18:12:52.721-04:00Just A Short Ditty<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, March 13, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />Just wanted to take a minute this morning before I head out the door to work - saying hello - and letting you all know life is well.<br /><br />I am adjusting to the new job quite nicely. Lots to learn and keep in my brain - but as with all jobs it will get easier with time.<br /><br />This school session is almost over. Online classes are only 6 weeks and this has been a icky 6 weeks. My first 6 weeks was not this hard. Of course it was just a basic class and I was only taking one. Now I am taking 2, an Acct and Law class and they are kicking me in the ass. Thank goodness they are over in 2 weeks. Then I think I am just going to take one class at a time from here on out. Or at least until the "new job" settles.<br /><br />Things are slowly falling in to place. One step at a time. I seem to be sharing many more smiles these days. Especially with cutie patootie. And thats a very good thing.<br /><br />Anyway, I am off. I will catch up with all of you soon! I know I have a mailbox full of messages to reply to and I promise I have not forgotten you!!!<br /><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_658303">YAAAYYYY for liking the new job and the more smiles! 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I am the only one here clickety click clicken away at this keyboard. I should be doing other things, but yet here I am. Wondering what the hell I could be writing about. Or is that should be writing about? Hmmm..either way.<br /><br />There is a lot going on around me these days. Especially the last few. I could sit here and rave about how fun hanging with cutie patootie is. Or go on and on about how maybe I could just call him by his name at this point and not just blabber on some cutie -make - me - wanna - grab- the - barf - bag - and - vomit - name. I think we are past that stage now. Thank goodness. Any more barfing and people around me might think I was becoming bulimic or something. Ew! LOL!<br /><br />But seriously, he IS fun. He makes me laugh. And I do mean laugh! Like the kind where you get going so hard you take a breath and you snort kinda laugh. He makes me smile. And most of all he just lets me be ME. Quirky, dorky, silly, goofy..me. Its a whole new world of raw emotions and feelings that I have not felt in a long time and really not quite sure what to do with. So right now, just sort of just letting this go with the flow.<br />Ok, enough about him. :)<br /><br />What else....<br /><br />School. Blah. School. Who wants to talk about that. Bore. Yawn. Ick. I am begining to wonder what was I thinking going back to school. But I also keep telling myself that at least I AM doing it and it WILL be worth it in the long run. So I just keep trying to do my best and plugging away at it.<br /><br />Laaa deee dah<br /><br />Next.<br /><br />Work.<br /><br />Yes, Work.<br /><br />I start a new job tomorrow and let me tell you I am SCARED shitless. Nerves. Worries. Ugh. Who needs that. Not to mention the pressure.<br /><br />I am feeling a mental breakdown coming on and I have not even started yet.<br /><br />EEEEECCCCKKKKK!!!<br /><br />No! No! NOOOOOO!<br /><br />*deep breaths*<br /><br />I know, first day jitters. I am sure (at least I hope) that in time it will all pass.<br /><br />Uh huh...I'll just keep telling myself that.<br /><br />Ok, I am off. I got homework to do.<br />~Chrys~<br /><br /><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_655034">You don't need to worry...you will do great! You have a wonderful personality and you will win them all over with that beautiful smile! Just hope you like the job!</div><div id="CommentDiv_655034"><br />Cutie patootie is an acceptable name if you or he doesn't want his real name used. It doesn't matter that much does it?</div><div id="CommentDiv_655034"><br />While you are starting your day at your new job, I will be reading my new book and waiting to see if I get selected as a juror. Not sure how I feel about it. I sure don't want a boring case, but on the other hand, I don't think I want a long one either! Short and to the point...like me, LOL! Anyway, I am sure tomorrow is going to be a long day! </div><div id="CommentDiv_655034"><br /></div><div id="CommentDiv_655034"><br /></div><div id="CommentDiv_655034"><br /></div><div id="CommentDiv_655034">{{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-6284456821467229982008-03-06T20:10:00.000-05:002010-11-01T20:26:48.559-04:00My Ding-A-Ling :Survey Says<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, March 06, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">1.Are you scared of people hearing you pee?<br />ummm no, why would I be?</span><br /></span><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">2. If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life what would it be?<br />Ben & Jerry's Dublin Mudslide.....( I can thank my *we-pod* partner in crime Brett for this addiction)<br /><br />3. Spell your name how it sounds.<br />C-h-r-y-s derrrr teeee deerrrr<br /><br />4. Name one word to describe your personality?<br />Oh hell...I only get ONE word??? Lets see....outgoing</span><br /></span><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">5. What are your top 3 Turn Ons on the opposite sex?<br />his big strong shoulders, that sparkle in his eyes and that smirky smile...*drools*<br /><br />6. Describe your Boyfriend/Girlfriend in 2 words:<br />I will describe that special guy in my life as - Funny FUCKER! LOL<br /><br />7. Where do you see yourself in 6 years?<br />away from here..<br /><br />8. What is your favorite piece of jewlery?<br />actually I have 2, a gold shamrock necklace jules got me for my bday last year, and my claddah ring that was my grandmothers that she got in Ireland</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">9. What type of service is your cellphone?<br />piece o'shit</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">10. What do you hate most about New York?<br />can't say I hate anything about it since I never been there. Might like to visit, but the fact that its so over populated and everything and everyone is just on top of each other might not be a way of living for me. I prefer to have my space.<br /><br />11. What kind of car is your dream car?<br />1965 Black Chevy Camaro SS - but if someone wants to give me a new charger, I would drive it. LOL<br /><br />12. Can you leave the house without makeup?<br />sure why not? I don't much like it cause I think I look pretty shitty without it, but I have done it before and its not that big of a deal.<br /><br />13. What are your top 3 favorite stores to shop at?<br />Old Navy, Bath and Body Works, Lane Bryant<br /><br />14. Do you consider yourself to be good-looking?<br />hmm.. I don't. And thats the honest truth. People think I have an ego, and I am pretty confident and comfortable with myself for the most part. But by no means do I think I am good-looking. Cute , well maybe. :)<br /><br />15. What do you miss about being a kid?<br />their are parts of my life about being a kid I dont miss. But I wish I could be carefree with no worries in the world like that again.<br /><br />16. What is your favorite animal?<br />Dolphin (there is a song called Dolphin by Poe, that has a lot to do with my tattoo as well as just being my fave animal)<br /><br />17. Did you have a good Valentine's day? </span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">it was like any other day. I dont need a hallmark holiday for him to have to tell me he cares.<br /><br />18. Apple, Orange, Cranberry juice?<br />I like them all.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">19. Do you get enough sleep at night?<br />NO!<br /><br />20. Favorite Channel on T.V ?<br />Spike and whatever else happens to show the fights<br /><br />21. Are you dating the person you text most?<br />uh huh...<br /><br />22. Whats your favorite color[s]?<br />green<br /><br />23. What do you want?<br />life , to win the lotto, security, love , ummm just name a few things</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">24. Who was the last person you shared a bed with?<br />oooyyeeeeee.....tisk tisk tisk ...such a handsome lil devil he is :)<br /><br />25. Do you talk to yourself?<br />all the freaking time<br /><br />26. Do you drink milk straight from the carton?<br />sometimes<br /><br />27. Who knows a dark secret or two about you?<br />Their are lots of people who dont know lots of things about me. But those close to me pretty much know it all. I am an open book. No surprises that way.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">I guess 28 ran away.<br /><br />29. Do you like Batman?<br />sure, whats not to like about Batman<br /><br />30. Who did you last hug?<br />cutie patootie ...oh crap, I said I wouldnt call him that anymore...*ugh* LOL! Oh , that handsome devil. hehehe<br /><br />31. Do you swear at your parents?<br />I don't associate with my dad....and my mom, I swear while talking to her , but I don't swear at her.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">32. Do you like anyone now?<br />YES I DO!!! got a problem with that??? huh? huh? Yeah I didnt think so.<br /><br />33. When was the last time you lied?<br />I don't lie , its pointless.<br /><br />34. Obama, Hillary, McCain, or Huckabee?<br />The lesser of the evils<br /><br />35. Is your birthday on a holiday?<br />nope , but I can make it one hehehehe<br /><br />36. What instant messaging service do you use?<br />Yahoo<br /><br />37. Last thing you cooked today?<br />I didn't cook anything today<br /><br />38. Did you have a nap today?<br />nope..we were not having none of that !!!!<br /><br />39. Who's house did you go to last?<br />we came to mine</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">40. What are you currently listening to?<br />whatever is blasting on the tv in the living room and my countless pounding on the keyboard.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">41. Why is the sky blue?<br />cause its reflecting off his eyes.....ummm I dunno, it sounded good.<br /><br />42. Do you like green beans?<br />yep<br /><br />43. Do you swear a lot?<br />Fer fucks sake?? who me?<br /><br />44. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?<br />Old Navy<br /><br />45. Have any regrets?<br />nah...live learn and just move on<br /><br />46. Do you use an alarm clock?<br />only when I have to<br /><br />47. Where are you?<br />home, in my room<br /><br />48. Do you ever snort when you laugh?<br />HELL YES! When I get rolling their is bound to be a snort happening<br /><br />49. Whats the first thing you notice on the opposite sex?<br />when he smiles at me :)<br /><br />50. Do you wear underwear?<br />ummmm no... did you like that answer?? hahahah yeah I do , come on now<br /><br />51. Who/What would you like to see right now?<br />Who??? him...always him.. What???? some freaking SUNSHINE</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">52. Are you social?<br />very much so<br /><br />53. Are you afraid of the dark?<br />No...I embrace the darkness these days. I know I am always going to be taken care of and safe.<br /><br />54. Do you miss someone today?<br />Fuck yes, and he just left. How pathetic is that??? *rolls eyes at self*<br /><br />55. Who is the last person you kissed?<br />See 30<br /><br />56. Are you happy with your life?<br />eh..things could be better...but whats going on in life is just a stepping stone to get me where I need to go. I get frustrated and I vent. And I just keep moving forward. Things could be worse....so they really are not so bad. And he always makes me smile and keeps me going in the right direction...what a rock :)<br /><br />57. Last person who you told your problems to?<br />Mike<br /><br />58. What are you doing tonight?<br />I am thinking about watching a movie...but if I do that I will feel guilty because I have homework that always needs to be done.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">59. Who's your best friend?<br />I have lots of wonderful friends that I love dearly. They know who they are.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">60. Do you think he/she will always be there for you?<br />We all know where we stand. I will be there for them as I always have been, just as they will be for me.<br /><br />61. What is your myspace song right now?<br />I have like 100 on my playlist, go have a listen...<br /><br />62. Do you prefer to text or IM?<br />I like both...<br /><br />63. Who'd you get this survey from?<br />Shannon, my favorite Fairy....I met her through Elonna....<br /><br />64. Do you believe the number 6 is the number of death?<br />no.. and I dont even need to talk about it.</span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-53415752447494894572008-03-05T19:32:00.008-05:002010-12-23T13:58:17.962-05:00Poetry In Motion: I Am Always With You ~ Just Believe<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, March 05, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><br /><br /><table border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="date" style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="body" style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;">I am always with you<br />Never, am I far away<br />Look to the sky<br />See that star twinkle up high?<br /><br />I am with you<br />Just call out my name<br />listen for my heart beat<br />Just believe.<br /><br />In your dreams<br />I am with you<br />Just close your eyes<br />Just believe.<br /><br /><br />Do not worry<br />I am with you.<br />Do you feel my hand<br />Touching your skin?<br />Close your eyes.<br /><br />Even though we are apart<br />I am with you<br />Every where you go.<br /><br />Mind, body and soul<br />I know you miss me<br />For I miss you, too.<br /><br />I am with you<br />Hear the gentle breeze<br />There you'll find my whispers.<br />Listen closely.<br /><br />Each new day<br />I am with you..<br />Just close your eyes and believe.<br /><br />C.M.</td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-62271060631452473982008-03-05T06:45:00.002-05:002010-11-03T22:01:44.311-04:00Within Reach.....<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, June 05, 2008</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Within Reach</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Have you ever wanted something so bad you could almost taste it? If course you have, we are only human after all. We live in such a fast paced society that we are trained to want something, need something and then expect to get it right then and there. However, there are just some things in life that this process just does not work for. Love and trust are huge examples. Trust me on this one. I have tried every avenue to make these things happen faster with no luck. It is not that I am not capable of these things. I just think I have shut myself off for so long that maybe the problem is not that I can't, maybe it's just that I wont. Even better yet, that I no longer know how. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Dude and I are on this path. We started out on a very rocky uneven unpaved road. As time went on we kept walking. We hit a few road blocks and moved around them. We hit a few dead ends but found a new path. Now this path seems long. Despite that there is a rainbow at the end of this walk. I see it. He sees it. I have no patience. I want this rainbow and I want it now. It is frustrating to see the things we want, the life we want to have, knowing we can and will get there someday but that we have to go through all these trials and tribulations of life to get there.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I know there are some out there that do not want Dude and I to be on this path. And that's OK. Everyone is entitled to their own opinions about things. But the ordeal with that is this is me, my life and my heart. It is going to do what it wants to and what seems right despite all the mud. It is for me to make the choice. And it will either work or it won't. Nothing in life comes with a guarantee. People can change. And only time is going to tell if we were meant to be. I know how I feel about him. I know how I see our relationship. I see everything else going on around us. I am not blind, nor dumb. Quite simply I adore him. We all know this by now. And what we have together is awesome. Everything else is trivial at this point and will get worked through as time marches on. Life stops for no one; I learned this lesson long ago. I refuse to sit back and watch life pass me by. I am walking this path with him. We are taking this journey together.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/EnSNCll82qg?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/EnSNCll82qg?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I have watched this movie – PS I Love You more times in the last month then I care to admit. Mostly cause I just have a thing for all things Irish (duh!) but because it's just a great story. And the soundtrack is even better. There is song on there called More Time. That's what's playing in this blog. The message is clear. Things are just going to take time. As long as that time is spent walking that path with him, then everything else in life will just fall right in to place.</span></div><br /><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/sy0fIyongdI?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/sy0fIyongdI?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br /><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">More Time by needtobreath</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 8.5pt; line-height: 12px;">promised you the world again<br />Everything within my hands<br />All the riches one could dream<br />They will come from me<br /><br />I hoped that you could understand<br />That this is not what I had planned<br />Please don't worry now<br />It will turn around<br /><br />Cause I need more time<br />Just a few more months and we'll be fine<br />So say what's on your mind<br />Cause I can't figure out just what's inside<br /><br />I hoped that you could understand<br />That this is not what I had planned<br />Please don't worry now<br />It will turn around<br /><br />Cause I need more time<br />Just a few more months and we'll be fine<br />So say what's on your mind<br />Cause I can't figure out just what's inside<br />So say alright<br />Cause I know we can make it if we try<br />Cause I need more time<br />Just a few more months and we'll be fine<br /><br />We're off to new lands<br />So hold on to my hands<br />It's gonna be alright<br />It's a whole lot brighter<br />So stand by the fire<br />It's gonna be alright<br />Yeah, the road gets harder<br />But it's not much farther<br />It's gonna be alright<br />You know that it ain't easy<br />Please believe me<br />It's gonna be alright<br /><br />Please don't worry now<br />It will turn around<br /><br />Cause I need more time<br />Just a few more months and we'll be fine<br />So say what's on your mind<br />Cause I can't figure out just what's inside<br />So say alright<br />Cause I know we can make it if we try<br />Cause I need more time<br />Just a few more months and we'll be fine</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 10pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;"></span></o:p></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_727799">I need to see that movie! Have heard lots of good things about it. Chick flick!<br />Great song, too. I am so nervous about Rye moving here in 3 weeks. Sort of excited and scared at the same time. Happy, for sure, but going from LDR to having her 3 miles away is going to be a major change.<br />I think I need to blog, too! Lol!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Sunday, June 08, 2008 - 12:16 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-50363766366356978232008-03-02T23:13:00.003-05:002010-11-01T17:32:46.061-04:00The Negative Inside<h1 align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: normal;">Sunday, March 02, 2008 </span></span></h1><h1 align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: normal;"></span><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Gothic%20Dark%20Vampire%20-%20NO%20Blood/Pediophobia_by_larafairie.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span> </h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span> </h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;">Right now I just want to scream. I am letting things eat at me that I should not. Worrying about things that should not be worried about right now. But I can not help it.</span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span> </h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;">After spending all day with my nose in the textbooks pouring over accounting problems and law cases I just wanted to sleep. But that's not going to happen. So I grab this book I have to write a report on for law class and I get a chapter done and my eyes just give out. And for those that are going to ask if I had my glasses on. I give you a big fat YES I have had them all ALL day thanks. So then I get frustrated because I feel so overwhelmed by all this class work I have to do. Or maybe I just feel overwhelmed that I am not doing it right. But, better yet, that negativity has crept in and is telling me how stupid I am for trying to go back to school. I am not a book smart person. I never have been. College has always been a struggle for me.</span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span> </h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;">These negative voices have been barking at me all day. And I think I just broke myself.</span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span> </h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span> </h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;">These eyes, they fail me and my brain hurts. To top it all off I can't seem to shut off the leaky faucets parading themselves around my eyes. I hate crying. I am not a crier. Where is all this coming from?</span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span> </h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;">No matter what shit life throws at me I have always been able to still grasp what is good and try to see the whole picture and focus on the positive and what I do have. I try anyway. And when I fail, I cover it up really well.</span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span> </h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;">I seem to be doing that a lot lately. Covering up that darkness that drags around inside of me.<span> </span>I am trying to find a way to let it out. Usually writing has been the way for me. But I am so tied up with school work and brain overload that I can not even complete a passage when I right. I have all this random shit all jumbled on every piece of paper I can find to put it on. Thrown in a shoe box. None of it makes sense. Its just randomness mess on paper. Like I said in past blog, rhymes with no reason.</span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span> </h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;">I'm sitting here, frustrated with school. But I continue to plug away at it and just try my best. I am frustrated about the whole life/living/car/money situation but yet I continue to try to put forth the effort to keep going forward. I don't want to end up back in that place after I was when gramps died. I can't allow myself to go back there. Every day I have to struggle with getting out of bed and not staying in there like I did then.<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 12pt;">I am just so tired and so run down. Emotionally burnt.</span></span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span></span> </h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;">I do have a job interview in the AM that could certainly shed some light on the situation.</span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span> </h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;">I have some sunshine in life to look forward to. Cutie patootie has been a wonderful rock for me to lean on. As well as the love and support from all my friends close to me. Those seeing the struggle. Knowing what I am dealing with up here.</span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span> </h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;">Then my brain wraps around all that and starts to question all the what-if in this relationship with cutie patootie. There is so much distance between us now, isn't this job going to put that much more between us? And here we are back at square one having to deal with not only distance but crazy ass schedules as well. My brain starts to focus on the wrong things and I lose sight of what we DO have. Funny, as I sit here writing this I am reminded of how just this morning I was texting him trying to keep things positive about the distance and such.</span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span> </h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;">I try not to think about it. But it's hard. Every long distance relationship I have ever been in has turned out to be a disaster. And I know one should not compare relationships or blame the current for something someone in the past did. I preach this quite often. And this really is not the case. If that was the case I would have put the breaks on this by now.</span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span> </h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;">Right now I want to focus on the big picture. I want to continue with school. I want to believe I am smart enough to do this. I would like to get this job and be able to get some things paid off and take care of so that I am able to someday get out of here and go where ever it is I need to go. That is going to take time and patience. I want to think about the things we want for our self, for each other, for us. Those are the things I WANT to focus on. Life. Me. Him. Us. Together.</span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span> </h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;">I wonder, does he have that? That patience. Does he want this too??<span> </span>Is he willing to hang around and work on us while I work on these things to get me to get us where we need to be? Can I make him see that it will be worth it in the end? Is what I can give him right now enough to carry us through these times? Are we as a couple strong enough? Or are all these things just going to be the deciding factor that no it's not enough and no he's not willing to wait because he wants someone closer or just something more. More time. More this. More that.</span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span> </h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;">These are the things playing over and over and over in my mind right now.</span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span> </h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;">Why can I not shut that off? Why does NOW have to be one of those times when the negative just wants to ruin everything.</span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span> </h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;">I wish I could shut it off.</span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span> </h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></h1><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;">If only I knew how.</span></h1><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">3/3/08 - AM update</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So I talked to cutie patootie last night, literally 3 seconds after I posted this - and feeling much better about a lot of things. I just needed to vent and let things go. Sooooooooooo...I'm off to my job interview and will catch up to all of you later.</div><h1 class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span> </h1><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_649307">First of all {{{{HUGS}}}}! Now, the leaky faucets are caused by the darkness that needs an outlet...let it out! Cry and get all the bad, negative stuff out! Well, that's what I do...have always done and it always made me feel better. It took a long time, but I figured out all those negative, self depriciating thoughts came with the hormones...whenever my hormones get out of control, I beat myself up over little things and what I see as my short comings. It doesn't matter what anyone says or does, I have a hard time seeing beyond those negative thoughts. Now, when I recognize them for what they are, I acknowledge them and then banish them! Could hormones be playing a part here? I don't know.<br />As for the school stuff...is there someone you could get to help you where you are struggling? Maybe a professer or someone in class that could study with you and help you over the rough parts?<br />As for the relationship thing? I don't know for sure, but I think if you two were not strong enough for the long distance relationship, it would have "broken" by now.<br />Gotta go get ready for work! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Monday, March 03, 2008 - 8:37 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=363323298#" id="addReplyLnk_649307" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=363323298&commentID=649307" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_649579">ahhhh my momma...always there to give me sound advice when I need it most. *hugs*<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a> on Monday, March 03, 2008 - 3:22 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=363323298#" id="addReplyLnk_649579" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, February 27, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_362053504" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div align="center"><a href="http://s59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Gothic%20Dark%20Vampire%20-%20NO%20Blood/?action=view&current=keeper.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Gothic%20Dark%20Vampire%20-%20NO%20Blood/keeper.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">These feelings of mine</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I always try to hide.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Stuffing them deep inside</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Covering my face.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Hiding from the insanity</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">so no one can see the real me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">What the point.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Of letting someone see?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">All they do is run</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">before it's even begun.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Waste of time really</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">No point in letting you see</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">the real me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">© <st1:date day="27" m..?2?="" year="2008">2/27/2008 C.M.</st1:date></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"><br /></div></div><div class="blogContentInfo" style="clear: left; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 10px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=242089271" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">DeeKay's Back</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=242089271" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/66/s_d2f2beae9a3d6c9dbce87e153af3447c.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_645058">I feel you so much with this one Babygirl!!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=242089271" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">DeeKay's Back</a> on Wednesday, February 27, 2008 - 7:53 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=362053504#" id="addReplyLnk_645058" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=362053504&commentID=645058" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=242089271" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_645108">{{{{HUGS}}}} sometimes it just doesn't seem worth the effort, does it?<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Wednesday, February 27, 2008 - 9:03 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=362053504#" id="addReplyLnk_645108" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/33/s_8cc4d4280cc84300b0d4fc01a64e5803.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Tabitha Stone</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_645597">I feels so more motion in this poem, and alot of beauty in you. oxoxo<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a> on Thursday, February 28, 2008 - 8:50 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=362053504#" id="addReplyLnk_645597" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=362053504&commentID=645597" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-52710442158643432442008-02-25T14:36:00.003-05:002010-12-23T13:58:36.309-05:00Poetry In Motion: Rhymes with No Reason<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;">Monday, February 25, 2008</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">My brain is screaming</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">yelling at me</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">What the fuck are you doing?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Maybe it's my own insecurities –</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">fucking with me</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">laughing</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">taunting</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">these damn voices in my head.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Jumbled mess of words</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">sayings and rhymes</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">None of it makes sense anymore</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Close that door</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">throw away the key.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">What the point of my words</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">if they no longer make sense to me?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">What's the purpose of that dream?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">when it will never be mine, it seems.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Real or make believe</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">doesn't matter</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">it's all over for me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">No point in a jumbled mess</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">of rhymes with no reason.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">© C.H. 2/24/2008</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_642925">Cool! Dark, but cool! Rhymes with No Reason.</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Monday, February 25, 2008 - 7:51 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=361303767#" id="addReplyLnk_642925" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=361303767&commentID=642925" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_643261">Sounds like lif in general...but great words honey!</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Tuesday, February 26, 2008 - 12:03 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-70645353480859878832008-02-24T21:17:00.005-05:002010-11-17T16:08:16.811-05:00Poetry In Motion: Follow the Yellow Brick Road.....away<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Sunday, February 24, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><img src="http://i31.photobucket.com/albums/c360/dance_magda/wizard_large.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center"><img src="http://i83.photobucket.com/albums/j303/bfrogjules/movies/yellowbrickroad.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><br />Follow...<br /><br />Follow...<br /><br />Follow...<br /><br />Follow the yellow brick road.<br /><br />So I have been following this path for quite some time<br />not sure if the path is really even mine<br />Constantly told go this way<br />or that.<br /><br />Am I freaking going the right damn way???<br /><br />Is this my path?<br /><br />I know I am not the Tin Man - no need for a heart.<br /><br />Mines to big and to much of a weight for me to part.<br /><br />I know I am not the Scarecrow for I am in no need of a brain.<br /><br />Mine seems to work just fine , until I have to crack open the text books. And then its a strain.<br /><br />I can't be the Lion for I know I have courage. One does not face things in life I have and have some sort of courage to keep going forward. Although, I have to admit there are times when I am scared as hell!! Perhaps I am going through one of those times.<br /><br />Perhaps I am Toto - just a follower , because I have lost my way.<br /><br />Or its Dorothy.<br /><br />I click my heals three times....<br />There is no place like home...<br />There is no place like home...<br />There is no place like home....<br />(damn I am still here)<br />But where exactly is home?<br /><br />Where I am now just does not feel like home to me.<br /><br />And to be honest, I am wondering if it ever will.<br /><br />Is it there? Or how about there?<br /><br />Or is it there and this is all part of life's grand master plan?<br /><br />Maybe this is just a stepping stone to take me on the right path to where I am suppose to be.<br /><br />I am clicking my heals three more times...<br /><br />Click....Click...Click<br /><br />Only this time I am saying...<br /><br />Please show me the way<br />Show me my path on down the yellow brick road.<br />Because I am on the path...<br />that path to walking away.<br /><div align="center"><img src="http://i96.photobucket.com/albums/l188/obsessed_with_staind/heels/yellowbrickroad.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_642087">What a cool poem!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Sunday, February 24, 2008 - 10:37 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=361102727#" id="addReplyLnk_642087" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=139607821" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Holly</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=139607821" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/65/s_1f5d205b24874b3db4a2ccea65f52efe.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_642092">Dammm I know what you mean...<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=139607821" style="color: #003399; 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height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_642092"></label><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=229418339" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♥♥ STACEY ♥♥</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=229418339" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/123/s_f2df0f5cb5404683ab6449a9185324cf.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Stacey G.</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_642431">Well you can just come back here!!! We will take you.<br />And the Wizard of Oz..come on were ya thinkin about me? LOL<br /><br />MISS YA BUNCHES!!!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=229418339" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♥♥ STACEY ♥♥</a> on Monday, February 25, 2008 - 10:44 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-20898629877081788132008-02-21T10:46:00.004-05:002010-11-01T17:45:30.896-04:00~~Cutie Patootie~~<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, February 21, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HIMSELF/MIKE/0326081915.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HIMSELF/MIKE/0326081915.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I dig him more</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">with each passing day</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">whether he's close</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">or far away.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">"Distance makes the heart grow fonder."</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Or so the saying goes</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">This is something I often ponder</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Wondering</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">if this is really something</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But, who knows?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">No way to be certain</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">if some day</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">he is going to pull that curtain</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">and take that exit</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">stage left.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Busy times</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Busy life</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Sometimes I just have to say....</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">It's not always going to be that way</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Steps in the right direction</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I just believe.....</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Taking everything in stride</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">moving forward</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">not looking back</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I'm letting him inside.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The distance isn't always easy</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">but nothing is life really is</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">He's worth fighting for</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">and I am not giving in.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Slowly the wall comes down.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Brick by brick</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Mile by mile</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Smile after smile……</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">*hearts*</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">© C.M. 2/20/2008</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-32992319616025940172008-02-19T09:01:00.003-05:002010-11-15T15:57:50.426-05:00Poetry In Motion: Never Break Me<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Tuesday, February 19, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />I thought you would be different<br />But you just turned out the same.<br />Same as him<br />and him<br />and Oh, whats his name?<br />Shame on you for making me hurt<br />Oh, but how I have learned.....<br />You will never break me<br />or get under my skin<br />Love me<br />Hate me<br />Whatever...<br />But never this again.<br />(C) C.M.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-75852054756346964032008-02-17T22:13:00.003-05:002010-11-01T17:52:14.664-04:00Who ME??<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Sunday, February 17, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />I just had to post this. I know , have not blogged in a spell. Got some things brewing, just not sure where to run with it.<br /><br />Lets just say - for now - been Following the yellow brick road...<br /><br />Today I met up with a blast from my bast. Someone I went to school with for MANY years. We have had a few laughs today. And he put me in touch with someone else ... and I just have to share a part of that email.<br /><br /><span>""You were always one of the smartest girls I knew at Foster or E.C., but also one who was approachable and always nice and polite to me."""</span><br /><span><br /></span><br /><span>Awww..now how nice is that?</span><br /><span><br /></span><br />Smart? Who me? Boy, I had them fooled huh? Just kidding.<br /><br />But that other part....yeah...me.<br /><br />I know the things I went through growing up. And all my life I have been that girl. That girl that was always nice to everyone. That girl that never picked sides in a fight. That girl that was friends with everyone and never judged. That girl that was never in a click but always very much her own person. That girl that always had a smile on her face. Always.<br /><br />I wasnt nice because I had to be, I was nice because I wanted to be.<br /><br />Friendship has ALWAYS been a big deal to me.<br /><br />So...thats my feel good juice for the moment. To know that someone remember that after all this time...appreciates that...<br /><br />Folks, thats what life is all about.<br /><br />When I get down and out because at times I feel like people use my niceness and some step on me and hurt my feelings and I have to take the time to weed these people out and walk away from them. I think about the people I have made a difference to in their life...and I feel good about me and my big heart.<br /><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_634448">That is a really nice thing to happen! To know someone remembers you like that! {{{{HUGS}}}} Have a great week ahead!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Sunday, February 17, 2008 - 10:43 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><br /><span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-27034448153311894622008-02-14T10:33:00.003-05:002010-11-01T17:54:10.913-04:00Happy Valentines Day<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, February 14, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://s56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Love%20Hugs%20Kisses/Hearts/?action=view&current=waterscar.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Love%20Hugs%20Kisses/Hearts/waterscar.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div>Thanks to everyone who sent well wishes while I was dealing with I have now termed "The Crud" I can not remember the last time I was that sick.<br /><br />Anyway back to work today and classes start back up again. So its back to busy bee time.<br /><br />Wanted to take a minute to tell you all that even tho I have never been a fan of Valentines (cause you shouldnt need a day to tell someone you care about them...not to mention all the pink and red foo foo frilly shit all over the place *barf* LOL) anyways....ummmmm...what the hell was I saying???<br /><br />Oh yes...to all my wonderful friends and family:<br /><br />HAPPY VALENTINES DAY.. LOVE YA!<br />xoxo<br />~Chrys~<br /><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://s56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Love%20Hugs%20Kisses/Hearts/?action=view&current=Be_Mine_by_xxANGeLiCFRuiTCaKExx.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Love%20Hugs%20Kisses/Hearts/Be_Mine_by_xxANGeLiCFRuiTCaKExx.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_631210">Glad you're feeling better, sis. I have to admit this is the first Vday where I have had a sweetie who actually DID something to make me feel special in over 10 years, so I am pretty happy this year!<br /><a href="http://s32.photobucket.com/albums/d34/sapphire_tyger/?action=view&current=valentines.gif" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i32.photobucket.com/albums/d34/sapphire_tyger/valentines.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Thursday, February 14, 2008 - 6:09 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=357801682#" id="addReplyLnk_631210" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=357801682&commentID=631210" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_631210"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_631370">Valentines Day quit being "Valentines Day" for me 22 years ago when I had my first child...on this day! So now it's Happy Birthday Boomer, Steak, Salad and French Vanilla birthday cake! LOL! Hope yours is a good one! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Thursday, February 14, 2008 - 8:14 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=357801682#" id="addReplyLnk_631370" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=357801682&commentID=631370" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=100488823" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">banesil</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=100488823" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/96/s_2c63de3dc2ad1b64b2d0cd8a9b2be2ae.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Scott Bohn</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_631589">Hope you had a happy Valentine's day!<br />*hugs*<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=100488823" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">banesil</a> on Thursday, February 14, 2008 - 10:44 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=357801682#" id="addReplyLnk_631589" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/145/s_b223edabb8bd47d29b391fa183927089.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; 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Anyway I hope ya had a great Valentine's day and Love and peace to you my beautiful friend xoxoxoxo ;* (smooch smooch) ♥<br /><br /><a href="http://s126.photobucket.com/albums/p88/irishdog36/?action=view&current=Celticheart.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i126.photobucket.com/albums/p88/irishdog36/Celticheart.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a> on Friday, February 15, 2008 - 2:53 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=357801682#" id="addReplyLnk_631807" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; 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font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a> on Friday, February 15, 2008 - 9:55 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-24345555087377054402008-02-13T01:58:00.001-05:002010-10-30T14:30:00.633-04:00Some People Should NOT Be Allowed To Have Dogs<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, February 13, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">OK, so I am ANGRY. Not just a little pissy, not panties in a wad, but all out ANGRY!<br /><br />SOME PEOPLE SHOULD NOT EVER CONSIDER OWNING A DOG!<br /><br />PERIOD.<br /><br />END OF STORY.<br /><br />My little happy ending for Cain and Casey ended in a disaster.<br /><br />Ugh.<br /><br />Here I am sick, dealing with this crud and going out of my way to get these dogs to these people because they just can't wait....only to have to get my sick ass out of bed again today to go get them.<br /><br />WHAT??<br /><br />Oh yes you heard me right.<br /><br />The guy calls me this AM and says the dogs would not poop/pee when they took them out, they did on their floor and that they kept them up all night crying.<br /><br />DUH!<br /><br />Its called "adjustment period" wise ass.<br /><br />You just got 2 dogs that were taken away from their only mom and the home they knew. They are scared and they are confused. Its going to take time to retrain them to your home , family, area, etc.<br /><br />Well he wasnt having none of that and told me to come get the dogs.<br /><br />So, I went, coughing and bitching all the way.<br /><br />I called the Boxer Haven.<br /><br />Some people should not be allowed to have dogs.<br /><br />The end.<br /><br />*swallows some meds, blows nose, coughs...*<br /><br />Going to go lay back down now.<br /><br />PS- no worries. Dogs will stay with me and when I move out mom has agrees to take care of them for me so I need not find them a new home.<br /><br />Would of been nice if she would have offered before. Then I could of saved all of us from this.</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=229418339" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♥♥ STACEY ♥♥</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=229418339" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/123/s_f2df0f5cb5404683ab6449a9185324cf.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Stacey G.</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_630346">They know where a good home is. It's a sign.<br />Hope you get to feelin better.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=229418339" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♥♥ STACEY ♥♥</a> on Wednesday, February 13, 2008 - 6:58 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=357523818#" id="addReplyLnk_630346" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=357523818&commentID=630346" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=229418339" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_630346"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/145/s_b223edabb8bd47d29b391fa183927089.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Ken Scott</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_630787">Bless you and your mom for saving those beautiful boxers! Im so sorry that you all are going through this. Send the boxers in fed ex boxes to me and I'll take very good care of them (I wish) Just kidding but I would take them for sure. I think the Boxers rescue team need to hear from ya about the boxers' loyalty to you and those new people pick them up so they need to know the history about the boxers' relationship with you before they decide to get them. GOOD LUCK CHRYS!!! ;) ♣<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a> on Thursday, February 14, 2008 - 1:29 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=357523818#" id="addReplyLnk_630787" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=357523818&commentID=630787" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-20275443881477458332008-02-12T20:43:00.002-05:002010-10-30T14:33:54.071-04:00Mastering the Art of Letting Go<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Tuesday, February 12, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><a href="http://s56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Animal/Boxer/?action=view&current=s462dpi12.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Animal/Boxer/s462dpi12.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></span><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I think I have mastered the art of letting go. All things considered. Today I had to let go of that last little bit of life I left behind. Today the dogs, my babies went to go to their new home. I never thought I would see the day I had to make the choice to let them go. And it certainly was not an easy decision to make. But I had to look at it from all sides of the box. It was never a choice for me as to whether I would leave them behind in OK. Marcus didn't want them. The only reason he wanted Cain was because of how he looked to his friends. He was a prize. Something to show off. See a pattern here? I know I do. If you don't, look a little closer and read between the lines you might just see something you missed before. Anyway, I knew Cain and Casey would not be left behind. I knew if I did and he got mad for any reason, he would just give them to who ever without a second thought. Or just drop them off at the pound. Besides, they were MY dogs. I bought them, I paid for them and I took care of them. So I packed them up with a few of the things I brought into the relationship and headed up here.</div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I thought being here, things would be easy. I thought by now I would be working, making money, having some things paid off and in my own place. As you all know, things did not happen as planned.</div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Because of that, the dogs suffered. I don't mean that in a bad way. I did all I could for them here with what I was given, and yes they were with their people momma and that's pretty much all that mattered to them. But I am so wrapped up in trying to get my own life back on track that they were just not being all that they were used to. Play time, attention, running, a yard, etc. So I felt it best for them and me to find them a new home. I got in contact with the Michigan Boxer Haven Rescue who in turn put them on their website. In a matter of days I had a family who wanted them. A family who wanted BOTH of them. I talked to Jennifer for quite a while. Called the Boxer Haven back and said yes, I want them to go there. The Haven does a reference, background and house check. They passed. YEAH. Then I talked to Rich, the husband a few times. GREAT family. I could not have asked for a happier ending to this story. This family had been around boxers. They have a 14yr old son. A HUGE house that the dogs will have freedom to all of. A huge backyard that backs up to 50 acres of apple orchard. And I know them two; they will love to run it…..every last acre.</div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I was really sad driving them this morning. In just a funk. Didn't want to get rid of my dogs. Then just really started to get down on myself. It's my fault. My fault my life is the way it is. Were my choices to make. They should not be the ones suffering. This is best for us both. Once I go there and met Rich and got a tour of the house and Cain and Casey sat with him for a bit, it just felt right. I knew I was making a family very happy. I knew my dogs would bring them many years of happiness and joy just as they did me. And that my friend is a better feeling then anyone could ask for.</div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">In the end, when I went to leave, it was hard to keep moving forward and not looking back when they cried for me. But this is how my life has to be now. I have to keep moving forward, one foot in front of the other. Not looking back and dwelling, but rather looking forward and see what I HAVE done this far and what I am GOING to do.</div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So as I say goodbye to the last little bit of the life left behind, I say hello to the life I am going to have. And I welcome it with open arms.</div><div><br /></div><br /><br /><object height="385" width="480"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/5M7tgD3q0Zg?fs=1&hl=en_US"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/5M7tgD3q0Zg?fs=1&hl=en_US" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="480" height="385"></embed></object><br /><br /><br /><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">~PS~</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And to my "Rock" thank you for "holding my hand" thru this and just being my sounding board when I needed you. It means more to me then you will ever know. Your words , simple as they may have been, helped me deal with one of the hardest things I just had to do.</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Thank you.</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">*hearts*</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_629640">Knowing you were doing what was best for them, had to make it a LITTLE easier. You did th eresponsible thing. I know you are going to miss them terribly, but you knwo they went to a home where they will be taken care of and loved. {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Tuesday, February 12, 2008 - 9:19 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=357329512#" id="addReplyLnk_629640" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=357329512&commentID=629640" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_629640"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_629657">I honestly felt it was meant to be - for so many reasons. And I am welcomed any time I want to visit. I am thankful for the Boxer Haven and feel blessed in many ways for Rich and Jennifer. Thanks for the hugs momma...I needed that !!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Tuesday, February 12, 2008 - 9:29 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=357329512#" id="addReplyLnk_629657" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=357329512&commentID=629657" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_629657"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/145/s_b223edabb8bd47d29b391fa183927089.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Ken Scott</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_629778">You did such a noble thing and you loved them so much that you gave them up for something the boxers will really enjoy and doing what is best for them. You did such a honorable thing. God bless ya hun! ;)<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a> on Tuesday, February 12, 2008 - 11:18 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=357329512#" id="addReplyLnk_629778" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=357329512&commentID=629778" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_629778"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/33/s_8cc4d4280cc84300b0d4fc01a64e5803.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Tabitha Stone</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_629825">I love art very much, I always wish that I will meet someone in the art gallery. And it will be romance and beautiful in my vision of love.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a> on Wednesday, February 13, 2008 - 12:02 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=357329512#" id="addReplyLnk_629825" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=357329512&commentID=629825" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-76245135195305717362008-02-08T13:13:00.003-05:002010-12-23T13:14:12.323-05:00Be Honest - You're Not That Into Him Either<div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0060834064&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe>So, I got this book (thanks Jules) and it's called, Be Honest You're Not That In To Him Either: Raise Your Standards and Reach for the Love You Deserve.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Interesting.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Well not really because the truth is, it was rather boring. I read all 150 odd pages in a couple hours.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">(boring or not, Jeran you are next on the list to read it LOLOL I am sending it your way!)</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I am still trying to figure out what the big deal is about this book. But it's been in every magazine I have read for the last few months and Jules saw it on Dr Phil along with another one that I am reading and will get into that one at another time.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">First, I want to say I am not being rebellious and trying to go against everything my friends are telling me or the advice they are giving me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I CAN NOT help the way that I feel about a certain someone. I am NOT a light switch and can't just turn feelings on and off. I know there are people out there like that. But unfortunately for me I am not one of these people.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I know it has been easy for me to walk away from a <st1:place w:st="on">LOT</st1:place> of people the last 6 or 7 months. But for whatever reason, this person is not one of them. Not that I really want to walk away from him anyway. Maybe just a few steps backwards, but certainly not completely away form.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I feel like the relationship I have with this person is putting a wedge between some of my friendships. I don't want this to happen. I love my friends to death. And I know they only want what’s best for me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I realize me and this person have been on a roller coaster ride since the very beginning. I've done some things, he's done some things. But life goes on. Shit happens. I am not blind. Not stupid and I was not born yesterday. I am pretty sure we all know this by now. But I do happen to see the GOOD that IS in this person. Mind you, the good does not over ride the shit side I had seen, but none the less it is still there.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">The fact remains YES I AM THAT IN TO HIM</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">And you should not judge me, but just love me no matter what choice I make.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Ok now that I have all that out of the way. I happen to think this person is absolutely adorable. And when we are together it's as if nothing and no one else matters. We always have the best of times. It's when we are apart that the roller coaster tends to weave its way in. Different schedules, different lives. But the biggest issue being we somehow got off being on the same page and moved along to different pages not to mention different chapters altogether. And, that’s ok. Doesn’t make either one of us a bad person.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I am not going to say I am sorry or say I am the one at fault for my emotions. Because well, because one can not control emotions. Not these kind anyway. And I should not have to apologize. So, it's now on me to be the one to take a couple of steps backwards so that we are back on the same page again.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I have given this person my heart, and it's pretty obvious he does not really want it. At least not on that level. And that's OK. Goes back to the being on different pages and so forth. So, I have taken it back and am closely guarding it. Not quite sure what to do with it at this point. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I know everyone thinks I should just walk away completely. But, I just can't. I can't. We've tried walking away a couple of times in the past and we always end up walking right back in to it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">This one is on me to work out.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">I don't know guys. I really don't know. But just know, I do hear you and I am listening.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">*blows you a kiss* We are best friends for a reason. That will never change. Just please don't let this put a wedge in our friendship.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">~xoxox~</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Chrys</div><div><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-63356361520599370412008-02-08T09:50:00.003-05:002010-10-30T14:36:03.499-04:00You’re Not That In To Him Either~ Or Am I?<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, February 08, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Love%20Things%20-%20Misc%20Pics/91043039_b7238987df_o.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">You're Not That In To Him Either</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, I got this book (thanks Jules) and it's called "Be Honest – You're Not That In To Him Either: Raise Your Standards and Reach for the Love You Deserve."</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Interesting.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Well not really because the truth is, it was rather boring. I read all 150 odd pages in a couple hours.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">(boring or not, Jeran you are next on the list to read it LOLOL I am sending it your way!)</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am still trying to figure out what the big deal is about this book. But it's been in every magazine I have read for the last few months and Jules saw it on Dr Phil along with another one that I am reading and will get into that one at another time.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">First, I want to say I am not being rebellious and trying to go against everything my friends are telling me or the advice they are giving me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I CAN NOT help the way that I feel about a certain someone. I am NOT a light switch and can't just turn feelings on and off. I know there are people out there like that. But unfortunately for me I am not one of these people.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I know it has been easy for me to walk away from <st1:place>LOT</st1:place> of people the last 6 or 7 months. But for whatever reason, this person is not one of them. Not that I really want to walk away from him anyway. Maybe just a few steps backwards, but certainly not completely away form.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I feel like the relationship I have with this person is putting a wedge between some of my friendships. I don't want this to happen. I love my friends to death. And I know they only want what's best for me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I realize me and this person have been on a roller coaster ride since the very beginning. I've done some things, he's done some things. But life goes on. Shit happens. I am not blind. Not stupid and I was not born yesterday. I am pretty sure we all know this by now. But I do happen to see the GOOD that IS in this person. Mind you, the good does not over ride the shit side I had seen, but none the less it is still there.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The fact remains – YES I AM THAT IN TO HIM</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And you should not judge me, but just love me no matter what choice I make.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok now that I have all that out of the way. I happen to think this person is absolutely adorable. And when we are together – it's as if nothing and no one else matters. We always have the best of times. It's when we are apart that the roller coaster tends to weave its way in. Different schedules, different lives. But the biggest issue being we somehow got off being on the same page and moved along to different pages – not to mention different chapters altogether. And, that's ok. Doesn't make either one of us a bad person.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Love%20Things%20-%20Misc%20Pics/fight-8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am not going to say I am sorry or say I am the one at fault for my emotions. Because – well, because one can not control emotions. Not these kind anyway. And I should not have to apologize. So, it's now on me to be the one to take a couple of steps backwards so that we are back on the same page again.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have given this person my heart, and it's pretty obvious he does not really want it. At least not on that level. And that's OK. Goes back to the being on different pages and so forth. So, I have taken it back and am closely guarding it. Not quite sure what to do with it at this point.<span> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I know everyone thinks I should just walk away completely. But, I just can't. I can't. We've tried walking away a couple of times in the past and we always end up walking right back in to it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">This one is on me to work out. And I will. My own way. My own time.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I don't know guys. I really don't know. But just know, I do hear you and I am listening.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">*blows you a kiss* We are best friends for a reason. That will never change. Just please don't let this put a wedge in our friendship.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">~xoxox~</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Chrys</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">PS - and about that other ordeal I got going on...Oh thats a big HELL NO and I CAN promise you (those that know what I am talking about will get this) that is a line I WILL NOT CROSS!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Love%20Things%20-%20Misc%20Pics/Best-Friends-3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 162px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=26416851" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ Sõft Sèxy & Snügglâbly Wårm Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=26416851" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/106/s_555d990d7f4945c5ba49962e1118c97b.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Jessica Betts</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_625314">Girl I was where you are now a few yrs back. I understand what your talking about how when the 2 of you are together nothing matters. It took me a long time to finally break down and end that relationship. I loved him and how I felt when we were together except for one factor. He was still stuck in the 90's and didnt want to grow up and be a man. He was great fun to be around, always had a blast; but when it came to the real world forget it lol. Im not saying your hunny is anything like my ex, just that in the end you have to do what is right for you. I couldnt take the stress anymore and got out. I already got 3 boys, didnt need another one lol. If you see potential I say go for it, you'll never know if you don't try. If it doesnt work, well its a lesson learned. You'e dealt with heartbreak before, you'll move on. BUT if it does.....thats what to think about. ~Hugs~<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=26416851" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ Sõft Sèxy & Snügglâbly Wårm Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ</a> on Friday, February 08, 2008 - 1:23 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=355954751#" id="addReplyLnk_625314" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=355954751&commentID=625314" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=26416851" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_625314"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 162px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=104635717" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Myca Jean</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=104635717" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/113/s_23c1c577101a4357bf4fc2b123e15346.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Myca Jean Long</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_625644">Everyone is different, therefore everyone communicates and functions on different levels or languages... We love you, and will be supportive of you no matter what... because in this life, we all have different lessons to learn... life isn't easy, because if it was, we wouldn't appreciate the valleys after climbing the mountains!<br /><br />Love ya!!<br /><br />Myca Jean<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=104635717" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Myca Jean</a> on Friday, February 08, 2008 - 8:30 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=355954751#" id="addReplyLnk_625644" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=355954751&commentID=625644" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=104635717" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_625644"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 162px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_625661">Seems all the words of wisdom have already been given, LOL! You can't change how you feel, no matter how much you wish you could! As the saying goes "It is better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all". Your eyes are open, you know the score...you're a big girl. I think the friends that are giving you a hard time are just wanting to protect you from a heatbreak.<br />The next book that should be on your list is Wokini by Billy Mills. Trust mom on this! LOL! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Friday, February 08, 2008 - 8:53 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=355954751#" id="addReplyLnk_625661" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=355954751&commentID=625661" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_625661"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 162px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">fairreegrl</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/22/s_26331e8169ff4a24a978b1eb2b944eaf.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_626052">~nods head in agreement with Mom~ Sounds like everyone is just tryin to protect you..maybe more than is needed eh? If they are your friends.. then they will continue to be.. And love simply is.. if we could just help who we fall for this world would be a lot easier..and not nearly as exciting.. No matter the type of love you are given... simply cherish it in all forms. That is how I make it..lol. ~hugs~ and yes.. our love to you too Chrys.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">fairreegrl</a> on Saturday, February 09, 2008 - 9:54 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=355954751#" id="addReplyLnk_626052" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=355954751&commentID=626052" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_626052"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 162px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=10328229" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Iceman48602</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=10328229" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/124/s_96e0a6b5ab083de608e59e46d5a3ffcd.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Gary Voit</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_628805">HEy! How are you sweetie? I was touched by this blog cuz it reminds me alot of myself and how I had things at one point. Crazy huh... Wish I was that guy who you are talking about who had a chance to have your heart cuz I would put it right close to mine keeping it warm and safe from all harm forever. We could write a book instead of just a few pages and still be on the same page....LOL Hope to hear from you again real soon and I hope all is well your way and you're feeling better...HUGZ@U always<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=10328229" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Iceman48602</a> on Tuesday, February 12, 2008 - 12:18 AM </div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-35726109695157641922008-02-07T14:28:00.001-05:002010-10-30T14:37:45.853-04:00Reflections On This Time Of Year<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, February 07, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Love%20Things%20-%20Misc%20Pics/187465100_l.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></span></div><br /><br /><span style="font-size: x-small;">I seem to reflect alot this time of year. More so then usual. Part of it due to it being a new year. But the rest to being that part of me that still holds on to the dream that not all romance is dead in the world.<br /><br />It's the romantic in me ( I can't help it. I try to hide it, but its no use) - I see people in love and even just holding hands its a beautful thing and I realize how time is slipping through my own hands. Tick Tock Tick Tock. I stop to think to myself - I can not believe its Feb already. Seems like just yesterday we were bringing in the new year.<br /><br /><br />No amount of money could ever replace the feeling you get from the one you love and truly being loved back,the world could be caving in all around me and its all right because I see the look in his eyes and vica versa---that is deep. The feeling is deep. For that moment in time nothing else matters.<br /><br />I want that moment to come back....<br /><br />So for those of you celebrating love this Valentines, remind yourself you shouldnt have to have a holiday to show that person how much you love them. It should be something you want to do all the time. And never be afraid of it, because you never know when its going to be taken away from you.<br /><br />~xoxox~<br />Chrys</span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-44493923694120274212008-02-06T16:21:00.002-05:002010-10-30T14:42:24.711-04:00Stepping Off My Throne<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, February 06, 2008</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://s56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Irish/Princess%20Sweetheart%20Beauty/?action=view%C2%A4t=IRISH.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Irish/Princess%20Sweetheart%20Beauty/IRISH.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://s56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Irish/Princess%20Sweetheart%20Beauty/?action=view%C2%A4t=princess.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Irish/Princess%20Sweetheart%20Beauty/princess.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Stepping Off My Throne</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have been trying to write this topic for a while now. Every time I think I am done things change in life or something else happens and it's like I have to scrap the whole thing and start over. So instead of telling a tale to make the whole thing fit together, I am just going to get to the point.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Anyone who is lucky enough to be closest to me knows here rules the Queen of Open Relationships. I use the term lucky very loosely as these people know it has not always been an easy ride. But I do it because every time I have tried to be in a committed relationship I always get hurt and cheated on. So I just got to the point where I said "Fuck It" and made the relationships open.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Pretty much every relationship I have ever been in, with the exception of only a handful, was an OR on some level or another.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Today, this is me stepping off my throne and passing that crown on to someone else. I no longer want to be Queen of anything. I'll just stick to Irish Princess status. LOL.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I know OR's are NOT for everyone. There is a certain level of commitment and trust that comes along with an OR. (Or just simply not giving a fuck and keeping yourself at a distance making sure the walls stay up, the heart stays guarded, and the feelings are kept to a minimum.) Mutual respect, boundaries, rules, and just straight up honesty are needed in ANY type of relationship. These guidelines are different for everyone and every relationship. Some look at it as being a swinger, some look at is as letting a 3<sup>rd</sup>party in your bedroom, some look at is as being totally committed to each other, but you both have a lil flavor on the side.( with the partners consent of course) Whatever, however you look at it, view it, see it. Been there done all of that.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">If you want to be in a relationship, be in one. If you want to date and play the field then do that. But come on - stop trying to do both.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But you might be saying to yourself right now "Hey, wait – how can you have a commitment and be in an OR?" Well that depends on the type of relationship.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Confused?</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Yeah – so am I these days.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">This is why I have decided to step down.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p>But lets not confuse "dating" with an OR.</o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I want to find that "one." Just me and that person. I want to love just that one person. Give them all of me, not just bits, pieces and parts of me. I want that one person I can focus all my attention on and not be partially focused because there is someone else in our world too. I don't want to worry about outside influences from either party any more.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I want that one to give me the same in return.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I want that one person I can tell anything and everything to. That one that will take me at my worst and my best. The one who will accept me as the person I am now and the person I will grow to be as time goes on. Someone who is willing to accept the situation as it is now and sees that with time and patience things will change.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I want that one to ultimately be my best friend.</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Is this seriously too much to ask for?</div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am beginning to wonder.</div><div><br /></div><br /><object height="385" width="640"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/PxpPtfabwkQ?fs=1&hl=en_US"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/PxpPtfabwkQ?fs=1&hl=en_US" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="640" height="385"></embed></object><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I'm looking for a lover not a friend</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I'm looking for someone who won't pretend</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Someone who can keep me real and who knows the way</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">The way I like to have my way</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Wants to share, shows he cares</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Im Thinking you're the one that I've been waiting for</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Is it you? is it you?</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Could you be the one for me?</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Could you be the one I need?</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Is it you? is it you?</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Could you be the one for me? (Could you be?)</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Could you be the one I need?</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I'm looking for someone to share my pain (Uh)</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Someone who I can run to, who will stay with me when it rains</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Someone who I can cry with through the night</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Someone who I can trust who's heart is right</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And I'm looking for someone</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Someone who can keep me real and who knows the way</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">The way I like to have my way</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Wants to share, shows he cares</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">im Thinking you're the one that I've been waiting for</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Is it you? is it you?</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Could you be the one for me?</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Could you be the one I need?</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Is it you? is it you?</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Could you be the one for me?</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Could you be this one I need?</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">take for granted</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">How much I care (How much I care)</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And appreciates that I'm there</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Someone who listens</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And someone I can call who isn't afraid of love to share</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Is it you? is it you?</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Could you be the one for me?</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Could you be the one I need?</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Is it you? is it you?</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Could you be the one for me?</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Could you be the one I need?</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/145/s_b223edabb8bd47d29b391fa183927089.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Ken Scott</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_624126">Yer actions are very normal and it would be healthy for you to keep those castle walls sky high! Keep those fucking Trolls and Ogres out! Ya need a REAL knight or prince charming. Ya got to give yourself a lot of time to figure out who you are dating. Have fun you're so young and I'll pray for ya! ♣ †<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a> on Thursday, February 07, 2008 - 3:09 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=355387899#" id="addReplyLnk_624126" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=355387899&commentID=624126" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><br /><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-14340570808557200892008-02-04T19:06:00.005-05:002010-10-30T14:44:50.457-04:00Weekend Update<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Monday, February 04, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />One of these days I will finish up the blog I have been working on and get it posted. But for right now I just wanted to say hello to everyone and give you a quick update.<br /><br />I posted some new party pics from Saturday night. So go check them out on MySpace!<br /><br />Went out for a bit on Friday night - ran into someone I had not talked to in about a month or so. Could have lived without that. NO MORE DRAMA.<br /><br />I also spent some time reading this book. "Admit it, You are just not that in to him either...." ..and just you wait until I post the results of that!<br /><br />Saturday I worked for a couple of hours. Then went to Kelly's. She is a girl I work with. Cool chick! *waves* We went to eat at this awesome Mexican place. YUM! About time I had some good Mexican food. The last few places I went around here were yucky! Nothing like the Tex-Mex food back home. But Kel gets 2 points for showing me this place. Then we went back to her place and got ready. Waited for Rebecca and Kim. Then we headed to Patty Flemmings Irish Pub. Misty met us there. We had a few drinks while Becca ate. Pretty good music going on there. Some funny guys sitting over by us doing their chair hip hop dances. Becca got pics of them, but I didnt post them. We left there and went to downtown and partied the rest of the night at Meinbergs. The place was kick ass! We drank, we talked, we laughed and we danced our asses off. Good time. Good music and lots of great people. I met SO many fucking people that my head is spinning. *big smiles*<br /><br />I CANT WAIT TO GO BACK!<br /><br />Me and Kel got back to her place it was almost 3am and we ate our leftover mexican before heading to bed.<br />Sunday I woke up way too early to her kitty wanting in and her dog needing to go out. LOL. But it was OK. We hung out a bit and dealt with some things. I got back to my place ... hmm think it was almost 11am.<br />I felt bad cause I knew my mom wanted to go out. But originally I had a date for the night. (*waves*hey Jim!!) and I had to cancel because I just knew I was going to get stuck working late. And didnt want him to have to drive all that way to town. So my mom wanted to go out. But I had already made plans with Kel. So I promised my mom I would hang out with her for Super Bowl Sunday.<br /><br />So we headed up to the local watering hole. Chips, dip and wings. Having a grand time since we freaking know everyone in there. Guess who walks in??<br /><br />Ugh. yeah. Who I now refer to as "The Jerm" aka Jeremy.<br /><br />Him and his dad. I turned myself around and did not look his way all night. I thought once he was heading over to say hi, and maybe he was going to until I gave him a dirty ass look and looked back at the tv so he headed to the bathroom.<br /><br />Fucker. Stay away.<br /><br />So far so good. Lets hope he continues to leave me alone or things will have to get ugly.<br /><br />So I spent today sleeping in and recovering. No hangovers. But lack of sleep!<br /><br />Back to work tomorrow!<br /><br />If you have not checked out the pics go have a lookie loo. We had a great time.<br /><br />So thanks to Becca, Kel, Kim and Misty for a great time. And thanks to Kel for letting me crash and your place and to Becca for loading all the pics!Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-4346436799404566102008-02-02T11:09:00.004-05:002010-10-30T14:47:06.278-04:00Tag ME!!!! ~ Twice~<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px;"><br /></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Saturday, February 02, 2008</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />Tese are the rules - Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you chose 10 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" on their profile and tell them to read your latest blog."<br /><br />Here are my ten people I'm tagging:<br />I'm not gonna tag anyone. Just because I am going to be a party pooper!!! LOL.<br /><br /><br />Here we go:<br /><br />1. I am a disorganized mess. Things look like they are neat and tidy and in their place. But to me its a huge mess. But I know exactly where everything is. Perhaps a bit OCD about things.<br /><br />2. I am addicted to gum. I chew it constantly. (hello bubblicious)<br /><br />3. I am a germ phobic when it comes to my teeth. I sit down or walk around the house when I brush them. I take FOREVER. And when I am away from my toothbrush - this is where the gum comes in!<br /><br />4. I used to have this habit where I would fold my dirty laundry before putting it in the basket. *rolls eyes at self* I am slowly breaking myself of that. Mostly cause I am so worn down when I get home from work I literally just kick my clothes off and push them in the closet. When I sit down to sort them on laundry day I find myself folding them. LOL<br /><br />5. In college I was the only "lil sis" to the frat house that was not in a soriety.<br /><br />6. My ex made me talk to a shrink about sex therapy because he thought their was something wrong with being Bi. That it was a phase. And that I wanted sex all the time. hmmmm...apparently I am not so wacked out after all. I was declared perfectly sane and normal. LOLOL!<br /><br />7. I admit I left Oklahoma to hide. Sorry :(<br /><br />8. I am not graceful. Rather a big dorky clutz. I fall out of the bed, I trip over my own feet, gum falls out of my mouth.......but at least I can laugh at myself.<br /><br />9. I love ice cream and I can eat it any time of the day. Even when its below zero outside.<br /><br />10. I truly am a survivor. I have suffered more pain, abuse, drama, heartache and death in my 32 years of life then one person could only hope they never have to see. And these days, I am very much happy to be alive even if life sometimes drags me down.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-41262291812452389852008-02-01T10:42:00.004-05:002010-10-30T14:49:07.912-04:00Married Men & Gossip<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, February 01, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_353726458" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Married Men and Gossip Mongers</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">What is it with married men that just because they are "taken" seem to make them more "wanted" by the female population? It's like, well if another woman has him, he MUST have the good stuff.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Really people. Get a grip.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">And what is it that married men are never happy with what they got? I have been trying to figure that one out for so many years now that I think I have given myself a permanent migraine.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Honestly, I do not know any married man that is truly happy.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Well wait, I take that back. My great friend Wally is so truly madly deeply in love with his wife Bren. Yes they are newlyweds but they are the sort of couple that when you are around them you just KNOW they were meant to be and will likely be together forever. They have such a strong bond. They are the type of couple that really makes you want to puke from all the mushy gushy love they exude from their self, but at the same time it's so wonderful to be around and makes you think, WOW! There is still hope that soul mates and true love really do exist in this world! (I love you guys and miss you bunches!)</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">So back to this whole married thing.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I work with this married guy. Not just one, but a few. But I am talking about this one in particular. He's just one of those people you can instantly bond with. Well, maybe not everyone. But there are some common interests that seem to have brought our conversation together in the first place.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">We all know I am adorable. LOL. I can't help that. We all know I am a flirt. But I am harmless and I mean nothing by it. If I am really meaning it, you will know. And that rarely happens. But I am also a personable person. Meaning I can talk to anyone about anything. It's just how I am. I am a dork and a giant goofball so laughing is always bound to happen. People pick up on that. They see me talking to others and they see I am easy to talk to. When you work with someone in such a close knit environment it's nice to talk to them and be friendly. And laughter helps to pass the time. Especially when clients get crabby.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I'm at work Tuesday night. In the back room putting some files together. He must have had a slow moment or something because he comes and pulls up and chair and sits by me. We start talking about life in the south and how things are so much different for us up here. He's only been here 2 years or so, coming from Atlanta. Yeah, quite the change. So then he's telling me about his life, his wife, his baby and soon to be one on the way. I never thought anything of it. Still don't. Just a friendly banter between 2 co-workers who just have something to talk about to kill some time. Although I pretty much got his whole life story in 20 mins. NO BIG DEAL. He's just southern friendly. We like that!!!!</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span> </span>Well my boss comes in to let him know there is a client for him and she's being silly and just picking on him, asking him what is this break time? He just laughs. She just looks at me and shakes her head. Right. Like I had his arm twisted and made him sit back there with me. *insert big old eye roll here* I was working on my files while he was chatting. So no barking at me!</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I get to work Wednesday. It's late in the day and sort of slow. So me, one girl and the boss are already in a case of the giggles. Another girl shows up that works with us. We are all chit chatting and all the sudden there is this SUV just parked in front of the door. By now it's dark and we can't really see. So boss lady is like go open the door so they know we are open. So girl goes to the door and goes…its XX. And starts laughing. Boss lady is like what is he doing here? He's not working. And she laughing, looks at me and says go tell him no loitering. So my dumb ass goes to do so. Mind you it's freezing out and I just go running outside. WHOA! Not good idea. Insta freeze. And insta laugh. I see XX is pimping out the fur coat. I was like OH HELL NO! Are you furry??? Is it real?? And so I go check it out. He's all telling me he dropped some scripts off at Wal-Mart pharmacy which we share a parking lot with and he's got to get his wife from bible study in a bit. And he's all just chat chat chat. I am like dude, seriously its too freaking cold out here. I have to go back in, come in and talk to us. So I go back in. And boss lady is like you need to leave that one alone! He's married! DUH!! Really is that what that gold ring around his finger means? Ohhhhhhh I thought it was just to be pretty. Seriously. I know better then that.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Ok SERIOUSLY!! Where in the hell is that coming from? Just because me and XX have had like 2 conversations since we started working together and we laugh makes YOU think there is some underlying meaning to it all?? I am trying to tell her their isn't nothing going on. I am NOT interested. He's MARRIED. And well, I just won't go there. I know what that shit feels like.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">But, if someone is going to think I MIGHT even be going there, what's that say about me?</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Hmmmmmmmm</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I have given no ideas to anyone – so they can just sit there and gossip all they like.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">GOSSPIERS! I HATE THEM!</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">So he comes in to sit and hang. Girl comes over and she's like I am going to get up in ya'll biz and you aint even talking about anything cause he on the phone! I am just cracking up because these people by this point are really thinking there is something about to brew.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">So he gets off the phone and he's like what time you get off? Umm 8. Girl it's after 8 lets bounce. Oh whatever. You got a wife at bible study to pick up. And he just starts laughing. He leaves and all the girls are talking about how cute he is with all his dimples and stuff. I am just sitting there shaking my head at them all.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I think he's funny. He thinks he's funny. That's brilliant.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Ok, so Thursday (yesterday) he comes in to work. Comes right over and starts chit chatting. I am laughing. He takes a client. Then he has an appt. So I keep walking past because I have to check to see how far along he is to let his appt know. Every time I walk past he winks at me. Dude. Really is your winker broke or what? Because when you married that winking shit is only meant for the wife. Stop that!<span> </span>And me being the dork I am, all I wanted to do was flip him off for shits and giggles and I can't do that in the office so I just smile at him and shake my head. I laugh it off.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Gossipers eyeballs and ears hard at work right now.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">So then it's about time for me to leave. I go get my keys to start the car so it's warm when I leave. He follows me to the back and is like Hey I get off at 7 too but I am almost done. You can't leave until I do. WHATEVER DUDE. I am so out of here. So I go sit with a couple of the girls to talk about today's snowfall and they I put on my coat to leave. He's just standing there glaring at me trying to deal with his clients. I waved my hand up in the air and said, I am outta here. And headed out. I pull the truck around and see he's standing at the door. HA! Seriously, did he think I was going to wait for him???</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">OH<br />MY<br />GAWD!</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I am cracking up laughing as I sit here typing this. Because part of me really isn't thinking too much about it. But the other part of me is just thinking, eh he's bored; he's got issues maybe he just wants someone to talk to. Maybe he just needs a friend. And really, what the hell is wrong with people who have friends that are the opposite sex? Married or not. That shit drives me absolutely bonkers. Who the fuck knows and who the fuck cares because I am not about to get tangled up in the web.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">So to those of you who even thought I was going to go there! BAH! Shame on you for thinking that!</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;">I AM NOT that girl!</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"></span></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">But I sure think its funny the people at work apparently have something to talk about.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">And I think the whole ordeal is just funny.</span></div></div><br /><br /><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/143/s_294e8995c07b45a792dbde894b7d3ad3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_618218">People ALWAYS have to have something to talk about!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a>on Friday, February 01, 2008 - 4:43 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-48478161305900591422008-01-30T23:14:00.004-05:002010-10-30T14:51:34.579-04:00The Devil’s Spawn<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, January 30, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have to rant. If I don't I am just going to explode!!! Well, at least my damn head will anyway. I am on my way out the door to work and I hear from Steve.(oklahoma dude) WTF dude? What gives you the right to just walk in and out as you damn well please? I am so sick of this shit. And sick to death of the fact he NEVER listens to me. I tell him to go away, does he listen? NO. After a month of pouting I get this text from him out of the blue the other night while I am at work. Full of the most random shit ever. I, being the smart ass that I am texted him back saying – Who is this? Oh that set him off. I just ignored him. I guess he didn't like that because he tried to talk to me today. Just started talking like nothing was wrong. WHAT the hell planet did you come from? I would NEVER in a million years expect him of all people to fall into the "asswipe zone" but yes he has fallen. And there he is going to stay. And this is me walking in the other direction. It's pretty sad considering this is at least 15yrs of friendship going down the drain. But I just can not deal with it anymore.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">THEN I get home and I am getting IM's from Jeremy. He would be the asswipe who wanted to use me to get his girlfriend jealous. I say "just friends" he acts like he's all cool with that. I guess not. Whatever dude.<span> </span>Apparently he read my blog before I was able to delete him off my myspace. Today he gets the balls to try to talk to me. Telling me I was his best friend and how he thought I understood him. First off, how can someone be your best friend when you have only known them a couple of weeks?? *rolls eyes*</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Dude, you need to get a grip on reality and leave the booze alone. (too bad hes not going to be able to read that.)</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am too nice. I should not even talk to these asswipes to begin with. But I am just one of those people that when you say something to me, I just have to say something back.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I hope I have made myself clear to the both of them. If<span> </span>being a total bitch to them didn't work and they keep bothering I am going to have to send in the weapons of mass destruction.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am SICK to death of the toxic drama they keep spewing my way.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Too bad neither of them are on myspace to even read this...oh well...makes me feel better to just spit it out there....</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div style="border-bottom-color: windowtext; border-bottom-style: dotted; border-bottom-width: 3pt; border-left-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-left-width: medium; border-right-color: initial; border-right-style: none; border-right-width: medium; border-top-color: initial; border-top-style: none; border-top-width: medium; padding-bottom: 1pt; padding-left: 0in; padding-right: 0in; padding-top: 0in;"><div class="MsoNormal" style="border-bottom-color: initial; border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: medium; border-left-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-left-width: medium; border-right-color: initial; border-right-style: none; border-right-width: medium; border-top-color: initial; border-top-style: none; border-top-width: medium; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0in; padding-left: 0in; padding-right: 0in; padding-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The Devils Spawn</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Spastic</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Bipolar</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Asshole Disorder.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Bullshit producer</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Wanna be seducer</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Manipulative</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Liar</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Cheater</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Commitment phobic</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Uncommunicative</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Loser</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">User</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Abuser</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Douche bag</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Fucker</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I HATE YOU!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Selfish</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Self Centered</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Disrespectful</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Uncaring</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Unloving</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Moody</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Mean</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Cruel</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Disorganized MESS</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Hateful</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Random</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Useless piece of shit!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I HOPE YOU ROT IN HELL!!!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Egotistical</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Vain</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Narcissistic</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Bastard!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Spew on that for a while.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">1/30/2008</div>C.M.<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_616094">Umm WOW! I sure am glad I am not a guy right now, LOL! {{{{HUGS}}}} You tell them, girl!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Wednesday, January 30, 2008 - 11:40 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=353233235#" id="addReplyLnk_616094" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=353233235&commentID=616094" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_616094"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/145/s_b223edabb8bd47d29b391fa183927089.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Ken Scott</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_616186">Creeps after creeps after creeps they just too fucking everywhere damn! I'll pray for ya hun! ♣<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a> on Thursday, January 31, 2008 - 1:37 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=353233235#" id="addReplyLnk_616186" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=353233235&commentID=616186" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_616186"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_619272">HaHa...good one....I love the poetic justice...it is too bad they can't read it!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Saturday, February 02, 2008 - 2:56 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-47284938035891724642008-01-30T15:23:00.003-05:002010-10-30T14:07:11.559-04:00~Pain~Wednesday, January 30, 2008<br />Todays blog was going to be a topic that I have been working on for quite a while. I work on it - then push it aside. I was going to have it up today - but I got sidetracked. Nothing new there. Have to get ready and head to work now.....So until then I am going to leave you with the lyrical feelings.<br /><br />~Pain~<br /><br /><br /><br /><object height="385" width="480"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/n8oSDESi48w?fs=1&hl=en_US"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/n8oSDESi48w?fs=1&hl=en_US" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="480" height="385"></embed></object><br /><br /><br />Pain, without love<br />Pain, I can't get enough<br />Pain, I like it rough<br />'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all<br /><br />You're sick of feeling numb<br />You're not the only one<br />I'll take you by the hand<br />And I'll show you a world that you can understand<br />This life is filled with hurt<br />When happiness doesn't work<br />Trust me and take my hand<br />When the lights go out you will understand<br /><br />Pain, without love<br />Pain, I can't get enough<br />Pain, I like it rough<br />'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all<br />Pain, without love<br />Pain, I can't get enough<br />Pain, I like it rough<br />'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all<br /><br />Anger and agony<br />Are better than misery<br />Trust me I've got a plan<br />When the lights go off you will understand<br /><br />Pain, without love<br />Pain, I can't get enough<br />Pain, I like it rough<br />'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all<br />Pain, without love<br />Pain, I can't get enough<br />Pain, I like it rough<br />'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing<br />Rather feel pain<br /><br />I know (I know I know I know I know)<br />That you're wounded<br />You know (You know you know you know you know)<br />That I'm here to save you<br />You know (You know you know you know you know)<br />I'm always here for you<br />I know (I know I know I know I know)<br />That you'll thank me later<br /><br />Pain, without love<br />Pain, can't get enough<br />Pain, I like it rough<br />'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all<br />Pain, without love<br />Pain, I can't get enough<br />Pain, I like it rough<br />'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all<br />Pain, without love<br />Pain, I can't get enough<br />Pain, I like it rough<br />'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all<br />Rather feel pain than nothing at all<br />Rather feel pain<br /><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><br />fairreegrl <br /><br /><br /><br />One of my absolute favs.. ~hugs~ and our blessings Chrys<br /><br />Posted by fairreegrl on Wednesday, January 30, 2008 - 3:53 PMChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-19443019311308177442008-01-28T16:50:00.003-05:002010-10-30T14:09:43.311-04:00It’s Best To Be Me<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Monday, January 28, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/BBW/bbw00106.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/BBW/BBW.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/BBW/curves-2.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /> ..></div><br /><br /><br /><br /><table border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="date" style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><div align="center"><br /></div></td></tr><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="body" style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-size: 1em;"><div align="center" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I'm not the person they say I should be<br />but I don't want to be like them I want to be me.<br />Why do they care about how I look just because I'm not the same,<br />At least if something goes wrong I know who's to blame.<br />At least when I look in the mirror I know who I face,<br />and I still accept myself when my mistakes can't be erased.<br />I don't care how I look I know I have beauty inside,<br />and when someone brings me down I know where to find my pride.<br />At least I know what is wrong at least I know what is right,<br />and when I do something I know is wrong my heart can put up a fight.<br />When I look deep down inside I see a reflection of my soul,<br />I see that it was never empty, it's full,<br />I give out all my love the same so no one else gets hurt,<br />and when I am in trouble I don't leave myself in the dirt.<br />I treat myself good the way that it should be,<br />that's how I know it's best to be me.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div align="center"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">C.M.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">MySpace Comments:</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; line-height: 13px;"></span></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_612729">Awesome! I wouldn't want you to be anyone but you! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Monday, January 28, 2008 - 7:38 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=352464466#" id="addReplyLnk_612729" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=352464466&commentID=612729" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><label id="NewDiv_612729"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/33/s_8cc4d4280cc84300b0d4fc01a64e5803.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Tabitha Stone</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_613939">yes,girl be yourself not anybody but yourself.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a> on Tuesday, January 29, 2008 - 1:02 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=352464466#" id="addReplyLnk_613939" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=352464466&commentID=613939" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-7925863001771087092008-01-27T10:22:00.007-05:002010-10-30T14:12:50.199-04:00Don’t Assume ( a rant about my blogs and surveys)<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Sunday, January 27, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Lets get something straight.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;">One should NEVER EVER EVER assume they know who or what exactly my blogs are about. Nor should you assume that about my survey answers as well.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;">Chances are - if you assume - you will be wrong.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;">There are only a handful of people that are so close to me that they know my life day to day.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;">This is my own little corner of blog land. My own little online journal. I write about whatever I want at any given moment.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;">I am a writer. Its my hobby, my passion in life. My words are my saving grace during stressful times. My words are my life line when I am lost and confused. My words are just a part of ME. I am always writing things down. Tablets of paper follow me where ever I roam. I write on menus/napkins when I am out to eat if something runs through my brain. I write in the margins of magazines if something sparks an idea. I write whenever and anyplace I can so long as a pen is in hand.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;">Sometimes it takes a while for the idea to be completed. Especially the poetry.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;">I try to remember to put a date on my writings so that the reader knows a time frame. But l am not perfect and have not always kept up with this.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;">Sure, my blogs are automatically dated as the day of posting, but that does not mean I wrote it that particular day.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;">And when things take a darker turn - as most of my poetry does - please don't dwell on that. Its just how my words work. I have darkness inside that comes out in my writing. Doesnt mean I am hurting myself our out to do harm. Just means that how I choose to express myself in my words.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: x-small;">Those that know me in real life know not to worry. I write, I let it out, I feel better and then I move on. Back to smiles and being sunshine.</span><br /><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_610939">And we like the smiles ans sunshine! We all have those "dark" days...some choose to get it out by writing it down (you) and others let it out in different ways...cleaning (NOT me, LOL), screaming, driving fast, lashing out at innocent (or not so innocent) people, etc. I used to write it and then burn the paper symbolizing releasing it from my life. I have always been a cryer, too...I cry, washing it from my mind and life. It's the release that is good no matter how you release it unless you are putting yourself and others in danger (as in my last 2 examples!). {{{{HUGS}}}} Keep writing...you have plenty of talent!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Sunday, January 27, 2008 - 10:48 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=352006591#" id="addReplyLnk_610939" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=352006591&commentID=610939" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_610939"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">fairreegrl</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/22/s_26331e8169ff4a24a978b1eb2b944eaf.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_610957">LMAO!!! Dark poetry? I don't know what you are talking about.. lol. You mean we all have differing emotions at different times? No WAY!! lol... sorry but I completely feel ya on that one.. and I was catching up on the past blogs that I somehow missed.. I can't believe you got so much crap on your top list.. Personally I do the same thing and just cause Lonna isn't number one doesn't mean that she is any less in my heart.. I agree.. people can be stupid.. Sending lots of love Chrys and tons of hugs!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">fairreegrl</a>on Sunday, January 27, 2008 - 11:17 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-34025554129066473372008-01-26T22:09:00.004-05:002010-10-30T14:15:02.449-04:00Useless Ramblings<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Saturday, January 26, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_351870231" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div align="center"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Words%20on%20Icons%20and%20such/The%20Written%20Word/Write-1.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Words%20on%20Icons%20and%20such/The%20Written%20Word/write.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Words%20on%20Icons%20and%20such/The%20Written%20Word/write-9.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Useless Ramblings</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Just some useless muck. Got too much rambling through my brain today. I need to let some of it out before the madness takes over.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Feet stuck unable to move. Once again I see myself standing at the cross road. What direction do I go in? Do I listen to my heart? Do I listen to my brain? Follow the words of others or go my own way? I no longer know where I am going. But I know I don't want to relive where I have been.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I opened my heart, opened my world and let a person in. Now I feel like I am the one paying the pied piper for that sin. All I wanted was for that person to act like I mattered to them. Just wanted them to care. Only asked that they talk to me and to just be there. Why was it so hard for that person to let down their wall and let someone else in? These are answers I will always seek but never know. Now all I feel like doing is letting go.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Look and me. Look at you. My inner and outer beauty overrides. What was it I saw there? Everyone says "not that great, you can do better, what's gotten in to you?" It's the glimmer in your smile, the sparkle in your eye, the winks that flash. The humor that spills the laughter that roars. But all that is gone now. I'm shutting the doors. All you do is hurt me and cause me pain. Crazy. Insane.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">""You know I love you, I really do. But I can't fight anymore for you. I don't know…maybe we will be together again…sometime…In another life…."" ~The Veronicas</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div align="center"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Words%20on%20Icons%20and%20such/The%20Written%20Word/stupidwords.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div></div><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></span><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_610936">{{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Sunday, January 27, 2008 - 10:40 A</div></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-31360382857275617292008-01-25T09:17:00.003-05:002010-10-30T14:17:56.969-04:00Quickie - The Best<div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;">Friday, January 25, 2008 </span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">J<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;">ust a quickie to say hello.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">All is well and fine here. The drama has passed. Thank goodness. Letting go of some things and making some changes.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Funny how my long time friend (steve) back in OK was pouting and being a baby for like a month about the whole OK trip. I kid you not when I say he texted me last night - LIKE NOTHING WAS UP! Fuck that shit. Buh bye. Seriously saying good bye to someone after that many years is not easy. But - its too toxic to stick around deal with it anymore. </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">As for the rest of the drama - gone. Done with it and just sweeping it under the rug.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I deserve the best, expect the best, want the best. If you can't treat me as the best -as friends or more then friends - then you dont deserve to have me in your life. End of story.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I dont have time for the games, bullshit and drama. Check it at the door or dont come through my door.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Getting back to being ME!</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Too many prospects in life to wait around for people to stop playing games. This game is OVER.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Its peak tax season. That mean...BUSTING ASS! Yesterday I worked almost 11hrs. CRAZY! I had forgotten how much of a mess tax season gets. Looks like today is going to be just about the same.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Class is on break for about 2 weeks. Which is good since peak is taking so much of my time.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I hope all of you are doing well. Will catch up this weekend.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">~Chrys~</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">MySpace Comments:</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 67px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/143/s_294e8995c07b45a792dbde894b7d3ad3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_608549">Keep rockin' it Sister!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a>on Friday, January 25, 2008 - 1:36 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=351324844#" id="addReplyLnk_608549" style="color: #003399; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_608579">SO glad to see a positive blog from my sweet sis! I hope busting your ass translates into cash flow for you!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Friday, January 25, 2008 - 1:56 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=351324844#" id="addReplyLnk_608579" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=351324844&commentID=608579" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_608579"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_609808">Whooooooooooooo freakin' hooooooooooo!!! YaY...the Drama is gone!! Amen sista...check that shit at the door.<br /><br />I too am glad to see a positive blog once again! Get back to being YOU & you will find it is a much happier place.<br /><br />~HUGS~<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a>on Saturday, January 26, 2008 - 12:58 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=351324844#" id="addReplyLnk_609808" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=351324844&commentID=609808" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Brian Kinney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_610255">I want more than a quickie from you babydoll... winks...<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a> on Saturday, January 26, 2008 - 7:41 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-1658729623416219432008-01-23T17:43:00.006-05:002010-10-30T14:20:10.600-04:00Blowing Up Bridges (i.e.Squashing the Drama)<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, January 23, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"></span><br /><div style="font-weight: normal;"><a href="http://s56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/?action=view&current=hauntedbridge.gif" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/hauntedbridge.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Burning Bridges</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am sitting here thinking about all of the things and people I have had to let go of in the past couple of years. And then I zero in on the last 6 months. I have had to let go and walk away from a lot. Some of I wanted to some of it I didn't really want to but had to. Then I realize how many people I have let in my life as of late. I guess this to be expected when you are suddenly single and thrust into a whole new world 1000 miles away from your old one. But many of those people I had had to walk away from and just let go.<span> </span>This has never really been a problem for me.<span> </span>I don't let people get too close for this particular reason. I deserve to only have the best in life. And that includes all aspects. If you shit on me or bring me drama I will walk away.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And I have had more then my fair share of people shit on me in the last few days. (one person claiming to be my friend only cause they wanted a fuck buddy – that was Saturdays drama, then Sunday I thought ok, will be nice (fuck I am too nice) and let this other friend prove to me he just wants to be a friend only (cause that's all I want – even after the last drama he caused me) only to feel like a used piece of meat to make his girlfriend jealous. Not a good feeling at all.) My so called very best friend, that I have known since like 7th grade is being a HUGE baby because I did not come to OK for New Years. *rolls eyes* and so now hes just being an ass.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">"If you can't handle me at my worst you don't deserve me at my best." ~unknown</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I ran across that quote many years ago. And it follows me around often. We all have bad days and I am no exception to that rule. So I am always understanding to others when they have a bad time in their life.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I don't ask for much. Just for you to be open and honest. And not bring me or cause me drama.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But you know what they say – Actions speak louder then words…and thats why my action is to walk away.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><b>MySpace Comments:</b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/145/s_b223edabb8bd47d29b391fa183927089.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Ken Scott</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_604267">Understanding and patience are the keys that you got to have in order to be in a healthy friendship so if that isn't the case then the friendship would be in shambles... I really like it when ya put that actions speak louder than words so that's what I have been doing lately to see how my friends treated me so I had to let some of my ex friends go cos they really don't respect me and love me enough to have me as their friend so they simply don't deserve me as their friend so hun I hear ya loud and clear so hang in there kido! ;) ♥ ♣<br /><br /><a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vd3d3LmZyZWVjb2Rlc291cmNlLmNvbQ==" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img .."myspace="" alt="Myspace Layouts" border="0" layouts"="" src="http://img.freecodesource.com/gallery/images/banners/prod_647_35751.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vd3d3LmZyZWVjb2Rlc291cmNlLmNvbQ==" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Saint Pattys Day Graphics</a><br /><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; 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font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_604267"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_611345"><a href="http://s36.photobucket.com/albums/e27/ace603wendy/?action=view&current=strongwoman.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Strong woman" border="0" src="http://i36.photobucket.com/albums/e27/ace603wendy/strongwoman.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Sunday, January 27, 2008 - 4:52 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-26356915050861935152008-01-22T16:27:00.001-05:002010-12-23T13:59:24.904-05:00Poetry in Motion: ~Crushed~<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Tuesday, January 22, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div align="center">This feeling crushing me<br />Crushing the life from my very soul<br />A heavy slab of loneliness upon my weary head<br />Awake for days<br />No sleep to come<br />Just left with this feeling to overcome</div><div align="center"><br />Crushing the tears from my very head<br />Bowing my head I begin to cry<br />The silent tears streaming down my cheeks<br />No voice left to scream<br />Just silence surrounding my soul<br />No longer feeling whole<br />Curled up tightly in a ball<br />Wishing it would subside<br />So I can once again feel the light</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">C.M.</div><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=45267287" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">SCOTTIE</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=45267287" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/20/s_fb5806fa172d4e99a17b4a388553b600.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></span><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /><br /><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_602738">Sorry to hear of your melancholy mood my friend, but the words are very well written! :)<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=45267287" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">SCOTTIE</a>on Tuesday, January 22, 2008 - 5:01 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-86826439523973174402008-01-21T22:42:00.003-05:002010-12-23T14:00:00.142-05:00Poetry In Motion: I Am Not The Enemy<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Monday, January 21, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">The feelings I fight<br />In this battle of emotions,<br />My mind keeps swirling<br />With all these commotions.<br />Bitter thoughts and words<br />Of the past do dwell,<br />Keeping my guard up<br />Of the feelings that fell.<br /><br />I am not the enemy<br />Of a war I fought,<br />The explosions of battle<br />That drained my thoughts.<br />Being a victor to overcome<br />What was a bitter past,<br />To walk in stride<br />To go forward at last.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">C.M.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-47615587654469227522008-01-21T16:02:00.006-05:002010-10-29T16:06:38.699-04:00Taking A Step Back - Again<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Monday, January 21, 2008</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Gothic%20Dark%20Vampire%20-%20NO%20Blood/593595509_139e0ceaf7.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Tired of being on the outside – looking in</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Feeling like life is sin after sin.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Taking a giant step back.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Evaluating my life – people, places and things.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Tired of people trying to run my life</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">What's best for me</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">What I should do</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Where I should go</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Not to mention, the company I keep.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Sick sick sick of it. So, I am taking a step back.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I need to breath…..</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am tired of my good nature being taking advantage of. I am tired of being stepped on. Tired of being hurt. Tired of the one being left behind. Tired of feeling the pain. I am a good person with a good heart that would never hurt someone on purpose. So why do people have to be that way towards me? I will never understand.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div>I am searching for that inner peace again. After this past weekends events I find myself sitting here evaluating every last detail of my life. Wondering what needs to change to better me. Latley, I feel like I am constantly doing something wrong. That maybe all the shit that keeps falling down around me is my own fault. But the reality is IT'S NOT!!! The only thing that is my fault is I keep letting the wrong people in my life. But how do you really know before its too late? I used to be such a good judge of character. I have let myself get cloudy.<br /><br />I have had to say good-bye too many times in the last 2 years. I really do not want to do it anymore.<br /><br />I blame my heart. My heart is just too big. I see the good in everyone no matter how little they have. I have been told I am too nice. Too honest. Too understanding.<br /><br />I always thought being nice, understanding and honest were good qualities to have. I might need to rethink that.<br /><br />I found myself hiding from the world today. And I don't like doing that. I just feel so beat down and don't want to deal. These are the days when I put on my hard shell. And I hate that. I hate having to be that girl. But its the only way I know to protect me and my inside feelings.<br /><br />Am I always going to be on the outside looking in?<br /><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">MySpace Comments:</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_593110">Taking back control...is a good thing! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Sunday, January 13, 2008 - 5:33 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=347136484#" id="addReplyLnk_593110" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=347136484&commentID=593110" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_593110"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=68162802" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ar3©</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=68162802" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/141/s_4703a96bb33847aa84434b82487c30f5.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Albert Ruiz</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_593741">I totally feel every bit of it.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=68162802" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ar3©</a> on Monday, January 14, 2008 - 5:34 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=347136484#" id="addReplyLnk_593741" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=347136484&commentID=593741" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=68162802" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-18906557953359861792008-01-21T02:15:00.007-05:002010-10-30T14:27:33.205-04:00Sick of Men and the Bullshit<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Monday, January 21, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><br /><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Seriously, if I have deal with one more stupid fucked up childish game playing weasle that doenst know what the fuck he wants or just wants to sit around playing the pawn I am going to invent some poison gas that I will leak into the air and kill off the eintire fucking male population. Ok maybe not the ENTIRE population, just the fucking stupid ass bottom feeders that call themselves men. I have had enough.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">((NOTE: Please understand that I am not talking about ALL men. I realize their are some decent ones out there in the world. ))<br /><br />*Oh, I will call you back. Fuck that no YOU WONT. You never do. So why even say it.<br /><br />*Oh, I care about you. FUCKING LIAR. No you dont. Stop feeding me your bullshit, because if you cared then it would seem like I mattered.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">BTW - I CAN and I DO smell your bullshit a mile away. Don't try to act like I was born yesterday.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br />*Oh, I want a future with you someday. FUCK THAT BULLSHIT because if you did, you would be doing something about it NOW!!!</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">* Don't use me or abuse me because you will lose me.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">*Don't be my friend just because you think it will get you some where. I only want REAL and HONEST people in my life.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">*And certainly don't bring me in to your world to make your ex </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 13px;">jealous</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">.</span></span><br /><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">* Don't make plans you have NO intention of keeping.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">* And good lordy, while I am at it, how hard is it to pick up the phone, pop off and email or an IM these days?<br /><br />I AM DONE! DONE DONE DONE<br /><br />It is absolutly ridiculous how fucking stupid and immature guys are being these days.<br /><br />GROW THE FUCK UP YOU STUPID ASS M*THER F*CKERS</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I am sick to death of dealing with you game playing, committement phobic, liars, cheaters, stuck on your exes, blaming me for shit I didnt even do cause who ever fucked up your past and ruined your bullshit future...She is not me and I dont deserve that shit.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">DONE!</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">Now someone please pass me another tequilla shot....</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">thank you</span></div><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">MySpace Comments:</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_600747">Hands the Irish one a shot of tequilla...and a Guiness. Oh yeah and a {{{{HUG}}}}! Some boys are dumb. And they smell bad. The good thing is they are capable of learning. And showering. Some are not, so it's a good thing there is tequilla. And Guiness. Hope things get better for ya!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Sunday, January 20, 2008 - 10:31 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769#" id="addReplyLnk_600747" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769&commentID=600747" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><label id="NewDiv_600747"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_601015">I know they are not all bad. But I have had to deal with THREE stupid asswipes pulling some retarded dramatic bullshit this weekend and its just made me go NO MORE DRAMA!!!!!<br />Thanks for the Guinness, that was much more needed then another shot of tequilla!<br />BTW- for anyone whose counting, I only had TWO shots of the stuff and TWO bud lights (oh hush its all the podunk bar has on tap, well that and Amber Bock or however you spell that)<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Monday, January 21, 2008 - 4:32 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769#" id="addReplyLnk_601015" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769&commentID=601015" style="color: #003399; 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font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_600804"><a href="http://s72.photobucket.com/albums/i197/jdsouthernbelle/Profile%20Images/?action=view&current=tequila.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i72.photobucket.com/albums/i197/jdsouthernbelle/Profile%20Images/tequila.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><a href="http://s166.photobucket.com/albums/u103/Duane32/?action=view&current=bottomfeeder.png" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Bottom Feeder" border="0" src="http://i166.photobucket.com/albums/u103/Duane32/bottomfeeder.png" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><br /><br /><a href="http://s98.photobucket.com/albums/l272/the_strange_one4848/?action=view&current=scum_eliminator.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="scum elimination" border="0" src="http://i98.photobucket.com/albums/l272/the_strange_one4848/scum_eliminator.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Sunday, January 20, 2008 - 11:10 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769#" id="addReplyLnk_600804" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769&commentID=600804" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_600804"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_601020">OMG! I love these pics!! They SO need to go in my comments!<br />Thanks girl for being the laughter in my bitch fest this weekend!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Monday, January 21, 2008 - 4:34 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769#" id="addReplyLnk_601020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769&commentID=601020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_601020"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_600839">Hmm, explains why my new honey is a woman! Sooo been there and not going to do that again, sis!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Sunday, January 20, 2008 - 11:35 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769#" id="addReplyLnk_600839" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769&commentID=600839" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_600839"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_601022">I think I am just a drama magnet. The last 2 girls I met brought some crazy stuff. *rolls eyes* Isnt anyone out there normal??? LOL...yeah yeah I know - what IS normal?? hahah<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Monday, January 21, 2008 - 4:38 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769#" id="addReplyLnk_601022" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769&commentID=601022" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81869020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Kristi</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81869020" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/92/s_fc5d3118db564b399fdeb53c00180dc0.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">KRISTI C</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_600848">I really wish you would tell us how you really feel & not keep it all bottled up inside ;D I'm sure it will get better(hopefully) some men just can never,ever,ever grow up no matter what.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81869020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Kristi</a>on Sunday, January 20, 2008 - 11:45 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769#" id="addReplyLnk_600848" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; 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You know I have always been like this!! You should know, we had how many classes together in high school!! LOL Yeah I know they are not ALL bad... but I just seem to be a drama magnet latley. UGH!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Monday, January 21, 2008 - 4:39 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769#" id="addReplyLnk_601027" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769&commentID=601027" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_601027"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/33/s_8cc4d4280cc84300b0d4fc01a64e5803.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Tabitha Stone</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_600858">I agree with you, they are clueless, they love play with ours hearts and feels. If seems like<br />men don't have the passion for women and they want us to fight for them,but, instead of fighting for us. These men are now days are very sorry and lazy. Believe me, I feels your pain.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a> on Sunday, January 20, 2008 - 11:57 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769#" id="addReplyLnk_600858" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769&commentID=600858" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_601028">ahhh Tabby...I wish we DIDNT have to feel each others pain. *hugs* Keep smiling girl.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Monday, January 21, 2008 - 4:40 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769#" id="addReplyLnk_601028" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769&commentID=601028" style="color: #003399; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Brian Kinney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_600913">Ahh jeezuz...feeling fucking inferior here about now...but yet I have to agree in a way that...men pretty much suck.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a>on Monday, January 21, 2008 - 12:53 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769#" id="addReplyLnk_600913" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; 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Sorry love, you know I hate him.<br />You just keep smiling for me Bri.... xoxoxo<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Monday, January 21, 2008 - 4:42 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769#" id="addReplyLnk_601032" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769&commentID=601032" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=100488823" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">banesil</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=100488823" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/96/s_2c63de3dc2ad1b64b2d0cd8a9b2be2ae.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Scott Bohn</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_600949">*passes you a tequila shot*<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=100488823" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">banesil</a> on Monday, January 21, 2008 - 1:52 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769#" id="addReplyLnk_600949" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769&commentID=600949" style="color: #003399; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_601034">*grabs the glass and kicks it back*<br />Thanks!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Monday, January 21, 2008 - 4:42 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769#" id="addReplyLnk_601034" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; 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We'll have to toast that sometime together LOL!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Monday, January 21, 2008 - 4:46 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769#" id="addReplyLnk_601039" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769&commentID=601039" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_601039"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=16621116" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">«•†~ SnakeGuru ~†•»</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=16621116" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/14/s_1bc6b9ed09bbd524c5c4887aafc9d0aa.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_601001">Love you too babygurl... MUAHHHHHHHHHHH,,, ( been there done that... but with women...so I know how u feel.. TRUST me... and u KNOW it... )<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=16621116" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">«•†~ SnakeGuru ~†•»</a> on Monday, January 21, 2008 - 3:54 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769#" id="addReplyLnk_601001" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769&commentID=601001" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=16621116" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_601001"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_601044">awww Aeryk - we tight - we cool.... we go waaaaaaaay back LOL<br />Yes, I know you know. And you know I know. Phew, say that 10 times fast! LOL.<br />Anyways, you know (oh here we go) this wasn't directed to you. You know I love ya!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Monday, January 21, 2008 - 4:48 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769#" id="addReplyLnk_601044" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769&commentID=601044" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_601044"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Jules</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/6/s_2e32133ce70e41d0843fb33c3e70f0fe.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_602125">Girl in my opinion most "men" should have been born hermaphrodites. That way they can stay at home and play with themselves all day and leave the female population alone!! In other words...they can go fuck themselves!!! LOLOL!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Jules</a>on Monday, January 21, 2008 - 11:57 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769#" id="addReplyLnk_602125" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769&commentID=602125" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_602125"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_602409">OMG! Girl you is crazy!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Tuesday, January 22, 2008 - 9:14 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769#" id="addReplyLnk_602409" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349503769&commentID=602409" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-76578179845194338032008-01-19T20:09:00.001-05:002010-10-29T15:57:09.162-04:00I HATE Stupid People ( A Rant)<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Saturday, January 19, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I Hate Stupid People!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Are you tired of the mushy gushy blogs? Yeah, me too. For now anyway.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So let's get back to some regularly scheduled programming.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Time to rant.<span> </span>A full fledged straight up IrishChik bitch fest. Or as someone likes to call it *getting all <st1:state><st1:place>Oklahoma</st1:place></st1:state>up in here* (you are such a goofball)</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I hate stupid people. Yes, I said it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I just do not understand the why's of some people these days.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Just because you are book smart, doesn't mean you are smart. Know the difference. Stop acting like otherwise, we can all see right through you.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Acting stupid just because you are trying to be cute. Sorry, but its not working. I ain't feeling it. And neither are those around you. Trust me on that.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">There is a difference between stupid, idiot and dumb. It is up to you to figure that out. It's NOT my job to teach you. You are grown. Do it yourself.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">If it came out of my mouth then I am pretty sure I know it did, don't ask me – "are you sure?" Duh – you are stupid.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">If you hear what I say, why do you ask me – What did you say? Then repeat my shit back? This is not a game of pete and repeat. That's just you being stupid. Stop it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And let's talk about them stupid ass people who feel the need to stir the pot so to speak and cause drama just because they have no life and nothing better to do. Hello loser! Get a fucking life and leave me and my friends alone!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I was hanging with my girl Jeran last night since Jules felt watching the Horse Whisper was much more important then listening to the rants of her girls (OMFG!) and so Jeran and I are discussing the fruitloops that seem to be out in full force.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">PUUUHLLEEEEZE people. Are you fucking kidding me??? There's this guy. He likes Jeran. But there is a girl that likes him. Ummm hello, we are in the real world, shit happens. Apparently this girl isn't very happy that my girl got the attention of this particular man. Well excuse me, but when the fuck did you all the sudden sign ownership papers or something?? Last time I checked, people were not real estate assets to be bought and sold. Or owned. So, this girl obviously has no fucking life so she goes and blogs about how she has realized who her "real friends" are and blah blah blah. Ok, whatever. Get over it. He doesn't like you. Get a grip.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have said it once before and I will say it again: I HATE DRAMATIC TRIFFILING ASS BITCHES who come out to start shit on purpose.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">YOU ARE STUPID!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And while we are on the subject of stupid, let me now switch my rant to something else. My friends list. The whole idea of you coming to me and whining that you can not see my friends list or any other matter regarding my list is just plain stupid. But since everyone seems to have a fucking issue with it, let me clarify some shit for you.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Once upon a time I very proudly displayed my friends list. Now, that's not to say I am no longer proud of my list because I am. But I got tired of all the drama it caused.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Once upon a time Terry was my 1 and Elonna my 2. Well, things change. Right? Life. Terry wasnt my first 1 on myspace. Shit happens. Things change. Terry is no longer with us and in time someone else rightfully deserved to move to the 1 spot. Despite all we have been thru this person has not been moved from my 1 in about 5 months. Before I hid the list, I had a lot of people bash me for "demoting" Terry. And I never really spoke out about it. So this is now me speaking out.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">If anyone and I do mean ANYONE thinks they know Terry better then I DO, then feel froggy to jump forward and let me know. Because T and I had a long talk about his life, his fate and what was to come and we also had a long talk about the person who is now my 1. So you know what, don't you worry about a thing. All T ever wanted was for me to be happy, and if 1 makes me happy, THEN FUCK ALL OF YOU!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And I say the same thing to everyone who has gave me their 2 cents about the person who is my 1 now. Those of you who are my real friends, you know this likely does not apply to you because you just "get it" If you don't "get it" well then, there is nothing I can do to change your mind about him so you are just going to have to love me as I am and accept it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Moving on.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So then why did I move Elonna? It wasn't because I thought to myself, OK she has passed on, no longer in my world , at least not in this realm, lets move her down and move the living closer to me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">NO!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I grouped my friends and family together in a way that made sense to me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">UGH.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I deserve NOT ONE single bit of shit I got for moving Elonna. That girl was my BEST friend and SHE KNEW how much I loved her.<span> </span>So why is everyone so worried about my friends list?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Let me say this – ALL THIS FRIENDS LIST SHIT IS STUPID!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Why are you all up on my page snooping in my friends list all worried about shit anyway?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, I got so sick of all the shit, I just hid it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I want to unhide it. I am proud of my friends and family. I don't want to hide them. I just don't want to hear no crap from anyone.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have almost 300 friends and only 40 spaces. These spaces tend to go to the people I am closest too, have known the longest and are close to my heart. I can't help that more of you have me in your top friends list then I have space for. I can not put you all up there for the world to see. I appreciate the fact that you think I am worthy enough to be in your list. But please understand my reason for my list. Whether I keep it hidden or choose to show it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Don't make me CALL YOU STUPID LOLOL</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And for the couple of you who think I have something to hide – I give you the palm of my hand and say OH PLEASE..YOU JUST ARE STUPID! Cause anyone that knows me – know I have NOTHING to hide. I am who I am. What you see is what you get. You want more, read the blogs. Still not satisfied? Just ask me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">DON'T BE STUPID.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, rant over.... *blows everyone a kiss* (and one extra special one to you)</div><div style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span></div><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: xx-large;">MySpace Comments:</span></b><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_599633">HAHAHA....PMS is such a bitch....well and so are stupid people!!!<br /><br /><br /><br />I think Jules was watching Ghost Whisper...LOL.<br /><br />Oh and thanks for that extra special kiss......HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...J/K<br /><br />I luv ya for who you are girl...and glad to have each other's backs!<br /><br /><br /><a href="http://s246.photobucket.com/albums/gg84/DAEMYENISAIAH_06/?action=view&current=JEALOUSY.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="JEALOUSY" border="0" src="http://i246.photobucket.com/albums/gg84/DAEMYENISAIAH_06/JEALOUSY.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Saturday, January 19, 2008 - 9:09 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772#" id="addReplyLnk_599633" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772&commentID=599633" style="color: #003399; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_599651">PMS is a fucking CUNT! Yes I said it C-U-N-T...at least this month...thats what I get for skipping them for the last 4 months....*please pass the midol*<br /><br />But seriously, stupid ass bitches need to be shot , right along with the rest of the tards.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a> on Saturday, January 19, 2008 - 9:23 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772#" id="addReplyLnk_599651" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772&commentID=599651" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_599651"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Jules</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/6/s_2e32133ce70e41d0843fb33c3e70f0fe.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_599634">Get it strait, it was GHOST WHISPERER!! LOLOL<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Jules</a> on Saturday, January 19, 2008 - 9:09 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772#" id="addReplyLnk_599634" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772&commentID=599634" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_599634"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_599648">LOLOLOL..I got all this shit to bitch about mami and all you got to say is that??? hahahahaha goofy girl...luvs you<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Saturday, January 19, 2008 - 9:21 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772#" id="addReplyLnk_599648" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772&commentID=599648" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_599648"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_600014">AMEN kevin! And good on you for being neutral!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Sunday, January 20, 2008 - 10:45 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772#" id="addReplyLnk_600014" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772&commentID=600014" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_600014"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Jules</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/6/s_2e32133ce70e41d0843fb33c3e70f0fe.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_599661">Haha, no girl I just have soo much to say in reply to stupid people it would fill up this comment space, cuz most people just need to keep their mouths shut!! And that is being very diplomatic and nice about it!!! Arrrrrgh!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Jules</a> on Saturday, January 19, 2008 - 9:34 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772#" id="addReplyLnk_599661" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772&commentID=599661" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_599661"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_599667">No FUCKING joke<br />Jeeezus we gonna have to wash my mouth out with soap before this night is over.<br />I AM SICK TO DEATH of the bottom feeding scum bags...that call themselves me. FUCKING WAIST OF DNA.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Saturday, January 19, 2008 - 9:46 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772#" id="addReplyLnk_599667" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772&commentID=599667" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_599667"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="20" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_600451">That should be *MEN not me....bayjeezus what a dork....LOL!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a> on Sunday, January 20, 2008 - 5:36 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772#" id="addReplyLnk_600451" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772&commentID=600451" style="color: #003399; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_599666">Seriously, if I have deal with one more stupid fucked up childish game playing weasle that doenst know what the fuck he wants or just wants to sit around playing the pawn I am going to invent some gas that I will leak into the air and kill off the eintire fucking male population.<br /><br />It is absolutly ridiculous how fucking stupid and immature guys are being these days.<br /><br />GROW THE FUCK UP YOU STUPID ASS M*THER F*CKERS<br /><br />Now then, if you are sitting here questioning whether or not I am talking about you.... rethink that.<br /><br />Ok that rant done and over with.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Saturday, January 19, 2008 - 9:44 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772#" id="addReplyLnk_599666" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772&commentID=599666" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_599666"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_599671">Ok first please don't kill off the ENTIRE male population...I have grown very attached to the ones in my life and I would like to keep them. Just kill off the stupid ones maybe...LOL!<br />No games, no drama...just some {{{{HUGS}}}} Love ya...you know I do!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Saturday, January 19, 2008 - 9:50 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772#" id="addReplyLnk_599671" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772&commentID=599671" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_599671"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_600012">No worries mamma, would just be the stupid ones! LOLOL<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Sunday, January 20, 2008 - 10:44 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772#" id="addReplyLnk_600012" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772&commentID=600012" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_600012"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_599721">Lol, you go sis. I can't tell you how much shit I have gotten over the choices on my top 40, and at this point I really don't give a shit! Same with how I choose to decorate my page, and what bulletins I choose to post. The fact that I am now with a woman in romantic relationship bothers some people who think we should not be so "obvious" or "tasteless" in how we choose to express our love for each other. Fuck 'em all!<br />Hmm, I had a hysterectomy 16 years ago, so no periods...but maybe the PMS thing is going around! ;)<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Saturday, January 19, 2008 - 10:57 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772#" id="addReplyLnk_599721" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772&commentID=599721" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_599721"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_599733">Eccckkk SIS! Seriously...if people cant handle you and Rye, then maybe they should rethink being on your myspace..that is why its called MY SPACE our little place in the world to do what we want!! More power to you two!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Saturday, January 19, 2008 - 11:07 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772#" id="addReplyLnk_599733" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772&commentID=599733" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_599733"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=26416851" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ Sõft Sèxy & Snügglâbly Wårm Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=26416851" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/106/s_555d990d7f4945c5ba49962e1118c97b.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Jessica Betts</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_599745">I got to agree with Cathy, dont kill the whole race. There are a few out there Id like to keep around. But if you want to take out my ex, go for it. Hes a waste of space as far as im concerned lol. Oh and you might want to double check some of the ages of the ppl on your friends list. If they bitchin bout whose number 1. Sounds too much like teenage drama lol!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=26416851" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ Sõft Sèxy & Snügglâbly Wårm Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ</a>on Saturday, January 19, 2008 - 11:15 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772#" id="addReplyLnk_599745" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772&commentID=599745" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=26416851" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_599745"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_600017">Jess- No worries, just the stupid ones...and your ex would fall right in to that category!! I've been cleaning out my list, so hopefully the bitchers are just about made all their exits.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Sunday, January 20, 2008 - 10:47 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772#" id="addReplyLnk_600017" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772&commentID=600017" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_600019">I think you are safe Eric LOL!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Sunday, January 20, 2008 - 10:48 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772#" id="addReplyLnk_600019" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772&commentID=600019" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_600019"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=133902747" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Beeg</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=133902747" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/74/s_1c09789890e0e272f027948687a2b9ac.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_599998">I hear ya sista! There's nothing more I can add to make this a perfect blog. Myself - I just have no time for stupid. Two Kudos for Chrys!! ~Beeg<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=133902747" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Beeg</a> on Sunday, January 20, 2008 - 10:10 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772#" id="addReplyLnk_599998" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772&commentID=599998" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=133902747" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_599998"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_600021">Girl whats the world coming to? Ugh...I am telling you....Stupid people of the world just need to form their on congrigation and leave us simple folk alone! *hugs* to you B.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Sunday, January 20, 2008 - 10:49 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772#" id="addReplyLnk_600021" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772&commentID=600021" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_600021"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=68162802" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ar3©</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=68162802" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/141/s_4703a96bb33847aa84434b82487c30f5.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Albert Ruiz</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_600408">ur awesome! for what it is worth I like the idea of no friends list. in fact i was debating over asking you how you do it. ;)<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=68162802" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ar3©</a> on Sunday, January 20, 2008 - 4:57 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772#" id="addReplyLnk_600408" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=349134772&commentID=600408" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=68162802" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_600408"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_600450">Oh Albert... thanks sweetie! I wish we got to hang out more in Stillwater before I left, you totally ROCK!! I'll be back to visit, so you will have to come up from OKC and hang out with me and the gang...Hopefully Tod will come too. I'll pop you a message on how to hide your list. :) *hugs*<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a> on Sunday, January 20, 2008 - 5:35 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /><br /><br /><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-73865283505132931622008-01-15T15:11:00.004-05:002010-10-29T16:02:27.776-04:00Whats Up With Chrys - New Year Edition<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Tuesday, January 15, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />Sorry I have not been around to say hello to everyone my PC had a huge crash the other night and nothing I did could save it. So, it will have to go off to the repair shop, either that - or it is an excuse for me to buy the laptop I wanted LOL. So for now, I have my aunts PC hooked up in my little corner of the world.<br /><br /><br />The job I was working cut hours, slow time of the year I guess. Not good news for me.<br /><br /><br />Still trying to get the Real Estate Appraisal work going, just waiting on slow poke people in city hall to get my license to me.<br /><br /><br />I just got hired back at HR Block. Most of you know I worked there in the past in OK. So I am pretty excited to be back. I wont be doing taxes since I missed out on the tax classes they give in the fall, but I am in the running to take them this year, for next season. I am still pretty excited about it anyway, to just be doing what I am doing, which is basically administrative.<br /><br /><br />School is going well...and as a matter of fact, now that I have access to the net again, I better get moving ...homework to get turned in today.<br /><br /><br />Busy busy.....<br />See you all soon<br />X's and O's<br />Chrys<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></span><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_598709">Welcome back to myspace world....haha<br /><br />Busy is good at times to change the pace of your mind.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Friday, January 18, 2008 - 9:10 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-69277953398987611502008-01-13T18:29:00.001-05:002010-11-15T18:29:54.136-05:00Taking A Step Back<div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Tired of being on the outside – looking in</div><div class="MsoNormal">Feeling like life is sin after sin.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Taking a giant step back.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Evaluating my life – people, places and things.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Tired of people trying to run my life</div><div class="MsoNormal">What’s best for me</div><div class="MsoNormal">What I should do</div><div class="MsoNormal">Where I should go</div><div class="MsoNormal">Not to mention, the company I keep.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Sick sick sick of it. So, I am taking a step back. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I need to breathe…..</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-88020815491270782992008-01-13T16:16:00.000-05:002010-10-29T16:14:02.742-04:00Putting On the Breaks<div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;">Sunday, January 13, 2008 </span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Gothic%20Dark%20Vampire%20-%20NO%20Blood/gothic-3-1.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Putting On the Breaks</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">No more giving</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Nothing left for you to take</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am putting on the breaks</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span> </span>And stopping here.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I will no longer give an inch</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Just for you to take two.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am not playing this game anymore.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Not going to wait for you.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I know what I want in my life</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I know where I stand.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Its time for me to take back my control.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span> </span>Time to regain the upper hand.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">© C.M. <st1:date day="12" m..?1?="" year="2008">1/12/08</st1:date></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><st1:date day="12" m..?1?="" year="2008"><br /></st1:date></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><st1:date day="12" m..?1?="" year="2008"><br /></st1:date></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><st1:date day="12" m..?1?="" year="2008"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></st1:date></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_593107">I read strength in that. You go my Irish beauty!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Sunday, January 13, 2008 - 5:32 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=347134921#" id="addReplyLnk_593107" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=347134921&commentID=593107" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_593107"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_593210">You go girl! Woot Woot! Good for you!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a>on Sunday, January 13, 2008 - 7:08 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-39294274969766758472008-01-11T18:47:00.000-05:002010-10-29T16:16:20.434-04:00The Boxer Blog - Letting Them Go<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, January 11, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div align="center" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Letting Them Go</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">This might just be one of the hardest blogs I have ever had to write. I take that back, it's right up there in the top 5. But this one has nothing to do about death, thank goodness.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">However, it has everything to do with my furbabies, Cain and Casey.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have been pondering a lot about them lately. I do not like the situation I have put them in. And it's just breaking my heart. I don't want to adopt them out, but I feel like right now I am not giving them the best the deserve and that hurts worse then thinking about letting them go.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">My dogs are used to having their own yard and "house." They are used to being able to come and go as they please and being able to run free. They are good dogs and I have always given them the best that I could. When it came time to leave the ex , part of me wanted to leave the dogs with him only because that was the only house they had ever known and I knew he was not going to be moving from that house any time soon. I was snapped back in to reality when I was again reminded of one of our many differences. He's just not an animal person and it has always bothered me how he treated them.<span> </span>So, I brought them up here with me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I thought things were going to be easy up here, and I have sorely been proved wrong on that. When it was summer and heading in to fall it was no big deal. I would take the dogs out and we would just sit outside and chill for a few hours. When I had things to do, I would just tie them up outside. Which I hated – just because they can't really run around like they are used to. But at least they were outside and not all penned up on the front porch (which mind you is enclosed).</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Once the temps started to drop the time outside became less, they were moved off the porch and in to the back part of the house. I see old habits with Casey that is starting to return. And I see Cain has lost some of his muscle mass.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Let me mention here also – I HATE the way my mother treats them. I do not even like how she treats her own dog, the poor thing. But seriously, screaming and yelling at the top of your lungs to my dogs solve nothing. Trust me.<span> </span>Being stern with them is one thing, but yelling, sorry, doesn't work. And it bothers me. It bothers me a lot.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">We have shared some not so nice words on this before. The outcome is never pretty. Last time she got so mad she threw a fit and took off in her van someplace.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Hmmm…see, wonder why I don't have or really want kids???</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I mentioned to her that I had been thinking about adopting them out. She flipped out on me. Like this was her choice to make. She has told me more then once she does not want to take care of MY dogs. She told my aunt that I couldn't go down to<st1:state><st1:place>Florida</st1:place></st1:state>with her because she wasn't gonna take care of them. This is stupid, because she does. She has to take care of her dog, so she takes care of mine while she's doing so.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Anyway..I could go on about that forever.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">She said to me she is planning on fencing the yard when summer gets here and that the situation they are in now is only temporary.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">That's not the point. The point is they are MY dogs and me and MY dogs do not plan to live here forever. And you have made it clear that you do not want to take care of MY dogs.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The point is, MY dogs deserve better then what I can give them right now. Sure I love them. Sure I take care of them. But I just feel like they deserve so much better.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">When I think about the situation I am in and my future, sure I want my dogs. But, I do not think where I am heading is going to be a plan that includes such large animals. Those of you with large animals know just what I am talking about. Your housing options are greatly limited. And the ones that allow such beasts (LOL) cost twice as much as the others.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Not only do I have to think about what's best for them and their future, I have to think about my own as well.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Maybe this is where I am suppose to throw in that quote about when you love something sometimes you have to set it free.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So this is something that's been weighing heavy on my mind for some time. It's quite depressing really. But it is a choice I am going to have to make in life at some point.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><br /><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: xx-large;">MySpace Comments:</span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px;"><span></span></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_590896">Ohhh girl....this blog is totally heartbreaking. I could never give up my dog!<br /><br />I know one of yours is a rescue and she has responed to you well. If you have to give them up...they will greatly miss you being the Mama they have ever known.<br /><br />Whatever your decision is ... I know it won't be easy.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Friday, January 11, 2008 - 7:32 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=346572208#" id="addReplyLnk_590896" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=346572208&commentID=590896" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_590896"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=8909823" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~Bossy~</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=8909823" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/109/s_a321ba8665c44015ae105c15cebc9e34.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_591027">The fact that you are keeping a rational mind about the situation is good. As much as you love your dogs, you know what is best for them more than anyone else does. It's definitely a decision that weighs heavy in the heart, but it will all work out as it should :)<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=8909823" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~Bossy~</a>on Friday, January 11, 2008 - 9:02 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=346572208#" id="addReplyLnk_591027" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=346572208&commentID=591027" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=8909823" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=14834776" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">His Crazi Ladi</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=14834776" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/114/s_c7b5675ce2334d2cbe6011b375407326.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Marrissa Hernandez</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_591551">i now how u feel... we have a big yard but we don't have money to put up a fence and we have 6 dogs... they are small dogs, but there isn't enough space for them and they love to run...... picture this.. the space for them is like 6 ants on a cracker... not much space to move...... but we are saving money to get that yard fenced... but until then we have to let the dogs out 2 at a time....<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=14834776" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">His Crazi Ladi</a> on Saturday, January 12, 2008 - 5:37 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-8107271102164803272008-01-10T16:25:00.007-05:002010-10-29T17:55:58.193-04:00Pass The Ice Pick, Please<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, January 10, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><img src="http://i107.photobucket.com/albums/m298/BRWeaponPics/Hand%20to%20Hand/icepick.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Pass Me the Ice Pick, Please.</div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, it has come to my attention that apparently I have a block of ice around my heart.</div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Who me??</div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">What?</div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Are you serious? Sweet, kind hearted, giving, caring, me???<br /><br />WHATTTTT?</div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Wait.</div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Let me ponder upon this for a spell.</div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">*this is me pondering..tapping fingers on the desk…thinking…….tick tock…tick tock….LOL*</div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, maybe this is really possible.</div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I really thought I had cleared a path for this person and began the process of letting him in. But what I didn't see was- despite doing that, I still had this façade that I had to be this "tough as nails" girl that nothing you did or said was going to get to me. I kept a lot of thoughts and feelings bottled up. And at some point, I closed the door to the opening gate on that path. For good reason. But then I filled those feelings with a lot of witty, sarcastic and often crass comments.</div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But in all fairness, he's done so too.</div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am sure by now you are all wondering who this great mystery man is. Who is it that has my brain going around in fifty directions and questioning Cupids arrow. Well, it's really no mystery if you have been paying attention.</div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So as I hand him the ice pick so that he can begin to chisel away the ice for his tea *LOL* I think I must say it's a two way street. And as I said last night – it is time for us BOTH to start removing some of the layers of bricks on our walls and let the other in. It's ok to be scared. But, there is comfort in the fact we are doing it together and we don't have to go at it alone.</div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">This relationship has been somewhat of a roller coaster ride. I don't want to bump heads anymore. No more games, no more miscommunications, no more breaking plans, none of that…no more of it. It is time for openness, communication, honesty, trust and respect.</div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">To quote him "I just want smooth sailing." Can't say that I blame him one bit.</div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So to you honey I say - I want nothing more then to just set sail with you. To embark on this journey together, me and you – conquering all the obstacles life throws our way. Together.</div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i174.photobucket.com/albums/w110/moolude02/journey.png" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And to that I just say – "aye, aye, Captain…lets set sail, you lead the way."</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/j9NkBxxHxAc?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/j9NkBxxHxAc?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It's not far down to paradise</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">At least it's not for me</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And if the wind is right you can sail away</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And find tranquility</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">The canvas can do miracles</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Just you wait and see</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Believe me</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It's not far to never never land</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">No reason to pretend</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And if the wind is right you can find the joy</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Of innocence again</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">The canvas can do miracles</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Just you wait and see</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Believe me</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Sailing</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Takes me away</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">To where I've always heard it could be</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Just a dream and the wind to carry me</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And soon I will be free</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Fantasy</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It gets the best of me</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">When I'm sailing</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">All caught up in the reverie</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Every word is a symphony</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Won't you believe me</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It's not far back to sanity</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">At least it's not for me</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And when the wind is right you can sail away</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And find serenity</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">The canvas can do miracles</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Just you wait and see</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Believe me</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; line-height: 13px;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: xx-large;">MySpace Comments:</span></b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_590511">Lol, you scared me sis, I thought at first you were going to "whack" somebody! Hmm, I have been working with criminal drug addicts too long!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Friday, January 11, 2008 - 1:02 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=346218616#" id="addReplyLnk_590511" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=346218616&commentID=590511" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_590511"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_590880">Roller Coaster indeed!! But hey...board the ship girl and say Ahoy Maties...LOL<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Friday, January 11, 2008 - 7:26 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=346218616#" id="addReplyLnk_590880" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=346218616&commentID=590880" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-80008398264622694312008-01-09T23:47:00.004-05:002010-10-29T18:03:15.278-04:00When YOU Are Gone<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, January 09, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div align="center">I do not know if the person this blog is intended for will read it or not. Sometimes he trolls my corner of the blog world - sometimes not. And thats OK. Price you pay sometimes. Maybe I will just have to point him in the right direction. *winks*</div><br /><div align="center">This person went on a little trip and I found myself thinking **I hope he goes and has a good time, he needs the break from work, needs to recharge his batteries** and I thought **well I will just talk to him when he gets back** No biggie. Not the first time we have spent time apart or out of state from each other.</div><br /><div align="center">But this time it just FEELS different. (dont roll your eyes girls , I can see you!)</div><br /><div align="center">I did not expect to talk to this person while he was away. But I did.</div><br /><div align="center">And each moment - cherished.</div><br /><div align="center">But I am finding myself with this gut feeling. Not this "Oh I miss you see/talk to you in a few days" but rather this "I MISS YOU and can't wait to see you" feeling. I know - hard to explain. But thats just how it is.</div><br /><div align="center">I don't know whats going on. My thoughts , feelings, emotions - its almost as if Cupid has found his way back into my room (read previous blog if this makes no sense to you) and is dangling his damn arrow in front of my face again.</div><br /><div align="center">I am proceding with caution. That squishy heart feeling and all. (again reference to previous blog)</div><br /><div align="center">So to that person - I truly missed you. I hope you had fun. And can't wait to see you when you get back.<br /><br /><br />Too mushy for you? awwwww TO BAD! LOL...*kisses* ...seriously - put down the barf bag.....</div><br /><div align="center">~XOXO~</div><br /><div align="center">Chrys</div><br /><div align="center"><br /></div><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/ttOgLhXlNHw?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/ttOgLhXlNHw?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I always needed time on my own</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I never thought I'd need you there when I cry</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And the days feel like years when I'm alone</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And the bed where you lie</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">is made up on your side</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">When you walk away</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I count the steps that you take</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Do you see how much I need you right now?</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">When you're gone</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">The pieces of my heart are missing you</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">When you're gone</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">The face I came to know is missing too</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">When you're gone</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And make it OK</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I miss you</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I've never felt this way before</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Everything that I do</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Reminds me of you</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And the clothes you left</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">they lie on my floor</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And they smell just like you</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I love the things that you do</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">When you walk away</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I count the steps that you take</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Do you see how much I need you right now?</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">When you're gone</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">The pieces of my heart are missing you</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">When you're gone</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">The face I came to know is missing too</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And when you're gone</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">The words I need to hear to always get me through the day</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And make it OK</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I miss you</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">We were made for each other</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Out here forever</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I know we were</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Yeah Yeah</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">All I ever wanted was for you to know</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Everything I do I give my heart and soul</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I can hardly breathe, I need to feel you here with me</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Yeah</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">When you're gone</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">The pieces of my heart are missing you</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">When you're gone</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">The face I came to know is missing too</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">When you're gone</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">The words I need to hear will always get me through the day</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And make it OK</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I miss you</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><img height="1" src="http://www.metrolyrics.com/images/l/2147442983.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="1" /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><b>MySpace Comments:</b></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_588954">Hmmm check his bow...seems like the arrow might have already hit it's mark...{{{{HUGS}}}} Love ya, girl...you know I do!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Thursday, January 10, 2008 - 8:08 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=345971175#" id="addReplyLnk_588954" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=345971175&commentID=588954" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_588954"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_589203">We'll see momma - we'll just have to wait and see!! love ya!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Thursday, January 10, 2008 - 12:22 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=345971175#" id="addReplyLnk_589203" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=345971175&commentID=589203" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><span>Read more:<a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=345971175#ixzz13mv3cUYW" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=345971175#ixzz13mv3cUYW</a></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-48511335735896191942008-01-05T19:12:00.000-05:002010-10-29T18:04:59.560-04:00Loves Question & When Do You Say<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Saturday, January 05, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Love%20Things%20-%20Misc%20Pics/What_does_Love_mean_to_you__by_Ligh.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Everyone keeps telling me I am going to find someone who is going to completely turn my world around.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Right.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I think that time has already come and gone.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I wonder, is this one of those times when you really only get one chance in life?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Did I let that one chance go? Did I let it pass me by? Or have I really even seen it?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">How do you know?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Does anyone really know the answer to loves life questions? If you do, I sure would like to talk to you.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And while we are at it what is love anyway?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">There are times when I think I just might have a clue, but then Cupid comes along and sneaks his way into my room in the middle of the night and steals back his arrow.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I also hear a lot of – "Whoever you give you hear too will be a lucky man."</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Hmmm…Does he even know he is lucky? Or is he just taking it for granted?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I want that person in my life -</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br /><em>You tell them things that you've never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more.</em></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br /><em>You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. But together you know the difference between the ones that will and will not come true. Together you take every last thing life has to throw your way.</em></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br /><em>When something wonderful happens, you can't wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement.</em></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br /><em>They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself.</em></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br /><em>Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful.</em></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br /><em>There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around.</em></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br /><em>You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. </em></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><em>The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever.</em></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br /><em>Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn't exist at all.</em></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br /><em>A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day's work and always brings a smile to your face.</em></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br /><em>In their presence, there's no need for continuous conversation, but you find you're quite content in just having them nearby.</em></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br /><em>Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you.</em></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br /><em>You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon.</em></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><em><o:p></o:p></em></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><em>You open your heart knowing that there's a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. </em></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><em>You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that's so real it scares you.</em></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br /><em>You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate that will remain loyal to the end.</em></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><em><o:p></o:p></em></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><em>You find everyday you want to know more, learn more, and just be with them more.</em></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br /><em>Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.</em></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But how do I know that person is really out there?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">In the past and even present when I thought their was someone close to being this person, or could be this person in time, I have always been proved wrong.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I wonder, am I about to be proved wrong again?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Is their a point when you just throw in the towel and say "enough is enough already" or do you just keep moving forward , holding on to those hopes and dreams that someday that "one" just might cross your path.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And how do you know they are the "one" ?? Is Cupid going to give me my arrow back at that particular time? Will the bells and whistles ring? Fireworks?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">WHAT?? Someone please explain this to me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Why should I keep looking? Why can't he come find me?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Seriously.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I find myself giving my heart to someone that quite possibly does not want it. And it's making me sit down and really think about love, connections, compatibility and soul mates and I am finding it is leaving me with more questions then answers.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I guess that's why they call it "The Dating Game" because the reality is it really is just a game after all and we are all just the pawns in it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">As many of you have noticed (and called my ass out on) my last few blogs have been pretty down. Not full of all the quirks and comments you have come to know and adore.<span> </span>Well, that's because yet again, I find myself with a heart being squished. Not so much broken, just being squished.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am not liking this feeling.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So I have spent the last couple of days just trying to get my head on right about it. Trying to reevaluate the situation.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Puts me right back at square one. More questions then answers and what the hell is up with Cupid?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div align="center"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Heartbreak/ththisayweshootcupidandseehowhelike.png" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">MySpace Comments:</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/33/s_8cc4d4280cc84300b0d4fc01a64e5803.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Tabitha Stone</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_585462">I have been question love a million really, and I just don't believe in it.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a> on Monday, January 07, 2008 - 12:57 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=344675112#" id="addReplyLnk_585462" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_587957">If I had the answer to those questions, I would be filthy rich and I would have already taken you to Ireland, LOL! Seriously though...I think it's different for everyone. I got lucky with Don. It hasn't always been a smooth easy ride (for either one of us), but we made a choice to work together on the problems. Before I met him, I had been very much in love with someone who obviously didn't return my feelings. He used me and he hurt me bad. So I "settled" for someone I wasn't in love with because I didn't think I would ever feel that way about someone again...don't get me wrong...I loved my first husband...I was just not IN love with him. It's no wonder it didn't work. Then I met Don and everything I thought I knew about love and being in love changed. Here was a guy that I didn't even LIKE when I first met him...and all of a sudden I had fallen in love with him! I spent many moment pondering THAT one, LOL! We will be celebrating 25 years of marriage this year! I was so busy looking in the wrong places and he was right in front of me the whole time! Don't give up, your day will come... we just don't know when! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Wednesday, January 09, 2008 - 8:01 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=344675112#" id="addReplyLnk_587957" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=344675112&commentID=587957" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-3394979552288240222008-01-04T19:45:00.004-05:002010-10-29T18:06:53.735-04:00I Am A Woman Who....<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, January 04, 2008 </span><br /><br /><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_344381034" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div align="center"><a href="http://s59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/About%20Me/?action=view&current=h-iamwoman.gif" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/About%20Me/h-iamwoman.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I'm the woman who will put her head on your shoulder, not because she's sleepy, but because she just wants to be that much closer to you...</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />I'm the woman who just likes to be kissed for no reason at all…</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />I'm the woman who says, "ok, but you owe me..." jokingly not because I actually want something from you, but because that means I get to spend more time with you...</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />I'm the woman you can take absolutely anywhere and I will have fun because that's just the type of girl I am…..</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />I'm the woman who feels she is incredibly picky, but when I find someone I like I want to spend the whole night curled up in their arms...</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><span> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I'm the woman who little things mean a lot…</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br />I'm the woman who will never forgets all the sweet little things you do for me...</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />I'm the woman who never gives up hope even when I tell others I have...</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />I'm the woman who once I let you into my heart, there's always a place there with your name on it….</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am the woman that if we spend time apart I will never forget you….</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />I'm the woman who loves to be affectionate...</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />I'm the woman who you can talk to about anything...</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />I'm the woman who laughs at your jokes... even the ones that might not really be all that silly…..</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />I'm the woman who will make you laugh, even it means being silly in public…</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />I'm the woman who will have many inside jokes with you and will remember each one...</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />I'm the woman who will brag about you to all of my friends...</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />I'm the woman who will listen to you talk... and actually hear what you are saying….</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />I'm the woman who really does want to be friends after a break up...</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I'm the woman who's not afraid to admit when she's wrong or made a mistake….</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I'm the woman who is not afraid to apologize….</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />I'm the woman who loves it when you hug me for no apparent reason...</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />I'm the woman who loves it when you hug me from behind or kiss me on the forehead…..</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />I'm the woman who loves you for you, and doesn't care what other people say about us...</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />I'm the woman who loves the feeling when you take me by the hand without saying a word …</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />I'm the woman who can bring home the bacon, fry it up in a pan and serve it to you with pleasure…</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />I'm the woman who will kiss you on your neck, for no reason, anytime, anywhere….</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />I'm the woman who really wants you to be her best friend too….<br /><br /></div><div align="center"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Boyfriend/z86347686.png" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">MySpace Comments:</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_583210">You go girl!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Friday, January 04, 2008 - 10:04 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=344381034#" id="addReplyLnk_583210" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=344381034&commentID=583210" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><label id="NewDiv_583210"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_584044">Oooooooo I sooooo love this!!<br /><br />And I love the last graphic too!<br /><br />These are all so true...if only the dumb asses would wake up and see...haha.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Saturday, January 05, 2008 - 7:55 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=344381034#" id="addReplyLnk_584044" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=344381034&commentID=584044" style="color: #003399; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/33/s_8cc4d4280cc84300b0d4fc01a64e5803.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Tabitha Stone</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_585463">Power to us woman<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a> on Monday, January 07, 2008 - 1:00 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=344381034#" id="addReplyLnk_585463" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=344381034&commentID=585463" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><span></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-48091331686296358952008-01-03T19:34:00.002-05:002010-10-29T18:09:43.581-04:00I AM A Super Woman<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, January 03, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am…</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am a woman hear me roar!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">ROARRRRR!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Umm yeah I don't know where that came from, but OK. Just roll with it. LOL.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I've been thinking – oh lord here we go again, I know what you all are saying.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But no – really – It's a GOOD thing.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am open and honest and I expect you to be the same.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am loving and caring and expect you to treat me with the same compassion and respect.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am able to trust but you have to earn that.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am a giver. I love to give. But I won't do it for just anyone.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am someone who will treat others the way I want to be treated.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am smart. I may not always act like it, but watch out because I just might surprise you.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am beautiful. Inside and out. Just because I am not a size 2 doesn't mean I am a fat lazy slob.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am a work in process. Always changing always evolving just like the world around me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have a huge heart and am willing to love those that deserve it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am a good girl with a lot to offer – anyone in my life.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have feelings and emotions just like you and they hurt when they get stepped on. I am only human after all.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am strong but I have my moments of weakness. Doesn't everyone?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am moving forward and not looking back. At least I am going to try !!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am never going to be perfect, but then again – who is?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am a simple girl - I enjoy the simple things in life. I don't need a life full of "things"</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am always going to try to do my best in life.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am me, just me. Simple, honest me. I just want to be loved for who I am, unconditionally.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I've said it before and I will say it again : I AM a Phenomenal woman – YES that's ME!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But MOST of all – I am a SUPER woman and I deserve to be treated as such!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Do what you say and say what you mean!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p> *******************************************</o:p></div><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/E2o7ct_cgm4?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/E2o7ct_cgm4?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br /><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; 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text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Superwoman" border="0" src="http://i185.photobucket.com/albums/x305/pksamuelu/Superwoman.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Friday, January 04, 2008 - 1:31 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=343978031#" id="addReplyLnk_582287" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=343978031&commentID=582287" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/33/s_8cc4d4280cc84300b0d4fc01a64e5803.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Tabitha Stone</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_585464">Beautifully well done, my dear.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a> on Monday, January 07, 2008 - 1:02 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-46053390393354883932008-01-02T15:57:00.000-05:002010-10-29T15:20:37.253-04:00You Can’t Keep A Good Woman Down<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, January 02, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Gothic%20Dark%20Vampire%20-%20NO%20Blood/Breakdown-2.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><br />Ok Ok..<br />This is my blog, and these are my feelings.<br />We ALL have our ups and downs and I am certainly no stranger to that.<br />Right now, I have some things going on that are sort of dragging me around.<br />But its nothing that can not be fixed.<br />I just don't want anyone to worry.<br />As you all know I don't stay down for long.<br />I will be fine, always am.<br />I blog to get things off my chest. It helps me to get it out. I don't care if anyone reads it, I do it for me. That last blog was more for my girls, to let them know I hear them. I am listening.<br />So at this moment right now...this one..<br />NOW!<br />I REFUSE to be down.<br />I AM taking control.<br />You just can NOT keep a good woman down.<br />I have TOO many positive things going on in life that I need to focus on.<br />I can no longer spend my time thinking about the shoulda, woulda, coulda's.<br />Time to take back the moment. Take back me.<br />And ME is going to be just fine.<br />I AM a good woman.<br />Me.<br />Just as I AM!<br />***********************************************<br />A good woman is proud.<br />She respects herself and others.<br />She is aware of who she is.<br />She neither seeks definition from the person she is with,<br />nor does she expect them to read her mind.<br />She is quite capable of articulating her needs.<br />A good woman is hopeful.<br />She is strong enough to make all her dreams come true.<br />She knows love, therefore she gives love.<br />She recognizes that her love has great value and must be reciprocated.<br />If her love is taken for granted, it soon disappears.<br />A good woman has a dash of inspiration<br />and a dabble of endurance.<br />She knows that she will at times have to inspire<br />others to reach the potential God gave them.<br />A good woman knows her past,<br />understands her present and forces toward the future.<br />She knows that the world is her playground.<br />A good woman does not live in fear of the future because of her past.<br />Instead, she understands that her life experiences<br />are merely lessons meant<br />To bring her closer to self-knowledge and unconditional self-love...<br /><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Jules</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/6/s_2e32133ce70e41d0843fb33c3e70f0fe.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_580822">And you are the best kind of woman!! We all love you!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Jules</a> on Wednesday, January 02, 2008 - 7:34 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=343642151#" id="addReplyLnk_580822" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=343642151&commentID=580822" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Thursday, January 03, 2008 - 12:12 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=343642151#" id="addReplyLnk_581172" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=343642151&commentID=581172" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_581291">YAY!!!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Thursday, January 03, 2008 - 2:04 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=343642151#" id="addReplyLnk_581291" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=343642151&commentID=581291" style="color: #003399; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_581409">That's my girl! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Thursday, January 03, 2008 - 8:10 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=343642151#" id="addReplyLnk_581409" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Breakdown</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Yup, I am having one. Someone please call the loony bin because I need to be put in a straight jacket and have my ass stuck in a padded room.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Sad/breakdown.png" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I'm lost. Yes, me. I lost me. Somehow over the course of the last few months I seem to have been tangled in a web that I can't quite seem to break free from.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So after talking to my girls yesterday (I love you guys!) at first I was like…damn girls, get off my case and just try to understand. But then, all of the sudden I was smacked upside the head (thanks <st1:place>Shannon</st1:place>…*kisses babygirl*) and it really made me stop and look at things.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">They told me I have changed. Have I?? Really? What happened to me? I don't look any different. So, what do you mean I have changed? I mean you guys are so far away from me now, can you really see that?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">In the actions of <st1:place>Shannon</st1:place>~bitch slap~</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">OH~ I get it now. Tough love girls, tough love.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Sad/breakdown-3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">It was always ME my friends came to. I was the strong one, the one dishing out advice. The one showing them that no woman needs to deal with that kind of shit in their life. I am a survivor of some much shit forced upon me at the hands of men. I was never ever going to stand for any worthless bullshit, ever.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have become THAT girl. That girl I vowed to never be.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I've always been this strong girl that never took any shit from anyone. I have always spoke my mind and let things be known.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Always happy go lucky. Always giving a smile. I still got smiles....however, they just dont feel the same.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I don't know when exactly that girl left. But I am putting up with stuff I should not be. Keeping feelings and thoughts bottled up that I should not be. I hold back. I hide. And somehow along the way, I have become weak.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">What in the everlasting hell?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I feel sick. Tired. Beat down. Drained. My body aches. My mind roams. I can't focus. I can't speak. My words are lost to me. All I want to do is sleep the days away. But I can't do that because I can't even sleep. I just lay there, looking at the walls that surround me. Watching the numbers change on the clock. Flipping from one tune to the next on my ipod.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Sad/av-girl-that-hurts-ani.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have come to the conclusion that perhaps my depression is back. And I am not feeling so good about that.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have so many good and positive things to look forward to, why can I not seem to focus on that??</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I want ME to come back. I want the real happiness and smiles. Not the mask. I want the strong girl. I want her back. But I am afraid she is lost and can not find her way back. I am afraid to even speak about how I got here. And that's not me, when have I ever been afraid to talk about anything???</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Sad/smileforyou.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And it's really not even one thing, but rather one thing on top of a huge combination of other things.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Wow.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I can't even sit here and compose myself in a blog.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Sad/breakdown-5.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">*******************************</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Seriously.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, I think I am going to go see what's going down on the school front and perhaps see if there are some hours I can log at work.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Maybe I will come back and edit this later.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But let me just say - I realize I need to take back control, and trust me, I fully intend to.</div><div align="center"></div><br /><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/PcubOkw5g7c?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/PcubOkw5g7c?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><b>"Breakdown"</b></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Open up the book you beat me with again.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Read it off one sentence at a time.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I'm tired of all the lines,</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Convictions and your lies.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">What right do you have to point at me?</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Well, I'm sitting alone thinking about it all over coffee.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And still crowdin' my space are the things you still hold against me.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">You cannot save me.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Well, it's not the time to breakdown.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It's not the time to breakdown.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It's not the time to break up this love,</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Keep it together now.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It's not the time to break.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Read it all, no need for separating here.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">You see what you want and try to justify.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">All your little lines,</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Convictions and your lies.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">What right do you have to point at me?</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Well, I'm sitting alone thinking about it all over coffee.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And still crowdin' my space are the things you still hold against me.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">You cannot save me.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Well, it's not the time to breakdown.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It's not the time to breakdown.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It's not the time to break up this love,</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Keep it together now.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It's not the time to break.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Open up the book you beat me with again.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Read it off one sentence at a time.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Well, it's not the time to breakdown.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Well, it's not the time to breakdown.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Well, it's not the time to breakdown.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Well, it's not the time to breakdown.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Well, it's not the time to break up this love,</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Keep it together now.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Well, it's not the time to break,</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Breakdown.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><b>MySpace Comments:</b></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; line-height: normal;"></span></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; 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I feel bad that I have not been more in touch with you and stayed more up to date! {{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}} sweetie!<br /><br /></span></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-88639533904184154752008-01-01T15:19:00.001-05:002010-11-15T15:46:34.853-05:006 Months From Now<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">6 Months from Now<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">So, in another one of our serious talk “talks” one of the questions Mike asked me was “Where do you see yourself in 6 months?” I had a hard time with this one. I had been dealing with so much crap the last few months, that lately it had been hard to even focus on the day ahead of me. Honestly, I am not sure what answer I gave him, I am sure it was some cop out type deal. About how it was tough and I was not sure. Blah blah. Truth was, I wasn’t sure. At that moment, it was hard for me to think that far ahead. I think I did tell him something about getting life in order and getting back to school and what not. But, it really got me to thinking. And, it gave me a good blog topic. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">So, I have had some time to think about it. And now here is my feeble attempt to answer it properly.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">I am not sure where our relationship is going to go. I know I want him in my life. And I hope we grow stronger with every passing day. And I hope that 6 months from now, we are still together and just growing stronger. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">I hope to be well under way with school. I really want to get my bachelors in Accounting once and for all. And there is a part of me who wants to follow that high school dream of going to MSU, so maybe I will decide whether to go there for my Masters. </span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-21510711204919525472008-01-01T10:16:00.000-05:002010-10-29T15:30:24.161-04:00Lesson Learned<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Tuesday, January 01, 2008 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/goingunder.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">First, let me get out of the way the whole <st1:state><st1:place>Oklahoma</st1:place></st1:state> ordeal because it has been a question that has been asked quite a bit lately. I had the chance to come visit for New Years. Like a dummy, I pitter pattered around trying to figure out what I wanted to do and lost that chance. To be honest, now I do not know when I will be back for a visit. With work and school starting in a few days, I just do not know when I will be able to make it down. As for moving back – right now I am just trying to get through today. Who knows what the future holds.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Second, I really wanted to write a Happy New Year blog but this is as far as I am getting with that. So, Happy New Year and I hope it brings each of you many new blessings.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Thinking about this past year throws me in turmoil. Today I find myself thinking about last night, the would have been, the should have been, and the wanted to be. All I can think about is – how did I end up like this?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I feel stuck. My feet want to take off running but the rest of my body just won't move.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am angry at no one but myself. I know a few of you are thinking I should not be angry with me. It wasn't me who did any thing wrong, and that my anger should be directed towards a certain someone else. Problem is, I have I hard time being mad at anyone. And I always blame myself. This time is no different. I blame myself for letting the situation get along as far as it did. <st1:state><st1:place>Me.</st1:place></st1:state> No one else did that but me. I blame myself for believing. And I blame myself for letting my guard down and becoming weak. Because that's really how I feel right now, weak.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">That's not a good feeling to have. It makes me very emotional. So my mind starts to race and I think about all that I have gone through and lost this year. I don't look at what I have done or accomplished because at this point I can't see any of that.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">It's almost like I have been beaten at my own game. I made the choices. I made the moves, and I lost.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am not religious, but spiritual. I believe in magic and Karma. She can be a real bitch when she wants to be. I believe what goes around, comes around. What goes up must come down. So I believe those who have done me wrong will get theirs.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Mystical/karma/karma-7.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /><br /><div align="center"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Mystical/karma/karma-2.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Mystical/karma/Karma-9.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have learned my lesson. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am standing at the crossroads. Feet stuck, ready to run. And I hear this song which could not come in to my life at a better time. As I listen to it over and over I feel a little bit of strength return. I now want to focus on this New Year. I want to focus on life. And I want to focus on what I have done and what I will do.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">That's what I want. If only my feet would move.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/m_hdRtx2HMQ?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/m_hdRtx2HMQ?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br /><br /><br /><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Lyric:<br />He broke my heart<br />and now it's raining<br />Just don't rub it in<br />I'm at your door<br />I feel so crazy bout'<br />You say I told you so<br />You saw it long ago<br />You knew he had to go<br />I finally came around<br />I'm back on solid ground<br />Can't let it get me down<br /><br />(2x)<br />It's alright<br />it's alright<br />It's alright<br />It's alright<br /><br />Yes I was burned but I called it a lesson learned.<br />A mistake overturn so I call it a lesson learned.<br />My soul has returned so I call it a lesson learned.<br />Another lesson Learned<br /><br />Sometimes some lies can<br />take a minute to fully realize<br /><br />His tears your eyes<br />30 seconds to apoligize<br />You give him one more chance<br />just like the time before<br />but he already knows you'd give a hundred more<br />until that night in bed, you wake up in a sweat<br />Your racing to the door<br />Can't take it anymore<br /><br />I was burned but I call it a lesson learned<br />I steak a return but i call it lesson learned.<br />My soul has returned so I call it a lesson learned.<br />Another lesson learned....<br /><br />Life perfect, aint perfect if you don't know what the struggles for<br />Falling down aint falling down if you don't cry when you hit the floor<br />It's called the past 'cause im getting past<br />and i'm nothing like I was before.<br />You ought to see me now.<br /><br />I was burned but I call it a lesson learned<br />A mistake overturn but i call it lesson learned.<br />My soul has returned so I call it a lesson learned.<br />Another lesson learned</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Words%20on%20Icons%20and%20such/Lessons/thlessonslearned.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Words%20on%20Icons%20and%20such/Lessons/learnedmylesson.png" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><b>MySpace Comments:</b></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></span><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><br /> <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_579954">Honey...on this 1st day of the New Year...anything is possible! Time for new choices...perhaps a new path...and definately new prospects in life.<br /><br />All we can do is our best to learn those lessons...and not make the same mistakes twice. The lesson is the most valuable part of a negative situation.<br /><br />And YES...Karma is a Bitch! They will get their's!<br /><br />~Big Hugs~<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Wednesday, January 02, 2008 - 12:24 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-74937015486148815422007-12-31T16:17:00.005-05:002010-10-29T15:32:50.750-04:00Just Pondering Upon Thoughts<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Monday, December 31, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"></span><br /><div style="font-weight: normal;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Holidays/New%20Years/Happy_New_Year.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Just Pondering Upon Thoughts</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">As I sit here thinking about today and what it would have been, I start to think about the whole year in general. I don't want to think about what today would have been. I don't even want to think about anything related to that. <span> </span>But, sometimes I just can not help it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Instead, I want to think about what I want today. But then, that just leaves me feeling hopeless and blue. After listening to what my heart and gut where telling me yesterday, well really the last few weeks, I am not holding my breath for how I want things to turn out today.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I wanted new memories, and many laughs for a new beginning. We shall see. But I am not holding my breath. The track record here is a force to be reckon with.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am still faced with that crossroad. And I am certain today will be the day that causes me to have to make the choice once and for all.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I don't want to. And I hope that I do not have to.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">For once, I want to be proved wrong. For once I don't want excuses.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But, I just can't shake this feeling that what was to be a new beginning, is only going to be in reality, a false start.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I go about my day – floating along, acting as if nothing is wrong. I feel myself pulling out that familiar mask out of the box and placing it upon my face.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I'll go about my night – dying and crying on the inside – with the mask in place so all that everyone will ever see is the smile upon my face.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Holidays/New%20Years/New_Years__by_unwanted3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div align="center"><b>MySpace Comments:</b></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_577996">{{{{HUGS}}}} Wouldn't it be nice if life were not so complicated? I hope you have a great 2008...you deserve an awesome one after the one you just had. {{{{HUGS}}}} Love ya...you know I do!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Monday, December 31, 2007 - 7:34 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=342992025#" id="addReplyLnk_577996" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=342992025&commentID=577996" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_577996"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_578031">Poor sis! I hope things work out so that you are HAPPY soon. {{{{{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Monday, December 31, 2007 - 8:13 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=342992025#" id="addReplyLnk_578031" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=342992025&commentID=578031" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_578031"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Brian Kinney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_578275">I really... really...know this feeling very well. Love ya babydoll.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a>on Monday, December 31, 2007 - 9:30 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=342992025#" id="addReplyLnk_578275" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=342992025&commentID=578275" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_578275"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_578950">Girl as we said eariler...it shouldn't be this difficult...but somehow it turns out that way.<br /><br />I am sure my story can top yours.....but we shall see when we share later! hehe<br /><br />To a GREAT 2008!!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Tuesday, January 01, 2008 - 6:29 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-88864438093980887272007-12-29T19:26:00.003-05:002010-12-23T14:00:22.635-05:00Poetry in Motion: Ode To You<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Saturday, December 29, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">You walked into my life</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">All calm and collected</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Confident and cool</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I knew sooner or later…..</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">NO!</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">At that moment I would be affected.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But as I sit here and ponder</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">All the things that make me wonder</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Do I really want to walk the line</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">To make you mine</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">and me be yours</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And play this little game in life.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">(C) C.M. 12/29/07</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div>MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></span><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /><br /><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_576380">Hmmm........the question that we all ask at times I suppose. ~scratches head~ hehe<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Saturday, December 29, 2007 - 11:01 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=342403119#" id="addReplyLnk_576380" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=342403119&commentID=576380" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-18499936194956582242007-12-29T18:43:00.006-05:002010-10-29T15:36:48.323-04:00All I Will Ever Be - Just Me - Part 2<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Saturday, December 29, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal;">~On Being Irish~</div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Irish/irish%20girl/irishgalcoolbanner.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Irish/irish%20girl/irishgirl.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">Ok, so evidently my blog raised more questions then it gave answers. Well, good. I am complicated, I admit that. And I like to keep you guessing. So, just when you think you know me and have me figured out, you will soon find out that this is not the case.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;"></span><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 10pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">There is something that I must address. I usually stay clear of this conversation because there are too many out there that take it to the extreme. But the fucktards in this world won't leave me alone. So let me just answer it once and for all.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;"></span><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 10pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">We all know I am Irish. (duh!) I don't think it matters how much or how little. But, I will tell you anyway just because I am tired of getting asked this question and constantly feeling like I have to prove to people how Irish I really am. I am proud of my heritage and I am proud of where my roots come from. I know what my family had to endure to be able to come to</span><st1:country-region><st1:place><span style="color: black;">America</span></st1:place></st1:country-region><span style="color: black;">and give me the life I have now. I know their struggles. It was not easy for the Irish in</span><st1:country-region><st1:place><span style="color: black;">America</span></st1:place></st1:country-region><span style="color: black;">. But, I am not going to get in to that here. Plenty of Irish History books for you to read if you want to know about it. This isn't one of those situations where someone feels that just because I was not born in</span><st1:country-region><st1:place><span style="color: black;">Ireland</span></st1:place></st1:country-region><span style="color: black;">I am not Irish. There are those people out there. And that's fine. However, it still stands that my heritage is Irish.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;"></span><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 10pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">So, growing up I was in a dual household. My mother's entire linage being Irish and my fathers being German and Italian. Good mix huh? The kids I grew up with and hung around were all German descendents. So, it was only natural that I follow that path in life. It made things easier. And we could all relate. One of my best mates, I will never forget her grandmother. She was transplanted here directly from</span><st1:country-region><st1:place><span style="color: black;">Germany</span></st1:place></st1:country-region><span style="color: black;">. I loved going over her house all the time to listen to stories and look at pictures. This woman was an amazing treasure. And I learned a great deal from her. Not to mention the baking she did! YUM!! At any rate, I never really felt complete. And I certainly did not carry the sort of pride that I carry with me today.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;"></span><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 10pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">A few years ago I found out I was adopted by my father. My world as I knew it had crashed. Who was I really? Where did I come from? Well, I got my answer. I found my real father and we began to speak. Another Irish family all the way back in the linage. His family actually came over before my mother's family, but, in time, they all ended up in the same towns together. At any rate, for events I care not to go in to, that relationship dissolved. But at least I am left with some sort of idea of who I am and what I am.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;"></span><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 10pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">And that my friend, is indeed, Irish blood thru and through.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;"></span><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 10pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">The next part is, NO, I will not talk Irish politics with you. I know what I know, I know what I stand for and what I believe in. Asking me the wrong questions isnt going to help. You will not get an answer out of me. Not the answer that you want anyway. I will give you one that's so round about that you still will be left wondering. Just don't go there. I am all about freedom of speech and matter of opinion. It's all good well and fine. So, you wonder then do I even know what's going on over there? Honest, yes I do. Thankfully I have family and friends there that are pretty adamant about making sure information I know is true and correct. Things I can not find out for myself. I most likely know more then you. But this isn't a contest to see who knows more then who about what. What it is just plain stupidity in the first place. It's not my job to teach this lesson to you. It's not my job to explain what's going on to you. If you are interested, then it's your job to make sure you know what's going on. Facts. Know them, learn them. The facts are what is going to make this world a better place for you and me. I don't care if you are in</span><st1:country-region><st1:place><span style="color: black;">Ireland</span></st1:place></st1:country-region><span style="color: black;">or in</span><st1:country-region><st1:place><span style="color: black;">America</span></st1:place></st1:country-region><span style="color: black;">. I don't care if you are 1% or 100% Irish. It makes no difference to me because I can spot a wanna be fake ass wishing they were real IRA rolling ghetto thug a mile away. Its one thing to stand for what you believe in, it's another to make a total ass of yourself in the process. Sometimes, you just take things too far. Please, just don't bring that shit here. I want no part of it.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">If you have been paying attention to the friends who leave comments, seeing as how I currently have my friends list hidden, you might just learn some things about the questions on my "irish beliefs"</span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">Having said all that, I am sure you are now thinking to yourself that I must really not give a damn about the motherland. That I have no cares as to what's going on over there. And that's totally bullshit. Those that are close to me and know me; they know where I stand and what I believe. I don't need to clarify it for the likes of you.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;"></span><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 10pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">I will give you one fact. I proudly stand for </span><st1:country-region><st1:place><span style="color: black;">Ireland</span></st1:place></st1:country-region><span style="color: black;">and its people.</span><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 10pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;"><br /></span></div><span style="color: black;"></span><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 10pt;"><o:p><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Irish/Pride/thIrishnationalheritage_tm.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 10pt;"><o:p><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Irish/Pride/ththbonobyme.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></o:p></span></div><br /><br /><b>MySpace Comments:</b><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_576218">You go girl! My Irish is diluted, but it's still there...and I would LOVE to visit Ireland someday. And Scotland. I want to find my castle...the one I saw in the past life regression. It's in Ireland, although I was English. Its a long story I will share with you one day if you want. Anyway, you don't have to prove anything to me. Your HEART is Irish, no matter what the bloodline says. {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Saturday, December 29, 2007 - 7:50 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=342393369#" id="addReplyLnk_576218" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=342393369&commentID=576218" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_576218"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_576336">YAY!!! You go girl!<br /><br />I LOVE my heritage!! My heritage being mostly Irish as well as German and a little Indian. They all have their own unique history & we all should be proud of our ancestors!<br /><br />If people love you for who you are...no clarification should be needed!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a>on Saturday, December 29, 2007 - 10:17 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-74402006937762514772007-12-26T14:09:00.005-05:002010-10-29T15:38:38.625-04:00You Think You Know Me<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, December 26, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"></span><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Words%20and%20Sayings/ICONS-3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Words%20and%20Sayings/BOyFRiEND-3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">You think you know me, but the reality is you have no idea.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">You think you want to be with me, but that reality is you are in love with this "idea" of me. I can clearly see I am not the girl you are picturing me to be.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I knew what I wanted then, and I know what I want now.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Nothing has changed.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am not "insta-girlfriend"</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">You can not blow me up and let me rise</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">You can not plug me in and watch me go</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok so I had this great idea for this blog. But now as I sit here to write it, it's almost like I just do not even care. I don't even know if my words are even worth putting out there right now.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am really frustrated with people who pretend to be listening but don't really "hear" what the fuck I am really saying. They just zero in on certain words and take everything out of context.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">SICK SICK SICK of it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Because the truth is, if you really knew me then you would know that this is one of my pet peeves in life.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am not your normal every day girl next door. I did not wake up one morning and say hey "self, lets strive to do everything in life opposite of what the girl next door does just to be different."</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">That's not how life works for me folks. I did not purposely set out to be different, I just am.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And if you can not deal with me and the way I am living my life, then quite frankly, you should not be in my life to begin with.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Words%20and%20Sayings/ICONS-3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><b>MySpace Comments:</b></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_573149">LOL...this is great....reminds me of the whole we have 2 ears and one mouth for a reason...listen hard and speak easy.<br /><br />~shrugs~ We all know people like this...the ones that make it one-sided or don't listen...but they eventually learn.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Wednesday, December 26, 2007 - 4:09 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=341448910#" id="addReplyLnk_573149" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=341448910&commentID=573149" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_573149"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_573531">{{{{HUGS}}}} Some people just suck!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Wednesday, December 26, 2007 - 10:03 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=341448910#" id="addReplyLnk_573531" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=341448910&commentID=573531" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-28606944383038574902007-12-26T11:48:00.020-05:002010-10-29T15:43:26.452-04:00Dating Defined<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, December 26, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Dating/Dating-1.png" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Dating/DATING.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">Dating Defined<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">I don't know how much clearer I can make it then this. I am single, I am dating...</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">These are excerpts I have taken of the web.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial;">It's like this, dating is supposed to be where you are getting to know someone and deciding if you guys are compatible but are free to date other people.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial;"><i>Dating can be defined differently </i>- it can mean that you are exclusively seeing someone, <b>or</b> that you are casually seeing them and other people. The only way to really define it is to talk to the person you are seeing to clarify it or ask them straight out to have an exclusive relationship with you.</span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial;">In the stages of a romantic relationship you have:</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><b>Dating - </b>it is not exclusive, you can see other people.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial;"><b>Relationship </b>- you have decided to be exclusive and see if there is a chance for a long term relationship together.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial;"><b>Dating is not</b> a committed relationship you can talk and flirt and 'date' others without being committed when you are in a RELATIONSHIP that means that you should be committed to that person however sometimes this is not the case... but if you are trying to get to know someone on a different level then you should date them first to see if you like what you have and if you do then start a relationship.. It makes it a lot easier for a committed relationship to last.</span><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial;"><b>Dating is</b> just that- someone asks someone out, and they go someplace for the time specified. You Date someone, to get to know them, to see if there is anything there between you, to see if a relationship should begin. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial;">If you have made no commitment to each other, then you are free to Date other people. After Dating, comes the relationship, where you may be getting more feelings for each other, and wish to see more of each other and Begin being more intimate, etc.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial;"><b>Dating is</b> a relationship where you are getting to know each other better with the possible intent of taking things further into something serious and committed. You don't have to be sleeping together to be dating, in fact generally you should wait until you are exclusive before doing so. You are getting to know each other on a personal, emotional level.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"></span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"></span><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial;">It's when you go out on dates and get to know each other. You are not yet "boyfriend and girlfriend".</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial;"><br /></span><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"></span><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial;"><b>Dating is</b>, essentially, getting to know someone over an extended period of time to determine if a relationship is something worth pursuing.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial;">MySpace Comments:</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_573144">AMEN Sista! This is a great blog! We all know what "dating" is...but sometimes that black and white reminder is much needed...lol.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Wednesday, December 26, 2007 - 4:06 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=341448037#" id="addReplyLnk_573144" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=341448037&commentID=573144" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_573144"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=229418339" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♥♥ STACEY ♥♥</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=229418339" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/123/s_f2df0f5cb5404683ab6449a9185324cf.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Stacey G.</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_573427">I hear ya!!! Anymore the whole couples thing whether it be dating or relationship can be so overrated that it's almost not worth the time, effort and heartache that comes with it. Hang in there...in time without the search the "Right" one will come...until then have fun and play the game!!!<br />love ya, miss ya!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=229418339" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♥♥ STACEY ♥♥</a> on Wednesday, December 26, 2007 - 8:25 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=341448037#" id="addReplyLnk_573427" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=341448037&commentID=573427" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=229418339" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-7608031352882710642007-12-26T10:24:00.005-05:002010-10-29T15:45:40.862-04:00A Letter To......<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, December 26, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"></span><br /><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Waiting/waittocall.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Waiting/waiting.png" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I hate that I care so much. But that is my weakness. Caring about those in my life. Those that I consider close and hold near to my heart.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But I am not always so strong. I am human and my feelings do hurt. For the most part it is easy to blow off and forgive things, but not so easy to forget.<span> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">It hurts me to this that you don't even care enough to call me and let me know what's up.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">YOU were the one who wanted someone in your life that was open, honest, and communicative on all levels. I feel I have always given that to you. I have let you in and opened my world up to you. I listen when you speak and actually hear what you are saying.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">We've talked about that we don't want to lose this – that you want to work on this – but how can we do that when it feels so one sided? I miss the fun IM chats. I miss the random messages on myspace. I call because I care. I text you because I want you to know at that minute I am thinking about you. I leave you comments because when I see them, I laugh and want to share that laughter with you. I am far from obsession/possession/clingy. And I hope you are smart enough to know the difference.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">You wanted us to work on having this good strong solid friendship. The best of friends. But how can't I do that when we consistently make plans only for you to blow them off?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I understand your life. I know how busy you are. I know how things just come up with work and you have to go at a moments notice. I get your schedule. But, I also know there are so many ways for you to contact me. I have done nothing but give you your space to do what you have to do in life. But I think I am worth a phone call when you have to cancel plans. Actually, I am worth so much more then that – but this is all I have ever asked of you. Why is it so hard?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I find myself at this crossroad not sure what direction I should go in. Continue to move forward or go the other direction. I am afraid if I continue on this path these things are just going to keep happening. And I just can not continue to feel stepped on and hurt.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I don't want to feel like that and I sure as hell don't deserve to be feeling that way. I want to feel like I matter. I was to feel like I am cared about.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But perhaps, this is quite possibly too much to ask as well.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">SIDE NOTE: this letter was written along with yesterday's blog @3am. There has since been some communication with me and this person in regards to some of the things mentioned here.<span> </span>Whether things change, that will remain to be seen. I know this is pretty cryptic and that no one really knows what this is about. And that's ok.<span> </span>Its just a moment for me to get my words out there, for me. I know at least 3 of my girls know what's up and they are likely sitting here rolling there eyes at me. And, that's OK. I just wish everyone could see inside and really understand how I feel.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Love%20All%20Sorts/insidehearticons-9.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div align="center"><b><br /></b></div><div align="center"><b>MySpace Comments:</b></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_573139">I have been there girl! I know these feelings! You just gotta do what makes YOU happy and you know your real friends will fall in line beside you.<br /><br />And you ARE worth so much more...this person just needs a swift kick in the ass...hehehehe<br /><br />~Hugs~<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Wednesday, December 26, 2007 - 4:03 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=341443194#" id="addReplyLnk_573139" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=341443194&commentID=573139" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_573139"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_574065">Okay, I know I am a lot like this person you are referring to, and sometimes Rye probably feels like you do. She would like to be closer than we are, and I am always "needing my space." I guess all I can say is, the person gives you as much as they can, what they are capable of, and it doesn't sound like they are going to change, no matter how many times you talk about it. Are you able to accept that? I so far have not had to cancel plans, but if I did, yes I would call. However, there are times when I say "I will call you tomorrow," and I don't, for whatever reason. I guess I need to look at things from her side more. Anyways, this blog has been very enlightening for me, sis. Thanks for sharing!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Thursday, December 27, 2007 - 1:36 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-63872923249685453742007-12-25T21:22:00.000-05:002010-10-29T15:47:44.292-04:00Walking Away this Holiday Season<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Tuesday, December 25, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"></span><br /><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Gothic%20Dark%20Vampire%20-%20NO%20Blood/Danse_macabre_by_maelinn.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Walking Away this Holiday Season</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I find myself walking away this holiday. Here it is <st1:time hour="3" minute="0">3am</st1:time> and I am wide awake. I am sitting here in bed, writing this initially with pen and paper. I might just try to scan it in so that you can feel the authenticity of it, but we will have to see how big I can make it so that you can even read it. (NOTE: as I type this…you see it will not be scanned!! LOL 3am writing and typos suck!)</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">At any rate, I finished a long letter to **** – which I fully intend to get to him somehow. (and you can read it as the next blog) Whether I post it here as a blog (oh he's gonna love that) or read it to him over the phone. I know I have not talked about him much here, but that's because I promised him I wouldn't. Not getting in to details. I have already heard enough. But yes, he is still a part of my life and it is a long and complicated story that I do not even care to get in to.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am finding myself at a cross roads with him. I have come to the conclusion that if certain issues can not be resolved, then I am just going to have walk away again. I say again, because I have tried to do this more then once. Our relationship is starting to become too toxic with my feelings and emotions. I don't want to have to do it. But I really see no other alternative at this point. We have been down this road, we have talked about it, and things seem to change, but then they fall back into the same old routine again.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have already had to walk away from someone yesterday. I did not want to. This person was someone I truly had started to care about and treasure our friendship. Those close to me know how I value my friends. How I treat them, how I care about them. How hard it is to let someone get close to me on that level. I let him in. I let him get to a boundary not many people get to. I opened up old wounds and talked to him about those things. We like each other, we care about each other and I thought it was a mutual understanding that our friendship was a wonderful and cherished thing. I did not want to ruin that by dating. I thought he was ok with that. But recent events show me otherwise. It's been too much of an emotional battle since the very beginning. This constant back and forth. This person wants more from me then I can give him. It has become too toxic. So, I made the choice to walk away. Better for him in the long run because it's obvious to us both that he cant or just doesn't want to handle being just friends.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have so much stuff going on around me. I can not have any more added drama. I just can not. I am trying very hard to remain strong and get through the Holidays.<span> </span>For the last few years I have hated this time of year. I had hoped this year would be different, but it has proved me wrong once again.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am ready for it all to be over with so I can get on with my life.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">SIDE NOTE: so, this was written @ <st1:time hour="3" minute="0">3am</st1:time> this morning. It's not <st1:time hour="20" minute="0">8pm</st1:time> in the eve. I hid from the world today. I had to. So distraught about life and things in general that I just did not want to deal. When I did come out of my shell, I had some IM offlines from this particular person I walked away from. So, I replied back. And then a conversation started. At the end I finally got fed up and said I was done and leaving. And the persons reply was "well I will be sure to pass all of this along to XXX"</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I was like WTF??? Come to find out it was HIS Mother.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, I deleted this person of my friends list, as well as his band. No more. The end. Good bye.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><b>MySpace Comments:</b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><b><br /></b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></b></div><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><b><br /> <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_572346">Good-bye crazys of myspace!! I LOVE that work toxic...it describes some people so well!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a>on Tuesday, December 25, 2007 - 11:20 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table><br /></b><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-63287646969134282172007-12-22T15:03:00.005-05:002010-10-28T20:09:25.160-04:00Two Angels Came To Me - Tribue to Elonna<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Saturday, December 22, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center" style="font-size: 11px;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Fairy%20Fantasy%20Wishes%20Dreams/TowardsTheLight33222.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The next blog I wrote was initially supposed to be Part 2 of the Just Me blog. But something happened yesterday that was pretty well out of the ordinary. Full of many emotions – good and bad. And I just felt the need to write about it, because in the end, it brought me much peace.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">My Angel Elonna brought back into my life, if even for just that moment, another "Angel" who I am going to keep anon, per her request. For reasons I do not wish to go in to and only need to remain between me and her.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">She was my sister. She was my best friend. She was so much to me. She was going to spend the rest of her life with my brother.<span> </span>We had our lives all planned out. And we would sit for hours and just be girls and giggle about things. We had been through so much together.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">As the season approaches, I really find myself being a scrooge, I do not really like the holidays this year. For so many reasons.<span> </span>One of them being, my first without three my best friends and my grandparents.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So as I was sitting here yesterday, talking to my other best girl, Julie, I got this message from "Angel"</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">All these thoughts started to roam my mind. I had been at least 6 months since we spoke, that was brief and it had been another many months prior before that. We said our cordial hellos and then it was off and running.<span> </span>We ran right into Elonna. For this person had felt / heard Elonna telling her to contact me. To talk to me. And, it was a conversation full of so much emotion. I laughed. I cried. I remembered my best friend. This person shared stories with me. And it was at that moment I truly understood how much I DID mean to Elonna in her final days. And that brought me much needed peace to put some closure on her passing. I had always felt my moving away from OK in her time of need was the worst thing I could do. I felt pain, I felt guilt. I was sad I could not be there for my girl. So I sent her cards every day since the day we found out she was sick. I sent flowers on special days. Did what I could from a distance to let her know, I was here, I still loved her, was still her friend, and was always going to be by her side.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Angel Elonna sent "Angel" to me to let me know some things. And I want to say Thank You for the gift you have given me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, what I am going to share next is a special tribute from our "Angel" about Elonna.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">*passes around the box of tissues*</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And if any of you want to pass this along….cause I know not all of her friends are here on my list…please….please….pass this along to them.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-size: 11px;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/Elonna/1161018559_l.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" style="font-size: 11px;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/candles1.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" style="font-size: 11px;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/Elonna/1161018744_l.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" style="font-size: 11px;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/Lonnie/thiwillrememeryou.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">J</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">oan Osborne sang a song several years back called </span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">"One Of Us" I listen to this now as I write this<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Tribute that I hope reaches all those who Elonna<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Loved and all those who loved her.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">This year we said goodbye to Elonna Utt as she left<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">our world and went onto the next.<span> </span>Now some may<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">not believe that such another world exists.<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Perhaps even Elonna herself did not believe for a<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">long time.<span> </span>This story holds within it a conversation<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">that was shared between myself and Elonna's<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">father Otto Utt several weeks after her passing.<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">First I have to say that my personal friendship with<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Elonna may not have been as great as some who<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">are reading this now.<span> </span>Perhaps it even pales in<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">consideration greatly;<span> </span>However, if it is one thing I<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">am able to say now .... It was, and certainly still is,<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">as real as I could ever have it be.. Even if words are<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">not able to be spoken directly to her now or too few<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">were spoken before she left our world.<span> </span>Thank you<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Elonna for touching my life in a way that lives on<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">now.... I pray that your pain experienced while in<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">this world is taken away (as your father enlightened<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">me to believe that we can pray now for healing in<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">the past as there is NO such thing as TIME in the<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">realm of our heavenly existence).. I pray that you<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">are looking down on all loved ones and touching<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">them with the Grace that you have shared with<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">me.. I thank you for the time I had to share with<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">you here.. I smile at the thought of your silliness<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">and your straight forward approach to things in<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">life.. and I<span> </span>consider myself blessed to have had<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">you.. even if for a short time.. in my life.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Now...without further hesitation.. Here is my story<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">to share with you now so that you may also be<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">touched and realize that we do in fact still have the<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">presence of our departed Elonna with us now and<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">will see her again.. One day.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Anyone who has ever spent anytime online in<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">forums like MySpace or Yahoo Messenger KNOW<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">the likes of the fruitcakes that are out there.<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Actually to say that there are "fruitcakes" is pretty<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">much saying it nicely.<span> </span>Liars is more likely a better<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">description.... perhaps even completely<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">psychologically unbalanced individuals who prey<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">on the likeness of others is an even better<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">description.<span> </span>Then again.. it is not fair to say that<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">everyone is like this.. NOT at ALL.. As a matter or<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">fact.. There are likely MORE "normal" (whatever<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">that may really mean) people out there who are<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">just looking for some companionship and<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">friendship to share then anything else.<span> </span>People just<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">like me.. People just like you.... waking up in this<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">world day by day.. Looking to connect with others<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">who understand us.. Who share things that we<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">share in common.. Someone to laugh with…Play<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">with..<span> </span>And just enjoy life with; and this... This was<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">the type of friend Elonna was to others on such<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">forums AND how I came to meet her as well.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Like how most people meet online... Thru a friend of<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">a friend.. is how I came across to meet her<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">aquaintence.<span> </span>Not to reserved at first at all I pretty<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">much threw myself out there with a "No holds<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Barred" approach (which is one of the best things<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">about being online.. The ability to do such things<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">without really feeling any ramifications with<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">people who don't REALLY know us).<span> </span>I may add<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">that I am not the easiest person at times to perhaps<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">accept... I've been known to push limits.. cast my<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">own judgments.. be totally and unbearably<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Attention Deficit... Ramble.. AND express my<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">insurmountable questions secondary to paranoia<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">about who people REALLY are online.<span> </span>BUT even<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">with all of this.. Elonna would laugh and joke with<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">me.. Accepting me as I was.. Ignoring what she felt<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">was not applicable to her.. Trying to set me straight<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">about what was.. But nonetheless always offering<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">her friendship to me in pretty much an<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Unconditional way.<span> </span>The only time she ever did<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">seem to place stipulations on anything was when<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">she felt her friendship with another person would<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">be compromised.<span> </span>She never wanted to do this. She<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">really truly did care about her friends.<span> </span>She loved<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">them.. each one.. And if you are reading this...<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">undoubtedly .. This includes you.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Well, personally speaking.. Things for me became<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">too convoluted to continue on in the online forum<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">so I opted out.<span> </span>When doing this I pretty much kept<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">a distance from most everyone.. Which included<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Elonna.. However, I heard that she had found out<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">that she had Cancer.<span> </span>Again, like any good<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">paranoid person I questioned the validity of what I<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">was hearing.<span> </span>What was really going on?<span> </span>I did not<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">really know. I always wished her well of course and<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">wanted her to be okay but I<span> </span>never really called her<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">or contacted her to get into the details.<span> </span>I just felt it<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">was in my best interest to try to keep out of the<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">circle still.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Days turned into weeks... Weeks turned into months<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">and within the year news came that she had passed<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">away.<span> </span>Could this be?<span> </span>She was far too young.. far<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">too full of life and love to be gone.<span> </span>NO NO NO..<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">this just could NOT be the case I thought to<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">myself.<span> </span>This had to all be some kind of<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">misunderstand.. Just part of the online insanity<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">that I knew about which was always seemingly<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">going on.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Struggling with the notion of to call her or not I<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">opted to listen to the inner voice and just call her.<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Truely believing that such a phone call would yield<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">her giggling voice on the other end to explain to<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">me some totally ludicrous story about some drama<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">online.<span> </span>Much to my disbelief and sadness, when I<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">called what I found out was NOT what I had hoped<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">for.. that it was just some misunderstanding of<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">sorts.. but that she had.. in fact.... died.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">As I spoke with her father and tears rolled down<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">my face while asking God and her to forgive me for<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">my previous disposition I noted that her father..<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">much like Elonna.. was very open.<span yes?=""> </span>He shared with<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">me some of the events of her passing and the<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">miracles that surrounded them that allows them<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">now to live in peace knowing that Elonna is in a<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">better place.. not in pain any longer and will see<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">them and all those who loved her again some day.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Her parents, being quite religious in nature,<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">prayed constantly for the healing of Elonna's<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">cancer.<span> </span>Her father had spoke to me about praying<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">for people of their congregation, speaking on<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">tongues and the healing of many many many<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">people.<span> </span>He had felt confident that God would not<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">take Elonna.<span> </span>He was stricken with grief and<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">disbelief when<span> </span>she died.<span> </span>He expressed to me that<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">he and his wife Linda still believed that even after<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">she was deceased that she would come back to life<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">with prayer.<span> </span>So they sat bedside at the hospital<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">and before accepting what had happened.... they<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">prayed.. Prayed for their daughter to come back.<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">However, for as great as their faith may be.. it was<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">not what was going to happen.<span> </span>Their daughter was<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">gone from this world and they had to leave her<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">there. He told me that she suffered greatly when<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">she was living with her cancer.<span> </span>He told me that she<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">was in great pain every day.. Constantly.<span> </span>He knew<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">her pain and suffering was over now and that<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">offered comfort to them.<span> </span>He told me how he still<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">struggled with accepting this.. How this could be..<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">he had felt as if he had delivered other peoples<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">children from the likes of death thru prayer.. Why<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">not his own.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Then he told me of the angels "Mercy and<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Grace"... the Angels whom ultimately shared the<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">events of her leaving this world and entering into<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">the next.<span> </span>In a dreamlike manner, he experienced<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">the witness of watching his daughter Elonna in the<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">final moments of her life here on earth.<span> </span>He told<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">me that when she passed she was not in pain.<span> </span>He<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">watched as she left her body and found it all to be<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">very "neat".<span> </span>His words as I noted them were.. "As<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">she left her physical body and was traveling on in<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">spirit she said ....."This is NEAT...COOL...Thank<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">God it is finally over" He told me that her spirit<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">was taken to the "Lord of Lords and the King of<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Kings" and there her spirit waits as he and his wife<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">are building their ministry and in some spiritual<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">way a BANK ACCOUNT of sorts which is building<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;"> </span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">her extended grace in heaven.<span> </span>Now, you have to<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">understand this is all still very shocking to me.<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">These are the notes that I documented that I am<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">sharing with you now.<span> </span>They may not be verbatim<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">(with the exception of my quote above of Elonna<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Stating ... "This is NEAT...COOL...Thank God it is<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">finally over")<span> </span>BUT the sentiments are accurate<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">and this man of God has undoubtedly convinced<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">me..'ohh ye of little faith' that Elonna is in fact at<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">peace and we will see her again one day.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">I am sending along now her fathers email address<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">if anyone would like to share any sentiments with<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">him.. Particularly this Christmas season as is the<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">first year they are having the holiday without<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Elonna.<span> </span>I can't tell you what you need to do with<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">this information.<span> </span>I knew it was something I felt led<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">to share.. perhaps Elonna nudging me along to so<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">so before the holiday so that YOU could share with<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">him that his daughter was loved and is being<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">thought about fondly... I dont know.. Here is his<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Email address:<span> </span><a href="mailto:OttoUtt@prodigy.net" style="font-family: Verdana; text-decoration: underline;">OttoUtt@prodigy.net</a></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">I realize that those of us who knew Elonna spoke<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">at times that there may have been some hardships<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">in her personal life within her family. Don't we all<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">have them?<span> </span>If this is what you are thinking now<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">perhaps you may try to put that aside now to be<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">able to show unconditional compassion~~ I believe<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">he did love her very much and any and all comfort<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">to him and her family would be something Elonna<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">would want now.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">That all being said. This IS the Christmas season<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">now,<span> </span>I am not going to be a preacher.. as a matter<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">or fact if one would put my life under a microscope<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">I may even look like the anti-Christ.<span> </span>However, I<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">will say that much like the birth and existence of<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Christ being that of a miracle in our world we have<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Miracles surrounding us each day.<span> </span>Otto Utt's<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Testimony to Elonna's passing, to me.. is definitely<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">one of them.<span> </span>I share this you.. so that.. if you are of<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">the belief that this is it.. that you may reconsider.<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">So that you too may start now to understand that<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">our spirit will go on to another world.. a world not<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">known by us.. a world that even someone like me..<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">full of paranoia and "ye of little faith" truly<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Believes in.<span> </span>We are all headed somewhere.. I hope<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">to be headed to same place Elonna is one day..<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">you loved her and so I am sure you would too.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">In closing.. May God bring us all peace and<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Wholeness in this lifetime and prepare us<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">Adequately for where we all must travel to one day.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">May the Spirit of Christmas touch all of us in ways<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">that allow us to see the miracles of life right here<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">right now.<span> </span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a64d79;">In loving memory of Elonna Utt 1975-2007</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-size: 11px;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/Lonnie/ththrip1.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" style="font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-size: 11px;">MySpace Comments:</div><div align="center" style="font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_569451">Even though she removed me from her friends list towards the end, I still felt the loss deeply. I obviously was not as close to her as you and some of the others, but she always had a sweet comment for me and I considered her one of my "kids". I will keep her family in my prayers this Christmas season. Thank you for sharing this with us, Chrys!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Saturday, December 22, 2007 - 6:25 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=340429894#" id="addReplyLnk_569451" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=340429894&commentID=569451" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_569451"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_570491">~grabs the tissues~<br />Beautiful. I miss her so much.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Sunday, December 23, 2007 - 11:46 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=340429894#" id="addReplyLnk_570491" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=340429894&commentID=570491" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-57986062638373742752007-12-19T19:25:00.000-05:002010-10-28T20:12:00.684-04:00All I Will Ever Be - Just Me - That Simple<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, December 19, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center" style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Words%20and%20Sayings/ICONS-3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;">I was sitting here thinking about myself. Not in a vain sort of way, but just thinking about life in general. Something I don't think about too often as I am too busy trying to put forth my time into others. Things come to mind, about how I am. How I behave. The things that I do in life. I try to put into perspective how my life has ended up the way it did.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;">You know, how on every ones profile there is the "About Me" section? And no one ever really knows what to put in there? Yeah well, me either. And today, I thought about it. Thought about it long and hard. And I thought, well that's a perfect topic for today's blog. Lets see how much of a mess I can make myself out to be.</div><div align="center" style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Words%20and%20Sayings/judegeme.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;">So, here goes.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;">I am simple. In that I really enjoy the simple things in life. I don't need lots of money , fancy cars or things in general. I am not materialistic. I only need what it takes to live life from day to day and survive. I am complicated in that I have many layers to me. Each one as delicate and fragile as the one before it.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;">I have a hard shell on the outside. I do this protect myself. You don't go through the things I have went through in life and not end up this way. But, its for my own benefit really. I am selective about those I let in my world. And just because you are in my world, doesn't mean I have allowed you over my wall. Very few have made it over. And every time someone does and gets pushed out, I put that wall up higher and higher.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;">There is always going to be a test with me. I will test you to make sure you are someone that should remain in my world. I don't have time to deal with those that are not accepting and just want to try and change me. I don't need to be changed. I am fine with who I am and the way I am. I am soft on the inside. Those close to me, know this. I am loyal to those that are loyal to me. Love those that love me back. Maybe I care too easily. I have a big heart and am not afraid to admit that. I speak freely of my feelings. And if this bothers you, then perhaps you don't belong in my world. I can be your best friend or your worst nightmare.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;">I am easy going and pretty good natured. I have my ups and downs like everyone else. I tend to not stay down long. I always try to find the good in life, grab it and hold on to it. I have a choice everyday. When I wake up, I can be in a good mood or a bad mood. I choose a good mood. Being in a bad mood does me no good. I can be difficult and hard to get along with. I am mouthy and just really can be a real bitch. I have a voice. I am not afraid to use it. You will hear me speak. I have opinions and I am not afraid to share them with you.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;">I'm a quoter. I love quotes to make me think. I am a thinker. I love it when people pick my brain. I would appreciate you more if you held an intelligent conversation with me. I am a thought provoker. I will spark something in you to make you think too. I'm not all about sex.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;">Well, ok scratch that. My sexuality is a big part of my life. However, I am not always about talking sex. So, if that's all you are looking for, you don't need to be here. I am picky , I have my wants, my needs and that's that. If you fill that, then maybe, just maybe you are lucky enough to have me. But I bore easily and it takes much to hold my attention.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;">What I AM NOT - I am not in this world to whore friends. I would rather have a few that are close to me then hundreds I hardly speak too. I am not a collector. Nor am I into "cams" and showing my "stuff" to people I do not know. If that's what you are here for, fine. But, if that's what you are looking for here, you may as well save grace and walk away now. Its not what I am about. And its not me. But there it is, so don't ask me to cam with you. I wont.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;">I prefer the real thing over the cyber thing anyway.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;">I have a bad habit of keeping people at bay. That wall you know. Random. No feelings, no strings. I may like random hook ups , but that's why they are random, they are meaningless sexual desires being taken care of with no strings attached. I don't know really how to explain it.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;">However, when I find that "one" - I am prefectly able and willing to be in a committed relationship when its right.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;">Back to the cam thing, I do appreciate my friends. And its not a big deal when we turn our cams on to see each other and say hello. As a matter of fact, its pretty entertaining when you can see each others facial expressions. To see when some smiles and laughs. Its amazing. And certainly bridges the gap when you are talking to someone miles away. You can certainly feel that much closer.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;">And seeing as how most of my closest friends are pretty far away....it can get pretty entertaining!</div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;">Ok so back to me. Yeah I have issues with straying, in more ways then one. (mind out of the gutter please LOL)</div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;">Live. I live my life from day to day as best as I can with what I am given and I expect you to do the same too. I have a hard time with people who whine about their situation and don't want to do anything about it. Now, before you say anything let me clarify something. Sure, I bitch about things in my life. But, this is my blog and I can say whatever I want. And many times I say things just to get them out and off my chest and I move on. This is my outlet.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;">Laugh. You have to laugh in this world. If you do not, you will get chewed up and spit out. I like to cut up , laugh and have a good time. Simple really. I try not to take many things too seriously. Life is too short for that. Their are many things I do take seriously. I expect you to keep up to me and know the difference between the two.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;">Give. You know they saying, treat others as you would want them to treat you? Well, I pretty well live by that. If I respect you and treat you well then I expect the same in return. If you are cold, heartless and unwilling to just be nice, then I don't want you around.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;">Drama. I despise it and I will run from it. So don't bring it here.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;">I am who I am and I will never ever apologize for being me. Ever. End of story. If you don't like me for me then you can go away, I don't want you in my life anyway.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Words%20and%20Sayings/staystrong.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;">I am strong. I've been through a lot in life and had to grow up very quickly. Which in turn makes me hard. I have strong wills, desires, hopes and dreams. And I take them very much to heart. I believe their is a better life on the other side of the pond. I have my weaknesses, just like everyone else. However, they are mine and mine alone. If you are lucky enough to be that close to me, you will have discovered what some of them are.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Words%20and%20Sayings/myspace-girlie-graphics3.png" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;">Just remember I do have my down days just like everyone else, those days when I just do not feel so strong.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;">I'm a big kid at heart. I think perhaps I am making up for lost childhood times. Who knows. I just like to have fun and it is what it is.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;">And now, I am just bored. So...going to end this now !!</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Funny/6687298.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">MySpace Comments:</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=60301802" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Greg</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=60301802" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/55/s_543a5ffc432e4520a383854248f26692.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Greg Maynard</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_567150">Love what I read and I wouldn't want you to be anyone else but just you.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=60301802" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Greg</a> on Wednesday, December 19, 2007 - 9:27 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=339651277#" id="addReplyLnk_567150" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=339651277&commentID=567150" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=60301802" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_567150"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_567339">I can really relate to what you say here about yourself, sis! In more ways than one, you speak for me too, much better than I can myself!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Thursday, December 20, 2007 - 12:53 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=339651277#" id="addReplyLnk_567339" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=339651277&commentID=567339" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_567339"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">"Axel" Shepherd</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/65/s_ea9948575f0ed8f36b4e20b0524f7c73.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Robert Shepherd</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_567374">And yet again you utter something extremely profound and meaningful. You are such a deep thinker and thought provoker. And again I am grateful to have you share your thoughts and to be your friend.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">"Axel" Shepherd</a>on Thursday, December 20, 2007 - 1:42 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=339651277#" id="addReplyLnk_567374" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=339651277&commentID=567374" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_567374"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_568742">Girl...I love every word of this! Each of us are unique and should be loved for that! With what the world brings us each day...we all have to stay strong.<br />--Sent from my Helio<br /><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Friday, December 21, 2007 - 6:48 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=339651277#" id="addReplyLnk_568742" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=339651277&commentID=568742" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-15118500862221323472007-12-18T21:54:00.000-05:002010-10-28T20:15:13.635-04:00Not So Strong Today<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Tuesday, December 18, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_339349443" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v307/baby916girl/comments.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Hurting%20Sad/898c43a4579e93dc7175b70b8bace07f250.png" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Hurting%20Sad/78e2c181.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The fighter is gone, the strength now weak. And that's ok. I let it happen. Sometimes, I just have to give up and let things be.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Everyone talks about how strong I am. How I have survived so much and how proud of that I should be. But the truth of the matter is that's only what you see on the outside. A wall surrounds me. I choose who comes over. I pick who gets to see what. I share only what I want. Deep inside me will always remain that scared little girl, never really ready to face the world. It seems I have tripped. I fell once again and I see the darkness coming at me. It's not a slow and steady pace but instead it is running at me full force.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I let it come. The darkness that is.<span> </span>I welcome it. I feel safe. Secure.<span> </span>I felt it pulling at me, grabbing my ankles. I tried to kick it away. I cried. Oh how I cried. My damn leaky eyeballs have not shut off for 18hrs. But I finally caved in and let the darkness engulf me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I don't mind the darkness so much these days. It's warm. It's familiar to me and I know I am not there alone.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Now I am sitting here, just so confused and unsure of so much. I feel like an outsider looking in on my own life. Weird, that feeling. To think you are just an observer. Not really living. Just sort of watching from afar. It's numbing. I can't feel, I can't smell and I can't even taste.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">A while back ago, I took that left turn. And I am wondering if I should stay on this path or if I should turn around and come back. Stay still. Move forward. Go backwards.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Who knows? All I know is I just want to crawl back into bed , throw the covers over my head, curl up into a ball and just cry some more. <span> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I'm shattered. Broken into a million little pieces. And today, I just don't feel like picking up those pieces and trying to put myself back together.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Hurting%20Sad/EyEFeelLIkeShit06.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div></div><div class="blogContentInfo" style="clear: left; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 10px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div class="cmtcell" style="float: left; margin-right: 7px;"></div></div><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Brian Kinney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_566279">I am so sorry baby...I can so totaly relate to everything you say here.<br />~~~Bri hugs for you...<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a> on Tuesday, December 18, 2007 - 10:26 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=339349443#" id="addReplyLnk_566279" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_566288">~sighs~ Just keep hugging me Bri....their has always been safety in your arms.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Tuesday, December 18, 2007 - 10:34 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=339349443#" id="addReplyLnk_566288" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=339349443&commentID=566288" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_566288"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">"Axel" Shepherd</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/65/s_ea9948575f0ed8f36b4e20b0524f7c73.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Robert Shepherd</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_566364">Stay in your safe warm place for awhile those pieces will still be there to pick up when you are ready.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">"Axel" Shepherd</a>on Tuesday, December 18, 2007 - 11:32 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=339349443#" id="addReplyLnk_566364" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=339349443&commentID=566364" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_566391">Well......we have all been there. I certainly have had my share of these kind of days.<br /><br />I know some of what you are feeling. We have each other shoulders to lean on honey!<br /><br />Hugs!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Wednesday, December 19, 2007 - 12:03 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=339349443#" id="addReplyLnk_566391" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=339349443&commentID=566391" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/33/s_8cc4d4280cc84300b0d4fc01a64e5803.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Tabitha Stone</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_566456">I feels your pain<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a> on Wednesday, December 19, 2007 - 1:13 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=339349443#" id="addReplyLnk_566456" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=339349443&commentID=566456" style="color: #003399; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_566596">{{{{HUGS}}}} I have been truly blessed in my life, but sometimes I feel the same way. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed with everything and just want to crawl into some safe place until it all passes. Some days, I just don't want to be here any more. But I go on like nothing is amiss because I know this will pass.{{{{HUGS}}}} I hope you get through this quickly...your bubbliness is missed!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Wednesday, December 19, 2007 - 8:01 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=339349443#" id="addReplyLnk_566596" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=339349443&commentID=566596" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_566596"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 67px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/143/s_294e8995c07b45a792dbde894b7d3ad3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_566634">You are healing...this is part of it. Stay in the place that is safe until you are ready to break free. You are not weak, Honey...you are human.<br /><br />Big loves and kisses to you.<br />Patrice<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a>on Wednesday, December 19, 2007 - 10:12 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-32879787142673587082007-12-17T22:45:00.001-05:002010-12-22T17:37:52.634-05:00~Reflections~<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Monday, December 17, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">It has become tradition to do the Reflections blog. Here is this years.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"></span><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">1) Was 2007 a good year for you?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">It was a serious roller coaster ride. It had many up and downs. Death. Depression. Heartache. Illness. But, on the flip side, I grew, I lived, and I learned. I had to overcome many things, and I did. At least I am trying to. For me, that is something to celebrate. But life is constantly changing. I am still working on getting my life back in order. Starting over with nothing sure is not easy, but at least I am trying. I hope 2008 slows down a little bit, but thinking about what I know now, it just might continue on for a while longer…..</span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></div><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"></span><br /><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span><br /><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">2) What was your favorite moment of the year?</span><br /><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Finally getting that long overdue divorce. Meeting Terry is up there on the list. He came in my life when I really needed that special something. He taught me that there is still that strong woman inside of me. He taught me it's OK to continue on the path to being me. He made me dig deep inside myself and show him parts of me I never shared with anyone. Despite what he did in life, I will never forget how caring, loving and compassionate he turned out to be.</span></strong></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></strong></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></strong></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></strong></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"> And let me mention Julie. I have known her for a while, but we did not get close until earlier this year. I felt like I have known this girl my whole life. We have fastly become the best of friends and I love her dearly. She has been my arms when I need a hug, my ears when I need to vent, a shoulder when I need to cry, and my sister when I just need a friend.</span></strong></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></strong></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></strong></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></strong></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Moving to </span></strong><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Michigan</span></strong><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"> and being able to see and hang out with some of my family, as well as meeting some of the great people I have met.<o:p></o:p></span></strong></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /><br />3) What was your least favorite moment of the year?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Moving 1000 miles away, leaving all of my friend behind. The loss of Terry, the death of Elonna and the death of my beloved grandmother. Getting in a fight with Sean and after the whole ordeal with Lonnie's death, having to cut ties with Sean.</span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br />4) Where were you when 2007 began?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">In Okie</span></strong><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br />5) Who were you with?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Marcus. The ex hubby. New Years Eve was our anniversary, so we always went out. We were out with some friends. </span></strong><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br />6) Where will you be when 2007 ends?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Well it's a toss up to be honest. My family has tradition, and of course I was invited. So I asked a certain someone to be my date, and he promised me. But, who knows with him. But at the same time, I have a plane ticket with my name on it to go to OK. I am confused. </span></strong><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br />7) Who will you be with when 2007 ends?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">As stated in 6, it's sort of a toss right now. Either my date and my family or whatever, or my friends back in OK. </span></strong><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br />8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2007?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">I didn't make any. I know I won't keep them, so I didn't bother.</span></strong><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br />9) Do you have a new year's resolution for 2008?<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Yes, to take charge of my health. And get my ass to </span></strong><st1:country-region><st1:place><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Ireland</span></strong></st1:place></st1:country-region><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"> once and for all. So let's hope this time I will keep them.</span></strong></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br />10) Did you fall in love in 2007?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Yes. A Love that will forever be with me. Forever a part of me. Even though he is no longer in this world I will never have any regrets. </span></strong><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br />11) If yes, with whom?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Everyone here pretty much knows the answer to that.</span></strong></span></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><br /></b></span></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><b><br /></b><br />12) If yes, do they know?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Of course he knew, for he loved me just the same. Hell, I think he loved me more then I ever loved myself. And that taught me a great thing in life. </span></strong><br /></span></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br />13) Are you still in love with them?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">I will always have love for him. He is my dark angel now. My prince of darkness. Forever a part of me.</span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br />14) Do you regret it?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Not at all. And never will. </span></strong></span></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><b><br /></b><br />15) Did you break up with anyone in 2007?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Yes. The divorce marked the break up of me and Marcus after 10 years of being together, almost 5 of them married. </span></strong><br /><br />16) Did you make any new friends in 2007?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">I sure as heck did. LOTS of them! *blows a kiss to you all*</span></strong><br /><br />17) Who are your favorite new friends?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">ALL of them.... how can I pick just one?</span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /><br />18) What was your favorite month of 2007?<br /><b>March and July – me and my gang rocked it out!</b><br /><br />19) Did you travel outside of the country in 2007?<br /><b>No :( ..... But I should have, and now wish I did. </b><br /><br />20) How many different places did you travel to in 2007?<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><st1:state><st1:place><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Michigan</span></strong></st1:place></st1:state><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"> in July for grandma's funeral, and again the end of July to move</span></strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /><br />21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2007?<br /><b>My grandmother in July, Elonna in October and Terry.<br /></b>22) Did you miss anybody in the past year?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">YES! Both of my grandparents, all my friends and loved ones back in OK, Elonna and Terry.</span></strong><br /><br />23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2007?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Beauwolf!</span></strong><br /><br />24) What was your favorite song from 2007?<br /><b>Oh I have a few: they may not be new in 2007, but they meant something to me in 2007.<o:p></o:p></b></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">No One – Alicia Keys<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Her Eyes – Pat Monahan<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Beautiful Disaster – Jon McLaughlin<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Tattoo – Jordin Sparks<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Rest in Pieces – Saliva<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Car Crash – Matt Nathanson<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Paralyzer – Finger Eleven<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">In This River – Black Label Society<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Last Goodbye – Black Label Society<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">I Fucking Hate You – Godsmack<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Always – Saliva<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Take Me Away - Avril Lavigne<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Ride With Me – Bloodsimple<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Congratulation – Blue October with Imogeen Heap<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Can't Stop the Rain – Cascada<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">My Heart Will Go On – Celine Dion<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Don't Say You Love Me – The Corrs<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Haunted – Shane McGowan and Sinead O'Connor<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">9 Crimes – Damien Rice<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Rootless Tree – Damien Rice<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Breakdown – Daughtry<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">My Wish – Rascal Flatts<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">This is How it Feels – The Veronicas<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Ok and really this list could go on and on and on, but there is a reason why I have an attachment to these songs this year.<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br />25) What was your favorite album from 2007?<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Hinder, Red Hot Chili Peppers and Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Daughtry, Bloodsimple</span></strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /><br />26) How many concerts did you see in 2007?<br /><b>Zero, oh wait I went to this Biker Bash in July when I moved to MI and there were a few bands there, does that count, even if they were all local??<o:p></o:p></b></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /><br />27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2007?<br /><b>Nope</b><br /><br />28) Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2007?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">More then my fair share… Guinness anyone??</span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br />29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2007?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Only those prescribed, and that was a whole hell of a lot for a while there between the depression, the stomach and intestinal illness, high blood pressure and the back issues. But since moving to MI, I only take my meds to help me sleep (damn anxiety), my blood pressure (see need to get my health in shape!)</span></strong><br /><br />30) How many people did you sleep with in 2007?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Five</span></strong><br /><br />31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Would have to be, putting mike and mine personal bullshit out there like I did. I know I am very open with my life. And I know this is my corner of the blogland and I do have the freedom of speech. I was mad, hurt, angry and confused. I did not take the time to think about anyone else. It was not fair for me to put that out there like that. Some people are private and I should have respected that. </span></strong><br /><br />32) What was the biggest lie you told in 2007?<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">~SIGHS~ Yeah, I did…bad girl … and only two people would know what I am talking about, and I am not about to spill it here. </span></strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /><br /><br />33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2007?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">hmmm the first 7 months of it listening to Marcus tell me every day he loved me…right.. Terry telling me I had nothing to worry about ..Again, yeah right… and well…there is more, but I am just not gonna get in to it. I pretty much have this deal where I don't trust men and think they all lie. I am working on that issue.</span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br />34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2007?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">There was a period when I was not very nice to Sean. And I feel badly about that still. But his hands killed Lonnie. That's a hard thing to take. And I know I played a part in it, we all know that by now. And I finally just had enough and Sean and I had a huge fight, and we cut ties. If I treated anyone else badly, it was not intentional.</span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br />35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2007?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Yeah, I had my moments. And I am working on getting over all that as well. </span></strong><br /><br />36) How much money did you spend in 2007?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Since I started working again, I am sure way more then I should. </span></strong><br /><br />38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2007?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Oh! Let's see........ Just call me Grace LOLOL</span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br />39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2007 and change it, what would it be?<br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Well I would have slowed down a little bit after announcing my divorce and planned things out a little better. I may have stayed in OK and saw how things worked out for me there. And I would not have left all my shit with Marcus. I would not have poured all my personal shit with Mike in those blogs.<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /><br />40) What are your plans for 2008?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">To just keep plugging away at life one day at a time.<o:p></o:p></span></strong></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Visit my friends for sure! And just slow down and see where life takes me. </span></strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /><br />41) What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Got divorced. And hope to never have to do that again. </span></strong><br /><br />42) Did anyone close to you give birth?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Hmmm I don't think so. </span></strong><br /><br />43) What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">More time to write. And maybe actually do something with it this year. </span></strong><br /><br />44) What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?<br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">July – grandmas death, my birthday, leaving Marcus and moving to MI<o:p></o:p></span></strong></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><strong><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">October – Losing Elonna to her battle with cancer, and losing Terry</span></strong><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br />45) What was your biggest achievement of the year?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Getting a new job, getting accepted in college after a break, finally being brave enough to get divorced</span></strong><br /><br />46) What was your biggest failure?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">depression creeping back up on me, picking some of the wrong guys to go out with , never living up to my own expectations of myself, and my wicked evil self esteem issues that mess with my head.</span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /><br />47) What was the best thing you bought?<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">My new cool chic glasses…. LOL I can see now when I am reading and on the PC! My other glasses were old and the prescription was no longer good. </span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /><br />48) Whose behavior merited celebration?<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><st1:place><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Shannon</span></b></st1:place><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">, she finally got up out of that hell hole that was causing her so much stress and anxiety!</span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /><br /><br />49) Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Yikes! My own – seriously!</span></strong><br /><br />50) What did you get really, really, really excited about?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Having a job again, being close to my family even thought I don't see them very much, getting back into school, earning my real estate appraisers license</span></strong><br /><br />51) Compared to this time last year, are you:<br />i. happier or sadder? <b>I am about the same as I was this time last year, just for different reasons.<o:p></o:p></b></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br />ii. thinner or fatter? <b>The same as I was…but I would love to change that…</b><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">iii. richer or poorer? <strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">richer in so many ways, poorer money wise</span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br />52) What do you wish you'd done more of?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Exercised, listened to my docs, spent more time with my friends while they were close by</span></strong><br /><br />53) What do you wish you'd done less of?<br /><b>Being depressed, blaming myself for so much, worrying about what others are going to think</b><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">54) How will you be spending Christmas?<br /><b>I don't know, I really just want to lie in bed all day and wish it away.</b><br /><br />55) How many one-night stands?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">2</span></strong><br /><br />56) What was your favorite TV program?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">UFC, The Ultimate Fighter, Prison Break, Lost</span></strong><br /><br />57) Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">You know, I always say that hate is just a waste of my time. But, sadly, there is someone that has burned me and I just really am still pissed off as all hell about it, so yeah, some hatred is running through my Irish blood right now.</span></strong><br /><br />58) What was the best book you read?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Oh gosh, I read so many I don't really know where to start. But my fave is Needful Things by Stephen King; I read it just about every year. </span></strong><br /><br />59) What was your greatest musical discovery?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Bloodsimple, A Perfect Circle, Opeth, The 69 Eyes, Death Angel</span></strong><br /><br />60) What did you want and get?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Just the divorce</span></strong><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /><br />61) What did you want and not get?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">I don't seem to ever get what I want. I want true happiness. I want true love. I want peace within me. </span></strong><br /><br />62) What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?<br /><b>Julie came up from </b></span><st1:state><st1:place><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Texas</span></b></st1:place></st1:state><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"> and we went out with Shannon and the girls from work. Got tattooed. And partied hard. I turned 32. Whooopeeee<o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">63) What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Perhaps not losing Elonna, Terry…moving…who knows. We really have no way of knowing. Cause if these things did not happen, whose to say something else would not have. </span></strong><br /><br />64)How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?<br /><b>I'm just me. I don't follow trends. I like what I like. Comfort. Cool. Calm. Dressed up or down, I am pretty simple.<br /></b>65) What kept you sane?<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Oh lord, I don't think I was sane much this year. But my friends did a pretty good job of not letting me go off the deep end. Especially Shannon while we were working together in hell LOL<o:p></o:p></span></strong></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /><br />66) Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?<br /><em><b><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-style: normal;">Colin of COURSE!!! And Cillian Murphy! Wentworth Miller and Dominic Purcell of Prison Break ..Oh and lets not forget them UFC men LOLOL</span></b></em><br /><br />67) What political issue stirred you the most?<br /><b>The war, still. And all the shite in </b></span><st1:country-region><st1:place><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Ireland</span></b></st1:place></st1:country-region><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">. </span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /><br />68) Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007.<br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Life is too short for petty shit. Tell everyone just what is on your mind because tomorrow may be too late. That forever is a lie.</span></strong><br /><br />69) Quote a song lyric.<br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 10pt;">Well, I'm sitting alone thinking about it all over coffee.<br />And still crowdin' my space are the things you still hold against me.<br />You cannot save me.<br /><br />Well, it's not the time to breakdown.<br />It's not the time to breakdown.<br />It's not the time to break up this love,<br />Keep it together now.<br />It's not the time to break.<br /><br />Read it all, no need for separating here.<br />You see what you want and try to justify.<br />All your little lines,<br />Convictions and your lies.<br />What right do you have to point at me?</span></b><b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></b><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br />70) Favorite discovered quote.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 16.5pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span class="snippet4"><b><span style="color: windowtext; font-family: Verdana;">"I'm a woman Phenomenally Phenomenal woman. That's me."</span></b></span><b><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">MySpace Comments</span></div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 13px;"></span></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">"Axel" Shepherd</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/65/s_ea9948575f0ed8f36b4e20b0524f7c73.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Robert Shepherd</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_565522">And still here you are, forging forward, truly phenomenal. Ummmm, but I see no mention of a certain "crow" band in here lol. Guess we are going to do better this next year then?<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">"Axel" Shepherd</a> on Tuesday, December 18, 2007 - 2:02 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=339060274#" id="addReplyLnk_565522" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=339060274&commentID=565522" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><label id="NewDiv_565522"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/33/s_8cc4d4280cc84300b0d4fc01a64e5803.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Tabitha Stone</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_566460">YEAH! ME TOO<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a> on Wednesday, December 19, 2007 - 1:15 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=339060274#" id="addReplyLnk_566460" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=339060274&commentID=566460" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-78934131214214956702007-12-12T15:38:00.000-05:002010-10-28T20:29:04.177-04:00350 Words or Less<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, December 12, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_337459035" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div align="center"><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v720/Elf_Blood/writing.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center"><img src="http://i171.photobucket.com/albums/u307/srod15/Copyofalvarez.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">350 Words or Less</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, I am on the treadmill this morning, flipping through January's issue of Glamour magazine and there is every writers dream come true.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">First, yes chunky butt girl does exercise and second, I have had a subscription to Glamour since I was like 17 years old. Deal with it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Anyway, I see that Tommy Hilfiger is having a contest to help launch their new perfume, Dreaming. The contest is to write 350 words or less what your Dream is. They will pick 3 winners. And it will become a documentary.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">OMFG!!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, we all pretty much know what my dream is right? Well the obvious one Ireland. But everyone thinks the only reason this girl wants to go to<st1:country-region><st1:place>Ireland</st1:place></st1:country-region>is just because she is Irish. Well, that's only the half of it. I have a story to tell damn it. Now how the hell am I gonna squash it town to 350 words?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">That is not my only dream. So now, I sit here thinking ok, which one do I shoot for? Maybe I need to read the rules. You know that lovely fine print no one ever reads. Maybe I can submit multiple entries if each one is different. I could try for them all.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Anyway, this is my quest. To try to figure it out in 350 words or less. That's quite a challenge. They also provide you with a link to upload a video. Which is optional. And I am thinking, you know, I don't think they want my drunken chatter youtube videos. So maybe I need to rethink that option as well. They also want a pic. I think I have that made. They should pick me just on my beauty alone.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">*cough cough*</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Right.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Moving along.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">HAHAHHAAH</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I think its time for my voice to be heard and my story to be told.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">In 350 words or less………</div><div align="center"></div></div><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_560862">You got my vote!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Wednesday, December 12, 2007 - 9:48 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=337459035#" id="addReplyLnk_560862" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=337459035&commentID=560862" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_560862"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Brian Kinney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_562162">Do it baby...you can if anyone can.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a> on Friday, December 14, 2007 - 1:23 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=337459035#" id="addReplyLnk_562162" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=337459035&commentID=562162" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=83231174" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=14904163" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">-Twink-</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=14904163" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/55/s_95876e1e56c177d4386c78d3d6bb4c1f.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_566336">I think it's a wonderful idea, have fun with it and make it your on. You can do this!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=14904163" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">-Twink-</a> on Tuesday, December 18, 2007 - 11:14 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=337459035#" id="addReplyLnk_566336" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=337459035&commentID=566336" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=14904163" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-490792125818158042007-12-11T15:36:00.000-05:002010-10-28T20:32:08.527-04:00Picking Myself Apart Today<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Tuesday, December 11, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_337123622" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;">Just having one of those days. And when I have one of those days, I tend to be at a loss for my own words...so this says it all today.....<br />~Chrys~<br /><br /><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><strong>"Going Under"<br /></strong>Pulling myself apart today,<br />To see whats underneath,<br />I analyse the things I say,<br />Its a mystery to me.<br /><br />Why cant I be normal like everyone else?<br />Why cant I become something more than myself?<br />I reach and I'm trying to believe in me,<br />But its just too hard to see.<br /><br />Who am I now?<br />And when will I be found?<br />What if I drown?<br />Im going under now....<br /><br />Lost like a ship without a sail,<br />And terrified to fail,<br />Sick of the sickness that I feel,<br />Its a mystery to me...<br /><br />Why cant I be normal like everyone else?<br />Why cant I become something more than myself?<br />I reach and I'm trying to believe in me,<br />But its just too hard to see..<br /><br />Who am I now?<br />And when will I be found?<br />What if I drown?<br />I'm going under now....<br /><br />I'm going under now<br />I'm going under now<br /><br />Who am I now?<br />And when will I be found?<br />What if I drown?<br />I'm going under now....<br />Who am I now?<br />And when will I be found?<br />What if I drown?<br />I'm going under now.</span></span><br />~By: Saliva~<br /><br /></div><br /><br /><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/8GF0UlgVPiE?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/8GF0UlgVPiE?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br /><br />MySpace Comments<br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_559743">{{{{HUGS}}}} It's ok to have one of "those days" occasionally...just don't let them happen too often!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a>on Tuesday, December 11, 2007 - 7:38 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=337123622#" id="addReplyLnk_559743" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">"Axel" Shepherd</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/65/s_ea9948575f0ed8f36b4e20b0524f7c73.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Robert Shepherd</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_560101">Remember that though there may be shadows covering you, shadows are created by light. You are never alone, and I won't let you drown.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">"Axel" Shepherd</a>on Wednesday, December 12, 2007 - 1:04 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=337123622#" id="addReplyLnk_560101" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=337123622&commentID=560101" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-45502050489167069132007-12-09T17:09:00.000-05:002010-10-28T20:35:12.817-04:00Open Book<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Sunday, December 09, 2007</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">My life is an open book.<span> </span>Their has always been a reason for that. As a writer, we all look for outlets to showcase our work. Blogging was always an outlet for me. A place not only to talk about life in general, but to throw some of my work in their as well.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">When I started this blogging journey a few years ago, I never expected it to turn into what it has.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Words%20on%20Icons%20and%20such/The%20Written%20Word/f9080dc5.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Nor did I ever expect to make the friendships that I have along the way either. Friendships I will keep and cherish forever.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Friends/62762scyuj1wg26.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I realize there are many out there that do not understand the whole blogging thing. And that's fine. I can understand that.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">While so many of you come to me and tell me how great you think I am for being so open and honest about my life, there is something that I have to confess.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">It is not easy. I don't do it for attention. I don't put my personal shit out there for the media addiction. The personal stuff I put out there is first and foremost for, ME. But mostly I do it because as I have stated many, many times I have many friends and family on myspace. And it provides me with a way to keep them updated on life when other things in life keep us so busy that we just do not have time to always communicate with each other. The rest of it, the poetry and stories, that's for me to get feedback on my work.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have learned along the way that there are many things in my life that other people have gone through. And although they choose to not talk about it publicly, they can come to me and talk to me about it. And they do. And that makes me feel good. To be able to sit down and talk to people. To show people YES I went through this in life. And as shitty as it was, I came out on top. I am a survivor and I am a fighter. And you have all seen this. If my stories and events in life help someone deal with something they have gone through, if I can be a friend, then that my friends is the ultimate gift in life.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I also have another confession. Some of you may forget that my page is private. So not just everyone can read my stuff. You have to be a friend to read it. And even then, sometimes I put my blogs on preferred list.<span> </span>And I have my reasons for that.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have run across a few people in life that don't really like the fact I put my personal life up here. But again, I have to say, my page is private, so it's not like all of blog land is reading my life. And a high ratio of my friends list are people that are REALLY my friends. So talking about life in a blog is no different then talking to them on the phone or in person. So to me, it all makes sense.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The other thing I want to say is I am not as open about life as you think I am.<span> </span>I choose and pick what to throw out there. I am a writer after all. Sometimes I tend to think it writer terms, what will provide the most entertainment? What do my readers what to know about? Stuff like that.<span> </span>I do have my boundaries. (Of course, unless you piss me off LOL ~winks~) But seriously. It is only myspace. And I share only what I want to share. Tell only what I want to tell. Put out there only what I want. There is a whole other person here and life that I lead that you all do not see. Just as I am sure it is the same way with you.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Funny%20Stuff/myspace%20fun/justmyspace.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So while you think<span> </span>you know me from my blogs and all the crazy bulletins I post, the truth is – there is a whole other girl here that really is worth taking the time to get to know.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">~Chrys~</div><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_557977">HAHA.....that last graphic is mine!<br /><br />I am glad I have taken the time to get to know YOU!<br /><br />We have turned out to have lots in common & you have been a great sounding board and friend during this rough spot.<br /><br />I know we will continue to be good friends thru it all!<br /><br />HUGS!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Monday, December 10, 2007 - 12:32 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=336471664#" id="addReplyLnk_557977" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=336471664&commentID=557977" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_557977"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_558124">I am happy to be included here! I do know, however, there are some unscrupulous people out there that can back door their way in if they want to...kind of like breaking in to a locked diary. You really shouldn't be surprised when you find some things that don't make you happy! LOL! I can no longer write about the things at work, unless it's pretty general, because there are people there that DO back door in to my blog and read it. But I am the bad guy for writing about it...not the ones who sneak in and read what they are not supposed to...<br />{{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Monday, December 10, 2007 - 8:18 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=336471664#" id="addReplyLnk_558124" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=336471664&commentID=558124" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_558124"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_558197">I am honored and blessed to be considered your friend-- and your sis. Love ya!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Monday, December 10, 2007 - 11:27 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-27608293856382431202007-12-07T19:55:00.001-05:002010-12-23T14:00:44.473-05:00Poetry In Motion - I’m Still Here<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, December 07, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"></span><br /><div class="text" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div class="text" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><div class="text" style="font-weight: normal;">I'm still here aren't I?<br />If I'm still here,<br />I don't think I'm taking that exit now.<br /><br /><br />Don't worry.<br />I'm not dead yet.<br />It's just your paranoia.<br />It's just that little voice.<br />That constant little worry.<br />That constant need for me to reassure.<br /><br />I'm still here.<br />I ain't leaving yet.<br />Life can't beat me.<br />All it's thrown,<br />has only served to train,<br />for what is next.<br /><br />Life can't beat me down that path.<br />Its tried before .<br />You know.<br />You've seen.<br />I'm still here.<br />I always will be.<br />You can't lose me that easy.<br /><br />I'll continue to fight.<br />I'll still battle.<br />I've stopped even knowing the meaning of<br />"give up".<br />I'll always fight.<br /><br />It's what I am.</div><div class="text" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><div class="text" style="font-weight: normal;">A fighter inside...that's me.</div><div class="text" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div class="text"><b>MySpace Comments:</b></div><div class="text" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div class="text" style="font-weight: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_555997">*Smile* {{{{HUGS}}}} have a great weekend!</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Friday, December 07, 2007 - 10:12 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=335909736#" id="addReplyLnk_555997" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/33/s_8cc4d4280cc84300b0d4fc01a64e5803.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Tabitha Stone</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_557189">Fignht inside, that deep. Very intense .</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a> on Sunday, December 09, 2007 - 8:40 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=335909736#" id="addReplyLnk_557189" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=335909736&commentID=557189" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><br /><br /></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-5960987560884180922007-12-06T19:10:00.000-05:002010-10-28T20:44:48.773-04:00One Year Ago Today<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, December 06, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><br /><br />One Year Ago Today<br /><br /><br />While sitting here today thinking about what to write I glanced at the calendar and the weight of the world hit me in the chest. Where did the time go? I thought I had more time to prepare the blog I wanted for today?? OMG!! I am such a bad bad bad friend. ~sighs~<br /><br /><br /><br />You see, its once year ago today that our sweet Lonnie was taken away from us. And I really had planned to write this big, heart warming "we miss you" "R.I.P" type blog. And I know that I should, but the thing is over the course of the year I HAVE! More then once. Everyone around me knows I miss him. Many of us miss him. So many things are not the same since that whole ordeal went down. But, in the stage of life I am right now, no more dwelling in the past. I am working on a new life. And this time I choose to not think about all the bad stuff surrounding his death, but rather, the good. Joey and I are closer then ever. There is a brother / sister bond that will never be broken, no matter how many miles end up between us. And I have met some wonderful people that were friends of Lonnie's that are now close friends on mine. Funny how things in life work out like that. And I know, Elonna and Lonnie are together, our little angles. There to take care of each, and us when we need it.<br /><br /><br /><br />So, thinking about the last year…I see just how much my own life has changed. One cant help but wonder, if he were still alive would we have been able to convince Elonna to go to the doctor like we bugged her so much to do. Would she have finally got tired of listening to us? Would the cancer then have been caught sooner and been able to be treated? I often wonder these things. Often wonder had I not cried to Sean about Lonnie and mine troubles would Sean have not raised that final blow that resulted in Lonnie's death. Would Sean and I, or Sean and Joey still be friends? Would our pirate gang still be intact?<br /><br /><br /><br />It's funny how you can sit there and let your mind play out all the sitchys in life. But the truth is no one really has a way of knowing. Who is to say that if those things did not happen, that on down the line something else would not have happened.<br /><br /><br />Life. It is what we make it, only to some degree. Other things we just really have no control over.<br /><br /><br />And everything happens for a reason, right?<br /><br /><br />The old me would have been spending all day worried about the past. Wondering. Thinking. But, the new me, the one who has had a great epiphany as of late has decided that my own life is much too short. I will remember and continue to love those I have lost. But I must continue to move forward and be me. I see what I have done in that year, I reflect and then I see what I have accomplished. And that my dear friends, is a great feeling.<br /><br />I am "I'm a woman<br />Phenomenally<br />Phenomenal woman<br />That's me."<br /><br /><br /><br />~Chrys~<div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>MySpace Comments:</div><div><br /></div><div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_555137">Everything does have a reason, for without these things, you and I may not be the friends we are today...I feel very blessed to have you in my life :)<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Thursday, December 06, 2007 - 9:59 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=335578687#" id="addReplyLnk_555137" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=335578687&commentID=555137" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><label id="NewDiv_555137"></label></span><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_555142">My darling Shan...my bff...I love you more then words can say. You have been there with me thru some of the worst time of my life. And, some of the best. I miss you dearly. But, even tho miles are between us, our friendship remains the same. I am ALWAYS gonna be here for you. With out your love and support, I may have ended up in that padded room after all. LOLOLOL....<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Thursday, December 06, 2007 - 10:01 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=335578687#" id="addReplyLnk_555142" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=335578687&commentID=555142" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=133902747" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Beeg</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=133902747" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/74/s_1c09789890e0e272f027948687a2b9ac.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_555129">Yes you are a Phenomenally Phenomenal woman!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=133902747" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Beeg</a> on Thursday, December 06, 2007 - 9:51 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=335578687#" id="addReplyLnk_555129" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_555144">THANK YOU!!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Thursday, December 06, 2007 - 10:02 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=335578687#" id="addReplyLnk_555144" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=335578687&commentID=555144" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; 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text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_555231">And thank YOU for being a part of mine!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Thursday, December 06, 2007 - 10:46 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=335578687#" id="addReplyLnk_555231" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=335578687&commentID=555231" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Brian Kinney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_555554">I know...its been a rough year huh. Lots of changes...lots of emotions...lots of hurting.<br />Hoping next year is a better one...love you.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a>on Friday, December 07, 2007 - 11:20 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=335578687#" id="addReplyLnk_555554" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=335578687&commentID=555554" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><label id="NewDiv_555554"></label></span><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_555578">For you, for me and for "us". But , thats OK, its life, right? I hope next year brings a new start for us both, in so many ways. Love you too babydoll. *blows you a kiss*<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Friday, December 07, 2007 - 12:01 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-30231847963849815142007-11-30T14:53:00.001-05:002010-10-28T20:49:04.649-04:00Epiphany ~ this might very well be the best blog ever! LOL<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, November 30, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;">OK, it's epiphany time:<br /><br />A time come in your life when you finally get it.... when in the midst of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out .... ENOUGH!</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"></span></span><o:p></o:p></div><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;">Enough fighting and crying and struggling to hold on. And like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back the tears and through a mantle of wet eyelashes you begin to look at the world through new eyes.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: medium;">This is your awakening. You realize that it is time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that there is no such thing as the "right" person around the corner and that in the real world there aren't always fairytale endings (or beginnings for that matter)(how many times have I said "Once upon a time in a land far far away these last few days?) and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with you and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"></span></span></span></div><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;">You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are.... and that's OK! They are entitled to their own views and opinions.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"></span></div><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;">And you learn that the importance of loving and championing yourself and in the process a sense of new found confidence is born of self approval. You must stop moaning and blaming other people for the things that they do to you or don't do. And you learn that there is only one thing that you can count on and that is the unexpected.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"><br />You learn that people don't always say what they mean or mean what they say and not everyone will always be there for you and that it's not always about you. So you learn to stand on your own and take care of yourself and in the process a sense of safety and security is born of self reliance.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"></span></div><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;">You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as they are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties and in the process a sense of peace and contentment are born of forgiveness.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: medium;">You realize that much of the way you view yourself and the world around you, is the result of all the messages and opinions ingrained into your psyche.<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></span></span></div><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;">And you begin to sift through all the garbage you've been fed about how you should behave, how you should look and how much you should weigh. What you should wear, where to shop and what to drive, how and where you should live and what you should do for a living, who you should sleep with, who you should marry and what to expect in a marriage.</span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"></span></div><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;">You learn to open up to new worlds and different opinions. And you begin re-assessing and re-defining who you are and what you really stand for. You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to discard doctrines and values you've outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with and in the process you learn to go with your instincts.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;">You learn that in truly giving that you receive. And there is power and glory in creating and contributing and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a "consumer" looking for your next fix.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"></span></span></div><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;">You learn that principals such as honesty and integrity are outdated ideals of a bygone era, but they are the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;">You learn that you don't know everything; it's not your job to save the world. You distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO. You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that martyrs are burned at the stake.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"></span></span></div><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;">Then you learn about love. Romantic love and family love, how to love, how much to love, how much to give in love, when to stop loving and giving and when to walk away. You learn not to project your needs or feelings onto a relationship. You learn that you will not be more beautiful or intelligent.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"></span></span></div><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;">You learn to look at relationships for what they really are, not as what you want them to be. You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You learn that just as people grow and change, so it is with love and you learn that you don't have the right to demand love, (love is a gift not an obligation) on your terms just to make you happy. And you learn that alone doesn't mean lonely.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"></span></div><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;">You look in the mirror and come to terms with the fact that you will never be a perfect size and you stop trying to compete with the image inside your head and agonizing how to stack up. You also stop working so hard at putting feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring needs. You learn that feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK and that it's your right to want things and ask for the things that you want and sometimes it is necessary to make demands.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"></span></div><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;">You come to the realization that you deserve to be treated with love, kindness, sensitivity, and respect and you won't settle for anything less. And you allow only the hands of a lover who cherishes you, to glorify you with this touch, and in the process you internalize the meaning of self respect. And you learn that your body really is your temple. And you begin to care for it and treat it with respect. You learn that fatigue diminishes the spirit and can create doubt and fear. So you take more time out to rest. And just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels your soul. So take more time out to laugh and play.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"></span></div><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;">You learn that for the most part in your life, you get what you believe you deserve....and much of that life truly is a self fulfilling prophecy. You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for something to happen is different from working towards making it happen. More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. You also learn that no one can do it alone and that it's OK to risk asking for help.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"></span></div><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;">You learn that the only thing to truly fear is the great robber of all time....FEAR itself! You learn that to step right into and through your fears because you know that whatever happens you can handle it and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your terms. And you learn that to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom. You learn that life isn't always fair, you don't always get what you think you deserve and sometimes bad things happen. And you learn to deal with evil in its most primate form ....the ego.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"></span></div><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;">You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you. You will learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges INSTEAD OF WALLS. You learn to be thankful and to take the comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted. Slowly you begin to take responsibility for yourself, by yourself and to make yourself a promise never to betray yourself and never to sit around and think "I hate myself"</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: medium;">These are the things in which I have come to realize the last week or so while trying to search for that inner peace in which I so richly desire.<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: medium;">And when I think I can not achieve it, I see, it's really been right there all along.<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: medium;">I am "I'm a woman<br />Phenomenally<br />Phenomenal woman<br />That's me."<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;"></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 14pt;">~Chrys~</span></span></span></div></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br /><br />MySpace Comments<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=229418339" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♥♥ STACEY ♥♥</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=229418339" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/123/s_f2df0f5cb5404683ab6449a9185324cf.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Stacey G.</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_547794">Yeah I see why we are friends ... like you said before!<br />AMEN sister<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=229418339" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♥♥ STACEY ♥♥</a> on Friday, November 30, 2007 - 3:16 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=333512158#" id="addReplyLnk_547794" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">"Axel" Shepherd</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/65/s_ea9948575f0ed8f36b4e20b0524f7c73.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Robert Shepherd</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_547858">You go girl!!! Rock on Irish Princess!!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">"Axel" Shepherd</a>on Friday, November 30, 2007 - 4:43 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=333512158#" id="addReplyLnk_547858" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=333512158&commentID=547858" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_548446">Once again chickie...FABULOUS!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a>on Friday, November 30, 2007 - 10:32 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=333512158#" id="addReplyLnk_548446" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=333512158&commentID=548446" style="color: #003399; 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font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/among_the_darkness_by_my_dark_desir.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Sometimes in life the smallest things hit me with no warning. I don't know where it comes from. Some place in left field. Or left of center. Depending on your own outlook and gravitational pull in life.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">While trying to move forward I find myself at a crossroad of sorts. Not really sure if I should keep on this path or make the left turn. Or was that a right?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I know, this blog is going to be way outside the box and rather cryptic in nature just because I don't want to throw too much out right now.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Or because I am not sure how anyone is going to handle what I have to say.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I don't need backlash. I only need faith, love and support.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">It is pretty much a given that I am always going to do what I want to do. I will listen to those around me, take in and absorb what is being said. But in the end, I just have to be me.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">So, I am walking this road, and today their was a huge pot hole. I stepped in it. Made a big splash. Huge. Splatter. Like a little kid in those cute lil plastic rain boots walking to school.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">And, I laughed. Sure I got a little dirty. But I brushed myself off and went on down the road. Faced with that fork. I went left.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I wonder, is left the way to go? Will I be forced to walk this path alone? Will others desert me when they know what I am walking towards?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Maybe I should turn around and go back. Maybe. Just maybe.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I don't know. I am so bloody confused.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I am not blind you know. I can see where I am going. I know where I am walking and exactly what I am walking towards.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I know what I want. It's just getting there that might be the problem.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Am I really ready for this? Should I just take off running like the speed of lighting. Nah. I think a slow and steady pace will suit me just fine.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">It is going to be a long walk. Very long.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I might get there, and I might not. </span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">All I ask, is no matter what direction I take, keep walking down the left or turn around and take the right; I just ask you walk beside me.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_545573">Ditto what I said on 360! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Wednesday, November 28, 2007 - 8:56 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332954439#" id="addReplyLnk_545573" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=104635717" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Myca Jean</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=104635717" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/113/s_23c1c577101a4357bf4fc2b123e15346.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Myca Jean Long</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_548683">I'll be here honey!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=104635717" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Myca Jean</a>on Saturday, December 01, 2007 - 1:28 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-68581411852196233602007-11-28T03:11:00.004-05:002010-10-28T19:42:36.393-04:00While Sorting...The conclusion (for now anyway)<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, November 28, 2007</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><img src="http://hotimg5.fotki.com/a/97_84/204_151/1805669044_aa48c35017-vi.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div> <div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">~On Terry~</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, while sorting so many things the last few days I realized that their was something missing. Something that I have sort of been holding on to and just leaving in the shadows and out of the limelight. Terry.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Why haven't I talked about Terry?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Well, that's very very easy.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">BECAUSE IT HURTS.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">There, simple enough answer?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">It's been a month since I have heard from him. And his birthday was Thanksgiving. So those thoughts don't make anything easier.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I think a lot of the feelings I have been having lately have much to do with all the stuff I packed up and hid away about Terry. I have not really put the cards in front of me and dealt with that loss. I think the drama I just went through only poured salt on an old wound that really was never healed to begin with.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span> </span>And this constant not knowing that plagues my mind is no help either. His darkness surrounds me. There is no question of that. And it's a given its not going to go away any time soon, if ever. But this not knowing whether he alive still, slowly living out his existence in some cold dark stank cell on death row, or whether he has been executed.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Have I ever mentioned I HATE NOT KNOWING?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">My words will never ever be able to describe what we shared. I care not to share what we had planned. And words can not fathom the idea of how much and how deep the pain is of him being gone from my life.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I often wonder if I knew then, when we first met, what I know now, or even what I learned a few months ago, if things would have been different.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Yeah, maybe so. Maybe not. There is really no way of telling.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But the point is, he was once mine, we were once together, we once had hopes and dreams and now they are dead. All off it dead.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And now, its time that I put all of this behind me before I make myself sick with frustration, hurt and anger.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am going to heal.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And I am going to be just fine.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">MySpace Comments:</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_544303">{{{{HUGS}}}} and more {{{{HUGS}}}} what more can I say? The hurt will ease eventually, but it will never go away. I have not deleted him from my list because that seems so final. I barely got to know him, but he seemed like a good guy.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Wednesday, November 28, 2007 - 7:50 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332752842#" id="addReplyLnk_544303" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332752842&commentID=544303" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_544303"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_547308">You will heal honey! We all will...but you have to heal to the best of your ability. I kinda understand how hard this is for you.<br /><br />I am glad you wrote this!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Friday, November 30, 2007 - 12:59 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332752842#" id="addReplyLnk_547308" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332752842&commentID=547308" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-45001782023496539812007-11-27T22:01:00.013-05:002010-10-28T19:50:50.945-04:00I Am "PHENOMENAL WOMAN"<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Tuesday, November 27, 2007 </span><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/BBW/bbw0401.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/BBW/bbw0401.gif" width="320" /></a></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><b>PHENOMENAL WOMAN</b></span><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">by Maya Angelou</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Pretty women wonder where my secret lies<br />I'm not cute or built to suit a model's fashion size<br />But when I start to tell them<br />They think I'm telling lies.<br />I say<br />It's in the reach of my arms<br />The span of my hips<br />The stride of my steps<br />The curl of my lips.<br />I'm a woman<br />Phenomenally<br />Phenomenal woman<br />That's me.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">I walk into a room<br />Just as cool as you please<br />And to a man<br />The fellows stand or<br />Fall down on their knees<br />Then they swarm around me<br />A hive of honey bees.<br />I say<br />It's the fire in my eyes<br />And the flash of my teeth<br />The swing of my waist<br />And the joy in my feet.<br />I'm a woman<br />Phenomenally<br />Phenomenal woman<br />That's me.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Men themselves have wondered<br />What they see in me<br />They try so much<br />But they can't touch<br />My inner mystery.<br />When I try to show them<br />They say they still can't see.<br />I say<br />It's in the arch of my back<br />The sun of my smile<br />The ride of my breasts<br />The grace of my style.<br />I'm a woman<br />Phenomenally<br />Phenomenal woman<br />That's me.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Now you understand<br />Just why my head's not bowed<br />I don't shout or jump about<br />Or have to talk real loud<br />When you see me passing<br />It ought to make you proud.<br />I say<br />It's in the click of my heels<br />The bend of my hair<br />The palm of my hand<br />The need for my care.<br />'Cause I'm a woman<br />Phenomenally<br />Phenomenal woman<br />That's me.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/BBW/realwomen.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/BBW/realwomen.jpg" /></a></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/BBW/2eee.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="207" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/BBW/2eee.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div align="center"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px;"><br /></span></span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">I know who I am. Inside and out. I have said it before and I need to say it again, I will never compromise who I am! Ever. It took me a long time to love me just as I am. I am strong. I am beautiful. And I am ME!</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">~C.~</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">MySpace Comments:</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Jules</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/6/s_2e32133ce70e41d0843fb33c3e70f0fe.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_543934">I love Maya Angelou and this poem just fits you to a T!! Love ya!! Stay strong, stay positive!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Jules</a> on Wednesday, November 28, 2007 - 1:40 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332509233#" id="addReplyLnk_543934" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332509233&commentID=543934" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_543934"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=113569504" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">KRAZ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=113569504" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/71/s_676467b66955169481b4acc944eefc45.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Mike Kraz</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_544447">I would have to agree, you are quite the woman!!! I know things have been rough as of late between us but I do appreciate the kind texts you send... Thank you Kraz.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=113569504" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">KRAZ</a> on Wednesday, November 28, 2007 - 9:41 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332509233#" id="addReplyLnk_544447" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332509233&commentID=544447" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=113569504" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_544447"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_547321"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i198.photobucket.com/albums/aa253/bi_jewel234/Blinkies-minis/Phenomal.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><br /><br />I LOVE this!!!! 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Something that I have sort of been holding on to and just leaving in the shadows and out of the limelight. Terry. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Why haven’t I talked about Terry?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Well, that’s very very easy.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">BECAUSE IT HURTS.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">There, simple enough answer?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It’s been a month since I have heard from him. And his birthday was Thanksgiving. So those thoughts don't make anything easier.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I think a lot of the feelings I have been having lately have much to do with all the stuff I packed up and hid away about Terry. I have not really put the cards in front of me and dealt with that loss. I think the drama with Mike only poured salt on an old wound that really was never healed to begin with.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And this constant not knowing that plagues my mind is no help either. His darkness surrounds me. There is no question of that. And it’s a given its not going to go away any time soon, if ever. But this not knowing whether he alive still, slowly living out his existence in some cold dark stank cell on death row, or whether he has been executed. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Have I ever mentioned I HATE NOT KNOWING?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">My words will never ever be able to describe what we shared. I care not to share what we had planned. And words can not fathom the idea of how much and how deep the pain is of him being gone from my life. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I often wonder if I knew then, when we first met, what I know now, or even what I learned a few months ago, if things would have been different.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Yeah, maybe so. Maybe not. There is really no way of telling.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">But the point is, he was once mine, we were once together, we once had hopes and dreams and now they are dead. All off it dead.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">And now, its time that I put all of this behind me before I make myself sick with frustration, hurt and anger. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am going to heal. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">And I am going to be just fine. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-52188557296301147982007-11-26T19:23:00.004-05:002010-10-28T19:54:39.479-04:00Sorting Some More - Life & Dating<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Monday, November 26, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><img src="http://i174.photobucket.com/albums/w108/LadyRoslynn/GoddessChrys.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Back in the Dating Game</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, everyone keeps telling me – "Chrys, get off your ass and get back out there"</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">UGH</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Right now, it scares the fuck out of me. Literally.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I DO NOT know what my problem is. If I did, I would have fixed it by now. Seriously folks, have you ever known me to not be in "boy crazy" mode???</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Yeah, me either. But, it has happened. It could be due to the last boy, or it could be due to everything else that's going on around me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Who knows?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And really, I am not caring.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">All I know - I feel myself hiding. Feel myself pushing certain people away.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I can not stop myself.<span> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I CAN'T!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I want to scream and pull out my hair. You just have no idea.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I know that NONE of you liked Mike. From the very beginning. That first missed phone call that first missed hang out. I get it. <span> </span>I HEAR YOU ALL!!!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But that does not change how I FEEL. I am not a light switch; I can not just turn feelings on and off. And despite what happened and how things ended, I still see the part of him, the part of us that was good. And that's hard to get over. I know you all read the blogs, and you saw it for what it was. But, there is a whole other story, and another side.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span> </span>His.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span> </span>And trust me; I heard it yelled to me for quite some time. So, standing in both shoes and seeing the entire situation, it's just a mess and miscommunication, misunderstanding and shit on both sides. I am not making excuses for mine or his behavior. It is what it is. But it still does not change feelings. It does not change how when that phone rings and I see his name flashing that my brain says not to answer but my heart sinks. I answer. We talk. I can not tell you enough how awkward it is to resort to being just "friends."</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I would be a liar if I said I didn't want him back. If I didn't want to try again. That's the fighter in me. But I am not so sure this is a fight that needs to be finished. I just do not know. I know too much, I have seen too much.<span> </span>But, at any point, the reality is, getting back together is not likely an option anyway. He made that very clear during our shouting match.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, moving on is what I have been doing. Although it is proving to be a hard task.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">It's always been so easy in the past. Moving forward.<span> </span>As my girl Myca would say "go on, brush your shoulders off and say NEXT."</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I AM TRYING!!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">DON'T YOU HEAR ME?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">How much clearer can I make it?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">When I am ready to hang out with a guy again, when I am ready to date – I will know it. I have to do this my way. My speed.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So for now all I ask is give me my space and give me my time.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Living my life for me. Taking care of me. This is what I have to do.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">MySpace Comments:</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Brian Kinney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_542775">Hmmm...well my bisexual sweetheart...maybe its time to hang out with a girl for awhile...<br />~~~shrugs and winks...<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a> on Tuesday, November 27, 2007 - 1:18 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332238000#" id="addReplyLnk_542775" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332238000&commentID=542775" style="color: #003399; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Jules</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/6/s_2e32133ce70e41d0843fb33c3e70f0fe.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_542820">It's kinda of like crowd control girl, you just have to tell everyone to "back off" until the main act comes on stage. Just think about it as if you're the bouncer of your own life, you just have to take control of the situation and wait until "YOU" are ready and nobody else. Simple terms, but effective. LOL, you know what I mean. It's all down to you mami!! Much love and support even through, during and after the dufus days!! LOLOL<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Jules</a> on Tuesday, November 27, 2007 - 2:17 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332238000#" id="addReplyLnk_542820" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332238000&commentID=542820" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_542820"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_542902">Don't go back out there because "everyone" keeps telling you you should...this mom is saying "wait a little while", because I am like you...I cannot flip a switch and be over it! These things take time. If the whole friendship thing isn't working for you...tell him! Tell him you jumped in with both feet, giving the relationship everything you had to give and it is not fair to ask you to back it down and be just friends. I know you Chrys...you are doing it because you feel it's better to have him in your life in some capacity, than to not have him in it at all. You will heal faster if you boot him out. It's up to you though, dear one, and I will respect any decidion that you make! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Tuesday, November 27, 2007 - 7:46 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332238000#" id="addReplyLnk_542902" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332238000&commentID=542902" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_542902"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_543365">As you know sis, it took me over 10 years to get back out there. So I would never in a million years tell anyone to hurry up and jump back in. If anything, I would recommend taking your time!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Tuesday, November 27, 2007 - 7:40 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332238000#" id="addReplyLnk_543365" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332238000&commentID=543365" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=48249032" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">sinn</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=48249032" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/58/s_a63399d36438f2de3ddb90f9cc418170.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_544848">boys aren't going anywhere and we're not in short demand lol. take all the time you think you need. enjoy a'lil drama free living for awhile... for yourself.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=48249032" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">sinn</a> on Wednesday, November 28, 2007 - 1:55 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332238000#" id="addReplyLnk_544848" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332238000&commentID=544848" style="color: #003399; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_547297">Well I agree! Once again.....live your life for YOU!<br /><br />It took me 6 years to really get back out there and look at it all....<br /><br />Do what makes you happy chickie!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Friday, November 30, 2007 - 12:49 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332238000#" id="addReplyLnk_547297" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332238000&commentID=547297" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><br /><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-81308390069461448802007-11-26T00:16:00.000-05:002010-10-28T19:57:03.716-04:00Just Sorting <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Monday, November 26, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Just Sorting</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am trying to sort some things out in my head. It is proving to be much more difficult then I had originally anticipated. ~sighs~</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">As you all know, there has been a lot of stuff going on around me these days. Lots of thoughts running around in my brain. So, this blog is going to mostly be for me. To just start throwing some of this stuff out there and try to make some sense of it. This is nothing personal towards any family or friends, so I hope none of you take it as such.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The big topic as of late has been the move. Whether I will move back to<st1:state><st1:place>Oklahoma</st1:place></st1:state>or not. And, you know what; right now I still really can not answer this. I just do not know. I mean, I left OK for many reasons. For one, I needed to get as far away from Marcus as possible. Not because I feared him, or felt he would come after me and hurt me. But more so because once you spend 10 years with someone, sometimes it's not easy to just up and say goodbye. It was not the first time I had left him. So I was afraid of those weak moments, us crossing paths, and just having to deal with it. So I ran away. I had to. For no one but myself. As for all my friends, I miss you guys so much. Not a day goes by that I don't wonder what you guys are doing. And it hurts. It is hard to not be there for you. I know a few of you are going through some rough patches right now and it has been so hard for me to not be able to put my ass in my car and come over and be with you. But, I left OK cause I needed to take care of ME. For too long I have put the needs of everyone else before myself. I came to MI to clear my head, to sort my life and to once and for all take care of me. I made the choice to start over, because I felt that's what I needed. A fresh start. It was nothing personal to any of you and it was not because of anything you did.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">You guys have been my "family" for the last 20 plus years.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Being in OK, I missed out on so many things with my blood family, that when I was wondering where I was gonna go, the choice became clear. A few people offered for me to stay with them when the divorce came out. And I appreciate that. But, I felt it was time to come to MI and be with family. You guys had me for all these years, now it was their turn. I did not want to miss out on any more things. And once grandpa and grandma were lost, that need to come home became even stronger.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I knew their were going to be adjustments. I knew their were going to be road blocks. Moving across country is never easy.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, when I think about moving back it makes me feel like I am taking the easy way out. I look at what's been offered to me. A place to stay, a career, a car, my moving expense all take care of, and to be an hour from my friends. It would be very easy for me to pick up the phone and say "OK" lets do this, and I am off and running again. But, then I have to think about what if that did not work? What if I did not like being back in<st1:city><st1:place>Tulsa</st1:place></st1:city>? All the what if's. Then I am back at square one. I stop and take a look and see what I have had to deal with since I have been here. Mostly I have had to play the waiting game because of the divorce, but now that it is final, things are slowly starting to fall in to place and come together. And its like, do I want to run away from all that I have done now? Shouldn't I at least give it a chance? I mean I really not have been here all that long.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">That, and now that I am here..its like..No big deal. I don't know.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Of course, I think the recent events with Mike put me in a tailspin. It's like I told him, when him and I were together, I thought OK, I am going to give this relationship and this move a chance. And now, I don't have that relationship.<span> </span>I am now looking at things with a whole new perspective. I am not sure that's for the best. I am still sorting that one. And there is still a lot surrounding that whole situation. And it's hard, because as much as I am open about things in life, this is just one thing I don't want to talk about publicly anymore. There are a few close to me that know what's going on. And that's all that needs to know. Let's just say, it has affected me. I want to run away and hide. So when the offer to move back came into light, I was ALL for it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I know, there are a few of you who DON'T want me to move. And trust me I have listened to you, and I understand.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But this is me. Decisions. Choices. Life. And in the end, I have to do what's best for ME.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I think only time is gonna sort this one out. But for right now, I am still here.</div><br />MySpace Comments:<span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_541656"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i34.photobucket.com/albums/d132/Inu-lover/My%20pictures/headempty.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><br /><br />No great words of advice....you said it all yourself. This has to be for YOU girl!<br /><br />It took me a long time to quit living my life for someone else.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Monday, November 26, 2007 - 1:02 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332000980#" id="addReplyLnk_541656" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332000980&commentID=541656" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_541656"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">"Axel" Shepherd</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/65/s_ea9948575f0ed8f36b4e20b0524f7c73.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Robert Shepherd</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_541694">Your a pretty awesome lil lady, I'm sure you'll do what's best for you. Life is hard and we all have things that we need to do. I know I wish you the best in all your endeavors and everything that you do, and I'm sure there are lots of others better then me who wish the same! I hope you can find peace in your heart and a beautiful smile for your lips. I know that if you keep working as hard as you are to make things right in your life there is no way you can fail at whatever you do!! I guarandamntee it!! lol But we know how retarded I am!!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">"Axel" Shepherd</a> on Monday, November 26, 2007 - 1:42 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332000980#" id="addReplyLnk_541694" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332000980&commentID=541694" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_541694"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_541829">Running away is never the answer. I am glad to see that you already know that! (But if you decide to, you could always come to Texas, LOL!)<br />Anyway, I know things will work out for you. You are strong. {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Monday, November 26, 2007 - 7:34 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332000980#" id="addReplyLnk_541829" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=332000980&commentID=541829" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-49896182009897541072007-11-24T14:32:00.001-05:002010-11-15T14:36:31.692-05:00RIP Elonna<span style="font-family: "Comic Sans MS";">First I want to thank Liz, her sister in law for passing this information along to me. ~hugs to you girl~</span><span style="font-family: "Georgia","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Comic Sans MS"; font-size: 10.0pt;">As most of you already know by now, our dear, sweet, precious Elonna left this world this past Sunday night around <st1:time hour="22" minute="0" w:st="on">10pm</st1:time>. I wanted you all to know that she left peacefully and without any pain. She went to sleep and never woke up, due to a lack of oxygen. <br /><br />We can all take comfort in the fact that she is no longer in pain, which she was suffering greatly from. She is in a much better place, and she is happy, even blissful if you will. She's looking down on us from heaven, and for the first time in her life she is truly happy. All she ever really wanted was to be with her soul mate, my brother Joey. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 12.0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Comic Sans MS"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Liz was in her room on Monday going through some of her stuff (basically getting any "dirt" out before her parents saw) and found the journal she had given her in the hospital the day she was diagnosed with cancer, here is a small excerpt about you Joey...<br /><br />"All I want to do is love him and take care of him...never let any of the ugly of the world touch him again...such a strong man is my Joey.....I am determined to give it to him still, if only there is time...only time."<br /><br />Liz thought that was very touching, and wanted to share it with you all.<br /><br />If anybody would like to send flowers you may send them to Griffin Funeral Home, <st1:address w:st="on"><st1:street w:st="on">1610 C St. SE</st1:street>, <st1:city w:st="on">Ardmore</st1:city>, <st1:state w:st="on">OK</st1:state></st1:address>. The funeral services will be on Saturday, September 30 @ <st1:time hour="10" minute="0" w:st="on">10am</st1:time>. She will be laid to rest @ Rose-Hill Cemetery, in <st1:place w:st="on"><st1:city w:st="on">Ardmore</st1:city>, <st1:state w:st="on">Oklahoma</st1:state></st1:place>.<br /><br />Rest in Peace my Dear Sista....<br />Elonna Rochelle Utt<br /><st1:date day="3" month="3" w:st="on" year="1977">March 3, 1977</st1:date> ~ <st1:date day="23" month="9" w:st="on" year="2007">September 23, 2007</st1:date></span></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-29038388477865558212007-11-22T11:22:00.001-05:002010-10-28T19:58:56.443-04:00Turkeys and Snow - OH MY!<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, November 22, 2007</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />Good morning everyone, I hope your day is starting off well!<br /><br />Just wanted to wish you all a Happy Thanksgiving and offer many blessings to you and yours.<br /><br />Blessed be.<br /><br />We have snow today. Yes! SNOW! Can you believe that?? Well, ok those of you living up here, can. But those of you back home, you know how long its been since we have seen a white turkey day.<br /><br />Anyway, enjoy the day. Be thankful for all the things you do have in life. Cherish that. And try not to dwell too much on the things you do not have.<br /><br />I am off and running. People to see, places to go, snow to play in, food to eat, Guinness to drink, hmmm maybe I will get some pictures! LOL Its fun and maddness today !!<br /><br />Be safe. See you all soon.<br />xoxo<br />CChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-10846391610511860802007-11-21T15:02:00.002-05:002010-10-28T20:00:42.217-04:00Turkey, Bedlam, and more... Lets play catch up<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, November 21, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />Ok first thing on the agenda..<br /><br />High Speed Internet!! Ok for those of you following along, you know since moving here to mid of nowhere, I have been living in the land of the dead dial up. Well, Monday that will all change, as oh'dude from the cable co will be arriving to set up the high speed.<br /><br />Oh you all know what that means.....(Shannon...get that pando ready LOL)<br /><br />Arrrrrr...mateys... LOLOL<br /><br />That also means work and school are about to take off like a rocket and I am going to be a busy little bee. And I welcome that with open arms.<br /><br />Already been busy..hello appraisels... ~winks~<br /><br />Ok, next matter...<br /><br />Happy Thanksgiving to YOU ALL! Count your blessings and blessed be!<br /><br />What else....darn it I know I had something else..<br />.<br />Oh yes, thank you for those who asked and sent well wishes, I am feeling a little better.<br /><br />OH! BEDLAM!! How can I forget!!!<br /><br />Yes, so bedlam has approached. OSU/OU and this will be the first bedlam I have missed in 20ish years. So, let me just say, even tho I now live in Green and Blue territory... I still bleed ORANGE!! Oh yes, I SAID ORANGE. I did go to school at OSU and live in da'waters for over 10 years. That certrify's me. Did I mention I did some time on the OSU spirit squad in college?? GO POKES!! Ok ok, for all you die hard bleeding red Sooner fans, I did my time at OU as well...but my heart is just in orange...sorry folks....Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-20131714200316658932007-11-21T10:13:00.002-05:002010-10-28T20:04:59.838-04:00Twisted<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, November 21, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Twisted</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am so twisted on the inside. And not in a comical way either. There is so much going on inside of me. Mentally and physically that I just want to crawl up into a big ball and just croak. Just let this world pass me on by. I'm feeling ill again these days. My guts are all in knots. I can't eat. My head hurts. I am either freezing or having hot flashes. And food is my worst enemy. Sure we all want to lose a few pounds, but this is NOT the way I like to do it. I have no energy, the treadmill wars have been far and few between. I called my internal specialist back in OK with the hopes of her being able to refer me to someone up here. But I have not heard back from her. If I did not know any better, I would think their was some underlying reason with the ex as to why none of my old healthcare people want to refer me to anyone up here. Seeing as how it was his insurance card I was a proud carrier of. LOL. Yeah yeah, the world is out to get my syndrome. Whatever.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">It could be stress related. The recent dramatic effects could very well have brought on this onslaught of icky feelings. But I know that even if this were the case, this is only part of the problem. I have in the past made well aware of my internal illness.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">It could just be an adjustment to the weather. A come on of a cold. Who knows. No telling at this point. All I know is yesterday and today I was feeling pretty horrible.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And if I hear one more pregnancy joke, I swear I am going to rip out every strand of hair on my head.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, not really, I rather much like my hair. But, seriously, NOT FUNNY PEOPLE!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Normally I would just laugh it off with some smart ass comment. But given the recent drama that unfolded with a certain someone around here just a few days ago, this time, its just NOT FUNNY.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">NO I AM NOT! END OF STORY!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">As for being mentally twisted. Well, we all knew that already. HA!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok ok, kidding aside. Their really is a lot, and I do mean A LOT going on around me right now.<span> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am twisted on my feelings, my thoughts and emotions. I keep thinking, if I just close my eyes one more time, it will all go away and settle. But that's not happening.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I keep hearing this familiar voice and it just ignites everything all over again. Letting go has usually been easy for me. Walking away, no problems their either. When it's me making the choice to do so.<span> </span>Losing a battle well was never an option for me. I am a fighter. I do not give up so easily on anything. So, it would seem that this would be no different. Even though I should, and I know better. I know there are just some battles that are better left alone. I know this. But I can not make myself leave well enough alone. I suppose I am glutton for punishment. I do like pain after all. But emotional pain, I don't like. And because of all that, I feel myself crawling back into my shell.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Being born in July, I am a true cancer crab all around.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But I am not really sure when or if I want to come out right now. I feel like an outsider looking. I am numb. I literally am feeling nothing. <span> </span>I am slowly feeling out all the situations presenting themselves around me. Just the slightest touch. The smallest word. Not really putting a lot of myself out there.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span> </span>Wondering what to do next. What direction to turn in. One direction I wonder should I be closing in on?<span> </span>Not that it matters cause I feel myself treading further away.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Another direction I am slowly walking towards with such fright and terror that I wonder shall I just run away. Would that be easier?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have been thinking and looking back in life on so many things these last few days.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Life truly has me twisted up inside, in more ways then one.</div><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></span><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_535227">Sis, there is something in the air, as far as cosmically speaking goes. You might want to do a clearing, or have someone else do it, of your aura and energy field. I am actually having this done on Friday, because I am experiencing one mishap/negative BS after another. Just a thought...{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Wednesday, November 21, 2007 - 12:23 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-24183936568136022672007-11-21T01:01:00.000-05:002010-10-28T20:03:16.319-04:00This One is About Elonna....<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, November 21, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div style="font-weight: normal;">*grabs a box of tissues*</div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal;">Words will never describe how much I miss my "sistagurl" especially now that the holidays are here.</div><div style="font-weight: normal;">I was rather surprised to see a message from Liz, her sister in law. I am glad her and I are still in touch. But, what I read sure made me reach for the tissues.</div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal;">I wanted to share it will you guys, since so many of you were friends with Elonna as well.</div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><em><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: purple;">****The saddest thing happened this past sunday. Lonna came back for her kitty Mia. After Lonna passed, Mia was sooooo sad, constantly walking around meowling for her. Mia stopped eating about a week ago. Mom started feeding her baby food, and she was eating that a lil bit. On Sunday, 7 weeks to the day that lonna passed, mom fed mia some babyfood, petted her till she purred, as mom was leaving lonnas room, mia let out a long sad meow. When she returned about an hour later, Mia was curled up on a pile of Lonna's clothes, dead. Very sad stuff....*******</span></b></em><br /><div style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal;">I have no words of wisdom, nothing profound to write here.</div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal;">*starts passing around the box of tissues*</div><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 67px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/143/s_294e8995c07b45a792dbde894b7d3ad3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_535249">She wanted her Mama......bless them both.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a>on Wednesday, November 21, 2007 - 1:32 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=330686655#" id="addReplyLnk_535249" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">fairreegrl</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/22/s_26331e8169ff4a24a978b1eb2b944eaf.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_535269">~hugs~ Chrys.. no words really.. I just want to get drunk.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">fairreegrl</a>on Wednesday, November 21, 2007 - 1:57 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=330686655#" id="addReplyLnk_535269" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=330686655&commentID=535269" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_536161">*sighs*<br />Wow.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Thursday, November 22, 2007 - 12:21 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=330686655#" id="addReplyLnk_536161" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=330686655&commentID=536161" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-75491715736099268232007-11-19T16:14:00.001-05:002010-10-28T16:19:32.113-04:00For ALL of you ~ I have Something To Say<div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;">Monday, November 19, 2007 </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"></span>~stand up on pedestal~</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">*clears throat*</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Let me explain something to you all.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">What happened with me and Mike had nothing, I repeat NOTHING to do with ANYTHING any of you replied to on those blogs. (That means you too sapph, love u sis)</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I made the choice to put our personal stuff out there. That was all me. I was mad, I was angry, I needed to vent. Irish temper got the best of me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Maybe it was not the best choice I have ever made, but it's in the past and I can not take it back. And for that I have apologized to him. Some people are just much more private then others. I should have respected that.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span> </span>He didn't read it, nor did he even see the comments. But someone he knew did, and told him all about it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And I am going to leave everything else alone.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I removed the blogs for MYSELF. NOT him, not anyone else. I no longer wanted that reminder of all the drama that surrounded it. I just want to hold on to the good memories and let the rest die.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I'm moving along. I AM going to be just fine.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">~gets down off pedestal~</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">MySpace Comments:</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_534121">~Stands up and cheers as you step off the pedestal!!~ You go girl!<br /><br />You do what is best for you...We ALL stand with you thru the good and bad!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; 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font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/145/s_b223edabb8bd47d29b391fa183927089.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Ken Scott</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_534170">I knew you were going to do the right thing and I am proud of ya my Hot ass Irish buddy! ;) I hope ya enjoy yourself when ya go back to the dating pool! Take care and sending ya my Irish Luv! xoxoxoxoxo ♣<br /><br /><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i126.photobucket.com/albums/p88/irishdog36/Cloversheart.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a> on Tuesday, November 20, 2007 - 12:51 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=330193441#" id="addReplyLnk_534170" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=330193441&commentID=534170" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_534170"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_534313">Of course you will be alright...you are IRISH! LOL! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Tuesday, November 20, 2007 - 7:50 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=330193441#" id="addReplyLnk_534313" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=330193441&commentID=534313" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_534402">{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}} sis, glad you are dusting off and moving forward!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Tuesday, November 20, 2007 - 11:16 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=330193441#" id="addReplyLnk_534402" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=330193441&commentID=534402" style="color: #003399; 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line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />So, I am getting dressed this morning, when a familiar t-shirt falls to the floor. A t-shirt only a matter of days ago I had pushed into the back of the closet. Not thinking I really ever wanted to see it again. But, there it was, unfolded on the floor. I picked it up, and as soon as my fingers grasped around the black material, every single memory came flooding back. It made my head spin and I had to sit down on the floor at catch my breath.<br /><br />How can something so simple as a t-shirt bring back so much?<br /><br />I suppose only I can answer that, and I am not going to do it here.<br />I put too much out there already. I know, I have always been open about things in life. So my family and friends always know what was going on. But maybe this time, this time was too much. I am sorry. This is me saying I am sorry for throwing personal business out there that involved another person who is more private then I.<br /><br />In my own defense, I was hurting. And I was angry. Upset. Not sure what to think. And I just was wanting family and friends to read it and give me their 2 cents.<br /><br />Lets say, I got a lot more then 2 cents.<br /><br />I thought a few days ago, when all the drama unfolded, I had pretty much made the choice I was moving on. That I was going to move away from those thoughts and memories and continue on in life as I always have. That I was just going to walk away and let go.<br /><br />I am strong. Right? I know this.<br /><br />Every relationship I have ever been in, I was always in control of myself, my feelings and emotions. I have always had the strong hand. Strong willed, strong minded. In control of me. And I was always the one walking away in the end.<br /><br />I don't know what happened. Maybe I do and I don't want to think about it. But, I let go of myself this time. And this time, it hasn't been so easy to walk away.<span> </span>To let it go. Hasn't been so easy to push those moments, those thoughts and feelings aside.<span> </span>And believe me I have tried.<br /><br />It's not the moving on back into the dating pool that's hard, already been asked out by a few fellows. It's the moving on inside my head. And I really don't know what to do.<br /><br />Maybe this time, I am not so strong. This time, I fell and I became weak.<span> </span>And even though I was in the process of moving forward, I guess their was still that part of me holding on to that last bit of string, hanging for dear life, thinking we could fix things.<br /><br />Doesn't matter. Let's just say I got the closure I had been asking for the last few days. The answers that I wanted from him. And with that, even though this is "my" space and my little corner of the blogosphere to say and do as I please, I am now revoking my right to my freedom of speech and not going to discuss this personal matter about him anymore.<br /><br />I know, after everything you are ALL thinking, Chrys, why on earth would you even want to try to work things out. And I have no answer for you. Well, I do, but truth is, I don't want to answer that. Instead, I am just going to repost the blog I wrote, entitled "Why I Like Him" and you can draw your own ideas from that.<br /><br />This one got to me, this one got under my skin. And this one has eaten me alive, chewed me up, and spit me out. But the fact remains, I still miss him.<br /><br />And for now, I will hold on to that familiar t-shirt that holds so many memories.<br /><br />************************************************************************<br />(this part was written the begining of Nov.)<br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">Why I Like You<span> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">So, as Mike and I were having those all inclusive lets be serious and talk "talks" one of the questions he asked me was "Why do you like me?"</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">Ok, first, let's talk about him putting me on the SPOT like that. LOL. If ever their was a day I wanted to hide my face from someone, it was that moment. I am sure my facial expression was a force to be reckoned with, but seriously. How do you answer something like that? I mean, you know how you feel, but how to explain it. How to convey that message in words without sounding like a total sap. Or a retard, whichever. LOL</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">I think I just rattled off something about our chemistry, how that's hard to come by, and how he makes me laugh. The butterflies that flutter in my stomach when he's around. Sure that's the truth, but that's not all of it. So, allow me to officially break it down, and tell the world just how this man makes me feel.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">So, this one is for you Mike… if you ever decide to read my blog, this one should be it.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">Since the day we first started talking we had this rapport that was a force not to be messed with. Both being a couple of smart asses, it was easy to get into the groove and find common ground to communicate on. Then came the laughter. And not just a few HA HA your are funny fake giggles, but I am talking down on the floor laughing until I can't breath laughter.<span> </span>And it has been like that since the first day we talked, and then once we met in person, that chemistry became ever stronger.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">The two of us just have this certain vibe. We are so comfortable around each other, it's like we have known each other forever. We can say and do pretty much anything, and it's ok.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">We sometimes seem to understand each other without really even having to say a word.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">Every time I think about you, I smile. Every time I see you I want that initial hug and kiss to last forever. The butterflies start to flutter and I feel like a school girl with her first crush again. I had forgotten what that feeling was like.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">I can be a big dork and laugh at myself and you just laugh right along with me. You don't judge, nor have you tried to change me. You have been perfectly accepting of me and all my quirks.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">See even now, trying to get all this out there, I get all flustered and tongue twisted and just don't know what direction to go in.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">So, per usual, its Lyrical Intervention time….</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">With You- Jessica Simpson</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">The real me is a Southern girl<br />With her Levi's on and an open heart<br />Wish I could save the world<br />Like I was Supergirl<br />The real me used to laugh all night<br />Lying in the grass, just talking 'bout love<br />But lately I've been jaded<br />Life got so complicated</span></div><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />I start thinking about it<br />Almost forgot what it was like<br />To know when it feels right</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />But with you<br />I can let my hair down<br />I can say anything crazy<br />I know you'll catch me right before I hit the ground<br />With nothing but a T-shirt on<br />I never felt so beautiful<br />Baby, as I do now<br />Now that I'm with you</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />With you<br />With you<br />With you<br />Now that I'm with you</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />You speak and it's like a song<br />And just like that, all my walls come down<br />It's like a private joke<br />Just meant for us to know<br />I relate to you naturally<br />Everybody else just fades away<br />Sometimes it's hard to breathe<br />Just knowing you found me</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />'Cause I start thinking about it<br />I almost forgot what it was like<br />To know when love feels right</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />'Cause with you<br />I can let my hair down<br />I can say anything crazy<br />I know you'll catch me right before I hit the ground<br />With nothing but a T-shirt on<br />I never felt so beautiful<br />Baby, as I do now<br />Now that I'm with you</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />With you<br />With you<br />With you</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br />Come and take me<br />Love you, save me<br />Like nobody else<br />Now I can be myself with you</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />I can let my hair down<br />I can say anything crazy<br />I know you'll catch me right before I hit the ground<br />With nothing but a T-shirt on<br />I never felt so beautiful<br />Baby, as I do now<br />Now that I'm with you</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />I can let my hair down<br />I can say anything crazy<br />I know you'll catch me right before I hit the ground<br />With nothing but a T-shirt on<br />I never felt so beautiful<br />Baby, as I do now<br />Now that I'm with you</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div style="border-bottom-color: windowtext; border-bottom-style: dotted; border-bottom-width: 3pt; border-left-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-left-width: medium; border-right-color: initial; border-right-style: none; border-right-width: medium; border-top-color: initial; border-top-style: none; border-top-width: medium; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; padding-bottom: 1pt; padding-left: 0in; padding-right: 0in; padding-top: 0in;"><div class="MsoNormal" style="border-bottom-color: initial; border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: medium; border-left-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-left-width: medium; border-right-color: initial; border-right-style: none; border-right-width: medium; border-top-color: initial; border-top-style: none; border-top-width: medium; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0in; padding-left: 0in; padding-right: 0in; padding-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">( this part was finished up about the 11th or 12th)</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">Ok, so I started to write that a few weeks ago when the question first came about. But, then, for whatever reason we brought it up again. And so it was discussed on both parts, why I like him, why he likes me</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">It's not so easy trying to verbally convey those types of feelings, as I am sure now he knows how I felt when he first brought the question to me.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">But, as I sat there, telling him how I felt, I realized, that I was able to get a lot of it out. A lot of what I wrote here, in the beginning of this blog, I was able to tell him. And that made me think about that comfort level. I am so comfortable with him. And I think, I hope, he has realized that. Because this is something where my actions have spoken louder then my words.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">It's the way he looks at me when we first meet up for the day. How his face just lights up, his eyes, they shine. Those are feelings you can not hide from someone. Seeing that makes my smile that much bigger. He really is a ray of Sunshine when he looks that way.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">When we are out to eat, it's the way he reaches his hands out across the table to hold mine. How he looks at me when I am talking. Or, not saying a word at all. His cute lil wink he does.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">How no matter where we can be, or what we are doing, we can make fun out of it. Or fun of it whatever is the case. Something so simple can turn into the biggest joke for us.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">It's how he takes the time to greet my fur babies Cain and Casey every time he is around. I know that may seam trivial to many, but to me, it's a big deal. Those are my kids. And it's a big deal for me to have someone in my life that is an animal person and doesn't treat them like some sort of beast they just have to deal with because I wanted them.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">Insert all the XXX stuff here that I am not sharing….</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">The fact that he doesn't sit around in front of the TV watching every sports known to man. I don't mind seeing things live, but ugh..the TV. NOOOO! And I know A LOT of you that know me and my twisted love for fighting, might think I am just with him cause he's a fighter. NOOOOOO!! That just means I have someone to share my sick and twisted love for bloody painful sports. LOL.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">In time I think he will learn little things mean a lot to me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">We had the talk about the dad and the father. That's always an ordeal. Its hard to determine when the right time to talk about it is. And you never know how that person is going to take it. Of course there is always that, "should I ever bother telling this person?" that always runs around in my brain.<span> </span>I haven't had issues with what happened to me in a long time. But this is a new relationship, and when I post bulletins about how fucked up the dad(s) are, I guess it might raise some eyebrows. Or how my dad lives a few miles up the road and I never see or talk about him. Or how my father lives a town over and yet I never discuss it either. So maybe, it was just the right time, the right moment to tell him what the story was. And out it came. I thought it was going to be hard. But it was so easy.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">That comfort level.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">And blurt it all out I did. And he didn't push me away or look at me like I was some sort of damaged goods.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">Instead, he listened and then he asked questions. Yes, you heard me right, he asked questions.<span> </span>NO ONE has ever taken the time to ask questions. Most people just look at you with this blank look. Like they are not sure what they should say aside from, they are sorry.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">So, that was kind of a big deal for me. It meant a lot that he took the time to try and understand.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">Big brownie points there!!!</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">My situation, its not ideal. Just getting over a divorce. And really was going through it when we first started to date. And that did not scare him off. As you all know, I left everything behind in the divorce, and I am literally starting life over from the ground up. He has been my own little cheering section. When we talk, he takes the time to listen to what I have accomplished (or not) and always offers encouragement and understanding. He understands the living situation. He's accepted the car situation. And well, just my life in general. It's understood this is not how things are always going to be for me.<span> </span>And it means a lot that he has been so understanding about it all.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">I've dated a few that haven't been. It's like I have the plague or something.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">The best thing really, he accepts me – for me!</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">There really is so much more. And I could go on and on. But the truth is, I have been working on this blog for far too long. And I think tonight is as good as night as any for him to see, just what he means to me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">Have a good night everyone.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">XOXOX<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">~Chrys~<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.25in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>***************************************************<br />And in closing....not really sure what to say now....<br />But those memories are strong....no matter how bad the drama got.</span><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Brian Kinney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_533165">You always were a fighter Chrystal...why stop now right? I wish you the best...<br />~~hugs...<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a>on Sunday, November 18, 2007 - 10:44 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=329824425#" id="addReplyLnk_533165" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=329824425&commentID=533165" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_533165"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/145/s_b223edabb8bd47d29b391fa183927089.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Ken Scott</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_533168">Get back up, be strong, do the right thing and the very best for ~Irish Chik~! Love ya hun! ♣<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a> on Sunday, November 18, 2007 - 10:45 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=329824425#" id="addReplyLnk_533168" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=329824425&commentID=533168" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_533168"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_533232">Ok...TRUST me.....I know how this feels.....I had one like this that got to me.<br /><br />Pick yourself up, dust yourself off......and live life. It will go on...don't let it pass you by.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Monday, November 19, 2007 - 12:13 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=329824425#" id="addReplyLnk_533232" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=329824425&commentID=533232" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_533232"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_533466">Sorry if my comments were part of the problem, sis. I guess I am still bitter about how my ex-hex treated me; too many simpatico feeling were stirred up by your situation!<br />However, whatever may happen, know that I always got your back, and support you whatever you decide in life. {{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Monday, November 19, 2007 - 11:17 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-65019111768741797982007-11-17T16:02:00.005-05:002010-11-17T16:12:41.965-05:00Poetry In Motion: Bleeding Hearts <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, November 14, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/bdb1ea3a197c.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/bdb1ea3a197c.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Here I sit</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">For all the world to see</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am opening myself up</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Once again….</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Crushed</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Wounded</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Heart broken</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Bleeding profusely</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">These tears they fall</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Red crimson tears.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Drip</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Drop</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Drip</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Drip</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Drop</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Will they ever stop?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">You did this!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">You did this to me!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">You didn't have to do it, but you did.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Why?<br />What was the point?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">LIAR!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I was not needed.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I did not deserve it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I gave you a way out, and yet you went on.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And on.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And on.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Thanks for pushing me....</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I've fallen</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Back into that hole</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Not wanting to face the world.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Once again to be</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">"Little Girl Lost"</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">© C.M. 11/14/07<br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">"Axel" Shepherd</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/65/s_ea9948575f0ed8f36b4e20b0524f7c73.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Robert Shepherd</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_528903">Lost only as long as you want to be, everyone else is still here waiting to soften the fall. Don't let the light fall on a blackened heart, there is still good out there.....somewhere....if you know where to look.<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">"Axel" Shepherd</a> on Wednesday, November 14, 2007 - 4:31 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=328590938#" id="addReplyLnk_528903" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=328590938&commentID=528903" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><label id="NewDiv_528903"></label></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_529102">AWWWW, STUPID BOYS! {{{{HUGS}}}} I hate when these things happen to one of my kids! Mostly because i can't do anything to "fix" it! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Wednesday, November 14, 2007 - 7:46 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=328590938#" id="addReplyLnk_529102" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=328590938&commentID=529102" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><label id="NewDiv_529102"></label></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Jules</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/6/s_2e32133ce70e41d0843fb33c3e70f0fe.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_529125">I think you should change the title to "Ode To A Sociopath" because that is what he is! No feelings, no conscience oh and let's not forget compulsive liar. It's sad, truly sad that another human being has to be so hurtful for no reason. Amazing!! Blaaaahhhhh!!!!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Jules</a>on Wednesday, November 14, 2007 - 8:08 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=328590938#" id="addReplyLnk_529125" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=328590938&commentID=529125" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><label id="NewDiv_529125"></label></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_529328"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i72.photobucket.com/albums/i197/jdsouthernbelle/Friends/00000sdfghjderfgh3456.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><br />Ugghhh...What a loser Chrys....not worth it....but I've got your back!!!<br /><br />I have the truck with big tires & reverse works well! hehehe<br /><br />Keep it strong!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Wednesday, November 14, 2007 - 11:09 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=328590938#" id="addReplyLnk_529328" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=328590938&commentID=529328" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><label id="NewDiv_529328"></label></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=14904163" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">-Twink-</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=14904163" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/55/s_95876e1e56c177d4386c78d3d6bb4c1f.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_529436">*Hugs* sorry to see your sadness, I agree with the rest of them. Keep your chin up it's light at the end of well, lets just have faith :*)<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=14904163" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">-Twink-</a> on Thursday, November 15, 2007 - 1:26 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=328590938#" id="addReplyLnk_529436" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=328590938&commentID=529436" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=14904163" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-54476186631986891322007-11-17T12:48:00.001-05:002010-10-28T16:29:59.145-04:00Whats Up With Chrys?? - Mid November Edition- SUCESS!!<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Saturday, November 17, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_329436209" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am a SUCCESS</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am BEAUTIFUL</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am SMART</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am TALENTED</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am MOTIVATED</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am STRONG</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am a SURVIVOR</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I will HAVE A GREAT LIFE</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I will BE SOMEBODY</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And I WILL MAKE AT LEAST ONE PERSON SMILE DAILY</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">OK, so I am highly motivated once again. My road trip did me a lot of good in so many ways. I tend to bounce back pretty quickly; this one took me a little longer then usual. I just needed to refocus my attention on what I DO have and not think about what I NO LONGER have. Sweep it all under the rug with all my other dealings in life, step on it, squash it like a bug, and just move on.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, yesterday I took a little road trip. My mom and I met up with my Aunt. The aunt that does the Real Estate Appraisals and Mortgages. The same aunt that was pushing me along for me to get my license and such. At any rate, we took a road trip across the state to go see her son/my cuz and his family. On the way their, we talked about many things. Included what happened with Mike. Of course my aunt, right off the bat, "Oh he's a fighter…one of those….uh, groupies, I am sure you are better off anyway."<span> </span>It sort of made me laugh, but then at the same time I remember joking with him about the groupies and the answer he gave me back, which was pretty funny. But, whatever. That's neither here nor there. We spent some time talking about the divorce. Why I left so much behind, why did I not get anything. I guess she just wanted to understand. And to be honest, there are still pieces that I don't even understand.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have to say, I have always looked up to this aunt. When I was little and lived here in MI, she lived right across the street with my cousins Scott (redneck hippie on my friends list, which you cant see right now LOL) and Tim. They were more like brothers to me then cousins. Still are. And she was always like my 2<sup>nd</sup>mom. I always looked up to her. She divorced my uncle 17 years ago, and I have seen her ups and downs in life. I see her today, and I am so proud of her. Proud of what she has accomplished. And now, she wants to pass that knowledge on to me. She wants me to be a success. She wants me to follow in her footsteps.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Some of my family is rather protective of me because of what has happened to me in life with the dad(s) ordeal. And she is one of them. I see it as she just wants me to be my best and not let anything in life get me down. Wanting to prove to myself just how strong I really am.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">She has wanted to talk to me about these things. She told me that in an email. But she doesn't want to talk about it in front of my mom. I do not know if we will have any alone time to talk about things while she is here. She lives here in MI, but for most of the winter she lives in FL and works down there.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, back to my point. We talked a lot about the whole real estate ordeal. Appraisals and mortgages. She is putting her resume in with a company that she had told me to contact last week. She is hoping to get in there. I guess she has an appointment there Monday or Tuesday. She wants to bring me in as well, and get me taught how to do them. With my financial background, this should not be a problem. I told her the girl I talked to sent my resume to the big boss, I had not heard back from them, but it has only been a day or two. So I guess right now, I just wait and see. She mentioned moving me out of here (countryville) and over there because there is just a lot more going on in that city. Oh I am sure. I live in the middle of nowhere. Then we talked more about the appraisals and she told me what I really needed to be doing as far as finding a company to get my hours with. Well I have 2 companies that I have already contacted me and I told her the ordeal with that. And she was like OH I GOT LEADS!!! So, I will be calling them Monday and saying, OH YES, I can get plenty of leads if you just allow me to earn my hours under your business name. WOOHOO.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Mover, shaker, motivated money maker!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">We stopped for lunch, just the 3 of us. At the beginning of our trip. And when my mom got up to get to the salad bar, my aunt was like, I know you want to get out of that house, I know you are not happy living with your mom,<span> </span>I know you want to get out there and do things, you are too much like me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">DUH!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Is it that obvious?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I just worry about my mom. She had to go through so much, watching both her parents die. And she gave up her life to come here and be their caretaker. I worry she has her own demons in life that she will never go seek help for. And it's like, if I am not here, who will watch over her and make sure she is ok, and doesn't fall into that darkness that I know only so well.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">There is more, but the general idea is, good things are coming. And I am excited about that. My aunt is not going back to FL until Dec. 1. So I think some things are going to fall into my lap very soon.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">We got to my cousins house, him and his wife Chrissy, their two daughters Chloe 7, and Casey 5. We had a great time talking, all us girls until Scott got off work. Then we all loaded up and went to<st1:city><st1:place>Logan</st1:place></st1:city>'s Steakhouse.<span> </span>This place is pretty interesting. There are barrels of peanuts all over. And then buckets on all the ledges and tables. You eat the peanuts and all the shells get thrown on the floor. OMG it was such a mess, but it was so funny to see and watch.<span> </span>Dinner was great. Hanging with my cousin is always fun. We tend to think we are still kids sometimes. Throwing peanuts across the table and each other and stuff. Classic.<span> </span>Hanging with the girls was a blast. Had a couple of Guinness while I gagged watching Scott chug down Killian Irish Red. *puke*</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And it was so cute, when we said our good byes little Casey comes over and she's like "um um Chrystal….um you are my favorite so far" Everyone was like awwww…. It was so cute.<span> </span>I told the girls; when I come back, we will pick on Daddy a whole bunch more.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So my mom and I left pretty late. My aunt's truck was at Scotts and so she was just going to stay with them a few days.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">On the way home, mom and I talked about the<st1:state><st1:place>Oklahoma</st1:place></st1:state>venture.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I few of you caught the survey results the other day about the sugar daddy and<st1:state><st1:place>Oklahoma</st1:place></st1:state>ordeal. Pretty funny. But I guess I should explain some things.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have known Steve forever. (Not to be confused with Steven that Joey and I know) I mean, we have known each other since middle school. We did not go to the same schools until college. We had friends who knew each other. We would always see each other around. Never really talked. Went to all the same places. Growing up, we just always bumped into each other, on way or another. And this went on until he graduated from college. I did not hear from him for a long time. And then, the powers that be crossed our paths about 4 years ago. And we have not let each other go since. Their have been a few times I have talked about Steve. Not really mentioning his name. Just saying my friend or whatever. On my old myspace that got hacked, I had writing a poetic peace when he had told me about his cancer. Anyway, their has always been some attraction there. Always. But it just never happened. He was with someone. I was. Then he got married. Then I did. He got divorced, and I was still married. He got a girlfriend, and another and another. LOL. Then I got divorced and moved. Sooooo…..</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">You know how those kinds of stories go. He's my best friend. And I love him dearly. He has been trying to get me to come work for him for a few years now. I just never wanted to take the hour plus drive from<st1:city><st1:place>Stillwater</st1:place></st1:city>to<st1:city><st1:place>Tulsa</st1:place></st1:city>. Right out of college he got a job with<st1:place>Southwestern Bell</st1:place>, which eventually became ATT and bought out everything. He became a huge success CEO member of the company. He traveled all over the world sealing deals getting people to sell out to ATT. Anyway, on the side, he started his own business. And he literally started it from the ground up. And it's a huge success. He was closing his books out the other day, over a million gross, he pockets $600,000 personally. He is getting ready to open in OKC and waiting on his license to franchise.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, it's a big opportunity for me to be brought in to this company. Would have been nice if I would have been told about this BEFORE I moved. But that was partially my fault. I did not call him and tell him what was going on.<span> </span>Really, everything happened so fast, I just didn't have time.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, yeah, I have been offered anything and everything I could ever want in life. Job, car, house, money. Movers to get me moved. And a chance to be back with my friends. Who really has been my family for the last 20ish year.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">My mother says, I have to do what is going to make me happy and not worry what everyone else is going to think. Oh that's helpful. And she added, but I am not helping you move again. LOL. Can't say I blame her on that.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So right now, I am sitting on this fence. Wondering what direction do I go in?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Here, there…</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Oh and those of you wondering about my job that I had accepted…just going through the certification process right now.<span> </span>And since the phone and cable are in the grandparents name, I have to go down to the courthouse and get certified copies of the death certificates, then go and have it switched to my name before they will install the phone line I need, and the cable internet. MESSY!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I did get all my stuff taken care of for school, so it will be back to college for me ASAP!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div></div><div class="blogContentInfo" style="clear: left; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 10px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div class="cmtcell" style="float: left; margin-right: 7px;"></div></div><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_531961">WOW...I do have to agree...do what is gonna make you the happiest. You have to live your life for yourself and your future.<br /><br />A lot to think about...but I know you will make the right decision...we live and learn...that is what it is all about!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Saturday, November 17, 2007 - 2:29 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=329436209#" id="addReplyLnk_531961" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=329436209&commentID=531961" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_531961"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=229418339" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♥♥ STACEY ♥♥</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=229418339" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/123/s_f2df0f5cb5404683ab6449a9185324cf.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Stacey G.</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_532049">well... I still say COME BACK!!!!!<br />I know how times like now can be rough. Leaving is never easy and to be honest I've been here 6 years and it's still not easy. All my friends are back in Kansas, except you and damn it I was gonna claim Laura , but that girl has even more issues then before!!! LMAO. Still love her to death though. Well you know I'm here for you either way you choose, but I sure wish you were here, cause I need someone to hang out with! Best of luck! MISS YA!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=229418339" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♥♥ STACEY ♥♥</a> on Saturday, November 17, 2007 - 4:22 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=329436209#" id="addReplyLnk_532049" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=329436209&commentID=532049" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=229418339" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_532049"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_532143">I am so glad to hear the smile back in your blog! And I also agree..do what is going to make you the happiest. If you want o t do the appraisals and mortgages, tehn stay where you are adn do that. If you want to go back to OK...then do that! If you go in to the real estate part, we may cross paths business wise...the company I work for makes property management software! I wish you luck with which ever you choose!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Saturday, November 17, 2007 - 5:58 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-48105886721109934272007-11-15T15:08:00.005-05:002010-10-28T16:34:50.964-04:00TAG! You're It!! Or is that I’m it???<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, November 15, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />Ok, so my best friend Shannon tagged me...and I promised her I would play along. It has been a long time since I have played a game of tag. And sitting here, trying to remember the last time, Lonnie was still alive, Sean was hanging around and Joey was not MIA , and Elonna was still alive. ~sighs~ But, I am not going to dwell on that right now.<br />Lets play a game of tag.<br /><span style="background-color: white;"><strong>TAG Here's how you play. Once you've been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird, random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose 10 people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them to be tagged. Don't forget to leave them a comment "You're It!" and to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. Since you can't tag me back, let me know when you've posted your bulletin so I can see your answers.....</strong></span><br /><span style="background-color: white;"><strong><br /></strong></span><br /><span style="background-color: white;">1. Sometimes, I fold my dirty clothes before I put them in the basket.</span><br /><span style="background-color: white;"><br /></span><br /><span style="background-color: white;">2. I love Myspace, its like crack to me. My real life friends and family. Much cheaper then a phone bill! And I get to meet people I would not have had chance to in real life. Its wonderful.</span><br /><span style="background-color: white;"><br /></span><br /><span style="background-color: white;">3. I love Myspace as a writing tool. I love to write. I want to be a writer. And I like to share my work.</span><br /><span style="background-color: white;"><br /></span><br /><span style="background-color: white;">4. I am a lipgloss/lipstick junkie. I have 2 sitting on my desk right now. And their are 5, YES FIVE in my purse that I carry with me every place I go. And another 6 or 7 in my make up bag.</span><br /><span style="background-color: white;"><br /></span><br /><span style="background-color: white;">5. I have a new addiction to Blue Cheese. I don't know why or where it came from, but I just do.</span><br /><span style="background-color: white;"><br /></span><br /><span style="background-color: white;">6. I have about 50 pairs of sunglasses. Every time I go shopping I buy a new pair. Its so bad, I don't even know where they all are. Some are still packed in boxes. The ones I have found are all lined up in a neat little row on my dresser. Along with my regular glasses that I am suppose to wear, and don't.</span><br /><span style="background-color: white;"><br /></span><br /><span style="background-color: white;">7. I tend to get a little OCD about organization and order. Everything has its spot, its place, and it needs to go right back where it came from. Move it, put it back. And I can not sleep until everything is neatly put away and organized.</span><br /><span style="background-color: white;"><br /></span><br /><span style="background-color: white;">8. Music. I am addicted to music. So many of you see my blogs you see my little lyrical spin I put into certain blogs. It all goes back to the writing. Music has some great writing out there. And I listen to all types of music. I'm really a rocker girl at heart, but their really is some great lyrical music out there. My itunes/ipod is filled with over 5000 songs, and it ranges from A-Z, literally. I have to listen to music no matter what I am doing. Its just a rule of life.</span><br /><span style="background-color: white;"><br /></span><br /><span style="background-color: white;">9. This goes with 8. I can't sing, and I know this. I tried. I had a vocal coach train me back in college. That was not fun. But, I do it anyway. Out of tune, out of pitch, sometimes in. But I don't care. It makes me smile. Otherwise, you can catch me humming the tune as well. I'm just a dork like that.</span><br /><span style="background-color: white;"><br /></span><br /><span style="background-color: white;">10. I don't like having to make my big ass bed every morning. So, I keep it all nice and pretty, but sleeping on top of the covers and just using the warm blanket I keep folded and tucked away under my bed. I wake up, fluff the pillows, fold the blanket, put it away, and POOF! Magically the bed looks freshly made.</span><br /><span style="background-color: white;"><br /></span><br />BONUS - I think people are funny. I love to just sit back, hang out, and watch people.<br /><br /><br /><span style="background-color: white;">I am tagging ~</span><br />1. Daisybug - cause when someone has 2 profiles, you can still tag the other! C'mon shannon, you can do it twice!<br />2. Cathy - aka my internet momma....<br />3. Jeran - my newest friend and partner in crime<br />4. Julie - cause I could really use a laugh from her right now<br />5. Shannon - the princess fairy ;)<br />6. Rob - just cause I want to know!<br />7. Patrice - cause I know girl you got some funny things that will make me laugh :)<br />8. Kevin - come on my survey partner in crime, play along<br />9. Stacey - my other best bud back in okie..play along...i miss ya<br />10. I'll leave this one open, to anyone who wants to have a laugh and play along.<br /><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=229418339" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♥♥ STACEY ♥♥</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=229418339" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/123/s_f2df0f5cb5404683ab6449a9185324cf.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Stacey G.</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_530251">Miss you too!!! Ok there you go , I did it. Be proud of me. Took me forever but its just for YOU!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=229418339" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♥♥ STACEY ♥♥</a> on Thursday, November 15, 2007 - 9:25 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=328893690#" id="addReplyLnk_530251" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=328893690&commentID=530251" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=229418339" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_530251"></label><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_530421">I'llcatch you tomorrow on this...too tired tonight! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Thursday, November 15, 2007 - 11:31 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=328893690#" id="addReplyLnk_530421" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=328893690&commentID=530421" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_530421"></label><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_530470">Awww hell! I have never been blog tagged before!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Friday, November 16, 2007 - 12:45 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=328893690#" id="addReplyLnk_530470" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=328893690&commentID=530470" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-11731151617359530012007-11-15T14:36:00.008-05:002010-11-15T14:47:12.337-05:00I’m Fighting My Insides – Gut Muck<div class="MsoNormal">I’m Fighting My Insides – Gut Muck</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">My insides are bleeding. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am trying to push everything back inside. But, I am fighting this one and I don’t really understand why. Why would my mind even tell me it wants to “fix” things? Why do I always feel the need to fix what is broken. Why do I always have to be such a fighter? Knowing what I know, why would I even follow this path? Think these thoughts? I adored him, doesn’t he know that? Why treat someone this why?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Losing Lonnie, I mourned his death. I cried. I asked WHY? Over and over again. I blamed myself. When Sean stopped hanging around I just pushed passed it. I started to blame him for Lonnie so it made it easier. Not knowing about Terry, we had to make our peace with the outcome together long ago. Every day I miss him, but every day I find a part of him with me, his strength there to guide me when I need it and I move forward. I left my marriage and I felt the world was lifted off my shoulders for so many reasons. I never shed a tear. I just moved away and left it all behind. It's my friends I miss I hurt for.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>All the others since I have been here, nothing. I moved on, it was no big deal. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">But this time, this time I feel a hurt and a pain like no other. How can I mend when I am not even sure what I feel? I am finding it hard to completely let go and make my peace.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I just want answers that I will likely never get. Especially since he wont even talk to me now. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Why would he lie to me? Was no reason for it. Why tell me it is to be just us, when that’s not what he really wanted. Why tell me all these things and tell someone else something completely different. Why even waist the time on it. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">His presence still lingers here. I can close my eyes and smell him. I can remember ever inch of him. I remember every detail about us. Everything we shared. Memories that I don't know if I can soon erase. His words that echo over and over in my head. How can someone be so hurtful and mean to another human being?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Especially when their just was no reason for it. I am the most open and honest person, I made it easy for him to be the same. Why say, no more dating, when that not what you really wanted? <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am just so baffled. Then to be caught red handed, and I have proof, and to sit there and lie to my face. I just do not get it. Nothing about this will become clear to me. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>His presence is so hard to shake. I’m just gone…Lost and right now, I do not know that I want to even be found.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">While I am falling back into the darkness, I see that familiar face. I am not afraid of the dark, fore Terry’s presence will always linger there. When Mike decided we should just be “us” Joey had thought maybe for once Terry had used his magick for something good, my happiness.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know Terry wanted nothing but happiness for me in life, but I know he did not want me to be with Mike. He saw the signs, how he always blew me off, even in the beginning when we first started to date. But, magick sometimes has its own way of working, no matter what spell you might cast. On All Hallows Eve I knew whether he alive or dead, Terry was going to drum up all his black magick and make himself be known. And he did. I felt consumed. Pressure built up in my chest. Couldn’t breath. It lasted for about 3 days.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I took that as a sign. Something was going to happen. And, it did. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Terry got what he always wanted. But now it’s my happiness that suffers. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So I am staring in to the darkness.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Not sure what to do.</div><div class="MsoNormal">This burning fire inside</div><div class="MsoNormal">Who knew?</div><div class="MsoNormal">That hell just grew. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-41666598917089909852007-11-14T13:11:00.004-05:002010-12-23T14:01:11.935-05:00Poetry In Motion: Here I Sit<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal">Here I sit</div><div class="MsoNormal">For all the world to see</div><div class="MsoNormal">I am opening myself up</div><div class="MsoNormal">Once again….</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Crushed</div><div class="MsoNormal">Wounded</div><div class="MsoNormal">Heart broken</div><div class="MsoNormal">Bleeding profusely</div><div class="MsoNormal">These tears they fall</div><div class="MsoNormal">Red crimson tears.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Drip</div><div class="MsoNormal">Drop</div><div class="MsoNormal">Drip</div><div class="MsoNormal">Drip</div><div class="MsoNormal">Drop</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Will they ever stop?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">You did this!</div><div class="MsoNormal">You did this to me!</div><div class="MsoNormal">You didn't have to do it, but you did. </div><div class="MsoNormal">Why?<br />What was the point?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">LIAR!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I was not needed.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I did not deserve it.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I gave you a way out, and yet you went on.</div><div class="MsoNormal">And on.</div><div class="MsoNormal">And on.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Thanks for pushing me....</div><div class="MsoNormal">I've fallen</div><div class="MsoNormal">Back into that hole</div><div class="MsoNormal">Not wanting to face the world.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Once again to be </div><div class="MsoNormal">"Little Girl Lost" </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">© C.M. <st1:date day="14" month="11" w:st="on" year="2007">11/14/07</st1:date></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-39468698704756861712007-11-13T15:18:00.002-05:002010-11-15T15:19:31.213-05:00Why I Like You<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">Why I Like You<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">So, as Mike and I were having those all inclusive lets be serious and talk “talks” one of the questions he asked me was “Why do you like me?”<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">Ok, first, let’s talk about him putting me on the SPOT like that. LOL. If ever there was a day I wanted to hide my face from someone, it was that moment. I am sure my facial expression was a force to be reckoned with, but seriously. How do you answer something like that? I mean, you know how you feel, but how to explain it. How to convey that message in words without sounding like a total sap. Or a retard, whichever. LOL<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">I think I just rattled off something about our chemistry, how that’s hard to come by, and how he makes me laugh. The butterflies that flutter in my stomach when he’s around. Sure that’s the truth, but that’s not all of it. So, allow me to officially break it down, and tell the world just how this man makes me feel.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">So, this one is for you Mike… if you ever decide to read my blog, this one should be it.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">Since the day we first started talking we had this rapport that was a force not to be messed with. Both being a couple of smart asses, it was easy to get into the groove and find common ground to communicate on. Then came the laughter. And not just a few HA HA your are funny fake giggles, but I am talking down on the floor laughing until I can’t breath laughter.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And it has been like that since the first day we talked, and then once we met in person, that chemistry became ever stronger. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">The two of us just have this certain vibe. We are so comfortable around each other, it’s like we have known each other forever. We can say and do pretty much anything, and it’s ok. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">We sometimes seem to understand each other without really even having to say a word. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">Every time I think about you, I smile. Every time I see you I want that initial hug and kiss to last forever. The butterflies start to flutter and I feel like a school girl with her first crush again. I had forgotten what that feeling was like. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">I can be a big dork and laugh at myself and you just laugh right along with me. You don’t judge, nor have you tried to change me. You have been perfectly accepting of me and all my quirks. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">See even now, trying to get all this out there, I get all flustered and tongue twisted and just don't know what direction to go in. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">So, per usual, its Lyrical Intervention time….<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">With You- Jessica Simpson<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">The real me is a Southern girl <br />With her Levi's on and an open heart <br />Wish I could save the world <br />Like I was Supergirl <br />The real me used to laugh all night <br />Lying in the grass, just talking 'bout love <br />But lately I've been jaded <br />Life got so complicated <br /><br />I start thinking about it <br />Almost forgot what it was like <br />To know when it feels right <br /><br />But with you <br />I can let my hair down <br />I can say anything crazy <br />I know you'll catch me right before I hit the ground <br />With nothing but a T-shirt on <br />I never felt so beautiful <br />Baby, as I do now <br />Now that I'm with you <br /><br />With you <br />With you <br />With you <br />Now that I'm with you <br /><br />You speak and it's like a song <br />And just like that, all my walls come down <br />It's like a private joke <br />Just meant for us to know <br />I relate to you naturally <br />Everybody else just fades away <br />Sometimes it's hard to breathe <br />Just knowing you found me <br /><br />'Cause I start thinking about it <br />I almost forgot what it was like <br />To know when love feels right <br /><br />'Cause with you <br />I can let my hair down <br />I can say anything crazy <br />I know you'll catch me right before I hit the ground <br />With nothing but a T-shirt on <br />I never felt so beautiful <br />Baby, as I do now <br />Now that I'm with you <br /><br />With you <br />With you <br />With you <br /><br />Come and take me <br />Love you, save me <br />Like nobody else <br />Now I can be myself with you <br /><br />I can let my hair down <br />I can say anything crazy <br />I know you'll catch me right before I hit the ground <br />With nothing but a T-shirt on <br />I never felt so beautiful <br />Baby, as I do now <br />Now that I'm with you <br /><br />I can let my hair down <br />I can say anything crazy <br />I know you'll catch me right before I hit the ground <br />With nothing but a T-shirt on <br />I never felt so beautiful <br />Baby, as I do now <br />Now that I'm with you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="border-bottom: dotted windowtext 3.0pt; border: none; margin-left: .25in; margin-right: 0in; mso-element: para-border-div; padding: 0in 0in 1.0pt 0in;"> <div class="MsoNormal" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: dotted windowtext 3.0pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 1.0pt 0in; padding: 0in;"><br /></div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">Ok, so I started to write that a few weeks ago when the question first came about. But, then, for whatever reason we brought it up again. And so it was discussed on both parts, why I like him, why he likes me <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">It’s not so easy trying to verbally convey those types of feelings, as I am sure now he knows how I felt when he first brought the question to me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">But, as I sat there, telling him how I felt, I realized, that I was able to get a lot of it out. A lot of what I wrote here, in the beginning of this blog, I was able to tell him. And that made me think about that comfort level. I am so comfortable with him. And I think, I hope, he has realized that. Because this is something where my actions have spoken louder then my words. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">It’s the way he looks at me when we first meet up for the day. How his face just lights up, his eyes, they shine. Those are feelings you can not hide from someone. Seeing that makes my smile that much bigger. He really is a ray of Sunshine when he looks that way. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">When we are out to eat, it’s the way he reaches his hands out across the table to hold mine. How he looks at me when I am talking. Or, not saying a word at all. His cute lil wink he does.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">How no matter where we can be, or what we are doing, we can make fun out of it. Or fun of it whatever is the case. Something so simple can turn into the biggest joke for us.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">It’s how he takes the time to greet my fur babies Cain and Casey every time he is around. I know that may seam trivial to many, but to me, it’s a big deal. Those are my kids. And it’s a big deal for me to have someone in my life that is an animal person and doesn’t treat them like some sort of beast they just have to deal with because I wanted them. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">Insert all the XXX stuff here that I am not sharing….<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">The fact that he doesn’t sit around in front of the TV watching every sports known to man. I don’t mind seeing things live, but ugh..the TV. NOOOO! And I know A LOT of you that know me and my twisted love for fighting, might think I am just with him cause he’s a fighter. NOOOOOO!! That just means I have someone to share my sick and twisted love for bloody painful sports. LOL. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">In time I think he will learn little things mean a lot to me. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">We had the talk about the dad and the father. That’s always an ordeal. Its hard to determine when the right time to talk about it is. And you never know how that person is going to take it. Of course there is always that, “should I ever bother telling this person?” that always runs around in my brain. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I haven’t had issues with what happened to me in a long time. But this is a new relationship, and when I post bulletins about how fucked up the dad(s) are, I guess it might raise some eyebrows. Or how my dad lives a few miles up the road and I never see or talk about him. Or how my father lives a town over and yet I never discuss it either. So maybe, it was just the right time, the right moment to tell him what the story was. And out it came. I thought it was going to be hard. But it was so easy.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">That comfort level. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">And blurt it all out I did. And he didn’t push me away or look at me like I was some sort of damaged goods. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">Instead, he listened and then he asked questions. Yes, you heard me right, he asked questions.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>NO ONE has ever taken the time to ask questions. Most people just look at you with this blank look. Like they are not sure what they should say aside from, they are sorry. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">So, that was kind of a big deal for me. It meant a lot that he took the time to try and understand. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">Big brownie points there!!!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">My situation, its not ideal. Just getting over a divorce. And really was going through it when we first started to date. And that did not scare him off. As you all know, I left everything behind in the divorce, and I am literally starting life over from the ground up. He has been my own little cheering section. When we talk, he takes the time to listen to what I have accomplished (or not) and always offers encouragement and understanding. He understands the living situation. He’s accepted the car situation. And well, just my life in general. It’s understood this is not how things are always going to be for me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And it means a lot that he has been so understanding about it all. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">I’ve dated a few that haven’t been. It’s like I have the plague or something. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">The best thing really, he accepts me – for me! <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">There really is so much more. And I could go on and on. But the truth is, I have been working on this blog for far too long. And I think tonight is as good as night as any for him to see, just what he means to me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">Have a good night everyone.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">XOXOX<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">~Chrys~<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: .25in;"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-91357015987077387412007-11-12T12:22:00.006-05:002010-10-28T16:45:58.081-04:00Thankful<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Monday, November 12, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div style="font-weight: normal;">Ok, so Shannon asked me to participate, so here goes...</div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal;">*********************************************</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">Since I cannot put a thankful tree on my page, I will do a thankful blog. All I ask is that if you read this, you post a comment stating one thing you are thankful for this year. Just post the comment on this blog. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">Holidays can be hard for people. This year we have experienced several losses and I would like to focus on the positive things. </span><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">I know we are all thankful for family or friends. Let's try to go a little deeper than that. </span><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">Thanks,</span><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><st1:place><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13.5pt;">Shannon</span></st1:place></div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><st1:place><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13.5pt;"><br /></span></st1:place></div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><st1:place><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13.5pt;"><br /></span></st1:place></div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><st1:place><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13.5pt;">****************************************************</span></st1:place></div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><st1:place><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13.5pt;">MY REPLY ON HER BLOG:</span></st1:place></div><div style="font-weight: normal;">Ok, yeah yeah I am thankful for family and friends. Thats pretty typical and the easiest thing to come up with. So is health. Which, mine could stand to be better. But, right now, in my life, I am thankful I am a survivor. I am sure I do not need to explain that to you. Without being one, I could not have gotten as far as I have with my life. Especially as of late. I am thankful I am stronger then I sometimes give myself credit for. And I am thankful I am able to get out of bed every day, and at least try.</div><div style="font-weight: normal;">****************************************************</div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal;">Reading that, sort of bums me out. Actually, I am rather bummed today. Just really missing all my friends and just wanting to pack a bag , take a road trip, and go back home to see all my friends.</div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal;">Holidays have never really been easy for me. Never really getting to spend them with my own family. Aside from my mom. But for the last 3 years she was up here in MI. And now, I am facing the holidays with my own family, but yet thinking about the family I did spend the last 10 years worth with. Very hard adjustment. Maybe would not have been so hard if I would have said goodbye to everyone.</div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal;">But thats life.</div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal;">Thinking about the friends and loved ones I have lost. How this holiday I will be without them.</div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal;">Forgive me if I get a little bah humbug.</div><div style="font-weight: normal;">Chrys</div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><br /><br /><b>MySpace Comments:</b><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_526585">I am thankful for the choices I made in life last year. Without those choices, I would not have met you. And I am very thankful for you.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Monday, November 12, 2007 - 1:58 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327865050#" id="addReplyLnk_526585" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327865050&commentID=526585" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_526585"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=229418339" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♥♥ STACEY ♥♥</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=229418339" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/123/s_f2df0f5cb5404683ab6449a9185324cf.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Stacey G.</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_526497">Thankful, huh???<br /><br />Yeah the obvious, but yet where to begin? Of course family and friends without a doubt. I'm thankful that God gave me the will to get up every morning, to go to a job, to listen to other peoples problems, knowing I'm not the only one, and to be here for the one's that need a shoulder to lean on.<br /><br />I'm thankful for life. Without it you know where you'd be. Also, thankful for being able to be ME!!! Thankful to not pass judgement on people with indifferences and to lend a helping hand when possible.<br /><br />Wow, that all seems very simple. But I'm THANKFUL I can do these things!<br /><br />Stacey<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=229418339" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♥♥ STACEY ♥♥</a> on Monday, November 12, 2007 - 12:47 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327865050#" id="addReplyLnk_526497" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327865050&commentID=526497" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=229418339" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_526497"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_526586">I am thankful I can just be ME. I am thankful I am strong enough to accept myself as is, and surround myself with those that think the same. Girl we been friends forever...I am so happy we have myspace to help keep us connected over the miles.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Monday, November 12, 2007 - 2:00 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327865050#" id="addReplyLnk_526586" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327865050&commentID=526586" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_526586"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_526588">I am thankful for that, even if sometimes I dont want to. You realize, you and I never said goodbye....and their is reason for that. Our friendship will never be goodbye, it will always be, See you later. Because I will see you later Shannon. Miles are nothing. Distance will only make us stronger friends. Appreciate the time we do have together.<br /><br />I am searching for my faith. Belive me on that one. I know it is lost. But I know, at some point, it will be found again.<br /><br />Love ya Shan!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Monday, November 12, 2007 - 2:02 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327865050#" id="addReplyLnk_526588" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327865050&commentID=526588" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 97px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=165456066" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">19VALHALLA19</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=165456066" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/116/s_b692b5e1ffb84338adf0163630f4724b.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Adam Segmullier</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_526553">WELL I AM THANK FULL FOR BEING ABLE TO RIGHT POETRY THAT SOME TIMES MAKES A NATHER PERSON ACROST THE WORLD SMILE.AND I AM THANK FULL FOR BEING ME.AND FOR STREET PUNK MUSIC""OI OI OI"" AND MOST OF ALL PEOPLE LIKE YOU WHO READ MY POETRY THANKS AND MAY YOU WISH'S AND CELTIC LUCK HOLD STRONG<br />DUSTY<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=165456066" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">19VALHALLA19</a>on Monday, November 12, 2007 - 1:36 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327865050#" id="addReplyLnk_526553" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327865050&commentID=526553" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=165456066" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_526553"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_526590">I am thankful for my ability to write. And thankful for people like you who share the same passion.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Monday, November 12, 2007 - 2:03 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327865050#" id="addReplyLnk_526590" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327865050&commentID=526590" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_527293">I am thankful to have met such a wonderful lady, and fellow U2 fan!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Monday, November 12, 2007 - 11:18 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327865050#" id="addReplyLnk_527293" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_527286">WOW...I agree with all of the above!<br /><br />I am thankful I am close to my family for the holidays and I am extremely thankful for all of my friends that have been here for me...good times & bad.<br /><br />And you know I am so thankful for Joey being a part of my life & making friends with you girl!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Monday, November 12, 2007 - 11:14 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327865050#" id="addReplyLnk_527286" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327865050&commentID=527286" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_527286"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_527298">I am very thankful for me brother Joey...and thankful he has brought us together....<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Monday, November 12, 2007 - 11:19 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327865050#" id="addReplyLnk_527298" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327865050&commentID=527298" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; 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border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_527526">I am thankful for so many things! Of course my wonderful hubby, kids and grandkids...but I am thankful that I get to enjoy time with them! Yes, I sometimes complain that it is too much and I need a break every now and then, but this time with the little ones is so precious. Watching my son's boys grow, experiencing the wonder through their eyes again! Yeah...I am thankful for that! I am also thankful for this new job of mine. I really enjoy what I am doing (most of the time!), meeting new people and having FRIDAY actually mean something! LOL!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Tuesday, November 13, 2007 - 7:54 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327865050#" id="addReplyLnk_527526" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327865050&commentID=527526" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_527526"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_528658">I am thankful for family, friends, life, and love. Here's to happiness and great health. I am thankful to the Goddess for all the abundance that I experience!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Wednesday, November 14, 2007 - 10:29 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327865050#" id="addReplyLnk_528658" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327865050&commentID=528658" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-1318280969061632492007-11-10T20:04:00.002-05:002010-10-28T16:47:43.745-04:00~Stronger~<div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/060dac37b29b.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/060dac37b29b.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><br /><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"></span> <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;">Saturday, November 10, 2007 </span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">"All of my life I've fought hard for the things I have wanted, caught up in blindly believing the strongest survive, but here, in your eyes, I see everything I've ever needed and I am afraid, if I rush in, if I move too fast, I just might frighten myself" ~unknown~</span><br /><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size: x-small;">MySpace Comments:</span><br /><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Brian Kinney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_524425">Fucking A...<br />~~~hugs...<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a> on Saturday, November 10, 2007 - 9:49 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327368257#" id="addReplyLnk_524425" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_526115">You are STRONG....and You will SURVIVE....just as we all do.<br /><br />Good things come to those who wait...just think.....as long as we have waited.....it's gonna be well worth it when it comes your way!! lol : )<br /><br />These are such great words....thanks for sharing!!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Sunday, November 11, 2007 - 11:27 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-127556052387298652007-11-09T23:45:00.001-05:002010-10-28T16:50:21.571-04:00Cleaning Out My Brain<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, November 09, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Cleaning Out My Brain</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I need to clean out my brain. So much stuff swirling around lately and honestly I don't even know where to start.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I know, some of you were worried about my little mood swing the other day, and for that I am sorry. As many of you come to realize by now, that I am not always in a constant state of happiness. I have moments when something just sets me off and I just crash and burn. And that was such the case. Then such a whirlwind happened afterwards that I never got a chance to come back and change my mood.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Sometimes things happen we have no control over. And that seems to be the case for me lately.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I was put in a position to make a choice a few weeks back, and I made it. That was the choice to stop dating around and to settle with just one person. I know I have mentioned Mike a time or two, but never really much detail. Odd for me. Usually I am so open about things. But, he's not really in to the whole blog thing and so, out of respect for him, and our relationship being so new, I haven't really talked about it much.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I think everyone close to me was shocked when I told them I was just going to be with Mike and him only. I know my friends love me and just want what's best for me. And maybe they think it's too soon for me to settle down. Maybe they think I am not capable of settling down.<span> </span>But you know what, Mikes not my rebound. Not from Marcus, not from Terry, not from anyone. I don't rebound. I never have and never will. If you must insist I rebound, well then you can count the 8 or so other people I dated before I reached the point of deciding to be with Mike only. If ya need to classify me as a rebounder, pick one of those guys as my rebound.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">My head is clear and I am just fine thanks.<span> </span>No worries.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But this is what I have gotten involved in. As you can see from his pics on his myspace, he's a fighter. But he doesn't just fight, he trains fighters too. However, that's not his day job. He's a private investigator by day. My own Private Dick. LOL. In more ways then one.<span> </span>(HA, yeah I had to go there)</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, that means he's a busy lil worker bee. And I DO mean busy. And while I understand that very much, sometimes it puts a damper in our plans. First off, I guess you can consider this a long distance relationship. But don't freak peeps; he DOES live in the same state, just about an hour away.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And as we all know, my car got left behind in the divorce. My mom has the van that the grandparents left to her. I have her car, but after I got it tagged and up to date and the insurance put on it, she tells me that there are things wrong with it, not exactly making it safe for road trips. So, for me to see Mike, it has to be when his schedule allows him to come this way.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And he tries. But sometimes, we make plans, and the forces that be start to meddle and he's called off to work. Which is fine, I get that. But, my temper flairs when he doesn't take the time to call me and tell me that something came up.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, when you see my lil mood thingy change the other day that was why.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">We have talked/seen each other since then. I have tried to get him to understand it's just hurtful to be sitting here wondering where my man is when we had plans made. Course then I have to be the one to just understand sometimes work calls and he just gets tied up, it can't be helped.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">New relationship. New adjustments. New things to learn, understand and compromise on.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">It's just how things are. It's a pretty constant back and forth.<span> </span>We can't be together as much as we like, but that's OK. It makes that time we are together more cherished.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I think he's amazing, and worth holding on to. And I miss him when he's not around.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, while I am working on my relationship with him, got all this other stuff going on around me too.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Getting all the paperwork I have been waddling in taken care of. I didn't realize how much crap I have to change my name on. And how this needs this changed before this can be changed. It's just an endless circle of paperwork. And it seems like it is never ending. But the bulk of it has been done. Which is good. So school enrollment is getting taken care of. And next week I will be working on getting the stuff set up for my home office so I can get started on this job.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">My brain has been hyperactive lately. Not that it is anything new. But, I just have a lot going on around me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">At any rate, I have another blog already in the works. I started working on it last week or so. Mike and I were talking, and he asked me "why do you like me?" and it was a hard question to verbally find words for. Then we talked about it again when he was over the other day. I laughed and said, you know I am writing it out. Expect a blog. He sort of just laughed at me, and then asked, how do you get to the blogs anyway? Hmmmmm looks like we are going to have to train him. Hahhaa…Anyway, we answered the question, but I think my written words can do more then my verbal words, and I thought it would be nice for him to finally have his own blog. So, look for that to come at some point.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Until then…. Take care</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">~Chrys~</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_523391">Relationships are never easy, sis. Good for you for not giving up when it gets hard-- as they always do at times!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Saturday, November 10, 2007 - 1:52 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327147805#" id="addReplyLnk_523391" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327147805&commentID=523391" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_523391"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=89162783" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Mingus O'Bannon</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=89162783" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/42/s_da8a59384995a3b19c0772ea52e5b379.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_523489">Just thinking about you, reading your words and hoping things will workout. I wish I was half as prolific with the blog as you are...one day maybe. You're right, relationships take work, or at least effort. So have you started the screenplay for your life yet? Why do I see kim basinger playing you? Anyway, just a thought. Keep up the writing.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=89162783" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Mingus O'Bannon</a>on Saturday, November 10, 2007 - 5:06 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327147805#" id="addReplyLnk_523489" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327147805&commentID=523489" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=89162783" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_523489"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_523537">I am glad you have someone in your life that makes you happy! Mine is still making me happy more than 20 years later, LOL! Counting the time we were dating, it's been 27 years! OMG! That is more than half my life, LOL! Anyway, I wish you as much happiness as I have had! No matter what your impression is, sometimes it HAS been work...we just chose to work through it together! It's been worth it. {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Saturday, November 10, 2007 - 8:04 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327147805#" id="addReplyLnk_523537" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327147805&commentID=523537" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_523650">I know all too well how easy it is to want to give up when things get hard...just to want to run and hide...lol<br /><br />But, it is like you said...if he is worth fighting for...put up that fight girl.<br /><br />Thanks for being there for me and being a great new friend!<br /><br />~Hugs~<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Saturday, November 10, 2007 - 10:40 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327147805#" id="addReplyLnk_523650" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Jules</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/6/s_2e32133ce70e41d0843fb33c3e70f0fe.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_524806">Well babygirl, you know this has taken you on a rollercoaster ride but you have the strength to hang on! Just take it a day at a time, lots of deep breaths and everything will work out as it should!! If not, just hop on yahoo and we'll have a bitch fest!! Love you!! xxxxx<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Jules</a> on Sunday, November 11, 2007 - 3:26 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327147805#" id="addReplyLnk_524806" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=327147805&commentID=524806" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-51924410730769616212007-11-07T00:09:00.004-05:002010-12-23T14:01:47.160-05:00Poetry In Motion: Take Me Back ~ revised<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, November 07, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">Take me back to that place</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">That place I know so well</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">That cold</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">Dark</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">Lonely hole</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">My own personal hell</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: large;">*</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">I've been there before</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">It doesn't matter to me</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">Just feel like right now</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">It's where I should be</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: large;">*</span> </o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">The world keeps twirling</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">Swirling</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">Spinning round and round</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">Here I stand</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">Watching</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">Waiting</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">As it all just passes me by</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: large;">*</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;"></span></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">And I am just going to stand here and let it.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;"></span></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">I can't take any more right now.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: large;">*</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: large;">NO!</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: large;">I've stood here</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: large;">waiting</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: large;">long enough</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: large;">This is me</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: large;">turning around</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: large;">walking away</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: large;">shutting the door</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: large;">and crawling back</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: large;">to that place I know so well.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">(C) C.M. 11/5/07</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana;">revised 11/6/07</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana;">MySpace Comments:</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_518632">{{{{Hugs}}}} This is good, Chrys!</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Monday, November 05, 2007 - 7:45 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=325712957#" id="addReplyLnk_518632" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=325712957&commentID=518632" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><label id="NewDiv_518632"></label></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=14904163" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">-Twink-</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=14904163" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/55/s_95876e1e56c177d4386c78d3d6bb4c1f.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_518797">Stay strong,this to shall past. That's what they tell me anyway. :)<br /><br />beautifully written,thanks for sharing<br /><br /><br />love ya</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=14904163" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">-Twink-</a> on Monday, November 05, 2007 - 9:43 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=325712957#" id="addReplyLnk_518797" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=325712957&commentID=518797" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=14904163" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><label id="NewDiv_518797"></label></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_518953">Stay strong......we all know you can! Whatever is going on...it will get better or change.<br /><br /><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i72.photobucket.com/albums/i197/jdsouthernbelle/Profile%20Images/6fjvneq.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Monday, November 05, 2007 - 11:39 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=325712957#" id="addReplyLnk_518953" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=325712957&commentID=518953" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><label id="NewDiv_518953"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">"Axel" Shepherd</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/65/s_ea9948575f0ed8f36b4e20b0524f7c73.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Robert Shepherd</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_520055">I'm sorry you seem to be having some dark feelings still inside. Everything gets better just as it gets worse. Things always seem darkest in our moments of sorrow and pain. But there is always light at the end of the tunnel if you search hard enough.</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">"Axel" Shepherd</a>on Wednesday, November 07, 2007 - 2:06 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=325712957#" id="addReplyLnk_520055" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=325712957&commentID=520055" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=103138616" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/33/s_8cc4d4280cc84300b0d4fc01a64e5803.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Tabitha Stone</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_521504">very uplift poem,</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a> on Thursday, November 08, 2007 - 6:46 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=325712957#" id="addReplyLnk_521504" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=325712957&commentID=521504" style="color: #003399; 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line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, FINALLY after THREE long fucking months, guess who landed a job?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Yup Yup!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I about fell out of my chair. Thankfully I didn't. It might have hurt. LOL.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, here is the deal. Shall I choose to take it, which I am pretty sure I am going to - It's not some fancy swanky big time I am using any of my degrees job. However, it's a great opportunity which provides many benefits and time to allow me to accomplish other things.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I was actually offered this job in the past, some of you may have heard me talk about it, but I took the job with the city instead. And for that I am thankful, otherwise I would have never of met<st1:place>Shannon</st1:place>. (Or Alison or Melissa for that matter)</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Anyway, it's a work at home job, taking inbound calls for a call center. Since I am such a chatter bug, perfect. And since all my jobs required customer service, that's just perfection.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, while I am able to set my own schedule, and make some money, I can work on getting the 2000 hours I need to get my state license in appraisals. Cause right now I am just a limited license. I have also been looking into (in part due to my aunt LOL boy I love her) getting into Mortgages as well. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ooohhh and time to write! Well, I already write alot , but maybe now I will be more motivated to submit more things for publishing.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am also enrolled to get my ass back in college. Time to move up the associates degrees, well at least one of them, to a bachelors, and perhaps a masters. Since I am so close to my Bachelors in Accounting, I am going to go for that.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">This job will allow me to do all that and not have to worry about being around someone else's schedule. So it has its perks. And I am pretty excited about that.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And, when the day comes for me to move out (boy I can't wait LOL) , I can take this job with me if I need to.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">What I am not looking forward to - waiting around for the installation of the phone line and cable internet. As you all know, I have no patience. LOL.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">OOOOHHH cable internet…..back to high speed…..I can't wait.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">hmmm Have I mentioned I have ADHD like qualities??? Anyway, Shannon knows all about my "I wanna be a pirate" addiction... hello pando here I come .....wooohooooo</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, I got two weeks to get all my paperwork in, no problems there. And I have 30 days to get all my stuff installed, and get my certification done. This is no problem either. I have already been through it, so it should be a breeze.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Oh and the fun of shopping for a new desk and chair and make me a comfy home office!!!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Seems things might just be looking up in my world.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Time to be a busy little worker bee and live life to the fullest.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And this time, no one is barking in my ear telling me I CAN'T do it.</div><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=244523549" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Ronnie Meggers *Gun Czar*...</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=244523549" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/147/s_2cf035ac8cfb4b568e286f256139b2d3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_518949">This is fantastic girl! I love your attitude and positive energy!... Sending you warm thoughts and hugs:) Ronna Megan:)<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=244523549" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Ronnie Meggers *Gun Czar*...</a> on Monday, November 05, 2007 - 11:34 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=325832524#" id="addReplyLnk_518949" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=325832524&commentID=518949" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=244523549" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_518952">Whooooo hooooo!!<br /><br />If it is something you wanna do girl...go for it!<br /><br /><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i72.photobucket.com/albums/i197/jdsouthernbelle/Profile%20Images/48046fi2ejpr0yp.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Monday, November 05, 2007 - 11:37 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=325832524#" id="addReplyLnk_518952" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=325832524&commentID=518952" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_518952"></label><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_519180">OMG that is AWESOME, Chrys! I wish I could have found a work from home that was not selling insurance! LOL! But, hey, I really like my job, so it all works out! I am so happy for you! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Tuesday, November 06, 2007 - 7:49 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-72005694999910724422007-11-05T14:05:00.004-05:002010-10-28T15:24:38.838-04:00Why Am I Here?<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Monday, November 05, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">Why Am I Here?<br /><br />Well I don't know why some of you are here, but I know why I am here. First and foremost I am a writer. Its what I do. Some see it as a hobby, but its what I crave to do with my life. I first came to myspace with a bunch of other writers. We connected with more. It is an outlet. Sure I blog about life, but thats because I also have real life family and friends on here. Many of them miles and miles away. Myspace helps to bridge the gap when sometimes the daily hustle and bustle of life deters daily commuinication. It also has become a haven for me to connect with other people of the same culture, people who have the same beliefs as I and what not. Myspace bridges that gap as well. Those that I have never met in real life are like a second family to me. We share stories, ideas, provide feedback, and even a helping hand whenever it is needed. I enjoy the company of others. I listen to the advice given, or the critique on a piece of work, or whatever. Myspace isnt all fun and games. It really is a social networking tool. Without it, I don't think my writing would have reached the level it has, I don't think I would have made any effort to get things published if not for the pushing of my friends. And, I would not be as close to my friends and family that are so far away.<br /><br />So, these are the reason I am on myspace.<br /><br />Now, why are YOU here?<br /><br />MySpace Comments:</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></span><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_518641">Someone with the initials JC brought me here...and I stayed! I have gotten in touch with people I otherwise would not be in touch with (4 of my niece's for example) and I even was found by an old high school friend. I have too many good people on my list for me to pack it all in and go away...which I thought about doing not so long ago. I would write a rant on the reason why...but the reason why is why my blogs are now rather BORING...nothing is sacred and you cannot even blog in a private blog without unscrupulous people back dooring their way in and reading it anyway! Good people are why I am here and staying! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a>on Monday, November 05, 2007 - 7:53 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-39410424405975633362007-11-04T11:25:00.002-05:002010-10-28T15:27:45.232-04:00Birthday and Such<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Sunday, November 04, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Birthday and Such</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Today is my "fur baby" Cain's birthday. He turns 4.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Such a handsome big boy he turned out to be.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And, I had planned to take him outside to get a good pic for this blog, but HELLO its 35 degrees outside right now. So, that pic will just have to wait.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">My southern blood still is not quite ready for this. I have been through plenty of Michigan winters, lived here, and visiting and such. But, we shall see how well I survive this one. LOL</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am not really looking forward to it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Well, maybe it will be good, with cutie patootie to snuggle up with.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Anyway, so yeah..Happy that Cain is here with me. Not that I ever thought leaving him and Casey<span> </span>behind. The ex was never really nice to them. He more or less just put up with them.<span> </span>Yelled at them a lot. Cain was always very skittish of him. Casey, she never really bonded with him , so that didn't really matter. She was my rescue baby. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So I had to give her lots of TLC in the beginning. I worried about moving them here. Worried about taking them away from the only home they had ever known. I was worried that once they got here they would be all unhappy and sad. Despite how mean he was, maybe they would miss their "people daddy" That doesn't really seem to be the case at all. They are here with "grandma" and he little dog. They have 3 acres they can run freely on. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Although they tend to like the neighbors better then their own yard. But, its ok, my grandparents had a boxer long ago, so they are used to boxers running lose. I guess it brings back memories for everyone.<span> </span>The good thing, Cain warmed right up to Mike. So that might be a good sign. He is usually pretty leary of men he doesn't know. But , he sees Mike and gets all wiggly, just like when he sees his momma.<span style="font-family: Wingdings;"><span>J</span></span>Casey on the other hand, she still isn't quite sure of him. This is odd for her cause she's usually the one who runs to greet everyone and its Cain that lags behind.<span> </span>She is getting better with him.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Memories. How I wish I could forget some of them. Even though it's a happy time, to celebrate Cain's birthday.<span> </span>I know to some they are just "dogs" but, to me, these are my "kids" and they mean everything to me. But, today is also the ex's birthday. And try as I might to forget that, after 10 years it's hard to push out of<span> </span>your mind. So then my mind starts to roam about how this is November. The wonderful month of the adoptive dad ordeal. Which I will get into perhaps another time if you don't already know the story.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Happiness is that this will be my first holiday season with MY family. And<span> </span>am looking forward to that. I have spent a few Christmas's up here, but I can't remember the last time I had thanksgiving with my own family. Aside from an aunt and uncle who visited me and mom in<st1:state><st1:place>Oklahoma</st1:place></st1:state>a long time ago. But for me being up here with everyone, that was most likely the year I spent up here after I graduated high school. It is going to be a new experience for me. A good one. But then I think about how I spent the last 10 with the ex family, my 2<sup>nd</sup>family. Part of me misses them. And part of me is so upset that I never took the time to go say goodbye to them. My lil brothers and their girlfriend/wives and kids, my 2<sup>nd</sup>mom, my 2<sup>nd</sup>grandma. I feel awful that I did not talk to them and say goodbye. I simple told the ex I was leaving and in 2 weeks I was gone.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But, I can't keep thinking about those things. I have to see the whole picture in front of me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">ME and my life. Moving forward. The happiness I do have around me. The life ahead that awaits me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And a "fur baby" that's waiting to celebrate his birthday.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">A word to everyone, take the time to day to realize what you do have. Stop dwelling on what you don't. Cherish each and every moment in life, no matter how small or big.</div><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_517313">Awwwwww.....you know my Caleigh...my fur baby is like my kid too! Her birthday is coming up on the 19th....we are both Scorpio babies..hehe<br /><br />Glad you get to spend the holidays with YOUR family for a change....that means a lot to them.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Sunday, November 04, 2007 - 11:37 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=325356046#" id="addReplyLnk_517313" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=325356046&commentID=517313" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_517313"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/137/s_fa51ecd3152c45d5ba5f2315e578e351.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Joey Vagance</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_517325">Ahhh sis makin me miss me best mate Larry. What a good boy he was. ~sighs~<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a> on Sunday, November 04, 2007 - 11:58 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=325356046#" id="addReplyLnk_517325" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=325356046&commentID=517325" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/33/s_8cc4d4280cc84300b0d4fc01a64e5803.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Tabitha Stone</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_518239">tell him happy birthady for me,<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a>on Monday, November 05, 2007 - 10:57 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-57221381664959716632007-11-01T23:36:00.002-04:002010-10-28T15:29:42.774-04:00Broken Promises and Trust<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, November 01, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Hurting%20Sad/TearsAni2333222.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">Broken Promises and Trust</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">I don't trust so easily. There, I said it.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">I know it might look like on the surface that I do. But the truth is, deep inside, I have issues. And really, who can blame me. Given the shit I have had to deal with in life.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">Sexual Abuse, Verbal Abuse, Physical Abuse, Emotional Abuse. All at the hands of men.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">I can't imagine why anyone would tru</span><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">st easily. But I know their are some out there that do.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">Despite all that has happened to me, I am strong. I have lived through all that and worked through the pain. I am better now, and in a better place in life then I ever have been.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">But, that trust thing will get me every time. I can't help it. <span> </span>I am still a work in process.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">I am a SURVIVOR! I am strong, not weak.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">I have always said I have NO regrets in life. I lived, I have learned and I have moved on. I would not be the beautiful, kind, full of soul and spirited woman I am today without the life I was given.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">I do however wear my heart on my sleeve and sometimes that does me more harm then good. I am always giving, and give far more then my fair share. But it doesn't work when its one sided.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">Give Give Give<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">Take Take Take</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">It should be equal parts Give and Take.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">I find myself thinking about things lately. Maybe</span><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"> I am thinking about things too much. But, I can't help it. That's what I do. I am a thinker. An analyzer. Especially where my heart is concerned.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">I don't think it is hard to earn my trust, especially if you make the honest effort to at least try.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">Right now, I am not seeing that from someone I should be seeing it from. Small changes have been made in a relationship, but nothing in regards to the trust aspect of it.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">Don't say you will call, then don't.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">Don't make plans, and then blow it off.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">Just to pretend it was never discussed at all.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">Don't do that.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">Simple?</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span>I guess not.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">Is it wrong of me to want that phone call?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">Wrong of me to want some attention?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">Wrong of me to want to spend a little time together?</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">I guess so.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">I dont consider those things clingy, of feeling like I am being needy.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">I just want to know I am wanted...</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">I am having this war right now about running away. Just shutting it down, closing the door and running as fast as I can. I don't feel like being dragged through the mud and getting dirty right now. I just got myself cleaned off.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">Maybe my heads just not on right. <span> </span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><span></span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">Maybe I am over thinking things.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">Who knows?</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">All I know is right now I feel very out of sorts.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;">MySpace Comments:</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-size: 14pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_515571">{{{{HUGS}}}} You deserve those things you asked for...common courtesy is what I see in those questions...have the courtesy to call when you say you will, have the courtesy to say plans have changed...and have the courage to say you screwed up! "I forgot" or even "I didn't realize those were solid plans" is much better than "what are you talking about?"<br />Keep smiling my Irish one...Things will get better!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a>on Friday, November 02, 2007 - 6:31 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=324564294#" id="addReplyLnk_515571" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=324564294&commentID=515571" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_515571"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 67px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/143/s_294e8995c07b45a792dbde894b7d3ad3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_515610">Baby Girl....I am the same way. It is NOT too much to ask - it is what is right. It boils down to respect. Put a stop to it NOW or it will be like that always.....believe me, I know.<br /><br />xoxo<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice</a>on Friday, November 02, 2007 - 8:50 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=324564294#" id="addReplyLnk_515610" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=324564294&commentID=515610" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_515610"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_515738">Sis, of course you deserve respect and common courtesy. I have learned (2 marriages and tons of heartbreak later) that you can't change people, so you have to take them as they are. Hope things work out with your heart. {{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Friday, November 02, 2007 - 1:21 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-18176117667864790522007-10-31T14:16:00.015-04:002010-10-28T15:35:31.835-04:00Ugh...Holiday’s and the Price of Happiness<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, October 31, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/6862d217212a.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/6862d217212a.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">" When death comes, it is not enough to have been charitable; and it is not right to touch the body or lay it out for a couple of hours; for the soul should be given time to fight for itself, and to go up to judgment. And sometimes it is not willing to go."</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">~Lady Augusta Gregory</div><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ugh… <st1:place>Holiday</st1:place>'s….Yeah I am happy but…sometimes I wonder, whats the price....</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, yeah I am happy, still. That's not changed.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But as much as I just try to blow today off like it's just another normal day, I can't seem to shake it. Then after reading my brothers blog, it made me think even more.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">All Hallows Eve, the day Celts, mostly pagan, celebrate not only life, but death as well.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Death. Can't seem to escape that. As much as I want to close a blind eye to it. As much as I do not want to deal with it, I still have to. How can I celebrate losing Lonnie , Elonna and Terry? Or my grandparents for that matter. Which I have to deal with every day in this house. This constant tug of war in my soul.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">My insides are turning, burning, in this wretched pit of fire. I feel sick. I just want to curl up and die myself. Even if just for one night, this one night of darkness to see them again.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But that's not going to happen. My soul is not ready to soar.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">They are not the only people I miss.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I was talking to <st1:place>Shannon</st1:place> this morning, and it just hit me, as it usually does when we talk, how much I miss her.<br /><br /> How much I miss all my friends back in OK. And now, here it is Halloween, our big party day, and I am not there. I sit here thinking about all the Halloween's in my past, how they were celebrated, things I did, the people I hung out with, and I feel very much alone right now.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So even though I have succeeded in some happiness, there is still some sadness lurking about.<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, I leave you with my lyrical concept for the day:<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">H.I.M. – Join Me in Death</div><br /><object height="340" width="560"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/1V4AscLidWg?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/1V4AscLidWg?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="560" height="340"></embed></object><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Baby join me in death</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Baby join me in death</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Baby join me in death</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">We are so young</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Our lives have just begun</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">But already were considering</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Escape from this world</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And weve waited for so long</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">For this moment to come</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Was so anxious to be together</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Together in death</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Wont you die tonight for love</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Baby join me in death</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Wont you die</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Baby join me in death</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Wont you die tonight for love</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Baby join me in death</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">This world is a cruel place</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And were here only to lose</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">So before live tears us apart let</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Death bless me with you</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Wont you die tonight for love</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Baby join me in death</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Wont you die</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Baby join me in death</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Wont you die tonight for love</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Baby join me in death</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">This live aint worth living</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">This live aint worth living</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">This live aint worth living</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">This live aint worth living</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Wont you die tonight for love</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Baby join me in death</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Wont you die</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Baby join me in death</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Wont you die tonight for love</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Baby join me in death</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Baby join me in death</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">MySpace Comments:</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></span><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;">Cathy McElhaney</span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><br /> <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_514582">{{{{HUGS}}}} I hope you have a happy Halloween anyway. I know it is tough to celebrate when you have had so many losses. YOU are a survivor and I am happy to see you doing as well as you are!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Wednesday, October 31, 2007 - 7:16 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-23841123958459699642007-10-30T23:22:00.002-04:002010-10-28T15:38:56.610-04:00Whats Up With Chrys?? ~ October Volume ~ Happy Times<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Tuesday, October 30, 2007 </span><br /><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/15855c218f26.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/15855c218f26.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">A Little of This and A Little of That, or more aptly titled, Good Things.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I guess as the saying goes, "Good Things Come to Those Who Wait."</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I was beginning to wonder, just how long I was going to have to wait.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am not going to talk about any of the sadness, that's all in past blogs and I am moving forward. Too much happiness around me now. That's what I am grabbing on to, and that's what I am going to share here.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Going to enjoy this ride, and hope that it lasts. I am hoping the turn of events is a sign of many wonderful things to come.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">~insert the biggest smile I have ever given here~</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">As many of you saw from my bulletin the other day, I got word that the divorce was finalized. I was so excited I about fell out of my chair. But, it is even better news today, as the papers I am now holding in my hand. They came today. ~happy dance~</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">This is such a good thing for me. I mean, I have been moving on in life, but so many things had to be put on hold until everything was final.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The biggest headache so far really has been the bank accounts. Ugh. Disaster in action. But now, I can close the OK bank and have my name changed on the account that I opened here. And order bank cards and checks. I opted not to do that when I opened the account because it seemed pointless.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Now the fun stuff begins. Oh joy. Passport needs changed. Drivers License, not only do I need a MI one, I need a name change. Hmmm lets see what else, a credit card or two that didn't get changed, now can be. Social Security cards, oh they are always so much fun to deal with. LOL</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The biggest thing – I CAN NOW ENROLL BACK IN COLLEGE!!!!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">YEAHHHHHHH!!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I was waiting for things to be final because I wanted to be able to check the DIVORCED box on the financial aid and not have to worry about putting his information down because we were still legally married.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Over! Over! OVEEEEEEEER!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I AM</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">FFFFRRRRRRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, well not really free. Free from him yes. But technically not free from a relationship. This is a very good thing. For those of you who have been paying attention, you may have figured out who it is. Those of you who haven't, you got some work to do ;)</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">In all seriousness, there is someone I have been seeing for a little while now. He's adorable and quite simply, amazing. We have decided to just be together and not see other people.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, pick yourself up now. You heard me correctly. Yes, this coming from the girl who said she was just gonna date and have fun and blah blah.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Well, I did that. For 3 months.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And now, I am stopping and just going to be with Him. Yes, just Him.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Him… who is Him…</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Read a bulletin lately?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Notice a top friend's rearrangement?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Let's go from there.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Cutie patootie..aka…Kraz…aka Mike</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Let the round of introductions begin.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, so anyway. Moving on.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Am I happy? YES! Very much so.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">It is pretty amazing how things just all seem to come together. How you can be so comfortable with someone, like you have known them forever, when the reality is, you have only known them a short while. I am totally free to just be myself. He makes me smile, he makes me think, and he makes me laugh.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And that's all I am gonna share about that for the time being. I just wanna keep him all to myself and not share him with anyone…including my family and friends here. At least for now ~winks~</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">What else..What else…..</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Hmmmmm lets see…</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Oh I finished my Real Estate Appraisal class with flying colors. Got my certifications the other day, now just need to send them in to the state and register my happy ass. I also got a call back from a company to do appraisals for them. So, that's a step in the right direction. My aunt is trying to get me hooked up with that as well as mortgages because she does both and then I can help her.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have had 2 works of poetry get picked up for publishing…and goodness the title of the book escapes me right now. Will have to find my papers and get back to you on that.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, all in all, life's on the upside these days.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">~trots out doing the happy dance~</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Until next time…have a Happy and Safe Hallows Eve….</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">X's and O's</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">~Chrys~</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/6be851902e10.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/6be851902e10.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_514079"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i72.photobucket.com/albums/i197/jdsouthernbelle/Quotes/happienesseffort.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><br /><br />Yay! Yay! Yay! Happy things are always good! We all have to get down before we can get up...life.....isn't it grand!<br /><br />So happy for you being happy! You deserve it!<br /><br />~Hugs~<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Tuesday, October 30, 2007 - 11:49 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=323981868#" id="addReplyLnk_514079" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=323981868&commentID=514079" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_514079"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_514150">Yay, relationships are definitely not as bad as we used to think they are! I am very happy for you sis!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Wednesday, October 31, 2007 - 1:23 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=323981868#" id="addReplyLnk_514150" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=323981868&commentID=514150" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_514150"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_514203">It makes my heart smile to know you are so happy! Congratulations!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a>on Wednesday, October 31, 2007 - 6:34 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=323981868#" id="addReplyLnk_514203" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=323981868&commentID=514203" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_514203"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81869020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Kristi</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81869020" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/92/s_fc5d3118db564b399fdeb53c00180dc0.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">KRISTI C</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_514297">So glad your HAPPY!! We all deserve just a little bit of happiness in this chaotic life :)<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81869020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Kristi</a> on Wednesday, October 31, 2007 - 12:22 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=323981868#" id="addReplyLnk_514297" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=323981868&commentID=514297" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=81869020" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 67px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/143/s_294e8995c07b45a792dbde894b7d3ad3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_514348">Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!<br />xoxo<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a>on Wednesday, October 31, 2007 - 2:18 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=323981868#" id="addReplyLnk_514348" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=323981868&commentID=514348" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_514348"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Brian Kinney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_516721">Errr...I notice who has been moved OUT of the top...ehem...<br />Seriously though... I am happy for you Chrys...hope it all works out.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a>on Saturday, November 03, 2007 - 5:17 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=323981868#" id="addReplyLnk_516721" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=323981868&commentID=516721" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-62238230130709548282007-10-30T01:23:00.004-04:002010-10-28T15:42:48.491-04:00Long Day<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Tuesday, October 30, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">This blog can be read on my Erotica Confession blog site.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: xx-large;"><a href="http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/2007/10/long-day.html"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: magenta;">Long Day - Click Here (Adults ONLY!!)</span></a></span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-20795450741753028942007-10-27T10:31:00.001-04:002010-10-28T15:46:26.693-04:00Doing It Well<object height="340" width="560"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/5dnTLx4XQDI?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/5dnTLx4XQDI?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="560" height="340"></embed></object><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Saturday, October 27, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><br /><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Do It, Do It You Do It, Do It You're Doin It Well</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Here's The Thing</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I Was Minding My Own Business</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Doin What I Do</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I Wasnt Tryina Look For Anything</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">All Of A Sudden Couldnt Take My Eyes Off You</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I Didnt Even Know If You Could Tell</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">That You Had Me In A Daze</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Sayin 'What The Hell'</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Here's My Name, Number Baby Just Hit My Cell</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Loving Everything You Do</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Cuz You Do It Well</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"> Dont Know What You Got Me Thinkin</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">You Aint Even Tryina Play Me Boy</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Cuz You're So Good, And You're So Fine</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"> Got Me Sayin Crazy Things,</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Listen I Aint Ever Met A Man Like That</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"> I Aint Ever Fell So Far, So Fast</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">You Can Turn Me On, Throw Me Off Track</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"> Boy You Do It, Do It You Do It, Do It You're Doin It Well (Repeat)</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Let Me Tell You How Its Gonna Go</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">You And Me, Gonna Need A Little Privacy</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I Dont Wanna Do The Dance, No Do-Si-Do</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I need A One Woman Man 7 Days A Week</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Quit Tryina Play It Cool Boy</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Make Your Move</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I Told You How It Is Nothin To Lose</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"> You Been Starin Over Here All Night For Free</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And I Aint Takin No Cash Or Credit, Just A Guarantee</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">There Aint Nobody Else But Me</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Boy You Aint Even Tryina Play Me Boy</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Cuz You're So Good, And You're So Fine</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Got Me Sayin Crazy Things,</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Listen I Aint Ever Met A Man Like That</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I Aint Ever Fell So Far, So Fast</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">You Can Turn Me On, Throw Me Off Track</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Boy You Do It, Do It You Do It, Do It You're Doin It Well (Repeat)</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"> Baby no need For False Pretenses</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Think You Just Shocked Me To My Senses</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Everything That You Do Feels Right</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Do It, Do It Do It, Do It All Night (Repeat)</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I Aint Ever Met A Man Like That</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"> I Aint Ever Fell So Far, So Fast</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">You Can Turn Me On, Throw Me Off Track</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"> Boy You Do It, Do It You Do It, Do It You're Doin It Well (Repeat To End)</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">MySpace Comments:</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></span><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><br /> <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_510647">Holy Crap! I love that video...never heard the song before now....but it rocks!<br /><br />I love the guy in the bunny mask getting spankied..LOL<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Saturday, October 27, 2007 - 10:43 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322867994#" id="addReplyLnk_510647" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322867994&commentID=510647" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-22801718062650637622007-10-26T08:43:00.000-04:002010-10-28T15:48:20.198-04:00Big Thank You All Around<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, October 26, 2007</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">Early for me..heheheh...I forgot what 8:30am looked like.<br /><br />Anyway, I need to tell you ALL Thank You.<br /><br />Thank You ALL from the bottom of my heart, to each and every one of you that extended your hand in friendship yesterday. The outpouring of mail, IM, phone text, phone calls , etc was a lot more then I expected.<br /><br />Listen to me when I tell you, I am FINE!! Thank you for caring, thank you for checking on me.<br /><br />Life is a constant circle. And I keep going forward. Today is a new day, and even though its a little chilly yet this morning (bbbrrrrrr) its always going to be blue skies ahead for me.<br /><br />I love life too much to get down and out.<br /><br />So ~smiles~ and ~hugs~ all around.<br /><br />xoxoxo<br />Chrys<br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">MySpace Comments:</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/137/s_fa51ecd3152c45d5ba5f2315e578e351.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Joey Vagance</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_509221">Life goes on sis. ~brotherly hugs n spins~<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a> on Friday, October 26, 2007 - 11:34 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322581544#" id="addReplyLnk_509221" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322581544&commentID=509221" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_509221"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/137/s_fa51ecd3152c45d5ba5f2315e578e351.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Joey Vagance</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_509222">Life goes on sis. ~brotherly hugs n spins~<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a> on Friday, October 26, 2007 - 11:34 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322581544#" id="addReplyLnk_509222" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322581544&commentID=509222" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_509222"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/137/s_fa51ecd3152c45d5ba5f2315e578e351.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Joey Vagance</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_509223">GRrrrrrrrrrr why do me posts keep doublin????<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a> on Friday, October 26, 2007 - 11:35 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322581544#" id="addReplyLnk_509223" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322581544&commentID=509223" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_509223"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">"Axel" Shepherd</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/65/s_ea9948575f0ed8f36b4e20b0524f7c73.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Robert Shepherd</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_509639">Just showin some luv!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">"Axel" Shepherd</a>on Friday, October 26, 2007 - 4:35 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322581544#" id="addReplyLnk_509639" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322581544&commentID=509639" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_509639"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_509643">LOL at Joey!<br />I am sorry to hear about Terry though, sweetie. Glad to hear you aren't throwing yourself into "the abyss," as Joey would say. {{{{{{{{{{{Sis}}}}}}}}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Friday, October 26, 2007 - 4:37 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322581544#" id="addReplyLnk_509643" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322581544&commentID=509643" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_509643"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/145/s_b223edabb8bd47d29b391fa183927089.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Ken Scott</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_511256">That's right baby, ALWAYS keep your head up! You got so much to offer! I pray for ya and may God hold ya in the palm of His hands! ♣<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a> on Saturday, October 27, 2007 - 8:24 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-26944016625347430562007-10-25T12:35:00.008-04:002010-10-28T15:53:53.704-04:00Terry’s Fate - The Last Good-Bye<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, October 25, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/4a8dc5902819.gif" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/4a8dc5902819.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">Words can not describe how I am feeling right now. How yet again someone so close to me is being taken away. How much death and destruction can one person be faced with in such a short amount of time. I wondered that with the passing of Elonna. And now, here I am facing it again just a matter of weeks later...:</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">Terry's fate. Left in the hands of others for something he did so long ago. Life always has a way of catching up with us. I guess we had hoped his would catch up with him later, rather then sooner. But that is not the way the world wanted to work for him. So as you know, his past did catch up with him. Word got out, and he fled to </span><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">Spain</span><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">. Their was a 2 month period where him and I did not talk. And when we finally did, he was sitting in a prison cell in </span><st1:city><st1:place><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">Belfast</span></st1:place></st1:city><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">. This past Friday began his sentencing trial. And today I received word from him while he was at his lawyer's office.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">We knew the day would come. This is why he pushed me so hard to get on with my life. And I think I have done a pretty good job of starting life over here. I have been full of a lot of Sunshine...<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"> We had a feeling this would be his fate. But nothing and I do mean nothing in this world can prepare you for such news.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">This beautiful man whom I have come to love and adore. This man who is my best friend and means so much to me. Has done so much for me. Is now being ripped away from me. To be disposed of like some piece of human garbage.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">Terry is being moved to </span><st1:country-region><st1:place><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">Belarus</span></st1:place></st1:country-region><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"> to be executed. He does not know when. Nor does he think we will ever be in touch again. We have said our goodbyes.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">Goodbye seems so final. So finished. So over. For me, it is not over. For his spirit, no matter how dark will live on. I know that part of him will always be around to protect me. To watch over me. My dark angel. For in lightness, we also have to have dark. I am not afraid. Some day I shall see him again.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">Now it is my turn to once again cry, vent, scream, and throw things in an ecstasy of rage. Bitch about how life just is not fair. And then, begin to heal and carry on in life.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">So, bear with me if I do not seem myself today. It is only my minds way of saying…I need to heal. I need some time to mend. And even if you don't see me crying, know I am crying on the inside.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">And please do not worry about me. I am going to be just fine.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">Time to write the final chapter of this book, close it, and continue to move on in life.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><br /></span></div><object height="340" width="560"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/3Zi1xweDRSA?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/3Zi1xweDRSA?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="560" height="340"></embed></object><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">The Last Goodbye</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Take me down this road</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I've been done here once before</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Take me down this road</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Once again, never again, forevermore</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Take me down this road once more</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Take this love</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Take this life</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Take this blood</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It'll never die</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Take this love</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Take this life</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Take this blood</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It'll never die</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">This ain't the last goodbye</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; 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font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It'll never die</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Take this love</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Take this life</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Take this blood</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It'll never die</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">This ain't the last goodbye</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Take this love</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Take this life</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Take this blood</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It'll never die</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Take this love</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Take this life</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Take this blood</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It'll never die</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">This ain't the last goodbye</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">MySpace Comments:</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 67px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/143/s_294e8995c07b45a792dbde894b7d3ad3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_507615">You are right when you say that you will see him again - love and friendship such as yours does not die with the body - but lives in spirit. Bless him and keep him - and do not say "goodbye" - say "see you in another time".<br /><br />Much love and big hugs.<br />P.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a>on Thursday, October 25, 2007 - 1:05 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322321904#" id="addReplyLnk_507615" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322321904&commentID=507615" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><label id="NewDiv_507615"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">fairreegrl</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/22/s_26331e8169ff4a24a978b1eb2b944eaf.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_507637">~huggin ya close~ Ahh Chrys.. I am so sorry sweet lady.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">fairreegrl</a>on Thursday, October 25, 2007 - 1:19 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322321904#" id="addReplyLnk_507637" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322321904&commentID=507637" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_507637"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=26416851" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ Sõft Sèxy & Snügglâbly Wårm Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=26416851" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/106/s_555d990d7f4945c5ba49962e1118c97b.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Jessica Betts</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_507663">Oh girl I just want to cry for you. For such a sweet person to have to go through so many losses, it just seems so unfair. You deserve nothing but sunshine in your life. ~Big Hugs~<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=26416851" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ Sõft Sèxy & Snügglâbly Wårm Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ</a>on Thursday, October 25, 2007 - 1:37 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322321904#" id="addReplyLnk_507663" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322321904&commentID=507663" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=26416851" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_507663"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_508336">I am so sorry, Chrys! I had hoped there would be a different outcome. So many losses for you in such a short time. {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Thursday, October 25, 2007 - 8:19 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322321904#" id="addReplyLnk_508336" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322321904&commentID=508336" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_508336"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">"Axel" Shepherd</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/65/s_ea9948575f0ed8f36b4e20b0524f7c73.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Robert Shepherd</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_508434">Words fail me, I don't know what to say, I'm sorry just doesn't say it. I wish I could do or say something to ease your pain.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">"Axel" Shepherd</a>on Thursday, October 25, 2007 - 9:35 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322321904#" id="addReplyLnk_508434" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322321904&commentID=508434" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=103138616" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=138930177" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">andrew</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=138930177" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/50/s_0951bdd6f840aebbee131441a6770b87.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_508622">wow. {hugs}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=138930177" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">andrew</a> on Friday, October 26, 2007 - 12:42 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322321904#" id="addReplyLnk_508622" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322321904&commentID=508622" style="color: #003399; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/137/s_fa51ecd3152c45d5ba5f2315e578e351.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Joey Vagance</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_509219">He was quite a man. His spirit shall defintely live on.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a> on Friday, October 26, 2007 - 11:32 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322321904#" id="addReplyLnk_509219" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322321904&commentID=509219" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_509219"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/137/s_fa51ecd3152c45d5ba5f2315e578e351.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Joey Vagance</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_509220">He was quite a man. His spirit shall defintely live on.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a> on Friday, October 26, 2007 - 11:32 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322321904#" id="addReplyLnk_509220" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322321904&commentID=509220" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Brian Kinney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_510075">Shit...dont know what to say besides sorry baby...<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a> on Friday, October 26, 2007 - 10:17 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322321904#" id="addReplyLnk_510075" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=322321904&commentID=510075" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, October 24, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/716001f8e9ee.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/716001f8e9ee.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div align="center"><strong>I wear a shamrock in my heart.</strong></div><div align="center">Three in one, one in three---</div><div align="center"><strong>Truth</strong> and <strong>love</strong> and <strong>faith</strong>,</div><div align="center"><strong>Tears</strong> and <strong>pain</strong> and <strong>death</strong>;</div><div align="center"><strong>O sweet my shamrock is to me!</strong></div><div align="center">Lay me in my hollow bed,</div><div align="center">Grow the shamrock over me.</div><div align="center">Three in one, one in three,</div><div align="center">Faith and hope and charity,</div><div align="center">Peace and rest and silence be</div><div align="center">With me where you lay my head;</div><div align="center">O dear the shamrocks are to me!</div><div align="center">~Lady Gilbert~<br /><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_506352">Aaahh... What a great blog! Ya need to sing it to me milady! ;) ♣<br /><br /><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i126.photobucket.com/albums/p88/irishdog36/SHAMROCKS.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a> on Wednesday, October 24, 2007 - 6:37 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=321982517#" id="addReplyLnk_506352" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=321982517&commentID=506352" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_506352"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_506456">Awesome! Thanks for sharing!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Wednesday, October 24, 2007 - 8:23 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=321982517#" id="addReplyLnk_506456" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=321982517&commentID=506456" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-59822339858328203692007-10-23T09:55:00.008-04:002010-10-28T14:49:50.136-04:00Another Chapter ....or Two<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Tuesday, October 23, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">No Loss for words.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Certainly have plenty of those.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Just can't figure out the jumbled mess in my head.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">How to start. Where to start. What's the beginning and how shall it end.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Does it really even end?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Boy when the Goddesses answer, they make it pour.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Not at a loss for words, I just have too many.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Is that really even possible? For me to have too many words?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am still feeling torn, what to share, what to keep to myself.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">What is this person going to say, or that person going to think?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Not that it has ever mattered to me before. But right now, I just have so much inside that I am sure I would feel better about if I shared it…especially since some of it is good. But what is the price I pay for sharing?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I can not believe I am even awake. Here it is <st1:time hour="9" minute="10">9:10am</st1:time>and I am wide awake. Lately, my mind keeps me awake until <st1:time hour="5" minute="0">5am</st1:time>and I am up every 30 mins. Finally between 11 and 1 I roll my ass out of bed and DO SOMETHING. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I read. It keeps my mind active. I write. And goodness knows I have written so much since moving here. I have stuff to be submitted. I just can't seem to get past the whole process of actually DOING it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The one thing weighing heavily on my mind right now is Terry. Friday they came and got him and took him to the courthouse to begin his sentencing trial. It is to my understanding he will stay in that holding cell until it is over. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">This means no access to the outside world. Period. So, I have no way of knowing what's going on in his world right now. It is hard, when someone you care about so much is going through such a thing and there is nothing you can do in this world to help, or to "fix" it. So now, all I can do is wait. Once again left waiting, wondering, hoping, wishing. When one is faced with life or death, what does one hope for? Just when I think I have my feelings sorted, I rethink the situation and my mind changes. This is a daily thing.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I sure have been faced with a lot of trials and tribulations in life. One would think it would slow down at some point for me. But it never has. I have seen more death and destruction in the last 22 months then any one person should ever have to bear with. This must be my test in life. I believe everything happens for a reason. I believe Terry and I crossed paths for a reason. Sometimes that reason is very clear. Sometimes I doubt it and it becomes cloudy. The darkness within him sometimes is even too much for either of us to carry. But it is what it is. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Everything that has happened to me in life as made me stronger. And now, here lies the test. Will what ever happens to Terry be my breaking point in life, or will I carry on in my world full of happiness.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I guess I can not really answer that. I know what I choose. I choose to remain a constant in life full of happiness and smiles. No matter what happens, that is how Terry would want it to be anyway. So, for now, I will cherish the time we had in life together. The powers that be that connected us, and keep holding on to my beliefs that even in life and in death, he will be with me and I will see him again.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I see another chapter to be written there.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">A jumbled mess in my mind.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">A constant back and forth battle that goes round and round.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">There are some other things going on in my day to day world.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Something else that constantly turns my world around and around for about the last 2 months now. Back and forth. Thoughts. I rant and rave and get angry. The Irish temper flairs. I leave. I go back for more. Why does life have to be such a battle? I am not the fighter here. But yet I seem to be the one doing the fighting. What round are we on now? Who is keeping the score? Who is going to ring the bell and declare the winner? Should not be a winner, or a loser. Should be a constant equal. Should be. But I often wonder if it is. I want it to be. The same page, the same chapter. But I think a different book is being written. Get out your pencil, its time to take a quiz. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Feelings. Ugh I hate feelings. Why can't they just be easy? Or better yet just go away. Leave me alone and let me stay numb to it all. Under my skin. Itches. I scratch and yet it still there. Nothing I do will make it go away. It just keeps coming back. More and more and more. My powers have no affect. But then again, thinking back, maybe they do. I did ask, maybe the Goddess within listened. But, She should know what's right and wrong for me by now. So I have no choice to put my trust in Her with the hopes that the powers that be will prevail. OR perhaps, tis I the one being tested. I gave up on Her a long long time ago. And have only recently called Her back into my life. This is a test. Hopefully, I shall pass. The itch will go away, but the thing that gets left behind shall stay. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Dangerous. Could be dangerous. But, I like danger. I like excitement.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">A new chapter starts. A big ray of sunshine. I see something I have never seen before. No, not the sunshine, for that I see. But something around it. Can't quite put my finger on it. Something I am not used to. It baffles me. I take it as it comes, but I am unsure I am doing the right thing.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am only human after all.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">More thoughts swim.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Grab the bait, throw the line and see what gets pulled out of this mind.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Musings. That's all it is.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">A cryptic message that perhaps only I can understand. Sometimes I wonder if even I can understand it. I have no decoder. So what shall I do?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Well, I know what I am going to do now, I am going to finish up my wonderful, warm coffee and ignore the fact it's cold and rainy out. I am going to think about the wonderful things I do have in my life and I am going to happily take my arse and have a war with my treadmill and see if I can not clear out some of this jumbled up fragments of words and put together some sort of clear thought.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Maybe. We shall see.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I hope you all enjoy your Tuesday.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">XOXO</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">~Chrys~</div><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_505570">{{{{HUGS}}}} I hope for the best for Terry! I don't know what he did,but I am sure he had his reasons. Take care of yourself!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Tuesday, October 23, 2007 - 8:32 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=321648206#" id="addReplyLnk_505570" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=321648206&commentID=505570" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><label id="NewDiv_505570"></label></span><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=14904163" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">-Twink-</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=14904163" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/55/s_95876e1e56c177d4386c78d3d6bb4c1f.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_507573">Your doing the right thing keep your mind busy,enjoy your warm java. It's in God's hand whatever shall be. I don't know all of the story about Terry, hope all will be well. Take care and keep your heart in tack. Keep the faith always.<br /><br />love n peace<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=14904163" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">-Twink-</a> on Thursday, October 25, 2007 - 12:35 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-20318826286568519472007-10-21T23:31:00.004-04:002010-10-28T14:54:59.892-04:00Just Ramblings<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Sunday, October 21, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/f98aa28d30f8.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/f98aa28d30f8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div align="center"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/bacb11556638.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"></a></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I can't sit still.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Never to be idle.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Never to sit and waist time.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">No, I can't sit and watch life pass me by.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I don't heal like most do. I don't take a step back in life. I always keep moving forward. I might take a moment or two to breathe and perhaps rant, but then I just keep going.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So fucking hyperactive it's ridiculous.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So I had a fabulous weekend. A weekend full of laughs and smiles.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And now, I sit here, writing my words, pondering. What to say, what to do. What to reveal and what to keep to myself. I have always been so open. But, for the last few days so much has happen in my world that I do not know what to hold on to. What to just keep here for myself, and what bits and pieces to pass along. Ramblings. Inside my head is so much ramble. There is a lot there.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">My body sits, but my mind keeps going. It won't shut off. There is no on and off switch.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Afraid to sleep these days. Dreams holding the key to my life's events. Afraid of what I am going to find out in my dreams. What's going on? What's the answer that I seek? And why should I be afraid. I have never been afraid of what my dreams brought me before. This time, it's different. It is quite literally a matter of life and death. I need to know. Don't want to know. Have to know. Spins me around and around. Please someone make it stop. Stop this madness that goes and goes in my mind. I know the answer. The answer to make it stop. But that is not an option. No. No. I refuse to even accept that. So on and on I go. I am not selfish. I am not heartless. I don't do this for me. I do this for the one that needs me most in the world. Everyone needs human contact. Everyone needs a link to the outside world. I am that link.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I seem to be a link for many powerful things. Gifts people call them. I often wonder how I was picked. Why me? Out of all the people in the world, how is one chosen for such things? Sometimes I want to throw them away, throw them in the trash never to be seen again. But, I have been dealing with this since I can remember, at the age of at least 6 or 7. So it is so much a part of me, that being without it, I would almost feel naked.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, let's not imagine me running around naked. That is not the direction this blog is going in.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">There is a darkness that follows me. I know why. And I am not scared. As a matter of fact, I feel calm and at peace. I feel protected.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I climbed a little bit...</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">kept going</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And right now, I am on top of the world.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Still, some things in life need to change and be taken care of...and they shall...it will all fall in to place.<br /><br /><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">"Axel" Shepherd</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/65/s_ea9948575f0ed8f36b4e20b0524f7c73.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Robert Shepherd</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_502638">... In the darkest night, when it feels that no one is there, lonliness takes its toll. But, though the darkness swallows you whole just know that you are never alone. Know that my thoughts go with you, into those lonely corners of dreams dark demise. When you need a hand, I will offer one.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">"Axel" Shepherd</a>on Monday, October 22, 2007 - 12:01 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=321227928#" id="addReplyLnk_502638" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=321227928&commentID=502638" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><label id="NewDiv_502638"></label></span><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">fairreegrl</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/22/s_26331e8169ff4a24a978b1eb2b944eaf.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_502664">Gifts can often feel like burdens.. just as in the yin and yang of life.. the dark to light.. we choose from day to day which way to go.. never easy and always difficult to be different.. but at the same time Chrys.. who the hell wants to be normal? Trust in yourself as I know you do... and as you say, it will all fall into place.<br />My blessings and ~warmest hugs~<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">fairreegrl</a>on Monday, October 22, 2007 - 12:36 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-32254221261275219622007-10-19T02:18:00.000-04:002010-10-27T20:37:30.513-04:00Terry: After Another, T/c for Eternity<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, October 19, 2007 Terry O'Malley</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 15px;">This is My last blog for awhile, possibly for all time. Making it a good one, here are the latest in the steamy affair between ~c~ and Myself.<br /><br />~T~</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 15px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 15px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 15px;">To read the story - please visit my other blog Erotic Confessions.</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 15px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 15px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 15px;"><a href="http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/2007/10/terry-one-orgasm-after-another-tc-for.html"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: xx-large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">One Orgasm After Another, T/c for Eternity (Adults ONLY!)</span></span></span></a></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-39722475449198943912007-10-18T03:30:00.007-04:002010-10-28T14:59:33.252-04:00Set Me Free - In Ireland<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, October 18, 2007</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Irish/Rainbows/An_Irish_Rainbow_by_nineblind.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Irish/Scenic/Irish_Castle_by_endo354.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ireland</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I want to come home to you</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">To walk outside</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">In the morning dew</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><st1:country-region><st1:place>Ireland</st1:place></st1:country-region></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Where I long to be</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have to get there</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Cant you see?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So much more then just a vacation</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The people</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">My family</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">My friends</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The nation.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><st1:country-region><st1:place>Ireland</st1:place></st1:country-region></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I longed for all along</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">My heart</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">My soul</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Tell me</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Its where I belong.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Follow me there</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Just you and me</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Spread my wings</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And watch me fly</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Watch me go free.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">© C.H. <st1:date day="18" m..?10?="" year="2007">10/18/07</st1:date></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><st1:date day="18" m..?10?="" year="2007"><br /></st1:date></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><st1:date day="18" m..?10?="" year="2007"><br /></st1:date></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><st1:date day="18" m..?10?="" year="2007">MySpace Comments</st1:date></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><st1:date day="18" m..?10?="" year="2007"><br /></st1:date></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><st1:date day="18" m..?10?="" year="2007"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></st1:date></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">"Axel" Shepherd</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/65/s_ea9948575f0ed8f36b4e20b0524f7c73.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Robert Shepherd</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_498532">I wish for all your wishes to come true, always. Nothing in life is happier then to see another person happy. May all your dreams come true and may you fly free forever and a day.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">"Axel" Shepherd</a>on Thursday, October 18, 2007 - 3:54 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=320128936#" id="addReplyLnk_498532" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=320128936&commentID=498532" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=103138616" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_498532"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_498542">Awesome! I can't wait for you to get there! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Thursday, October 18, 2007 - 6:42 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=320128936#" id="addReplyLnk_498542" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=320128936&commentID=498542" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_498542"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/137/s_fa51ecd3152c45d5ba5f2315e578e351.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Joey Vagance</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_498648">I feels much the same. How I miss her.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a> on Thursday, October 18, 2007 - 10:32 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=320128936#" id="addReplyLnk_498648" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=320128936&commentID=498648" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_498648"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_499289">Awesome pics & poem! We both dream of going to dear Ireland...our hearts are there!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Thursday, October 18, 2007 - 9:46 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=320128936#" id="addReplyLnk_499289" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=320128936&commentID=499289" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/90/s_fb5c9a52bb6eabebec47005d6fa13620.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_499445">I long for being in Ireland as well, but more importantly, I long for being with YOU.<br />I love you so much, My precious lady ~c~<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a> on Friday, October 19, 2007 - 12:56 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=320128936#" id="addReplyLnk_499445" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=320128936&commentID=499445" style="color: #003399; 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These are excerpts from emails written over the past few days. These words that passed between the two of us say it all, to Me.<br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 15px;">~T~</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 15px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 15px;"><br />To read the rest of this story from Terry you will have to visit my other blog Erotic Confessions.</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 15px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 15px;"><a href="http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/2007/10/terry-tc-forever.html"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: xx-large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">T/c Forever (Adults ONLY!)</span></span></span></a></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 15px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 15px;"><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-75049604606616450482007-10-16T11:53:00.007-04:002010-10-28T15:02:30.813-04:00My Stupid Ex Husband<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Tuesday, October 16, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />I am writing this blog today beacuse their are so many of you out there that know him. I just want you to understand some of the stupid shit I have had to put up with for the last 10 years.<br /><br />All I hear is "oh he was such a nice guy" "Oh he treated you so good" "you guys seemes so happy together."<br /><br />Blah.<br /><br />First , I never said he was a bad person, or the he treated me bad. And on the surface we were happy. It was me the was dying on the inside. So many things lacking in that marriage that is just finally ate me alive and I had to make the choice to walk away.<br /><br />One of the biggest things was communication. Their just was not any. No one can survive a one sided marriage. It just is not going to work. Over time my love left and it was pointless for me to stay.<br /><br />At anyrate, for those of you who still bump in to him, please explain to him that I am not a child, and to Shut the F*ck Up.<br /><br />I get this phone call from him this morning. Funny in the aspect he never talks to me anymore. So, hes all trying to tell me about the lawyer and how he hasnt been able to get in touch with him and so he has no idea if my notorized papers I sent two weeks ago made it. He has no idea when the court date is to see the judge and blah blah.<br /><br />Again, proving my point on the stupid male population. UGH!<br /><br />Then, he starts to talk to me like I am a child. Fuck that I already have 2 worthless fathers, I certainly do not need another one.<br /><br />He then goes on to give me at least a 15 min lecture on my cell phone usage. Well fucking DUH. I have an oklahoma cell phone that we cant get turned off until the divorce is final because we will be slapped with an early termination fee. So, even though I am calling my friends back home and using my minutes, I am still roaming. And when I call people here, its roaming and long distance.<br /><br />And I dont fucking care. So many things came to the surface after the divorce, shit he had done. I did not give a fuck if I rang up a hellious phone bill. He can afford it, and its the least he can do.<br /><br />So then I get even more shit about the text messages. Apparently I have sent out over 2200 texts. HAHAHHAAHHA..why am I not surprised.<br /><br />As he goes on, I am trying not to laugh. Thinking to myself you get just what you deserve.<br /><br />I have a michigan cell, but why use the minutes on it, when the other one I dont pay for??? LOL<br /><br />So, for those of you who have my OK cell number, message me and I will give you the MI cell number. I suppose I can start transfering everyone over. Besides its only a matter of time before the lawyer pulls his head out of his ass and the divorce is final , therefor causing the ex to march down to the cell phone place and turn off my phone.<br /><br />So, as I am being lectured, sitting here feeling like a child, he asks me if I have anything to say.<br /><br />I say yeah, if you would of let me keep my car, I could have just went and visited all these people I was calling and not have to worry about a monster phone bill.<br /><br />And I hung up.<br /><br />I have a point and I made it.<br /><br />I took nothing, he got everything, he can deal with the cell phone.<br /><br />I will be so glad when this is all over.<br /><br />Just counting down the days.<br /><br />MySpace Comments:<span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 67px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/143/s_294e8995c07b45a792dbde894b7d3ad3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_496526">God you are good!!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a>on Tuesday, October 16, 2007 - 12:22 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=319552645#" id="addReplyLnk_496526" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=319552645&commentID=496526" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_496526"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/90/s_fb5c9a52bb6eabebec47005d6fa13620.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_498473">Wow.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a> on Thursday, October 18, 2007 - 1:28 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=319552645#" id="addReplyLnk_498473" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=319552645&commentID=498473" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_498473"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_499285">Girl I know how ya feel on that one...but if you had the strength to walk away...you will only grow stronger as time passes & you find yourself again.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Thursday, October 18, 2007 - 9:44 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=319552645#" id="addReplyLnk_499285" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=319552645&commentID=499285" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-36975603933592124882007-10-15T22:45:00.000-04:002010-10-28T15:04:34.015-04:00Beautiful Remains<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Monday, October 15, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/8cbfb4c3f78a.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/8cbfb4c3f78a.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am beautiful</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">No matter what you say</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am beautiful</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And this is one game</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I will not play.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">You will not hurt me</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Nor get under my skin</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">This is one game</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">You just won't win.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am beautiful</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Both inside and out</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Too bad this is your loss</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">For it's not me,</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">You get to learn about.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am beautiful</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">A real woman</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Who's honest and true</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Considerate and kind</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Always open</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And will speak my mind.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Willing to love</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And willing to give</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But I won't be wasting my time</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">With the likes of you.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">For I am beautiful</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And won't be brought down</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">On my face remains a smile</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">No longer your frown.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">There is no game here left to be played</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have paid my price</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So put away the dice</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Its time for me to walk away.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">© C.M. 10/14/07<br /><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=89162783" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Mingus O'Bannon</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=89162783" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/42/s_da8a59384995a3b19c0772ea52e5b379.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_496156">You ARE beautiful, and so is your poem. Thanks for sharing. The forth verse made me laugh. It's good that you haven't lost your sass. There's nothing more beautiful than a strong, intelligent woman. Keep it up.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=89162783" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Mingus O'Bannon</a>on Monday, October 15, 2007 - 11:44 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=319423374#" id="addReplyLnk_496156" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=319423374&commentID=496156" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=89162783" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><label id="NewDiv_496156"></label></span><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/90/s_fb5c9a52bb6eabebec47005d6fa13620.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_496204">Bloody right, you tell them, sweetness.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a> on Tuesday, October 16, 2007 - 12:39 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=319423374#" id="addReplyLnk_496204" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_496307">Just dropping off some {{{{HUGS}}}} for my beautiful Irish one!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Tuesday, October 16, 2007 - 6:45 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=319423374#" id="addReplyLnk_496307" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=319423374&commentID=496307" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><label id="NewDiv_496307"></label></span><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 67px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/143/s_294e8995c07b45a792dbde894b7d3ad3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_496375">You ROCK....plain and simple!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a>on Tuesday, October 16, 2007 - 9:20 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=319423374#" id="addReplyLnk_496375" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=319423374&commentID=496375" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">fairreegrl</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/22/s_26331e8169ff4a24a978b1eb2b944eaf.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_502395">awesome.. ~hugs~ and love.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">fairreegrl</a>on Sunday, October 21, 2007 - 7:36 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=319423374#" id="addReplyLnk_502395" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=319423374&commentID=502395" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-66902442009022749282007-10-14T23:39:00.002-04:002010-10-28T15:07:32.344-04:00I’ve Had Enough Already<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Sunday, October 14, 2007</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/part32.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">What do I want?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, its been suggested that I make myself some sort of a list and figure out exactly what it is I want.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">How?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">How does one do this? I mean, right now I feel like I am at Baskin Robbins home of the 31 flavors and I am sampling a taste of each.<span> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">After the recent drama I went through, maybe Joey was right. Maybe despite knowing on some level what I was looking for, maybe, just maybe, I really needed to dig deeper. I started a list.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Someone who</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Doesn't want to own me</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Or control me</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Just lets me be</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Will love me</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Respect me</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Not reject me</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Does accept me</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Free to be</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Just me</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">That's the biggest issue people seam to have. They want to change me. Morph me in to what suits them better. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Sorry. I am not programmed like that.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I will not compromise me!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The other problem I have is they don't want to listen. Right now, I am just in the dating pool.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Besides I need TRUST and it's sort of hard to be in a relationship right from the start with someone you just met. You have to earn your trust I am not going to just hand it to you on a silver platter.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">No secrets</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">No lies</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am very open and I expect you to be as well</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Communication is a MUST</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Without it the relationship falls apart.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Is this really too much to ask for?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Apparently it is, as I am finding out.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I think I am taking myself out of the dating pool.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">In recent turn of events that I really care not to get into, rather then leaving me angry and able to walk away, it has left me hurting and crying on the inside, unsure of myself and what to do.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I don't like feeling this way. So it's safer to just close up shop and just run away.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">MySpace Comments:</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/90/s_fb5c9a52bb6eabebec47005d6fa13620.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_495137">Sweetness, I don't know what else to say besides what I wrote to you in email.<br />I certainly wish I were able to give you what you need.<br />Although, the owning and controlling part, we would have to compromise on.<br />Winks...<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a> on Monday, October 15, 2007 - 1:03 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=319115027#" id="addReplyLnk_495137" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=319115027&commentID=495137" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_495137"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/145/s_b223edabb8bd47d29b391fa183927089.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Ken Scott</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_495151">Aahh just drink Guinness and have a great time and wait until a real MAN comes around... Sorry to hear about the dating not going so good... Cheers to ya & slainte to my fucking bad ass friend! ;) &club;<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a> on Monday, October 15, 2007 - 1:41 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=319115027#" id="addReplyLnk_495151" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=319115027&commentID=495151" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_495151"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_495251">I so do NOT envy you! LOL! I don't think I would do very well with the whole dating thing! I am happy to say that it has been more than 26 years since I have had to do that! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Monday, October 15, 2007 - 6:46 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=319115027#" id="addReplyLnk_495251" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=319115027&commentID=495251" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_495251"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_495358">My poor {{{{{{{{{{{{sis}}}}}}}}}}}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Monday, October 15, 2007 - 11:26 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-17025336980135936412007-10-14T15:14:00.001-04:002010-11-15T15:15:28.716-05:00What Do I Want?<div class="MsoNormal">What do I want?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, its been suggested that I make myself some sort of a list and figure out exactly what it is I want. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">How?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">How does one do this? I mean, right now I feel like I am at Baskin Robbins home of the 31 flavors and I am sampling a taste of each.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">After the recent drama I went through, maybe Joey was right. Maybe despite knowing on some level what I was looking for, maybe, just maybe, I really needed to dig deeper. I started a list. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Someone who</div><div class="MsoNormal">Doesn’t want to own me</div><div class="MsoNormal">Or control me</div><div class="MsoNormal">Just lets me be</div><div class="MsoNormal">Will love me</div><div class="MsoNormal">Respect me</div><div class="MsoNormal">Not reject me</div><div class="MsoNormal">Does accept me</div><div class="MsoNormal">Free to be</div><div class="MsoNormal">Just me</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">That’s the biggest issue people seam to have. They want to change me. Morph me in to what suits them better. Sorry. I am not programmed like that. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I will not compromise me!</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The other problem I have is they don't want to listen. Right now, I am just in the dating pool. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Besides I need TRUST and it’s sort of hard to be in a relationship right from the start with someone you just met. You have to earn your trust I am not going to just hand it to you on a silver platter.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">No secrets</div><div class="MsoNormal">No lies</div><div class="MsoNormal">I am very open and I expect you to be as well</div><div class="MsoNormal">Communication is a MUST</div><div class="MsoNormal">Without it the relationship falls apart.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Is this really too much to ask for?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Apparently it is, as I am finding out.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I think I am taking myself out of the dating pool. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">In recent turn of events that I really care not to get into, rather then leaving me angry and able to walk away, it has left me hurting and crying on the inside, unsure of myself and what to do. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I don’t like feeling this way. So it’s safer to just close up shop and just run away.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-88398091218079374302007-10-11T22:36:00.000-04:002010-10-28T15:12:37.931-04:00Missing<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, October 11, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"></span><br /><div style="border-bottom-color: rgb(214, 214, 231); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 1pt; border-left-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-left-width: medium; border-right-color: initial; border-right-style: none; border-right-width: medium; border-top-color: initial; border-top-style: none; border-top-width: medium; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; padding-bottom: 0in; padding-left: 0in; padding-right: 0in; padding-top: 0in;"><div align="center" class="NormalWeb1" style="border-bottom-color: initial; border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: medium; border-left-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-left-width: medium; border-right-color: initial; border-right-style: none; border-right-width: medium; border-top-color: initial; border-top-style: none; border-top-width: medium; margin-bottom: 9pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0in; padding-left: 0in; padding-right: 0in; padding-top: 0in;"><b><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 14pt;">Disclaimer! Please Read!!</span></b><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 14pt;"></span><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="NormalWeb1" style="border-bottom-color: initial; border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: medium; border-left-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-left-width: medium; border-right-color: initial; border-right-style: none; border-right-width: medium; border-top-color: initial; border-top-style: none; border-top-width: medium; margin-bottom: 9pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0in; padding-left: 0in; padding-right: 0in; padding-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 14pt;"></span><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="NormalWeb1" style="border-bottom-color: initial; border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: medium; border-left-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-left-width: medium; border-right-color: initial; border-right-style: none; border-right-width: medium; border-top-color: initial; border-top-style: none; border-top-width: medium; margin-bottom: 9pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0in; padding-left: 0in; padding-right: 0in; padding-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 14pt;">This blog will contain things that are not exactly suitable for all, and will be a little sexually graphic in nature. Hell, it will also be VERY long, and is a testament to naughty my mind can go. If you DO NOT like sexual fantasies, and you especially don't like ones that might be a little over the top, then crying to the blog server , your friends, me, or your mommy, will not overcome the fact that you are an idiot for reading past here. Thank you … For those of you still here at this point, grab your popcorn and pull up the chair, kick your feet up.</span><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><o:p></o:p></span></div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: medium; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Castellar;">And now for the regularly scheduled irishchik program!</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: medium; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Castellar;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Castellar;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"><a href="http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/2007/10/missing.html"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: purple;">Click Here for : Erotic Confessions - Missing</span></a></span></b></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-89779745173210968742007-10-10T22:42:00.002-04:002010-10-28T15:15:33.953-04:00Make Like A Dolphin<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, October 10, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/83bf1361a95d.gif" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/83bf1361a95d.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/d22f210c75d6.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/d22f210c75d6.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">People often ask me, "Chrys, what's with the dolphin tattoo?" It just doesn't seem to have any rhyme or reason to fit in with the rest of my tattoos. Sure it, it may not have an Irish / Celtic/ luck theme to it; however it does fit with ME.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">This was the 2<sup>nd</sup> tat I got back around 97. It was a night of birthday, good parties, good times and good friends deep in the streets of Austin Texas. Austin had become a popular hang out for me in college. My best friend at the time was from there, so we were constantly taking road trips. Those were some of the best times of my life. So many stories, so much fun.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I was sitting here today, thinking about my life long ago. Well it seems to long ago. I thought I had life figured out. I thought I knew exactly what path I was to follow and where I was going to end up.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The dolphin was more then just a symbol of life for me. It was what I wanted to do with life. My dream of being a marine biologist and studying dolphins was shattered. For reasons I care not to rehash today. But I never stopped learning everything I could about this animal. This animal that I could never own or control in life like a cat or a dog, but an animal that brought me so much inner peace.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">For anyone that is a fan of Poe, might just know where I am going with this.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">For those that do now, here once again here is a lyrical spin for you.<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 9pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #4c1130;">Poe - Dolphin<o:p></o:p></span></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 9pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #4c1130;">There's a broken beam inside of the big big bridge<br />I guess that whole thing is caving in<br />Maybe it is time I learn how to swim<br />I'll be a dolphin, I'll be a dolphin<br />Sometimes I think I'm breaking down<br />And other times I think that I'm fine<br />But something got into my engine<br />It slowed me down<br />Now I gotta turn this whole thing around<br />I'm gonna be a dolphin<br />Gonna be a dolphin<br />I'm gonna be a dolphin<br />Gonna be a dolphin<br />There's not a lot I believe anymore<br />I mistrust everything I had been longing for<br />There's not a lot that I know anymore<br />But I know if good bridge is burning<br />You gotta be a dolphin...You gotta be a dolphin<br />You gotta be a dolphin...You gotta be a dolphin<br />Sometimes I think you're crazy and sick<br />And other time I think you're so fine<br />But I know I'm in danger 'cause you feel like a stranger<br />And I know that something's going give<br />When I dive into that ocean<br />God I hope I don't sink like a stone -- no<br />I'm gonna move like a dolphin<br />There may be a lot I don't know about you<br />But I know if I don't swim<br />I'm already drowning<br />'Cause a broken bridge<br />Is a broken bridge<br />So I swim to you now<br />Here I come...Here I come<br />Here I come...Here I come<br />I'll be a dolphin<br />There's a broken beam inside of the big big bridge<br />I guess that this time I'll have swim (I'll swim...)<o:p></o:p></span></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 9pt;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 9pt;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 9pt;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 9pt;"><o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 9pt;">Now, I take a look at my life today. What I have been through in the last 10 years. I often wonder did I make the right choices. I wonder why. Why, why why.<o:p></o:p></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 9pt;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 9pt;">Then I think I am like a dolphin these days. Swimming around life. Hoping not to sink. Simply tasting freedom.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 9pt;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 9pt;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 9pt;">MySpace Comments:</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 9pt;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 9pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">T~</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/90/s_fb5c9a52bb6eabebec47005d6fa13620.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_491146">YES you made the right choices, stop wondering and start enjoying your life, baby. Dolphins do not just swim around, hoping not to sink. They leap through the air, and experience great joy. Experience life, sweetness, don't just muddle through. Take huge gulps, not small tastes.<br />Enjoy life, it is far too short not to, baby.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a> on Thursday, October 11, 2007 - 12:20 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=317959411#" id="addReplyLnk_491146" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=317959411&commentID=491146" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 9pt;"><label id="NewDiv_491146"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_491276">Dolphins are "fun" they like to play! Have fun today! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Thursday, October 11, 2007 - 7:56 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=317959411#" id="addReplyLnk_491276" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=317959411&commentID=491276" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_491276"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=146472038" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♠Sparrows¤In¤†he¤Murder♠ </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=146472038" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/117/s_41d53951cf204832a07cca4c527570fc.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Sid Duece</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_491860">wanted to be a marine biologist too, always thought dolphins were hiding so much knowledge and spirit inside them that we have yet to really understand. i think thats why i love the song Incubus made - The Warmth , becuase of the sirenic moans of the guitar and violin reproduced marine sounds at the beging before the phycodelic sythe hits.<br /><br />the poem, first time ive read it but i already feel pre-attached to it. Well thats calmed me down for the evening.. guna go hit that song "and leave the air behind me clear" ;p<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=146472038" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♠Sparrows¤In¤†he¤Murder♠</a>on Thursday, October 11, 2007 - 9:50 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=317959411#" id="addReplyLnk_491860" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=317959411&commentID=491860" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=146472038" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_491860"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/101/s_8e48a096b55142feb702353b1614d8a8.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_493390">I love this Chrys!! The poem is so powerful & a dolphin is a wonderful creature! Here is a little something for ya....<br /><br /><br /><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i159.photobucket.com/albums/t145/akamissrubytuesday/2uj78du.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><br /><br />Hope to get to chat again soon...have a great weekend!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42893684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">ღ J.D. ღ</a> on Saturday, October 13, 2007 - 9:55 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=317959411#" id="addReplyLnk_493390" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Brian Kinney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_493985">~~~hugs you...<br />I understand...<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a>on Saturday, October 13, 2007 - 10:28 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-73343124681868507842007-10-10T00:37:00.000-04:002010-10-28T15:17:36.123-04:00Find A Way - Get To Me<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, October 10, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_317681548" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Anything is possible if you just try.<br />You can make it work if you really want it to.<br />Point is, not to give up.<br />Things will not always be this way.<br />Nothing is constant, things always change.<br />Forever moving forward.<br />One step at a time.<br />~C~<br />*********************************************************************</span></div><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_317681548" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></div><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_317681548" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47;">Well an airplane's faster than a Cadillac<br />And a whole lot smoother than a camel's back<br />But I don't care how you get to me<br />Just get to me<br />Parasail or first class mail<br />Get on the back of a Nightingale<br />Just get to me I don't care just get to me<br />Prokeds, mopeds take a limousine instead<br />They ain't cheap but they're easy to find<br />Get on the highway point yourself my way<br />Take a roller coaster that comes in sideways<br />Just get to me - yeah<br /><br />Go on hitch a ride on the back<br />of a butterfly<br />There's no better way to fly<br />To get to me<br />I look around at what I got<br />And without you, it ain't a lot<br />But I got every, with you, everything<br /><br />Maybe you could pollinate over the<br />Golden Gate<br />Take a left hand turn at the corner<br />Of Haight<br />And then a sharp right<br />At the first street light<br />And get yourself on a motor bike<br />And if you think you'll get stuck in a<br />traffic jam<br />That's fine, send yourself through a telephone line<br />It doesn't matter how you get to me<br />Just get to me<br /><br />Cause after every day<br />The wind blows the night time my way<br />And I imagine that you are<br />Above me like a star<br />And you keep on glowing<br />And you keep on showing me the way<br />SHINE SHINE SHINE<br /><br />Train- Get To Me</span></span></div><div class="blogContentInfo" style="clear: left; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 10px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div class="cmtcell" style="float: left; margin-right: 7px;"></div></div><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/90/s_fb5c9a52bb6eabebec47005d6fa13620.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_490357">Pretty sweet alright. I love you, My slut baby.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a> on Wednesday, October 10, 2007 - 12:45 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=317681548#" id="addReplyLnk_490357" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=317681548&commentID=490357" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/137/s_fa51ecd3152c45d5ba5f2315e578e351.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Joey Vagance</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_490532">True so true sis.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a> on Wednesday, October 10, 2007 - 11:58 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=317681548#" id="addReplyLnk_490532" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=317681548&commentID=490532" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 15px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i204.photobucket.com/albums/bb84/tntrouble000/msexdrugsrocknroll2-1.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div style="text-align: center;">Craving the sharp point of the needle</div><div style="text-align: center;">As it pierces the skin, and then</div><div style="text-align: center;">The rush, as it spreads throughout My body</div><div style="text-align: center;">That feeling of perfection, serenity</div><div style="text-align: center;">Of nothing, nothing, nothing at all.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Craving that first taste, that first crack</div><div style="text-align: center;">Of the cold beer as it hits My mouth</div><div style="text-align: center;">Slides down My throat, and warms My belly</div><div style="text-align: center;">Spreads through the body and I feel</div><div style="text-align: center;">Just nothing, nothing, nothing at all.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Craving that hit, that toke, that blast</div><div style="text-align: center;">Off the pipe, as I light it and inhale it</div><div style="text-align: center;">Breathing so deeply that it fills up My body</div><div style="text-align: center;">It calms me, enlightens me, opens my mind</div><div style="text-align: center;">Into nothing, nothing, nothing at all</div><div style="text-align: center;">Craving the touch, the smell, the feel</div><div style="text-align: center;">Of a warm body, underneath mine</div><div style="text-align: center;">The breathing of a soft, submissive breath</div><div style="text-align: center;">As I open up, take possession of what is Mine</div><div style="text-align: center;">Make it respond to only Me, because everything else</div><div style="text-align: center;">Means nothing, nothing, nothing at all.</div><div style="text-align: center;">~Terry O'Malley~</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">MySpace Comments:</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 15px;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #990033; color: #ffccff; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_180546">Wow!<br />Baby, I have no words for this.<br />I wanna be under You, with You, all around You...forever, here to enternity.<br />I love You T.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: #ffccff; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a> on Wednesday, October 10, 2007 - 1:32 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=191944130&blogId=317687171#" id="addReplyLnk_180546" style="color: #003399; 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color: #ffccff; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_180650">That's f-ing awesome!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: #ffccff; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Wednesday, October 10, 2007 - 9:08 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=191944130&blogId=317687171#" id="addReplyLnk_180650" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] </div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_180650"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #990033; color: #ffccff; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/137/s_fa51ecd3152c45d5ba5f2315e578e351.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Joey Vagance</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; line-height: 15px;"><div id="CommentDiv_180731">Ahhh mate I knows bout cravin all too well. As usual ya says what I am thinkin but in much better words n I kin come up with.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: #ffccff; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a>on Wednesday, October 10, 2007 - 11:59 AM</div><br /><br /></span></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span></span></span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-73123172711233937032007-10-08T00:07:00.005-04:002010-10-28T15:22:40.594-04:00Awaken<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Monday, October 08, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="NormalWeb1" style="border-bottom-color: initial; border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: medium; border-left-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-left-width: medium; border-right-color: initial; border-right-style: none; border-right-width: medium; border-top-color: initial; border-top-style: none; border-top-width: medium; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 9pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; padding-bottom: 0in; padding-left: 0in; padding-right: 0in; padding-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><b><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 14pt;">Disclaimer! 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What's one thing thats heavily weighing on your mind?<br />Death and my relationship with ~c~<br /><br />2. What's one thing you've learned from a good friendship gone bad?<br />People can't always be trusted, even if you think you know them <br /><br />3. What's one thing you've learned lately from love?<br />It's fucking hard but worth it, I think<br /><br />4. Is there anyone special in your life in general at the moment?<br />Yes<br /><br />5. What's a happy time you've had in the past week?<br />Not feeling happy these days, but must have been while reading a sexy email from ~c~ <br /><br />6. Is there anything in your past that you'd like to try again?<br />Yes<br /><br />7. Who do you like to spend your nights with?<br />I wish I could spend them with ~c~<br /><br />8. Are you an emotional person?<br />Depends on the emotion<br /><br />9. Are you self conscious?<br />No<br /><br />10. Do you think of others before yourself?<br />No, I am a selfish bastard<br /><br />11. What's something that can always make you feel better?<br />Dirty, dirty, dirty fun stuff<br /><br />12. Who was the last person you had a crush on?<br />Can't say I have ever had a crush<br /><br />13. Where do you see yourself this time next year?<br />No idea, either dead or alive <br /><br />14. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?<br />Very much so<br /><br />15. Who do you feel the most comfortable around?<br />I don't feel comfortable around people in general<br /><br />16. Is there something that you're waiting for?<br />Answers<br /><br />17. One thing you're not looking forward to?<br />The future <br /><br />18. How do you feel about change?<br />Fuck it<br /><br />19. What are you most looking forward to?<br />Nothing<br /><br />20. What are your plans for your next birthday?<br />None<br /><br />21. Do you even care about your birthday?<br />No<br /><br />22. Do you think anyone in general out there loves you?<br />Yes, I specifically know who<br /><br />23. When do you think the world will end?<br />Do I look like I give a fuck? When it ends, it ends<br /><br />24. Whats the most expensive piece of clothing you own?<br />HA! Prison blues are free money-wise, expensive other-wise<br /><br />25. If you could be on a reality show what would it be?<br />Escape from Prison<br /><br />26. Do you still talk to the person you LAST kissed?<br />Online, yes I do, in person, no <br /><br />27. Have you ever seen your best friend cry?<br />No<br /><br />28. What kind of vitamins did you take as a kid?<br />None<br /><br />30. Did you get any compliments today?<br />No<br /><br />31. Are you friends with your neighbors?<br />No<br /><br />32. What were you just thinking about?<br />How this has to be the most fucking depressing thing for me to be doing right now, answering these bloody questions<br /><br />33. Name the places you have lived.<br />No, don't feel like it<br /><br />34. When was the last time you drove more than 15 minutes?<br />Last time I worked, I guess</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-61403339525241452652007-10-06T03:05:00.000-04:002010-10-27T20:19:16.680-04:00Terry: No Regrets ~c~<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;">Saturday, October 06, 2007 Terry O'Malley</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #ffccff; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i204.photobucket.com/albums/bb84/tntrouble000/barbedwireheart.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px;"></span><br /><div style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;">Heart is breaking, it feels cracked in two</div><div style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;">I kept up My wall to avoid this, tis so true</div><div style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;">Yet here it is, I let myself fall in love</div><div style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;">you got over my wall, scaled it from above</div><div style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;">I did so many things in my life that were wrong</div><div style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;">And somehow I knew it would happen, all along</div><div style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;">The time would come, that I would have to pay</div><div style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;">you would end up hurting too, along the way</div><div style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;">My mistakes, My anger, My pain, My fears</div><div style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;">Would cause nothing but grief and future tears</div><div style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;">But baby, I wouldn't trade it all for anything</div><div style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;">I love you, I cherish you, I regret nothing.</div><div style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;">Nothing, My love.</div><div style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;">~T~</div><div style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;">MySpace Comments</div><div style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 15px;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; font-weight: normal;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #990033; color: #ffccff; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/137/s_fa51ecd3152c45d5ba5f2315e578e351.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Joey Vagance</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_178039">Wow mate I could of writ this myself. I am feelin much the same. Great piece o work here.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black;">Joey</span></a>on Saturday, October 06, 2007 - 10:05 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=191944130&blogId=316476196#" id="addReplyLnk_178039" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black;">Reply</span></a><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=191944130&blogId=316476196#" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"> to this</a></strong><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #ffccff;">] </span></div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_178039"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; font-weight: normal;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #990033; color: #ffccff; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_178305">my Darling ~T~<br />if only You could see<br />what You really mean to me<br />my wall was up<br />built so high<br />but over it You came<br />like You could fly<br />i let You in<br />and You i<br />here i am<br />holding on to what we do have<br />not letting it pass us by.<br /><br />Baby, I love You. More then I can ever express to You. You mean so much to me. I simply adore you.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px;"><b>Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black;">♣IrishChik♣</span></a>on Saturday, October 06, 2007 - 8:34 PM<br />[</b><strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=191944130&blogId=316476196#" id="addReplyLnk_178305" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black;">Reply to this</span></a></strong><b>] </b></div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><br /><br /><div style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-90394901875195143002007-10-03T14:56:00.000-04:002010-10-28T13:36:24.465-04:00My Personal Thank You’s<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, October 03, 2007</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">First, I want to thank each one of you that personally took the time to contact me and give me your thoughts, prayers, well wishes, blessings and white lights with the passing of my best friend Elonna. It has been a long and rough week and I am sorry it took me so long to contact you all and give my thanks. I think I got everyone back with a comment and a letter that sent one my way. If I missed you, I am sorry and just know I thank you from the bottom of my heart. To those of you with the shoulders I cried on and the ears that were lended, I am forever grateful. I would not have gotten through this without all the love and support of my friends.<br /><br />Second, I want to thank each of you who have put up with me and my round of drama since Terry got back. I know the sitchy is complicated and him and I just made things worse by not accepting the outside world to dictate what we should and should not do. But, in the end, friends are what we needed. Friends that were willing to just tell us like it is and make our stubborn Irish asses listen. We needed that outside source to give their opinion. So, when I asked for help, I sure got it. You guys know who you are, and I am blessed you are such true and wonderful friends. I am blessed that you have also taken the time to reach out to Terry and offer your hand as well. That really means a lot to me.<br /><br />To the rest if you , sometimes in life we are faced with things we do not want to deal with. Faced with decisions we do not want to make. Well I have made mine. I do not care how far away Terry is. I do not care that he is faced to live out the rest of his life in a 4X4 barred cell. All I care about is that he is in my life. And you will just have to understand that and accept it.<br /><br />As I have said over and over, I am a girl with a big heart. I love many of those around me. I will give you love if you deserve it, and expect you to love me in return. Respect me. Let me be me. Let me be open to the world around me. Understand me. And you must just accept me as I am. I am not willing to compromise on this. Terry is here to stay, you accept that or your don't. You take me as is or you don't.<br /><br />Big hugs, kisses and thank you all around.<br /><br />xoxo<br />Chrys<br /><br />MySpace Comments:</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/137/s_fa51ecd3152c45d5ba5f2315e578e351.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Joey Vagance</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_484787">~brotherly bear hugs~ back to me sis.<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a> on Thursday, October 04, 2007 - 1:28 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=315695908#" id="addReplyLnk_484787" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=315695908&commentID=484787" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42154919" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_486076">{{{{{{{{Chrys}}}}}}}} you are always welcome sweetie!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Friday, October 05, 2007 - 6:11 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=315695908#" id="addReplyLnk_486076" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/90/s_fb5c9a52bb6eabebec47005d6fa13620.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_486470">I agree with the thanks to friends, and thanks to you, My slut baby, for putting up with Me.<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a> on Saturday, October 06, 2007 - 2:35 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-67040250041762567092007-10-01T12:22:00.000-04:002010-10-28T13:44:42.743-04:00Terry’s Words<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Monday, October 01, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"></span><br /><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal;"><img src="http://i204.photobucket.com/albums/bb84/tntrouble000/DARK_DESIRE_Joseph_Vargo_Fantasy-1.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><b>Terry's Words</b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">As many of you have followed my soap opera of a life, you all know the Terry sitchy.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And you all know the circumstances that have recently come about.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have not really wanted to talk about it. Doing so makes it seem real.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But, I guess I can not hide from it any longer. I was going to blog it, but, he beat me to it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><b>Here is his blog:<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;">So, yeah. A new blog, and nothing good I wish to say, really.</div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;">I am locked up, and the outcome does not look good. I want to continue to own and control ~c~ while knowing that I must let her go.</div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;">Even as she begs Me to hold on to her.</div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;">It bothers Me to hear that other men out there, men who can actually BE with her, are ignoring her, mistreating her, smothering her, annoying her, not seeing what a truly amazing and powerful woman she is and admiring her for that.</div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;">Cherishing her for who she is.</div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;">Annoys Me in the sense that I want to be her One and I can't, I can't, I can't.</div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;">Annoys Me that these other fucking wankers cannot give what I could, but I can't, and apparently they can't either.</div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;">I don't know what to do.</div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal; text-align: center;"><o:p></o:p></div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><b>My comment:<o:p></o:p></b></div><div style="font-weight: normal;">Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.~~unknown<br /><br />I love You so much Terry. I wish that could be enough for You. Hope that it can be.<br /><br />You have let me go, set me free. In some aspects of life. Owning and controlling me is one thing, letting my live life is another.<br /><br />I wanted more then anything to have this life with You. The circumstances are unfortunate, but one thing still remains...my love.<br /><br />I realize we can no longer have that life together we dreamed of. But we are still given something. And I fully intend to keep You as close to me as possible for as long as I can.<br /><br />That is why I do not want to go. Why I do not want You to let me go.<br /><br />I gave you an oath, and although was not marriage, was still the same aspects in life..."Till Death Do Us Part" meaning I will walk beside You through it all. And even in death, You will still be with me.<br /><br />Our love, will never change. Our hearts, our souls forever entwined together. Your tattoo, my tattoo...things no one can ever take away from us.<br /><br />The answer of what to do, for me is clear. To continue to love You, to hold You as close to me as possible. Keeping You in my heart. Keeping all Your wonderful words, thoughts, and memories alive.<br /><br />That is what I want.</div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal;"><b>And my BFF Julies comment:<o:p></o:p></b></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;">The only thing you can do at this point, in this life, under these circumstances is to Love her. And she knows that, accepts that and loves you still the same. It's the power of the love between you that will always bind you together. There are so many things in life that we want, but will never be able to possess, not completely. We accept the limitations that are placed upon us and are thankful in our own right that we have what little we do.<br /><br />As unfortunate as the situation is you two are facing, it would be even more tragic still to let go of what life force she brings to you, some small bit of normalcy you can hold on to. You're right, she is a strong and powerful woman and she knows who and what she wants. When it's time, she and only she will decide what's best for her. Until then, let her love you and you do the same. I think that is all anyone could ever ask of another human being…love me, accept me, have faith in me.<br /><br />And as far the collection of human garbage that has crossed her path. As disruptive as they are to her, she knows how truly little they mean in her life. It's a shame that people feel the need to treat others in a such a way that leaves them feeling worthless and cold. We all make choices that turn our fates in one direction or another, but I believe in her case these choices as of late are merely distractions. This pain will fade and a new life will eventually find her and she will be filled with the happiness she deserves.<br /><br />I can't bring you any words of comfort that I think would truly make a difference, but she loves you enough to stand beside you through all the good and bad this life brings, how lucky you are to have this. In time, however you two decide to handle your relationship is only something you can know in your hearts. But I think right now you both need support, you need each other to help get one another through this new chapter.<br /><br />Don't let this torment you, Chrys knows she is loved, by you, by me and a hell of a lot of people on this earth….baby girl, you're going to fine, just fine.<br /><br />And to you Terry there is nothing I can offer accept love as a friend and support however it may come. You are not forgotten…</div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><br /></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><br /></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-color: windowtext; border-bottom-style: dotted; border-bottom-width: 3pt; border-left-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-left-width: medium; border-right-color: initial; border-right-style: none; border-right-width: medium; border-top-color: initial; border-top-style: none; border-top-width: medium; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 1pt; padding-left: 0in; padding-right: 0in; padding-top: 0in;"><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="border-bottom-color: initial; border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: medium; border-left-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-left-width: medium; border-right-color: initial; border-right-style: none; border-right-width: medium; border-top-color: initial; border-top-style: none; border-top-width: medium; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto; padding-bottom: 0in; padding-left: 0in; padding-right: 0in; padding-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;">So, that's what is going on right now. A love that can now never be anything more then what it is today.</div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><br /></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;">A love that neither really wants to let go of.</div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><br /></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;">What's wrong, what's right, what's the kind thing to do?</div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><br /></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;">I do not know really what the question is we are searching for, nor the answer. All I know is how I feel for this MAN. No boy here.<st1:state><st1:place>Man.</st1:place></st1:state> My <st1:state><st1:place>Man.</st1:place></st1:state> A man I can never have now.<span> </span>I mean, I have him in some sense, but not in the way he and I had once dreamed of. Life does continue to move forward….and I am forced to move along with it. </div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><br /></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;">~sighs~</div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><br /></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><br /></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;">MySpace Comments:</div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><br /></div><div class="blogcommentscontent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: auto; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: auto;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_482274">Tough spot for you both {{{{{{{{{{{{{{sis}}}}}}}}}}}}}}<br />No answers, just my love and support to you both.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Monday, October 01, 2007 - 1:42 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=315014031#" id="addReplyLnk_482274" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=315014031&commentID=482274" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/137/s_fa51ecd3152c45d5ba5f2315e578e351.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Joey Vagance</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_482325">Well I posted on me mate Terrys blog n now here ya go sis. Dont give up on this love n this man. Dont let him give up neither. Tis too important to ya both baby.<br />All will be well I just knows it. ~big brotherly bear hugs~<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a> on Monday, October 01, 2007 - 2:39 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=315014031#" id="addReplyLnk_482325" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=315014031&commentID=482325" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_482325"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_482575">{{{{HUGS}}}} Sometimes I wish I had a magic time machine, so we can go back and fix some mistakes (leave others as lessons)...but I can't do that. All I can do if offer hugs and hope for a miracle!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Monday, October 01, 2007 - 6:59 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-22892473463155131842007-10-01T00:48:00.000-04:002010-10-27T20:13:38.176-04:00Terry: New Shite<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;">Monday, October 01, 2007 Terry O'Malley</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i204.photobucket.com/albums/bb84/tntrouble000/DARK_DESIRE_Joseph_Vargo_Fantasy-1.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></span><br />So, yeah. A new blog, and nothing good I wish to say, really.<br /><br />I am locked up, and the outcome does not look good. I want to continue to own and control ~c~ while knowing that I must let her go.<br /><br />Even as she begs Me to hold on to her.<br /><br />It bothers Me to hear that other men out there, men who can actually BE with her, are ignoring her, mistreating her, smothering her, annoying her, not seeing what a truly amazing and powerful woman she is and admirng her for that.<br /><br />Cherishing her for who she is.<br /><br />Annoys Me in the sense that I want to be her One and I can't, I can't, I can't.<br /><br />Annoys Me that these other fucking wankers cannot give what I could, but I can't, and apparently they can't either.<br /><br />I don't know what to do.<br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 15px;"></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #990033; color: #ffccff; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_174902">Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.~~unknown<br /><br />I love You so much Terry. I wish that could be enough for You. Hope that it can be.<br /><br />You have let me go, set me free. In some aspects of life. Owning and controlling me is one thing, letting my live life is another.<br /><br />I wanted more then anything to have this life with You. The circumstances are unfortunate, but one thing still remains...my love.<br /><br />I realize we can no longer have that life together we dreamed of. But we are still given something. And I fully intend to keep You as close to me as possible for as long as I can.<br /><br />That is why I do not want to go. Why I do not want You to let me go.<br /><br />I gave you an oath, and although was not marriage, was still the same aspects in life..."Till Death Do Us Part" meaning I will walk beside You through it all. And even in death, You will still be with me.<br /><br />Our love, will never change. Our hearts, our souls forever entwined together. Your tattoo, my tattoo...things no one can ever take away from us.<br /><br />The answer of what to do, for me is clear. To continue to love You, to hold You as close to me as possible. Keeping You in my heart. Keeping all Your wonderful words, thoughts, and memories alive.<br /><br />That is what I want.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black;">♣IrishChik♣</span></a> on Monday, October 01, 2007 - 2:33 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=191944130&blogId=314915524#" id="addReplyLnk_174902" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] </div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_174902"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #990033; color: #ffccff; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">Jules</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/6/s_2e32133ce70e41d0843fb33c3e70f0fe.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_174928">The only thing you can do at this point, in this life, under these circumstances is to Love her. And she knows that, accepts that and loves you still the same. It's the power of the love between you that will always bind you together. There are so many things in life that we want, but will never be able to possess, not completely. We accept the limitations that are placed upon us and are thankful in our own right that we have what little we do.<br /><br />As unfortunate as the situation is you two are facing, it would be even more tragic still to let go of what life force she brings to you, some small bit of normalcy you can hold on to. You're right, she is a strong and powerful woman and she knows who and what she wants. When it's time, she and only she will decide what's best for her. Until then, let her love you and you do the same. I think that is all anyone could ever ask of another human being…love me, accept me, have faith in me.<br /><br />And as far the collection of human garbage that has crossed her path. As disruptive as they are to her, she knows how truly little they mean in her life. It’s a shame that people feel the need to treat others in a such a way that leaves them feeling worthless and cold. We all make choices that turn our fates in one direction or another, but I believe in her case these choices as of late are merely distractions. This pain will fade and a new life will eventually find her and she will be filled with the happiness she deserves.<br /><br />I can’t bring you any words of comfort that I think would truly make a difference, but she loves you enough to stand beside you through all the good and bad this life brings, how lucky you are to have this. In time, however you two decide to handle your relationship is only something you can know in your hearts. But I think right now you both need support, you need each other to help get one another through this new chapter.<br /><br />Don't let this torment you, Chrys knows she is loved, by you, by me and a hell of a lot of people on this earth….baby girl, you’re going to fine, just fine.<br /><br />And to you Terry there is nothing I can offer accept love as a friend and support however it may come. You are not forgotten…<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black;">Jules</span></a>on Monday, October 01, 2007 - 5:09 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=191944130&blogId=314915524#" id="addReplyLnk_174928" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] </div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_174928"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #990033; color: #ffccff; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_175201">Hugs to you both {{{{{{{{{{{{{{Terry}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}]<br />I told my sweet sis I didn't have any answers, but one just came to me. Life is short, love is precious and rare. Take whatever you can and hold onto it (her) as long as you can.<br />Maybe you can't control her but I have a feeling you definitaly already own her. ;)<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black;">MySpace </span></a>on Monday, October 01, 2007 - 1:46 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=191944130&blogId=314915524#" id="addReplyLnk_175201" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] </div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_175201"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #990033; color: #ffccff; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/137/s_fa51ecd3152c45d5ba5f2315e578e351.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Joey Vagance</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_175228">Terry I knows yer sitch all too well here. I been locked up seems like more n I been a free man since I committed to me darlin Elonna. Ya knows how frustrated n helpless I felt as well. Expecially when she became ill n I couldnt be there with her. I tried to heal her from a distance n lost her anyways n cant help but feels like if Id of been there she wouldnt of gone. Like is partly me own fault.<br />Terry I knows from one man in prison to another that there is some things ya kin control n some things ya kint. Yer own feelins yer own words n yes even yer own actions ya gots control over. Ya kin drive yerself mad if ya tries to control yer girl n what she does with ya bein gone.<br />Must say I also knows me sis real well. She may play round n have fun but when she gives her love to ya is fer real. Do yerself a huge favour mate. Take her love. Dont turn it away. Will keep ya goin n keep ya sane n sorted. I should know. All yer gonna have if ya gives her up is more heartache n pain fer the both o ya. Is already bad enough as is.<br />I already has a great feelin o love n respect fer ya as a mate n as a person I has so much in common with. So I hopes ya takes me words to heart. I knows me sis so well. I knows how much she loves ya. Go with it.<br />~hugs n back pats~<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black;">Joey</span></a> on Monday, October 01, 2007 - 2:37 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=191944130&blogId=314915524#" id="addReplyLnk_175228" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] </div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-88549712748037079882007-09-30T16:26:00.001-04:002010-10-28T13:49:07.906-04:00The Great Date Debate Is Now Over<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Sunday, September 30, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The Great Date Debate</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The great date debate is over. At least I am declaring it as such.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Since I doubt Mike even reads these things, I am gonna dish. Maybe if he would have gotten nosey in my blogs like he does everything else on my page, maybe he would have learned a thing or two about me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And Mike, if you are reading this...because I remember you once told me you do know how to read LOL...I do like you, and do want to hang out again...but really..I am FRUSTRATED WITH YOU!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">For those of you who picked Mike, and took his side, well, you lose. Not that their really is a winner or a loser cause I AM NOT PLAYING GAMES.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I may only be dating right now, but there is a reason for dating. To find that person I potentially want to spend more time with and get to know. I am not trying to see how many people I can date or sleep with. Not trying to play games or just string anyone along.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But I am trying to find someone I can connect with on all levels. Someone I could see myself going on another date with and taking the time to get to know.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I thought I had found that with Mike. We had made plans to hang out again. We do talk a little ever day.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But two weekends in a row now I have been blown off. The red flags are now going up all over and as Julie said – "Run Forrest Run" and that is exactly what I should do.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Was easy enough to walk away from all the rest of them, but why can I not so easily walk away from Mike. What is it about him that keeps me coming back for one more word? I don't get it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am well aware the man is busy. I am well aware he's dating other people too. I get it. I am not retarded. I also get that I live over an hour away.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But you don't tell someone all week long you are going to hang out on the weekend, then when the weekend rolls around, just OOPS something came up and then blow the whole rest of the weekend off.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I was sympathetic and understanding about the Aunt last weekend. Those things happen. A little bummed we didn't get to hang out and a little disappointed he could not extend the common courtesy of calling me and letting me know he was not coming even after he said he still was.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am understanding to the fact that he had to go to Ohio Friday night and that he had a fight to attend. I get that. He's a fighter. He trains fighters. Its part of his job. But you obviously knew you were going. So why all week tell me we are gonna hang out this weekend. I told 4 other people I had plans, thinking Mike and I were gonna hang out. Then I get this at the last minute. But then he goes on to tell me he will be home Saturday night. WTF ever. Do I look like I was born yesterday?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So now here it is, late afternoon Sunday that I am writing this. I see Mike online earlier so I dropped him an IM to ask how the fight went. Small talk. And then, as usual, he quits talking. Just like that.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Yeah, he's busy.<span> </span>~ROLLS EYES~</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">You weren't quite so busy when you first met me. You had time to talk to me then. Ugh. I just don't get it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">This man has only called me once. And that was before we went out. We don't mail each other anymore. He hardly ever IM me. I am always the one to initiate conversation anymore. As for calls, right, that's all me.<span> </span>He asks, and I call.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">He always seems happy enough when I say hi. I would think that if he didn't want to talk to me he would just be honest enough to tell me so.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I'm not a clingy person. I give him all the space he needs and wants. I need and want my own space anyway so it works out well.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am open, so there is no reason to have to lie to me or tell me stories.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">He said to me once he doesn't get why after a few weeks the girl changes and he wonders where the girl he first met just went. Makes me wonder; don't think maybe it's the girl that changes so much as it is him.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I just think he's cool as shit and like to talk to him, and would like to get to know him more.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I think at this point it is a lost cause.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Most likely a typical guy who got what he wanted and no point in going in to that any farther.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, Round one of the great date debate is over. I am going to start wiping this slate clean. All the guys I have talked about dating up to this blog, gone.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I think I am just going to run away for a little while.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Yeah, that's it. Running away. That is what I am going to do.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div>I want to run away. I want to go "home" Not that I have a home there anymore, but, I miss my friends. They were my family. I miss everything I have ever known. I've had 2 people ask me to come back home. 1 of them said I was more then welcome to come and stay with him and his daughter as long as I wanted.<span> </span>I've known him practically since we were teens back in T-town. So it was very nice of him to say that.<span> </span><span> </span>Maybe they are right; maybe I don't quite fit in up here.<span> </span>I mean, they are closest to me after all. Maybe this really isn't the life that was meant for me.<span> </span>Just because my family is here, obviously doesn't mean anything. It's not like I see any of them.<br /><br />I'm trying to make it work, but it's just a whole new mess of issues here.<br /><br />Every time I think I made some progress, I get knocked right back down.<br /><br />I don't know what to do anymore.<br /><br />So my old feelings start to flood my mind.<br /><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I run and I hide. I hide in that cold dark hole. You know that one I run to often.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">These thoughts start to consume me and flood my mind.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I'm running away. Yes, that's it. That is defiantly what I am going to do.<span> </span>I can't take this life chosen for me anymore. The choice I made doesn't seem to be the right one.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">These bad times – the passing of Elonna, the job market being as shitty as it is, my mother constantly being up my ass like I am 12 again.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">These powers and gifts are too much for me. I see everything. I feel everything. I sense things. Sometimes I just want them to go away. I promised Terry I would see the good in them. I promised him I would use them and not let them run dormant again. My promises to Terry I will always keep.<span> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">This heart of mine. Huge loving heart. Seems it does more harm then good. I am good natured person. I might have a tough shell on the outside. Not wanting to get hurt again. Not wanting to fall to fast, and not ending up with the wrong person.<span> </span>But on the inside, I am sensitive and I have feelings just like everyone else. So it hurts my heart when I get stepped on.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I'm lost and very much need to find my way. I don't even know where to start anymore. Here I am walking all alone. Friends and loved ones are so far away. You know where to find me, but yet I won't let you in. It's hard. I want to keep you close to me, inside my heart. But the distance makes it so hard sometimes.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">My doors have been shut, windows locked.<span> </span>I can't let anyone get close. No more letting anyone in. No more open book. Barbed wire around my heart.<span> </span>Covered in glass. Only this time, even if the glass does shatter, how you gonna get around that wire?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Am I the one that is dangerous?<span> </span>Or is it them?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Remember those razor blades. Oh how they shine. Was that your blood, or mine?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">No matter. It's only me here now.<span> </span>Me sitting quietly in my little hole.<span> </span>I want to go back to playing with shiny sharp objects. Back when I had no feelings or a care. Why didn't you leave me in that hole?? Why couldn't you leave me there? You made me come out and now look at me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I've got to run away. Please don't chase me. Just let me go. In my own world now.<span> </span><span> </span>Safer there for me. Don't know what I am doing. What direction to turn. May as well just stay here. Away from everyone. Away from the world. Not able to hurt. Not able to feel.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Just so sick of this crap.<span> </span>My life since I was born has just been one awful thing after another. Is it ever going to end? Or does the ending lie within my own two hands. Am I my only fate here?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The luck of the Irish is NOT on my side.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, whatever, we all know I dont stay down for long..vent over...moving on...~sighs~</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Have I mentioned I miss ELONNA????</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-42352138639409023742007-09-29T20:05:00.010-04:002010-12-22T13:01:36.220-05:00No Religion In Which I Follow<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Saturday, September 29, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><br /><br /></div><div align="center"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/5b9766d529f5.gif" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/5b9766d529f5.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">No religion in which I follow.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">There, I have officially said it. I am sure many of you have figured this out. And I know many of you watched me go through my few years going to church faithfully. I did not do it for myself. I did it for my friend Mandy who was trying to help me and Marcus. Marcus thought it was helpful and so for him I continued to go. I spent my time in the toddler's room with the kids. Mandy had a daughter, Madisyn, who was my little buddy. My joy was in watching those kids. Not opening my heart to God. I do admit I liked going to the church I went to. I made a lot of friends. We had one of the best Christian Rock bands in the tri city area. And every Sunday was a daily lesson that I was able to take something away from. However, I never found God. Or religion for that matter. Maybe I did church for the wrong reasons. Maybe not. Each of us has our own path in life. We take what we can from experiences and learn and move on. That's exactly what I did.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Have I read the bible? Yeap. And I have taken from it what I need in my life. You do what works for you in your life.<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I've never really been outspoken about my paths in life. Those that are close to me know my paths and what gifts I have been given in life. And that's all that needs to be said about that.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But just because I do not follow the same path as you does not make me a bad person. Some of you have gone a little overboard with the religion towards me. I don't need saved. I've been saved. I don't need to listen to God. He is not the one who talks to me. It is good He talks to you. But, not me. And I am OK with that. I have been open enough to allow you to believe what you believe and not tried to debate you or change your views on things. I would expect the same courtesy towards me that I have given you. If you can not accept me as is, then perhaps we should not be friends. I appreciate all the kind words you do pass my way, for thinking of me and what not, but you just need to understand that not everyone follows the same path in life as you do. Or sees the world in the same light.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The one thing in life I have learned and this you have heard me say a lot lately, I am not going to compromise or change myself for the likes of others. End of story.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">My path in life is different then yours and you need to accept it.<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So what exactly is my path? Good question as I am not too sure of it myself these days.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I grew up with an Irish Catholic family. I have a lot of that inside of me. Sort of hard to not have a little part of it. Growing up though my parents never forced religion on me. I went to church a few times here and there with friends, but I never felt comfortable. Never felt it was where I wanted to be. I began to fall into the Pagan way of the world. Moving into Wicca. Call me a witch or whatever. Now, I am about to share something that I have only told 2 people in my life. Terry a few months ago, and then my brother Joey not all that long ago. In high school I began to go off the Wicca path and went into the darker side of it. Was there about 3 years until I graduated high school and moved oddly, here to Michigan, where I stayed a year. I moved back to <st1:state><st1:place>Oklahoma</st1:place></st1:state> and pretty well followed no path. The magic I carried was still with me. But it was dormant. Every once in a while it would make its presence known. A few years ago, some things became much clearer to me regarding a past life. And it got stronger and stronger as the years progressed. But that will have to be another blog as well.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">These days I am well aware of what I am capable of doing. That also will have to be another blog. And when I am ready to follow the paths again to hone my skills and make myself complete again, I will. (Terry, Joey, Sapph and Shan (my faireegirl) this will be where I ask you for your lights)</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The point I am trying to make is I am different. And you know what, that's just something that makes me, me.<br /><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">Cathy McElhaney</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"> </span><br /><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_480994">Again, I say, you are a good person with a huge heart...don't let anyone make you feel "unworthy"! {{{{HUGS}}}} You believe in the way that is right for YOU.<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Sunday, September 30, 2007 - 8:46 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-16276816407599470812007-09-28T03:33:00.000-04:002010-10-28T14:12:43.967-04:00Elonna's Obit<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, September 28, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px;"><b><br /></b></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px;"><b><br /></b></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></b></span></span><br /><div class="blogContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b>Elonna Rochelle Utt</b></span></div><h3 style="font-size: 17px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b><mcc subhead=""></mcc></b></span></h3><div class="byline1"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b><mcc byline1=""></mcc></b></span></div><div class="byline2"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b><mcc byline2=""></mcc></b></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b>Web posted September 27, 2007</b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></b></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><mcc story=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><mcc story=""></mcc></span></b></span></mcc></span></b></span></span><br /><div style="display: inline !important;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b><b>Services for Elonna Rochelle Utt, 30, will be at 10 a.m. on Saturday, Sept. 29, 2007, at Griffin-Hillcrest Chapel with Pastor Ken Keith officiating. Interment will be in Rose Hill Cemetery.</b></b></span></div><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><mcc story=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><mcc story=""></mcc></span></b></span></mcc></span></b></span></span><br /><div style="display: inline !important;"></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b><br /></b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b>Born on May 3, 1977, in Plano, Texas to Otto and Linda Barton Utt, she died on Sept. 23, 2007 in Ardmore. She was preceded in death by uncles Milton "Bobo" Utt and Tipton Utt; maternal grandparents, Clayton and Frances Barton; and paternal grandfather, Otto Utt Sr.</b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b><br /></b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b><br /></b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b>Elonna graduated from Plainview High School in 1995 and earned her CNA license from the vo-tech before moving to Stillwater. She worked in home health as a certified nurse's assistant as a way to help people, and also attended Oklahoma State University. Elonna eventually returned to Ardmore and worked for 1-800 Flowers for five years where she developed many friendships.</b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b><br /></b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b><br /></b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b>Elonna's dear uncle "Tippy" died in 2005. She was very close to him. Her health began to decline after his passing. It wasn't until Valentine's Day 2007 that she was diagnosed with Hodgkins lymphoma. Then on Sunday evening, Sept. 23, 2007, quite unexpectedly, her Lord Jesus sent His angels to take her home to be with Him. Our hearts are grieving for our loss, but rejoicing with her that she is free from pain once more and in her heavenly reward.</b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b>She is survived by her parents, Otto and Linda Utt; paternal grandmother, Delia Utt, Dallas; brother, Josh Utt and wife, Liz, and their children, Zeke and Ivy; sister, Heather Huey and husband, Craig, and their children, Trey and Misti Minyard; uncles, Kenneth Barton and wife, Cindy, Bobby "Gabe" Utt, Dallas ,and Bill Barton and wife, Nettie; aunt, Alice Taylor and husband, Harvey; cousins, Cheryl and Jeff Barton, Danny Ezell, David Ezell, Tammy Ezell and Jessica Taylor, all of Ardmore. Her special friend is her kitty, Mia. A person with a very close place in her heart was Joey Vagance of Ireland, whom she had known online for a long time.</b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b><br /></b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b>Bearers will be Eric Darkis, Bill Barton, Ben Barton, Craig Huey, Harvey Taylor and Jay Wallace. Honorary bearer is Pat Clark.</b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b><br /></b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b>Memorials can be made to Cross Timbers Hospice.</b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b><br /><br /></b></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_479038">I think that is one of the nicest obit's I have read! Thank you, Crys for sharing this! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Friday, September 28, 2007 - 6:40 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=314096682#" id="addReplyLnk_479038" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=314096682&commentID=479038" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 67px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/143/s_294e8995c07b45a792dbde894b7d3ad3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_479084">God bless her.<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a>on Friday, September 28, 2007 - 9:11 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=314096682#" id="addReplyLnk_479084" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=314096682&commentID=479084" style="color: #003399; 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font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_479147">Thanks for sharing that, sis. How sweet that they mentioned her kitty, and Joey!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Friday, September 28, 2007 - 11:00 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></b></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-21894511528514009332007-09-27T12:50:00.008-04:002010-11-16T12:52:18.787-05:00Elonna Rochelle Utt<div align="center" class="blogcontent" style="text-align: center;">Elonna Rochelle Utt </div><div align="center" class="blogcontent" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Web posted <st1:date day="27" month="9" w:st="on" year="2007">September 27, 2007</st1:date> <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><st1:date day="27" month="9" w:st="on" year="2007"><br /></st1:date></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Services for Elonna Rochelle Utt, 30, will be at <st1:time hour="10" minute="0" w:st="on">10 a.m.</st1:time> on <st1:date day="29" month="9" w:st="on" year="2007">Saturday, Sept. 29, 2007</st1:date>, at Griffin-Hillcrest Chapel with Pastor Ken Keith officiating. Interment will be in <st1:place w:st="on"><st1:placename w:st="on">Rose</st1:placename> <st1:placename w:st="on">Hill</st1:placename> <st1:placetype w:st="on">Cemetery</st1:placetype></st1:place>. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Born on <st1:date day="3" month="5" w:st="on" year="1977">May 3, 1977</st1:date>, in <st1:place w:st="on"><st1:city w:st="on">Plano</st1:city>, <st1:state w:st="on">Texas</st1:state></st1:place> to Otto and Linda Barton Utt, she died on <st1:date day="23" month="9" w:st="on" year="2007">Sept. 23, 2007</st1:date> in <st1:city w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Ardmore</st1:place></st1:city>. She was preceded in death by uncles Milton "Bobo" Utt and Tipton Utt; maternal grandparents, Clayton and Frances Barton; and paternal grandfather, Otto Utt Sr. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Elonna graduated from <st1:place w:st="on"><st1:placename w:st="on">Plainview</st1:placename> <st1:placetype w:st="on">High School</st1:placetype></st1:place> in 1995 and earned her CNA license from the vo-tech before moving to <st1:city w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Stillwater</st1:place></st1:city>. She worked in home health as a certified nurse's assistant as a way to help people, and also attended <st1:place w:st="on"><st1:placename w:st="on">Oklahoma</st1:placename> <st1:placetype w:st="on">State</st1:placetype> <st1:placetype w:st="on">University</st1:placetype></st1:place>. Elonna eventually returned to <st1:city w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Ardmore</st1:place></st1:city> and worked for 1-800 Flowers for five years where she developed many friendships. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Elonna's dear uncle "Tippy" died in 2005. She was very close to him. Her health began to decline after his passing. It wasn't until Valentine's Day 2007 that she was diagnosed with Hodgkins lymphoma. Then on Sunday evening, <st1:date day="23" month="9" w:st="on" year="2007">Sept. 23, 2007</st1:date>, quite unexpectedly, her Lord Jesus sent His angels to take her home to be with Him. Our hearts are grieving for our loss, but rejoicing with her that she is free from pain once more and in her heavenly reward. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">She is survived by her parents, Otto and Linda Utt; paternal grandmother, Delia Utt, Dallas; brother, Josh Utt and wife, Liz, and their children, Zeke and Ivy; sister, Heather Huey and husband, Craig, and their children, Trey and Misti Minyard; uncles, Kenneth Barton and wife, Cindy, Bobby "Gabe" Utt, Dallas ,and Bill Barton and wife, Nettie; aunt, Alice Taylor and husband, Harvey; cousins, Cheryl and Jeff Barton, Danny Ezell, David Ezell, Tammy Ezell and Jessica Taylor, all of Ardmore. Her special friend is her kitty, Mia. A person with a very close place in her heart was Joey Vagance of <st1:country-region w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Ireland</st1:place></st1:country-region>, whom she had known online for a long time. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Bearers will be Eric Darkis, Bill Barton, Ben Barton, Craig Huey, Harvey Taylor and Jay Wallace. Honorary bearer is Pat Clark. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Memorials can be made to Cross Timbers Hospice.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-894911286462451032007-09-27T00:24:00.001-04:002010-10-28T14:20:53.576-04:00Starting to Think Dating Sucks<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, September 27, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />Sorry no pretty picture today. Just me venting.<br /><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have been working on this blog for a while now, and just when I think I am done the turn of events change and then I have a whole new outlook and have to come back and rewrite this. It defiantly has been quite a challenge.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I had some drama fall down around me. It really sucked. It was such stupid high school drama crap that I did not want to be a part of, but yet found myself smack dab in the middle of it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Little update for those of you new here and/or not following along.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I left M the end of July. Moved here to Michigan and started dating. I kid you not I had a date the first week I was here. Those of you that know me and how my marriage has been these last few years this comes as no surprise. To the rest of you, this may seem like I am jumping right in eyes shut. Not at all. My eyes are wide open and I am doing just fine. These boys on the other hand are not.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Much has happened since the last dating blog that I don't even know where to start. But, I am going to try to start somewhere. As I said, I had this big spell of drama overflow my pot. I did not much like it and went running right to my brother Joey. And, he said something very smart. Not that he isn't smart or doesn't ever say smart things, but I am a bit of a rebel and as much as he dishes advice, I don't always listen to him. (Hehehe)<span> </span>He said to me I needed to write down what exactly I wanted- what it I was looking for. I took that advice. And I started to make a list. A list that started to turn into a new blog. I started writing what I wanted, what I was looking for. Not just in boys but in life overall. And that will more then likely is a blog all on its own. Right now, I guess I am going to update you on the drama.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">We all know I hate drama, and I tend to run away from it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So we all know that Steve and James turned out to be dud dates. Bye. As for Tom, well we still talk once in a while. But, he was put into the ER a few days after our date. And ever since then, things have just been … well for lack of a better word, WEIRD.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Then we have Mark.<span> </span>Which started out ok, but I had to kick him to the curb. And as I sit here thinking about things, I wish I would have seen all the red flags in the beginning. But I was just so caught up in my own shit in life that I really wasn't paying attention. We had one date a few weeks ago. Took me to the movies. And I should have thought twice when we got there and he did not have enough money to pay for us. WTF? You gonna take a girl out; make sure your ass has enough money. So guess who footed the bill?? Don't get me wrong, I have no problems paying for myself. But he did offer to take me out. Never once was their mention of going dutch. Oh and, he's not on my myspace anymore so as you can see I plan to talk freely about him. He knew from day one I was not looking for anything serious.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, let me back up on that. If, and I say IF I am dating someone and things are working out well then I have no problems with being serious with just that one person. But, until that day comes and I am 100% sure of my feelings, things are mutual and we are on the same page, then it is just going to be DATING.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, back to story.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Mark knew I just wanted to date. And he said he was fine with that, he was dating to and blah blah. He called EVERY DAY. Sometimes more then once. Yes we all want that guy that calls us. But when you call me, please have something to talk about; don't just sit there on the phone in silence. And please don't bore me with your whining. Stop the whining and do something about it. It got to the point where I would not answer the phone. I would dread just talking to him.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">About 2 weeks ago I had a date with someone else(Jed). Mark called while I was gone so many times. When I got home and my date left, I got online. Mark was waiting. Wanting to know what was going on. I told him the truth. Then he got all hateful and got all pissy. So I just stopped talking to him. The next day I told him I did not appreciate his behavior that he did not own me and he apologized.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Well this guy(Jed) I went on the date with apparently thought we had the best time and I kid you not that 20 mins after he left my house he sent me a phone text asking me about calling me his girlfriend.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">EEEEECCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKk</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">OMG I so want to run away.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I just went on one date with you; I am not going to commit to you like that. Sorry.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I ran. I ran and I hid.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I did come out of hiding. I do still talk to him. He is a nice guy. And we did talk about all that. He did ask if he could take me out again. But I just don't know. Once ya bring me drama, I really tend to just shy away from you. Sorry. It's just how I am programmed.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And as of last night, he has informed me that he is dating other people now. Good for you. Thanks for the information. Moving on.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am going to be nice and not mention his name here because like I said, he's a nice guy but I just think we might be better as friends. He is here on my myspace, so I suppose I can be nice and not tell you who he is.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So Mark gets over his tizzy and starts to smother me. I just could not breathe.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, when I met Mike, it was like a breath of fresh air. Finally, someone on the same page as me. And finally someone with a real sarcastic smart ass sense of humor that actually understands when I am being sarcastic smart ass myself and not just pretending to get it. So we had made plans for the weekend, but when I called him the next day just sort of a fly by the seat of your pants type thing, he decided to come out. And we went out.<span> </span>And it was a lot of fun. We came back here and hung out for a few hours. More F_U_N!! I heard the phone ring, but didn't really thing nothing of it. Once Mike left I got online to track down Julie. We had talked while Mike was here, he even texted her. It was too funny. Anyway so I am looking for her and here comes Mark. And the first thing he says is" I have been trying to call you all day. "Where have you been? So I told him. He asked, oh you and your mom? I tell him no. Hoping he will just drop it. But he doesn't. So, he asked who. I say Mike.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"> I have no reason to lie. He asks I am going to tell. And so then he asks me, oh is that a friend or was it a date. I said both. And he just went off on me like I was some wicked step child. Telling me that hurt him and how he read one of my survey answers and it asked if I liked someone and I said a few someone's. And how Mike must have been one of those few. Again I reminded Mark that we were just dating and we were not exclusive and he did not like that very well. He just kept going on and on. And finally I was like you know what; this obviously is not going to work so we are over. Don't call me anymore. Of course all that does is piss him off and he blows up my IM ending with calling me a little bitch. I was in too good of a mood to let him ruin it and he's not worth my time so I just deleted all his shit and put him on ignore.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I don't need drama, I don't need a baby sitter and I certainly don't need possessive obsessive bullshit in my life.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Oh and that was just last Monday.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">By last Friday everything had calmed down and I was looking forward to hanging out with Mike again on Saturday.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I was not prepared for what was waiting for me on Friday morning. I mean, I knew the day would come sooner or later. Had hoped it would come sooner. I had Mike in IM when I logged into yahoo mail. And there he was. Terry. Waiting for me. I opened it. Honestly not prepared for what I read. And you all knew what I read. I blogged it a few blogs back. Not the details, but just enough that you would know what is going on.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Nothing in this world care prepare you for that sort of news. Even though I know that man, I know what he stands for, what he believes in, I know what he did. None of that changes my feelings for him.<span> </span>He is facing life or death. Part of me sits here thinking, OK, yes he deserves his punishment, but that other part of me that just sees all the good in the world and in people just gets angry at how unfair life is and how I don't feel Terry deserves to face what he is facing. It's sort of a catch-22 right now.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">His first email was very short and cold. I know Terry. I knew he was just trying to not have any feelings show. Trying to make a clean break. Trying to do what he thought was best for both of us.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">NO.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am not having any of that mess. I wrote him back, telling him so.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Friday night, I got a reply from Terry. Well more like Saturday early AM. And so we are emailing back and forth. Oh he's such a mess and it's just breaking my heart. Nothing I can do. Not a darn thing. So I just did the best that I could to be there for him. Finally about<st1:time hour="4" minute="0">4am</st1:time>I had to call it a night.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I was up by 9am because my family was all suppose to gather and meet to go to Oktoberfest, which is where Mike and I were suppose to go. Once I got up and out of the shower, I found Mike to see what time he thought he was going to head this way. His aunt had a heart attack and he was at the hospital across the state waiting on family to come up from Tenn. He said he thought they would be here around 3 and he would call when he was heading my way. I told him, if you can't make it, just call me and let me know. So I told my mom and them I would meet up with them later and they all left. They spent the day at the Oktoberfest then they all went out to dinner and have drinks. I think it was like<st1:time hour="21" minute="0">9pm</st1:time>by the time my mom got home and I did not even get as much as a phone call from Mike.<span> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, while I am sympathetic and understanding about his aunt. It is unfortunate and I am sorry for him and his family. But you did say you were coming. I am also understanding that sometimes family comes and you get caught up and things happen. I get that. But, I am bummed that he could not take 2 seconds to just send me a text or a phone call to just let me know he was not going to make it. Easy enough.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">When I got up this morning my Yahoo had offlines from him saying he was sorry and that he hoped I would forgive him.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Nothing to forgive really. But was a nice jester on his part.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So here it is the wee hours of Thursday am… dealing with my dear sweet Elonna being gone from this world now. Been reflecting on so many things, so much stuff.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have been talking to Terry as much as time allows. This for him is not much. But every little bit helps. We seem to be on some sort of neutral ground right now. Still not sure what is the right thing to do, but at the same time we don't care. And so we continue on waiting to learn his fate. And, just sharing life with each other for the time we have.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Mike and I still talk, sort of. Here is where the tables start to turn. I told Julie today that I feel like I have suddenly lost control of myself. And I hate that. When that happens, I run. And now, I want to run from Mike. I am the one calling him. The one sending him texts and IMing him. Course, I think he's got such a damn huge ego all that does is feed it. He doesn't seem to mind. I mean, he does ask me to call him and what not. But at the same time its killing me to feel like I am the one who's being clingy or needy. UGH. I just can't win. So, I did try to make a break from him. I saw him come online, so I thought, OK, just going to be honest and tell him what's up. But he didn't say anything. So more or less I wrote again that I was done bugging him and basically was gone. Guess that got his attention. He says he was in the bathroom. Then goes on to say he's going to bed, he misses me and we will talk tomorrow. Going to bed huh, so then why is it I see you logged in to another website? I don't get it. If you just don't want to talk, fine. Tell me. If you don't want to hang out, fine. Tell me. It's not real hard.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am to the point where I am about ready to walk away from it all. I have other things I should be taking care of in life anyway.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/145/s_b223edabb8bd47d29b391fa183927089.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Ken Scott</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_477798">Hmm... all those guys exception to Mike are very stupid! I still think you and Mike should give it a real shot ya know... Take care Chrys!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a> on Thursday, September 27, 2007 - 2:02 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=313763931#" id="addReplyLnk_477798" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=313763931&commentID=477798" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_477847">{{{{HUGS}}}} Left my comment on 360, just stopped by to drop off some hugs!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Thursday, September 27, 2007 - 6:49 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=313763931#" id="addReplyLnk_477847" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=313763931&commentID=477847" style="color: #003399; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_477992">WOW sis! Well I pretty much decided that men suck in general. ;)<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Thursday, September 27, 2007 - 12:05 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=313763931#" id="addReplyLnk_477992" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=313763931&commentID=477992" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_477992"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/145/s_b223edabb8bd47d29b391fa183927089.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Ken Scott</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_478928">Chrys I will be extremely honest with ya it's up to God to bring you the true man for ya.. I totally gave up on dating and I just pray to God a lot to ask Him to help me find my Queen so I truly believe that is the very best thing for everybody just to put it in God's hands... Oh yeah not all men suck in general...<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a> on Friday, September 28, 2007 - 1:32 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=313763931#" id="addReplyLnk_478928" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=313763931&commentID=478928" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=121240986" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/90/s_fb5c9a52bb6eabebec47005d6fa13620.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_478954">Must say, the majority of these comments have Me seeing red.<br />I won't even comment on the blog itself.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a> on Friday, September 28, 2007 - 1:48 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=313763931#" id="addReplyLnk_478954" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=313763931&commentID=478954" style="color: #003399; 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line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Comic Sans MS';">First I want to thank Liz, her sister in law for passing this information along to me. ~hugs to you girl~</span><o:p></o:p><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Comic Sans MS'; font-size: 10pt;">As most of you already know by now, our dear, sweet, precious Elonna left this world this past Sunday night around</span><st1:time hour="22" minute="0"><span style="font-family: 'Comic Sans MS'; font-size: 10pt;">10pm</span></st1:time><span style="font-family: 'Comic Sans MS'; font-size: 10pt;">. I wanted you all to know that she left peacefully and without any pain. She went to sleep and never woke up, due to a lack of oxygen.<br /><br />We can all take comfort in the fact that she is no longer in pain, which she was suffering greatly from. She is in a much better place, and she is happy, even blissful if you will. She's looking down on us from heaven, and for the first time in her life she is truly happy. All she ever really wanted was to be with her soul mate, my brother Joey.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 12pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Comic Sans MS'; font-size: 10pt;">Liz was in her room on Monday going through some of her stuff (basically getting any "dirt" out before her parents saw) and found the journal she had given her in the hospital the day she was diagnosed with cancer, here is a small excerpt about you Joey...<br /><br />"All I want to do is love him and take care of him...never let any of the ugly of the world touch him again...such a strong man is my Joey.....I am determined to give it to him still, if only there is time...only time."<br /><br />Liz thought that was very touching, and wanted to share it with you all.<br /><br />If anybody would like to send flowers you may send them to Griffin Funeral Home,</span><st1:address><st1:street><span style="font-family: 'Comic Sans MS'; font-size: 10pt;">1610 C St. SE</span></st1:street><span style="font-family: 'Comic Sans MS'; font-size: 10pt;">,</span><st1:city><span style="font-family: 'Comic Sans MS'; font-size: 10pt;">Ardmore</span></st1:city><span style="font-family: 'Comic Sans MS'; font-size: 10pt;">,</span><st1:state><span style="font-family: 'Comic Sans MS'; font-size: 10pt;">OK</span></st1:state></st1:address><span style="font-family: 'Comic Sans MS'; font-size: 10pt;">. The funeral services will be on Saturday, September 30 @</span><st1:time hour="10" minute="0"><span style="font-family: 'Comic Sans MS'; font-size: 10pt;">10am</span></st1:time><span style="font-family: 'Comic Sans MS'; font-size: 10pt;">. She will be laid to rest @ Rose-Hill Cemetery, in</span><st1:place><st1:city><span style="font-family: 'Comic Sans MS'; font-size: 10pt;">Ardmore</span></st1:city><span style="font-family: 'Comic Sans MS'; font-size: 10pt;">,</span><st1:state><span style="font-family: 'Comic Sans MS'; font-size: 10pt;">Oklahoma</span></st1:state></st1:place><span style="font-family: 'Comic Sans MS'; font-size: 10pt;">.<br /><br />Rest in Peace my Dear Sista....<br />Elonna Rochelle Utt</span><st1:date day="3" m..?3?="" year="1977"><span style="font-family: 'Comic Sans MS'; font-size: 10pt;">March 3, 1977</span></st1:date><span style="font-family: 'Comic Sans MS'; font-size: 10pt;">~</span><st1:date day="23" m..?9?="" year="2007"><span style="font-family: 'Comic Sans MS'; font-size: 10pt;">September 23, 2007</span></st1:date></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-83417520770387548642007-09-24T12:02:00.007-04:002010-10-28T14:29:24.926-04:00~Elonna~<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Monday, September 24, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />Elonna has lost her battle with cancer. One of my dearest and closest best friends. A heart of gold that one. I can't seem to calculate my words right now.<br />*****************************************************<br /><br /><br /><br />My sweet darling Sistagurl...my BFF...I love you so much and miss you... Joey and I will take care of each other. We know you loved us with all your heart. We will see you again babygirl. For now, you find Lonnie, that silly goomba of ours and you keep him out of trouble!!! HEHE..<br /><br />Your spirit will live on inside of us all. Forever a part of us. Your friends, your love, your pirate gang. *blows you a kiss* ... Like Joey said, the light, will always be on. My door is always open. May you Rest In Peace my precious friend....<br /><br />All my love....Chrys<br /><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/518b5d7c7457.gif" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/518b5d7c7457.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/24bba186cbef.gif" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/24bba186cbef.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/396439be7c95.gif" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/396439be7c95.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_475085">{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Chrys}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} This is so sad and frustrating to see another wonderful person get lost to cancer. As I always say, I am sending my love and light out to everyone who loves her, and especially sweet Elonna herself.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Monday, September 24, 2007 - 12:09 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=312907145#" id="addReplyLnk_475085" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=312907145&commentID=475085" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><label id="NewDiv_475085"></label></span><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">fairreegrl</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/22/s_26331e8169ff4a24a978b1eb2b944eaf.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_475147">This is killin me.. but ty for always keeping me updated and for letting me know.. Been at work so I hadn't logged in or checked in today.. until your e-mail. Again.. thx Chrys.<br /><br />My love to you.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">fairreegrl</a>on Monday, September 24, 2007 - 1:17 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=312907145#" id="addReplyLnk_475147" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=312907145&commentID=475147" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42544956" style="color: #003399; 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border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_475662">{{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Monday, September 24, 2007 - 10:20 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=312907145#" id="addReplyLnk_475662" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/90/s_fb5c9a52bb6eabebec47005d6fa13620.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_475829">So sorry, sweetness.<br />Holds you close to Me and whispers that I love you...<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; 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text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/145/s_b223edabb8bd47d29b391fa183927089.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Ken Scott</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_476885">I am so so sorry Chrys... My prayers to Elonna and you... She is certainly in God's hands now... Peace be with you Chrys...<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a> on Wednesday, September 26, 2007 - 2:58 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=312907145#" id="addReplyLnk_476885" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=312907145&commentID=476885" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-25673877347935056432007-09-24T02:04:00.000-04:002010-10-27T20:07:23.954-04:00Terry: SOME WANKER PHISHED MY PAGE!!!!<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;">Monday, September 24, 2007 Terry O'Malley</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #ffccff; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #ffccff; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-weight: normal; line-height: 15px;"></span></span><br />SO I have been offline for two monthes, and in my absence, my page was phished, which apparently means they stole me pics and music, and totally fucked it up.<br /><br />In order to get back on here, I had to change my password. If there is any asshole out there who can figure this password out, then I guess you deserve to be able to get on my page.<br /><br />But beware the consequences. I will NOT be toyed with. I am in NO mood, trust me.<br /><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #ffccff; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-weight: normal; line-height: 15px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #ffccff; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-weight: normal; line-height: 15px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #990033; color: #ffccff; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_169811">You tell them Daddy.....<br />hmmm baby have I told You how much I missed You???<br />We'll get your page fixed. It will be ok. *blows you a long wet hot kiss*<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: #ffccff; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Monday, September 24, 2007 - 2:35 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=191944130&blogId=312828608#" id="addReplyLnk_169811" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] </div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_169811"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #990033; color: #ffccff; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/90/s_fb5c9a52bb6eabebec47005d6fa13620.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_170613">HA! Got My music player back. At least that survived unscathed.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: #ffccff; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a> on Tuesday, September 25, 2007 - 12:56 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=191944130&blogId=312828608#" id="addReplyLnk_170613" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] </div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_170613"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="20" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #990033; color: #ffccff; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_170628">~claps hands together~<br />YEAH!! Thats good news :)<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: #ffccff; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Tuesday, September 25, 2007 - 1:20 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=191944130&blogId=312828608#" id="addReplyLnk_170628" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] </div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=191944130&blogId=312828608#ixzz13bjLhICl" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">l</a><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px;"><span></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-55906027716729157622007-09-23T22:35:00.004-04:002010-11-15T13:15:06.973-05:00Poetry In Motion: Blame<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Sunday, September 23, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/134ec97f48db.gif" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/134ec97f48db.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I feel so suffocated</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Violated</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Confused</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Left bruised</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Cold</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Lonely</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Someone just hold me</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Pissed off</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Let down</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Angry day after day</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Worried</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Wondering</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">About the choices I made</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Thinking</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The cycle will never end</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Feeling</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I will never mend.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Time goes on</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But here I remain</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Trying</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Wishing</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Hoping</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Only myself to blame.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">© C. M. 9/23/2007<br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /><br /><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_474855">Thats good Chrys...sad, but good! I just noticed that we have the same initials, LOL!<br />{{{{HUGS}}}}<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Monday, September 24, 2007 - 6:46 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=312770434#" id="addReplyLnk_474855" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=312770434&commentID=474855" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-46129067527786250742007-09-21T21:41:00.000-04:002010-11-16T21:42:16.305-05:00Joey: Askin me mates fer good thoughts<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"></span><br /><h4 class="subject" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 1.2em; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-rendering: optimizelegibility; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></h4><h4 class="subject" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 1.2em; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-rendering: optimizelegibility; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></h4><h4 class="subject" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 1.2em; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-rendering: optimizelegibility; vertical-align: baseline;">Askin me mates fer good thoughts</h4><div class="blogContent" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Alright I need all me mates out there to send yer good thoughts n healin energy n even prayers if ya got em fer me babygirl Elonna. As ya knows shes been ill n down fer some time.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">I feel tis the moment fer me to reveal how serious things are. She has cancer n has been goin thru chemo treatments fer many months now. Monday is when she goes in fer this PET scan to see how much progress was made with the treatments. We are o course hopin to have good news here.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">So am askin me dear ones to keep her in yer hearts this weekend n on Monday in particular. Thanks to all ya folks out there as I know yer all amazin n carin people.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Hang in me darlin Elonna. I loves ya n I just knows all will be well in all o this. Not much longer n yer gonna be healed babygirl.</div></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-53897945717217887902007-09-21T12:06:00.000-04:002010-10-28T14:39:15.486-04:00News On Terry<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, September 21, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />Just wanted to let you all know that I have heard from Terry. After 2 months of waiting and wondering, I am afraid the news I have is not good. Again, I know it does not make much sense when I can not really tell you about Terry's life. But just know he's been living life on the run for quite some time now. Lets say, he really is a bad boy. But under it all is a very caring and loving man. As some of you have been fortunate enough to see. His past has caught up with him, and he has been removed from Scotland and sent back home to Belfast, Ireland.<br /><br />Unfortunatly, he is in the prison system facing death row or at the very least, a life sentence. That's really all I know. If I find out more, I will let you know. Right now, he's gone back into hard Terry mode with no feelings and doesn't really want to let his feelings out. Trying to make things easier on him and I. Sort of sucks, but what can a girl do? I can understand why. But, doesn't make things easier. As he knows my life has to go on, and it has. And it is going to continue to move forward. But a part of him will always be with me. I now have some closure and can just move on from here.<br /><br /><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_469482">NO!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMGoddess all I can do is send you and Terry my love and light at this time sis.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Friday, September 21, 2007 - 12:51 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=312035291#" id="addReplyLnk_469482" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=312035291&commentID=469482" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_469482"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 67px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/143/s_294e8995c07b45a792dbde894b7d3ad3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_469617">You have him in your heart Darlin' - forever there he will stay.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a>on Friday, September 21, 2007 - 3:40 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=312035291#" id="addReplyLnk_469617" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=312035291&commentID=469617" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_469617"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/90/s_fb5c9a52bb6eabebec47005d6fa13620.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_478971">Move on from here, you say. What is it you want from Me, sweetness?<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a> on Friday, September 28, 2007 - 2:26 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-56850287351773150072007-09-18T22:16:00.000-04:002010-10-28T12:39:52.408-04:00What’s Up With The Back ????<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Tuesday, September 18, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, first off, sorry to those that didn't know the story and I assumed you did. I tend to forget I have new friends that were not around when the diagnoses came about.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have the best friends in the world, and thank you to all of you who expressed concern and worry!!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I know I have written in a few surveys the answers about my pain in my back and what not..so here is why....</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, so I have degenerative disk disease. Sounds just lovely don't it? Oh and it is let me tell you. Last fall, I guess about October. Maybe September my back was hurting far more worse then a regular back ache. I had pain shooting down my right leg. And it would not go away.<span> </span>So, off to the chiro I went.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Something not so sexy or fun about being twisted up like a pretzel. Asked over and over again, does this hurt? How about now? I got really lucky, my chiro turned out to be the funniest, craziest, cutest man ever. I would say something smart and start laughing, and he would just crack up. Kind of hard to pull someone apart when they are laughing. He used to tell me all the time I was such a fun patient for someone in such pain. I was like well, laughter makes the pain subside. So, I had to find humor in it. At least he didn't say I was special, make me feel like I should have ridden the short bus and licked windows as a kid.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, when he told me what was wrong with me I was sort of in this zone like "ok now what?" Of course he says surgery. Fer fucks sake. Who wants to have back surgery at 31 years of age? Certainly not me. But he said I was too young and we didn't want to go that route. Instead, we did intense treatments. Started out almost everyday, then 2-3 times a week, then 1 time a week until there was enough separation between the disks.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">What the problem is, because I have this disease, it causes my vertebrae in my spine to basically disintegrate. My bottom 2 disks are pretty well shot, and they rest on top of each other. Apparently I have had this a while and since I never had pain in my back, it was never caught. It also caused my right side to be up higher then the left. My hips are crooked due to the lining of the vertebrae. FABULOUS! Thankfully I am blessed enough to have HIPS and you can't tell. But, I can feel it in my bones and it SUCKS.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">When I went to the docs, I would be strapped lying down on this table. The damn thing reminded me of 1800's torture devices. It scared me and it sucked. Now we all know I have a thing about pain. But, not this kind of pain. This sucked and did not rock my world. So I lay on this table, for about 30 mins each session while it basically rips my bottom half from my top half to pull my disks apart. And it time, it puts some space between them. Pain gone in time. Of course each session caused its own pain. And then I would have to go to his office so he could push and pull on my right leg and hip to try to get it to catch up to the other side of my body.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">NOT FUN</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">NO</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">NO</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">NO</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">In time I was able to move around with no pain at all. So I was happy. My doc of course gave me some exercises to perform at home to "keep it separated" and of course suggested weight loss (don't they all, I mean no pressure or anything). I kept up with those. And I go round and round with the exercise and weight loss thing.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Then my ass moved here.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Quite literally moving furniture and boxes was a no no no no no. But, I had no one else to do it, so I had no choice. It had to be done.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Slowly, little bits by little bits my back has started to hurt again. Until about 2 weeks ago, it wasn't too major. Now, it a pain in the ass, literally. I can feel my hips shifted again. My lower back hurts daily and all day long. Pain not only shoots down the back of my right leg, but now the left too. And, now I get this numbing in the top front of both legs.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">DAMN IT</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am falling apart.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I know I need to go back to a doc. I need to have my chiro research and find me one here to pawn my ass off on. Refer me. But, there are reasons why I can't go, and I am sure many of you have figured that out by now.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">IT FUCKING HURTS.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And if I whine too much about it, I am sorry. I am trying not to.<span> </span>I can dull some of the pain with meds. The heating pad has become my best friend.<span> </span>And I can get around just fine, thank you. And I am still laughing and smiling. Not about to give up on stuff now. I can't. So please, don't worry about me!!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">As we all know, I always land back on my feet!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, this blog is for those of you that were wondering why I have such a back-ache and what did I do to myself.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">*blows you all a kiss*</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">xoxoxo</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Chrys</div><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_466862">We had to find a new chiropractor when we moved here to Texas...we were lucky and found an awesome one! Good luck!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Wednesday, September 19, 2007 - 7:16 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=311304313#" id="addReplyLnk_466862" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=311304313&commentID=466862" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-56039111463454653382007-09-14T22:59:00.001-04:002010-11-17T16:15:25.532-05:00Poetry In Motion: Sleep In Darkness<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, September 14, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/ff963128387.gif" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/ff963128387.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;">Alone in my bed</span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;">Fastly, fall to slumber</span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;">Feel</span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;">Pulling</span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;">Grabbing</span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;">In the darkness</span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;">I kick</span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;">Pull</span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;">Kick</span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;">Pull</span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;">Kick</span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;">Feel</span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;">Warm, but chilling</span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;">Try to wake</span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;">Caught in your spell</span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;">What is it?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;">What are you trying to tell me?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;">Close the window,</span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;">Lock the doors</span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;">Prince of Darkness</span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;">Follows me.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;">Forever more.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;">© C.M. </span><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;">9/14/07</span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;">Myspace comments:</span><br /><span style="font-family: Algerian; font-size: 18pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 97px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=165456066" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">19VALHALLA19</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=165456066" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/116/s_b692b5e1ffb84338adf0163630f4724b.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Adam Segmullier</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_462611">Awesome!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Saturday, September 15, 2007 - 7:59 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=310049475#" id="addReplyLnk_462611" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/137/s_fa51ecd3152c45d5ba5f2315e578e351.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Joey Vagance</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_462779">I knows who yer talkin bout here. I understands he still wont let ya go. Am thinkin the feelin is mutual. Loves ya sis n as I have told ya over n over be careful. ~bear hugs~<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a> on Saturday, September 15, 2007 - 1:00 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-21246217744511506232007-09-12T00:27:00.001-04:002010-11-17T16:16:18.250-05:00Poetry In Motion: Here I Am<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, September 12, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/cce004c86463.gif" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/cce004c86463.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Here I am</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"> Why do you not look for me</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Have I betrayed you?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">With some word</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Or an act</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Open your eyes, for I am here</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Breath life's breathe</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But no</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">You can not see me</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">For you have let life go</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">You do not need my smile</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Or my words</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Not now</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Look for me, where ever you are going</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Look for my smile</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Wait for my words</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Here I am .</div>(C) C.M. 9/11/07<br /><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_459171">Awesome!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Wednesday, September 12, 2007 - 6:20 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=309164838#" id="addReplyLnk_459171" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=309164838&commentID=459171" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Brian Kinney</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_460300">Damn Chrystal...that could be taken a lot of ways.<br />Love you...<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; 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height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><label id="NewDiv_460300"></label></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 97px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=165456066" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">19VALHALLA19</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=165456066" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/116/s_b692b5e1ffb84338adf0163630f4724b.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Adam Segmullier</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_462542">what if i was looking<br />but it was you looking away.<br />i love it<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=165456066" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">19VALHALLA19</a>on Saturday, September 15, 2007 - 3:41 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-81168184449573866032007-09-10T21:30:00.000-04:002010-10-26T21:36:46.205-04:00Yes, YouTube I am Alive!Ok. Ok. Here is a little something to keep you entertained.<br /><br /><object style="background-image:url(http://i1.ytimg.com/vi/X1LVGAadX18/hqdefault.jpg)" width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/X1LVGAadX18?fs=1&hl=en_US"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/X1LVGAadX18?fs=1&hl=en_US" width="425" height="344" allowScriptAccess="never" allowFullScreen="true" wmode="transparent" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed></object>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-75973788683583857112007-09-07T19:12:00.000-04:002010-10-28T12:50:13.626-04:00Overdue Good-bye<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, September 07, 2007 </span><br /><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/m-wbogBG_eI?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/m-wbogBG_eI?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: windowtext;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: Helvetica;">Anastacia - Overdue Goodbye Lyrics</span></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: #858585; font-family: Helvetica; font-size: 10pt;"><br /><br /></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: Batang;"><br />This is a message<br />pay attention<br />I got something to say<br />pleasant information<br /><br />This is me walking<br />that you're waving<br />this might get away<br />my taste of freedom<br /><br />Goodbye<br />goodbye<br /><br />This is a calling<br />not a conversation<br />no manipulation<br />if love is a season<br />you are my winter<br />you are just the ice<br />layin' on my finger<br /><br />This is a message<br />pay attention<br />nobody's gonna love me the wrong way again<br />this is a calling<br />not a conversation<br />this is my overdue goodbye<br />yeah, overdue goodbye<br /><br />Oh, in my tomorrow<br />all the fields are golden<br />and all the papers say<br />that the spell's been broken<br /><br />To my future lover<br />fate will find you<br />'cause you have the power<br />of truth behind you, yeah<br /><br />Goodbye<br />oh, yeah<br />goodbye<br />said goodbye, baby<br /><br />This is a message<br />pay attention<br />nobody's gonna love me the wrong way again<br />this is a calling<br />not a conversation<br />this is my overdue goodbye<br /><br />Yeah yeah<br /><br />Goodbye<br />I said goodbye<br />goodbye<br />I said goodbye baby<br /><br />This is a message<br />pay attention<br />nobody's gonna love me the wrong way again<br />oh yeah<br />this is a calling<br />not a conversation<br />this is my overdue goodbye<br /><br />(this is a message) oooh<br />(pay attention) said pay attention<br />(nobody's gonna love me the wrong way again) nobody, nobody, no<br />(this is a calling) a calling<br />(not a conversation)<br />this is my overdue goodbye<br /><br />heya<br />goodbye<br />oh oh<br />goodbye<br />come on and sing with me<br />one more time, one more time<br />goodbye<br />ooooooh<br />goodbye<br />yeha yeah<br />goodbye<br />mmm<br />goodbye<br />goodbye<br />goodbye<br />goodbye<br />goodbye<br />yeah he<br />goodbye</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; 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font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_455069">Love those words!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Saturday, September 08, 2007 - 9:11 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=307780921#" id="addReplyLnk_455069" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=307780921&commentID=455069" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><b><label id="NewDiv_455069"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Brian Kinney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_455445">Hope this aint directed at me...lol...<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a> on Saturday, September 08, 2007 - 6:03 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=307780921#" id="addReplyLnk_455445" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_455496">No way babydoll!!! This is me moving on from M and sort of setting myself free. Ya know I'll always love ya!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Saturday, September 08, 2007 - 7:31 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=307780921#" id="addReplyLnk_455496" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=307780921&commentID=455496" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></b><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-88870643437091470862007-09-03T22:34:00.000-04:002010-10-28T12:55:43.921-04:00Just Some Things To Clear the Air<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Monday, September 03, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/99fbb6abeb42.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/99fbb6abeb42.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I think I need to make myself clear about some things.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">When I said I was not looking for love, which did not mean I did not want it. It just meant at this time in my life I am just not setting it as my top priority of things to do. And there are many reasons as to why. I am not running away from it. I just have many other things I need to get settled with in life first.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">As for the love that I carry for Lonnie, well that's a given. My guardian angel will forever have a part of my love, as well as my brother Joey. As for the love I have for Brian, Terry and Stevie, as we all know by now, I am a girl who is not like every other girl in this world. I was given a smile and a heart for a reason. To give my love and cheer to those that deserves it. I am fully capable of giving love to more then one person. Be it male of female. Love. Not to be confused with IN love. Got it? I hope so, because it gets rather hard to try to explain. Until I am around Brian or Terry, I will never fully know if I am IN love with them. And that's OK. Our relationship is perfect just the way it is. Brain understands me and he doesn't try to change me. Accept me just as I am. Thank goodness somebody does.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Having said all that, its time for a rant.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Now, as you know, I had decided not to use names here to protect the privacy of those I had dated. Well, you know what, who gives a fuck anymore. This is my blog and I have always been open about all aspects of my life, and if someone does not like it, then perhaps they should not be a part of my life. Simple.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So. The first boy I started talking to before I even moved here to MI was Chris. Thanks to Julie and our night of dares, I had signed up for the Yahoo Personals. And Chris was one of the first fellows I started talking to from their. He's cool. I like talking to him. WE have tried to make plans to get together, but something always happens. So, maybe it's just not meant to be.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Then, their was Steve. He was the first date I went on when I moved here. The one that I felt safe enough to swap spit with and have a good ole time, for him to never ever call be back. So, I booted him off myspace and kicked him to the curb. Fine, he was too short for me anyway, but how hard is it to call someone and say you are not interested.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Then we have James. Ah, Mr. I wanna be a rock star James. Again, nice guy. Had a great time. But, something just didn't click. Now, I had hoped we could hang out again as friends. I am pretty sure my profile says FRIENDS FIRST. But apparently these guys can't read. So, after a week of not hearing from him, I booted him off myspace. Then I get an email from him.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">This is what he writes:</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 14.4pt; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><b><i><span style="color: #333333;">Chrystal,<o:p></o:p></span></i></b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 14.4pt; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><b><i><span style="color: #333333;">Sorry. You didn't make me not want to talk to you. (and if you're referring to me being 'invisible' on yahoo all the time now, I'm not hiding from you...that's actually in response to a friend that gets drunk and IM's me all the time and annoys the heck out of me) I had a good time with you and am glad we met. I just didn't feel we were compatible for a romantic relationship. But I apologize for leaving you guessing and not communicating that to you earlier. That wasn't fair or respectful. (And I know how much I hate it when my feelings are ignored or taken for granted. I'm sure there's some rock line in there somewhere about 'being what you hate')</span></i></b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 14.4pt; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><b><i><span style="color: #333333;"><o:p></o:p></span></i></b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 14.4pt; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><b><i><span style="color: #333333;"><o:p></o:p></span></i></b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 14.4pt; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><b><i><span style="color: #333333;">I hope all is well for you! Thanks again for letting me take up some of your time!</span></i></b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 14.4pt; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><b><i><span style="color: #333333;"><o:p></o:p></span></i></b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 14.4pt; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><b><i><span style="color: #333333;"><o:p></o:p></span></i></b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 14.4pt; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><b><i><span style="color: #333333;">Take it easy,<o:p></o:p></span></i></b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 14.4pt; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><b><i><span style="color: #333333;">James</span></i></b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 14.4pt; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 14.4pt; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><b><i><span style="color: #333333;"><o:p></o:p></span></i></b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">What a fucktard. Ok first of all, if ya don't like a girl, take her home after dinner not head to the bar. And if you still don't like a girl, take her home not bring her back to your place for a movie. Or if after you watch that movie and you still don't like her, taker HER HOME don't sit there and watch a porn with her. Oh yes people, WE WATCHED PORN. And nothing happened. Fucking ridiculous. And he had to nerve to ask me if I wanted to stay the night afterwards. I said no, please take me home. So he has the nerve to write me this idiotic letter.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Whatever, at this point, I just want to throw in the towel at the dating game. But…then again maybe not.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, so there is Tom. Actually him I met on another dating sight. And he's cool as shit. As I have written about him in the past, he came over here and we just chilled till like <st1:time hour="3" minute="0">3am</st1:time> watching movies. But it's been hit or miss trying to talk to each other since that night. And when I tried to talk to him the other day he was in the ER. (Oh I can hear Julie now!)</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So who knows what's going to happen at this point. And sorry to say he's not on my 360 or myspace so you all can't go spy on him!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Then there is Mark. He was the one I was supposed to go out with Friday night. This got changed to Saturday night. But, he got sick and I got sick and what a lovely pair we would have made. So that was called of. We talk pretty much talk every day. And I really enjoy talking to him. So, I look forward to when we can get together and go out. And now he's connected here at myspace and 360! So we can keep an eye on each other, and you all can go be nosey!!!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am starting to feel a little better. Between my allergies and stress and just all the bullshit that's been going on around me, I think I just broke down. I needed some rest, and I sure got it!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, this is short and sweet, not sure what else to say.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I took the first of two finals in my real estate appraisal class and passed with a 95%. So that was GOOD!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And I think I will be getting my car situation taken care of this week *crosses fingers* let hope. Because it would help with the job hunt so much more if I had my own car to drive! </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And I still HATE my dad, I am still ANGRY about all that shit.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I finally got some papers from the lawyer for the divorce. What a slow poke ass. Good lord. We should have been done with this crap by now!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And when I am ready to settle down with one person , I am sure, I will let you all know. For now, one day at a time. Taking things slow.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, on that note…I'm off…see you all later.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Xoxoxo</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Chrys<br /><br />MySpace Comments<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">Brian Kinney</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"> </span><br /><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_449758">Love you too Chrys...glad you are feeling better baby. ~~~kisses all over you</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a> on Monday, September 03, 2007 - 11:53 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=306529335#" id="addReplyLnk_449758" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=306529335&commentID=449758" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-45090904791928092132007-09-03T03:42:00.000-04:002010-10-28T12:57:46.806-04:00Sick..Sick....owie.....Sick...blah<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Monday, September 03, 2007</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />So it's 3:30am Monday.....and I still feel like total shit. And have quite literally been in bed for the last 24hrs. Blah. I feel like a zombie. So, anyway, thats why I have not been around to see any of you.<br />Hope you all enjoy your holiday, my bed is calling my name again.<br /><br />C<br /><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Ken Scott♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/145/s_b223edabb8bd47d29b391fa183927089.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Ken Scott</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_448678">Girl you're must be sick putting virus in my computer go back to bed ha ha! JK! Actually you need to put your ass in my bed hehehe Get well or I'll spank ya good! ;P Take care babe! ♥♣♥<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a> on Monday, September 03, 2007 - 3:58 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=306267750#" id="addReplyLnk_448678" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=306267750&commentID=448678" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_448678"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_448760">{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Chrys}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}<br />Get well, sweetie!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Monday, September 03, 2007 - 8:56 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=306267750#" id="addReplyLnk_448760" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=306267750&commentID=448760" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-49973620799350836802007-08-31T22:17:00.000-04:002010-10-28T13:08:37.338-04:00Not Looking For Love<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, August 31, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/b529929b9fbb.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/b529929b9fbb.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Not Looking For Love</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">No, I am not looking for love.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">WHAT?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Did she just say that???</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Why yes, yes I did.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Now before you get all confused or your panties in a wad let me explain.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">You might be asking yourself "If she's not looking for love, then why is she going out on all the dates" or "Why is she bitching about these boys not calling her back after the date?"</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have an explanation for that! It's called DATING! I am JUST dating! Nothing more, nothing less. Just keeping my options open and seeing what's out there. Networking. Meeting people. Just getting out there.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am not looking for love right now. Not that I am running from it. But right now, it's just not the top priority on my list.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have love in my life. I have some wonderful men (see there, I said MEN) in my life that love me unconditionally. And, I expect anyone in my future to love me just the same.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">These boys that I am going on these dates with, I am only allowing them to see so much of me. And, I ask those questions, I test them. I have to know how they view certain things in their life. Lets face it folks, I am not your typical girl. My sexuality and my bedroom activities in general are not your typical all American girl next door type adventures. I mean, I have my moments when I can be that girl. But, this other side of me has to be taken care of too. And the truth of the matter is it is going to take a special kind of guy to be comfortable with that. Perhaps a guy with the same kind of lifestyle.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I bet you are wondering then why I am not with these men that share this love with me. Pretty simple really. One happens to be my brother. A totally different kind of love but Joey and I are very much alike when it comes to our sexuality and lifestyle. As well as the things we want in a partner. He keeps me going, he keeps me true and real to myself. He won't let me hide, even when times get tough and I want to.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Then we have Brian. What can I say about Brian besides the fact that I fucking love that man? Every day that passes my heart bleeds for him just that much more. I have known him just about a year now, and what a year it has been. If you have been around that long, well then you know the story. If not, happy reading as there is a lot of it mixed in the blogs from the past. Brian and I, we do have many common bonds. Share many common interests. A love that doesn't ask questions and is unconditional. Why aren't we together? I am here and he's across the states. Seems simple doesn't it? Their should be a simple fix to that. Wrong. There is more to it then just that, and it's complicated and not for me to share. If there is a time and a place for us, only time will tell.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I bet you thought Terry would be the first person mentioned huh? Yeah, thought so. Things with Terry are hard to talk about. I swore, after Lonnie died that I was never going to open myself up to another man. Brian was already over my wall at the time because of a mutual girlfriend we had. (Oh I know my shit is complicated LOL) My wall was up. Way up. Higher then ever before. And it was triple layered after pushing Sean out of my life. And then I met Terry through Stevie (yet another man I love). And, it was innocent enough. Fun. Harmless. And I don't know what happened. I still sit here today wondering how I let it happen.<br /><br /> Part of me is angry for letting him over that wall. Not that I really let him in. His ass just barged on over it, then kicked it and knocked it down. But, another part of me has never had regret about anything in life. I take what I can from it and move on. I am confused about this relationship. So much happened so quickly. And all these plans had been put in order and started to be processed. And then, *poof* he is gone. As I have said time and time again, I KNOW why he had to run. Why he had to go. And maybe that makes it harder to deal with. I worry that something has happened to him. I worry he is not safe and sound. He asked me not to worry, to trust in the end everything would be ok. And I am trying to find comfort in his words. He has had to go through this before and came out OK. I wish I could explain things to you, but its Terry's' life and not my place to discuss the matters. But, it's been over a month now.<br /><br />This other side of me is starting to get angry. I don't care who you are and what you life entails. In this day and age there are so many means of communication. And if he can't do it himself, he has mates that could do it for him. He's got my email, my home address, my home phone and my cell phone. You tell me he has no way to get in touch with me? Whatever. Someone needs to tell me something soon or I am going to go out of my mind. This whole not knowing thing is just the hardest part. Every day I look for him. Hoping today is going to be the day.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So at what point does one give up? Should I walk away now and just turn my back? I don't know what to do. I am moving forward. I am still doing what I need to do to get my life back in order. But at what point do I stop holding on to that last thread of hope and just say hey girl, he's not coming back, let him go. Let it go. When do I do that? </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I went through this will Lonnie last year. When Joey was transferred and we didn't know where he went or what happened Lonnie got all upset and took off. Did not tell anyone where he went. Sean got wind he where he was a few weeks later, but still no Lonnie. He did come around almost 2 months later. And it was rough.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And I went through this earlier this year. When Sean was away for Lonnie's death, this is when I had starting a relationship with Brian. Then Sean came back and my life had moved forward. He got on to me for moving on from Lonnie so quickly. He made me feel bad for my choices. He also made me feel very guilty about Lonnie's death. So as we all know, I went back to Sean and broke up with Brian. Course I ended up breaking up with Sean in May and somehow these last few weeks find myself back in Brian's arms.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, you see, every time I move forward and away from the one I am with, it always seems that one returns.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">These days I am forced to think in different terms. Now that I am divorced I can think of these relationships in different terms. My relationship can go farther then they have in the past.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I want to share my life with someone that understands me. Someone that knows me inside and out. Someone that won't try to change me but takes me and accepts me just as I am. And I know that is not too much to ask. I know I deserve to have that person in my life.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Right now, how I am feeling today, I would move heaven and earth to try with Brian. But, with our separate situations, I do not know if that is possible. Well, today its not. But, neither of us knows what "could" happen.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And as much as I miss Terry and love him, I can't help but wonder, is it real? And could it really work? Him and I are so much the same, but yet so different. And there is the whole living across the world from each other.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I don't know. I just don't know. I think about how I got lashed at that I let Brian go. I know how happy some people are that he's back in my life. And I know how worried some people are about the differences Terry and I do have.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Having said that, I think the answer is clear. I am taking in to consideration what everyone has said to me. But, I am listening to my heart on this one.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Now you can see why I am not looking for love these days. I have it. And I know who I want it from.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">For now, I will continue on the path I am following, and see just where the road takes me.<br /><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Brian Kinney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_446923">Thanks for writing this blog baby...love you and glad to be part of your life.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a> on Saturday, September 01, 2007 - 10:32 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=305603087#" id="addReplyLnk_446923" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=305603087&commentID=446923" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><label id="NewDiv_446923"></label></span><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_446931">{{{{HUGS}}}} (psst...he's a cutie pie! LOL!)<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Saturday, September 01, 2007 - 10:52 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=305603087#" id="addReplyLnk_446931" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=305603087&commentID=446931" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><label id="NewDiv_446931"></label></span><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_446936">Ok, so I just went to is page and found that he's a "Picksburgher"...that makes him even better in my book, LOL! Wait...unless he's NOT a Steeler fan...if he's not a fan then I think you should look for someone who is! But that's just "mom's" humble opinion. LOL! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Saturday, September 01, 2007 - 11:00 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-77178722932424787442007-08-30T03:19:00.000-04:002010-10-28T13:13:27.676-04:00Whats Up With Chrys??? - August Update Edition<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, August 30, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, so I need to write a new blog. And we need to insert a new guy here, or right here. Whatever. Notice I said guy, and not boy???</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Yeah, could be a reason for that. So, the boy I went out with last week, the one that sent me stumbling home at 4am, yeah him, had such a great time and now he doesn't call. What is up with these boys? How hard is it to pick up the phone and call, or even text, or use IM, or even myspace for Christ's sakes and say hey, Had a good time but you are not the girl for me. FINE! It's not hard. I am a big girl. Thanks for the dinner and drinks. Moving on. Write him off and he can stand next to boy 1.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, yes, let me tell you about this guy. I can tell you all I want about him because he's not here on myspace. Well he may be, but he's not on mine. Nanny nanny boo boo! Neener neener! I was going to tell you the other day, but I needed to get Lonnie's blog up.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have not known him long. Not that I knew the others long. But, his time as been even shorter. But, it has been so cool and we just hit it off instantly. SO many things in common, it's almost creepy. Very twilight zone. Ha-ha... anyway, he came over my house and brought some movies. And we just chilled here watching movies and TV till, eeek I think it was about <st1:time hour="3" minute="0">3am</st1:time>when he left. He text me when get got home, and we have talked every day since that night.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Finally folks, we have a guy and not a boy.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Anyway, we had plans to see each other again for Friday. And he said Friday he was DJing at a club in a town close by. So he wanted me to go with him so we could hang out. Fine. So I had asked my mom, my cousin in law and her sis to go with me so that I would have someone to talk to while he was working. Cool. All set. Well, my aunt is in town from <st1:state><st1:place>Arizona</st1:place></st1:state>, and she wants to go out tonight, Thursday, to this place that has great food and karaoke. This happens to be one of his fave places. So I ask him if he would like to go. And he's all like Uh, Chrys; I am DJing in <st1:city><st1:place>Flint</st1:place></st1:city>that night remember??</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">NO</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">YOU SAID FRIDAY!!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So needless to say our plans are all messed up. Because he is DJing in some town Friday and Saturday that I have never heard of. So, guess I won't be seeing him for a while.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Now, you might think I am all bent up over it. And maybe I am just a little because he's really cool. But…I just made a date for Friday night with a boy to go see the new Halloween Rob Zombie movie that starts that day. I am pretty excited about this. That movie is gonna rock! And this boy seems pretty nice. We shall see if he moves from boy to guy status when all is said and done.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, so last night, I had to go over to my dads. Yuck. I hate it. Every time I think about having to go there I get all bunged up inside. I don't want to be around him, in that house, nor do I want to be around his mother. I want quite simply to be rid of him forever. I just can not deal with being around him anymore. I tried. And it just messes with me too much. Anyway, he paid for my truck rental to move up here. And he expects me to pay him back the $420 for it. Funny, as my mom doesn't expect me to pay her back a dime for the gas and what not she paid for with the truck and the van.<span> </span>Anyway, he sent me a money order and I put the money in my checking account. Picked up the truck and had them charge my debit card. Well, here a month later, no money has come out of my checking. So dad calls and says they charged him. He's all pissed. So I am like its not big deal they charged you instead of me I will get the money you gave me out of my checking and bring it over. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So fine, I have mom drive me because we are going to head to my cousins, and I get out the give him the check and he's all shoving papers at me. Trying to show me the charge and he's going on and on and on and he's thinking he being double charged and paying twice and that I am going to owe him $840 and blah blah blah. I am the accountant. I went to college. I have a degree. I get it. You have a GED and are a fucking child abusing drug addict get out of my face! UGH! So anyway, his girlfriend starts getting in on it, by this time I am screaming because he won't listen to me. The neighbors are out. My mom has had enough and she's like will you just listen to her! She is trying to explain. Ok, bless my mom for standing up for me, but I am not 5, she should have just stayed out of it. Well that got ugly. My dad walks over to the van to tell her to shut up and that he's thinks he's being set up and blah blah blah. I am like fuck you. I can not believe you would think me of all fucking people would be trying to rip you off! So my mom starts screaming at him. And off they go.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">No mind you, this is maybe the 3<sup>rd</sup>time my parents have spoken to each other in 15 years or so. And it was fuck you bitch, shut up cunt, fucking asshole, everything you could think of they said. So then he's telling her to get off his property and i am like mom just go I will walk home (we just live a few country miles away LOL) and dads like I will take you home. I am like I am not going with you.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So mom doesn't go, they keep screaming, and then the girlfriend is starting to call the police. Great. Just great. And there is the wicked grandmother standing at the window. YUCK. Someone just shoot me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Finally my dad comes over and says wont you just listen. So I stand there, and listen. I say one thing and that's I will pay you back the $420 when I get a job just as we discussed. And he looks at me, kid you not plain as day and says calmly, OK that's all I wanted.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">WHAT THE FUCK. Did I just get off the boat? What crack are you smoking??? Why the hell were you just all bent about $820??</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I think my dad did too many drugs and has fried his brain.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So I get in the car, mom takes off like a bat out of hell and she starts in on how he had no right and blah blah so I look her dead in the face and said you are just as much to blame, and you had no right either.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">No wonder I am so fucked up mentally in the head!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Aye, I need to find a free shrink up here. I thought I was done with all that, but those two gave me a migraine that hasn't stopped.<span> </span>I have been off my meds for about a month now and I would like to keep it that way, but they are going to put me in the nutty house for sure!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Anyway, we get home and the first thing my mom does is get on the phone with her poor pitiful me to who ever she was talking too.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">HER???</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">WHAT ABOUT ME???</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So I am already counting down the days until I can move out of here.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Isn't life grand?</div><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; 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font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_444056">Just stopping by to drop off this----> {{{{HUGS}}}}!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Thursday, August 30, 2007 - 6:49 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=305034663#" id="addReplyLnk_444056" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=305034663&commentID=444056" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; 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font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/145/s_b223edabb8bd47d29b391fa183927089.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Ken Scott</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_444074">I would never fight my ex wife in front of my child.. It's so selfish! I'm praying for ya Chrys and you take your time dear and so love will find ya! Take care hun! xoxoxoxoxo ♥♣♥<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a> on Thursday, August 30, 2007 - 7:27 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=305034663#" id="addReplyLnk_444074" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=305034663&commentID=444074" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_444074"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/137/s_fa51ecd3152c45d5ba5f2315e578e351.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Joey Vagance</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_444128">Ahhhh sis gots to love them guys over them boys n if the folks wanna fight then not much ya kin do there. Keep hangin in n bein strong. Loves ya. ~brotherly hugs~<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a> on Thursday, August 30, 2007 - 9:59 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=305034663#" id="addReplyLnk_444128" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=305034663&commentID=444128" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_444128"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81869020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Kristi</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81869020" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/92/s_fc5d3118db564b399fdeb53c00180dc0.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">KRISTI C</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_444233">WOW SOUNDS LIKE YOU HAD QUITE THE EXCITING NIGHT!! SORRY YOU HAD TO GO THRU THAT!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81869020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Kristi</a> on Thursday, August 30, 2007 - 12:15 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=305034663#" id="addReplyLnk_444233" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=305034663&commentID=444233" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=81869020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=138930177" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">andrew</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=138930177" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/50/s_0951bdd6f840aebbee131441a6770b87.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_444428">chrys, it sounds like you need a hug, and the reassurance that you have lots of people who care about you, no matter what.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=138930177" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">andrew</a> on Thursday, August 30, 2007 - 4:14 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-19698115761300007142007-08-28T15:16:00.001-04:002010-11-15T15:16:46.154-05:00Poetry In Motion: What I Miss<div class="MsoNormal">What I Miss</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I miss your smile</div><div class="MsoNormal">I miss your kiss</div><div class="MsoNormal">I miss your arms</div><div class="MsoNormal">Around my hips</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I miss</div><div class="MsoNormal">The way your face lit</div><div class="MsoNormal">When I walked in the room</div><div class="MsoNormal">A smile that melted</div><div class="MsoNormal">And sent me to the moon.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">But it wasn’t enough</div><div class="MsoNormal">To tame my wild ways</div><div class="MsoNormal">And in the end</div><div class="MsoNormal">This is the price we both pay.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Sorry it didn’t work</div><div class="MsoNormal">And I have to move here</div><div class="MsoNormal">To Burt.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">© C.M. 8/28/2007</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-2084670521704350572007-08-28T03:36:00.000-04:002010-10-28T13:16:53.747-04:00Happy Birthday Lonnie ~ R.I.P. Baby! We Miss You<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Tuesday, August 28, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />"I am a better person in this life, because I was loved by you."<br /><br /><o:p></o:p><br />The famous words, but yet Lonnie said them to me all the time as if they were his own.<br /><br /><o:p></o:p><br />Not a day goes by that I don't think about him. Not a day goes by where I don't replay the events over and over in my head. Wondering. Hoping. Wishing. But, no matter how magical I am, not even all the magic in the world can change the past.<br /><br /><o:p></o:p><br />So today is Lonnie's 37 birthday, and although we are not together physically, he is with me, my brother Joey, Elonna, his daughter Vic, and his family - spiritually.<br /><br /><o:p></o:p><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/767a8a384fe6.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/767a8a384fe6.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div align="center"><br /></div>He once told me he would see me in the next life if we were not together in this one. I hold him to that. I will see that man again. He used to call me his Irish Angel, well now, he is my Guardian Angel. My angel on my shoulder. A busy one he is as he follows all of us about.<br /><br /><o:p></o:p><br />I am a better person because he loved me just as I was. He made me open my eyes and see so many things about myself. He made me love life in a new way.<br /><br /><o:p></o:p><br />I am sad about what a wonderful, kind, passionate, understanding, and accepting man was lost to us all; but I hold tight to those wonderful memories or treasures as I like to call them.<br /><br /><o:p></o:p><br />I miss him. I miss him a great deal. And because of all the stuff surrounding his death, I did not heal as I should have.<br /><br /><o:p></o:p><br />Now, I am taking the time to honor him, to remember him, to love him, and to also mourn his death as I should have.<br /><br /><o:p></o:p><br />With that I say....Happy Birthday Lonnie! We love you, we miss you, and we WILL see you again.<br /><br /><o:p></o:p><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/ce32b6827ea0.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/ce32b6827ea0.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div align="center"><br /></div><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/24bba186cbef.gif" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/24bba186cbef.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><br />*****************************************************<br /><div align="center"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/518b5d7c7457.gif" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/518b5d7c7457.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><br /><h3 align="center" style="font-size: 17px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">In Memory of You</h3><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/dc4597717002.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/dc4597717002.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div align="center">I find an old photograph<br />and see your smile.<br />As I feel your presence anew,<br />I am filled with warmth<br />and my heart remembers love.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">I read an old card<br />sent many months ago<br />during a time of turmoil and confusion.<br />The soothing words written then<br />still caress my spirit<br />and bring me peace.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">I remember who you used to be<br />the laughter we shared<br />and wonder what you have become.<br />Where are you now,<br />Where did you go,<br />When the body is left behind<br />and the spirit is released to fly?</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">Perhaps you are the morning bird<br />singing joyfully at sunrise,<br />or the butterfly that dances<br />so carelessly on the breeze<br />or the rainbow of colors<br />that brightens a stormy sky<br />or the fingers of afternoon mist<br />delicately reaching over the mountains<br />or the final few rays of the setting sun<br />lighting up the skies<br />edging the clouds with a magical glow.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">I miss your being<br />but I feel your presence,<br />In whatever form you choose to take,<br />however you now choose to be.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">Your spirit has become for me<br />a guardian angel on high<br />guiding, advising, and watching over me.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">I remember you.<br />You are with me<br />and I am not afraid.</div><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_441900">{{{{HUGS}}}} I know you will be with him some day!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Tuesday, August 28, 2007 - 6:43 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=304296900#" id="addReplyLnk_441900" style="color: #003399; 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text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_441945">Blessed be to Lonnie, and all my love and light being sent today.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; 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text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/137/s_fa51ecd3152c45d5ba5f2315e578e351.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Joey Vagance</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_442098">Happy Birthday to me precious Lonnie. I miss ya more than I kin ever say with these words. Yet I feels ya with me n that gives me comfort. I loves ya me sexy goomba.<br />~hugs n smacks~<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a> on Tuesday, August 28, 2007 - 11:45 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=304296900#" id="addReplyLnk_442098" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=304296900&commentID=442098" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42154919" style="color: #003399; 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font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_442202">Happy Birthday and God Bless Lonnie!<br /><br />Love,<br />~Gina<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=24250729" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~Gina~</a> on Tuesday, August 28, 2007 - 2:00 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=304296900#" id="addReplyLnk_442202" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=138930177" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">andrew</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=138930177" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/50/s_0951bdd6f840aebbee131441a6770b87.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_442206">happy birthday, lonnie-<br /><br />and to all those we remember each and every day<br />although we miss you, we know you are watching<br />and are looking forward to the time when we meet again.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=138930177" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">andrew</a> on Tuesday, August 28, 2007 - 2:06 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-67172659365891783562007-08-25T23:04:00.000-04:002010-10-28T13:32:58.008-04:00Spirits Lifted ~~wooohooooo~ Hope is alive and well today!<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Saturday, August 25, 2007</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">My spirits are listed for now.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am sorry my darling brother thought he was the reason as to why I had gotten so down that last few days. Life has certainly been a roller coaster lately, and my last episode was no exception. But, we all have to moments when we get down and out. I know that all to well. But, this time, everything I had been dealing with, on top of some things I had not dealt with all blind sided me all at once, and quite literally knocked me down and sucked the wind out of me. I had to take a step back for some time. I had to think about some things, and think about how I am going to handle those things.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am feeling better. I have much more clarity then I did a few days ago. Sure, some things are still bugging me, but those are just things that I am going to have to deal with.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">At any rate, let me tell you what I have been up to.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have been taking a Real Estate Appraisal class. This has really pushed my brain because it's an accelerated course. Now, I have a company that's waiting on me to finish as they would like to contract work with me to help me get the hours that I need after I finish the class as get my certification. I have to get like 2000 hours while on my limited license, before I can sit for the state exam and have a full license. This basically means I can work for myself and not need to have a supervisor. It is really nice of them to offer this to me. However, it doesn't contract a lot of work in my area, but it's a start. And I can find another place to work for in the mean time. I am also getting ready to take an exam to do bank foreclosure inspections. Again, just starting out, the money is not the best until you have been with the company for a while and get your name out there. I have debated about getting in to real estate as well.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I don't know, I am just questioning whether or not I want to get back into accounting.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have been thinking about taking a part time job at the mall, for plenty of reasons, but mostly just to get out of this house and talk to people. Network, meet people, and make a little cash while I am at it. I know some people at a few stores that have asked me to stop by and come talk to them. So I might go see them Monday and see what they have to say. I don't really want to get into retail; I did my time in college and high school. But, again, it's all about talking to people, networking and getting me out of the house.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">What else?? Well as we know boy 1 as yet to talk to me since our eve out. So I have written him off. Buh-bye. Thanks for the free dinner and drinks! I had a dinner planned with another boy. And I know I had them numbered a few blogs back, but I can't remember who go what number. And I know they are too old to be calling boys, but whatever. That's what I am going to call them. So anyway, this boy had to cancel, so perhaps we will reschedule at some point.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Then, this other boy asked me to have dinner and drinks on Friday. And I did exactly that!!! It was a great time and I had great conversation. We hit the bar, and then when our table was ready, we ate. Talked and talked and you know me, talked some more. After we finished eating, off to the bar we went. And it was so much FUN! We had 2 bartenders and they were so funny. I really enjoyed talking to them as well. And their was one waiter that was having the most difficult people all night and he kept coming back to tell us his stories. Was pretty funny. We shut the bar down, which closed at 11:30, since it was a restaurant. And went back to his place to watch movies. I think by the time I had stumbled my way in to my room, the clock said it was pretty close to<st1:time hour="4" minute="0">4AM</st1:time>!!!! OYE!! Was it really???</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And you ALL get your minds out of the gutter because I was a perfect angel!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And I know you want details…but this is all you are getting !!!!!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, I slept half the day away today. Got up, dressed and off I went with my mom to meet up with some friends of her for a Biker Poker Run. It was a charity event for Jude's Hospital. It was a pig roast and free keg and my mother's friend's band was playing. We ate, we had a few drinks, we laughed at the stupid Hooters hookers, we met some people, drank more, listened to the band. Checked out a ton of Harleys. Met more people. And I met a boy. He wanted me to come with him and his friends to a bar that's actually not far from my house at all, and I have been there plenty of times in my life. And, as much as I wanted to go, I just really wanted to come back here and chill. I am not 21 anymore, I needed to rest. Besides, despite the fact this boy knew everyone I knew, I would rather talk to him a little more before I go saddling up on his Harley with him for the next round of drinks. Oh I know, would have been fun, but I really was starting to get sort of tired. Anyway, I gave him the digits and said for him to call, that I likely would not go with him tonight, but would be glad to hang out with him out there some other time.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOSSSSSSSSSHH</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">All the sudden I feel like singing …."Its raining men, hallelujah it's raining men….."</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So anyway, here's a couple of pics I snapped with my phone, the hooker girls did a stupid dance to Cotton Eyed Joe, that made me laugh so hard I almost pissed myself. I really liked the fact that this boy I was hanging with was saying someone needed to feed them girls they was looking all anorexic. HAHAHHA…. Seriously, I have nothing against hooters girls, but these 3 were not even cute. And then my momma hahahah and some pics of the band members. Did not turn out very well, but you get the general idea.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, spirits are lifted right now. However, I will warn you, there will be a blog coming up that you might think I am down, but, you see, its Lonnie's birthday in a few days, and, as I finally spend time on me and taking care of me, I am now taking the time to mourn his death properly as I should have long ago. So, as I remember him on his birthday, I will remember what was lost to me and Joey, but I will also remember the good times we shared.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/1357a51c8945.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/1357a51c8945.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/b60e40bd158.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/b60e40bd158.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/03ca15d70090.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/03ca15d70090.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/f9e073b18b08.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/f9e073b18b08.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Ken Scott♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/145/s_b223edabb8bd47d29b391fa183927089.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Ken Scott</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_439295">Cool I'm glad ya had a great time! Cheers to ya!!! ♣<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a> on Saturday, August 25, 2007 - 11:21 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=303481409#" id="addReplyLnk_439295" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=303481409&commentID=439295" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_439607">{{{{HUGS}}}} Happy Sunday!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Sunday, August 26, 2007 - 8:16 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=303481409#" id="addReplyLnk_439607" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_440438">Glad you are in a better mood, sis! That's great that you had a wonderful weekend! I did too *wink* and will probably blog about it!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Sunday, August 26, 2007 - 11:43 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=303481409#" id="addReplyLnk_440438" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=303481409&commentID=440438" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><label id="NewDiv_440438"></label></span><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/137/s_fa51ecd3152c45d5ba5f2315e578e351.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Joey Vagance</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_440709">Well me darlin sis sounds like ya gots lots to think bout. What career ya wants as opposed to what job ya will take in the meantimes. I thinks ya would do great at real estate or retail. Cause ya likes people n kin charm em. Like yer bro. Hehehehehehe.<br />An sis I am yer bro I kin get away with sayin. When it comes to males maybe yer problem is ya keeps goin fer the boys n not the mens. Boys are always gonna be immature n selfish n not have yer best interests at heart. They wont know how to treat ya right. Or even how to handle ya n I knows ya kin be quite a handful indeed.<br />I loves ya n just somethin to think bout baby.<br />Am glad ya had a great weekend n wow yer mom is lookin damn good. Hehehehe nothin wrong with older women. ~wicked grins~<br />I knows what ya means bout not bein 21 no more. Gots to take care of that ole body. ~winks~<br />Loves n glad yer feelin better.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a>on Monday, August 27, 2007 - 10:20 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=303481409#" id="addReplyLnk_440709" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=303481409&commentID=440709" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><label id="NewDiv_440709"></label></span><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 67px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/143/s_294e8995c07b45a792dbde894b7d3ad3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_441979">It sounds like you are doing exactly what you need to be doing! Enjoy it Lady!<br />xoxo<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a>on Tuesday, August 28, 2007 - 9:30 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=303481409#" id="addReplyLnk_441979" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=303481409&commentID=441979" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-85885953009026079212007-08-24T21:42:00.001-04:002010-11-16T21:43:41.978-05:00Joey: Thoughts<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"></span><br /><h4 class="subject" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 1.2em; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-rendering: optimizelegibility; vertical-align: baseline;"><a href="http://www.myspace.com/i_am_joeyv/blog/302955513" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #88181b; font-family: inherit; font-size: 13px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">Thoughts</a></h4><div class="blogContent" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Not sure what I am feelin right now. Sort of ill actully because Elonna is so ill n I cant be there fer her. I am frankly wishin I had taken different paths n made different choices in me life but cant go back. Even that which I said I stood fer n would die fer I am regrettin. Because now I cant be where I want to be n that is by Elonnas side helpin her n healin her in person.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">I put up one o me sexy pics cause honestly I am tryin to get back to that way o lookin n thinkin. Fer a time I was losin weight n very unhealthy n now I am eatin better n workin out again. But today cant seem to do neither.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Me sis is goin thru some hard times n I cant seem to help her. In fact I am feelin like I make things worse. Both cause I am in this fuckin prison n cause I reminds her o the past. Things that she used to have that are now gone. I am sorry fer that.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">I miss Lonnie so bloody much n as his birthday approaches it only gets worse. I always will wonder if I werent locked up like a bloody wanker if what happened to him wouldnt of been avoided. I were always the peacemaker n with me gone werent no peace to be made.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">At any rate all I kin do is keep goin cause I gots no choice. Onward I goes n tryin to avoid the abyss which just waits to suck me in.</div></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-3775451973324946242007-08-22T21:48:00.000-04:002010-10-28T12:11:26.477-04:00*Ad Finem*<div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, August 22, 2007 </span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"></span><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Gothic%20Dark%20Vampire%20-%20NO%20Blood/9110249.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Gothic%20Dark%20Vampire%20-%20NO%20Blood/9110249.jpg" width="213" /></a></div><h1 class="pagetitle" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Ad Finem</h1><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">By Ella Wheeler Wilcox</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">On the white throat of the useless passion<br />That scorched my soul with its burning breath,<br />I clutched my fingers in murderous fashion,<br />And gathered them close in a grip of death;<br />For why should I fan, or feed with fuel,<br />A love that showed me but blank despair?<br />So my hold was firm, and my grasp was cruel -<br />I meant to strangle it then and there!</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">I thought it was dead. But with no warning,<br />It rose from its grave last night, and came<br />And stood by my bed till the early morning,<br />And over and over it spoke your name.<br />Its throat was red where my hands had held it,<br />It burned my brow with its scorching breath;<br />And I said, the moment my eyes beheld it,<br /><q>A love like this can know no death.</q></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /><q></q></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">For just one kiss that your lips have given<br />In the lost and beautiful past to me<br />I would gladly barter my hopes of Heaven<br />And all the bliss of Eternity.<br />For never a joy are the angels keeping<br />To lay at my feet in Paradise,<br />Like that of into your strong arms creeping,<br />And looking into your love-lit eyes.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">I know, in the way that sins are reckoned,<br />This thought is a sin of the deepest dye;<br />But I know, too, if an angel beckoned,<br />Standing close by the Throne on High,<br />And you adown by the gates infernal,<br />Should open your loving arms and smile,<br />I would turn my back on things supernal,<br />To lie on your breast a little while.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">To know for an hour you were mine completely -<br />Mine in body and soul, my own -<br />I would bear unending tortures sweetly,<br />With not a murmur and not a moan.<br />A lighter sin or a lesser error<br />Might change through hope or fear divine;<br />But there is no fear, and hell has no terror,<br />To change or alter a love like mine.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">MySpace Comments:</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_435299">Wow! That really says it, doesn't it? Thanks for sharing! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Thursday, August 23, 2007 - 7:11 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=302405070#" id="addReplyLnk_435299" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=302405070&commentID=435299" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_435299"></label><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/33/s_8cc4d4280cc84300b0d4fc01a64e5803.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Tabitha Stone</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_437383">Is a very deed poem. I love it.<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a> on Friday, August 24, 2007 - 12:33 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=302405070#" id="addReplyLnk_437383" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=302405070&commentID=437383" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; 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font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Brian Kinney</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_438108">Love you baby...<br /><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/6b977a62e195.jpg" /><br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a>on Friday, August 24, 2007 - 10:41 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-84432977740838501102007-08-21T23:14:00.001-04:002010-11-17T16:17:15.224-05:00Poetry In Motion: Every Day I Wait<div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Tuesday, August 21, 2007 </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/790d61702463.gif" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/790d61702463.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">Every day I wait.</div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">Every night I dream.</div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">Wait for you.</div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">But you never come.</div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">I dream.</div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">But I never see you in them.</div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">It makes me wonder,</div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">Are we done?</div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">Are you gone forever?</div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">Never to return.</div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">My heart</div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">Has already</div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">Crashed and burned.</div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">Don't know what I am doing</div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">Hanging on to this hope</div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">By this short</div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">Last piece</div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">Of rope.</div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">But yet</div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">Here I am</div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">Dangling</div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">For the world to see</div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">Wondering</div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">If you just might come back to me.</div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><div style="text-align: center;">© C.M. <st1:date day="21" m..?8?="" year="2007">8/21/2007</st1:date></div><div style="text-align: center;"><st1:date day="21" m..?8?="" year="2007"><br /></st1:date></div><div style="text-align: center;"><st1:date day="21" m..?8?="" year="2007"><br /></st1:date></div><div style="text-align: center;"><st1:date day="21" m..?8?="" year="2007">MySpace Comments:</st1:date></div><div style="text-align: center;"><st1:date day="21" m..?8?="" year="2007"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></st1:date></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_433632">Wow! Awesome!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Wednesday, August 22, 2007 - 6:49 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=302068482#" id="addReplyLnk_433632" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=302068482&commentID=433632" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_433632"></label><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/137/s_fa51ecd3152c45d5ba5f2315e578e351.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Joey Vagance</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_433725">Tis how I were feelin bout Elonna. So glad I finally heard from her. Now if I could figure out what to say to her. ~sighs~<br />Sis keep the faith with Terry. Dont give up on him yet. Love is a strong thing. ~bear hugs~<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a> on Wednesday, August 22, 2007 - 9:48 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=302068482#" id="addReplyLnk_433725" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=302068482&commentID=433725" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-34867226610216670532007-08-18T15:44:00.000-04:002010-10-28T12:16:50.847-04:00Date Blog<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Saturday, August 18, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_300862971" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div align="center"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/fa599f437e81.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/fa599f437e81.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">About the date blog.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, I have it set to preferred list for a reason.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Those on my preferred list are those that are closest to me in life.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I trust them and they trust me. And they know when I am just ranting and mean nothing by it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">This was a very personal blog for me. I know many of them are, but this one also involved someone else on myspace. Again, as many of them do. But, most of you know those who I speak of as we have all been connected here for quite some time now. This person, not only is he new to my world, he is new to my myspace. So I felt maybe I had crossed the line a little bit by throwing our personal things out there. Although, I did warn him. And he really did not seam to mind. Who knows?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But, for those of you who can not read it, let me give you the readers digest version. We went out; we had a great dinner, a lot of fun and a huge amount of laughs. I really felt like there was some connection. We got a long great and it wasn't a dull moment. We finished dinner, walked around a bit then came back and hung out at my house for a little bit. Talked some more, joked around, and again just a lot of goofing around and laughs. It was really great to be able to have some fun with someone like that. Someone who had the same sense of humor as I did. Sarcastic to boot. And when it was time to say goodbye, we shared some wonderful passionate kisses. That whole heart beating fast nervousness butterfly in the stomach type thing. But since he had a long drive and had to get up early in the AM for his commute to work, we had to call it an early night.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">That was Tuesday. It is now Saturday and I have not heard a word from him. I left him a funny comment on his myspace Wednesday and he sent me mail saying "thanks for the comment" And now I see they are not even on his page anymore. So I don't know if he removed them, or if it was the myspace monster hard at work again. This is stupid because it wasn't like I left him porn.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">No comment left for me. No phone call. No text, not even an IM.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, so maybe I am old fashioned when it comes to dating. But is it not a common courtesy to call the girl back and say hey, had a good time and let her know whether or not ya want to see her again. I mean, I am a big girl, I can handle rejection. Sure we had a good time, but maybe I am just not the girl for him. And that's fine. Just tell me. Or sure he is busy, but you were busy before I came along and ya still made time to talk to me and what not, now all the sudden you have no time to say hello.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I just do not understand.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And also, myspace rules, common courtesy, when someone leaves ya a comment, it's always nice to get one back.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Now then, my ego has been crushed. My feelings have been hurt, and I now feel like this wonderful date, maybe I was blind and it was not so wonderful after all.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And that's how that story goes. Once my feelings have been hurt, my defenses go up. It's just how I am.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Anyway, it's done and over, and whether he chooses to talk to me again, still remains a mystery.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I'm sorry I ranted…I tend to do that some time</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Slap a warning label on me…</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Warning: Irish and Moody</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/ae3a3954a0.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/ae3a3954a0.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div></div><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_428987">Rant away, my moody Irish one! It's us Cancers. We get that way and should not have to explain it to others! They should just know! LOL! Anyway, it's his loss and maybe there IS a good reason for it (doubtful)...but just maybe.<br />Have a good weekend in spite of the guy! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Saturday, August 18, 2007 - 4:53 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=300862971#" id="addReplyLnk_428987" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=300862971&commentID=428987" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><label id="NewDiv_428987"></label></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Brian Kinney</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_430349">Men really do suck...and not always in the good way. I should know...I am one.<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a> on Sunday, August 19, 2007 - 9:24 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=300862971#" id="addReplyLnk_430349" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=300862971&commentID=430349" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-56916971727954594322007-08-17T23:34:00.000-04:002010-10-28T12:22:43.331-04:00~Dreams~ (I Need The Dream Experts !!! )<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;">Friday, August 17, 2007 </span></span></span><br /><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/f98b8a593b13.gif" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/f98b8a593b13.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /></span></span></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;">Ok since date blog is posted, now I can tell you about the dreams.</span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;">Three times last week, Terry found me in my dreams. But, it wasn't the usual Terry type dream. (Oh get your head out of the gutters!)</span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;">But rather, 3 days, 3 separate dreams. Each different, but each so much the same.</span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;">I don't remember which dream came first. I can hardly remember the details at this point. But, I can remember the main keys to them.</span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;">Ok so one dream was basically me walking outside and him standing in the middle of the street. Just standing there. Not really looking at me. Or at anything in general, but he was facing my direction. He seemed, opaque. But still solid at the same time. This is the only part I really remember.</span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;">The other dream, I am inside the house and my mom comes in to tell me someone named Terry is outside looking for me. I am baffled. Thinking it has to be some sick and twisted joke. I go running outside, and there he is. Standing there. Just him. Nothing more to this dream really then that.</span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;">The third dream, I go outside and he is in my driveway with suitcases. I don't know how I knew to go outside. I just went out. And there he was. And that's all I remember about this one.</span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;">Ok, so this week, the night of my date, I have a 4<sup>th</sup> dream. Only, it was sort of horrible and more of a nightmare to me then anything. I woke up, bolted right out of bed in a cold sweat. I did not much care for it. I am outside in the yard. A black mafia gangster style call slowly rolls in front of my house. Sits for a moment. I guess I was in the flower bed because I stood to look. The car pulls into my driveway. The windows are so tinted, they can't be legal. I do not feel any sort of fear. The driver window starts to roll down and I walk over. I see a hand fling a piece of paper out and dangle it in front of me. I grab it, and hold it. Looking down at it, I see it's a death certificate. For Terry. I don't remember any sort of emotion coming out of me. I just remember the next thing I know a car door is opening. A person gets out, hands tied, and a long black cloak. The hood is on. Once out of the car completely and standing, the hood falls, revealing a person in a black mask. No eye holes or anything. I don't remember anyone getting out of the car. But I remember starting to cry as this person drops to their knees and the mask is removed. Don't know how. But at this point it's gone. It's Terry under this mask and cloak. He's been beaten. He looks terrible. Bloody. Bruised. He is crying. I don't remember much more of the dream. I know once we stand, his wrists are free and the car is gone. He still has on his cloak and I am still holding his death certificate. It becomes clear to me that he has faked his own death.</span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;">I know why. And that part I can not tell you. I can not tell you anything of Terry's life.</span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;">Anyway, the dreams are freaking me out a little bit. Terry is very powerful. Magickal if you will. I don't know if he is trying to tell me something. And if he is, what? Is he telling me he is OK? Is he telling me he's safe and will be back to me very soon? Is he telling me he is working on making his way here to the states? Or is he trying to tell me good-bye he will see me in the next life because the powers that be have gotten a hold of him and he is not long with the living??? Or was this dream to frighten me because I went on a date without his permission?? So many things running in my mind right now.</span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;">I want to believe he is safe and sound and just hiding right now. Waiting for a safe moment to contact me.</span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;">But, I am very worried and very much afraid right now.</span></span></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;">MySpace Comments:</span></span></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></span></span></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_428241">Wow sis, people always ask me to interpret their dreams because I practice magic and witchcraft and am of the psychological bent. And it has happened 3 times in the past week! Now this makes 4. Weird!<br />I turn it back to you-- what does it mean to you? You feel Terry is trying to contact you, so this is probably true.<br />But on another level it is your own subconsious mind trying to speak to you also. I think these questions you ask-- is he okay, is he safe and will be back, etc-- are ones that you want to be true. The other questions-- is he telling you goodbye or trying to frighten you-- represent your worries.<br />Terry for his part, I think is simply trying to keep your connection strong.<br />I can't tell you what this means as far as what is going on with Terry, I think you need to look inside yourself for those answers. Or be patient and wait for the answers when they come. The dreams might even represent you feeling impatient to know the answers, which certainly makes sense.<br />Dreams, pretty amazing stuff. Try not to be worried and afraid-- after all, look at how things worked out with Joey!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Saturday, August 18, 2007 - 12:10 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=300683111#" id="addReplyLnk_428241" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=300683111&commentID=428241" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Adam Segmullier</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_428327">IT ALL DEPENDS ON WHAT COLORS AND IN WHAT PLANTS OR TREES YOUR ARE AROUND<br />WERE YOU ON A HILL OR BY A HILL AND WHAT DID THE SKY LOOK LIKE OR WEIR YOU WERE AT WHAT DID IT LOOK LIKE AND ANIMALS THEIR IS SO MUCH TO NO TO EXPLAN A DREAM....<br /><br />READ MY BLOGS AND TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK<br />DUSTY<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=165456066" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">19VALHALLA19</a>on Saturday, August 18, 2007 - 1:28 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=300683111#" id="addReplyLnk_428327" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=300683111&commentID=428327" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=165456066" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; 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font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Brian Kinney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_428907">Fuck...that is some spooky shit babygirl...<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a> on Saturday, August 18, 2007 - 3:19 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=300683111#" id="addReplyLnk_428907" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=300683111&commentID=428907" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=83231174" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 67px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/143/s_294e8995c07b45a792dbde894b7d3ad3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_431378">Anytime travel is represented in a dream - the suitcase, the car, walking - it doesn't necessarily mean you are "going" anywhere. It means that you are on a journey of change. You have just made some major life moves and I believe this is what is happening. You are going through a transistion in your life.<br /><br />As far as the rest - I feel the darkness of the night, cloak, hood represents the sense of lonliness you feel in not having contact with Terry. You fear for his safety. No eyeholes...you cannot see him - physcially or mentally because you don't know where he is or what he doing.<br /><br />And remember - death in a dream does NOT mean death in real life. It simply means that one part of your life is ending....and another is beginning.<br /><br />Have sweet dreams Sweetie....everything will be fine.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a>on Monday, August 20, 2007 - 5:03 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=300683111#" id="addReplyLnk_431378" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=300683111&commentID=431378" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span></span></span></span></div></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-54158947112934372272007-08-16T12:22:00.000-04:002010-10-28T12:25:36.442-04:00A Dare That Turns Into A Date<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, August 16, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/668cfba676b1.gif" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/668cfba676b1.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Oh yes, Chrys had a date last night. Well, Tuesday, since I have no idea when I will actually finish and post this blog, better throw that date in their.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Did I forget to tell you all that? That I even had a date?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">HA!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Sorry.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">See, life does indeed keep moving forward.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Before I get to the date, there is actually a funny story behind the meeting of this person. Well, maybe not funny, but, it just proves to show, sometimes you never know just how things will work out in life.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">As you may remember, Julie came up the weekend of my birthday and spent a few days with me before I packed up life and moved up here. We were up one night, and I really think it was the night we came him drunk from my birthday. Anyway, we were both online messing around, and I had mentioned something about how I should just join and online dating sight. I was half assed joking. I mean really, who was going to want to date me anyway??? But, she was like, oh you should, you should and we had a good laugh about it. So, on a whim I did it. Cracking up laughing the whole time. I felt like such a dork. Woman seeking Man. Yeah that lasted all of maybe 2 days. Then I switched to it Woman seeking Woman. Yeeeesshhhh…..</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And then, I deleted it. But even though I deleted it, my profile thing was still actively sending me emails. So, once I got here to <st1:state><st1:place>Michigan</st1:place></st1:state>, I reset it up. Figured I had nothing to lose, and if anything at least I would meet some new people.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I've defiantly met some people. Thing is, I refuse to pay for a website. So unless the other user is a paid one, beyond an initial "Hi am interested" not much more can be said. To date, their have been 4 that I have actually talked to beyond that initial ice breaker. 1 I have exchanged IM with, once. Didn't really grab my attention. 2. Was actually the first person I started to IM with. We have not met yet. I sit here, wondering what to say, as he is connected to me here at myspace, and even thought you all know I am rather blunt, I don't want to be rude. But, at the same time, I do have to be honest. We do share some IM. But, its just basic chitter chatter. Nothing really that "sparks" and picks at my brain. It's just a lot of questions about me and my "lifestyle" so to speak. Which is great -really, I do not mind at all explaining that lifestyle to anyone. I just do not know if there is anything outside of a friendship here. And that is OK with me. He's a really cool guy. So, then there is 3. Who ends up being a few years younger then me. His pick up lines make me laugh so hard all I can think is "wow, dude really you need to get past college life, this isn't the frat house" Although I find him amusing enough, at his own expense, again he bores me to tears as he cant think of one original thought to talk about.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, that brings me to 4. You may as well say I have saved the best for last. Not only is he connected here at myspace, he also STOLE <st1:place>Shannon</st1:place>'s bday card as his profile pic! HAHAHAH. Now then, FINALLY someone with a sense of humor makes me laugh and keeps me laughing. After only a few days, yes I said DAYS of talking; off we go on a date. Oh yes, Chrys went on a date. Can you believe that? At first I was like…WTF is that? Ohh…dinner…OK. That I can do. I am a girl that likes to eat after all.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, so set time – <st1:time hour="18" minute="30">6:30pm</st1:time>.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I'm talking to Julie…what to wear, this? How about this? Or maybe this? A million things going around in my brain.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Fine, casual, jeans it is.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But then here comes the rest ….top…shoes….oye! What a headache….</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Outfit settled, and I settled in on the couch and got glued to some fashion design reality show on Bravo. I was cracking my ass up. I look at the clock and I am like, odd that he hasn't called to tell me he's on his way, or maybe to check and make sure he's heading in the right direction. I mean map quest is not 100% perfect. I wait…and wait…and wait. Then, I see this car pull in across the street. Looks like their care, but it's already in the driveway. Hmmmm…the car goes back the way it came. Few minutes later I see that same care go right past again. I giggle to myself and I am guessing that it's him. So, I head to the dinning room, thinking if I see him go past again, I'll run out and flag him down. But then I heard my cell phone beep. I had call.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, now, I have to add this here. I still have my <st1:state><st1:place>Oklahoma</st1:place></st1:state> service with US Cellular. They do not even have stores up here! But, I can not switch things over to a new cell phone company until the divorce is final. If I switch it over now, and my phone gets used, which it will because I love my Project (RED) phone, then US Cellular will charge butthead a $150 bill for terminating service before the contract was over. So, having said all that, inside the house, there is no reception in parts of the house. It's so random how it works in here. Sometimes it works outside. You just never know. I never heard that damn thing right.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But now it is yelling at me telling me I have voice mail.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Guess who it was?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Oh yes, Mr. Date man.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So I try to call him, just as the house phone rings.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Yup, Date man.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, I tell him, turn around and come back. You turned around in my neighbor's yard. I am across the street.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">He gets here.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Finally.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">By this time I am already cracking up that any amount of nervousness I had has left the building.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">We hug and already got the mouths yacking and the laughs going.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">He comes in to sit for a bit (the mom went down to my cousins) because I got so addicted to this stupid show I had never watched before.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">It was over and off to UNO's we go. Now, for those of you never having been to an UNO's you are missing out and I feel sorry for you. Deep dish <st1:city><st1:place>Chicago</st1:place></st1:city> style pizza. I did not even care what else was on the menu, I wanted pizza.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I got pizza. Boy that was easy. We had pizza. End of story. <span style="font-family: Wingdings;">J</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Nooooo I AM NOT spoiled…..</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, we eat…we drink…swallow down a few Guinness…the laughs keep going.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">A warning to you all: be sure to check the lids before you go dumping extra things on top of your pizza. You see, I had asked for ranch on the side to dip my pizza in. I also added those hot red pepper flakes to it. Well, we BOTH had been adding the flakes to the ranch, and to the pizza. So, we don't know really who did not tighten the lid ( I say, him heheh) but when he picked it up to put some on his pizza, pretty much the whole thing dumped out and covered his plate. We were both laughing hysterically. Our poor waiter, I can only imagine what he thought about us. He came over and said "Oh my what happened here?" well derrrrr what does it look like ya moron? It was too funny. But he just dumped it off and ate his pizza anyway.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">That my friends, was fan-fucking-tastic. It just does not get any better then that for first time date blunders. But, we were able to just blow it off and laugh about it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Dinner over, we decided to go walk down part of the Outlet Mall since it is right across the parking lot. But, most of the stores were closing up, so not much to see. Off back home. Mr. Date can't stay out too late anyway, he has a curfew. Well, a drive back home and an early morn as he has an hour commute to work. Yeeeeeessshhh…. So, we went back to my house and hung out on the swing and just talked. And laughed. And laughed some more. Then, time to go. We kissed good bye. And kissed. And kissed again. Then off he went.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Now, I started writing this blog the night of the date. And now, here it is Thursday night and I have not heard from Mr. Date man. So, even though, things might look like they went well on the surface, now looking at it some days later, maybe, it was not so good. I had fully intended on making this a fabulous blog, but, now my mood has changed. I thought we had a connection and had a great time. Maybe not. Now, I feel like a fool for ranting about how great it was and how much fun I had. I don't like to feel like a fool.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Doesn't anyone follow the dating rules and etiquette, ya know, some common courtesy?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Are you reading this Mr. Date man? Am I being tested?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Well fuck that, I don't take tests. Sorry.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">A hello, a hi how are ya?? Something…anything....that's all ya had to do…but no, I got nothing.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">If ya don't like me, at least be man enough to tell me so.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, wait. I did leave him a comment on his page. He mailed me saying, thanks for the comment. WTF? That's it, THANKS?? I don't get a comment back? Ok whatever… not only is their dating etiquette, we have myspace etiquette as well.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">If you are going to play on myspace, please, word to everyone- LEARN THE RULES</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Oh well, fuck it, life continues to move forward.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Whose bright idea was it again for me to look for boys in my own state??? ~winks~</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Back to boys are stupid mode….ok well not all of them…and they know who they are, they know when I get on a rant not to take my rants personally…</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">At least I had one night out and some fun on way to look at it, or as Julie likes to put it "FREE FOOD" hahahhaah</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I know I am a moody bitch, I fully admit it. Doesn't take much to make me happy. Simple really. Whatever, I'm Irish, that's my excuse and I am sticking to it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Am I mad? No way! Not worth getting mad over. I really just do not care to be honest.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Like Julie and I were talking, maybe there is still one guy (or maybe girl) out there who will prove me wrong. That they are not all the same.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, next blog…will talk about the return of my brother, and some other interesting things going on in life. I've also got a brand new Erotic Confession in the works. Since you guys keep bugging my ass for a new one!!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Keep smiling, I know I will.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Xoxox</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">~c~</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody>
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</tbody></table><br /><br />Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-17287145994016904982007-08-11T20:19:00.000-04:002010-10-28T12:27:57.632-04:00Even the Best Fall Down Sometimes...I Guess I Fell<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Saturday, August 11, 2007</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br />Ok, so yesterdays blog wasn't the bright and sunshine girl you all know. But even I have my moments. Many of you here have seen my dark side. It's not the first time I have fallen into my dark hole. Nor will it be the last.<br />I can not say today was a better day, but it was a new day. Seperate from yesterday and my spirits are better.<br />Thats really all I have to say right now.<br /><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></span><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Brian Kinney</div><br /><br /><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_418733">Hope your better today baby...<br /><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/7af21e8ed38b.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/7af21e8ed38b.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a>on Sunday, August 12, 2007 - 1:56 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-41987752527301599762007-08-10T22:16:00.000-04:002010-10-28T12:34:01.803-04:00No MORE!!!!!!!!!<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, August 10, 2007</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Do you ever have those days where you just want to give up?</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">I don't mean just give up on things in general,</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">I mean life.</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Oh yes, I said it.</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Not often, if ever have I thought about giving up on my life.</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">I have always held my head high and always took pride in the fact I saw the good in everything.</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Not today.</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">I can't do this anymore.</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">I'm stuck and I don't like it.</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Right now, I only see one way out.</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Yes, I am down, back in my dark hole.</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Sad, my brother is not here to hang out with me.</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Fucked up world that I don't really even know where my brother is anymore.</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Screwed up world as well, my angel Lonnie is lost to me now too.</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">I can't find his guidance anymore.</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Even my dark angel Terry is no place to be found. WTF ... seriously..I mean I know whats going on. I know why he is gone, but this long?? And no contact? I am so fucking worried right now it makes my head spin. I have no idea what to do. I am stuck in this limbo.</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Elonna, my sistagurl, my partner is crime…where is she? Why wont anyone tell me what's going on with her? Why wont she return my calls, my cards, my letters, my emails???</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">You know what? I am having an emotional breakdown and I rightfully deserve it.</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">But you know what, this time, I am not coming back.</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">I am staying right here in my dark pit. Cold. Skanky. Lonely.</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">This way, I (my heart) am safe and will not have to hear or say another good-bye.</span><br /><br /><br />MySpace Comments<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">e </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_417491">Sis-- I don't know what to say, it hurts me to read this. I want to help-- you have been there for me through so much. It sounds like you don't want this, but I am here if you need someone to help pull you out of the muck! *holds out my hand to you*<br />And yes, I have felt that way. Even now with my shit supposedly together and being so fucking qualified to help other people with their problems, I still feel this way sometimes. And it sucks!<br />Please email, or even call me, if you want to talk. Love you sis, don't give up. PLEASE.<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Saturday, August 11, 2007 - 3:10 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=298069813#" id="addReplyLnk_417491" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=298069813&commentID=417491" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; 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font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Brian Kinney</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_417814">Shit...yea I know that dark pit...<br /><a href="http://pixpipeline.com/d/d5022e0c9fa4.gif" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image Hosted by PixPipeline FAST FREE Image Hosting" src="http://pixpipeline.com/s/d5022e0c9fa4.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a> on Saturday, August 11, 2007 - 6:32 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=298069813#" id="addReplyLnk_417814" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=298069813&commentID=417814" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_417814"></label><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=82330424" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Magical Thinking</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=82330424" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/23/s_96a667ab6ed425fc38de4ce2f9bb0e29.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_421320">...breathe...<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=82330424" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Magical Thinking</a> on Monday, August 13, 2007 - 11:48 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=298069813#" id="addReplyLnk_421320" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=298069813&commentID=421320" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=82330424" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-91016059073204019092007-08-08T12:55:00.004-04:002010-11-15T12:57:23.347-05:00Do You Ever Have Those Days<div class="MsoNormal">Do you ever have those days where you just want to give up?</div><div class="MsoNormal">I don't mean just give up on things in general,</div><div class="MsoNormal">I mean life.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Oh yes, I said it.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Not often, if ever have I thought about giving up on my life. </div><div class="MsoNormal">I have always held my head high and always took pride in the fact I saw the good in everything.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Not today.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I can’t do this anymore.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I’m stuck and I don’t like it.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Right now, I only see one way out. </div><div class="MsoNormal">Yes, I am down, back in my dark hole. </div><div class="MsoNormal">Sad, my brother is not here to hang out with me.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Fucked up world that I don’t really even know where my brother is anymore.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Screwed up world as well, my angel Lonnie is lost to me now too. </div><div class="MsoNormal">I can’t find his guidance anymore.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Even my dark angel Terry is no place to be found. WTF ... seriously..I mean I know what’s going on. I know why he is gone, but this long?? And no contact? I am so fucking worried right now it makes my head spin. I have no idea what to do. I am stuck in this limbo.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">My sistagurl, my partner is crime…where is she? Why wont anyone tell me what’s going on with her? Why won’t she return my calls, my letters, my cards, my emails?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am having an emotional breakdown and I rightfully deserve it.</div><div class="MsoNormal">But you know what, this time, I am not coming back. </div><div class="MsoNormal">I am staying right here in my dark pit. Cold. Skanky. Lonely.</div><div class="MsoNormal">But you know what? At least here I (my heart) am safe and will not have to hear or say another goodbye. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-9948679223966572022007-08-07T21:55:00.001-04:002010-11-17T16:18:43.447-05:00Poetry In Motion: ~Displaced~<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Tuesday, August 07, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/prettygothicgirl.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></span><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Displaced</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Disorientated</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Distraught</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Confused</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Still</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">No news</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">*</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">I wait</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">I ponder</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Click click</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Decide</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">*</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Time</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Stops</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">For no one</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Nothing</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Tick tock</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Tick tock</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">*</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">My heart</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Keeps beating</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Thud thump</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Thud thump</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">*</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Worry</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Guilt</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Shame</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Has</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">No name</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Just tucked</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Away</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Inside</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">And there</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">It will hide</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">*</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Burning</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Peeling</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Raw</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Pick the wound</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Watch it bleed.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">*</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Time stops</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">For no one.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">8/7/07 © C.M.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">MySpace Comments:</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></div><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /><br /><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_410910">{{{{HUGS}}}} Awesome!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Wednesday, August 08, 2007 - 6:41 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-13791710519720688232007-08-04T23:09:00.000-04:002010-10-27T21:51:39.455-04:00Memories<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Saturday, August 04, 2007 </span><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Gothic%20Dark%20Vampire%20-%20NO%20Blood/patience-4.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Gothic%20Dark%20Vampire%20-%20NO%20Blood/patience-4.jpg" width="267" /></a></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Memories</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Been sorting through my grandparents things. The things that got left behind that no one wanted. Helping my mom figure out what we should do with them. Wondering if maybe a cousin or their kids would like to have it. Who knew that two people could accumulate so much stuff! And this house is not a mansion, but we are finding all these little hiding spots grandma had. It's been pretty funny. Sad in a way. Remembering all the times I had with them. And how much time I missed out on with them being so far away. But, they are together now, pain/cancer free and happy. So, that's what keeps me going.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">As we sort their things and move out of their room, guess who is moving in??? My mom does not want to live in their bedroom, makes her too sad. As for me, it makes me happy, gives me a chance to be close to them. A change to talk to them using the gift I have been given in life to do such. Last night was the first night I actually slept in there. It was comforting. I felt safe. I felt, home. It was good.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Something else good too, and I don't know really how to explain it. As you know, it's been about 2 weeks since I have spoken to Terry. It's been hard. And I miss him a great deal. I am trying to keep my worry for him at bay. I don't, and he doesn't need my powers carrying my worry to him. He has enough on his plate to deal with. I have tried to keep myself busy to not think about it. But, in doing that, I have felt disconnected from him. He and I have this special powerful connection of magick and sometimes its greater then him and me. And sometimes, like now, I feel not so connected. I have tried a few things to bring that connection back for me to grab, with no luck. But, last night, I felt him. I felt him so close. The darkness smothered me, and I knew he was there. It was welcomed with open arms and I needed to feel his closeness. I believe he's trying to let me know something. But I was so overwhelmed to see feel him that I just could not see past anything else. I hope he was trying to tell me he is ok and will be in contact too. I need to get my mind cleared, push the worry aside and open up again.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I awoke today in a great deal of pain. Not just physical, but mental as well. All this moving around furniture and boxes has aggravated my back. Not good. As many of you know my back issues. Going to have to call my Chiro back home and have him refer me to someone up here. Something I am not looking forward to going thru again, but I can't live with the constant pain I feel right now.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Then mental pain, that's from too many memories. Not just with the grand's, but going through my own things as well. Stuff I had long forgotten. From people I had long forgotten. Some anyway. I found some things from my first ever *crush* from when I was like 4yrs old until who knows. Pictures, letters, cards….ha-ha and he's connected to me here on my myspace!! (Aaron you better watch out, I got blackmail!! Lol) I found things from a college bf that is also here on my myspace (Robert I got blackmail on you too buddy!!!)</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Cards and letters from my long time friend Stephanie, since we were in 5<sup>th</sup>grade. Cards and letters from my grandparents. That was rough seeing. I had to sort thru so much junk. I had to make the choice, keep or toss. Why was I hanging on to it anyway? What am I ever going to do with it? Then, there it was. The box I thought I had long gotten rid of.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">As I have said before, I was with girls long before I was with boys. There were a few boys I had messed around with, but nothing serious. I had kept them around mostly as a cover up. The girls I had been with were older. And I did not want my friends to know, unsure of how they would take knowing their friend liked girls more then boys. Especially being at that prime boy crazy age. At any rate, by the time I had hit high school there was one boy that flew over the radar. We dated off and on all through high school. Had plans to marry and blah blah. Let's just say it ended badly. Very badly. But for some reason I had held on to this box. A box full of memories. Seeing all this stuff brought so much hurt and anger back. Thinking about the girl I was then, and the woman I am now. How big of an impact that relationship had on my life. I pushed it all aside and just sat and thought about things.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The girlfriends. The boyfriends. Love lost. Wondering where are they now. Wondering was I wrong to let some of them go. Thinking was always me that called things off. Seems to still be the trend in my life. Somehow, I always walked away. Something to ponder for a while. Wishing that I could see some of them just one more time.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Just friends. Many of the same thoughts.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Hahahaah….and Melissa and Kristen…don't make me talk about what I found in my yearbooks!!! LOL</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Sorting out more boxes I found all my old journals. 37 of them spanning from 1984 to 2005 when I started writing and saving everything on the pc and flash drives.<span> </span>And that got me to thinking about the book I had started to write. Thinking to myself I really needed to finish it. Also, inside all those pages, tons and tons of poetry. Words I had not read in years. Everyone has always told me I needed to get my work published. Maybe I should. Maybe I should gather it all together and submit it. What's the worst that could happen?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Pictures. Old lordy all the picture. How many albums does one person need? I love pics. And I have documented every event in my life. So, I sat around thumbing through all my albums. More and more memories flood back.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Rather overwhelming the last few days.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Memories…. Forever a moment in time….</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And right now, I am ready to let old memories go and make some new ones.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">As I sit here and think about what the future could hold, I fall back to thinking about Terry. And how much I hope that he is OK and just safe. ~sighs~</div><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal;">And I miss my Shan... :(</div><br /><br /><b>MySpace Comments:</b><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_409013">Sorry it took me so long to get here! Just remember that every one of those people have helped to shape you. Every event has gone in to who you are today. We are all here to learn "lessons"...maybe one of yours was "letting go" of people/things that no longer serve you on a spritual level. You learn whatever lesson and move on.<br />Save what makes you smile and throw away anything that makes you feel bad...<br />{{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a>on Tuesday, August 07, 2007 - 6:41 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=295772026#" id="addReplyLnk_409013" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=295772026&commentID=409013" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_409013"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=82330424" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Magical Thinking</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=82330424" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/23/s_96a667ab6ed425fc38de4ce2f9bb0e29.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_421319">There are some things in our lives that we went through together, seperately. If only niether of us was afraid....<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=82330424" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Magical Thinking</a>on Monday, August 13, 2007 - 11:45 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><span>Read more:<a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=295772026#ixzz13c9PDPAX" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=295772026#ixzz13c9PDPAX</a></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-8121633699588289092007-08-02T21:54:00.001-04:002010-10-27T22:02:20.467-04:00Whats Up With Chrys?? For July and a Little Korn<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, August 02, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">So, this is supposed to be an updated what's up with Chrys? blog. And right now, I just am feeling like the wind has been knocked out of me. I had so much that I had wanted to say. And now it's like so much time has passed, I do not even know where to start.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"></span><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">As you know, I have finally left the hubby and packed what I good and did an 1100 mile trek for a move. My mom came down to help. So her, me, a van, a 16ft moving truck and 3 dogs. 2 of which were my 2 monster boxers. Hers, a little half poodle half cocker spaniel mix.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">As well as you know I moved just days after my 32 b-day.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">I am here now. Slowly getting settled. It's been a long process as I have moved into my mom's house. This was my grandparents. Which is still FULL of their things. So, mom and I have been sorting through that in which no one has wanted, and trying to determine whether to keep, put in yard sale or donate to grams fave charity. So, we pack up only to unpack. It has not been fun at all.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">I have been here, almost 5 days now and I feel like I have not gotten anything accomplished. It's been maddening I tell you. I want to rip my hair out. Not to mention I have already been reminded as to why I DID NOT want to come live with my mother. Good grief. I already want to move out.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">I had to go visit my dad today. To gather a lot of bday cards from that side of the family and to drop off some paperwork for him. As well as say thanks again for giving me the money to rent the truck. Oh, and to say hello to my grandmother. Yuck. Got to meet dad's girlfriend. I guess she lives there too. Seemed nice enough. However, I have issues with my dad and his mother, and well that whole family in general. Those who have been around a while know this and I do not need to rehash it. Those that don't know the story, I don't feel like rehashing it out right now. Just know, that dad and I have issues and let's keep it at that.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">Right now, I am drowning myself in Guinness. It's been a while and it is certainly needed.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">I had to call my old job and ask </span><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">Shannon </span><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">something. It just rips at me to hear her voice. Only gone a week and I already miss the ever loving stuffing out of her. ~sighs~</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">As most have you have figured out, I am not sad at all about my divorce. It has been a long time coming and something that needed to be done. For me and for him. No hard feelings and despite the secrets I have found out, we parted on pretty good terms. So, that's really all done and over with. I am so over it and have already moved on in life as far as relationship and love and all that is concerned. Don't expect me to get emotional about it because I won't, as there is no need for it.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">However, there is something I HAVE avoided talking about. Mostly because I just did not want to throw this personal stuff in to the mix. But, questions have started to arise and so I figure I should talk about it and get it out there.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">Terry.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">Where is he? How does he fit into the mix these days? Mostly, just a lot of what's going on.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">Well.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">Wish I had the answers for you.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">I love him.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">Simple, but yet so very complicated.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">We want to be together. Have talked about it. Want to walk that path to get there. And we thought we were well on out way since the divorce had started and I was moving away. I've got my passport ready….. But, someone threw some mud in our little puddle and there are some things that Terry has to take care of in his life. Things I can not talk about publicly. I just can't so don't ask. Terry has had to be out of contact for a little while. The last day I talked to him was the day after my birthday. Told me he had to go, to not worry. That with my powers if I worried it would be so strong and make things harder for him. He asked me to hold him close, hold him tight and not let go. He asked me to use my powers to keep him safe. I have done my best. I have kept myself pretty busy with the move and taking care of things here to keep my mind off of the worry. But, right now, I can not help it. I miss him very much.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">And for those of you on his page too, I am well aware that all the stuff is gone and it looks like he has logged in every day...his page has been hacked. We cant fix it until he gets back.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HIMSELF/Terry/m_326eec3c0c6579789e8de566b35306e5.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HIMSELF/Terry/m_326eec3c0c6579789e8de566b35306e5.jpg" /></a></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">But, at what point do I say, ok I can't wait anymore, I have to move on? Is their even a point? If you love someone do you wait forever? I just don't know what to do here.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">We have called each other boyfriend/girlfriend as well as our little nicknames for each other. Trying to explain our relationship is not easy. I mean, we love each other, and have some sort of commitment to each other. But, it's also a long distance relationship and an open one at that. We know where we stand in each others lives, but at the same time we are with other people. How can one really be truly committed when we are so far away right now?</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">So, when he gave me permission on week long party spree to be with someone else, it sort of made me take a step back and go..Huh? I need permission? What? Why? When did that happen? Some how a long the way, our relationship changed. Of course, we were not expecting him to have to run and leave a day later either. I just feel stuck right now. Just not sure what's going on.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">So, my life has not stopped. It is still moving forward. It has to.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">BUT FUCK I MISS HIM!</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">Without Terry around, as well as being newly free from the hubster, it has given me a lot of time to think about things. I find myself back to my old flirty self. I have reconnected with old friends. Not to mention the friends that have just been waiting for me to cross the divorce line. The thing is I have said this before, that I am a girl with a big heart and an open mind. I will love who I choose. And there have been 2 others in my life aside from Terry that I truly love. I am IN love with Terry. But, these other 2, its more then just a friendship love. It's hard to explain. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">They both used to be here @ myspace and on 360. Now just one is on 360, and the other is here @ myspace, but he runs a fan page. If you will remember back, in the middle of the Lonnie death and Sean ordeal, there was someone had fallen for, hard. Brian. No, no, not Brian Kinney, but the actual Brian that runs the BK fan page. We had some good time, and a good solid friendship we had built up for quite some time before that. As a matter of fact, it's been about a year now that I have known him. Anyway, the whole Lonnie/Sean ordeal was just too much, and I had to let Brian go. And that ruined the friendship we had too. But in time, we slowly rebuilt it. I never stopped loving Brian. But, I tucked that love away. Afraid to let it out. And thinking he did not want it anymore. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">In the last week, he and I have had our first chat in month. We hashed out a lot of anger and hurt feelings. Which was hard, but it was good. We needed to do it. But, then those old feelings came out and it turned into something very sexual. And it stirred up a lot of feelings inside. And I am not quite sure what to do with them. Then, I have this other friend, which I met thru my brother Joey. He has been a part of my life for a few years now. And he is actually the one that introduced me to Terry. Steven and I have a wonderful relationship. Never any questions.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"> No conditions and no restraints. We can read each other, we know always what the other needs whether it is a shoulder, an ear, some arms to lay in, or yeah, even something sexual. I simply adore him. Love him. He really is a busy lad and I don't see him much. But, we crossed paths, and it turned into something very sexual. Me being very Dom with him. Something we both like. I am afraid all the frustrations and anger I had I was taking out on him. The love I have for him, it's always been out in the open. But, I was never really able to express just how much I adored him, until recently. So, I have these 3 wonderful men. Different types of love for different reasons. I fit with each of them perfectly, on different levels. Each one my best friend as well. And each one far away.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">Brian</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/Brian/4040675_473561.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p>Steven</o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/Stevie/7cae.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">Confused yet? Yeah, so am I.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">And there are some other boys that I seem to be talking to a lot lately. Ones actually in the same zip code. Well, one is a few hours away. Nothing too major. Some online , some here in life.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">And I sit here thinking…WTF am I doing. What about Terry. Then I go, yeah what about Terry. Where is he? And aren't we a million miles apart and in an open relationship anyway???</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">So am I not allowed to feel what I want and talk to who I want????</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">~sighs~ and on that note, today I leave you with Korn's Inside Out… because I need men in my life that will say these things to me, feel this way about me…let me be me</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; 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margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">I like the way you're so fucked up<br />Naked and wearing no makeup<br />I watch your pulse beneath your skin<br />Sometimes I wish I could crawl in<br /><br />I don't care what you talk like<br />I don't care how you dress<br />I don't care 'bout your facial features<br />I couldn't care less<br />I don't need conversation<br />I've got nothing to say<br />I know what you're about<br />I want you<br />Inside out<br /><br />I like the way your ''ribs'' contract<br />When you are lying on your back<br />The ''bruises you internalize'' eternalize<br />The thoughts behind those crazy eyes<br /><br />I don't care what you talk like<br />I don't care how you dress<br />I don't care 'bout your facial features<br />I couldn't care less<br />I don't need conversation<br />I've got nothing to say<br />I know what you're about<br />I want you<br />Inside out<br /><br />Bitch so untamed but outside it, a work of art<br />But underneath it you're beautiful when you're torn apart<br />That's the fucking amazing shit the wish that makes you<br />Take the punishment to your heart as I squeeze it hard<br /><br />That's the fucking amazing shit the wish that makes you<br />Take the punishment to your heart as I squeeze it hard<br /><br />I drink the milk thats in your breast<br />I wouldn't even mind your shit<br />I put my tongue inside your ear<br />I'm gonna eat you up right here<br /><br />I don't care what you talk like<br />I don't care how you dress<br />I don't care 'bout your facial features<br />I couldn't care less<br />I don't need conversation<br />I've got nothing to say<br />I know what you're about<br />I want you<br />Inside out<br />Inside out<br />Inside out<br />Inside out<br />Inside out<br />Inside out<br />Inside out<br />Inside out<br />Inside out</span></div><br /><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/gsmx96yFgjI?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/gsmx96yFgjI?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br /><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">MySpace Comments:</span></b><br /><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_402348">{{{{HUGS}}}} Glad you made it there alright. I can't help you with the love life problem...I'm monogamic. I realize not every one is and I am ok with that. What ever makes you happy! If it works for you, then great! Anyway, good luck figuring it out! (I am a little concerned, though, about why you find guys a million miles away and none "in the same zip code" or even the same country as you...have you worked that one out?) << the mom in me coming out, LOL!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Friday, August 03, 2007 - 7:02 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=295062094#" id="addReplyLnk_402348" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=295062094&commentID=402348" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; 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font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_402452">"life is like a movie.... just wish i had the f***ing remote every once and awhile."<br />not sure what else to say really. but i really hope everything works out for you and you find the answers you are looking for!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=164413579" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">william</a> on Friday, August 03, 2007 - 9:27 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=295062094#" id="addReplyLnk_402452" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Brian Kinney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_403379">Hey baby...thanks for mentioning me...<br />It was a blast last weekend...maybe we can hook up again soon...<br />~~~kisses all over you...<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a> on Friday, August 03, 2007 - 8:14 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=295062094#" id="addReplyLnk_403379" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=295062094&commentID=403379" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-16554248889973176522007-07-31T21:13:00.000-04:002010-10-27T22:07:31.765-04:00The Last Good-Bye<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Tuesday, July 31, 2007</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The time has come, to say my final goodbye. Suitcase packed, one last walk through the house, make sure nothing of mine gets left behind.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">There he stands.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Watching.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Waiting.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Counting down the minutes.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I take a deep breath.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I look at him and think to myself – "He has no idea what I am going thru."</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">He just has no clue.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">This has all just been so easy for him.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Doing nothing.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Killing time.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Watching.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Waiting.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Counting down the minutes</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Until I say that final goodbye.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I gave him one last hug, and went on my way.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And on I went.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Passed state line.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Knowing I will never permanently be back.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Still no tears did I cry.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I'll be back to visit,</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And then, I will fly.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Passed each state, one by one.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Closer and closer to my destination.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">1100 miles and my mind starts to roam.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">All I can think about are the SECRETS! I hate them. Despise them. All they do is anger me and piss me off. I am so open and honest. I have always been that way. So, it is pretty sad to me when I see that a person I have been with for the last 10 years has a closet full of them. And in a few days time, they all come to surface. I don't understand why he felt the need to keep secrets from me. Like I said, I don't keep them. Never saw a need to. I have always been open with him about EVERYTHING in my life. And I mean everything.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Oh well, really doesn't matter anymore since that relationship is over and that chapter in life is closed.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, as I continue to work on a new What's Up With Chrys? , I am leaving you with Black Label Society – The Last Goodbye. Because, even though I have said so many good-byes in the last few weeks, the reality is we are never really done saying good-bye in life. And just as we say good-bye, we say hello.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/wdFZ7XmGYSI?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/wdFZ7XmGYSI?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br /><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><b>LYRICS<o:p></o:p></b></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8pt;">The Last Goodbye<br /><br />Take me down this road<br />I've been done here once before<br />Take me down this road<br />Once again, never again, forevermore<br />Take me down this road once more<br /><br />Take this love<br />Take this life<br />Take this blood<br />It'll never die<br />Take this love<br />Take this life<br />Take this blood<br />It'll never die<br />This ain't the last goodbye<br /><br />Take me down this road<br />Just to see a smile on your face<br />Take me down this road<br />All that is and all that was cant be replaced<br />Take me down this road once more<br /><br />Take this love<br />Take this life<br />Take this blood<br />It'll never die<br />Take this love<br />Take this life<br />Take this blood<br />It'll never die<br />This ain't the last goodbye<br /><br />Take this love<br />Take this life<br />Take this blood<br />It'll never die<br />Take this love<br />Take this life<br />Take this blood<br />It'll never die<br />This ain't the last goodbye</span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span></span></span><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=138930177" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">andrew</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=138930177" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/50/s_0951bdd6f840aebbee131441a6770b87.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_398519">well, can't get the video cuz of my connection, but i'll agree that the lyrics are a poignant testament to what's going on.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=138930177" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">andrew</a> on Tuesday, July 31, 2007 - 10:24 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=294238304#" id="addReplyLnk_398519" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=294238304&commentID=398519" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=138930177" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><label id="NewDiv_398519"></label></span><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_399056">One door closes and another one opens...here's to looking at better, brighter future! {{{{HUGS}}}} Love ya...you know I do!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Wednesday, August 01, 2007 - 6:51 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=294238304#" id="addReplyLnk_399056" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=294238304&commentID=399056" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/145/s_b223edabb8bd47d29b391fa183927089.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Ken Scott</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_399345">I pray that God will do what's best for ya hun! Good luck!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a> on Wednesday, August 01, 2007 - 12:20 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-84860429976560736352007-07-26T08:57:00.001-04:002010-10-27T22:19:21.507-04:00Birthdays , Drinks and Tattoos ~Oh My!!(now with pics)<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, July 26, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Its update blog time!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I had this blog idea all sorted in my head. A very upbeat happy fun time blog. I had a great birthday. But then, as things always seem to do in my life, something came crashing down. It's sort of put a damper on my mood, and I am doing my best to wade through the waters right now.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, Friday was my last day at work.<span style="font-family: Wingdings;">L</span>Very sad. Many did not realize it was my last day. Many thought I still had another week. Well, I did not give much notice when I had decided that I just could not stay another week. Just too much to do and too much going on. One boss took me to lunch. That would be the one no one really gets along with. It was rather awkward. One of our Animal Shelter volunteers brought me a chocolate brownie fudge cheesecake. Which, I saved for me and Julie!! Heheheh It was not easy saying goodbye to anyone. I did not much like it. It got to be like family up there.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Saturday I got a little bit of organizing and packing done. Julie came up from Texas and shortly after she got here we headed up to Eskimo Joes for dinner and drinks. I picked this place because it is tradition. I have gone every year for my birthday since I moved to<st1:city><st1:place>Stillwater</st1:place></st1:city>. It was a riot. It was tiki bar theme for the night. So the waiters were running around with lei's. I wanted one. It's my birthday damn it, I want one. So Melissa and Shannon both were trying to rip them off the walls, with no luck. Finally <st1:place>Shannon </st1:place>got some waiter to give his up. So, here I am hanging out sipping my drinks wearing a green lei. Did you really except it to be any other color??? LOL We ate, we drank, and we got loud. Boy did we get loud!!!! But it was all in good fun. Our waiter was a doofus. A regular window licker that one. I asked for a Guinness and he brings me another Amaretto Sour….dude, they sound nothing alike. He just kept doing really stupid shit all night. You got a table of 6 hot chicks; you would think you would do your best to earn your tip!!! We hung out there a couple hours.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">(tiff, melissa & alison)</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/BDAY%202007/100_0670.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">(shannon)</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/BDAY%202007/100_0669.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">(me and jules)</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/BDAY%202007/100_0663.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Tiffany and Alison left. Me and Julie took off in my car and Shannon and Melissa followed. Off to the tat shop we went. I had picked out what I wanted Friday. It just came to me. I had another idea picked out, but, I knew deep down it would mean more to me if Terry did it. So I decided to wait on it. But, I knew I wanted something. It birthday tradition to get a tattoo!! I did not have to think long before the design flashed in my mind. I ended up getting a design called The Prince of Evil, with a T incorporated in it. In honor of my Terry.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/BDAY%202007/100_0682.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Now, anyone who knows me knows I am so against anyone doing anything that has to do with names or significant others. But, this just felt right. I was called to it, drawn to it. And I have no regrets and I know I never will. If any of you have looked at Terry's tat, you will see there is a c incorporated in to it. That was not planned, but as his mate started on the work, it was requested. As he said, it just seemed like the right thing to do. However it looks to anyone else, we don't care. What we have is so much deeper then just love. We are bonded together by our souls. By our commons grounds. By our powers and magick.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HIMSELF/Terry/tattooed_t.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HIMSELF/Terry/Terry-011.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HIMSELF/Terry/l_8a9add5c578c7d772ebde9e8ffd9fa6b.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Oh yes, there is much you don't know about me. Many of you only know me on the surface, what I choose to show you here. But, what Terry knows and sees is a part of me I have not opened up to many. Something stronger then both of us, brought us together. And here we remain, despite the odds.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">(me and chris)</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/BDAY%202007/Copyof100_0684.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/BDAY%202007/Copyof100_0684.jpg" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"></a></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, Julie and I are in the tat shop having a grand time. For anyone that has never gotten a tat, it's hard for me to explain. But those of you with one, that actually like them, there is something very calming and euphoric about it. At least for me. I say, bring the pain. The more, the better. None of my tats really hurt. As I believe pain is all in your mind. This really is a mind over matter adventure. I will say the wrist tat was not comfortable, and the one on my hand wasn't exactly the best feeling in the world. My poor hand went numb for a few days. But, I would not call it pain. The back of my calf is rather tender today, but, I would not call it pain. For it did not hurt in the normal term of hurt. For me, every prick of the needle, every line of the ink, was one step closer for me and T to be together. There was no pain there. Only love. Julie took quite a few pics. In my pic section there are pics of us at Eskimo Joes and at the tat shop.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">(me, tat man and jules)</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/BDAY%202007/Copyof100_0686.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">While Jules and I were at the tat shop, Shannon and Melissa went down to the adult store.<st1:place>Shannon </st1:place>saw fit to buy my bday present. You can see the cute card she got me in my bday pic section. But, her gift was rather funny. She bought me another lei, and this one had plastic dicks all over it. HAHHAHA… and she got me an emergency kit…a pretty red vibrator! Silly girl…just because I am getting divorced doesn't mean I am becoming a nun LOLOL…toooooo funny… and the people in the tat shop got a good laugh.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">(shannons card)</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/BDAY%202007/smcard.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">(shanns gift)</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/BDAY%202007/v1JPG.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Melissa and Shan headed to the next bar, Murphy's. While we finished up my tattoo.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">We had lots of fun there. Payne County Tattoos, if you are ever in <st1:city><st1:place>Stillwater </st1:place></st1:city>I suggest you look them up. They rock. If I was staying in town, I would go back again and again.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I do need to say, that the guy that did this tat is not Shane. Shane is the Irish guy that did the touch up on my wrist band and did the shamrock on my hand. I found out he no longer works there, so I was introduced to Chris. At least that's what I and Julie remember his name to be!! We were pretty well smashed…so no telling.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">One the tat was done, and pics taken….we headed to Murphy's. Ran smack dab in to Wally, shans hubby. So I knew it was time for her to go. Her and Melissa finished their dart game and the 3 of them left. So. Julie and I hung out to finish a few rounds of drinks, and then we headed off to get some food and came back to my house. Ate and drank some more.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am going to miss the fuck out of <st1:place>Shannon</st1:place>. That's my girl. I hope that she will see passed everything and see just how much I love her. To understand that even though we are miles away, I will always be here for her. Always.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Our drunken asses got on myspace. Perhaps not a good idea. But sure was funny. We had left Terry some pic comments. He got a good laugh out of them. I love making that man laugh. He doesn't do it often enough.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">We passed out in the wee hours of the morning.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Of course, we did eat quite a bit of cheesecake too!!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Sunday we were REALLY lazy. We slept, watched movies, ate, slept more, and watched more movies. Then we got on mypsace and said hello to all our friends and passed out the bday pics. I got to talk to Terry for a little while when he got off work.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Monday was just as lazy. At the first half of the day. Julie left to go home later in the afternoon. I got a little bit of packing done. My house is such a total mess right now. And I just can not wait to get out of here!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Julie got me the best bday present. A gold four leaf clover…how fitting huh? She said it reminded her of me awwwwww and I got a candle bowl, which says something about following your dreams because you never know where they will lead. SO TRUE!!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">(jules gifts)</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/BDAY%202007/100_0704.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/BDAY%202007/100_0705.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I had the best time with Julie, and I am so very grateful for that day we crossed paths in life and that she was able to come up and spend some time with me before I go to far away fro just a few hour drive. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I spent the rest of Monday trying to get some more things packed up and moved out of the way. I feel like I am not making a dent in anything. Its frustrating.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Then, the day sort of fell around me. I can not really say what's going on right now. But Terry is going through some major things. Its burning my heart and eating me alive. I cant worry. My powers are too strong and will carry my worry right to him and make things worse. So, I am trying to keep strong. To keep myself together, to keep us together. Wanting to be there now more then ever, and now, will stop at nothing to get there. To be with him. I will walk the ends of the earth for that man. I would do anything for him. ~sighs~</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/BDAY%202007/Copyof100_0682.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Just so much going on around me, I don't know which direction to go in anymore.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">At any rate, I need to end this now….as I have a friend that could not go out over the weekend wanting to take me out tonight for drinks. To celebrate my birthday and to have one more girl's night before I head out of town.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I will do another update later. Sorry this one jumps around so much, I am just finding it hard to settle down and stay in one direction.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">You can find all the pics in the bday album in my pics(on myspace)<br />*****************************************************</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, so I figured instead of writing a seperate blog, I would just add to this one. I wrote the blog Tuesday, and today is Thursday. I am sitting here waiting on my mom, who should be here any moment now. She left yesterday to take the wonderful journey from Michigan to Okie land to help her beautiful daughter move her shit!! LOL. Well, and her stuff too. When she moved to Michigan to take care of her parents and sold her house here, guess who stored her entire house full of belongings?? Yeap, you guessed it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Anyway, so I did go out Tuesday night with my friend Myca. I adore this girl. We have been friends many , many years and again, as with everyone else, I hated to say good-bye to her.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I got trashed, and had a great time. We went to my fave place Bufallo Wild Wings for what else?? Guinness and wings!! I had not been there in a while, with all that had been going on. So, it was good to have one last good time there. We stayed for a little while, but nothing fun was happening in the bar, so we headed over to the college side of town and went to the Stonewall bar.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/irish/Guinness%20and%20Drink/Guinness-2.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">One of my old friends ended up being the bartender there. Worked out great as she was not stingy in the least about making our drinks up to par.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">However, being there made me realize one thing, how much I hate the whole bar dating scene. You get there, you scope the place out, no one, and I mean no one did I find interesting enough. Maybe its because I dont care. Maybe its because I am not really interested. Or maybe its because I am so in love with Terry that I really could give a rats ass about any man at this moment. I mean, Terry and I have an open relationship. But, truth is, I really just dont want another man right now. So, having said that, lets get on with the bar chat. I find it rather amusing as the night goes on, the more drinks a person has, how they suddenly feel the need to become louder. I am sitting right next to Myca, and she feels the need to have to SHOUT at me. I am like girl, I am RIGHT here! It was rather funny. She was SOOOO smashed it was unreal. I was feeling a good buzz, but was no where close to being drunk. I knew I had to drive home and I knew I shit I had to get done on Wednesday, the last thing I needed was another lazy day.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Something else that bothers me about the bar scene, people go by looks alone. Ok people, look at me. I know I am not Pamela Anderson or Kate Moss. Fuck them anyway who cares. I know I am fluffy. But you know what, I AM BEAUTIFUL!! And if people were not so superficial and hung up on this whole american standard of beauty, I might just give you the time of day to realize just how beautiful I am.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/BBW/beauty.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/BBW/Honesty.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, as you can see, I will not be joining the bar dating scene anytime soon.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Besides, I have my Terry, and right now, thats all I want to work towards.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HIMSELF/Terry/tsmaller.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">However, I do realize I do need to get my butt back in shape. Doctors orders. So, I have a brand new pair of sneakers in hand and a pavement calling my name once I am moved and settled. Have already scoped out the gyms. But, I need a job first. In the mean time, me, my new sneakers and the dogs can all hit the pavement for a nice long run across the country side. Will do us all good.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, I still have a few random things that I need to pack, so will end this long novel now.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Will be heading across the states in just a few days, will try to post one more blog before I head out.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; 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font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_390754">friends, booze, presents and tattoo-<br />what could be better?<br />have a great trip, chrys.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=138930177" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">andrew</a> on Thursday, July 26, 2007 - 10:56 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=291474574#" id="addReplyLnk_390754" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=291474574&commentID=390754" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; 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font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_391055">The pics are great! thanks for sharing them! I hope you have a safe trip and get settled quickly! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Friday, July 27, 2007 - 7:16 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=291474574#" id="addReplyLnk_391055" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=291474574&commentID=391055" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_391055"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81869020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Kristi</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81869020" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/92/s_fc5d3118db564b399fdeb53c00180dc0.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">KRISTI C</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_392777">sounds like you had an awesome bday!! have a safe trip moving.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81869020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Kristi</a> on Saturday, July 28, 2007 - 12:34 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=291474574#" id="addReplyLnk_392777" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=291474574&commentID=392777" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=81869020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_392777"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Brian Kinney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_394069">Great blog baby...and like we talked about...fuck what some people think of as "beautiful." You are beautiful...just the way you are. ~~~hugs<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a>on Sunday, July 29, 2007 - 12:08 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=291474574#" id="addReplyLnk_394069" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=291474574&commentID=394069" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=83231174" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: small;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"></span>Birthday blog coming soon!!!</b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></b></span></b></span><br /><div style="display: inline !important;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b><b><br /></b></b></span></div><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: normal;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></b></span></b></span><br /><div style="display: inline !important;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b><b>Dont give up on me, I am still here...in the middle of packing, almost time to move!</b></b></span></div><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; 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font-size: small;"><b><br /><br />MySpace Comments:</b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></b></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></b></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; 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font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_386139">{{{{HUGS}}}} (did you think I would do something different?? LOL!)<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Tuesday, July 24, 2007 - 7:43 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b><br /><br /></b></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-63124207577388652352007-07-22T07:21:00.000-04:002010-10-27T20:04:39.388-04:00Terry: A New Blog<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;">Sunday, July 22, 2007 Terry O'Malley</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/BDAY%202007/tbday4.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/BDAY%202007/tbday4.jpg" width="317" /></a></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 15px;"></span></span><br />So, I am supposed to write a new blog here. Seems some sassy ladies decided I needed one. HA.<br /><br />What to say, what to say. Well my lady ~c~ had a birthday today, and I gave her a proper spanking, followed by a paddling, in honour of her special day. I do believe she is rather sore at this point!<br /><br />She got herself a tattoo in honour of me, her Master and her Daddy. It is the Prince of Evil, quite fitting, and even has a T incorporated into the design. If you look closer at my own tat, you will see that there is a c in mine as well, which I requested. I had not originally planned it that way, but when my mate started on the work, I asked him to do that. It was one of those things ya just do, knowing it is the right thing.<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/BDAY%202007/Copyof100_0682.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="301" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/BDAY%202007/Copyof100_0682.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HIMSELF/Terry/4634107_206286.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HIMSELF/Terry/4634107_206286.jpg" width="212" /></a></div><br /><br />Such as even talking to this lady, at all, when in the past I have kept my distance, kept things cool and mysterious. I can't explain what happened, to this day, all I can say is that it must have been in the fates for this to happen to us.<br /><br />At any rate, HAPPY BIRTHDAY my slut baby, I love you.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 15px;"><br /></span></span><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/BDAY%202007/tbday3.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="186" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/BDAY%202007/tbday3.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/BDAY%202007/tbday2.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; 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font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 15px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 15px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #990033; color: #ffccff; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_108735">reaches down to run my fingers across my flesh...feeling the little T's that were left behind after the paddling.....shivers....<br /><br />I am glad Julie got to come up for the weekend and we had a great time hanging out with all my mates. And even tho you were not here physically, you were still here with me , that magick that is with us , bonds us, holds us, shapes us and keeping you with me always.<br /><br />I adore my tat, and am very pleased with it. I love you and I am glad you liked it. Now, forever a part of you with me.<br /><br />We crossed paths that day for a reason....those reasons we sometimes can not explain...but, thats OK. We know enough to know we belong together ...and will be together.<br /><br />So, thank you for everything you did for me on my birthday to make it special. I LOVE YOU!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: #ffccff; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a> on Monday, July 23, 2007 - 1:26 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=191944130&blogId=290791184#" id="addReplyLnk_108735" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] </div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_108735"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; 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font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=191944130&blogId=290791184#ixzz13biddVZR</a></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-10785963519720011352007-07-20T15:42:00.002-04:002010-12-23T14:03:21.908-05:00Poetry In Motion: ~Right Now, This Love~<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;">Friday, July 20, 2007 </span></span></span><br /><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><br /></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span></span></span><br /><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_289976587" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div align="center"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></div><div align="center"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></div><div align="center"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">Just some things....</span></span></span></span></div><div></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">You got my heart doing flip flops....</span></span></span></span></div><div></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">Right now..........</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I am thinking of you, how much you have invaded me</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I care about you, deeply</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I want to be with you, always</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I need you, right now</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I want you to hold my hand, as we take this journey together</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I am thinking of you, right now</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I hope everything turns out alright</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I hope you are doing ok, right now</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I hope you are happy</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I want you to be happy</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I want you to find me, right now</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I am thinking of you and smiling</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I want to give you a deep wet kiss</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I want to hug you, tightly</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I want to be your shoulder to lean on, when you need me</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I want to be your ear to listen, when you want to talk</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I want to go out with you and have some fun</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I think the world of you, and it's awesome</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I want to kiss you, again, right now</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I want to you to always be my protector</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I would do anything for you, always</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I miss you, right now</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I want you to SMILE, daily</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I want to be the one who makes you smile</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I have been daydreaming about you</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I want to cuddle with you, nightly</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I just want to see you</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I am wondering where you are, right this moment</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">I want to talk to you, more, more and more</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;">Right now.</span></span></span></span></div></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /><br />MySpace Comments:</span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/90/s_fb5c9a52bb6eabebec47005d6fa13620.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></span></span></span><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /> </span></span></span></span><br /><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_379938"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="clear: left; color: #003399; float: left; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i204.photobucket.com/albums/bb84/tntrouble000/hehe.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><br /><center><br />Ahhh right now, right now, right now<br />I love you, my slut baby.<br /> </center></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a>on Friday, July 20, 2007 - 3:55 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span></span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-58976383102794332402007-07-20T11:39:00.000-04:002010-10-27T22:28:08.880-04:00I Am Outta Here ......<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, July 20, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div align="center">I can now offically say:</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">Good-Bye</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">I am out of here.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">After yesterdays events, piled on top of everything else I decided that today will be my last day here at work.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">THANK GOODNESS</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">No more</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">"I need to pay my tickets..."</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">"I couldnt come to court because...(insert life story here)"</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">" I was not carrying my insurance (insert more life here)"</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">" I cant afford my fines because....(hmmm you can afford the liquor and drugs that got your ass in trouble, but yet you can not afford to pay to get your ass out of trouble. Makes perfect sense to me)</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">I DONT CARE</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">I don't have a sign on my head that says:</div><div align="center">PLEASE TELL ME YOUR LIFE STORY</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">No more will I have to hear:</div><div align="center">"Why is my water bill so high?"</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">FUCK IF I KNOW</div><div align="center">I dont live at your house</div><div align="center">I am not there playing in your water.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">No more do I have to hear:</div><div align="center">"What day is trash pick up?"</div><div align="center">and</div><div align="center">"Why did my trash not get picked up?"</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">I DONT KNOW</div><div align="center">I DONT WORK FOR THE TRASH COMPANY</div><div align="center">NOR</div><div align="center">DO I DRIVE THE TRASH TRUCK.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">ewww</div><div align="center">thats just</div><div align="center">ewwwwwwww</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">I have had my share of dealing with stupid people that is for sure.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">Those I will not miss.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">However, their are a few I will miss.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">Those that make me laugh, make me smile, and I can make them smile back.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">Those I enjoy giving my smile to.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">The rest of them, today you get a big FUCK YOU cause I wont be coming back.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">The End.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">Chapter finished.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">Next.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">I am so ready to be done and moved.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">Almost there...almost there...</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><br /></div><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/90/s_fb5c9a52bb6eabebec47005d6fa13620.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_379671">Great news sweetness, and on to the next step. Hoorah!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a> on Friday, July 20, 2007 - 12:19 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=289905633#" id="addReplyLnk_379671" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=289905633&commentID=379671" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_379671"></label><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 67px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/143/s_294e8995c07b45a792dbde894b7d3ad3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_379681">Happy Dance Happy Dance!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a>on Friday, July 20, 2007 - 12:32 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=289905633#" id="addReplyLnk_379681" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=289905633&commentID=379681" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_379681"></label><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=26416851" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ Sõft Sèxy & Snügglâbly Wårm Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=26416851" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/106/s_555d990d7f4945c5ba49962e1118c97b.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Jessica Betts</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_379706">You lucky bitch! Ohhhh if this were my last day.........<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=26416851" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ Sõft Sèxy & Snügglâbly Wårm Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ</a>on Friday, July 20, 2007 - 1:05 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=289905633#" id="addReplyLnk_379706" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=289905633&commentID=379706" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=26416851" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_379706"></label><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=89162783" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Mingus O'Bannon</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=89162783" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/42/s_da8a59384995a3b19c0772ea52e5b379.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_392906">The final day of a job is rival to all other euphoric moments life sometimes offers up. It’s so pure and final. Move forward with courage, clarity, and strength, as these are your assets and will serve you in the next chapter. Good luck, you will do well.<br /><br />-M-<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=89162783" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Mingus O'Bannon</a>on Saturday, July 28, 2007 - 3:06 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-41404388044486812582007-07-19T14:30:00.002-04:002010-11-15T14:32:16.006-05:00P*ssy Day<div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">So, apparently things just do not want to end.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I WAS in a very good mood.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">However, its all been ruined now.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">FUCK ME<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">and <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">FUCK YOU<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I am so over being pissy, but I can not help it. Any sort of anger I have had brewing inside of me for the last few months is all coming out at once. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I WANT TO BLOW SOMETHING UP<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">and<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I WANT TO BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF SOMEONE<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">So....<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">you see....oh heffer from yesterday doesnt seem to want to give up.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I know, its not worth it, she's not worth my time and energy. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I KNOW THIS<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">but she has pushed the wrong damn buttons and I just want to scream at the top of my lungs. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Ok<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Maybe I already have.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I have also had enough shit here at work. I thought, once it got around I was leaving, some people were going to get the could shoulder, some were going to just be bitchy, and some would not change at all. Funny, all the sudden true colors start to show. The one I thought would be bitchy and turn a cold shoulder has actually turned out to be rather understanding about things. And the one I thought , who had always stood beside me thru everything, is the one whose being mean and nasty.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I really think I am going to tell boss man today that this will be my last week. I have too much shit to do to try and get it all done.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I do. And I can get it done after work, but I really just do not want to be here anymore and deal with this. I have enough on my plate, and I am sick of people adding to it.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">And then ... not to mention the so-called "friends". The ones that have always been their seem to be questioning me. Going against what I feel I need to do in life. Telling me I am making a huge mistake. Whatever. You really dont have a clue then if you cant see it. Can not see past the mask and see what really went on. Then the "friends" that were not around, all of the sudden want to be my new best friend.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I just do not get it. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">And if one more jackass asks me when we can get together for drinks, I am going to smack him or her upside the head.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">For now, think I will just crawl back into my protective little shell and close off the world. Seems safer that way. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-57216358862138207412007-07-19T12:30:00.000-04:002010-10-27T22:31:23.390-04:00Pissy ~ Day 2<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Thursday, July 19, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="blogSubject" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 10px;"><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: 800;"><br /></span></div><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_289519852" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div align="center"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Bitch/th49969888.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Bitch/th000.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Bitch/bitchfu.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">So, apparently things just do not want to end.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">I WAS in a very good mood.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">However, its all been ruined now.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">FUCK ME</div><div align="center">and</div><div align="center">FUCK YOU</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">I am so over being pissy, but I can not help it. Any sort of anger I have had brewing inside of me for the last few months is all coming out at once.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">I WANT TO BLOW SOMETHING UP</div><div align="center">and</div><div align="center">I WANT TO BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF SOMEONE</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">So....</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">you see....oh heffer from yesterday doesnt seem to want to give up.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">I know, its not worth it, she's not worth my time and energy.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">I KNOW THIS</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">but she has pushed the wrong damn buttons and I just want to scream at the top of my lungs.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">Ok</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">Maybe I already have.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">I have also had enough shit here at work. I thought, once it got around I was leaving, some people were going to get the could shoulder, some were going to just be bitchy, and some would not change at all. Funny, all the sudden true colors start to show. The one I thought would be bitchy and turn a cold shoulder has actually turned out to be rather understanding about things. And the one I thought , who had always stood beside me thru everything, is the one whose being mean and nasty.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">I really think I am going to tell boss man today that this will be my last week. I have too much shit to do to try and get it all done.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">I do. And I can get it done after work, but I really just do not want to be here anymore and deal with this. I have enough on my plate, and I am sick of people adding to it.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">And then ... not to mention the so-called "friends". The ones that have always been their seem to be questioning me. Going against what I feel I need to do in life. Telling me I am making a huge mistake. Whatever. You really dont have a clue then if you cant see it. Can not see past the mask and see what really went on. Then the "friends" that were not around, all of the sudden want to be my new best friend.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">I just do not get it.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">And if one more jackass asks me when we can get together for drinks, I am going to smack him or her upside the head.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">For now, think I will just crawl back into my protective little shell and close off the world. Seems safer that way.</div><div align="center"><br /></div></div><br /><br /><b>MySpace Comments:</b><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=26416851" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ Sõft Sèxy & Snügglâbly Wårm Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=26416851" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/106/s_555d990d7f4945c5ba49962e1118c97b.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Jessica Betts</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_378279">oh girl it will all be over soon enough, just keep strong. im not trying to defend anyone, but is it possible the ones you thought were friends are being bitchy to hide the fact they are sad you are leaving? sometimes when we hurt we end up hurting the ones we love also. course then again, could just be they are a true bitch after all lol.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=26416851" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ Sõft Sèxy & Snügglâbly Wårm Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ</a>on Thursday, July 19, 2007 - 1:34 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=289519852#" id="addReplyLnk_378279" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/90/s_fb5c9a52bb6eabebec47005d6fa13620.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_379355">Well, since I am not a jackass, I think I shall safely ask- when are we going out for drinks, baby?<br />Seriously, let it go, not worth getting your knickers in a twist.<br />Lots of Love to ya, my slut baby.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a> on Friday, July 20, 2007 - 2:49 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=289519852#" id="addReplyLnk_379355" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=289519852&commentID=379355" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_379355"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_380051">Good goddess! Can't people tell when to back off? Give me a break, I can't stand people who try to butt into a good thing!<br />You just keep moving forward sis, and be happy! That is the best revenge!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Friday, July 20, 2007 - 5:59 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=289519852#" id="addReplyLnk_380051" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=289519852&commentID=380051" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-39043690198184953492007-07-18T11:52:00.000-04:002010-10-27T22:40:59.212-04:00I Am Done.... (oh yes I am pissed the f*ck off, you have been warned)<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, July 18, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div class="blogSubject" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 10px;"><div style="font-weight: bold;"><br /></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: 800;"><br /></span></div><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_289102189" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div align="center"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Bitch/bitchicon.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /><br /><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Bitch/bitchfu.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Bitch/Bitch.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Bitch/av-dont-fk-w-me-doll-ani.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Bitch/69a9398c.gif" imageanchor="1"><img border="0" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Bitch/69a9398c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div align="center"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Bitch/2447.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I'm Done.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Sometimes in life you just have to say "you know what, enough is enough" and let things go. I have reached a crossroads in my life, and now, this is me saying, enough is enough.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I don't know why drama follows me, but it does. I don't ask for it and I certainly do not deserve it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Right now, I feel …wide open. And I don't much like it. I don't like feeling that I am not in control of my own self. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">My own spirit. Right now, I feel like there is another force much stronger then I forcing its way in. And if this force wins, it's my heart that just might lose. And, I am no mood to lose someone else.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I just want to be able to snap my fingers and make everything happen the way I want it to be. I want it to be easy. But we all know that's not going to happen and nothing in life is easy.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am not as strong as most of you think. And I am even worse these days when my life is running around with scissors in circles.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I want to run and hide. I want to crawl back in my shell and just go about my life. I don't want to open myself up anymore. I feel like pushing everyone away.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Save myself from what could come.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I don't like this feeling. Hate it. Don't want it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, where is all this coming from? Here is where I start venting…</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">This person contacts me. She was civil enough. But, I was livid. Beyond livid, in such a fit of rage. Pissed. And, maybe their really was no reason for it. Maybe not as much as I was carrying. At any rate, she sends me mail. She is not even on my friends list, but rather someone else's. Apparently she thinks a comment I left on our mutual friends page was directed towards her. WHAT THE FUCK? I do not even know this person. Nor do I fucking care. Really people. Are some of you that conceited that you think anything anyone writes on someone's comments would be about you?? Seriously. I have better things to do with my time then sit around pondering what other people are saying in comments and plot against them. So keep your DAMN mouth SHUT and MIND YOUR OWN FUCKING BUSINESS. </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Oh but she goes on. Oh yes, she doesn't stop. Decides she must tell me that she's a flirt and that's just how she is, and blah fucking blah. In girl terms that means, fuck you, I am going to do what I want anyway. CUNT. If she was on my friends list, the bitch would have been removed already. But she's not, and I cant. I could care less who flirts and who doesn't. What pissed me off and made my blood boil was her assuming something was directed to her that was not. She has no fucking clue what goes on between me and this person. Then to contact me as if its no big deal and tell me she's basically going to do what she wants anyway regardless of the situation.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">AND she thought I thought she was a threat to me!!??? WTF!! I do NOT and will NOT feel threatened by ANY woman for ANY reason.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">That to me is just disrespectful.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Apparently I have not calmed down about it 12 hours later. Apparently it still pisses me off. It was just RUDE of her.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, I bitched about it for a while. I was going to reply to her mail right away. I just felt so damn disrespected. But I knew, if I did reply right away, that the person to whom we had mutually would hear about it, and I just did not want that wrath or drag that person in to it. It was obvious to me that this CUNT was just trying to stir the pot. So… you know what my mother taught me??? ~ kill them with kindness and I did exactly that. I wrote her back, and I was as civil as I could be, but yet keeping my bitch charm that I am so good at. As of right now, no reply to my cheeky ass. Not that I really care. What I do care about is her not brining our mutual friend in to it. This is not that persons battle , its hers. She started it. All she had to do was leave things alone.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I would have been happy with a simple, "was that comment about me?" to which I could have replied no and been done with it. But , like I said, she over stepped the line with her words.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Again I repeat ~ DRAMA – DON'T BRING IT HERE</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I WILL RUN AWAY FROM IT</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The worst part about it, she made my mind race off in directions it did not need to go. I have enough on my plate as it is, I did not need to add to it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">But she did. And I did. And their just was no way around it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">My mind rambles. Its restless now more then ever. This little tidbit of childish drama is what's making me want to run and just say enough is enough I don't want to do this anymore. Its just not worth it. Stacking it on top of other things. Opens my eyes and make me see things perhaps I turned a blind eye to.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">FUCK HER and FUCK THIS</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I know I can be a bitch, but you know what, this is my playground and if you don't like it, you don't have to stay and play.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/ICONS%20and%20Lil%20Pics/Bitch/av-mood-swing-ani.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div></div><div class="blogContentInfo" style="clear: left; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; padding-bottom: 10px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div class="cmtcell" style="float: left; margin-right: 7px;"></div></div><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 67px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/143/s_294e8995c07b45a792dbde894b7d3ad3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_376532">OMG - we have got to be living in the same cycle! My life is all about drama right now and I want it to stop!</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a>on Wednesday, July 18, 2007 - 12:22 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=289102189#" id="addReplyLnk_376532" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=289102189&commentID=376532" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_376532"></label><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_376535">Well I am about to rain down like lighting on someone, so ... ya want me to come up to your neck of the woods and help clear out some drama for you?? hahah ~winks~</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Wednesday, July 18, 2007 - 12:27 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=289102189#" id="addReplyLnk_376535" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=289102189&commentID=376535" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_376535"></label><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=138930177" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">andrew</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=138930177" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/50/s_0951bdd6f840aebbee131441a6770b87.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_377382">wow.<br /><br />i wonder.... are we back in high school or something?<br />i mean maybe some people just like living in never never land, 'cuz they just can't grow up.</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=138930177" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">andrew</a> on Wednesday, July 18, 2007 - 8:57 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=289102189#" id="addReplyLnk_377382" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=289102189&commentID=377382" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=138930177" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_377382"></label><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=86105268" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">grandpabear</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=86105268" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/87/s_dc0f62f3a125452c80c1b55958967f77.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_377603">Dontcha just love peeps that can't read??? Sorry to hear about the trouble; road trip?? Did I hear road trip??? LOL</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=86105268" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">grandpabear</a>on Wednesday, July 18, 2007 - 11:17 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-84004573585213309192007-07-16T21:27:00.002-04:002010-10-27T18:09:26.650-04:00Blah Blah BlahJune 16, 2007<br /><br /><br /><br /><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I know, I have been out of sorts as of late. As many of you have noticed by the flooding of my mail box :)</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Haven't been posting surveys, been slacking on the blogs and comments.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I am here.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">But, myspace seems to just have so many memories for me right now. Everyday I log in, I see Elonna, Joey, Lonnie, Sean and I think about everything that has happened with us all and where we all are in life right now. It put me in a slump and has made me just really not want to be on myspace these days.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">So, I just come by, check in. Answer mail and try to leave a comment for those that leave one for me.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">But, thats about all the effort I put forth.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I know, this is not fair to those of you I have made a good solid friendship with here.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Maybe its just a mood swing and I will be back to my normal chatty self in no time.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">We shall see.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">However, if you have a Yahoo 360 page, you can visit me there as I post blogs pretty much every day, and comments and what not. And well...their is happiness there.</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span>MySpace Comments</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></span><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_319869">:) Just saying hello!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a>on Sunday, June 17, 2007 - 5:05 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-57991816577808654092007-07-16T11:27:00.000-04:002010-10-27T22:43:25.061-04:00Thirty-Two<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Monday, July 16, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Pics%20With%20Text/Project12.png" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Thirty-Two</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Did I just say that out loud???</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Oh my, I am getting OLD! Hehehe…ok maybe not THAT old.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I think I have the Monday blahs. My morning started out pretty great. It's rather amazing how most things just seem to be bouncing off me. I just don't see the point in letting anything get to me. My mind is clear and I intend to keep it that way. I have too many things to look forward to. That's my focus. That's where my energy goes.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span> </span>Anyway, today starts the day it gets around that I am leaving. I had to tell a few people I sort of dreaded telling. These would actually be the people I like. <span style="font-family: Wingdings;"><span>J</span></span> One of them being my fave Officer -Jarvis. There is a Paddy Day pic of me and him in my pics section. It was pretty heartbreaking. I have seen this kid go thru so much just in the year I have known him. He has bloomed quite a bit too. But because he is the youngest officer, he gets the bunt end of everything. I feel bad for him. He really is a nice guy. One of those nice guys that people take advantage of, girls included. I have seen this time and time again. Poor guy constantly getting his heart broken. We've had many talks about how he can change that. Whether he chooses to listen, that's another story. He's young, what can you do?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Of course, everyone has said, "I am sure going to miss you" and I just sort of laugh. I am sure some of them really mean it. But all I can think about is sure you are going to miss my loud, obnoxious, sarcastic, but full of laughter personality. And then put me and Shannon together….OUCH! We can be quite the pair. And her I will miss most of all.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I've been contemplating how to spend my birthday. Since it is Sunday, and you know here in OK its dry county on Sundays. I was thinking about going out with my girls for one last hoooorah Saturday night. But I really need to PACK!<span> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">At first I was upset that I was going to have a birthday while in the middle of all the crud going on around me. A sense of sadness that all the things I had set out to do in life had not been accomplished.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Let's just say I had an awakening and leave it at that. Goals have been reevaluated. I am now looking at this next year of life as a whole new chapter.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Bring it on, I am ready for it.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>MySpace Comments:</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_371927">You go girl! LOL! Like I said before...no regrets...just lessons...right? Moving forward, taking the good stuff with you and leaving the "bad" behind...<br />Enjoy your birthday anyway, even though there is sadness and packing to do! Go out Saturday night and stay home and pack on Sunday....a new adventure awaits! {{{{HUGS}}}} Love ya...you know I do!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Monday, July 16, 2007 - 11:43 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=288272854#" id="addReplyLnk_371927" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=288272854&commentID=371927" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_373510">PLEASE do not say that 32 is OLD-- because if that is true, I have one foot in the grave!<br />Happy birthday sis, and here is to new chapters!<br />{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Monday, July 16, 2007 - 11:36 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=288272854#" id="addReplyLnk_373510" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; 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I’m sitting here, trying to focus on what I am feeling. But, it is proving to not be an easy task. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">What I do keep focusing on is the countdown ahead. Tomorrow I must face everyone at work, as the City Manager will make the announcement that I will be leaving, and have given my two weeks. I then get to face every city employee with the string of questions.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Where are you going? – I am moving</div><div class="MsoNormal">But where? – <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Michigan</st1:place></st1:state></div><div class="MsoNormal">Why? – my family is there</div><div class="MsoNormal">What about him? He’s not coming, we are splitting up.</div><div class="MsoNormal">And then here come the oooohhh I am so sorry. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Well, I am not. It’s been a long time coming. Friday, one of the girls and I were talking about it. She was like, I am sorry to hear things didn’t work out; you guys were such a cute couple. I didn’t mean to, but I laughed at her. We had her fooled. Really, we had everyone around us fooled.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I’m OK!! Really. Why can’t anyone believe that?? I am not and have not been sitting around crying my eyes out thinking what happened? What made this fall apart?? I know what happened. I made this fall apart. I compromised myself and I had to learn the hard way that I should not have. Never again. I am who I am and will never apologize. I will never again compromise myself for anyone. I am not ashamed to be getting divorced. I practice no religion so it makes no bit of difference to me. It’s just a stupid piece of legal paperwork. Big deal. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">At any rate, I have spent the last couple of days sorting and packing. I really had thought I was not going to be leaving with much. But then it seems stuff just started to multiply. Thankfully it has been relatively easy sorting out who gets what. I hope it stays that way.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But the memories are there and they have become a pain in the ass to deal with. So, I had to get rid of them. So far, it has worked. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">My soon to be ex mother in law came by yesterday. I was in the bedroom listening to my iPod when I heard her big mouth. I shall assume he has not told her. Or had not up until this point because all I heard her mention was why things were packed up. I turned the iPod up louder and quit listening. I wanted no part of that conversation. Want nothing to do with her or the rest of the family for the rest of my time here. I have nothing to say to any of them. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Right now I just seem to be going thru the motions of life. Counting down the minutes. The days until my ass gets out of this house and my feet firmly planted north. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The transition to my new adventure is not going to be easy, I am sure. I am leaving a great job and some great people behind. I am going by my luck that I am going to find something equally as good with a good group of people. I am going to have to face my family and all their questions. The apologies. And I know what they are going to think, like mother like daughter. Hmmm, well my mother had good reason to divorce my dad. And my family knows this. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This coming Sunday I turn 32. Been sitting here thinking, grams birthday is the day after mine. Thinking about her and life in general. Thinking about where I have been in life and where I am going. As I start a new year of life, I start it with much anticipation. Many hopes and dreams. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-91216836572172943042007-07-15T02:44:00.004-04:002010-10-27T18:17:09.507-04:00~Terry: Our Plan~July 15, 2007<br /><br /><br /><br /><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HIMSELF/Terry/tsmaller.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>You are</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span></span><span>my gift.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span></span><span>I will</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>never question</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>your presence</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>in my life.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span></span> </div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>Not now.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>Not ever.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span></span> </div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>We crossed paths</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>that day</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>in a special</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>kind of way.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span></span> </div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>A way</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>with meaning.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>A way</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>with purpose.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span></span> </div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>We may</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>not have all the answers.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>Not now.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>Their is a plan</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>laid out before us</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>A plan for</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>you and I.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span></span> </div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>When I look</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>at the sky</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>and see</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>that darkness</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>deep in the night</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>I know,</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>within that</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>is you.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span></span> </div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/PAGAN/3cc0.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span></span> </div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span></span> </div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>Together</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>we share</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>something special</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>You and I.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span></span> </div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>Who are we</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>to question</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>the purpose</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>and the plan?</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span></span> </div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>Not me,</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>and surely</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>not you.</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span></span> </div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>© ~c~</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span>MySpace Comments:</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica;"><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 162px;"><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/90/s_fb5c9a52bb6eabebec47005d6fa13620.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_374427">Maybe I do question too much, I know what we have is special. I do love you, sweetness.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a> on Tuesday, July 17, 2007 - 11:56 AM </div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table></span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-47125804021660550312007-07-13T14:10:00.000-04:002010-10-27T18:19:54.969-04:00PAY ATTENTION: What Makes A Woman Rubenesque?<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, July 13, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vcGhvdG9idWNrZXQuY29t" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/BBW/naked.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div align="center"><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-size: x-small;">Quite frankly, beautiful women come in all shapes and sizes. And today, when most people think of an attractive woman in the fashion sense, they usually imagine a slim-hipped waif with hollow cheeks, narrow shoulders, and a rather unremarkable bustline. This is what commerce has brainwashed modern society into believing is the ideal woman.<br /><br /><br />It is a lie, propagated by marketing forces and fashion designers who use<br />the obsession with a slender female form as a means to earn millions of<br />dollars selling weight-loss products and other health routines.<br /><br /><br />But some of us know better. There is another female form that has been<br />idealized for centuries. She is the familiar hourglass or pear-shaped woman of wide hips, an ample bust, plump cheeks, soft-full lips, and a generally healthy profile of alluring curves and crevasses.<br /><br /><br />She is the Rubenesque Woman. Elegant. Cultured. Educated and Beautiful.<br />In fact, the very word "rubenesque" originates from the adorable plump<br />women so frequently put to canvas by Renaissance Master Peter Paul Rubens.<br /><br /><br />Rubens paintings were so treasured because he painted the lovely women<br />that he saw around him. In Ruben's time, what are today called plus-size,<br />ample-bodied, full-figured, or pleasingly plump, were considered very<br />attractive, if not the most sought after of all women.<br /><br /><br />A firm heavy bust, complimented by shapely hips were physical features<br />that women of Ruben's day could be proud of. In fact, the fashion of those<br />times exaggerated these very features. Even slender women struggled into<br />agonizingly tight-fitting corsets and brassiers that held the mammaries upright so as to enhance their God-given(or perhaps the Devil) curves.<br /><br /><br />Sadly, today these concepts of female beauty are all but lost. Even the<br />over-used term BBW { big beautiful woman } seems an attempt to force<br />a positive image upon women who should be regarded as comely, just as<br />they are!<br /><br /><br />So this ~IrishChik~ rejects the modern fashion trends and<br />celebrate the elegant, independent, well-attired, and proud plus-sized female. ME!<br /><br /><br />Men, don't be afraid to love a woman with curves!</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size: x-small;">And ladies, if a man doesn't love you for who you are, then he's just not worth having around to begin with.</span><br /></div><div align="center"><a href="http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vcGhvdG9idWNrZXQuY29t" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/BBW/1381203862_m.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div align="center"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/BBW/bignbeautiful.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/BBW/bbwthick.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/BBW/NEW_Bountiful_Deviant_ID_by_Bountif.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">MySpace Comments:</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_367831">Daddy loves this blog, baby!<br /><br /><br /><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i175.photobucket.com/albums/w123/phillizzatty/bam2Asmall_cr.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><br /><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i174.photobucket.com/albums/w118/trutiea/biggirls.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a> on Friday, July 13, 2007 - 2:38 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=287283799#" id="addReplyLnk_367831" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_368203">~insert happy dance here~<br /><br />I am glad Daddy is happy ;) as I know my Daddy HAS the right equipment ;)<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Friday, July 13, 2007 - 5:26 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=287283799#" id="addReplyLnk_368203" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=287283799&commentID=368203" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_368203"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 67px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/143/s_294e8995c07b45a792dbde894b7d3ad3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_368162">AMEN Sister! Skinny chicks are for wimps!!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a>on Friday, July 13, 2007 - 5:07 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=287283799#" id="addReplyLnk_368162" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=287283799&commentID=368162" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Jules</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/6/s_2e32133ce70e41d0843fb33c3e70f0fe.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_368185">You go sista!!! xxxxxxx<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Jules</a> on Friday, July 13, 2007 - 5:18 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=287283799#" id="addReplyLnk_368185" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=287283799&commentID=368185" style="color: #003399; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=61526780" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Atlanta Cellist.....</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=61526780" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/13/s_e29970b183b24d8992ed5e871c09cdb6.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_368591">my opinion on the "fashion-skinny" women of the world is because MOST of the fashion designers are GAY men.<br />Gay men can't look like sexy full-figured women because they're MEN.<br /><br /><br />sooooooooooooo, the models that they create (to me) are like women who LOOK like gay men! :)<br /><br />And what is funny is that men who are "homophobic" like these skinny women....LOL!!!!! haha!<br /><br />I'm all for REAL women (smile)...bring on the curves baby!!!!<br /><br />kisses~<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; 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font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_369777">Great blog, sis, and when I saw that "bountiful" pic before (okay so I admit I have lost weight since then-- but still, I will never be a <myspace>size</myspace> 8!), I always wondered<br />"Who the hell put that hidden camera in my bathroom????"<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Saturday, July 14, 2007 - 11:30 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=287283799#" id="addReplyLnk_369777" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=287283799&commentID=369777" style="color: #003399; 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font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_369798">Great blog, sis, and when I saw that "bountiful" pic before (okay so I admit I have lost weight since then-- but still, I will never be a <myspace>size</myspace> 8!), I always wondered<br />"Who the hell put that hidden camera in my bathroom????"<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; 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font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_369805">DOH! I hate that when you hit reply and it gives you an "error" message, so you hit it again, and THEN find out the first one went through. Grrrr!!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Saturday, July 14, 2007 - 11:38 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=287283799#" id="addReplyLnk_369805" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=287283799&commentID=369805" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-20201980324986685352007-07-12T23:12:00.003-04:002010-10-27T18:57:43.029-04:00That First NightJuly 12, 2007<br /><br />Please visit the Erotic Confessions blog to read this story.<br /><br /><br /><a href="http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/2007/07/that-first-night.html"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: xx-large;">That First Night (Adults ONLY!!)</span></span></b></a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-50973241839299304642007-07-11T11:04:00.009-04:002010-10-27T19:14:55.799-04:00Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, July 11, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Words%20and%20Sayings/4956re2.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center">Why, Yes I AM thank you!</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">(*cough *cough- little dusty in here-been a while since a blog)</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">Ok, I am really TRYING not to be, but I just can't help it. I am finding it hard to keep my bad mood inside. </div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">Because right now I just want to scream</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">"FUCK YOU ALL I AM NOT COMING BACK!"</div><div align="center"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Words%20and%20Sayings/8b99re2.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">To all those people that get on my nerves.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">Big changes in life. That is what is going on with me.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">Let me just spell it out for you:</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">D-I-V-O-R-C-E</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">and</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">M-O-V-I-N-G</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">making one last and final treck across the states to Michigan.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">Yes, indeed. It's going to happen. Things are already falling in to place.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">I debated about when I should tell anyone. Making it official. Some people close to me already know whats going on. It came down to- tell spouse-toid at the last minute, then bust my ass trying to get packed and moved as quickly as possible OR tell him now and make the next couple of weeks miserable here at home. Which will most likely make me miserable at work. But at least that gives me time to pack my things and sort through our shit properly. Doesnt matter either way, its just going to suck.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">Its not like he doesnt know its coming. When we came back from Michigan the first time, over Memorial Day week, I told him (yet once again) how unhappy I was. How I wanted to go. But he didn't listen. I guess he has developed this "I will believe it when I see it" attitude. I can't try anymore. It is time to close the book on the last 10 years. I have tried to "fix" the last 3 years. It is just not going to work. The End.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">A whole new book awaits me.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">It's going to start out rough. It's not going to be easy. I am going to fall down and make some mistakes, I am sure.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">Anyway, work is about to get their two weeks notice.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">Making it Offical.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">(i apologize ahead of time to Shan)</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">As the mood around here is about to change rather quickly.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">As I will TRULY MISS YOU!!!</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">~sob sob cry cry~</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">But you know, you can come visit anytime!!!</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">So, if you guys don't get a blog for a while, you know why!</div><div align="center">~c~</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">MySpace Comments:</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 67px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/143/s_294e8995c07b45a792dbde894b7d3ad3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_364047">I'm sending you lots of strength.....emotionally to handle all the ups and downs and physically - couches are heavy!!!<br /><br />Keep in touch Lady!!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a>on Wednesday, July 11, 2007 - 2:43 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=286492130#" id="addReplyLnk_364047" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_364279">{{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_364279"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Jules</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/6/s_2e32133ce70e41d0843fb33c3e70f0fe.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_364510">You know you always have my love and support. You will get through this and come out on the other side a better person for it. There are so many people who are here for you. My thoughts are with you xxxx<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Jules</a> on Wednesday, July 11, 2007 - 7:10 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=286492130#" id="addReplyLnk_364510" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=286492130&commentID=364510" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_364510"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=26416851" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ Sõft Sèxy & Snügglâbly Wårm Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=26416851" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/106/s_555d990d7f4945c5ba49962e1118c97b.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Jessica Betts</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_364517">Girl Ive been there twice myself. Yeah its tough...the doubts and the guilt dont help, but in the end you have to do whats right for you. You're strong and you'll make it through....just look for the rainbow at the other side.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=26416851" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ Sõft Sèxy & Snügglâbly Wårm Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ</a>on Wednesday, July 11, 2007 - 7:22 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=286492130#" id="addReplyLnk_364517" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=286492130&commentID=364517" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=26416851" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_364517"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 96px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=87565705" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♥KittenShark♥</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=87565705" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/105/s_ecbcd41b0d214521ac925babda385e4e.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_364555">Ahhh....divorce...what can I say...bittersweet memories that I wouldn't trade for the world!!! Freedom awaits you, grab it and GO!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=87565705" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♥KittenShark♥</a> on Wednesday, July 11, 2007 - 8:04 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=286492130#" id="addReplyLnk_364555" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=286492130&commentID=364555" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=87565705" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_364555"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_364878">Oh sis, been there twice, actually the moving and starting over thing more times than I can count. It will be worth it in the end! Freedom and happiness awaits! {{{{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Wednesday, July 11, 2007 - 11:08 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=286492130#" id="addReplyLnk_364878" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=286492130&commentID=364878" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-63363028611486166332007-07-07T12:56:00.008-04:002010-10-27T19:20:03.249-04:00So Sick Of This Game We Call Life<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Saturday, July 07, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"></span><br /><div align="center" style="font-weight: normal;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/Joey/joey32007.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 7.5pt; margin-left: 18.75pt; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 20.5pt;">So Sick Of This Game We Call Life</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 7.5pt; margin-left: 18.75pt; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 20.5pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Warning – I am pissed, I am angry, so if you think I might offend you, then I would suggest you not read any farther. If you do get pissy with me, or whatever, I apologize ahead of time. I tend to get in pretty foul moods when dealing with shit I really just would rather not have to. And so, it tends to pour out in my writing. I also suggest you duck because I have been known to throw things across the room. My writing is my outlet. And if I don't bitch and rant then I might blow up and do a lot worse.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Ok, warning over…..on to the rant:</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">I am quite literally sick sick sick of it all... really... I mean I KNOW we all go through the motions of life. I KNOW we all lose people around us for whatever reason. I get that. I don't really need another person to tell me that.</span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">However, why so much, so many, in such a short time? In the last 18 months I have had more then my fair share of losses. I also get, that sometimes for something you lose, their is something you gain. And sure, I have gained someone truly wonderful, but look at the cost. (I know that sounds bad…sorry) <span> </span>Not that I want to give him up or trade him back for anyone or anything. (No never, I want to keep him forever and ever and ever) <span> </span>One door closes, another opens. I get it. Doesn't make anything easier. The cycle of life.</span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">I also get that we are never given more then we can handle in life. Right. Whatever. I have been given more then my fair share of shit to handle in life. Pass it on to someone else for a while and let me have some peace and happiness.</span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Him (Joey) and I share the same birthday, that is only a matter of days away....I don't even want the day to come. I do not want to think that we will not be celebrating together. This whole thing just reeks!</span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">I am angry, I am hurt and I am down right bitter.</span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">It starts with grandpa, then to Lonnie, I feel like I have lost Elonna, may as well say I have lost Sean, and Ray followed his path.(that's a whole other blog, yeah sorry I have not wrote about that ordeal) <span> </span>Lost my grandma. And now, I come back from dealing with that, and learn I have very well lost my Brother Joey, too!</span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">WHY? WHY? WHY?</span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">I know what you are going to say....don't focus on what you no longer have and focus on what you do.</span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Right.</span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">OK. So what do I have?</span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">I have Terry. And if not for his strength I would not be making it through this as good as I am. (I love you!!) I would have already called it quits like I did after gramps death, once again to my bottomless pit (that I often shared with Joey), and this time, I wont return.</span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">I have Steven. He being close to Joey too (as well as the rest of the gang) understands my feelings and emotions right now. We sort of have to lean on each other.</span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">I have wonderful friends all over that support me in everything I go thru. And, I have my family. You know who you are, so let's not get mad because I did not mention you here. This isn't a blog about shout-outs.</span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Life is not so bad, I realize this. But it sure SUCKS right now at this very moment.</span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">As another saying goes, that you don't need to tell me, I have heard it all too many times before… And this too shall pass….</span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">Ok..Just needed to rant and vent and get it off my chest. Time for me to go about my day now.</span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><br /></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;">~c~</span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><b>MySpace Comments:</b></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; line-height: 13px;"></span></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_355115">{{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Saturday, July 07, 2007 - 4:05 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=284976432#" id="addReplyLnk_355115" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=284976432&commentID=355115" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_355115"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/90/s_fb5c9a52bb6eabebec47005d6fa13620.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_355150">I love you too, darling.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a> on Saturday, July 07, 2007 - 4:50 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=284976432#" id="addReplyLnk_355150" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=284976432&commentID=355150" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_355150"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 67px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/143/s_294e8995c07b45a792dbde894b7d3ad3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_359516">I can't say anything to ease your anger and pain - only that I'm sending strength to you that will hopefully help you through your struggles. Big Hugs and Kisses.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a>on Monday, July 09, 2007 - 9:28 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=284976432#" id="addReplyLnk_359516" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=284976432&commentID=359516" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><br /><br /><div style="font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 5pt; margin-left: 0.5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5pt;"><span style="color: #0e0103; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-5270020784024067502007-07-06T04:48:00.000-04:002010-10-27T19:56:59.789-04:00Terry: Snicker<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, July 06, 2007 Terry O'Malley</span><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #ffccff; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"></span>UPDATE: 10/27/2010 - Terry had a photo on his blog this day, I was not able to bring it over here in time, looks like the MySpace police either deleted it, or it was in one of my many online accounts for photos and I moved it or deleted it. These are just t the comments between me and him. It was pretty silly, which is rare for him. He was not much of a jokester. I sure miss My Terry.<br /><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 15px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #990033; color: #ffccff; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_85791">you really are silly sometimes baby, ya know that? heheh... its all good...<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black;">♣IrishChik♣</span></a>on Friday, July 06, 2007 - 5:22 AM<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #ffccff;">[</span><strong style="color: #ffccff;"><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=191944130&blogId=284545603#" id="addReplyLnk_85791" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #ffccff;">] </span></div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px;"><label id="NewDiv_85791"></label></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 15px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #990033; color: #ffccff; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/90/s_fb5c9a52bb6eabebec47005d6fa13620.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_86364"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i204.photobucket.com/albums/bb84/tntrouble000/abesillysmileypin.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black;">~T~</span></a> on Friday, July 06, 2007 - 4:02 PM<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #ffccff;">[</span><strong style="color: #ffccff;"><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=191944130&blogId=284545603#" id="addReplyLnk_86364" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #ffccff;">] </span></div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px;"><label id="NewDiv_86364"></label></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 15px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #990033; color: #ffccff; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_86541">I can just hear this little voice going...nanny nanny boo boo...neener neener...HA!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black;">♣IrishChik♣</span></a> on Friday, July 06, 2007 - 7:16 PM<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #ffccff;">[</span><strong style="color: #ffccff;"><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=191944130&blogId=284545603#" id="addReplyLnk_86541" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #ffccff;">] </span></div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px;"><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-35577093470492423652007-07-06T04:14:00.005-04:002010-12-23T14:03:41.605-05:00Poetry In Motion: On This Trip My Mind Roams<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, July 06, 2007</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center" style="font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">Sick of this trip<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">I need to get a grip<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">Caught up in what's real<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">And what's make believe.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">So much I have heard<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">So many things I have seen<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">No matter how hard I try to separate<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">It all seems real to me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">Don't know where I am going<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">Which choices I should make<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">Should I go left<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">Or is that a right I take?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">I've put up my defense<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">Nothing seems to make sense<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">This world<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">That world<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">Too many obsticles in between<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">I often sit and wonder<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">Why bother<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">Nothing will ever change<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">Going back to my make believe<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">The balls are rolling<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">The wheels are turning<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">Things falling in to place<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">I seem to be running<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">But any moment<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">I'm going to fall flat on my face.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">Who will catch me when I fall?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">No one<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">No one's there at all.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">It all just make believe<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">But it all seems real to me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">The things I see<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">What I feel<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">What I know<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">I have to go<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">No questions asked<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">And in the mean time<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">I will put back on my mask<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">Hear me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">Hear my cries<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">Come and get me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">Help me say goodbye<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">I need out!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">And this I will shout<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">Atop the highest rooftop<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">I'm going to fall<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">But who will catch me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">When no one is there,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">No one at all.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">© C.H. </span><st1:date day="6" month="7" year="2007"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">7/6/07</span></st1:date></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><st1:date day="6" month="7" year="2007"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';"><br /></span></st1:date></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><st1:date day="6" month="7" year="2007"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic';">MySpace Comments:</span></st1:date></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=107908846" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Mexican Babe</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=107908846" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/63/s_4fb0e5575f2a44c0b82fc548bb292ebb.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_354212">Hey babe I wish I could give you a big hug right now keep your head up girl sorry I havn't been around just thought you might need some space for you and your family if you feel up to it back to me girl<br /><br /><br />xoxoxoxo<br />Crystal</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=107908846" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Mexican Babe</a> on Saturday, July 07, 2007 - 12:08 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=284539649#" id="addReplyLnk_354212" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=284539649&commentID=354212" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=107908846" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_354212"></label><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=61526780" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Atlanta Cellist.....</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=61526780" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/13/s_e29970b183b24d8992ed5e871c09cdb6.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_354700">big BIG hugs to you! :(</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=61526780" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Atlanta Cellist.....</a>on Saturday, July 07, 2007 - 8:37 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-79848970635648878252007-07-06T03:44:00.002-04:002010-10-27T19:30:12.067-04:00Finally, A Blog for ~T~<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, July 06, 2007 </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Response to ~T~<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">I know..I am late…as this should have been done a while ago. But in my best defense I have been away!</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">So without further ado, I bring you…my reply to Terry's blogs..</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">You picked on me and made my cry<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">You knocked me down<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Laughed at me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Then said good-bye.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">You punished me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">You checked my will.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">You pushed me,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">I pushed back.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">You tried to break me,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">To make me snap.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">You tested my every turn and twist<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">I paid close attention<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Carefully making sure<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">There was nothing missed.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">I watched you,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Studied your every move.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Often left wondering,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Now what's he gonna do?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">I took it all – and it left me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Coming back for more.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Still, confused<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">How can I get off<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">On being the one<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Who's battered and bruised?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">It was never me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Don't you see?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">So for me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">To fall into that place<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">That sub space<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">My own little world<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">My own little place<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Left me with more questions<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Then answers.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">But you were always there<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Strong hands<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">To guide me and lead the way.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">It never felt wrong.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">It always felt right.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">So, I gave up<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Gave in<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">And gave myself to you.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Night after night<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">This relationship grew<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">I tried to run<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">I tried to hide<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Did everything to deny<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">But, love took over<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">And it bloomed.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Now,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Look at me an</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 19px;">d you.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 19px;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Everything comes so easy<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Just falls right into its place<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">It has to be<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Meant for you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Meant for me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span 0in="" 0pt?="" align="center" margin:="" style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">So far away<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span 0in="" 0pt?="" align="center" margin:="" style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">But yet so close<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Here we are<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Touching nose to nose<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Heart to heart<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Soul to soul<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Neither of us knows<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">What the future holds<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">So we just let this relationship mold<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">I am sure,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">All the answers will become clear<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">If we just give it time my dear<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">It can't be wrong,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">If it feels so right.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">All I want –<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">To be in your arms,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Night after night.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">You may be hard<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">You may be tough<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Around the edges a little rough<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">But you are who you are<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">No apologizes<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">And with you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">I am just amazed.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Inside the hard shell<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Another Terry I see<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">The one with love<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Understanding<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">The one who gets – me.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">So when I give up<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Hand myself over to you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Go to that sub space<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Know it never has been<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Nor will be a place<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">With anyone but you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">And me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">You protect me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">And keep me safe<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">I choose this life<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">This life with you.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Terry- believe in me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">This much is true<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">I love you.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Two different worlds<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Two different lives<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Oceans apart<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">And miles between<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Just </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 19px;">obstacles</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 19px;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">It seems<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">I feel it – as only I can do<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">We'll find our way<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Thru this maze<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">Someday.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: x-large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 19px;"><br /></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;">(C) 7/6/07 C.H.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">MySpace Comments:</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/90/s_fb5c9a52bb6eabebec47005d6fa13620.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></span><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><br /> <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_352806">Yes you ARE late, now take your punishment as you deserve.<br />WHACK! SMACK! SWAT!<br />Bad girl!<br />Now that's out of the way, I love you. I do believe in ya, believe in us. Want this, want to make it work. I feel so giddy myself now, with all those emotions ya bring out in me.<br />Graim thu` ~c~ .<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a> on Friday, July 06, 2007 - 4:01 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-26805303459771723822007-07-05T21:08:00.000-04:002010-10-27T19:50:24.274-04:00Terry: Poem for ~c~ - All These ThingsTo read this wonderful piece of work Terry has written for me, you will have to visit my Erotic Confession Blog.<br /><br /><a href="http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/2007/07/terry-poem-for-c-all-these-things.html"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: xx-large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: magenta;">All These Things (Adults ONLY!!)</span></span></span></a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-59483082484524855872007-07-03T00:16:00.000-04:002010-10-27T19:44:51.259-04:00Terry:Poem to ~c~<div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;">Tuesday, July 03, 2007 Terry O'Malley</span></div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px;"><br /></div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #ffccff; font-weight: bold; line-height: normal;"></span>This is a poem I wrote for my slave, lady ~c~, which she has alleady read but which bears repeating, especially at this time in our relationship. So here goes:</div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px;"><br /></div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px;"><strong>To ~c~</strong></div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px;"><strong><br /></strong></div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0in;">I tested you, I did things to you that would make another run for cover</div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0in;">I held you down, called you names</div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0in;">Forced you to do things, say things, just to be my lover</div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0in;">I pushed you away, I snapped at you, made you cry</div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0in;">Left you bleeding, then laughed at your tears and pain</div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0in;">Asked you if you wanted to stay with me, asked you the reason why</div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0in;">At every turn I questioned ya, ordered you, demanded more and more</div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0in;">Every time you thought things were sorted with us</div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0in;">You found I had more wicked things for you in store</div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0in;">No matter how mean I was, no matter how cruel and unkind</div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0in;">You kept coming to me, saying I adore you</div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0in;">Getting on your knees to worship me, feeding me ego</div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0in;">Teaching me the things you felt for me, letting me know your mind</div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0in;">And then came love, and we tried to avoid it for a while</div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0in;">Talked around it, used different words,</div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0in;">Made it seem like it was something less than it was, passed it off with a smile</div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0in;">Finally the words were said, and now they come so easy</div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0in;">So I had to go and do the ultimate test, in response to questiones asked</div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0in;">I told you things about my life, about who I am, and all things sleazy</div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0in;">I was afraid, I will not lie, I thought that I would lose you</div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0in;">But instead you held me closer than ever before, and loved me even more</div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0in;">I finally really understand, my darling, why for my slave, I choose you.</div><div style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px;"><strong>Your Master ~T~</strong></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px;"><span>Comments:</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px;"><span><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></span><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_81887">awwwww..... and just as I did the first time I read this....all choked up with emotions....the good kind! I am so glad I decided to check myspace before logging off. I miss you so much baby and this was just what I needed to feel close to you while I am away.... You really are my Daddy, my Master, my Angel of Darkness...and...its so very simple, I Love You Terry.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black;">♣IrishChik♣</span></a>on Tuesday, July 03, 2007 - 7:18 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-83884892597075713542007-07-01T13:19:00.001-04:002010-11-15T13:56:56.823-05:00My Blog for T<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HIMSELF/Terry/m_27d9566a12ecb93b97361a65c66f4b04.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HIMSELF/Terry/m_27d9566a12ecb93b97361a65c66f4b04.jpg" /></a></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal">My blog for T</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Ok, so I have realized T has written 4 blogs now for/about me. And I have yet to return the love. I mean I have written things for him and about him, but have not talked really personally about him. So, allow me to do so now.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, who is T.. or ~T~ as it usually goes. Well, that’s him (points over to the left) over there in that picture. Terry. And if you go to my friends list, you will find him there. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">When I came up with the idea to do this blog, I thought I knew exactly what I was going to say. Knew exactly what I was going to tell you all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But, truth is, every time I think about this man, my words fall short. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Didn’t think it was possible to render me speechless now did you? Well it’s true. And it happens more often then I admit. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So here I am. Searching for the right words. Thinking about what I want to say. Thinking about everything that’s happened between us so far. And I just get so overwhelmed. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">How we met seems like a good place to start. I suppose we should thank Steven for that. As it was thru him that I learned of Terry. Had gotten nosey and asked Steven about him. I would go to T’s page and read his blogs. Absorbing it. Reading his comments. Reading what he would write for others. Not so much to be nosey, but more so just to get a feel for his personality. Something about him is so intimidating. Even to this day I still feel that way. On top of all butterflies in my stomach every time we talk. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-85639552902288344552007-06-29T22:35:00.002-04:002010-11-10T16:42:04.507-05:00Poetry In Motion: ~~~Alone~~~<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, June 29, 2007</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/feardarkwhichghides.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">Alone...<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">Dreaming.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">Silence.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">Thoughts of him.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">Heart beating.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">Beats fast.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">Pounding.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">Thud-thump, thud-thump.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">Thud.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">Thump.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">Faster.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">Harder.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">Consumes me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">Weight on my chest.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">Smothers.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">Heavy.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">Can't breath.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">Restricting.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">The pressure.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">Muffled cries.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">Can you hear me?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">Is anyone there?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">Darkness.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">Surrounds me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">But, I am not scared.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">Nor, do I think I am really – Alone.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">It is your darkness<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">that follows me around<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">Watches me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">Protects me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">And reminds me that,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">To you I am bound.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">© </span><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">6/29/07</span><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;"> C.H.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;">MySpace Comments:</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 16pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=107908846" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Mexican Babe</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=107908846" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/63/s_4fb0e5575f2a44c0b82fc548bb292ebb.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_343680">awww girl I always love reading your blog no matter how sad, crazy, dark, or happy cus I know that it's you and it comes from that big heart you have.<br /><br /><br />xoxoxoxo<br />Crsyatl<br /><br /><br />P.S. Yes I'm back home<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=107908846" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Mexican Babe</a> on Saturday, June 30, 2007 - 3:44 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=282247813#" id="addReplyLnk_343680" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=282247813&commentID=343680" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=107908846" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_343680"></label><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_343708">Good job! ( I get tired of saying 'awesome', LOL!)<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Saturday, June 30, 2007 - 4:39 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=282247813#" id="addReplyLnk_343708" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=282247813&commentID=343708" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/90/s_fb5c9a52bb6eabebec47005d6fa13620.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_349257">Beautiful as allways, you write so true, and I am so happy that I make you feel this way.<br />My darkness consumes you, and it protects you.<br />Perfect.<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a> on Wednesday, July 04, 2007 - 11:44 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=282247813#" id="addReplyLnk_349257" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/145/s_b223edabb8bd47d29b391fa183927089.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Ken Scott</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_353117">ME LIKE!!!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a>on Friday, July 06, 2007 - 11:47 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-86870679769082603262007-06-29T13:00:00.001-04:002010-10-27T19:41:55.814-04:00Terry: Well Here I Go<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;">Friday, June 29, 2007 Terry O'Malley </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 15px;"></span></span><br />What to say, what to say. Allways afraid to reveal too much, yet wanting people to know who they are dealing with, sort of trying to find a balance with all that.<br /><br />Sorting through who I am, not allways an easy task. I have certain beliefs and practices others might not approve of, and I certainly am not a "vanilla" type guy at any rate, in any form.I have been a Master in all relationships I have had since I was 17years old, and even before that, I was dominating and aggressive.<br /><br />Have allways been angry, resentful, hard to take, not a very nice person.<br /><br />Along comes ~c~ who is basically so much like me, yet so very different than me, that I find myself being sweeter, nicer, without even meaning to, without really understanding why it happened.<br /><br />So me, I live alone, except for my faithful companion, my pet snake Luce, and my family won't talk to me, my friends are all the sort you don't take home to mother, and I work hard, play hard, have sex hard, pretty much am hard in general.<br /><br />I don't know where this is going, I just know that if you are on this page, you are either my lady ~c~ or one of her mates, at least at this point. So I suppose, in a sense, you have allready accepted me, and I can stop being concerned and just be "me," but have patience. That will take some time.<br /><br />Likely, I will post some blogs that were on my Yahoo 360 page before it got deleted. By the way, YAHOO REEKS, in case you were wondering.<br /><br />Okay, enough of this, and so on and so forth, blah, blah, blah.<br /><br /> ~T~<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 15px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 15px;"><br /></span></span><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 15px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 15px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #990033; color: #ffccff; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_75811">Oh my goodness...I awake from my nap and this is what I find!! Look at you!! I am so proud!! Your blog set up looks absolutly perfect. The pic, the colors.....YEAH!!! See you CAN do it without help from lil ol me. And I told you once you got it all set up, the rest was just a breeze. So now, you can let out a deep breath. The hard stuff is over. AWWWWW baby I am so sitting over here all in smiles...I just totally adore you.<br /><br />I think this is a very good introduction too.<br /><br />Your beliefs and practices are what make you, you Terry. If people can not accept it, understand it, then they should not be in your world to begin with. I did not judge. How could I? Like you said, so many things the same, but yet so different. And I know there are others out there that wont as well.<br /><br />At any rate, you know I will be right here beside you...right where I belong, every step of the way.<br /><br />I Love You.<br />~c~<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black;">♣IrishChik♣</span></a> on Friday, June 29, 2007 - 2:28 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=191944130&blogId=282070490#" id="addReplyLnk_75811" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] </div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_75811"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #990033; color: #ffccff; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;">Jules</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/6/s_2e32133ce70e41d0843fb33c3e70f0fe.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_76976">As a friend of ~c~, all I can say is getting to know her has been a privilege. And I'm sure it will be the same with you. We're all afraid of not being accepted, but have no worries here. Our motto is "come as you are", because none of us have room to judge. There is a reason we gravitate towards certain people, I think it's because we know they will not turn away from us, they are proud to be our friends and accept us with all of our faults. So ~T~, take your time, be you, and it will all fall into place.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: 13px; text-decoration: underline;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black;">Jules</span></a> on Saturday, June 30, 2007 - 1:26 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-67383298701451906312007-06-27T17:01:00.000-04:002010-10-27T20:53:33.511-04:00Paint It Black - An Ode<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, June 27, 2007</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/8BhHTA6Gzn0?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/8BhHTA6Gzn0?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br /><br /><br /><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/MISC/8e2924b3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/MISC/CHANELPOLISH.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/MISC/thblacknailpolishrose.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">** Ok, so I can be silly at times. We all know this. And it usually doesn't reflect in my writing..not too much anyway. I have my moments. There is a story behind this. At work today. Flip flops. Cute little red ones with beaded décor. Very girly. So..I flipety flopety my way to the bathroom. Sit my ass down and begin to stare at my toes while peeing. (insert roaring laughter here) and all the sudden, paint it black began to rattle in my head. So here you go, have a laugh.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/MISC/nailpolish.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><o:p></o:p></span></span><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">Paint It Black<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">I went to the store the other day<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">The clerk said:<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">"Can I help you?"<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">In her own way.<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">I said –"just black<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">All I need is black"<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">She had no more to say.<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">And left me on my way.<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">I want to paint it black<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">Not one<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">Not two<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">But ten little toes<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">I picked that bottle up<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">Moved it right off the shelf<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">Placed it in my hand<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">Shook it<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">Heard that familiar little rattle<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">And walked away.<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">And now,<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">Here I am today…<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">One little<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">Two little<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">Ten little toes painted black.<o:p></o:p></span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">(C) C.H. 6/27/2007</span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC'; font-size: 12pt;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/MISC/holdmyhand.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; 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font-size: 12pt;">MySpace Comments:</span></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC'; font-size: 12pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span></span></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_338627">I AM silly gosh dang it!! Imagine that...ME FUN GIRL!!! woooooooot<br /><br />Now you know why I was off in my own little world just giggling away.... dude, I havent had a case of the giggles like that in so long...I don't know what came over me...hahahahaah<br /><br />Me and my little black toes rock the world.... WE ARE CUTE DAMN IT<br /><br />And Claytons ass asking me if I was GOTH ...FUCKER! You have no idea what you even talking about .....grrrrrrr... But, hes damn fucking funny aint he? Hes a loon just like US!<br /><br />Yeah yeah....I know I been pissy latley...Sorry about that....But Chrys is always here for you Shan...you should know that by now :) my partner in crime...<br /><br />*belts out singing, very loudly and slightly off key* Now...IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII....will always love yoooooouuuuuuuuuuuuu<br /><br />hehehe<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a> on Wednesday, June 27, 2007 - 9:09 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=281332199#" id="addReplyLnk_338627" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=281332199&commentID=338627" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><label id="NewDiv_338627"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Jules</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/6/s_2e32133ce70e41d0843fb33c3e70f0fe.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_338351">Ok, you know I love you and all...but shouldn't you be working??? hahaha. Although, black is a lovely choice :)<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Jules</a> on Wednesday, June 27, 2007 - 5:09 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=281332199#" id="addReplyLnk_338351" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=281332199&commentID=338351" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_338351"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_338632">I am a proud member of the P.A.<br />Procrastinators Anon...LOL.... Girl...have you yet to known me to work really hard?? More like hardley working...I slack all day then kick ass the last 2 hours hahahahah....<br /><br />I look oh so cute in black...my wee lil toesies<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Wednesday, June 27, 2007 - 9:11 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=281332199#" id="addReplyLnk_338632" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=281332199&commentID=338632" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_338632"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_338618">LOL! Silly girl!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Wednesday, June 27, 2007 - 9:00 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=281332199#" id="addReplyLnk_338618" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=281332199&commentID=338618" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; 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font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_338633">giggles @ momma<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Wednesday, June 27, 2007 - 9:12 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=281332199#" id="addReplyLnk_338633" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=281332199&commentID=338633" style="color: #003399; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/90/s_fb5c9a52bb6eabebec47005d6fa13620.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_342161">Black is the ONLY choice. Either that or blood red.<br />Grins wickedly...<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a> on Friday, June 29, 2007 - 3:23 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=281332199#" id="addReplyLnk_342161" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=281332199&commentID=342161" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_342161"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_342573">Love the Stones! Well, I stick with neutrals and pinks, because quite frankly I find the upkeep on dark colors difficult. But I have a feeling this is deeper than just nail polish!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Friday, June 29, 2007 - 1:52 PM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-40100400703014089502007-06-26T09:43:00.007-04:002010-10-27T16:59:41.775-04:00Introducing Terry!!!!!!!!!!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">June 26, 2007</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HIMSELF/Terry/l_07fe42dd53e321cc41ab4836acb108bf.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HIMSELF/Terry/l_07fe42dd53e321cc41ab4836acb108bf.jpg" width="212" /></a></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Ok....</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;">I know you have noticed. Sort of hard not to. And those of you on my 360 …well you already knew. But, now that it's moved here, sort of hard to just let things slide by.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;">I also know , I don't need explain anything. My life is what it is. And if someone doesn't like it, or doesn't approve, that's on them, not me, and you can quickly remove yourself from my friends list.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Simple.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;">As the saying goes…one door closes in life and another opens.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;">I believe all things in life happen for a reason. We cross paths with certain people at certain times in our life for a reason.<span> </span>And I believe, the path I crossed with this person was simply meant to be. Sometimes it is not clear to us why they have been brought into our life, and that's not always necessary to enjoy what you have with that person.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;">So, who am I talking about???? Terry. My Master, my Daddy, my protector of all things, my safe haven, my friend, my heart and soul.<span> </span>I am truly, madly, passionately, fiercely IN love with this man.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;">And these things are hard for me to say. my Master. I am not an easy one to tame, as most of you know my personality. I tend to be a little (ok a lot) cheeky :) Some have tried and failed miserably. Or maybe it was me...maybe my heart was not in it as it is now. It just was not right for what ever the reason. my Daddy. even harder still to spit out. For reasons many of you know. But, for the first time in my life, I can say it.... with total love and adoration.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;">I can not explain it much simpler then that.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Yes, I said it….Love….that grand and splendor thing that I seem to exude so much of for others. But, being IN love is not to be confused for having love for someone. I love those that are close to me. They know who they are and I have no problem telling them I love them. And Terry knows my feelings for Him and where He stands in my life.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Right now, I am really at a loss for words when it comes to talking about Him. I mean, I can write poems and stories that are inspired by Him, but I just get so overpowered with emotion when trying to pour out words about him. Everything that has happened between us since we met…..it is simply put…AMAZING. So amazing that my simple words can not describe. Men have come in and out of my life, for so many reasons. But not a single one of them have ever made me feel the way he does, picked my brain and made me think the way he does, tapped in to things no one else ever knew about me…things about myself long forgotten.....long put away....the girl i was...the girl i should be....the girl i will be again.....He just understands me without having to give these long drawn out details. He doesn't judge. He doesn't try to change me. Doesn't belittle me for the things I do. He fully accepts me as is. And I am just about comfortable in my own skin...There is only one thing I can honestly say I would change about Him if I could…and that would be, the distance between us.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;">You have all heard me say this before….but its worth repeating….what's meant to be with always find a way.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;">There are many changes that are happening in my life these days. And only going to become a rocky road ahead. It's good to know He will be there every step of the way.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;">So…there you have it.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Stop by – introduce yourself, and say hello to him.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Terry -<span> </span>Gráím thú , Tá mo chroí istigh ionat - Ádhraím thú !!!!!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><b>MySpace Comments:</b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_335953">Ok..I am getting a little forgetful this morning... I forgot to comment here, LOL! Anyway...it's nice to meet Terry, but I cannot comment on his page because I am not his friend :(. Ok, so I will send him an invite. There is a huge difference in loving someone and being in love with them...you are sooo right on that!<br />I cannot/will not ever judge you for your choices...I agree with you that people come in to our lives at certain times for certain reasons...when we are ready to learn the new lessons and experiences they bring to our lives. I am glad you found someone that makes you happy. Too bad he is in another country! Are you ready to take off and go be with him? Is he willing to come here? So many obstacles!<br />Anyway....{{{{HUGS}}}} Love ya!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Tuesday, June 26, 2007 - 8:26 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=280735375#" id="addReplyLnk_335953" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=280735375&commentID=335953" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 67px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/143/s_294e8995c07b45a792dbde894b7d3ad3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_335994">Congrats Baby - he is beautiful!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a>on Tuesday, June 26, 2007 - 9:11 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=280735375#" id="addReplyLnk_335994" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=280735375&commentID=335994" style="color: #003399; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=26416851" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ Sõft Sèxy & Snügglâbly Wårm Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=26416851" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/106/s_555d990d7f4945c5ba49962e1118c97b.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Jessica Betts</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_336115">Glad to see you're happy. Every naughty girl needs a strong man to keep her in line lol. Next month will be 2 yrs for me and mine. Been the best 2 yrs of my life! Who knew being bad could be so fun!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=26416851" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ Sõft Sèxy & Snügglâbly Wårm Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ</a>on Tuesday, June 26, 2007 - 10:43 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=280735375#" id="addReplyLnk_336115" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=280735375&commentID=336115" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=26416851" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_336115"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_336233">Oh yay, he's over here now! I was so sad when he lost his 360 right when I was getting to know him. And may I say: FUCKING HOT!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Tuesday, June 26, 2007 - 11:59 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=280735375#" id="addReplyLnk_336233" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=280735375&commentID=336233" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_336233"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/90/s_fb5c9a52bb6eabebec47005d6fa13620.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_336379">Wow baby, I don't quite know what to say. What a way to be welcomed to Myspace. Why am I not surprized? Thank you, my precious ~c~.<br />Taim i ngra` leat<br />Ta` cion agam ort<br />Tha gaol agam ort<br />Je t'adore<br />Te quiero<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a> on Tuesday, June 26, 2007 - 1:40 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=280735375#" id="addReplyLnk_336379" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=280735375&commentID=336379" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><span>Read more:<a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=280735375#ixzz13axuV9Cu" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=280735375#ixzz13axuV9Cu</a></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-37845637063457233172007-06-26T02:37:00.000-04:002010-10-27T17:16:39.328-04:00Just 4 My GirlsJune 26, 2007<br /><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">My Girls ~ Oh My Goddess</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><br /><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="image-wrapper"></div><div class="content-wrapper">Ok, so here I am. Yes. Me. Just me. Little ole me. Sad. Blah. So much stuff running around in my brain. The worry, the wonder, the this and that. Oh if you only knew what was going around and round in my brain.<br /><br />I need a distraction.... so girls, this ones for you!</div></dd><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/RPrbLQF02CY?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/RPrbLQF02CY?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />Put me on the table<br />Make me say your name<br />If I can't remember<br />Then give me all your pain<br />I can sit and listen<br />Or I can make you scream<br />Kiss it and make it better<br />Just put your trust in me<br /><br />[Chorus]<br />Oh my God, go a little slower<br />Oh my God, what was that again<br />La da da, let me feel you baby<br />Let me in, 'cause I understand<br />Let me feel you baby<br />'Cause I understand<br /><br />[Rap]<br />I understand all<br />Now climb my sugar walls<br />Problem solved it's dissolved<br />with the solvent known as spit<br />Lickity lick not so quick it's a<br />Slick ride make my mink slide<br />'Cause were all pink inside<br /><br />This can be really easy<br />It doesn't have to be hard<br />Here baby let me show you<br />I'll have ya, climbing up the walls<br />You got all the problems<br />I think that I can solve<br />Why don't you come in here baby<br />Why don't we sit and talk<br /><br />[Chorus x2]<br /><br />[Rap]<br />You like the top and the bottom<br />You make a drop and then caught 'em<br />And when you rock then you've got 'em<br />Oh my God 'em oh my God 'em<br /><br />Ok....so now then, who wants to play???? ~winks~<br /><br />xoxox<br /><br />~c~<br /><br /><br />MySpace Comments:<br /><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=26416851" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ Sõft Sèxy & Snügglâbly Wårm Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=26416851" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/106/s_555d990d7f4945c5ba49962e1118c97b.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Jessica Betts</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_336120">Hehehehe somehow I just KNEW you would like this vid. Just makes all kinds of naughty thoughts flow through the mind hmmmmm.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=26416851" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ Sõft Sèxy & Snügglâbly Wårm Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ</a>on Tuesday, June 26, 2007 - 10:44 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=280685117#" id="addReplyLnk_336120" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=280685117&commentID=336120" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=26416851" style="color: #003399; 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border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_336237">Me, me, I want to play!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Tuesday, June 26, 2007 - 12:00 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=280685117#" id="addReplyLnk_336237" style="color: #003399; 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text-align: center;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="MsoNormal">Have you seen my angel?</div><div class="MsoNormal">Is he over there?</div><div class="MsoNormal">I really miss him lately</div><div class="MsoNormal">But, he doesn’t seem to care.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">He isn’t here</div><div class="MsoNormal">Nor there</div><div class="MsoNormal">Or any where.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Have you seen my angel?</div><div class="MsoNormal">‘Fore I really need his guidance.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I miss him so</div><div class="MsoNormal">Maybe its time to let go</div><div class="MsoNormal">Time to say good-bye</div><div class="MsoNormal">So my little angel</div><div class="MsoNormal">Can be free to fly.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">There are others that need him now</div><div class="MsoNormal">He needs to be set free from me</div><div class="MsoNormal">Free to roam</div><div class="MsoNormal">Back across the sea.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I’ve mourned my loss</div><div class="MsoNormal">And cut some ties.</div><div class="MsoNormal">No more hanging on</div><div class="MsoNormal">Deep within the memories lie.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">~Fly free my little butterfly…go ahead…just fly on by~</div><div class="MsoNormal">(C)C.H.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-65180868230178863342007-06-24T18:40:00.002-04:002010-10-27T17:18:24.379-04:00Still Hanging In....Grams Part 2June 24, 2007<br /><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Ok, so maybe I jumped the gun a little on this mornings blog. But I was just going by what my mom had said. So, here it is 24 hrs later and my mom decides to call again, with the news that grams is still hanging with us. But, in a great deal of pain despite the tripple dose of morphine. ~sighs~ I just wanted her to go peacefully, with no pain and no long drawn out drama. Tis so very sad....... thats all I can say right now....</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><b>MySpace Comments:</b></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; line-height: normal;"></span></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 153px;"><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_333116">I will keep you both in my prayers! 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Got a call from Carmel on Sunday to let me know the situation. I started looking for tickets to get back. I guess I will see you soon, unfortunate circumstances. I was hoping to get there in July before she passed, but that didn't happen. I called Carmel last week to make sure the time and locations of my tickets would be okay before I bought them and she told me to hold off. I knew that wasn't good. But, like you said, she will be back with grandpa soon, and out of pain.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=19144538" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">april</a> on Monday, June 25, 2007 - 3:18 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=280067636#" id="addReplyLnk_334662" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=280067636&commentID=334662" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=19144538" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-27064210555594344082007-06-24T08:09:00.003-04:002010-10-27T17:23:36.339-04:00My Grams...............June 24, 2007<br /><br /><br /><br /><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/grands.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/Lonnie/thiwillrememeryou.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">R.I.P. Grandma (and grandpa too) My white light will shine forever for you both.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/Candle.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">So my mom calls me yesterday, about 5pm. I can tell by the tone of her voice when she says hello that somethings not right. And I know exactly what it is. I have been expecting this call ever since returning from Michigan. Then, she began to cry. In between those tears I got, "its bad", "not going to make it thru the night" , and "at best she only has a few hours" followed by, "i wont call you back tonight, will call you tomorrow." Of course their was the "better start checking on plane tickets or figuring out to get back up here."</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">So, I sit here writing this assuming of course, that she did not make it thru the night. And, knowing what I heard from mom, and what I felt .... she has passed on to the next world.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Both of my grandparents led a wonderful and filled life.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">The only regret I have is not moving back to Michigan soon enough to spend more time with them.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">I am sort of just numb about it right now. I know it was her time to go. And I know she is in a better place free from pain and suffering. A place where she can be with gramps once again. But I am still angry. Angry for the higher powers that be taking her away. I am selfish and just was not really ready to give her up yet. But my heart deep inside knows, my mind knows, my inner self knows, I will see her again.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">(ps- sorry for the typos..I am not using word to write this. Instead just writing directly to blogland. No spell check, and really just dont care to proofread right now. )</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><b><br /></b></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><b>MySpace Comments:</b></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42336335" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Sgtdebbie</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42336335" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/39/s_5d7a69923d6d43edb4bf2131f2f15282.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Debbie Noneya</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_332266">Huge hugs filled with love girl! You are right she is in a better place right now with your gramps, without pain and suffering. She also able to help rock those babies that need a grams hands to make them feel that comfort.<br /><br />My prayers are with you and your entire family. Love ya girl!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42336335" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Sgtdebbie</a>on Sunday, June 24, 2007 - 9:09 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=279917482#" id="addReplyLnk_332266" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=279917482&commentID=332266" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42336335" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; 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font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_332289">You know sis I could sit here and write all the flowery, comforting phrases that we all drag when these things happen-- she is with your Grandpa now, she is at peace, in a better place, etc.<br />But having lost three of the very dearest and closest people in the world to me in the past 5 years, I am going to say-- straight from my heart, how I really feel--<br />Death sucks.<br />{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Chrys}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Sunday, June 24, 2007 - 9:46 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=279917482#" id="addReplyLnk_332289" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_332408">{{{{HUGS}}}} Everything to be said has been said, so I will sit here quietly offering you {{{{HUGS}}}}! Love you girl!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Sunday, June 24, 2007 - 12:00 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=279917482#" id="addReplyLnk_332408" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=279917482&commentID=332408" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; 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font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Brian Kinney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_332500">Ahh jeezuz Chrys...I am so sorry baby...<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a> on Sunday, June 24, 2007 - 1:34 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=279917482#" id="addReplyLnk_332500" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=279917482&commentID=332500" style="color: #003399; 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font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_334133">I'm in the same boat with you Baby - let us be strong together. Prayers and hugs....<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a>on Monday, June 25, 2007 - 8:51 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=279917482#" id="addReplyLnk_334133" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=279917482&commentID=334133" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_334133"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81869020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Kristi</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81869020" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/92/s_fc5d3118db564b399fdeb53c00180dc0.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">KRISTI C</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_334241">I am so sorry to hear about your grandma! I understand those feelings of selfishness and not wanting to give them up, such a very hard situation. My thoughts & prayers are w/ you and your family.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81869020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Kristi</a> on Monday, June 25, 2007 - 10:11 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=279917482#" id="addReplyLnk_334241" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=279917482&commentID=334241" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=81869020" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="image-wrapper"></div><div class="content-wrapper"><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;">My Angel of Darkness</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;">My Prince of the Night</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;">Where are you now?<br />I can't find your light.</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;">Stripped-</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;">Taken away</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;">So sudden</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;">So soon</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;">Disbelief</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;">I don't know what to think</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;">Don't know what to do</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;">How to feel</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;">Or, what to say.</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;">My Angel of Darkness</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;">Come back to me and make it go away.</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;">My Angel of Darkness</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;">My Prince of the Night</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;">Did your blackened wings get ruffled -</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;">And you had to take flight?</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;">My Angel of Darkness</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;">My Prince of the Night</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;">Find your way back to me</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;">Hear my voice calling</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;">Bring back your light.</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;">© C.H. 6/2007</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;">MySpace Comments:</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 18pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></span></div><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /><br /><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_325827">Awesome! Such talent! You should sell some of these, girl! Get someone to add music and become a songwriter!</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Wednesday, June 20, 2007 - 4:44 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=278511537#" id="addReplyLnk_325827" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=278511537&commentID=325827" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: small;">To the place that I must go</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">It would be better for me</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Don't you know?</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Quickly lead the way</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Please clear that path for me</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">I am so afraid</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Please come to my aid,</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Rescue me.</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Quickly lead the way</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">So I don't have to walk alone</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">It would be better for my heart</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">To have a permanent home.</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Quickly lead the way</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">So that I can always be 2 steps behind</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">It would be better for my soul</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">And my simple mind.</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Quickly lead the way</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">So that I will always know</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">That it is me you want to be with</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">That I never have to go.</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Quickly lead the way</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Before I run and hide</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Change my mind</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Go astray</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Won't you quickly lead the way?</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">© C.H.</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">MySpace Comments:</span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></span><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Cathy McElhaney</span></div><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"> </span></span><br /><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_323343">I was here! LOL! Awesome writing by the way!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a>on Tuesday, June 19, 2007 - 6:35 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-56470378115063477052007-06-17T21:13:00.009-04:002010-11-17T16:22:28.014-05:00Poetry In Motion: That DarknessJune 17, 2007<br /><br /><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">Darkness falls</div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">All around me</div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">Its there</div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">Just waiting</div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">Consumes me</div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">Smothers me</div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">Covers me</div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">Wraps its arms around me</div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">Throws me down</div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">Pushes me in</div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">Closes the lid</div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">Forever to never</div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">Be found.</div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"></div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/As.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">I just woke up from getting all of maybe 2hrs sleep. Pissed off to no ending degree. Having no idea where this anger was coming from. Then I realize…oh yeah, it's Father's Day. Great…just great. Let me crawl back in to bed and not deal. Let me climb back in my hole and hide here.</div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"></div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">The dark side, the darkness within, however you want to put it, it's really all the same in the end. We all have a dark side. Oh, its there, trust me. However, the degree to how dark one is varies with each individual. I've done pretty well in my life hiding that dark side of me to those in my life. I know I let bits and pieces of it out here and there. Sometimes it comes out in the things I write. But, there are even few who know the real darkness inside of me. And I like to keep it that way. I would rather the world see me in smiles.</div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"></div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">But just because I put forth a smile, does not mean that darkness isn't consuming my every fiber in which I am made. And lately, it's been a struggle to keep the lid on it. Pushing it down, latching the latch but it keeps getting open. Poking at me. Making my insides itch. I scratch, tearing at my flesh. I'm bleeding all over the place and I can't stop it. The anger is boiling over. I have to push back fits of rage. All I want to do is rain down like lighting on someone or something. Don't know what to do about it. When my eyes are open, it's like they are closed. Darkness all around me. But I am not scared. It's always been there, always been a part of me. I feel myself falling. I am not sure why. Maybe it's because of all the things going on in life. The changes that are about to be made. I feel stuck. I don't like it. I want to move forward but I can't. I am stuck here in this puddle of blood a while longer. I'm standing here and I can see the direction I need to take. But I can't move. I am consumed with too much of something that I can explain. I can reach out and grab the small things I need to follow my new path in life, but I can not get much farther then that.</div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/Blood/thblood2.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">I find it ironic, that there is one, yes that One…who has his own darkness, but yet I find so much light in him. His strength, His power they are with me every day. I absorb it; take what is given to me.</div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/Indarkness.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><br /></div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/2hn5rlw.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">But I don't know if that power and strength is enough. I don't know if that can pull me out of this hole I have fallen back in to. I've really had enough of this cold skanky hole I am in. I know I have much I need to deal with in my life. I realize that. I accept that, and will do what I need to do in order to save my sanity.</div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">My being in this cold dark hole is not helping myself. All it is doing is oozing my bloodlines all over every one else. The one thing that put me in this hole looks like it is a never ending bottomless pit of vile.</div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">Perhaps that vile wants me to stay there. Alone to rot in the stench.</div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">But I know I don't want to drown in a bloody stench right now.</div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">I know the girl I am and the girl I want to be.</div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"></div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"></div><div class="content-wrapper" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Mystical/Simone_Enchantress221111.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">MySpace Comments:</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_321428">Usually it's fear that keeps us immobile. You just have to figure out what the fear is about...failure? success? rejection? change? Once you figure that out, it will be easier to start moving in the direction you want to go. There are many of us here that will reach out our hands to help pull you out, but first you have to want to get out...and it sounds like you do. Hate and anger towards those who have hurt you, only gives them the power to hurt you more. Letting go of it puts you back in control. It's not exactly forgiveness, but taking YOUR power back. {{{{HUGS}}}} Love ya, girl...you know I do!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Monday, June 18, 2007 - 5:05 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=277405630#" id="addReplyLnk_321428" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=277405630&commentID=321428" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><label id="NewDiv_321428"></label></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_321657">Sorry that I don't have time to answer your email right now sis, and I already commented on this over on 360. But I would like to add that while our men--and our women, distract us, they don't solve our core issues. I know mine is your basic low self-esteem, and that having a younger man (who looks like Joey!) falling all over me is very ego-boosting and good for my self-esteem right now. BUT I really need to find that within, which has been and continues to be a struggle for me.<br />NO you are not meant to be stuck in that hole sis! *reaches out a hand to pull you out*<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Monday, June 18, 2007 - 10:07 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=277405630#" id="addReplyLnk_321657" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=277405630&commentID=321657" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><label id="NewDiv_321657"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Jules</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/6/s_2e32133ce70e41d0843fb33c3e70f0fe.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_322878">After being in the darkness myself, I know what you are feeling. So take my hand friend and we can pull each other out of the pit. Life can be joyous, it can be good, it can be happy again. I think it's just been so long since someone has taken our hands and showed us this can be so. much luv xx<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Jules</a> on Monday, June 18, 2007 - 10:33 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=277405630#" id="addReplyLnk_322878" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=277405630&commentID=322878" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=55296826" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-3981077828611518362007-06-17T11:15:00.002-04:002010-10-27T18:07:07.816-04:00Ugh....I Really Hate Father's Day<div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">June 17, 2007</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Possible Titles: Why I Hate Fathers Day</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span> </span>Swearing off Men</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span> </span>Men Suck</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, first let me say, this is NOT a rant towards my family and friends who are good men, and/or who are good fathers. You know who you are, how I feel about you and where you stand with me. Rather this is a rant that is based on my own personal experiences and my feelings towards them.<span> </span>Nor is this rant geared to the One closest to my heart right now (~T~)</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Since I can not seem to decide on a title, I am just going to leave all of them here.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">There are quite a few of you that have been around my blogs for a while. Those of you that have been around, you know my issues with men. Why they totally disgust me. Well you know most of them. Although I am rather open about many things in my life, there are many in which I don't tell and many in which I make so cryptic, you think you have an idea, but the truth is it may not be that way at all. As a writer I have mastered the art of word manipulation.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">You are not going to see my nice side in this blog.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have so much shit rolling around in my brain, I have to let it out or I am going to go crazy. I have decided that I am no longer going to fear rejection and I am finally going to start working on getting some of my better writings published. And there is a book idea in the works. Elonna and I have talked about this book for years now. And I think, today is just as a good of day as any to get started on it. Life is just too short. Right now it's just a jumbled mess of my thoughts and ideas. But, it will turn into something with time. I know the direction I want to take it in. Where I want to go with it and I might post part of it here to get feedback. I realize a true work of art does not happen overnight, and I know this is not an exception to that rule. At any rate, I am getting off topic and ahead of myself.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Today is Father's day. And I hate it. Loath it. Despise it. It disgusts me and makes me want to wretch and vomit from the depths of my soul. It's a constant fucking yearly reminder about the cards that I was dealt with in life.<span> </span>I think for the most part I have lived rather well with my hand, but sometimes I am given the Joker when I least expect it. And Fathers day rolls around every year, it's a given these thoughts are going to invade my space. I can't run from it or forget it when there is a constant reminder of this day. Trust me, I have tried to run from it in all sort of manners. Nothing works. Nothing is permanent. I hope at some point in life that will sink in, but for the time I do what I must to keep it pushing inside and away.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So as I am sure you have guessed I likely have father issues. And you would be correct. As I look back, thinking about it, I see their has been a pattern with past men in my life. It's made me so leery of them today. Why I don't let them get close to me. And when I feel one too close, I push away and start to close myself off, give distance. I don't want to do this, but my defense just goes up having been so hurt so many times. After Lonnie died I vowed I was never going to be with another man. I was never going to let someone get over my wall. I was just going to keep those close to me that were already over my wall, build it back up , much higher, bar all windows, close the gate, lock it and throw away the key. I was going to live out the rest of my existence, first getting out of the situation I am in, and then living my life as a bisexual girl who preferred woman over men.<span> </span>In all my female relationships, it's always been a mutual parting. Things just didn't work for whatever reason. And I still remain friends with them to this day. I don't know what it is about me staying friends with my ex's because as I think about it, there are quite a few that I still converse with as friends. Oh well, not going to analyze that. It's a whole other topic that would render its own blog if that was an avenue I wanted to walk on.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Father issues. Yes, I have them. Two of them as a matter of fact. Both of them disgust me for different reasons. Now I am sitting here watching this cursor blink thinking, how personal to I want to get here.<span> </span>What do I want to say? Who will stay and who will run away.<span> </span>If you were fortunate enough to be around before I tore all my blogs down, then you may recall a blog titled "Cards on the Table" that blog was all about dad #1 and father #2. Not much detail, it touched on the surface. For many of you, the tale I can tell will be of no surprise because you have read it all before. But for those of you new to my world, it's defiantly a horror story of the sorts.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I think, I don't really want to talk about it right now. Maybe another time. I am not really feeling like opening myself up right now. The wounds already cut, I am already bleeding out, and talking about it is going to be like pouring salt on it. I would just rather not go there today.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Men Issues. Yes, I have them. Obviously. But let me clarify once again NOT ALL MEN. If I talk to you, then obviously I don't have an issue with you. But, as I have said in previous blogs, entering my world their will be a test to see whether I let you stay in it or not. I do this for my own reasons and don't think I need to explain it. Should be pretty obvious.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Sexual abuse, adoption, abandonment, rape, death, destruction, physical abuse, and mental abuse should be a pretty good indication. WOW! And I said I wasn't going to go there didn't I. Now I sit here thinking, should I go back and delete it, or keep it in? Fuck it. Keep it in I say. I am not ashamed of it. Its things in my life that make me the woman I am today. Why I behave the way I do. Why my guards are constantly up. Why I always have to be in control of myself. In control period. Of course, with the exception of One, I will never ever render myself powerless. Never put my guards down and let someone be in control of me. It's just not going to happen.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So for these reasons this is why Fathers day truly bothers me.</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span>MySpace Comments:</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_319867">{{{{HUGS}}}}!For once I have nothing to say. Just plenty of hugs to send your way! Hey! That rhymed! LOL! Mercury is retrograde, so communications will be messed up right now...it's ok to start thinking and planning, but just remember if things go wrong just wait a few weeks and start over! Here is a link to a really good astrology site. www.astrologyzone.com. Mercury stops it's retrograde on July 9th.<br />Have a wonderful Sunday despite the day it is. As Don says...it's just another day! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Sunday, June 17, 2007 - 5:03 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=277131811#" id="addReplyLnk_319867" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=277131811&commentID=319867" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_319867"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_320163">It's a rough Fathers day over here too sis, for different reasons. But I can totally relate to the feeling of blah for this day. Have been through the Swearing off Men and Men Suck stuff too. Still do at times!<br />(((((hugs)))))) to you sweetie!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Sunday, June 17, 2007 - 12:56 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=277131811#" id="addReplyLnk_320163" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=277131811&commentID=320163" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-26317121229073621552007-06-16T13:15:00.005-04:002010-11-15T13:19:07.526-05:00I Need a Girlfriend<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/BiSexual/Rosalarian____Cuckold.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/BiSexual/Rosalarian____Cuckold.jpg" width="277" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">There I said it. I need a female in my life. I crave it. It’s been lacking for a while now and my thirst, my appetite have come ahead full force. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-11897734735006261462007-06-14T14:51:00.001-04:002010-10-27T18:14:50.868-04:00Do You Even Notice?<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1043.photobucket.com/albums/b431/ahava2/Comments/comments.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i1043.photobucket.com/albums/b431/ahava2/Comments/comments.jpg" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1043.photobucket.com/albums/b431/ahava2/Comments/comments.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"></a>June 14, 2007</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><br /><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">So, I get all these blog hits...but yet NO comments.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">What's up with that? I don't care what you say. Just let me know you were here!</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">I notice you were here... would be nice if you said hello!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">MySpace Comments:</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81869020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Kristi</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81869020" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/92/s_fc5d3118db564b399fdeb53c00180dc0.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">KRISTI C</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_314578">Hello!! Is that enough for you?? hahahaha hope your having a good week, mine not so great, I have to be back at work this week after a week off!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81869020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Kristi</a> on Thursday, June 14, 2007 - 3:08 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=276220932#" id="addReplyLnk_314578" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=276220932&commentID=314578" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=81869020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_314578"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_314713">Ok..you caught me! LOL! I usually leave the comment on the other page, but I stop by here, too! Sorry! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Thursday, June 14, 2007 - 4:05 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=276220932#" id="addReplyLnk_314713" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=276220932&commentID=314713" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_314713"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_314716">Oh by the way...I have 29 views and 6 comments this week...I know what you mean!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Thursday, June 14, 2007 - 4:07 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=276220932#" id="addReplyLnk_314716" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=276220932&commentID=314716" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_314716"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=47558354" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">J.R.</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=47558354" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/101/s_922fafaf943b44b0982e0e358d8e7799.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_315183">Will Will just wanted to say hello. God bless you<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=47558354" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">J.R.</a> on Thursday, June 14, 2007 - 5:13 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=276220932#" id="addReplyLnk_315183" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=276220932&commentID=315183" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=47558354" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_315183"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=61526780" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Atlanta Cellist.....</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=61526780" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/13/s_e29970b183b24d8992ed5e871c09cdb6.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_315936">sigh...I admit...yes I've been lurking...LOL.<br /><br />I've been busy busy busy and going crazy crazy crazy with these weddings I've been playing in. I'm telling ya...I NEED to update my blog with some of the crap I've had to cope with .....~bridezillas to the MAX!!~.....(yes, say it with a valley girl accent!)....gag me with a spoon and all that LOL.<br /><br />BIG HUGS! :)<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=61526780" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Atlanta Cellist.....</a> on Thursday, June 14, 2007 - 10:18 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=276220932#" id="addReplyLnk_315936" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=276220932&commentID=315936" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=61526780" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_315936"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/145/s_b223edabb8bd47d29b391fa183927089.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Ken Scott</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_317874">I think I could track down somebody lurking around your page & blog post... (((ssshhhh)))!!! Quiet! I think he or she is coming... Don't worry you'll recieve a nice bill in your mail...<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a>on Friday, June 15, 2007 - 8:01 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=276220932#" id="addReplyLnk_317874" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=276220932&commentID=317874" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=121240986" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/26/s_3daf60bff82913adfc4aabc31335df32.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Brian Kinney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_319153">Hello baby...<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a> on Saturday, June 16, 2007 - 7:35 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=276220932#" id="addReplyLnk_319153" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=276220932&commentID=319153" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-52540583095905833152007-06-10T20:34:00.011-04:002010-10-27T16:07:47.874-04:00Just Me - Part 3 (The Last)Sunday June 10, 2007<br /><br /><br /><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/BBW/My%20Name/ee61.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">This might very well be the last of this series. Even though this hardly even touches or scratches a small fragment of the surface, I have grown tired and become quite bored of it. So, just going to throw a few random things out there and just be done with it. This should pretty well (all 3 parts) answer all the questions you all have thrown my way. If I missed something, you are more then welcome to drop me a line and ask. I may answer, I may not. Or I might just play with your mind and leave you more confused then how you started.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">As you can see I am pretty laid back, but I am sharp tongued. I am SARCASTIC people, get over it. You call me out and I will call back. I am quick to the draw. If you lack common sense and are just plain stupid I will call your ass out on it. It's as simple as that. Don't come up in here proposing to think you know me.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">Quite frankly, I am pretty easy to get along with if you would just take the time to do so and not pass judgement first.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">Jealousy. It irks me and makes me want to throw things. It's retarded and I have no place in my life for it. I know where I am in life. I know who I am in life. And I am comfortable in my own skin. I know who I stand beside and who stands beside me. If you have issues with that, then perhaps you need to do some searching for the issues that lay within yourself, because it goes much deeper then what's on the surface. If you are trying to make me jealous, it won't work. All it does is make you look like a stupid ass and don't be surprised if I call you out on it and make you feel like a fool.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Words%20on%20Icons%20and%20such/Sayings%20and%20Quotes/Jelouse.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">What's mine is mine. Simple is that. I might be selfish and possessive of things which are mine. But, I do play well with others and am willing to share with the right person.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> Trust. Trust is a big deal for me. In a world where it is so easy for a person to throw a fake pic up and pretend to be someone they are not. It will take a lot for me to trust you, so really, just don't expect it.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">Don't try to Master me. I know I am wild. I don't need you to tell me that. I am not yours to tame. Nor do I want you to try to tame me and settle me down. You won't get there. Don't question my actions. I am stubborn. I generally have to have the last word. I will not back down, nor bow down.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">As it stands there is only ONE I will bow down to, and he has rightfully earned that. I do not need nor do I want another. Don't expect to try and dominate me. I will be the one in control here. I don't care if you are on a mission in this world for total domination. I want no part of it. I won't even let you get close enough to try.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/AC/Dom%20-%20Male/thRings.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">This is my court and these are my rules. I will be the one in charge, its that simple. Again I say there is only ONE person these rules do not apply to. And he knows who he is.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">You can not break me or control me. So don't bother. I am not broken and don't need to be fixed. If you think you have control then you really have not been paying attention. You cannot own me, but I can certainly own you. I don't play games so don't waste my time. No strings, no feelings and no emotions. I will not let you get that close to me. (Please refer back to part 1)</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">If you think I am being a bitch I will stick my tongue out at you. But you are not likely to get a rise out of me. It's not worth my time and effort. If I think you are being one, I will be sure to tell you. And might just flip you off in the process.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/AC/Brat%20Bitch%20Princess/DTBITCHIVORY.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Words%20on%20Icons%20and%20such/bs.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">I am easily amused. Hard to entertain and it takes much to keep my attention.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">I can pick up after myself, and I expect you to do the same. I am not your mother and therefore I will not pick up after you. Don't bring your mess here.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">My life is a very organized mess.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">I tend to be a mess of my own insecurities. But I hide it well.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/BBW/NEW_Bountiful_Deviant_ID_by_Bountif.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">I do have a dark side, and it does come out quite often.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/Blood/Butcher_Girl_by_BlackSunRising.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">I am not a religious person but I am spiritual. Don't assume just because I am Irish I must be Catholic. That's nothing more then stereo typing on your part. I won't do that to you. I'm not a judger either. I did grow up in an Irish Catholic family. As a teen I strayed away following the path into Paganism eventually falling into being Wiccan. I fell from that and went into non believer mode for a long long time. I did go back to church 2 years ago. Non Denominational. Even went so far as to volunteer and watch the toddlers during one service. I have written in the past about "my kids." But their came a time when I started to feel fake. Knowing this was not the path for me. I loved my kids and I miss them a great deal, but they deserve to have someone who is true to their beliefs. That was 6 months ago. Now, I am back on another path.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Mystical/freespirit.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">I like speed. I tend to think I am a race car driver. I like fast cars and fast choppers. And I don't mean motorbikes or motorcycles and certainly not those foreign imports dubbed crotch rockets. Nope, I am talking about good old fabricated by one man with 2 hands, nothing but chrome and steel, no two alike, the real deal chopper.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">I don't like labels of any kind. However, I love my Seven brand jeans. Sexy! Flip flops in the summer are a must.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">Music. I have a pretty eclectic taste in music and I pretty well like all types. I good tune is a good tune. However, I am a rocker girl at heart and always will be. But don't put it past me to go to a club and get totally lost in a good trance/industrial mix.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><img alt="Rock_and_Roll_by_BloodyBlackCat.jpg" src="http://s56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Music%20Stuff/th_Rock_and_Roll_by_BloodyBlackCat.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><img alt="Rock_by_XXEcutioner.jpg" div="" src="http://s56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Music%20Stuff/th_Rock_by_XXEcutioner.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /><></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"> </div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">Ok, that's enough talking about me now!</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-60901471508806626692007-06-09T23:14:00.011-04:002010-10-27T16:13:37.423-04:00Let Me OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!Saturday June 9, 2007<br /><br /><br /><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Ok, so I am not really in the blogging mood today. For many reasons, but mostly because my mind needs a rest. Too much going on inside of it right now. So, I am going to let it all out , save it, and put it all together later.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">My world is going to take a turn. Don't know when. But it is going to. The wheels have already been set in motion. I am unsure of my path right now. But, all I know is I have to leave the place in which I am in. And thats leaving the spousal unit behind.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Indeed, there it is. Seperation. Divorce. Whatever you want to label it. I am walking away.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I'm done with it all.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">So, until my brain is back in proper working order, I leave you with this ..... because it seems to be on constant repeat on my ipod.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Daimen Rice - Rootless Tree</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/6rndltmm3oE?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/6rndltmm3oE?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">what i want from you</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">is empty your head</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">they say be true,</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">don't stain your bed</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">we do what we need to be free</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">and it leans on me</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">like a rootless tree</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">what i want from us</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">is empty our minds</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">we fake a fuss</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">and fracture the times</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">we go blind</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">when we've needed to see</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">and this leans on me</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">like a rootless...</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">so fuck you</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">and all we've been through</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">i said leave it</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">it's nothing to you</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">and if you hate me</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">then hate me so good that you can let me out</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">let me out of this hell when you're around</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">what i want from this</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">is learn to let go</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">no not of you</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">of all that's been told</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">killers reinvent and believe</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">and this leans on me</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">like a rootless...</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">so fuck you</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">and all we've been through</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">i said leave it</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">it's nothing to you</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">and if you hate me</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">then hate me so good that you can let me out</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">let me out of this hell when you're around</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">let me out...</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">and fuck you, fuck you, i love you</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">and all we've been through</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">i said leave it</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">it's nothing to you</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">and if you hate me</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">then hate me so good that you can let me out</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">let me out...</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">it's hell when you're around</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span>MySpace Comments:</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></span><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_307728">Sis, I know this is a tough decision. I have been there--twice, and it is not easy to walk away from a marriage you have put so much into. Also not easy to walk away, even when you are miserable, because it's so hard to start over, on your own.<br />But so worth it! I have been single for 10 glorious years, and except for love-life complications the past few months, I have never been happier. And even with those complications, I am so glad to be FREE!<br />Let me know if you need ANYthing, sis. I am more than willing to help in any way that I can. Love ya!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Sunday, June 10, 2007 - 2:36 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=274397807#" id="addReplyLnk_307728" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=274397807&commentID=307728" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-47431731740456109852007-06-09T22:30:00.006-04:002010-10-27T16:18:20.779-04:00A Planned NightJune 9, 2007<br /><br />Erotica Confessions<br /><br />This story can be found here:<br /><br /><br /><a href="http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/2007/06/planned-night.html"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: xx-large;">A Planned Night (for Adults Only!)</span></b></span></a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-30568905875628895202007-06-07T14:17:00.007-04:002010-10-27T16:20:58.477-04:00Just Me - Part 2June 7, 2007<br /><br /><br /><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Irish/Flags%20and%20Colors/l_1dab5e330bb9d49d71e199d3ed05beba.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Ok, so evidently my blog raised more questions then it gave answers. Well, good. I am complicated, I admit that. And I like to keep you guessing. So, just when you think you know me and have me figured out, you will soon find out that this is not the case.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">There is something that I must address. I usually stay clear of this conversation because there are too many out there that take it to the extreme. But the fucktards in this world won't leave me alone. So let me just answer it once and for all.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">We all know I am Irish. (duh!) I don't think it matters how much or how little. But, I will tell you anyway just because I am tired of getting asked this question and constantly feeling like I have to prove to people how Irish I really am. I am proud of my heritage and I am proud of where my roots come from. I know what my family had to endure to be able to come to America and give me the life I have now. I know their struggles. It was not easy for the Irish in America. But, I am not going to get in to that here. Plenty of Irish History books for you to read if you want to know about it. This isn't one of those situations where someone feels that just because I was not born in Ireland I am not Irish. There are those people out there. And that's fine. However, it still stands that my heritage is Irish.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">So, growing up I was in a dual household. My mother's entire linage being Irish and my fathers being German and Italian. Good mix huh? The kids I grew up with and hung around were all German descendents. So, it was only natural that I follow that path in life. It made things easier. And we could all relate. One of my best mates, I will never forget her grandmother. She was transplanted here directly from Germany. I loved going over her house all the time to listen to stories and look at pictures. This woman was an amazing treasure. And I learned a great deal from her. Not to mention the baking she did! YUM!! At any rate, I never really felt complete. And I certainly did not carry the sort of pride that I carry with me today.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">A few years ago I found out I was adopted by my father. My world as I knew it had crashed. Who was I really? Where did I come from? Well, I got my answer. I found my real father and we began to speak. Another Irish family all the way back in the linage. His family actually came over before my mother's family, but, in time, they all ended up in the same towns together. At any rate, for events I care not to go in to, that relationship dissolved. But at least I am left with some sort of idea of who I am and what I am.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">And that my friend, is indeed, Irish blood thru and through.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">The next part is, NO, I will not talk Irish politics with you. So please don't blow by my page with your meaningless "Up the RA" Don't ask me my views on a United Ireland and don't ask me my feeling towards the<span> </span>Brits. You will not get an answer out of me. Not the answer that you want anyway. I will give you one that's so round about that you still will be left wondering. Just don't go there. I am all about freedom of speech and matter of opinion. It's all good well and fine. So, you wonder then do I even know what's going on over there? Honest, yes I do. Thankfully I have family and friends there that are pretty adamant about making sure information I know is true and correct. Things I can not find out for myself. I most likely know more then you. But this isn't a contest to see who knows more then who about what. What it is just plain stupidity in the first place. It's not my job to teach this lesson to you. It's not my job to explain what's going on to you. If you are interested, then it's your job to make sure you know what's going on. Facts. Know them, learn them. The facts are what is going to make this world a better place for you and me.<span> </span>I don't care if you are in Ireland or in America. I don't care if you are 1% or 100% Irish. It makes no difference to me because I can spot a wanna be fake ass wishing they were real IRA rolling ghetto thug a mile away. Its one thing to stand for what you believe in, it's another to make a total ass of yourself in the process. Sometimes, you just take things too far. Please, just don't bring that shit here. I want no part of it.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">If you pay attention to my friends list, you might just learn something.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Having said all that, I am sure you are now thinking to yourself that I must really not give a damn about the motherland. That I have no cares as to what's going on over there. And that's totally bullshit. Those that are close to me and know me; they know where I stand and what I believe. I don't need to clarify it for the likes of you.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">I will give you one fact. I proudly stand for Ireland and its people.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Ok, so this little rant went a little longer then I had planned.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">So I am going to end it now, and finish up the next part another time.</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-24258954701536919922007-06-07T11:41:00.012-04:002010-10-27T16:36:19.560-04:00Just MeJune 5, 2007<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/May%202007%20Grand%20Haven/922431042_bab4b667ef.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/May%202007%20Grand%20Haven/922431042_bab4b667ef.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><br /><br /><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It's just me. And my cousins girls. We went to the beach while I was in Michigan. Had a good time that day. Played in the sand, walked the beach, walked the dock and went to the lighthouse. I sit here looking at Chloe, the oldest and think, lordy she looks kinda like I did when I was her age. Well, her dad too. We look a lot alike. A blessing or a curse, whichever. At any rate, was sitting here thinking about myself. Something I don't think about too often as I am too busy trying to put forth my time into others. Things come to mind, about how I am. How I behave. The things that I do in life. I try to put into perspective how my life has ended up the way it did. You know, how on every ones profile there is the "About Me" section? And no one ever really knows what to put in there? Yeah well, me either. And today, I thought about it. Thought about it long and hard. And I thought, well that's a perfect topic for today's blog. Lets see how much of a mess I can make myself out to be.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">So, here goes.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I am simple. In that I really enjoy the simple things in life. I don't need lots of money , fancy cars or things in general. I am not materialistic. I only need what it takes to live life from day to day and survive. I am complicated in that I have many layers to me. Each one as delicate and fragile as the one before it.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I have a hard shell on the outside. I do this protect myself. You don't go through the things I have went through in life and not end up this way. But, its for my own benefit really. I am selective about those I let in my world. And just because you are in my world, doesn't mean I have allowed you over my wall. Very few have made it over. And every time someone does and gets pushed out, I put that wall up higher and higher. There is always going to be a test with me. I will test you to make sure you are someone that should remain in my world. I don't have time to deal with those that are not accepting and just want to try and change me. I don't need to be changed. I am fine with who I am and the way I am. I am soft on the inside. Those close to me, know this. I am loyal to those that are loyal to me. Love those that love me back. Maybe I care too easily. I have a big heart and am not afraid to admit that. I speak freely of my feelings. And if this bothers you, then perhaps you don't belong in my world. I can be your best friend or your worst nightmare.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I am easy going and pretty good natured. I have my ups and downs like everyone else. I tend to not stay down long. I always try to find the good in life, grab it and hold on to it. I have a choice everyday. When I wake up, I can be in a good mood or a bad mood. I choose a good mood. Being in a bad mood does me no good. I can be difficult and hard to get along with. I am mouthy and just really can be a real bitch. I have a voice. I am not afraid to use it. You will hear me speak. I have opinions and I am not afraid to share them with you.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I'm a quoter. I love quotes to make me think. I am a thinker. I love it when people pick my brain. I would appreciate you more if you held an intelligent conversation with me. I am a thought provoker. I will spark something in you to make you think too. I'm not all about sex. Well, ok scratch that. My sexuality is a big part of my life. However, I am not always about talking sex. So, if that's all you are looking for, you don't need to be here. I am picky , I have my wants, my needs and that's that. If you fill that, then maybe, just maybe you are lucky enough to have me. But I bore easily and it takes much to hold my attention.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">What I AM NOT - I am not in this world to whore friends. I would rather have a few that are close to me then hundreds I hardly speak too. I am not a collector. Nor am I into "cams" and showing my "stuff" to people I do not know. If that's what you are here for, fine. But, if that's what you are looking for here, you may as well save grace and walk away now. Its not what I am about. And its not me. For me, that's something more personal and special that I will only share to that someone in my life who deserves it. And its really only one person. For I tend to keep that one person closer then anyone else. Keep everyone else at bay. Random. No feelings, no strings. I may like random hook ups , but that's why they are random, they are meaningless sexual desires being taken care of with no strings attached. I don't know really how to explain it. But there it is, so don't ask me to cam with you. I wont.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">However, I do appreciate my friends. And its not a big deal when we turn our cams on to see each other and say hello. As a matter of fact, its pretty entertaining when you can see each others facial expressions. To see when some smiles and laughs. Its amazing. And certainly bridges the gap when you are talking to someone miles away. You can certainly feel that much closer.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Ok so back to me. Yeah I have issues with straying, in more ways then one.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Live. I live my life from day to day as best as I can with what I am given and I expect you to do the same too. I have a hard time with people who whine about their situation and don't want to do anything about it. Now, before you say anything let me clarify something. Sure, I bitch about things in my life. But, this is my blog and I can say whatever I want. And many times I say things just to get them out and off my chest and I move on. This is my outlet. Having said all that, as it stands, I have a big reason I have not made a change I need to make in life. But, I am on my way. And once things fall into place, that change will happen.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Laugh. You have to laugh in this world. If you do not, you will get chewed up and spit out. I like to cut up , laugh and have a good time. Simple really. I try not to take many things too seriously. Life is too short for that. Their are many things I do take seriously. I expect you to keep up to me and know the difference between the two.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Give. You know they saying, treat others as you would want them to treat you? Well, I pretty well live by that. If I respect you and treat you well then I expect the same in return. If you are cold, heartless and unwilling to just be nice, then I don't want you around.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Drama. I despise it and I will run from it. So don't bring it here.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I am who I am and I will never ever apologize for being me. Ever. End of story. If you don't like me for me then you can go away, I don't want you in my life anyway.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I am strong. I've been through a lot in life and had to grow up very quickly. Which in turn makes me hard. I have strong wills, desires, hopes and dreams. And I take them very much to heart. I believe their is a better life on the other side of the pond. I have my weaknesses, just like everyone else. However, they are mine and mine alone. If you are lucky enough to be that close to me, you will have discovered what some of them are. I'm a big kid at heart. I think perhaps I am making up for lost childhood times. Who knows. I just like to have fun and it is what it is.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And now, I am just bored. So...going to end this now !!</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><b>MySpace Comments:</b></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_299264">Nice pic! The girls are cute! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Tuesday, June 05, 2007 - 6:12 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=272690568#" id="addReplyLnk_299264" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=272690568&commentID=299264" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_299264"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=2719172" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">DanE</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=2719172" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/60/s_43e69c59d5dcb314df3f3f43289e0a93.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_299938">Thanks for sharing. Lake Michigan rocks! :)<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=2719172" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">DanE</a> on Tuesday, June 05, 2007 - 9:52 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=272690568#" id="addReplyLnk_299938" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=272690568&commentID=299938" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=2719172" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 96px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=87565705" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♥KittenShark♥</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=87565705" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/105/s_ecbcd41b0d214521ac925babda385e4e.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_300199">OMG I swear you were writing my life story....singing my song....crazy insane I don't understand....all except the part about quotes, my memory is shot I can't even quote my age most of the time.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=87565705" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♥KittenShark♥</a>on Tuesday, June 05, 2007 - 11:04 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=272690568#" id="addReplyLnk_300199" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=272690568&commentID=300199" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=87565705" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-927043453426729802007-06-07T02:22:00.002-04:002010-12-23T14:04:47.636-05:00Poetry In Motion: The Great Unknown<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;">Wednesday, June 27, 2007</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></span><br /><div align="center"></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Feet stuck</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Can not move</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Visions are so clear</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Just can't get there</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">*</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Here I stand.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">For all to see</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">All I want,</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Is to just be me.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">*<o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Falling to pieces</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Bit by bit</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Won't you come</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And save me from it?</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">*<o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Take a big step</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Out of my comfort zone</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am heading in to the world</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Of the great unknown.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">*<o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Now I'm walking</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Down that path</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">It's a long journey ahead</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Moving forward</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Don't go back</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">In to the great unknown.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">*<o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Some days I see the end so clearly</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Others so bleak and dreary</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I just have to know</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Will you be at the end of that rainbow</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">After I've walked that path</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Into the great unknown.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">*<o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><st1:date day="25" month="6" year="2007">6/25/2007</st1:date> © C.H.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Comments:</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_337648">Awesome! Thank you for sharing your gift with us!</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Wednesday, June 27, 2007 - 6:51 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=281068891#" id="addReplyLnk_337648" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=281068891&commentID=337648" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_337648"></label><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_337986">anytime momma!</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Wednesday, June 27, 2007 - 12:26 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=281068891#" id="addReplyLnk_337986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=281068891&commentID=337986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_337986"></label><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/90/s_fb5c9a52bb6eabebec47005d6fa13620.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_337767">Take me hand, darling. We will both venture into our own great unknown. Tis allways less scary when you go as a team.<br />Master and slave, Daddy and little one.<br />I love you.</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">~T~</a> on Wednesday, June 27, 2007 - 10:00 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=281068891#" id="addReplyLnk_337767" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=281068891&commentID=337767" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=191944130" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_337767"></label><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_339166">~wraps my hand inside yours...~<br /><br />~takes a deep breath~<br /><br />~puts one foot in front of the other and takes a step forward~<br /><br />I Love You.</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Thursday, June 28, 2007 - 7:15 AM</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-1651591067189533282007-06-04T11:24:00.001-04:002010-10-27T16:38:31.825-04:00Moving OnJune 4, 2007<br /><br /><br /><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">You know what they say, when one door closes, another opens? Well I am no exception to that. Or one would say I have closed this chapter on my life and already well on my way to writing a new one.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I am OK, and I want to thank each and every one of you that reached out to me the last few days.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I know my blog was an outpour, but I had to do it. I had to get some things off my chest and it makes me feel better when I do.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I have already moved on, I don't stay down for long.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">So... ~smiles~ I hope each of you are well.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><b>MySpace Comments:</b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=47558354" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">J.R.</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=47558354" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/101/s_922fafaf943b44b0982e0e358d8e7799.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_296650">Allways say what you want to. Do not worry about what people say. Remember your friends will allways be there God bless you<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=47558354" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">J.R.</a> on Monday, June 04, 2007 - 2:42 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=272224991#" id="addReplyLnk_296650" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=272224991&commentID=296650" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=47558354" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_296650"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42336335" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Sgtdebbie</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42336335" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/39/s_5d7a69923d6d43edb4bf2131f2f15282.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Debbie Noneya</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_297678">Love ya girl! I hope each day gets easier for you!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42336335" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Sgtdebbie</a>on Monday, June 04, 2007 - 10:42 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=272224991#" id="addReplyLnk_297678" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=272224991&commentID=297678" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42336335" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-63185578260529158682007-06-03T22:39:00.015-04:002010-10-27T16:44:58.608-04:00What's Up With Chrys? - The Good-Bye EditionSunday June 3, 2007<br /><br /><br /><div class="blogContent" id="pBlogBody_272058098" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">What's Up With Chrys?<span> </span>- The Goodbye Edition</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Good byes. God how I hate goodbyes. So the end. So final. As much as I hate them, I still must say them.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">First off, I left my other blogs about my health hanging in mid-air and I apologize for that. Just so much has been going on that I just have not taken much time to address other matters at hand. But, I just want you all to know that I am healthy. All tests came back negative and all is well.<span> </span>Despite the lingering sadness, I feel just fine.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Second, I have no new information on Elonna. Thank you to all of you for your concern about her. I am sure she will be happy to know how much she truly is loved. I miss my sistagurl a great deal and I look forward to the day she can come back to all of us.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Thirdly, there is also no new information on Joey. My brother had some trial times recently, and I am still awaiting the news of this ordeal. Hoping, he too will be back to me safe and sound soon.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Next on my list, Sean. As I know some of you had noticed some changes. And there is reason for that.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">This also ties in to – those of you here and on my blog at 360 have noticed the blogs just don't match up. And, there is reason for that too. I was at a crossroads and did not want to talk about it. I wanted to keep what was going on in life to myself for a while. Did not want to open up too much about the events for fear of the backlash and fear of jinxing what was happening. And..well, those blogs were meant for someone and that someone isn't on myspace, so I saw no point in really writing them at both places.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">This should be where I talk about Terry. But I don't want to. Not now, not yet.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Or perhaps, Kerry. But, that's pretty obvious since she's here on myspace and that's assuming you have been paying attention.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Another reason being Sean. I have to monitor everything here at myspace to make sure he's not angered by my actions. Always feel like I have to protect him.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I can no do it any more. So, I had to let Sean go. I did not want to take away my love and friendship, but at this point, his actions have left me no choice.<span> </span>All I wanted was for him to love me as I am. For the girl that I am. And apparently he can not do that.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So here is a news flash people: I am bisexual. I like girls AND I like boys. I am sexual. I like sex. Dirty, nasty, kinky, unadulterated , no questions, no restraints, random sex. Simple as that. But yet so complicated for some to understand. Funny how Joey and Lonnie can understand that. Even Brian and Steven can get that.<span> </span>Hell, they are just like that. Same mold we are from. Maybe that's why we get along so well. But, how is it that Sean can be best mates with them for so long, take them as they are, but yet, he can not take me? He says he loves me. Fuck love and all that other bullocks!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Who knows, and this point, I don't care. I already have one relationship where I constantly am being questioned about who I am and why I have to be this way. The way I am is not a choice. Its just me. Simple.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, this is me, saying good bye to Irish One. Maybe someday, we will speak as friends, but right now, I am angry and hurt and my wall is up and back in I don't give a fuck mode. He'll always have a special place in my heart. I have no regrets.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I know what broke me. His words broke me. And he knows this. I tried to move past those words, only to stumble on more. More questions. More doubts. Him always thinking I am with him out of obligation. That I feel its my duty after what happened to Lonnie.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">BULLOCKS!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I loved that man because I just did. I gave everything up. Pushed everyone close to me away. For HIM. To be the girl he wanted me to be. I loved him that much. But after his words were unleashed, I questioned him. And just felt, it was time to go. To let him go.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Joey was right. It was wrong of me to let Brian go. Should not have let everyone else go. Wrong of me to try and change and be someone he knew I was not. I should have listened to my brother. Maybe none of us would be in this triangle.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I have reasons. But, I just really don't care to get in to that right now. All I know, is now I am picking up pieces to those I pushed away, and getting back to being me again.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I would rather Sean hate me for the girl I am, then love me for the girl I just can not be for him.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So.. that's good-bye.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I don't know what it is about going to <st1:state><st1:place>Michigan </st1:place></st1:state>that always seems to make this huge impact on my life. For all this with Sean happened while I was in <st1:state><st1:place>Michigan</st1:place></st1:state>.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Not to mention the huge ordeal the hubby and I got into at my grams house. Leaving me to feel hatred and anger towards him. To make me want to leave now more then ever. And I have a feeling that it's going to be much sooner then later. No one, and I repeat NO ONE will raise their hand to me and get away with it. And I leave it at that.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">A question that seems to always arise, so let me clarify this one as well. Yes I am married. An open one if you want to label it. I do love him. Have some love for him and care about him.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">However, I don't believe he is the ideal man for me.<span> </span>So, why do I stay? Well, its so easy, but yet so complicated.<span> </span>And that's all I have to say about the matter.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">There are many things on the surface I will open up and talk about, but so much deep inside my life I prefer to leave the details out of.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I think, its to the point, to say goodbye to him too. However, I will not do this while grams is still on this earth. I will not put her thru that.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div 0in="" 0pt?="" class="MsoNormal">I had to say goodbye to grams. Saying goodbye to her was one of the hardest things I had to do. Her and I both knowing its likely the last time we will see each other. Sadly, she even told me happy birthday and it's not even till July!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">There were some fun times. Being with family and stuff. It wasn't all bad.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So I am making my peace with saying goodbye to grams. Its weighing heavily on my mind and its making this blog a jumbled mess. So much I want to say, but I just can't put it together.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And lastly,<span> </span>I can now mend and heal and properly say goodbye to Lonnie. I could not before. I had to push it all inside to be so strong for Joey, Elonna and of course most of all Sean.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I even thought about saying goodbye to myspace. All the memories here. Good, bad, death, destruction. But, I have made many friends here over the years, and would not be kind of me to take my friendship away from those that have offered me their hand in return.</div></div><div class="blogContentInfo" style="clear: left; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px; padding-bottom: 10px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 5px;"><div class="cmtcell" style="float: left; margin-right: 7px;"></div></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><b>MySpace Comments:</b></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; line-height: normal;"></span></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 153px;"><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=197298938" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://x.myspacecdn.com/images/no_pic.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_295743">IIIIIIIIIIII LLLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEEE YYYYYOOOOUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UR MY BABY GIRL....AND I AM ALWAYS ALWAYS HERE FOR U...MYSPACE OR NOT...WE GOT EACHOTHER, MEN OR NO MEN.....<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=197298938" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"></a>on Sunday, June 03, 2007 - 11:26 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=272058098#" id="addReplyLnk_295743" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=272058098&commentID=295743" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=197298938" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_295743"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 153px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/33/s_8cc4d4280cc84300b0d4fc01a64e5803.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Tabitha Stone</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_296020">Well, find you another edition.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a> on Monday, June 04, 2007 - 2:32 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=272058098#" id="addReplyLnk_296020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=272058098&commentID=296020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_296020"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 153px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=64557294" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Des</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=64557294" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/125/s_ce6e35d9fa2c4a2b9311f49d7448d654.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Des Hubbard</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_296198">Hi Chrys,<br />Sorry to read of ur tumultuous life and matters of the heart. Hopefully you will find solitude soon.<br />I know that anytime we have spoken I have tried to be pragmatic and help you to rationalise some things and sometimes that's the last thing people in turmoil want to hear, but I can be a good listener too without being judgemental.<br />I will look for you online to be a friend.<br />Peace<br />D<br />:-)<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=64557294" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Des</a> on Monday, June 04, 2007 - 7:44 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=272058098#" id="addReplyLnk_296198" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=272058098&commentID=296198" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=64557294" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_296198"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 153px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/143/s_294e8995c07b45a792dbde894b7d3ad3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_296294">Much love and healing to you, my friend.<br />xoxo<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a>on Monday, June 04, 2007 - 9:46 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=272058098#" id="addReplyLnk_296294" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=272058098&commentID=296294" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; 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font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 153px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=87565705" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♥KittenShark♥</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=87565705" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/105/s_ecbcd41b0d214521ac925babda385e4e.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; 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border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_296389">I think you might need this back....good luck in everything you do and every choice you make...<a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i72.photobucket.com/albums/i198/KittenShark/4leafclover.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=87565705" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♥KittenShark♥</a> on Monday, June 04, 2007 - 11:07 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=272058098#" id="addReplyLnk_296389" style="color: #003399; 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border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 153px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=176888092" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"></a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=176888092" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://x.myspacecdn.com/images/no_pic.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_296435">I applaude you! You truly are a wonderful person! xoxoxo -Joey<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=176888092" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"></a>on Monday, June 04, 2007 - 11:45 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=272058098#" id="addReplyLnk_296435" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=272058098&commentID=296435" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=176888092" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_296435"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 153px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42336335" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Sgtdebbie</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42336335" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/39/s_5d7a69923d6d43edb4bf2131f2f15282.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Debbie Noneya</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_297676">Damn Girl! You poor thing - so much turmoil. I will pray that you get some peace of mind! Love ya girl!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42336335" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Sgtdebbie</a> on Monday, June 04, 2007 - 10:41 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=272058098#" id="addReplyLnk_297676" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=272058098&commentID=297676" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42336335" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-47996210167748721822007-06-03T12:47:00.005-04:002010-12-23T14:05:01.805-05:00Poetry In Motion: Compromise Me<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 8.5pt;">I'm sorry I let you go <br />It's what I had to do <br />it's what’s best for me <br />and for you. <br /><br /><br /><br />I'm sorry you are angry <br />and hurting now <br />But just let it be <br />it's not the end of the world <br />you will see. <br /><br /><br />I do love you my Irish One <br />but I can no longer <br />compromise me.</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-7174819427748858462007-05-31T00:36:00.000-04:002010-10-27T16:46:54.820-04:00Letting You GoMay 31, 2007<br /><table align="center" class="f" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; line-height: 13px;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="f" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><div class="text">I'm grasping on to life<br />As I struggle through tonight.<br />Tendons in my arm; ripping,<br />Wiping my forehead; dripping.<br />I have come to realize<br />That I don't need this life,<br />Its strife fixed with a knife.<br /><br />I'm hanging onto the ledge<br />As I dangle by a thread.<br />Daring myself to let go,<br />Let go of the things I've known.<br />Forget the smiles that hid<br />The pain and hurt.<br />Forget the memories of being<br />Treated like dirt.<br /><br />The secrets that hovered<br />Clearly over my head,<br />Never noticed or uncovered.<br />I've left hope in the dust<br />And lost all your trust.<br />It'll be okay because it was only lust.<br /><br />You never loved me, but<br />You always saw what I could be.<br />The strength that I've had…<br />It always made you sad.<br />Everything that I carried on my shoulders,<br />You wanted to take it all away<br />And be there to comfort and hold her…<br /><br />Hold the poor little girl that I have come to be.<br />Make me look in the mirror and see what you see.<br />I've never been able to escape it,<br />Let me explain what I see.<br />I see a failure through and through.<br />Nothing worth loving,<br />Not even hugging.<br /><br />You shouldn't comfort this broken soul.<br />You should walk away,<br />Don't try to fill the gaping hole.<br />I've come to hate every part of me,<br />It may be hard for you to believe.<br />The strong feelings of disgust<br />And no sorrow for what I've lost.<br />I know it's better if I let you go,<br />Let you live your life the way you know.<br /><br />I hope you find happiness,<br />And the girl of your dreams…<br />As everything that's held me together<br />Starts tearing at the seams.<br />I know you won't ever understand<br />The way I feel when you grab my hand.<br />I have to sadly say goodbye,<br />I have to let you fly.<br /><br />I can no longer grasp onto life,<br />This will make everything right.<br />I let my fingers slip from the ledge,<br />You were that single thread<br />And I'm setting you free.<br />You'll cry a million tears,<br />You may not see but I am right here<br />Comforting your fears.<br />~Unknown</div></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I would rather be hated for who I really am, then loved for the person I can not be. I'm letting you go. The kind thing. The right thing for both of us.</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-15693876910079611342007-05-29T21:51:00.002-04:002010-11-16T21:52:38.773-05:00Sean: The End<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"></span><br /><h4 class="subject" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 1.2em; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-rendering: optimizelegibility; vertical-align: baseline;"><a href="http://www.myspace.com/43233455/blog/269917995" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-family: inherit; font-size: 13px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">the end</a></h4><div class="blogContent" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><center><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c130/joey_v/e4e1800b50.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; max-width: 100%; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" /></a><br />i am done with it all...i just want 2 go home...want me life back...and want 2 get roaring drunk. tis all i want.</center></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-59509006350185005862007-05-29T01:11:00.001-04:002010-10-27T16:49:16.403-04:00Inside My HeadMay 29, 2007<br /><br /><br /><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/Blood/Beautiful.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/Blood/Obsession.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">You want to pick me apart and get inside?</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">I suppose I could run -</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">But I feel I can't hide.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">I've opened myself up</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">here for you to see</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">It's rather simple really</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">for it's just me.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">Many have wondered</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">even few know</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">and those that find out</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">usually go.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">I am wondering now</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">just how</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">its going to go this time</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">when you see inside</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">my sick and twisted mind.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">(C) ~c~</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">5/2007</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><b>MySpace Comments:</b></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_284786">Awesome! I like it!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Tuesday, May 29, 2007 - 4:49 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=269782013#" id="addReplyLnk_284786" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=269782013&commentID=284786" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-71657022385296751492007-05-27T22:47:00.003-04:002010-10-27T16:51:57.204-04:00Made in MichiganMay 27, 2007<br /><br /><br /><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">So many emotions running through my soul right now. I do not even know where to start.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I made it here, to Michigan, safe and sound. I am tired as hell and in desperate need for some real sleep. As yesterday I drove for 12 hrs straight, got stuck in some nasty sleazy ass hotel room, then drove for 5 more hours today to reach my destination.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Words can not describe how I felt walking in to this house. To see my grandmother muster up every ounce of strength she had to be excited and give me a hug and kiss. My poor grandmother, always my rock and life line. To see her so weak and frail. It saddens this Irish girl to tears. I look over and see my mom looking at me, that look that says "Keep it together Chrys" of course, then mom comes over to hug me. And, she fed me! Was nice to have a mom made home cooked meal. Not to mention she made my favorite cookies. I can tell you now I will go home 10 pounds heavier. LOL</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Being in this house is hard. Still trying to deal with gramps not being here. It just feels weird in here. He is in the cemetery right down the road, so I will go visit him tomorrow.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">So, until the next update... be safe and have a good Monday Memorial Day!</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><b>MySpace Comments:</b></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=107908846" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/63/s_4fb0e5575f2a44c0b82fc548bb292ebb.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></span><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_282268">I know things are hard keep your head up! Just think in all the good things and have fun Luv Ya<br /><br /><br /><br />xoxoxox<br />Crystal<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=107908846" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Mexican Babe</a> on Sunday, May 27, 2007 - 8:56 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=269360279#" id="addReplyLnk_282268" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=269360279&commentID=282268" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=107908846" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-23339408903570966642007-05-26T15:10:00.012-04:002010-10-27T15:13:05.599-04:00Feelings and My Road Trip<div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">As I sit here, trying to force myself into my car and get on the road, I am thinking back to the last time I went to Michigan. When I came back, there was a disaster waiting to happen. As when I got back, Lonnie was waiting for me. Wasn't good. As the sitchy is what sparked our troubles and heading him down the path in which he took. Which in turn, turned me. And then, we all know the ending to this story. (R.I.P. my angel)</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">At any rate, it makes me think back to everything and everyone involved in my lil pirate gang. Lonnie, Joey, Sean, Ray & Elonna. And I see, where we all are in life right now. ~sighs~ It breaks my heart it so many little pieces. And, I just don't even know if I can mend it. Nor, if I want to. That pain is a constant reminder of my part in the whole ordeal with Lonnie. It reminds me how much I still miss him. And, it reminds me of my Irish One and all we have been through.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Here latley, I have just been going thru the motions of life. Feeling rather stuck and just floating along. There is something thats brought some sunshine into my cloudy days, but it is something I wish to not talk about publicly here.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I feel myself slipping away, and not sure why. I reach out, but there is nothing there to grab on to. So I slip more with each passing day. I don't know whats happening or what needs to be done to stop it. But, its there. I am thinking I will adress it more when I get back from my trip. I dont need it weighing on my mind right now. Even tho, I know, this long drive ahead, my mind is sure to roam right to it.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">At any rate, I am off to Michigan. The lovley 1500 mile, 16 hr road trip awaits me. Soon enough I will be seeing grams. I know that is going to be hard. Mom says she is not doing well at all. And it has already broken my heart. I feel, that this quite possibly might be the last time I get to see her. But, right now, I refuse to think about it and enjoy what I can with her this week. I do plan to discuss my study abroad adventures with my Mom and see what sort of advice she can offer up. Maybe just having someone else to talk to will help push me along. The hubby isnt too thrilled about the idea. But, hes not thrilled with my going to Ireland to begin with. ~sighs~</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Ok, I have rambled on too much , I really need to get going!</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I will try to keep you updated on my adventure as I did the last time I went.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I wish you all a good week. And see you soon.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">MySpace Original Comments:</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div id="CommentDiv_279528"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;">Have a safe trip, Chrys! We'll be thinking of you! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> </span></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a>on Saturday, May 26, 2007 - 8:15 AM</span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><br /><br /><div id="CommentDiv_280219">Be careful baby...see you when you get back.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=83231174" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Brian Kinney</a>on Saturday, May 26, 2007 - 5:12 PM</div><br /><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-90509832113937287492007-05-25T21:52:00.004-04:002010-11-16T21:54:46.013-05:00Sean: Feelings<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i167.photobucket.com/albums/u155/photoline_album/sad.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; max-width: 100%; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" /></a></span><br /><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">i still have not survived this time...tis wondering i am, if ever i twill. the dis pontment in me self is all most more than i can bear. 4 so very many choices and miss takes i have made.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">lonnie is gone...ray will barely talk 2 me...i have pushed away every one...all though me precious beauty, chrys still stuck with me...i find me self questioning if tis out of her own guilt? how can any one love me...i am hideous!</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">tis me lot in life 2 be angry person...always un certain, always full of feelings i can not handle? the feelings i try 2 focus on are the ones that get me up in the morning....make it so i can sleep at night. i must focus on those....or twill be insane soon enough...if not all ready there.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">My Reply:</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666;"><a class="msProfileTextLink" href="http://www.myspace.com/theoriginalirishchik" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" title="♣IrishChik♣">♣IrishChik♣</a> My darling Irish One... so many thoughts swirling around in my head. I do not even know where to start. But, the one thing I can tell you, I DO love you Sean. From the bottom of my heart. You ARE going to pull thru this. YOU WILL!!! Once you get home to the family, things will slowly start to fall in to place. Its going to be just fine.<br /><br />Sean, I stayed with you because I wanted to. Because I have always loved you. Even before I was with Lonnie. Even now after Lonnie. You Sean...you I love</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-81370712498115617462007-05-22T15:13:00.011-04:002010-10-27T15:16:38.998-04:00Accepted, Now What?May 22, 2007<br /><br /><br /><dd class="post-body " style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="image-wrapper"> </div><div class="content-wrapper">Here I sit. Wondering what shall I write today. What words shall be released from my fingers and spread themselves thru these pages today.<br /><br />I'm late for work this morning. I sort of have to laugh to myself about that one. In the middle of my drunken stupor last night, I distinctly remember saying to Shannon, don't worry girl, I am not gonna be late, will see you bright and early in the AM. And, I got up my usual time, and beat my ass on the treadmill for a while. Went and sat on the couch to catch up on the news. Must have bored me cause the next thing I knew, I was looking at the clock going WTF!!! I think I was more excited that I slept!! I never sleep. Its almost ridic.<br /><br />~insert happy dance here~<br /><br />Went and checked email. Perhaps, not a good idea. Out of respect for the other person involved, I wont really get into much of that. But, I seriously got caught up in this email. And, well, time slipped away. So, I called the boss and got myself ready.<br /><br />I stopped at the coffee shop on my way in. I felt I needed to treat myself to my usual creamy delicious treat. A Mocha Big Train. Its this frozen mocha protein extra caffeine kick me in the ass morning delight. As I am waiting, money in hand... thinking back to last nights events.<br /><br />In the middle of the events with the other party, the phone rings. And not my cell. So I don't really pay attention to it. Only important people call me on my cell. Only boring people I don't want to talk to call me on the land line. So, the machine got it. I heard my name being mentioned. So I ran down the hallway to take a listen.<br /><br />Maybe it was something I did not want to really hear. But, I really didn't have a choice at this point.<br /><br />It was a guy calling from the college abroad. Oh yeah, forgot about that didn't you! I mean, its been what, a YEAR since I applied. I wanted to go LAST fall. And a YEAR since I left school. As it is I am going to be paying on student loans for the rest of my life. It wasn't enough to go thru college the first time, I had to do it again! LOL. Anyway, here is the deal, "after careful consideration" as his words, I have been accepted into the study abroad program in Dublin.<br /><br />Now, before you all start to cheer me on, its not so simple. Not by a long shot. If it were, my bags would of been packed and I would be on the next flight out instead of being here at work. I could make a list of the reasons, but I care not to get in to that right now. I guess I should be proud that I got selected. And I am. </div></dd><dd class="post-body " style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper">I turn to leave and I think ; their are certainly other things to be spending my money on.<br /><br /></div></dd><dd class="post-body " style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper">Next week, I am off across the states to stay with my mom and grandma for a week. See the rest of the family. And I believe, my mother and I have much to talk about.</div></dd><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><b>Original MySpace Comments:</b></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></b></span></span><br /><div id="CommentDiv_271266"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b>Sounds like it was a good night and sure you had some fun. Sorry about you not going to Dublin I know that is your dream. Hope you have a lot of fun at your mothers. God bless you<br /> </b></span></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b>Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=47558354" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">J.R.</a>on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 - 11:47 AM</b></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b><br /><br /></b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-79301188087465923222007-05-21T15:16:00.006-04:002010-10-27T15:19:18.871-04:00Nothing in Life is Easy, Now is It?May 21, 2007<br /><br /><br /><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="snippet highlight"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: large;">It's not gonna be easy. It's going to be really hard; </span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="snippet highlight"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: large;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="snippet highlight"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: large;">we're gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want </span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="snippet highlight"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: large;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="snippet highlight"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: large;">to do that because I want you. I want all of </span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="snippet highlight"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: large;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="snippet highlight"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: large;">you,everyday.</span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><span class="snippet highlight"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: large;">~The Notebook~</span></span><span class="links"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><span class="snippet highlight"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: large;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><span class="snippet highlight"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: large;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="links">**************************************************************</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="links">If things in life were so easy, many of us would not be left in the situations in which we were. My mind is spinning. So full of many words, but , I am not sure I want to let them out today. Things I need to say. Maybe should say. But maybe I have said too much. ~sighs~ I usually don't have much of a problem of putting my words out there. Maybe with those words, I put too much of myself in the line of fire. Then I build up this wall around me. Not so willing to let people come to the other side. In that rare occasion that someone does make it to the other side, my defense goes up. And the situation I find myself in doesn't appear to be any different.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="links">So, I am driving to work this morning. Its a pretty amazing thing. I hate the drive. Really. But, its complete highway from where I live on in to work. Most traffic heads in the opposite direction. I speed. As I am sure most people do. But I tend to take it to the limit. Working at city hall has its advantages. You get to know the police between my town I live and my town I work. Campus police, home police, highway patrol, sheriff, county police, work police and tribal police. That's a whole hell of a lot of police that cross my path on a daily basis. Am I intimidated? Lord no. They are regular people just like me and you. My problem is, since I joke with a lot of him here at work, its hard to take them seriously. I am sure someday, I am going to run into the wrong cop, but until that time, I am going to take advantage of me and the open road. Besides, it helps me clear my thoughts. So, this morning, I got the CD going as loud as I can. My mind doesn't want to catch up. It stuck on rewind. I keep having this same conversation on constant replay. And now that I am at work, its no different. My thoughts keep drifting away from the task at hand. Drifting right back to this sitchy. That, and now I feel like being destructive. Whats next to pierce. What tattoo can I have done?? blah....</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="links"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="links">Where did it come from? How did it happen?</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="links"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="links">And the million dollar question of the day, how do I wrong a right?</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="links"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="links">Choices , we all have them. Mistakes, we all make them.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="links"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="links">Let me just hit pause... take a breath, close my eyes, then hit rewind and start over.</span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-60394911007259402622007-05-16T15:19:00.003-04:002010-10-27T15:22:32.112-04:00A Blog For YouMay 16, 2007<br /><br /><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I wanted to write a new blog, all about you.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Something about you. Intrigue me.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">A blog just for you. Why? No reason. Just because I can.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">What could I say? What should go here?</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Tell me something. Anything.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Ready?</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Set-</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">GO!</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"> <img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Words%20on%20Icons%20and%20such/The%20Written%20Word/f9080dc5.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><b>Original MySpace Comments:</b></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_257601">Hey EVERY ONE ... meet Shannon .. my crazy ass co-worker!! hahah .. Yeah, she is smoking hot !! But then again, we are two peas in a pod! But, shes the bestest person ever and I for one am proud to call her my friend.<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Wednesday, May 16, 2007 - 11:22 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564#" id="addReplyLnk_257601" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564&commentID=257601" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><label id="NewDiv_257601"></label></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="30" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_257614">Well, either that or the police next door are gonna lock us up in the loony bin!<br /><br /><br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Wednesday, May 16, 2007 - 11:29 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564#" id="addReplyLnk_257614" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564&commentID=257614" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><label id="NewDiv_257614"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 75px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=166964290" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"></a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=166964290" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://x.myspacecdn.com/images/no_pic.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_257617"><strong>HOW ABOUT .. KERRY IS THE SEXIEST THANG TO EVER COME ACROSS UR PATH AND SHE KNOWS HOW TO MAKE MY SECRET PLACES SHINE WITH WETNESS, SHES A SEXUAL TIGER ABOUT TO POUNCE ON MY LUCIOUS BODY WITH THE INTENSITY OF A HUNDRED LIGHTNING BOLTS..ONLY SHE CAN MAKE MY INSIDES QUIVER ...AND BURN DOWN MY INHIBITIONS..AND ALL SHE WILL LEAVE IN HER WAKE IS MY BODY AND MIND MIXED AND CONFUSED AND ALL I WILL SEE IS HER WICKED WICKED SMILE TELLING ME SHE WILL BE BACK FOR MORE!!......LOL DAMN I MADE MY OWN SELF HOT FOR THAT ONE HAHAHA LOVE YOU</strong><br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=166964290" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"></a>on Wednesday, May 16, 2007 - 11:31 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564#" id="addReplyLnk_257617" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564&commentID=257617" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=166964290" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_257617"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_257629">OMG!<br />Ok ok... my kerry is the sexiest thannnng evvvaahhhh!<br />She makes me tingle in places I didnt even know existed.<br />Ahhh fuck it, I am too flustered now!! hahahahah<br />Imagine that, me.. flustered... queen of Erotic Confessions... hahahahah<br /><br /><br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Wednesday, May 16, 2007 - 11:41 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564#" id="addReplyLnk_257629" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564&commentID=257629" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_257629"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 75px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=166964290" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"></a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=166964290" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://x.myspacecdn.com/images/no_pic.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_257633"><strong>SO TELL TERRY HES GOT SOME DAMN FINE COMPITION FOR UR SEXY ASS ...LOL</strong><br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=166964290" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"></a>on Wednesday, May 16, 2007 - 11:43 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564#" id="addReplyLnk_257633" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564&commentID=257633" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=166964290" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_257633"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_257646">Thats just what you need to get the conversation started!! LOL<br />Watch out tho... hes Master Dom !!!!<br /><br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Wednesday, May 16, 2007 - 11:47 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564#" id="addReplyLnk_257646" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564&commentID=257646" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_257646"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_257643">Oh lord !! ~rolls eyes~ why dont you go on over there and tell him yourself missy!!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Wednesday, May 16, 2007 - 11:47 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564#" id="addReplyLnk_257643" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564&commentID=257643" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_257643"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="30" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_257662">awwww honey bunny..... I loves you!!! ~winks~ Me matey...<br />Ok.. keep checking... I am sure Kerry and I will keep it entertaining LOL<br /><br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Wednesday, May 16, 2007 - 11:53 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564#" id="addReplyLnk_257662" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564&commentID=257662" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=107908846" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Mexican Babe</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=107908846" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/63/s_4fb0e5575f2a44c0b82fc548bb292ebb.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_257723">Hey where I'm I in the mix you need my sexy mexican ass too I'm small you can fit me in somewhere see I was reading somethings well about big girls well you and Kerry are going to have to beef me up a little cus I wanna be part of the club starting today I'm going to eat all the sweet I love starting with you and my blonde babe<br /><br />xoxoxoxo<br />Crystal<br /><br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=107908846" style="color: #003399; 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height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_257723"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="50" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 75px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=166964290" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_257742"><strong>AAWW BABY U DONT NEED TO BEEF UP NONE...WE LOVE U THE WAY U R HONEY....ALTHOUGH U EATING US WE WOULDNT MIND HAHAHA ... LOVE YOU..</strong><br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=166964290" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"></a>on Wednesday, May 16, 2007 - 12:46 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564#" id="addReplyLnk_257742" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564&commentID=257742" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=166964290" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_257742"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="50" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_257739">oye... mami.... You come on in and mix with us... pick your poison, choose your weapon. Me and Kerry are sure to take good care of you!! Or...is it you are going to take good care of us??<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Wednesday, May 16, 2007 - 12:44 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564#" id="addReplyLnk_257739" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564&commentID=257739" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=107908846" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Mexican Babe</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=107908846" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/63/s_4fb0e5575f2a44c0b82fc548bb292ebb.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_257751">hmmmmmmmmm.........weapon all have to think about that one ....and we sould take care of each other then will be all safe,warm, and well feed lol<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=107908846" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Mexican Babe</a> on Wednesday, May 16, 2007 - 12:51 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564#" id="addReplyLnk_257751" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564&commentID=257751" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=107908846" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_257751"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="70" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_257784">Well honey .. lemme know ;) hehehehe<br />It would be a fun house thats for sure !!!<br /><br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Wednesday, May 16, 2007 - 1:10 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564#" id="addReplyLnk_257784" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564&commentID=257784" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_257784"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 75px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=57526304" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"></a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=57526304" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://x.myspacecdn.com/images/no_pic.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_257884">Blah Blah Blah<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=57526304" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"></a>on Wednesday, May 16, 2007 - 2:16 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564#" id="addReplyLnk_257884" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564&commentID=257884" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=57526304" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_257884"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_257922">oh hush, you're just mad cause we didnt invite you!! LOL<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Wednesday, May 16, 2007 - 2:37 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564#" id="addReplyLnk_257922" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564&commentID=257922" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_257922"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="20" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 89px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/140/s_f6aaade33ca547e69e5a2de3fc3e0b1c.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_265093">The heck with me-- I find this whole exchange very amusing! Thanks for the laugh guys!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Saturday, May 19, 2007 - 10:46 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564#" id="addReplyLnk_265093" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564&commentID=265093" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_265093"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="30" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /></td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_265269">heheheheheh.... it was rather fun sis..... add it to the 101 ways to amuse yourself on myspace while at work !!<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a> on Saturday, May 19, 2007 - 12:26 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564#" id="addReplyLnk_265269" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=265230564&commentID=265269" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-39015568797559557942007-05-13T11:03:00.001-04:002010-10-27T15:28:23.781-04:00My Mom<div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">May 13, 2007</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I know I have mentioned my mom a few times in passing. I doubt she will ever see this, but thats OK. For I know in my heart, she knows how I feel as I tell her I love her every time we speak. Without my mom I do not know where I would be in life today. Being put through some of the things I had to endure as a child can be just as traumatic to the mother as well as the child. My mother never gave up when she so easily could. She was there for me. She went above and beyond her duty as a mom, even when I reached past the age of 18. She was still there, taking care of me, watching me grow, and molding me into the woman I am today.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">This pic I am sharing here was taken just this past Easter. Those are my cousins kids. Thats my grandmother on the couch. Sad to see her in such a state. ~sighs~ And that be my mom in the bright yellow. ~smiles~</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I am very glad that here very soon I will be heading across the states to visit my mom, grandma and the rest of my family. I miss them so.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><strong></strong></div><center style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">What "Mother" Means</center><div align="left" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></div><center style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">"Mother" is such a simple word,<br />But to me there's meaning seldom heard.<br />For everything I am today,<br />My mother's love showed me the way.</center><div align="left" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></div><center style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I'll love my mother all my days,<br />For enriching my life in so many ways.<br />She set me straight and then set me free,<br />And that's what the word "mother" means to me.</center><div align="left" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></div><center style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Thanks for being a wonderful mother, Mom!</center><div align="left" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></div><center style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><i>By Karl Fuchs</i></center><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span>Original MySpace Quotes:</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/145/s_b223edabb8bd47d29b391fa183927089.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a></span></span><br /><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Ken Scott</div><br /> <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_259545"><span style="color: #006600;">God bless your mother!!! It's really nice to see the awesome mother to raise a great lady like you Chrys! Very cool family picture too! Take care my beautiful friend!</span><br /><span style="color: #006600;">Ken</span><br /><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a>on Thursday, May 17, 2007 - 5:29 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=264089976#" id="addReplyLnk_259545" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=264089976&commentID=259545" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><span>Read more:<a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=264089976#ixzz13aa6tgxh" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=264089976#ixzz13aa6tgxh</a></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-30678120930446715742007-05-12T22:55:00.008-04:002010-10-27T15:41:51.432-04:00Shattered~ A Million Little PiecesMay 12, 2007<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Gothic%20Dark%20Vampire%20-%20NO%20Blood/Hate.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/Gothic%20Dark%20Vampire%20-%20NO%20Blood/Hate.jpg" /></a></div><br /><br /><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Shattered.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Broken into a million little pieces.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">I just let them lay there. I don't even have the energy to pick them up.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">They can stay there for all I care.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Right now, I just want to crawl back into my dark little hole.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">I don't want anyone to offer me a hand. I don't want to be rescued.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Hurt.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">It all just hurts so badly.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Anger.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">I just wanna rain down like lightening on someone.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">But in the end, does it all really matter?</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">I pick up a handful of pieces. Toss them about. See where they land.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">They do not fall far from their little shattered family.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Maybe it's a sign.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Things do not get better from here.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">They are what they are and nothing will change.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">I despise that.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Million little pieces.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">What they hell do they know?</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Pieces land on the flesh.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Cutting it open.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Its there for the entire world to see.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Want to watch me bleed?</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">I bleed so pretty.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">No.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">I will not take the easy way out.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Not that it matters.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">What matters is that the one person I thought I could talk to about anything, apparently I can not.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">The one person I thought loved me with high regards obviously thinks so much smaller of me.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">I thought this person would never talk to me in such a matter that made me feel beneath them.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Belittled.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Chewed on.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Spit out.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Million little pieces scattered all about.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Wind comes in and with one giant gust,</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Some pieces fly away</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">Never to return again.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">© C.H.<st1:date day="12" month="5" year="2007">5/12/07</st1:date></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><div><br /></div><div><b>MySpace Comments:</b></div><div><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_246491"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">{{{{HUGS}}}} No rescue, just {{{{HUGS}}}}.</span><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Sunday, May 13, 2007 - 4:51 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=263956051#" id="addReplyLnk_246491" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=263956051&commentID=246491" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; 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border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=43233455" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Sean</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=43233455" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/116/s_076a4bc7d8c44d2399f1794f9fba77a2.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_257537">ugh...<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=43233455" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Sean</a> on Wednesday, May 16, 2007 - 10:50 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=263956051#" id="addReplyLnk_257537" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=263956051&commentID=257537" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=43233455" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_257537"></label><div id="NewDiv_0"></div></span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-36883937843436382532007-05-08T21:35:00.007-04:002010-10-27T15:45:35.135-04:00New Tattoo!May 8, 2007<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/My%20Tats/l_f62d453cccd148deab077ea72b25b438.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="314" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/My%20Tats/l_f62d453cccd148deab077ea72b25b438.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">When I feel blue, I get destructive hehehehe....anyway, went to have some touch up work done on my wrist band, and decided to get another tattoo done and add too it. New one is on my hand. Now I have 6!! So, these pics are freshly done , the tat is about an hour hold now, so excuse the patches of blood. I tried to wipe it off before I took pics! I have also posted these pics in my pic section(on myspace). My tats now have their own pic folder. Maybe I should start one of my piercings too!! hehehehe</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><b>MySpace Comments:</b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_237933">Well, this artist is a keeper. He was awesome. We were talking about me being lopsided and how I needed to have some work done on the other side. So we shall see. Something with color, all my tats except for one are green and black. Go figure. :)<br /><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Wednesday, May 09, 2007 - 7:20 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=262539645#" id="addReplyLnk_237933" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=262539645&commentID=237933" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_237933"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/145/s_b223edabb8bd47d29b391fa183927089.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Ken Scott</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_237977"><span style="color: #006600;">Man this tattoo is bad azz! Hey put a clover tattoo on your azz and it should have like Old English letters that says "Kiss my ass I'm Irish!" hehehehe... Or how a bout a fighting Irish dude just like the mascot of Notre Dame! Shit Chrys I hadn't got one yet slow down! LOL JK! I am still thinking about getting a Celtic Cross with Clover bush tattoo... Baby you're just so hot and the tattoos makes you look spicy! xoxoxoxoxo take care hun & I love your new tattoo!</span><br /><span style="color: #006600;">your Irish pal Ken</span><br /><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a> on Wednesday, May 09, 2007 - 8:53 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=262539645#" id="addReplyLnk_237977" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=262539645&commentID=237977" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_237977"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_238000">Oh no! I aint putting nothing on my ass! nuh uh not gonna do it!<br />I have no idea what I will do next. I am sure in time something will come to me. I am sure to slow down. I've spent my money, gotta save up for the next one!<br /><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Wednesday, May 09, 2007 - 9:48 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=262539645#" id="addReplyLnk_238000" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=262539645&commentID=238000" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=152385547" style="color: #003399; 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color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 67px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/143/s_294e8995c07b45a792dbde894b7d3ad3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_237979"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Veeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeery nice!</span><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice </a>on Wednesday, May 09, 2007 - 9:00 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=262539645#" id="addReplyLnk_237979" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=262539645&commentID=237979" style="color: #003399; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_238001">Thanks girl!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Wednesday, May 09, 2007 - 9:49 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=262539645#" id="addReplyLnk_238001" style="color: #003399; 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font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/33/s_8cc4d4280cc84300b0d4fc01a64e5803.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Tabitha Stone</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_238830">That's very cool<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a> on Wednesday, May 09, 2007 - 7:57 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=262539645#" id="addReplyLnk_238830" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=262539645&commentID=238830" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-4558659293105048142007-05-08T10:11:00.002-04:002010-10-27T15:48:49.261-04:00Even the Best Fall Down Sometimes<div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">May 8, 2007</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Smiles%20and%20Happiness/icon11.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I make no apologies. Not any more. I am who I am. End of story.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">It's been a rough road the last couple of weeks, and I am doing my best to keep on a bright face and put best foot forward. However, I am only human and I do make mistakes. I can not give it my all 100% of the time. I am not as strong as you think I am. I am going to fall down sometimes. And it might take me a day or two to pick myself up and dust myself off. It's not always right away. All I ask is that you just be my friend and have some patience.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Anyway…. No news from any docs yet. So nothing new to report there.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I talked to my mom this morning, and told her I would be coming up the week of Memorial Day. She cried. I am going to assume it was tears of<span> </span>joy. <span> </span>I even got to talk to my grandma for a little while as I drove into work. That made my morning. She sounded good all things considered.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I still feel very blah.<span> </span>I am tired and worn down emotionally and mentally. I just want to crawl into bed and hide under the covers. I would say sleep, but since I can't sleep half the time sort of a wasted point.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I come to work and I have to be all bright and cheerful. All that does is piss me off cause they way I feel right now, I just want to rain down like lightening on something or someone. I am angry and it's hard not to let it show.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Last time I felt this way was right after gramps died. I had just gotten back from his funeral. I was so angry and pissy. I ended up quitting my job and dropping out of school. All that did was send me into a dark downward spiral of depression.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am trying very hard not to follow that path again</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"> At any rate-</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Does anyone have a row boat I can borrow? I think I am going to need it. It has rained for the better part of 4 days now. And not just a sprinkle or a drizzle, but a down pour. So if you see me floating by, wave.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><b>MySpace Comments:</b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><b><br /></b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81869020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Kristi</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81869020" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/92/s_fc5d3118db564b399fdeb53c00180dc0.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">KRISTI C</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_236046">be careful the current might carry you this wave...I need something to float to work in and get back home. Vehicles are not equipped w/ the proper floating devices!! How many more days of rain are we gonna get? Its still raining here this morning...Anyway if I see ya floating by , I will be sure and wave only if you do the same<img src="http://x.myspace.com/images/blog/smileys/amused.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81869020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Kristi</a>on Tuesday, May 08, 2007 - 10:53 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=262320031#" id="addReplyLnk_236046" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=262320031&commentID=236046" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=81869020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_236046"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=47558354" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">J.R.</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=47558354" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/101/s_922fafaf943b44b0982e0e358d8e7799.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_236060">I wish you the best. We will pry for you. Good luck and I hope every thing goes your way. God bless you.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=47558354" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">J.R.</a> on Tuesday, May 08, 2007 - 11:06 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=262320031#" id="addReplyLnk_236060" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=262320031&commentID=236060" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=47558354" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; 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font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=43233455" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Sean</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=43233455" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/116/s_076a4bc7d8c44d2399f1794f9fba77a2.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_238102">aye...but me darling beauty always pulls back up....and pulls up her beast at the same time!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=43233455" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Sean</a> on Wednesday, May 09, 2007 - 11:42 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=262320031#" id="addReplyLnk_238102" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=262320031&commentID=238102" style="color: #003399; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="10" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_238106">thats because you are always there holding my hand darling!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Wednesday, May 09, 2007 - 11:45 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=262320031#" id="addReplyLnk_238106" style="color: #003399; 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text-align: center;"><a href="http://i992.photobucket.com/albums/af43/sonanimalcrazy/smilieys/36_1_28.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i992.photobucket.com/albums/af43/sonanimalcrazy/smilieys/36_1_28.gif" /></a></div><br /><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Fuck this! I can not take any more bad news. My world as I know it just keeps dropping. Now, it's just crumbling out from under me. Crumbling all around me. Just leaving me here to defend for myself.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I just want to curl up and …. Screw that. I just want to have my mind float away. Go some place else.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am tired of the test in life.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Damn it, I am just plain tired.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">There is someone, very dear and close to me, who is in a bad situation. And something happened to him. Something that words can not even begin to describe. Imaginable. Unthinkable. Unspeakable. And yet, I feel, I should have seen it coming. I should have extended my hand a little longer. Helped. Been there. Something. Anything. And now, I feel so helpless. Wanting to reach out and help in any way I can. But yet, knowing at the same time, their likely isn't much I can do.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And as if all of last week's doc visits and worries were not enough, my mother calls me to tell me my grandmother is dying. She is going to die. Simple as that. Well, we all know people live and then they die. But, gramps just died last January, must she go too? Now?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Fucking cancer. Taking over all those close to me. Can't give grandma treatment because she is too weak. Can't do surgery because her body won't mend and she will just be a mess of tubes and wires. They don't know how much longer she has. Could be today, tomorrow, next week, or even a year from now. Although I am not holding my breath.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">In the short time since I have found out, I have had to make a choice. My grandmother or Ireland. Because I can not take time off from work for both. At least I don't think I can. I don't know. My grandmother has been waiting for me to go so I can come back and tell her all about it. Just breaks my heart. In so many ways.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I just don't think I know anything anymore.</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><b>MySpace Comments:</b></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/119/s_8a8d25ee09314ac3afa1201a7e01ac41.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Cathy McElhaney</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_232862"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Aww Chrys...{{{{HUGS}}}} You sure have had more than your share these past few years! My grandmother died of cancer 25 years ago, but we found out in early April and she died May 18th...it was really fast and hard to deal with. I still miss her. Sweetie, as much as we would love to "save the world", we just can't do that. Sometimes, the people we care about need to experience things and we just don't know why. It may not make sense and seems horrible, there is a reason for it...we just don't know what that reason is. Extend your hand now, because it's never too late! </span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana;">The company should allow you to take off for both...if you are talking about the inevitable...the funeral. That is something most places make provisions for and it is not counted as vacation time or personal time. Usually they allow 3 days, sometimes 4 for out of state. As for Ireland...GO...maybe these things are happening to show you that life is short and there are no guarantee's! You have to go for what you want before it all slips away!</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana;">{{{{HUGS}}}} Love ya...you know I do!</span><br /><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a> on Monday, May 07, 2007 - 5:15 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=261760946#" id="addReplyLnk_232862" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=261760946&commentID=232862" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_232862"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/137/s_fa51ecd3152c45d5ba5f2315e578e351.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Joey Vagance</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_233044">Ahhh sis I am so sorry to hear this. Not sure what to say sides follow yer heart. Ya knows the right thing to do deep inside ya. <br />I knows the feeling o enough is enough. Ya knows I do. Loves ya sis n hang in. <br /><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a> on Monday, May 07, 2007 - 9:19 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=261760946#" id="addReplyLnk_233044" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=261760946&commentID=233044" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_233044"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81869020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Kristi</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81869020" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/92/s_fc5d3118db564b399fdeb53c00180dc0.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">KRISTI C</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_233109">I can relate to your pain!! Losing a loved one to cancer is soooo tough. We lost my grandpa 9 years ago... 1 month before I got married. He told us in October and they gave him 6 months and he was gone January 26!! Then last year it was Shane's grandpa and his was very sudden, just a couple of months. I am sorry you are having such a terrible time of it, you and your family are in my prayers!! About your Ireland trip, what would your grandma want for you??<img src="http://x.myspace.com/images/blog/smileys/sick.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81869020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Kristi</a> on Monday, May 07, 2007 - 9:41 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=261760946#" id="addReplyLnk_233109" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=261760946&commentID=233109" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=81869020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_233109"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 90px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/145/s_b223edabb8bd47d29b391fa183927089.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Ken Scott</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_233157"><span style="color: #006600;">Oh Chrys! I am so so sorry about your grandmother :( I will have her and you in my prayers... I would agree with Kristi from above about asking your grandmother what she wants you to do... You take care Chrys! </span><br /><span style="color: #006600;">your loving friend Ken</span><br /><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a>on Monday, May 07, 2007 - 10:04 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=261760946#" id="addReplyLnk_233157" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=261760946&commentID=233157" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=121240986" style="color: #003399; 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text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_235684">I hopes your mother feel well soon.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a> on Tuesday, May 08, 2007 - 1:31 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=261760946#" id="addReplyLnk_235684" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_236013">I agree, I hate fucking cancer -- I can't begin to count how many people I loved that it has taken. How ironic though about the grandma/Ireland thing. My grandmother has always wanted to go to Ireland with me, as that is her homeland, and now she is not in the best health either. Getting old sucks! <br />{{{{{{{{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}} sis. <br /><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace </a>on Tuesday, May 08, 2007 - 10:17 AM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=261760946#" id="addReplyLnk_236013" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=261760946&commentID=236013" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-49365228968723890322007-05-04T08:37:00.015-04:002010-10-27T16:01:36.035-04:00And the Beat Goes On - My Heart That Is. The Dreaded Doc Edition Part 2May 4, 2007<br /><br /><br /><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Ok, so after reading the What's Up With Chrys blog, I thought maybe I needed to write a part two, and catch everyone up on what's going on since.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><span></span><b><u>Back</u></b> – in check, still feels OK.</span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><b><u>Intestinal Block</u></b> – well, I am taking meds to try and "un-block" it so I do not have to have another surgery. Some background on this – about 5 years ago my gallbladder ruptured and sent me to the ER. I had to have surgery to remove it, as well as all the stones that had made their way into my body. What was suppose to be an "easy – every day" procedure turned into a nightmare. One stone was lodged in my intestine, causing it to rip. OUCH! Point is, with no gallbladder, my body produces no bile, which is used to break down and digest the foods we eat. Well, in the fall of 2005 I had pains in my side. And couldn't really keep food in me. After some test, we found a blockage in my intestines. Seems my intestines decided to produce their own make-shift bile and it had hardened and lodged itself. That was removed. And I was told at that point, that it could very well happen again. YEAH! I was so thrilled to hear this. ~rolls eyes~ At any rate, it seems that it has happened yet again. But this time, not quite so bad, but enough to make me grouchy and uncomfortable. We are trying a round of medication to see if we can get it to break up and move along on its own so that I do not have to face another surgery of intestinal sucking. LOL!</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Moving along.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><b><u>Heart Issues</u></b> – So, I went to the hospital yesterday to get my fun little heart rate monitor. I was really scared and so nervous, just because I did not really understand what was going to happen. I sat in the waiting room for what seemed like an eternity. My poor husband, I just talked his ear off. This was rather funny because usually when I have to wait around like that, I get really reserved and nervous. Odd. Ok, so when the nurse called me back, my heart just started pounding. Nice, right? Ironic actually. So, I am lying on this table, hanging out, chilling. And he's wiping my chest down with alcohol. Phew! Stinky shit!! Then he takes this little sponge and starts to scrape my skin. A sponge you say? That scrape? But sponges are all soft and squishy. Ummm no. Not this one. This was more like a brillo pad. It was unreal. Or, more like a loofah that hasn't gotten wet yet. Wasn't the highlight of my day to be honest. Ok, so then, he put the huge round sticky things on me. Then wires connected to them. All the wires come together and are put on this box. Ok, now this little box looks more like the late 80's early 90's version of the pagers that came out. And don't laugh, because you know you wanted one! Oh, but the best part, it goes in this little case, with a strap. It's like a little purse. The nurse was all trying to be funny. He was saying I could just throw it across my shoulder and let it hang diagonal across my body. Um..dude, seriously. This thing is NOT fashionable by any means.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">So, here I am thing morning. Writing this when I should finish getting ready for work. I am dressed.<span></span>Thankfully we can wear jeans. So, I got a belt and looped my little purse thru my belt. Ok, so that's in check. Can't really see it. Because I have a sleeveless hoodie on over my shirt, It's baggy enough that it covers the wires and what- nots that seen to not want to hide themselves under my shirt.<span></span>Sadly, there is one that no matter what damn shirt I put on, you can see the sticky thing poking out around my collar. So, not fashionable by any means. However, I have done my best to make it not too noticeable.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">I am sure some of you are wondering what the big deal is. Well, I haven't told anyone at work. Aside from Shannon (daisybug on my friends list) cause she is really one of my best friends. And, Alison is also on my friends list. She is not in my office; she's next door in the library, so she could possibly know if she read my blogs. Which, hey, it's OK! I do just really not want to talk about it unless I absolutely have too. It's almost like having to admit there is something wrong with me…. ~sighs~</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><b><u>The Weight Issue</u></b> – I have been watching and writing down all my food. I have been using sparkpeople.com to log everything. And I did work out the other night, but now, with this heart monitor thing, I have refrained from that. But, I get to take it off today, so I am hoping to get a workout in this eve.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">And as you know, I love to be destructive in times of crisis! LOL… So I have an appt Monday when I get off work to work on my tattoo. The one I got on St. Paddy day is all healed. There are a few places I would like to have touched up, and I would like some shading and stuff done to it as well. BRING ON THE PAIN!! Hahah</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Ok, I am off to work. Enjoy the day!!</span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><b><br /></b></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><b>MySpace Comments:</b></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; line-height: normal;"></span></span></span><br /><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 153px;"><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/137/s_fa51ecd3152c45d5ba5f2315e578e351.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;">Joey Vagance</div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_224987">Thanks fer the update sis. Loves ya ~brotherly hugs~<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a> on Friday, May 04, 2007 - 12:38 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=260842412#" id="addReplyLnk_224987" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=260842412&commentID=224987" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr><tr class="commentSpacer" style="background-color: black; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; height: 2px;"><td style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"></td></tr></tbody></table><label id="NewDiv_224987"></label><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><img alt="" height="1" src="http://x.myspace.com/images/clear.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" width="0" /></td><td class="blogCommentsProfile" style="background-color: #66cc00; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; font-weight: bold; text-align: center; width: 153px;"><a class="profileLinks" href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=61526780" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Atlanta Cellist.....</a><br /><a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=61526780" id="ImageURL" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://c3.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/13/s_e29970b183b24d8992ed5e871c09cdb6.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></a><div class="blogRealName" style="font-weight: normal;"></div><br /> </td><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;" width="100%"><table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><tbody><tr style="border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em;"><td class="blogComments" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-style: none; border-color: initial; border-left-style: none; border-right-style: none; border-top-style: none; border-width: initial; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 1em; text-align: left;"><div id="CommentDiv_226326">I got to wear one of those heart monitors a number of years ago. It was quite interesting! All I learned from it was that I have panic attacks....and they were what was making my heart jump & speed up (rolling eyes).<br /><br />I'll be praying for ya!!! :)<br /><br />big hugs & kisses of course :)<br /><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=61526780" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Atlanta Cellist.....</a> on Friday, May 04, 2007 - 7:36 PM<br />[<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=260842412#" id="addReplyLnk_226326" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Reply to this</a></strong>] [<strong><a href="http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=152385547&blogId=260842412&commentID=226326" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Remove</a></strong>] [<a href="http://friends.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=block.blockuser&userID=61526780" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"><strong>Block User</strong></a>]</div></td></tr></tbody></table></td></tr></tbody></table>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-89255294047012477962007-05-01T12:25:00.002-04:002010-10-27T13:38:29.574-04:00What's Up With Chrys? - The Dreaded Doc Edition<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">So, the time has come again. Another What's Up With Chrys blog if you will. I just need to vent a bit, and let some things out.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">I have so much going on inside my mind right now, that I am not really sure where to begin.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">I had a doctor's appointment today. Not with the back doc, as that hasn't really been giving me trouble. Tis a good thing, considering. The longer it stays better feeling, the longer I have to put off surgery.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /><br />I was at my regular doctor today for 3 hours. We had much to talk about, but<br />in the process something new came in to light.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /><br /></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><o:p></o:p></span><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">For some of you that got an email from me, some of this next part (ok bits and pieces) may seem a little familiar. And that's because I am too frustrated to keep writing the same thing over. Truth is, I just copy pasted some of it. Added to it. Took some away.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">You get the idea.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">~HANGS HEAD~</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">I am sorry.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">I know, twas wrong of me.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /><br />~sighs~</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /><br />Ok, my tummy/intestinal problems obviously will never go away. I have been dealing with them for the better part of about 5-6 years now. I have<br />stopped taking all my meds because they don't help. So, why keep wasting my money if it's not doing any good??<o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">She (my doc) did not seem to have a problem with that. However, she suggests I keep a food journal and write what I eat and how it affects me. Perhaps I also have a food allergy and need to stay away from certain foods altogether. But, we<br />also know, due to my past surgeries and such, certain foods I should be<br />staying away from.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">A big NO NO – Fried Foods! C'mon folks, I live in the south for bayjezus! Ok really, I don't eat much fried foods. Not at home, I bake everything. And when I go out, I tend to shy away cause of all the grease. Greasy foods are a big big no no. I will literally lie on the floor and die. My body just can not digest it. Not anymore. Not after the surgeries I have had. Yeah, the lack of a gallbladder, and having your intestines ripped opened and repaired can do that do a girl.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">OUCH!</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">But, I do seem to have another intestinal blockage. Since I do not have a gallbladder, my intestines seem fit to try and produce its own make shift bile crap. And of course, since its not really a bile producing organ, all it does is block my intestines. Last time, I had to have surgery to remove it. YUCK! We are hoping that maybe this time, we will not have to take that route, and with a little medication, and some time, we can unblock and pass.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">Hmmm sounds like a game of football! LOL...anyway, got to find some humor or I will lose my mind.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br />Basically I should be more vegetarian then I already am. Apparently I<br />need to become vegan. Because it seems any thing animal related causes<br />me much pain and discomfort.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /><br />But, damn it I hate being told what I can and can not eat!</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;">~sighs~</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br />Next.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /><br />My blood pressure was good. This means meds are working. So, no<br />adjustments there. For those of you who don't know, I have high blood pressure. Hasn't always been that way. But, not sure if it's due to any of the drugs I am/have been on. Since I have quit taking some and changed others, guess we will just have to ride this one out.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br />Next.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /><br />Ok, so I have some skin spots. Moles. Brown spots. Maybe age spots. Who knows? At any rate, I don't like them and neither does my doc. So, she called and on Monday the 14<sup>th</sup>I am going to the hospital to have the skin doc check me out. Some of them have changed, I have noticed. And that scares me. Cancer runs in my family. My grandmother is now on her 8<sup>th</sup>round of cancer being back, and it is her 3<sup>rd</sup>type. Her first being skin cancer when she was my age. I was always in the sun, and I spent the better part of my 5 years in college days inside a tanning bed. I kid you not, that shit is addicting. I am afraid; my skin may be paying the price now. I take much better care of my skin now. But, the damage may have already been done. Most people don't believe me when I tell them how bad of a tanner I was. Mostly, cause my face shows no signs of it. My face hasn't aged. I get told all the time that I can't be as old as I am. Oh believe me, I am. I just have good genes.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">Yeah, oh, and I just found out about my grandmothers cancer being back the other day. I worry, that she may not fight anymore. I worry, that she will just want to give up, and then she can be pain free and with gramps. I really do not know what to think about this right now. I love my grandmother so much, and right now, I just can not think about losing her. Just losing gramps last year.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">Then my poor Lonnie in December. I miss my angel. His angel wings must be tired these days. Fluttering between me, Sean, Joey and Elonna. Not to mention his family and daughter.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">And now, Elonna fighting cancer as well. I just can not take any more suffering.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">Ok, moving along before I start rambling.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /><br />Next.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /><br />Apparently my heart beat is showing some abnormalities of its own. Not just showing, but I feel it too. My heart goes so hard and fast that I feel like I am having a heart attack. My heart is going to come right out of my chest. And it hurts.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">No, its not panic attacks. Trust me, I have those too. And they are not the same.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">So, while I was at the docs they gave me an EKG and a breath test. NOOOO<br />that WAS NOT fun at all. And this was not something I was expecting on this visit.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><br />The good news is my breath test results said I had the lungs of a 16yr<br />old. That's good to know. I personally never smoked, but my mother did, and I always worried about how the 2<sup>nd</sup>hand smoke would affect me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">However, between the 2 tests, it has been determined that<br />obviously, something is off because I can feel it, but its not showing<br />on their machines. So, Thursday the 3rd I am being sent off to the hospital to<br />get another round of tests and get fitted for some heart monitor deal I have to wear for a few days. Then, once all docs have results, we will go from their.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">I am so fecking frustrated.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /><br />Mad at myself for letting my self get so unhealthy. I used to not be<br />this way, and I just hate it.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /><br /><br />Next.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /><br />So, I guess, I really need to get working harder on the treadmill and<br />with the weights. And stop eating out so much....and likely, cut back<br />on the Guinness as well.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /><br />BLAH!!!</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /><br />My doc is also telling me I need to check back in with her in a month about my weight. She wants me to keep a food journal, not only to write about how certain foods affect me to see about allergies and what not, but so we can go over the good/bad in efforts to weight loss. She also wants to see how well I can do in regards to losing some weight.</div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><o:p></o:p></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">Weight loss is not the answer, but we all know it will help. As well as the exercise. In more ways then one.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">Ok, I think that about covers it.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">I think I am going to go find something to throw and break now. Let out my frustrations.</span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><b>Original MySpace Comments:</b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span><br /><div id="CommentDiv_220761"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Wow - well not much I can say after all that excep that I'm here for you. It will all work out - just takes time. Hugs and kisses to you!</span><br /> </span></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=72753967" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Patrice</a>on Wednesday, May 02, 2007 - 11:52 AM</span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /><br /></span><br /><div id="CommentDiv_220788"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">You have alot going on right now!! You will make it thru! I had to wear the whole heart moniter thing when I was pregnant with Cody, had to have it for a couple of days and anytime I felt my heart feeling weird had to hit a button that sent the drs a notice so they would be able to see if what I was feeling would show up!! Nothing did,(Thankfully)but it was still very scary!! I can relate to the whole cancer situation also, runs in my family, and I know it is very scary to go thru & deal with! All my best to your grandma!! Hold your chin up it will get better<img src="http://x.myspace.com/images/blog/smileys/artistic.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></span><br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81869020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Kristi</a>on Wednesday, May 02, 2007 - 12:17 PM</span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-83605542026841888022007-04-29T02:00:00.001-04:002010-11-17T16:25:07.323-05:00Poetry In Motion: ~Pierced~<div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Tats%20and%20Piercings%20-%20Not%20fit%20other%20category/pierce_my_flesh_icon01.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Tats%20and%20Piercings%20-%20Not%20fit%20other%20category/ink.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Touch my flesh</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Touch me there</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Grab it</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Pinch it</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Hold it tight</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Grab the needle</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">See it shine</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">watch it glitter, in the light</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">push it thru</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Winch with pleasure</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">feal no pain</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Watch it bleed</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Crimson Red</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Oh, so pretty.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">(C) C.H.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">So, as usual, whenever I feel like life is overwhelming me and I am up against the world, I feel like I must do something destructive. But, the reality is, its not destructive to me. Pain, brings me pleasure. Hence, the need for tats and piercings. But, whats left is a beautiful reminder of the life I have lived, what I have gone thru and what I have accomplished in life. For every piercing and every tat has a story behind it.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">At any rate, I got my nose pierced again.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">~smiles~</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><b>Original MySpace Comments:</b></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></b></div><div id="CommentDiv_214863"><b><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">{{{{HUGS}}}}</span><br /> </b></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><b>Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a>on Sunday, April 29, 2007 - 5:03 AM</b></div><b><br /></b><br /><div id="CommentDiv_215093"><b>How ironic, I have been thinking about getting more piercings myself, not to mention the tattoo I am still contemplating!</b></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><b>Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Sunday, April 29, 2007 - 12:03 PM</b></div><b><br /><br /></b><br /><div id="CommentDiv_218116"><b>Ahhhhhh I loves gettin pierced. As well as doin some piercin myself. ~winks~</b></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><b>Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42154919" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Joey</a>on Tuesday, May 01, 2007 - 10:35 AM</b></div><b><br /><br /><div id="CommentDiv_221435">I had my nose pierced once...but my dad threw a fit and made me take the thing out! Lol.<br /><br />Then when I moved to Germany, I found out so many people had theirs done there that I would have fit right in!!!!!<br /><br />Oh well...maybe when I finally grow up, I'll get it done again<img src="http://x.myspace.com/images/blog/smileys/quixotic.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /><br /><br />kisses!!!<br /><br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=61526780" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Atlanta Cellist.....</a>on Wednesday, May 02, 2007 - 8:08 PM</div><br /><br /></b>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-48302767558403219572007-04-23T14:08:00.005-04:002010-10-27T14:11:43.627-04:00Love is an Act of Your Will<div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Ok, I am certainly not preaching, nor am I the most Catholic of the Irish bunch, however, this one really touched me, and I wanted to share it.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">To each of you I say only one thing....never ever doubt love. Cherish it. Hold on to it. And never let it go.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">*********************************************</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="lgHeader">Love is an act of your will</span><br />by Jon Walker<br /><br /><span style="font-size: x-small;"></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">"A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another." (John 13:34 NIV)<br /><br /><br /><b>Fellowship</b>—<b></b>Love is an act of your will.<br /><br /><br />That may fly in the face of<i>falling</i>in love, or your notions of romance in the moonlight. Now, don't get me wrong – there's plenty of room for romance in God's world, but it pales in comparison to how the Great Lover sacrificed to bring you into oneness with him.<br /><br /><br />That Great Lover, God Almighty, says we must<i>choose</i>to love one another. We're to love other believers regardless of how we feel about them or how unlovable they may appear.<br /><br /><br />No matter how difficult it may seem, we're to actively, consistently, and deeply love the believers God brings into our lives, our congregations – and our Bible studies.<br /><br /><br />Love is a command; our decision to love is an act of obedience. God considers loving one another so important that he told us we<i>must</i>do it. (1 John 4:21) It is a lesson so important that the Apostle John consistently describes<i>love</i>and<i>obedience</i>as<i>synonymous</i>: If you love Jesus, you will obey his commands. (John 14:15, 23-24; 15:12, 14, 17; 1 John 2:3; 5:3; 2 John 1:6)<br /><br /><br /><b>Why is obeying connected with love?</b>Because it reflects unity among believers, a oneness of spirit that is foundational to our union with God, a necessary element of all true and anointed kingdom work: "The message you heard from the very beginning is this: we must love one another." (1 John 3:11 TEV)<br /><br /><br />Christ crushes the myth that love is based on feelings. He pushes the definition of love to a higher level – where behavior and beliefs combine into godly action. Love is no longer a schoolyard romance or a relationship dictated by compatibility. Rather, real love is – and has always been – a mother stumbling to her baby's crib for the fifth time in one night, or a passenger giving up his place on a lifeboat to save someone else from a sinking ship. Love is Christ on a cross, dying for us – even while we were still lost in our sins. (Romans 5:8)<br /><br /><br />Jesus requires us to view other people as highly valued children of God, well worth of our time, attention, and energy. As members of God's family, we must choose<i>to love</i>, not selectively choose<i>who</i>to love.<br /><br /><br />Love requires community. We cannot obey Christ's command in isolation. We must be connected to other believers in order to "love one another." Being in community with other Christians forces us to drop our "relationship fantasies," where everyone we know is easy to get along with and every conflict is resolved in happy compromise.<br /><br /><br />God shaped each one of us differently, and he knows we all bring different perspectives and<i>needs</i>into any community. The hurts, habits, and hang-ups present in any group of believers create potential for conflict, but God's design is to use that conflict to help us grow in Christ.<br /><br /><br /><b>So what?</b><br /><b><br /></b><br /><b></b><br />·<b>Love carries high standards</b>– Jesus says we are to be to one another what he is to us. The love of Christ is selfless, sacrificial, and submitted to the Father's will. His standard of love is personal, reaching out to the undeserving, looking past their faults and into the desperate needs of their hearts. Relying on God's grace, begin moving toward that standard.<br /><br /><br />·<b>You cannot meet the standard</b>– God's standard is so staggering we can reach it only by relying on the spirit of Christ within us. To paraphrase Galatians 2:20: "It is no longer just I who loves, but Christ who loves in me. And this unlovable person that I now love, I love by the faith of the son of God, who loved this unlovable one first and gave himself up for this person I incorrectly see as undeserving of my love."<br /><br /><br />·<b>Love is more than the minimum</b>– Our love is not to be measured by the minimum of what we can do, nor is it to be limited only to those who appear deserving. Our standard for real love is that God "… loved us and sent his Son as a sacrifice to take away our sins … since God loved us that much, we surely ought to love each other." (1 John 4:10-11 NLT) How would your relationships with other believers change if you began to love them with the standard of Christ?<br /><br />© 2007 Jon Walker. All rights reserved.</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><b>Original MySpace Comments:</b></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div id="CommentDiv_202642"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;">Amen and Amen! Beautiful blog here sister Chrystal! Love is something infectious.. Love thy enemy... and the seemngly undeserving. Give small gestures of kindess to all.. Eventually, will leave a warm spot in their cold hearts, and with time, they'll melt like a stick of butter on Arizona pavement in July! LOL But its so true! Love you sissy boos! Praise be to Jesus! May I repost? I will give you credit!<br /> </span></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=161415071" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"></a>on Monday, April 23, 2007 - 9:25 PM</span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><br /><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-18286858440985152852007-04-21T14:14:00.006-04:002010-10-27T14:17:54.915-04:00Afternoon Delight<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/AC/Fetish-%20Role%20Play/cleaningday.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="221" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/AC/Fetish-%20Role%20Play/cleaningday.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><br /><br />To read IrishChiks Erotic Confessions please visit the Erotic Confessions blog at:<br /><br /><a href="http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/2007/04/afternoon-delight.html?zx=3ed1f81dcda870cb">http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/2007/04/afternoon-delight.html?zx=3ed1f81dcda870cb</a>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-10086712067123583392007-04-20T22:53:00.001-04:002010-11-17T16:25:51.229-05:00Poetry In Motion: ~Reaching, Breathing, Screaming~<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Fairy%20Fantasy%20Wishes%20Dreams/dpl_lost_in_the_dark_tag.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;">Caught up in a fantasy world<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;">Know longer knowing<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;">what is real<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;">what is make believe.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;">But these feelings<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;">this love<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;">this heartache<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;">wanting<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;">longing<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;">needing<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;">Sure seems real to me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;">How does one know?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;">I keep<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;">Running<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;">Jumping<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;">Head spinning<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;">Out of control<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;">Peal back the layers<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;">See what's underneath<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;">Hold fast<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;">Hold tight<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;">Loosing everything in sight<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;">It's so out of reach.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;">© C.H. 3/2007</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;">Original MySpace Comments:</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 14pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span></div><div id="CommentDiv_114416">It sometime we're be better off living in fantasy then the reality world.<br /><br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a>on Friday, March 09, 2007 - 3:49 AM</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-739800253400474632007-04-19T14:17:00.010-04:002010-10-27T14:22:53.390-04:00Why Do All Good Things Have to Come to an End?April 19, 2007<br /><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/ez6wtZxLPr0?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/ez6wtZxLPr0?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Why Do All Good Things Have to Come to an Endsomeone please tell me, why is it that all good things in life always seem to have to come to an end? I just don't get it anymore...I don't understand life anymore....</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">*******************************</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Honestly what will become of me</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">don't like reality</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It's way too clear to me</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">But really life is daily</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">We are what we don't see</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Missed everything daydreaming</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">[Chorus]</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Flames to dust</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Lovers to friends</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Why do all good things come to an end</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Flames to dust</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Lovers to friends</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Why do all good things come to an end</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">come to an end come to an</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Why do all good things come to end?</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">come to an end come to an</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Why do all good things come to an end?</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Traveling I only stop at exits</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Wondering if I'll stay</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Young and restless</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Living this way I stress less</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I want to pull away when the dream dies</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">The pain sets in and I don't cry</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I only feel gravity and I wonder why</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Flames to dust</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Lovers to friends</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Why do all good things come to an end</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Flames to dust</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Lovers to friends</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Why do all good things come to an end</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">come to an end come to an</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Why do all good things come to end?</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">come to an end come to an</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Why do all good things come to an end?</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Well the dogs were whistling a new tune</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Barking at the new moon</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Hoping it would come soon so that they could</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Dogs were whistling a new tune</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Barking at the new moon</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Hoping it would come soon so that they could</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Die die die die die</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Flames to dust</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Lovers to friends</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Why do all good things come to an end</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Flames to dust</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Lovers to friends</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Why do all good things come to an end</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">come to an end come to an</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Why do all good things come to end?</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">come to an end come to an</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Why do all good things come to an end?</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Well the dogs were barking at a new moon</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Whistling a new tune</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Hoping it would come soon</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day til the feeling went away</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">the rain forgot how to bring salvation</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">the dogs were barking at the new moon</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Whistling a new tune</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><b>Original MySpace Comments:</b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><b><br /></b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><b><br /></b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><b></b></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">i do not know the answers sexee one...only the questions all 2 well.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span><br /><div id="CommentDiv_195036"><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /> </span></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=43233455" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Sean</a>on Thursday, April 19, 2007 - 10:05 AM</span></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /><br /><div id="CommentDiv_195260"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Ohh if I had the answer to that I wouldn't have to work at WalMart anymore, LOL! Seriously...it's the Circle of Life, my dear Irish one...look for the next good thing to come your way...it's close by, I promise you...something has to end in order for another to begin. It's a learning process...take what you learned from there and see how you can apply it to the next thing...{{{{HUGS}}}} Love ya, girl...you know I do!</span><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a>on Thursday, April 19, 2007 - 12:52 PM</div><br /><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-5192803056774838712007-04-17T14:24:00.002-04:002010-11-15T14:29:23.055-05:00Passports and Emotions: An Update<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;">Passports and Emotions<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><st1:date day="17" month="4" w:st="on" year="2007"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;">4/17/2007</span></st1:date><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;">Well, it certainly has been a while since I have wrote an installment of Passports and Emotions. It seemed like it was about due time. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;">Much has changed since I last wrote of my adventure trip over the big blue pond. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;">It seems when I was always ready to give up and throw in the towel, some thing, or some one would toss me a line and bring me back to shore.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;">Now, I am living in self doubt and beginning to wonder if that is such the case these days.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;">So, if you will remember, I had a trip to <st1:country-region w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Ireland</st1:place></st1:country-region> planned last summer. For me and my brother, Joey's birthday. Things change. Joey was not going to be around. But, I still wanted to go. As I got to know his friends more and more, the trip took another turn. I have always wanted to go to <st1:city w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Erie</st1:place></st1:city>, in search of my roots and finding out who I really am. As, I have not always known who I was. But, that is another blog story. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;">So, off across the big blue pond it was for me. A grand adventure waited. I knew that no matter what, it was going to be fun and it was going to be emotional.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was glad to have Sean in my life, glad he was going to be my own personal tour guide. Showing me around <st1:city w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Dublin</st1:place></st1:city> and <st1:city w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Cork</st1:place></st1:city>, where both of our families are from. But Sean and I, we took another turn in life. He went his way to Sally, and I went right towards Lonnie. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;">Things happened and the plans were then changed (once again) to come on Lonnie's birthday, which was about a month later. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;">Obviously that did not work out. Much went on between me and Lonnie. Again, things happened, and the trip had to be postponed yet again. This time, we aimed for this year- St. Patrick's Day. It had seemed at the time that this was achievable; I was just going to travel alone. He was OK with that after much convincing. We pretty much had everything worked out. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;">I am pretty sure most of you know the rest of the story with Sean and Lonnie. You know Lonnie has passed away. St. Patrick's Day has come and gone, and I am still sitting here. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;">This trip, has once again taken on a whole new turn. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;">Now, I am sure many of you have noticed Sean and I are …. Well honestly I don't know really what we are. We have always loved each other, through everything. And we want to be together, but just do not know if that will happen. At any rate, I suppose you could say, we are in love, and we are together. Together as two married people oceans apart can be. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;">However, we both have a separate life we lead. A life full of others. Honor, commitment, duty and the like. If he and I do not end up together in this life, I am ok with that. All I need is his love. And that is not likely to ever go anyplace. Sean and I will always have what we have. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;">Anyway, I am tired of putting this trip off. I need to go now more then ever. I won't be able to see Joey, for he's not in <st1:country-region w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Ireland</st1:place></st1:country-region> right now. I do not know if I will even be able to see Sean. But I have to try. He was to have his first visit the other day. I don't know if this means the director will allow him visits now or not. As you know, he's doing his time for the passing of Lonnie. A situation which has made things hard to say the very least.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;">What no one seems to understand is that I HAVE to see Sean. I missed out on ever being able to see Lonnie. I regret that only thing about our entire relationship. I regret never taking my trip to <st1:city w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Erie</st1:place></st1:city>. I regret putting it off so many bloody times. And, I HAVE to visit Lonnie's final resting place. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;">I DO NOT care what anyone says. I don't care who tries to protect me. I am going. I have to. I have to make my own peace with the sitchy and say my good-bye. I just wish everyone could understand that. I will find my way there, even if I have to go at it alone. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;">I do not know what I am even doing any more. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;">I am tired of getting my hopes up about this trip.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;">I have reached the point where I am tired of the heartache. I am ready to just give up on it all together. I have reached a turning point these last few days. Some things will never change. Some things will never bend and give. Maybe its time to pack my dreams away and just live out the rest of my life in this bleak and mundane existence. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;">Right now I just feel like giving up is easier then dealing. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;">I am going to put cotton in my ears….no longer hearing <st1:country-region w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Ireland</st1:place></st1:country-region> calling. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;">I want to keep believing. I want to believe in the fairytale. But, I just do not see how anymore. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;">It's Ok. I'll be alright. I always am. One way or another. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-size: 16.0pt;">As for my boys…my brother Joey, my angel Lonnie and my love Sean….will always love them, always in my heart, no matter where life takes me. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-23052368308111750372007-04-16T14:25:00.005-04:002010-10-27T14:27:20.394-04:00Ireland Calling.............<div align="center" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/irish/IrelandBloom_MER_FR_Orbit22250_2006.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></span></div><div align="center" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Ok...many of you know I have had this trip to Ireland planned for a while, had to change it a few times...and now..<br /><br />I<br /><br />MUST<br /><br />GO!<br /><br />not just MUST more like I HAVE to.<br /><br />So, if there is ANYONE who wants to go...pack your bags now and holla at me.<br /><br />xoxox<br />Chrys</span></div><div align="center" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><b>Original MySpace Comments:</b></span></div><div align="center" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 0px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 0px; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span></div><div id="CommentDiv_189836"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Hey I sooo wanna go, I just have to get some free time. NE hoot I don't know if I can go in may but will be able to do so maybe a little after. NE hoot love ya darlin!<br /> </span></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=86213526" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Irish Angel-Mama 2 B Yippee!</a>on Monday, April 16, 2007 - 5:22 PM</span></div><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br /><br /><div id="CommentDiv_191470"><strong><span style="color: #006600; font-family: 'Times New Roman', Times, serif;">Hey Chrys you can put me in the animal cage and they'll throw me in the back of the plane storage so I am free to tag along LOL! Yeah you do have to go and it's your destiny! I pray to the Holy Trinity to grant you an Irish blessing and your trip! Godspeed!</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color: #006600;">your lil' leprechaun Ken</span></strong><br /><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a>on Tuesday, April 17, 2007 - 3:29 PM</div><br /><br /></span><br /><div style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-5583565216660894892007-04-12T14:27:00.006-04:002010-10-27T14:31:28.661-04:00This One's For Shannon<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/TIS%20HERSELF/Randon%202006/0016.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/TIS%20HERSELF/Randon%202006/0016.jpg" /></a></div><br /><br /><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">For those of you who don't know, Shannon is Daiseybug on my friends list. We work together. :) and she has fastly become one of my true best friends.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It's nice to have someone that loves with, without questions, conditions or restraints.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And I have found that in a friend like her.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I hope all of you have that one special friend in your life.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Cherish them and hold them close.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Shannon has been there with me thru much turmoil. She has listend with open ears AND open heart regarding the loss of Lonnie and the love of him and Sean both. Not once has she questioned it or judged.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">She was there the day I found out Lonnie had passed. She was the only one who listened. The only one who extended a hand in friendship.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">She's been holding my hand as all us Irish Pirates hope and pray for Elonna's speedy recovery.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">And she has been there ever since.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">At any rate...</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Shannon, I thank you.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I read your card and didn't know how to respond. My words get tangled in person, so this was the only way I knew how.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">So, my girl...thank you for everything...and I love ya :)</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">When we rise and fall, its good to know we can rise and fall together.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">~SMILES~</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><b>Original MySpace Comments:</b></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><b><br /></b></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><div id="CommentDiv_182899"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">What a wonderful tribute to your friend! I have been lucky enough to have my bestest friend for 42 years...all of her life! My little sister is my closest friend. Even though we are 5 1/2 years apart, we have that "twin connection" and used to freak people out when we would "communicate" without talking...it's harder to do that now that we are 1200 miles apart, but I know when she needs me...</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Tell Elonna hi for me and that I am keeping her in my prayers! {{{{HUGS}}}}</span><br /><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a>on Friday, April 13, 2007 - 7:44 AM</div><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-50834352658073701892007-04-10T21:55:00.003-04:002010-11-16T21:56:35.142-05:00Sean: Her....as always<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"></span><br /><h4 class="subject" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 1.2em; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-rendering: optimizelegibility; vertical-align: baseline;"><a href="http://www.myspace.com/43233455/blog/251581251" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-family: inherit; font-size: 13px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">Her...as always..</a></h4><div class="blogContent" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><center><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c130/joey_v/CA0AHNMG.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; max-width: 100%; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" /></a><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">aye...i have been reading old blogs and realizing how very much i still love me precious chrystal...me sexee one...me darling beauty. indeed.. now more than ever.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">the longer i spend in here...the more i realize that i want 2 be with her some day....i am so tired of doing what every one thinks i should do...indeed what i have thought i should do.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">i want 2 be with her...and tis as simple....yet as complicated...as that.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">My Reply:</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; 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outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" title="♣IrishChik♣">♣IrishChik♣</a><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">I still love you Irish One...tis a fact.....</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; 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display: inline-block; float: left; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; height: 35px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top; width: 35px; word-wrap: break-word;"><img alt="♣IrishChik♣" class="profileimage photo loaded resized profilePicLoaded" data-friendid="152385547" data-src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-left-radius: 4px 4px; border-bottom-right-radius: 4px 4px; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-left-radius: 4px 4px; border-top-right-radius: 4px 4px; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; height: 35px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; width: 39.5161px;" /></a></div></aside><section class="userComment" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; display: block; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 45px; margin-right: 50px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><div class="autoResize comment" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; float: none; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; min-height: 20px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; word-wrap: break-word;"><a class="msProfileTextLink" href="http://www.myspace.com/theoriginalirishchik" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" title="♣IrishChik♣">♣IrishChik♣</a><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Love%20Hugs%20Kisses/gandanMn-1.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; max-width: 100%; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" /></a></div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">I do hope you enjoyed all my blog comments. It seemed onced I got started, I could not stop. So, I went a little blog crazy. Or comment crazy. Whichever. <img src="http://x.myspace.com/images/blog/smileys/anxious.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; max-width: 100%; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" /></div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">I know...si</div></div><ul class="mediaAction" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><li id="ctl00_ctl18_ctl31_ctl00_ctl06_ctl01_commentReply" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; float: left; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; 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font-size: 10px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: top;">(1)</span></a></li></ul><span class="datePosted" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #999999; display: inline-block; font-family: inherit; font-size: 10px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" ts="633118105200000000">2 years ago</span><div class="clear" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; clear: both !important; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"></div></section></div><div class="genericComments replyContainer " id="ctl00_ctl18_ctl31_ctl00_ctl06_ctl01_replyContainer" style="background-color: #e8e8e8; border-bottom-left-radius: 6px 6px; border-bottom-right-radius: 6px 6px; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-left-radius: 6px 6px; border-top-right-radius: 6px 6px; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 45px; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><a class="msProfileLink" href="http://www.myspace.com/theoriginalirishchik" style="border-bottom-left-radius: 4px 4px; border-bottom-right-radius: 4px 4px; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-left-radius: 4px 4px; border-top-right-radius: 4px 4px; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; display: inline-block; float: left; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; height: 25px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top; width: 25px; word-wrap: break-word;"><img alt="♣IrishChik♣" class="profileimage photo loaded resized profilePicLoaded" data-friendid="152385547" data-src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="background-position: 50% 0%; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; border-bottom-left-radius: 4px 4px; border-bottom-right-radius: 4px 4px; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-left-radius: 4px 4px; border-top-right-radius: 4px 4px; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; height: 25px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; width: 25px;" /></a></div></aside><section class="userComment" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; display: block; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 35px; margin-right: 50px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><div class="autoResize comment" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; float: none; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; min-height: 20px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; word-wrap: break-word;"><a class="msProfileTextLink" href="http://www.myspace.com/theoriginalirishchik" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" title="♣IrishChik♣">♣IrishChik♣</a><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">So,</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">~bats eyes and looks around room~</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Just what would you do to me if I started another round of blog comments...</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">From begining to end....</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">LOL<br />~winks~</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Love you darling...</div></div></section></div></li></ul></div></li></ul></center></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-65311133378419774032007-04-08T14:31:00.013-04:002010-10-27T14:34:39.002-04:00To Thine Own Self Be True<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Comic Sans MS';"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><strong><em><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">"To thine own self be true….."</span><br /></em></strong>Most of us are familiar with the above quote taking from Shakespeare's Hamlet, but how many of us know this verse: <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">"<b><i>And it must follow, as the night the day, Thou can not then be false to any man.</i></b>"</span> Unless we can be true to ourselves first, we cannot be true to others.<br /><br />To thine own self be true…..how profound. How many of us have a hard time being true to ourselves? Those of us that gave our life to another at the cost of loosing who we are in the process will have a hard time being true to ourselves. Allowing someone else to define who we are, we lose our ability to discover and grow inwardly. We no longer are able to discern a truth from a lie. For many of us, we have accepted lies for so long, that finding out what is true takes time. Having done this very thing, I know how difficult the journey to self-discovery can be.<br /><br />Truth….truth is a word that brings out such negative reactions to many of us. You see truth is really an action word. You cannot accept truth without change. Accepting truth about ourselves is difficult, especially to those of us who have been abused. But<br />truth does set one free if we will allow it to; it is a crucial part of healing. It gives us the freedom to be who we are. We are able to come to terms with our weakness (without condemnation) and appreciate our strength. Truth gives strength; it naturally builds healthy boundaries. Truth is open; it is honest even at the risk of being vulnerable again. Truth is light and brings forth life. When we walk in truth, we walk in light and when we walk in light we live a healthy life.<br /><br />Truth is also love. The greatest act of love towards another is living a life that is truthful. For those of us who find it difficult to love ourselves, we will find it will come more easily when we walk in truth about who we are. If we walk in truth, we walk in perfect love, and if we walk in perfect love, then we do not walk in fear because perfect love cast out fear. Because we have been honest with ourselves, we are able to love ourselves with all of our imperfections, knowing that we are in "process" and therefore need not have others approval. This is freedom indeed.<br /><br />The second part of this verse is a natural occurrence if we hold true to the first part of the verse. So, when in doubt as to our motives of not being truthful with someone….look inside, are we being less than truthful to ourselves?</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"></span></span><br /><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: 'Comic Sans MS';"><b><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">"This above all: to thine ownself be true,<br /> And it must follow, as the night the day,<br /> Thou canst not then be false to any man."</span></i></b> -Shakespeare-Hamlet </span></span><br /><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: 'Comic Sans MS';"><br /></span></span><br /><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: 'Comic Sans MS';">****************************************************************************************</span></span><br /><br /><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">I shall always...above all else...remain true to myself and who</span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;"> I am...I will not compromise. I am who I am and I make no</span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;"> apologies for it......</span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: Georgia; font-size: large;">~Chrys~</span></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Original MySpace Comments:</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div id="CommentDiv_174580"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;">very nice<br /> </span></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=88287750" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Daywalker</a>on Sunday, April 08, 2007 - 11:44 AM</span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><br /><br /><div id="CommentDiv_175686">Great post sis! "What I am is what I am, are you what you are or what?" And you are right, "no apologies, no regrets!"<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=38569006" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">MySpace</a>on Sunday, April 08, 2007 - 10:32 PM</div><br /><br /><div id="CommentDiv_178221">and i will all ways be true...2 u.. me precious beauty.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=43233455" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Sean</a>on Tuesday, April 10, 2007 - 11:29 AM</div><br /><br /><div id="CommentDiv_181242"><span style="color: #006600;"><strong>Most excellant blog I hath seen for a long time! Well sayeth milady!!!</strong></span><br /><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a>on Thursday, April 12, 2007 - 5:28 AM</div><br /><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-37039960221428905972007-04-08T14:22:00.006-04:002010-10-27T14:25:25.626-04:00~~Letting Go~~<div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><strong><span style="color: black; font-size: x-small;"><img src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/irish/POwer_Tyronne_Luck_Irish_6sht.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></span></strong></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><strong><span style="color: black; font-size: x-small;">"We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned,<br />so as to accept the life that is waiting for us."</span></strong><strong><span style="font-size: x-small;"></span></strong></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><strong><span style="font-size: x-small;"><div align="center"><br /><span style="color: black;"> --Joseph Campbell </span></div><div align="center"> ***********************************</div><div align="center">Letting go is perhaps one of the most difficult challenges we face. Our egos easily and all too eagerly attach to things, people, and outcome. Letting go of these attachments can be painful, particularly when we can't see what's ahead.</div><div align="center">Life is a series of things to let go of-our friends and loved ones, , our youth, our perceptions of ourselves. In my own life, I have found myself having to let go more these past few years than ever before.</div><div align="center">And it appears I may be faced with that yet again.<br />Letting go.</div></span></strong></span><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><strong><span style="font-size: x-small;">Maybe I need to stop hanging on to things and save myself the letting go process.</span></strong></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><strong><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></strong></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><strong><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></strong></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><strong><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></strong></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><strong><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></strong></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><strong><span style="font-size: x-small;">Original MySpace Comments:</span></strong></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><strong><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 13px;"></span></span></strong></div><div id="CommentDiv_193284"><strong><span style="font-size: x-small;">Hey girl this blog makes alot of sense. Very well said and very beautiful. Love ya!<br /> </span></strong></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><strong><span style="font-size: x-small;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=86213526" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Irish Angel-Mama 2 B Yippee!</a>on Wednesday, April 18, 2007 - 2:25 PM</span></strong></div><strong><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br /><br /></span></strong>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-40734477835025326912007-03-30T21:56:00.006-04:002010-11-16T21:58:52.921-05:00Sean:....thinking...<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"></span><br /><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">i know twill survive this time...of guilt and remorse....self-examining and having to look at me self so harshly... but i shant pretend tis all well and good when tis not.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">how can it be?twas going to write more on that.. but need a bit of a break when it comes to what all i done as it were.let me say i done some things that can not be un done.... and now must live with that for all eternity.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">am in a sitchy i wish i could change...indeed.. in many sitchys on all levels of me life. tis not alwasy bad tho... as i have me darling beauty..me chrystal....as well as me best matey ever...joey... by me side and tis a wonder full miracle they both still love and care about me after it all.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">enough...aye...i must find a picture 2 match this bit of reflection...</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">My Reply:</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; float: none; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; min-height: 20px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; word-wrap: break-word;"><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">just giving you more love darling...</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">~KISSES~</div></div><ul class="mediaAction" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><li id="ctl00_ctl18_ctl31_ctl00_ctl06_ctl00_commentReply" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; float: left; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><a class="commentReply" href="http://www.myspace.com/43233455/blog/247388606#" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #0076de; font-family: inherit; font-size: 10px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">Reply<span style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #999999; display: inline; font-family: inherit; font-size: 10px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"></span></a></li></ul><span class="datePosted" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #999999; display: inline-block; font-family: inherit; font-size: 10px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" ts="633110499000000000">2 years ago</span><div class="clear" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; clear: both !important; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"></div></section></div></li><li class="even " id="comment_913826765_12_43233455_247388606_228569340_152385547" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; float: right; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; visibility: hidden;"><li class="last commentIcons deleteIcon deleteComment" style="background-image: url(http://x.myspacecdn.com/modules/common/static/img/Sprites/commentsIcons.png); background-position: -60px 0px; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; cursor: pointer; float: left; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; height: 16px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0.5em; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0.5em; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; width: 10px;"></li></ul><aside class="user" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; display: block; float: left; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; width: 40px;"><div class="vcard notification" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><a class="msProfileLink" href="http://www.myspace.com/theoriginalirishchik" style="border-bottom-left-radius: 4px 4px; border-bottom-right-radius: 4px 4px; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-left-radius: 4px 4px; border-top-right-radius: 4px 4px; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; display: inline-block; float: left; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; height: 35px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top; width: 35px; word-wrap: break-word;"><img alt="♣IrishChik♣" class="profileimage photo loaded resized profilePicLoaded" data-friendid="152385547" data-src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-left-radius: 4px 4px; border-bottom-right-radius: 4px 4px; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-left-radius: 4px 4px; border-top-right-radius: 4px 4px; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; height: 35px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; width: 39.5161px;" /></a></div></aside><section class="userComment" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; display: block; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 45px; margin-right: 50px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><div class="autoResize comment" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; float: none; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; min-height: 20px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; word-wrap: break-word;"><a class="msProfileTextLink" href="http://www.myspace.com/theoriginalirishchik" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" title="♣IrishChik♣">♣IrishChik♣</a><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">PS-</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Just for the record, again</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">I LOVE this pic of you darling</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">and</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">I LOVE YOU BABY!</div></div><ul class="mediaAction" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><li id="ctl00_ctl18_ctl31_ctl00_ctl06_ctl01_commentReply" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; float: left; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><a class="commentReply" href="http://www.myspace.com/43233455/blog/247388606#" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #0076de; font-family: inherit; font-size: 10px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">Reply<span style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #999999; display: inline; font-family: inherit; font-size: 10px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"></span></a></li></ul><span class="datePosted" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #999999; display: inline-block; font-family: inherit; font-size: 10px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" ts="633108509400000000">2 years ago</span><div class="clear" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; clear: both !important; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"></div></section></div></li><li class="odd last " id="comment_913826765_12_43233455_247388606_228567900_152385547" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><div class="commentDiv" style="border-bottom-color: initial; border-bottom-left-radius: 6px 6px; border-bottom-right-radius: 6px 6px; 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outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; visibility: hidden;"><li class="last commentIcons deleteIcon deleteComment" style="background-image: url(http://x.myspacecdn.com/modules/common/static/img/Sprites/commentsIcons.png); background-position: -60px 0px; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; cursor: pointer; float: left; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; height: 16px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0.5em; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0.5em; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; width: 10px;"></li></ul><aside class="user" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; 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border-bottom-right-radius: 4px 4px; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-left-radius: 4px 4px; border-top-right-radius: 4px 4px; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; display: inline-block; float: left; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; height: 35px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top; width: 35px; word-wrap: break-word;"><img alt="♣IrishChik♣" class="profileimage photo loaded resized profilePicLoaded" data-friendid="152385547" data-src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-left-radius: 4px 4px; 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font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" title="♣IrishChik♣">♣IrishChik♣</a><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">No one is asking you to pretend. I am full aware that things are not good. I know you better then you give me credit for darling.</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">You will however, heal and mend at your own pace and in your own time.</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">You will be happy and you will live again, the life you were meant to live. Just give it time honey. Like I keep telling you, just give it one moment, one day, one step at a time. I know, 'tis hard. But, I also know you are strong. You will get through this.</div></div></section></div></li></ul>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-27445211144986543232007-03-28T14:34:00.014-04:002010-10-27T15:09:48.805-04:00Migraines Suck<div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><img src="http://i82.photobucket.com/albums/j241/battygyrl/headache.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Migraines suck. Too sick to my tummy to do anything, can't see anything for very long before it gets a halo around it, can't sleep because my eye won't stop twitching, and I have taken anything I can to make it all go away. Doesn't seem to fully help.....Grr.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Just grr.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">I got up yesterday morning at 4 a.m. -- you know, normal time -- seeing as how I never sleep much, and those chances I do, seems ALWAYS have to pee at 4am. Today was no different.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">And I felt bad. Just ... bad. More like shit. I couldn't figure out what was going on, <st1:time hour="4" minute="0">4 a.m.</st1:time> not being prime diagnostic time for me, so I just kind of stayed in bed and waited for an epiphany.<br /><br />By <st1:time hour="16" minute="30">4:30</st1:time>, the hubby is up and getting ready for work, talking his usual bit of nonsense that I pay no attention to, and then it occurred to me that I was getting a migraine.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">I figured at some point this was going to happen. I have been having these small random headaches for about 2 weeks now.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Anxiety again? Panic attacks again? Stress?? Who the fuck knows. All I know is I am rightfully sick of it.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Now, guys, if you've never had a migraine, it isn't a headache. Other than the fact it's in your head, well, there's really not a lot of resemblance. Mine start with a tightness on the muscles of the right side, at the base of my neck, stiff, achy, and around 6:30a the pain exploded in a fiery hot little ball above my right eye. I had no choice but to call in sick to work. No way could I function. By <st1:time hour="7" minute="0">7am</st1:time> it had spread to the left eye.<br /><br />No problem, I have fine pharmaceutical products for this. So I took a Imitrex and went back to bed to wait it out. See, I can't really do much with a migraine. So I stayed home. I was a mindless lump, in a vegetative state, waiting for the meds to kick in.<br /><br />They didn't kick in. I got up around 9 or 10, sent a message to myspace friends letting them know I was ill and would not be around. Waited to hear from Sean and Joey.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Took another Imitrex and some Klonopin and headed back to bed.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br />Nothing.<br /><br />By <st1:time hour="14" minute="0">2 p.m.</st1:time> I'd reached the puking, weeping stage, convinced that I was having a stroke/heart attack and/or going blind. I retreated from the dim bathroom to the completely dark bedroom, crawled under the covers, stuck an ice pack on the back of my neck, and cried.<br /><br />I got up around <st1:time hour="17" minute="0">5 p.m.</st1:time> to find something to eat, in hopes of keeping it down. The hubby was home and all he wanted to do was talk. WTF???? When I say I have a migraine that means I WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE. After 10 years you would think he of all people would understand.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">I took my happy ass to the couch, crawled under my covers and decided to watch a few DVD episodes of Queer As Folk.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"> Went back to bed at 10.<br /><br />Woke up this morning only to find ... migraine. Still there. Less, though, so I took another Imitrex, called in to work yet again, and managed to find my way to the kitchen.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Am currently trying to sort through things and get back on the writing track, but it's hard.<br /><br />Sorry. Whiny today, but at least the Imitrex and Klonopin is beginning to help, and I can look at the computer screen without much pain ...<br /><br />So, now that my body is achy from laying in bed motionless, my head is a mess and my stomach in knots from all the meds...I think it is safe to say I will be back to work tomorrow.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Slow recovery. I hope I can keep the anxiety at bay (guess thats what I got drugs for LOL) and the stress to a .....well, really I don't think there is any help for the stress.<br /><br /><br />Original MySpace Comments:<br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span><br /><div id="CommentDiv_156363">thanks honey!! ~hugs~<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Thursday, March 29, 2007 - 7:41 AM</div><br /><br /><div id="CommentDiv_156366">awwwww....my lil daisybug (or is that bugger heheh) I miss you too and am about to go crazy being couped up in the house. Words can not express how miserable I am. Really. No, really, it fucking sucks ass.<br />Special things....for me?? Oh lordy, Rodgers retirement party and DB can only mean one thing!!! HAHAHAHA..... Well, sorry I am going to miss the fabulous time. Perhaps, you can save me a bit of something. Well...no....wait....I'll pass on that DB if your kitchen stinks that bad.<br />I do feel better today then I did at the begining. This is a good sign.<br />Love ya, Miss ya.....be back to sunshine and giggles in no time.<br /><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Thursday, March 29, 2007 - 7:44 AM</div><br /><br /><div id="CommentDiv_156081"><strong><span style="color: #006600;">Dang Chrys,</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color: #006600;">Hey I saw your bulletin on here it shows</span></strong><br /><span style="font-size: x-small;">home today<br />ill<br />feel like crap<br />head is going to explode<br />miss you guys<br /><br />xoxo<br />Chrys</span><br /><span style="color: #006600; font-size: small;"><strong>Huh?! Who's head are you talking about his or yours? LOL! Chrys! You got to slow down on that BJ's & throat gagging! You're given it all you got!</strong></span><br /><strong><span style="color: #006600;">SLOW DOWN you're not always Wonder Woman you know...hehehe..</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color: #006600;">I hate it when you're feeling down well you get better and I know you'll be stepping up to the plate soon! ;) Take care doll!</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color: #006600;">The Irish Hunk Ken</span></strong><br /><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a>on Wednesday, March 28, 2007 - 11:43 PM</div><br /><br /><div id="CommentDiv_156367">yer funny....now behave<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Thursday, March 29, 2007 - 7:45 AM</div><br /><br /><div id="CommentDiv_156211">I get 'em too. Not as bad as you...but just dull headaches and nausea. I feel your pain. Get better!<br /><br />Dan<br /><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=45438505" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Danny-Boy</a>on Thursday, March 29, 2007 - 1:21 AM</div><br /><br /><div id="CommentDiv_156369">Thanks hun..... glad someone understands...well not really, cause I dont wish this pain on anyone...but it is nice to know that someone really gets how i feel, cause so many dont.... they are all like "eh its just a headache take some asprin" right...been there, done that, doesnt help....<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Thursday, March 29, 2007 - 7:46 AM</div><br /><br /><div id="CommentDiv_156362">Yeap...out again...<br />Day 3<br />fecking sucks<br />the world can not stop, but I have to.<br />blech<br />percription meds make me woozie and disconnected, only dull the pain and make my head fuzzy<br />cant see straight<br />sitting here is bothersome<br />i lay down, its like i am drunk and the room spins<br />i really need to get back to work....but i am useless<br />about to go crazy being couped up inside<br />~sighs~<br />anyway...I'm alive....and I'll be around...<br />Chrys<br /><br /><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Thursday, March 29, 2007 - 7:41 AM</div><br /><br /><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-34090040434428681972007-03-25T22:18:00.000-04:002010-10-26T22:20:49.431-04:00I'm Just FloatingI am just floating around latley. Just roaming around this thing called life. I do not know where I am going anymore. Really, not sure if I ever did. Just when I think I got it *poof* its all gone. So far out of reach. The harder I try to change, the more it stays the same. I'm tired. I'm lost. I'm confused. Which way to go. Which way to turn. What choice to make. ~sighs~ Only one thing I am sure of. But, I guess I will keep floating...roaming....<br /><br />***************************************************<br /><br />Floating like a satellite,<br />deep in space with the stars above,<br />in my dreams, so late at night,<br />dreaming of the one I love.<br /><br />Floating like a satellite,<br />orbiting around your heart,<br />keeping your soul in my sight,<br />to assure we're never torn apart.<br /><br />Floating like a satellite,<br />come join me on this distant moon.<br />Our love shines like the sun, so bright,<br />as we sing this eternal tune.<br /><br /><br />MySpace Original Comments:<br />I think there is something "in the air" because I know so many feeling restless, out of sorts, disconnected...maybe something planetary? I don't know, all I DO know is that you are not alone in your feelings here! {{{{HUGS}}}}<br /> <br />Posted by Cathy on Monday, March 26, 2007 - 4:51 AMChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-33036608063955682852007-03-20T22:40:00.000-04:002010-10-26T22:44:26.232-04:00Letter to the Missing<div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">** I will have the after paddy day blog up soon, I promise. But, as I sit here this eve, insomia has hit. I started going through some of my writings that I never posted. Maybe not such a good idea, for hidden inside were many layers of unspoken words of Sean and Lonnie. Now I am empty and sad, and left with this huge empty hole and ache in the pit of my stomach. I miss him so much. Anyway, last year, Joey was taken away from all of us. Moved out of the country. When Lonnie found out, he flipped. A butterfly he was, always so delecate and fluttering about. Anyway, he took off. Weeks and weeks went by and I didnt hear from him. Worry became anger. When Sean found out where he was, he let me know. I was so hurt and upset. But despite it all, I welcomed him back with open arms. Despite the anger, the frustration, the hurt feelings, the sadness....all of it....there was so much love. I never have any regrets about my time spent with Lonnie. None. Period. I know, I will see him again , someday, when its my turn. For now, he is with me...in spirit.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Anyway, this is a little piece I wrote , hurting, anger, frustration crawls out from under me and presents itself here....its hard for me to read again, after so much time. Seeing how mad I was. Sometimes, I get angry that hes not here with now.....But, its doing me some good to release it, here , for everyone to see. Letting it go....becoming free.....hoping he will forgive me for my words.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">On a positive note......Sean and I are healing and mending. Tis a hard road to travel down. We know Lonnie tis watching us, fluttering about. But we are taking things one step at a time. On the path together, hand in hand. Road is much easier together, sharing a love that only we can share. A tale as old as time, a tale thats ours and ours alone.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">************************************************</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Letter To The Missing</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">It seems like forever since I've seen, or heard you're voice. I feel your absence like a knot in the pit of my stomach. I barely believe in you anymore. You seem waithlike, and fluttering,...half real, and transparent. More dream than a creature having any substance. It is a fearful thing, to love what is only alive and whole in your own head.<br /> <br />This is not how I planned you. What I dreamed us up to be. I prefer the fantasy of us that I had when we talked for hours. I am becoming resigned now to feeling this way. I don't understand this change in you? You leave me alone to find a whores comfort in the arms of strangers and still I long for you. It is madness, my feeling affection for you right now. That is me in the corner, half dead, wordlessly. Where are you? What has happened to the you? Who are you? You are no good to me as a rumor. I need you with ground under your feet. I have enough mirages. I am tired out with absences; and with trying to fill them.<br /><br />Your silence is deadly. I hate it, and yet I fear your speaking equally now as well. Your truth might be death dealing. Loving you is nothing less than one of my grandest of self-betrayals. You've brought me no comfort in the last few weeks, only this dull ache. I feel no anger towards you, that is now hidden so deep that I can feel it only towards myself. I am ashamed that I accept this from you, and still want you near me as much as I do. I feel I should be outraged and insulted. Not sad, filled with longing, and missing you. However I am content with the lie that i should feel this devotion towards you. I must be, unable as I am to give you up. For now, it is enough. You create for me something to feel while traversing this empty space. I am passing the time in a web of fantasy and deceit. It is nothing more than hope in you though. I have no faith in you or us as I did before. Just a desperate clinging to hope. It is a sad thing.<br /><br /> Mostly, I pass my day in a state that is numb enough that I can pretend to be happy. I pass as content enough. I do so by filling my thoughts with lies that give me comfort. Such as, I am fine, and strong. You are there and real and caring. I will become someone worthwhile. In the springtime I will love life again. In this state of self-defacing ignorance, I can pretend to not feel so alone without you, as the days repeat the same absences of you. It works until I hear the echo of you in the silence, or feel the breath of an empty space, that is when the world becomes more difficult than I have said.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /> "There is no because in love." No reason. I have no explanation. Only that I hunger for you. You fill the void. Despite myself I crave you. I am living for momentary beauty. With you, I know my heart will belong and break. Still I leave it out on the shelf, like an uncertain offering. It is a lonely girls ignorance that keeps it there, knowing, as I do, it must struggle against the sapphire sharpness of the truth's you offer up. Lonnie, they are death-dealing.<br /><br /> What I seek in you is not nothing. I am searching for what shines in you. What shines in everyone who's inner flame has not been snuffed out and hidden in thier own dark and murky depths. Mine feels lost and blue. I should know by now to give up wanting to touch it. I cannot grasp it. I cannot trust in love or you, neither have a shape I can see, nor a sound I can hear. I have offered myself up to you in trade for shelter. Although I haven't much to offer. A smile. Eyes. Hands. Mouth. No soul.<br /><br /> I have prostrated myself before you. I want to live for you, through you. Making your will, your life, your desires, my purpose. My command center. My touchstone. I want nothing more than to hand up to you all that is me, and let you make it yours. I thought that it was something beautiful and rare. Undoubtedly much of me will be left on the side of your bed, hidden with the many other secret places with in you. In the end will you make me the better for it? Alive, transformed, and renewed? Where are you? Doesn't this mean more to you than all these empty spaces?<br /><br /> What more can I say? I am beginning to speak in the past tence. I know fear of loss is not enough to cause love to stay. If hurting my feelings for weeks strait is not enough to move you, you are the anti-christ, a true dream-killer. There are no words that will move you. I put my faith in you, and it is faltering. Why do I hold so little weight? Don't you miss me at all? How can I be so far from your thoughts for so long if you care at all? Do you have some purpose? Or are you simply this careless? I can find no excuse or lie that justifies this.<br /><br />Say something, speak.</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><b>MySpace Original Comments:</b></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial, sans-serif, helvetica; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"></span></b></span></span><br /><div id="CommentDiv_139809"><b><img src="http://x.myspace.com/images/blog/smileys/tired.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" />This letter is makimg me very sad , but cheer up Joey may return back home when he feel better. <img src="http://x.myspace.com/images/blog/smileys/jealous.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /><br /> </b></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><b>Posted by <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a> on Tuesday, March 20, 2007 - 1:26 AM</b></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><b><br /></b></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><b><br /></b></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><div id="CommentDiv_140488">~hugs~ I think it is going to be a while yet before my brother is released from where he is. But we keep the faith that it is SOON!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Tuesday, March 20, 2007 - 3:48 PM</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><br /><div id="CommentDiv_140150">nothing 2 say....<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=43233455" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Sean</a>on Tuesday, March 20, 2007 - 10:46 AM</div><br /><br /><div id="CommentDiv_140489">I'm sorry darling, to have made you so sad today...:(<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Tuesday, March 20, 2007 - 3:48 PM</div><br /><br /></span></b></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-62266996945071959912007-03-20T22:20:00.001-04:002010-10-26T22:40:21.458-04:00St. Patrick's AftermathTo blog or not to blog, that is the question. For it is nobler in the mind, blah blah blah, whatever…who wrote that shite anyway?<br /><br /><br />I'm not feeling very artistic today. But I have been telling every one that I am going to write the St. Patrick's Day blog. So, this is me, sitting here at work, when I should be working. But, I have not done crap all day, so why start now. I really wanted to write this blog. To tell you all what a fabulous time I had. And I did. Don't get me wrong. It was all great and wonderful. It was even better to be able to share my pics with Sean and Joey. And how it made them smile. That to me means everything in my world. To have my brother and my love happy and give me a smile. That's all I need to make my day complete.<br /><br /><br />But the excitement has worn off. As now I am back in the real world. The world full of loss, hurt and pain. A world where I have to realize the place that Sean is in. Realize that I just can't be there with him right now. The place where I have to come to terms that Lonnie is not coming back. The place where I have to face that sometimes Joey just can't be there. And, where I now must face facts that Elonna is facing the biggest challenge of her life.<br /><br /><br />Life has to go on, I know that. I have a whole other world aside from this one here. But, they are such a part of my world.<br /><br /><br />The shine of the weekend has become dull and lackluster.<br /><br /><br />Slowly becoming a faded distant memory. All that remains is a shell of the good time I had.<br /><br /><br />I go thru these periods in life where I am just content with the way life is. I have been in one of those periods as of late. Realizing that this is just how my life is. How it is always going to be. I just tend to go with the flow of whatever is thrown at me, and try to make the best of it. But then, as time passes me by, that contentment turns to anger. For what I really want, what it is that I really need seems so far away and so far out of reach.<br /><br /><br />So, as I begin to think of my words, and how I want to tell the weekend tale, I am slowly reminded why my feet need to move. Why I need to spread my wings and fly. Now days, I cannot follow my butterfly, but I can certainly follow the path left behind. These days, some things are very clear to me.<br /><br /><br />My Friday started like any other. Happy that it is the last day of the week, and even better that it is the last day before St. Patrick's Day. I look forward to this day every year. To many, it's just another holiday in which to drink and party the night away. But for me, it's a chance to get together with those that I love and celebrate my heritage and who I am. It was really nice that we were able to have a little party at work. And Shannon went all out; she even made me a St Paddy Day survival kit. It was the cutest thing ever. She even brought in cookies for everyone and a balloon for me. (Thanks Shannon) It was amazing that work went by as quick as it did.<br /><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/Paddy%20Day%202007/l_1ee37797f0b2dab74d2bd7ca703bbd3c.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/Paddy%20Day%202007/l_1ee37797f0b2dab74d2bd7ca703bbd3c.jpg" /></a></div><br /><br />After work, we all met up, at a place called Aggie's Steakhouse. Steaks all around. But me, and my chicken. Drinks were ordered. We stayed long enough to eat and have a few drinks. Afterwards was off to Murphy's pub, which is where most of the pics where taken. The drinks overflowed, and there was always a game of darts and pool going on. We left Murphy's and headed to another local place on the strip called Dirty's. We did not stay there long. We headed to the tattoo shop, but they were pretty booked with only one artist working, so we ended up leaving and calling it night.<br /><br /><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/Paddy%20Day%202007/100_0551.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="237" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/Paddy%20Day%202007/100_0551.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br />Saturday was a beautiful day. Nice and sunny with a high of 75. We headed down to Oklahoma City for the parade. I had never been to the city parade before so it was a sight to be seen. There was a point where I have to admit, it was rather overwhelming. Thinking of my gramps, and Lonnie and Sean and Joey & Elonna. All the trial and tribulations our little Irish Pirate gang has been through. How I wished they could have all been there with me, seeing what I was seeing. A tear was shed. I had a sense of sadness, but I was also at peace. After the parade we went off to walk around the festival they were having. Bands were playing all over. It was fun to see so many partake in the celebration, Irish or not. We ate, we drank, and we had a good time. I even sat patiently for 4 hours while I got my new tattoo. Sunday was spent recovering I guess you could say. It was just a lazy day.<br /><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/Paddy%20Day%202007/100_0611q.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="203" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/Paddy%20Day%202007/100_0611q.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/Paddy%20Day%202007/100_0634.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="237" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/Paddy%20Day%202007/100_0634.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/Paddy%20Day%202007/100_0631.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="237" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/Paddy%20Day%202007/100_0631.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/Paddy%20Day%202007/100_0640.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="211" src="http://i59.photobucket.com/albums/g316/irishchikinok/TIS%20HERSELF/Paddy%20Day%202007/100_0640.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br />So, I wanted to tell this tale with much more enthusiasm and let you in on the conversations that took place….but, like I said, today, it just seems so dull and lackluster that I don't even want to put forth the effort anymore.<br /><br /><br /><br />Right now I just got one thing on my mind, and I don't think I am going to fully be at peace and be at rest until I get there and do what I need to do.<br /><br />Original MySpace Comments:<br /><br /><div id="CommentDiv_140909" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><strong><span style="color: #006600;">Chrys! I pray for you dear! May God grant you an Irish Blessings!</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color: #006600;">God wills it!!! Hang in there Chrys! God and His people love you more than you know! xoxoxo take care hun!</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color: #006600;">your Irish Hunk & friend Ken</span></strong><br /><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a>on Tuesday, March 20, 2007 - 8:25 PM</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><div id="CommentDiv_141082">thanks mate for the prayers and being a friend. I know what is meant to be will always find a way. I just got a little sad cause since we had missed out on my trip on me and Joeys birthday, then again on Lonnies, we had settled on Paddy day....and well...with the events, obviously that didnt happen. But, the trip will happen SOON and I cant wait!! I have faith...believe me....Sean keeps me going many of days when I just want to quit. His love is all I need to keep me going. But, I can not help those off days when I feel a little down and out.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Tuesday, March 20, 2007 - 9:47 PM</div><br /><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-5827897685169499432007-03-16T22:44:00.000-04:002010-10-26T22:47:48.691-04:00Gearing Up for Paddy Day<div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">So, here I am at work, the day before St. Patrick's Day. Geared up and ready to go. We are having a little party here at work, it's been a fun day already and the day has just begun.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Shannon is over –flowing with excitement as she has not really had a chance to celebrate St. Patrick's Day. And I am glad that I am the one who gets to be here to share this day with her. it gives me a new sense of the day, a new look on an old tradition that I have grown used to.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"> After work the real fun begins. We will all be heading out to dinner and drinks. I think we are going to Aggie's Steakhouse so those meat eaters can have their thrills. hehehe Then it's on to Murphy's bar where we shall drink the night away. Pool, Darts, Fuse ball and well, Guinness of course! During the night we will be heading over to the tattoo shop so that I can get the next installment of IrishChiks tattoos. I think the piece I have settled on will be a Celtic band on my wrist. I have decided to intertwine the letter M into it as well. So, why the letter M you ask?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">As this St Patrick's Day rolls around, I am reminded of how things have changed in the course of the last year. I see where I was a year ago and where I am today. I see the girl I am these days. My skies not as cloudy as they used to be. So, I celebrate not only Myself, but I celebrate the friends I have new and old, I celebrate family and where I come from, but I also remember those I have lost.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The letter M</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">M for ME as I have grown so much in the past year.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">M for McMahon, McCliggott, and Mahan as these are my roots and a strong part of who I am.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Tats%20and%20Piercings%20-%20Not%20fit%20other%20category/ce1.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, so you wonder now, well, what about Joey and Elonna or even poor Ray, the other members of the pirate gang. Well, not being really close to Ray, I doubt I will ever have a tattoo that will ever be a symbol that he is included in, unless tis a pirate tattoo that I get. ~winks~ But, not to leave Joey and Elonna out, I already have a tattoo picked out for the 2 of them. That not only symbolizes their relationship together, but also symbolizes what my brother and my bestest girl mean to me. I vow to get this tattoo on my birthday, as it is also Joey's bday too. However, it's a surprise and will be unveiled at such time.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">~smiles~</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok so, and then I think we are going to be going to another bar called Willies later in the eve to see one of the officers (Adam) brother's band play. Not sure about that. We are trying to convince Adam that he needs to come hang out with all of us.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Saturday being St Patrick's Day, and I am not one to break tradition, I will be heading to Eskimo Joes for the 8am tapping of the first keg. I have spent every St Patrick's Day at EJ's since I moved to this town. Will hang out there for a while. Then later in the day I will be heading over to the Irish Celtic festival. Which I am really excited about. Topping off the eve at my favorite hangout. BWW for Guinness and wings!!!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Ok, I am sure that I will get thrown off course of plans once the Guinness hits my blood, but that's Ok. What matters is, its Paddy day and I will be surrounded by my good friends.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">My moms already called me this morning to send her love and best wishes.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Today is a happy day. And I am glad to have all of you in my life. So cheers to each and every one of you. May you celebrate what being Irish is really about. Have a pint on me, and be safe.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Much love.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">xoxoxoxo</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Chrys</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">PS- you can look forward to pics next week!!!</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><b>MySpace Comments:</b></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></b></span></span><br /><div id="CommentDiv_130049"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b>cant wait for the pics!! sounds like a blast!! be safe and have a great weekend<br /> </b></span></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b>Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=81869020" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Kristi</a>on Friday, March 16, 2007 - 11:51 AM</b></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b><br /></b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></b></span></span><br /><div id="CommentDiv_130597"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b><strong><span style="color: #009900;">WOW!!! That's great Chrys! The tattoo shamrocks baby!!! GO FOR IT!!! It's another great tattoo for your body and I can't wait to see it on ya! HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY CHRYS!!!!!!! Gurl I love ya and enjoy our friendship very much! I am gonna be cookin' corn beef, cabbage, big arse baked potatoes, & drinkin' me Guinness!!! I am still thinking about getting tattoos but haven't decided... You have a blast and party hard! </span></strong></b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b><strong><span style="color: #009900;">your Irish Hunk Ken</span></strong><strong><span style="color: #009900;"> </span></strong></b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b><br /> </b></span></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b>Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a>on Friday, March 16, 2007 - 2:04 PM</b></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b><br /><br /></b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></b></span></span><br /><div id="CommentDiv_138974"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b>Lol...I think I am STILL drunk...<br /> </b></span></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b>Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=128557798" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"></a>on Monday, March 19, 2007 - 7:28 PM</b></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><b><br /><br /></b></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-51769626724299651342007-03-12T22:47:00.000-04:002010-10-26T22:53:19.141-04:00My Elonna<div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">March 12, 2007</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/Elonna/1161018559_l.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/Elonna/1161018559_l.jpg" /></a></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I've tried to be the rock for everyone latley, and I just don't think I can be that rock today. I miss my sistagurl a great deal. It has hit me like a ton of bricks in just a breif moment. As I sit here this morning, making out a new card to send, it just feels like I am not doing enough. Its taking all that I have to not bust out in tears while I am here at work. I miss my girl. I have sent her a card just about every day since we found out she was sick. I have sent her flowers. I have prayed. It just doesn't seem like enough. Our little gang of friend have gone thru so much just in the last 3 months. What more can I do?</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">My thoughts and prayers are with her as she goes thru this difficult period in life.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Get Well Soon Sista....I miss you!</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><u><a href="http://www.blogger.com/goog_1151769962">"</a></u>She believes in me. And I'm a dreamer so it's so good to have somebody like that in my life. If she goes away, I don't know what I'm going to do. I mean, she's my best friend, you know?...She's more than that...She's everything.<u>"</u></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">xoxoxox</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">~Chrys~</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><b><br /></b></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><b>Original MySpace Comments:</b></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></div><div id="CommentDiv_121608"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I have had her in my prayers since I found out...if prayers and the love of good friends were enough, she would be dancing around in the best health! Even though I am no longer on her friends list, I wish her the best and will continue to pray for her. She has had more than her share and deserves a little bit of happiness! {{{{HUGS}}}} to you and Elonna!</span><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a>on Monday, March 12, 2007 - 11:31 AM</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div id="CommentDiv_121613"><div align="center">thank you mamma!!! xoxoxo</div><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Monday, March 12, 2007 - 11:35 AM</div><br /><br /><div id="CommentDiv_123036">You are doing all you can.. honestly I haven't felt very strong since I found out.. between the fits of tears I send her everything I have inside.. I miss her too. ~hugs~ Chrys.. keep faith that she is gonna beat this.. we won't have it any other way.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">fairreegrl</a>on Tuesday, March 13, 2007 - 12:42 AM</div><br /><br /><div id="CommentDiv_123353">Just a temporary lapse in emotions I suppose. I just miss her a great deal. ~sighs~ But, I KNOW, she WILL beat it!!!<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Tuesday, March 13, 2007 - 8:10 AM</div><br /><br /><br /><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></div><div id="CommentDiv_123835">Damn straight she will.. if there is one thing our sister is.. it's a survivor. And it may sound selfish but damn if I am letting her go w/out a major f'n fight... But I know what you mean.. my cyberspace feels empty without my SS and sometimes I feel so overwhelmed.. Sending lots of ~hugs~ Chrys.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">fairreegrl</a>on Tuesday, March 13, 2007 - 3:19 PM</div><br /><br /><div id="CommentDiv_130460"><span style="color: #009900;"><strong>Lady Elonna, I pray for you that the Holy Trinity watch over you and keep you safe. You have my prayers & thoughts May the Holy Trinity bless you in so many ways!</strong></span><br /><strong><span style="color: #009900;">Ken</span></strong><br /><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121240986" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣Ken Scott♣</a>on Friday, March 16, 2007 - 1:47 PM</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-59985924728490570552007-03-06T21:24:00.000-05:002010-10-26T21:30:37.872-04:00iPods and Guinness Part 1 and 2I still can't figure out my audio and video problem. Ugh. So maybe this YouTube thing just isn't for me.<br /><br />So, this is me, having a drink (go figure) talking about my fabulous U2 iPod (that my husband purchased) and all things Irish. <br /><br />I wish Elonna well, showing off a card I made and pray she beats her cancer.<br /><br />Have I ever told you how much I like Guinness?<br /><br /><object style="background-image:url(http://i4.ytimg.com/vi/kPhgnKWAi4k/hqdefault.jpg)" width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/kPhgnKWAi4k?fs=1&hl=en_US"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/kPhgnKWAi4k?fs=1&hl=en_US" width="425" height="344" allowScriptAccess="never" allowFullScreen="true" wmode="transparent" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed></object><br /><br />Introducing Amaretto!<br /><br /><object style="background-image:url(http://i3.ytimg.com/vi/R5kd2N4Vfhw/hqdefault.jpg)" width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/R5kd2N4Vfhw?fs=1&hl=en_US"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/R5kd2N4Vfhw?fs=1&hl=en_US" width="425" height="344" allowScriptAccess="never" allowFullScreen="true" wmode="transparent" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed></object>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-4013847973742736762007-03-06T21:20:00.000-05:002010-10-26T21:24:09.293-04:00Ryan and Me on YouTubeHair Licker!<br /><br />Just some random babble about my fabulous, soon to be adopted brother, Ryan ;0<br /><br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/0EQCPpM-lYE?fs=1&hl=en_US"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/0EQCPpM-lYE?fs=1&hl=en_US" width="425" height="344" allowScriptAccess="never" allowFullScreen="true" wmode="transparent" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed></object>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-69594096684145368442007-03-03T14:14:00.004-05:002010-11-15T14:18:36.008-05:00What’s Up With Chrys – Volume 1 for 2007-The Match<iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=B0000714BW&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe><br /><div class="MsoNormal">It’s been a while since I wrote an what’s up with Chrys blog, and I know it’s long overdue.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So this blog is all over the place. But, I just have so much I want to say. It’s been growing inside of me for so long now, that I just need to get this out. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The Match Maker. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">How I simply adore this movie. No, I am not talking about the 1960ish B&W version. But rather, the 1997 version. With <a href="http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0000413/"><span class="Hyperlink3"><span style="color: windowtext;">Janeane Garofalo</span></span></a> & <a href="http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0641244/"><span class="Hyperlink3"><span style="color: windowtext;">David O'Hara</span></span></a>.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">You see, if not for my sistagirl Elonna, I likely would have forgotten all about this movie. Having seen it so long ago just in passing, and always passing it up on the movie store shelves for something newer and hipper. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">At any point, last year, she reminded me. I bought it, and have never looked back. For a while there I was watching the movie almost daily. Then weekly, then…well you get the idea. I had not watched the movie in some time because of all the memories tied behind it. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The story is a simple on. Girl meets boy. Boy meets girl. Boy and girl have a few obstacles in the way. Girl and Boy fall in love and all works out in the end. Typical movie, right?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Right.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">But, this movie, it hit so many things inside of me. For, even the simplest of love stories can touch someone just the right way. Captures them and never lets them go. And this for me is one of those stories. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Marcy is from <st1:city w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Boston</st1:place></st1:city>. A senator’s assistant. He sends her over to <st1:country-region w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Ireland</st1:place></st1:country-region> to trace his roots for an up and coming election. She does not find his roots, however, what she does find, is her soul mate. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I’ve always been confused about love. Having seen it in such a screwed up manner growing up. Always questioning it. Never really knowing it. Always afraid of it. Not sure what to do with it. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I met Marcus, and it seemed as if that was love. It was all the right things at the right time. But, I always felt like something was missing. Not knowing what that was I just went along in life as I should.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We have had our bumps in the road. I have had my eyes opened about many things regarding this relationship. And now days, we do what works best for us. Whether that’s a good marriage in your eyes makes no difference to me. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Having said that, this isn’t really what this blog is about. Rather, this blog is about someone else. And my meeting that someone else. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I always believe everyone comes into your life for a reason. And this proved no different. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Joey introduced us Dec 2005. I remember the first time we spoke, like it was yesterday. It was a friendly conversation from that point on. Always full of laughter and smiles. We shared stories together through the holidays. I was always eager to hear was he was going to tell me next. But then, I got word that my gramps was very sick. And the next thing I know, I am taking a long road trip in the middle of winter, heading north for a funeral. Nothing in life could have ever prepared me for losing my gramps. He was my rock. My solid foundation of who I was and where I came from. Losing that was like losing a part of me. As I have talked about in past blogs, this event was horrible. The entire weekend was horrible. But, in the middle of everything, here I was, my feet stuck, unable to move. Everything else was moving around beside me, but I was standing still. It was a feeling like no other. I could not go in to that room. The room where my grandfather lay for his wake. But then, it happened. What I felt, was a feeling unlike anything else. What a heard, was his voice. Sean. A million miles away, and I heard him. Calling out to me. I felt him there, with me. Pulling me along. Telling me to be strong, that I was his girl and that I could do anything. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It was an overwhelming feeling that just about brought me to my knees. A feeling I would never forget. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I did it. His encouragement came when I needed it the most. He was there for me in a way no one else in the world could ever be. He called out to me, and I heard him. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">It was also the scariest thing in the world. For this opened up a whole new world. A world I did not know. Wasn’t sure I wanted to know. But, he was there. And there he stayed. And here he has always been.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">After my gramps death, I went through a very rough stage in life. And Sean was always there, cheering me on. Even when he and I parted ways in our relationship, even when I landed in the arms of Lonnie, his best mate, even when we went through our darkest points together, there he was. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This man has touched a part of me no other has ever touched, my soul. There is magic there, between us. The harder I try to deny it, run from it, be scared of it, the harder it drops me to my knees. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Well, no more.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am not running any more. After losing Lonnie, we see, life is much too short. I’m not running any more. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Recently, out of my own actions, I almost lost Sean. Not purposely. But, it happened. The thought of losing him, almost killed me. It was not something I wanted to bare. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s not something I want to go through again. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">We may never get that chance to be together. We may never get to hold each other in our arms. We many never get to do a lot of things together in life. But, that’s OK. Because what we do have is simple, pure love. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I was reminded of this movie, right around the time Sean and I had parted ways. Deciding we would be better off just as friends. Thinking it would be best for him to work on his marriage.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There is a song, Haunted, that he used to play for me. To this day, that song remains a constant reminder of us. What we mean to the other. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When I watched that movie, I cried. And I am not talking a few “oh that’s a great chick flick” movie tears, I am talking an all out war with my leaky eyeballs kind of tears. When I see this movie, I get so much emotion running through my veins. I see the shores of <st1:country-region w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Ireland</st1:place></st1:country-region>, and I know, in my heart, that’s where I long to be. I see this love, this sharing of souls, and I know I want to have that too.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Everything the characters in this movie see together and share, I want that. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Last night, I had a bad case of insomnia. Looking through the stack on movies, I saw an old familiar one covered in dust. I thought the time was right to bring it back.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Blowing away the dust I stuck the DVD in the player. I watched this movie unfold before me and it was as if I had never seen it before. Wide awake, eyes glued to the tube, I felt a smile pass over my face. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Many of you know the long and complicated story that surrounds Lonnie, Sean and I. So you know this road for Sean and I as well as the rest of our mates has not been an easy one. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">When Lonnie first passed away, I felt him. Beside me. With me. Like he was trying to tell me something. I figured it out. Slowly. But, with Lonnie gone and Sean away, I was just having a really hard time trying to find myself again. Just this constant ball of emotions. And yeah, I ran right into the arms of someone else. Someone who got caught up in the web. I saw Lonnie, once. And he did not smile. It was a look that scared me. I never talked with it to anyone but Joey. I thought, maybe it was too soon after Lonnie’s passing. To this day, I still don’t really know. But, I had to let that man go. It was not fair to be caught up in my web. When Sean was able to have contact with the outside world again, I knew what I needed to do. I needed to stand beside Sean. I needed to be His Girl again. He found out about the guy, and it was an ugly ordeal. And that’s when it all came down around me. I was about to lose someone that was indeed special to me. That was a very part of me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Now, we heal and we mend our loss together. We walk hand in hand, side by side. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I watched that movie with eager anticipation. Taking it all in. Remembering all the stories Sean had told me. Reminding myself of all the talks we had about my trip to <st1:city w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Dublin</st1:place></st1:city>. My family and Sean’s come from the same area. Sean would talk about where he wanted to take me. I imagined what it would be like, Sean showing me around our families place. I saw it through the eyes of this movie. The air, the people, the green land, the ocean waves. All of it. Just as I imagined. Those thoughts are still with me. They have been awakened again. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Sean and I, we have a lot of obstacles to overcome in life. But, it warms the heart to know we can work things out together. I can understand and accept him; he can understand and accept me. All we need is our love to keep it together. And I am convinced, we will always have that.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I laid down, for a short time today. I felt him, there. That familiar smell. I was not scared. And there our Lonnie was. Smiles. He was smiling. Just the way I had always seen him before. The way I will always remember him. It was then, I knew, I was back on track and following the right path in life. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have indeed met my match. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-66022068451940178712007-03-01T21:18:00.000-05:002010-10-26T21:20:15.600-04:00Another Video on the TubeI talk about Elonna having cancer and touch on the loss of Lonnie. My kitty Belle is in the background. <br /><br /><object style="background-image:url(http://i2.ytimg.com/vi/UPLGkeyls5g/hqdefault.jpg)" width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/UPLGkeyls5g?fs=1&hl=en_US"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/UPLGkeyls5g?fs=1&hl=en_US" width="425" height="344" allowScriptAccess="never" allowFullScreen="true" wmode="transparent" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed></object>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-45081944395755941132007-03-01T12:38:00.004-05:002010-12-23T14:05:36.899-05:00Poetry In Motion: Fantasy World<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 14pt;">Caught up in a fantasy world<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 14pt;">Know longer knowing<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 14pt;">what is real<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 14pt;">what is make believe.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 14pt;">But these feelings<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 14pt;">this love<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 14pt;">this heartache<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 14pt;">wanting<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 14pt;">longing <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 14pt;">needing<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 14pt;">Sure seems real to me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 14pt;">How does one know?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 14pt;">I keep<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 14pt;">Running<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 14pt;">Jumping<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 14pt;">Head spinning<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 14pt;">Out of control<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 14pt;">Peal back the layers<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 14pt;">See what’s underneath<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 14pt;">Hold fast<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 14pt;">Hold tight<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 14pt;">Loosing everything in sight<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 14pt;">It’s so out of reach.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 14pt;">© C.H. 3/2007<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-5433784564430252962007-02-28T22:55:00.001-05:002010-10-26T22:59:34.120-04:00Look What You Have Done ~War Inside My Head<div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/waitingfor22.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';">"Look What You Have Done!" my brain screams and I hang my head in shame.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';">Will this war inside my head ever end?</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';">The kind thing.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';">The right thing.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';">How do I know? What choice do I make? What path do I take?</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';">Oh yeah, looks like I already made those choices. Took that path. And damnit if those answers still are not clear to me.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';">Oops. Easiest word in the world to say, easiest way to get out of something that was indeed your fault. Oops. Very simple word. Simple to say, simple to write, and simple to walk away from. Or so I thought. Oops sums things up very nicely. Nothing else is needed to be said after saying, oops. Right? By saying oops, that's pretty much an admittance that you realize you have messed up.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';">Except in my case. There is plenty more to say here after saying oops. You see, I have a very big oops going on here. Likely the biggest oops I have ever made.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';">A big oops that has caused 2 people very close to my heart to come to blows with each other. I'd say I was to blame, that I feel guilty, responsible – Basically I feel like it's all my damn fault. No matter how hard I try to shake the feeling, I just can not get rid of it. I big oops that has caused another to get tangled up in this web. Will I ever make things right? I doubt it. No amount of apologizing is going to align the stars again. It's not going to bring Lonnie back. It's not going to get Sean out. Not going to make our future bright and cheery. And it's not going to save Brian's heart.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';">Is it an oops? Or is it a Sorry? Either or.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';">I realized that no amount of time is going to mend my loss of Lonnie. It's forever going to be a part of me. I thought I could push it aside. Maybe sweep it under a rug and forget about it. That worked, for a while. I felt myself pulling away from those that were close to him. Not wanting to be reminded of him. Not wanting to be reminded what I had to do with it. Nothing lasted long. I am forever going to hold myself accountable for my part it in. People have tried to tell me, I am not to blame. I tried to believe them. But I can't. It's something that haunts me in my sleep. Picks at me when I am awake. Once in a while I shake it, and just when I think the game is over…it picks at me again. Will I ever be free of this demon of guilt and shame?</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';">Nothing I can do but accept it and move on. Easier said then done.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';">So much left to say, but nothing comes out at all. Sorry. I am full of sorry. But that doesn't matter. No amount of sorry is going to change anything.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';">Sean, <strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;">mo chroí. Always my Irish One.</span></strong></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;">Brian, I am sorry.</span></strong></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;">Lonnie, RIP, I miss you.</span></strong></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;"><o:p></o:p></span></strong></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';">I should be punished too. Why does Sean have to go at it alone? It's just not fair. Those who know me and the story with Sean know I would do anything for him. Anything at all. He means the world to me. And this time, it's no different. He should not be the only one punished for Lonnie. So, I am doing what I can do. And that is just being there for Sean. Any way he needs me.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';">But, there is one thing I can not do, and that is be someone I am not. I have worked too hard in life to be more accepting of the girl that I am. And I guess I just expect those in my life, to be as accep</span><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';">ting of me as I am.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;"><o:p></o:p></span></strong></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;">Well that and I can't bring Lonnie back.</span></strong></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;"><o:p></o:p></span></strong></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;"><o:p></o:p></span></strong></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;">I don't know what to do anymore. I'm trying to just go one foot in front of the other. Trying to make things right. Do what's right. But that does not seem to be working for me. I keep getting stuck in these damn pot holes. Lingering. Waiting. Wanting so much more. I am really tired of it all really just want to give up. Blah. I hate feelings this way.</span></strong></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;"><o:p></o:p></span></strong></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;"><o:p></o:p></span></strong></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;">I just want to stay here, in my little hole. Not wanting anyone to reach me. Being here alone means I can't hurt those around me. I can't get anyone else tangled in my web. It's safe here. Maybe I will stay here a while longer.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow';">Original MySpace Comments:</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span></strong><br /><div id="CommentDiv_95029"><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;">I understand. And...I forgive you.<br /> </span></strong></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;">Posted by Brian <a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=128557798" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"></a>on Wednesday, February 28, 2007 - 9:55 PM</span></strong></div><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;"><br /><br /><div id="CommentDiv_95863">Thank you for being so understanding Brian. I am glad we were able to work thru things and remain friends. You are a dear soul. Don't cut yourself short in life. Now then, if only I can forgive myself, maybe the stars will align again in life.<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Thursday, March 01, 2007 - 10:46 AM</div><br /><br /><div id="CommentDiv_95832"><center>~crawlin down into yer hole with you, just holdin ya close to me... lettin ya rest yer head in mylap as i stroke yer hair...~ i have nothin wise, no life-lessons. only i am here for you as always.. and as you have always been for me.. i didn't bring the teddy.. that's yours ad joey's.. did bring the double headed dildo *wigglin my brows suggestively* LMMFAO.. hey, if i get to make inappropriate jokes in the middle of my cat dyin and me comin down with cancer i certainly get to make them here ~stickin my tongue out at you before givin ya a tickly tongue bath all over~<br /> </center></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=39469127" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">∞♥∞Elonna∞♥∞</a>on Thursday, March 01, 2007 - 10:24 AM</div><br /><br /></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span></strong><br /><div id="CommentDiv_95861"><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;">~perks up~</span></strong></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;">hehehe...girl you knows I am at work..how am I suppose to respond properly? Sick and twisted wench, must be why I loves ya so!!</span></strong></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;">Double headed dildo you say?? hhhmmmmm...</span></strong></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;">~insert big cheezy smile here~</span></strong></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;">My sistagurl, ~wraps me arms around ye and holds you tight~ I too, have been at a loss for words as of late. Daily blog postings have turned into weeks.</span></strong></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;"> I got teddy here with me. Hanging on to him for dear life. He's pretty wet and soggy right now from my damn leaky eyeballs. Stupid fuckers, why can't I shut them off?</span></strong></div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;">Wiggles around in giggles as you errrrrrr...ummmm...tongue me? hahahaha</span></strong></div><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;"><br /> </span></strong></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Thursday, March 01, 2007 - 10:44 AM</span></strong></div><strong><span style="font-family: 'Arial Narrow'; font-weight: normal;"><br /><br /></span></strong></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-81498767339843424102007-02-26T21:04:00.000-05:002010-10-26T21:07:36.898-04:00I'm Gone~ No Way to Reach Me~So Let Me GO!<div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/ibelieveintales.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Here I sit. Blank page staring at me. So many thoughts rambling around in my head but I don't even know where to start. Even if I started, I wonder can I even put the words together right?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I've got plenty to say. But yet, nothing wants to come out.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">My mind keeps roaming around in search of a complete thought. I'm so numb I can't feel a damn thing. I am so far gone I don't think anyone can find me. <span> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">And why would anyone want to? I would be useless to them.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am no longer anyone. I am nothing. Simply, I am gone.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I know I am lost. I can feel it. I see it. The way I am pulling away from all those around me. Secluding myself back into my own little world. This time, I didn't leave myself a trail to find my way back. I don't want to come back. Coming back from the world I am in means I am forced to feel.<span> </span>I don't want to feel. I felt enough in the beginning of this. Now, it literally is killing me. I numb it. I numb it to live.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">There really is no way to reach me.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Maybe I don't want to find my way back. Maybe I deserve nothing more then to be here, alone to rot. No one will find me. My body long decayed. <span> </span>No one will even notice I am gone.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The mask is back and I have no choice. <span> </span>I know I can't be down. I know I can't let the depression kick back it. I tried to push it away. I tried to stay positive and seek out what makes me happy and hold on to it. It's not working. I guess I really don't deserve to be happy. Every time I am happy, it get kicked down. Why even bother. May as well just stay down. <span> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span></span>Simple. Easy. Less drama.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">It doesn't fucking matter. Does it?</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">Deep inside the darkness pulls me. I feel myself caving in. Going back to that place. That darkness. It welcomes me with open arms.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I am falling into my hole. My deep, dark, cold and lonely hole. No one is there but me. Alone with my thoughts.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">These thoughts consume me. Haunt me. I awake with these thoughts that follow me around all day. I sleep, these thoughts invade my dreams.<span> </span>I can't escape them. It's just me and these thoughts. Day after day after day.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The one thing I want in this world. Gone. Out of my reach. The one thing I need is this world. Gone.<span> </span>I have lost my strength. I want to hold on. Hard to hold on to something that seems so out of reach. Hard to hold on to something that possibly doesn't want to be held on to.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I believe my fairytale ending has died. May as well let myself go along with it.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I'll keep my mask on and go about my life. Still Chrys to those who see my outside.<span> </span>Everything else will be kept behind it so that no one will see the demons I hide.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">I'm Gone. And there really is no way to reach me……….</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">© C.H.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/As.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">******************************************************************</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;">The day's last one-way ticket train pulls in<br />We smile for the casual closure capturing<br />There goes the downpour<br />There goes my fare thee well<br /><br />There's really no way to reach me<br />There's really no way to reach me<br />There's really no way to reach me<br />'Cause I'm already gone<br /><br />There's so many words that we can say<br />Spoken upon long-distance melody<br />This is my hello<br />This is my goodness<br /><br />There's really no way to reach me<br />There's really no way to reach me<br />There's really no way to reach me<br />'Cause I'm already gone<br /><br />Maybe in five or ten yours and mine will meet again<br />Straighten this whole thing out<br />Maybe then honesty need not be feared as a friend or an enemy<br />But this is the distance<br />And this is my gameface<br /><br />There's really no way to reach me<br />There's really no way to reach me<br />Is there really no way to reach me?<br />Am I already gone?<br />So this is your maverick<br />And this is Vienna<br />Vienna - The Fray</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><b>Original MySpace Comments:</b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></div><div id="CommentDiv_91332">I can relate to this so much its scary...<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=128557798" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"></a>on Tuesday, February 27, 2007 - 12:54 AM</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><div id="CommentDiv_139812">I had that dark enter reach feel,too.Believe me is a lot scray the way she put it.<img src="http://x.myspace.com/images/blog/smileys/enthralled.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a>on Tuesday, March 20, 2007 - 1:29 AM</div><br /><br /></div><span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-54002735766921653402007-02-24T23:01:00.001-05:002010-11-17T16:27:19.133-05:00Poetry In Motion: I Bleed For You<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/Blood/Blood___Colored_Version_by_HisN.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;">I bleed for you</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;"></span><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;">Crimson red</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;">Drip</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;">drop<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;">Drip</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;"> drop<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;">Deep in a pool of blood<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;">Then,</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;">comes a tear<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;">One<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;">Then another<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;">More follow<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;">Drip</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;">drop<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;">Drip</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;">drop<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;">Falling</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;">i</span><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;">n that pool of blood<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;">Mixing<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;">Emotions<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;">Entwined<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;">Entangled<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;">My heart<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;">Now mangled<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;">© C.H.2007</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;">Original myspace comments:</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 14pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span></div><div id="CommentDiv_84462"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Wow! Dark. But pretty awesome!</span><br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42270576" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Cathy</a>on Saturday, February 24, 2007 - 6:00 AM</div><br /><br /><div id="CommentDiv_86863">very excellency<br /></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a>on Saturday, February 24, 2007 - 11:24 PM</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-61366348734539611102007-02-24T22:59:00.002-05:002010-12-23T14:06:03.210-05:00Poetry In Motion: Just to Seek Your Love<div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC'; font-size: 20pt;">Just want to seek your love<br />And you to call my name<br />But I'm tied to another heart<br />Like a ball and chain<br />Shackled to a touch<br />That's as cold as steel<br />And all I need is for you to say to me<br />That our love is real</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC'; font-size: 20pt;"></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC'; font-size: 20pt;">Just to hear those words<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC'; font-size: 20pt;">Coming straight from you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC'; font-size: 20pt;">Is all I need<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC'; font-size: 20pt;">To cut the ties<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC'; font-size: 20pt;">to break these chains<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC'; font-size: 20pt;">to end this pain<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC'; font-size: 20pt;">and set me free.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC'; font-size: 20pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC'; font-size: 20pt;">I'll run right back to you.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC'; font-size: 20pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC'; font-size: 20pt;">© C.H. 2/2007</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC'; font-size: 20pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC'; font-size: 20pt;">Original MySpace Comment:</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC'; font-size: 20pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span></div><div id="CommentDiv_86854">It is true that love can made you feel that way something or even more worse.</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a>on Saturday, February 24, 2007 - 11:22 PM</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-66515634181738050062007-02-20T23:03:00.002-05:002010-12-23T14:06:16.308-05:00Poetry In Motion: Let Me Walk Alone<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;"></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">LET ME WALK ALONE </span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">(C) C.H.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;"></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">Let go of my hand<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">Let me walk alone<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">I know the place<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">that I must go.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">Please don't stand there<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;"> beside me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">For this is my own journey<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;"> so let me be.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">I'm going to my dark corner<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;"> of my little world<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;"> the dark sea of cold<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;"> and loneliness.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">You can not protect me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;"> or keep me from the pain.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">It's already happened<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;"> come at me like a huge freight train.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">My inner child has taken over<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;"> and this time I must go.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">I heard her calling me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;"> so I followed her to my hole.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">It's cold<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">It's dark<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">And it lonely<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">I won't lie.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">But I really feel,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">I have to go.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">Don't reach for me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">for it's too late<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">I've already passed<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">the opening gate.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">Just let me go<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">Just let me be<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">No need to waste<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">your time and energy.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">For, only I can deal<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">with my own insanity.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">2007</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;">Original MySpace Comments:</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 16pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span></div><div id="CommentDiv_86876">cold and dark, I feels that way alot of time</div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a>on Saturday, February 24, 2007 - 11:26 PM</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-2745686546827135572007-02-17T21:45:00.001-05:002010-11-16T21:46:21.469-05:00Joey: Please<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"></span><br /><h4 class="subject" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 1.2em; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-rendering: optimizelegibility; vertical-align: baseline;"><a href="http://www.myspace.com/i_am_joeyv/blog/231266712" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #88181b; font-family: inherit; font-size: 13px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">Please</a></h4><div class="blogContent" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Everyone who knows Joey knows how much I loves me darlin Elonna. She is very ill right now. Was just released from hospital. I am so worried bout her I kin hardly stand it mates.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Please everyone keep her in yer thoughts. I aint a religious man but those who are if ya could pray fer her. Those like me who are into magic please send her yer healin energy. No matter what please keep her in yer thoughts.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">~hugs kisses lick n smacks~</div></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-79785160136128768702007-02-16T21:07:00.000-05:002010-10-26T21:09:06.591-04:00~Souls and Stars~<div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="color: #330033; font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Irish/Couple/StPats_RM_2_Sm_LDM1122.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="color: #330033; font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Thou sayest the fate is frosty nothing,</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="color: #330033; font-family: Verdana;">But love the flame of souls that are:</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="color: #330033; font-family: Verdana;">"Two spirits approach, and at their touching,</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="color: #330033; font-family: Verdana;">Behold! An everlasting star."</span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span style="color: #330033; font-family: Verdana;">~William Larmine</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-38202164366942270102007-02-15T21:59:00.001-05:002010-11-16T22:00:02.086-05:00Sean: Happy<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"></span><br /><h4 class="subject" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 1.2em; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-rendering: optimizelegibility; vertical-align: baseline;"><a href="http://www.myspace.com/43233455/blog/230470684" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-family: inherit; font-size: 13px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">happy...</a></h4><div class="blogContent" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">4 some one in the horrible sitchy my self tis in...i am happy 4 only 1 thing... that me darling beauty....me sexee one.. still loves me. tis more than i ever expected.. more than i deserve...but turning down her love i will not be doing. even if she be 2 good 4 me...i can not stay away...4 i love her so. i always will...tis inn the stars.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; 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width: 39.5161px;" /></a></div></aside><section class="userComment" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; display: block; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 45px; margin-right: 50px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><div class="autoResize comment" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; float: none; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; min-height: 20px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; word-wrap: break-word;"><a class="msProfileTextLink" href="http://www.myspace.com/theoriginalirishchik" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" title="♣IrishChik♣">♣IrishChik♣</a><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Happy again?</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Yeah...for us... We rock this world baby!<br />I love you SO much.</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">You have no idea how HAPPY I am. Just to have your love. Just to have you back , so close to me. My Irish One. My Beast. My Master.</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">I love you Sean.</div></div><ul class="mediaAction" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><li id="ctl00_ctl18_ctl31_ctl00_ctl06_ctl01_commentReply" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; float: left; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><a class="commentReply" href="http://www.myspace.com/43233455/blog/230470684#" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #0076de; font-family: inherit; font-size: 10px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">Reply<span style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #999999; display: inline; font-family: inherit; font-size: 10px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"></span></a></li></ul><span class="datePosted" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #999999; display: inline-block; font-family: inherit; font-size: 10px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" ts="633086692800000000">2 years ago</span><div class="clear" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; clear: both !important; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"></div></section></div></li><li class="odd last " id="comment_1842448705_12_43233455_230470684_224845860_152385547" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; 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margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top; width: 35px; word-wrap: break-word;"><img alt="♣IrishChik♣" class="profileimage photo loaded resized profilePicLoaded" data-friendid="152385547" data-src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" src="http://c4.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/s_c02244b0631c5cebe3e648b2b9429113.jpg" style="border-bottom-left-radius: 4px 4px; border-bottom-right-radius: 4px 4px; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-left-radius: 4px 4px; border-top-right-radius: 4px 4px; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; height: 35px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; width: 39.5161px;" /></a></div></aside><section class="userComment" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; display: block; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 45px; margin-right: 50px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><div class="autoResize comment" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; float: none; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; min-height: 20px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline; word-wrap: break-word;"><a class="msProfileTextLink" href="http://www.myspace.com/theoriginalirishchik" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" title="♣IrishChik♣">♣IrishChik♣</a><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">You and I have never really followed the beaten path have we? Sean, I told you long ago, that no matter what, no matter how far we walked away from each other, that we would always have our love. Our love with remain a constant. It was not going anyplace. We have walked off that path together more then once. But, we have always found our way back. I will never leave you Sean. I mean that. We will always be a part of each others lives no matter what. I am standing right beside you</div></div><ul class="mediaAction" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><li id="ctl00_ctl18_ctl31_ctl00_ctl06_ctl02_commentReply" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; float: left; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><a class="commentReply" href="http://www.myspace.com/43233455/blog/230470684#" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #0076de; font-family: inherit; font-size: 10px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">Reply<span style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #999999; display: inline; font-family: inherit; font-size: 10px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: top;">(1)</span></a></li></ul><span class="datePosted" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #999999; display: inline-block; font-family: inherit; font-size: 10px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" ts="633071274600000000">2 years ago</span><div class="clear" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; 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vertical-align: baseline;" title="♣IrishChik♣">♣IrishChik♣</a><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">PS- I DO love you Irish One! ~kisses~</div></div><ul class="mediaAction" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><li id="ctl00_ctl18_ctl31_ctl00_ctl06_ctl02_childRptComments_ctl00_commentReply" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; float: left; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><a class="commentReply" href="http://www.myspace.com/43233455/blog/230470684#" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #0076de; font-family: inherit; font-size: 10px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">Reply<span style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #999999; display: inline; font-family: inherit; font-size: 10px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"></span></a></li></ul><span class="datePosted" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #999999; display: inline-block; font-family: inherit; font-size: 10px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" ts="633071275200000000">2 years ago</span></section></div></li></ul></div></li></ul></span></center></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-88455194704755696612007-02-14T21:09:00.000-05:002010-10-26T21:17:58.400-04:00Today's Blog- I'm On YouTube! A Valentines Gift for You.<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Ok, so, since my space got hacked and ruined, I just have not felt like writing. And, I have become a You Tube addict. After a year being there, I felt it was time for everyone who I left comments for be able to see me. So, I made my very first vid. I would like to share it with all of my myspace friends. Maybe this is just the inspiration I need to get my writers block "un-blocked"</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span><br /><object style="background-image:url(http://i2.ytimg.com/vi/qhM1FtDTkS4/hqdefault.jpg)" width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/qhM1FtDTkS4?fs=1&hl=en_US"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/qhM1FtDTkS4?fs=1&hl=en_US" width="425" height="344" allowscriptaccess="never" allowfullscreen="true" wmode="transparent" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed></object>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-62380218461228423762007-02-10T21:48:00.001-05:002010-11-17T16:29:32.336-05:00Poetry In Motion:In Front of Me<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 20pt;">In Front Of Me</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 20pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 20pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 20pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 20pt;">I close my eyes<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 20pt;">there he is<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 20pt;">Turn the corner</span><span style="color: black;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 20pt;"> there he is</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 20pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 20pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 20pt;">Eyes open<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 20pt;">Eyes closed<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 20pt;">Nothing really there<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 20pt;"> nothing there at all.</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 20pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 20pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 20pt;">But yet,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 20pt;">there he always</span><span style="color: black;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 20pt;">seems to be.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 20pt;">Right there,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 20pt;"> always in front of me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-left: 0in; margin-right: 0in; margin-top: 0in; text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 20pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Old English Text MT'; font-size: 20pt;">(C)C.H.</span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">MySpace Original Comments:</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div id="CommentDiv_60844"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;">:::waves at u:::<br /> </span></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=43233455" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Sean</a>on Wednesday, February 14, 2007 - 9:55 AM</span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><br /><br /></span><br /><div id="CommentDiv_61002"><div align="center"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;">hiya sweetpea!</span></div><div align="center"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;">~waves back at'cha~</span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=152385547" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">♣IrishChik♣</a>on Wednesday, February 14, 2007 - 12:05 PM</span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><br /><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span></span><br /><div id="CommentDiv_68337"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;">That is so beautiful<br /> </span></div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a>on Saturday, February 17, 2007 - 1:08 AM</span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><br /><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-33599834532946458902007-02-06T21:55:00.001-05:002010-12-22T17:38:38.639-05:00~Reflections~<dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div>1) Was 2006 a good year for you?<br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">It was a serious coaster ride. It had many up and downs. Death. Depression. Heartache. Illness. But, on the flip side, I grew, I lived, and I learned. I had to overcome many things, and I did. For me, that is something to celebrate. And now, I face each day as best as I can, with a smile to help push me forward.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">2) What was your favorite moment of the year? </span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">When I finally was offered a great job and got out of a serious 6 month long stay in bed depression.</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Yes, it really was that bad.</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">3) What was your least favorite moment of the year? </span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Jan 3 - the loss of my grandfather</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Dec 6 - the loss of my dear sweet love, Lonnie</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">4) Where were you when 2006 began?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">in Okie, where I always am.</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">5) Who were you with?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">When the new year hit in Ireland (6pm okie time) I was with Elonna and Sean. When the new year hit in Okie time I was with Marcus.</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">6) Where will you be when 2006 ends?</span><br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Someplace with Marcus I am sure, since it is also my anniversary.</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">7) Who will you be with when 2006 ends?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">See #6</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2006?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"></span></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">I didnt make any. I was too depressed to care.</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">9) Do you have a new years resolution for 2007?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><strong>Yes, to keep taking charge of my health. And get my ass to Ireland once and for all.</strong></span></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><strong></strong></span><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">10) Did you fall in love in 2006?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Yes. More then once. Love that will forever be with me. Forever a part of me. Never having any regrets.</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">11) If yes, with whom?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Everyone here pretty much knows the answer to that, for it was with Sean, then with Lonnie.</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">12) If yes, do they know?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Of course they do. For they love me just the same. </span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">13) Are you still in love with them?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"></span></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">YES!! I will always love Lonnie. He is my guardian angel now. Forever a part of me. R.I.P. And I will always have a love for Sean.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">14) Do you regret it?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Not at all. And never will. And I mean that, NEVER. For in this life I have learned, live life, no regrets. Learn and move on.</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">15) Did you break up with anyone in 2006?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">No. Sean and I parted ways mutually although that love was still there. We always found a way back to each other. And well, Lonnie and I didnt not ever break up. You all know what happened there. If you don't, then I suggest you go back a few blogs and read.</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">16) Did you make any new friends in 2006?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">I sure as heck did. LOTS of them!</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">17) Who are your favorite new friends?</span><br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">all of them....</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">18) What was your favorite month of 2006?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;">March and July</span></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">19) Did you travel outside of the country in 2006?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;">No :( ..... but I should have, was suppose to, and now wish I did.</span></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">20) How many different places did you travel to in 2006?</span><br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Michigan in Jan for gramps funeral, and again in Oct to visit mom and family</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2006? </span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;">My gramps in January, and my love, Lonnie in December.</span></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">22) Did you miss anybody in the past year?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">YES! My gramps. My mom when she moved to Michigan for good. My family. Some of my friends. And I miss Lonnie a whole hell of a lot right now.</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">23) What was your favourite movie that you saw in 2006? </span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Boondock Saints and The Wind that Shakes the Barley(thanks for that Patrick!)</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">24) What was your favourite song from 2006?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;">Oh I have a few:<br />1. One - U2 and Mary J Blige</span><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;">2. Far Away - Nickleback</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;">3. Window in the Skies - U2</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;">4. Red - WHY</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;">5. Gaurdian Angel - Red Jumpsuit Aparatus</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;">6. Tell Me Baby, Torture Me, Make You Feel Better & Hard to Concentrate - The Red Hot Chili Peppers</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;">7. Time of my Life - Justin Manville</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;">8. Savin Me - Nickleback</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;">9. Lips of an Angel - Hinder</span></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">25) What was your favourite album from 2006?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><strong>Hinder, Red Hot Chili Peppers and Red Jumpsuit Aparatus</strong></span></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><strong></strong></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">26) How many concerts did you see in 2006?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;">Zero</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">27) Did you have a favourite concert in 2006?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;">N/A</span></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">28) Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2006? </span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">More then my fair share, especially the first half of the year.</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2006?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Only those perscribed, and that was a whole hell of a lot for a while there between the depression, the stomach and intestinal illness and the back issues.</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">30) How many people did you sleep with in 2006? </span><br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">not answering this one... sorry guys</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?</span><br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">~SIGHS~ Yeah, maybe.</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">32) What was the biggest lie you told in 2006?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">wasnt so much that i lied, its what I kept to myself. But its pretty much all in the open now. </span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2006?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">I dont even want to go there right now. Sorry.</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2006?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">There was a period when I was not very nice to Sean. And I feel badly about that still. Even though we have made our peace about it long ago. There are some friends that reached out to me during my depression that I just didnt want to have to explain what was wrong with me. And I pushed away a lot of people. I regret that now.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2006? </span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Yeah, there were a few people that stepped on me and used me and treated me like shit. And all I got to say is, Kharma ...it's a bitch.</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">36) How much money did you spend in 2006?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"></span></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Since I started working again, I am sure way more then I should. </span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2006?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Oh! Lets see........</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2006 and change it, what would it be? </span><br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Most of you already know the answer to this. For that would be (1) to not have felt like I had to prove anything to "A", then maybe Lonnie would have never of gotten upset with me (2) that event caused the whole downfall of our relationship for then he felt I had left him and off he went to his ex (3) which led to him asking her to marry him for all the wrong reasons (4) which led to me finding out from everyone but him (5) when he did tell me I was very upset (6) and sean was already angry at him, which led me to rant and rave even more (7) knowing how sean still felt about me i should have kept my ranting and ravings to myself (8) perhaps the brawl with lonnie and sean would not have happened (9) perhaps lonnie would still be here (10) and sean would not be sitting in jail , where he was awaing trial for the murder of one of his best friends, but now, is going to be paroled and they are just trying to figure out when.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">40) What are your plans for 2007? </span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">To just keep plugging away at life one day at a time. To continue on the path of just being me.</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">41) What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">had to experience death of 2 people close to me</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">42) Did anyone close to you give birth?</span><br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">yeah my cousins</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">43) What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"></span></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Less anxiety and panic attacks. More time to write. More real friendships. Acceptance for the person I really am.</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">44) What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? </span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Jan 3 - gramps died</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">July 25 - started my new job</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Dec 6 - Lonnies death</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">I dont think any of these really need an answer as to why.</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">45) What was your biggest achievement of the year?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Getting a new job</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">46) What was your biggest failure?</span><br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">quiting my job after gramps death, dropping out of school, falling into a deep depression and not working for 6 months.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Losing Lonnie. </span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">47) What was the best thing you bought? </span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">My project (RED) Motorola Cell phone</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">48) Whose behaviour merited celebration?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">hmmmmmm.. Brett for sure. Hes accomplished SO much this year (woo hoo *wepod* I am so proud of you!)</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">49) Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">my own at the begining of the year</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">50) What did you get really, really, really excited about? </span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"></span></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Having a job again</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">51) Compared to this time last year, are you:</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">i. happier or sadder? </span><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;">Well this time last year I had just lost gramps, and was starting on my downward path to severe depression. Right now, I am still dealing with the guilt of Sean being in jail, and Lonnies death. Dealing with loss of Lonnie. But, all in all, I would have to say that I am in a better place today, then I was a year ago. I am dealing with things much better. Don't get me wrong, when I think of Lonnie or Sean I get a extreme feeling of sadness that sometimes overwhelms me. But, I am able to cope much better with it.</span></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;">I have great friends and people who love me that surround me. And that has helped a great deal.</span></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">ii. thinner or fatter? <strong>the same</strong></span></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">iii. richer or poorer? <strong>richer in so many ways</strong></span></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><strong></strong></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">52) What do you wish you'd done more of?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">exercised, listened to my docs</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">53) What do you wish you'd done less of?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;">Being depressed, blaming myself for so much</span></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">54) How will you be spending Christmas?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;">Spent it @ my in laws house.</span></span></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">55) How many one-night stands?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">ugh whats with these questions</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">56) What was your favourite TV program?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Miami Ink, Lost, Prison Break</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">57) Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">You know, I always say that hate is just a waste of my time. But, sadly, there are a few people that have burned me and I really am still pissed off as all hell about it, so yeah, some hatred is running through my irish blood right now.</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">58) What was the best book you read?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Oh gosh, I read so many I dont really know where to start.</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">59) What was your greatest musical discovery?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Christian Rock</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">60) What did you want and get?</span><br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">love</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">a better understanding of me from the hubby</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">61) What did you want and not get?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Peace within me</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">62) What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;">I went to arkansas and partied with my best friend steph and her husband and got my irish angel tattoo. I turned 31.</span></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">63) What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Not losing Lonnie.</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">64)How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006? </span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;">just me, relaxed and comfortable, at home, to relaxed professional at work.</span></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">65) What kept you sane?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Oh lord, I dont think I was sane much this year. But, Elonna helped me out a great deal.</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">66) Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-style: italic;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"></span></span></span></span><strong><em><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Colin of COURSE!!! And Cillian Murphy!</span></em></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><strong><em><span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span></em></strong><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">67) What political issue stirred you the most? </span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;">The war.</span></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;"></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">68) Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006.</span><br /><strong><span style="font-family: Verdana;">Life is too short for petty shit. Tell everyone just what is on your mind because tomorrow may be too late. That forever is a lie.</span></strong></div></dd><dd class="post-body last" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; margin-left: 30px;"><div class="content-wrapper"><br /><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">69) Quote a song lyric.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-weight: bold;">"<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">That I love you<br />i have="" loved="" you="" all="" along="" <br="">And I miss you<br />Been far away for far too long<br />I keep dreaming you'll be with me<br />and you'll never go<br />Stop breathing if<br />I don't see you anymore "<br />i></br=""></span><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">70) Favorite discovered quote.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><strong>""I'm troubled, I'm dissatisfied. I'm Irish."" •Marianne Moore</strong></span></div></dd>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-45109119409219839092007-02-06T21:52:00.000-05:002010-10-26T21:55:10.715-04:00Haunted<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">"Haunted"</span></span></span><br /><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;"><span style="color: green;"></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;"><span style="color: black;"></span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">Those words</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">they keep playing</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">over and over</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">in my mind.</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;"><span style="color: black;"></span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">I must have played that song</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">a thousand times.</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;"><span style="color: black;"></span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">Words so powerful</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">yet somehow</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">so chilling.</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;"><span style="color: black;"></span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">"I want to be haunted by the ghost..</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;"><span></span><span style="color: black;">your precious ghost..</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;"><span></span><span style="color: black;">the precious ghost of you."</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;"><span style="color: black;"></span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">I close my eyes to sleep</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">I see you in my dreams.</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">When I am awake</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">I catch a glimpse of you</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">in the corner of my eye.</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">I turn, to take a look</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">knowing, you are really not there.</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">I feel you.</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">I always feel you with me.</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">Your presence is strong,</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">powerful and great.</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">Your thoughts</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">they haunt my mind.</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;"><span style="color: black;"></span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">I am truly haunted by the ghost of you.</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;"><span style="color: black;"></span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">When I smell, that familiar smell</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">at that moment,</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">I know</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">you are there</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">thinking of me too.</span></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green;"><span style="color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;"><br /></span></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Gungsuh; font-size: 16pt;"><span style="color: black;">© C.H.</span></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span>MySpace Original Comments:<br /><br /><div id="CommentDiv_40933" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><strong><span style="color: #006600;">OMG...MAKE A SISTA CRY...THAT IS AMAZINGLY BEAUTIFUL CHRYS...TOTALY CAN TELL IT COMES STRAIGHT FOR THE HEART!!!</span></strong><br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=142579460" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;"></a>on Tuesday, February 06, 2007 - 7:59 PM</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><div id="CommentDiv_68345">I love that<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=32959864" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">Tabitha</a>on Saturday, February 17, 2007 - 1:10 AM</div><br /><br /><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-91104572651124508132007-02-03T21:56:00.000-05:002010-10-26T21:58:16.193-04:00YEAH!! Finally GOOD News!<div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">Yeah!!</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">All the prayers and positive thoughts sent Seans way, just may have worked!</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">Just got word this AM from Joey that Sean has been paroled!</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">I am not sure when he will be released and when he will be home.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">But, at least it is some good news!</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><div style="text-align: center;">*kisses my Irish One....hope to cross paths soon.*</div><div style="text-align: center;">I Miss You!</div><br /><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-44043992274855202682007-02-02T21:58:00.000-05:002010-10-26T21:59:51.307-04:00I Will.....Again<div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><img src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Love%20Hugs%20Kisses/If22.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">"I Will Learn To Love Again"<br /><br />(To love again...)<br /><br />Drowning in tears that wont be me<br />I will soon be free the chains of all this pain inside<br />And though I cry it wont be long till I regain the strength to know<br />I can go on<br />I will find my way through the heart break I will not give up on love<br />I believe<br /><br />I will learn to love again I will learn to trust<br />Once this heart can start to mend<br />I will learn to<br />Learn to love again<br /><br />All of these tears time will dry them I will survive them<br />And make it through into another day all of this pain<br />Time will heal it there'll be a time sometime I know<br />I won't feel it<br />I will live through life without you after the hurting is done<br />I believe<br /><br />[Chorus]<br /><br />I will find someone who deserves my touch after all the hurt is through<br />I will be so over you I will not give up on love<br />I believe yeah<br /><br />[Chorus]<br /><br />Oh yeah yeah oh oh love again<br /><br />(To love again...)</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">by Kaci</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">******************************************</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;"><br />I miss Lonnie something fierce today.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">Thats really all I have to say.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-align: center;">R.I.P. Baby, I miss you!</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-20448636435789217512007-01-28T20:58:00.000-05:002010-10-26T21:02:16.929-04:00Give Love <span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;">As I sit here pondering my thought, thinking about a topic for today's blog, I was surfing through some old websites that I used to visit, when I came across this:</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><h1 style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 22px; line-height: 13px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">Give love</span></h1><div><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><span style="font-size: 36pt;">L</span><span style="font-size: small;">ove is the greatest gift. It brings warm light to the cold darkness and offers hope where before there was none.</span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">Love changes lives. Even though it has no logical reason to be, love persists after all else has faded.</span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">Love is lighter than the smallest snowflake and stronger than the mightiest army. With love, the impossible becomes real.</span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">What is built and nurtured with love can withstand any challenge. Love understands, enables, protects and inspires.</span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">The more love you give awa</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;">y, the more you will have. In love is the power of patience and the freedom of forgiveness.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">On this day of Christmas giving, choose to offer the greatest, most meaningful and lasting gift you can give.</span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">With every word, with every thought, with every gesture, with every interaction, give love.</span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">-- Ralph Marston</span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">So, when so many people ask me why I love the way I do, why I am so open about Love....there my friend, is the answer.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">~Chrys~</span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><b>Original MySpace Comment:</b></span></span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><div id="CommentDiv_14215">The tat on my shoulder (my profile pic on 360) means just that.. To Give Love in jap lettering.. rock on sweetie. ~big hugs~ and much love Chrys<br /> </div><div class="blogCommentsContent" style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">Posted by<a href="http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=42544956" style="color: #003399; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; text-decoration: underline;">fairreegrl</a>on Monday, January 29, 2007 - 3:32 PM</div><br /><br /></span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-37679489276075340572007-01-26T21:02:00.001-05:002010-10-26T21:50:15.221-04:00~Starting Over~ F@cking Hackers!<div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">OK, so here I am. I have to start ALL over. Everything is gone. 1.5 years worth of blogs and comments GONE.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">I was in my old account. Sending out a comment. A friend was in chat telling me they could not see me. I sent the comment, and was taking right back to my home page. I could see my friends, but I was gone from all of their lists. I tried to restart that account and I got kicked out and could not get back in. It was gone, all gone.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">So, here I am, mad as hell cause there are so many things that can not be replaced. The major thing being, Lonnie. Since he has passed, how the hell is he suppose to add me back? How am I suppose to mourn his loss and drop by a comment or two so his spirit can live on in memory. And what about Sean. Huh? How can he add me back from where he is? Really. You have no idea how bad this sucks for me right now.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Everyone else, I can find again or they can find me. My blogs, I saved to disk, so thats not a problem there.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">WHY did this have to happen to me?</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">SUCKS!!</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Anyway, welcome back to my new space.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">~Chrys~</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><br /><br />Original MySpace Comment:<br />Oh, I know how it's feels<br /><br /><br />Posted by Tabitha on Saturday, February 17, 2007 - 1:07 AMChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-23209325920396521272006-12-27T20:33:00.000-05:002010-10-28T16:14:02.223-04:00Some Things That Must Be Said (For me brother, Joey)<div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">I've had some ideas rolling around in my head lately about blog ideas. Not really sure what direction to turn in. I know I have had many folks ask me if I am going to bringIrish Chiks Erotic Confessions back, and truth is, I am still up in arms about that. I will have to think about that one a while longer. Anyway, I have some feelings that have been harboring up inside of me for quite a while now. Some things that I should have said long ago that I never did. And now, I have learned that I need to say what I need to say and not hold it in cause tomorrow could be too late. So, today's blog is long over due. And tis for me dear brother Joey.</span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">Ok, ~deep breaths~ here goes.</span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">Joey, there is no easy way around this. There is no way to just beat around the bush. So, I am just going to blurt it out for the world to see. I love you. Not only are you one of my best friends, but you truly are the real definition of a brother. Being an only child, I never knew what it was like to have an older brother. Never had that feeling of brotherly love. Never knew what it was like to share those types of things with a sibling. But it is not coincidence that you and I were born on the exact same day. For it was some higher power greater then us both that had a plan. It was not just fate that brought us to cross paths, but it was our destiny.</span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">Thank you Joey. Thank you for accepting my hand in friendship that first day. I can remember really the first time we talked after meeting. It was a blog on yahoo about my weight. And the comment you made, really opened my eyes about how I really needed to accept myself as is. That there were people out there that would like me even if I was not a size 2. And ever since that blog, I decided you were right. I was a beautiful person inside and out, and that I was never going to stop short of just being me. You have taken me under your wind, and helped to mold me to the girl I am. I know you don't think you have done that much for me, but the truth is, you have.</span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">Thank you for allowing me into your world. You let me into your world, and you shared a part of your heart. For that I will forever be grateful. As time goes on, our relationship grows stronger and stronger. Forever sharing common bonds. The miles may separate us. Always at two different places at different times. But there is one thing that remains a constant, and that is our relationship.</span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">You are my big brother, and I your lil sis. You have given me a gift. A gift that no amount of money could ever buy. The gift of being loved and accepted. The gift of being taken under your wing and cherished. The gift of being a protector. The gift of just being you.</span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">I look back and I see all the things we have went through. So many ups and downs. So many people walked in and out of our life. But yet, here we still are.</span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">You gave me the gift of Sean. For bringing Sean into my life brought me more smiles and happiness then you could ever imagine. He has brought me so much love. A love that I never knew existed.</span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">And, you gave me Lonnie. You didn't have to share Lonnie. But, you did. You trusted me enough to love him. That speaks volumes. Thank you for putting your trust into me.For having Lonnie in my life brought me so much. The love we shared unlike nothing words could explain. Love that opened my eyes to so much. For the first time I learned about unconditional love with no strings and restraints. For once I could really be me.</span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">Together, all 3 of you brought something into my world. Without you I would not have had the other 2. Without you, I would not be the girl I am today. For so long I let the real me be buried deep inside. You opened my world back up. You showed me that I should be me and those that don't like it can basically fuck off. And one step at a time, I let that girl out. And it was not an easy road. It had many obstacles. But, here I am. And it all started with you.</span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">As the year draws to a close, I think about all the good times, as well as the bad. The sadness that surrounds us now, it's hard to ignore. But, we are still together you and I, holding hands, walking down that path together. Once in a while we hide together in that hole, but one of us always seems to jump out and drag the other with them.</span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;"></span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">So, while those thoughts linger around, its also a time to think about the things that I cherish. And brother, I cherish you.</span></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-60205731993486782802006-12-23T21:44:00.001-05:002010-11-16T21:45:08.989-05:00Joey: Some Thanks<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"></span><br /><h4 class="subject" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 1.2em; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-rendering: optimizelegibility; vertical-align: baseline;"><a href="http://www.myspace.com/i_am_joeyv/blog/208892515" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: white; font-family: inherit; font-size: 13px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">Some Thanks</a></h4><div class="blogContent" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Just hangin in and gettin past a lot o emotional things. Some good some bad. Never was used to such feelins. At any rate thanks to all for the sympathy fer Lonnie. An support fer Sean to get his arse outta there. An all the rest. I hopes ya has a happy holidays. ~kisses licks n SMACKS~</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-48772629671659831062006-12-20T14:31:00.005-05:002010-11-10T14:38:59.138-05:00No Title (ugh, holidays) But this is a feel good story.<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">So, usually this time of year I am sitting around thinking, well, about why I don’t like this time of year. As a matter of fact, this year about this time I wrote a blog entitled “Why I Hate This Time of Year.” I remember thinking while I wrote that, hoping, this year’s holiday would be better. Yeah well that didn’t quite work out as planned now did it? <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">~shrugs shoulders~ Well, I tried.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">It’s just that every year for at least the last 5, could be more, but I have lost count. Anyway, seems something bad has happened around this time of year. Every stinking year it’s been something. And this year proves to be no different with the loss of Lonnie and Sean’s sitchy. Another big one is that my mother moved to <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Michigan</st1:place></st1:state> so she is not here with me this year. Basically I am alone here aside from Marcus and my in-laws(which I NEVER see) ~sighs~<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">As this day starts out like any other, these thoughts cross my mind. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">But when I got to work, something happened that totally changed my outlook. At least for today. For today my eyes were wide open. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">As many of you know, I work for the city. Not the city in which I live. But for a very small town just outside my city limits, about 20 minutes away. Population is about 4000. That’s like 1/16<sup>th</sup> of my city size. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My actual job title is Deputy Court Clerk and Payroll Clerk. But I also help with the Utility Department. And this morning was no different. As a customer walked in to pay their water bill, I assumed this transaction was to be like any other. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Boy was I wrong. The town in which I work is not a big town. It’s not a prosperous or wealthy town. Many people that live there struggle to make ends meet day in and day out. I know there are many people in many towns like this, but you would just have to be in this city to understand there really is no wealth there. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">This lady comes to my counter. She is very plain dressed. Hair pulled back in a braid. No make up. Clothes show signs of age and wear. But she doest seem to care. She doesn’t notice that the girl behind the counter has no Christmas cheer. She is too busy spreading it to those that need it. For this lady came in and paid over $800 to 13 families on their water bill. She was from a local church and they had received a donation. This is what this woman felt she was called to do. As Shannon and I looked through our list of people who had not paid and were soon to be cutoff, every worry that we had in our own mind went out the window. She had asked that we not tell these people who paid it, to just tell them that it was an anonymous donor. We spent some time with this lady. Just talking to her. And her words just touched my soul so deeply that my tears began to flow for her. When she was done I asked her if I could give her a hug. And she gratefully accepted. And when I did, she just held me and began to cry too. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">After she left, Shannon and I made cards for the people who had their bill paid by this woman. <st1:place w:st="on">Shannon</st1:place> donated her own stamps. And I begin to think, you know, some of these people, their bill may only have been $30 and so minimal to some of us, but to them, it is the start of something good. It’s a little more then what they had in their pocket that morning. Perhaps some more Christmas cash.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>They will see that their is some good in the world. They will see that someone does care. Something so small and simple can amount to such a great deal. And this lady was not asking for anything in return. She did not even want to know who it was she was paying for. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Pay it forward.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">What goes around comes around.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">This lady may have been one of the poorer people in town, but she is one of the richest. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Just when I thought I really had lost my Christmas spirit, this lady and her love for others brought it back.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When I thought my year was rough, I was shown that others have it rough, too. Some even worse then me. Even when you are poor, you can be the richest person in the world. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">As the tears begin to swell in my eyes again, let’s just say that one lady, one small simple deed, brought back my faith. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">My eyes are open, and I can see ME again.<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-22086642779650675742006-12-17T22:04:00.000-05:002010-10-26T22:13:21.318-04:00ssshhhhhhh He Said In A Dream<div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">"No, don't go. Don't you leave me here all alone. Don't go where I can not follow" ~samwise LOTR~</span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">So, I am driving home from work Friday after a relatively eventful day, and I throw in a CD. Not really paying attention to what it is. It's the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. Cool. Love that CD. Thinking I can just pass over the Guardian Angel song, since it tied to Lonnie. It is at the end of the CD, I will be long home before then. But then, this song comes on. Cat and Mouse. And the line goes like this:</span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">"You said that you would die for me, well you must live for me too."</span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">That just echoed in my head. My soul started to scream at me. For there were times when Lonnie would tell me, he would die for me. At one time he even put Prince's "I Would Die 4 U" song on his myspace. I just started bawling. The tears were falling down my face faster then I could drive. It left me no choice but to pull over. And, that I did. When I did, I sat there, watching the whole world just pass me by. As I sat in my car, listening to this song, I was having a war inside my mind.<span>'</span>Tis all my fault. No its NOT. YES it is. NO. YES. NO. YES. If only…..he would still be here. This played in my mind over and over and over. I screamed. I cried. I punched the dashboard. I asked WHY? Why Lonnie. If their was ever a time I questioned my faith, it was now. As I started to have a conversation with God.</span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">God, I know Lonnie wasn't faithful to his church. But he tried. And he was doing so much better as of late with finding his faith inside himself. He was trying so hard to do right in his life. Why would you take him from us now? When Lonnie said he would die for me, he did not literally mean it, I am sure. Right? NOOOOOOOOO…It can't be true.….I take it back. I take all those words back. I would give anything, anything at all if you would just give him back to us.</span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">When I realized I was not being answered, I gathered my thoughts, wiped away my tears and pulled myself back onto the road. When I got home, I prayed. I prayed more in one night that I have in all of my time in life. So many things I prayed for.</span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I slept that night, a deep sleep. A sleep unlike any other.</span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>He came to me in a dream that night.<span></span>As real as the flesh and blood of you and I. I said I would die for you. A phrase that lingers in my brain. I never thought you really meant it.</i></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i><br /></i></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i><br /></i></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>"Aye, but babygirl I did, for you it 'twas whom I died for. For your love, Chrys."</i></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i><br /></i></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i><br /></i></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>I find no peace in that.</i></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i><br /></i></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i><br /></i></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>He looked into my eyes. Smiled that little smirk, where the corners of his lips curl just ever so slightly and there was a radiant gleam in his eyes.</i></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i><br /></i></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i><br /></i></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>"My Irish Angel," He said to me, "In this life I knew real love. I was loved by you. And in return I loved you back. A love that is as pure as this winters snow. I gave you my heart and you shall always have it. We were together once before, you and I. I have always told you that. Look inside yourself me wench, for all the clues are there. 'Twas a past life indeed for you and for I. And through it all, we found each other in this life. Hold tight to me my Irish Angel, for we shall find each other again. "</i></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i><br /></i></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i><br /></i></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>In reply I said to him, my angel of the night – For you I would have given anything, even if it was just for one night. I'd give my whole world just to be with you. Just to hold you tight. For you, I would die, too.</i></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i><br /></i></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i><br /></i></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>I see a hint of sadness upon his face. I know we must part soon.</i></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i><br /></i></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i><br /></i></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>"Live together, die together. But not yet baby. Now is not your time. It's my time to go, but your time to stay. You will meet others along your way. They will cross your path for a reason. I must leave you behind baby, so your smile can radiate on to others. People in your life will be blessed because you loved them in your own special way. I will see you again my lover. Together again we will be. But, until that time, enjoy this life baby. Live it, and don't let it pass you by.<span></span>I see your tears, I know you weep for me. Be strong me baby, you will get through. I am your Guardian Angel now….always right by your side. "</i></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i><br /></i></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i><br /></i></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>And with that he said good-bye.</i></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"></div><div style="line-height: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">All these words, he said to me upon amidnightdream. How I miss him so, and finding it so hard to let go. But I am thankful, that he was once mine. As the saying goes, tis better to have loved and lost then never to have loved at all.</span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span>Here is a video I found on YouTube. He loved Pon and Zi.</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/c5xjSgcGTvc?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/c5xjSgcGTvc?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-3827192895770334392006-12-17T13:28:00.008-05:002010-11-10T13:53:01.508-05:00In My Dream<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/thp.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/thp.gif" /></a></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">"No, don't go. Don't you leave me here all alone. Don't go where I can not follow" ~samwise LOTR~<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">So, I am driving home from work Friday after a relatively eventful day, and I throw in a CD. Not really paying attention to what it is. It’s the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. Cool. Love that CD. Thinking I can just pass over the Guardian Angel song, since it tied to Lonnie. It is at the end of the CD, I will be long home before then. But then, this song comes on. Cat and Mouse. And the line goes like this:<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">“You said that you would die for me, well you must live for me too.”<o:p></o:p></span></i></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">That just echoed in my head. My soul started to scream at me. For there were times when Lonnie would tell me, he would die for me. At one time he even put Prince’s “I Would Die 4 U” song on his myspace. I just started bawling. The tears were falling down my face faster then I could drive. It left me no choice but to pull over. And, that I did. When I did, I sat there, watching the whole world just pass me by. As I sat in my car, listening to this song, I was having a war inside mind.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>‘Tis all my fault. No its NOT. YES it is. NO. YES. NO. YES. If only…..he would still be here. This played in my mind over and over and over. I screamed. I cried. I punched the dashboard. I asked WHY? Why Lonnie. If their was ever a time I questioned my faith, it was now. As I started to have a conversation with God. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">God, I know Lonnie wasn’t faithful to his church. But he tried. And he was doing so much better as of late with finding his faith inside himself. He was trying so hard to do right in his life. Why would you take him from us now? When Lonnie said he would die for me, he did not literally mean it, I am sure. Right? NOOOOOOOOO…It can’t be true.….I take it back. I take all those words back. I would give anything, anything at all if you would just give him back to us.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">When I realized I was not being answered, I gathered my thoughts, wiped away my tears and pulled myself back onto the road. When I got home, I prayed. I prayed more in one night that I have in all of my time in life. So many things I prayed for. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">I slept that night, a deep sleep. A sleep unlike any other.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">He came to me in a dream that night.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>As real as the flesh and blood of you and I. I said I would die for you. A phrase that lingers in my brain. I never thought you really meant it. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">“Aye, but babygirl I did, for you it ‘twas whom I died for. For your love, Chrys.”<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">I find no peace in that.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">He looked into my eyes. Smiled that little smirk, where the corners of his lips curl just ever so slightly and there was a radiant gleam in his eyes. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">“My Irish Angel,” He said to me, “In this life I knew real love. I was loved by you. And in return I loved you back. A love that is as pure as this winters snow. I gave you my heart and you shall always have it. We were together once before, you and I. I have always told you that. Look inside yourself me wench, for all the clues are there. ‘Twas a past life indeed for you and for I. And through it all, we found each other in this life. Hold tight to me my Irish Angel, for we shall find each other again. “<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">In reply I said to him, my angel of the night – For you I would have given anything, even if it was just for one night. I’d give my whole world just to be with you. Just to hold you tight. For you, I would die, too. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">I see a hint of sadness upon his face. I know we must part soon. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">“Live together, die together. But not yet baby. Now is not your time. It’s my time to go, but your time to stay. You will meet others along your way. They will cross your path for a reason. I must leave you behind baby, so your smile can radiate on to others. People in your life will be blessed because you loved them in your own special way. I will see you again my lover. Together again we will be. But, until that time, enjoy this life baby. Live it, and don’t let it pass you by.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I see your tears, I know you weep for me. Be strong me baby, you will get through. I am your Guardian Angel now….always right by your side. “<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">And with that he said good-bye.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">All these words, he said to me upon a <st1:time hour="0" minute="0" w:st="on">midnight</st1:time> dream. How I miss him so, and finding it so hard to let go. But I am thankful, that he was once mine. As the saying goes, tis better to have loved and lost then never to have loved at all. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-33822282517621759012006-12-15T19:24:00.000-05:002010-10-26T19:46:51.348-04:00My Heart Will Go On. Today is For Me.<div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">Woo Hoo its FRIDAY! Thank goodness. I am just so drained.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">So, today's blog is suppose to be about me, but as I sit here trying to write it, I just feel like there really isn't anything about me to say.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">I'm sure everyone is tired of my blogs being about the same subject matter lately, but I suppose that can not be helped. Those boys have been such a big part of my life for so long; it's hard to not talk about.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">I'm still mourning the loss of Lonnie. As another Friday night approaches, I am forced to face facts that he is not coming. That no matter how long I wait up for him, he is not going to show. I will not see him again.But, I know, he is with me.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">As for Sean, well, I just have to stay strong. I know the court system there is slow. And it is not going to be any better this time of year. It saddens me to think that Sean will have to spend Christmas alone, without his sons and wife. Without his (rather large I might add) family.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">While these 2 are deep within my thoughts, life around me has to go on. I know neither of them like me sad. Neither of them likes me to worry. But these are feelings that can not be helped. While I am dealing with these emotions, life is passing me by. For a while it was waiting for me to catch up, but I just let it go. I can't let life pass me by. They would be upset with me if I let it, as well as everyone else. So, this is me, today, catching up with life. Putting one foot in front of the other. Still living with the emotions of the 2, but, not stopping, still moving.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">Not a whole lot has really been going on with me the last few weeks. Work has kept me pretty busy, which is a good thing. Helps to keep my mind off things. We had our employee Christmas party last weekend. It was pretty fun. Me and one of the girls had snuck some drinks in. We labeled our table the boozer table. ~snickers~ It was a Guinness night!</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">I was supposed to go see a friend this weekend. But it has been postponed. For a few reasons. Which I don't want to get in to right now, but one being my funky mood. Another being, I closed the lid on Pandora's Box for a while. Only time will tell if things will ever change.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">As for the treadmill, well, it was going really well until the other night. I came home from work and went to take the trash out. I got dizzy and had a spell. All blah blah pounds of me fell directly on my right knee. Banged and busted it up pretty bad. Bruised and swollen. Needless to say, it has hindered my treadmill mornings. It is just now starting to feel better. Yesterday while at work I was the lucky one to get to walk around town and hand out these Christmas coloring contest pages that the kids did for the Christmas Holiday event they had in town. Good thing I work in a smaller town. Anyway, I got my exercise yesterday for sure!</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">Moving along, I seem to be in blabber mode this morning.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">Today's lyrics are from Titanic. A movie I simply adore. I had watched in Sunday night, and this song has really just stuck in my mind since then. I will never, ever forget Lonnie. I have no regrets. As the saying goes, better to have loved and lost then never to have loved at all. He will forever be in my heart. But, just as life has to go on, so does my poor heart. Same with Sean. Forever a part of me. I have to get back to me. Get back to the girl I am. He needs my strength right now.</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">Ok gang, have a great day!</div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><div align="center"><div align="center"></div></div></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></div><div align="center" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><strong><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8.5pt;">My Heart Will Go On (Titanic Theme)</span></strong><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 8.5pt;"><br /><br />Every night in my dreams<br />I see you, I feel you,<br />That is how I know you go on<br /><br />Far across the distance<br />And spaces between us<br />You have come to show you go on<br /><br />Near, far, wherever you are<br />I believe that the heart does go on<br />Once more you open the door<br />And you're here in my heart<br />And my heart will go on and on<br /><br />Love can touch us one time<br />And last for a lifetime<br />And never let go till we're one<br /><br />Love was when I loved you<br />One true time I hold to<br />In my life we'll always go on<br /><br />Near, far, wherever you are<br />I believe that the heart does go on<br />Once more you open the door<br />And you're here in my heart<br />And my heart will go on and on<br /><br />There is some love that will not go away<br /><br />You're here, there's nothing I fear,<br />And I know that my heart will go on<br />We'll stay forever this way<br />You are safe in my heart<br />And my heart will go on and on</span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-26612615395961277702006-12-15T16:32:00.000-05:002010-11-10T16:34:35.931-05:00What's Up With Chrys? - Woo Hoo its FRIDAY!<div align="center" style="text-align: center;">Woo Hoo its FRIDAY! Thank goodness. I am just so drained. </div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;">So, today's blog is suppose to be about me, but as I sit here trying to write it, I just feel like there really isn't anything about me to say.</div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;">I'm sure everyone is tired of my blogs being about the same subject matter lately, but I suppose that can not be helped. Those boys have been such a big part of my life for so long; it's hard to not talk about. </div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;">I'm still mourning the loss of Lonnie. As another Friday night approaches, I am forced to face facts that he is not coming. That no matter how long I wait up for him, he is not going to show. I will not see him again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But, I know, he is with me. </div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;">As for Sean, well, I just have to stay strong. I know the court system there is slow. And it is not going to be any better this time of year. It saddens me to think that Sean will have to spend Christmas alone, without his sons and wife. Without his (rather large I might add) family. </div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;">While these 2 are deep within my thoughts, life around me has to go on. I know neither of them like me sad. Neither of them likes me to worry. But these are feelings that can not be helped. While I am dealing with these emotions, life is passing me by. For a while it was waiting for me to catch up, but I just let it go. I can’t let life pass me by. They would be upset with me if I let it, as well as everyone else. So, this is me, today, catching up with life. Putting one foot in front of the other. Still living with the emotions of the 2, but, not stopping, still moving.</div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;">Not a whole lot has really been going on with me the last few weeks. Work has kept me pretty busy, which is a good thing. Helps to keep my mind off things. We had our employee Christmas party last weekend. It was pretty fun. Me and one of the girls had snuck some drinks in. We labeled our table the boozer table. ~snickers~ It was a Guinness night!</div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;">I was supposed to go see a friend this weekend. But it has been postponed. For a few reasons. Which I don’t want to get in to right now, but one being my funky mood. Another being, I closed the lid on Pandora’s Box for a while. Only time will tell if things will ever change. </div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;">As for the treadmill, well, it was going really well until the other night. I came home from work and went to take the trash out. I got dizzy and had a spell. All blah blah pounds of me fell directly on my right knee. Banged and busted it up pretty bad. Bruised and swollen. Needless to say, it has hindered my treadmill mornings. It is just now starting to feel better. Yesterday while at work I was the lucky one to get to walk around town and hand out these Christmas coloring contest pages that the kids did for the Christmas Holiday event they had in town. Good thing I work in a smaller town. Anyway, I got my exercise yesterday for sure!</div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;">Moving along, I seem to be in blabber mode this morning.</div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;">Today’s lyrics are from Titanic. A movie I simply adore. I had watched in Sunday night, and this song has really just stuck in my mind since then. I will never, ever forget Lonnie. I have no regrets. As the saying goes, better to have loved and lost then never to have loved at all. He will forever be in my heart. But, just as life has to go on, so does my poor heart. Same with Sean. Forever a part of me. I have to get back to me. Get back to the girl I am. He needs my strength right now. </div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;">Ok gang, have a great day!</div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 8.5pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">My Heart Will Go On (Titanic Theme)</span></b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 8.5pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;"><br /><br />Every night in my dreams <br />I see you, I feel you, <br />That is how I know you go on <br /><br />Far across the distance <br />And spaces between us <br />You have come to show you go on <br /><br />Near, far, wherever you are <br />I believe that the heart does go on <br />Once more you open the door <br />And you're here in my heart <br />And my heart will go on and on <br /><br />Love can touch us one time <br />And last for a lifetime <br />And never let go till we're one <br /><br />Love was when I loved you <br />One true time I hold to <br />In my life we'll always go on <br /><br />Near, far, wherever you are <br />I believe that the heart does go on <br />Once more you open the door <br />And you're here in my heart <br />And my heart will go on and on <br /><br />There is some love that will not go away <br /><br />You're here, there's nothing I fear, <br />And I know that my heart will go on <br />We'll stay forever this way <br />You are safe in my heart <br />And my heart will go on and on</span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-25509602991257489852006-12-14T19:46:00.000-05:002010-10-26T20:00:34.670-04:00Haunted - Today is for Sean<div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">December 14, 2006</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">Emotions are off and running this morning as I spent the better part of last night digging through Sean's stuff. I miss my Irish One a great deal and would do anything to change this sitchy all the way around. Sean is a very loving and special person. And we will always be "Haunted" by each others love.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"> </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: center;"></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;">He had a day in court. Lonnies family does not want to press any charges, thank goodness. However, the courts do. The jury selection has begun. My prayers and positive thoughts are heading across the big blue pond, right to Sean. He needs them now more then ever.</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/Others%20With%20Wings/1076241503_ceHaunted2.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="266" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/Others%20With%20Wings/1076241503_ceHaunted2.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /><div style="text-align: center;">Haunted- Sinead O'Connor and Shane MacGowan</div></span><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span></span></span></div><div style="text-align: center;">sinead:<br />do you remember that sunny day?<br />somewhere in london in the middle of nowhere<br />didn't have nothing to do that day<br />didn't wanna do nothing anyway<br /><br />shane:<br />you got a way of walking</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />sinead:<br />you got a way of talking</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />shane:<br />and there's something about you</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />sinead:<br />and now i know i never ever wanna be without you<br /><br />both:<br />i wanna be haunted by the ghost<br />i wanna be haunted by the ghost<br />i wanna be haunted by the ghost<br />i wanna be haunted by the ghost<br /><br />sinead:<br />of your precious love<br />of your precious love<br /><br />shane:<br />first time i saw you standing in the street<br />you were so cool you could have put out Vietnam</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />sinead:<br />all the girls ask "what's he like?"<br />i said "he's kind of shy but that's the kind of girl i am<br />he's my kind of guy"<br /><br />both:<br />i wanna be haunted by the ghost<br />i wanna be haunted by the ghost<br />i wanna be haunted by the ghost<br />i wanna be haunted by the ghost<br /><br />sinead:<br />of your precious love<br /><br />shane:<br />of your precious love<br /><br />sinead:<br />of your precious love<br /><br />shane:<br />i've build my world around you<br />i'll bless the day i found you<br /><br />sinead:<br />i'll stay beside you<br />i'll never leave or tell you all those<br /><br />both:<br />lies that you'd never believe<br /><br />both:<br />i wanna be haunted by the ghost<br />i wanna be haunted by the ghost<br />i wanna be haunted by the ghost<br />i wanna be haunted by the ghost<br />i wanna be haunted by the ghost<br />i wanna be haunted by the ghost<br />i wanna be haunted by the ghost<br />i wanna be haunted by the ghost<br /><br />sinead:<br />of your precious love<br />of your precious love<br /><br />shane:<br />you got a way of walking</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />sinead:<br />you got a way of talking</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />shane:<br />and there's something about you</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />sinead:<br />that's the kind of girl i am he's my kind of guy</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />shane:<br />and now i know i never ever wanna be without you<br /><br />sinead:<br />i wanna be haunted by the ghost<br />i wanna be haunted by the ghost</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />shane:<br />i wanna be haunted by the ghost<br />i wanna be haunted by the ghost</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />sinead:<br />and now i know i never ever wanna be without you</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-688937048374938442006-12-13T20:19:00.000-05:002010-10-26T20:23:02.018-04:00Far Away ~ Today is for Lonnie<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Many emotions run through me as I read Ray's blog For Lonnie. Lonnie has been laid to rest. I keep waiting for someone to pinch me so I can wait up from this awful nightmare. So many things I wanted to say to him. So many things needed to be said. This song was a big part of Me and Lonnie. Being so far apart, we always wanted to make sure the other knew they were loved unconditionally. I miss him so much.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Emo%20Kid/ponandziTooFarAway.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="213" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Emo%20Kid/ponandziTooFarAway.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span></span></span><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small;">This time, This place<br />Misused, Mistakes<br />Too long, Too late<br />Who was I to make you wait<br />Just one chance<br />Just one breath<br />Just in case there's just one left<br />'Cause you know,<br />you know, you know<br /><br />[CHORUS]<br />That I love you<br />I have loved you all along<br />And I miss you<br />Been far away for far too long<br />I keep dreaming you'll be with me<br />and you'll never go<br />Stop breathing if<br />I don't see you anymore<br /><br />One my knees, I'll ask<br />Last chance for one last dance<br />'Cause with you, I'd withstand<br />All of hell to hold your hand</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small;">I'd give it all<br />I'd give for us<br />Give anything but I won't give up<br />'Cause you know,<br />you know, you know<br /><br />[CHORUS]<br /><br />So far away<br />Been far away for far too long<br />So far away<br />Been far away for far too long<br />But you know, you know, you know<br /><br />I wanted<br />I wanted you to stay<br />'Cause I needed<br />I need to hear you say<br />That I love you<br />I have loved you all along<br />And I forgive you<br />For being away for far too long<br />So keep breathing<br />'Cause I'm not leaving<br />Hold on to me and, never let me go</span></div><br /><br /><span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-54243338185643121242006-12-10T20:23:00.000-05:002010-10-26T20:24:36.727-04:00Am I Ok?<div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Am I ok?</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">How does one really answer that question?</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">I wish I knew, because I don't know what to say really.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">If I shall tell the truth and say, No, I really am not doing well, then I get backlash. I am not asking for sympathy. I am not asking anyone to feel sorry for me. I just do not know how to handle the outpouring of friendship that has come my way.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">If I lie and say, Yeah, I'm fine, everything is great, then people will either think I am just lying, or that maybe I'm a bitch and Lonnie didn't mean anything to me and that perhaps I am just cold and walking away from Sean and everyone else.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">So, the truth. Here is the truth.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">I have been going through the motions of life. Happy go lucky Chrys on the outside. Dying on the inside. With Lonnie's passing, a huge part of me died with him. With Sean being locked away, a huge part of me is locked away too.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">I am trying the best way I can to deal with the situation at hand. I am sorry that I have been somewhat reserved and not my usual talkative self. I am sorry that I am hurting and torn and just really don't know what to say to you. I am sorry I have pulled away and just have not been very social in general.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">I thank all of you who have extended a hand in my direction.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">To those of you who say you are my friend, and I have called out to you, and you have yet to offer me a hand, shame on you. I was there for you when you needed me. Always ready to lend my hand. And where are you now? What has you so afraid?</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">This ordeal has opened my eyes and has made me see some people for who they really are.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">You know, I sat up the other night and mailed each and every person on Lonnie's list, letting them know what happened.<span> </span>I got quite a few replies. No one asked me to do it. I did it because I knew Lonnie would have done it for me. And you know what, as much as it hurt to read each reply, being a fresh cut to an old wound, I have talked to some really wonderful people. I have made some new friends. I am sorry our paths did not cross sooner and that it had to be under these circumstances that we are now talking, but I am grateful to have you as a new friend. Thank you for offering a hand to me during this time in my life.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Anyway, I just want you all to know that I am still here. I am in a lot of pain. There are a lot of tears being shed. A lot of dreams being shattered. Parts of me being torn. But, I am still Chrys. And I am not going to break. You can reach out and touch me. Just understand that when you do, I may not re-act they way I normally do. I am still fragile and still mending these wounds. But please do not take this as a reason for you to shut me out completely, because I am not shut off. Just in another world right now.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">Nothing but a lot of love, a lot of patience and some time are what I need to keep moving along in the right direction.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">So when you ask me, how am I doing, and am I Ok…my reply shall be, I am doing the best I can considering the circumstances. And if I say I am fine, then I am having a good moment. If I steer around the question, well, then, it just means that it's all weighing on my mind, and I'm in hurt mode.</span></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: small;">I'm going to have my good moments, and my bad moments. Please just understand that.</span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><span><br /></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-73373729172612505482006-12-07T20:24:00.000-05:002010-10-26T20:46:47.355-04:00I Have No Tears Left<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">My eyes are red, swollen, puffy, and just plain ugly. No amount of make-up is going to bring these irish eyes back to life. I was at work when I heard the news of Lonnie Tuesday. I had to fight it with every inch that I got. I lost it a few times. But once I got home it was a total disaster. I woke yesterday with a migrane and called in sick. The tears ran all day. This morning, my eyes are all dried up. I know deep inside more tears are building. I had to take the tear pic down. It was too much. Everytime I put a crying pic up Lonnie would tell me how much he didnt like to know I was sad. I can hear his voice echoing in my head now, "No more tears Chrys, please, no more tears. That pic is too much for me." So, the pic is gone. But just know that just because you are seeing my smile again, doesnt mean the sadness has left me. Not only am I mourning Lonnie's death, but I am also dealing with Sean and his trial. Its going to be a long and bumpy road ahead.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">This is a very special song with deep meaning between Sean, Lonnie and I.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">Tell that someone that you love, just what you are thinking of. Whether its family, a friend, or your true love. Dont hesitate to tell them. You never know when you will have that chance taken away from you.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">U2~ One</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">One Love Baby.....your angel wings will wrap me in comfort when I need you. I shall see you again my love. My love to you.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Fairy%20Fantasy%20Wishes%20Dreams/anim15.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Fairy%20Fantasy%20Wishes%20Dreams/anim15.gif" /></a></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;">One Soul One Heart ....I will be right there beside you every step of the way. My love for you.</div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Love%20Hugs%20Kisses/71489f68.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Love%20Hugs%20Kisses/71489f68.gif" /></a></div><div style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></div><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/ZpDQJnI4OhU?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/ZpDQJnI4OhU?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-87100031145891834932006-12-05T20:46:00.000-05:002010-10-26T20:58:47.264-04:00R.I.P. Lonnie Mahoney and Prayers for SeanDecember 5, 2006<br /><br />R.I.P. Lonnie Mahoney ~ Prayers For Sean<br /><br />This isnt going to be one of my best blogs. It is however, going to be the hardest one I have ever had to write. I just got word today, that my heart, some one I greatly love with every inch of my soul has been taken away. Lonnie passed away on Sunday eve. He was brought into the hospital in critial condition, in a coma he never awoke from. Sean is awaiting trial. So many things I want to say. So many things I need to say. But, right now, I just cant see through the tears. So, I am just going to leave you with this.<br /><br />This is my fave pic of Lonnie as a baby....<br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/Lonnie/baby.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="213" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/Lonnie/baby.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/Lonnie/ththrip1.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/Lonnie/ththrip1.gif" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/Lonnie/thiwillrememeryou.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/Lonnie/thiwillrememeryou.gif" /></a></div><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;">As a wee lil lad</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/Lonnie/around7.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/Lonnie/around7.jpg" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><br /></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/Lonnie/LonnieVictoria05.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/Lonnie/LonnieVictoria05.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;">and this is my fave pic of him and his daughter Victoria.</span></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"></span></span></div><div align="center" class="content-wrapper" style="text-align: center;">I'm sorry guys. I just dont have it in me to write a blog right now.</div><div align="center" class="content-wrapper" style="text-align: center;">Thoughts and prayers to Lonnie, his family, Sean and his family.</div><div align="center" class="content-wrapper" style="text-align: center;"><img alt="Image" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/candles1.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px;" /></div><div align="center" class="content-wrapper" style="text-align: center;">and this would be my fave pic of Sean....how I love him so....</div><br /><br /><br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/Sean/682760359_l.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/My%20Pals/Sean/682760359_l.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 13px;"><br /><br /></span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-78791360872998111812006-12-03T14:49:00.008-05:002010-11-10T14:52:44.815-05:00Opening Pandora<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i44.photobucket.com/albums/f44/viccih/Pandoras_Box.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i44.photobucket.com/albums/f44/viccih/Pandoras_Box.jpg" /></a></div><br />Opening Pandora's Box<br /><br />So much to say and don't know where to start. Once again been sitting here looking at this blank page with this damn cursor blinking at me. Blink. Blink. Come on girl, type something…anything…just do it. Blink. Blink.<br /><br />I figured it was now or never. Here I am. Putting my words out there. Lots going on these days. Still worried about Lonnie. Angry that I can't just drive my ass to the hospital to see him. Worried about Sean. Upset that I can't help bail him out. Worried about the families. Just hate this waiting game I have to play. Wait. All I hear is the fucking clock…tick tock tick tock….I can't stand this. It's about to drive me mad. I have this need to know. I need to know what's going on. I need to know how they are. I need to be there, and I can't. What kind of friend am I? When two of my friends who are close to my heart need me the most, I can not be there. I can not come to their rescue. It sucks. I hate feeling helpless. But I guess that's just my punishment. The way I see it, the way I feel. It's what I deserve. I had my part to play in this ordeal. And no matter what anyone says, it will eat me alive. It will cut at my flesh, and I will bleed. Watch it drip....drop...drip...drop.<br /><br />I am taking all that negative energy and pushing myself into other avenues of my life. Avenues I have sort of put on hold for a while. There are some things in my life that I am sick of the way they are. And only I can change them. But these are things in which changing them means opening Pandora's Box. <br /><br />I know what I want. I have my eye on the prize. But I question myself. Am I making the right choice? Is what I want, what I need, what is such a part of me and who I am, is it worth it in the end for the things that could come out of it. Is opening Pandora's Box really the answer?<br /><br />What is with this thirst I have? Why can I not quench it with things I already have. Why must I seek more. <br /><br />How do I find the key? Maybe the key lies within me. Once I started the puzzle, it looked like the path became clear. Now I question that. Are the pieces fitting together as they should, or am I just forcing them along to get what I want in the end? That prize. What if the path I am on is clear and I am just a little cloudy right now. If that is the case, then will I be able to find the key in a hurry shall I want to close and lock the box?<br /><br />What if I think is the prize really isn't the prize after all. How will I ever know? Shouldn't I just open the box and take the chance and deal with whatever Pandora throws at me? Maybe I should just take apart the puzzle that I have started and forget about it.<br /><br />But the pieces have already been put into place. Walking the path already put into motion.<br /><br />I just don't know. It's all too confusing. This path, that path, what's right, what's wrong. We all know for every action, there is a reaction. But, what if you could force the reaction to be what you wanted it to be? Would you continue with Pandora or not?<br /><br />Too many words ramble in my head. Too many thoughts these days to even bother with completing.<br /><br />May as well just take a chance and ask Pandora to come play. Keep going on the path I started. Time to play this game.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-4621086988647680022006-12-02T21:46:00.002-05:002010-11-16T21:47:24.869-05:00Joey: VERY IMPORTANT MATES!!<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;">Please everyone who knows me or Lonnie or both. Keep him in yer thoughts or prayers or whatever ya wants to calls it. He is in hospital n might not make it. He needs all the love n hopes n support we kin get fer him. So please. Take a moment to wish him well. Thanks.</span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-61156672748847724412006-12-02T16:07:00.000-05:002010-11-10T16:11:46.531-05:00What's Up With Chrys? To Blog This or Not To Blog Oct/No Edition<div class="MsoNormal">To blog this or not to blog it, that is the question.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, this is sort of what’s up with Chrys blog since it has been so long since I have posted on. I’ll call it the Oct/Nov edition since it’s just now starting December</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Can you believe that it is December already? Neither can I, but that’s not what this blog is about.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Ok, so, there have been a ton of questions regarding Lonnie and what’s happened and where has he been and why haven’t I been talking about it. Well the truth is, it’s been bumpy, and it’s been a lot of hurt and tears. I just needed some time to deal with it before I put it all out there. It’s still hard to deal with, but I think maybe this will be a good step in letting it go. Not to mention answering all of your questions. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Yes, Lonnie and I had a “thing”. Define thing however you want it. Part of my trip to <st1:country-region w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Ireland</st1:place></st1:country-region> was to meet him as well as the rest of the pirate gang. But Lonnie and I had plans to hang out and just see if this “thing” that had developed between us was a real as we thought it was. All I know, is I know what I felt in my heart, and you can judge that however you like. We all know I am married. We all know for the most part my marriage is a good one, but we all have our issues. Most of you know that my marriage is somewhat open. It’s been a slow process, and it has been one step at a time. But the point is, for Lonnie, IF things were as we thought, there was that possibility I would have left my life behind here for him there. And he knew that. We talked about that more then once. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Lonnie doesn’t give love or his heart away so easily. The only one person besides me that I know he loves and has given his heart to is my dear brother Joey.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Anyway, Lonnie and I built a relationship, a good one, and a very open one.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I went off to <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Michigan</st1:place></st1:state> to see my family. I was out of contact with Lonnie at that time. There was someone I was talking to and he was a great guy. I just wanted him to know that he was great and that I did care about him. So, when I posted some blogs and bulletins, his name was mentioned. I even left him some really nice comments. When I got back home from <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Michigan</st1:place></st1:state>, Lonnie was waiting. And this whole thing blew up in my face.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He felt I had fallen in love with someone else and that I wasn’t telling him. He felt I was breaking up with him and it was over. That so wasn’t the case at all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I tried my hardest to get him to see that, but he would not listen. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Weeks went by with out a word. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>However, there was a blog posted on Lonnie’s page titled “Why Love” sort of shows his side of things. It is public, you are more then welcome to go read it. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I got Sean by my side telling me he is sorry for Lonnie’s behavior. Sean telling me there are things Lonnie is doing that he needs to talk to me about. Then Joey tells me, then Elonna. And it’s like, what the hell is he keeping from me? <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And then the bomb is dropped. Pretty much Joey and Elonna tell me at the same time. Lonnie has asked the mother of his daughter to marry him.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>~insert jaw dropping here~</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">About an hour later, I hear from Lonnie.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Oh yes, indeed he has asked Megan to marry him.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He is sorry but he thought things were over with him and me, and now he sees that he was wrong about the ordeal with the other guy. Yeah, well a little too late now. Apparently anything and everything him and I ever talked about didn’t make a fucking difference. He wants to go on to tell me all the reasons why they are getting married, mostly for Victoria, their child together, but for reasons like cheaper taxes and the lot. </div><div class="MsoNormal">Did he mention love? NO! He did not. He says him and Megan get along much better now then they did years ago, he says their relationship is like that of a brother and sister (huh?) but there is nothing there that is love. He goes on to tell me he still loves me and always will. I give this man my heart, and this is what fucking happens. So I have no choice but to heal and move on. I’m moving on. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">This is about the point where I say, FUCK LOVE and WHAT DAMN GOOD IS IT.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I refuse to let anyone over that wall again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There was someone who started to climb over that wall, and I pushed him down. I am sorry I pushed you down. I do have some sort of love for you, some sort of feelings and I do care. But right now, I just do not know what to do with that. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">My heart is too big and I easily care too much. This is something about me that I can not change. But I certainly can change who I let over that wall. And right now, I am building that wall a little higher. Making it a little tougher. I have to. I have no choice anymore. I am hurting inside too much. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">All that hurt turned into some very dark blogs. There were things going on behind the scenes that I am not proud of. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Things that I can not change now. But I am working on trying to make those things better. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Sean was angry at Lonnie for hurting me. Sean and I, we still share a special bond. He feels my hurt and pain. He is very tuned in to me and my feelings. The poor guy, I almost feel sorry for him having this magical thing we share can be a real bitch sometimes. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">For those of you who don't really know the backbone of that story, Sean and I were together for a while. We shared something very special and very magical. But for reasons I care not to rehash, we parted and went on with our lives and remained best of friends. But that bond we have and the kind of love we share will never be broken. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">When I first got together with Lonnie, Sean went after him in a fit of range. Sean beat him up pretty badly. I remember Lonnie coming home that same night telling me about it. Then a few days went by and Lonnie had not been to work and no one heard from him. Sean and Ray went to his house and ended up kicking down the door only to find Lonnie unconscious. They rushed him to the ER where he stayed overnight. He ended up with a concussion and lots of meds. With time and lots of love, he got better. Sean apologized and we all mended.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">But, history has a habit of repeating itself, and we are finding ourselves in the middle of another terrible situation. Just when I was getting to the point where I could be happy and be myself again, moving on and just trying to get over him. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I knew Sean was hurting for me. I knew he was angry, for me. I knew him and Lonnie had a little riff when the news of the marriage first came out. Lonnie told me he deserved everything he got for hurting me. I had hoped that was the end of it. I had hoped Lonnie and I could move on as two adults and still remain friends. But Lonnie was never able to come back and talk to me. Because after my conversation with Sean, telling Sean I was still hurt and upset, how my anger was starting to take over and how I had wished I could smack Lonnie around myself, how in not so many words telling Sean to do it for me. He took all that, already boiling, he boiled over. The other night, he went after Lonnie. He went after him good and hard.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Joey, Elonna and I got news that Lonnie is in the hospital. He is in critical condition and word is, it’s so bad, they are not sure if he will make it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sean has been sitting in jail. He could very well be facing manslaughter charges. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I feel helpless and so much more hurt and pain that I don't know what to do with it. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Joey posted a blog today called Very Important Mates, I am pretty sure his is public too if you would like to go read it. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So for those of you who have bared with me and read along this far, I once again ask you to put both Lonnie and Sean in your thoughts and prayers, light a candle for them both in hopes the Lonnie makes a full recovery, Sean is set free. The families involved will be ok in the meantime and that once again, the Pirate Gang will be together just as before. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">~FRIENDS ARE FOREVER!~</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-12054433416929454412006-11-02T14:46:00.004-05:002010-11-09T14:50:53.301-05:00What's Up With Chrys? Gone<div class="MsoNormal">Here I sit. Blank page staring at me. So many thoughts rambling around in my head but I don't even know where to start. Even if I started, I wonder can I even put the words together right? </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">My mind wanders around in search of a complete thought. I’m so numb I can’t feel a damn thing. I am so far gone I don’t think anyone can find me. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">And why would anyone want to? I would be useless to them. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I know I am lost. I can feel it. I see it. The way I am pulling away from all those around me. Secluding myself back into my own little world. This time, I didn’t leave myself a trail to find my way back. I don’t want to come back. Coming back from the world I am in means I am forced to feel. I don’t want to feel. I felt enough in the beginning of this. Now, it literally is killing me. I numb it. I numb it to live. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">There really is no way to reach me. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Maybe I don’t want to find my way back. Maybe I deserve nothing more then to be here, alone to rot. No one will find me. My body long decayed. No one will even notice I am gone. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The mask is back and I have no choice. I know I can’t be down. I know I can’t let the depression kick back it. I tried to push it away. I tried to stay positive and seek out what makes me happy and hold on to it. It’s not working. I guess I really don’t deserve to be happy. Every time I am happy, it get kicked down. Why even bother. May as well just stay down. Simple. Easy. Less drama. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Never mind that Halloween was a great day, a day for caring and raising money for the <st1:street w:st="on"><st1:address w:st="on">United Way</st1:address></st1:street> at work, with our costumes, never mind that I got a promotion, a real job title and raise. It doesn’t fucking matter. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Deep inside the darkness pulls me. I feel myself caving in. Falling into my hole. My deep, dark, cold and lonely hole. No one is there but me. Alone with my thoughts. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">These thoughts consume me. Haunt me. I awake with these thoughts that follow me around all day. I sleep, these thoughts invade my dreams. I can’t escape them. It’s just me and these thoughts. Day after day after day. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The one thing I want in this world. Gone. Out of my reach. The one thing I need is this world. Gone. I lost my strength. I want to hold on. Hard to hold on to something that seems so out of reach. Hard to hold on to something that possibly doesn’t want to be held on to. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I’ll keep my mask on and go about my life. Still Chrys to those who see my outside. Everything else will be kept behind it so that no one will see the demons I hide. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I’m Gone. And there really is no way to reach me……….</div><div class="MsoNormal">© C.H. <st1:date day="2" month="11" w:st="on" year="2006">11-2-06</st1:date></div><div class="MsoNormal">******************************************************************</div><pre><span style="color: #858585;">The day's last one-way ticket train pulls in <br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;">We smile for the casual closure capturing<br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;">There goes the downpour <br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;">There goes my fare thee well <br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;"><br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;">There's really no way to reach me<br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;">There's really no way to reach me<br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;">There's really no way to reach me<br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;">'Cause I'm already gone <br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;"><br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;">There's so many words that we can say<br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;">Spoken upon long-distance melody<br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;">This is my hello<br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;">This is my goodness <br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;"><br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;">There's really no way to reach me<br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;">There's really no way to reach me<br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;">There's really no way to reach me<br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;">'Cause I'm already gone <br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;"><br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;">Maybe in five or ten yours and mine will meet again <br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;">Straighten this whole thing out<br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;">Maybe then honesty need not be feared as a friend or an enemy<br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;">But this is the distance<br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;">And this is my gameface <br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;"><br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;">There's really no way to reach me<br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;">There's really no way to reach me<br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;">Is there really no way to reach me?<br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;">Am I already gone?<br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;">So this is your maverick<br /><br /><br /><br /><o:p></o:p></span></pre><pre><span style="color: #858585;">And this is <st1:city w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Vienna</st1:place></st1:city><o:p></o:p></span></pre><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><h2>© The Fray - <st1:city w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Vienna</st1:place></st1:city> </h2><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/Y6dQwKx7Vd8?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/Y6dQwKx7Vd8?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x234900&color2=0x4e9e00" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-15419644585252725442006-10-30T14:13:00.000-05:002010-11-10T14:14:32.059-05:00Poetry In Motion: I'm Sorry Lonnie<div class="MsoNormal">I’m sorry that I hurt you</div><div class="MsoNormal">Even though you have hurt me too.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I’m sorry that I scared you</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>made you blue</div><div class="MsoNormal">What’s a girl to do?</div><div class="MsoNormal">I’m sorry I am not perfect.</div><div class="MsoNormal">But, neither are you.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I’m sorry that I made a mistake</div><div class="MsoNormal">I’m sorry that I give give give</div><div class="MsoNormal">so you can take take take</div><div class="MsoNormal">But you know what, you’ve made mistakes too.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I’m sorry that all I did was love you</div><div class="MsoNormal">Perhaps more then you loved me.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I’m sorry for wanting to plan a life with you</div><div class="MsoNormal">Maybe you did not want that with me</div><div class="MsoNormal">Despite all those words that you said.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I’m sorry for the times I could not give you 100% of my attention</div><div class="MsoNormal">But baby, how I tried. </div><div class="MsoNormal">How I waited and waited for you. How I was given no choice.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I’m sorry I never knew from one week to the next</div><div class="MsoNormal">Where you are, how you are, what you are doing, when you would be back.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I’m sorry that I believe you</div><div class="MsoNormal">When you said things would change.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I’m sorry I planned the things I did, the trip, the time together</div><div class="MsoNormal">Just hoping you would be making plans too.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I’m sorry that I guess I am not perfect</div><div class="MsoNormal">Perfect enough for you.</div><div class="MsoNormal">But most of all, I am just sorry that 1000 of my sorry will never be good enough for you.</div><div class="MsoNormal">And that’s what hurts the most, because of all the times you have said you’re sorry to me, I have accepted every last one of them. Took you as the man you are, and loved you none the less. </div><div class="MsoNormal">I’m sorry it has come to this</div><div class="MsoNormal">Whatever this is. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-60619135433870160432006-10-29T20:56:00.003-05:002010-11-16T21:25:11.083-05:00Lonnie : Why Love?<a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: black; float: left; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting" border="0" src="http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c130/joey_v/oxford_crying_man.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; max-width: 100%; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" /></a><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"><br />I am Confused and Hurting right now and to be frank I dont know if tis my fault or Hers. How can I expect Her to be True when I am so far away? In more ways than one! Actually I never asked that of her. To not be with Others. We have an Open Relationship You see? At the same time I cannot Bear to see the same Words that She used to say to me being said to Another Man. And without telling me either HEY TIS OVER YA MORON! or HEY THERE IS ANOTHER AS WELL YA SAP! For I dont mind Her Playing with others but to give Her Heart to another is too much for me. She had me Heart and I dont give that away Easy. The other Person I gave me Heart to is Gone as well. He had me Heart for years and I doubt I will ever Get Over losing Him. Now I am thinking of just Closing this Page and just staying away from the Internet altogether. It all just Hurts too much.</span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-5448920172243754722006-10-06T10:36:00.004-04:002010-10-26T13:38:58.957-04:00~sighs~ Ok! I'm EMO this week...AND????<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">Ok Ok.... Seriously, I am OK! Really! NO! Really!! Still not convinced huh? Well I am trying. Whats it going to take to convince you? My Irish Eyes ARE smiles. We all have our moments. I guess this week just happens to be mine. I have my off days just like everyone else. I get down and out just like everyone else. I am a writer, I write about whats going on in life. It helps me to deal. So, sorry my writing has been a little EMO this week. It happens. But fuck it, I just MISS HIM!!! Ok, done with that. Moving on. I have to. No choice here. Life has to keep going right? See, I am smiles again. Thank you to everyone for all your comments, blog comments, the cell phone calls, the voice mails, the texts, the IM and the emails. You know I love you all. Now then, I am crabby, my back still pains me. I am tired. I am ready for the 3 day weekend. On that note....I shall end this blog ......see you all on the flip side..... I shall return to myself....typical Irish mode ASAP Promise!</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">Yahoo Comment:</span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"></span></span></span><br /><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: small;">commented</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;">Hang in there Irishchik...glad we got to chat earlier. You seem to be doing okay to me girl ~~hug~~</span></span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-38132483981851455832006-10-04T20:44:00.004-04:002010-10-26T13:40:57.122-04:00I Can't SeeOctober 4, 2006<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px; margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img height="100" src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/5fde.jpg?mgg7zHoCzph6fXJ0" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px;" width="100" /></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Why can’t I see what you see?</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">When you look in the mirror what do you see? Do you see yourself for the person you really are and agree with what those around you say? Do you look in the mirror and see a stranger looking back at you?</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">When I look in the mirror, I don’t see what you see. To be honest, I don’t recognize the person staring back at me. I think, once upon a time I did, but not anymore.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I have had someone very close to me tell me how sweet I am, how I am just one of a kind. Been told what a great friend I am. How they think I have to be the sweetest and most understanding person that they have ever met. This person has told me they don't feel they deserve to have me in their life. That they don't deserve my love. They tell me how beautiful and sexy I am. I struggle with this. When I hear this, my insecurities take over and I want to crawl into my shell and hide.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I want so badly to see what they see. I want to look in the mirror and see myself as this good person. I want to see the beauty that they see. Will I ever? I don't know. Once upon a time I had no question about my beauty. I knew it was there. I knew what I had. I knew the person I was. But now, I don't see me anymore. I don't know this person I have become.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">They love me they say. But why? Why me? Why do you love me? I feel I am not any different then any other person in this world. But yet, it is ME. What did I do to deserve this? I feel I am not worthy of this love. A love that maybe I am the one who feels it is not deserved. I long for the day I see what this person sees. I want to see what they see.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I try opening my eyes a little wider, but, there is just nothing there. Nothing any different then the last time I looked.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">It makes me wonder, do they know me better then I know myself. Is that possible? How could that be? What is it that I am missing?</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">This person has seen me start the year with many obstacles. They have watched me stumble and fall. They saw me down for many months. And they stood beside me, right there through it all. I slowly started to pick myself off and keep going, crossing over one roadblock at a time. I have tripped. More then once. I have tried my best to pick myself up and brush myself off. I have tried my best to keep going. But so many times I have wanted to give up. I have stayed positive for the sake of face. I have heard time and time again how proud they are of me. I don't feel it. I feel like a failure. I feel like I have failed myself and all of those around me.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">When I look at me, I see no beauty. I don’t see this ray of sunshine that sends a positive voice and a bright light everyone’s way. But rather, I see a complete loser, a total failure. I feel I have let myself down, I have let everyone around me down. I have failed ME, I have failed YOU and I have failed this thing we call LIFE.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Will I ever see what you see?</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-15978840158325298872006-10-03T12:46:00.007-04:002010-11-10T12:50:06.573-05:00I Carry Your Heart With Me<div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">i carry your heart with me,<br />i carry it in my heart and i'm never without it.<br />anywhere i go, you go, my dear.<br />and whatever is done, by only me, is your doing, my darling.<br />i fear no fear for you are my fate, my sweet.<br />i want no world for beautiful, you are my world my true.<br />it's you or whatever a moon has always meant,<br />and whatever a sun will always sing is you.<br />here is the deepest secret nobody knows<br />here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud<br />and the sky of the trree called life<br />which grows higher and higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide<br />and this is the wonder that is keeping the stars apart<br />i carry your heart,<br />i carry it in my heart.</span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">~unknown~</span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">**********************</span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I do not know who wrote this. But I was flipping through a magazine at lunch today instead of reading my normal book. It opened right to this page. It spoke volumes to me. I ripped it out and have been carrying it with me all day.</span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"> I wanted to post it because it just rang so true about my feelings right now. </span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I have been an emotional wreck the last few days. I wish I could explain it. My feelings are ripped, my heart torn. SO much longing and aching inside me. When I start to feel this , I get this overwhelming feeling in my heart, in my gut and I just do not know how to deal. </span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">So, I dont deal. Rather I shut myself off. Tune out and walk away.</span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I miss him. I long for him. And it just seems that things that were suppose to happen, now never will. </span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Sometimes I wonder if I would just be better off giving up and walking away.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-4793151507087771302006-10-02T21:34:00.004-04:002010-11-17T16:34:07.771-05:00Poetry In Motion: I Love You, We SayOctober 2, 2006<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"></span><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I love you.</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">You say</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">those words echoing in my head</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">knowing that any given moment</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">any given day</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">could quite possibly be the end.</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Will one of us give up?</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Give in?</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Turn and walk away?</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I love you</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">We say</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">over and over again.</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">A feeling so deep</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">so powerful</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">that we had to just let it in.</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Did we do the right thing?</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Are we crazy for letting this go on?</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Where do we go from here?</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">What happens now?</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I love you</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I hear</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">dreaming of it whispered,</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">in my ear.</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Crying myself to sleep</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">hoping he doesn’t see me weep</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">over the love I have for you.</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Is this love destiny?</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Or a love only to make us blue?</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I love you</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I say</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">A feeling that comes from so deep within</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I don’t want this to end.</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Please, never take your love away.</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I love you.</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">We believe</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">there will be a time</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">and a place</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">when we shall meet</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">face to face.</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">If not in this life</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">then in the next.</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I love you.</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I trust.</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Those three little words</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">From me to you</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">From you to me.</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Can this One Love really be?</div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">© C.H. 10-2-06</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Original Yahoo 360 Comment:</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"></span></div><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">10/03/2006 11:44 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Never give up on love it's the most important thing in the world</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-16737444620883993442006-10-02T14:16:00.002-04:002010-11-10T14:18:14.827-05:00Poetry In Motion: I Love You (2)<div class="MsoNormal">I love you.</div><div class="MsoNormal">You say</div><div class="MsoNormal">those words echoing in my head</div><div class="MsoNormal">knowing that any given moment</div><div class="MsoNormal">any given day</div><div class="MsoNormal">could quite possibly be the end.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Will one of us give up?</div><div class="MsoNormal">Give in?</div><div class="MsoNormal">Turn and walk away?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I love you</div><div class="MsoNormal">We say</div><div class="MsoNormal">over and over again.</div><div class="MsoNormal">A feeling so deep</div><div class="MsoNormal">so powerful</div><div class="MsoNormal">that we had to just let it in.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Did we do the right thing?</div><div class="MsoNormal">Are we crazy for letting this go on?</div><div class="MsoNormal">Where do we go from here?</div><div class="MsoNormal">What happens now?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I love you</div><div class="MsoNormal">I hear</div><div class="MsoNormal">dreaming of it whispered,</div><div class="MsoNormal">in my ear.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Crying myself to sleep</div><div class="MsoNormal">hoping he doesn’t see me weep</div><div class="MsoNormal">over the love I have for you.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Is this love destiny?</div><div class="MsoNormal">Or a love only to make us blue?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I love you</div><div class="MsoNormal">I say</div><div class="MsoNormal">A feeling that comes from so deep within</div><div class="MsoNormal">I don’t want this to end.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Please, never take your love away.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I love you.</div><div class="MsoNormal">We believe</div><div class="MsoNormal">there will be a time</div><div class="MsoNormal">and a place</div><div class="MsoNormal">when we shall meet</div><div class="MsoNormal">face to face.</div><div class="MsoNormal">If not in this life</div><div class="MsoNormal">then in the next.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I love you.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I trust.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Those three little words</div><div class="MsoNormal">From me to you</div><div class="MsoNormal">From you to me.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Can this One Love really be?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">© C.H. <st1:date day="2" month="10" w:st="on" year="2006">10-2-06</st1:date></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">For my Irish Heart, I don’t know what the future holds. But, I know how I feel about you. Unconditional Love. It scares me. It consumes me. At times I don’t know what to do about it. Other times I feel like I am going to explode. I hate the way things are for us right now. I know you tell me things will not always be this way. I hate not knowing. This constant going from day to day. One day leading to the next, with no more answers for me then the previous day. I need to <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>know. I need a plan. I need a date. I need something concrete. And it is so hard for me when I can not have that right now. I missed you so much when you were gone. Cut off completely. But, now that you are back, I think I miss you even more. Love isn’t suppose to hurt like this, is it?</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-48073303424510791552006-09-24T22:31:00.008-04:002010-10-26T13:46:24.056-04:00On DreamingSeptember 24, 2006<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><img height="333" src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/6b06.jpg?mgg7zHoCXFTokDLR" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px;" width="223" /></span><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana;">Hold me close, Hold me tight, Love me all through the night....Keep me safe, Keep me warm, With you I feel so safe from harm.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana;">My infamous last words to the man I love across that big blue pond.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana;">The weekend is already here and gone. But his memories, they keep leading me on. Every word that he said, dancing around,</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana;">swirling</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana;">twirling</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana;">these visions in my head.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana;">Once was a constant in my life everyday.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana;">Stripped. Taken away.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana;">Now just a moment here and there. When he is around, I grab him tight. Hold him close, never lose sight. <span> </span>I have to don’t you see? I have to grab him with all my might. Keep him with me all night.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana;">I hate good-byes and don’t want to let him go. But, I know I must when that time has come. I put on a smile, and put on a show. It’s my sadness I don’t want him to see, don’t want to show.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana;">Getting through the week without him, that’s a chore. I want to keep my eyes closed, forevermore.<span> </span>He visits me in my dreams, every night, or so it seams. He’s that star, that shines so bright. <span> </span>Always greets me with a smile, even through all the miles.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana;">I can feel him touch me. I smell the essence of him. These things linger as I wake. Haunting me through the day.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana;">I try to shake it off, but it is no use. The harder I try, the worse it gets. I can’t bare the thought of losing him again. I can’t let go. Thoughts of being without him make me sad, make me blue.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana;">I love him more then words can say, stronger and stronger with each passing day.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana;">Right or wrong, that’s how I feel. I gave him my heart, he did not steal. He climbed up my wall, and I let him in.<span> </span>Where did the love start, where did it begin?</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana;">I know that in time, our paths will cross. Will those answers I seek be answered or shall I return even more lost?</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana;">Forgive me now, for I must go. I need to lie down, I need to sleep. It’s him I long for, him I must go seek. I hear him calling, calling out to me.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana;">If you see my sleeping, please don’t try to wake me, let me dream.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana;">I love him, I need him, hear my heart scream.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana;">©C.H. </span><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana;">9-24-2006</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana;">Original Yahoo 360 Comments:</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"></span></span></div><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">09/30/2006 08:35 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">This is lovely I am so touched you wrote this fo me haha j/k love you Irish</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><br /></div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">09/28/2006 06:41 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">I hope he is okay Irishchik...and that you are too. ~~hugs</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><br /></div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">09/27/2006 12:32 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">I love it, and its so sensual.</div></div></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-38676463441872534252006-09-24T14:48:00.000-04:002010-11-10T14:49:12.649-05:00On Dreams<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Hold me close, Hold me tight, Love me all through the night....Keep me safe, Keep me warm, With you I feel so safe from harm.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">My infamous last words to the man I love across that big blue pond. In Ireland, my feelings so strong.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">The weekend is already here and gone. But his memories, they keep leading me on. Every word that he said, dancing around, <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">swirling<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">twirling<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">these visions in my head.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Once was a constant in my life everyday.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Stripped. Taken away.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Now just a moment here and there. When he is around, I grab him tight. Hold him close, never lose sight. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have to don’t you see? I have to grab him with all my might. Keep him with me all night.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I hate good-byes and don’t want to let him go. But, I know I must when that time has come. I put on a smile, and put on a show. It’s my sadness I don’t want him to see, don’t want him to know.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Getting through the week without him, that’s a chore. I want to keep my eyes closed, forevermore.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He visits me in my dreams, every night, or so it seams. He’s that star, that shines so bright. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Always greets me with a smile, even through all the miles. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I can feel him touch me. I smell the essence of him. These things linger as I wake. Haunting me through the day. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I try to shake it off, but it is no use. The harder I try, the worse it gets. I can’t bare the thought of losing him again. I can’t let go. Thoughts of being without him make me sad, make me blue. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I love him more then words can say, stronger and stronger with each passing day. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Right or wrong, that’s how I feel. I gave him my heart, he did not steal. He climbed up my wall, and I let him in.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Where did the love start, where did it begin?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I know that in time, our paths will cross. Will those answers I seek be answered or shall I return even more lost?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Forgive me now, for I must go. I need to lie down, I need to sleep. It’s him I long for, him I must go seek. I hear him calling, calling out to me. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">If you see me sleeping, please don’t try to wake me, let me dream. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I love him, I need him, hear my heart scream. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">©C.H. <st1:date day="24" month="9" w:st="on" year="2006">9-24-2006</st1:date><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-68580306510974828812006-09-19T16:40:00.002-04:002010-10-26T13:48:47.070-04:00She Likes ME, She REALLY Likes me!!!September 19, 2006<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"></span><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">My Dear sweet angel wrote this wonderful blog about me, and I wanted to share it with all my friends....</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">~face lights up and beams with pride~</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><strong style="font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold;">TOP #10 REASONS WHY I TOTALLY DIG</strong></div><strong style="font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold;">"IRISHCHIK" </strong><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">#10<span> </span>Knowing IrishChiK on MySpace means I will always have something titillating waiting for me in my "Comments" section.<span> </span>~~Big Smiles~~ I love it---Thank you!!</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">#9<span> </span>The nickname "IRISH" just fucking ROCKS and I love screaming, (I mean saying) it!</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">#8<span> </span>Being "Sexually Inappropriate" with Irish is just so much damn fun!</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">#7<span> </span>She knows Donald from Ireland too (sorry inside joke :I )</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">#6<span> </span>Between her Right hip/back and my Left hip/back/foot we qualify for "Special Parking" ~~Not to mention together we can make 1 hell of a true GIMP for someone!</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"> </div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">#5<span> </span>She totally reminds me of someone I know very well.<span> </span>With the exception that<span> </span>I'm TOTALLY much more "subby" <span style="font-family: Wingdings;"><span>J</span></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">#4 She participates VERY well in GROUP settings and is seemingly most versatile <span style="font-family: Wingdings;"><span>J</span></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">#3<span> </span>Her erotic Blogging's are so fucking hott that even if<span> </span>you find yourself with an Extra Super Absorbency tampon issue~ "Pots of Gold" will still cum flooding out your "Treasure Chest".</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">#2<span> </span>I simply have no issues of "PARANIOA" with Irish. <span> </span>She has freely shared herself with me, letting me see her on the cam and letting me call her computer to chat for a second.—(We won't discuss here the other ways we've freely shared—that can be for her to tell later~~perhaps possibly AFTER we include into our little mix a 4th participant~~wink! Wink!). <span>*** </span>MOST people who know me will know I generally live in this state of<span> </span>PARANOIA ~~especially while on MySpace (ie., thinking all new "Friend Requests" are somehow either directly or indirectly linked to my "EX" Stalking GF… OR that the "He's" I chat on here with are actually "She's"<span> </span>--- OR that the "She's" are really "He's"--- OR that the "She's" are in fact "She's" and the "He's" are in fact "He's" BUT they're<span> </span>totally NOT who they say they are!<span> </span>Like they are just sending me pictures of their hotter older brother or sister because they are some 13 year old teenager going thru puberty.. OR maybe even some estranged lunatic locked up inside some detention center with unlimited computer use.<span> </span>(*yes, as a matter or fact my paranoia has been an ongoing issue for me for sometime now~~ thank you for asking <span style="font-family: Wingdings;"><span>J</span></span> )</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">#1<span> </span>I can now HAPPILY sing the song "When IRISH Eyes Are Smiling" because somehow having an Irish friend makes it legitimate! <span> </span>Further, it's the one time I can sing about being GAY in mainstream society without raising an eyebrow to close minded FUCKERS~~<span> </span><span style="font-family: Wingdings;"><span>J</span></span> -- Ohh yeah, AND it's a much happier vision singing the song now thinking of Irish rather then my 6 th grade Catholic School perverted Music Teacher who originally taught me it.</div><span style="font-family: Arial;">When Irish Eyes Are Smiling</span><h5 style="font-size: 13px; font-weight: normal; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 7.5pt;">Listen:</span><span style="font-family: Arial;"> LoFi | Download | Send E-Card | <a href="http://www.thebards.net/music/lyrics/When_Irish_Eyes_Are_Smiling.shtml#chords#chords" rel="nofollow" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;">Chords</a> </span><span style="font-family: Verdana;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: Verdana; font-size: 7.5pt;">From:</span><span style="font-family: Arial;"> Songs of Ireland, Vol. 2</span></h5><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><em style="font-style: italic; font-weight: inherit;"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 10pt;">words and music Chauncey Olcott & George Graff, Jr</span></em><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 10pt;">.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 10pt;">There's a tear in your eye, And I'm wondering why,<br />For it never should be there at all.<br />With such pow'r in your smile, Sure a stone you'd beguile,<br />So there's never a teardrop should fall.<br />When your sweet lilting laughter's Like some fairy song,<br />And your eyes twinkle bright as can be;<br />You should laugh all the while And all other times smile,<br />And now, smile a smile for me.<br /><br />When Irish eyes are smiling,<br />Sure, 'tis like the morn in Spring.<br />In the lilt of Irish laughter<br />You can hear the angels sing.<br />When Irish hearts are happy,<br />All the world seems bright and gay.<br />And when Irish eyes are smiling,<br />Sure, they steal your heart away.<br /><br />For your smile is a part Of the love in your heart,<br />And it makes even sunshine more bright.<br />Like the linnet's sweet song, Crooning all the day long,<br />Comes your laughter and light.<br />For the springtime of life Is the sweetest of all<br />There is ne'er a real care or regret;<br />And while springtime is ours Throughout all of youth's hours,<br />Let us smile each chance we get</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 10pt;"><br /></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 10pt;">Original Yahoo 360 Comment:</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 10pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"></span></span></div><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">09/26/2006 08:55 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Yes Irish I do like you~~kisses, licks and hugs</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><br /></div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">09/24/2006 12:16 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Yea...I love this too...my Anna is so good with words. And you DO share so well Irish. *~~wink</div></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-41594048786785152212006-09-18T13:37:00.003-04:002010-10-26T13:51:49.097-04:00Roll CallSeptember 18,2006<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"></span><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I know I haven't been around much these days, spending all my blogging time on myspace. But, I just wanted to check in and see how ALL OF YOU were doing. I miss you guys!! Drop me a comment and tell me how you been. I promis to make an honest effort and get back to blog reading. That is, those of you I dont still see over on myspace. Unless you just really want me to comment twice!!!</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">As for IrishChiks Erotic Confessions, I have not decided yet or not whether I will bring those back here. We shall see.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">~Chrys~</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">UPDATE: 10/26/2010- I am moving those stories here -----> <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; line-height: normal;"><a href="http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/">http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/</a></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Original Yahoo 360 Comments:</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"></span></div><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">09/19/2006 04:21 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Still here and loving it. Opened a myspace site, but don't use it yet. Will get there sometime!<br /><br />Things are busy, as always. Some of the things we shared back a while ago are still much the same. There may be a silver lining to these grey clouds... still searching for it. Perhaps it's green instead!!??!!?? :)<br /><br />Sure do miss the chats, and hopefully we can catch up again soon. Thinking of a trip down your way in a few weeks and may give you a yodel. (long weekend wander through Wichita and down to OKC for a day or two and visit some friends there.<br /><br />Be well, my dear friend. Cheers!!</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><br /></div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">09/18/2006 11:05 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Girl...you can comment me as many times in as many places as you want to. Hoping this finds you well...and fine. Well actually... we KNOW you are fine...lol</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><br /></div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">09/18/2006 07:06 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">hi sweet girl! hugs and kisses</div></div></div><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-49682434565364441812006-09-11T12:42:00.003-04:002010-10-26T13:58:11.574-04:00Ouch! That Hurt<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"></span><br /><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 10pt;">Ok so I went to the chiropractor last week. Good ole back doc. I have had some very bad lower back pain for a few weeks. The first day I went I had a consultation, took some xrays and did a muscle penetration treatment.</span><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 10pt;">The next morning, I had to go back.. <span>Did another one of those muscle penetration treatments that I had yesterday.</span> Then we went and looked at my <span>xrays</span>. Not good. I have DDD. <span>Degenerative Disk Disease.</span> My bottom two disk/vertebrae are practically on top of each other. No space that should be there. He said it was not good for someone my age. And it is in a progressive stage. To make things worse, my right leg is shorter so my hips are crooked which is why all my pain is on my right side. So, we talked about all my treatments. Basically we are opting to do what we can without having to have any type of spinal surgery.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 10pt;">After the <span>xray</span> chat we went into an office where he pushed and pulled on me a little. He said since I was in so much pain that he would go light. But it was going to get more aggressive as time went on. After that I was put into another room where I was hooked up to this table and machine where it basically pulled my bottom half of my body away from my top. THAT HURT. <span>And when it was over, and I tried to sit up.</span> I could not. The nurse dude had to help me. Then when I went to stand up, every pain possible went through me, my face flushed and I cried and sat back down. It hurt so <span>bad</span>.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 10pt;">The nurse dude said he went through the same thing. And that it will get better as time goes on. Oh, well that makes me feel better. NOT!</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 10pt;">Anyway, I have 3 stages of treatment. Which is <span>suppose</span> to help pull the spine apart and put some space between the parts there needs to be.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 10pt;">This first stage is 3X a week for up to 12 weeks. And <span>its</span> doing more of the doc poking and pulling and then being hooked up to those machines again.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 10pt;">I am not sure what happens after that. <span>One step at a time.</span></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 10pt;">He also wants me to work on some exercises, which he said he would give me, and didnt. So maybe that comes later in treatment<span>,</span> and getting to<span> </span>a healthy weight. Knew that was coming. Always got to be about my weight. As if I dont battle with that enough.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 10pt;"><br /></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 10pt;">Anyway, without this turning into one of my Whats Up With Chrys novels, that's the basics of it.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 10pt;">I go back for treatment on Wednesday (9/13) and Friday (9/15) of this week, then its 3X a week for a few weeks.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 10pt;">We will see how things go.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 10pt;"><br /></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 10pt;">I have started watching what I eat better. Moving around more at work so I am not sitting so much. Trying to follow docs orders and not twist and bend so much. But, its just hard. You dont even realize you do something so much until you are told you can not do it anymore.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 10pt;"><br /></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 10pt;"></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 10pt;">So, just when other things like my internal health and my mental health and work start to fall into place...something else gets thrown at me.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 10pt;"><br /></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 10pt;">What a life.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 10pt;"><br /></span></div></div><div class="toolbar clrfix" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; line-height: 0.9; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 15px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><ul style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"></ul></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-72841196246743618342006-09-03T13:40:00.006-04:002010-10-26T14:00:14.384-04:00A Happier ChrysSeptember 3, 2006<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">Things are not perfect. They never will be. That is just life. Despite the sad ordeal that I share with a certain group of friends, I am glad to report that I do have some good news to mention. Things with my job are getting much much better. With every passing day, I learn something new and get closer to the people I work with. Last weekend I even went out with some folks from work, as well as some other friends and had a really good time. Things in life are looking up. I am looking forward to taking some time in October to go see my family. Now my grandmother is battling cancer, and this is not the first time for her. Having just lost gramps this year after a long battle with cancer, I have to admit, this really worries me. She will be starting her treatments here within the next few weeks. I am trying to keep focused on other things around me as I dont want to fall back into that dark black hole that gramps death put me in. I want to have faith that grandma will pull through. I had an appointment with my internal specialist. And seems like we may have finally got the right mix of medications for all my tummy and intestinal battles. After dealing with these issues for about 5 years now, I am finally having some relief. I have been feeling really good latley and that puts a big smile on my face. I also realized, returning to the land of the living after being out of it for this entire year, proved to not be an easy task. So, like I talked about in my Whats Up With Chrys blog, I did get over to see my shrink. She was rather stern with me. Wanting to know why I had stopped seeing her. She seemed upset with me, as her and I had come so far in my treatments that this issue I had with gramps death pushed me 20 steps backwards.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"> But she was also very understanding. We talked about everything I went through this year. It was rather overwhelming to actually have to talk it out. But, it has since been resolved, and I am back on my medications and in therapy. I started walking again and slowly getting back to eating right and working out. Just feeling good. Finally starting to feel like ME again. I even put a few of my piercings back in!!! Want more good news? Well, with the job brings MONEY!!! And so, I have finally been able to buy myself a new car. YAH!!! And the best part.......My eyes can see a trip to Ireland again. I am a much happier Chrys these days. It has been a hard battle and a long road. It is not over, I have a long way to go. I know I am not perfect, and along the way I am going to stumble. I have taken all these steps to get me here today. I am going to keep moving forward. One day at a time.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">Original Yahoo 360 Comments:</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"></span></span><br /><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">09/03/2006 09:48 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">This is soooooooooooo awesome Chrys!!! I am soooooooo happy for you!!! You were struggling so for too long. Its nice to feel the positive emotions you are sending through your words!!! huggggggggggggs!</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><br /></div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">09/03/2006 07:47 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">There is some serious positive energy emanating from this blog, and I for one am glad to sense it. Good on you, hon.</div></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-25549330411144226412006-08-28T22:00:00.001-04:002010-11-16T22:02:06.817-05:00Sean: joey.....me matey<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: black; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting" border="0" src="http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c130/joey_v/joeyv5_137.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; max-width: 100%; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /></span><br /><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">i miss him so much...more than i could even explain here...indeed tis so pro found a grief i could not share it publicly in any event...</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">joey...we stand beside u mate...never u fear, the pirates shall sail again...</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-61123614764643803162006-08-12T18:17:00.012-04:002010-10-26T14:04:13.655-04:00Whats Up With Chrys....August Volume 1<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"></span><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Whats Up With Chrys?<span> </span>August Volume 1</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Long time since I have checked in, thought it was time for me to do so.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">WOW!<span> </span>Looking back over the course of the last few months, not to mention just this year alone, what a ride it has been. Defiantly a year of ups and downs.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I am trying very hard to put gramps death behind me. To put the sadness and depression I went through for 6 months after that behind me. The fact that I was without a job and dropped out of school and felt worthless, behind me. Damn how I have tried.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">But there was something I went through about 2 months ago, that I kept hidden from everyone. Something that has just torn at my insides and eaten away at my heart. Some of you have noticed my lack of blogs. Some of you noticed the whole miss you theme going on in the ones I did write. And some of you even noticed that my top friends changed order for a while. I don't know why I didn’t talk about it. Maybe because I just didn’t want to deal with it. It was easier for me to just hide it away and pretend it was not happening. I did not want to admit that I let someone else over my wall into my life, let someone get close to me again, only for them leave. But, that is what happened. <span> </span>Out of respect for Lonnie and the personal issues involved that include Elonna, Joey and Sean (and of course the quiet Ray), I have to leave a lot of the details out. <span> </span>But as you know, Lonnie and I are very close. You have all read the blogs. Seen the comments. <span> </span>And due to some situations that are happening in Joeys world, we have all been dealing with some sad things. For reasons I keep private out of respect for Lonnie, he left. He ran away to deal with things. He left without saying good bye. Went across the country without a word. It took weeks before Sean even knew where he was. My heart broke. How could someone tell you so many things, how could someone claim to be a friend, how could someone tell you they love you and are a part of their heart only to just vanish into thin air like nothing ever happened? Go away like you meant nothing. These boys, they are my Irish pride and joy and they know that. Joey, like a brother to me. Sean, my world, and Lonnie my heart. And Ray, well he’s just Ray. <span> </span>A group of friends bound together in this earth.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">First I worried. Words could not express how much I worried about him. Then, I was sad and hurt. With time, anger set in. <span> </span>I went through all these emotions. Shortly after he left, I had lost contact with Sean. Again, to have to go through the emotions of wondering what happened. Where was he? And Joeys contact had been taken away from him. Me and Elonna were left with each other. To try to make each other smile and laugh daily was a chore. All we wanted to do was cry and cry. Things were not right in the world. Who was to blame? What did we do to deserve this?</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">One by one, with time, things started to fall in to place. Joey was able to render some contact. Sean came out of hiding. How I missed him. My Irish One. How happy I was to see him again, to know that he is OK. To know that we always have a bond that will not be broken.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Then, something great fell into place. I got a job. Well, the hotel job lasted a day. I was out of there quicker then you could spell supercalifragilisticexpalidocious. hmmm does anyone know really how to spell that word???<span> </span>Ok, so I did get a job working for city hall. It is a good job. It’s about a 20 min. commute to work. Not too bad.<span> </span>But, it has been hard for me to get back into a work schedule. Not to mention back into the swing of life. <span> </span>Been out of the loop for so long. It has been a real adjustment. I’ve been so tired <span> </span>and so emotionally drained. There is just so much stuff I have to learn. My poor brain doesn’t know what to do. I thought I could handle things. Thought I would be able to make it. But, after dodging my shrink for a year and not medicating myself for 8 months I have decided that this is something that I can no longer do alone. So, I have made an appointment to go back to the shrink. And we have 8 months or more to get caught back up on.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">So meanwhile, I am dealing with the adjustment of this new job; dealing with the self doubt of can I do it? Will I be ok? Feelings of worthlessness, hopeless, self doubt, death, (yes I said death) not suicide, but just death in general. I think this is brought on by my not feeling well, all those tummy issues I have dealt with for years.<span> </span>Dealing with a work schedule and being in the land of the living…then I had to deal with the return of Lonnie. I freaked. I didn’t know how to act. Didn’t know what to say to him. Didn’t know how he was going to be towards me. So much time had passed. So many emotions had been thrown into the pot.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Now, don't get me wrong. Lonnie being back is a great thing. But, it just happened in the middle of so much self doubt and worries that right then I just did not know what to think about everything.<span> </span>So, when I actually got the chance to talk to Lonnie, it was time for me to face all those emotions that I ran from. And it was time for him and me to talk about them. And it was good. Lonnie and I are just moving on from here. Forever bound together. Nothing has changed, but at the same time, everything has changed. We will always be a part of the others life. Always.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I have realized some things. I have moved on from the past. It may only be little bits and pieces here and there, but I have moved on. I have dealt with things that needed to be dealt with, even if in my own way. And now I see that I am only human and that I can no longer deal on my own. I am not afraid to ask for help, I asked, and I will get it. I have learned that others are only human too, and that we all make mistakes in life. I have realized that I am moving forward, one day at a time.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Original Yahoo 360 Posts:</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"></span></div><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">08/12/2006 06:26 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">A journey only you can travel... but I am happy to see you arrived home again, with your friends and those people important to you. I missed you too. : )</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><br /></div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">08/12/2006 06:33 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">my dear...how I have missed you as well!!!</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><br /></div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">08/12/2006 07:02 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Welcome back!! It's not easy remembering we are only human. I go through it a lot myself.</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><br /></div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">08/12/2006 09:15 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">{{{{HUGS}}}} WE have missed you! Glad you are back! Love ya, girl!</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><br /></div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">08/12/2006 11:22 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Glad to see you back here!!! One step at a time...one day at time. I know they sound cliche' but truly its the only way to get yourself back into the rythym of your life...Huggggggggggs Chrys!!!</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><br /></div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">08/13/2006 04:35 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">glad to see you back, you have been missed</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><br /></div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">08/14/2006 07:10 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">welcome back sweet girl, you've been sorely missed. life is all about the steps we take ... make use of the baby ones honey ... life can only get better! hugs and kisses</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><br /></div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">08/14/2006 09:50 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">It´s important to move on and somehow leave past behind, cut oneself free from that... Even little by little, attitude and will are the things that MATTER</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><br /></div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">08/17/2006 08:15 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Glad to see you all!! I have missed you as well!!!</div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-35572023657976267712006-08-12T15:48:00.000-04:002010-11-10T15:52:21.728-05:00What's Up With Chrys? August Volume 1<div class="MsoNormal">Whats Up With Chrys?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>August Volume 1</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Long time since I have checked in, thought it was time for me to do so.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">WOW!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Looking back over the course of the last few months, not to mention just this year alone, what a ride it has been. Defiantly a year of ups and downs. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am trying very hard to put gramps death behind me. To put the sadness and depression I went through for 6 months after that behind me. The fact that I was without a job and dropped out of school and felt worthless, behind me. Damn how I have tried. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">But there was something I went through about 2 months ago, that I kept hidden from everyone. Something that has just torn at my insides and eaten away at my heart. Some of you have noticed my lack of blogs. Some of you noticed the whole miss you theme going on in the ones I did write. And some of you even noticed that my top friends changed order for a while. I don't know why I didn’t talk about it. Maybe because I just didn’t want to deal with it. It was easier for me to just hide it away and pretend it was not happening. I did not want to admit that I let someone else over my wall into my life, let someone get close to me again, only for them leave. But, that is what happened. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Out of respect for Lonnie and the personal issues involved that include Elonna, Joey and Sean (and of course the quiet Ray), I have to leave a lot of the details out. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But as you know, Lonnie and I are very close. You have all read the blogs. Seen the comments. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And due to some situations that are happening in Joeys world, we have all been dealing with some sad things. For reasons I keep private out of respect for Lonnie, he left. He ran away to deal with things. He left without saying good bye. Went across the country without a word. It took weeks before Sean even knew where he was. My heart broke. How could someone tell you so many things, how could someone claim to be a friend, how could someone tell you they love you and are a part of their heart only to just vanish into thin air like nothing ever happened? Go away like you meant nothing. These boys, they are my Irish pride and joy and they know that. Joey, like a brother to me. Sean, my world, and Lonnie my heart. And Ray, well he’s just Ray. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>A group of friends bound together in this earth. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">First I worried. Words could not express how much I worried about him. Then, I was sad and hurt. With time, anger set in. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I went through all these emotions. Shortly after he left, I had lost contact with Sean. Again, to have to go through the emotions of wondering what happened. Where was he? And Joeys contact had been taken away from him. Me and Elonna were left with each other. To try to make each other smile and laugh daily was a chore. All we wanted to do was cry and cry. Things were not right in the world. Who was to blame? What did we do to deserve this?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">One by one, with time, things started to fall in to place. Joey was able to render some contact. Sean came out of hiding. How I missed him. My Irish One. How happy I was to see him again, to know that he is OK. To know that we always have a bond that will not be broken. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Then, something great fell into place. I got a job. Well, the hotel job lasted a day. I was out of there quicker then you could spell supercalifragilisticexpalidocious. hmmm does anyone know really how to spell that word???<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Ok, so I did get a job working for city hall. It is a good job. It’s about a 20 min. commute to work. Not too bad.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But, it has been hard for me to get back into a work schedule. Not to mention back into the swing of life. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Been out of the loop for so long. It has been a real adjustment. I’ve been so tired <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>and so emotionally drained. There is just so much stuff I have to learn. My poor brain doesn’t know what to do. I thought I could handle things. Thought I would be able to make it. But, after dodging my shrink for a year and not medicating myself for 8 months I have decided that this is something that I can no longer do alone. So, I have made an appointment to go back to the shrink. And we have 8 months or more to get caught back up on. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So meanwhile, I am dealing with the adjustment of this new job; dealing with the self doubt of can I do it? Will I be ok? Feelings of worthlessness, hopeless, self doubt, death, (yes I said death) not suicide, but just death in general. I think this is brought on by my not feeling well, all those tummy issues I have dealt with for years. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Dealing with a work schedule and being in the land of the living…then I had to deal with the return of Lonnie. I freaked. I didn’t know how to act. Didn’t know what to say to him. Didn’t know how he was going to be towards me. So much time had passed. So many emotions had been thrown into the pot. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Now, don't get me wrong. Lonnie being back is a great thing. But, it just happened in the middle of so much self doubt and worries that right then I just did not know what to think about everything.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So, when I actually got the chance to talk to Lonnie, it was time for me to face all those emotions that I ran from. And it was time for him and me to talk about them. And it was good. Lonnie and I are just moving on from here. Forever bound together. Nothing has changed, but at the same time, everything has changed. We will always be a part of the others life. Always. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I have realized some things. I have moved on from the past. It may only be little bits and pieces here and there, but I have moved on. I have dealt with things that needed to be dealt with, even if in my own way. And now I see that I am only human and that I can no longer deal on my own. I am not afraid to ask for help, I asked, and I will get it. I have learned that others are only human too, and that we all make mistakes in life. I have realized that I am moving forward, one day at a time. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-42410764232186417222006-08-03T21:25:00.004-04:002010-11-16T21:26:45.294-05:00Lonnie: OMG Lonnie is ALIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; clear: right; color: black; float: right; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting" border="0" src="http://i99.photobucket.com/albums/l287/IsisInternection/missedyou.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; max-width: 100%; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" /></a><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"></span><br /><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Rumours of me Demise have been just that. Rumours!!!! I have been Living in Galway on a Farm!!!! No Computer access. I am alive and still up to NO GOOD!!!!</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Is anyone surprised? I am Sorry to those who worried about me. Expecially me Best Mates and me Best Girls!!!!! I reek. I know that. I dont blame anyone if they hold me Dissappearence against me. I do!!!!</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-77055394002061747162006-07-23T18:26:00.004-04:002010-10-26T14:21:12.236-04:00My Birthday TripJuly 23, 2006<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><img height="247" src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/f5f2.jpg?mgg7zHoCRMtjmPLR" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px;" width="333" /></span><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">7/23/2006</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I had a great birthday! On my way to Arkansas Saturday my mom called me from Michigan. Thank goodness for cell phones. It was our family reunion. So the phone got passed around and I got to talk to lots of my cousins. They all said Happy Birthday to me. It was great because many of them I don't get a chance to talk to very often. I was sad when I got off the phone because it was like I was the only one that was not able to come.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">It took us about 3 hours to get to Springdale. We talked for a while and watched the kids run around. They had to show me every little thing that was new since I was there last. Then Stephs step mom came and picked up the kids. She stayed a little bit and we talked. It was really weird to see her again after so long. It’s been about 10 years since I have seen her.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Once we got settled we all loaded up in the car and off to the tattoo shop we went. We went right back to the same place we went last October when I got the tat on the back of my neck.<span> </span>Steph didn’t tell her husband she was getting a tattoo.<span> </span>That was pretty funny how she just sprang it on him at the last minute.<span> </span>I had my design all picked out. I found a Celtic knot from an Irish book I have. It has a shamrock in the center. It’s black and white. I took that with me, along with some Gaelic. I wanted wings drawn. So I told the guy my story with gramps being my angel and my idea for my tattoo (not too girly) and he went upstairs and drew it out for me. This guy was from New Zealand, so he had the coolest accent. (Course, not as cool as the Irish).<span> </span>I was amazed at what he came back with. Once it was all put together. And I decided to add some color and not just have it all in black. So we added some green. Colored the shamrock and colored the wings. It turned out awesome. Steph and I were upstairs getting our tats having a bunch of laughs while Marcus and her husband played pool. They had a really cool tattoo parlor. Pool tables, indoor pond with fish, a giant fish tank, huge big screen TV, and even a cute little fur ball puppy that they called Speed Bump. We had a really good time there. I think we spent over 3 hours in that place.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Afterwards we headed to eat. Steph took us to her fave Mexican restaurant. And I am glad she did. The food was great. We stayed and ate for a long time. Just talking. Cracking jokes. She and I shared a picture of strawberry margaritas. And just when I thought we were going to leave all these people came over and started to sing happy birthday to me in Spanish first, then in English. They stuck a sombrero on my head. This was too damn funny. I could not stop laughing. Then they sat this glass in front of me that could easily have been 2 shots of more in it, of tequila. YUM! And so I did my birthday shot.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">We got out of there pretty late. So we just went back to her place. Her husband passed out almost as soon as we got in the door. Marcus kept dozing off on the couch so steph and I just told him he should go to bed. And he did. It was funny because she and I stayed up to watch this DVD of a band we used to just love in Jr High and High School.<span> </span>Poison. We just stayed up and talked and talked all night.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Got up this morning (Sunday) and hung out for a bit. Headed to breakfast together. Then Marcus and I hit to road to head home.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">So, here I am now…..back home…..</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">So, even though my birthday wasn’t spent in Ireland, or back with my family, I did get to go see one of my long time closest friends, and I had a great time.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><b>Original Yahoo 360 Comments:</b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"></span></div><ul class="ypf-usercards" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><li class="comment-item first" style="border-top-color: initial; border-top-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">08/02/2006 06:49 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Happy Belated, my friend! 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I like the tattoo.</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297108" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161154?listPage=index" id="ucard5" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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:)</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297109" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161154?listPage=index" id="ucard6" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161154?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">07/23/2006 10:16 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">LOVE the tat !!!! Beautiful design !!</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297110" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item last" style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161154?listPage=index" id="ucard7" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161154?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">07/23/2006 06:30 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Sounds fab, Chrys...and the ink looks great. :)</div></div></li></ul>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-35380373746494501482006-07-14T14:34:00.002-04:002010-11-09T14:35:59.878-05:00Finally A Job<div align="center" style="text-align: center;">Finally, after months and months of pounding the pavement, sending out resumes, and going on countless interviews, I was offered a job yesterday.</div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;">Went in for the interview yesterday morning. Got a call to come back that same afternoon, and was hired right then and there. </div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;">I'm pretty excited about it. Everyone that I talked to seemed to be really cool, and really talkative. (LOL!!) Which is good because I was sure tired of sitting in the house all the time with no one to talk to. I will be working Front Desk/Reception at the Holiday Inn. So, I will get to talk and meet all sorts of new people. </div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;">Woooooo Hooooooo</div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;">I start Monday. Hours are <st1:time hour="7" minute="0" w:st="on">7am to 3pm</st1:time>. Mon - Fri with some Saturdays during busy season. Which around here in college town USA, that’s football season. </div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;">It has been a while since I have had to get up early to get ready to go to work. So trying to get used to a schedule again might just prove to be a challenge. But, I know it will take no time at all to get back into the swing of things.</div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;">I am just very thankful right now, as finally some light has been shown to me on my dark tunnel.</div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;">Hugs to all of you for your constant support this year. Without you, I would have just given up on so many things.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-87540941573479632402006-07-08T14:37:00.004-04:002010-10-26T14:24:39.405-04:00I'm About To Get Paid!!!!!July 8, 2006<br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;"><img height="160" src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/b57b.jpg?mgg7zHoCCsXtl.Ek" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px;" width="104" /></div><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"></span><br /><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;">Yes, you heard me correctly, I'm about to get paid. Yah for ME!!!! I want to give a big HUGE thank you for those of you who have been reading my Erotic Confessions over the course of the last year. I appreciate all your kind words. When I wanted to quit, you were all there pushing me along. Not with just the erotic writing, but with my poetry and other blogs as well. Don't freak out, I am not leaving. However, Irish Chiks Erotic Confessions has been picked up by a website owner and I will now be writing for the website. There will be some changes in my blog over the next few days. All the Erotic Confessions will have to be removed. But not to fret, I will let you all know where you can find my work at, so that all my faithful readers can continue to be a fan. And of course, my poetry, my irish wits and wisdom, my life and my quotes will still be here. And maybe, just maybe, I will have a story just for myspace/yahoo.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>UPDATE: 10/26/2010 - I am redoing the blog here-------><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; line-height: normal;"><a href="http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/">http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/</a></span></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>Original Yahoo 360 Comments:</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"><ul class="ypf-usercards" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><li class="comment-item first" style="border-top-color: initial; border-top-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">07/31/2006 04:09 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">sweet!</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297097" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161153?listPage=index" id="ucard3" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161153?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">07/20/2006 04:24 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">good luck christal hope you make it to the top like so many great irish writers</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297098" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161153?listPage=index" id="ucard4" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161153?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">07/15/2006 05:29 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">good on yah chrystal! ;) cheers!</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297099" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161153?listPage=index" id="ucard5" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161153?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">07/09/2006 12:36 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">WOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO! You go girl!!!! Very happy for ya babes!!!!!!!!!</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297100" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161153?listPage=index" id="ucard6" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161153?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">07/08/2006 10:22 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">that's wonderful honey! I'm so happy for you! hugs and kisses</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297101" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161153?listPage=index" id="ucard7" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161153?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">07/08/2006 04:51 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">That is cool.</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297102" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161153?listPage=index" id="ucard8" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161153?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">07/08/2006 04:14 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">AWESOME, CHRYSTAL! I am so happy for you! Congratulations! {{{{HUGS}}}}</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297103" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161153?listPage=index" id="ucard9" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! 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font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><img height="160" src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/3bfb.jpg?mgg7zHoC4wsKK3x3" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px;" width="130" /></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: center;">Have a safe and happy 4th of July!!!</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: center;">Irish Drinking Song - by Richard Brinsley Sheridan</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: center;">Here's to the maiden of bashful fifteen,</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: center;">Here's to the widow of fifty;</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: center;">Here's to the flaunting extravagant queen,</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: center;">And here's to the housewife that's thrifty:</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: center;">Chours:</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: center;">Let the toast pass,</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: center;">Drink to the lass,</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: center;">I'll warrant she'll prove an excuse for the glass.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><b>Original Yahoo 360 Comments:</b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 12px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 18px;"></span></b></div><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><b>commented</b></div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;"><b>07/05/2006 05:39 pm</b></div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><b>How was your 4th? I had to work.</b></div></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-47561598506832144512006-06-26T13:21:00.006-04:002010-11-10T13:24:50.559-05:00What's Up With Chrys? Just Me, Thus Far<div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Just Me, Thus Far 6/26/2006<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">It has been hard to find my own words these last few weeks. Life has taken its toll on me again. Which explains why I have not really posted any new blogs. And rather then pour out all the darkness and the sadness right now, I tend to just want to hide away. </span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I find myself wanting to come back to the real me, trying to find my words again......but at the same time, I just feel so lost.....</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I feel lost without a few of my friends. It just boggles my mind that people can say and do so much. Spend so much time investing in you, then all of the sudden, it seems they fall off the planet. No warning. No words. All I get left with is a big empty spot in my heart.</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Anyway, I am still not ready to talk about that. </span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I just wanted you to know that Chrys is still here, the writer, the poet, the erotic tale teller. I'm still around. Words are still floating inside me. Its just a matter of finding myself again, and making my way back.</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I hope, that someday I can put everything that has happened this year behind me and move forward.</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Maybe writing about it, getting it out there, maybe that will help with some closure. One can hope.</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I thought I would start the week off on the right foot. Or, perhaps the left? Does it really matter? I guess not, so long as I start this blog at all, right? </span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I wanted to bring everyone new to my world up to date on life these last few months. And , this might help those of you who have been in my world for a while understand why I ran and hid. </span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I've always been a happy girl. Always the one with the smile. Always the one to make you laugh. </span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">That all ended on <st1:date day="3" month="1" w:st="on" year="2006">January 3, 2006</st1:date>. That was the day my little world came crashing down. That was the day my grandfather lost his battle with lung cancer, then colon cancer. </span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Marcus and I drove from <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Oklahoma</st1:place></st1:state> to <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Michigan</st1:place></st1:state> in the middle of winter. It was the only option we had. We made it to <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Michigan</st1:place></st1:state> just fine, but on the way to the funeral, there was a bad snow storm. We were following right behind my cousin on the way to the funeral home, when he slowed down a little. We followed his lead. And as we did, we lost control of the car and went into a total spin. We spun over into the other lane, back over, back again and again and again. Traffice was moderate. We ended up in the ditch. My cousin did not notice he had lost us. He saw the whole thing in his rearview mirror, but did not realize it was us. To this day, I dont know how we made it without someone hitting us, or us hitting them. I dont know how we walked away. All I can think of is my gramps must of been with us in the car that day. He had to of been my angel on my shoulder. We had to wait for a tow truck to come get us out, and they had to wait on us before they could start the funeral. </span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">We made it back to <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Oklahoma</st1:place></st1:state> safe and sound. But, I was sad, and just not in a good place mentally. After 3 days back to work, I left my job. And for those of you who read my old blogs, you know I complained about this job every day. I thought I would be able to find work easily. </span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I week later, I dropped out of school. Shortly after that, depression started to creep in. I stopped my medications and had not been to my shrink since before Thanksgiving. I got really really sick. More intestinal problems. For the newbies, this is something I have been dealing with for the last 3 years or so. Docs cant seem to really pin point whats wrong. For the oldies, seems a shock since I just had surgery in September. All was well after surgery.</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I went to bed one day, and didnt get out of that bed (except a few hours a day) for about 8 weeks or so. </span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">My mom sold her house, and moved in with Marcus and I for about 3 weeks. Then she packed all she could into her car, and moved herself to <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Michigan</st1:place></st1:state>. </span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">And so here I am. Alone. Sad. Jobless. </span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Really missing close friends.</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Trying to dig myself out of this hole that I seem to be in. </span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">And so, thats what has been happening in my life for the last 6 months.</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Right now, I am trying to find a job. Got my resume out there, been on many interviews. </span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I got some new meds for my intestinal issues. I have my good days and my bad days. </span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #407f00; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Ok, thats all for this update. More</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #407f00; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> on me later.</span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-89282414654263359642006-06-22T14:18:00.000-04:002010-11-10T14:19:29.672-05:00Poetry In Motion: I never, I want (redone)<div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #330033; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: Batang;">I never once asked for anything from you</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #330033; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: Batang;">All I ever wanted was for you to love me</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #330033; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: Batang;">I just wanted you to feel loved</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #330033; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: Batang;">I wanted you to feel missed</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #330033; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: Batang;">But most of all</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #330033; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: Batang;">I wanted you to feel these kisses</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #330033; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: Batang;">Upon my lips.</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #330033; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: Batang;">(C) <st1:date day="22" month="6" w:st="on" year="2006">6/22/2006</st1:date></span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-83165700623434524352006-06-19T19:38:00.008-04:002010-10-26T14:29:29.215-04:00Up To SpeedJune 19, 2006<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"></span><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"> I thought I would start the week off on the right foot. Or, perhaps the left? Does it really matter? I guess not, so long as I start this blog at all, right?</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I wanted to bring everyone new to my world up to date on life these last few months. And , this might help those of you who have been in my world for a while understand why I ran and hid.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I've always been a happy girl. Always the one with the smile. Always the one to make you laugh.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">That all ended on January 3, 2006. That was the day my little world came crashing down. That was the day my grandfather lost his battle with lung cancer, then colon cancer.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Marcus and I drove from Oklahoma to Michigan in the middle of winter. It was the only option we had. We made it to Michigan just fine, but on the way to the funeral, there was a bad snow storm. We were following right behind my cousin on the way to the funeral home, when he slowed down a little. We followed his lead. And as we did, we lost control of the car and went into a total spin. We spun over into the other lane, back over, back again and again and again. Traffice was moderate. We ended up in the ditch. My cousin did not notice he had lost us. He saw the whole thing in his rearview mirror, but did not realize it was us. To this day, I dont know how we made it without someone hitting us, or us hitting them. I dont know how we walked away. All I can think of is my gramps must of been with us in the car that day. He had to of been my angel on my shoulder. We had to wait for a tow truck to come get us out, and they had to wait on us before they could start the funeral.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">We made it back to Oklahoma safe and sound. But, I was sad, and just not in a good place mentally. After 3 days back to work, I left my job. And for those of you who read my old blogs, you know I complained about this job every day. I thought I would be able to find work easily.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I week later, I dropped out of school. Shortly after that, depression started to creep in. I stopped my medications and had not been to my shrink since before Thanksgiving. I got really really sick. More intestinal problems. For the newbies, this is something I have been dealing with for the last 3 years or so. Docs cant seem to really pin point whats wrong. For the oldies, seems a shock since I just had surgery in September. All was well after surgery.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I went to bed one day, and didnt get out of that bed (except a few hours a day) for about 8 weeks or so.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">My mom sold her house, and moved in with Marcus and I for about 3 weeks. Then she packed all she could into her car, and moved herself to Michigan.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">And so here I am. Alone. Sad. Jobless. Trying to dig myself out of this hole that I seem to be in.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">And so, thats what has been happening in my life for the last 6 months.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Right now, I am trying to find a job. Got my resume out there, been on a few interviews. I got some new meds for my intestinal issues. I have my good days and my bad days.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Ok, thats all for this update. More on me later.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><b>Original Yahoo 360 Comment:</b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"></span></div><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">06/19/2006 11:40 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">There is nothing like losing a family member, friend or a loved one and there never seems to be the right words to say to make one feel better or more at ease about it. I am sorry for your loss and I really should comment more on your blog to just let you know that I do do read it often!! I wish you luck in your job search and I know how you feel about those intestinal issues; still trying to find a doctor that can resolve mine. Have an awesome day; stop by when you can!! Say hello to Sable for me!!!</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-44250962962705436762006-06-19T15:42:00.000-04:002010-11-10T15:43:39.862-05:00Where Did You Go<div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Where Did You Go 6/19/2006<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">"I miss you so,<br />Seems like it's been forever,<br />That you've been gone.<br />Where'd you go?<br />I miss you so,<br />Seems like it's been forever,<br />That you've been gone,<br />Please come back home..."<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"> ~ chorus sung by Holly Brook~<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">From the song : Where'd You Go rapped by <st1:place w:st="on"><st1:placetype w:st="on">Fort</st1:placetype> <st1:placename w:st="on">Minor</st1:placename></st1:place><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">**************************************************<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I posted these lyrics on here today because it represents how I feel right now regarding someone very dear to me. Its been about 11 days since we have spoke and I miss him a great deal. Right now all I can do is just hope that someday, our paths will cross again. <o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-18945495440203591852006-06-17T21:01:00.003-04:002010-10-26T14:32:38.867-04:00To Blog or Not To Blog, That is the QuestionJune 17, 2006<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"></span><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I've come to the conclusion that I just do not know what to do anymore. To write here, or not.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I have noticed it has been almost a year since I started blogging here on 360. A year since I have met many of you, and what a wonderful ride it has been.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I sit here, looking at my blog, and it feels so empty. I realize maybe I should not have removed my blogs from here. But, I had my reasons.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">For many of you, we are connected at myspace, and you have been able to read my blogs. But to those of you that are new to my friends list, all you are seeing is irish parts of me. You are not able to read my true words. My own words.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">It has been hard to find my own words these last few months. Life has taken its toll on me. And rather then pour out all the darkness and the sadness, I just post my bits of Irish.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I find myself wanting to come back to the real me, trying to find my words again......but at the same time, I just feel so lost.....</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I just wanted you to know that Chrys is still here, the writer, the poet, the erotic tale teller. I'm still around. Words are still floating inside me. Its just a matter of finding myself again, and making my way back.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><b>Original Yahoo 360 Comments:</b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"></span></div><ul class="ypf-usercards" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><li class="comment-item first" style="border-top-color: initial; border-top-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">06/18/2006 11:15 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">I enjoy reading your Irish blogs and also all your blogs on myspace. Good luck and we will be thinking about you. God bless you</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297086" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161150?listPage=index" id="ucard3" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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hugs and kisses sweet lady!</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297088" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161150?listPage=index" id="ucard5" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161150?listPage=index" id="ucard6" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161150?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">06/18/2006 01:44 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Sorry that I haven't made it over to MySpace at all. Always meant to go and sign up, but finding that visits there are lots more noise than I want. Been doing much of the same, clarifying what I think and want to do in life. Evaluating friendships and relationships. Sifting grain from chaff... and feeling out dark passageways.<br /><br />Good to see you here, still, Chrystal. I do miss ya, and know we should stay in closer touch. It is good to know you are there. Be well and let's catch up soon.<br /><br />p</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297090" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161150?listPage=index" id="ucard7" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161150?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">06/17/2006 11:44 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Sometimes the courage lies in forging forward and not knowing how we are going to reinvent ourselves. It takes guts to dream new dreams. spike q</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297091" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161150?listPage=index" id="ucard8" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161150?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">06/17/2006 10:44 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">We can be patient...(tap, tap tap goes the foot) yeah, really I CAN be patient (drum drum drum the fingers on the desk top)...who says I can't wait? (spins in chair...around and around and around)<br />Umm ok I waited...where are the words??? LOL! Just teasing you...take your time...anyone worth it will still be here (or MySpace!){{{{HUGS}}}} Love ya!</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297092" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161150?listPage=index" id="ucard9" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161150?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">06/17/2006 09:16 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Pick up the pen!!! I said pick up the pen!!! LOL Just kidding......but really pick up the pen!!! I like your writing whatever it is!!!!!</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297093" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item last" style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161150?listPage=index" id="ucard10" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161150?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">06/17/2006 09:13 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Whether it's here or MySpace, I'm paying attention, talk to me. : )</div></div></li></ul>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-12885363005629846592006-06-11T00:23:00.002-04:002010-11-17T16:35:48.545-05:00Poetry In Motion: Alone<div style="text-align: left;">June 11, 2006</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">Alone. </span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">Dreaming.</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"> Silence. </span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">Thoughts of him.</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"> Heart beating.</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"> Beats fast. </span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">Pounding. </span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">Thud-thump, thud-thump.</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"> Faster.</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"> Harder. </span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">Consumes me. </span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">Weight on my chest.</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"> Heavy. </span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">Cant breath. </span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">Restricting. </span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">The pressure</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">. Muffled cries. </span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">Can you hear me?</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"> Is anyone there?</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"> Darkness. </span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">Surrounds me. </span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">Scared. </span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">Alone. </span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">© C.H. 6/3/06</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><b>Original Yahoo 360 Comments:</b></span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"></span></span></div><ul class="ypf-usercards" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><li class="comment-item first" style="border-top-color: initial; border-top-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; 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User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161149?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; 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It's the best part.</div></div></li></ul>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-90957461356819741542006-06-08T21:27:00.003-04:002010-11-16T21:28:28.424-05:00Lonnie: Different Kind of Fire<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: black; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting" border="0" src="http://i44.photobucket.com/albums/f28/a_schroeder/bonfire4thbday051.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; max-width: 100%; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" /></a></span><br /><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">There is a Raging in me Soul. Someone has been taken away from me. Someone very dear to me Heart. And I feel like Pushing away from me Sweetie and me Friend because neither seems to Understand what I need right now. Which I think is to Scream and Rant. To be Honest what I need right now is a Brawl. Just to totally Rain Down Like Lightening on someone. I just have so much pent up Anger right now. I am ready to Explode here! And I sure don't want to use that Energy on either of those Lovely Ladies I care for. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR this reeks.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-72155443177742767472006-05-30T21:37:00.001-04:002010-10-26T14:46:28.217-04:00May Moon ~ Irish PoetryMay 30, 2006<br /><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"></span><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">The young May moon is beaming, love,</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">The glowworm's lamp is gleaming, love,</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">How sweet to rove</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Through Morna's grove,</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">While the drowsy world is dreaming, love!</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Then awake! - the heavens look bright, my dear!</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">'T is never too late for delight, my dear!</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">And the best of all ways</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">To lengthen our days</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Is to steal a few hours from the night, my dear!</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">~Thomas Moore</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; 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Fuck it. Fuck it ALL. I am just going with what is Most Important to me. HER.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-41864564740564102532006-05-29T13:16:00.000-04:002010-11-10T13:18:15.830-05:00Just To Love Him<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v484/saye/Goth/Dark_love_2_by_Syrkell.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v484/saye/Goth/Dark_love_2_by_Syrkell.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div align="center" class="blogcontent" style="text-align: center;">Yes, I Love Him. There is no denying it. I can't. I tried. I ran from it. Only to have it come at me full circle and slap me in the face. I can no longer outrun it. Here it is. Here he is. In my life. Just where I want him to be. Who cares what everyone else thinks. Only matters what him and I think. Who knows what will happen. Who cares. Why plan? Just take things one day at a time. Thats all we need. One day. One Love.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-83221652629455010312006-05-27T14:52:00.002-04:002010-11-10T14:54:02.732-05:00Saying Good-Bye to Little Bits of Me<div class="MsoNormal">Saying Good-Bye to Lil Bits of Me</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Ok, so to anyone that knows me, or hell, that reads the surveys we post, then you know all about my passion for piercing and tattoos. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">But, as I try to change some things in life, there are some parts of me I need to let go of.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I said good-bye to some of my oldest friends the other day. It was sad, but it was also freeing at the same time. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">My oldest friend, for over 11 years now, my belly button ring, was the first to go. This was my first piercing, and maybe the hardest one to get rid of. I realize this one isn’t really seen by the eye. But, the truth is, my belly just is not what it was 11 years ago. A lil more plump these days. And no matter what I do, the ring just doesn’t every lay right. And quite frankly, I am tired of it poking into my skin. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So, bye-bye.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Done.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">My next friend to say good-bye to was my tongue ring. This one has many pros and cons. I have had this friend for about 9 years now. Most people don't even know I hate it. I for one am not one to be showing it to the world like many of those with them….you know who I am talking about, those pullers, teeth clinkers, call them whatever. But, I know you know who I speak of.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Anyway, I just got tired of it and, like I said, it was just time to part ways and say buh-bye.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Gone.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">The last friend I said good-bye to, was rather a new friend. Only been around for about a year now. But, I tell you, is the most pain in my ass. My cute lil nose ring has left the building as well.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Buh-bye. Gone.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Now, I know many of you are thinking I have flipped my lid. How could I get rid of something so close to me, so much of what I stand for, so much a part of me. And all I can say, it was not easy. But, it was something I felt I had to do. Felt it was just time to close the book on that part of my life.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Moving forward. Making changes. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am still me. Still Chrys. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-41821800563365840962006-05-25T21:29:00.004-04:002010-11-16T21:30:36.257-05:00Lonnie: Slowing Down<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"></span><br /><div class="blogContent" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><center><br /></center><center><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: black; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting" border="0" src="http://i27.photobucket.com/albums/c161/AnimePhantasm/jd.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; max-width: 100%; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" /></a><br /><br /><br /><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Closing Eyes for a moment. Breathing in and out.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Not much to say really unless I want to get into it</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">And I don't. Not right now at any rate.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">One love</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div></center></div><div class="footerBlog" data-blogid="124946467" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; 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font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">The heart that has truly loved never forgets. ~ Thomas Moore</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><b>Original Yahoo 360 Comments:</b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"></span></span><br /><ul class="ypf-usercards" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; 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User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161147?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">05/24/2006 02:56 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">I believe this is the absolute truth.<br />TC & Smile Big- M</div></div></li></ul>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-84444773794579897692006-05-21T15:45:00.000-04:002010-11-10T15:48:49.088-05:00What's Up With Chrys? May Edition<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">Whats Up With Chrys?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Mays Edition<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>5/21/2006<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">Life is all about changes isn’t it? I feel like, a change is about to occur. I can feel it coming on. Like big freight trains steaming on down the track. You can hear its whistle, you know its there, but just can not quite see it yet. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">This past year, just has not been my banner year, and quite frankly, I am ready to move on and get on with my life. I am tired of being sad, tired of being sick and frankly, just tired of being tired. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">I am trying very hard to keep my head above water, and find some small part of the life I once had and grab on to that. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">But so much of my life that was once in this town, is now gone. Vanished. Poof. Gone..Bye-Bye<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">My mom called me today. She is having the time of her life in <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Michigan</st1:place></st1:state>, back with family. She loves to call me and tell me all the things that are going on there. And I love hearing it, but at the same time I feel so left out. She knows I have been contemplating the idea of moving back to <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Michigan</st1:place></st1:state>. There really is not much keeping us here in <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Oklahoma</st1:place></st1:state> anymore. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">I have an uncle who lives in <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Florida</st1:place></st1:state>, and he bought a business in <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Michigan</st1:place></st1:state>. He wants my mom to run it for him. He is going to need someone to keep his books for him. And this is where I come in. I have an aunt who is an accountant, but she has her plate full as it is and just can’t take on another business. Perfect opportunity for me. Not only would I get to be with my family, I would get to work with my family again. I miss working with my mom. Hard work, but fun times. I also have an aunt that has her own mortgage company. She does a lot of work in <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Michigan</st1:place></st1:state> and <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Florida</st1:place></st1:state>. She needs someone to help her out. Again, this is where I come in. My mom has offered me both of these today. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">My mom is thinking about coming down after Memorial Day weekend, sometime around the first of June, and she will fly. Then she wants to rent a truck to move her things that are being stored here at my house, back up there to <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Michigan</st1:place></st1:state>. She wants me to come with her. She thinks it would do some good for me to be with family, work, and clear my head of all the problems that have been lurking in my brain. I know she means all my issues regarding my marriage. I have not really told her much, but I guess I don't need to. Moms always have a way of knowing when something is up. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">It’s just, the whole thing scares the crap out of me. Such a big step, a big change. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-44598609192299409032006-05-19T01:47:00.000-04:002010-10-26T14:51:10.130-04:00Irish FolkloreMay 19, 2006<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"></span><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">It is custom amongst the people, when throwing away water at night, to cry out in a loud voice, "Take care of the water;" or literally, from the Irish, "Away with yourself from the water" - for they say that the spirits of the deal last buried are then wandering about, and it would be dangerous if the water fell on them. </div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">~Lady Wilde</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><b>Original Yahoo 360 Comments:</b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"></span></div><ul class="ypf-usercards" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><li class="comment-item first" style="border-top-color: initial; border-top-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">05/19/2006 03:54 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">perhaps it's because some plagues were spread via sewers and infected water systems//or ppl thought they were? spike q</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297077" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item last" style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161146?listPage=index" id="ucard3" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161146?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">05/19/2006 01:35 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">*raising eyebrow* lol...kinda strange to Me but... to each her own.<br />TC & Smile Big- M</div></div></li></ul>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-5791888640652534682006-05-16T15:43:00.000-04:002010-11-10T15:45:05.270-05:00Poetry In Motion: When He's Gone<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">When hes gone<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I miss him<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">how I long to hold <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">and kiss him.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">When hes gone<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">and not close by<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">my heart skips a beat<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">my body cries.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">When hes gone<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">my mind starts to roam<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I start to question<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">wonder<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">all the what ifs and whys.</span><span style="color: black;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Where is it that my heart<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">should call home?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">When hes gone<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">my brain<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">it rattles and hums<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">like the continuing sound<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">of a steady bass drum.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">THUD THUMP THUD THUMP<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Perhaps, thats just my heart.beating for him.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">© C.H. <st1:date day="16" month="5" w:st="on" year="2006">5/16/06</st1:date><o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-20629750031075099652006-05-15T21:36:00.002-04:002010-11-16T21:36:50.320-05:00Lonnie: Thanks<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image hosting by Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c130/joey_v/th02bf0cbc.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; max-width: 100%; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" /></a> Thanks for Everything. You know who you are Baby. I Love You.</span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-35329677971871270392006-05-13T18:20:00.000-04:002010-10-26T14:53:14.004-04:00Flower O' the MayMay 13, 2006<br /><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><img height="218" src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/9d46.jpg?mgg7zHoCF5wUBvGy" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px;" width="300" /></span><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Sure this is blessed Erin an' this the same glen,</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">The gold is on the whin-bush, the wather sings again,</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">The Fairy Thorn's in flower, - an' what ails my heart then?</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Flower o' the May,</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Flower o' the May,</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">What about May time, an' he far away!</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">~Moira O'Neill</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-359518932955861472006-05-13T02:09:00.000-04:002010-10-26T14:55:28.143-04:00IrelandMay 13, 2006<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><img height="233" src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/fa9f.jpg?mgg7zHoCRRdAPymJ" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px;" width="300" /></span><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">She is a rich and rare land;</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">O she's a fresh and fair land;</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">She is a dear and rare land-</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">This native land of mine.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">No men than hers are braver-</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Her women's hearts ne'er waver;</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I'd freely die to save her,</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">And think my lot divine.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">She's not a dull or cold land;</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">No! she's a warm and bold land;</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">O she's true and old land-</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">This native land of mine.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">~Thomas Osborne Davis</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><b>Original Yahoo 360 Comments:</b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"></span></div><ul class="ypf-usercards" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><li class="comment-item first" style="border-top-color: initial; border-top-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">05/13/2006 12:01 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">beautiful!</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297074" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item last" style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161143?listPage=index" id="ucard3" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161143?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">05/13/2006 02:29 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">quite a picture... lovely in combo W/ the post!<br />:)</div></div></li></ul>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-66574946947321262302006-05-11T21:30:00.002-04:002010-11-16T21:31:40.945-05:00Lonnie: Can't Keep A Good Man Down!!<a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #666666; float: left; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting" border="0" src="http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c130/joey_v/biggirl.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; max-width: 100%; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" /></a><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"><br /><br /><br />That's right Folkes Lonnie is Happy again. I never seem to Stay Down for Long. Tis one of the Best Things about me!!! OK it may Help that some of the Issues I was Having are Sorted at the Moment. LOL!!! At any rate I am Smiling this Morn and Life is Good. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! As for the Pic. I just like it and it Fits with Chrystal's Blog as well!!! LOL!!!</span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-16440539106467867042006-05-11T17:20:00.002-04:002010-11-08T17:21:58.572-05:00Comfortable In My Own Skin<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">I never thought I would be able to type those words and mean them.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">Sure, I still have my issues with my body and my insecurities, but who doesn’t? <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">But right now, I am content. I am happy just being me. For the first time in a long time someone loves me just as I am. Takes me as I am. Nothing more and nothing less. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">My quirks, my flaws, my body, my attitude, my obsessions, my kinks, my oddities...everything about me....<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">Doesn’t criticize, doesn’t try to change. Just takes me for what I am. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">ME. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">With him, I am free..free to just be me........... this angel can spread her wings and fly..<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">Oceans may separate......we may have many miles between.......but the distance doesn’t matter.......what matters is how we feel about each other inside.......and some way.....some how.........we shall have our time together.<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-17655009018507199412006-05-10T20:41:00.001-04:002010-10-26T15:00:49.286-04:00The Jewel ~ Irish ProverbMay 10, 2006<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"></span><br /><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;"><img height="249" src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/9369.jpg?mgg7zHoCSgf4BH4K" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px;" width="333" /></div><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;">The Jewel most rare is the Jewel most fair. ~ Irish Proverb</div><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;"><br /></div><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;">Original Yahoo 360 Comments:</div><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"><ul class="ypf-usercards" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><li class="comment-item first" style="border-top-color: initial; border-top-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">05/12/2006 05:32 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">pretty pic too:0).<br />TC & Smile Big- M</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297069" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; 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border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161142?listPage=index" id="ucard3" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! 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0px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><ul style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"></ul></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-66256074921107153332006-05-10T14:04:00.000-04:002010-11-10T14:05:57.736-05:00Poetry In Motion: If I Let Go<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1030.photobucket.com/albums/y362/marisab202/Graphics%202/nevergoaway.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="213" src="http://i1030.photobucket.com/albums/y362/marisab202/Graphics%202/nevergoaway.png" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">If I let go<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">will you follow<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">or let me go quietly?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">If I fall,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">will you catch me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">or let me crash?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">What happened<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">to these hearts of ours?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">Somewhere along the way<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">we just let things be<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">threw up our hands<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">and said<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">~ Okay.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">If I walk away now<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">would you quietly let me walk?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">Would things just slowly<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">shrivel and fade<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">with time <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">be a distant memory?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">If I slowly walk<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">would you try and stop me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">put up a fight<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">make a fuss<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">pull at these strings <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">from which I hang?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">Here I am<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">just hanging<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">dangling for all to see.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">© C.H. <st1:date day="10" month="5" w:st="on" year="2006">5/10/2006</st1:date><o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-63181391351845954412006-05-06T21:32:00.004-04:002010-11-16T21:33:48.706-05:00Lonnie: Sad Lonnie<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: black; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; 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Funny how Moods can change in a few Days. Oh I still am Glad I have Chrys in me life. Of course!!! But I am Worried about Her and what Troubles She is going through. She is Having a Rough Time and I am stuck over here in Dub unable to Help Her at all. I am used to coming to the Rescue and Tearing down the Walls and Saving those I love!!! And I can't do that for Her. I feel so Helpless and Frustrated. Then there is me other Friend who I had words with. I feel like She is Letting me go, no She has Pushed me Away and seems to have no Desire to make things right with us. Then there is the Man I Love who is Locked Away and soon to go to Prison. I miss Him so much it Hurts!!! And I tried to Find something Sexually like I had with Him and it was a Tragic Joke!!!! I am just not very good Company right now am I???? Sorry about that and I am one Sorry Fucker in general!!!!</span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-35135459310531504062006-05-05T15:01:00.001-04:002010-10-26T15:03:51.338-04:00Full House<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-color: initial; border-style: initial;">May 5, 2006</span></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-color: initial; border-style: initial;"><br /></span></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-color: initial; border-style: initial;"><br /></span></span></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-color: initial; border-style: initial;"><img height="170" src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/86d2.jpg?mgg7zHoCexK3R3o2" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px;" width="250" /></span></span></span><br /><div style="color: #666666; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Leap Castle in County Offaly is reported to house more haunts then</div><div style="color: #666666; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">any other castle in Ireland, with 24 ghosts rattling through its ancient halls.</div><div style="color: #666666; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #38761d; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;"><a href="http://www.simonmarsden.co.uk/books-PhantomsoftheIsles-Sample.htm" rel="nofollow" style="cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;">Read More About Leap Castle Here...just click...I linked!!! 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border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">05/08/2006 09:04 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">thanks for the share...cool.<br />TC & Be Well- M</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297066" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); 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cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161141?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">05/05/2006 12:00 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">thanx for shareing i love spooky stuff.</div></div></li></ul><br /><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-81612508150585960962006-05-05T14:02:00.002-04:002010-11-10T14:03:57.672-05:00Poetry In Motion: I'm Sorry<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I’m SORRY!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">What did I do?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">You got me apologizing and I can not even begin to imagine what it was that I did. But, whatever it is, I am truly sorry if you took things the wrong way. I would never purposely hurt you. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">My heart, my soul, my love.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">But, I don't deserve this treatment,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">This treatment from you.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Tell me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Was I wrong?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Let me fix it<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Let me make it right<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Let me hold you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Hold you tight<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Let me love you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Love you right<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I loved you then<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I love you now<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I’ll love you forever<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">If we can take back this moments somehow.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">You are my heart, my soul, my love, my life. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Missing You and Loving You Baby<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">C.H.</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-37461840312135277342006-05-03T16:34:00.000-04:002010-11-10T16:35:20.900-05:00Poetry In Motion - Words<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Words <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Words<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">too many<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">sometimes<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">never clear<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Words<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">rattle around<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">in my head<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Words<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">always continue<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">never end<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">over and over<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">certain <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">words<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">replay<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">forever<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">pulling me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">this way<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">and that<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Words<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">how they <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">burn<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">how they <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">sting<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Words<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">wish they were easy<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Words<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Cant be easy, can they?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">(C) C.H. <st1:date day="3" month="5" w:st="on" year="2006">5/3/2006</st1:date><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-51270835277962833442006-05-02T13:03:00.002-04:002010-11-10T13:04:46.967-05:00What' Up With Chrys? Life Sucks, Except for One Thing<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">Life Stinks, Except for One Thing 5 2 2006<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">Oh how I need a new blog.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is way past due. So many things to talk about, but yet it seems I just cant figure out the words to say. Or, the main thing, I just get too damn distracted. Sure I can sit and type for hours at a time, but, not when I am the only one talking. Usually, there is someone on the other end of the email or the chat box. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">I feel I have partly hid from writing is because all that has been coming out of me has been so dark. It seems I have found myself back in my dark hole, and I just didnt want anyone to know. I need to not be worried, and I need to be strong. But even I crack and break. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">Maybe I should not have stopped seeing my therapist, and maybe I should not have taken myself off my medications. But, even so, that can not possibly be the reason my life has gone down the path that it has this year. This much I can fix. I can call the pharmacist in the morning and have my meds refilled. I can call my shrinks office and make and appt.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I can start that all over again. What fun that will be trying to fill her in on the last 4 months of my life.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">I get it, Gramps is gone and there is no bringing him back. I understand that. And, this isnt even about that anymore. I am here, in this house, in this town, ALONE. All alone. My friends are gone. They all have moved out and away. Sure, we talk on the phone and stuff, but it is just not the same as having them here. And, now that my mom is gone, it makes things even harder. And my in-law, oh man don't get me started with them. I mean, they are good people, and we get along, we are just not close. Not close at all. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">Im broken, tattered, torn and confused about life, love and marriage. When everyone tells me to follow my heart, my heart says for me to not stay here anymore. It says I don't want to be here anymore. And when I told that to my mom the other day she said to me, "Chrystal, maybe its time to let it go. Time to call it quits." Maybe she is right. Maybe I am unhappy because I am in a marriage I don't want to be in. But I am so damn scared of it all. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">But then I question myself constantly. There had to be something there once before? Why is it not there now? What happened?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What if its just me and my own worries and insecurities right now about life? So many "What If's". Not to mention the "Do I's"?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">Do I even want to try and save it, or fix it? I mean, if I can love someone else(my dear Lonnie) so much, and him be so far away from me, would that not be a sign that maybe I should not be in the marriage. Or is it a sign that I am just capable of loving someone. To show me I have a big heart, and that I can and shall love someone. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">Not that these questions matter much. Even if I did muster up the strength to call it quits and leave, where would I go? I mean, I could move home to <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Michigan</st1:place></st1:state>, and start a new life over there. I would have to get family to come down and help me move, would not be something I could do alone. And I would have to stay with family until I was on my own two feet. As of right now, I can not stand on my own two feet. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">I feel stuck. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">Or, just pack myself up and head to <st1:city w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Dublin</st1:place></st1:city>. Oh, if only things were that easy. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">As you know, after I got back from gramps funeral, I left that job working for the crazy lady. And she is making things rather difficult for me. Cant use her for a reference. She is fighting me over my unemployment and I have a court hearing over that on the 10<sup>th</sup>. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">I know having a job does not define my self worth. Neither does being in school. But, when I don't have those 2 things going on in life, I feel worthless. I feel like nothing. And right now, I just feel like a big blob taking up space in this house. Simply coexisting with another human being. Forcing someone else to take care of me. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">School will just have to wait until fall before I can enroll. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">But then, finding a job brings me to my health. You all have heard me talk about this since the beginning of our blog days at <st1:street w:st="on"><st1:address w:st="on">360 Yahoo Drive</st1:address></st1:street>. I have some internal problems. And had surgery last September. I was fine for a few months, and now it has all come back to me full force. My doc put me on new meds and it is sort of hit or miss. I have good days and I have bad days. I sleep A LOT. Part of that is from the meds, and I am sure the other part of that is my depression. So, whats the point of finding a job if I am just going to have to call in sick all the time? Or, maybe, I would feel better if I had a job and some sense of purpose in life. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">I'm tired of feeling like crap. I am tired of being sick. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">But then, wouldnt my job take away from my time spent with Lonnie.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I worry. I wonder what would happen if I was not able to sit and talk with him for all the hours that I do.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sure, we would still get to talk, but it just would not be as much. And our time is so limited as it is.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Would we drift apart? Fall apart? And that thought simply makes me sad. And losing any little part of him that I have is something that I just dont want to think about.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">And then that brings me to selling my car. I am not a materialistic person.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But, I hate to get rid of my car. My rip roaring beast of a machine. But, the truth is, we just cant afford to have two cars. I guess the good thing is my lil brother in law wants to buy it. And with him still living at home with no bills, he has the time and the money to put into a car like that and get it back to showroom quality and put it in the car shows.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I guess he is trying to save up some money to buy it from us. Which, in the end, will help us all out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Even though we would end up with two people trying to share one car.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My Explorer. The SUV beast. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">Oh all the freaking WHAT IFs.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">All the damn worries.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">My head is spinning.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">I should have written another installment of Passports and Emotions as; I got my passport in the mail last week. I was rather happy (doing my little Irish jig) about it, but sadness suddenly took over. The trip has been postponed. And until when, I dont know. I wish I knew. I wish I had a set date.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know its not the end of the world. But, when you are looking forward to something like that as much as I was, it does almost seem like the end of the world. To see as much of <st1:country-region w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Ireland</st1:place></st1:country-region> as I could see in 2 weeks. Even if all I saw was in <st1:city w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Dublin</st1:place></st1:city>. Thats OK. To be able to say hello in person to Ray. To be able to see where Joey is, even if I could not see him in person. I would at least be able to send him my positive thoughts.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>To be able to give Sean a big ole hug, tell him how much his friendship means to me.....but, mostly.......to hold Lonnie and tell him in person how much I Love Him and how much happiness he has brought into my dark and lonely life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He is my bright light, my shining star. My King.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">Its always about the small things in life that matter to me. Little things mean a lot. If I wanted to travel alone, I could already be on my way there. I could have a set date. But, Lonnie asked that I not travel alone for it will worry him so, and therefore I made a promise that I would not come alone. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">I am not one for breaking promises, but damn it.....this angel wants to break free and fly.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black;">How she just longs to fly free.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-50039265976339018942006-05-01T21:33:00.000-04:002010-11-16T22:27:50.698-05:00Lonnie : Happy Lonnie<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting" border="0" src="http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c130/joey_v/19a6re2.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; max-width: 100%; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" /></a> <a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: black; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting" border="0" src="http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c130/joey_v/9891re2.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; max-width: 100%; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" /></a> <a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting" border="0" src="http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c130/joey_v/33eescd.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; max-width: 100%; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" /></a><br /><br />You know what? I am really Happy. Tis almost Ridiculous. And there are a lot of Reasons. I spent Time with me Daughter Victoria over the weekend. Her Mum is getting Better at Letting me take Her without wanting to Monitor everything. I got to Bang Drums at a gig with a Band that may have me join if things continue to go wrong with their Current Drummer. I was Audited at Work and for ONCE me Money and Books came out right. But the MAIN REASON is me Chrys. I asked Her if She would be me Girlfriend and She said YES. This really means a lot to me. Cuz even when I had Girlfriends they never seemed to be willing to make things Official. I am so Proud of me Princess Girlfriend that I slapped her Pics all over me Page. And here tis more! LOL!!!</span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-85303181702221498702006-04-28T16:14:00.000-04:002010-11-10T16:17:51.474-05:00Poetry In Motion: Take Away My Words<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">Take Away My Words<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i48.photobucket.com/albums/f228/I_Write_Sins/Quotes%20Words%20Lyrics/goodbye.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i48.photobucket.com/albums/f228/I_Write_Sins/Quotes%20Words%20Lyrics/goodbye.jpg" /></a></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";"><o:p><br /></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">I wish<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">I could go back in time<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">I wish<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">I could take away <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">the words that I said.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">I wish<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">I could go back in time<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">I would say I am sorry<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">and with it<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">the pride <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">and glory<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">of making things right.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">Only, <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">If I could go back in time.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">I wish<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">I could go back in time<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">take back my words<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">all the anger<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">the sadness<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">the hurt<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">and the pain that they bring.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">Have you ever wanted<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">to go back in time<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">and change some things?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">I know, I do. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">C.H. <st1:date day="28" month="4" w:st="on" year="2006">4/28/2006</st1:date></span><span style="color: black;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">In the hustle and bustle of everyday life, we may not give our words a second thought. If you’re like me, you just say whatever is on your mind without thinking first. Sometimes my words get the best of me. Or I do not choose them correctly. Saying one thing, meaning another, never getting things quite right. I try my best as my words are an important part of my life. But, even I make mistakes. And for that, I am sorry. <o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-40493911754446928052006-04-26T17:24:00.004-04:002010-10-26T15:07:01.493-04:00This One's For JoeyApril 26, 2006<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><img height="227" src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/6926.jpg?mgg7zHoCVjWsj.Gx" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px;" width="170" /></span><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">This blog is fer Joey......you see, seems the gods of yahoo have decided to attack him and his account now. First, his pics. Then some months later, some more pics. Yesterday his 360, and now , his entire account.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">For anyone that knows Joey's story, and has read his blog, you know that he has gotten so tame these last few months. Not a hint of any nudity or things sexual. So, what reasoning does yahoo have for yanking his account?</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Well, I dont know, but I know I will never get the answer I want.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I have seen so many friends come and go because of this.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">I have decided to pull my blog. I will still come by your place, say hello. But my Irish Chik Erotic Confessions will no longer be posted here. All that will be left here are my lil' Irish writing...I mean, whats IrishChik without her irish writings?...You can read all my stuff on myspace if you are there.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><b>Original Yahoo 360 Comments:</b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 12px; font-weight: normal; line-height: 18px;"></span></b></div><ul class="ypf-usercards" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><li class="comment-item first" style="border-top-color: initial; border-top-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><b>commented</b></div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;"><b>05/09/2006 04:43 am</b></div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><b>really said.. so best ption is to keep it private for friends only..<br /><br />sorry to him...<br /><br />hugs<br />rock.</b></div><b><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297060" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; 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cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></b></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><b><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161140?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</b></div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;"><b>05/01/2006 09:28 pm</b></div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><b>man that sucks.<br />TC & Stand Tall- M</b></div><b><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297061" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); 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User" /></a></b></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><b><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161140?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</b></div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;"><b>04/27/2006 09:06 pm</b></div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><b>I am really shock about Joey had lift the yahoo 360, I didn't realize that<br />he have that much pression on him like that.</b></div><b><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297062" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); 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width: 48px;"><b><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161140?listPage=index" id="ucard5" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></b></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><b><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161140?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</b></div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;"><b>04/27/2006 07:23 pm</b></div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;"><b>So the yaholes pulled another one eh? censorship here is perfectly legal and they don't have to give a "reason." sorry to hear all of that. the censorship was one of the top reasons i decided to get my own domain. spike q</b></div></div></li></ul><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-17265360624045775362006-04-21T22:02:00.006-04:002010-11-16T22:04:45.132-05:00Sean: thoughts<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: black; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image hosting by Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i44.photobucket.com/albums/f29/christfollower89/smile.png" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; max-width: 100%; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" /></a></span><br /><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">tis been so long since i have writ...what is there 2 say? me life as it were is moving along.. i work, spend time with the family, keep the yard maintained and....so forth.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">i am in a better place than i was with some issues...i am now all right with me mate and me former ...how do i sum her up...me beauty...being together. i am seeing what happiness they both are experiencing...tis a beaufiful thing, as me mate has never really been happy in love...or lucky in love...tis always been a trial 4 him.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">and here is the deal...i KNOW she is a good woman and will treat him well...as i know how well she treated me. so...i am all right..in fact i am happy for them...</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">here is the hard part 2 say...but say it i must...i was a huge wanker.. as i was the one who hurt lonnie. twas i and me bloody temper...jealousy...and sheer stupidity. i have apologized 2 him 4 what i done, but i feel to say it here...in public as it were...is a needed step 4 me 2 make.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">well 4 some one who said he hadn't much to say..i surely blabbered on!</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-62889210063629069242006-04-21T13:53:00.005-04:002010-11-10T13:56:49.173-05:00Poetry In Motion: In Front Of Me<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/feardarkwhichghides.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/feardarkwhichghides.gif" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Old English Text MT"; font-size: 20.0pt;">In Front Of Me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Old English Text MT"; font-size: 20.0pt;">I close my eyes<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Old English Text MT"; font-size: 20.0pt;">there he is<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Old English Text MT"; font-size: 20.0pt;">Turn the corner</span><span style="color: black;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Old English Text MT"; font-size: 20.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>there he is<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Old English Text MT"; font-size: 20.0pt;">Eyes open<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Old English Text MT"; font-size: 20.0pt;">Eyes closed<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Old English Text MT"; font-size: 20.0pt;">Nothing really there<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Old English Text MT"; font-size: 20.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>nothing there at all.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Old English Text MT"; font-size: 20.0pt;">But yet, <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Old English Text MT"; font-size: 20.0pt;">there he always </span><span style="color: black;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Old English Text MT"; font-size: 20.0pt;">seems to be. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Old English Text MT"; font-size: 20.0pt;">Right there, <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Old English Text MT"; font-size: 20.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>always in front of me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Old English Text MT"; font-size: 20.0pt;">C.H. <st1:date day="21" month="4" w:st="on" year="2006">4/21/06</st1:date><o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-4839030733180121642006-04-20T21:35:00.003-04:002010-11-16T21:35:47.378-05:00Lonnie : This Girl I Love<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: black; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image hosting by Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i50.photobucket.com/albums/f327/mytraitorsheart/e0480b61.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; max-width: 100%; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" /></a><br />You know. I want to write a Blog for Her. I reek at Poetry and don't have the Tolerance to write a big long Sex Story. I could say how I met Her but I think Everyone knows that. In the End I am just gonna say how She makes me Feel. I feel OK in me own Skin with Her. I feel like I am Accepted the way I am with Her. I Smile when I am with Her. She makes me Laugh, She makes me Think. I guess the best part is that She Loves me. And I Love Her. And even though that is Scary at the same time that is so Good.</span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-91923604130818242182006-04-19T16:31:00.000-04:002010-11-10T16:32:32.324-05:00Poetry In Motion: You<div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">You 4 19 2006<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Want you <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Need you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">See you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">See me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Hold you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Know you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Know me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Feel you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Touch you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Need you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Need me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Have to<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Want to<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Hold you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Need to <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Know you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Feel you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Hold me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">(C) C.H.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-30561667354436628302006-04-19T12:37:00.001-04:002010-11-10T12:37:51.015-05:00Poetry In Motion: Him and I<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Him and I<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">You and Me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">We are no different<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Cant you see?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Two hearts<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Oceans apart <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Miles may separate<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Despite that<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Everything feels so right<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">For we are<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Just two loving souls<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Dancing in the light.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><st1:date day="19" month="4" w:st="on" year="2006"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">4-19-06</span></st1:date><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;"> C.H. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-79301153456275015712006-04-15T17:09:00.003-04:002010-11-08T17:14:33.299-05:00Blink....Blink, Blink.....Blink<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">blink…..blink……blink……blink<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">shut up damn it<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">blink…..blink……blink…..<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">would you stop already, I know what I am gonna say. At least I know what I want to say. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">blink…..blink…….blink…….blink…….<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">What the hell is with my cursor? Just tormenting me with its blinky blinky ass. Leave me alone. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">What? What’s that you’re telling me?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">I need to write? Well, what in the world do you think I am trying to do here? Stop tormenting me….stop talking to me…<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">blink….blink…..blink…..<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">STOP IT!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">Ok, I can not be the only one in the world who has war with the blank page and their cursor. Blink damn it. I am gonna just keep blinking at you until you write something.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Easy enough to get it to stop blinking, right? So, then why am I having such a hard time of it lately? Usually I am so full of words. But, not lately. What happened to me? Writers block? Why? Is writers block for real or merely a figment of our imagination? I know its not because I don't have anything going on in life to write about. I got tons of stuff I could be writing about. Easy enough then. But, why can’t I find my words? It is my words that are lost. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">I am sending out S.W.A.T. (cue music…duh na na….nanananana)<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-5948264207603879232006-04-13T13:18:00.004-04:002010-11-10T13:21:02.233-05:00What's Up With Chrys? Just Not Feeling Well<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i124.photobucket.com/albums/p2/bktrucking/bones.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="223" src="http://i124.photobucket.com/albums/p2/bktrucking/bones.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Just Not Feeling Well 4 13 2006<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Ive been trying to work on a new blog for a little bit now. Just with the events as of late, I havent really felt like putting my thoughts into words, but rather just send my thoughts overseas. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">But, right now, my body is in utter agony. Those closest to me know this story. Have listened to me whine the last week or so. I cant sleep. I toss and turn all night. I cant eat, I just throw it up. So basically its been all liquids for a week now. Now, theres a way to lose weight huh? Right, it sucks. I cant leave my house. I cant take my dogs out for a walk. I cant run, cant work out. Cant bend to lift, nothing!!! I can barley walk from my bedroom down the hall to the living room. Im all doubled over like some drunk whose been punched in the gut one too many times. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">My internal specialist has been out of town. And unfortunately, in this nice size college town in which I live, there is not another one that takes my insurance. Which, really is fine, cause I hate being passed off from DR to DR.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Having to explain over and over again, cause lets face it, them charts only explain so much.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">So, I called my family Dr. She wasnt in yesterday, was all booked today, so I can not get in until tomorrow morning. Well, thats just great, seeing has how this was the worst day ever. I feel like that helpless little girl again who cant get nothing done for herself and has to rely on someone else to take care of her. And this kind of discomfort and pain brings out the evil bitch in me. I am crabby, so stay away. Thankfully spoustoid has figured that out. Leave me alone, I don't need anything, I am trying to write something here! hehehe<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Ok, so, the surgery was a flop. And my medication no longer works. I have a feeling I know what she is going to say, and well, quite frankly is why I put off going to the DR. I dont want to go through yet another surgery. I want them to KNOW what the hell is wrong with me and FIX IT. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Part of me is just really worried. I know I should not think about things like this. These are the time when I need to stay optimistic. But, even I have my days. These Irish eyes do not always smile. But you know I just lost my grandfather to cancer. In the beginning it was lung cancer. In the end, colon cancer took over. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Having just lost him, and still trying to heal from that.and worrying so much about my own health, starts to play on my mental health as well. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Anyway, Im off to lie downcant sit here no more. Will get back to you after I get back from the docs. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-6570086939140925532006-04-08T21:48:00.002-04:002010-11-16T21:49:28.264-05:00Joey: Fer Lonnie<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"></span><br /><h4 class="subject" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 1.2em; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-rendering: optimizelegibility; vertical-align: baseline;"><a href="http://www.myspace.com/i_am_joeyv/blog/107369160" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: white; font-family: inherit; font-size: 13px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">Fer Lonnie</a></h4><div class="blogContent" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #88181b; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image hosting by Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c130/joey_v/irish/4fa3.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; max-width: 100%; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" /></a><br />I would like to ask everyone to say a prayer fer one o me best mates Lonnie. He was in a brawl recently and was badly hurt. Had to be taken to the hospital and might have a concussion and not sure how hes gonna fare. He has been a good buddy o mine fer about 6 years now and he means a lot to me. So if ya kind folks could keep him in yer hearts I would appreciate it. ~hugs and licks~</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-21472751138016291942006-04-08T12:58:00.002-04:002010-11-10T12:59:30.774-05:00Look At What You Have Done<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">“Look What You Have Done!” my brain screams and I hang my head in shame. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">Oops. Easiest word in the world to say, easiest way to get out of something that was indeed your fault. Oops. Very simple word. Simple to say, simple to write, and simple to walk away from. Oops sums things up very nicely. Nothing else is needed to be said after saying, oops. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">Except in my case. You see, I have a very big oops going on here. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">A big oops that has caused 2 people very close to me to come to blows with each other.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’d say I was to blame, that I feel guilty, responsible - yadda yadda, but that is gonna cause about 4 people to come and lash out at me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>One would agree for sure I was partly to blame. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That was the original purpose of today’s blog. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The events leading up to the brawl. But, right now <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">we</b> have to move past all that. <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">I</b> have to move past all that. As while I was working on this blog, some rather unsettling news had passed my way.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">My brother has kicked me in the ass and made me see things for the way that they are. (((Hugs to Joey)))) <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And so, now this blog has another purpose, a better and more meaningful purpose as Lonnie is someone very special to me, and very close to my heart. And I need to be strong, loving and caring.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">So none of that who’s to blame matters now. What matters to me right now, is that Lonnie get better. Please say a prayer, light a candle, whatever it is that you do – for him. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He was in a brawl the other night, and it seems it was worse then expected for he was recently taken to the hospital.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is likely he has a concussion, but at this point I am uncertain.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Keep him in your thoughts with the hopes that he get well soon. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">Lonnie, <strong><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-weight: normal; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold;">mo chroí.</span></strong></span><strong><span style="font-weight: normal; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold;"><o:p></o:p></span></strong></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-83220521361201856662006-04-05T14:41:00.002-04:002010-11-09T14:44:40.131-05:00Poetry In Motion: For My Irish One<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">For My Irish One<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I am a better person<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Because of you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I am a better person<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>When I am “with” you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I am a better person<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>For the way that you love me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I am a better person<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Inside and out<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I am a better person<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Because you love me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>Just as I am<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 3;"> </span>And for who I am about.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">The Irish Princess<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">© C.H.<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-62901677699221972112006-04-05T04:16:00.000-04:002010-11-10T15:42:31.716-05:00Passports and Emotions: Part 2<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Passports and Emotions – Part 2<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i158.photobucket.com/albums/t104/gesparza/passports.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="300" src="http://i158.photobucket.com/albums/t104/gesparza/passports.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><o:p><br /></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">I find myself sitting here again, blank page staring back at me. I have been trying to sit down and write this post for hours now. My mind roaming back and forth. How do I want to start this? Some fancy, witty intro? Some Chrys humor? Or should I just dive right on in?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Doesn’t matter. The truth is I just don't know how to write today. I mean, I do. I just can’t seem to get my thoughts together to properly compose them. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Once again I find myself in one of those moods. Sad. Alone. Confused. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">I keep returning to this topic, the topic of my trip. The wheels in my brain just keep turning this over and over. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">I miss my gramps. I miss me weekly phone calls. I miss my “Hello Doll, how are you?” I miss him something fierce. I have lost a part of me. And it has really fucked with my world. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">You see, being adopted, there is a part of me that I don't know. A part of me that I will never know. I know who my biological father is. I have never met the man. And I also know of his family, as they are pretty well known in the town around where my mothers family live. I have a half brother and sister, I may never know. An entire family I will likely never meet. Another Irish family. All because one man chooses to not tell them about me. To not face up to his own mistake that took place 30 years ago.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">I want my gramps back. I want him to tell me “Go Doll, find yourself.” And push me out the door. There is a part of me that I may never know, but there is this huge part of me that is dying to find herself. To know who and what she is. To see it, feel it, to just be there and breathe the air. I want to be able to come back home and tell gramps everything I saw. Tell him about the people I met. Damnit I just want to smile at him one last time. To hear his laughter. To hear him tease me for my southern accent when I go for a visit. I want to stop crying. I want my tears to stop falling. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Time is passing me by, and I am letting it. Tick . Tock. Tick. Tock. Drip. Drop. Drip. Drop. Tick Tick goes the clock. Drip Drip fall the tears. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">I can’t get the time lost back. And I don’t know how to get back in sync with the time now.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Make it all stop, make it all go away. I don't want this life anymore. My life. Take it. Just take it. Take it away. Won’t somebody save me?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">I want this trip more then anything else in my life. I would sell my soul to go. I mean, I can go. Need to go. I am a big girl. I am an adult. I have no problems going anyplace alone. I have traveled alone many, many times in my life. Why should this time be any different? People do it all the time, right? Sure. Then why can’t I? <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Why can’t I follow my own advice, put my big girl panties on and deal with it? What is it that I am afraid of? People travel alone all the time. It’s no big deal. Sure. Maybe. But this trip consumes me with so much power and emotion, that I honestly do not know if I can even handle it. I don't think I could handle going alone. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">This isn’t a trip just about finding Chrys. This is also a trip about meeting some friends along the way as well. Anxious. Nervous. Scared. Just plain ole freaked the fuck out. All the what if’s start to whirl and twirl around in my brain. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">I can see it now, Chrys gets off the plane…steps into the big town of Dublin, immediately is overcome with emotions….and someone thinks I am a crazy person. LOL! Ok, you knew I had to add some lame humor in here somewhere. It was getting way to heavy. No, this is really something that I need someone there with me to hold my hand. To help me find the way. I want someone to share this with. Need someone to share this with. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Heads you win, tails you lose. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">About this time some of you are questioning why I just don't bring Marcus. Ahhhhhh well there really is a damn good reason for that. This quest, to find myself, it involves leaving him home for more reasons then I care to get into here. As you have heard me say time and time again, our marriage is a good marriage. He is a good man. However, there just isn’t something there that needs to be. Is it Love? It could be. For, I know I do on some level love him. But, is he my ONE? Is he my TRUE LOVE? That is something I can not answer. I have been addressing this issue for a year now. Something I have been fighting with. Did I just settle? What the hell is love anyway?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">I fight that battle within. Day in and day out. Time after time, moment after moment. Tick Tock Tick Tock<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">All I know is, I gave up me. I stopped being true to myself and who I am.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Someone very close to me said Love was something very simple. As simple as a feeling of when your heart just wells up for them. When you think about them all the time. I wish it was that simple for me. I tried and tried to make it that simple for me. But, it just does not seem to be working. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">I have learned that before I can figure that missing piece out, I need to put myself together first. I need to just be ME. He is patient, and he understands and he more then willing to let me go on my own. I need to be away from him. I need to do this on my own without him. No influence. I have spent the last 9 years of my life under his wing so to speak. Its time for me to fly on my own. To find the person that has been lost. The quest to find and be ME again. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">I’m just a little girl lost <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Needing to find her way. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Can’t you hear her?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Crying out to you?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Nothing different<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Nothing new<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">She’s still broken<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Torn <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Tattered<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">And blue<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Won’t you take her?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Take her by the hand<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Lead her there<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Show here where<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">She needs to be.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Can’t you do that?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">For her<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">And for me?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Take her hand, please?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Take her, hold her tight<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Touch her<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Keep her safe<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Through the day, <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">And the night.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Take her <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Take here there<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Let her be<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">Set her free!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';">© C.H. <st1:date day="5" month="4" w:st="on" year="2006">4/5/2006</st1:date> <st1:time hour="4" minute="16" w:st="on">4:16am</st1:time><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-75557446180561615772006-04-04T15:00:00.000-04:002010-11-10T15:39:14.394-05:00Passports and Emotions: Part 1<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Passports and Emotions<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i251.photobucket.com/albums/gg294/VRose6/Passports.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i251.photobucket.com/albums/gg294/VRose6/Passports.jpg" width="213" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">That’s some kind of a title isn’t it? <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">According to my countdown ticker on my home page, I have about 112 days until my birthday.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>A birthday you all have been listening to me talk about since last summer. A birthday started out meaning one thing has taken on such a greater meaning. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">It started as a group of friends setting out on a summer vacation to celebrate a birthday. For me, it was always about seeing where it is my family came from. For Irish Blood it runs deep and thick within me. Irish is my life, my passion. It is more then just a heritage to me. It IS me. I have had many people tell me this greatness that I feel, this desire, this strong hold that I feel comes from my living of a past life. They say perhaps in a past life, I did reside in <st1:country-region w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Ireland</st1:place></st1:country-region>. And that is why my feelings and emotions are all consuming. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My soul is trying to bring me home.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Past lives, this life, the next life. Regardless, I know where I want to go.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>All the things I want to see.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Today I went and applied for my passport.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was rather overwhelming.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Going into the courthouse did not prove to be an easy task. As you know security issues are all around us these days, and my little college town is no different. Searched and checked just walking in the door. Done. Off I go. Around the corner and up the stairs. I tell the girl why I am there and she hands me this nice stack of papers to fill out. Great. That’s always fun when you have to write out a novel. Good thing I came prepared. She asked me if I had my pics…why, yes I do..I had them done 2 weeks ago! HORRIBLE pics they are too! ICK! So I give her those while I finish this book I am writing for her.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Next, <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>the birth certificate. Well, with me, they don't get just the certificate, but all the documentation that goes with it; name change and adoption papers. Pulling those out and being forced to look at them, handing them to a complete stranger, just floods me with emotions. These are the things in which I don't like thinking about. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Born <st1:date day="22" month="7" w:st="on" year="1975">July 22, 1975</st1:date> to an unwed mother and a father who took off and wanted nothing to do with her or I. My birth certificate stated my name as her maiden. A year later,<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>February 14, she married her best friend, my dad. My dad the abuser, yep that dad. The dad that you all have heard me poor over so many blogs about. They tracked down my bio father, who signed his rights to me away. They then started the adoption procedure. It was final in May 1977, and I was then issued a new birth certificate with my new spiffy last name.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Sadly, I never knew I was adopted. Never knew the tale of this story. I was always told they married in February and I was born in July. The same year. I found out I was adopted about 3 years ago. And that’s, a blog already written.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I give her all my papers…and my check for $97. Pics were $8. That’s the fasted $100 I ever spent I think. But, for good reason. Funny, then she has me raise my right hand and take and oath that all the things presented to her here today are true and correct (yup!) and that these pictures are indeed me and a likeness of me. (yup!) But seriously, what the heck kind of question is that? Can you not see me standing right here in front of you? Not only that, you<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>had to look at my student id, my drivers license, my voter id card and my SS card…… how much more obvious it to you that it is indeed me? <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Anyway, I leave with a smile. A feeling of excitement has come over me. Knowing that it is very real. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><st1:country-region w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Ireland</st1:place></st1:country-region>, I hear you calling.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Since gramps death, I feel lost. Little girl lost. Not able to find her way. All I know, is I want to find my way right over there. My feet firmly planted on that same soil that gramps came from. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Earlier this eve, I sat and watched U2 Coming Home, Live in Concert, <st1:place w:st="on"><st1:placename w:st="on">Slane</st1:placename> <st1:placetype w:st="on">Castle</st1:placetype></st1:place>, <st1:city w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Dublin</st1:place></st1:city>. Now, I have seen this concert before, as I have the DVD. I have listened to these songs over and over. I grew up listening to U2. Crushing on Bono in the middle of all the hair and grunge band era. All my friends asking me if I am crazy. Half of them not even knowing who they are. I don't know what came over me, but here I am watching this, and all this emotion just consumed me. I honestly felt like I was going to throw up. What was that? Where is this coming from?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I became flooded with tears. Uncontrollable. It has to be that strong hold for getting my bum over there. That’s the only thing I could come up with. Perhaps gramps, or someone else was trying to talk to me. Trying to tell me something. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I don't want to deal with the fact that this trip may have to be postponed. Perhaps not on my birthday, but later in the year. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I shudder, and cringe at the thought of it not happening at all. So many people want to go, but the truth is, we all have our own lives. And those people just may not be able to go. Whether it is financial, family, time off work, or school. I understand that. Me off all people get that. But, I HAVE to take this trip, NEED to take this trip. But, I just don't want to take it alone.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I mean I am seriously thinking I need to start accepting applications for willing travelers….LOL!!!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Places to go. Places to see. I have met so many wonderful friends. All I want is to just cross paths with them. To be able to sit next to them and share stories. Ask them how they are. Hear their voice. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Is this trip too much to ask for?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-68368349504834198282006-03-31T16:04:00.001-05:002010-11-17T16:37:06.716-05:00Poetry In Motion: Together We Bleed<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">Together We Bleed © <st1:city day="31" month="3" w:st="on" year="2006">3/31/06</st1:city><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/Blood/knife_by_noisy_pink_bubbles.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/Blood/knife_by_noisy_pink_bubbles.jpg" width="232" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">Darkness falls<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">Heartbeat speeds<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">Puncture my flesh<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">Make me bleed<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">I bleed<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">You bleed<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">Now we bleed <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">Together<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">Go on <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">Let it pour<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">Drip drip drip<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">Droplets fall<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">To the floor<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">Darkness falls<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">All around me now<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">Let it go<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">Do not <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">Stop it<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">Take it<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">Take it all<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">Savor it<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">Each pouring drop<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">Devour it<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">Devour my soul<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-40009611100761746882006-03-22T14:54:00.010-05:002010-11-10T14:59:26.473-05:00Sad, Alone, and Hurting<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Sad , Alone and Hurting<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><st1:date day="22" month="3" w:st="on" year="2006">3/22/06</st1:date><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I'm sitting here very sad. I am very alone, and yes damnit I still hurt.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But this time, none of this has to do with anything Irish. Not that Irish, but rather my very own Irish. My mother.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Many of you have followed this story since summer...but, here is a recap for those that have not been reading my blogs as long.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My mother went to <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Michigan</st1:place></st1:state> year before last to take car of my grandfather as he battled lung , then colon cancer. As you know, he lost his battle Jan 3.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>She came home over the holidays. But, his passing changed many things.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">She sold her house a few weeks ago and stayed with me. She just left this morning to move for good to <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Michigan</st1:place></st1:state>.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am sad. Me and my mom are close. And now I am alone. As I have NO family here. I live in a college town. So people move in and out every few months. It is hard to maintain friends here. And all the friends I had when I was in college here have all moved on and away.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"><br /></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">And I am hurting because she left this morning without even saying good-bye. I mean, how you gonna leave up out of your own daughters house without even saying good-bye. Knowing you are not coming back? Your only child. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">She called me a bit ago, to let me know she stopped for the night. That's all she said. Good-bye and I will call you tomorrow.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">So, here I sit…staring down the end of the bottle…my only answer…never leaves me alone, never leaves me feeling hurt and never hurts me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-89455837367201423422006-03-18T22:04:00.002-05:002010-11-16T22:05:52.959-05:00Sean: the kind thing<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"></span><br /><h4 class="subject" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 1.2em; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-rendering: optimizelegibility; vertical-align: baseline;"><a href="http://www.myspace.com/43233455/blog/99359505" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-family: inherit; font-size: 13px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">the kind thing</a></h4><div class="blogContent" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">am really plastered...home after a 32 hour drunk... and really missing the one i let go of...yes i know i am a wanker...should not have</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">let her go</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">had her to begin with</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">started writing this</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">just stop it sean, i tell me self...twas the kind thing u did...finally.</div></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-27883510744883049522006-03-15T22:05:00.003-05:002010-11-16T22:07:34.436-05:00Sean: coming out of shock<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image hosting by Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c130/joey_v/sadman.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; max-width: 100%; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" /></a><br /></span><br /><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">well, it appears that things have radically changed in me life once again...this time not so much 4 the better as 4 i suppose the inevitable...the one who said she would wait 4 me has apparently changed her mind...and i seem to possess this strange sense of morality...i can share her with her husband, not much choice there...but i can not share her with other men. in particular with one of me mates...</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">so i find myself once again in familier territory...in a marriage with some thing missing...yet unlike the past, when i longed 4 more and dreamed of something else...this time i know what it is i am missing...and i am the one who gave it up...i have no one to blame but me.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">still...it hurts.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">My Reply:</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: black; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" title="♣IrishChik♣">♣IrishChik♣</a></span></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">I am no longer missing...I have been found.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; 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Believe in you and in us.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">I do not know what the future holds....but I know I want you in it. No matter how it may be.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">I am here....waiting........you have my heart and my soul darling....</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-21418227128955667162006-03-14T14:27:00.002-05:002010-11-10T14:31:34.280-05:00Poetry In Motion: Never<div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I never asked for anything from you</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">All I wanted was for you to love me</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I want you to feel loved</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I want you to feel missed</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">But most of all</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I wanted you to feel these kisses</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Upon my lips.</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal">NEVER © 3 14 2006</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-70896044527183820552006-03-14T12:44:00.002-05:002010-11-10T12:46:05.591-05:00Poetry In Motion: I Didn't Mean to Hurt You<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I didn't mean to hurt you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I didn't even try<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">you hurt me too,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">when you said good-bye.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I didn't want it to be over.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Still, you pushed me away<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">and forced me to cry.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">If you'd just come talk to me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I'll tell you all there is<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">all the reasons<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">all the whys.</span><span style="color: black;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Things are not always what they seem<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">and this is no different,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">please believe.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">© C.H. <st1:date day="14" month="3" w:st="on" year="2006">3/14/2006</st1:date><o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-45775523663379048392006-03-13T15:52:00.000-05:002010-11-10T15:57:59.991-05:00What's Up With Chrys? - Pity Party<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">What's Up With Chrys...Volume 4 Issue March 3 13 2006<span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I know I am about due for a personal blog. No stories, no poems, just raw and uncensored Chrys. What's up with Chrys. Problem is cat has my tongue so to speak and my words have just been incomplete thoughts like my last blog that hodge podge mismatch of words I have tons of stuff floating around in my brain, things going on in my life but the problem is I just can not seem to sort it all out. I try. Damn, I do try.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It sucks. I hate it when my brain has a meltdown. This is not a time for me to have meltdown. I need my brain to be in proper working order. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">This year has been nothing but an endless battle of drama. Soul searching, self discovery, reality checks, slaps in the face, being tested, tempted, gracious, happy, and well fuck it just out right horny. LOL! Nothing new there, right? <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">But every time make some progress and take a few steps forward, I get kicked in the ass and fall back a dozen steps. I really begin to question myself. Question my feelings, desires, wants, needs, emotions and my life in general. I am no closer to finding an answer. The only thing I am sure of, this is me, this is who I have always been. I changed once for someone, and I can't stay that person I changed into. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I feel beaten<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I feel battered<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Torn<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">and tattered<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">worn<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">drained out<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">used<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">abused<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">My is soul lost<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">ready to be forgot<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">My heart<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">torn apart.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Confused.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Unloved.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Untrue.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Unwanted.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Yes, I am depressed,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">yes, I am blue.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Reality.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">What can I do?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">The reality is, I am just sick of this life in which I lead. I want to keep moving forward in my progressbut damn these roadblocks.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 8.0pt;">I'm 'round the corner from anything that's real<br />I'm across the road from hope<br />I'm under a bridge in a rip tide<br />That's taken everything I call my own<br /><br /><br />One step closer to knowing<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 8.0pt;">One step closer to knowing<br /><br />I'm on an island at a busy intersection<br />I can't go forward, I can't turn back<br />Can't see the future<br />It's getting away from me<br />I just watch the tail lights glowing<br /><br />One step closer to knowing<br />One step closer to knowing<br />One step closer to knowing<br />Knowing, knowing<br /><br />I'm hanging out to dry<br />With my old clothes<br />Finger still red with the prick of an old rose<br />Well the heart that hurts<br />Is a heart that beats<br />Can you hear the drummer slowing?<br /><br />One step closer to knowing<br />One step closer to knowing<br />One step closer to knowing<br />To knowing, to knowing, to knowing<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 8.0pt;">U2- One Step Closer<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span></span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Some times I wonder if it's even worth trying for the things I want in life anymore. I am tired of getting kicked in my ass. If I stop trying, then I am safe in my little world in which I live. I think this little fighting Irish spirit in me has lost its fire. The flame has been put out I just feel like giving up. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span class="blacktextnb10"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I'm not supposed to be scared of anything, but I don't know where I am </span></span><span style="color: red; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">I wish that I could move but I'm exhausted and nobody understands (how I feel) </span><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">I'm trying hard to breathe now but there's no air in my lungs </span><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">There's no one here to talk to and the pain inside is making me numb </span><br /><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">I try to hold this Under control </span><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">They can't help me 'Cause no one knows </span><br /><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">Now I'm going through changes, changes </span><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">God, I feel so frustrated lately </span><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">When I get suffocated, save me </span><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">Now I'm going through changes, changes </span><br /><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">I'm feeling weak and weary walking through this world alone </span><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">Everything you say, every word of it, cuts me to the bone </span><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">I've got something to say, but now I've got no where to turn </span><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">It feel like I've been buried underneath all the weight of the world </span><br /><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">I try to hold this Under control </span><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">They can't help me 'Cause no one knows </span><br /><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">Now I'm going through changes, changes </span><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">God, I feel so frustrated lately </span><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">When I get suffocated, save me </span><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">Now I'm going through changes, changes </span><br /><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">I'm blind and shakin'</span><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">Bound and breaking </span><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">I hope I make it through all these changes </span><br /><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">Now I'm going through changes, changes </span><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">God, I feel so frustrated lately </span><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">When I get suffocated, save me </span><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">Now I'm falling apart, now I feel it </span><br /><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">Now I'm going through changes, changes </span><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">God, I feel so frustrated lately </span><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">When I get suffocated, I hate this </span><br /><span class="blacktextnb10">But I'm going through changes, changes<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span class="blacktextnb10"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">3 Doors Down - Changes</span></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">A few hours later : So then, here<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am skipping through blogland when I run across a very dear friends. Something in it just screamed at me. I sat there, reading that open window for an hour. Then I sent and IM. Silly, seeing as how this person really just lives up the road from me, I could of just as easily called and hopped on over to discuss this great blog topic. As, it was something I really needed to hear as I was feeling my own Pity Party and since I am not really talking about my pity, no one around to slap me out of my funk. So, here were his words, giving me a dose of reality perhaps that slap across the face I need..and so, here is that blog. Snagged..with permission.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Good- Night - Chrys<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">******************************************<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We have all taken a trip to Pity Party town from time to time. Some of us choose to stay there longer than others, or maybe it is not that we choose to stay there, but rather we don't know how to leave. Oh sure, I can pick on my own obvious faults, insecurities and character defects with the best of them, but damn, why? Looking for self-sympathynothing more nothing less. Sometimes I have to remind myself that a pity party is nothing more than feeling sorry for myself and I have no reason to do so. When I am not moping around and worrying about the woulda, coulda and shoulda of life, I can be very positive person. I told someone the other night that one of my goals in life was to be a motivational speaker. Yes, a motivational speaker. Life is too short to worry about what happened yesterday or what is going to happen tomorrow. If we use our head and make smart decisions about what we do with our lives, we shouldn't have to worry about the woulda coulda shoulda. I am a firm believer that we also need to surround ourselves with positive people. When I look at those in my circle of friends I realize there is a reason I hold them near and dear to my heartthey have been a positive influence in my life. They don't blow smoke up my backsideusually they are the first ones there to give me a swift kick in the ass when I need iteven if it is not what I want at the time. I also believe that I have the potential to be a positive influence in the lives of those around me and hope to always remain that way.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Anyway, the point of all this is to say that I have been in a very good mood for several days and have not been on the pity party tripand it feels good. There are some reasons why I have been in such a good mood but I am not going to divulge that here. Just believe me when I say that have I looked in the mirror several times lately, smiled and said to myself, "Toad, quit worrying. Be yourself and stop worrying about things in which you have no control over. Make someone smile today".<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">And with that, I am going to share something that a close friend sent me. It is about how to leave Pity Party town and it came at an appropriate time and I want to share with all that take the time to drop in on my little world. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Never stop chasing your dreams, never stop believing and always take the time to look in the mirror and smile at yourself. Live each day like there is no tomorrow and let people in your lives know that are special.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Take Care ~ Toad<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Why Me? <br />Pity Party <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><br />We all have days when the bad things seem to outweigh the good ones and we begin to think that life isn't fair. You get stuck in traffic, which makes you late for an important meeting, and then your car gets towed. You might ask yourself, "Why me?" Events like this one can test anyone's ability to be grateful and feel optimistic. If you have a tendency to feel sorry for yourself, and many of us do, things usually progress to the next stage: the pity party. You begin to feel like the innocent victim of a dismal fate because you are seeing your life through inaccurate lenses. Most of the thoughts that run through your mind at times like these are not helpful, and they mainly serve to increase your indignation and feelings of powerlessness. What these feelings and thoughts don't do is change your circumstances or make you feel better. <br /><br />When you have a terrible day, there should definitely be a time and place to have your feelings so you can process them. It's important not to pretend that you are fine with things when you aren't. It's also important, however, to notice when you're having a pity party. It's a good idea to set a time limit in which to fully express your emotions and not feel guilty, ashamed, or judge yourself. Having a friend witness you during this process can be helpful. You may also want to write about your feelings. When your time is up, let go of the negativity you just expressed. You can declare your intention to your friend. If you've written down your feelings, you can burn the piece of paper or throw it in the recycling bin. <br /><br />Try not to dwell on unpleasant experiences and do everything you can to avoid holding on to negative emotions. When you indulge in self-pity, you only make a bad day worse. Stop feeling sorry for yourself, release the notion that you are a victim, and notice the good that exists in your life <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-13611140435416104432006-03-12T14:11:00.002-05:002010-11-09T14:17:05.662-05:00Poetry In Motion: Don't Say<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">Don't Say<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>© C.H.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>3 / 12 / 2006<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">Don't say<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">you own me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">It's not<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">gotten that far.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">Once was love<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">now is gone.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">Love, <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">sent from above<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">to bad,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">now it's done.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">Don't say<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">you love me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">I no longer<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">believe it to be true.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">From this day forward<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">I am learning <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">to get over you.<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-88990848836688101852006-03-10T14:22:00.002-05:002010-11-10T14:23:36.854-05:00Poetry In Motion: My Dear<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">My Dear<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>© C.H.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><st1:date day="10" month="3" w:st="on" year="2006">3/10/06</st1:date><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">My dear<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">what could the matter be?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">Is it you?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">Or me?<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-87867123888886431072006-03-10T12:55:00.001-05:002010-11-10T12:55:38.441-05:00Poetry In Motion: How Do I?<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">How Do I?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>© <st1:date day="10" month="3" w:st="on" year="2006">3/10/2006</st1:date><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">How do I<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">tell you I love you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">words simple as these<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">when I am not even <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">sure I do?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">How can I tell you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">I love you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">when I am not sure<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">what love is.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">I'm afraid to tell you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">afraid to make you blue.<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-82759556244417871182006-03-09T17:17:00.005-05:002010-11-08T17:18:35.417-05:00Poetry In Motion: Close My Eyes<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Close My Eyes<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>© C.H. 3-9-06<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">When I close my eyes<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>- I think of you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">My mind tells me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>- this isn't right<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">thinking about you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>- day and night.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">But yet here you are<o:p></o:p></span></div><span style="color: black; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-language: EN-US; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>- still so much a part of life</div></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-48045547635164854942006-03-09T17:14:00.004-05:002010-11-08T17:17:16.991-05:00Poetry In Motion: Broken Words:: Bunch of Random and Incomplete Thoughts<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Broken Words: Bunch of Random and Incomplete Thoughts (C) C.H.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><st1:date day="9" month="3" w:st="on" year="2006">3/9/2006</st1:date><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><st1:date day="1" month="3" w:st="on" year="2006"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">3/1/2006</span></st1:date><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Gone….that simple word...4 letters, 1 syllable, Gone….G-O-N-E…imbedded in my brain….playing over and over…Gone..Gone…Gone…You're leaving….its no longer me you need.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><st1:date day="2" month="3" w:st="on" year="2006"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">3/2/2006</span></st1:date><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I'll love you forever<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">No, I'll never stop<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I made a promise to you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">the Lord above as our witness<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">on that day I did declare,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">forever to love you so.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><st1:date day="2" month="3" w:st="on" year="2006"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">3/2/2006</span></st1:date><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Should be thankful<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">for what I have<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">my mind tells me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">everyday.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Something is missing<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I don't feel complete.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">My heart is locked<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">someone has the key.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Could you help me find it?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Please?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><st1:date day="2" month="3" w:st="on" year="2006"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">3/2/2006</span></st1:date><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I miss you. I wonder, do you still think of me? Do you wonder, what could be?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><st1:date day="7" month="3" w:st="on" year="2006"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">3/7/2006</span></st1:date><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I'm crying. Those infamous last words. Crying for me, so you say. My heart, it bleeds. I don't know whether to believe. Don't cry for me, for I am not worth crying for.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><st1:date day="8" month="3" w:st="on" year="2006"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">3/8/2006</span></st1:date><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I just love him. But now he's gone. I feel empty. I am numb. A tale as old as time, a tale that once was mine. Smiles and happiness on the outside. Crying and inside I am dying.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><st1:date day="8" month="3" w:st="on" year="2006"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">3/8/2006</span></st1:date><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Do I want to rekindle an old flame? Seems to be my topic of the day. Someone to come in my life, and take it all away. Not just by one, but by four. Off with you, out my door. Some of them many years ago, some of them less then one. You take away my ONE, to bring me these. Please Lord here me, I am down on my knees.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>"Tis not a fair trade, can't you see? They don't want the real me. Not they way he does.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You know him, my One. Please, bring him back to me. Him or no one at all. Take the others away, take them please.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><st1:date day="9" month="3" w:st="on" year="2006"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">3/9/2006</span></st1:date><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">D-I-V-O-R-C-E<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">let me tell you <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">what that means to me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">or perhaps I should tell you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">what I see.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Divorce.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I do believe<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">that's what is in store for me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I see.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I tell you, just between you and me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Why?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Because I am a bad, damaged, broken soul<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I don't deserve him<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">and he deserves much better <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">shouldn't have to put up with me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">worthless<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">pointless<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">no future<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">no good <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">no life<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">and just no good at being a wife.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><st1:date day="9" month="3" w:st="on" year="2006"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">3/9/2006</span></st1:date><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Today's just not a good day,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">as I find myself slipping away.</span><span style="color: black;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-4888966115877286442006-03-09T13:06:00.003-05:002010-11-10T13:13:28.050-05:00Poetry In Motion: Let Me Walk Alone<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/among_the_darkness_by_my_dark_desir.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="257" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/among_the_darkness_by_my_dark_desir.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">LET ME WALK ALONE<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>C.H. <st1:date day="9" month="3" w:st="on" year="2006">3/9/06</st1:date><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Let go of my hand<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Let me walk alone<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I know the place<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">that I must go.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Please don't stand there<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>beside me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">For this is my own journey<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>so let me be.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I'm going to my dark corner<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>of my little world<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>the dark sea of cold<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>and loneliness.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">You can not protect me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>or keep me from the pain.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">It's already happened<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>come at me like a huge freight train.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">My inner child has taken over<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>and this time I must go.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I heard her calling me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>so I followed her to my hole. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">It's cold<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">It's dark<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">And it lonely<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I won't lie.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">But I really feel,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I have to go. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Don't reach for me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">for it's too late<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I've already passed <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">the opening gate.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Just let me go<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Just let me be<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">No need to waste<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">your time and energy.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">For, only I can deal<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">with my own insanity.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-52992388051951591592006-03-08T12:59:00.003-05:002010-11-10T13:02:50.170-05:00Poetry In Motion: Little Girl Lost<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/girl_with_teddy_bear_by_cuson.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/girl_with_teddy_bear_by_cuson.jpg" width="284" /></a></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">Little Girl Lost 3 8 2006<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">I am <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">a little girl<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">lost<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">How I ever<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">made it<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">this far<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">without you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">I will <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">never know.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">I am<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">a little girl<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">lost<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">I have a voice<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">but I can<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">no longer speak<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">for it seems<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">when you left<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">you <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">took my voice<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">along.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">© C.H.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-17750670708919609652006-03-07T14:19:00.006-05:002010-11-10T14:22:47.253-05:00My Darling, I Want<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">My darling, <br /><br />I want you at all times. Sometimes I wish I could have you glued to me, well kept in my body like a tattoo or a piercing. I would like to feel you very close to my skin, making my hair stand on end at every hours of the day, as if I could feel the warm breeze of the sea.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">To read the rest of the story please visit my other blog: Erotic Confessions.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Tahoma, sans-serif;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: xx-large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47;"><br /></span></span></b></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Tahoma, sans-serif;"><a href="http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/2006/03/my-darling-i-want.html"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: xx-large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47;">My Darling, I Want (Adults ONLY!)</span></span></b></a></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-79550144374447122562006-03-03T22:07:00.004-05:002010-11-16T22:09:16.450-05:00Sean: her...her...her<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: black; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image hosting by Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c130/joey_v/i-love-you.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; max-width: 100%; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" /></a><br /></span><br /><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">i love her...i always will... i miss her so much...we started out with so little and that grew, and grew...and then slowly became so little again.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">not our love, not our desire, those are huge and not going any where!</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">but our time...our precious time..has been stripped away until all that remains are emails here and there...</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">and tis me fault...she asks why i did not let her walk away..tis me fault for not letting her go. and now..i know i should cut her loose...set her free...yet i continue to love her so deeply...so madly..still i hold on. in her words...by a thread...</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">damn it all...i love her... plain and simple.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">My reply:</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666;"><a class="msProfileTextLink" href="http://www.myspace.com/theoriginalirishchik" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" title="♣IrishChik♣">♣IrishChik♣</a></span></div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">I LOVE YOU!!</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Hear me darling...I LOVE YOU!</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">I hung on by that thread...always...sometimes just dangling here for all the world to see. But I did fight to keep you in my life.</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Now, I have climbed up that last hanging thread. I have dropped a few more down just to be safe.</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">I am now standing on solid ground.</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"> I reach my hand out to you....pull you up from that thread in which you are hanging</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-41695146550972168822006-03-03T12:36:00.000-05:002010-11-10T12:36:52.527-05:00Poetry In Motion: Here We Are<div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Here we are<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>We meet again<span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>My lover<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 3;"> </span>My friend<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">You said you’d be there<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Until the end<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I feel the end is near<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>I am trying to hold on my dear<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Hold on a little longer<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Just a little longer<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>Will it make me stronger?<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-13087820414342298862006-03-02T16:29:00.000-05:002010-11-10T16:30:01.660-05:00Poetry In Motion: You Didn't Have to Go<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">You Didn’t Have To Go <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">You didn't have to go.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Balance.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">That's what it's all about.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Peace.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">You didn't have to leave.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Alone.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">There was no need.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Honesty.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Don't you know?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">We will never share,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">with another<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">what we have.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Never.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">No one could compare.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I'm selfish.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I know I am.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Just let me be.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I know it,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I see.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I want things as they always have.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Me and You.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">You and Me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Unbreakable – that bond.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>That soul - of one.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">© C.H. <st1:date day="2" month="3" w:st="on" year="2005">3/2/05</st1:date><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-10424771715575050612006-03-02T16:19:00.000-05:002010-11-10T16:20:17.781-05:00Those In My Life<div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Bradley Hand ITC"; font-size: 13.5pt;">It has been such a whirlwind of emotions as of late. I have so much to write about, but , odd as it may seem, I just can not complete the thoughts I write out on paper. I keep trying to find my words....but they just are not coming back to me. I keep reflecting on all that has happened to me since Jan 1. These thoughts play in my mind over and over and over. I keep looking for answers to questions that just dont seem to be there. But they have to be, you see. They just do. </span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Bradley Hand ITC"; font-size: 13.5pt;">So today, I sat down with my thoughts, trying to find a balance of peace within....and, started to have some reflections regarding the friends that have passed through my life. I remember reading something very powerful and it stayed in the back of my mind for some time. I have read it many times...and remember seeing it on <st1:city w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Lynns</st1:place></st1:city> blog back about a month or so ago.</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Bradley Hand ITC"; font-size: 13.5pt;">Powerful to me then, each time I read it, but not really something I stopped to think about. Now, I am thinking about it....and it amazes me how true it really is. </span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><i><span style="color: #990000; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Reason, season, lifetime </span></i><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><i><span style="color: #990000; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">People always come into your life for a reason, a season and a lifetime. When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do. </span></i><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><i><span style="color: #990000; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, or to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or even spiritually. They may seem like a godsend too you, and they are. They are there for a reason, you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die, Sometimes they just walk away. Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on. </span></i><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><i><span style="color: #990000; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">When people come into your life for a SEASON, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season. And like Spring turns to Summer and Summer to Fall, the season eventually ends. </span></i><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><i><span style="color: #990000; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">LIFETIME, relationships teach you a lifetime of lessons; those things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person/people (anyway);, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas in your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. </span></i><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><i><span style="color: #990000; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Thank you for being part of my life..... </span></i><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-6007346775347178982006-03-02T13:13:00.001-05:002010-11-10T13:15:53.435-05:00Poetry In Motion: Left Behind<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/hauntedbridge.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="282" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/hauntedbridge.gif" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Left Behind 3 2 2006<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">They say God never gives us<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">more then we can handle.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">God does know what He's<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">doing after all.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Maybe, <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">that doesn't pertain to me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Surely, He can see.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I've been left behind.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">God giveth<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">and he taketh away.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Brought him to me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Then led him to stray.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Brought me him.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Only to take him, too.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Now, the first, is back again.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">The second is still gone, my love<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">my one, and I am still blue.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Every day, some one comes around.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">But, nothing there is to be found. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I can't explain it<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">should I even try?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Or should I just say<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Good-Bye?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">© C.H. <st1:date day="2" month="3" w:st="on" year="2006">3/2/06</st1:date><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-6635202574972969442006-03-02T12:50:00.000-05:002010-11-10T12:54:09.127-05:00Poetry In Motion: I Bleed for You<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I bleed for you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Crimson red<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Drip drop<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Drip drop<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Deep in a pool of blood<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Then, comes a tear<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">One<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Then another<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">More follow<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Drip drop<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Drip drop<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Falling in that pool of blood<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Mixing<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Emotions<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Entwined<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Entangled <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">My heart<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Now mangled<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">© C.H. <st1:date day="2" month="3" w:st="on" year="2006">3/2/06</st1:date><o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-42106599801330024072006-03-02T12:33:00.004-05:002010-11-10T12:35:55.932-05:00Heart Bleeds<div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">I'm so drunk its unreal.....I know I have so much to say, and that I don’t even know where to start, or even if I should say it at all. But, you know what, it’s my drunk, so let me enjoy it. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Born in July, makes me a cancer...so blame the drunken stupor, or blame my sign for whatever it is I am about to pop off here...<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">(((Brett…stop texting me for 5 seconds and back me up here)))<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together. ~Author Unknown</span><span style="color: red; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">I just can’t walk away. I can not turn my back and let you go. I should. Maybe it’s what you want. It’s what you need. Who knows? But, the reality is...I tried to go, and there you were stopping me. Why? Why did you always stop me? ALWAYS! <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">How many times did we go through this? Think one of us was leaving, for whatever the reason. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">How many times did you tell them you were afraid to lose me? Afraid that you being so far away would pose a problem that I would find someone closer, perhaps someone better.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">I don't want closer. I don't want better. </span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">I only want you</span></b><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">I knew this would happen...I just knew it....I wanted to go, to save us from this .....and now, here we are....I trusted you damn it, I gave you my all....I didn’t want to let you in....but you came in.....I put my walls up and you came over them....climbed right on over…and then just tore them down….... maybe I have no one to blame but myself. I should have known better to let you in. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Fairy tales are just that, tales…..I honestly believed, we could have what we shared, cherish it, just enjoy it for what it was, the rest of our life. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Never asking for anything more then what it was. Nothing more then what we had. That was the reality. We each knew the other had a different life. Reality. At times it hit us in the face. But we knew. We knew it would never be more then what it was. We were ok with that. I was ok with that. I never asked you for more. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">At first, I was sad. I read that first email and my heart just bleeds. I bleed for you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I never bleed for anyone. For myself only.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But, here I am, deep in a pool of it. Crimson red. I cry a tear. Then more tears following. Drip Drop, Drip Drop…falling in that pool of blood…..mixing…emotions entwined…entangled….my heart now mangled. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">I should hide. I shouldn’t let you see. Not suppose to let you see.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Suppose to be strong. Always strong. Never let them see you cry. Crying only makes them run away. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That’s what I keep getting told. But, I cant help it. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">I felt you pulling away. I felt you leaving. You need to go. I don't want you to. Never want you to. But, can’t you see?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">It’s what you need to do.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>All I am gonna do is cause you confusion until you can find your balance in life. Part of me in running away, part of me is pushing you away, and the other part is hanging on to that last little thread. I am selfish when it comes to<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">CONFUSED! I am so fucking confused I am not clear. What do I do? What direction should I take?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">NUMB! I feel numb. I feel empty. Alone.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>They hear what I am saying…but do they really get me? Does anyone really understand? I am a prisoner in my own mind. In my own life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Behind these walls in which I built. These walls in which you just tore right down, and now, I am left to build them back up again.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">CAN YOU HEAR ME? Calling out to you? <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">When I replied to that first email there was so much hurt in me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The brutal blow to my heart that you were leaving me. I did not know what to say.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My reply was only my way of making things easy for you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I did not want you to know I was hurting. I wanted to hide that from you. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">I may be hurting, but I understand.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I may be angry, but this anger is not towards you. Its just anger about the whole situation in general. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white; vertical-align: top;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">No matter how much I talk about walking away sooner, I am glad that you never did. Glad you never let me go. I am thankful for the time I have shared with you. For every day with you was a special gift. Every word from you, embedded in my mind forever to be cherished. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">So much still there between us…..but, so many things have changed.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><st1:country-region w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">IRELAND</span></st1:place></st1:country-region><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">…I am coming home….140 days till my feet are on Irish soil.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I realize so much about the trip has changed. But, the purpose still remains. I still have the strong connection to know where I come from, to see all the things that I have so long dreamed to see. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif";">Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together. ~Author Unknown</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-68886651065170995342006-03-01T13:24:00.004-05:002010-11-10T13:26:09.648-05:00Its Not Over Without A Fight<div class="MsoNormal">Its Not Over Without A Fight 3 1 2006</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">As I sit here , wondering how to word this, I have come to the conclusion that I really am at a loss for words. For no words, not even my own could possibley begin to tell any of you what I am feeling right now. And I have no one to blame but myself, I should have known better then to let someone behind my walls and steal my heart away..........<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: #006600; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">But, I love him....I shall ALWAYS love him, no matter where he goes. He will always have a part of me with him. I will always be here for him. ALWAYS. I wont let him go so easily. </span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-69750834750486975412006-02-28T14:41:00.002-05:002010-11-10T14:47:07.511-05:00What's Up With Chrys? Not Feeling Very Pretty Today<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Not Feeling Very Pretty Today<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><st1:date day="28" month="2" w:st="on" year="2006">2/28/2006</st1:date> © C.H.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Not feeling very pretty today<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">nothing you can do<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">nothing you can say<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">will make this self image<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">go astray.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I am just having one of those days. Seems I have been having a lot of them lately. It doesn’t matter what I do, I just can’t shake this feeling.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This feeling of hopelessness, worthlessness, despair, depression, sadness…YUCK! I feel yuck and I look yuck. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I don't think there has been a time when I have been totally confident in myself. There were times when I felt much better about myself then I do now. Actually, I think the way I feel about myself, at this given moment is the worst I have ever felt. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I’m not feeling very pretty today.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I am a social butterfly. I love to get out there, see things, do things, meet people, talk to people, and just be me. But, I feel like now, people are not really looking at me, or wanting to take the time to get to know me as they are judging me on that first impression. I feel like they don't see me, but rather they see my pudgy belly, my hips, my thighs, my butt.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There is so much more to me then that. I want to be confident. I want to love myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Be thankful I have my health. And you know I still watch what I eat, I work out, I run…and good lord don't get me started on the workout you get with taking my dogs to the park or lake.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But, the weight just isn’t coming off.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And that just makes me mad at myself. Then I start to think, what’s the point?.....but I know if I give up now, I will never win the war with my body.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I think, if I didn’t eat this, or if I don't eat that. Maybe I should have ran an extra mile, did an extra set of reps with the weight. What if’s, shoulda, coulda, woulda…..<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I feel lazy. I feel like I have let myself go. I feel like a big blob just taking up space, wasting it. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I try, I fail, I give up.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I get mad. I get even. Usually that means denying myself something I desperately need. I have to punish myself. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I have a huge trip coming up in only a matter of months. I am excited about this trip, I really am. This is something I have been wanting my whole life, and been planning for months now.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And yet, here I am , this social butterfly, the one who adores seeing new things, meeting new people, so afraid of going that I ask myself “ What if they don't like me? “ What if I step off that plane, and not only Sean , but his mates as well, judge me the way everyone else does…by the size of my body rather then the true person I really am? <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I don't want to be insecure about myself. I want to be the confident girl I used to be. How do I find her? Where did I lose her? <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">If you see her, could you please let me know…..<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-89328409087214131072006-02-27T22:09:00.003-05:002010-11-16T22:10:34.386-05:00Sean: her (who else?)<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: black; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image hosting by Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c130/joey_v/300px-BDSM_collar_back.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; max-width: 100%; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" /></a><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image hosting by Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c130/joey_v/veal.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; max-width: 100%; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" /></a></span><br /><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">aye...her name is always on me mind...always on me lips...ready to be thought...whispered...spoken...SCREAMED...</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">i met her, and me world totally turned upside down...twas in the stars...twas our destiny...and damned twas good luck 4 that matter...</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">chrystal...chrystal..chrystal...CHRYSTAL!!!!!</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">My Reply:</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666;"><a class="msProfileTextLink" href="http://www.myspace.com/theoriginalirishchik" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" title="♣IrishChik♣">♣IrishChik♣</a></span></div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">I close my eyes</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">I see you standing there</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">my collar in hand...</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">ready..</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">waiting...</div><br /><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">i love u.</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-15312728989461883102006-02-22T22:10:00.003-05:002010-11-16T22:11:56.554-05:00Sean: my love<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"><a href="http://photobucket.com/" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: black; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 25px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" target="_blank"><img alt="Image hosting by Photobucket" border="0" src="http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c130/joey_v/BeachLoveMaking.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; max-width: 100%; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" /></a><br />u are...<br />my love...<br />me beauty...<br />me sexee one..<br />me princess..<br />u are me heart and soul..<br />u mean every thing<br />to me...<br />where this will lead<br />i do not know<br />but u are fast becoming<br />me very best friend<br />so darling...<br />i will be here<br />until the end!</span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-46718690910113520192006-02-22T02:14:00.003-05:002010-10-26T15:24:53.187-04:00Across The SeasFebruary 22, 2006<br /><br /><br /><div style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: white; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 18pt;">There's joy in the hopeful morning,</span></div><div style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: white; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 18pt;">There's peace in the parting day,</span></div><div style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: white; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 18pt;">There's sorrow with every lover</span></div><div style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: white; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 18pt;">Whose true-love is far away...</span></div><div style="background-attachment: initial; 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padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 18pt;">*little Irish poetry*</span></div><div style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: white; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 18pt;"><br /></span></div><div style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: white; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 18pt;"><b><u><i><br /></i></u></b></span></div><div style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: white; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 18pt;"><b><u><i>Yahoo 360 Original Comments:</i></u></b></span></div><div style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: white; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px; margin-bottom: 0px; 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padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161139?listPage=index" id="ucard2" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161139?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">05/09/2006 04:44 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">so sweet..thanks.<br /><br />thanks n hugs<br />rock.</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297055" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); 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User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161139?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; 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I really like your page.<br />TC & Share Kindness- M</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297057" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161139?listPage=index" id="ucard5" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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spike q</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297058" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item last" style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161139?listPage=index" id="ucard6" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161139?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">02/22/2006 02:24 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Love it...thanks for sharing...it touched me!! Can I borrow it?</div></div></li></ul>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-59262668102395706232006-02-20T22:12:00.003-05:002010-11-16T22:13:11.615-05:00Sean: wish i could go back in time....<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"></span><br /><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">did u ever wish u could take some thing back...or better yet, go back in time and change an entire day and night...just erase it all and start over fresh?</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">i find me self in that predicament right now...i wish that i were superman and could fly around the world really fast so that time would rewind and i could change the stupidity of 14 hours ago..</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">i never knew what a panic attack felt like... until i considered that i may have lost the one person who made me life worth living...and all over the stupidist thing...now i seem to be living a panic attack...</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">well, superman i ain't...me stupid deed stands..and perhaps from now on..i stand alone again...deservedly so...</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">My Reply:</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666;"><a class="msProfileTextLink" href="http://www.myspace.com/theoriginalirishchik" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: black; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" title="♣IrishChik♣">♣IrishChik♣</a></span></div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">You are never going to stand alone darling...</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Never...</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">I Love You</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-13205862680928559122006-02-19T16:17:00.000-05:002010-11-10T16:19:23.307-05:00Poetry In Motion: War Inside My Head<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">The War In My Mind<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><st1:date day="19" month="2" w:st="on" year="2006">2/19/06</st1:date><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>© C.H.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">This isn’t working for me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Too much there,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">too much I can not see.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">So many emotions<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">crawling in my mind<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">and down my spine.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">It runs through to my fingers<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">and keeps going down to my toes.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">These emotions consume me,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">inside me they grow.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">There is a war in my mind<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>-where I want to be<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>- what I should do<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">These demons control me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>-consume me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>- make be believe<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">What I am doing is wrong,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">it’s not right.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I don't deserve you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">not in my life.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">A constant battle-<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">what way to go.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I should go,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I can’t stay.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">These demons within <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">say to me everyday.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Why is it MY heart<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">that always gets played?<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-89046109939481810742006-02-19T14:44:00.002-05:002010-11-09T14:45:53.646-05:00Poetry In Motion: Forever<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">Miles separate us<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">oceans between<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">millions of miles,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">hopes and dreams.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">Despite all of that<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">there you were<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">giving me smiles<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">each and every day.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">You make everything<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">I think about<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">all the wishes and desires<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">feel within my reach.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">Sometimes when things<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">don't seem so clear<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">there you are<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">to lend your shoulder<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">and your ear.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">When I am sad, <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">shedding a tear<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">you’ve never walked away<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">always been there.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">When I walked away,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">tried to run<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">there you were<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">meeting me head on.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">Telling me to stay<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">not to go away<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">that together<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">we can make this last<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>FOREVER<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT";">© C.H. <st1:time day="19" month="2" w:st="on" year="2006">2-19-06</st1:time><o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-48139087113607744472006-02-18T22:13:00.002-05:002010-11-16T22:14:41.821-05:00Sean: looking 4ward....<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"></span><br /><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></span></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">i suppose all me blogs should be catagorized as being about romance and relationships...lol. 4 when ever i feel like writing, tis about me darling sexee one that i want to speak of.</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></span></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">i am looking 4ward to her trip to ireland with almost obsessive anticiapation. i think about all the things i want to do with her...and i am not just talking sexually...although that does enter the picture...indeed...</span></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></span></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">but little things like taking her on tours of the temple bar district.. the banks of the river liffey..the guinness factory...traveling to visit castles...and to me own homeland of cork..and hers as well...</span></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></span></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">tis giving me new eyes 4 a place i have grown bored and accustomed to..and making me want to work out with a new intensity...lol..i look at me pot belly and say, "this will not do!"</span></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></span></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">at any rate...i am very glad to have some thing and some ONE to look 4word to in me life...love u me princess wench...<img src="http://x.myspace.com/images/blog/smileys/heart.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; max-width: 100%; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;" /></span></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></span></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></span></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; 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margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><a class="msProfileTextLink" href="http://www.myspace.com/theoriginalirishchik" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: black; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" title="♣IrishChik♣">♣IrishChik♣</a><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">I just keep the faith, I just believe, Keep our love alive...with dreams...with hopes...that all of this shall happen, someday..</div></span></div></section>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-19373180998060006882006-02-18T16:24:00.000-05:002010-11-10T16:27:49.357-05:00Whoa! What's That??<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Whoa! What's That?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I am sitting here last night, my normal position, sitting in front of the computer dealing with all my random thoughts and what I should do with them. I hear the wind whipping the trees, branches scratching the window panes. I watched the news; they did say it was going to get cold. Now, let's define cold in <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Oklahoma</st1:place></st1:state>.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Under 60 – that's cold<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Under 50 – getting kinda nippley outside<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Under 40 – damn that's cold out side<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Under 30 – fuck all that noise, I ain't gonna go nowhere!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I woke up pretty early today. Have to brave the grocery store. And living in a college town with 3 grocery stores, and only one has everything you want, well….you have to prepare yourself for battling the mass amount of people. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I walk into the bathroom, and it catches me out of the corner of my eye. What the hell is that??? I flip back the curtain….OH MUH GAWD!!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">WHAT IS THAT STUFF??????<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Seems as though mother nature decided it was time for us Okies to participate in winter and dumped some of her white powder on us. GREAT. THANKS A STINKING <st1:place w:st="on">LOT</st1:place>.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Snow, not a problem. Doesn't bother me. I like the snow. I grew up in <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Michigan</st1:place></st1:state>, family still all lives there. Six months of winter. Good times. But, Okies don't know how to drive in snow. It would be alright if we JUST got snow…but you see…..we are in the south, warmer climate means warmer ground. So, when the snow does come from the sky, it melts as soon as it hits the ground. Then, as time goes on that turns into a big thick block of ice. I don't care who you are, what kind of car you drive, YOU CAN NOT DRIVE ON ICE.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Nothing can help you….NOTHING…….<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Do us all a favor, go home. You don't need to get out in it anyway. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">As for me, I got my groceries (a girls gotta eat) and took my happy bum right on back home. All warm, feet kicked up, enjoying my nice hot cup of tea (yes, I said tea damnit….do I always have to have coffee?) do some writing....post another blog......….<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-73730037847342271972006-02-18T16:01:00.000-05:002010-11-10T16:04:50.936-05:00Poetry In Motion: Trapped<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i761.photobucket.com/albums/xx258/darkuswolfeh/Decorated%20images/trapped.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="http://i761.photobucket.com/albums/xx258/darkuswolfeh/Decorated%20images/trapped.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">Trapped <st1:date day="18" month="2" w:st="on" year="2006">2/18/06</st1:date> © C.H.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">A brick wall<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">all around me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">So tall<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">I can not see.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">Never let others in<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">never let them close<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">never let them see<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">the real me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">No one comes close,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">not at all near.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">All my choice,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">a choice out of fear.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">Trapped<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">In a situation<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">that doesn't fit<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">within these walls.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">I can do nothing, <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">nothing bit sit.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">When will it end?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">When will that wall<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">come crashing down<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT'; font-size: 20pt;">and let me out?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-35711623837383179242006-02-18T14:24:00.002-05:002010-11-10T14:25:00.445-05:00Poetry In Motion: My Dearest Friend<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">My Dearest Friend<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">my darling<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">It was suppose to be<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">friend forever<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">friends until the end.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Where are you now?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Why did you leave me so?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">What did I do<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">to make you turn against me?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I never thought<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">it would be you <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">who would say good-bye.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I never thought<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">it would be you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">that made me cry.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I hate being me,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">can’t you see?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Easy to love,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">easy to please.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Easily used,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">easily abused.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Always there <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">to lend a helping hand.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">A friend who is always there<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">doing for you,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">whatever I can.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">You snuck into my life<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">over and over again<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">for so many years.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Always un-crossing<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">and re-crossing paths.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Never –<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">until now , have I shed<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">so many tears.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Stop ignoring me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">just tell me the truth.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">You can’t hurt me anymore<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">no more then you already have.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">My dearest friend<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">my darling<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">my heart is breaking<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">and for you I am sad.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Because I was the best friend, <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">you have ever had. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I won’t let you back,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I never will.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">You hurt me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">used me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">and abused me. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">My dearest friend<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">my darling<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I declare this over<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I have my closure<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">The end. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">© C.H.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><st1:date day="18" month="2" w:st="on" year="2006">2/18/06</st1:date> <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-53858154505109386402006-02-17T14:20:00.002-05:002010-11-09T14:34:09.926-05:00Poetry In Motion: Fears<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Fears<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>© C.H. <st1:date day="17" month="2" w:st="on" year="2006">2/17/06</st1:date> – 2/21/06<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I really should go<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I really must leave<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Please let me go<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Please<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Don't keep me here<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">My heart is hurting<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>screaming<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>begging<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>pleading<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">It's just not right<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">how I <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">cry myself to sleep<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">at night.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">For the fears take control.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Fear of being alone,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">fear of being on my own.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>How will I live?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>What will I do?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Where will I go?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>How will I know,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>if the choices are right?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">These are thing things in my mind <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">all through out the day.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">These are the things,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">that keeps me up all night.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Can't you see,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Don't you know?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I am stuck.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Stuck right here, <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">in this hell<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">that you prefer for me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-47734400295939200062006-02-17T10:58:00.005-05:002010-10-26T15:27:27.560-04:00Let The Countdown BeginFebruary 17, 2006<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"></span><br /><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;"><img height="288" src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/d884.jpg?mgg7zHoCmkrETXAe" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px;" width="234" /></div><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;">154 days 15 hours 58 mins and 2 seconds from writing this....it is my 31st birthday and my feet shall be firmly planted on IRELAND SOIL</div><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; 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cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161138?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">02/18/2006 05:06 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">I do Cathy, its one of my favorite songs...I actually did a blog about it months back!!<br /><br />I can't wait it is gonna be so much fun!!</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297047" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); 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width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161138?listPage=index" id="ucard3" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161138?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">02/18/2006 03:32 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Have you ever heard Garth Brooks' song "Ireland"? I like it, even though it's about war...it's more about...Ireland(imagine that, LOL!)!<br />I hope you have a blast! {{{{HUGS}}}}</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297048" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161138?listPage=index" id="ucard4" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161138?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">02/18/2006 02:45 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Sette - you KNOW I will!!<br /><br />Joey......YOU WILL YOU WILL!!! My brother I CAN NOT wait to see you! ~hugs~</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297049" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161138?listPage=index" id="ucard5" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161138?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">02/18/2006 11:16 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Hurry up Summer ehhh. Hope I kin help show ya around by then. ~hugs~</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297050" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161138?listPage=index" id="ucard6" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161138?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">02/18/2006 02:33 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">oh wow WOW WOW WOW .....take lots of pics of us still here!!! i so wish i could go.. but not yet..</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297051" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161138?listPage=index" id="ucard7" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161138?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">02/17/2006 02:56 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">I KNOW! It doesnt seem like its that long off does it? Got my passport application....will go get my pics done this weekend and go monday to submit my pics and application.....sounds like fun huh?? Still a little unsure about the "execution fee" LOL LOL LOL</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297052" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161138?listPage=index" id="ucard8" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161138?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">02/17/2006 11:08 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">sorry.. way to freak a sista out with a countdown.. damnit.. i really should think about gettin that passport huh<br /><br />hehehe</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297053" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item last" style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; 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User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161138?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">02/17/2006 11:08 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">HOLY SHIT!<br /><br />LOL</div></div></li></ul></span></div><div><br /></div><div class="toolbar clrfix" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; line-height: 0.9; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 15px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><ul style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"></ul></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-65242197532028462872006-02-14T22:14:00.000-05:002010-11-16T22:16:06.311-05:00Sean: me forth one (beauty and the beast)<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"></span><br /><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: x-small; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">beauty and the beast</span></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: x-small; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></span></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: x-small; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">tis a tale as old as time.. yet tis mine...</span></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: x-small; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></span></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: x-small; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">...i was once the beast..locked away in his cold. lonely castle...angry, hurting...surrounded by others, yet so very alone. his heart like the rose in glass slowly dying...day by day..until u me sexee one...my irish princess, me BEAUTY..came into me life and set free the beast...unleashing the prince within..</span></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: x-small; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></span></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: x-small; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">now we dance...we kiss..we laugh...we love..happy ever after...indeed. <img src="http://x.myspace.com/images/blog/smileys/heart.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; 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border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: x-small; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">This tale....forever in my heart....I Love You Sean and nothing is going to take this away from us.</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-51178378435097736842006-02-14T14:20:00.006-05:002010-11-05T14:45:37.670-04:00Beauty and the Beast<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">Beauty and the Beast <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial;">My Valentine Story<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><!--[if gte vml 1]><v:shapetype id="_x0000_t75" coordsize="21600,21600" o:spt="75" o:preferrelative="t" path="m@4@5l@4@11@9@11@9@5xe" filled="f" stroked="f"> <v:stroke joinstyle="miter"/> <v:formulas> <v:f eqn="if lineDrawn pixelLineWidth 0"/> <v:f eqn="sum @0 1 0"/> <v:f eqn="sum 0 0 @1"/> <v:f eqn="prod @2 1 2"/> <v:f eqn="prod @3 21600 pixelWidth"/> <v:f eqn="prod @3 21600 pixelHeight"/> <v:f eqn="sum @0 0 1"/> <v:f eqn="prod @6 1 2"/> <v:f eqn="prod @7 21600 pixelWidth"/> <v:f eqn="sum @8 21600 0"/> <v:f eqn="prod @7 21600 pixelHeight"/> <v:f eqn="sum @10 21600 0"/> </v:formulas> <v:path o:extrusionok="f" gradientshapeok="t" o:connecttype="rect"/> <o:lock v:ext="edit" aspectratio="t"/> </v:shapetype><v:shape id="_x0000_s1026" type="#_x0000_t75" alt="Beauty and the Beast, by Eleanor Vere Boyle, 1875" style='position:absolute;margin-left:-90pt;margin-top:-124.2pt;width:75pt; height:126.75pt;z-index:251657728;mso-wrap-distance-left:0; mso-wrap-distance-right:0;mso-position-vertical-relative:line' o:allowoverlap="f"> <v:imagedata src="file:///C:\DOCUME~1\ADMINI~1\LOCALS~1\Temp\msohtmlclip1\01\clip_image001.gif" o:title="frameb"/> <w:wrap type="square"/> </v:shape><![endif]--><!--[if !vml]--><img align="left" alt="Beauty and the Beast, by Eleanor Vere Boyle, 1875" height="169" src="file:///C:/DOCUME~1/ADMINI~1/LOCALS~1/Temp/msohtmlclip1/01/clip_image001.gif" v:shapes="_x0000_s1026" width="100" /><!--[endif]--><span style="font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold;">Beauty and the Beast is one of the more famous fairy tales, nearly as well known as Cinderella and Sleeping Beauty. It has always my favorite, because it seemed the most realistic. Odd thinking perhaps, considering it contains an enchanted prince, invisible servants, and various other magical elements. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold;">But Belle was a simple girl. She found the greatest pleasure out of something such as reading a book. I could relate to that. I have no need for “things” and choose to surround myself with the written words. She wasn’t looking for love, but rather, love found her.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I wasn’t looking for anything, but something found me. I have always just been content with my life. I knew there was something missing, something more I wanted outside this life in which I lead. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But, I could not put my finger on it, as it was not something in my life in which I had planned.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b>“”<a href="http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0641314/">Belle</a></b>: [<i>singing</i>] I want adventure in the great wide somewhere. I want it more than I can tell. And for once it might be grand, to have someone understand. I want so much more than they've got planned.””<span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold;">Consider this, though: Beauty and the Beast is one of the few fairy tales where the main characters <i>actually</i> get to know each other before falling in love. Unlike Cinderella, who falls in love in an evening, or Sleeping Beauty, who falls in love with a kiss, Beauty spends weeks, possibly months with the Beast before falling in love with him. In addition, the message given by the story, besides that main staple that true love will prevail, is that of <i>true beauty is within.</i> Admirable, and rare, it seems these days.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Belle is a beautiful and strong woman on the screen, falling in love with someone who everyone else considers to be a beast. She is smart enough to look beyond the outer layer of scary looks and find the true heart of the prince she loves.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold;">As a little girl, I never grew up believing in fairy tales. Having the childhood in which I have had, you believe those types of things were not meant for little girls like me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I never dreamt of my Prince on his white horse coming to rescue me. I never dreamed I would get married, huge white wedding, house with white picket fence and bunches of little babies running around. It just was never me. Was never who I was. Not part of my plan. I was never the pretty girl. Always the smart and fun girl. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My mother brought me up to be independent, to never be scared of standing on my own two feet. She also taught me that real love has no colors, no boundaries; you love for who they are and not what they are or how they look. One day, she said, love would find me. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold;">Despite the fact I never believed in fairy tales, this story of Beauty and the Beast has become a part of my life. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I wasn’t looking for it, and sure didn’t ask for it. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold;">For those of you that read my blog on Yahoo 360, Blogger, or TagWorld, you are only seeing part of the story. You’re only seeing my written words, my thoughts that are being produced by these events that are happening in my life. For those of you who are reading my blog here on MySpace, you get the complete story, assuming you are paying close attention.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>For within these pages, the blogs, the comments, the friends list lies a very close, well weaved circle of friends.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And in that close circle of friends lies the one in which I call, My Irish One. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold;">No doubt you have seen his comments on my MS home page, my own confessions of love with my own pics on my page….perhaps even the wonderful comments he leaves on my blogs. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Or perhaps, you have even checked out his page. Whichever, it is not a secret, we have put it out there for you to see. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold;">There is something magical there; something only dreams and fairy tales are made of. A little Irish Magic if you will…believe? I never thoughts I could believe, but now, I believe in it with all my heart. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I believe in myself because he believes in me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Feelings I never felt before, are there. Smiles and laughter that had been hidden away for so long, have come back. Happiness and cheer, it is now all around me. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold;">This didn’t all just happen to me, but it has happened to him as well.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>For the sake of the Beauty and the Beast theme, he has dubbed himself the Beast. For the sake of the tale, it fits. But, he is in NO WAY mean, vulgar or sore on the eyes as the beast in which we all think of. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold;">“”</span><b><a href="http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0000913/">Beast</a></b>: Oh, it's no use. She's so beautiful, and I'm... Well, look at me!””<span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold;">His tale goes a little something like this: (copy & pasted from his own blog)<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="blogtimestamp"><st1:date day="14" month="2" w:st="on" year="2006">Tuesday, February 14, 2006</st1:date></div><div align="center"> <table border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="MsoNormalTable" style="background: #B1D0F0; mso-cellspacing: 0in; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 0in 0in; width: 100.0%;"><tbody><tr style="mso-yfti-firstrow: yes; mso-yfti-irow: 0; mso-yfti-lastrow: yes;"> <td style="padding: 0in 0in 0in 0in; width: 7.5pt;" width="10"> <div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div></td> <td style="padding: 0in 0in 0in 0in;"> <div class="blogsubject">me forth one <br />Current mood: <!--[if gte vml 1]><v:shape id="_x0000_i1025" type="#_x0000_t75" alt="" style='width:11.25pt;height:11.25pt'> <v:imagedata src="file:///C:\DOCUME~1\ADMINI~1\LOCALS~1\Temp\msohtmlclip1\01\clip_image002.gif" o:href="http://x.myspace.com/images/blog/moods/iBrads/loved.gif"/> </v:shape><![endif]--><!--[if !vml]--><img border="0" height="15" src="file:///C:/DOCUME~1/ADMINI~1/LOCALS~1/Temp/msohtmlclip1/01/clip_image002.gif" v:shapes="_x0000_i1025" width="15" /><!--[endif]-->loved </div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">beauty and the beast<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">tis a tale as old as time.. yet tis mine...<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">...i was once the beast..locked away in his cold. lonely castle...angry, hurting...surrounded by others, yet so very alone. his heart like the rose in glass slowly dying...day by day..until u me sexee one...my irish princess, me BEAUTY..came into me life and set free the beast...unleashing the prince within.. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">now we dance...we kiss..we laugh...we love..happy ever after...indeed. <!--[if gte vml 1]><v:shape id="_x0000_i1026" type="#_x0000_t75" alt="" style='width:11.25pt;height:11.25pt'> <v:imagedata src="file:///C:\DOCUME~1\ADMINI~1\LOCALS~1\Temp\msohtmlclip1\01\clip_image002.gif" o:href="http://x.myspace.com/images/blog/smileys/heart.gif"/> </v:shape><![endif]--><!--[if !vml]--><img border="0" height="15" src="file:///C:/DOCUME~1/ADMINI~1/LOCALS~1/Temp/msohtmlclip1/01/clip_image002.gif" v:shapes="_x0000_i1026" width="15" /><!--[endif]--><o:p></o:p></span></div></td> </tr></tbody></table></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt;">But rather he is sweet, kind, loving and honest.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt;">For the first time in my life, I see the fairy tale, and I am the Irish Princess. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt;">We started just as friends and it has bloomed into so much more. Much more then my words could ever explain to you today.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt;">We both may be married and have families in which to tend, we may be millions of miles apart and don't for get the oceans in between, we may never talk on the phone to hear each others voice, and it is very well possible that we may never meet. Of course, my friends know I have been planning this Ireland trip for many many many many months, not to mention years spent thinking about it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Others of you know about my desire to study abroad. Whether that happens or not, Love found us and brought us together. Each were lacking something in our life, and the simple things we do for each other bring more happiness and joy then anyone could understand unless they have found the magic themselves. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Love knows no boundaries….I believe this to be true now. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I just love him. Nothing more, nothing less. I want nothing more then to just love him. Period. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt;">This Irish Magic lies within us, for I feel it every day. Miles may separate us, but I feel his presence in my life daily. I feel him, right here beside me. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Feelings I have never felt before.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I tell this tale for you today, with the hopes of bringing a smile to your face. For, your fairy tale, it can come true….It happened to me, it could happen to you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Never give up on your dreams, and never give up on love. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Beauty and the Beast Lyrics:<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Tale as old as time<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">True as it can be<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Barely even friends<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Then somebody bends<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Unexpectedly<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Just a little change<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Small, to say the least<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Both a little scared<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Neither one prepared<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Beauty and the Beast<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Ever just the same<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Ever a surprise<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Ever as before<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">And ever just as sure<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">As the sun will rise<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Whoa, whoa, oh, whoa-oh<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Ever just the same<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Ever a surprise<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Ever as before<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Ever just as sure<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">As the sun will rise<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Oh, oh, oh<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Tale as old as time<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Tune as old as song<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Bittersweet and strange<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Finding you can change<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Learning you were wrong<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Certain as the sun<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">(Certain as the sun)<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Rising in the east<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Tale as old as time<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Song as old as rhyme<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Beauty and the Beast<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Tale as old as time<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New";">Song as old as rhyme<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Beauty and the Beast<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Sean, my words will never do justice as to how I feel. You make me smile, you make me laugh, you have brought me so much happiness, there have been tears and there have been some fears. We know all things happen for a reason, and that we crossed paths for a reason. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I count my blessings daily that I have you in my life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt;">táim i ngrá leat<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Gráim thú</span><span style="font-family: "Blackadder ITC"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-80602398796173200252006-02-13T13:26:00.001-05:002010-11-10T13:28:02.051-05:00Interviews SUCK!!<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Interviews SUCK!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><st1:date day="13" month="2" w:st="on" year="2006">2/13/06</st1:date><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I HATE THEM!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Well, not really….what I hate are the tag team interviews where you are locked in a conference room with 5 people for a nice long interview. An hour to be exact. Then…for a one on one interview with someone else…<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Alright, here is my rant for the day, well quite frankly I have not ranted in a while, I am due for one, and it’s my blog so I can write what ever I want!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">So, I applied for this Financial Coordinator job a few weeks back. It’s at the college. And I was in NO WAY expecting a phone call for an interview. To be honest, I felt some aspects of the job were a little out of my expertise. But, I figured it was worth a shot, and I would not know if I didn’t try. This, assuming, if I wanting to stay in the wonderful world of accounting. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">So, I get this phone call last week…you know the drill, are you still interested, well yes, ok would you like to come in for an interview? Well...no just hire me damn it….So, she gave me the interview time of this morning.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">That gave me all weekend to stew over it……worry about it, bitch about it, worry some more.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I get up this morning, get all ready to go and just had a complete and utter total meltdown….WHERE THE FUCK IS MY MEDICATIONS….I am in FULL panic mode….manic , panic whatever…….<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Oh hell, forgetting I have to go to the middle of campus…..I park in the Student Union parking garage, and trot my happy ass across campus, in heals mind you….to get to this interview…..now, one would think having spent 5years on this campus<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I could walk it blindfolded. Call it the case of nerves, my manic panic state, whatever, I went into the wrong damn building…….ggggrrrrrrrr……..this causes me to arrive at my destination LATE.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">DAMN, you are NEVER EVER to arrive for an interview LATE….<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">So, ya’ll know me, lets crack a joke about it….they seemed to like that….laughed with me, explain how lots of people get the two buildings mixed up….yadda yadda buncha bullshit….good thing it really was only like 2 minutes late and not a whole 5! Still late is late….<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Ok, so one lady leads me into a conference room…HUGE table, and I am like doing my deep breathing….our father, thou art in heaven……breath…..breath….in walk FOUR more ladies…..WTF? Is this really needed? WHY GOD WHY?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I mean seriously, only TWO of them talked to me. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Oh, here come the questions. Tell me about yourself, what can you offer us, why do you work here……..So, here I am….ready to explode from panic….and my mutherfuckineverlasting gum decides to stick to my tongue ring which I have so skillfully hidden….OH NOOOOOOOOO<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">STRIKE TWO…never ever ever ever ever chew gum in an interview…. oh well, and prolly take the tongue ring out too while you’re at it...but I never bother anymore cuz u cant see it unless I let you so THERE!! ~sticks out tongue~<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I meant to spit it out, really I did…….<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">And now for the THIRD and final blow….just having a grand ole time, talking away, not the best interview, but not my worst either. I just hate all those dumb retarded questions. It doesn’t matter how you answer them, it will never be the right answer.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Ok, so, I casually glance at one of the ladies that are just sitting there, staring at me, listening and I catch this shiny glimpse out of the bottom corner of my eye….<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">awe…..gawd……FUCKIN NOSE RING~ Strike THREE……<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I soooooooooooooooo totally meant to stop in the bathroom and remove it before I walked into the office…….<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">This concludes this interview…..thank gawd….<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">So, the lady then says, let me introduce you to our director…follow her into his office , I meet him, nice enough dude…..and she says nice to meet you to me and so, I turn around to leave. DUMB ASS. The dude starts laughing at me….and I turn around and realize, I ain't suppose to be leaving……heheheehheeh<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">So, then, I get the one on one interview with the big dawg……but he was all cool as hell….suit and tie dude with earrings…I was like COOL DUDE you rock!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You just don't see that much on the suit and tie guys on campus or in the banks here in town. But, he was really cool and his interview went much much better. Well…by this time the gum had been swallowed, he didn’t care about the 2 mins being late…and he was just cool as hell…..<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Anyway, I am SO NOT expecting to get this job. I am such a goof. LOL…which is why I would rather sit around the day care and play with little kids all day then go back to corporate America…..blah……..<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">It’s ok to laugh at me…I do it all the time!!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 16.0pt;">HAHAHAHHAHAHA<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-88773687776226128682006-02-11T17:18:00.000-05:002010-11-08T17:20:14.319-05:00Poetry In Motion: Collar Me<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">Collar me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">Claim me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">Make me your own.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I want you to be Master,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">and I your slave,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">your pet.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I don't know what’s come over me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">These last few days<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">my desires for you <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">are burning<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">raging<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">deep within.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">More so now then ever. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">Was it because <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I started to walk away?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">To say good-bye-<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">a few tears I did cry…<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I almost lost you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">and now my<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">hunger<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">my thirst<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">my desire<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">my need<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">makes me more<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">hungry for you <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">then before.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">Collar me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">Claim me. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">Love me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">Adore me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">Make me brand new. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 18.0pt;">© <st1:date day="11" month="2" w:st="on" year="2006">2/11/06</st1:date> C.H.<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-71253025126239349592006-02-11T14:52:00.002-05:002010-11-09T14:53:00.058-05:00Poetry In Motion: Haunted<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">“Haunted”<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Those words <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">they keep playing<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">over and over<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">in my mind.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I must have played that song<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">a thousand times.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Words so powerful<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">yet somehow<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">so chilling.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">“I want to be haunted by the ghost..<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>your precious ghost..<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>the precious ghost of you.”<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I close my eyes to sleep<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I see you in my dreams.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">When I am awake<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I catch a glimpse of you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">in the corner of my eye.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I turn, to take a look<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">knowing, you are really not there.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I feel you.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I always feel you with me. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Your presence is strong, <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">powerful and great. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Your thoughts<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">they haunt my mind. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I am truly haunted by the ghost of you.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">When I smell, that familiar smell<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">at that moment,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I know<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">you are there<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">thinking of me too.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">© C.H. <st1:date day="7" month="2" w:st="on" year="2006">2/7/06</st1:date><o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-11989892630826520452006-02-11T14:08:00.001-05:002010-11-09T14:11:46.741-05:00Poetry In Motion: Don't Go<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Thought about leaving.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Thought about saying “Poof, I’m Gone.”<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">“Don’t walk away”<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">three words<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I heard you say<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">just the other day.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Now here you are<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">possibly<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">thinking<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">the same thing.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">What can I do,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">to make you stay?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">What can I do,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">to make you not leave,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">not go away?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I’m sorry if I hurt you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Sorry if I made you cry<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I looked to find an answer<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">and I still<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">don't know why.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">© 2/4/06-2/11/06 C.H.<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-86731091137890779012006-02-10T22:17:00.001-05:002010-11-16T22:18:50.128-05:00Sean: me second<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"></span><br /><h4 class="subject" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 1.2em; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-rendering: optimizelegibility; vertical-align: baseline;">me second</h4><div class="blogContent" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">this time i am not feeling so utterly cheerful...i am caught between obligation and desire...what i must do and what i want to do...where me feet are stuck and where me heart longs to fly...</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">right now, i simply want to hold chrytal...and kiss her, and tell her how much i love and adore her...as that too much to ask?</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">aye, me darling, I LOVE U SO!!!!!!!!!!</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">My Reply:</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666;"><a class="msProfileTextLink" href="http://www.myspace.com/theoriginalirishchik" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #666666; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" title="♣IrishChik♣">♣IrishChik♣</a></span></div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">baby, tis all I want too...</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">to be wrapped in your embrace</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">to hear those words pass over your lips</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">I Love You</div></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-58111256842645159262006-02-10T22:16:00.002-05:002010-11-16T22:17:27.338-05:00Sean: me third one<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #262626; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"></span><br /><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">all i know is i love chrystal...and i am not going any where... i will have as much as i can with her..and i will cherish every moment...she is me beauty and i am her beast..she is me sexee one and i her irish one..</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">thanx 4 the words of encouragement...all is well as i know where me heart lies..</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">My Reply:</div><div style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666;"><a class="msProfileTextLink" href="http://www.myspace.com/theoriginalirishchik" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: black; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;" title="♣IrishChik♣">♣IrishChik♣</a></span></div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">always and forever...</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">my heart, it never left your side....</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">strayed for a while, indeed</div><div align="center" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11px; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">but...tis with you always</div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-39590091982071626892006-02-05T14:14:00.000-05:002010-11-10T14:15:39.259-05:00Poetry In Motion: I QUIT! The End<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I QUIT<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><st1:date day="5" month="2" w:st="on" year="2006">2/5/2006</st1:date> © C.H.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I QUIT!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I don’t want to any more.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I can’t.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">STOP!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">No more.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Not from you,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">nor from them.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">This is officially, <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">THE END!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I revoke my friendship.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Take it away. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Hide my love.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">For with it<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">you will not play.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">It has been nothing<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">but a one way street.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">And I have hit<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">my dead end.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I wanted to stay.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I really did.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">But I have been pushed.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Pushed so much farther<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">then ever before.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">GO!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Leave me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Walk out that door.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I have to be me,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">true to myself.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I have to say<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">what I need to say.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I can’t.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Not with you.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Always got me worried about<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">who will think what,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">will they understand,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">will they be mad,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">did I offend?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I am sorry , <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">this is officially, <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Calligraph421 BT"; font-size: 14.0pt;">The End.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-77225166690214139522006-02-04T16:30:00.000-05:002010-11-10T16:31:22.389-05:00Poetry In Motion: You and I<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">Together.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">You and I.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">Together.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">We watch time<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">pass us by.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">Together.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">You and I.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">I don't want these tears.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">I don't want to cry.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">Together.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">You and I.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">I must admit<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">I wonder<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">what the future hold.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">Do you?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">Do you think about us?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">Together.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">You and I.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">Any changes?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">More of this, <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">just the same?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">Or, something<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">else?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">Together?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">Is their magic?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">A bigger plan, <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">For you and I?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-size: 16.0pt;">© C.H. 2/4/06<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-87718941997656575792006-02-04T16:23:00.000-05:002010-11-10T16:24:38.149-05:00Poetry In Motion: Why Am I Doing This?<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Why am I doing this?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Always doing this to myself.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I can’t love<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">It’s not right<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">But DAMN IT<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">It feels – RIGHT<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">It feels – GOOD<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I want it<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I want you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Grab you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Hold you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Keep you near<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>my dear.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Why am I doing this to myself?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Putting myself through this?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Sure, its good now<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">But, as they say<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">all good things<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">will have to come to an end<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">There is always a beginning <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>and an end.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">And then,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">we have<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">pieces of broken hearts <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>to mend. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Can we always be content<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">with just the way things are?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Or, will someone<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">want more?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">When that happens,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">then what?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">What can we do?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">It’s easier now<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">to turn my back<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">and walk away.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I should.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I should go. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Run. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Fast. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">And save us<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">from the beginning and the end. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">© C.H. 2/4/06<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-67407391322312833442006-02-04T12:37:00.002-05:002010-11-10T12:38:44.843-05:00Poetry In Motion: His Plan<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">You are <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">my gift.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">My gift<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">from God.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">I will<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">never question<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">your presence<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">in my life.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">Not now.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">Not ever.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">We crossed paths<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">that day<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">in a special<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">kind of way.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">A way <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">with meaning.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">A way<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">with purpose.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">We may<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">not have all the answers.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">Not now.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">But He has a plan.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">A plan for<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">you and I.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">When I look<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">at the stars<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">and see<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">that bright light<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">deep in the night<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">I know,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">within that light<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">forever bright<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">is you.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">You’re that glow.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">Together <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">we share<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">something special<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">You and I.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">Who are we<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">to question<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">the purpose<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">and the plan?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">Not me,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">and surely<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">not you.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";">© C.H.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>2/4/06<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-34252171927004792592006-02-03T15:27:00.001-05:002010-10-26T15:30:42.161-04:00Pub Pic<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">Feb. 3, 2006</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><img height="240" src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/cadc.jpg?mgg7zHoCx.VLhR17" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px;" width="300" /></span><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Just love this pic...inside of an Irish Pub</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">UPDATE: 10/26/2010 - I remember Sean telling me this was much what the pub Lucan looked like on the inside, which is Lucan County Dublin. Alas, this photo was the backdrop for a 3 part story I wrote, entitled The Pub, which was an erotica story so it won't be found on this blog.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><b>Original Yahoo 360 Comments:</b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"></span></div><div class="number-comment" style="float: left; font-size: 19px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span class="number">3</span> Comments</div><select id="cmt-order" style="color: #636363; float: right; font-family: inherit; font-size: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: 400; font: normal normal normal 99%/normal arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px;"><option style="font-family: inherit; font-size: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit;" value="DESC">Latest comments</option><option style="font-family: inherit; font-size: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit;" value="ASC">Oldest comments</option></select><ul class="landing-new-cmt" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"></ul><ul class="ypf-usercards" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><li class="comment-item first" style="border-top-color: initial; border-top-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161137?listPage=index" id="ucard2" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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Can I just say You Rock! First that funny *ss warning (TY btw;0)... & on toppa that, then you put up that cool link.<br />TY twice:0).<br />TC & Smile Big- M</div></div></li></ul>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-83793099140189236222006-02-03T01:13:00.004-05:002010-10-26T15:32:57.022-04:00Ha'Penny BridgeFeb. 3, 2006<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><img height="250" src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/cc76.jpg?mgg7zHoCU0zF0vu9" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px;" width="333" /></span><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Wonderful pic of Ha' Penney Bridge, Dublin Ireland.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><b>Original Yahoo 360 Comments:</b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a0a0a0; font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"></span></div><div class="bd" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px;"><div class="list-comment" style="margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="number-comment" style="float: left; font-size: 19px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span class="number">4</span> Comments</div><select id="cmt-order" style="color: #636363; float: right; font-family: inherit; font-size: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: 400; font: normal normal normal 99%/normal arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px;"><option style="font-family: inherit; font-size: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit;" value="DESC">Latest comments</option><option style="font-family: inherit; font-size: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit;" value="ASC">Oldest comments</option></select><ul class="landing-new-cmt" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"></ul><ul class="ypf-usercards" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><li class="comment-item first" style="border-top-color: initial; border-top-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161136?listPage=index" id="ucard2" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161136?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">02/04/2006 09:02 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Teasing, intense, hot, yet sweet---</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297040" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; 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cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161136?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">02/03/2006 09:04 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Well that one hit home. Great work, Chrystal!</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297041" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161136?listPage=index" id="ucard4" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161136?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">02/03/2006 07:01 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">awww so touching .. xx</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297042" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; 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font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">What is it that you want from me?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I don't get it<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I look around<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I don't see<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I have this passion<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">this burning desire<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">these flames<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>passion<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>tearing<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">ripping at my insides<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">flooding me with<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>longing<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>hurting<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>pain<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>confusion<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>desperation<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>needing<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>wanting<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>desires<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">What is it that you want from me?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I didn’t ask for this<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I wasn’t looking<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">so far from being<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>free<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">Free from a heart<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">free from a soul<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">free from this –<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>longing<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>hurting<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>wanting<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>pain<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>needs<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>desires<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>confusion<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">What is it that you want from me?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">What is it that you see?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">Will I ever get it?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">Will I ever be able to see?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">This flame<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>this passion<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>that you see?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">What could I give to you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">that you don't already have?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">Oceans apart<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">miles between<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">You’ve got me begging<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">down on my knees<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I’m asking you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>tell me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 3;"> </span>PLEASE???<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">Is our love enough?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">© C.H. 2/2/06<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-77823919252721226102006-01-30T22:29:00.001-05:002010-10-26T15:34:46.205-04:00You and I ~An Irish PoemJan. 30, 2006<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><img height="226" src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/3fbc.jpg?mgg7zHoCctGWBCgM" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px;" width="300" /></span><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #99cc00; font-family: Parade; font-size: 20pt;">You and I</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #99cc00; font-family: Parade; font-size: 20pt;">I know what will happen, sweet,</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #99cc00; font-family: Parade; font-size: 20pt;">When you and I are one;</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #99cc00; font-family: Parade; font-size: 20pt;">Calm and bright and very fleet,</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #99cc00; font-family: Parade; font-size: 20pt;">All our days will run.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #99cc00; font-family: Parade; font-size: 20pt;">Fond and kind our words will be,</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #99cc00; font-family: Parade; font-size: 20pt;">Mixed no more with sigh;</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #99cc00; font-family: Parade; font-size: 20pt;">Thoughts too fine for words we'll see</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #99cc00; font-family: Parade; font-size: 20pt;">Within each others eyes.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: #99cc00; font-family: Parade; font-size: 20pt;">~Timothy Daniel Sullivan</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-63227056413026559352006-01-30T14:08:00.000-05:002010-11-10T14:09:28.312-05:00Poetry In Motion: I Wish<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Harrington; font-size: 24.0pt;">I wish<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Harrington; font-size: 24.0pt;">we could be together<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Harrington; font-size: 24.0pt;">you and I.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Harrington; font-size: 24.0pt;">But we can’t<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Harrington; font-size: 24.0pt;">So, we won’t<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Harrington; font-size: 24.0pt;">we shouldn’t even try.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Harrington; font-size: 24.0pt;">I want nothing from you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Harrington; font-size: 24.0pt;">I only want to love you.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Harrington; font-size: 24.0pt;">© C.H. <st1:date day="30" month="1" w:st="on" year="2006">1/30/06</st1:date><o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-7448707544261739602006-01-29T14:09:00.004-05:002010-11-10T14:11:38.271-05:00Poetry In Motion: I Want to Scream<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i37.photobucket.com/albums/e53/megscafe/scream.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i37.photobucket.com/albums/e53/megscafe/scream.jpg" width="260" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I want to scream<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">break free<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">lash out <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">fight<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I want to scream<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">from the depths of my soul<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">leave me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">let me go<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I want to scream<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I need to be me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">can’t you see<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">just leave<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I want to scream<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">get in your face<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">shout<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">all over the place<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">GO!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">Go now<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">let me go<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">just walk away<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">don't turn back<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">it doesn’t get<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">much<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">easier <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">then that<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I want to scream<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I am letting you go<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I can’t be strong<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I can’t hold on<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">not anymore<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">not this long<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">© C.H. 1/29/06<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-4763262105133216922006-01-28T12:40:00.006-05:002010-11-10T12:42:18.314-05:00Poetry In Motion: I Love You<div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">I Love You.</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">What more can I say?</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">From a distance</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">so far away.</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">I Love You.</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">These three words</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">I say </span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">out loud - everyday.</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">I Love You.</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">From the top of my lungs</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">I scream.</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">To many</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">distance would be a problem</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">but not to us it seems.</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">I Love You.</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">How often is enough</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">to say these words to you?</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">I shall never sugar coat</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><script></script></span><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">or give you fluff.</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">I Love You.</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">My words. </span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">So honest</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">so true.</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">It is all I have</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">my gift to you.</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">I Love You.</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">These three words </span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">I say</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">to you</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">each and EVERY day!</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin: 0in;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 22pt;">© C.H. <st1:date day="28" month="1" w:st="on" year="2006">1/28/2006</st1:date></span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><script></script><br clear="all" style="mso-special-character: line-break;" /> <o:p></o:p></span></div><table border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="MsoNormalTable" style="mso-cellspacing: 0in; mso-padding-alt: 3.75pt 3.75pt 3.75pt 3.75pt;"><tbody><tr style="mso-yfti-firstrow: yes; mso-yfti-irow: 0; mso-yfti-lastrow: yes;"> <td style="padding: 3.75pt 3.75pt 3.75pt 3.75pt;"><table border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="MsoNormalTable" style="mso-cellspacing: 0in; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 0in 0in;"><tbody><tr style="mso-yfti-firstrow: yes; mso-yfti-irow: 0; mso-yfti-lastrow: yes;"> <td style="padding: 0in 0in 0in 0in;"><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: blue; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px;"><br /></span></span></div></td> <td style="padding: 0in 0in 0in 0in; width: .1in;" width="10"><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div></td> <td style="padding: 0in 0in 0in 0in;"><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div></td> </tr></tbody></table><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 9.5pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div></td> </tr></tbody></table><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-50887073313880099382006-01-26T14:15:00.004-05:002010-11-10T14:16:46.891-05:00Poetry In Motion - I Quit, Dear<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">I QUIT<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">I didn’t want to<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">but had to<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">for me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">not for you.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">I QUIT<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">Please don't tell me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">how better off<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">I would be,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">If only I would stay<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">STAY!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>You<span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>Say?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">Maybe you didn’t hear me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">I QUIT<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">Not for you.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">But for me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">It’s not normally<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>like me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>to give up<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 3;"> </span>to quit<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 4;"> </span>and walk away,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">So much has happened<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">in my life lately.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">Deep down,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">I know<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">this is what’s best<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>for me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">I need you to understand<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">need you to see<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">it’s not about you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">it’s about me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">Once again<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">I tell you <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">I QUIT<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">Am I making myself clear?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">HELLO?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">Are you listening to me my dear?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;">© C.H. <st1:date day="26" month="1" w:st="on" year="2006">1/26/2006</st1:date><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 27px;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 27px;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Baskerville Old Face","serif"; font-size: 20.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span><span style="color: black;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-88871318599497156852006-01-22T14:50:00.002-05:002010-11-09T14:52:00.006-05:00Poetry In Motion: Grandpa<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">it wasn’t your time to go<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">why did he have to take you away<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">such a good life<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">but so much pain<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">in the end<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">selfish, I know<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">you always said <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I was spoiled<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Its just, grandpa, <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I miss you.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Your time has come<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">To leave us<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Leave this place<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">When I close my eyes<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I can still see your face.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Your smile<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Your frown<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">All those things<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">That got you angry <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">And turned you upside down<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Those things<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">They don't matter anymore<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Now you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Have walked through<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Heavens door<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">In my dreams I see you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Still throwing that fast pitch like no <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 3;"> </span>Other<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Still teaching all us grandkids to fish<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 3;"> </span>And making us gut it<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Taking us to the<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>bar with you, as little <span style="mso-tab-count: 3;"> </span><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>grandbabies<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>how Proud you were<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Getting angry when we changed your tv<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Playing poker with your lost family<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 3;"> </span>And friends.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">But, the best thing I see<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">You and duke dog<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Our favorite boxer<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Waiting for me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Cain<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">And casey<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">My own boxer babies<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Sitting under <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Our favorite<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><st1:city w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">Willow</span></st1:place></st1:city><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;"> tree<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">I miss you grandpa!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">© <st1:date day="22" month="1" w:st="on" year="2006">1-22-2006</st1:date> C.H.<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-86379134395678913342006-01-22T14:19:00.001-05:002010-11-09T14:20:09.246-05:00Poetry In Motion: Dreams<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Dreams<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Dreams<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Powerful dreams<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>Flood my mind<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>When I sleep<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>When I wake<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Dreams<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Are they true<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Are they real<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Dreams<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Secret windows<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Into my soul<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Deep within<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Dreams<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Is it a sin<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>For me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>To dream of you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>If they are not true<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>If they are not real<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Dream<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Just my imagination<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>Tell me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>Am I doomed<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 3;"> </span>To burn in hell<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 3;"> </span>Eternal damnation<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">© C.H.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993300; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-32371331792438744102006-01-21T14:17:00.001-05:002010-11-09T14:19:24.090-05:00Poetry In Motion: Down<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I’m sorry<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I let you down.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I don't know <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">What happened <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">With you and I.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">What started out<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">As something<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>wonderful<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>loving<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 3;"> </span>ever lasting<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 4;"> </span>strong<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 5;"> </span>and powerful<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">fell apart<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">without a sound<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">no warning<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">it just faded away<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">it left me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>alone<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>broken<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 3;"> </span>cold<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 4;"> </span>uncertain<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">hollow<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>down<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>down<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 3;"> </span>down<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">used<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>abused<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>scared<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 3;"> </span>lifeless<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 4;"> </span>useless<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 5;"> </span>blue<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>With you...I am through<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-51487260260980777582006-01-21T12:57:00.001-05:002010-11-10T12:58:20.050-05:00Poetry In Motion: Love Poem to Sean<div style="border-bottom: solid #D6D6E7 1.0pt; border: none; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid #D6D6E7 .75pt; mso-element: para-border-div; padding: 0in 0in 0in 0in;"> <div class="NormalWeb1" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid #D6D6E7 .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 0in 0in; padding: 0in;"><strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I don’t need to see you</span></strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="NormalWeb1" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid #D6D6E7 .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 0in 0in; padding: 0in;"><strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">to love you.</span></strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="NormalWeb1" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid #D6D6E7 .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 0in 0in; padding: 0in;"><strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I only need to know you're there.</span></strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="NormalWeb1" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid #D6D6E7 .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 0in 0in; padding: 0in;"><strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I don’t need to feel you,</span></strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="NormalWeb1" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid #D6D6E7 .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 0in 0in; padding: 0in;"><strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">To have you touch my heart.</span></strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="NormalWeb1" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid #D6D6E7 .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 0in 0in; padding: 0in;"><strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I only need to know you care.</span></strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="NormalWeb1" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid #D6D6E7 .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 0in 0in; padding: 0in;"><strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I don’t need to look into your eyes,</span></strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="NormalWeb1" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid #D6D6E7 .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 0in 0in; padding: 0in;"><strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">to believe that this is real.</span></strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="NormalWeb1" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid #D6D6E7 .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 0in 0in; padding: 0in;"><strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I only need to understand,</span></strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="NormalWeb1" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid #D6D6E7 .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 0in 0in; padding: 0in;"><strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">what you think and feel.</span></strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="NormalWeb1" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid #D6D6E7 .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 0in 0in; padding: 0in;"><strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Love is a feeling,</span></strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="NormalWeb1" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid #D6D6E7 .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 0in 0in; padding: 0in;"><strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">that cant be seen,</span></strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="NormalWeb1" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid #D6D6E7 .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 0in 0in; padding: 0in;"><strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">and even though ,</span></strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="NormalWeb1" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid #D6D6E7 .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 0in 0in; padding: 0in;"><strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I would love to have you here to hold,</span></strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="NormalWeb1" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid #D6D6E7 .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 0in 0in; padding: 0in;"><strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Just having you in my life, </span></strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="NormalWeb1" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid #D6D6E7 .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 0in 0in; padding: 0in;"><strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I have EVERYTHING ... </span></strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="NormalWeb1" style="border: none; mso-border-bottom-alt: solid #D6D6E7 .75pt; mso-padding-alt: 0in 0in 0in 0in; padding: 0in;"><strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I LOVE you!!!</span></strong><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><o:p></o:p></span></div></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-39424269185489288462006-01-20T14:06:00.000-05:002010-11-10T14:08:19.829-05:00Poetry In Motion: If I Died Today<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i849.photobucket.com/albums/ab51/heart_blood666/croosses.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="213" src="http://i849.photobucket.com/albums/ab51/heart_blood666/croosses.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">If I died today<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">would you care?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">If I died today<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">what truth<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;"> would you finally say?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">I AM SICK<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;"> sick of life<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;"> this life<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;"> I lead.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">If I died today<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">would you say:<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">I loved her,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">she was great?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">Or,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">would it be,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">Ah, who was she?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">If I died today<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">would you miss me so?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">Come to terms<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">with the awful blow?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">If I died today<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">would you say:<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">Good riddance <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">you awful wench!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">If I died today<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">would it be <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">my secrets<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">you shared?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">Because only <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">you know<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">how sick and tired<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">I am<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">and how bloody scared!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">© C.H. <st1:date day="20" month="1" w:st="on" year="2006">1/20/06</st1:date><o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-21451831811694648742006-01-19T14:52:00.002-05:002010-10-26T15:43:34.418-04:00Bruce Lloyd Mahan Sr~R.I.PJanuary 19, 2006<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><img height="333" src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/6caf.jpg?mgg7zHoCmsaeQ7i4" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px;" width="136" />R.I.P Grandpa</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><b>Original Yahoo 360 Comments:</b></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"></span></span></span><br /><div class="number-comment" style="float: left; font-size: 19px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span class="number">3</span> Comments</span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><select id="cmt-order" style="color: #636363; float: right; 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User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161132?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; 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Hugs.</div></div></li></ul></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-35840562931384282672006-01-19T14:25:00.001-05:002010-11-10T14:27:30.935-05:00Poetry In Motion: My Mask<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1139.photobucket.com/albums/n545/Angelic_Angelcake/Mask.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="193" src="http://i1139.photobucket.com/albums/n545/Angelic_Angelcake/Mask.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">We all<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">ware a mask<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">in some way<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">shape<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">or form.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Why<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">do we <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">do it?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">For with it,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">are we born?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I know<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I have many masks<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">of which<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">these needles<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">bring in the pain to stay<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">and the other<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">to which<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">dinking<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">takes the other pains <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">away.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">For this one thing <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I do say<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">are you up for the task<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">of removing my mask?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">© C.H. <st1:date day="19" month="1" w:st="on" year="2006">1/19/06</st1:date><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-86090178867030093142006-01-19T00:43:00.005-05:002010-10-26T15:36:56.971-04:00A Special World ~An Irish PoemJan. 19, 2006<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"></span><br /><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;"><img height="179" src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/44d6.jpg?mgg7zHoCMuoJE61n" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px;" width="260" /></div><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;">A Special World<br /><br /><br /><br />A special world for you and me<br /><br />A special bond one cannot see<br /><br />It wraps us up in its cocoon<br /><br />And holds us fiercely in its womb.<br /><br /><br /><br />Its fingers spread like fine spun gold<br /><br />Gently nestling us to the fold<br /><br />Like silken thread it holds us fast<br /><br />Bonds like this are meant to last.<br /><br /><br /><br />And though at times a thread may break<br /><br />A new one forms in its wake<br /><br />To bind us closer and keep us strong<br /><br />In a special world, where we belong.<br /><br /><br /><br />- Sheelagh Lennon -</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><b>Original Yahoo 360 Comments:</b></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a0a0a0; 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User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161134?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">01/19/2006 07:46 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">It really touched me Crystal!</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297035" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161134?listPage=index" id="ucard3" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161134?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">01/19/2006 05:55 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Beautiful!</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297036" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161134?listPage=index" id="ucard4" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161134?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">01/19/2006 05:13 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">very beautiful. you going to ireland??? spike q</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297037" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161134?listPage=index" id="ucard5" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161134?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">01/19/2006 01:25 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Lovely poem...I am not sure Ireland could handle me and you!!! I can't wait to go....luv ya and I hope you're feeling better sis.</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297038" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item last" style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161134?listPage=index" id="ucard6" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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hmmm... wana get drunk? lol</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297039" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li></ul></div></div><div class="ft pag" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: #f8f8f8; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; border-top-color: rgb(233, 233, 233); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 1px; color: #a0a0a0; font-size: 12px; height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 10px; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; position: relative; zoom: 1;"><a class="mkcmt" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161134?listPage=index#ygubcmt" style="color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: left; font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;">Leave a comment...</a><div><br /></div><div class="pagination go" style="float: right; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; position: absolute; right: 10px;"></div></div></span></div><div class="toolbar clrfix" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; line-height: 0.9; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 15px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><ul style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"></ul></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-40522057541578282262006-01-18T14:47:00.002-05:002010-11-10T14:48:14.399-05:00Note<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">NOTE: Another Semester Has Started and I will not have time to blog hop daily, nor will I be able to comment daily. But, those that know me best know I try hard to keep up with making the rounds. I will post as much as time allows, and you can still expect at least a blog every day or so from me. Even if it’s crappy. LOL<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I am sorry I have not been around to comment since coming back from gramps funeral. Once I was back, I was slapped in the face with some stupid damn illness. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">For one I was having medication withdrawals (BRETT…where is my stuff damnit? You promised…..)<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">And for two…I was just plain unexplainable ill…….<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Well, I am getting a little better…but now my nose has to go be stuck in them college books…. Whose damn idea was it to put me back in college anyway????? <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Now then, I must go rejoin Elonna in a drink..as we all gather together for Joey. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Peace out peeps…<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-32452545381492499062006-01-18T12:38:00.002-05:002010-11-10T12:39:42.699-05:00Poetry In Motion: Hold Me<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">My Darling<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">can you hear me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">crying out your name<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">screaming into the night?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I want hold you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">need to hold you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">in my arms.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I beg you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">hold me tight<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">for it feels so right.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">My Love<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">never let me go<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">for we <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">will never know<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">what is meant to be.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I am here for you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">and you for me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 20.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">© C.H. <st1:date day="18" month="1" w:st="on" year="2006">1/18/06</st1:date><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-26956935980639549492006-01-15T16:20:00.000-05:002010-11-10T16:23:14.953-05:00Poetry In Motion: Why Me?<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;">Why Me?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;"> What did I do to deserve this?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;"> I treat everyone<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;"> With love<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;"> Kindness <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;"> And respect<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;">I am a good person<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;"> Good heart<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;"> Good mind<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;"> Good soul<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;">I try to be good<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;"> To be a friend.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;">For my friends<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;">I cherish<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;"> Until the end.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;">All it took <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;"> Was for me to let <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;"> My guard down once<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;"> Someone took that<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;"> Preyed on that<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;"> Twisted it <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;"> Used it<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;"> And killed me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;">I died.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;"> There was my end.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;">And here I am<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;"> Reborn<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;"> And left<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;"> torn<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Harrington; font-size: 18pt;">C.H. 1/15/06</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-37416092276606281542006-01-15T10:16:00.002-05:002010-11-09T14:07:21.393-05:00Poetry In Motion: Cry Out<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I miss you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">My heart<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">My soul<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">My love<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">My best friend<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">What ever it is you’re going through<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I am here<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Until the end<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Your friend<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I am crying out to you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Please don't leave me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Alone<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Cold <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Blue<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Crying<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Tell me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">This isn’t<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">The end<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Where are you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Can you hear me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Calling your name<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Into the night<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I am worried about you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Wondering<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Crying<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Hoping<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Praying<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Dying<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Inside<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Wondering<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">If you’re safe<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">And will meet me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Back at our special place<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I am mad<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I am still hurt<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I can not forget<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">But my heart<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">In time<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Can forgive<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">You let me live<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">As me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">And with you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Is where<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I want to be<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Then<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Now <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Forever<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Never<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Again<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Will I listen to others<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Who prey on hurting hearts<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Those the put thoughts<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">In others heads<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Nothing has changed<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">My dearest friend<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Its you I want<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Through thick and thin<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Together for us<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Until the end<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">©C.H.<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-90444440816321517882006-01-14T12:56:00.001-05:002010-11-10T12:57:24.939-05:00Poetry In Motion: Marcus, Let Me Go<div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: x-large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 21px;"></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: x-large;"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">How can I make you understand<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: x-large;"> <div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I want to be the person that I am<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Why can’t you see<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I just want to be me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I try to leave<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">But you just <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Suck me right back in<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">There is a side to me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">You may not know<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Or choose to ignore<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I have to go<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Walk out that door<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I am a scared little girl<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Buried deep within<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Will I know which direction to follow<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">The right path to take<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">And even if I wanted to<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Could I<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Should I<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Would I<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Fact is<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I don't know<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I need to<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Find me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I know who I am<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Who I should be<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">It’s too much<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Those feelings too great<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">But if I don't change now<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">It could be too late<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Do I continue the path<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I am walking down<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Or to I make a 360<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">And turn around<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Set me free<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I need to you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Let me go<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">This is something<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I must do<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">A part of me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">I need to know<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">©C.H.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-71894873906670317832006-01-12T14:59:00.000-05:002010-11-10T15:00:43.555-05:00Angry: Pissed of Master<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Gungsuh","serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">Disclaimer…warning…I am pissed off and mad as hell…if you don't want to hear my Irish temper go up in flames, then I suggest you step off my blog and land somewhere else. <o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-82156498897590222212006-01-12T14:36:00.009-05:002010-11-09T14:40:55.373-05:00for MasterDue to the adult nature of this blog story, you can find it on my Erotic Confessions Blog. Click the link below.<br /><br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: xx-large;"><a href="http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/2006/01/for-master.html"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47;">Erotic Confessions: for Master</span></a></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-59122442020825216322006-01-11T14:08:00.003-05:002010-11-05T14:14:58.711-04:00Poetry In Motion: Abuse Me<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Hurt me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Whip me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Spank me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Abuse me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Just don't<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Use me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Love me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Need me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Want me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Adore me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Just don't<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Ignore me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Tease me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Please me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Just don't<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">Leave me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Castellar","serif"; font-size: 16.0pt;">© C.H. 2006<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-23783168897397468942006-01-10T16:27:00.000-05:002010-11-10T16:28:56.873-05:00Poetry In Motion: Your Fool<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">You just walked into my life<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">All confident and cool<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">You promised you would not<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">Ever leave me alone and feeling blue<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">I can’t hear you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">What did you say?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">I am positive<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">It’s just with my heart<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">You want to play<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">You did<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">Exactly what you said<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">You would not do.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">Get out of my life<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">Leave me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">I will no longer be<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">Your fool.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 18pt;">© C.H.<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-71305856583711612222006-01-09T14:56:00.003-05:002010-10-26T15:39:52.525-04:00~I'm Back!!!! My Story~~<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">January 9, 2006</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><img height="132" src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/c188.jpg?mgg7zHoCenJXY1Mq" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px;" width="333" /></span><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Hello Everyone! I made it back safe and sound. Thanks to all of you that sent your prayers and well wishes my way. It really means a lot to me. It amazed me the outpouring of so much love.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">I see that I have lots of blogs to catch up on. But, first I have to say one thing…..for those of you who tagged my ass while I was away (you know who you are) you all can bite my ass! I was away at a funeral, I got immunity damn it! The tribal council has spoken; we took a vote without you. Because I am so behind, and have so many tags, I am gonna skip this round. Yup, the brat is back.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Moving on...</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">We left Thursday morning at </span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">8am</span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;"> we drove right on through arriving in</span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Michigan</span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;"> at </span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">3am</span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;"> Friday morning. Pulled into my aunt’s house, mom was there, said hi and went right to bed. We were woke up at </span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">7:30am</span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;"> because my cousin, his wife and his 2 kids were on the way over. So, Marcus and I hit the showers and got ready. Off to grandma’s house we go. We were there for a few hours, and then at </span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">1pm</span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;"> we all went to the funeral home for the viewing. Nothing in my life could have ever prepared me for that. I have been to one funeral in my life and that was just last year for Marcus great aunt. It was open casket and it bothered me, but since I didn’t know her, I handled it well. But, this was different. This was my grandpa. I could not go into that room with him in the casket. I sat out in the waiting area for a good hour just crying, begging God for the strength to walk in there. Finally my two cousins we are more like my brothers, showed up. We hugged. And together, the 3 of us were able to walk in with my husband and their wives behind us. Once I was in the same room with grandpa it still took me a long time before I could really look at him. All around the room were pictures and significant items for all of us to talk about. In time I was able to make it to the casket. And there, was grandpa in is favorite Kelly Green cardigan from </span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Ireland</span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">. Pinned to him were his military wings and awards. He wore his wedding ring, and his million mile ring for driving millions of miles accident free for the trucking company and union he was involved with. There was an Irish Santa in there with him, a picture of the entire family, and the Shalaylie. For those of you that don't know what a shalaylie is, lets just say its an Irish thing, and I will explain it another time. This particular one came from his mother, when she was living in </span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Ireland</span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">. She brought it to </span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">America</span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;"> with her. He was not buried with it, as it was passed down to my aunt. But, it stayed with him in the casket until the very last minute. My grandpa was a avid baseball player. So many of his uniforms and jackets were showcased as well as pictures and newspaper articles. We stayed at this viewing talking to friends and family until </span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">8pm</span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;"> or so. Then we all went to the bar for a drink. We all had the same drink, grandpa’s favorite. Kessler’s Irish whisky and water. Marcus as I left, as we were beyond tired. Went to grandma’s house. And I just put my butt in grandpa’s chair and just sat there in silence, talking in my head. Just remembering all that I could. I could still smell him it that chair, I could still feel his presence in that house. About 10 or so the rest of my family showed up, mom, uncles, grandma so me and Marcus went on to my aunts house to try and get some sleep. We were not able to get much. Up again the next morning about 7 had to be up and ready to go and at the funeral home by 10am. The funeral started at </span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">11am</span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">. My cousin and his wife and girls showed up. Her dad shortly after to watch the girls.<span> </span>Its just about </span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">10am</span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;"> and we are leaving. And, its starting to snow storm, bad. We stop at the gas station and hit the road. My cousin was behind us and then passed us. We assumed he was leading the way.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">And here is where my story takes a nasty little turn. You see, us okies, we don't get much snow. But, we were here in </span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Michigan</span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;"> last Christmas with snow up to my waste. Drove around with no problems. In OK we get frozen rain and ice. You play hookie or something and don't drive on the ice unless you have to. And, in my case, mostly always have to. So, we figured cousin was in front of us going at least 60mph we should be ok, he knows what he is doing. Well, he starts to slow down a bit cause there is a car up ahead with its 4 ways on. Marcus starts to slow, hits a patch of ice, and its near death we experience. We started to spin out of control, into the on coming lane, back over to our lane, back to the other side, over and over again, making about 5 full circles and figure 8’s. We do not know how we made it away without a scratch, without someone hitting us or us plowing <span> </span>into them. We ended up ass end first into a ditch on the side of the road miles up from where we started to spin. Right directly across from us on the other side of the road was 2 girls in a SUV that was flipped over. We had to sit in my SUV until a tow truck could get us out. I had called my mom on the cell to let her know what happened. My cousin showed up talking about what he saw and had no clue that it was us.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">We got out, and made it to the funeral, 30 minutes late. They waited for us. I am so thankful for that. This was something we should not have walked away from. I know there was an angel on my shoulder that day, named Grandpa.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">The funeral was a beautiful service. A few military salute. And, they played Irish Eyes Are Smiling. Of course, I don't think I stopped crying the whole time I was there.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">After the funeral the family went to the cemetery for the burial, and then we all met the friends at a place called Gracie’s, which was grandpa’s fave place to eat. There was sat for hours, talking and having good food and drinks. Spent a few hours there, then all us family went back to grandparents house for more drinks and to tell stories. Of course, Marcus and I were the running joke by this time. Don't let the okies drive; they don't know what they are doing. My cousin dubbed us the “Ditch Bombers” and even my grandmother got in on the joke cracking. And, I know I heard my grandfather laughing as well. I wish we could of stayed longer, but we had to start heading back this way. So, we said our goodbyes, and headed back out.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">We drove until about </span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">11pm</span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;"> stopping in </span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Iowa</span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">. Got up and headed out making it home last night about </span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">6ish</span><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">. Said hello to a few of you, checking in. And now, here I am today.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Got my enrollment for school and ordered my books, all taken care of. Caught up on some rest. Back to work tomorrow. Not really wanting to. Something I did learn while being home, my life is to short to put up with a bunch of shit that doesn’t make me happy. And working for that woman doesn’t make me happy at all. So, onward and upward in life.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">I Love You ALL!! Thanks again for all your kind words and support!</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-76392906737540514292006-01-04T16:12:00.000-05:002010-11-10T16:14:08.749-05:00Poetry In Motion: Tired<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/Blood/Blood___Colored_Version_by_HisN.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="213" src="http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g197/theokirishchik/Darkness%20Falls/Blood/Blood___Colored_Version_by_HisN.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Tired<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Tired of the games<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Tired<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">The rules always change<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Tired<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Can’t stand it<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Can’t stand you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">The way you look at me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Drives me insane<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Just saying your name<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Shoots pain<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Up my spine<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">You invade<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">My mind<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I’d rather die<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Then be without you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">But, right now<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">All I can say <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>IS<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">F*ck you!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">How dare you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Treat me this way<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Tired<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Its over<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I am through<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">With you.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">©C.H.<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-84704947477796182452006-01-03T22:58:00.004-05:002010-10-26T15:47:12.758-04:00He's Passed AwayJanuary 3, 2006<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"></span><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Grandpa has passed away.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Thank you ALL for your prayers and well wishes.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">~CHRYSTAL~</div><br /><br /><b>Original Yahoo 360 Comments:</b><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161131?listPage=index" id="ucard2" style="color: #4f93df; 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Here I dwell with God above.<br />Here, there’s no more tears of sadness; Here is just eternal love.<br /><br />Please do not be unhappy just because I’m out of sight.<br />Remember that I am with you every morning, noon and night.<br /><br />That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through.<br />God picked me up and hugged me and He said, “I welcome you.<br /><br />It’s good to have you back again, you were missed while you were gone.<br />As for your dearest family, They’ll be here later on.<br /><br />I need you here so badly, you are part of my plan.<br />There is so much that we can do, to help our mortal man.”<br /><br />God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do.<br />And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.<br /><br />And when you lie in bed at night the day’s chores put to flight.<br />God and I are closest to you....in the middle of the night.<br /><br />When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years.<br />Because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.<br /><br />But do not be afraid to cry; it does relieve the pain.<br />Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.<br /><br />I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned.<br />If I were to tell you,.. you wouldn’t understand.<br /><br />But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is o’er.<br />I’m closer to you now, than I ever was before.<br /><br />There are rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb;<br />But together we can do it by taking one day at a time.<br /><br />It was always my philosophy and I’d like it for you too;<br />That as you give unto the world, the world will give to you.<br /><br />If you can help somebody who is in sorrow and pain;<br />Then you can say to God at night....”My day was not in vain.<br /><br />And now I am contented... that my life was worthwhile.<br />Knowing as I passed along the way I made somebody smile.<br /><br />So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low;<br />Just lend a hand to pick them up, as on your way you go.<br /><br />When you’re walking down the street and you’ve got me on your mind;<br />I’m walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.<br /><br />And when it’s time for you to go....from that body to be free.<br />Remember you’re not going...you’re coming here to me.<br /><br /></div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296994" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); 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I will pray for you and your grandfather and that God will wrap his love and angels all around your grandfather and to keep him safe and not in so much pain..............I will keep all of you in my heart and prayers., Ilove ya sweetie!!!! Be safe and will all say a little prayer.,<br />My heart goes out to you & your family. Your grandfather is up in heaven next to Jesus.........He is in no pain and is safe & extremely happy.......<br />He will always be with you in your heart & mind & all those wonderful Memories the two of you shared...........</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296995" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161131?listPage=index" id="ucard6" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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He is very ill with cancer and may not live long.<br /><br />Crystal is at her wits end, and we can all recall a time when we have been in her shoes.............<br /><br />Please leave her a little note that she & her grandfather are in your prayers on her blog, or a message.....If she does not reply, it means she's flown out to where he is in the Hospital and is by his side...............<br /><br />Thank you my Awesome Fabulous 360 Fun loving Friends</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296996" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161131?listPage=index" id="ucard7" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161131?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">01/05/2006 09:36 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">He and you are in my prayers as well. Take care.</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296998" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161131?listPage=index" id="ucard9" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161131?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">01/04/2006 10:37 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Just dropped in to check you out...<br />You don't know me, but my I add my own 2 cents<br />To the list of condolences....<br /><br />Sorrow for your pain<br />Cheering for his gain<br />We'll go 'round again.<br /><br />Take care of yourself, have a safe trip there and back.</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296999" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); 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User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161131?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">01/04/2006 04:41 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">I hope he will live on in your heart...... take care.</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=297001" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a></div></li></ul>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-58493551619453752572006-01-03T19:22:00.002-05:002010-10-26T15:49:30.164-04:00~~~UPDATE on Grandpa~~~January 3, 2006<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"></span><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Hey guys....I just got word that my grandfather is prolly not gonna make it through the night. I am pretty sure I will be heading out for Michigan tomorrow. Which means I will be MIA for a bit.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Thank you all who sent your prayers and well wishes.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Talk to you all very soon.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">~Chrystal~</div><br /><br /><b>Original Yahoo 360 Comments:</b><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"></span><br /><div class="number-comment" style="float: left; font-size: 19px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span class="number">7</span> Comments</div><select id="cmt-order" style="color: #636363; float: right; font-family: inherit; font-size: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: 400; font: normal normal normal 99%/normal arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px;"><option style="font-family: inherit; font-size: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit;" value="DESC">Latest comments</option><option style="font-family: inherit; font-size: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit;" value="ASC">Oldest comments</option></select><ul class="landing-new-cmt" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"></ul><ul class="ypf-usercards" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><li class="comment-item first" style="border-top-color: initial; border-top-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161130?listPage=index" id="ucard2" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161130?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">01/06/2006 10:11 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">A LETTER FROM HEAVEN<br /><br />To my dearest family, some things I’d like to say.<br />But first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.<br /><br />I’m writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above.<br />Here, there’s no more tears of sadness; Here is just eternal love.<br /><br />Please do not be unhappy just because I’m out of sight.<br />Remember that I am with you every morning, noon and night.<br /><br />That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through.<br />God picked me up and hugged me and He said, “I welcome you.<br /><br />It’s good to have you back again, you were missed while you were gone.<br />As for your dearest family, They’ll be here later on.<br /><br />I need you here so badly, you are part of my plan.<br />There is so much that we can do, to help our mortal man.”<br /><br />God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do.<br />And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.<br /><br />And when you lie in bed at night the day’s chores put to flight.<br />God and I are closest to you....in the middle of the night.<br /><br />When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years.<br />Because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.<br /><br />But do not be afraid to cry; it does relieve the pain.<br />Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.<br /><br />I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned.<br />If I were to tell you,.. you wouldn’t understand.<br /><br />But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is o’er.<br />I’m closer to you now, than I ever was before.<br /><br />There are rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb;<br />But together we can do it by taking one day at a time.<br /><br />It was always my philosophy and I’d like it for you too;<br />That as you give unto the world, the world will give to you.<br /><br />If you can help somebody who is in sorrow and pain;<br />Then you can say to God at night....”My day was not in vain.<br /><br />And now I am contented... that my life was worthwhile.<br />Knowing as I passed along the way I made somebody smile.<br /><br />So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low;<br />Just lend a hand to pick them up, as on your way you go.<br /><br />When you’re walking down the street and you’ve got me on your mind;<br />I’m walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.<br /><br />And when it’s time for you to go....from that body to be free.<br />Remember you’re not going...you’re coming here to me.<br /><br /></div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296985" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); 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User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161130?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">01/03/2006 09:43 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Chrystal, my prayers are with you and your family. Hugs.</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296986" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161130?listPage=index" id="ucard4" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161130?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">01/03/2006 08:36 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Oh C, I wish I could be there for you. I am here if you need anything....I love you sis. Please take care. God bless you and your family.<br />Mel</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296987" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161130?listPage=index" id="ucard5" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161130?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">01/03/2006 08:10 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Aww sweetie...my thoughts and prayers will be with you and your family. Praying that his passing is peaceful. Much love and huge supportive hugs!!!!!!!!!!<br /><br />Love ya sis<br />~M Kay~</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296988" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161130?listPage=index" id="ucard6" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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I'll keep you in my thoughts.<br /><br />Carol</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296990" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item last" style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161130?listPage=index" id="ucard8" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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My thoughts will be with you and him.</div></div></li></ul>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-51320690568201742482006-01-03T11:48:00.002-05:002010-10-26T15:51:31.822-04:00FYI - My GrandfatherJanuary 3, 2006<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"></span><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Just a quick note to let you all know what is going on and why I have been so moody these last few days. As many of you know...my grandfather has been battling cancer for the last 2 years. This past Friday he was admitted to the hopital because he was having difficulty breathing and coughing up blood. The specialist came in today. His lungs are collapsing , there is a lot of damage and basically there is nothing they can do. So, they are hooking him up to an IV drip and morphine to make him comfortable. They dont know how long he has, but basically he is suffocating to death. So, forgive me for being moody, and if I have to fly out and am not around for a few days, you know why.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><b>Original Yahoo 360 Comments:</b></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"></span></div><div class="number-comment" style="float: left; font-size: 19px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span class="number">8</span> Comments</div><select id="cmt-order" style="color: #636363; float: right; font-family: inherit; font-size: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: 400; font: normal normal normal 99%/normal arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px;"><option style="font-family: inherit; font-size: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit;" value="DESC">Latest comments</option><option style="font-family: inherit; font-size: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit;" value="ASC">Oldest comments</option></select><ul class="landing-new-cmt" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"></ul><ul class="ypf-usercards" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><li class="comment-item first" style="border-top-color: initial; border-top-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161129?listPage=index" id="ucard2" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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I love you and I will be praying for you. Please let me know if I can do anything...</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296977" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161129?listPage=index" id="ucard3" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">01/03/2006 01:07 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Been there, take care of yourself - we'll be here when you get back.</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296979" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; 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User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161129?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">01/03/2006 12:40 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">i feel for you girl. my heart and are with you and your family.</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296980" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); 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cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161129?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">01/03/2006 12:13 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">My dad was hooked up to morphine and taked off food and water to allow him to die. With that he he died of thirst and/or starved to death. He was brain dead, so he had no idea what was going on, which was a good thing.</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296981" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161129?listPage=index" id="ucard7" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161129?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">01/03/2006 12:11 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Sorry to hear, C. Prayers are with you, and I understand. Spend what time you can with him and the rest of the family. Call on me if I can help in ANY way, my friend...</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296982" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161129?listPage=index" id="ucard8" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161129?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">01/03/2006 12:10 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">I pray he does not suffer long and you and your family are well.</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296983" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; 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border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161129?listPage=index" id="ucard9" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161129?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">01/03/2006 12:00 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">My prayers are with you and Your Grandfather.<br />Strength dear friend...<br />I saw my grandparents last weekend in my hometown, they are all over 80 and LOVE is what we can give them<br />Cheers</div></div></li></ul>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-3202461948806084322006-01-02T13:05:00.000-05:002010-11-10T13:06:04.702-05:00Poetry In Motion: Lies<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Hate consumes me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Deep within<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Deep inside<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">All because of<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">LIES<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">That you told me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">LIES<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">That I was blinded by<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">LIES<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">That I could not see<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">LIES<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">No more<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">LIES<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">No longer can I try<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">No longer can I cry<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">All because of<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">LIES<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">C.H.</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-24532398136751735702006-01-02T12:54:00.001-05:002010-11-10T12:54:58.453-05:00Poetry In Motion: I Am Drowing<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I am drowning<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Drowning in a pool<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>A pool of tears<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>Never ending stream<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I lay in bed<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Close my eyes to sleep<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>And there you stand<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>In front of me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">You wanna take me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Away from this<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>MADNESS<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I have to go<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Go away my dear<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I can’t stay<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Stay here<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>ANYMORE<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I want to escape<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Run away<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>HIDE<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Burry everything deep<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Inside<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Where no one can find<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Not even I can see<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>That deep inside of me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">©C.H.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">What is the meaning of “true love”?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 18.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Do any of us really know?<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-75737193337400553032006-01-01T13:55:00.001-05:002010-11-05T14:07:52.635-04:0010 Things to Say<div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><em><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif";">Ok, today is let’s be unoriginal for once and borrow someone else’s blog idea. So my friend Maire, I have you to thank for this, oh, and well even though Patrick is only on 360 and not here, I will thank him too. <o:p></o:p></span></em></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><em><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif";">The Rules:</span></em><span style="color: black; font-family: "Lucida Sans","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><em><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif";">List 10 things you have always wanted to say to 10 different people </span></em><strong><i><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif";">(Edit: NOT necessarily on the MySpace friends list)</span></i></strong><em><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif";">. Do not admit to anyone who the things pertain to. Feel free to comment, but do not confirm or answer who people think you are talking about. Never discuss it again! <o:p></o:p></span></em></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .75in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5.0pt; mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; tab-stops: list .75in; text-indent: -.25in;"><!--[if !supportLists]--><em><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Georgia; mso-fareast-font-family: Georgia;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">1.<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span></em><!--[endif]--><em><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif";">I am thankful for the time that we have had together. I am sorry that it was short lived and if I could take it back and do things differently I would change it all. And maybe you would still be here.<o:p></o:p></span></em></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .75in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5.0pt; mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; tab-stops: list .75in; text-indent: -.25in;"><!--[if !supportLists]--><em><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Georgia; mso-fareast-font-family: Georgia;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">2.<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span></em><!--[endif]--><em><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif";">I am still trying to figure out how we crossed paths. We have absolutely nothing in common, but yet, here we are. We bump heads everyday. But yet neither can seem to part from the other. And I just want to know why. Why are you still here? It’s like we are sucked in and can’t walk away.<o:p></o:p></span></em></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .75in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5.0pt; mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; tab-stops: list .75in; text-indent: -.25in;"><!--[if !supportLists]--><em><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Georgia; mso-fareast-font-family: Georgia;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">3.<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span></em><!--[endif]--><em><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif";">We have known each other since we were kids. And when you were going through one of the roughest times in your life, I wasn’t there. I just want to say I am sorry. That I know we will always work through everything. But, I feel so guilty this time that I do not know if I can ever forgive myself for not being there. <o:p></o:p></span></em></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .75in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5.0pt; mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; tab-stops: list .75in; text-indent: -.25in;"><!--[if !supportLists]--><em><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Georgia; mso-fareast-font-family: Georgia;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">4.<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span></em><!--[endif]--><em><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif";">You’ve got to wake up. Stop being blinded by every guy who tells you they love you when they have only known you a day or two. They don't mean it. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Once you stop believing all that you might just see the beautiful person that does live inside of you. One that is worthy of a great guy and worthy of their one true love. <o:p></o:p></span></em></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .75in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5.0pt; mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; tab-stops: list .75in; text-indent: -.25in;"><!--[if !supportLists]--><em><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Georgia; mso-fareast-font-family: Georgia;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">5.<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span></em><!--[endif]--><em><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif";">If I could take you out of your world and put you in a better one I would.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And if I could give you everything to make your world better, I would. <o:p></o:p></span></em></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .75in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5.0pt; mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; tab-stops: list .75in; text-indent: -.25in;"><!--[if !supportLists]--><em><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Georgia; mso-fareast-font-family: Georgia;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">6.<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span></em><!--[endif]--><em><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif";">You are just simply amazing. <o:p></o:p></span></em></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .75in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5.0pt; mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; tab-stops: list .75in; text-indent: -.25in;"><!--[if !supportLists]--><em><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Georgia; mso-fareast-font-family: Georgia;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">7.<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span></em><!--[endif]--><em><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif";">How many times are you going to walk out of my life and try to come back in? I hear you out there knocking again. Don't you think there is a reason as to why you are still knocking?<o:p></o:p></span></em></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .75in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5.0pt; mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; tab-stops: list .75in; text-indent: -.25in;"><!--[if !supportLists]--><em><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Georgia; mso-fareast-font-family: Georgia;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">8.<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span></em><!--[endif]--><em><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif";">I don’t think I will ever understand you. Maybe I should just stop trying to. Things would be better off. <o:p></o:p></span></em></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .75in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5.0pt; mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; tab-stops: list .75in; text-indent: -.25in;"><!--[if !supportLists]--><em><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Georgia; mso-fareast-font-family: Georgia;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">9.<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span></em><!--[endif]--><em><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif";">Walk away. Just turn around and walk away. It would be best if you ran.<o:p></o:p></span></em></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .75in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5.0pt; mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; tab-stops: list .75in; text-indent: -.25in;"><!--[if !supportLists]--><em><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: Georgia; mso-fareast-font-family: Georgia;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">10.<span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span></em><!--[endif]--><em><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif";"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I do love you. I know you question that. I know you think the things I do are bad and questionable. Maybe they are to you, but they are not to me. I just wish you would take a minute to try to understand me instead of always walking away. <o:p></o:p></span></em></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 5.0pt; margin-left: .5in; margin-right: 18.75pt; margin-top: 5.0pt;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-29157120960784794212005-12-31T13:04:00.002-05:002010-11-05T13:07:20.002-04:00As the Year Draws to an End<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">As the year draws to an end……<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">And so we bring this year to a close, I am sitting here pondering over things that maybe don't require that much attention. I am sure I have other thoughts that need some tending to, but those can wait for the time being. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">It has been an amazing year, a year I will never soon forget. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Defiantly a year of ups and downs, but it was also a year for growing. A year of no regrets. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">In a day the year will be over, behind us, gone, finished, the end. Never to return. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">On this same day, this last day of 2005, I also celebrate my 3<sup>rd</sup> year of wedded bliss, of holy matrimony. 8 total years of togetherness. Can you hear the excitement flowing through my voice? What’s wrong with me, why am I not excited? <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">This forces me to deal with the issues at hand. Things I don't want to deal with. Don’t want to admit. Don't want to face. I would rather just push it all under the rug and forget about it. Turn my back and run away from it. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Yes, there is something wrong. Something is missing. I guess something is not right. And I have to deal with that. I am now ready to try and deal with that. I have been running away from it for a very long time. I am scared of the dark path I have started to travel down. But I am even more afraid of starting down the correct path.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I am angry. I am bitter. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">It's easier to run<br />Replacing this pain with something numb<br />It's so much easier to go<br />Than face all this pain here all alone<br /><br />Something has been taken from deep inside of me<br />The secret I've kept locked away no one can ever see<br />Wounds so deep they never show they never go away<br />Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played<br /><br />(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)<br />(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)<br />(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)<br />(If I could take all the shame to the grave I would)<br />(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)<br />(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)<br />(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)<br />(I would take all my shame to the grave)<br /><br /><i>[Chorus]</i><br />It's easier to run<br />Replacing this pain with something numb<br />It's so much easier to go<br />Than face all this pain here all alone<br /><br />Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past<br />Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have<br />Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back<br />And never moving forward so there'd never be a past<br /><br />(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)<br />(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)<br />(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)<br />(If I could take all the shame to the grave I would)<br />(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)<br />(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)<br />(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)<br />(I would take all my shame to the grave)<br /><br />Just washing it aside<br />All of the helplessness inside<br />Pretending I don't feel misplaced<br />It's so much simpler than change<br /><br /><i>[Chorus]</i><br />It's easier to run<br />Replacing this pain with something numb<br />It's so much easier to go<br />Than face all this pain here all alone<br /><br />It's easier to run<br />(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)<br />(Retrace every wrong move that I made)<br />It's easier to go<br />(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)<br />(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)<br />(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)<br />(I would take all my shame to the grave)<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">These words, Easier to Run by <st1:place w:st="on"><st1:placename w:st="on">Linkin</st1:placename> <st1:placetype w:st="on">Park</st1:placetype></st1:place>, really bring some truth to how I am feeling. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">This year I remembered who I was and what I am about. I have found me again. I am slowly being me again. It has been a long rediscovery process. That girl was gone for so long, so far buried that it was hard to find her and dig her up. The things that I am about will carry over into the New Year as I continue back down the right path to me. The mean I really am, the me I deserve to be. The me I can be proud of, the me I can love. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I am tired. Drained emotionally. I can no longer live my life for someone else, keep changing for someone else, and be someone I am not. I have to live my life for me, and it is now or never. I have dreams, things I want to do, things that I gave up on because I didn’t think I was good enough, or I worried too much about what others may think. And for some things I was just too damn scared to even try.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And now I want to think about me, I need to think about me, work on me, and try to do the things I have always wanted to do. I have to know if I can do it; know for myself if it can be achieved. I can no longer worry about whether people understand me or not. Cannot worry about approvals. I have to be able to love me. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I have made peace with myself and it is time to move on. I do not know the path that 2006 is gonna take me on. I am sure it will be a very bumpy path. But, I am prepared to deal with it. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">These words to “Fighter” by Christina Aguilera really are hitting home with me right now. As I sit here listening to these words over and over as I work on this blog, it has hit me...reality...and I can not run anymore. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><pre style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">'Cause it makes me that much stronger<o:p></o:p></span></pre><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Makes me work a little bit harder<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">It makes me that much wiser<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">So thanks for making me a fighter<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Made me learn a little bit faster<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Made my skin a little bit thicker<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Makes me that much smarter<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">So thanks for making me a fighter<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Oh, ohh<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Never, saw it coming<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">All of, your backstabbing<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Just so, you could cash in<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">On a good thing before I realized your game<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I heard, you're going around<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Playing, the victim now<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">But don't, even begin<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Feeling I'm the one to blame<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">'Cause you dug your own grave, uh huh<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">After all of the fights and the lies<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Yes you wanted to harm me but that won't work anymore<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Uh, no more, oh no, it's over<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I wouldn't know how to be this way now, and never back down<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">So I wanna say thank you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">'Cause it makes me that much stronger<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Makes me work a little bit harder<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Makes me that much wiser<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">So thanks for making me a fighter<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Made me learn a little bit faster<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Made my skin a little bit thicker<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">It makes me that much smarter<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="tab-stops: 45.8pt 91.6pt 137.4pt 183.2pt 229.0pt 274.8pt 320.6pt 366.4pt 412.2pt 458.0pt 503.8pt 549.6pt 595.4pt 641.2pt 687.0pt 732.8pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; mso-bidi-font-family: "Courier New"; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">So thanks for making me a fighter<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: magenta; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">QUESTION: What are some things you are leaving behind in 2005 and what are you looking forward to in 2006??<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-33575648296968096722005-12-28T17:33:00.003-05:002010-10-26T15:53:58.127-04:00What Will You Do, Love?December 28, 2005<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"></span><br /><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;"><img height="250" src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/d83b.jpg?mgg7zHoCCbfOciVO" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px;" width="333" /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">What Will You Do, Love?</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">BY: Samuel Lover</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">What will you do, love,</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">When I am going,</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">With white sail flowing,</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">The seas beyond? –</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">What will you do, love,</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">When waves divide us,</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">And friends may chide us</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">For being fond?</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Though waves divide us, and</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Friends be chiding,</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">In faith abiding,</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">I’ll still be true!</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">And I’ll pray for thee on the</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Stormy ocean,</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">In deep devotion –</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">That’s what I’ll do!</span></div><div><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;"><br /></span></div><div><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Original Yahoo 360 Comments:</span></div><div><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; 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I just love reading your blogs, they absolutely take my breath away!!!! Now if I can only find a nice gentleman who can almost make me feel sooooooooo gooooooooooooooood as ya do in your words, I'd be set for life.........Hope you and your loved ones had a safe & happy Kissmas. Let's talk soooon. Love ya, hugs & kisses</div></div></li></ul></span></span></div></div><div class="toolbar clrfix" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; line-height: 0.9; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 15px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><ul style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"></ul></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-86713252672857060082005-12-28T17:32:00.002-05:002010-10-26T15:55:46.812-04:00Irish Drinking SongDecember 28, 2005<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><img height="225" src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/c22f.jpg?mgg7zHoCVlAKK7t8" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; 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margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Here’s to the widow of fifty;</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Here’s to the<span> </span>flaunting extravagant queen,</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">And here’s to the housewife that’s thrifty:</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">CHORUS:</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Let the toast pass,</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Drink to the lass,</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">I’ll warrant she’ll prove an excuse for the glass.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; 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I love it! Cheers!</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296970" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161127?listPage=index" id="ucard3" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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Everytime I try to sing while drinking - I choke.</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296971" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item last" style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161127?listPage=index" id="ucard4" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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Not because it’s dreary-nothing in scenic </span><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 20pt;">Ireland</span><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 20pt;"> could be-but because you have to talk in whispers there. What could be more cruel for a nation blessed with the gift of gab!! Some might even call it “hell.”</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 20pt;"><span> </span>Lorraine O’Donnell William (describing a <span> </span></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 20pt;"><span> </span>Monastry in Donegal)</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 20pt;"><br /></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 20pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"></span></span></div><div class="number-comment" style="float: left; font-size: 19px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span class="number">6</span> Comments</div><select id="cmt-order" style="color: #636363; float: right; font-family: inherit; font-size: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: 400; font: normal normal normal 99%/normal arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px;"><option style="font-family: inherit; font-size: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit;" value="DESC">Latest comments</option><option style="font-family: inherit; font-size: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit;" value="ASC">Oldest comments</option></select><ul class="landing-new-cmt" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"></ul><ul class="ypf-usercards" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><li class="comment-item first" style="border-top-color: initial; border-top-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161126?listPage=index" id="ucard2" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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Whispers or otherwise, good friends, dear friends, celebrating always...</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296964" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161126?listPage=index" id="ucard3" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">12/28/2005 04:19 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Wow whispering can be really sexy alot of the times, BUT ALL THE TIME....<br />That is crazy as HELL!!!</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296966" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; 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border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">12/28/2005 11:22 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">I think Ireland wld be a great place to visit someday~</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296967" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); 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cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161126?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">12/28/2005 08:57 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">I wasn't kissing her, I was whispering in her mouth.<br />- Chico Marx</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296968" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; 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User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161126?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">12/28/2005 01:20 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">I would hate to wisper all the time too.</div></div></li></ul><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 20pt;"><br /></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 20pt;">Original Yahoo 360 Comments:</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-91697280389245846312005-12-25T23:45:00.000-05:002010-10-26T16:00:52.214-04:00Hey You Guys!!!!December 25, 2005<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><img height="309" src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/2474.jpg?mgg7zHoCepa4e2pd" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px;" width="333" /></span><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span>"You can't kiss an Irish girl unexpectedly. You can only kiss her sooner than she thought you would."~ Irish Saying</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Hey guys....pool and chat was awesome! It was so much fun, not to mention how cool it was to actually hear you guys. Definatly have to do voice chat again.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Brett, honey I love ya, but I think you say ya'll more then me and Elonna put together do!</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Jeremy..hmmm ...what can I say. I am still holding a grudge on the Irish bashing. I am gonna get you when you least expect it. You better watch your back!! mmuuuaaahhh</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Elonna girl....my irish lovin' sista...what can I say, it made Christmas that much better didnt it?</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">~hugs~</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">And to all the rest of you - hope we can gather again sometime soon!</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">It has been an awesome year, and my world is that much better with you guys in it. 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YES!! LOL<br /><br />This blog is cute!! LOVE the Monkeys!!</div></div></li></ul></b><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-55271971703034119462005-12-25T17:24:00.007-05:002010-10-26T16:35:52.043-04:00A Guinness LegacyDecember 25, 2005<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><img height="312" src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/7942.jpg?mgg7zHoCkOgDemfm" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px;" width="333" /></span><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">The Guinness Legacy</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">The Guinness family, the noted Irish brewers,</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Regularly contributed to the renovation of</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">St. Patrick’s Cathedral over the years. It is</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Therefore interesting to note that a monument to</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Sir Benjamin Guinness’s daughter stands under a</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: teal; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">stained glass window bearing the words</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; 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background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; border-top-color: rgb(233, 233, 233); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 1px; color: #a0a0a0; font-size: 12px; height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 10px; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; position: relative; zoom: 1;"><a class="mkcmt" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161124?listPage=index#ygubcmt" style="color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: left; font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;">Leave a comment...</a></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-35619208522975766652005-12-24T11:14:00.006-05:002010-10-26T16:38:42.755-04:00For My Friends ~An Irish Blessing for Saturday<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"></span><br /><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;">December 24, 2005</div><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;"><br /></div><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;"><img height="156" src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/8394.jpg?mgg7zHoCD9wKa7ja" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px;" width="333" /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Saturday’s Irish Blessing<span> </span>~ For My Friends</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Hills as green as emeralds</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Cover the countryside</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Lakes as blue as sapphires –</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Are </span><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Ireland</span><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">’s special pride</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">And rivers that shine like silver</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Make </span><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Ireland</span><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;"> look so fair –</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">But the friendliness of her people</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Is the richest treasure there</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">To all my wonderful friends new and old, it has been a wonderful year and I am thankful to have you in my life. I look forward to spending a new year with you and getting to know you more. Have a happy holiday and a blessed new year!</span></div><div><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;"><br /></span></div><div><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;"><br /></span></div><div><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;"><br /></span></div><div><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Original Yahoo 360 Comments:</span></div><div><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #a0a0a0; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"><div class="bd" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px;"><div class="list-comment" style="margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="number-comment" style="float: left; font-size: 19px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span class="number">6</span> Comments</div><select id="cmt-order" style="color: #636363; float: right; font-family: inherit; font-size: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: 400; font: normal normal normal 99%/normal arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px;"><option style="font-family: inherit; font-size: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit;" value="DESC">Latest comments</option><option style="font-family: inherit; font-size: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit;" value="ASC">Oldest comments</option></select><ul class="landing-new-cmt" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"></ul><ul class="ypf-usercards" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><li class="comment-item first" style="border-top-color: initial; border-top-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161123?listPage=index" id="ucard2" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">12/25/2005 02:52 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Merry Christmas~hugs</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296950" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; 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list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161123?listPage=index" id="ucard3" style="color: #4f93df; 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border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">12/25/2005 01:59 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Have a great xmas day with full of joy happiness and love<br />--hugs and kisses--</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296951" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); 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border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; 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clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161123?listPage=index" id="ucard5" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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Happy Holidays</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296953" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161123?listPage=index" id="ucard6" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">12/24/2005 07:03 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Have a great holiday and new year!</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296954" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); 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User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161123?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">12/24/2005 01:30 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">nice blessing..and a happy christmass to you</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296955" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); 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background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; border-top-color: rgb(233, 233, 233); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 1px; color: #a0a0a0; font-size: 12px; height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 10px; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; position: relative; zoom: 1;"><a class="mkcmt" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161123?listPage=index#ygubcmt" style="color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: left; font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;">Leave a comment...</a><div class="pagination go" style="float: right; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; position: absolute; right: 10px;"></div></div></span></span></div><div><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;"><br /></span></div></div><div class="toolbar clrfix" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; line-height: 0.9; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 15px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><ul style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"></ul></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-55629597424620352482005-12-23T11:35:00.001-05:002010-10-26T18:05:17.625-04:00An Irish BlessingDecember 23, 2005<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"></span><br /><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;"><img height="70" src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/d1a2.jpg?mgg7zHoCO.JAs259" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px;" width="120" /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 18pt;">How sweetly lies old </span><span style="color: green; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 18pt;">Ireland</span><span style="color: green; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 18pt;"></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 18pt;">Emerald green beyond the foam,</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 18pt;">Awakening sweet memories,</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 18pt;">Calling the heart back home</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 18pt;">~Irish blessing~</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 18pt;"><br /></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 18pt;">Original Yahoo 360 comments:</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 18pt;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"></span></span></div><div class="number-comment" style="float: left; font-size: 19px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span class="number">9</span> Comments</div><select id="cmt-order" style="color: #636363; float: right; font-family: inherit; font-size: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: 400; 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cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161122?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">12/24/2005 10:47 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Merry Christmas... I love ya!!! ~Hugs and Kisses~ HO*HO*HO ~Wiggles and giggles out*~</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296941" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161122?listPage=index" id="ucard3" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161122?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">12/24/2005 09:48 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">BEAUUUTIFIL dear!!!<br />I appreciate the IRISH BLESSING and keep dear, warm, and deep into my heart<br /><br />SONGO</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296942" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; 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cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); 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User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161122?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">12/24/2005 06:40 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">LOVE IT !!!<br />My husbands family I believe first came from there .. I will have to check and see.. Merry Christmas</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296943" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161122?listPage=index" id="ucard5" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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I am of Scottish Heritage. You know I see ya all over & dang if I don't have ya as a friend. Whooooh I love Irish Women! Join me fast & u can pick up a prezzie under da tree!</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296944" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161122?listPage=index" id="ucard6" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161122?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">12/23/2005 11:02 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Strong & very lovely...<br />peace my friend.<br />Have a great holiday.</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296945" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); 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User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161122?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; 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User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! 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~kisses~</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296947" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161122?listPage=index" id="ucard9" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 18pt;">The Green Little Shamrock</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 18pt;">There’s a dear little plant that grows in our isle,</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 18pt;"><span> </span>‘Twas St. Patrick himself sure that set it.</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 18pt;">It thrives through the bog, through the brake,</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 18pt;"><span> </span>and the mireland;</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 18pt;">And he called it the dear little shamrock of </span><span style="color: green; font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 18pt;">Ireland</span><span style="color: green; font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 18pt;"></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face'; font-size: 18pt;"><span> </span>~~Andrew Cherry</span><span style="color: green; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 18pt;">~~</span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 18pt;"><br /></span></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Castellar; font-size: 18pt;"><br /></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-68710504243746363012005-12-23T00:34:00.011-05:002010-10-26T18:20:41.582-04:00~~Season's Greetings~~ In Irish<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><img height="259" src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/9e78.jpg?mgg7zHoCfelARLUr" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px;" width="191" /></span><br /><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><strong style="font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold;">Beannachtaí an tSéasúir - Season's Greetings</strong><br /><em style="font-style: italic; font-weight: inherit;">by Bridget Haggerty</em><br /><br />In Ireland, one of the most commonly used phrases around the holidays is "Happy Christmas." We thought you might enjoy learning how to say it in Irish as well as a few other phrases you'll hear this time of year.<br /><br />If you were to say Happy Christmas to just one other person, you would say:<br /><br />"Nollaig Shona Duit"<br />(NO-Lihg HO-nuh ghwich).</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br />However, if you were to be addressing the same greeting to two or more persons, you would say:<br />"Nollaig Shona Daoibh"<br />(NO-Lihg HO-nuh JEEV)</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">This literally means "You have a Happy Christmas."</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">The most common response to this would be: "Nollaig Mhaith Chugat"<br />(NO-lihg Wy HU-gut)</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Literally-"A good Christmas to you."</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">If one were to wish someone a "Happy New Year," he or she would say:</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">"Athbhliain faoi Mhaise Duit"<br />(AH-vlee ihn fwee WAH-shuh wich)</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">And if one were to be addressing two or more other persons, he or she would say:<br />"Athbhliain faoi Mhaise Daoibh"<br />(AH vlee-ihn fwee WAH-shuh Heev)<br />Literally-"You have a Prosperous New Year."</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Just as in English, the two expressions are often combined to say “Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year” as follows:</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">“Nollaig Shona agus Athbhliain faoi Mhaise Duit.”<br />(NO-lihg HO-nuh AH-guhs AH-vlee-ihn fwee WAH-shuh wich).</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Le gach dea-ghui i gcomhair na nollag agus na h-ath bhliana! (With Best Wishes for Christmas and the New Year!)</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">The plural of this would be:<br />“Nollaig Shona agus Athbhliain faoi Mhaise Daoibh.”<br />(NO-lihg HO-nuh AH-guhs AH-vlee-ihn fwee WAH-shuh HEEV).</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">For every greeting above, the common response is:<br />“Go mba hé duit”<br />(guh may hay wich)<br />Meaning: “The same to you.”</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">If you have tried to learn these phrases in Irish, and all earnest attempts have failed, just try the universal greeting...lift a pint, thrust it forward in the internationally accepted toast, and you will be a hit in any language. (Especially if you buy the house a round.)</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><strong style="font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold;">Note:</strong> Letter groups that are capitalized indicate the stressed syllables. There has also been much debate as to whether Shona is pronounced with the sh sound or said as hona. 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User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161120?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">12/24/2005 09:49 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Nollaig Shona Duit<br /><br />THANK YOU. "FELIZ NAVIDAD" (in Spanish)<br /><br />SONGO</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296934" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161120?listPage=index" id="ucard3" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161120?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; 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border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; 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cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161120?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">12/23/2005 08:29 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">My Dad tried to teach me Gaelic when I was a child,never could get the hang of it though</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296936" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; 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Will be back later today for a real blog!!! Luvs ya...sweets....~C~</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><strong style="font-style: inherit; font-weight: bold;">Ireland </strong>Written by: - Stephanie Davis- Jenny Yates - Garth Brooks</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"></div><table align="right" bgcolor="#8d8f92" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 0px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 0px; border-collapse: collapse; font-size: inherit;"><tbody><tr><td style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; 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font-weight: bold;"><a href="" rel="nofollow" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;">More info about this song in the Song Database</a> </strong><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">They say mother earth is breathing<br />With each wave that finds the shore<br />Her soul rises in the evening<br />For to open twilights door<br />Her eyes are the stars in heaven<br />Watching o'er us all the while<br />And her heart it is in Ireland<br />Deep within the Emerald Isle<br /><br />We are forty against hundreds<br />In someone elses bloody war<br />We know not why were fighting<br />Or what we're dying for<br />They will storm us in the morning<br />When the sunlight turns to sky<br />Death is waiting for its dance now<br />Fate has sentenced us to die<br /><br />Ireland I am coming home<br />I can see your rolling fields of green<br />And fences made of stone<br />I am reaching out won't you take my hand<br />I'm coming home Ireland<br /><br />Oh the captian he lay bleeding<br />I can hear him calling me<br />These men are yours now for the leading<br />Show them to their destiny<br />And as I look up all around me<br />I see the ragged tired and torn<br />I tell them to make ready<br />'Cause we're not waiting for the morn<br /><br />Ireland I am coming home<br />I can see your rolling fields of green<br />And fences made of stone<br />I am reaching out won't you take my hand<br />I'm coming home Ireland<br /><br />Now the fog is deep and heavy<br />As we forge the dark and fear<br />We can hear their horses breathing<br />As in silence we draw near<br />There are no words to be spoken<br />Just a look to say good-bye<br />I draw a breath and night is broken<br />As I scream our battle cry<br /><br />Ireland I am coming home<br />I can see your rolling fields of green<br />And fences made of stone<br />I am reaching out won't you take my hand<br />I'm coming home Ireland<br /><br />I am home Ireland </div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; 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I must be an idiot for listening to you, for believing in you. You’re not any different then all the rest of them. How could I have been so blind to see that? I would have thought I learned my lesson long ago. A chance meeting that changed my entire world in the blink of an eye. But then, you were gone. I lived. I loved. I moved on, never looking back. But, one day, out of the blue, there you were again. I welcomed your friendship back into my world with open arms. Maybe that was not the best choice I have made in my life. I cherished our friendship, it was a beautiful thing. But, without a word, you were gone again. No more Hello’s and no more Good-Bye’s. </div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-82022379687751151292005-12-15T13:46:00.003-05:002010-11-05T13:48:19.547-04:00Poetry in Motion: Rock on Your World<div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Ignore me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">You’ll get what comes to you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Ignore me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Forget all about me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">And what I meant to you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Ignore me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">F*ck with me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">And I’ll F*ck with you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">It is so easy for you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">To pretend it never happened<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Go on with life<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Move on<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Ignore me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Ignore us<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #3366ff; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">C.H. 2005</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-56517663603533583852005-12-11T13:07:00.003-05:002010-11-05T13:10:00.483-04:00Poetry in Motion: ~~Cancer~~<div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: x-large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 19px;"></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">My best friend told me he had cancer today<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: x-large;"> <div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I didn’t know what to do<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Didn’t know what to say.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I am staring at this blank page<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Tears streaming down my face<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Wondering what I should say<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">What I should write<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">But, I feel like<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">It doesn’t matter<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">My words just won’t come out right.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">What do you say to someone<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Who is facing this?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">You know they don't want to listen<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">They only worry<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">About the things they could miss.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I don't know the future<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Don't know what it brings<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">But if I could –<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I would- <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Change so many things.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I want to hold you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Tell you it’s gonna be alright<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Love You<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Kiss You<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Help you fight.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><st1:date day="11" month="12" w:st="on" year="2005"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">12/11/2005</span></st1:date><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"> (C)</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">C.Hall.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Hey guys, I got some sad news today from my friend. He is my best, dearest friend, my heart and soul and I am not ashamed to admit or say that. I absolutely adore him with every ounce of my being. He gave me this news earlier this eve. I hope you all can join me in prayer for his recovery. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Steve....I love you, I am here for you and you know its not gonna be easy, but your gonna make it through this. Put your faith in me, because I have my faith in God. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-71391179046849050112005-12-01T15:58:00.000-05:002010-11-10T16:00:09.938-05:00What Is True Love?<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span lang="EN" style="color: red; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; mso-ansi-language: EN;">What is true love? I ask that question time and time again. Could it be real? Sometimes I think it's hard to tell. I believe that the meaning of true love isn't clear to anyone. It's a question that can never be answered, but keeps a person thinking about it.<o:p></o:p></span></i><br /><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span lang="EN" style="color: red; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; mso-ansi-language: EN;">What does it mean to love someone? An emotional attraction can be just as strong as a physical attraction, so who's to say when love is in your corner. I hate when people say, "You're too young to be in love" It's not true. Love can appear at any age to anyone. However, the question that boggles my mind is: Does true love really exist, or is it just a figment of one's imagination? Is it possible to make yourself believe you're in love, even when deep in your heart you're confused? People can say I love you, but what does it really mean. Is it being said because the love is real, or do people say it because they feel they should?<o:p></o:p></span></i><br /><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span lang="EN" style="color: red; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; mso-ansi-language: EN;">This is not a perfect world. With love, hate always follows. What does love consist of? Is it the butterflies in your stomach or the fast beat in your heart? Do you want love so bad you can taste it, so you make up a dream in your mind?<o:p></o:p></span></i><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span lang="EN" style="color: red; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif"; mso-ansi-language: EN;">The questions I ask will never be answered. Is there really that magical feeling that everyone talks about? And when the relationship comes to an end, is love what makes you unwilling to stay, but unwilling to leave? The ultimate question, if what everyone says about love is true, then why does love have to hurt so much?<o:p></o:p></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b><span style="background: white; color: black; font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif";">"</span></b><b><i><span style="background: white; color: blue; font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif";">Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.</span></i></b><b><span style="background: white; color: black; font-family: "Tahoma","sans-serif";">"<br />I Corinthians 13:4-8a (NIV)</span></b><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Verdana Ref","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></i></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-15517855551353300502005-12-01T13:50:00.002-05:002010-11-05T13:51:13.766-04:00Poetry in Motion: The End<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">The End<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">The end is near<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">Its time to go<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Go my dear<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">Take my love<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">When you go<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>You have to<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Don't you know<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I can’t keep it<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Keep it here<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">Then end is near<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">I live in fear<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">Here it comes<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Please don't run<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Don't be afraid<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Its time to go<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>Go my dear<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>For the end is near<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Near<span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Dear<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Too Close<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>I FEAR!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: "Century Gothic","sans-serif"; font-size: 18.0pt;">©C.M.2005<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-58102126914003400622005-11-05T13:54:00.001-05:002010-11-05T13:54:56.590-04:00Poetry In Motion: You and Yours<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">You and Yours<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">You said you loved me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">You said you would die for me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I was your heart<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I was your soul<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Your Baby Girl<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Your Baby Doll<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Take me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Take me away<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">To end it<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">End it all<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I don't hear you anymore<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Don't want to hear<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">This is the end<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">The end for me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red;">© C.M. 2005<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-21531864492218319382005-10-24T12:58:00.006-04:002010-11-05T13:04:42.844-04:00A Look In To My Mind<div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">You're setting at your desk working on the computer and I come into the office. I am dressed in a business dress and blouse both </span><span style="color: red; font-family: "Georgia","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">red</span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;"> your favorite color. I have some paper work I need to file and it just so happens to be in the bottom file. I bend over away from you and start to do my work. There is some music on your computer and I slowly start to move to the beat. </span><span style="color: black; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;">To read the rest of the story go to my Erotic Confessions Blog.</span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: black; font-family: "Georgia","serif"; font-size: 14.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div align="center" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, serif;"><a href="http://irishconfessions.blogspot.com/2005/10/look-into-my-mind.html?zx=c9061a2702de7431"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #741b47;">A Look In To My Mind (Adults ONLY!)</span></span></a></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-37270757180000967742005-10-23T11:36:00.000-04:002010-10-26T19:12:14.486-04:00~~~I GOT INKED~~~October 23, 2005<br /><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"></span><br /><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;"><img height="247" src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/db3e.jpg?mgg7zHoC2X5XDBvO" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px;" width="333" /></div><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;"><br /></div><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;">Means Good Luck/Happiness......goes right with my Irish theme of tats..........LOL</div><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;"><br /></div><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;"><b>Original Yahoo 360 Comments:</b></div><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"><div class="number-comment" style="float: left; font-size: 19px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><span class="number">11</span> Comments</div><select id="cmt-order" style="color: #636363; float: right; font-family: inherit; font-size: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: 400; font: normal normal normal 99%/normal arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px;"><option style="font-family: inherit; font-size: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit;" value="DESC">Latest comments</option><option style="font-family: inherit; font-size: inherit; font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit;" value="ASC">Oldest comments</option></select><ul class="landing-new-cmt" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"></ul><ul class="ypf-usercards" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><li class="comment-item first" style="border-top-color: initial; border-top-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; 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User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161118?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">10/24/2005 03:13 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">WHOA! OUCH!! But alll aside...very very cool!</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296919" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161118?listPage=index" id="ucard3" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161118?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">10/23/2005 08:10 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Jeremy, never thought of it like that! I could not believe some of the symbols they had, all I could think was who would get a tattoo like that. One was for shit, literally.</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296920" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161118?listPage=index" id="ucard4" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161118?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">10/23/2005 08:03 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">I got the Japanese symbol for "Alcoholic" at the base of my spine {yeah nice way of saying above my butt crack} ... the great thing about symbols is you can tell people it means whatever you want ... It meant "nosey ass roomate" once ... enjoyed saying it meant "take a chill pill ya drunk" ... "stop looking at my butt mom" ... oh the possibilities are always endless ... hahahahahaha ... Love Ya :D</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296921" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161118?listPage=index" id="ucard5" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161118?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">10/23/2005 06:58 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">I love that pic of you, damn your such a babe!!! LOL</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296922" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161118?listPage=index" id="ucard6" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! User"><img alt="Yahoo! User" class="photo" src="http://l.yimg.com/a/i/identity/nopic_48.gif" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; height: 48px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; width: 48px;" title="Yahoo! User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161118?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">10/23/2005 05:31 pm</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">here's a link to the only decent shot i have of them. i have another one on the other shoulder blade... http://www.gvnband.com/images/band_member_pix/cj_05_2272004.jpg . At one time I had 12 earings in my ears...but now I only wear 4. other that that, I'm just your ordinary average joe.</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296923" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161118?listPage=index" id="ucard7" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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I also have my nose, ears, tongue, belly and nipples pierced.<br /><br />Dex- honestly, it didn't hurt! I guess I have a high tolerence for pain cause a lot of ppl told me it did. But, I didnt think the piercings hurt either. Well, the nips did! Once it heals it wont look so "branded"<br /><br />Weezie- thanks girl!! I am dying to get more!<br /><br />Chris- show me yours and I'll show you mine!! LOL<br /><br />Punky - the only thing I recommend about a tattoo is make sure it is special and means something to you. And think about it. For a while. :)</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296924" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item " style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 20px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161118?listPage=index" id="ucard8" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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Now i'm itchin to get more ink! Nice one!</div><a class="handle-comment" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/@us1/y/abuse?type=c&guid=TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E&ugcId=296927" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Report abuse</a><a class="handle-delete" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Delete</a><a class="handle-reply" href="" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 0px; clear: left; color: #5fa3ee; cursor: pointer; float: right; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 10px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Comment</a></div></li><li class="comment-item last" style="border-top-color: rgb(160, 161, 162); border-top-style: dashed; border-top-width: 1px; clear: both; font-size: 12px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 5px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 15px; text-align: left; zoom: 1;"><div class="vcard small-photo" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-bottom-style: solid; border-bottom-width: 5px; border-left-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-left-style: solid; border-left-width: 5px; border-right-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-right-style: solid; border-right-width: 5px; border-top-color: rgb(232, 232, 232); border-top-style: solid; border-top-width: 5px; float: left; height: 48px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 48px;"><a class="url uname ypfusercard" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161118?listPage=index" id="ucard11" style="color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" title="Yahoo! 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User" /></a></div><div class="comment-content" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="user" style="color: #a0a1a2; float: left; font-size: 13px; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="user-link" href="http://pulse.yahoo.com/_TGW3TYBSD54MUTVWWHFEJGZ54E/blog/articles/161118?listPage=index" style="border-bottom-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-bottom-style: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-left-style: none; border-left-width: 1px; border-right-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-right-style: none; border-right-width: 0px; border-top-color: rgb(224, 224, 224); border-top-style: none; border-top-width: 0px; border-width: initial; color: #4f93df; cursor: pointer; line-height: 1.2; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-decoration: none;"></a>commented</div><div class="time" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: right;">10/23/2005 11:56 am</div><div class="content" style="clear: both; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 5px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; word-wrap: break-word;">Most men DO like ink on us chicks!!!!!!!<br />hehehehe-<br />And it's kick ass!!! luvin' it!<br />Later- Weezie</div></div></li></ul></span></div><div><br /></div><div class="toolbar clrfix" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; line-height: 0.9; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 15px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><ul style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"></ul></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-50103049418447345812005-10-21T12:57:00.001-04:002010-11-05T12:58:26.300-04:00Thoughts, Again.<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: magenta; font-family: Harrington; font-size: 14.0pt;">WHY? Why me? Why did it have to end up this way? This is not how it was suppose to be. I changed for you, not for me. I can’t go back to the way things used to be, can’t go back to the beginning of you and me. Don’t want to return to what we once were, only to relive it all over again. The damage is done. I have no where to run, no where to turn. <o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-25892560969052494652005-10-21T11:59:00.003-04:002010-11-05T12:57:40.352-04:00Just Thoughts<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: magenta; font-family: Harrington; font-size: 14.0pt;">Here you are again, caught up in my mind. You’re like my secret addiction I can not break free from. I have tried, and tried. But I just fail. You’re not true. You can’t be real. It was all just a dream. All it can be.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My whole world is changing day by day. I am scared. What will happen to me? I have so many things to look at in life, things to work out. This is not helping me, but I can’t turn away. <o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-86290309486402752422005-08-19T18:12:00.000-04:002010-10-26T19:14:36.634-04:00A Girl Can Dream Right?<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #666666; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"></span><br /><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;">August 19, 2005</div><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;"><br /></div><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;"><img height="250" src="http://a367.yahoofs.com/blog/49bef81azeb2dc4dd/60/__sr_/4343.jpg?mgg7zHoCxGyTeSbv" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 5px; margin-top: 0px;" width="333" /></div><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;"><br /></div><div class="content" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 18px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 648px; zoom: 1;">The shores of Ireland - If only I could make this dream real.</div><div><br /></div><div class="toolbar clrfix" style="color: #a0a1a2; font-size: 11px; line-height: 0.9; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 15px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><ul style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"></ul></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-4570771898633778192005-08-10T13:48:00.000-04:002010-11-05T13:50:03.221-04:00Poetry in Motion: Roses<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">What am I doing?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Why do I do this –<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Push myself<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Hurt myself<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Crush myself<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I let you control me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">All of me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">That should not be<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Only I<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Should be in control of me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I want to keep you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">In my life<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Your words and actions<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Tear at my heart<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Stabbing me like a knife.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">You once told me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Our relationship was like –<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">A long stem rose.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">We would walk down the path<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Hit many thorns<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">But together<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">We would make it through.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">On those petals<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Our love would bloom.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I trusted that.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I trusted you.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">It seems we have hit a thorn<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">On that path to the perfect rose petal.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: green; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">© C.M.2005<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-65016349793129764932005-08-05T13:44:00.003-04:002010-11-05T13:46:48.326-04:00My Mind is Spinning<span style="color: magenta; font-family: Harrington; font-size: 20.0pt;">My mind is spinning. I am out of control. Don't know which way I am going. I close my eyes and there you are. You consume my thoughts through out the day. It's difficult to concentrate. I am getting tired of this game. I feel stuck, like I don’t belong. Why can’t I figure this out – this mess in my head? It’s your entire fault, filling me with such thoughts. What gives you the right to tell me these things? I want to give up, run away and hide.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have learned in my life running solves nothing and he’ll still be there when I return. Do you see what you’re doing to my mind, heart, body and soul? I do not know what to do, which way to go or which way to choose. <o:p></o:p></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-25853794215254471922005-08-04T13:31:00.001-04:002010-11-05T13:32:53.581-04:00Poetry In Motion: Missing You<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Missing You<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>All this pain that you bring<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Missing You<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>All these lies you told me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Missing You<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>The truth you concealed<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Missing You<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>The times you left me to be<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Missing You<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>After all these things<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 3;"> </span>Why Am I Still Missing You?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">© C.H. 2005<o:p></o:p></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-61401365051733894552005-08-03T13:29:00.002-04:002010-11-05T13:30:46.776-04:00Poetry In Motion: Never Asked<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I never asked for anything from you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">All I wanted was for you to love me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I want you to feel loved<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I want you to feel missed<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">But most of all<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I wanted you to feel these kisses<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Upon my lips.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: #993366; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">2005 C.M.</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-25444073660998293982005-08-02T13:28:00.001-04:002010-11-05T13:29:19.834-04:00Poetry In Motion: I Have to Let You Go<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I have to let you go<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">It’s what I have to do<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Not for you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">But for me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I have to let you go.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Save my own insanity<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I can’t do this to myself<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Him, you, or me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I have to let you go<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Please, just go!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">It’s messing with my head<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">These words that you said<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I can’t believe you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Believe they are so<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I have to let you go.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">You said you loved me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">How can that be?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Those little words<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Exchanged from you to me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I have to let you go.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Its better this way<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">You’ll see<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Better for you <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Better for me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I have to let you go.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I have to tell myself<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">It was all just a lie<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Please just go away<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">So I can be alone to cry.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I have to let you go.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 14.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">2005 C.H.</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-23982766702563166332005-08-01T13:22:00.003-04:002010-11-05T13:27:58.752-04:00Poetry In Motion: Hatred<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">I hate you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">This anger consumes me<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">I hate you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Want to be rid of you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">I hate you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">GO!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Go away!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">I hate you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">It was you that went astray<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">I hate you<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">HATE!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">But, despite all that<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">Deep down<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">I still love you.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16pt;">2005 C.H.</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-35118716019757221352005-07-05T13:42:00.000-04:002010-11-05T13:44:13.634-04:00Poetry In Motion: My Love is Purse<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">My love is pure<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">So much to endure<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">I can’t imagine living<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Without you in my life<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Perfect for each other<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">Too bad I am married<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">And you have a wife<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>With that<span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 2;"> </span>There is nothing more to say.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: red; font-family: Batang; font-size: 16.0pt; mso-hansi-font-family: Batang;">C.H. 2005</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-56023484152283529342005-07-02T13:40:00.004-04:002010-11-05T13:45:10.759-04:00Words Can Never Express<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Words could never express the way I feel right now, at this moment after reading all the comments on my “Cards” post. I can honestly say, I was not planning on this big of a reaction. Heck, I was not really even planning on coming back to blog. And then, someone wonderful sent me an IM to tell me he had read my page, and was putting me in his blast to send everyone over in my world. I am VERY overwhelmed by all the friends I have, old and new. But, I love it. So, I want to say thank you to Jeremy first of all for thinking I was a good enough friend to him for him to turn around and help me the way that I did. I love ya man, and look forward to do collaboration in the future!!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">The cards blog was not even going to be a blog. I go so mad and worked up that I actually had pen to paper and was writing this whole thing. My husband was like “What are you doing??” I never use paper and pen, usually just type. But, I was so mad I could not get my fingers to work. I started writing early Sunday morning. I was on a roll, so I took my paper and pen to church with me ((( yah I know))) because I did not want to miss a thought. Once home, I just kept right on writing. That thing must have been 10 pages long front and back. And once I felt I was done, I feel so much better. This cloud had been lifted. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Now, let me shout out to my peeps….and then I will be making the rounds in blogville. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR ALL YOUR KIND WORDS!!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">My words could never express my feelings. My friends list has grown so much in the last 24hrs, as well as my heart.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Now, rather then reply to all your comments in the comment section of that long blog, I am going to post them here!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Sanrica </span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">– Yes, it is awful, but you know what…I am the person I am today because of it, and I have made peace with that. I will never understand people either, so for the most part, I have quit trying. I hope you had a good night. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Hadrian </span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">– I am sorry to hear you have similar deal with your mother and biological family. It was very hard to get over. I still have a lot of anger that she lied to me for 30 yrs. And that may be something I NEVER get over. But, she is my mother, we all make mistakes, I still love her dearly. And without her, I would have no one, and would not be where I am today.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Weezie </span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">– Even though that pic is missing, thanks to Yahell deleting you, I know that’s you my darling! It does suck, but we did survive. I hate that I am connected to so many people by these horrible things in life, but I am thankful that we are able to be friends and know that at least one other person out there shares what we feel. We are not ALONE. We will STAY STRONG together!!! And not one message, but 2!!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Mel</span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"> – Ok, about my Mel. This is a perfect example of my soul mate theory. In the very short time Mel and I have been friends, we have found a wealth of information about each other. We are so much alike it way too many ways. There is a connection there that neither of us can describe. She has become one of my best friends without even trying. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Mel, I call you my sister. My soul sister. I cherish our friendship, and I look forward to getting to know you more and more as time marches on. I hope that someday, when you are ready, that you share your story with me, and know that I will never judge you. And you not only left me 1 comment, but 3! Your AWESOME, You’re BEAUTIFUL and you’re WORTH SO MUCH. Do not ever let anyone tell you otherwise. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Mary Kay</span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"> – I appreciate the shoulder! Not to mention you so hit the nail on the head with the freakiness! And I am very honored and proud to call you my friend!!!! </span><span style="font-family: Wingdings;">J</span><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Debbie </span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">– Thank you, thank you, thank you. I am so very honored that you want to be in my circle of friends! I look forward to reading your blogs and getting to know you.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Lori </span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">– Ah…the Queen of BA…keeper of the tiaras…..I am proud to call you my friend. Now, let me find my teeth…..and I shall be right over!!! Muuuaaaahhhhh<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Heather</span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"> – First, I am sorry Yahell messed up and you had to wait until your second wind to retype! That must have sucked, but I thank you for trying again. It means a lot to me. I am glad I was able to give you some inspiration. You don't have to do it alone. If you ever need anyone to talk to, I am here. Please keep me posted on how it goes. I am a firm believer that is always better to know, and just find out things for the sake of knowing. I will cherish our friendship. And I mean what I say….you keep me posted!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Stacy</span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"> – the sweetest person I know. What can I say to you? It is has been a blessing to call you my friend. We can ROCK the therapy together. I know there are a lot of people out there that do not understand depression and the likes, as well as the medications involved. It took 28years to get all this built up. It is not gonna go away in the 2 years I have been in therapy. Nor will it ever truly go away. But, maybe, you should share with us some of these perversions you talk about??? I and Jeremy may be able to use it against you!! LOL and not one comment but 2!!!!! Thanks for ALL the love you have sent my way. It means more to me then you could ever imagine. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Kelly</span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"> – thanks for the congrats. I do not feel like I deserve a congrats….but, will take in none the less….cause I am greedy like that!!! LOL j/k Thank you for your kind words. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Vanessa </span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">– Are we related? LOL….I look forward to reading some of your work, and getting to know you as a friend. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Twinks</span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"> – A big ole HUG and a loud shouting THANK YOU! <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">OK, and even though I already gave a shout out to <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Jeremy</b>, he is next in line in the comments section. And not once, but twice, and even signed his name!!! Darling, you know, you just KNOW! I don't have to explain anything, you get it. Thank You from the bottom of my heart. Oh, and Marcus gives you a smile…..a Thank You, and a Your Welcome! My world is a better place because I can call you my friend. Remember that always.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Sundown</span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"> – thanks for coming over. Please come back anytime, you are always welcome in my blog.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">FunInTheSun </span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">– HUGS right back to YOU<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Brett </span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">- Ok, I can not imagine ANYONE saying ya’ll more then anyone from <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Oklahoma</st1:place></st1:state>!!! Ok, well maybe I can cause I don't really say it that much. Do I? hhmmmm…maybe I do and I just don't notice it…….No, I really think I don't say it much. LOL Thank you for coming over and paying me a visit. I am glad I inspired you to go “unplugged” and I look forward to reading your blog, and getting to know you more. Would love to have you visit my world anytime you want!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Janet</span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"> – THANK YOU! I am feeling SO much better now. I had NO idea my blog would impact SO many people. And your right, it IS only between me and God. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Cathy</span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"> – another 2 poster!!! LOL You never know, we could be related??? Lol I have seen you and Don around so much these last few months. Knowing that you are still happily married after 22 years is SUCH an inspiration for me!!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Jenny </span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">– Big hug back to you. The writing WILL continue. Glad you enjoy! Now, I need to pop over to your blog and see what you got going on over there!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Ken</span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"> – THANK YOU…big hugs all the way from <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Oklahoma</st1:place></st1:state>…..and YES please do join my circle of Friends!! I welcome you with open arms! And despite what Jeremy and Lori say….I don't bite…..ok well not hard anyway!! LOL j/k<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Lisa</span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"> – wooohooo another 2 poster! I am glad you came over from Jeremys world. WOW! We are so close to being a mirrored image of each other. How COOL is THAT??<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Betty</span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"> – thank you for your kind words, glad you came over, please DO add me as a friend. I look forward to reading your blogs as well!!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Betsy </span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">– ROCK ON! Thank you.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Jeanne</span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"> – thanks for stepping over Jeremy’s world to mine. Thank you for your awesome words. It does mean a lot to me. I look forward to getting to know you more, and I promise to pop over and check out your blog!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Sean</span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"> – Oh yes, you know the feeling don't you??? Not just with family….but them damn migraines as well. You and Helen will be in my thoughts and prayers. Thanks for chatting with me and being a friend. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Hunney</span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"> – I am SO glad you came over. Jeremy is just sending all these wonderful people over to me! God has helped me a lot with my demons this year. And all I can say is AMEN to that. I am glad you were able to work past your demons. Your right, we will never be over things 100%, I mean, how could we?? I would love, and be honored, for you to join, and be a part of my circle of friends.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Kristy</span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"> – thanks for coming over, and Thank You!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Qalbi</span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"> – I know we already talked through 360 messages, but I wanted to give you another BIG – THANK YOU. I will be over to see your blog very SOON!!!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Steve</span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"> – thanks for coming over. I look forward to seeing you around the circle of friends.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Amy</span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"> – Thanks for coming over, hugs to you!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Don </span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">– Hey Don!! I was thinking I saw you peaking around here a few times before? Don't be shy…leave a comment!!! Lol j/k I love reading you and Cathy’s comments. The way you guys bounce off each other. It makes 360 very real. I give you thanks for coming over all on your own….even if Jeremy paved the way for many. I have to admit, I have snuck into your blog a time or two, so, we are even. And well, I am glad to know, those showers are keeping you wonderfully clean!! Lol…thanks again!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Cat</span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"> – Welcome to my world. I am glad you came over. It seems that there are many of us out there that share so many things in common with each other. Kinky sex does work with the right person. It’s never boring, that’s for sure! I did tell Marcus what you had said….he sends a smile your way! Thanks so much for your awesome comments! I will be checking out your blog. And please, feel free to drop in here anytime!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Joey</span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"> – Hugs and Kisses from USA Irish to <st1:country-region w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Ireland</st1:place></st1:country-region> Irish….gosh I hope I can reach that far? I love reading your blogs. You’re honest, you’re you, and I love it. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Rachel </span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">– I am glad we are now connected in this circle of friends. I look forward to getting to know more about you!!! <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Megan</span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"> – thanks for coming over. I welcome all of Jeremy’s friend into my little world in this corner of blogland. You may not understand my heartache, but you have your own heartache with the loss of your husband. Those feelings I am sure are rather close to being the same. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Michael</span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"> – Big Hugs all the way to the other side of the world! Thank YOU!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Night McOwl</span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"> – I am glad Jeremy left good enough directions that you could find me!!! LOL Thank you for your wonderful comments. It really means a lot to me. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Boofingirl</span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"> – WOW! I am so glad I pulled you in! LOL I look forward, and welcome you into my little world here in blogville. Thanks SO MUCH!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><u><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Stormy</span></u></b><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;"> - Thank you and YOU ROCK!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">OK, PHEW!! I am so THANKFUL for all my NEW Friends, thanks for coming over. And to my OLD friends, thanks for sticking by me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Now, if you will excuse me, I have MANY blogs to get caught up on!!! <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">Much Love to You All!!!!!!!!!!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Century Gothic', sans-serif;">OK, had to SNEAK in for an EDIT cause Jeremy snuck another comment in….that makes 3? Or is it 4 for him?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-4760004697059057482005-07-01T13:33:00.006-04:002010-11-17T16:40:53.855-05:00My Life is An Open Book : Putting My Cards on the Table<div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">My Life is Now an Open Book<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">My life is now an open book. I am throwing all my cards out on the table. There seems to be a lot of this going on in Blogland these last few days. But, I have a lot I need to get off my chest right now. This has been brewing for a few days, so watch out. Be warned there will be a few curse words. I do not mean to offend, but if you can not deal, then its really simple, stop reading now. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">I have always been myself in my writing. And as we are seeing everyone on <st1:street w:st="on"><st1:address w:st="on">Blogville Drive</st1:address></st1:street>, people want us all to be real, just be ourselves. Be true. I have been. But, by being me, and writing the exact way I feel at that moment in time, for whatever was in life going on around me, that made me a very open book and a very vulnerable one at that. I knew what I was getting into. I welcomed all comments good or bad. But, one person can take things to far and just ruin it for everyone. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">I have always wanted to be a writer. I never really thought my words were good enough to ever get published, but it was still fun for me. I have been writing journals since I was about 9. I have kept every single one. These days I type it and save it to a disk. I love being able to go back in those moments, relive them. Within those pages are many stories, life, poetry, song lyrics, etc. As I got older, I got into erotica. This is not anything new for me. My writing is also a reason why I went back to school to obtain a liberal arts degree. I wanted to develop my writing skills to a higher level, while broadening my quest for knowledge. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">Whether or not I ever become a “real” writer, one never knows. But I seriously doubt it. But, that is ok if I don’t. I will always write, even if it is just for me. But, I will always be a better person for furthering my education.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">When I first noticed Yahoo 360, I was a little unsure of it. But, it seemed a cool way to spruce up my yahoo profile. Slowly it started to become a fun outlet. In the beginning I had few friends, and no one posted comments. But, as I grew into it, so did my friends as well as the comments. I started to explore my friends list, and their friends, and so on. I began to see other forms of writing and talent. That was an inspiration, which gave me hope. Even if I wasn’t a published writer, this gave me as audience. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">Now, let me tell you a little about me. Some background information if you will. I am NOT asking for a pity party. I am NOT asking anyone to feel sorry for me. I am so beyond that. But, I fear that maybe I have given you all the wrong idea about me and that make me feel like I have failed myself in some way.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">Ok, here goes. Ready????? From the time I was a small child, until I was 12 years old I was molested by my father. I did not tell my mother until I was 16. As bad as this may sound, to this day I wish I never told her. Maybe they would still be married, who knows. I told my mother out of anger. I was pissed off at my father for following me and my boyfriend to a party where we were drinking. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">My parents and I went to therapy. And for years everything seemed perfect. We were working through our issues. When I was 18 and graduated high school my parents moved to <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Michigan</st1:place></st1:state> to be closer to their family. I decided to stay in OK and live with my high school boyfriend. We were together all through high school. In my heart, despite his cheating, lies, mental, emotional, verbal and physical abuse, I thought he was the one. I felt like I was damaged because of what my father did; I felt that no one else would want me. That lasted 3 months. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">My mother had enough, her and my father rented a u-haul and drove down and then moved my ass back to MI. I lived there a year. I found out way too much about my fathers family. Seems sexual abuse was a common occurrence. Uncles, cousins, mothers, brothers….I wanted to get as far away from that as possible. One thing, I did become really close to my cousin. But, I missed my friends and my life back in OK. When I told my mom I was going to move back, she told me she wanted to come too. To this day, I do not know the reason she left my dad, and I am sure I never will. We got back to OK, I was 19 and my parents divorced. My mother and I ended up here in <st1:city w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Stillwater</st1:place></st1:city> for a job with the company we worked for. I also ended up in college. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">College was the BEST time of my life. I admit I partied. I partied and drank A LOT. I slept around a lot. I am not ashamed of it. I will NEVER trade those experiences. I learned a lot about myself and my sexuality. At the same time I was battling my Demons. Demons that would later come back to haunt me. I was an aggressive girl, dealing with a lot of anger. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">8 years ago, I met my husband, Marcus. I was just getting out of a seriously sexual in nature relationship. With Marcus, I found some peace within myself. I did not have to be angry at the world. I didn’t have to be aggressive in my sexuality. Over the course of 8 years I learned to love, with passion. I saw a side of myself, which I never saw before. I would like to think that I was a better person with him, and because of him.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">About 3 years or so ago, the cousin that I had became so close to in MI told me some news that sent me over the edge. It forever changed my world. She said it was time someone told me the truth, and that she just couldn’t deal with me not knowing anymore. She told me, my father, the one that abused me, was not really my father after all. He had adopted me. WTF??? I confronted my mother. I was so angry. Here was this man that did something so bad to me, and wasn’t even my biological father. And how could my own mother and the rest of the family not ever tell me about it?? Life was a mess. My mother did not want to tell me anything about my real dad. She said, “”He didn’t want you then, he doesn’t want you know”” But, I had to find out for myself.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">Once I moved out and in with Marcus, I got a little more serious about my search and with my cousins help, we found him. I sent him a letter. Weeks later I got a phone call and a letter. He explained his side of the story. And he wanted to build a relationship. I had a half brother and sister. Great. Since I was an only child growing up, I welcomed siblings. But, then one day a few weeks before Thanksgiving, I came home from work to message on the machine. It was him telling me to never call or contact him or the family again. It ruined my world, but I respected that, and to this day – never contacted them. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">Meanwhile, here was me and Marcus, starting a life together. Just moving in together. But, being alone in a house with a man posed to be a problem. Those Demons came and took total control of my life. I started having nightmares, I was having a hard time concentrating at work, I was always angry and picking fights, I was having flashbacks, and even remembering things I had long forgotten. It was hard. I didn’t want to be touched. I was always scared. I became emotionally unattached. I developed an eating disorder and became obsessed with my weight. I had dropped to 150. Anyone who has seen me in person will know I am just naturally a big girl, and being at that weight was not good for me. I didn’t care. I used Weight Watchers as my excuse. I hid behind it. Telling myself and others I was on a diet, changing my life. I was obsessed with my body. I couldn’t make myself throw up, so I went the other direction and became addicted to laxatives. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">I landed myself into a shrink’s office and began therapy. Marcus came with me at times. I wanted him to understand it was not him. He did not cause this; it was due to what happened to me. Depression, Post Traumatic Stress, ADHD, Panic Attacks, Eating Disorder and Generalized Anxiety Disorder are just a few of the things I was diagnosed with. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">That December, Marcus and I got married. This December, New Years Eve, will be year #3.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">The deeper I got into therapy, the more I began to see things around me for what they really were. I had to rebuild a relationship with Marcus, my Mother, my Father, and get closure on my biological father. It was a very long and bumpy road. I hit many obstacles. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">Once those layers were lifted, I began to see part of me was not really me, but the person I had morphed into over the years. The person that was into everything Marcus was into, forgetting the things she used to love and adore. I became this person I thought I was supposed to be for him. I lost myself. I had to find me again. I had to be me. Little by little, ME started to surface, and it felt good. I was glad to be finding me. I stayed on that path, and Marcus totally understood. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">Let me also throw in here that Marcus and I, the entire time we were dating, and now that we were married, we have never spent more then a few hours at a time together. With school and full time jobs we were always on a different schedule. And then, when he was working nights, we NEVER saw each other. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">Earlier this year, it took its toll on us. Or rather me. I was finally at peace with my past. On the road to getting better and finding me. He wasn’t there for me. I tried, oh how I tried. After time, it was pointless. It seemed to push me further and further away. Eventually it landed me in the arms of someone else. Yes, I had an affair that lasted about 4 months. Now, I am sure this is gonna get the gossip going but the truth is, I began to question my love and marriage. I tried to leave. I wanted to leave. I did not want to be in this marriage anymore. I just did not feel like I was totally in love with him. Yes, I LOVED him but was in enough for a marriage? Was it the right kind of love? He is a very patient, loving, caring, patient and sweet man. We are exact opposites. I am very outgoing, he is much more reserved. I felt that he did not deserve to have a wife that was going to betray him and question his love. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">When the day came for me to leave, the cards were all out on the table. He had told me that HE HAD AN AFFAIR, too a while back. He felt like the whole what goes around comes around was in full circle. He felt like he was just getting what he deserved. The way I look at him has changed forever. He did not want me to leave. He wanted to move past this and work things out together. I agreed to stay and try. But, with one breath my entire outlook on him had changed. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">Honestly, and this may make me seem bad in your eyes, but I am being honest. I DO NOT have any regrets about my affair. I am sorry for the pain, but not for what it brought me. You see, I believe that everything happens for a reason. If this did not happen, I would not know about his affair. We were able to get all our feelings out in the open. We were able to openly discuss my sexuality, all of it. Out. It opened both our eyes. Marcus changed shifts at work so we could have more time together and have normal hours at home. We have also started going to church. With that came a whole new group of wonderful people that are now in our lives. We are spending more time together now then we have in 8 years. We are having to get to know each other all over again. And this time I am being myself. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">So, I keep talking about my sexuality. Let me explain. I am a very open person. I like things that may not be considered the norm, but are fun to me. I like things spicy, I like it different. Some say kinky. It has taken me a long time to be comfortable with it and see that I was not alone in the things I liked. I am not a weirdo. I make no apologies. I understand the things I like are not for all. And that’s ok. That’s what makes us all unique. I don't pass judgment; we all have our own fetishes. The downside is that Marcus is not at all like me. This has been a little struggle for us, but together we are trying. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">I guess my erotic stories have been an outlet for my thoughts. Again, those stories are not for all. And that is ok. You don't have to read them. You can pass over them and move on. But just because you don't like them, you think I am a freak, think I am nasty and dirty - do not give you the right to pass judgment on me and send me hate mail. Only GOD can judge me. I did not force you to read it; so therefore, I should not be forced to see your opinion in my message box. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">Questions have come to the surface abut me and how can my husband allow our bedroom to be on display? Well, he knows I write. He has seen me do it. But, something most people are not getting is that these stories are a work of FICTION. My imagination. They are not a look into my bedroom. My bedroom is a completely different world.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">Another question that has been thrown at me is it how can I love my husband but then write stories, whole blogs, and poems about other men. And what about the whole soul mate blog – how can you say he is not your soul mate, say you love him and still sleep next to him at night?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">It is like this: As I have said, and I will say it again, I LOVE Marcus. At times I think he deserves better then me. I start to doubt myself. Maybe I don't love him the way married people are supposed to love. These are MY Demons, and I wrestle with them daily. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">My stories are fictional. Some of them were written in the past, some even LONG BEFORE Marcus. Nuff said.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">All my life I have had more guy friends then girls. I was more of a tomboy, more into sports then being a cheerleader. I was not a prissy girly girl. I got along with the guys much better. I have some very awesome friends in my life. On and offline. They have been with me through thick and thin. And I love each and every one of my friends. I have many levels of friendship and love in my network. A completely different love then the love I have for Marcus. When one of these friends does something that hurts me, doesn’t talk to me for long lengths of time, does something I don't like, I blog about it. I get it out. It may not make sense to you, but it does to me so stop reading between the lines thinking something is there that isn’t. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">As for the soul mate theory perhaps you need to go back to that post from a few days ago and re-read it. Being a soul mate has nothing to do with LOVE. It has to do with a very strong, intense connection. When you have it, you just know it. It is not something you can put into words to describe. You can feel this with a male or female. This connection is said to mean that in a past life, the two of you were connected somehow, and now you are being drawn back together in life. If you believe in that. If not, that’s fine, but I do. Now, I am sorry to say that I do not have this connection with Marcus. So, I don't know him from a past life. That’s OK. I know him NOW and we will be connected in the next life. Nuff said.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">Does Marcus know I chat online?? YES! Why is that so hard for anyone to believe? He has sat in here with me while I chatted. He’s been on <st1:place w:st="on">Cam</st1:place> with me before. ((get your mind out of the gutter)) I have no reason to hide anything from him.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">I don't judge you and your life. Things you like, don't like. Things you believe and don't. I should not have to even be writing a blog like this and explaining myself to you. But, apparently it needs to be put out there. The ONLY one I WILL allow to judge me is GOD.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">Having said that, I have to now tell you that this same cousin, who has been with me through thick and thin, seems to want to play God and pass her judgment to me and my blogs. I have always welcomed her comments and listened to her opinions. But, when she came at me the other night, she was just down right mean. She said I was conceited. UM- what??? Anyone that really knows me knows I am the most insecure person. I SO DO NOT think highly of myself at all. So, I have no clue where this was coming from. She then went on to say I was just wanting attention and getting it any way I could get it. NO! I was not using 360 as an attention magnet like that. That is NOT what all of this was about. Has everyone, including her missed the ENTIRE POINT of my writing? But wait, it gets better. She proceeded to tell me I was just a whore; Marcus was a fool for staying with me. She said the pictures on my blog were just slutty and trashy. WTF???<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">All this came out when she saw me and Jeremy’s collaboration together on our blogs the other night. She said writing with Jeremy was cheating on my husband. I am still trying to figure that one out. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">Marcus knew. He read it. I even told him how honored I was that someone with Jeremy’s talent thought I was talented and worthy enough to work with. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">So, maybe she just wanted her 15 seconds of fame. Who knows? Well, here it is. I hope it was worth it. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">Let’s remember back, technically she is not my cousin, nor even a blood relative. So, squash all that blood is thicker then water shit cause it is not gonna work around here. Not this time. Once she came at me like this and I tried to explain, her not listening….I basically said I don't need this in my life. She said I was toxic. I think she must have been talking about herself. I have never in my life said these kind of things to her. And Lord knows, she has done MANY things that I do not approve of or liked. I had no choice but to just tell her she was dead to me. Never talk to me again. Mean bitch, I know. But, I will not allow anyone to talk to me like that. There will be repercussions if you do.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">She had to reply to that. Told me that was fine, I was dead to her. And it was my loss because I am losing a wonderful person. Fuck that. Ummmmm NO! Good people do not attack, call out to others, make assumptions, pass judgment, call them names – anyway, that’s done. She’s gone. End of story.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">This has just about got me to the point of never posting another blog again. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">This anger has been brewing within me for a few days – and now here is my great novel. My open book.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">QUESTIONS??? Just ASK me. That ALL you have to do, it’s as simple as that. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">Now…..WHERES MY SOUL SISTER???..........MEL????????<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">I need a drink now, non alcoholic of course, so that all my BA/AA friends can stop by later.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">Much Love – thanks to those who are my REAL friends.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: 'Verdana Ref', sans-serif;">You know who you are.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-74905687494515419892005-02-10T12:55:00.000-05:002010-11-11T22:59:47.628-05:00Poetry In Motion: Master<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">Master –<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"> </span><br /><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">He is the one who shall protect me<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">He is the one that shall keep me from harm<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">He is the one who will take me<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;"> And make me new<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">Master-<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">He is the one that found me<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">He is the one that touched upon my darkness<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">He is the one that welcomed me with open arms<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">Master-<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">He is the one for whom my name changed<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">He is the one I want to honor<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">He is the one for whom I want to be enslaved<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">All I ever wanted was for someone to love me<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">To let me<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">Be me<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">Someone that understands<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">Me as I am<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">Will take my hand<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">And lead the way<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">Guide me<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">Not so much chastise me<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">Master-<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">I love you for all that you are<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">The person you are to me<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">And with everything I do<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">I hope you can see<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Calligraph421 BT';"><span style="font-family: 'Baskerville Old Face', serif; font-size: 16pt;">©C.H.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-85227152672110351092000-07-29T13:23:00.001-04:002010-12-23T13:24:44.123-05:00J. K. Rowling - Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire<iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0439139600&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 21px;">Harry Potter And The Goblet of Fire. </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Book #4, is said to e part of a 7 part series. So now, comes the wait for book 5. How long will we have to wait? I am already eager. Book number 4 has left us hanging on....knowing somewhat to expect in the next installment.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">I don't want to give to much away in the book, as so many others have done. I got the book yesterday afternoon. I started reading, and I couldn't put it down. As with all Harry's books, he sucks you in. Making you turn page after page. I was up until 2:30 this morning finishing the last page. I had no idea where the time had gone, nor how it was that I managed to read all 734 pages without my eye ball falling out of the socket. But I knew as soon as I got up this morning I had to give praise to the long awaited book.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">They just keep getting better, and bigger.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Highly recommended!!</span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-2812432231158909532000-07-18T13:30:00.004-04:002010-12-23T13:32:02.908-05:00Bone Collector by Jeffery Deaver<iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0451188454&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Movie review based on the book by the same name. Still pertains to the book.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">This review was written in 2000 and every word still remains the same in regards to how I feel about this movie. I have updated and edited where necessary in order to publish here on my blog.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">I wanted to see this movie in the theaters, but never got a chance. Now on</span><br /><span class="rkr">video-The Bone Collector, is in my opinion is not a drama or a horror flick. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">Parts of </span><span class="rkr">it are scary. Parts have adventure, and parts have suspense. Three words to </span><span class="rkr">describe this type of move is a who did it film. Be advised, it will creep you out </span><span class="rkr">as you are taken in and out of this serial killers mind. I myself did as I know people</span><br /><span class="rkr">who have seen it did, and those that will see it are bound to do.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><span> </span>In the beginning</span> <span class="rkr">you will point to one character as the killer. As the movie goes on, you will have </span><span class="rkr">changed your mind about five times. Then, towards the end, just when you think</span> <span class="rkr">you finally have it figured out- BANG!!! You are wrong!!! And that is what is so</span> <span class="rkr">great about this movie. It doesn't leave you wondering, there are no dull moments.</span> <span class="rkr">You will sit on the edge of your chair, waiting, watching, and thinking. Your mind forever changing.</span><br /><br /><br /><span class="rkr">The main charter, Lincoln Rhyme (Link for short), is played by Denzel Washington.</span><br /><span class="rkr">Link is the best in his field. He is known worldwide for solving the hardest murders. Serial</span><br /><span class="rkr">killers are his specialty. He is smart and generally good-looking. He shares his knowledge by teaching and writing books.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">One day, the worst happens. Link is paralyzed while investigating an underground</span><br /><span class="rkr">crime scene, which is shown in the beginning of the movie. "The Bone Collector"</span><br /><span class="rkr">allows us to become attached to Link as he comes to terms with his life as an</span><br /><span class="rkr">invalid after the accident. All he can move is one finger. Could you imagine only being able to move one finger?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><span> </span>It is amazing to me, that</span> <span class="rkr">the main character can be as good as an actor, so controlling, so on key with the</span> <span class="rkr">movie, when all he does is lie in a bed, talk, and move a finger on a computer</span> <span class="rkr">mouse. He also has a tube he can breathe into and move that allows him to do a few</span> <span class="rkr">simple tasks. He doesn't want to live. Link feels he has no purpose. Then, a serial</span> <span class="rkr">killer has shown its ugly face. And a new woman has shown her pretty face. Having</span> <span class="rkr">no leads Link has been asked to share is expertise in a murder investigation that </span><span class="rkr">has his colleagues on the police force baffle. One character doesn't want his help.</span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">A well known citizens death quickly turns into several serial murders. Each one</span> <span class="rkr">leaving a separate and important clue. This is where the who, what, when and where the next murder will</span> <span class="rkr">take place begins. Some are right, and some turn out to be DEAD wrong. </span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">Angelina Jolie plays the policewoman, Amelia Donaghy, who stumbles onto the first</span> <span class="rkr">body. This is the pretty woman. Her character really wants no part is this case, but</span> <span class="rkr">Link pushes her. He feels she has a gift. She slowly trusts him, and becomes his</span> <span class="rkr">body in the film. She becomes his access to the outside world.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">With this partnership, each gains</span> <span class="rkr">something. Amelia is faced with her own insecurities as she is pushed further. She</span> <span class="rkr">is forced to see her full potential. She also begins to develop feelings for Link. First </span><span class="rkr">it is pity, which then turns into adoration, then to love. She in turns gives Link a</span> <span class="rkr">reason to go on. He begins to see there still can be a fulfilling life for him.</span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">It is a mystery, suspense, and even a love story. I found that I was waiting each</span> <span class="rkr">minute to see what would happen next. This movie does have a few graphic parts,</span> <span class="rkr">but it really is not too blood, guts, or gory as one might expect. It is a long roller</span> <span class="rkr">coaster ride to the end that will leave you hanging on and begging for more.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><span> </span>I highly recommend this movie to anyone. It has everything. The story is like no other. </span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-42279002503866835042000-07-18T13:28:00.000-04:002010-12-23T13:28:55.863-05:00Shaft by Ernest Tidyman<iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0747537771&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">Book review based on movie. Movie based on the book.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">Shaft. The all infamous Private Dick. You know him. You love him or you hate him. People of all ages have had the pleasure of hearing</span> <span class="rkr">about Shaft, at least once in your life. Mr. Richard Roundtree was a household name no matter</span> what <span class="rkr">your race. He was smooth, slick, and sexy for those times. </span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">Now, director John Singleton had the privilege of remaking this movie. Update and</span> <span class="rkr">modernize were the two key elements. And who did he get to play Shaft? He couldn't have</span> <span class="rkr">picked a better leading character. Between Laurence Fishburn and Samuel L. Jackson, it</span> <span class="rkr">was hard to pick. Both are excellent actors who have played all types of rolls. But, since</span> <span class="rkr">Laurence was in the Matrix, I was glad to see Samuel play Shaft.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">Samuel has to be one of</span> <span class="rkr">the best African American Male actors today. He has experienced great diversity and has</span> <span class="rkr">been able to overcome so many obstacles. His acting credentials hold a list a mile long. </span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">It took me a few weeks after the release, but I finally was able to see this movie. It was worth every penny.</span> <span class="rkr">I even wished it would have been longer. I was very impressed. The story line was pretty typical.</span><br /><span class="rkr">Good cop with bad attitude in search of bad rich kid who committed murder and search for drug</span> <span class="rkr">lords. Not to mention a few bad cops. He is able to clear them all out with one big plan.</span> <span class="rkr">Shaft shoots, and you will notice he never misses. He is smart. Smooth. Suave. Sexy. And</span> <span class="rkr">just down right, bad. </span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">The story line it's self is predictable and typical. A cameo by the real Shaft, who plays</span> <span class="rkr">Samuel's "uncle" was well loved by the audience in my theater. Yes folks, I actually saw this movie in the theaters. I do recommend this</span> <span class="rkr">movie. I wish everyone would have been able to witness it in its full form with theater watching. Now you will just have to settle for a flat panel TV and a DVD player.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">This movie is full of action. There was never slow or dull moment.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">Christian Bale fans take note: he plays the right white boy who did the deed and Shaft is going to make sure he gets what he deserves.</span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">I almost forgot to mention the catch phrase one-liner "it's my duty to please that booty." and "Can you did it?". You will be sure to repeat those a few times just for laughs after the show is over.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /><span class="rkr">Make this movie a must see if you have not.</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-29584067052233813402000-07-08T12:10:00.005-04:002010-12-23T12:17:36.046-05:00The Reader by Bernhard Schlink<iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0753801728&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">Basically I can sum it up like this. I was disappointed. I wished I skipped this book. And </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">what was Oprah thinking? She knew millions of people would read this book. I want to know how </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">many of us actually understood it. Or even liked it? I wouldn't waste your money on this </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">one. Borrow it from someone or get it from the library. Or better yet, just skip it altogether.</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">The book was written in German, and translated to English. Maybe things got lost during </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">translation. There are no emotions in the book, it is all very cold. The pages are a little hard to follow</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">and a lot on the boring side. It is a short book, so it won't take but a few hours of</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">reading time to get through it. The story is sad and heartbreaking; you might need a tissue if you can get to those parts.</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">I keep a list of books Oprah recommends. I check them off as I go. I make notes here and</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">there. If she picks another by this author...I will be sure to pass. Maybe I am just being too</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">harsh, and am missing something. I just can't see me being so dense that I missed the</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">whole point of the story.</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">Michael becomes ill. He is 14. He meets Hanna, who is in her 30's. As the story goes, they</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">have a love affair. The title, The Reader must come from the fact that she likes for him to</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">read to her.</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">One day, she is gone. No trace of her. Michael never forgets Hanna. Flash forward to his college years. One of his college</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;">a</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">ssignments is to watch a trial. Hanna is the woman on trial. The trial ends up being half of the</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">book. Michael describes the feelings that arrive after seeing her again, so many years later. Now he learns the truth of her</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">past.</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">Hanna is sentenced to prison, and Michael's life has gone on. He gets married, has a kid, and</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">then gets divorced. He is in contact with Hanna while she is in prison. It is then we learn</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">she cannot read. That is why he would always have to read to her. He makes her tapes, </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">and reads her books. Through the tapes she learned to read by following him along on the</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">tapes with the books. When her time comes to be released, he is called upon by the prison</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">guards to come and get her. When he gets there, she has killed herself.</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-2499946723719515472000-07-08T12:08:00.003-04:002010-12-23T12:10:00.598-05:00Gap Creek by Robert Morgan<iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0743203631&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">I was on a mission to get caught up on some good reading, so I picked a few of </span><span class="rkr">Oprah's picks. And I was very pleased with this pick. It took me a little while to get into it.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"></span><br /><span class="rkr">It started off pretty good, and then sort of went downhill for a little while. Usually I give up on </span>books like this. But something told me to keep reading, and I am glad I did. The story was very heartfelt. When you read about how the main character, Julie, was brought up to <span class="rkr">live, it will make you value your own life much more. It teaches us to be thankful for what </span>we have and don't worry so much about what we don't.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /><span class="rkr">Julie Harmon and her family Mama, Papa, one baby brother Masenier, older sister Lou, </span><span class="rkr">younger sister Rosie, and baby sister Carolyn, all live in Flat Rock. Mesenier being the </span><span class="rkr">only boy, he was spoiled by the entire family.</span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">In the beginning of the story, Julie is just teenager. We dive right into the drama her life</span><br /><span class="rkr">faces when we read about her little brother passing away. Once he is gone, they begin to</span><br /><span class="rkr">spoil the youngest sister, Carolyn. In the fall Papa takes ill. And mama is not able to do the</span><br /><span class="rkr">things like she used to. Knowing if she does not take charge and do her father’s work, it</span><br /><span class="rkr">won't get done. So Julie, works as hard as any man to help keep her family warm and fed</span><br /><span class="rkr">during the tough times. Papa passes away, but he is proud of his daughter.</span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">Julie meets a young man named Hank. She gets married young and is afraid to leave her</span><br /><span class="rkr">family, knowing it will be tough for them to get things done. But Lou has taken over what</span><br /><span class="rkr">she can, and Rosie tries to help. Hank and Julie move on to a town in the Carolina's called</span><br /><span class="rkr">Gap Creek. They live in a house with a man called Mr. Pendergast. Hank works all day</span><br /><span class="rkr">long, while Julie is to take care of the house. Mr. Pendergast had a wife that had passed on</span><br /><span class="rkr">4 years earlier, so the house had been left to go bad. Julie had a lot of work ahead of her,</span><br /><span class="rkr">but she knew she could work as hard as any man. Mr. Pendergast was not easy to get</span><br /><span class="rkr">along with at first, but they all soon learned to adapt.</span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">So after moving in, Ma Richard's- Hank's mom- was coming for a visit. Julie was nervous</span><br /><span class="rkr">and not feeling well. She had cooked a wonderful dinner and they were late for it. So the</span><br /><span class="rkr">dinner sat, and began to get bad. By the time they had arrived, the crust on the chicken</span><br /><span class="rkr">had gotten soggy, the biscuits had gotten soft and there was no fresh coffee, all from</span><br /><span class="rkr">waiting so long, but Ma was making nasty remarks to hurt Julie as if it was her fault. The</span><br /><span class="rkr">next day she had decided to butcher a pig, for a nice dinner. Mr. Pendergast had helped</span><br /><span class="rkr">her a little, but she had done all the cutting and cleaning. Once all the slabs of meat had</span><br /><span class="rkr">been salted down, Julie began to cook dinner, as well as boil the lard. Ma Richard's had</span><br /><span class="rkr">decided to help. Julie later knocks a few jars together, and a fire begins. Grease fires are</span><br /><span class="rkr">the worst fires. Pouring water on them will only make things worse. And Ma Richard's</span><br /><span class="rkr">pours water on the fire. All it did was spread it. Everyone is out of the house, Mr.</span><br /><span class="rkr">Pendergast runs back in for his hidden jar of pension money. They finally drag him out.</span><br /><span class="rkr">Burned.</span><br /><br /><br /><span class="rkr">That night he passes on. Julie is pregnant at 17. Her and Hank have no idea where they are</span><br /><span class="rkr">to go now. She gets the kitchen cleaned and back in order. Wondering if and when the</span><br /><span class="rkr">heirs would appear. One day a man from Greenville, Jerrold James and attorney came by</span><br /><span class="rkr">and told Julie if she was to pay the taxes on the house, her and hank could stay until the</span><br /><span class="rkr">heirs showed up. Otherwise they would have to leave now. Julie did not want to leave in</span><br /><span class="rkr">her condition. She gives the man the pension jar, and he writes her a receipt. Hank is so</span><br /><span class="rkr">angry. They've been taken. The whole town though Mr. Pendergast was funny for hiding</span><br /><span class="rkr">his pension money all these years. And now, someone was finally able to scam it away</span><br /><span class="rkr">from his house.</span><br /><br /><br /><span class="rkr">Hank has lost his job. In a house that doesn't belong to them, pregnant with no place to</span><br /><span class="rkr">go, and no money. A person would want to quit, but Julie is determined to make the best</span><br /><span class="rkr">of it and start all over again. They decided to stay, in hopes of Hank getting a job and</span><br /><span class="rkr">making it through the winter. Julie takes inventory on the food supply. Mr. Pendergast</span><br /><span class="rkr">seems to have kept a lot hidden. Looked to be enough for winter. Times will be tough.</span><br /><span class="rkr">Christmas is coming, and there are no funds for gifts.</span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">Sometime later, Julie has more visitors. Caroline Glascock and her husband Baylus. This</span><br /><span class="rkr">time, Hank was home. The woman claimed to be Mr. Pendergast step daughter. She wants</span><br /><span class="rkr">to sell the house, she wants the hidden money, and she wants whatever else she can fit into</span><br /><span class="rkr">her bag. But she settles for renting it till a buyer is found. As payment she takes a brooch</span><br /><span class="rkr">and necklace Julie got from her Mama and Hank is to use his tools to help fix the place</span><br /><span class="rkr">after the baby is born and it is time to sell. That will be about March. So Caroline goes through the</span><br /><span class="rkr">house taking what she can, and quickly leaving. She says she would mail a receipt, but</span><br /><span class="rkr">there was never a receipt.</span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">Julie's sisters pay a visit. Lou has gotten married. Mama has sent supplies. Julie is trying to</span><br /><span class="rkr">get Carolyn to do more work. Now that it will just be her, Rosie, and Mama. One day</span><br /><span class="rkr">Hank, Carolyn, and Julie decide to burn the field. Carolyn gets too close to the flame and</span><br /><span class="rkr">catches fire. Julie runs to the rescue, covering the fire, and her nice dress with mud.</span><br /><br /><br /><span class="rkr">Christmas came and went. Ice storms came; damages trees, and then they went. It rained. And</span><br /><span class="rkr">it rained. While sitting in the living room, water started to come in the house. In a matter</span><br /><span class="rkr">of minutes the house was flooded. They almost didn't make it to the barn in time. After</span><br /><span class="rkr">the water had gone down, there was nothing left. The house was a mess and everything</span><br /><span class="rkr">was ruined. It was time, again, to start over.</span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">And there is so much more Julie must go through. Much more to rebuild from. Bad times</span><br /><span class="rkr">to good times.</span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">And that is only half of the book. I feel this is a really good book. So much better than I</span><br /><span class="rkr">have summarized it. Hank and Julie fall down, but they came right back out again. There</span><br /><span class="rkr">are a few parts, that seem to drag, but they are all worth it when the story picks right back</span><br /><span class="rkr">up again. This is a roller coaster of a novel.</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-5867777765380849762000-07-08T12:07:00.000-04:002010-12-23T12:08:44.558-05:00Anita Shreve: The Pilot's Wife<iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0316788228&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">This is another of those books. We read it because Oprah's Book Club told us too. For many thats how it was. Someone suggests a title, hundreds agree and we bite. I do not remember how I came across this novel. I was a member of a book club in 2000, the year I read it. The book hits close to home. Not for me personally, at that time. I was not married, nor did I have kids. </span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">Too many people today are committing adultery. And this is the basic topic for this novel.</span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">Kathryn Lyon has the perfect life. She has a wonderful husband Jack, a </span>trans-Atlantic pilot<span class="rkr"> as well as a fifteen year old daughter Mattie. They live in the house she spent so much time dreaming about. Kathryn had the perfect family. One evening, Jacks plane gets blown up in the air ten miles from the coast of Ireland. He obviously doesn't make it. As her life is turned upside down, she is forced to see the small pieces to the big puzzle. Despite the claims of pilot error and then suicide, she finds her perfect husband had another family. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"></span><br /><br /><span class="rkr">I felt the pain and the heartache with every page I turned. Then, despite the fact I could not relate to such a horrible experience I could still feel every tear she cried. Wondering just as she did about every question regarding the who, what, how, where, when and why? Now, having gone through a marriage, divorce and dealing with adultery many of those questions have been answered but still I feel no differently in the sorrow and sharing of the tears.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">So much heartache surrounds the issue. The loss of a loved one. A loved one you thought you knew inside and out. A daughter that can't cope. A daughter you have no idea how to deal with much less try dealing with your own feelings. Then to find out why the plane is blown only to find out about another family. Too much for one woman to handle...but she does. Somehow Kathryn finds her inner strength. She moves forward to seek out those answers we all want to know as well. It just proves to show that we may not know anyone as well as we may think we do.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /><span class="rkr">The beginning pages are a bit slow for some, but I urge you to keep going. Don't forget a box of tissues. This one is sure to make you cry.</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-30517137149231833482000-07-05T12:06:00.001-04:002010-12-23T12:07:25.588-05:00The Deep End of the Ocean by Jacquelyn Mitchard<iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0140286276&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">Have a tissue handy. You will need it for this book. I picked this book from a book club flyer. It had a very brief description. A pretty basic paragraph stating that a woman loses her son, only to have him appear years later. It sounded interesting. This was long before the movie, and long before Oprah had decided to add it to her book club list. Lucky for me, I read the book before I watched the movie. Don't get me wrong, the movie is really good, but it is only a slight comparison to the book. I highly recommend reading this book. You will begin reading and get hooked before the third chapter, and before you know it you've gone through a box of tissues. Never judge a book by its cover, or its title.</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">The Deep End of the Ocean begins in June of 1985 with our husband and wife Beth and Pat. Beth is trying to make arrangements for her fifteen year high school reunion. She wants to take the three children Ben, Vincent and Kerry to Chicago for this reunion. Pat thinks this is the extreme, but he will keep this to himself. He is looking forward to having forty-eight hours to himself, to do as he pleases.</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">Beth arrives at the hotel to check in, with all three children in tow. She becomes overwhelmed with excitement when she begins to run in to old friends. Just within the first chapter, the author has sucked you in. You the reader can begin to imagine the chaos going around all the excitement from the reunion as if you were there yourself. There are bellboys all over getting and bringing in bags. There are people running around trying to figure out where they are to go. <span> </span>There are old classmates screaming with excitement at the site of seeing old friends. Beth is getting frustrated, and has yet to check in. She then asks Vincent to please watch Ben while she goes to the counter to check in. He doesn't really want to, and you are already under the impression he wanted to just stay home with dad. Beth is gone ten minutes at the max. When she returns Vincent is standing alone. He never even noticed Ben's departure.</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">The next chapter jumps right in to tracking Ben. And for pages and pages, we have no luck. Hours go by. Days go by turning into months, then years. Vincent begins to get pushed aside. And as he gets older, he can't seem to keep himself out of trouble. He spends his entire life thinking it was his fault Ben was lost. Pat blames only Beth, and the marriage begins to take a turn for the worst. Beth, tries to go on with life, and only blames herself. She must also live with the fact that everyone deep down blames her as well. </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">Life has gone on, without Ben. The hope is still there, but it has been ten years. Statistically kids are not found, dead or alive, after a few years. Beth has poured herself into her photography, just to deal with life. She has developed a wonderful eye. This is a key element in the finding of Ben. </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">One day, out of nowhere, this boy shows up and wants to cut the grass. You know she sees something in the boy’s eyes. You can feel exactly what she is feeling. Is it possible? Is this Ben? She tells the kid to come back, and she begins asking where he came from. He's not so new in town, and lives right down the road. He comes back to mow the lawn and she is sneaking pictures of him, comparing him. She contacts the law...and off they go.</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">We learn the boy from down the street is her missing son, Ben. How can we all deal with the fact that he was right under our noses all along? To know how this all came about- you have to read the book. In real life, this is a million to one chance of ever happening. That is one crucial point to keep you interested. Ben comes home. Ten years later. Says good-bye to the life he knew, and hello to one he does not. Everything happens so fast, no one can catch up.</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">The remainder of the book tries to catch up. It details everyone's life now that Ben is back. Life has changed and is turned upside down, just as it was ten years ago when he vanished. </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">You have to read the book for the rest!! A definite page turner.</span></span>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-44060633369561499922000-07-05T12:04:00.001-04:002010-12-23T12:05:51.210-05:00The Book of Ruth by Jane Hamilton<iframe align="left" frameborder="0" marginheight="0" marginwidth="0" scrolling="no" src="http://rcm.amazon.com/e/cm?t=freelan09-20&o=1&p=8&l=bpl&asins=0385265700&fc1=000000&IS2=1&lt1=_blank&m=amazon&lc1=0000FF&bc1=000000&bg1=FFFFFF&f=ifr" style="align: left; height: 245px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 5px; width: 131px;"></iframe><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">I read this book quite a few years ago after ordering it from a book club. There was no description about this book so I have no memory of why I decided to pick it. But I did, and eventually I read it. Well, I tried to read it. I made it through the first few chapters, and had to put it away. I recently saw that it was on Oprah's list. I do not know why she picked it. Scratch that, I am almost positive now she picked it because she was once abused and tends to pick a lot of books that she can relate to. I really thought it was boring. If a book doesn't grab me by the third chapter, I call it quits. So far this is the only Oprah book club pick that I will tell you to skip. Well, out of the ones I have read. I honestly advise you to skip this one....<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">The story goes that Ruth is a bit slow. Whether Ruth is just slow because her mother has spent her life tormenting her and has not been able to catch up mentally or if she really is mildly retarded is left up to the reader to draw their own conclusions. Ruth is a good character and you cannot help but feel for her, however this was just not a good book to read. I have read a lot of book with abused characters and nothing read as slow as this one.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">Ruth has a brother named Matt who happens to be a math prodigy. He is always in the limelight causing Ruth to always get pushed aside. All Ruth wants to do is get away from her mom May and see her Aunt Sid who is quite the opposite of her sister.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">As life goes forward Ruth ends up with an emotionally disturbed man named Ruby. Ruby and Ruth marry but instead of moving along into their own place, they end up living with May.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">I never made it to the end of the book so I personally cannot tell you what happens. Reading some reviews it seems there is a happy ending and things do turn around for Ruth.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">Now that I am a bit older, have grown a bit in my ways I wonder if it would be worth the time spent on reading the book again, giving it another chance just to see how the World of Ruth actually does turn out.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #222222; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;"><span class="rkr">Or, maybe not.</span></div>Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312theokirishchik@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-71704688804131797362010-12-27T12:33:49.063-05:002010-12-27T12:33:49.063-05:00Sounds like something to avoid even more, even aft...Sounds like something to avoid even more, even after reading your post. Thanks for the info. <br /><br />Found you via the DMS blogger forums.Reno Berkeleyhttp://renoberkeley.blogspot.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-78176790259705252172010-12-24T16:18:11.990-05:002010-12-24T16:18:11.990-05:00Oh my! I am so HONORED that you would stop by my b...Oh my! I am so HONORED that you would stop by my blog and read my review. I absolutely loved this book. I wanted to write more, but I was afraid of giving the whole story away. I liked it so much, I am passing a copy along to my mother tonight for her Christmas Eve present. I look forward to reading more of your works. You and this book have been a great inspiration for me these last couple of days. Thank You!Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-45738872503766169992010-12-23T16:37:59.593-05:002010-12-23T16:37:59.593-05:00Thank you for the review. I'm glad you liked i...Thank you for the review. I'm glad you liked it. This was my first hard back book, and I loved the cover too. I used to have each of my covers framed, but kind of let go of that. But this cover is getting framed and mounted on the wall.Donita K. Paulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09652376147614891898noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-52788136159359273782010-12-22T14:59:02.663-05:002010-12-22T14:59:02.663-05:00*hugs*
I know many nurses who have/had/had/do/does...*hugs*<br />I know many nurses who have/had/had/do/does/did take medication for depression/anxiety or something.... I was just angry to begin with and it just set me off. I am pretty much over it, but it made for a good blog story ;). I learned long ago to not listen to opinions of others when it came to my mental health.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-23901905563828623912010-12-22T13:16:13.165-05:002010-12-22T13:16:13.165-05:00Feh. I'm a nurse, and I, too, suffer from a di...Feh. I'm a nurse, and I, too, suffer from a diagnosed depressive disorder. The meds I take stabilize my moods and generally I am "normal," but sometimes...well, you know how it is, I imagine.<br />Hugs. Blow her off.mariceltnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-77706466341241113262010-12-22T12:37:09.987-05:002010-12-22T12:37:09.987-05:00Hahahaha I have Jasc PSP 6 - I love it and therefo...Hahahaha I have Jasc PSP 6 - I love it and therefore refuse to "upgrade" - tried all the other "upgrades" and love 6 the best...Marsha Siouxhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01040323358283380289marshasioux@gmail.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-33274741627186849182010-12-20T17:50:51.841-05:002010-12-20T17:50:51.841-05:00Hi,
I'm following from the blog hop.
I'd l...Hi,<br />I'm following from the blog hop.<br />I'd love a follow back at www.mikaspantry.blogspot.com<br />Thanks,<br />MikaMikahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11836006769172598876noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-13002166200864497162010-12-20T16:13:21.298-05:002010-12-20T16:13:21.298-05:00Love your blog!
Found you on the blog hop! I'm...Love your blog!<br />Found you on the blog hop! I'm your newest follower! http://aworldofcrafts.blogspot.com/Jennyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00271809834887790442noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-71355475868803695492010-12-20T11:27:44.108-05:002010-12-20T11:27:44.108-05:00You are still who you were in 2005 and so much mor...You are still who you were in 2005 and so much more. The experiences of life have changed you, causing an evolution of sorts. The present you is an updated version of your former self. True, all the pain that you have endured has shaped you, but that is not all that you are. You are more resilient and stronger than you know. Sometimes the unconscious mind refuses to give the conscious mind a clue, forcing us to seek out the best parts of ourselves (rather than just having them readily available to use at our discretion). You are the architect of your life (although there are some metal beams that were erected without your permission); you still get to mold and shape this structure to your liking. You may have to dig beneath the surface from time to time to make sure that your structure is secure. Although these excavations may unearth fear and insecurity, the exposure will only make your structure (your life) that much stronger. You are an inspiration…I can certainly attest to that!Stacey Donaldsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12817323384308051440noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-3456253332149857902010-12-19T05:12:09.729-05:002010-12-19T05:12:09.729-05:00Hi And yet I don't know your whole life I stil...Hi And yet I don't know your whole life I still can see from now that you are here sharing and that is a great way to rid yourself of what you perceive your own doing. I feel it is not so much you but more your circumstances and when you realise those words expressed in 2005 are the real you then you can regain the joy of writing once more.<br />Keep it up! and welcome to Blogplicity.<br />Alexalejandro guzmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08444725035058665346noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-33198842785650964412010-12-18T21:25:02.888-05:002010-12-18T21:25:02.888-05:00It takes pain to know pain....I have lived the wor...It takes pain to know pain....I have lived the words you have written...I am fighting that mask..I am fighting the darkness inside...I believe we are connected....I have no miracles to offer..no magic wand...but I do have a listening ear and an open heart... and I GET IT !!! As always...as always.....xoxoxoxoBongohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09476508632697640785oreosforlife@hotmail.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-3266725105843224732010-12-16T09:14:00.298-05:002010-12-16T09:14:00.298-05:00Thank you Mary for taking the time to read my stor...Thank you Mary for taking the time to read my story! Many blessings to you and Merry Christmas to you and yours!Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-8711588162475752092010-12-16T08:29:38.102-05:002010-12-16T08:29:38.102-05:00what a wonderful post! i hope you and your family...what a wonderful post! i hope you and your family have a wonderful Christmas!Maryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18181851742870395058noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-47491502268320646212010-12-15T18:25:20.406-05:002010-12-15T18:25:20.406-05:00I think I just needed someone to help me find my w...I think I just needed someone to help me find my way back, or in this case 2 someone's. It will take time to mourn those I have lost, and it has been a long process. But, this year I feel a much stronger sense of peace.<br /><br />Thank you for taking the time to read and comment!Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-11344722871405670982010-12-14T20:36:58.689-05:002010-12-14T20:36:58.689-05:00I totally get what you mean about not feeling it, ...I totally get what you mean about not feeling it, it's just too commercialised but having my son changed my view on that too. It brought the magic back to me and made me appreciate the time I can have with family and friends.<br /><br />I'm glad you've found your own spirit of Christmas again and I hope you find much more in the coming years.SJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15464641582104501391alpine_kitty@hotmail.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-11634299464237139452010-12-14T20:19:53.596-05:002010-12-14T20:19:53.596-05:00Thank you Stacey!!Thank you Stacey!!Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-73670492831377029622010-12-14T18:30:25.235-05:002010-12-14T18:30:25.235-05:00I love it!!!! It's beautiful and it speaks you...I love it!!!! It's beautiful and it speaks your truth, through and through!Stacey Donaldsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12817323384308051440noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-46796580028732914822010-12-10T17:11:10.304-05:002010-12-10T17:11:10.304-05:00Thanks for visiting my blog <a href="http://wealie...Thanks for visiting my blog <a href="http://wealie.co.uk/" rel="nofollow">Wealie's World</a>. I know exactly what you mean when you talk about how it feels to have people thank you for your words. It's a great experience and even though you'd probably still be a writer even if no one read it.Wealiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15510401022273978984noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-42666113511545590312010-12-23T12:30:58.786-05:002010-12-23T12:30:58.786-05:00Because I am merging my blogs, these are the comme...Because I am merging my blogs, these are the comments that were posted on the original post at my eBooks Nook blog which is about to be deleted. These entries will still count here!<br /><br />10 comments:<br /> AubreyLaine said...<br />I would buy the Chilewich Table Runner in Kiwi!<br /><br />aubreyfick@yahoo.com<br />December 8, 2010 5:37 PM <br /> AubreyLaine said...<br />I follow CSN on Twitter.<br />aubreyfick@yahoo.com<br />December 8, 2010 5:38 PM <br /> AubreyLaine said...<br />I follow CSN on Facebook.<br /><br />aubreyfick@yahoo.com<br />December 8, 2010 5:38 PM <br /> the Crave to Save said...<br />I would love to get a silicone muffin pan in red!<br />December 10, 2010 10:09 AM <br /> the Crave to Save said...<br />I follow you on GFC<br />gina.m.maddox (at) gmail.com<br />December 10, 2010 10:09 AM <br /> the Crave to Save said...<br />http://tctsgiveawayroundup.blogspot.com/2010/12/20-csn-code.html<br /><br />blogged 1<br />gina.m.maddox (at) gmail.com<br />December 10, 2010 10:11 AM <br /> the Crave to Save said...<br />http://tctsgiveawayroundup.blogspot.com/2010/12/20-csn-code.html<br /><br />blogged 2<br />gina.m.maddox (at) gmail.com<br />December 10, 2010 10:12 AM <br /> the Crave to Save said...<br />http://tctsgiveawayroundup.blogspot.com/2010/12/20-csn-code.html<br /><br />blogged 3<br />gina.m.maddox (at) gmail.com<br />December 10, 2010 10:12 AM <br /> the Crave to Save said...<br />i follow csn on twitter @crazyitalian0<br />gina.m.maddox (at) gmail.com<br />December 10, 2010 10:13 AM <br /> the Crave to Save said...<br />I like csn on FB! Crave to $ave<br />gina.m.maddox (at) gmail.com<br />December 10, 2010 10:14 AMChrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-9905824856407900342010-11-30T21:20:08.738-05:002010-11-30T21:20:08.738-05:00Hi Chyrstal,
Thanks for stopping by priorfatgirl...Hi Chyrstal, <br /><br />Thanks for stopping by priorfatgirl.com today and leaving your thoughts. It's really encouraging when another blogger can relate to what you are experiencing. I hope you do continue to blog, I would love to see more of your writing. I will definitely be back by here! <br /><br />Elle, A PriorFatGirlLindseyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17246992398787042889noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-3557148004504990862010-10-30T01:24:17.187-04:002010-10-30T01:24:17.187-04:00I would like to join your Nook Book Club... What a...I would like to join your Nook Book Club... What are you reading?janet leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07140490666883569593noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-3612922687435474112010-10-27T21:40:25.905-04:002010-10-27T21:40:25.905-04:00I understand your view of the news. Recently I we...I understand your view of the news. Recently I went on a "News Fast" for the entire summer! It was great! I am watching a bit more now due to the upcoming elections! Great post!<br /><br />Miki<br />www.bellabreezeartdesigns.comMikihttp://www.bellabreezeartdesigns.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-42433248871706539682010-10-25T22:36:36.681-04:002010-10-25T22:36:36.681-04:00"The niche is my life." How beautiful! ..."The niche is my life." How beautiful! Go with THAT! Write about your life, the twists and turns, ups and downs. Others will benefit and you will begin to see if there are any "sub-niches" lurking inside! LOL Good luck to you! #blogboostMartha Giffenhttp://marthagiffen.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-84805684157104822972010-10-23T16:39:14.299-04:002010-10-23T16:39:14.299-04:00Hysteria?Hysteria?Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-55333046802218629992010-10-24T02:17:45.227-04:002010-10-24T02:17:45.227-04:00I love to read, too. Just something relaxing abou...I love to read, too. Just something relaxing about a cozy blanket and a good book.Michellehttp://michelleshaeffer.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-52385405819769102202010-10-22T16:34:48.076-04:002010-10-22T16:34:48.076-04:00there is a lot of favorite hobby of mine. I don...there is a lot of favorite hobby of mine. I don't know which one the most favourite....Faysalhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05623231236127385204faysal.bin.darul@gmail.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-86338978831100177792010-10-20T14:25:53.535-04:002010-10-20T14:25:53.535-04:00I don't think I have ever watched a weight los...I don't think I have ever watched a weight loss reality show but I have watched Food Network reality shows. Does that count? :)<br /><br />I also LOVE Dancing with the Stars!!<br /><br />JeanineJeanine Byers Hoaghttp://dressyourtruth.blogspot.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-54972950999108999952010-11-11T23:17:09.594-05:002010-11-11T23:17:09.594-05:00I have been on the program, with some days not act...I have been on the program, with some days not actually on the program because of parties , I have lost 5lbs and that is with no exercise. Once I get back on my treadmill I am sure the weight will come off. I know this is not a good time of year to start a weight loss plan, but I just can't wait any longer. I am very please this far. It tastes good, its easy, pretty affordable and I can fall off the wagon and get right back on the next day.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-49421057185351618472010-10-31T13:26:30.075-04:002010-10-31T13:26:30.075-04:00I just started my first day yesterday. I bought tw...I just started my first day yesterday. I bought two starter packs so I could see if I could do it for longer than two days. This morning I was already 1 pound less, which is highly improbable but seeing a number change that quickly sure satisfied me to get up and do it again. How is the diet going for you 15 days later?Amber Harringtonnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-7602024876117357682010-10-15T03:40:50.528-04:002010-10-15T03:40:50.528-04:00Good luck with the new food adventures. :)
Two...Good luck with the new food adventures. :) <br /><br />Two other bloggers in the Ultimate Blog Challenge you might enjoy connecting with:<br />http://www.reasonablediet.com/wordpress/<br />http://www.makingitallfit.com/<br /><br />I'm working on some healthier diet choices as well as I've picked up good tips on both their blogs.Michellehttp://michelleshaeffer.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-69747015634405281482010-10-12T16:38:29.097-04:002010-10-12T16:38:29.097-04:00Go go for it!Go go for it!spacejointnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-10427637723104129682010-10-11T21:38:34.580-04:002010-10-11T21:38:34.580-04:00I ran across this guy's videos a while ago (I ...I ran across this guy's videos a while ago (I have no idea how). I watched several of them, wondering what the appeal was and if they'd get better. <br /><br />In some ways, I admire the guy's confidence. I guess I even used him as a confidence booster for myself. I mean... if people are watching this guy, surely I'd have a few people watching my videos too (if I ever post any). ;)<br /><br />Thanks for the post!Kelly Maria Clarkhttp://reawakenyourpower.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-8901584387191689452010-10-12T09:16:57.890-04:002010-10-12T09:16:57.890-04:00Everyone knows that women are the one who set adep...Everyone knows that women are the one who set adeptness trends. They become conscious about fashions. If we were to emphasis into the adeptness angel of today, we would ascertain a afresh developed industry.<br /><a href="http://www.louisvuittonspeedy25.com/" rel="nofollow">Louis Vuitton Speedy 25</a>marry gracehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04195267441955111709noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-48217031354178122012010-10-07T15:07:42.948-04:002010-10-07T15:07:42.948-04:00Small world! I love the place, its such a nice cit...Small world! I love the place, its such a nice city. I had family up in Oscoda at one time and Tawas was always a fun day.Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-82826185604039840362010-10-06T22:55:44.079-04:002010-10-06T22:55:44.079-04:00My brother might work in Tawas as an emergency roo...My brother might work in Tawas as an emergency room physician.<br />Never thought I'd see somebody blogging about the place!Marenahttp://beliefbreakthrough.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-6221653201095202382010-10-03T19:23:27.013-04:002010-10-03T19:23:27.013-04:00Hi Chrystal,
Your blog waiting is a good topic.
Th...Hi Chrystal,<br />Your blog waiting is a good topic.<br />The longest thing I ever waited I ever waited for is my husband. I knew if I waited on God to provided for me I was going to be worth the wait! I follow that thought pattern when it comes to "waiting" on something. God always gives you the best.<br />Blessings<br />DonnaSayakohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05320731459516821142noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-44850001559666242092010-09-17T16:41:31.667-04:002010-09-17T16:41:31.667-04:00Oh my dear friend, I am truly sorry for your pain ...Oh my dear friend, I am truly sorry for your pain and send you warm, healing love from the Southwest. As you're well aware, I know a thing or two about chronic pain. Please use me as a resource or a sounding board whenever you feel up to it. Before I finished reading your entry, I was going to suggest the Dragon software. I pinched a radial nerve (thus causing paralysis in my left hand for three months) in 2007. Had it not been for Dragon, I would have been out of a job. Love you We-pod!Bretthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15667183002969382529noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-6634573956474868762010-07-06T17:45:13.707-04:002010-07-06T17:45:13.707-04:00Way to go Chrys! I never thought of a OA group, b...Way to go Chrys! I never thought of a OA group, but if this is the way you need to go...I support you!!!~Jeran~http://www.blogger.com/profile/10724118126299770123southernbelle.jd@gmail.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-48602133059771586452010-07-06T17:48:16.352-04:002010-07-06T17:48:16.352-04:00Very neat hobby!Very neat hobby!~Jeran~http://www.blogger.com/profile/10724118126299770123southernbelle.jd@gmail.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-2247978174321919512010-07-04T11:42:20.353-04:002010-07-04T11:42:20.353-04:00I am so sorry to hear that! I hope things get bett...I am so sorry to hear that! I hope things get better for you!<br />Love ya, girl!<br />Cathy (the other mom!)mamabearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10080043954601659931noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-58795457274295246572010-07-06T17:56:42.779-04:002010-07-06T17:56:42.779-04:00OMG...what ever came about with this??OMG...what ever came about with this??~Jeran~http://www.blogger.com/profile/10724118126299770123southernbelle.jd@gmail.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-91529509753926880662010-04-21T20:15:28.877-04:002010-04-21T20:15:28.877-04:00I can definitly feel your anger in the second poem...I can definitly feel your anger in the second poem, and they are both done very well.Samhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02198494408522185336srichardson@student.bridgew.edutag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-15671239447557337322010-05-04T04:38:42.072-04:002010-05-04T04:38:42.072-04:00I recently came accross your blog and have been re...I recently came accross your blog and have been reading along. I thought I <br /><br />would leave my first comment. I dont know what to say except that I have <br /><br />enjoyed reading. Nice blog. I will keep visiting this blog very often.<br /><br />Alena<br /><br /><a href="http://dataentryjob-s.com" rel="nofollow">http://dataentryjob-s.com</a>Arnoldhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08251902875519395772noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-15068091649027490482010-05-18T10:19:28.438-04:002010-05-18T10:19:28.438-04:00Oh how exciting!
I would love to be there with you...Oh how exciting!<br />I would love to be there with you but alas I cannot.<br />All the best wishes to you and yours,<br /><br />spikesapphoqhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14568663706406638643noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-26608315339582992052010-02-23T22:30:36.311-05:002010-02-23T22:30:36.311-05:00I am so happy for you Chickie, if anyone deserves ...I am so happy for you Chickie, if anyone deserves to be happy,it would have to be you. Brought a big smile to my face. I know how hard things can be, but my aunt always told me, "if there is any love, it is worth working for and saving". She was right, she was always right, damn I miss her so much. I have finally found someone who loves me for me, it feels so good. And its easy too, we have our lil moments, like anyone else, but life is truly good......so happy for you.petoonyahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17651171826135348968noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-46412513073333106502009-12-22T11:05:02.725-05:002009-12-22T11:05:02.725-05:00This is awful! I loved her...this is the first I&...This is awful! I loved her...this is the first I've heard of her death!Kristihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08188460633615049191noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-65098376315058407572009-12-03T14:31:58.534-05:002009-12-03T14:31:58.534-05:00I try to get in any little bit that I can. I stret...I try to get in any little bit that I can. I stretch when I am in bed and my mother bought me this desk of cards that are 10 minute workouts. You can mix and match the cards. It has been great to do 10 min here and there. It all adds up!Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-29024741639422601032009-11-14T07:55:48.450-05:002009-11-14T07:55:48.450-05:00I started exercising in bed for a few minutes a da...I started exercising in bed for a few minutes a day before getting up.<br />Exercise may not keep the need for meds away from the afflicted, however we do know that exercise also helps those who have clinical depression and often less medication is needed.<br /><br />spikesapphoqhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14568663706406638643noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-40581439969854714342009-12-03T14:33:12.986-05:002009-12-03T14:33:12.986-05:00I will be writing much more, it is just that schoo...I will be writing much more, it is just that school sort of put everything else on the back burner. I am going to go more in depth on the different types of depression and treatments as well as the misconceptions. Thank you for reading S!Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-72010508157948325122009-11-14T07:53:30.341-05:002009-11-14T07:53:30.341-05:00I too have heard the comments that confuse clinica...I too have heard the comments that confuse clinical depression with the blues and it annoys me to no end.<br /><br />There is of course the clinical depression of which you speak, often diagnosed as Major Depression and for which anti-depressants often work wonders.<br /><br />There are also people who have a sort of depressed outlook on life which they have "always had" (think personality disorders) for which the pills don't work (and talking therapy show small gains for these folks as well).<br /><br />The mental illness label is troublesome in these times. We do not as yet have definitive evidence for the theorem relating major depression to brain chemicals (although I believe this explanation makes the most sense). It is true that "mental illness" are the words that are most commonly understood by the public.<br /><br />Since these mental conditions all point to brain function, I don't think that the "mental illness" or "behavioral health" labels are as accurate as they should be. Instead, I prefer to think of these variances in mood and thought to belong to the class of "neurological conditions." But then again, I am one person.<br /><br />At any rate, glad to see you writing a series on this stuff.<br /><br />spikesapphoqhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14568663706406638643noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-35796561496092242482009-12-03T14:36:19.509-05:002009-12-03T14:36:19.509-05:00So how did you guys do? Sadly my school semester g...So how did you guys do? Sadly my school semester go very busy the same time NaNo started and I only got 600 and some odd words done...Oh well, I can up with an even better idea for next year so it was not a total spend on time!Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-13410160614262746942009-11-01T21:53:20.485-05:002009-11-01T21:53:20.485-05:00That is so awesome. I was so going to put a post ...That is so awesome. I was so going to put a post just like this (with my own rendition of course), but I didn't want to waste the writer juices on it, instead saving it for NaNo itself. Thanks for sharing though.Erichttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07823808700523297184noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-66456172568212861372009-11-01T21:39:18.983-05:002009-11-01T21:39:18.983-05:00Neat, that was pretty good. I love your header des...Neat, that was pretty good. I love your header description, so true!Brittany Tuckerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02438456864056154810noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-16310404566843241122009-09-22T17:25:59.325-04:002009-09-22T17:25:59.325-04:00mmmmm...Laughing Cow cheese squares. My dad and I...mmmmm...Laughing Cow cheese squares. My dad and I used to snack on those. spikesapphoqhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14568663706406638643noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-15047175136948809572009-09-22T17:23:54.594-04:002009-09-22T17:23:54.594-04:00Ahhh, Slim Fast.
Yes, I went through a Slim Fast c...Ahhh, Slim Fast.<br />Yes, I went through a Slim Fast chocolate "shake" phase.<br /><br />I didn't lose any weight but it certainly was a healthier way of dieting than the "eat all the fat you want" thing that a good friend of mine was trying.<br /><br />Just wanted to say hello and yes, I am reading your stuff. spikesapphoqhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14568663706406638643noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-77826255120679537752009-07-28T16:32:48.754-04:002009-07-28T16:32:48.754-04:00Sounds like you have been having some adventures C...Sounds like you have been having some adventures Chrys. It also sounds like you have been having to deal with some miserable dickheads too. I hope thde house turns out great and that you get the rest of your stuff back I hate thieves. Have an awesome one CIAO4NOW!!!!!simplemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343840299225837338simplemanpolitics@yahoo.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-26688578409114156072009-07-06T10:04:25.999-04:002009-07-06T10:04:25.999-04:00lol.
They probably did not want you to use your ch...lol.<br />They probably did not want you to use your chairs cuz they were nicer than the ones they were renting out to folks.<br />Though Monday morning would also find me complaining about the inequity of it all.<br /><br />One time at a very uncrowded bookstore, some employee told me the equivalent of "chairs are for people, not for the books you want off your table so you can drink your overpriced coffee without spilling it on our books"<br /><br />I looked around. There was no one waiting for a chair and I told him the same.<br /><br />Never saw the dude again. Perhaps he got transferred up to the bookstore in Sarah Palin's hometown in Alaska-- who knows.<br /><br />spikesapphoqhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14568663706406638643noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-2007848086847038402009-07-01T13:05:46.355-04:002009-07-01T13:05:46.355-04:00I am very proud of you, being open about your weig...I am very proud of you, being open about your weight is a hard process. I know, I have been there... I think we can help each other, so....I am going to send you a message on FB with my idea. I will do it later today... Again. I am very proud of you :) Hugs, ChrisChristinahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18398166377865196294noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-12848206789582108292009-05-04T23:48:00.000-04:002009-05-04T23:48:38.580-04:00I really this tool thanks for the heads up Chrys.I really this tool thanks for the heads up Chrys.simplemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343840299225837338simplemanpolitics@yahoo.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-18678317445979764532009-04-14T01:02:00.000-04:002009-04-14T01:02:30.100-04:00I've heard it said that "Love is friendship on fir...I've heard it said that "Love is friendship on fire". I think that this is true and I hope it is for you. I am neither one of the 99% or 1% out there waiting for you to either make it or break it, but I am the one that hopes that whatever you decide you don't let the FUCKERS win. The fuckers are those who create the roadblocks you have to constantly maneuver around to try to move ahead in your life and your relationship. Remember this though neither Matt or you can make each other happy until you make yourselves happy. As for loved being easy or hard I don't think that love the emotion is hard, but I do think that sometimes the lives that love intrudes upon may not necessarily be easy, and that makes love feel hard. However it is the hard times and easy times, or ups and downs if you will, that either make you strong enough to fight for what you want or throw it all away. I personally think that you are a strong person and you won't quit until you have finished the particular journey you are on right now. What ever you decide to do at the end of the path your on I believe that it will be the right decision for you. That's all from me for now, LOL, CIAO4NOW!!!!!simplemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343840299225837338simplemanpolitics@yahoo.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-2274980239318062012009-04-14T00:24:00.000-04:002009-04-14T00:24:38.275-04:00I think it is good that you realize that only you ...I think it is good that you realize that only you can make yourself reach your goals. As for your personal life that is your business and no one else's unless you make it so. With regard to your writing I thank you for writing for me as we as for yourself, because you are a talented, passionate, expressive writer. As far as Easter goes I can buy candy anytime 24/7/365. I hope you find what ever it is you are looking for and need.simplemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343840299225837338simplemanpolitics@yahoo.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-60539310843751962052009-04-06T20:05:00.000-04:002009-04-06T20:05:22.614-04:00This is a great post Chrys. While my fathers side ...This is a great post Chrys. While my fathers side of the family is Basque my moms side is both Irish and Scottish. As a result of the family history I am very well aware of the bad luck that plagues all three sides of my family. Fortunately as is wont with families that have a heritage such as ours they are faithful right up to the gallows pole, lol.simplemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343840299225837338simplemanpolitics@yahoo.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-29403735255589535792009-03-30T02:07:00.000-04:002009-03-30T02:07:03.663-04:00Great post Chrys I enjoyed it. However you and I b...Great post Chrys I enjoyed it. However you and I both know life happens, so just keep your head above water till you get where you want to go and its all gravy from then on. See ya later hun, CIAO4NOW!!!!!simplemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343840299225837338simplemanpolitics@yahoo.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-81656083468252047982009-03-18T03:04:00.000-04:002009-03-18T03:04:18.045-04:00I would have to say that I am a coffee bean becaus...I would have to say that I am a coffee bean because I have the habit of changing my habitat to suit me rather than changing myself. Great post Chrys, CIAo4NOW!!!!!simplemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343840299225837338simplemanpolitics@yahoo.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-83633893490263558442009-03-05T02:09:00.000-05:002009-03-05T02:09:55.099-05:00I love Joes Crab Shack. There is one in Sanford Fl...I love Joes Crab Shack. There is one in Sanford Florida near where I lived. It is a place with great memories for me.It is one of the first places where me and my significant other and I participated in a PDA and almost got caught, LOL!!!!!simplemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343840299225837338simplemanpolitics@yahoo.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-28442710390161370792009-03-02T17:50:00.000-05:002009-03-02T17:50:19.200-05:00You are right real estate is not a bad place to in...You are right real estate is not a bad place to invest in. In addition to my home here I have two others here, two in Florida, and two in California. As a rule I rent them out during major sports events and certain seasons such as the tourist season of each particular town and I do well. I wish you luck in whatever you decide to do Chrys, CIAO4NOW!!!!!simplemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05343840299225837338simplemanpolitics@yahoo.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-65346030499625645492009-10-08T05:29:55.576-04:002009-10-08T05:29:55.576-04:00A valuable post and it much helpfull to all.Thanks...A valuable post and it much helpfull to all.Thanks a lot for your post.<br /><br />Thanks,<br />Karim - <a href="http://www.affirmationsforpositivethinking.com/" rel="nofollow">Positive thinking</a>karimhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17149575338519175300noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-63722958668527192562008-11-16T12:49:00.000-05:002008-11-16T12:49:07.223-05:00Sounds like what people told me when I divorced my...Sounds like what people told me when I divorced my ex!Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-41388447644062938622008-11-09T13:52:00.000-05:002008-11-09T13:52:00.064-05:00Howdy Irish,<br><br>A good read as always!<br>A fr...Howdy Irish,<BR/><BR/>A good read as always!<BR/>A friend of mine used to be married to "a great guy."<BR/>After the divorce, women kept saying to her "...but he's such a great guy."<BR/>"You marry him," she told them.<BR/><BR/>spikesapphoqhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14568663706406638643noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-24789900869061537002008-10-12T23:13:00.000-04:002008-10-12T23:13:44.966-04:00interesting to note is that smegma develops even m...interesting to note is that smegma develops even more prominently in the exterior folds of female genitalia then it does in the uncircumcised male..<BR/><BR/>..so yes, men really need to clean their "willies"<BR/><BR/>but.. women need to be JUST as sure they wash themselves too.<BR/><BR/><BR/>but in the end, we are talking about washing our bodies with water, right? its pretty simple. basic hygiene, really. so, as long as people know how to use a shower, i think its a pretty easily-dealt-with situation.Joelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17167995922085558977noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-43331055237241712952008-10-01T09:01:00.000-04:002008-10-01T09:01:45.312-04:00Hello friend,<br><br>Life is neither fair nor unfa...Hello friend,<BR/><BR/>Life is neither fair nor unfair.<BR/>There is only one thing that life is and that is this: life is sacred.<BR/><BR/>As for us, we just do the best we can.<BR/><BR/>Deep breath. Say to yourself, "It is what it is."<BR/><BR/>Acceptance is not the same as approval. I can accept people, places, things, situations, issues, myself as being who we are/what it is.<BR/><BR/>I do not have to approve or disapprove. It is what it is. We are who we are.<BR/><BR/>I wish you peace and true healing.<BR/><BR/>spikespikehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13573360487576921476noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-6433003811912812782008-09-08T23:07:00.000-04:002008-09-08T23:07:11.916-04:00Ah yes, the old sniff hair test.<br>He didn't indi...Ah yes, the old sniff hair test.<BR/>He didn't indicate which hai-- oh never mind.<BR/><BR/>I am close to being able to donate some hair to the locks of love for the little kids with cancer. I hope it will be long enough by the end of September. That is truly a wonderful thing, to be able to grow hair to give to folks who are losing theirs to the big C.<BR/><BR/>spikespikehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13573360487576921476noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-70882551960458167252008-09-02T14:34:00.000-04:002008-09-02T14:34:55.010-04:00I know thats right!!! Amen to that. I will never e...I know thats right!!! Amen to that. I will never ever understand it!Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-40327454633399677632008-08-30T20:05:00.000-04:002008-08-30T20:05:31.421-04:00I just don't understand how two people can fuck an...I just don't understand how two people can fuck and (at least one of them) smoke at the same time.<BR/><BR/>Uh never mind the sexy part.<BR/>I don't find smoking sexy either.<BR/>I find it repulsive on many levels.<BR/><BR/>spikespikehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13573360487576921476noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-58570500639710299942008-09-02T14:37:00.000-04:002008-09-02T14:37:15.108-04:00The truck is just funny! Every time I think about ...The truck is just funny! Every time I think about it I have to go vrooomm vrooom..it has become a classic joke with me and all my friends!Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-33786025730887487992008-08-17T23:57:00.000-04:002008-08-17T23:57:16.525-04:00I don't know what is worse-- the stinky feet or th...I don't know what is worse-- the stinky feet or the truck. Uh, wait. It's the truck. lol these stories are classic.<BR/><BR/>spikespikehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13573360487576921476noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-74466180190813409242008-09-02T14:37:00.000-04:002008-09-02T14:37:45.713-04:00I am still laughing!I am still laughing!Chrystal Mahanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03257312250523833312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-309799998869637057.post-20096469192028985422008-08-15T11:47:00.000-04:002008-08-15T11:47:33.308-04:00omgz, way too funny.<br>spikeomgz, way too funny.<BR/>spikespikehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13573360487576921476noreply@blogger.com